A Little Thing Called First Love

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

A Little Thing Called First Love
(初恋那件小事 / Chu Lian Na Jian Xiao Shi)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hello hello, it’s time for one final review to wrap up 2024! When this show popped up on my Wheel of Fortune app, I was excited to end the year with a light and cute romance story because it really fit my mood after going through the heavy theme of my previous watch. It took me about three weeks to finish it because it’s quite lengthy and I also took some breaks in-between, but it was a really nice and cozy watch and I’m excited to share my thoughts on it. I was happy to find another Chinese romcom that I liked as much as I did Perfect and Casual earlier this year. I hope I can find more of these! I generally like the kind of story that focuses on the growth of its characters throughout several chapters of their life while holding onto something pure like their first love. It’s a genre that I’ve seen before in several Chinese shows like Love til the End of Summer, A Love So Beautiful and With You and I find it really comforting to watch. This show was no exception, so let’s just dive into it, shall we?

A Little Thing Called First Love is a Chinese drama series of 36 episodes that each last about 45 minutes -you can find it in really good quality on YouTube. I personally watched it on the KUKAN Drama Romance channel but there’s multiple channels that have the full series with decent English subtitles.
The series is about a girl called Xia Miao Miao (played by Zhao Jin Mai) and her navigation through life and love. The story starts when she and her family – consisting of father, mother and younger sister – move to a new home in Haicheng. Miao Miao’s father (Zhao Ke) works at sea and they’ve moved closer to his new work base. Her mother (Wang Yi Chan) opens a little restaurant where Miao Miao and her little sister Yao Yao (Zhang Zi Yu) occasionally help out. By the way, I noticed that their mother called them Xia Liu Shui and Xia San Tu respectively, so I guess those are their real names and Miao Miao and Yao Yao are their nicknames, but since they are mostly referred to by their nicknames I’ll just stick with those.
Miao Miao is initially a shy teenager with frizzy curly hair, big round glasses and crooked teeth. She gets along well with her sister and has one good friend from her previous living place, Lin Xia (played by Wang Yi Miao) with whom she keeps in touch through video call. On the day they move in, Miao Miao catches a glimpse of a handsome boy on the street and is immediately smitten with him. This boy is Liang You Nian (played by Lai Guan Lin). He is one year older than Miao Miao, and a senior at her new high school. He’s basically the school’s golden boy, popular for both his looks and his skills, and the son of a famous architect to boot. Miao Miao is enthralled by him from the start, also because he seems to be a genuinely kind and polite person to whoever he meets, including her.
As Miao Miao starts school, she makes a new friend in her class, He Xin, nicknamed Xin Xin (played by Chai Wei), who happens to be You Nian’s cousin and who is very supportive of Miao Miao’s feelings for him. At the same time, Xin Xin herself is forever pining for her childhood friend Lin Kai Tuo (played by Wang Run Ze). You Nian and Kai Tuo used to be good friends, but things soured between them when You Nian’s dad (Liu Xu) and Kai Tuo’s mom (Ran Qian) suddenly got together after You Nian’s mom passed away and Kai Tuo’s dad bailed on them after getting himself into massive debts. As such, You Nian and Kai Tuo have become stepbrothers and this has ruined their friendship, causing mainly Kai Tuo to derail and become very ill-tempered – he only ever comes to class to sleep and yell at people and he refuses to accept his new family. At school, Xin Xin is the only one to ever stand up for him, but he doesn’t even appreciate that. When Miao Miao becomes his new deskmate in class, she also becomes his new object of bullying, especially when he realizes she likes You Nian, who is now his mortal enemy.
This is basically the setup of the story and how all the characters first meet and establish their bonds. While her crush on You Nian deepens, Miao Miao gradually gains confidence and literally transforms as she goes on to college. With the help of Xin Xin and Xia, who joins them in college, Miao Miao comes out of her shell in terms of both appearance and personality. She gets braces, she gets lenses, she learns how to style her hair and use make-up, and while she’s initially forced by her mom to join the Architecture department for its higher career ratings, Miao Miao ultimately decides to follow her heart and switch to her original choice, Fashion Design, where her heart truly lies.
In essence, the story depicts how Miao Miao, guided by her first love, gradually grows and matures as a person who’s capable of making her own decisions and following her own dreams. In the meantime the relationship between her and You Nian deepens, and we follow the stories of their friends as they navigate through their own struggles in life and love as well.

I just want to quickly mention beforehand how much I enjoyed watching this. It was incredibly wholesome and I loved how well-established all the characters and their respective storylines were. I’m not sure how to describe it, but it came across to me as if the writers truly cherished the characters and put a lot of feeling into each and every one of them, which in turn made me care for each and every one of them as well. I haven’t felt like this before with a Chinese drama to this extent, so I thought that was really special. Also, I thought it was nice how they managed to keep a romantic relationship so compelling without even going past the pureness of it. Like, there aren’t any real kissing scenes in it, only pecks on the cheek and forehead, but this only contributed to the innocence and sweetness of it all. It was just stinking cute.
On the other hand, in order to not just make it a cute, innocent slowburn romance, they actually properly used the screentime they got and filled it with significant storylines that contributed to the backgrounds and development of all the characters. They balanced it out very well in my opinion. I’ll give some concrete examples later on, but I just really appreciated how much effort the writers and creators put into establishing this story. Compared to my frustration with the lack of consistency in Road to Rebirth, I kept getting positively surprised by how much this series paid attention to detail and that only added to the quality of it. Honestly, for a romantic comedy I thought this show was very well-made in terms of storywriting and character building, not to mention the acting and other things like music and cinematography. I had a really good time watching it.

Since this series is mainly based on the development of its characters and their relationships, I’d like to also structure this review as such, by focussing on each character and their respective friend/relationships.
Starting with our heroine, Miao Miao. One thing I genuinely liked about her character was that, despite her initial depiction as an ugly duckling, from the start she was never a pathetic or weak character. Her shyness and timidness may have been emphasized through her softening towards You Nian, but she always had the strength and confidence to stand up for herself and others. For example, I really liked the way she kept reaching out to Xin Xin and made it clear how much she wanted to be her friend, which naturally melted away Xin Xin’s initial prejudices against her. If she was interested in someone, she made it clear to that person in the most genuine way, and if she wasn’t interested in someone, she didn’t hesitate for a second to make that clear as well – I thought that was a very nice characteristic of her.
It’s funny how Miao Miao ultimately became to others the kind of person You Nian had been to her – in the end she became such a confident and skilled college senior that she started receiving love confessions from her own juniors. It was really wholesome to see her develop and mature in such a humble way, by only focussing on her own goals and trying not to pay too much attention to what others were doing. She never became the kind of person who would sabotage someone else to come out better herself (looking at you, Tang Meng Fei 👀), but she really worked hard to become better at what she wanted to become better at.
I think it was also very characteristic for her to initially get swept away in something but then adapt halfway as she figured out what she really wanted to do. Honestly, the fact that her mom just registered her for Architecture because it had the highest career rates was pretty crazy, but Miao Miao actually gave it a go before she came to the realization that she preferred Fashion Design, after all. It’s not like she became a passive “ugh I’m forced to do something I don’t actually want” kind of person, no, she really tried her best at Architecture, and then found the answer within herself that it was mostly You Nian keeping her in that department and that it wasn’t her real passion, after all. I thought it was nice that we as viewers followed Miao Miao on her journey, trying and figuring out this and that until she finally found what she really wanted to do and who she really wanted to be.
After stories like Itazura na Kiss and Koi wa Tsuzuku yo Dokomademo, where the female lead blindly follows the male lead into his occupation, it was really refreshing to see a female lead actually come to the realization that she wanted to do something different after following the male lead into his world. Both in terms of Miao Miao’s individual development and as a nice shift for romantic comedies in general, it was cool that they gave the female lead full authority over her own life and choices rather than just make her blindly follow the male lead in whatever he did. I liked that development a lot and it really made me respect Miao Miao at the end. She worked so hard to get to the point where she could excel at fashion design, which is what she always loved to do and where her true strengths lay.
You could say it’s a pretty accurate depiction of life as well: sometimes you need to try out some things you’re not passionate about before realizing where your heart truly lies. I’ve experienced that personally as well, I’ve done loads of things I didn’t actually like and it took me some time but as soon as I realized what I really wanted to do, it all started going smoothly because of the skills I’d already been honing for that very thing. So yeah, I really related to Miao Miao in that aspect, and that’s why I ended up respecting her so much. It was very wholesome to watch her bloom, both in appearance and in confidence. Having said that, I do have to say that I preferred her frizzy curly hair to the basic coupe she donned towards the end, I thought it was a pity that they took her iconic look away 😆.
In terms of consistency I also thought it was nice that her fashion design dream didn’t just come out of nowhere, but that it started with her making clothes for Yao Yao’s Barbie dolls when they were kids. They gradually built up this element from the start and this made it even more rewarding to watch her develop her skills and ambitions throughout the story.
Another characteristic of Miao Miao that I liked was how straightforward she became when it came to setting her boundaries. It was really satisfying to see how decisive she was when she ultimately confessed to You Nian, rejected Kai Tuo, and reprimanded You Nian for making her decision to go to the UK alone for her instead of with her. She became such a mature person, speaking her truth and standing up for what she felt and wanted, and that was really gratifying to see after experiencing her whole transformational journey with her.

In terms of the relationship between Miao Miao and You Nian, I think this series is the perfect example of the trope “she fell first but he fell harder”. I thought the buildup between them was very natural and gradual, and I actually liked that it took You Nian a while to get there, because that somehow made it more realistic. There’s no doubt that he started liking her way before he admitted it to himself – as he also says in the final episode – but at the beginning it was very clear that he was just being nice to her without any romantic intentions. He really just saw her as a younger sister, like he saw Xin Xin.
What made it so satisfying was that, the moment he realized he had feelings for Miao Miao, she had already become so comfortable in her own feelings for him that she wasn’t even putting in that much effort anymore. Miao Miao was already a much more confident person following her own dreams when You Nian’s focus finally shifted to her, and then he suddenly became the flustered awkward one whenever she came close to him. I really liked seeing that shift, how Miao Miao, without even realizing it herself, became the one to catch You Nian off guard. This made their relationship so much more interesting and exciting to watch than if it had just been Miao Miao pining for him for the entirety of the story.
I think that when you have a lengthy show that focuses mainly on the slowburn between two characters, it’s tricky to keep it exciting throughout – you have to think of ways to keep it interesting and not drag it out or make it tedious. Continuous misunderstandings can get very tiring at some point, but I thought this show did a very good job at keeping it interesting. Even the misunderstandings didn’t get tedious because they were solved very quickly and neatly, without even necessitating a serious talk between the characters. For example, the way Miao Miao found out that You Nian’s Doraemon flower bouquet had been meant for her after all, and the way You Nian found out that the chocolates Miao Miao gave Kai Tuo on Valentine’s Day were actually from Xin Xin. Instead of creating an even bigger drama about it and making the misunderstanding bigger and bigger, I liked that they just “happened” to find out the truth indirectly, allowing them to heave a sigh of relief and move on without any further issues. It kept the story going whilst keeping it exciting, and I liked that a lot.

I liked that it kind of shifted to You Nian’s perpsective at some point and we got an insight into his psyche as well. From the start he’s consistently depicted as the stereotypical “perfect” senior through Miao Miao’s perspective. Even though he’s initially also not stoked about his new family arrangement, he doesn’t make a fuss about it as much as Kai Tuo does, and he generally keeps a cool and clear head throughout whatever he faces. I liked that they gave him a goofy streak as well, which contrasted with his “perfect” image. For example how he tried to balance those blocks on his head while standing outside the classroom, completely focussed. These unexpected antics also made him a more interesting character than if he’d just been the token golden boy without any imperfections throughout the entire story. It was also realistic that he actually had a slightly strained relationship with his dad and fought with him about wanting to pursue architecture like his mom had. They were simple but realistic elements that showed that, behind his perfect image, he was dealing with stuff just like everyone else.
To me it felt like we first got to know You Nian through Miao Miao’s perspective as the impressive and admirable senior, and then we got to know his more flawed and awkward side through his own perspective after he officially started falling for her. That was an interesting and very well-paced shift. It felt very natural how he suddenly felt himself caught off guard by this girl when he’d never had any trouble focussing on his work or minding his own business. I mostly loved the scenes where he would just freeze and stare at Miao Miao when she suddenly came close, even when she wasn’t paying attention to it herself. In the beginning, it was just Miao Miao going 👀👀 when he got close to her, but then the tables turned completely. The scene where he modeled for her and she got completely absorbed in throwing cloths over him and taking his measurements and he was standing there like 😳😳 was the cutest thing. Seeing him lose his cool like that really added something to his character, and it made him even more likable.
Of course we can’t forget about the breakup, and I won’t redeem him for messing up, but in hindsight I did think it was good to show at least one bad characteristic from You Nian. I think that, while seeming so accomplished and collected in many different ways, he definitely lacked a certain maturity when it came to his relationship with Miao Miao. It could just be because of his lack of experience, of course, since this was also his first relationship. It was his first love as well as Miao Miao’s, which is kind of sweet if you think about it. But yeah, I thought the fact that he had to figure out how to patch things up with Miao Miao and show her that he really liked her as much as she liked him was very building for his character.
All in all, I liked that You Nian wasn’t a one-dimensional character who was just nice and polite all the time. He was also dealing with his own stuff, like the loss of his mother, the fact that his dad got remarried so soon and his beef with Kai Tuo. Although the breakup aggravated me, in hindsight I do think it was a good decision to show a less “perfect” side to him, because this only made his character more realistic.
In terms of consistency, I thought that, much like the establishment of Miao Miao’s love for fashion design, You Nian’s passion for architecture was also very well-supported. His mom passed away in a tragic accident due to a miscalculation in design at a construction site, and this has fueled You Nian to not only go against his father’s wishes to follow in his mother’s footsteps but also to become incredibly meticulous in his designs to prevent such accidents from happening again. Just like with Miao Miao’s case, I think they did a really good job gradually building You Nian’s skills and ambitions in becoming a great architect. It might seem trivial, but there are shows where the passion or occupation of the main character doesn’t actually contribute anything to the character and it feels like they just assigned them a random career (Big, About Time). I really appreciated that the writers created a solid foundation for both Miao Miao’s and You Nian’s chosen career paths and built that up throughout the story. I guess it just goes to show that simply giving the characters a simple but valid reason to pursue a certain dream contributes a lot to the quality of the story.

Speaking purely about the romance between Miao Miao and You Nian, it was absolutely adorable. I really loved their scenes together, they were so sweet. The tiniest gestures and glances were enough to bring a big smile to my face. The whole series literally had me going 🥰🥰 and their scenes were a major part of that. I think it’s very tricky to create a romantic tension between two young people that doesn’t exclusively come off as cringy, but it didn’t bother me at all in this show. I feel like the whole point of this story was to show the pureness and sweetness of first love, and they captured that perfectly. I also respect that they didn’t include kissing scenes because of the actors’ ages and to keep the emphasis on the pureness. Still, as a fan of good kissing scenes, especially in slowburns, I did feel robbed when they actually kissed at the amusement park and we couldn’t see it because a group of kids with balloons obstructed the view 💀. Like, then just stick to the pureness element and have them not kiss at all! Don’t tease us like this after 32 episodes of buildup and interruptions, that’s just mean! 🥹 But yeah, apart from that, I thought Miao Miao and You Nian were a freaking cute couple and it was really sweet how they managed to meet halfway after both liking each other for a long time.

