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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Risky Romance
( 사생결단 로맨스 / Sasaenggyeoldan Romaenseu / A Life-or-Death Romance)
MyDramaList rating: 6.0/10

Hey hey, hope everyone’s enjoying their summer as much as I am! I’m here to bring you a new review for a golden oldie. To introduce this one, I actually have to share a story. This has never happened before, but after finishing Kujaku, my Spin-the-Wheel app picked out two shows in a row that weren’t available to watch anywhere. Both had been on my list for a long time, so that kind of threw me off and I ended up removing them from my list altogether – I would’ve had to go through a lot of trouble to access them, and after rereading their summaries I decided I might as well not bother. Again, this has never happened before, and it actually bummed me out so much that I didn’t even start out as enthusiastically on this show as I would have if I could’ve just proceeded with my list per usual. So yeah, this show right here was kind of a “third time’s the charm” case, and although the English subtitles on KissKH were pretty sloppy, I was able to watch it in full in an okay manner. There you go, a little behind-the-scenes from my side, now let’s get to this review!

Risky Romance is an MBC K-Drama that you can either watch in 32 back-to-back episodes of 35 minutes, or 16 episodes of about an our each. I watched it in the latter format on KissKH. I couldn’t find it anywhere else, and although the English subtitles left a lot to be desired, it was watchable. The story revolves around two doctors at the Darin Medical Center, neurosurgeon Han Seung Joo (played by Ji Hyun Woo) and endocrinologist Joo In Ah (played by Lee Shi Yeong).
A year prior to the story, Seung Joo lost his best friend Choi Han Sung (Kim Heung Soo) in a catastrophic traffic accident. Han Sung had been hung up on a girl who kept playing him, and he got into an accident on his motorcycle while he was drunk-driving to go see her. Seung Joo, who was following him in his car, also got involved in the accident, and sustained a head injury. The trauma of losing his best friend caused him to lose all empathy for the people around him, who at some point even started calling him a psycho, since he seemingly lost any sense of compassion. Fuelling this apathy is the hatred towards the girl who did this to Han Sung, and Seung Joo is determined to make her life a living hell. After finding a girl’s picture in Han Sung’s old room, he assumes this must be her and fixates on his target: Joo In Ah, who happens to work at the same hospital as him.
Just to give a short explanation of an endocrinologist (since I hadn’t heard of it before, either): endocrinology is the medicinal study of hormones. It might seem like quite a niche field compared to neurology, but I actually found it very interesting to learn that factors such as stress and even love, as it causes certain tensions in the brain, can have a significant impact on someone’s physical health. I’m not informed enough to determine whether the cases depicted in this show are truly based on facts (like, if the sensation of love can actually cause someone’s brain injury to worsen), but I thought it was an interesting and original field of medicine to focus on.
Anyways, Joo In Ah is an endocrinologist who is positively obsessed with hormones – I did find it a bit typical at first when she even went so far as to sing along to BTS’ War of Hormone, lol. Incidentally, her interest in the subject is also what initially ignites a professional interest in Seung Joo: she’s convinced that his behavior must be caused by some sort of hormonal imbalance. This turns out to be true, by the way, as his testosterone levels are quite literally off the charts. However, she keeps failing at getting him to agree to a blood test. A little more backstory on In Ah: I’m not sure if her biological parents died or abandoned her, but she grew up in an orphanage before eventually getting adopted into the Joo family. Here, she became an older sister to Joo Se Ra (played by Yoon Joo Hee), who at some point started feeling kind of inferior to her. Unfortunately, their parents passed away in a tragic car accident and because In Ah was with them when it happened, Se Ra has always resented her and even blamed her for their deaths. In present time, In Ah is staying with Se Ra at their parents’ home, even though Se Ra really dislikes it. While In Ah works at the hospital, Se Ra is going around trying to get reporter jobs here and there, and is eventually (beit unfairly) assigned as the standard reporter for Darin Medical Center.
And then we have the second male lead, Cha Jae Hwan (played by Kim In Yeop), the son of Darin’s director Cha Jung Tae (Jeon Noh Min). Since his and Seung Joo’s father used to be work partners and best friends, Jae Hwan grew up on friendly terms with Seung Joo and also became a neurosurgeon. He starts working at Darin some episodes in and quickly becomes friends with and develops feelings for In Ah.
To sum up the story: Seung Joo assumes that In Ah is the (ex-)girlfriend that led Han Sung to his death, but when he starts tormenting her he gradually realizes she’s actually a really good and genuine person, and he falls in love with her. As he does, the brain injury he sustained in the accident starts acting up again because of his hormonal imbalance. Amidst these developments, a lot of other secrets come out in one way or another as well, and it’ll be up to the leads to resolve everything to get their happy ending.

Before I start on my character analysis, I just want to get a couple of things out the way. First of all, I know I’ve already mentioned the sloppy subtitles, but I want to make a point of it because I’ve never seen such amateuristic English subtitles for a K-Drama before and I was honestly taken aback by it. Not only were the sentences incomplete and grammatically incorrect (I’ve only ever seen this level of English in Chinese series, not Korean ones), the subtitler even thought it was acceptable to add in notes such as “I’m not sure what he’s saying”, “She says something else”, “Can’t make it out”, “Incomplete translation, sorry”. Like, the fact that this wasn’t checked by KissKH before uploading is honestly baffling to me. What’s more, despite not being able to transcribe half of the series, the subtitler had the audacity to add their own comments and jokes, and even explanations for things that were clear enough to begin with. This is the first time I actually got annoyed at the subtitles. I’m honestly not sure why they let this person translate it at all, if they couldn’t make out so much of it. As someone who can’t follow K-Dramas without English subtitles, it really doesn’t help having to read “I’m not sure what he’s saying” over and over again. It would’ve been better to omit the whole unclear part, because then I wouldn’t know what I was missing, anyway. They only made it worse by pointing out that they skipped over and fumbled half of the subtitles. Maybe it’s because I’m a part-time subtitler myself, but this really pissed me off and I just wanted to make a notion of it. Here are just a couple of examples (keep in mind that this was the case for at least half of the series):
Yes, I’m calling them out for it. Sorry not sorry. I know it’s fan subs, but it should still have decent quality.

On a more positive note, I quite liked the wordpun in the original title. It’s called ‘Risky Romance’ in English, but in Korean it translates to something like ‘a life-or-death romance’ and I thought that was very fitting, as it directly referred to the story element that Seung Joo’s love for In Ah ultimately starts endangering his life. Maybe the original title sounded a bit too intimidating in English and that’s why they went for ‘risky’, although that generalizes it a little bit in my opinion. Anyways, it was cool that the title at least had a clear connection to the story, rather than just referring to the fact that having a romance at a hospital could be ‘risky’, lol.

Lastly, as both a general remark and a note to myself: please keep in mind that this is a K-Drama from 2018. We’ve come a long way in terms of storywriting and tropes, and I can’t deny that elements such as lacking communication and exaggerated love rivalries have become a bit tedious to me. I just want to make a disclaimer that I’ll be voicing a lot of frustrations on this show that stem from my current perspective in 2026, having seen how much K-Dramas have progressed in quality. It is what it is, of course. I’m very aware that the tropes depicted in this drama were the trend at the time, but I’m not going to hold back on what I felt as I was watching it. Please bear with me. Sorry if this sounds super serious – I promise there were also things that I liked about it – but I want to be able to voice all my criticisms without restraint. That’s what I’m doing this for in the first place.

Okay, let’s start this analysis with Joo In Ah, as I have more positive things to say about her than about most of the other characters, lol. I liked that she was revealed to have been adopted, because I thought that was quite a unique addition to her character. Looking at the narrative, they could’ve also made her Se Ra’s biological sister and retained the dynamic between them, but I guess the fact that she was adopted made it a bit easier for Se Ra to hate her? I’m not sure. Anyways, as we basically learn from the start, In Ah doesn’t have a single bad bone in her. Looking at her genuine passion for hormonal studies and the way she treats people, it’s clear that she’s a good person. To a fault, even. Although I didn’t really like that she became a martyr (in the sense that she absorbed everyone’s bad treatment of her as something she actually deserved), I did like that she never became a pushover. There were so many scenes that made me go ‘YESS GIRL’. I loved that she quit the hospital for herself, and not because she was bullied out of it – I mean, she kind of was, but she made the decision to leave herself. It was honestly the healthiest thing to do because her work environment was so freaking toxic at that point. I also loved that she kept confronting Seung Joo when he refused to talk to her. At least she made an effort to communicate. Seeing her be so gosh darn genuine to everyone around her really gave me Candy Candy vibes: she was an exceptionally pure person who somehow attracted everyone’s attention in the worst ways possible. Seriously, why was everyone out to get this woman when she was just trying to live her life and be a good doctor and sister? Sure, there were times when her goodness changed into unbearable naivety – I still can’t believe she didn’t even realize how much Se Ra hated her and even took her side over Seung Joo at some point – but the most important thing to me was that she was the only person who was kept in the dark about everything. About the reasons why Seung Joo initially treated her like trash and Se Ra was trying to ruin her life. Everyone knew, even Jae Hwan, and NO ONE told her. She was the last one to find out and took it the hardest, and that was really painful to watch. I’ll say it again: In Ah was the biggest victim in all of this.
Having said that, there are a couple of things that I want to point out in terms of grievances. As much as I loved her as a character, the whole ‘seeing only the good in people’ did reach its limit at some point. Although I understand that she loved her sister and automatically assumed the same from Se Ra, the fact that she couldn’t see her for what she was made me think she never took Se Ra’s behavior towards her seriously. I guess she always just brushed it off as her being stubborn, or something. I mentioned it before, but it was actually WILD to me that she ended up taking Se Ra’s side over Seung Joo’s when he was desperately trying to apologize and win her back. I can only chalk that up to her being blinded by sisterly love, but in the moment it felt so freaking naive of her, even a bit dumb, to be crude. As noble as it was of her to bear with Se Ra’s behavior and take the blame for their parents’ death to protect her, it really wasn’t worth it.
I guess that’s really the only thing that bothered me about In Ah, her tendency to make herself a martyr. Even though there were enough moments when she stood up for herself and called other people out, the habit of taking other people’s reasons for hating her to heart and blaming herself for them was really unnecessary. I remember her finding out that Seung Joo and Han Sung had been friends and it was her first instinct to apologize to Seung Joo because it must have been so hard on him. Girl, you do realize that, as much as that traumatized him, there was never any need for him to take it out on you like that, right? She was literally the last person to find out that Han Sung died, she didn’t even know that much, and to top it all up she had to find out THROUGH A PATIENT, not even because Seung Joo owned up to it. She had to find out her first love died via-via and that everyone except her knew about it, and still she went to cater to the sadness of other people. This woman was too pure for her own good.

