Lyrics: Fujita Maiko
Composition: Fujita Maiko

9. Mokuyoubi, Deai ga Nai Dake no Watashi

They call it ‘the winter in which everyone cuddles together’
I’m spending this Thursday on my own
I only make a disapproving ‘Tsk’ sound
as I look towards the couple in front of the station

In my single room,
I startled as the air conditioner suddenly turned on
and in my fear
I stepped on the remote control

Now I’m searching for my glasses that I just took off
Being like this, will I ever be able to be in a relationship again?

How long has it been since I broke with my boyfriend?
Being absorbed in work, I became alright by myself
It’s not like I can’t forget about it
It’s just that I can’t find anyone I can love as much as you

The comfortably warm steam of the nikuman
whirling up into the winter sky
I’m happy with the small joy
I feel for how I did my best

Late at night, I fight myself – ‘I want to eat’, ‘You’ll get fat’
but it’s fine as long as I sweat it out with bath salts

The single portion of vegetables I pick out for myself
the earthenware pot for single use
I have no particular plans this weekend
It’s not that I’ve given up
I want to have a romance that makes me lose sight of myself
There’s just no encounters

I know it’s impossible if I just keep waiting
I’m just making excuses to myself, I’m getting better

How long has it been since I broke with my boyfriend?
Being absorbed in work, I became alright by myself
Right, tomorrow I’ll buy a pair of shoes in a color I don’t have
So that I’ll be able to take a new step forward

So that I’ll be able to take a new step forward
Look out for the me from tomorrow!