If there was one dynamic that I adored the most out of all the bonds in this show, it was the friendship between Miao Miao, Xin Xin and Xia. These three girls were in it together, in every single way. I loved their interactions, how they both teased and supported each other and always had each other’s backs.
It might be weird, but one of my favorite parts was actually when Xin Xin witnessed Kai Tuo’s confession to Miao Miao. It just hit differently because it somehow amplified the friendship between the girls. Miao Miao was more affected by how hurt Xin Xin was because she knew how much she liked Kai Tuo, and I also loved the way Xin Xin told Miao Miao that she knew she wasn’t to blame, but that she just needed to get away from her for a while. Even after getting hurt like that she was reasonable enough to clarify to Miao Miao that she knew it wasn’t her fault and she wasn’t mad at her, but that she just needed some space to process what had happened. I also loved how Miao Miao and Xin Xin reconciled when everyone accused Xin Xin of writing that online article about Miao Miao “stealing her best friend’s crush away”. The look on Xin Xin’s face when Miao Miao was like “who the heck wrote this” was so touching. Honestly, their friendship made me tear up a couple of times.
I also loved how Xia, despite her initial depiction as the token chubby girl who liked to eat, contributed so much to their friendship. While her two besties were both struggling with their respective love interests, did she get bitter about being left out? Nah-ah, she actively helped BOTH of them. Xia was the best, honestly. She was literally the best wingman, especially for Miao Miao. I’m so glad they included her as a regular character and not just as Miao Miao’s video call friend from the beginning.
Honestly, Xia cracked me up so much. When they first got in the dorm and they were introduced to Tang Meng Fei who was like, “You look funny and chubby, can I call you Fatty Xia?” (seriously, what kind of opening line is that?!) and Xia just took a beat and went “Well, you look like a #^#@*#!!” I was like WAAAAAT 😂😂😂 That was hilarious. She had such a good radar for people, I loved how it became a running gag that she kept her eye on Meng Fei and helped Miao Miao beat her at the audition and stuff. Like, she never became petty or bitter when she wasn’t kept in the loop about something, she was always happy to get the tea whenever it was served to her and she was always genuinely happy for Miao Miao and Xin Xin when they managed to progress in their respective love stories. I felt genuinely bad for her when both Miao Miao and Xin Xin left campus for a while, leaving her alone. She always acted so tough and carefree but it was very clear how much her two friends meant to her. I really loved Xia, she was a great character.

Xin Xin might actually be one of my favorite characters in the show. There was just something really endearing about her. I was initially worried that she might become the kind of girl who’d always keep walking after the guy that would keep treating her coldly, following the trends from A Love So Beautiful and With You. Luckily, she remained really strong and kept telling her she deserved better, even though she was never going to let go of her feelings for Kai Tuo. Yes, she occasionally got a bit childish in trying to get his attention, like with the faking an injured leg and stuff like that, but she was mature enough to acknowledge her own actions as well. It was so satisfying when she turned the tables at the end by treating Kai Tuo coldly, which in turn made him realize how much he’d taken her for granted. I was consistently rooting for Xin Xin and I genuinely felt bad for her whenever Kai Tuo made it clear he was interested in Miao Miao. Then again, as I mentioned before she never became grudgy and she never blamed Miao Miao and I really liked that even in that scenario the focus remained on the girls’ friendship, no matter how deeply rooted Xin Xin’s feelings for Kai Tuo were.
Despite occasionally acting like a spoiled little girl, I think Xin Xin was actually really wise and dealt with her feelings very maturely. It was nice to see her warm up to Miao Miao in high school after acknowledging what a genuine and kind person she was, and I loved how far she was willing to go to help and surprise her friends. No matter how mean Kai Tuo was to her, she remained true to her feelings for him and kept showing him, for example through organizing that birthday party. She just wanted to do things for him because it came natural to her, and she stuck with that. Whenever she was down after he said something mean to her, she would just have a good cry and then pick herself up and keep going, telling herself that she was stronger than that. I think that Xin Xin, as someone who had unapologetically accepted herself the way she was, was a great match for Miao Miao who still had ways to go to bloom as a person. It was really nice to see how Xin Xin helped her gain more confidence and come out of her shell. Their friendship was so wholesome, and as I said it occasionally even moved me to tears.
In addition, I also liked that Xin Xin was the only one of the group who chose an entirely different career path by joining the Journalism department. As with everyone, it was nice to see her focus on her own goals and gradually become more ambitious about journalism, to the extent that she actually went away on excursions for new coverage inspiration. I feel like she would’ve been much more hesitant to go in the beginning because it meant being away from Kai Tuo and her friends, so seeing her voluntarily apply for that internship at the end really proved that she also became serious about what she wanted to do and report on. It was very inspiring to see her mature like that, it suited her to focus on herself and her own dreams, and I guess that’s also what made Kai Tuo finally look at her in the end.

Honestly, I feel like I got bamboozled by the opening credits sequence when it showed Kai Tuo kissing Xin Xin on the cheek right at the beginning, because this caused me to believe that the story would focus on a couple of different love stories simultaneously, like in Put Your Head on My Shoulder. I did not expect that Kai Tuo would actually be the second male lead and part of the main love triangle for the majority of the show. I guess it was quite predictable that there would be a love triangle, but since that opening sequence ignited the expectation in me that he and Xin Xin were endgame, it hit differently when he first developed feelings for Miao Miao. Although he never actually stood a chance with Miao Miao and he and Xin Xin did end up together, I did find it a pity that it took him so long to finally realize Xin Xin was the one for him. The cheek kiss in question only happens in the second-to-last episode, so yeah, color me bamboozled.

While watching the show I consistently called Kai Tuo “the angry kitten”, because honestly, that’s what he was. He acted all tough and lashed out at others while he really just couldn’t deal with the fact that his dad had left him, and his mom had remarried instead of waiting for him to come back. I liked that they found a way to add the story of his dad in there, and how he ultimately found out with Xin Xin’s help that his father had actually disappeared for a very good reason and his mom had only ever protected him from his bad influence as a gambling addict. As with all the detailed backstories in this show, I thought it was a good decision to use the screentime they had by fleshing out Kai Tuo’s character and show where his aggressive tendencies came from, and how finding out the truth helped him become a more mature person as well. I liked that, as soon as he came to terms with himself and set things right with everyone, his good sides just came out naturally. The fact that he was prepared to gather the money for his father’s debts and the fact that he went all the way to collect Xin Xin’s wrongly delivered package all by himself proved that, in the right mindset and environment, he was a really good guy and a loyal friend who would literally go the extra mile to help out the people he cared about.

I think the dynamic between You Nian and Kai Tuo was an interesting one as well, especially if you look at the difference between when they were friends and when they became stepbrothers. If I remember correctly, they used to be in the same class but Kai Tuo was held back because he started misbehaving and neglecting his studies after their parents remarried, and so he ended up in Miao Miao’s and Xin Xin’s class, who were a year younger. I’m not sure how much he and You Nian actually differed in age, but he was indicated as the dìdì (younger brother), so I guess he must’ve been at least a couple of months younger than You Nian.
In any case, while Kai Tuo is actually very smart and able to get good grades when he sets his mind to it, he gets distracted by feelings of anger and jealousy much more easily than You Nian. You Nian is generally very chill, while Kai Tuo has a short fuse and can get set off by the slightest annoyance. The difference between their personalities also comes out very clearly when you look at how they each treat Miao Miao. Even when he didn’t feel anything for her yet, You Nian always treated her nicely, and later even admits to Kai Tuo that he always thought of her as “lovely and kind”, even back in high school. Just like Miao Miao herself, it’s very clear when You Nian likes or dislikes someone. Kai Tuo, on the other hand, is a natural tsundere who acts mean even to the people he secretly cares about. He’s the type of guy who, when he’s interested in a girl, bullies her rather than show his affection, because that would just be “lame and embarrassing”.
One instance where the difference in their feelings for Miao Miao came out the clearest in my opinion was when Miao Miao decided to switch departments. Despite finding it a pity to see her leave, You Nian encourages her to switch because even he can see clearly that her motivation for architecture is lacking. Kai Tuo, on the other hand, can’t accept it and tries to persuade her to stay. In other words, he’s much more selfish in his feelings than You Nian, who recognizes what would make Miao Miao the happiest and “lets her go”, so to say.
In any case, I though the friendly/brotherly bond between You Nian and Kai Tuo was interesting and it also created an interesting family dynamic with their remarried parents. I thought it was really sweet how Kai Tuo’s mom always endearingly called him “Xiao Tuo”, like “little Tuo”. His mom was so sweet, honestly. It couldn’t have been easy for her either, sending her husband away for badly influencing their child and then being blamed by her child for “betraying” his father by marrying someone else. The difference in vibe between Kai Tuo and his mom was really touching, she was just this sweet little lady trying to accommodate him as much as possible, and she would get teary-eyed when he suddenly said something nice or helped her out. It was comforting to know that he at least had a soft spot for his mom.

The third love story depicted in the show, although covered to a lesser extent, is the one between You Nian’s friends Wang Yi Chao (played by Wang Bo Wen) and Fang Xiao Yue (played by Zhu Jin Tong). Wang Yi Chao, occasionally nicknamed Da Chao, has been You Nian’s friend since high school and the break with Kai Tuo also affected him as the three of them used to be best buds and were on the same basketball team together. In college, Da Chao joins the fashion design department, but he often comes to hang out at You Nian’s dorm or the modeling room of the architecture students. Da Chao is quite the comical character who always strives the lighten the mood and make everyone laugh. While his personality stood in contrast with You Nian’s seriousness, it was fun to see how well the two of them got along. If I had to describe their dynamic it would be that You Nian was the kind of person who would think of a joke and laugh about it on the inside, while Da Chao would put the joke into action and laugh about it in public. Their friendship dynamic was really funny.
Da Chao’s frequent visits to You Nian’s department weren’t just to annoy his friend, but also to catch a glimpse of the Architecture department’s beauty, You Nian’s classmate Fang Xiao Yue. Xiao Yue is one of the top students, just like You Nian, and initially has a crush on him as well. Despite being a year higher, she ends up sharing a dorm with Miao Miao, Xia and Meng Fei because there aren’t any more dorms left, and there are a couple of moments where she and Miao Miao acknowledge each other as love rivals.
Still, I really liked Xiao Yue because unlike any typical love rival character, she remained incredibly mature and kind throughout the series. While she kept pursuing You Nian in her own way, she never went out of her way to humiliate Miao Miao or make her feel bad. On the contrary, when she discovered You Nian’s pictures of Miao Miao on his camera she actually showed them to her instead of hiding it. I even feel like she would’ve returned the Doraemon bouquet to Miao Miao if she had known it was meant for her, she played it fair. Even when she realized that You Nian didn’t reciprocate her feelings, she didn’t become malicious towards Miao Miao, she just went on with her life and that eventually led her to notice what a good guy Da Chao actually was.
I thought it was really cute that Da Chao and Xiao Yue ended up together because it also acknowledged Da Chao as so much more than just the comical sidekick who could never get as popular as You Nian. He really deserved being seen and loved, especially after expressing his feelings to Xiao Yue as sincerely as he did. I thought it was nice that, even though she was definitely annoyed with him at times, Xiao Yue couldn’t help but laugh at his jokes and she gradually came to appreciate him for being such a sweet and loyal guy. It was nice having another, less on-the-foreground couple like this, they made a really cute pair.

I previously said that I came to care for each and every character, but I have to admit there was one person that I never fully came to like, and that was Tang Meng Fei (played by Li Xi Meng). I’ve mentioned her name a couple of times already, but this girl was really something else. I don’t even really know what her problem with Miao Miao was – I guess she was jealous that Miao Miao overtook her position as top student in Fashion Design? – but she did some really nasty things to sabotage her. And it wasn’t that she was trying to one-up her in terms of their studies either, she actually tried to mess things up for Miao Miao in her love life and friendships, she made it PERSONAL. Why would you go out of your way to put a bouquet someone got from their crush on someone else’s table? Why would you go out of your way to post an online article about a delicate situation that doesn’t even have anything to do with you, just to create drama between two best friends? This girl took “too much free time on her hands” to a whole new level. Every time something was going down and she was shown eavesdropping in the background I was like, “GET AWAY, TANG MENG FEI”. She really poked her nose into everything that could hurt Miao Miao in the dirtiest ways, it was so pathetic. Props to Miao Miao for being the bigger person and forgiving her at the end, I don’t know if I would’ve been able to do that. I mean, she didn’t actually apologize or even admit to what she did and why. She just kept going and every time I thought she would’ve matured or learned her lesson she’d be eavesdropping somewhere again and I’d be like, god what is this girl’s problem?! They may have forgiven her at the end, but there was never any kind of reasoning or explanation for why she did what she did, so in my eyes she wasn’t really redeemed.

The next characters I want to discuss in this section are the two main teacher characters, You Nian’s Architecture teacher Li Si Chen (played by Hu Wei) and Miao Miao’s eccentric fashion designer teacher Jia Yin (played by Lu Yi/Coco Lu). First of all I just want to say I found it funny that these two people just became the singular teachers of their respective departments. There were never any other teachers depicted in either the Architecture or the Fashion Design department, despite the fact that Ms. Jia was introduced as a teaching assistant. In any case, the rivalrous dynamic between these two was hilarious.
While they didn’t get fleshed out with backstories as much as the main characters did, they still contributed a lot in terms of You Nian’s and Miao Miao’s studies, respectively. I remember You Nian’s dad and Mr. Li knew each other personally and You Nian’s dad specifically asked him to be very strict with You Nian in class, but there wasn’t much to be strict about since You Nian was such a natural at drawing and designing. Even to lesser skilled students like Miao Miao, Mr. Li was always a very friendly and helpful teacher, and strict when necessary. I thought his way of teaching and guiding his students was very nice. He also picked up on Miao Miao secretly reading fashion design books during class before she even officially decided she wanted to change departments, and he didn’t give her a hard time for changing course, either. After that he also quickly picked up on changes in You Nian’s and Kai Tuo’s behavior when they suddenly started slipping in their focus and he always tried to support them wherever he could. I thought he was a really good teacher and a nice supporting character.
We are introduced to Ms. Jia when she falls in love at first sight with Mr. Li’s nephew, Lu Peng (Xu Hai Qiao), a teacher at Miao Miao’s and You Nian’s high school, when he takes his class on an excursion to Haicheng University to check out the campus. As a result, Ms. Jia decides to stick around at Haicheng and starts pursuing Lu Peng actively, much to his own uncomfortableness. Lu Peng doesn’t even appear that much in the story, he’s more often spoken of than depicted, but while Ms. Jia keeps nagging Mr. Li about him and why he keeps denying her invitations, at some point Mr. Li himself also takes an interest in Ms. Jia. I was personally a bit weirded out by this, because Mr. Li was the uncle of Ms. Jia’s crush and therefore also old enough to be her uncle (I saw on MDL that the actors differ six years in real life, which isn’t too bad, actually). In any case, Mr. Li and Ms. Jia inevitably keep crossing paths and while they start out as rivals, they do become friendlier with each other along the way.
Honestly, as much as I loved the various love stories that ran throughout the show, I didn’t actually mind that this one didn’t play out successfully. Besides my personal uncomfortableness with them as a couple, I was glad that the writers didn’t push them together just for the sake of creating another couple, and their story actually ends with Ms. Jia rejecting Mr. Li’s confession. In a way this also created a more realistic vibe that not all well-matched people were meant to get romantically involved with each other. I thought the dynamic between Mr. Li and Ms. Jia was nice and funny enough as it was, as two rivaling teachers that actually respected each other but were both just too stubborn to admit their own flaws.
In all honestly, Ms. Jia might actually be my favorite character of the entire show. I loved everything about her, and I’m definitely going to praise the actress in my cast comments as well. She was such a wonderful breath of fresh air that lit up every scene that she appeared in. She always made me laugh and she was always so effortlessly funny without overdoing it. At the same time, she was the best teacher Miao Miao could’ve wished for, she recognized her talent immediately and persuaded her to come over to Fashion Design. She didn’t doubt her skills for a second and that was just the kind of encouragement that Miao Miao needed to become confident in her decision to officially pursue fashion design. Ms. Jia was the best, I loved her.