Just as a side note, this show had a knack for revealing truths in the worst way possible. There were a couple of things that I was really looking forward to, such as seeing Seung Joo’s face when he found out he’d been tormenting the wrong woman and having Se Ra find out that her parents died while searching for her and that In Ah had always protected her from that truth, but when these things were finally revealed, it just didn’t have the impact I wish it would have. The timing would be off, they would find out through someone else, etc. When Jae Hwan found out who Han Sung’s (ex-)girlfriend had actually been, I even made a game of saying: “or you know, you could tell the truth?” “hey, today’s a good day to tell the truth” whenever he appeared on screen, lol.
I kind of wished Seung Joo would’ve found out that In Ah was innocent BEFORE he developed feelings for her. It kind of defeated the purpose a bit that he’d already accepted his feelings for her thinking she was involved, because in this case, finding out she was innocent should’ve been a happy bonus. I didn’t like the way he found out coincidentally by himself before Jae Hwan could tell him. As I said, I would’ve liked to see his reaction upon realizing what a jerk he’d been BEFORE he’d start treating In Ah better. Now it just didn’t feel as satisfying. Same for the thing with Se Ra. After In Ah told Seung Joo that her parents had died while searching for Se Ra when she ran away from home and she’d just taken Se Ra’s resentment because she didn’t want to burden her with that truth, Seung Joo had every opportunity to reveal this to Se Ra. Honestly, with the way she was acting, I was actually encouraging him to just drop the bomb on her, because it would make her realize that her hatred and treatment of In Ah had been misplaced as well. Instead, he only dropped it on her in the very last episode, when he and In Ah were on odd terms because he was kind of pushing-and-pulling her and Se Ra didn’t even take it seriously. So yeah, I feel like there were a lot of truth bombs that could’ve been dropped in a much more satisfying way.
The same thing went for the revelations. I don’t know about you, but I already clocked that Se Ra was the flaky ex-girlfriend by episode TWO. It was really predictable, just like the fact that Seung Joo would survive that less-than-5%-success-rate surgery in the final episode. They just casually revealed him during that athletic meet and I was like: ‘oh sorry, was this supposed to be a mindblowing “HE SURVIVED?!” moment?’ Because it wasn’t. We all knew he was going to survive. The huge fuss about his surgery and the fact that he pushed In Ah away because he didn’t want her to feel guilty about his possible death, was purely for drama purposes. It’s how these things go. I’ve watched these shows before. Anyways, it just felt like they kept missing the mark on the right and most impactful timing for their plot twists and big revelations, and that was a pity.

Let’s move on to Han Seung Joo. Don’t get me wrong, he did grow on me as he started going soft for In Ah, but the first five episodes were pure RAGE BAIT where he was concerned. The way he and In Ah started out actually took me back to the leads from Road to Rebirth, which is possibly the worst pairing to be compared to. I’m not even exaggerating when I say that Seung Joo started out as the least likable male lead I’ve ever seen. He just assumed something about someone based on ONE photo he found without fact-checking a single thing (additional flashbacks to Fates and Furies, or as I like to call it: ‘Frustrations and Furies’), and just started ruining that person’s life without even explaining himself. Heck, he even got In Ah FIRED from the hospital and reacted to it with a smug: ‘Game. Over.’ like it was a freaking GAME to him. He accused her of every single random thing and kept bothering and blackmailing her, and still had the audacity to say that SHE ruined HIS life. He literally saw someone record a video of him when he was threatening a client, and still blamed In Ah for it because she happened to be standing next to that person. He acted like a delusional, unreasonable manchild. Just within the first five episodes, it already became so unbearable that I was counting down to when he would find out that In Ah was innocent. Honestly, from how he was introduced I couldn’t even fathom how the writers would push him and In Ah together. Granted, they did a better job at it than in Road to Rebirth, where I didn’t feel the leads’ romantic chemistry to the very end. Making you hate a lead character so much and then ‘redeeming’ them by pushing the leads together whilst never properly acknowledging their past behavior just isn’t the way to go. I’m glad this show at least did a better job of creating a genuine connection between its leads, despite their ‘rocky’ start, to put it mildly.
Still, as glad as I was that Seung Joo finally started acting normal and softened towards In Ah halfway through, I found it hard to pinpoint what exactly made him change. It’s not like his feelings changed because he found out his grudge against In Ah was misplaced. It was like he suddenly just ran out of reasons to treat her like trash and allowed himself to see her for the good person that she was, without immediately interpreting every single thing she did and said as something malicious. Of course I welcomed the fact that he folded, but it still felt like a very sudden switch. He basically went from lashing out at her one minute to acting all tender the next. I couldn’t really pinpoint when or why his feelings for her started changing, all the more because he hadn’t gotten closure about her involvement in Han Sung’s death yet. It would’ve made sense if he found out she was innocent and then started seeing her in a new light while feeling sorry about the way he treated her, but now he already started liking her when he still thought she’d been connected to Han Sung. That made the revelation that the girl he’d been resenting was actually Se Ra feel a bit anti-climactic, because it didn’t become a defining twist in any way. His growing feelings for In Ah had already started making him feel guilty of how he’d treated her, and this only amplified that a bit, nothing more.
And of course, just when I was happy that the show succeeded in making me root for the main couple and I thought we were finally over the drama… THEY STILL ADDED MY LEAST FAVORITE TROPE IN THE VERY LAST EPISODE. They STILL made Seung Joo push In Ah away once he found out his love for her was threatening his life. Even when In Ah literally BEGGED him to talk to and rely on her and not keep everything to himself, he just nodded and GHOSTED HER ANYWAY. My goodness. After everything they’d been through, they still broke them apart in the FINAL EPISODE. It sucked even more because In Ah was literally the person who had warned him about his condition in the very beginning. She’d been looking out for him because she was worried that falling in love might cause him more pain. Telling her would’ve been the respectful thing to do, and she would’ve actually been able to help him look for a solution, you know, as FELLOW DOCTORS. I really didn’t like that. Even though it all turned out fine in the end, that additional piece of drama in literally the last hour of the series was just infuriating.
All in all, I’d say I had mixed feelings about Seung Joo throughout. While it was nice to see him become affectionate towards In Ah, the fact that he was able to push her away and treat her coldly again so easily, even after being intimate with her, never left my mind. I wish he could’ve just been his original kind self from the start, because I loved the way he used to be. I loved how persistent he was in pursuing In Ah as soon as he’d established his feelings for her. The fact that he came to her clinic and tried to convey his love for her as a patient, being all: ‘if you can’t reciprocate my feelings, then cure me from this unrequited love, doctor’ was actually kind of cute, lol. Their kissing scenes were very good (except for that first one, that was the biggest dick move ever), and they had really nice chemistry, so it was almost a pity that they couldn’t have been that way for the majority of the show.

As messy as Seung Joo was, his parents were absolutely lovely. His mom and dad (who for some reason aren’t credited ANYWHERE, not even in the actual ending credits) were really nice people. When they were first introduced I even remember thinking: ‘how could Seung Joo have possibly come from these people’. Han Sang Do, Seung Joo’s father, used to be co-director at Darin with Jae Hwan’s father Cha Jung Tae, but after burning his hand in a fire accident, he quit being a surgeon and retreated to an island to start a local clinic. The reason why I’m shocked that he’s not credited anywhere is because he had a fairly significant role – even the truth about the fire accident became an issue in the second-to-last episode. Not gonna lie, I even asked AI to look up the actor for me, and even when it finally admitted that there was a character called Han Sang Do in the series, it still gave me the wrong actor. Anyways, I just wanted to mention that I really appreciated Seung Joo’s parents, they were really wholesome.

Moving on to Jae Hwan, our second male lead. When he was first introduced, I really liked him. He oddly reminded me of the second male lead from Love til the End of Summer, with the kind of puppy dog vibe he gave off. I also loved how quickly he grew attached to In Ah. His petty side only started coming out when he became jealous of her relationship with Seung Joo, and that’s when his character started getting wobbly, in my opinion. Besides my frustration regarding his choice to keep the truth about Han Sung’s girlfriend from Seung Joo because he didn’t want to encourage his feelings for In Ah, there were a couple of scenes where I was genuinely baffled by how dense he was. I guess it was more disappointing to me because I wanted him to be better. I wanted him to be more upfront, transparant and observing, because that’s the kind of person I chalked him up to be from the moment he was introduced. As a result, I kept getting disappointed. For someone who claimed to care so much about In Ah, he really did her dirty. He kept all the things from her that she deserved to know more than anyone, and I believe he also even got away with it, which didn’t sit right with me.
First of all, he kept the truth about Han Sung’s girlfriend, and consequently the reason why Seung Joo had it out for In Ah, to himself because he feared that revealing it would cause Seung Joo and In Ah to grow closer. How freaking selfish can you get? He literally wasn’t even involved in Han Sung’s case, he just started investigating it by himself, and then kept the truth from both of them. What also pissed me off was that he actually went on to blab about his findings to SE RA, of all people, when he didn’t even know her that well. He should’ve already been suspicious of her at that point, and even more after seeing her grab In Ah’s bag and heard her yell about how she got it from her ‘boyfriend’. I just couldn’t believe he told her about how he was tracking down Han Sung’s phone and didn’t even suspect anything when she started asking very specific questions about which exact repair shop he was taking it to. Seriously, dude. This denseness came back in the end when he was trying to find out who had posted the incriminating footage of his dad during the fire accident that had incapacitated Han Sang Do. I can’t believe NO ONE even THOUGHT about Park Il Won, even though he was the only other person who claimed to have inside info about the incident and even threatened Jae Hwan and his dad to use that knowledge against them in their race to become the next Global Head of the hospital. The way Jae Hwan just came into Park’s office and asked him ‘if he knew who did it’, made me facepalm so hard. He really stumbled through those investigations in a way I hadn’t expected, and it didn’t particularly make me see him in a better light.
It’s a pity that his expression throughout the second half of the show was consistently ‘😠’. In the fun and casual scenes, he was a really nice guy and I’m glad that he at least stuck by In Ah’s side through everything. I was scared that he would team up with Se Ra for a moment, but luckily he didn’t do exactly as she wanted. I did wonder about their dynamic though, because at some point it even seemed like the writers were pushing Jae Hwan and Se Ra together and I was like ‘nonononono’. I’m glad that didn’t go through, I was troubled enough by the fact they became even slightly friendly with each other.
So yeah, even though Jae Hwan definitely wasn’t a bad person, I feel like the events in this series brought out a less than favorable side of him. I really wished I would’ve liked him more, because he could’ve been an awesome ally to both the main leads. It’s a pity that he let his own greed get in the way at times when he should’ve been righteous.

