2. Carpe Diem

Lyrics: Yoshida Takumi (saji)
Composer: Agematsu Noriyasu (Elements Garden)

Like a joke, it’s so worthless
My life which is filled with crying
Why is it always just my loss?

A person like ‘him’ seems like he’s living happily
That’s nice, it’s just that ‘I haven’t shown my determination yet’

Whenever I compare myself to people around me
I get overconfident, I get even more conceited
I was convinced everything would turn out well
I still can’t become my future self
there’s still no change in my current situation
I just mutter that it would be too easy

The times left me behind
as if they were scoff-laughing

In my dreams, I’m narrating my dreams
Embracing all expectations and anxieties, what am I looking at?
In this world that’s like a deception
I just continue to wonder by myself, like a puzzle
while I still don’t have any answers
I’m going to walk in search of and yearning for tomorrow

Like a joke, my lack of motivation
My life which is filled with taking the easy way
Why am I still in the same place?

A person like ‘him’ is what I want to become, that’s what I pleaded
Even though I haven’t worked enough to be rewarded

Whenever I compare myself to people around me
I back myself with theoretical arguments, I’m conceited until the end
I lasted because of affirmations
I run away from confrontation
If I could just throw away my current situation
Because I don’t even need expectations anymore

In my dreams, I still cling to my dreams
I run about inside this temporary beginning without reality
My heart which I kept deceiving
is still repeating the self-contradictions, it’s just grieving

While putting up a weakling’s courage
where am I gonna go embracing all the expectations and anxieties?
In this world that’s like a deception
I just continue to wonder by myself, I’m lost
But…

In my dreams, I still wish for my dreams
I will embrace and fight off all the expectations and anxieties
telling myself there is a way especially through darkness and despair
Release all my own traps I got caught in, let’s run through
The answers will always
live on inside yourself