Lastly, I just want to devote a final paragraph to the members of Miao Miao’s family, because they were also very important to her character development. I loved that, while they only appeared a couple of times when Miao Miao came back home on college breaks, there was never any change in the vibe of their household. The only difference was that sometimes Miao Miao’s dad came back for a while and then left again. I thought it was a really nice aspect of the show that, throughout Miao Miao’s transformational journey, there was always this one place that she could keep coming home to without it ever changing. It really felt like, every time Miao Miao came back home, she looked different, but her family and home remained the same. That was a really nice consistency throughout, and it also showed that Miao Miao kept a close connection to where she came from and how she started out.
We didn’t get to see Miao Miao’s dad a lot, but he definitely seemed to be the softer one compared to her mom. Even though it was thanks to him that they had to keep moving around and he knew it wasn’t ideal for his family, he really did his best to make the most out of it and whenever he came home he always loved spending time with his kids. Despite the adult tensions between him and his wife in terms of the practicalities of their living situation, it was nice to see that he at least was a good dad to his daughters, and I liked how, as Miao Miao grew up, she was able to have such good conversations with him as well.
I really liked Miao Miao’s mom, she was hilarious. She was definitely the tough love kind of mom, and she could get a bit uptight when it came to Miao Miao doing things without her permission, but I really feel like that was because she had a hard time accepting that her daughter was growing up and that she just wasn’t ready for Miao Miao to start making her own decisions yet. In the end, she had to face the fact that Miao Miao was a natural fashion designer, good enough to qualify for an international exchange even, and that made her really proud. There was just something about Miao Miao’s mom that made me really like her.
I also really liked Miao Miao’s relationship with her younger sister. Yao Yao was the typical little sister that nagged her sister about everything but actually loved her to bits. When Miao Miao left for college and later for the UK, she actually cried and clung to her pleading her not to leave, which was really endearing. Even though they were apart for the majority of the show, whenever Miao Miao came back home Yao Yao was always immediately back on her case, asking her for more doll clothes and wanting to keep her to herself. I thought it was really nice that Miao Miao always had this warm household to go back to.

Now that I’ve discussed all the characters and relationships that I wanted to address, I want to make mention of a couple more aspects that I liked and want to elaborate on a little bit.
First of all, I really love how this show made use of several key locations that kept coming back and became important throughout the story. As mentioned above, it was nice that Miao Miao occasionally returned to her family home, which always remained the same. Besides this, I also really liked the recurring appearance of the lighthouse, which became her and You Nian’s “special place” back home. It’s so nice to have special places where you end up making special memories and that you somehow keep returning to, even out of pure nostalgia. I thought the lighthouse was a really nice choice for a special place like that. While it started out as the place where You Nian would tutor Miao Miao on her maths in high school, it was also the place where they lit fireworks together on New Year’s Eve, and ultimately the place where You Nian confessed his love to her and where they reconciled after Miao Miao came back from the UK. I thought it was really nice how they kept referring back to it, how it came back on the coconut that You Nian painted for her, and how it became such a sentimental place for the both of them. Using a kind of familiar place to come back to throughout the story also contributed to the consistency of it, and it even made me feel comfortable whenever they returned to it.
Another such place was the architecture modeling room. I feel like the classrooms for architecture and fashion design were furnished in a similar way (maybe it was the same set), but the one for architecture just looked really cozy to me. Through their set design they managed to create such a fun and practical student work space, it made even me want to go there. It actually made me nostalgic for campus life and the places I would hang out at. I thought this show did a really good job at creating these kinds of places that looked so fun and special to be at, and gave them additional value by making them the backdrop of several important scenes.

Before I go on to my more critical points of the show, I want to come back to a topic that I already mentioned in the beginning: consistency. I just want to give a couple of examples that confirmed the attention to detail for me. I know it’s not always good to compare shows too much, but I just want to make a point of how simple it can be to at least make sure a scene flows continuously from one shot to the next – after Road to Rebirth my expectations became so low that I was actually surprised to see the continuancy in the shots in this show.
There was one scene when the Architecture group went on an excursion and Ms. Jia (who tagged along) was talking to Miao Miao outside the bus about changing to Fashion Design. At some point during this conversation, one classmate is seen overhearing them before walking away. A couple of scenes later, we see this flashback from You Nian’s perspective inside the bus where he overhears their conversation too, and the classmate is again seen listening in and walking away at the exact same moment. During another part of this excursion, when they’re gathered around the work banks, someone is seen passing something around through the crowd while Mr. Li is talking, and in the next shot from another angle, we see the same person pass this around. Call me crazy but honestly, these kind of consistent moments fill me with satisfaction and I really wanted to make a note of it because it’s apparently not something to be taken for granted. The fact that they paid attention to even small consistency details like this that probably many people won’t even notice, only confirmed for me that these people knew what they were doing and it all contributed to the good quality of the show.

By the way, I think this is the first Chinese drama I’ve watched so far of which the original title translates literally to the English title. Usually the English titles are completely different from the original titles and I always wonder how they came to them, but in this case, the original Chinese title literally translates to “a little thing called first love”, so that’s easy! I think it’s a sweet title for a sweet show, and I think it really highlights the pure vibe of the story and the message of how the power of an innocent first love can have such a big impact on someone.

Now that I look at the poster, it’s actually kind of funny how Xiao Yue is on there in the same high school uniform as everyone else even though she was the only character who wasn’t at the same high school as them. She only became acquainted with You Nian and Da Chao in college, so she’s actually the odd one out on the poster. Anyways, let’s not make a fuss about that.

I think I’ve already mentioned enough how much I enjoyed this series and I’ve only mostly mentioned things I liked about it. Admittedly, there was very little to dislike in terms of the story and the characters. Still, I want to discuss something that came as a bit of a disappointment, although I still wouldn’t exactly say it ruined the show for me. My main criticism lies with the ending of the series, and with that I mean the last couple of episodes. Although I do think the 36 episodes were all used very efficiently to flesh out the characters and build up the story, I still couldn’t help but feel like they rushed things a bit towards the end.
I’m not entirely sure if this had to do with the fact that I took breaks in-between the final couple of episodes and that’s why it felt like things suddenly happened out of nowhere, but suddenly it was as if they made a couple of time jumps that felt quite rushed. It all started with the final dilemma of You Nian bailing on his international exchange last minute without telling Miao Miao.
In short: You Nian got the chance to study abroad in Edinburgh and this encouraged Miao Miao to also apply for the international exchange to Birmingham that her department was offering. While they were planning to go to the UK together, You Nian suddenly got a different opportunity from a company that wanted to restart his mother’s final unfinished project and he decided that’s what he wanted to do more, but he somehow couldn’t find a way to tell Miao Miao and ended up breaking her heart on the day of their planned departure.
I remember that this weirded me out a lot. It was like I was watching him building up to telling her one moment – he even got so close that he brought up the hypothesis of him not being able to go with her – and then the next moment it was suddenly the day of departure (which I thought was still some time away) and I was like, wait what, we’re already here and he still didn’t tell her?! What’s going on?! It also felt like a really out-of-character thing for You Nian to be so wishy-washy about it to Miao Miao. It wasn’t as if he kept it a secret, he’d already told Kai Tuo and his dad about it. And while I get that he was hesitating because he thought Miao Miao might give up on going abroad as well, the way he dealt with this situation was really not it. Like, seriously, he was planning on telling her after she got on the plane?! That was his great plan?! It gave me major Love Under the Moon vibes, where almost exactly the same thing happened and the FL actually went with the ML to the airport only to be like, “oh yeah btw, I’m not coming with you”. This breakup happened so suddenly and it felt so weird for You Nian to become dumbstruck even after realizing that Miao Miao was jumping to wrong conclusions (that he didn’t actually like her as much as she liked him). He couldn’t even bring himself to say, “No, you got it wrong, that’s not the reason”, he literally just stood there and that really threw me off.
As I said before, in hindsight I get why he had a hard time finding the right time and words to tell her because it also included feelings about what his mom went through. But after everything had gone so smoothly between them, the fact that it immediately led to such an emotional breakup came very much out of the blue for me. And then the next thing, suddenly a year passed and Miao Miao got back and things with You Nian were awkward. I had a hard time keeping up with that sudden acceleration of events. It was good that You Nian eventually finally got to explain what had happened, but no matter how I think about it, I just know that Miao Miao would have supported his reason for staying. It was the most reasonable and valid reason and she probably would’ve gone abroad without him having to persuade her to do so. I really liked how Miao Miao responded to his explanation, because it was literally what went through my head as well: “You should have told me and let me make my own decisions instead of habitually thinking for me and making a decision that you thought was good for me.”
It just bugged me that this had to happen over such a stupid miscommunication, although I do understand that they needed at least one trial through which You Nian would also realize how capable and mature Miao Miao was on her own. It just sucked that it suddenly happened in such a rushed way in the last couple of episodes.
Another thing from the ending that bugged me a little was the final reconciliation between Xin Xin and Kai Tuo. After the time jump, I actually remember thinking, “they better not have casually skipped over them getting together during this year like ‘oh yeah we’re together now'”, cause that would be plain unfair. Luckily, that didn’t happen, but I’m honestly not entirely sure how I feel about their final confession. As I said I’d initially expected things between them to develop much faster and I hadn’t counted on Kai Tuo taking so long to switch from Miao Miao to Xin Xin. In the end I feel like they could’ve started building up Kai Tuo’s feelings for Xin Xin from much earlier on in order to bring them together at a more natural pace. Now I couldn’t help but feel like they rushed their official confession in the last couple of episodes. Kai Tuo’s first confession just hit differently after how he’d confessed to Miao Miao, and I couldn’t blame Xin Xin for feeling more disappointed by it than glad to finally hear the words. After that it just felt like he had to keep proving to her that he was sincere, so the confessions kind of lost meaning, in a way. It eventually ended with Xin Xin overhearing him reject another girl saying he already liked someone else and then suddenly she was ready to accept him. To put it bluntly, we never really got to see Kai Tuo yearn for Xin Xin as he did for Miao Miao, and that actually bothers me. I feel like that could’ve been solved if Kai Tuo’s feelings had changed just a little bit earlier.
Finally, while it was nice that You Nian got to show Miao Miao his finished project, ending it there felt a bit abrupt as well. I actually expected a little more progress in their relationship. I was actually expecting him to propose to her when he brought her to the mystery place with her eyes closed, lol. Anyways, it was a sweet enough ending but I still felt like they could’ve added a final touch to it. After they did such a good job filling the main body of the series with such well-balanced storytelling, I guess I expected a little more from the ending, especially with regards to Xin Xin and Kai Tuo’s love story.

I think I’ve now covered everything that I wanted to say about this show! It took me a while again, but it’s okay because it’s the end of the year and I got no other plans so I can take as long as I want.
I’m just going to go through my cast comments now. As usual with Chinese dramas, I barely knew any of the actors, but I was very impressed by everyone so I want to give them all a big shoutout for contributing to the wonderful watching experience of this series. Seriously, from the main and supporting characters to the family members and the extras in the dorms, everyone delivered. I’m not even sure if they did dubbing for this one, because if they did I didn’t even notice it, that’s how natural everyone was in their acting.

I found out through MDL that Zhao Jin Mai was only seventeen (!) at the time this show aired, so I can understand why they chose to hold back on more intimate scenes. Usually the actors are actually older and made younger, but I guess it was the other way around in this case. I thought it was really cool how she transformed through the story and how she gradually started to look and act more like an adult. I never saw the actress in anything else before, but I think she did a really good job in the role of Miao Miao. She retained the pure youthfulness of a girl in love while she matured into an individually successful young woman and it was really cool to see how she portrayed that development so naturally. I also really liked her chemistry with all her co-stars, from her friends to her younger sister, it looked like they all genuinely got along and that contributed a lot to the whole vibe of the series. I noticed that there’s another series with her on my to watch list, so I’m curious to see a different side of her acting after this. I’m glad I got to know her through this show, I’m definitely going to keep an eye out for her!

I actually knew Lai Guan Lin from Produce 101 Season 2, but I never knew he also acted! Seems like he started appearing in Chinese dramas after Wanna One disbanded. He was also just eighteen (!) when this show aired, which I honestly didn’t expect. To be perfectly honest, while I did like his overall performance, there were a couple of moments where I did find him a little stiff. In certain scenes where You Nian experienced deeper emotions, his face tended to go blank, making it occasionally difficult to gauge what kind of emotion he was trying to portray. Other than that, I thought he made a very endearing casting choice for the role of You Nian, and I thought his chemistry with the female lead was really sweet. I’m kind of curious to other dramas he’s done to see what else he has brought to the table.
Edit: As I was going through Lai Guan Lin’s MDL page I came across some controversial stuff about him which may also have impacted this particular show and his co-star, creating another possible reason for the lack of kissing scenes. I just want to clarify that I watched the show and wrote this review without any of this knowledge. Since this is a happy place with good vibes only, I don’t want that kind of stuff to cloud over the wonderful experience I had while watching this series. I just hope that Guan Lin can find some well-deserved peace and quiet, and I hope he knows he contributed to an incredibly lovely story that made a lot of people, including me, feel very happy. I wish him all the best in his future career, whatever he decides to pursue.

Imagine my surprise when I found out that, while the other main actors for this show were all around 17/18 when this show aired, Wang Run Ze was actually 26! This guy is only one year younger than me! He blended in so well with the others, I never would’ve guessed he was almost ten (!) years older than Lai Guan Lin who had to play his “older” brother. Anyways, I think Wang Run Ze was a really good casting choice for Lin Kai Tuo. He really embraced that “angry kitten” energy to the max, haha. I was glad they made him more than just a one-dimensional tsundere as well, they gave him an emotional backstory and crying scenes and some pretty wholesome character development. He has quite a characteristic face which I thought I’d never seen before, but then I found out he actually had a small role in Meteor Garden. I don’t exactly remember his character from there, but after this show there’s no way I won’t recognize him again. His portrayal of Kai Tuo was really impactful, I think he did a great job. I saw that he’s done a lot of dramas, so maybe I’ll come across him again!

The main reason why Xin Xin was one of my favorite characters in this show was because Chai Wei did such a good job portraying her. I really loved how she brought Xin Xin to life and how she revealed the multiple layers to the character through her performance. As I mentioned in my review, I found her really endearing and I just found myself rooting for her. Xin Xin was such a kind person, really, her heart was truly in the right place and she responded to everything so realistically. She was also just 17 (!) when this aired, so I can imagine it must’ve been quite something to act out a romance with someone almost ten years her senior, even though that age difference wasn’t noticeable on screen at all. The energy and fun she brought to the character and her chemistry with her on-screen friends contributed greatly to how much I ended up liking her, she did a really great job. I hope I get to see her in more shows, cause it seems like she’s still going strong in terms of drama acting roles!

Wang Yi Miao was apparently 24 when this aired, so a bit older than her two on-screen besties. Still, again, the age difference was not visible and she blended in really naturally. As I mentioned before, I really liked Xia, and the actress did a really nice job of making her such a loveable character. The only thing that bugged me every now and then was the focus on her weight, which became like a running gag. I know that China is a very body-conscious society and unfortunately a lot of actors with bigger body types still stereotypically get cast as “the fat friend who likes to eat”, but I really hope this can change. Even without her habit of eating all the time, Xia was such an important and relevant character in the story, and I really hope the actress knows she’s worth way much more than just being cast as “the chubby friend”. I genuinely liked her performance and the energy she brought to Xia. I see that there’s another show with her on my to watch list, so I’m already looking forward to seeing more of her!