By the way, am I the only one who was kind of confused by the relationship between Jae Hwan and his dad? Apparently Jung Tae had been really tough on Jae Hwan as a kid, so much so that it actually lowkey traumatized his son. The fact that his father’s voice was enough to completely frazzle him during an important surgery, to the point of actually messing up, said enough. I just want to ask: why did Darin keep referring to Seung Joo and Jae Hwan as their best neurosurgeons, when they were both so traumatized that they couldn’t even finish a routine surgery anymore at some point? Everyone in that hospital needed to get a freaking grip, istg.
I couldn’t tell if Jae Hwan wanted to prove himself to his dad or show him how much he hurt him, but it didn’t feel like either of these options played out well. While he did end up proving his father’s innocence in the fire accident, he also suspected him. After all that, I couldn’t help but feel confused when they ended up talking about how they thought the world of each other in the end. I just couldn’t really pinpoint where they stood.
Although I did predict that Jung Tae was innocent, I kept wondering why he never just gave a straight answer about the fire accident. If he would’ve just said: “It was an accident, but now someone is using it against me to frame me”, things would’ve been resolved much more quickly. It was a bit annoying that this had to become yet another dramatic issue to be resolved in the second-to-last episode, together with Seung Joo’s decision to act out my most hated trope in existence.

Speaking of the fire accident, that was also pretty confusing to me. At some point, it’s suggested that Jung Tae caused the fire in Sang Do’s office to rob him of the opportunity to operate on the hospital’s Chairman (a surprisingly delightful guest role by Yoon Joo Sang). Then, we are shown a flashback that suggests that it was an accident and Jung Tae accidentally knocked over something that lit on fire whilst searching for Sang Do in his office. First of all, I don’t even know what the thing was that he knocked over, but if it wasn’t already weird enough that there was a thing that would light on fire so easily in an office full of paperwork, it was even weirder that it seemed to light on by itself. In any case, this would at least suggest that it was an accident, but then it was strange that Jung Tae didn’t just say so. Whenever Jae Hwan and Seung Joo started asking him about it, he just gave evasive answers like: “Why, do you think I did it?” and “Where did you get this information?” In the second to last episode, we find out that Park Il Won (Son Jong Beom), the vice director, was the one who ignited the fire (by accident) when he was stealing Sang Do’s preparations for the chairman’s surgery, allegedly to help Jung Tae. So that flashback we saw earlier wasn’t even a real replay of what happened, and Park had edited the camera footage to clip himself out of it so it only showed Jung Tae leaving Sang Do’s office during the fire. Why would he threaten the Cha’s with that accident when it would risk his own involvement to come out? It really didn’t make sense to me. Even if it was just going to be an accident, there was no need to beat around the bush so much – at least make it make sense.

Lastly, let me talk a bit more about Se Ra. As I already mentioned before, I did not deem her worthy of any redemption to the very end. She had been a bitter and selfish person from the get-go, and I doubt she would’ve been different if she’d known her accusations towards In Ah with regards to her parents’ deaths were misplaced. She’d been jealous of her even before they died. Even that final revelation that she’d been wanting to become a doctor like her parents didn’t have the intended effect on me, because it just came too late in the day. It kind of reminded of how in My Demon they kept adding dramatic revelations in the final episode that didn’t even really matter anymore at that point.
Se Ra had been treating In Ah unfavorably her entire adult life. She blamed her for their parents’ deaths and took everything and everyone (including Han Sung) away from her, just to spite her. She didn’t even care about those things and she never even loved Han Sung, she just seduced him to hurt In Ah. She made herself so unlikable that I actually started encouraging Seung Joo to drop the truth bomb that her parents had died while looking for her. It wouldn’t have been fair, because it still didn’t mean that Se Ra was to blame for their deaths, but it was just so annoying to know that her treatment of In Ah had been just as misplaced as Seung Joo’s initial accusations towards her. I actually relished in In Ah’s and Seung Joo’s speeches to her, because it was so satisfying to hear my thoughts being spoken out loud. That’s one thing I occasionally appreciated about Seung Joo, he definitely knew how to call someone out on their BS. It was kind of cathartic to see Se Ra get all white in the face when confronted with all her messed up personality issues.
As a matter of fact, I was kind of puzzled whenever they made Se Ra look like a nice person, for example in how she helped cheer up Jae Hwan after stuff happened with his dad. That just made me go: ‘sorry, are we supposed to like her now, all of a sudden?’ If you’re going to create a spiteful character, you might as well stick with it. They really only made her change her ways in the final episode, after making her watch a video her mother recorded twenty years earlier. After everything she did, even hiring a friend to pose as a reporter to publicly bash In Ah’s clinic in the very last episode, all that was needed to set her straight was one confirmation from her mom that she had always loved her just as much as In Ah. Just, wow.

I can’t remember the last time I watched a show where I felt so mid about almost all the main characters. Even though there was a clear story and they managed to wrap up all the misunderstandings and secrets, I still feel dissatisfied with the way they ended things, like how I mentioned before that they revealed all the truths in ways that just didn’t quite hit the spot. Apart from this, there were also a couple of other scenes that bothered me in terms of writing and continuation.
First of all, that scene where they let a celebrity die on the operating table. That was pure and utter BS. Let me go through this step by step. Towards the end of the surgery, Jae Hwan – who is outside the ER – realizes that the patient was given some sort of aspirin before undergoing the operation, which would negatively affect the surgery. He rushes back to the ER and calls into the room. A nurse answers and Jae Hwan urgently asks to speak to Seung Joo. The nurse says she can’t put him through because he’s focussing on the surgery. That’s when things go awry, the effect of the aspirin starts kicking in and Seung Joo completely freezes, not knowing what to do or what went wrong. The whole thing goes from bad to worse, and what does Jae Hwan do? He just STANDS there, looking through the window, doing NOTHING. He doesn’t even tell the nurse what he found out so she can convey it to Seung Joo. He just watches it happen. You’d think it would’ve been justified for him to barge in, tell Seung Joo about the aspirin and help solve the situation. But no, they just let him stand there. Afterwards, when Seung Joo hears about the aspirin and asks him why he didn’t tell him, Jae Hwan says – and I quote – : “I tried to tell you.” BRUH. Like HELL you did. You didn’t even tell the nurse. Seriously, what the frick was up what that? I get that they needed this surgery to fail because it would trigger Seung Joo’s trauma and make him unable to operate for a while, but this was just lazy writing. They could’ve created so many other reasons to stop Jae Hwan from getting the information to him in time.

Secondly, what was the whole idea of In Ah’s clinic, in the end? It seemed like such a big turning point for her to fulfill her dream of transforming her parents’ house into a clinic for local patients, and they would all sit around the table together and everything. When she first comes up with the idea, people heavily discourage it because of the financial hassle it entails, but she remains determined. Then, when she finally opens her business, she gets all discouraged when no one turns up on Day One. Like, what did she expect? They laid out all the risks to her in advance, and then after the first day she’s like: “Hm, maybe this wasn’t such a good idea after all 😞”. And then one moment later, when a delivery man comes into the clinic and she immediately sees how unhealthy he looks, the first things she says is: “Oh, I’ll refer you to a bigger hospital”. GIRL?! He’s literally standing on the doorstep of your newly opened clinic that needs patients, and your first thought is to refer to him somewhere else?! I totally thought she’d immediately invite him in to examine him – the guy even mentioned how nice the clinic looked and everything! Also, I thought that after the delivery guy was treated, he would make a deal of how the lady at the Hormao Clinic was the first to point out his symptoms and everyone should trust her skills. Yet they didn’t even connect those things together. Next thing, she’s suddenly allowed to return to the hospital and the clinic basically becomes second-priority. Like, seriously, what was the whole point of it??

In terms of inconsistency, there was one instance where the continuation of two scenes was really confusing to me. At some point, Seung Joo overhears Se Ra talking on the phone about how her debt collectors came to find her at the hospital, and she goes all: “No, no, no, they can’t go there!” Then the scene suddenly cuts to her again, at the hospital, where she spots the debt collectors and runs away from them. Like, what was with that transition? I guess it was supposed to be the next day or something – she was also wearing different clothes – but because it immediately followed the previous scene, it actually looked like she got the phone call, went to the hospital to confirm the collectors were there and then ran away from them again. It was just weird.

Before moving on to the cast comments, I’d like to talk a bit more about some important side characters, because they pretty much saved the show for me.
First of all, Lee Mi Yoon. In Ah first meets Mi Yoon (played by Kim Soo Yeon/Xooos) after taking care of her dementing grandmother. Once she is admitted to a sanatorium, Mi Yoon chooses to stick with In Ah as an assistent nurse at the clinic (she has a degree). Despite initially coming across as a bit of a brat, Mi Yoon starts living with In Ah and Se Ra and becomes more familiar with the hospital people as well. She specifically warms up to In Ah’s colleague Jae Seung, who helps her get treated for her PMS-induced kleptomania.
I really liked Mi Yoon. I can guess why people might find her annoying, as she kept involving herself in things, but I really appreciated her spunk and straightforwardness. She was a breath of fresh air amidst all the drama and I liked her contribution to the story. Her friendship with In Ah became very wholesome, as well. As tsundere as she may have been at first, she immediately clocked In Ah for the genuine and caring person that she was and chose to stay with her. She was a cute and quirky character and I loved having her there.

As for the hospital staff, I loved that they basically all ended up as couples. The person that grew closer with Mi Yoon was Choi Jae Seung (Shin Won Ho). I feel like he was kind of the baby of the group, and I liked the additional info that he had three overbearing sisters, lol. It was nice to see the gradual buildup between him and Mi Yoon, and it was cute that they became a couple in the end (at least, that’s what their behavior in the final scene suggested). As part of In Ah’s endocrinology team, it was really touching to see how much he cared for his sunbae – her team really had her back, and she really needed that. I loved how they all had nicknames for each other that related to their specializations within endocrinology, like how In Ah was ‘Dr. Oxy’ because she always encouraged hugging to increase the effect of oxytocin. They had a nice dynamic, altogether.
Besides Jae Seung there was Lee Jin Kyung (Bae Seul Gi), a feisty lady who mostly got aggravated about the way Seung Joo treated In Ah. I loved that they had some girls’ time scenes together and how In Ah ended up staying at her place at some point. They might not have been super close, but Jin Kyung really felt like a protective sister to In Ah, which was nice to see. I would’ve liked to see her get some more development with Hyun Woo, they would’ve made a cute couple.
In Ah’s team leader was Yoo Sang Beom (Choi Ryung). At first I feared he’d also become a love rival, but I’m glad he got his own separate little love story. As calm and collected as he initially seemed, he turned out to be unexpectedly goofy. It was fun to see him have some screentime that didn’t have anything to do with the main story. I love it when side characters can function as pallet cleansers from all the drama, without completely dragging the attention away from it.