Wang Bo Wen was 25 when this show aired, so he was up there with Wang Run Ze as one of the “older” cast members in the on-screen friend group. I liked the natural comical energy he brought to the show. I’ve made this point several times before, but he was one of those people that just exuded a funniness without going overboard with it or trying too hard to be funny. I really liked how he remained a part of the main story through being You Nian’s good friend while simultaneously traveling his own path. I thought it was really sweet that he got his own love story with Xiao Yue, even though his kind of character would’ve normally remained single because he was never “handsome” enough. It was a nice touch that they kept him in as such a consistent regular character, I really liked what he brought to the table through his performance of Da Chao.

Apparently, A Little Thing Called First Love was Zhu Jin Tong’s debut drama! I would’ve never guessed with how natural she was! She was 21 when this aired and she’s been getting roles consistently ever since, good for her! I really liked her portrayal of Xiao Yue. As I mentioned in my review, I was glad that they made her a love rival that wasn’t petty for a change, she played it fair and easily yielded as soon as she realized You Nian had feelings for Miao Miao. The actress brought a really genuine and kind energy to her character, not to mention that beautiful dimple smile! Honestly, with how natural she seemed, I didn’t think for a second that this could be her first drama acting role. I hope I get to see her in more things!

I already said it, but if there’s one cast member I would like to give a shoutout, it’s Coco Lu/Lu Yi who played Ms. Jia. The naturalness with which she lit up every scene she appeared in? The effortless comical timing? She nailed every aspect of her character so well that at some point I forget she was only introduced like halfway through the story. Ms. Jia became such an integral part of the story that I can’t even imagine her not being in it. I really, really enjoyed her performance, she was so natural and funny and simultaneously still managed to be a serious and good teacher. I loved what she brought to the table, and I love the casting directors for casting her, she was the best supporting character ever.

Just like with Zhu Ji Tong, this show was also the drama acting debut of Li Xi Meng, who played Tang Meng Fei. It seems like she’s still starting out, but she has been getting consistent roles ever since her debut, so it looks like she’s making her way up! I’ve already discussed my feelings about her character, and I wish they could’ve given her at least some backstory or an explanation for why she was the way she was. I think the actress would’ve been perfectly able to portray some more complex layers in Meng Fei’s personality. I guess that there just needed to be a bitchy character, and when I say that I would’ve liked to see a bit more from her acting this is mostly linked to the fact that I wished the writers had given her a bit more to work with besides just being a nasty brat. Besides that, there was nothing wrong with her acting, and I did like how they all kind of came to terms with her tsundere personality in the end. I wish the actress a lot of success in her future endeavors and maybe I’ll get to see her in a completely different role sometime.

I just wanted to mention Wang Yi Chan who played Miao Miao’s mom because for some reason she made a big impression on me. Maybe it’s because of her stunning face and the way she could stare a hole into anything if she kept that gaze fixed on something, but even with the old school clothes and apron and the quirky curly hair, I just really liked her as the casting choice for Miao Miao’s mom.
The same went for Zhang Zi Yu, who played little Yao Yao. She was only 11 when this show aired, but she was such a natural young actress. I’m not even surprised that this show wasn’t her first and she’s been acting in dramas since she was 8. The consistent natural acting of this little girl will definitely linger in my memory for a long time, I was really impressed by her.

I probably don’t need to say it again, but I’ll still do it: I really, really enjoyed this show. It was cute, it was romantic, it was heartfelt and just the right balance of sweet and serious. The entire cast gave a stellar performance, better than I’ve seen in a Chinese drama in a while, and every single character contributed to a lovely watching experience. I’m not typically one for rewatching stuff but I genuinely understood the people in the YouTube comments who mentioned they kept coming back to this show, because it’s just the kind of fluffy comfort romance show that you could watch again and again. I’m glad I got the chance to watch it now and end the year with a feelgood show and a positive review. I would definitely recommend it if someone was inquiring about a cute romantic comedy, it’s absolutely lovely and I’ll keep saying how positively surprised I was by the good overall quality of the series as well, not just in terms of acting and storywriting. Yes, the ending left some things to be desired, but it didn’t ruin my experience that much – my main impression of it is still predominantly positive.

With that, I’d like to conclude my final review of 2024. Thanks to anyone who bothers to read these and takes the time to post a supportive comment, it’s always greatly appreciated to read that others share my thoughts and feelings and enjoy reading my extensive rants.
I’ve been able to watch 17 dramas this year, which is a lot less than previous years but it’s been quite a busy year with me finishing my MA and my first solo book translation. I will go on with my watchlist using the Wheel of Fortune app, because I like the variety of the shows it’s picked out for me this year and it allows me to get to shows that would’ve otherwise gotten me a very long time to get to.

For now I wish everyone very merry holidays and a happy New Year, and I will be back in 2025.

Until then!

Bye-bee xx

Shards of Her

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Shards of Her
(她和她的她 / Ta He Ta De Ta)
MyDramaList rating: 7.5/10

I didn’t actually expect I’d be able to finish my next show one week after the last one, but here we are. I made the submission deadline for my translation and won’t get my final feedback until two weeks later, so I found some more time to watch shows in the meantime. I’m not gonna lie, I yelped in excitement when my Wheel of Fortune app revealed my next watch because I’d been really looking forward to this one. I also liked that I got to watch another Taiwanese drama before the year was done, and that I could watch it in good quality with decent subtitles on Netflix. I’d seen either a trailer or read a summary (I don’t remember) but I was positive that this show was going to be something else. Having said that, I should put a major trigger warning here because this show (and consequently this review) deals with depictions/mentions of rape, sexual assault and harassment, victim-blaming and mental illness.

One more disclaimer: I’ve written all the names in this review according to the standard Mandarin pinyin romanization, although the subtitles that I watched and most of the credit sources I could find used the Wade-Giles writing system (eg. “Hsi instead of “Xi / “Hsieh instead of “Xie). I just hope I’m not offending the correct spelling of the names, it’s just that I’m personally more familiar with the pinyin writing of Chinese names. I also credited all the actors with their Chinese names rather than their international names in my review since that’s how they are credited in the show.

Shards of Her is a Taiwanese Netflix drama series with nine episodes of about fifty minutes each. It’s about Lin Chen Xi (played by Xu Wei Ning), a top employee at a headhunting company who also goes by her international name “Seher” (which is Turkish for “dawn”). Chen Xi is an einselganger, she prefers to work alone and steer clear of parties and engagements that force her to socialize with other people. She has a very loving boyfriend of three years, Li Hao Ming (played by Li Cheng Bin), but she’s been quite distant with him for a while and contemplates breaking up with him. It’s hinted from the start that Chen Xi is dealing with the repercussions of a youth trauma, and we see that she’s isolating herself from the people around her, even from her mother, whom she hasn’t contacted in years even after both her father and her brother passed away. Chen Xi’s unstable state is tested even more when her company is reinforced with a new guy who just came back from the US and who immediately starts behaving inappropriately familiar with her. This guy, Tu Chun Ju or “Danny” (played by Wu Kang Ren) even starts openly harrassing her on the workfloor, but always makes it seem like she came onto him when others pass by. When Chen Xi starts ignoring him, he gets mad and takes revenge: he lures her to the company at night, knocks her out, ties her up and attempts to violate her while filming it. Chen Xi manages to escape, but as she’s trying to get away in her car in the pouring rain, desperately trying to reach Hao Ming, she gets hit by a truck. When she wakes up, she suddenly finds herself back in her family home in her hometown. Her whole family is still alive, she’s still in touch with her best friends from high school, and Hao Ming doesn’t exist – that is, he’s now a shabby-looking police officer by the name of Liu Chang Yu (nicknamed Xiao Liu) and they’ve never met before. She’s told that she’s been in a car accident and that she has amnesia, and that Hao Ming and her headhunting company are just hallucinations caused by the accident. While navigating through this familiar yet strange environment, Chen Xi slowly recovers her memories and is forced to come face to face with the excruciating trauma of being raped by her maths teacher back in high school.

The link to Chen Xi’s previous encounter with sexual assault is already suggested from the first episode onwards. The way she flinches when a man (even Hao Ming) even so much as touches her on the back or shoulder, and the vague memory fragments that shoot by during Danny’s attack speak volumes. However, it’s not until she goes into that alternate reality (if that’s what it was) that she’s able to slowly recall what exactly went down in her youth. The alternate reality seems like a pleasant solution at first, since Chen Xi still has her family and friends and she has a nice job at a study center for children. However, the more she remembers and tries to uncover, the more she realizes that everyone around her is actually grateful for the fact that she doesn’t remember anything and tries to hide the truth from her. It’s mostly meant to protect her because she’s been miserable ever since it happened and forgetting about it might actually bring some lightness back into her life. But of course it won’t do to just bury an event like that and pretend like it didn’t happen just to keep the peace in the community.

I honestly think this show did an amazing job at portraying the rawness of dealing with trauma, and how one appalling deed can damage a person for life. As if the rape itself wasn’t enough, it got even worse when, after Chen Xi finally managed to speak up about it, the adults around her did NOTHING. On the contrary, they actually turned on her and blamed her for being the seducer. Even her own father didn’t believe her at first, and even after considering that she told the truth he just yelled at her for not resisting. In the direct aftermath of the rape, Chen Xi wasn’t able to find anyone who could or even wanted to help her. Most people didn’t believe her and when she finally mustered up the courage to report it to the police, they just covered it up and relocated the one officer who actually tried to help her. Nothing was done about it, no justice was served. As a result, Chen Xi has been walking around with PTSD for twenty years, tricking herself into believing that she isn’t meant to be happy. She keeps a distance from Hao Ming because she doesn’t want him to go through the same thing as her ex-boyfriend Chiang Yuan (played by Hu Yu Wai), who, despite being extremely supportive at first, left her because her trauma became too much for him to handle and she just wouldn’t “get better”. In the end, going through that alternate reality and reliving the vivid memories, Chen Xi is able to return to her own reality, in which she’s apparently been dissociating all this time: she comes to in the middle of a police interrogation and doesn’t even remember how she got there. Later it’s revealed that she’s been writing a private blog in which she records her dissociations, so she has actually been aware of them for a while but just never managed to seek help because of her self-isolation.

As someone who’s been lucky enough to never go through something like this, the depiction of Chen Xi’s deteriorating mental health caused by this horrendous event in her youth struck me very hard and repeatedly brought me to tears. I’ve mentioned it several times before in other reviews, but I always appreciate it so much when drama writers use their platform to convey a serious message and spread awareness. I deeply respect this show for painting such a raw and realistic image of the severity of sexual assault. It means all the more to see an Asian show like this because I believe that this kind of topic is an even bigger taboo in Asian countries and cultures. I recently came across a documentary called Black Box Diaries about a Japanese journalist who set out to investigate her own sexual assault by an influential superior, so my awareness regarding this topic happened to be already heightened when I started watching this series. All in all, I thought this drama was both heartwrenching and, with regards to the ending, extremely empowering at the same time.

Within the alternate reality, Chen Xi finds her real life colliding with one where things took a slightly different turn, and these two lives start blending together to the point where it becomes hard to distinguish what’s real and what isn’t. In this regard, I was lowkey reminded of The Light in Your Eyes, where we see the events unfold through the lens of a woman with dementia and it’s revealed in the final episode that almost the entirety of the show was one big Alzheimer’s episode. I’ve seen several source sites explaining it as an alternate reality, but in fact it’s actually one big dissociation that Chen Xi has.
It’s not even that she got into a coma after the accident, because it’s revealed after she returns that she’s been walking around, albeit in a mindless state, and she even went to a police station. The pieces fall together when she realizes that the people she encountered in the alternate reality weren’t just people from her past but also neighbors from her apartment complex in the real world. One neighbor became the apothecary guy that caused her car accident in the alternate reality, and one man and his daughter became a hardware store clerk and a girl from the study center she worked at. It doesn’t seem like she actively created this alternate reality as a way of coping with her past, but more like her mind walked away with her and unconsciously put in familiar faces from her neighborhood. It’s more like a dream in that sense, where your consciousness picks up details and impressions from things you’ve seen and puts them in a random setting in your mind. In any case, the main recurring “characters” in her dissociation/alternate reality are the people that she was closest to at the time of the rape.

Chen Xi (as a teen played by Lin Yi Lan) grew up in a family of four: her mother Chiu Wan Fen (Li Pei Ling), her father Lin Yu Sheng (Wang Yi Cheng) and her twin brother Lin Chen Ye (as a teen played by Chang Kai Zhe, as an adult by Xu Jun Hao). We don’t get to see too many flashbacks of how she was as a teen, but she generally seemed to be a sociable and bright girl with many hopes for the future. She cared a lot about her grades, and was very popular in high school for both her looks and her academic results. Her two best friends in high school were Cen Chi Ling (as a teen played by Lin Si Ting, as an adult by Li Pei Yu) and Yang Jia Ying (as a teen played by Xu Zhu Ting, as an adult by Wen Zhen Ling). In reality, Chen Xi broke things off with them after they betrayed her trust and caused her secret to be leaked through school, but in her alternate reality they somehow kept in touch.
Lastly, there’s Yen Sheng Hua (as a teen played by Hu Miu Miu, as an adult by Jia Jing Wen), another girl from Chen Xi’s class who went through the same ordeal with that teacher, but who was never brave enough to speak up about it and in that sense also left Chen Xi on her own. Before her car accident in the real world, Chen Xi just happened to meet Sheng Hua again through a work party she attended… as Danny’s wife.

I’d like to go over Chen Xi’s family members and friends one by one.
Starting with her family, as mentioned above Chen Xi grew up in a family of four, with both her parents and her twin brother Chen Ye. In the first episode, it’s established that in the real world, both her father and her brother passed away several years earlier, but the cause of their deaths is only explained in the final episode. In the real world, Chen Xi left her hometown after graduating high school and asked her family not to come looking for her. While building her career she told people (including Hao Ming) that both her parents had passed away – she really wanted a clean slate. This went so far that she didn’t even come back home after hearing that her father and brother had died. Her mother was left alone after losing all her family members, and has been trying to reach Chen Xi time and time again, to no avail.
In the alternate reality, after Chen Xi finally musters up the courage to tell her mother what’s happened, Wan Fen immediately believes her – her face when she comes out of her daughter’s room after hearing what happened is heartbreaking in itself. In the two-on-two conversation with the teacher and his wife, Chen Xi’s mother is the only one defending her daughter, and she’s always blamed her husband for settling the case rather than persecuting the teacher.
I thought that the character of Chen Xi’s mother was depicted very realistically. While she initially comes across as a slightly tough-love kind of mom, and you’d wonder how she would react, especially since she’d been classmates with that teacher herself, the way she crumbled after hearing the news and didn’t reprimand Chen Xi whatsoever was very reassuring. Admittedly, she also tried to hide the truth from her after she lost her memory, but in hindsight I really believe there was no ill intention in that. She just felt so sorry for what her daughter had to go through that she saw the amnesia as a kind of blessing in disguise that could help her daughter regain her joy in life. I think this came across really well in how heartbroken she seemed when watching how Chen Xi couldn’t even help her out in the kitchen anymore, and how she expressed her agony over why her daughter had to keep suffering like this.
I’m really glad that Chen Xi ended up visiting her back in the real world and that they made up. Although her mother also didn’t have the power to do anything about the situation back in the day, she was still the only adult in Chen Xi’s life who wanted justice for her, and actively spoke up against her husband and the teacher’s wife for not taking proper responsibility.