On Seung Joo’s side, there was Jang Ji Yeon (Sun Woo Sun). Again, I figured she might become a love rival, but I’m glad that wasn’t the case. In her case as well, I really loved how goofy she turned out to be. I initially thought she would be kind of a hardass and really uptight, but her scenes with Sang Beom and how she’d freak herself out about things made her really relatable and likable in my eyes. I thought she was a really fun supporting character who also got a significant purpose in terms of the medical aspects of the stories. It was nice seeing the characters in action at the ER every once in a while, it kept reminding me that they were all actual doctors, lol.
Lastly, Jung Hyun Woo (Jang Se Hyun) was probably my favorite side character. I just found him so endearing. He had a massive crush on Jin Kyung but was also kind of a wimp, in all the adorable ways. It was nice seeing him pop up everywhere, from the ER to the doctor’s offices and the hallways. He worked really hard and gave a very realistic impression of what being a doctor entailed, I think. I thought he was a really sweet guy, and I loved his awkwardness. To me, he was truly a very well-needed pallet cleanser.

I think that should be it for all the characters that I wanted to discuss! Since I don’t want to make this too much of a negative review, I just want to close off my analysis section by saying that I was mostly just annoyed by the typical tropes and the fact that certain characters were just relentlessly mean for no reason. It’s just not fun to watch people treat each other badly, you know? Other than that, I think the story was good enough, there was a clear goal they worked towards, and they ended up resolving every single secret and misunderstanding, although not always in the most satisfying ways. Other than that, as I said I liked that it introduced me to endocrinology and they managed to incorporate the hospital environment in the story pretty well.
Also, can’t forget the OST! I actually saved three new songs to my Shazam, thanks to this show. I really liked Pit-a-pat by Monogram, Push Pull by LEEBADA and More & More by NC.A. My K-Drama OST playlist grows~

It’s time for the cast comments! This show introduced me to a whole new batch of actors that I didn’t know, and made me appreciate new sides of a couple of actors I had seen before.

First of all, my girl Lee Shi Yeong. I’ve honestly loved her in everything I’ve seen of her so far, from Boys Before Flowers, Wild Romance and Playful Kiss to Valid Love, Lookout, and the SF8 episode Blink. I’m really looking forward to watching Grid, as well. I love her ability to pour so much sincerity into every character she plays. I’ve seen her go from silly, comical characters to tormented and troubled ones, and she never does too much. Although In Ah started out as a bit typical to me, with the nerdy laugh and everything, Lee Shi Yeong still portrayed her in a way that instantly made me like her. She’s honestly one of my favorite Korean actresses, and it was really cool to see an older work from her, because I actually haven’t seen her as the lead in a romcom that often. Man, this actually makes me want to watch Wild Romance again, even though I fear I might find it way too cringy now in 2026. It was great seeing her in this, her acting was amazing, she showed a lot of emotional variety and it felt like I saw a new side of her, even after having seen her in six other shows. Well done, girl!

This was my first introduction to Ji Hyun Woo, although I do see that there’s one more show of his on my list. I have to give it to the actor that he did a great job at making me hate his character so much in the first five episodes, before making me occasionally melt with his sweetness in the second half. The shift between his expressions from when he hated In Ah to when he fell for her was like the difference of night and day. I loved how he literally became this emoji: ☺️ when he looked at her. I’m kind of torn between my appreciation of the actor and my mixed feelings about the character, but since these are comments about the cast, I’ll stick to the first thing. Apparently he and Lee Shi Yeong had acted together before in Becoming a Billionnaire (2010). I don’t know if they played a couple there as well, but what I can say is that I loved their chemistry in this. Whereas the first half of the show led me to wonder if I’d ever be able to stomach seeing them together, their kissing scenes more than made up for that doubt. They were really sweet together once they became a couple, and part of me is glad that Seung Joo at least didn’t push her away overnight, he kept telling her that he loved her until the moment he really didn’t see another way out anymore. In any case, it was nice getting to know him through this drama, and I look forward to seeing him in Beauty & Mr. Romantic.

According to MDL, I’ve seen Kim In Yeop before in Lovestruck in the City and Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha, although I don’t remember him from there (sorry!). It’s kind of surprising to me because it’s only been a couple of years since I watched these shows and I’d imagine he would’ve stuck out to me because of his appearance, but I guess not. There’s a couple more of his shows on my list though, so I get another chance, lol. Although Kim In Yeop is his real name, apparently he took on the stage name ‘Han Seung Won’ in 2023. I’ve referred to him as Kim In Yeop here because he’s credited under his real name in this series. I think I got disappointed in his character because I overestimated him, but that was in no way related to the actor’s acting. If anything, I’m impressed by how all these actors managed to perform such petty antics with a straight face. I thought Jae Hwan could’ve been a much more relatable character if they hadn’t made him so wishy-washy about his actions. It would’ve been way more refreshing if he was one of the few people that would communicate clearly and show his cards to the people that needed to know. I’m really curious about the actor’s thoughts on Jae Hwan’s behavior, haha. He did as good of a job as he could, and I can’t deny his smile does something to me. It was nice getting to know him through this show, and I’ll make sure not to forget him again.

Yoon Joo Hee looks really familiar to me, but I don’t think I’ve seen her in anything before, either. I don’t mean this in a disrespectful way, but she really fit the bill in terms of the typical bitchy second female lead character. I just find it a pity that they were so bent on making her a bad person from start to finish, even if she had a reason for it. I would’ve liked to see her redeemed in a proper way earlier on so my sympathy for her could grow, but the fact that she kept pulling dirty tricks until the very last episode without an ounce of regret kept me from acknowledging the good in her. Having said that, the actress certainly did a good job at making me dislike her! Again, I’m curious to know how she felt about her character, and how she went about playing her, knowing that the majority of the viewers were probably going to hate her. I imagine it takes a different level of courage to play a villain on popular television. So yeah, as much as I disliked her character, I still want to give the actress credit for portraying her in the way that she did. I wonder if I’ll get to see her in something again.

Apparently Kim Soo Yeon/Xooos is also a singer and YouTuber. She also appeared in The Producers, although I don’t remember her from there (she may have been one of the members from IU’s girl group). I could kind of guess that she was an idol or something along those lines, and there’s always a risk with idol actors, but as I said, I really liked Mi Yoon. I thought the spunk and energy with which she portrayed her was really cool. I loved how she both did her own thing and remained a relevant supporting character to In Ah. She contributed as much to the main story as to her own side plots, which was a nice balance. It was cool to get introduced to her like this. I hope to see her again in something!

Shin Won Ho was one of the select familiar faces for me in this drama. I’ve seen him in Big, The Legend of the Blue Sea and 20th Century Boy and Girl. To my memory, his characters in those shows were all pretty stoic, so it was nice to see a more goofy and bubbly side of him for a change. Seeing him in a hospital (as a doctor this time, not in a coma) was fun as well. I liked his chemistry with Xooos and how they gradually became more friendly. Even if it was kind of predictable that they would be pushed together because they were around the same age, I still liked that there was a proper reason for their buildup. It was kind of sweet how they bonded through the fact that he found out about her kleptomania and offered to help her figure things out. I’m glad I got to see a new side of his acting. According to MDL, he hasn’t been active in any dramas since 2021, but I hope to see him appear again in the future.

Apparently I’ve seen Jang Se Hyun in a bunch of shows, like Boys Before Flowers, Sungkyunkwan Scandal, Hwarang, School 2017, Start-Up and Lovestruck in the City. He definitely looked familiar to me, but I can’t say that I actively remember prior roles of him… again, blame my short-term memory. This’ll make me remember, though! I adored Choi Jae Seung, and I’m glad he got so much screentime. I like that he got to represent the medical aspect of the show the most, as he appeared more inside the hospital than outside of it. As I said, he was a real pallet cleanser to me. It’s not even that he was such a major character, or that he got any backstory, but he filled the space with his personality and I really liked that about him. Sometimes the supporting actors contribute the most to a story, in unexpected ways. It was nice clocking him in this, and I’ll make sure to remember his face. There’s a lot of his dramas left on my list, so I look forward to seeing him again.

Sun Woo Sun was another one of those actresses that looked really familiar to me, although I haven’t seen her in anything else before. I was pleasantly surprised by her character. As I mentioned, I thought she’d be kind of an ice queen, but it was so nice to see her bubbly side and she has a really pretty smile, as well. It was fun to see her get closer with Dr. Yoo, because I definitely didn’t see that coming from the start. I really hope I get to see her in more shows, because I love the energy she gives off. Her last drama (and the only one since Risky Romance, according to MDL, came out in 2025), so I’m wishing that she’ll make more appearances in the future.

Jeon Noh Min is one of those ahjussi actors that has appeared in so many shows that I’ve lost count. I’ve seen him in Who Are You: School 2015, Queen of the Ring, Master: Ruler of the Mask, Itaewon Class, The King: Eternal Monarch, The One and Only and Yumi’s Cells S2. It was nice seeing him in an older drama, knowing that he’s still so active until this day. Although I didn’t really have a strong opinion about Cha Jung Tae, I thought the dynamic between him and Jae Hwan was very interesting and I wish they would’ve elaborated a bit more on that. I’m glad at least he wasn’t a bad person and it turned out he didn’t sabotage Sang Do by causing that fire. I feel like he often plays quite cold and nasty roles, so it was nice to at least get a bit of a ‘good person’ vibe from him. I just wanted to give him a shoutout since he’s such a classic actor.

I’ll keep it at that for now! I know I didn’t comment on all the hospital staff, but I want to actually have something to say about people besides: ‘I liked their character’, because I’ve already mentioned that in the review itself. I’m glad I got the chance to watch this, it brought me back to the golden oldie age of K-Drama (for better or for worse, lol). I loved seeing Lee Shi Yeong in a main role again, too. I still think the premise of the story was pretty original, as was the link to endocrinology. My lower rating is mainly caused by the amount of frustration I felt while watching it (it’s all about the experience!), but it’s definitely not the worst show I’ve seen and I’m happy I got around to watch it, regardless of my criticisms.

Well, that will be it for this review! To be perfectly honest, I thought I’d struggle way more with writing this one, also because I needed to sort out all of my notes. I got up extra early to make an fresh start, so it feels pretty satisfying to finish it before the evening for a change. I ended up having less trouble with it than I expected, so that’s nice.
I’m looking forward to what I’ll be watching next, and hopefully I won’t have any more issues accessing series online, because that really bummed me out.

Until next time!
Bye-bee! x

Kujaku no Dance, Dare ga Mita?

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Kujaku no Dance, Dare ga Mita?
(クジャクのダンス、誰が見た? / Kujaku no Dansu, Dare ga Mita? / Who Saw the Peacock’s Dance?)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hello hello and welcome to a new review. After my tedious last watch, I was really happy when my Spin the Wheel app picked out a much shorter drama, and I went through it faster than I’d expected. I’d been looking forward to this show as it had piqued my interest as soon as it came on my radar, so I was excited to finally get to watch it. In contrast to my last one, this will be predominantly positieve review as I was genuinely impressed by multiple elements of it. Let’s get into that jungle, shall we?