Although I really blamed Lin Yu Sheng for not believing in or standing up for his daughter, it did sting to see how much that ended up damaging him in the end. I was really mad at him for having the nerve to yell at his daughter why she would make up such stories about her teacher. He even suggested she did it out of spite for her failing grades – because sure, it was just a wave of rebellious adolescence that caused her to suddenly lose all motivation in school when she’d been such a hardworking student all this time. 🙄
In the alternate reality, the other student who went through the same thing as Chen Xi, Sheng Hua, is in hiding because she’s suspected for strangling their teacher in his bed in the caring home where she happened to work. It seems that Chen Xi’s father has been helping Sheng Hua out financially, making sure she got a good job, and he’s been hiding her in his orchard cabin in the mountains.
This was something that wasn’t really clear to me, to be honest. I guess there is some sense in the theory that Yu Sheng was dealing with some lingering regret of failing to stand up for his own daughter, and that he tried to compensate for that by helping out Sheng Hua. But it was never really explained through the narrative how they were related exactly and why Yu Sheng suddenly decided to back Sheng Hua. He even made it look like he was having an affair with her or something, so I couldn’t blame Wan Fen’s suspicion either. In any case, it’s safe to say that Yu Sheng ended up with a crippling sense of guilt towards his daughter. He kept blaming himself for not supporting her from the start by openly suing Teacher Guy. He ultimately died of an illness, and when Chen Xi goes back to her family home in the final episode she has a final short “encounter” with him in which she tells him she’s not mad at him anymore. I thought that was a really tender moment, and the way they hugged each other, both bawling their eyes out, was so touching. The way her father thanked her for forgiving him in the end really made me feel like it was his spirit telling her that he could finally move on now.

Being the same age as Chen Xi, of course there wasn’t much that her twin brother Chen Ye could do about the situation either. Although he’s alive in the alternate reality, he seems to have a very dark mindset and we also see a whole bunch of newspaper scrappings regarding various unfairly processed sexual assault cases on his bedroom wall. As a matter of fact, he’s the one who strangled Teacher Guy in Chen Xi’s alternate reality. Sheng Hua might have drugged him, but Chen Ye wore the gloves that left no fingerprints.
Although there aren’t too many scenes that show the relationship between Chen Xi and Chen Ye, we can see from the way she hugs him after first waking up in the alternate reality that he means a lot to her. When Chen Xi reconnects with her mother in the final episode, Wan Fen reveals that Chen Ye died when he got into an accident on his bike on the way back from visiting Teacher Guy himself. She never knew why he went to see him or what they talked about, and now there’s no one left to tell the tale – although Teacher Guy is still alive in the real world, he’s had a stroke and is unable to speak anymore.
After seeing her father (or his spirit) off for the last time, Chen Xi also has one final encounter with her brother, and I had to fight back tears when Chen Ye told her that maybe he would’ve been able to protect her better if he’d been born as her older brother, one minute earlier.
It was just so heartbreaking to discover with Chen Xi that all these people cared so much about what had happened and all felt so bad about not standing up for justice and the truth when it mattered. It really proves that such events affect more than just the direct victims; Chen Xi’s entire family fell apart after what happened, and it was really touching to see her finally come to terms with that after so many years.

Moving on to Chen Xi’s two best friends, Cen Chi Ling and Yang Jia Ying.
Starting with Chi Ling, she’s the tomboy of the group. As an adult she prefers to wear suits and sneakers rather than skirts and heels, she’s not interested in meeting guys and the way she presents herself can be described as more “masculine”, especially in contrast to Jia Ying. Despite her chill demeanor, Chi Ling has always genuinely cared for her friends, and after Chen Xi opened up to her in private about what happened to her, Chi Ling even admitted that she couldn’t stop crying whenever she thought about it. It’s a shame that Jia Ying ended up revealing the secret to the school, because this caused a vital friction in Chen Xi’s trust towards Chi Ling as she promised not to tell anyone, not even Jia Ying. Still, I did appreciate that she chose to support Jia Ying throughout the shit she went through out of a lingering sense of guilt for not being able to help Chen Xi at the time and not wanting to make the same mistake again.
Throughout the alternate reality, Chi Ling gets her own short storyline in which she starts working at the company that offered Chen Xi a new job in the real world, Daton. However, it doesn’t take Chi Ling long to realize that the company is very shady – not only does her female manager favoritize young male employees while terrorizing the young female ones, the Sales department actually utilizes low-paygrade employees to dine with and entertain their clients outside of office hours. Chi Ling eventually quits her job after discovering that her own colleagues were in on this as well and let themselves be used like that, even after hearing their stories of how desperate they are to work their way up and contribute to their families.

Jia Ying is the opposite of Chi Ling, both in terms of appearance and personality. As a teen, she was already teasingly called a “nympomaniac” by her friends because she was always fantasizing about boys. As an adult, she’s a very confident and wealthy young woman who’s not afraid to put her charms to use. However, the fact that she throws around her bubbliness like that gets her into a couple of nasty situations herself. In the alternate reality, she lives in Chen Xi’s apartment from the real world, and is secretly being stalked by the reception clerk who planted a hidden camera in her bedroom and even sneaks into her room at night to watch her sleep. If that isn’t bad enough, she eventually sleeps with a guy who films her while they’re having sex and he “happens” to leak it to his friends’ group chat, after which the video goes viral, causing Jia Ying to fall from grace in the most disrespectful way.
For some reason she gets mad at Chen Xi when her friends come to see how she’s doing, and tells her something strange: that she finally feels like she “won” over her. It’s ultimately revealed that Jia Ying has been jealous of Chen Xi ever since they were teens, because she always used to be the most admired girl in school and she kept wanting to one-up Chen Xi. Still, after learning what happened to her, it wasn’t actually her intention to blab her secret like that – she was actually trying to stand up for Chen Xi to some girls talking smack about her, and she told the school counsellor in the hopes of helping Chen Xi. Because Chen Xi turned her back on her and Chi Ling after that, they never got to talk it out.

While I liked the storylines from Chi Ling and Jia Ying because it really helped me get a better understanding of their characters, I have to admit that I’m not entirely sure how their storylines played into Chen Xi’s dissociation. After all, Chen Xi wasn’t present during these events at Chi Ling’s company or in Jia Ying’s private life, so how did these storylines come to be? Was it a way to redeem the two of them in her mind, that she imagined them in stressful and damaging situations of their own? I’m also not sure if these things actually happened or that they just played out in the alternate reality.
What I can imagine is that her mind purposely put Jia Ying in a similar position as her, as it played on the knowledge of Jia Ying’s jealousy of her. In the alternate reality, Jia Ying lives in Chen Xi’s apartment and has a social/career status similar to Chen Xi’s as a top headhunter. Even though Danny doesn’t appear in the alternate reality, the element of him filming her as he assaulted her could’ve also been reflected in how that guy filmed Jia Ying during sex and ended up harming her reputation with that.
The element of young people being forced into uncomfortable situations in order to keep contributing to society and their families also kept coming back. The young employees at Chi Ling’s company and the reception clerk at Jia Ying’s apartment were all revealed to be in a desperate situation, beit regarding money or taking care of an elderly relative. Chen Xi even found herself feeling bad for the reception clerk when it was revealed that arresting him would leave his grandma, his only remaining relative, by herself. It also made me think of how Sheng Hua told Chen Xi that she didn’t want to speak up about what happened because she couldn’t bear to face her grandma if she would find out about it.
These situations involve so much shame and guilt that, even when they know they’re being mistreated, people just can’t seem to speak up or report it because they know it’s going to harm the people around them as well.
There could be multiple explanations for how her friends’ storylines fit into Chen Xi’s dissociation episode. On the one hand I liked that I got to think about that by myself, but on the other hand I also would’ve liked if that could’ve been explained a bit more clearly through the narrative, because I still don’t really understand it.

The relationship between Chen Xi and Sheng Hua is even more complex since they both went through the same thing. As I mentioned, the two briefly meet again in the real world, where Sheng Hua is Danny’s wife. I feel like it is quite common for people that went through a traumatic (abusive or sexual) trauma earlier on in life to somehow end up in an equally abusive relationship or even marriage. I couldn’t for the life of me imagine how Sheng Hua and Danny got together, but it was very typical that Sheng Hua got stuck in that same cycle of trauma. Because yeah, Danny didn’t just harrass Chen Xi at work, he was actually an abusive husband at home, as well. Sheng Hua kind of redeems him at some point by talking about how he himself also grew up in a toxic environment with an abusive mother, and that that’s what warped him like that. Still, it was really empowering to see how Sheng Hua ultimately snapped out of her self-punishment and decided to help Chen Xi get the video evidence of how Danny assaulted her.
There were two scenes in the final episode that I found really powerful: the one where she went in the bath and it suddenly hit her that she deserved better, and the one where she recalled her younger self saying, “Maybe things will become better when we grow up” (or something along those lines) in the car. You could just see the realization of “what the hell am I putting myself through” on her face.
In the alternate reality, Sheng Hua stayed in the hometown and she even started caring for Teacher Guy at the caring home she worked at. While she did drug him, Sheng Hua wasn’t actively involved in the murder as she happened to walk in on Chen Ye as he was strangling the guy. Still, it was really heartwrenching to see how she was prepared to take the responsibility for the crime in order not to harm Chen Xi and her family even more. She actually hoped for a better outcome for Chen Xi after she was able to forget about it, and was prepared to doom her own future in order to let at least Chen Xi have a happy ending. It was nice to see the two of them come together in the end. The hugs they shared, both as teens when they realized they went through the same thing, and as adults when they dealed with the Danny situation together brought genuine tears to my eyes.

In hindsight I really felt for Sheng Hua and the position she was in. I’ve learned from other stories of domestic and/or sexual abuse that there are so many people who don’t speak up out of fear or shame or guilt. In this show, it happens in a small town where nothing bad ever happens, and it was very understandable how big of an impact such an event would have on a tight community like that. I thought the most empowering thing at the end of the show, besides Chen Xi deciding to go after Danny, was that Sheng Hua finally cut herself free from the shackles of her low self-esteem. The fact that, even after being tied down by that event for such a long time, both Chen Xi and Sheng Hua were able to find the strength to not let it happen again was incredible.

I know I’ve been referring to him as Teacher Guy, but he does have a name and I do have to discuss him and his wife. Xie Chi Chung (played by Chen Yi Wen) was the math teacher at Chen Xi and her friends’ school and he was a very popular teacher. He and his wife Xie Hui Chen (played by Yu Zi Yu) would even invite groups of students to their house for private tutoring lessons, and Chen Xi was one of those students. Xie Chi Chung always attributed his affection towards the girls to the fact that he never got to have children of his own, and therefore his students were like daughters to him – I vomited a little when he used this as an excuse the first time he intimately hugged Chen Xi in his school office. He pretended to genuinely care about his female students’ futures and offered to support them in any way possible, posing as the best and nicest teacher ever, but in the meantime he kept eyeing their necklines and youthful faces when they weren’t paying attention. What’s worse is that, in Chen Xi’s case, he never even took responsibility for his deed and he actually poisoned her against her parents, saying that he may have given off mixed signals or something. I can never understand the audacity of a middle-aged man who just assumes that everyone should agree that a teenage girl would be willingly attracted to him. There are actual child(!!) rape cases where a grownass man has claimed that he was seduced and/or given consent by his victim, it’s unbelievable. Being a respectable and loved teacher shouldn’t mean anything if this is how you treat your students, especially after they’ve warmed up to you as a supportive and dependable adult or even a father figure. It’s disgusting.
What I did find curious was that Sheng Hua told Chen Xi that, each time it happened to her (which means he did it to her multiple times?!) he would apologize afterwards (this also turned out to be the reason she stuck by Danny), but for some reason with Chen Xi he couldn’t even bring himself to admit he did it. The way he just casually touched her shoulder again the next day at school and told her he was worried about her was insane. I just can’t understand how people can be like that, not even taking responsibility for what they’ve done to another person, especially such a young girl.

One of the most realistic parts of the series for me was how Chen Xi started behaving afterwards. How she went home and just started throwing buckets of water over herself in an attempt to “cleanse” it off her. This habit later went on as we see adult Chen Xi taking fully-clothed showers, just letting the water pour – no amount of cleaning was ever going to be enough to wash everything off. That makes me think of a line from a play I once did, “A Kind of Hades” by Lars Norén, in which a girl claiming to have been sexually assaulted says something along the lines of, “You can wash a stain off a piece of clothing, but you can’t wash a stain off a soul”. The way she was haunted by nightmares of Xie Chi Chung lying on top of her saying, “Just a little bit more” was also excruciating. Again, I just want to applaud this drama for portraying the effects and aftermath of such a traumatic experience in such a raw and realistic way.

Sometimes we say that being aware of and looking away from sexual assault is equally bad or even worse than executing the assault itself. The one person in this drama that set my teeth on edge more than Xie Chi Chung himself was his wife, Xie Hui Chen. I honestly didn’t understand how she could live with herself. She admitted being aware of his sins and hating him for it, so why the hell did she keep blaming it all on the girls even after he died?! After walking in on her husband raping Chen Xi, she only steadied herself on the fridge for a SECOND before she put on MUSIC and started COOKING DINNER. Her accusations weren’t just a way to support her husband because she wasn’t actually aware of what went down, no, she’d seen it with her own eyes. I get that her husband may have put some pressure on her to hush it up but she kept accusing Chen Xi and Sheng Hua even after he died! Heck, she even took advantage of Chen Xi’s amnesia to fill her head with false facts about how Sheng Hua had probably killed her husband and also likely seduced Chen Xi’s father.
Even after Wan Fen came to visit her one last time to ask her why she did what she did, she still pretended to be a victim and that those girls ruined her marriage. She kept saying she had to keep up being a good wife, like, she didn’t even have a family anymore at this point, so why did she still keep accusing those girls? She was unbelievable. Honestly, even after seeing her get mad at her incapacitated husband in the final episode and telling him how much she’s always hated him for making her go along with his lies… I still believe that was on her. She went along with his lies even though she could’ve made the ultimate difference in busting him. So yeah, she’s not redeemed to me. She could’ve been pivotal in getting justice, and if she really hated her husband that much all this time it makes even less sense to me why she chose to keep up the pretense of a loyal wife.

I’d like to finish off this character analysis segment with Hao Ming/Xiao Liu because UGH this man has my heart. I’m not even lying when I say that I lowkey fell in love with him, lol.
Hao Ming was literally the greenest flag ever. Despite the fact that Chen Xi tried to distance herself from him, he kept trying to be there for her in every possible way. The way he cleaned her entire house for her out of his own volition after she told him she was looking for a cleaner because she made a mess at home?? The way he invited himself to her meeting with Danny after the assault and was ready to punch him in the face despite not even knowing what had happened yet?? The way he bawled his eyes out after discovering what she went through and reading her private blog about her dissociations?? The way he joined a freaking SUPPORT GROUP on how to support a traumatized partner?? The way he got in touch with her mother and paid off her entire house debt for her?? The way he was so respectful but kept showing her time and time again that he wasn’t going anywhere and pleaded with her to at least let him stay by her side?? Seriously, where can I get a Hao Ming? I want one. 😭
I’m glad that Chen Xi really loved him, at least. She didn’t want to break up because she felt uncomfortable with him, but because she wanted to protect him so he wouldn’t get hurt like Chiang Yuan had before. By the way, I thought it was really nice that Chiang Yuan was the one who urged Hao Ming to keep supporting her because her pushing him away meant that she actually really needed him. I thought that was very mature of him as an ex-boyfriend, also because it showed that even though he couldn’t handle it, he still cared about Chen Xi’s wellbeing and wanted her to be happy as well. The way that Chen Xi desperately tried to reach Hao Ming after what Danny did, even after she’d just told him that she wanted to break up with him, only confirmed all the more that she really loved Hao Ming and felt safe with him.
In the alternate reality, her mind somehow merges Hao Ming with that one police officer that once tried to help her out, who was called Xiao Liu. Although his personality and style are the complete opposite of the Hao Ming she knows, Chen Xi still finds herself drawn to him and vice versa. She ultimately admits to Hao Ming that she must have merged the two of them because he had always been that person to her who stood by her and wanted to help her. He was the best partner she could’ve ever wished for, all the more because he respected that she wasn’t well enough to think about marriage yet and he would be there for her all the way until she was. As much as I love a good romance and I would’ve loved to see a kiss between Hao Ming and Chen Xi, it made me love him all the more that he kept a respectful distance and didn’t touch her until she would tell him she was ready. We need more Hao Mings and Xiao Lius in the world.