Kujaku no Dance, Dare ga Mita? is a TBS Japanese drama series with ten episodes of about 45 minutes each. It’s adapted from a manga series by Asami Rito by the same name. I watched the whole thing with excellent subtitles (credits to Saim Ul Hassan👌🏻) on KissKH. The story is about university student Yamashita Komugi (played by Hirose Suzu) whose widowed father, former police officer Yamashita Haruo (played by Lily Franky) is suddenly murdered with arson on Christmas Eve. The main suspect is almost immediately caught – Endo Tomoya, the son of a culprit Haruo arrested 22 years ago – but then Komugi receives a letter from her father that states that, if Endo Tomoya is arrested for his murder, he’ll have been falsely accused. The letter further includes a list of people that he asks her to protect, and he recommends a specific lawyer to ask for help. This lawyer is Matsukaze Yoshiteru (played by Matsuyama Kenichi). At first, Matsukaze brushes Komugi off by saying he never even met her father and that this letter proves nothing – how does she even know it was actually her dad who wrote it? However, he ultimately can’t shake the feeling that there’s something more behind it and decides to help Komugi out, who in turn starts working part-time at his law firm. Together, they tread into the deep forest of secrets and lies that connects Haruo’s murder to the case he worked on 22 years ago, and end up untangling a complex web that ties together a lot of people in unexpected ways. What happened, truly? Did anyone actually see the metaphorical peacock dance in the forest?

First of all, I just want to say something about the title. As a language nerd, I always love learning new expressions and wordplay, and I really liked how well the title was used in the context of the story. For starters, the expression “who saw the peacock dance in the forest/jungle?” is already explained by Haruo in the first episode. It personally made me think of the conceptually similar expression “when a tree falls in a forest and there’s no one to witness it, did it really happen or did it even make a sound?” (yes, I also immediately started singing the bridge from Dear Evan Hansen’s “Waving Through a Window”) It builds on the question whether things can be said to have happened when they haven’t been witnessed. In the case of this expression, I believe there’s a slight difference in nuance, since the peacock symbolizes something of value, like a talent or piece of art: can something be called valuable when it’s not being perceived/appreciated? Haruo’s explanation referred to a situation in Komugi’s childhood where she was accused of ripping up someone’s brandnew scarf, even though no one actually saw her do it. I thought it was cool that they kept referring to the title in terms of finding the peacock (the truth) in the deep forest (the complex web of secrets). It took me a while to actually pinpoint what it stood for in the story, but in the end it all fell into place, and that was very satisfying. So yeah, props to the mangaka for coming up with this expression as the title!

One element that made me kind of nervous to review this series was the intrinsically connected cast of characters. Especially towards the end, the way everything and everyone is linked to each other gets pretty complex and hard to explain in a few simple sentences. Nevertheless, I was pretty impressed by how well it was written, especially in terms of the characters’ motivations and connections. Murder mysteries have a tendency to come up with slightly anticlimactic endings or perpretators that you either saw coming from the start, or that are just sprung on you at the last moment. Although there are still a couple of connections that I didn’t fully understand, I think this show (and I guess the manga, originally) did a really good job at tying everything and everyone together. I do agree with Robert Morane’s comment on MDL that it lacked ‘wow’ moments and that it’s pretty stagnant in pace. It kind of reminded me of Saiai; the story was good, but it lacked a certain ‘umph’ that could’ve made the tension and thrill of it peak even more. Having said that, I think it started off very promisingly with several unexpected plot twists and cliffhangers, and I still don’t dislike how everything was explained in the end, even if it wasn’t mind-blowing, per se.

Before I start on my character analysis, I want to elaborate a bit more on the context of the story a little bit. As mentioned in my intro, Komugi’s father Haruo used to be a police officer and 22 years ago he investigated a very high-profile case known as the Higashikayama Incident, named after the vicinity where it happened. This case included the murder of a family of six, the Hayashikawas, of whom five were found hanging from the rails of a staircase. The only survivor was the then six months-old baby daughter, Hayashikawa Uta. The person arrested for this case was a man called Endo Rikiro (Sakou Yoshi), as he was the Hayashikawas’ gardener – meaning he had access to their property – and the first person to find the bodies. Because of his arrest, his young son Tomoya (as a child fantastically played by Yuda Kouki) was left all alone, as his mother had already left before, due to his father’s drinking habits. Now, 22 years later, Haruo – an officer who aided in Rikiro’s persecution – is murdered in his own house, which was set on fire. As Tomoya (as an adult played by Narita Ryo) was spotted near the crime scene, the police immediately assumed that he had done it to avenge his father. However, in the letter Haruo leaves Komugi, Tomoya’s name is mentioned as one of the people that would likely be ‘falsely accused’, and would therefore need help. That’s the starting point of the story.

Let’s talk a bit about Komugi. Honestly, in hindsight I feel like she’s probably the main reason for the lack of ‘wow’ factors in this show. I personally found it quite hard to gauge her personality at times. For starters, we never actually learn what she’s studying at university, and we only ever see her interact with one friend, Arisa (Seino Asahi), whom she’s apparently known since elementary school. Other than that, she seems to be quite timid and soft-spoken, except for her occasional banter with Matsukaze. The only thing that she had going for her in the end was her determination to get to the bottom of everything, even if that meant unraveling one painful truth after another. I can’t deny that it was satisfying to see her persevere on, especially because she initially starts out as a deer in headlights. Still, I didn’t feel like I really got to know her. Despite feeling for her with all the shite she got to deal with involving her own identity and past, it always felt like I was watching her deal with everything by herself from a distance, rather than that I got to feel her sadness and pain with her. She always remained a bit closed off to me as a main character, and that was a pity. Her growth was definitely much more subtle than that of others; there were actually a lot of side characters with pretty emotional and elaborate backstories that I related to way more than I did to Komugi. I always prefer developing a deeper bond with a main character, so I would say that was kind of a bummer. I feel like she was written to be a tragic heroine, which was fine, but sometimes I would’ve liked her to have a bit more personality, or that she would’ve at least been defined by more quirks than just rubbing chopsticks together to break them apart more easily. I would even say she was ‘drowned out’ by the vast number of characters that did have more outspoken personalities, which was kind of disappointing for a main character. Having said that, I did really admire Komugi in the end. I liked her banter with Matsukaze and how she gradually opened up to him. I liked how she became so determined to face every single aspect of the truth, even if it wouldn’t put her mind at ease. She definitely had guts and I’m glad she didn’t become a full-flegded “it’s all my fault” martyr in the end. I guess I just wished she could’ve been attributed some more interesting personality traits.

Speaking of interesting personalities, let’s look at Matsukaze. While he’s initially introduced as a bit of a grump, it doesn’t take long for him to start opening up to Komugi. I personally really liked his character’s growth, it was very subtle and gradual. It wasn’t as if he made a very sudden transformation, but it was clear to see how he softened while watching Komugi go through all those painful revelations. Despite their mutual distrust in the beginning, it was pretty wholesome to see how much they ended up relying on each other. It was nice to see Matsukaze become someone Komugi trusted completely, how he went from being such a cynic to someone she could rely on without it getting too cheesy. I’m beyond happy that they didn’t push them together romantically, because there really would’ve been no room for that. I wouldn’t say they got so close as to call them ‘friends’, but they definitely became powerful allies and I loved their budding ‘companionship’.
I also liked that we got a bit of backstory on Matsukaze. We find out that his father, Kuze Masakatsu (Sasai Eisuke) used to be a police officer, but disappeared without a word one day. At some point, Matsukaze ends up tracking his father down for information about another police officer, and they are reunited, albeit very awkwardly. It was nice to get some closure between them: it actually touched my heart seeing Matsukaze finally face how he’d been feeling towards his dad, and to see those two grown men cry together. I liked getting to see a more softer side of his dad as well, as he’d seemed so stern in the police force. (By the way, I couldn’t help but giggle at the thought of him sharing his son’s last name: Matsukaze Masakatsu would’ve been a real tongue twister, lol.)
Even though Matsukaze also remained quite low in energy, it really worked for him that he had the ‘tsukkomi’ thing going on. It was also nice to see his partnership with Hasami Yukinobu (Morisaki Win), his fellow attorney. With everything going on and all the surprising revelations, it honestly wouldn’t have surprised me if Hasami turned out to be more involved in things as well, but in hindsight I’m glad at least he was an unproblematic character that was really just there to help Matsukaze and Komugi with their investigation.

This mainly goes for Arisa and Hasami, but I really appreciated the way that this show dealt with even the supporting characters that weren’t tied to any of the cases. I loved the moment where Arisa came clean to Komugi about how she kept quiet about that scarf incident in elementary school, and how she just started crying out of pure compassion when Komugi told her about what she’d found out about herself. She was such a genuine friend to her and I remember thinking to myself that it was so good to have her there, because Komugi really needed people that weren’t part of that cesspool, to fall back on. Same went for Hasami. I was just grateful for him to be a genuinely loyal friend and colleague to Matsukaze, and that he remained so helpful in their investigation, even if it had nothing to do with him and he had his own clients to deal with. We need more unproblematic side characters like this, who contribute to the story even when they don’t partake in the dramatic parts of the plot.

I can’t move forward without first talking a bit more about Haruo himself. In my eyes, even though his character died in the first episode, he was the true hero of the story. I’m really glad he remained a regular character through the flashbacks, and we still got to know so much about him. Even as a police officer that had to interrogate potential suspects, Haruo was an incredibly good-hearted man. We saw how he dealt with Someda’s questioning – he always saw the good in people and tried to understand where they were coming from. He started re-investigating the Higashikayama Incident out of genuine worry and regret that he had caused the wrong person to be arrested – I loved how they clarified this even more at the end by showing that Haruo’s earlier disruption of the crime scene caused a discrepancy with Rikiro’s testimony. He genuinely wanted to make things right, even if he would have to acknowledge that he made a mistake. This in turn became even more powerful with the revelation that the real culprits were unable to own up to their mistakes. All in all, I just felt like this story did such an interesting job at putting things in perspective – the ‘good’ people were punished for doing the right thing, while the ‘bad’ people got away with ruining other families’ lives in order to ‘protect’ their own.

To me, one of the saddest side character arcs of this series was the one about Mr. Someda. Someda Susumu (played by Sakai Toshiya) is introduced in the first episode as a friendly elderly man who runs a ramen stall that Haruo and Komugi often eat at. He’s an old friend of Haruo, that is to say, he used to be a convict but Haruo encouraged him to turn over a new leaf. Sadly, he is also the first ‘collateral’ death in the story. Through his backstory we find out that Someda used to have a great life with a good job, a wife and a baby son. However, because of a wrong investment choice, he lost everything at work, causing his wife to take their child and leave him. In his fragile state, he ended up opening up to the wrong person, who got him addicted to drugs and used that to force him to forge signatures on illegal contraband. When he was arrested for this, Haruo helped him to get out and change his ways, but his past always remained a dangerous liability for him. After Haruo’s death, someone manages to persuade him with drugs again and he’s threatened into confessing that he faked Haruo’s letter to Komugi, as he’s had experience with forging handwriting before. Although he ends up admitting everything to Komugi, he’s lured away before she can take him to Matsukaze, and his body is discovered in the river shortly after.
Honestly, I had mixed feelings about Someda’s death. With the danger of his situation, it was very predictable that something would happen to him before he could confess the truth to the police. I really wished Komugi wouldn’t have let him out of her sight when she went to get Matsukaze. Even though it’s understandable that she was oblivious to the actual danger he was in, I still thought she could’ve been more careful – he did just tell her that he was being watched and threatened by someone. So yeah, I felt like his death was unnecessarily cruel. His only real crime was his prior felony of drug use and forgery, plus the fact that he’d agreed to help cover up that Haruo actually wrote that letter to Komugi. In the grand scheme of things, that definitely wasn’t the worst thing, by far even. He never meant to cause Haruo or Komugi any harm, and they never blamed him for anything, either. In any case, it was nice to see his history with Haruo. Gosh, I really loved Haruo. I think I’d actually call him my favorite character. You could say that, even though he died in the first episode, his legacy was continued by Komugi. She always carried his goodness and kindness with her, and this I think is also what made it bearable for her to find out he wasn’t her biological father.

Although the possibility is already hinted at in the first couple of episodes, it’s only until halfway through the story that Komugi is able to confirm that she’s actually Hayashikawa Uta, the sole survivor of the Higashikayama Incident. She was supposed to be taken in by a relative of her biological father, a guy called Tsujii Kota (Toritani Hiroyuki), who blatantly admitted he was only interested in the media exposure it would get him. With the help of Haruo’s work partner and colleague Akazawa Tadashi (played by Fujimoto Takahiro), little Uta was saved from Tsujii (albeit through an illegal method), and adopted by Haruo and his wife Shizuka (Sendo Nobuko), who raised her as their own daughter, Yamashita Komugi.

Knowing this, it makes even more sense that the Akazawas were the first people to show up for Komugi after Haruo’s death. Besides their prior collaboration in getting Komugi adopted by the Yamashitas, it was clear that their families had been friends for a long time – one of Komugi’s most cherished childhood memories was of them going on a late-night picnic together.
Ironically, Akazawa becomes somewhat of a rival to Komugi and Matsukaze in their investigation. As he also worked with Haruo on the Higashikayama Incident 22 years ago, he is convinced that Endo Tomoya is guilty and strives to get him prosecuted as soon as possible. He is strengthened in his resolve by his director, Anan Yuki (played by Takiuchi Kumi). Akazawa has been known for using pretty intense methods of persuasion, even to the point of forcing innocent people to confess to something they didn’t do. Matsukaze’s father Kuze, who used to be Akazawa’s supervisor, repeatedly warned him about this approach as well. Anan, on the other hand, urges him to go as far as he can if it means getting Tomoya to break.
I have no other description for Akazawa than ‘a grumpy old bear’. Seriously, this guy pretty much had the same facial expression throughout the entire series, lol. He was a big guy with an angry face, but I was glad that there was at least a bit of a ‘teddybear’ underneath that. He genuinely cared about Komugi and everything he did was meant to protect her from getting hurt, even though keeping the truth from her probably wasn’t the best way to go. As much as the story hinted at the fact that he had been guilty of way more than just keeping secrets, in hindsight I actually don’t think he had that much to account for. His only ‘crime’ was a good deed: forging Hayashikawa Uta’s birth certificate and providing her with a new identity to protect her from being taken in by a shady relative. Sure, it was against the law, but I really couldn’t see that as a crime. He saved a baby’s life and allowed her to grow up in a loving home with the most loving parents. Was he the best father and husband in his own family? Probably not. But he wasn’t a bad person. I was really relieved that he survived that final confrontation, because it would’ve been a pretty pointless last death to add to the list.
I also want to give a shoutout to his two subordinates, Akisada Takao (Itose Soichi) and Nishijin Makoto (Saito Yu). There were a few instances where the camera lingered on Akisada just a tad bit longer than usual, which immediately made me suspicious, but in the end he was really just a loyal police officer. I appreciated that he was sharp enough to see that something was off about Akazawa’s behavior. The fact that he actually submitted that piece of dog fur for DNA, just because he knew Akazawa didn’t have a dog, lol. I would’ve called that quite circumstancial evidence, but hey, it actually ended up placing him on the Awayama crime scene. Nonetheless, I liked that Akisada went after him out of genuine worry and not because he started suspecting him of anything bad, per se.
Nishijin, on the other hand, was more of a comic relief character. I wouldn’t be surprised if this guy is a comedian in real life, lol. He actually cracked me up a couple of times, also because he performed it so sincerely. I cackled when that superior yelled at him to go find Akazawa and the first thing he did was look under the desk in front of him.😂😂 That was such a nice ‘boke’ moment. Also, when Akazawa was hospitalized and said something like: “Isn’t it pathetic that I barely even knew my own family?” and he just went: “Yes.” 😂 I loved that. This show had such unexpected humor, honestly.

My first impression of Akazawa’s wife Kyoko (played by Nishida Naomi) was that she seemed so ‘motherly’ towards Komugi – which is very ironic in hindsight, I know. She just seemed like such a warm and soft person next to her husband, and because she also had her son Mamoru (Nomura Kota) to care for, I never saw it as more than just motherly instincts. While they did let it seep through that their marriage left some things to be desired, starting with the fact that her husband often stayed out late, even to the point of missing Mamoru’s birthday dinner, I didn’t immediately catch on to the fact that things weren’t going well between them. Again, I think it was written very realistically how Akazawa was too consumed by his work to even notice that his wife kept such a big secret from him. It made his acknowledgement that he really didn’t know her that well, all the more valid.
It might just be my usual qualm with the way murder mysteries are often solved, but I can’t deny that I had mixed feelings about the revelation of Kyoko’s involvement with the Higashikayama Incident. I guess there were some very subtle hints, for example when Hiroshima Ikumi (Iketani Nobue) called Komugi ‘Oka-chan’ at the nursing home. At the time, I just assumed she meant her biological mother as in Mrs. Hayashikawa. I didn’t remember her first name being mentioned before, so I just assumed she was called ‘Oka’ – I also thought that would make sense since her two daughters were called ‘Oto’ and ‘Uta’ and it had a similar cadence. Little did I know that I was on to something: it was the name of Komugi’s biological mother, but not the one I had in mind.
In the very last episode it’s revealed that Kyoko, shortly after giving birth to Mamoru, took a break from her husband and secretly set up a company to support struggling housewives behind his back. She did this with her childhood friend Hiroshima Ikumi, another name on the list. The person who helped them fund the company was none other than Hayashikawa Yasunari (Nomaguchi Toru), the head of the Hayashikawa household. He and Kyoko started an affair, which resulted in her pregnancy with his child: Uta. As much as Yasunari loved Kyoko, the reputation of his family was very important to him, and he couldn’t just elope with her. In the end, his wife Satoko (Ando Wako) completely lost it and killed her own children and parents, after which Yasunari incidentally strangled her in an attempt to stop her from killing him as well. Seeing his whole family dead, he couldn’t bring himself to walk away with Kyoko and Uta, so he asked Kyoko to help him string everyone up, including himself, to make it look like a mass murder. Imagine being asked to aid the love of your life in doing that – that was incredibly forked up. I can imagine how that messed with Kyoko’s head, and also how anxious it made her when Haruo told her he was planning on reinvestigating the case. Everything she did, was to protect her family. Now that I think about it, she even went so far as to call her son ‘Mamoru’, which is written with the kanji 守, ‘to protect’. That naming choice just got a whole new meaning to it. With both her husband and son in the police force, she couldn’t bear the thought of this coming out and dragging them down with her. So she killed Haruo to silence him. She drugged him and set his house on fire, after calling Endo Tomoya to come meet her somewhere in the neighborhood, just so he would be in close proximity to the crime scene.
If I didn’t already find her audacious for offering Komugi money to keep the truth about her husband’s involvement in her adoption a secret from the police, the fact that she justified killing Haruo, aka ruining another family at the expense of ‘protecting’ her own, was pretty crazy. For both her and her accomplice, it really didn’t matter what happened to other people as long as they could protect their own reputations. This made them the polar opposites of Haruo, who was willing to put his own name on the line to admit he had convicted the wrong person. It was a despicable act by a very troubled woman. I do wish I could’ve gotten a better understanding of the whole ‘people getting in her way’ thing, though. We only get a very brief flashback of her growing up in a poor environment and losing her younger brother to starvation. She even says something like: “maybe that’s where it all started going wrong”, but then later she says that she returned to the Hayashikawa residence to kill herself because that was the place where “everything started going wrong”. I was at least glad to find out she never meant to stab Akazawa and that his injury was an accident – she wanted to take it onto herself, without harming her husband and son.
So yeah, I guess although it was clear that she was hiding more than she was letting on, I definitely didn’t expect this outcome, or that she would actually be involved in the Higashikayama Incident. Something this show did very well was continuously giving you little snippets of hints about people, but never enough to prove that they actually did something bad. For Kyoko as well, it’s not that she personally killed the Hayashikawas – that turned out to be a mass murder amongst the family itself. Waiting until the final moment for the very last piece of truth to be revealed definitely kept me on my toes, I’ll give it that.

Speaking of the beforementioned accomplice, I’ll have to go back and elaborate a bit more on Anan Yuki, the director of the police force that Akazawa is a part of. I wondered why we got a flashback about her youth before, it was all part of the bigger picture. Again, compliments to how it was written. It actually made me feel for Anan, seeing how her mother was only ever obsessed with the possibility that her husband would one day come back to them. Even after she finally got away from her and married, her husband was too insecure to appreciate her having a more successful career than him, and she was forced to go back to her mother. While vouching to never become like her mom, waiting for her husband to come home, she worked her way up and ultimately became the first female police director in the vicinity.
Throughout the story, she’s shown to be in contact through telephone by a mysterious man. We never see his face, only a specific keyring on his backpack. This man is seemingly connected to almost everyone, from Someda to the Awayama couple and even Tsujii, the guy who was supposed to take in Uta. The fact that his voice was muffled made me feel like he would be revealed as a character we’d already met, but when the moment of truth finally came around, I really didn’t see it coming.
Shortly after Someda’s death, Komugi and Matsukaze’s investigation team is strengthened by an unexpected addition: one Mr. Narukawa Tooru (played by Mamiya Hiroyuki). He used to be a prosecutor at the time of the Higashikayama Incident and was therefore also involved in convicting Rikiro. With his quirky demeanor and comical Osaka dialect, my first impression was that he was probably more of a liability than a threat, lol. He was introduced in such a jovial way that I instinctively thought: right, they’re making you sympathetic towards him. I’ve seen these shows before. Something might happen to him.
So when it was revealed that he was the mysterious man AND Anan’s father, I actually cried out: “WHAT?!” I really didn’t see that one coming, even though I was prepared for it to be a character we’d already been introduced to. So again, props to the writers (and the mangaka) for that twist. Having said that, I thought that his reason for doing what he did was quite shallow, in hindsight. On the one hand, his intention was really similar to Kyoko’s: he didn’t want his own mistake to come out and have a bad influence on his daughter’s future. Just like Kyoko, he wasn’t able to admit to the world that he’d made a mistake (convicting Rikiro) or try to make things right. He may not have killed Haruo, but he did coerce Someda into admitting that he forged his letter by exposing him to his main weakness – drugs – and later gave the order to kill him. He also set fire to the Awayama home, which was really uncalled for, those poor people who, again, really didn’t do anything wrong. He sniffed out every single trace that could lead back to the Higashikayama Incident, all in order to save his own skin and ‘protect’ his daughter’s reputation. As long as he could protect his own family, it didn’t matter what happened to others. Damn. At least he had the decency to admit that he was a coward himself.