Now that I’ve covered all the characters I wanted to discuss, I’d like to point out a couple of things that remained a bit vague to me until the end. There were a couple of storylines that were introduced in the alternate reality that I found hard to place within Chen Xi’s experiences. I’ve mentioned the examples of Chi Ling and Jia Ying before, but this also went for the storyline about Lin Yu Sheng protecting Sheng Hua, for example. I came up with a theory of my own, that he did it to somehow compensate for failing his daughter, but I still found it a bit weird. After all, it had been twenty years since the rape and Chen Xi was still around, so there must have been a way to still make it up to his own daughter instead of the other victim, right? The way his “relationship” with Sheng Hua was revealed and the way he seemingly wanted to put distance between himself and his wife, it really did feel like he was having an affair at first. I wish it would’ve been explained a bit more clearly how exactly Yu Sheng got involved with Sheng Hua. For Chen Ye, it was made clear that he overheard Sheng Hua tell an unconscious Chen Xi after her accident that she was going to “put him to sleep”, so I guess he acted on that. But even if it was meant as compensation for his daughter, I still couldn’t help but feel like it was a bit of a stretch for Yu Sheng to start caring so much for Sheng Hua instead. I would’ve liked a bit more explanation about that storyline.
I already mentioned this in the discussion of Chi Ling’s and Jia Ying’s storylines, but it really did remind me of The Light in Your Eyes. I remember that show also showed some storylines between supporting characters where the main character wasn’t even present, so I keep wondering how Chen Xi’s mind came up with these. Because of this, I also found it hard to gauge what exactly was the truth, like what really happened and what was just a figment of Chen Xi’s dissociation?
The scene in which the two worlds collided and Chen Xi woke up from the alternate reality only “explained” it in images and not words, and it went by so fast that I couldn’t make sense of all of it. I guess different elements from the real world were reflected in events from the alternate reality in one way or another and it wasn’t meant to be black and white, but after finishing the series I still couldn’t help but feel like I would’ve liked a little bit more explanation on certain storylines from the alternate reality.
Another element that I found a bit hard to place was the role of the blind street vendor girl, because she seemed to be quite significant even though she wasn’t based off of someone from the real world as far as I know. She appeared in the alternate reality as someone that Chen Xi knew, and she was the one who told Chen Xi that you could hear it clearly when someone was lying – which Chen Xi then tested out on Xie Hui Chen. Did the blind girl have another additional purpose that I missed? I feel like she must’ve been utilized as more than just a plot tool to tell Chen Xi about the lying.
I also found Chiang Yuan’s return in the alternate reality a bit hard to gauge. He didn’t seem to be any different from the real world, he was still her ex-boyfriend who traveled the world and sent her photos wherever he went, but it also seemed like he wanted to get back into her life or something. The way he and Jia Ying had that little rendezvous almost made it seem like they were plotting something together or were even having an affair. This turned out not to be the case, but I guess I would’ve liked a bit more clarity on how he related to Jia Ying, all the more since she made it clear to him in person that she didn’t care that much about Chen Xi. Chiang Yuan also seemed adamant on keeping Chen Xi away from the truth, and he specifically didn’t want her to remember Sheng Hua for some reason, but that was also not explained furthe. I guess it could just be that he was another person who thought the amnesia was a blessing in disguise that could finally help Chen Xi come out of her darkness.
So yeah, there were a couple of storylines and interactions between supporting characters that I didn’t fully understand and would’ve liked to grasp better.
As I was watching this series, it somehow reminded me of how I felt while watching Something in the Rain, another very good and empowering series that deals with sexual harrassment on the workfloor. I thought Shards of Her was incredibly powerful in its acting, writing and overall execution. I also liked that it ended with Chen Xi gradually picking herself up, in no rush to catch up to Hao Ming who was waiting for her at the end of the street with a smile on his face. I guess my only criticisms are really just those small ambiguities and question marks that I was left with after finishing it. While I appreciated the open ending, I guess I would’ve liked a bit more closure? At the end? But yeah, overall it really grabbed me and actually managed to move to tears multiple times, which doesn’t happen often.

Before moving on to my cast comments, I would like to make a couple final remarks about other elements from the show that I found interesting or made an impact on me.
First of all, the name “Seher”. We find out through Hao Ming’s perspective in the first episode that the name derives from a book of the same name by the Turkish writer Selahattin Demirtaş. I haven’t read it, but I found something interesting in the summary on Goodreads: apparently it’s a collection of short stories about “ordinary people living through extraordinary times”. The titular story “Seher” is about a young woman who is “robbed of her dreams in an unimaginable act of violence”. Sound familiar? Can’t say I blame Chen Xi for identifying with a story like that. I liked that they came up with such a unique and meaningful international name for her, it actually made me curious to read the book myself!

As I sometimes do, I would also like to compare the original and English titles of this series. The original Taiwanese title can be translated to something like “She, Her and Her”, if I’m correct. It features the character for “her” (她 ta) three times. I couldn’t help but wonder if that has anything to do with the three versions of Chen Xi that exist within the story? Her teen self and the two from the different realities? I think it’s a really interesting title. I also really like “Shards of Her”, because it doesn’t only refer to different versions or aspects of one person, but also to the literal image of breaking glass when Chen Xi finally manages to break out of her dissociation. I think it holds a very relevant ambiguity that directly relates to the mental state of the main character, so I find the English title very well chosen.

I also really loved the song that plays during the opening sequence. I thought it matched the vibe of the series very well, and it even had something melancholic and haunting to it. It’s called “Shattered Fullness” (very fitting, also with regards to the English title of the show) and it’s performed by an artist called Xiao Yu. I thought it was a really good song with great vocals, and it was utilized very powerfully within the show as well. When it played during that final sequence where Chen Xi narrated that she was finding her way back to the light and you saw all those people from different phases in their life, it actually gave me goosebumps. This show really knew how to combine music with images.

Lastly I just want to say a couple of things regarding the acting and casting in general. As I mentioned before, I thought the acting in this drama was VERY good. Something that jumped out to me in particular was how well the actors were made up to look like they aged. While Chen Xi and her friends had younger versions portraying them as teens, the actors for Chen Xi’s parents and the Xie couple remained the same, and I thought they did such a good job of aging them. I don’t know what they did to their skins and hair and how they added such natural looking old-age spots and greying hair effects, but it looked incredibly realistic. I’ve seen several dramas where people literally just get a blatant cheap white-hair wig to show they’ve aged, so the attention to detail even in the make-up really impressed me.
I also loved the consistency when it came to the casting of the younger versions of the main characters. I can imagine it’s really difficult to find a teenage actor that can pass for the younger version of an entirely different adult actor, and I’ve become accustomed to seeing younger versions that have completely different facial shapes. But in this case, holy cow! I honestly thought for a while that young and adult Sheng Hua were the same person because their faces look so much alike. I also really love that they kept the consistency of Chen Xi’s slightly Western-looking features by casting an actress with a Western lineage for both the younger and adult version of the character. Lin Yi Lan, or Charlize Lamb, who plays teen Chen Xi, is Taiwanese-American and Xu Wei Ning or Tiffany Xu, who plays adult Chen Xi, has an Italian-American father. It was really cool that, even though there weren’t any foreign roots in Chen Xi’s family, they still kept that slightly foreign beauty on Chen Xi throughout, that was really satisfying consistency.

The time has come for the cast comments! I knew basically no one from the cast, so I’m excited to make some first references here.

First of all, Xu Wei Ning/Tiffany Xu is absolutely gorgeous. She has such a unique face and beautiful features. When I checked MyDramaList and went through her records, I saw that she played a role in the Taiwanese ItaKiss, It Started With a Kiss. I don’t remember the Taiwanese names of the characters, but I believe she must have played Yuuko, the girl who becomes the college love rival, the one from the tennis court scene – my associations are shattered as well, lol. I was really impressed by her performance in this show, I thought she managed to convey the deep and dark layers of Chen Xi’s character and trauma very well. It must’ve been a very challenging role, but her emotional acting was incredible and she really showed different sides to her. It was very reassuring to see her in a more cheerful mood at the end of the show, it really made me root for her character to gradually heal now that she knew she was surrounded by people who genuinely cared about her. She was able to come across as both incredibly fragile and empowering, and that’s a really rare quality, I think. I really hope I’ll get to see more of her in the future!

As I mentioned, Li Cheng Bin/Toby Lee managed to steal my heart in this drama. I’m adding him to my Asian drama actor crushes as we speak, lol, because he is FINE. I really loved that he got to play two distinctly different roles, which he both performed amazingly well – I actually fell for two different people. I think he captured the gentleness and sincerity of Hao Ming as the supporting and caring boyfriend very well. It’s funny because in terms of character, Xiao Liu made a bigger impression on me. This is probably because we’re introduced to him more elaborately throughout the majority of the series than we are to Hao Ming in the first and last two episodes, but I somehow ended up loving them both to bits. In contrast to Hao Ming, who always wears a suit and presented himself as very neat, Xiao Liu is kind of shabby-looking and clearly doesn’t care too much about how he dresses. I also liked that they made the comparison of how scruffily he ate his food, lol. Xiao Liu is casual but good-hearted and it somehow hit me even more when he started feeling attached to Chen Xi and how he was like, “this never happened to me before, okay! 😳”, that was cute. I was just happy that Hao Ming and Chen Xi managed to work it out in the end, I kept praying that she wouldn’t end up pushing him away for good. I said it and I will say it again: I need a Hao Ming (or a Xiao Liu 👀) in my life as well.

Can I just say how impressed I was with Wu Kang Ren/Chris Wu’s acting in this show? When I realized that he was the main character from Copycat Killer, my mouth literally fell open because his role there and his portrayal of Danny are literally a world of difference! Despite the fact that Danny is undeniably the biggest red flag in this show, I just couldn’t help but enjoy his performance because he was SO GOOD. The way he actually produced tears as he was accusing Chen Xi of assaulting him and how pathetic he was with his face injury, he played it SO WELL. I was genuinely impressed by this completely other side of his acting. He was the only actor in this show that I’d seen in something else before, but at the same time it was like seeing him for the first time. I remember thinking he came across as such a caring guy in CK, and here he literally gave me the creeps with just one look. What an incredible actor, I’m definitely excited to see more from him now!

I ended up being very impressed by Jia Jing Wen/Alyssa Chia’s portrayal of Sheng Hua, especially because of the switch her character made in the final episode. Before that, she’s kind of the same, very timid and soft-spoken, but I really loved that they made her break out of that cycle in the final episode, that was so empowering to watch. Although the story was mainly about Chen Xi’s trauma, it was really cool how she became a part of that and the two ended up ending each other’s trauma together. Also, I’ll say it again, the casting of her younger version was insanely good, I actually believed they were the same person. MDL doesn’t credit the younger version actress, but I managed to find out from DramaWiki that she’s called Hu Miu Miu. They both did a really good job at portraying Sheng Hua’s fragility and simultaneous strength.

Apparently Li Pei Yu/Patty Lee is a singer! I really liked her portrayal of Chi Ling, she had a really nice vibe about her and seemed like a genuinely cool person to be around. Since I liked her so much as a character, it was reassuring to find out that she had been on Chen Xi’s good side all along and felt genuinely bad and ashamed about what happened and how she ended up spilling Chen Xi’s secret. They made a really fun trio, I thought the dynamic between them was really nice to watch. I also liked to get a better insight into how Chi Ling was as an individual through that little arc about her job. All in all I thought she brought a very relatable and fun energy to the show. I also really liked the performance of her younger version actress, Lin Si Ting/Tammy Lin), she brought a really nice cheekiness to the friend group.

I kept thinking I recognized Wen Chen Ling/Forest Wen from something, she looks really familiar. But maybe she just has “one of those faces”, I don’t know. Anyway, I liked that they gave her character a bit of an edge but still didn’t make her the typical “bitch” character. It was nice that, despite her jealousy towards Chen Xi, Jia Ying did actually feel bad for what happened to her and she actively tried to shut anyone up who spread rumors about Chen Xi had seduced the teacher. I think the actress managed to portray the different layers of her character, both the edgy petty side and the bubbly friendly side, very well. Her younger version actress, Xu Zhu Ting/Annika Xu (again not credited on MDL!) also did a good job, especially in the scenes where things between her and Chen Xi started to fracture.

One of the actresses that managed to impress me the most in this drama was Li Pei Ling/Ding Ning, who played Chen Xi’s mother. I thought her emotional acting in particular was amazing. I still can’t forget how she acted out the scenes where she came out of Chen Xi’s room after hearing the news and just crumbled down crying, the one where she went to confront Xie Hui Chen one more time, and the one where Chen Xi finally came to visit her in the final episode and they hugged while she was sobbing about why she left her all by herself. She genuinely seemed to be taken over by her emotions and the tears just started welling up automatically, and I thought that was incredible. I think she did a fantastic job.

Even though I hated her character, I was also very impressed by the actress who played Xie Hui Chen, Yu Zi Yu/Sara Yu. She has such a beautiful, characteristic face as well, I think that if she played a “good” character she would exude the warmest, most loving energy. I always say that an actor is all the better if they can pull off a truly hated character, and this truly applies here. Same as with Danny’s case, I was just so taken by the acting that the portrayal of the character became all the more impressive to me. It was really cool to see how she balanced the different layers of her character, because she was actually a good person who knew her husband did the unforgiveable, but somehow she still managed to trick herself into believing that she had to keep up appearances to protect her own reputation as well as his. It was a very messy balance, but I think the actress did a really good job.

Wang Yi Cheng/Vins Wang, who played Chen Xi’s father, also looked really familiar to me, but I don’t think I’ve seen him in anything else before. There is one more Taiwanese drama on my list that he appears in, so we’ll see about that! As with every actor in this show, I think he did a really good job in terms of emotional acting. While he also had a rigid streak to him, especially in how he didn’t believe his own daughter at first, it was clear to see from Chen Xi’s first reaction to seeing him in the alternate reality that she really loved him and he was a really kind father. I especially loved the part between him and his daughter at the end, where she forgave him, that was performed really well by the both of them. I just loved how all the characters had such great chemistry, beit between parents and their children or friends amongst each other.

Apparently, Xu Jun Hao/Jake Xu was also in Life Plan A and B, although I don’t remember him from there. That was a really good show as well. I really loved the portrayed bond between Chen Xi and Chen Ye, and the way he talked to her during their final enouncter was absolutely heartwrenching. I don’t think it was established as such, but it really felt as if his own mental health started deteriorating from the moment his sister went through the assault – I guess that’s what you get with twins sometimes, that they’re telepathically connected in a way? I’m really curious what he set out to talk about with Xie Chi Chung on the day that he got into the accident. I thought he did a good job in portraying Chen Ye as both a loving and caring brother and someone who was battling his own demons.
I noticed that MDL also doesn’t credit the younger version actor for Chen Ye, but luckily DramaWiki does, he’s called Zhang Kai Zhe. His character made a big transformation from goofy and energetic teen to withdrawn and solemn adult. I wish there could’ve been a bit more revealed about Chen Ye’s psyche and personality, but he already managed to move me by being such a loving brother to Chen Xi.