I’d like to move on to the final couple of characters, people that were rightfully redeemed in my opinion.
First of all: Kamii. Kamii Takashi (played by Isomura Hayato) is a reporter who starts out on Komugi and Matsukaze’s bad side. I remember thinking to myself that I found it so typical that reporters in these kinds of stories are always depicted as really shady and sneaky people who only care about exposing others’ secrets. While Kamii initially starts out with a similar vibe – even to the point that I expected him to get into serious trouble for digging into things too deeply – I was pleasantly surprised about the way he came around. At first it seemed as if he was just confronting people with pieces of information that he’d dug up, purely to see their shocked reactions. He had ties EVERYWHERE, and I just couldn’t put my finger on how he managed to be so incredibly on top of things, being the sleazy reporter that he seemed to be. In the end, it’s revealed that he’s actually Tomoya’s childhood friend and that he became a reporter to find out the truth about the Higashikayama Incident himself, since he just couldn’t believe it was Rikiro, his friendly old neighbor that taught him how to play baseball. Against all expectations, he actually becomes a big ally to the team and even leads them to Hiroshima Ikumi, the last name on the list and their final lead. To think he actually spent 22 years building up to this, collecting pieces of evidence and everything, to find out more about the case his neighbor was arrested for… The reignition caused by Haruo’s death that led him to Komugi must’ve been the break he’d been so desperately waiting for. This would also explain his fired-up excitement at finding out whatever new things he could find. I did wonder how long he’d been sitting on the evidence that Komugi was Uta, because he’d never actually met her before. He literally hit her with that in episode 3, which was immediately a huge twist.
In hindsight, I actually think Kamii might’ve been my second favorite character. He was so well-written and the actor was amazing. I love it when a character initially seems kind of despicable but you just can’t hate them because the actor is doing such a great job. I was really happy when he came around at the end and offered to help out the team, even apologizing to Komugi for being such a jerk to her before. His intentions were good, he never lost his way and he continuously stayed his quirky self. I really liked him.

And then finally, I want to say something about the two people that I still believe to be the true victims of the entire story: Rikiro and Tomoya.
Meine Gute. I felt so sorry for these men. As if Tomoya’s childhood backstory wasn’t enough to get me choked up – seeing how he was just left to his own devices at freaking ten years old, being bullied relentlessly for ‘being the son of a murderer’ – the dawning revelation that both he AND his father were falsely accused hit really hard. How could anyone have let this happen, honestly? If anything, this just proved that Kyoko and Narukawa didn’t give a single flying flip about other people. The fact that they could look away and sleep peacefully at night, knowing that they accused a completely innocent man and even separated him from his child, was unbelievable.
As painful as that childhood flashback was to watch, it was again amazingly powerful. Tomoya’s character was so well-established, from his childhood to the point where he realized his father had been forced to confess under pressure and there was nothing for him to do but admit as well. Seriously, how did they do such a good job at fleshing out most of the supporting characters, yet leave Komugi so incredibly flat and one-dimensional? I really wonder what this is like in the manga now.
If there was any scene in this series that moved me to tears, it was the one in the final episode where Rikiro and Tomoya were reunited. Father and son, both condemned to rot away in a cell for something they didn’t do, finally acquitted and free. I loved how Rikiro gave Tomoya a baseball glove, and the fact that Kamii was there as well just recreated that whole flashback of the three of them playing baseball together. It was really nice to finally see Tomoya smile for the first time in the entire series.

Now that I’ve covered all the characters I wished to discuss, I want to go over some more opinions I have regarding the series in general, and some final things that I found a bit confusing, in hindsight. All in all, as I said, I was really impressed with how well everything fit together and fell into place in the end, but there were a few things that went over my head.

To start with the positives, I really appreciated how this series fleshed out as much as possible. Not just in terms of characters, as I’ve already discussed, but also in providing visual evidence for certain events and memories. For example, the family picture. Quite early on, I believe as soon as the Higashikayama Incident is mentioned, there’s this old picture that shows the entire Hayashikawa family of six, including baby Uta on Grandma’s lap. This picture comes back a number of times, but it’s only when we find out that Uta was born out of an affair that they show the scene in which the photo was taken. Seeing the actual moment in which this happened, knowing that Uta was being posed off as the newest addition to the Hayashikawa family, and seeing the other family members’ reactions to it was really cool. As soon as the picture was taken, Satoko stormed off and Grandma immediately pushed the baby back into Yasunari’s arms. Just getting that extra background information filled out for a picture that kept coming back added so much to the texture of everything.
I also loved the consistency and the attention to detail of certain things. Besides the trick for how to break chopsticks in half more easily, there was also a thing with pudding that kept coming back. In the beginning, when Matsukaze is still warning Komugi of the risks that this investigation might bring with it, he pours a cup of coffee over his favorite pudding. I don’t remember the reasoning exactly, but I think it was about having something you like and then finding out something about it that makes you see it differently. After which Komugi eats the pudding, coffee and all, and says: “It’s still pudding.” Going forward, Matsukaze keeps eating his pudding like that, drenched in coffee. I thought that was a really nice detail, and they actually kept it in until the very last episode.
I always love things like this because it shows just how much thought and attention went into the details and the consistency of the story. Like how Matsukaze became Komugi’s new ramen buddy and they kept searching for new places to eat ramen together. The recurring scene of characters stumbling into that forest and coming eye to eye with that mesmerizing peacock. The “a rumbling stomach is a sign you’re still alive!” quote. I love little things like that, it makes scene feel so much more alive and textured.

Something I also really liked about this series was the way it was filmed. The transitions and cinematography were really good. I remember actually voicing my appreciation for certain transitions out loud, like when you would look over someone’s shoulder and shift to the other shoulder to transition into a flashback. There was a really cool one with Someda as well, I believe it was like a one-shot that tied different scenes from his past together.
There’s one set of shots that I like so much that I actually want to capture it here. In the episode that focusses on Akazawa’s secret of forging Uta’s birth certificate, he and Haruo are talking outside of the police office during a smoke break, bathing in light. Shortly after that, we’re back in present-day and Akazawa is standing there looking at where Haruo once stood. Haruo from the flashback briefly reappears, basking in the light. Then the flashback fades and it’s just Akazawa standing there by himself in the shade. Look at this art.

I always try to look out for symbolic cinematography, like when there’s a reflection or a physical division between people.
Another example of a cool shot was when Matsukaze and Komugi came to talk to Kyoko after she was arrested, and their reflections through the glass made it look like the three of them were sitting side by side, shoulder to shoulder.

So yeah, this show definitely gets points from me for cinematography. I love spotting cool transitions, even when they don’t have a meaning or purpose. It just adds to the visual quality of the series and makes it look good, which also contributes to the watching experience.

In terms of the music, there was one song that stood out to me by far. I can’t deny that I was a bit thrown off by the upbeat song that played during the first scene, which showed the hanging bodies of the Hayashikawas, that was kind of weird. But the ending song, “Erufu” by Ado is such a banger. It starts out as a typical-sounding Japanese drama song, but then it intensifies into that “🤟🏻KIECHIMAEEEE!!!🤟🏻” that just blows it out of the park. That song had me bopping my head with a stank face like:a man making a funny face while a woman smiles behind him

To go back to the story for a moment, I just want to remark on how often the theme of neglectful parenting or the absence of a parent came back.
I’ve talked about the parallels between Kyoko and Narukawa before, and how they both did what they did to ‘protect’ their families, yet apparently didn’t care about the effects their actions would have on other families. Apart from that, I also found it interesting that they both kept using the “where did it start going wrong?” question, almost as a means to justify their deeds. It’s as if they both tried to pinpoint a moment where they took a wrong turn, or where they were forced into a specific situation that led them astray. Again, I feel like this was just a defense mechanism to justify their own actions to themselves. For Kyoko, her actions were ’caused’ by people ‘standing in her way’ which ‘left her no other choice’, and for Narukawa it was all meant to keep his daughter in a favorable light. I just keep thinking how interesting it is that they were the complete opposites of Haruo.
Speaking of this difference, is it just me or was almost every character in this series abandoned by a relative at one point? In almost every family setting we see, a parent leaves their child, disappears or passes away. Someda’s wife leaves with their son. Tomoya’s mother leaves him with his father. Anan grew up with an absent father and a neglectful mother. Komugi’s mother died, Matsukaze’s father disappeared. Even Kyoko left Akazawa for a while after giving birth to Mamoru. The theme of parents and relatives leaving was very apparent in this one. Specifically, parents running away from their mistakes instead of facing up to them. The only in-between case was Matsukaze’s father. He also left home out of embarassment for being accused of stealing. The reconciliation between Matsukaze and his father at least made up for that, as he got to express his regret with regards to the situation. Narukawa kept calling himself a coward and eventually turned himself in, but Kyoko only ever started apologizing in court, even though it never felt genuine from her side. It was an interesting pattern, and I’m glad at least all the kids turned out for the better because they all acknowledged that the way their parents had handled things wasn’t great, to say the least.

Lastly, I just want to mention a couple of things that I didn’t fully understand in the end, the only few ‘plotholes’ I could find.
First of all, when Mr. Awayama showed Komugi the video of when Haruo and Shizuka took her in, I found it hard to gauge how Komugi was feeling, exactly. Of course, she must have still been in shock from the confirmation that she really was Uta and that her whole identity had been a lie, but this video was nothing but love and warmth. If anything, it proved that her adoptive parents had always seen, accepted and treated her as their own daughter. Still, I couldn’t really see any kind of endearment or relief in Komugi’s tears, she was just sad-crying, it seemed. I guess this kind of fell together with what she described later in the café? When she saw a happy family eating together and got jealous, even though she knew she’d been loved and cherished just as much? I guess it was a mix of complicated emotions. This was one of those examples of what I mentioned before, that it felt like I was watching her from a distance, and also feeling an emotional distance as she processed this. From how I saw it, it didn’t matter that she was adopted. Haruo and Shizuka had always been her parents, blood-related or not, and this video only confirmed that. I just wondered what else was behind those tears, and what exactly about the video made her so sad?

Secondly, Kyoko’s testimony. She ultimately reveals that she contacted Narukawa to be her accomplice, and that she also was the one who ‘called’ Tomoya to meet near Haruo’s house in order to make him appear near the crime scene. How did she get in touch with them, though? I guess she was somehow tied to the Higashikayama case since her husband investigated it, and because Narukawa was one of the prosecutors she could’ve gotten his contact, but that still felt like kind of a long shot. I also couldn’t think of how she possibly managed to contact Tomoya and get him to meet her – a woman he didn’t even know – at a certain place near Haruo’s house. It would’ve made sense if they’d explained that she lured him there with some sort of message about knowing the truth about his father or something, but that wasn’t clarified. I couldn’t help but wonder how she managed to call Tomoya and get him to come to that place when they allegedly weren’t in contact at all.

Also, what the heck happened to Komugi’s ‘aunt’, Kimura Natsumi (Hara Hideko)? She only appeared in like two episodes, which also showed that she knew that Komugi was adopted and that she therefore didn’t have any right to Haruo’s money. She seemed like she’d play such a prominent role, also being in contact with Kamii and giving him information in return for money. But she just disappeared! I mean, one less person to worry about I guess, but I really expected her to become a regular character.

All in all, I really enjoyed watching this series. It’s been so long since I watched a Japanese show that managed to hold my attention until the end and never got tiring or tedious. The acting was great, the story and the characters were well-written and -established, and it had a couple of cool twists and turns. The climax was nicely contained within the characters we’d already been introduced to, yet it still managed to surprise me. I liked it.

Now, without further Ado (*badum tss*), let’s move on to the cast comments!

I’m always happy to see Hirose Suzu in a drama, because she’s such a beautifully and subtle actress. I’ve seen her in a bunch of things, starting from when she still played high school students, like Gakkou no Kaidan, Kaito Tantei Yamaneko, Yuugure ni, Te wo Tsunagu, and the movies Umimachi Diary and most recently, A Pale View of Hills, which I LOVED her in. I definitely prefer her in more quirky roles, but I still really liked her performance in this show. Even as Komugi, who didn’t emote very much, she just got this look in her eyes that pierced through. Her emotional acting was fantastic. The gradual transition to her outburst as she was watching that happy family in the café was so good I actually took a screenshot to use as a reference for a portrait drawing. Despite my qualms regarding the vanilla level of her character, she still did an amazing job. I wish we could’ve seen more footage of Komugi in her happy, carefree smiling days. Suzu-chan did a great job in this, honestly.

Although I know who Matsuyama Kenichi is, I actually haven’t seen much of his acting yet, so it was cool to see him in this drama. There’s still a couple of things (both series and movies) with him on my list, so I hope to get to those soon. It was really fun to see him as Matsukaze. I’m not sure if he’s used to playing funny roles, but the way he switched between serious and ‘tsukkomi’ was really good. I’m glad he also got to shed some tears in this story. I think overall he had the most character development, albeit still quite subtle. I loved to see how he slowly but surely softened towards Komugi and her situation, yet never started acting like her protector. He just watched her resilience grow in silence and was always there to stand at her side when she decided to face another harsh truth. They had a really nice, natural banter dynamic going on. I really liked him in this.

If you’re as big of a Koreeda Hirokazu fan as I am, there’s no way you haven’t seen Lily Franky yet. I’ve seen him in Like Father, Like Son, Umimachi Diary, Manbiki Kazoku, and I also saw him in Call Me Chihiro not too long ago. He appeared in The Makanai: Cooking for the Maiko House (also a Koreeda). He’s such a familiar face. I’m kind of used to him playing lazy, sleazy men, but the heart that he put into his character in this series was amazing. He really impressed me. I loved that he still got to play such a big part in the show, even when his character died so early on. As I said, he was my favorite character because he was just so GOOD. He was the only adult, it seemed, who couldn’t sit still after learning they made a mistake that badly impacted an innocent person’s life. This is how we should all be. Be like Yamashita Haruo. Nothing but praise for Lily Franky. His father-daughter chemistry with Suzu-chan was also incredibly endearing to see. I’m glad I got to see him in this. Bless him.

Narita Ryo looks and sounds so familiar to me, but I’ve only seen him in a couple of things, most of which I don’t even remember much. He was also in Gakkou no Kaidan, which has kind of eluded me completely as I found it kind of boring. He appeared in NigeHaji and Romantics Anonymous, which I watched not too long ago. Anyways, I barely even recognized him at first. Something about the look in his eye just transformed him into a completely different person, which was cool to see. I’m glad he didn’t portray Tomoya as one of those typical psychos that acted all crazy about whether they did or didn’t do it. He only put on the maniacal act when he confessed to being guilty, because to him that was just the cruel joke of his situation. He would only ever be forced into confessing, even when he was innocent, just like his dad. So even when he did get that crazy glint in his eye, it made total sense and it wasn’t just to make him appear like a psychopath. I felt so freaking bad for his character, I can’t even put it into words.
Additionally, a huge shoutout to Yuda Kouki, who played his child version. Holy shit, that kid could act. I’m always so impressed by Japanese and Korean child actors that can convey such depth in their emotional acting at such a young age. He blew me away, honestly.

I’d never seen Fujimoto Takahiro in anything before. He was the only actor that sometimes made me go: ‘Can you not look so angry all the time?’, lol. As I mentioned before, to me he was the literal embodiment of a big, grumpy bear, and his face was always like this: 😠. They made it quite easy to believe that he would blow a gasket and accidentally hurt someone, but I kept feeling like that would be too obvious. In the end, I was glad that he really wasn’t involved too deeply, and that he really only went against the law when he saved Uta from that awful relative. That in itself redeemed him for me completely. For someone as passionate as him to go against the law like that to protect a child, that said everything about his good nature. He really was just looking out for his family, including Komugi, the entire time. It was cool to see his portrayal of this character, and nice to see a new face as well.

The award for my favorite acting job in this series undeniably goes to Isomura Hayato. I don’t know why, but he looks so familiar to me, even though MDL tells me I haven’t seen him in anything before. The energy and verve with which he portrayed Kamii was unequaled. It’s been a long time since I was able to look at someone’s smug smiling face for longer than a couple of seconds and not cringe, but rather enjoy how much the actor immersed himself in his role. I loved what he did with it, wandering around in his long black coat and little round sunglasses. I’m really glad he turned out to be an ally, because no one else knew as much about anything as he did when it came to the case. It’s almost a bummer that we didn’t get more backstory from him except that one flashback that showed him as Tomoya’s childhood friend. I guess they couldn’t give too much about him away until later, which I get. I can’t express how happy I was that they made him more than just a sneaky reporter, and that he too had a proper motive to find out the truth, rather than just shock people with it. I’m really glad I was introduced to this actor through this show. Hope to see more of him!

I actually yelped when I realized that Takiuchi Kumi also played Kozue in Koi wa Tsuzuku yo, Dokomademo! I remember her being one of my favorite supporting characters there. It was really cool to see her in such a different role, as the stoic police director Anan. I thought she was a very intriguing character. I didn’t actually expect to become sympathetic towards her, so when they showed that flashback of her childhood I was very curious to find out what the purpose of it was, if not to just give her some backstory. To actually come back to that with the reveal that Narukawa was that absent father that her mother kept rambling on about, was pretty clever. I definitely didn’t see it coming. As stoic and merciless as she seemed, I still couldn’t really blame her for what she had become after seeing how her mother and ex-husband had treated her. She’d had to rely on herself and nobody else for most of her life, and that had hardened her. I really enjoyed seeing this side of her acting in this show, it was cool to see her in this!

Nishida Naomi is another actress that looks super familiar to me even though I haven’t actually seen her in much. Judging from MDL, I’ve only seen her in Stand Up!! and Higashino Keigo Mysteries, which I both watched AGES ago. I’d say that my only qualm with her was that she did become kind of a typical ‘crazy’ person in the end. Despite keeping the truth hidden for so long, she actually snapped. Still, her emotional acting was really good and I specifically loved her interactions with Komugi, when everything was still good between them. She really felt like a mother to her, and I appreciated that she strengthened Komugi in her belief that she had “really started to look like Shizuka”. The motherly scenes just came so natural to her that I actually would’ve liked to see more scenes of her with Akazawa and Mamoru. Anyways, she did a great job.

I’ve seen Sakai Toshiya before in Stand Up!!, Gokusen Season 2, Tokujo Kabachi!!, Kizoku Tantei, Repeat and Watashi, Teiji de Kaerimasu. Just from his appearance alone, I would’ve guessed that he may have been a comedian or other sort of tarento, but he delivered a really sincere portrayal of Someda in this series. Seeing him go through those scenes of drug addiction and everything made a pretty big impact on me. His story was so sad, honestly. I wish he could’ve gotten out of it unscathed. I mentioned it before, but his death just felt a little too on the nose for me, especially considering he didn’t actually have anything to do with the big secret that was being kept from Komugi. I really liked how much heart he poured into Someda. He did a really good job.

Again, an actor who looks familiar, even though he’s apparently only done three (?!) drama roles so far. I really enjoyed Mamiya Hiroyuki’s performance as Narukawa. I loved the energy he brought with him – it immediately made me feel protective of him, for some reason. The revelation that he was the mysterious man and Anan’s father was a very big surprise, and it took another while for me to acknowledge he’d actually done something bad. I think it was Kamii who told him that this reasons for doing all that were shallow, and I agreed with that. I guess that’s what bothered me a bit about the ending, with both him and Kyoko. The actions of killing Haruo and all those other people that were even the tiniest bit tied to the case, just seemed excessive. Most of these people, like the Awayamas, had been keeping quiet about it for years, but now suddenly they had to die, even if that wouldn’t solve anything because they’d already told someone. So yeah, as soon as the whole ‘accomplice’ arc came into play, I kind of tapped out with his character, although I still appreciated that he turned himself in at the end. Nonetheless, he performed his role very well and I liked getting to know him through this.

I’ll keep it at that for my cast comments. It’s taken me a bit longer than expected to finish this review, but I think I managed to get in everything that I wanted to discuss. To sum it up: I had a really good time watching this. It was well-written, it looked good, the acting was great and the ending wasn’t completely disappointing. The supporting characters definitely grabbed me more than the main ones, although the latter still managed to convey the emotions and messages very convincingly. I’m glad I finally got to watch this show. This is one of those series that I’d be able to rewatch in order to catch all the foreshadowing from the start.

Well then, that’ll be it for this review! I’m curious to see what I’ll be watching next.
Stay tuned, and until then! Bye-bee! x