Chen Yi Wen was another actor that looked familiar, but I don’t think I’ve seen him in anything else before. I see that he’s also directed and screenwritten several shows before. I think he was a really good casting choice for Xie Chi Chung: the way he suddenly changed from friendly teacher to predator was pretty scary. If he’d actually been a guy who temporarily got carried away by his longing for a daughter, I might’ve actually redeemed him because there were moments where he did seem to hold back, but when he finally struck he was absolutely merciless. As with the other actors portraying “bad people” in this show, while I watched his character I was partially disgusted and partially impressed because his acting was also really good. I honestly feel like this drama is a great example of characters that are horrible but not completely hateable because you just can’t deny what a great job the actors are doing.

I just want to make one final comment on Hu Yu Wai/George Hu, because it was only until after I finished the show that I realized he played the main lead in the Taiwanese adaptation of Hayate the Combat Butler, starring alongside Park Shin Hye. It’s been ages since I watched that, but once I saw his name I was like, “Hayate?!”, lol. I was a bit lost on what kind of person Chiang Yuan was in the beginning. When he first appeared in the alternate reality I honestly didn’t get a very good vibe from him, and in my mind I was already shooing him away as a potential love rival because I was already shipping Chen Xi and Xiao Liu at this point, lol. But it seemed that in the real world, he was a genuinely caring ex-boyfriend and I thought it was very mature of him to actually help Hao Ming out and supported him to do better for Chen Xi than he did. In hindsight, although there are still a couple of things I didn’t fully understand like his one-on-one talks with Jia Ying, I think he was a good guy and the actor did a good job as well.

I’ve actually managed to write this review in one day, woohoo! I’m guessing it’s because it’s a shorter series and the story was quite concise as well. It’s also been a while since I wrote so many cast comments, but that’s just because I was so impressed by all the actors that I wanted to give everyone some sort of shoutout.

This was a genuinely emotional and intense drama to watch, and I would urge people to take careful note of the trigger warnings in advance. Prepare and protect yourself, because it’s a wild ride. I’m very glad that I got to watch it though, I know it was going to be good and I wasn’t disappointed. I even obtained a new actor crush which was something I didn’t realize I was craving but it definitely was, lol. All in all, the acting, the writing, the music and the execution were all very impressive, and my criticism really doesn’t go much further than that I would’ve liked some elements to be explained a bit more clearly. I get that some things aren’t black and white, and some things can’t be properly put into words, but I personally would’ve like to gain a better understanding of how exactly this particular dissociation worked and how all the additional storylines fit into Chen Xi’s personal experience. Other than that, color me impressed and emotionally moved to the max.

I may be able to fit one more series in before the end of the year! December is going to be filled with social engagements and the final feedback applications for my translation, but I want to try and watch at least one more show before 2024 is over. We’ll see when the next review drops.

Until then, bye-bee! x

The King Loves

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

The King Loves
(왕은 사랑한다 / Wangeun Saranghanda)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hello everyone! Just thought I’d close off the month November with another review. It’s a bit of a busy period for me as I’m in the final editing stages of my book translation – my deadline is next week, I can’t even believe it – but luckily I found more time in-between to watch another historical drama that had been on my list for a while. I wasn’t quite sure how long it would take me to finish it since it was quite lengthy, but I ended up getting pretty wrapped up in it and basically binged the final couple of episodes, so here we are! After watching Alchemy of Souls at the beginning of this year, it felt like a really long time since I watched a good old historical K-Drama, and despite some confusions within the story I’ll admit from the start that I enjoyed watching it a lot. It really kept me engaged and on my toes until the end and I’m excited to share my views on it.

The King Loves is an MBC historical K-Drama with 20 episodes of about an hour each. I saw on MyDramaList that you can also watch it as 40 episodes of 35 minutes, but I couldn’t find this back-to-back format anywhere, so I watched it on Dramacool in the 20-episode format.
Although many historical K-Dramas feature fictional kingdoms and rulers, this story is actually based on real historical events and people. I found this kind of cool and even did a little bit of research on the side to get a better grasp of the political context it was based on. According to the historical facts, the story takes place around the late 13th to early 14th century, during the reign of the 25th King of Goryeo, King Chungnyeol (played by Jung Bo Seok). During this time, the Goryeo dynasty was under the rule of the Mongol-founded Yuan dynasty, reigned by the Mongolian Emperor Kublai Khan. Around 1270, the King married Kublai Khan’s youngest daughter who then became Queen Wonseong (as a teen played by Kim Bo Ra). The King already had a son with his first wife Princess Jeonghwa, but Queen Wonseong had a nasty temper and couldn’t stand the competition. After giving birth to a son herself, the Queen managed to chase both Princess Jeonghwa and her son Prince Gangyang away and they were never seen again.
Because King Chungnyeol and Queen Wonseong’s son has both Korean and Yuan blood in him, this makes him a half-blood and therefore unworthy in the eyes of the pro-Goryeo/anti-Yuan movement. This half-blood Crown Prince, Wang Won (as a teen played by Nam Da Reum) grows up in solitude and confinement, dealing with the souring relationship between his parents. His only friend is the third son of the King’s Chancellor, Wang Rin (as a teen played by Yoon Chan Young). The reason they have the same family name is that Rin is actually a cousin of Princess Jeonghwa, and therefore a royal cousin to Won as well. Rin is the first person to introduce Won to life outside of the castle, and Won quickly starts preferring roaming uncharted territory to sitting inside the palace all day long.
One day, however, the two boys witness a horrible bandit attack on a carriage transporting the Minister of Finance’s wife and daughter. This event leaves Won with a crippling sense of guilt because he urged Rin not to call for help as he didn’t think the bandit attack would be serious. The attack costs the lives of the Minister’s wife and all of the guards protecting her. The reason the carriage wasn’t as well-guarded was because a few guards were accompanying the Minister’s daughter and her maid on a stroll outside the carriage. The daughter, Eun San (as a teen played by Lee Seo Yeon), only escaped because she happened to have lent her family’s cape to her maid Bi Yeon (as a teen played by Song Soo Hyun), after which the attackers mistook Bi Yeon for her because of her clothing. Bi Yeon gets struck in the face which leaves her with a horrible scar, but she fortunately survives the assault. In the chaos that unfolds after they return home, it’s decided that Bi Yeon will take San’s place and that she will hide the scar on her face with a veil. San herself will have to flee in order to avoid being sent to Yuan as a “tribute” – one of the deals between Goryeo and Yuan was that Goryeo would annually select a group of young women to be sent to Yuan as concubines. The scar would be enough to keep Bi Yeon from being selected and exposed, but San would have to disappear.
Right before she leaves, San encounters Won and Rin, who have come to deliver the dying message of her mother. Thinking that the girl in front of them is the maid, Won delivers the message San’s mother shared before she passed: that she hopes her daughter will not hate anyone and that she will keep prancing and smiling as she always has.
Time passes and it is now eight years later. Looking for counsel on his position as a shunned half-blood Crown Prince, Won (now played by Im Si Wan) has set out to Mount Duta with Rin (now played by Hong Jong Hyun) to visit the wise Master Lee Seung Hyu (played by Eom Hyo Seob). When they arrive there, both their gazes are immediately drawn to Master Lee’s favorite student, a young woman by the name of So Hwa (played by Yoona/Im Yoon Ah). Won immediately recognizes her as the girl from eight years ago.
As the three of them get acquainted and So Hwa/San eventually returns to Goryeo to visit her father and maid, tensions rise when both Won and Rin realize they’re falling for her, and this seriously strains their solid friendship. Besides this, an anti-Yuan conspiracy is set in motion by several royal officials to get rid of the Crown Prince and restore the pure Goryeo blood lineage to the kingdom.

Honestly, so much happens in this series that mentioning everything and everyone will be a nearly impossible task. Of course I don’t need to summarize the whole thing as this review is meant for people who’ve already watched it, but there’s just a lot of things I can’t skip over with regards to the points I wish to discuss in my review, so I’m going to try and write a summary of the main events as succinctly as I can.
As the relationship between Goryeo and Yuan remains strained, so does the one between the King and Queen (now played by Jang Young Nam). The King finds a new confidante in Song In (played by Oh Min Seok), the cousin of Royal Assistant Secretary Song Bang Yeong (Choi Jong Hwan). What he doesn’t know is that Song In is plotting to get rid of the Crown Prince and sever all ties with Yuan to purge Goryeo from its “barbaric” lineage. He gets help from different spies within the palace on both the King’s and Queen’s sides. As a final trump card, Song In brings in his own lover, Ok Boo Yong (played by Choo Soo Hyun) to seduce the King and intoxicate both him and the Queen. Won and Rin gradually become more aware of these changes in the palace, especially when the King takes Boo Yong as his next wife, which of course infuriates the Queen.
In the meantime, San has her hands full with her own family issues when her identity as the Minister of Finance’s daughter is exposed, including the fact that she managed to avoid being selected as a tribute for eight years. The Queen is not amused by this and keeps trying to cause trouble for both San’s and Rin’s families – in the latter’s case because she doesn’t trust his intentions as her son’s “best friend”. Ultimately, the Queen warms up to San and helps her get her former position back. Unfortunately, the anti-Yuan plot extends to the Queen as well, and it turns out Boo Yong has planted a poisonous object in the Queen’s chambers that’s making her more sick every day. By the time she finally sees what Song In and Boo Yong are doing to the King, Queen Wonseong is already too sick to stop the conspiracy, and she eventually succumbs to her illness. She passes away while the King remains unconscious from all the poisonous chemicals Boo Yong keeps around him. During all these dramatic developments in the palace, Won and Rin get caught up in their own personal rivalry when they both admit to their feelings for San. In their respective attempts to protect her they keep trying to keep her close to themselves and away from the other. While Song In initially intended to put Rin’s older brother Wang Jeon (Yoon Jong Hoon) on the throne as the new Crown Prince, he changes his mind to Rin and starts using San as a tool to get the two friends to fall out. He also uses Wang Dan (Park Hwan Hee), Rin’s younger sister who is in love with Won and eventually gets chosen as the new Crown Princess in an attempt to save her from also being sent to Yuan, to create even more friction between the two. San ultimately realizes her heart lies more with Rin than with Won, and after one final staged attack, the couple manages to flee away together under Won’s supervision.

To be honest, from the first episode onwards I was kind of worried that the story would focus predominantly on the love triangle between Won, Rin and San, and that it would end in a typical fight between two best friends over a girl. The opening sequence and the way their dynamic starts out would suggest that Won and San eventually end up together, leaving Rin as the sad second male lead watching them from a distance. However, I was very glad that they put a twist on that. It was very refreshing that the second male lead ended up with the girl for once. I also thought it was a clever twist that Won’s narration of “the person who I started loving more than myself” ended up referring to the fact that he loved San so much that he was ultimately able to let her go with his best friend, because that would make her the happiest.
I was very glad that the story didn’t turn out as one of those typical dramatic love triangle romances set in historical times. While the love triangle was definitely a big part of the story, it also contributed greatly to the characters’ personal development and relationships, and it never became a distraction to the plot because it was balanced out so well with the other pressing storylines.
In hindsight, I would say that this story can be seen as an ode to friendship in general. Amidst the turmoil of a kingdom full of conspiracies where you can never fully trust anyone, this series managed to take an unexpected twist by highlighting the (hidden) affections of its characters towards the people they cared about. I was repeatedly surprised by some characters’ reactions to a certain death because I initially didn’t think they cared about them that much, and this gave the story an unexpected layer of hope. I just can’t forget how distraught King Chungnyeol was after hearing about Queen Wonseong’s passing and how Song In actually lost his mind after losing Boo Yong. The tears in Jin Gwan and Jang Ui’s eyes when they had to shoot Rin at that cliff, the way Moo Seok shed a final regretful tear for not being able to get back to Bi Yeon, the way Dan hugged San when they reunited after the kidnapping… None of these feelings were spoken out loud, but the emotional response to realizing that something bad happened or would happen to a loved one added so much to each and every character. I thought that was really powerful. The fact that every character, good and bad, had a heart and was able to feel compassion and love for at least one other person made the story even more humane and realistic.

I really loved how the friendship between Won and Rin was portrayed. Not only did the actors have great chemistry, but I also think the writers did a very good job establishing the foundation of their friendship and then building on their bond throughout the story. You could really tell how long they’d been together and how strongly they relied on each other.
I liked how different the two were in personality, how Rin was kind of stoic and reserved while Won definitely had a bit of an edge to him, attributed to his “barbaric” Yuan blood. I guess Won was always a bit distrustful of the people in the palace, he even mentioned that the palace grounds always scared him. He was raised with the knowledge that a King can never have close friends, so even when he started warming up to Rin, he must have always kept the possibility in his mind that he might one day betray him. On the other hand, Rin was taught by his father that he should become a friend to the Crown Prince, but never a real friend, because there wouldn’t be a place for friendship once Won became King. Despite the fun they had when they were together, inside the palace Rin always kept his manners and had his restraints in the way he treated Won. The two of them really balanced each other out in that way: Won was very open about his feelings and would occasionally push Rin to be more direct with him while Rin preferred to keep certain ideas to himself in consideration of Won’s royal position. I really liked how well their characters were written and how much they complimented each other in the most subtle ways. Even when things got heated between them and Won’s paranoia regarding the circumstances of his mother’s death and his bitterness towards the growing romance between Rin and San, it was clear to see that he still couldn’t fully dismiss his best friend. I remember that scene where Won spotted Rin running away from the palace while he was banned from the grounds, and he actually ran after him with that slightly triumphant look on his face. Even though he was angry with Rin at the time, he just couldn’t help being excited to see and talk to his friend again.
When tensions started rising and Rin started acting a bit suspicious in keeping things from Won, it was incredibly comforting to get the confirmation that Rin was more than willing to step back in order to give Won everything and that he never had any grudgeful or jealous feelings towards him. I liked that it wasn’t a “fake” friendship where Rin was actually secretly pining for Won’s position and took the first chance he got to overthrow him. He never wanted any of that. When he fell in love with San and felt himself become greedy, he wrote in his final letter to Won that he deserved punishment for even falling for the same girl as him. Rin literally did everything for Won. Even if he sometimes kept quiet and tried to solve things by himself without informing Won, the truth would always come out that he wasn’t acting against him, but always in his favor. And he didn’t just act like that towards Won, either. When his sister Dan was put on the tribute list, he actually pleaded with the Queen to become a hostage at Yuan in her place so she could be safe. He always took it upon himself to protect those he loved, even if that meant actually sacrificing himself or erasing himself from the narrative.
Admittedly, it would’ve been nice if Rin could’ve kept Won informed of what was going on when the latter was getting a bit paranoid. Rin basically became a spy amongst the anti-Yuan people and he could’ve at least hushed Won in his suspicions towards his own father and himself. Still, I guess that friction between them was necessary because it would lead to the face-off between them. But again, this just confirmed that Rin would’ve rather gotten himself killed than betray Won, which was heart-wrenching. I didn’t believe for a second that Rin would actually harm Won. When he said that his friendship with Won was like a stone pulling on his ankle that he had to get rid of, my first thought was that he’d do something to himself before he’d ever do something to Won. It was clear as day how much it killed him to even draw his sword against Won in their face-off. Honestly, I have no bad words for either Won or Rin, the portrayal of their friendship touched me to the core.

And then there’s San, or So Hwa as she’s occasionally called. I loved that the name So Hwa was a reference to her mother’s dying wish – it means ‘small flower’ and referred to her promise of remaining a tiny flower on a battlefield that would keep blooming no matter what. When Won and Rin meet her at Mount Duta, her spunky and outspoken personality – in combination with her undying love for liquor – immediately makes a big impression on the two guys.
I initially thought she’d cut herself off from her past and family for good, but it seemed like she actually kept in touch and even occasionally visited them. It was really nice to see her reunite with her father, the Minister of Finance Eun Yeong Baek (played by Lee Gi Young) and Bi Yeon (now played by Park Ji Hyun) and that she was still on such good terms with them. The hug she and her father shared when she came back indefinitely was really sweet. They had to keep their interactions under wraps though, because none of the servants that currently worked at their household actually knew about the mix-up between San and Bi Yeon – all the staff that had known San from when she was a child had been sent away so they wouldn’t be able to blow Bi Yeon’s cover. For good reason, when you look at how Song In was able to confirm So Hwa’s true identity by bringing in her old nanny to identify her.
While San keeps being pressured by both Song In and the Queen, there is one figure that keeps popping up to save her. San eventually finds out that this is Rin, and I think that’s when her feelings for him start changing from the ones she has for Won. I honestly felt that, while there were moments in which she was definitely flustered by Won’s advances, the tension between her and Rin was of a different caliber. If he’d just been the second male lead who didn’t stand a chance from the start, they wouldn’t have made the scenes between them so tender and they definitely wouldn’t have played that super romantic background music! The way in which their friendship gradually changed was so subtle that I barely even noticed from which moment onwards I started shipping Rin and San more than Won and San. There was just something really sweet and tender between them, even though it was never put into words. The only kiss between them happens as a kind of provocative action from Rin’s side when he knows Won is watching. I would’ve liked to actually see Rin and San share an intimate moment at a later point when they officially acknowledged their mutual feelings for each other. Then again, I think my ship was already confirmed several times, when she sank into his kiss instead of pushing him away, and when she crumbled after finding out his family had been involved in the attack on her mother.
One thing that I did find a pity regarding San’s character is that her spunky personality from the beginning started fading away throughout the series. I’ve seen this happen in many dramas before, that the female lead starts out with a super quirky personality and then just becomes more and more passive as the series progresses (from the top of my head I believe Radio Romance and Clean With Passion For Now are examples of this). Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I blamed San for becoming increasingly despondent throughout all the events involving her and her family and the revelations regarding the attack on her mother. Shortly after learning about Rin’s family’s involvement in her mother’s death, her father also suddenly passes away from a heart attack – another heartless action by Boo Yong The Witch (honestly, I was impatient to see her demise). In any case, as San became more paralyzed and powerless against the people who were manipulating her, I could understand why she became less and less cheery. Still, there were some moments where I couldn’t really gauge what she was thinking. Before she started showing clearer signs that she was leaning towards Rin more than Won, I had no idea how she truly felt about either of them, because she never put her feelings into words. When she suddenly appeared as a candidate to become Won’s new Crown Princess, I honestly had no idea what she was doing there. I had no idea what she was thinking showing up there all of a sudden, or if she even hoped that he would pick her even though he’d already promised to save Dan. I was kind of relieved when he still picked Dan, because it would’ve been too cruel if he suddenly bailed on that promise.
Anyways, there were a couple of moments where San had to make an appearance for an important cause, like that matchmaking session or the interrogation of Rin’s family, where she just kept quiet and stared at people and that made it really hard for me to gauge what was going through her head. Those were the moments where I really missed how outspoken she used to be, and that character trait just seemed to elude her completely. I know that part of that spunk was pretense, as she later admits to Rin that she put up an act to appear careless and brave, but she just became a totally different person from how she started out. Again, I understand the developments that her character went through during all the shit that went down, but I kind of wished there’d be some spunk left in her during moments where she had to face up to the royal officials that were trying to ruin her life. Other than that I liked how her character was written, and there were also several moments where her choices really touched me, for example when she decided not to out Wang Jeon for his contribution in her mother’s attack because it would affect Rin’s life as well. The way her tears came out as she made the decision to protect Rin, even if that meant renouncing her revenge on her mother’s attackers, was built up incredibly well. That scene actually gave me goosebumps, also because it again incorporated the feelings that were just starting to grow between her and Rin. The way he calmly nodded and smiled at her to tell her it was okay for her to condemn him was legit heart-wrenching to watch.

San’s only lead to the guy who attacked her eight years ago is that he has a snake tattoo on his forearm, and when she suddenly bumps into this guy in town, the part inside of her that’s still pining for revenge awakens. We gradually come to learn more about the snake tattoo man after San spots him as well. He is eventually identified as Moo Seok (played by Park Young Woon), a young man who was taken under Song In’s wing after his father died in a battle against the Yuan dynasty. I still don’t really understand how he looked exactly the same as he did during the bandit attack eight years earlier, but Moo Seok is definitely the same guy that San saw who slashed Bi Yeon’s face.
Despite him being an assassin for Song In, he doesn’t actually seem to be that bad of a person. This is revealed when he comes across Bi Yeon, and recognizes her as the girl he mangled eight years ago – she still has the scar on her face. I’m guessing he must have felt bad about it, because he keeps showing up for her after that and they even become (suggestedly) romantically involved. At least his feelings for Bi Yeon are confirmed when he refuses to accept Song In’s order to kill her. Honestly, I was really disappointed with how they did Moo Seok in. He should’ve just shot Song In where he stood, why did he have to miss and get stabbed to death like that? Despite my confusion regarding their age gap, I actually thought he and Bi Yeon made a really cute couple, and it was sweet how he started taking care of her as if he wanted to make up for what he did to her face. It’s sad that he had to die. ☹️
Speaking of Bi Yeon’s face, was I the only one who thought they could’ve made her scar a bit more gruesome? Like, the talk was that her face was damaged so badly she could never show it in public again or even get married because of it, but honestly I could only make it out from a certain angle or in a certain light. If they were going to make a big deal about the scar, they could’ve at least made it a bit bigger. I’m just saying, in most scenes where she had the veil off I needed a magnifying glass to spot it.🧐

Returning to the theme of family relations, I’d like to discuss Rin’s relations with his family members a bit more elaborately. His father, the Chancellor, Wang Yeong (played by Kim Ho Jin) is a good man who only sees the good in his children. His wife must have passed away because it’s only him, Jeon, Rin and Dan. Jeon and Rin are consistently referred to as the Chancellor’s Second and Third sons, respectively, and although there are mentions of the First son, he doesn’t appear in the story.
With his older brother out of the picture, Wang Jeon probably thought being the new oldest Chancellor’s son made him better than anyone else. I can only imagine him jumping with joy when Song In approached him with the plan to make him the new Crown Prince as he was the next available heir from Princess Jeonghwa’s lineage. Despite this newfound ambition, Jeon keeps wasting his time on partying and women. It’s actually kind of funny that the Royal family was in fact well aware of the plan to put Wang Jeon on the throne – they just never took it seriously. I can’t blame them, I mean, look at the guy. He was a despicable man that only ended up as a laughing stock. He was actively involved in the bandit attack on San’s mother, yet during the interrogation he kept yelling at his father and Rin that they needed to do something. Like, brother didn’t even seem to realize that he himself was to blame for getting his entire family arrested. I also really hated how he kept claiming he’d been waiting for San to come of age so he could marry her – yikes forever. The fact that he and San would’ve actually gotten married if Won hadn’t stepped in, even when he didn’t know it was San at the time. By the way, I found it kind of curious that Won didn’t recognize San with her face veil on. He’d seen her wear it before at the Queen’s masqued party and then he was able to recognize her immediately… or was that because Rin was with her? I don’t know, from the way Won was always observing her, I just expected him to at least recognize her eyes when he looked into them, but I guess not. Anyways, I’m really glad Wang Jeon gradually disappeared from the picture as even Song In and his gang were like, “you know what, we can find someone better”, lol. During the final times he appeared on screen he just became such a tragic, almost comical character who was pissed off that he didn’t get his piece of the pie. I loved the part where people started obeying Rin more than him and he started yelling at him and Rin was like, “can someone please remove this man, he is being too loud”. 😂
In contrast to Wang Jeon, I was actually really taken with Dan. Honestly, I felt so bad for her throughout the series. She was just a pure and innocent girl who was so in love with Won that she didn’t even mind that he didn’t love her back or that he only married her in order to save her from being sent to Yuan. I hated how everyone tried to bring her into everything, how the Queen suddenly threatened to send her to Yuan and how she then got kidnapped by Song In in the end to play poison roulette with San – the poor girl didn’t even know a thing about what was happening in the palace and must have constantly been worried out of her mind. I really loved the dynamic between Rin and Dan, and how he would always come to see and talk to her whenever she was sick or confined to the house. Rin was such a sweet brother to her, and he really went to great lengths to secure her safety.
I also liked the friendship that bloomed between Dan and San. Despite the fact that Dan was very aware that Won fancied San and she also expressed that she didn’t like seeing San in Won’s quarters, she still couldn’t bring herself to hate her. When Song In ultimately kidnaps the two girls and forces one of them to drink poisoned tea, she’s utterly shocked when San switches their cups and drinks the poison herself. It was really heartwarming to see how close they became after San returned and recovered from the poison, and how relieved Dan was to see her back alive.
Although I initially thought it was very chivalrous of Won to offer to marry Dan in order to save her from being sent away as a tribute, I couldn’t help but think that he could’ve been a bit more respectful towards her. He literally walked away the second the wedding ceremony ended, like, at least see it through for her. He must’ve known that not showing up to greet the King and Queen at her side would also impact her badly as the new Crown Princess. I thought he was nice enough to her at first, but there were definitely some moments where I was like, okay, I know you don’t have feelings for her, but at least just do this for her, she’s been through enough already.

In terms of family relations, let me finally discuss Won’s relationship with his parents for a bit. As the only remaining child in the palace – unlike the actual historical facts Won didn’t have any siblings in this story – it seemed like Won’s relationship with his dad was kind of tense from the start. It was clear that he respected his father and that he would never plan anything to overthrow him as the rumors suggested. The King, however, seemed to be slightly paranoid that this might one day happen. As soon as the first plan was set in motion to make him doubt his son’s intentions, he didn’t hesitate for a second to accuse Won of attacking him, falling right into Song In’s trap. He must’ve been a fairly easy target for the anti-Yuan movement, since they could play on the existing suspicions he had towards his son. Like all the relationship developments in this series, I really liked how the bond between Won and his father played out, and how in the final episode they finally managed to see eye to eye. Losing Queen Wonseong heavily impacted them both, and it seemed like talking about her finally softened things between them a little bit.
Despite Queen Wonseong’s demanding personality, I did like that she at least had genuine love for her son. They didn’t have that many scenes together at first, but once she got involved in his affairs with San, it became crystal clear how much she really cared about him. It was nice that she taught him how to play chess and just enjoyed spending time with him. Won’s reaction to her passing was also heartbreaking – honestly, I can’t wait to rant about Im Si Wan’s performance in my cast comments later, his emotional acting was phenomenal. I’m glad we got to see a sincere motherly side from her towards Won. I actually found myself warming up to her throughout the series, something I hadn’t expected to happen initially.

At first glance, the Queen seemed like a pretty nasty person. Her words were sharp, she wasn’t friendly to anyone, and she just seemed to be full of bitterness. Then again, I really liked her wickedness when Boo Yong first caught her attention. The way she literally stuck her nail into Boo Yong’s chin to push her face upwards to look at her was CHILLING but SO COOL. I think that may have been when my perspective of her started to change, because it was a very good instinct of her to immediately dislike Boo Yong, even though it started as mere jealousy. After she eventually warmed up to San, I started liking her more and more and then it became more and more dreading to see her slowly get more and more sick. The way she eventually died, after witnessing what Song In and Boo Yong were doing and watching her most loyal guard be slaughtered right in front of her was so tragic. I felt so bad for her that she died there and then, knowing that her husband wasn’t even aware of what was happening to them both. I honestly think she would be very comforted to see how the King responded to her death, especially after he first completely dismissed what had happened to Boo Yong. He must have really loved the Queen, and it would’ve been so nice if they could’ve shared those sentiments one more time before they had to part ways.
The loyal guard that was slain by Song In was called Murathai (played by Lee Jae Woon). I’d wondered before why he looked different, with the shaven hairstyle etcetera, but it wasn’t until I heard his name that I realized he must’ve come with her from Yuan. Actually, in the flashback of the young Wonseong, you can see someone behind her who could very well be a younger version of him, seen from his hair and the way he’s dressed. I only realized this when I heard the name “Murathai” and realized that he must’ve been with her ever since she came there from Yuan. That only made his demise even sadder, to be honest. The way Song In stabbed him too, from the back where Murathai couldn’t see him coming. It was awful and so cowardly as well.
Among all the suspicious people around her, at least Murathai had been always on her side. The same went for Court Lady Cho (played by Min Young Won). It was so sad that she was dragged away for interrogation and wasn’t even able to tend to the Queen in her final moments. These two were the only people around the Queen that were loyal to her until the very end and never gave in to the anti-Yuan movement to spy on her. The only one to betray her was eunuch Choi (played by Kim Byung Chun), who was secretly helping out Song In. It was very satisfying when the Queen started suspecting him and eventually made him spill the truth by threatening his family. Sorry family, but the guy was a snake. I kept calling him “the snaky eunuch” whenever he made an appearance. 🐍

Before I move on to the villain section of my character analysis, I just want to say something about Won’s loyal trustees, Jin Gwan (Seo Jae Woo) and Jang Ui (Ki Do Hoon). I loved these two so much. They were always there for Won and Rin, to the point where they also felt more like friends than guards at some moments. They were both a bit younger, and usually appeared together. At some point they kind of split up and Jin Gwan stayed mostly at Rin’s house while Jang Ui stuck with Won. I loved how they always just happened to be exactly where they needed to be to catch some vital piece of information or spot something. I also thought it was super cute that Jin Gwan was crushing on Dan and chose to stay with her at all times. Honestly, if it weren’t for his status I would have urged Dan to get with him because he was obviously smitten with her and she deserved some genuine affection. I can’t deny that I was scared that either of them might get killed at some point. Whenever they ran out by themselves in pursuit of some bandits or suspicious people I was like PLEASE STAY ALIVE PLEASE, but luckily nothing happened to them.
I think the scene that proved best how much they truly cared about both Won and Rin was in the final episode, when they had Won’s order to corner Rin and kill him for taking the King’s gold seal. This turned out to be a staged death, because it was just meant to create a getaway for Rin and San, but I guess Jin Gwan and Jang Ui weren’t aware of that. The PAIN on their faces as they aimed their arrows at Rin physically hurt me. It killed them to attack Rin like that and if that wasn’t enough proof that they honestly cared about him, I don’t know what was. I just loved how humane they were, and that despite being Won’s loyal guards, there were also moments when they actually hesitated when he gave them an order. They obeyed, of course, but you could clearly see that they had a proper conscience.

Going on a little segue here, but this was actually something that I really liked about this series. Every single character was relevant. From the guards and the servants to the dumpling lady (I can’t find her in the cast list but she was awesome!) and Gae Won and Yeom Bok. I loved that these two clowns were written as more than just comic relief characters; they were actually super smart and observant and provided a lot of useful information. It’s been a while since I’ve applauded a series for creating so many characters and storylines without wasting even one of them. This series had such good writing and character-building, I just can’t seem to shut up about it. 😌

Well then, it’s time for the anti-Yuan movement. One thing I’ll say in advance is that I also liked how this series played with perspective. After hearing Song In’s story, I could honestly see a valid reason for wanting to get rid of the Yuan influence, especially considering how the annual tribute deal was literally tearing families apart. I honestly didn’t even think their goal was all that bad. It’s just that the way they went about it, killing a bunch of innocent people just to drive a wedge between the King and his wife and son, was so, so wrong.
Besides being related to the Royal Assistant Secretary, I honestly still don’t know much about Song In. I’ll talk a bit more about this later, but I still don’t actually know for sure what the relation was between him and the RAS, or how he managed to wriggle his way into the palace when both the Queen and Won found him suspicious from the start. At first I thought he was working for Wang Jeon, but it turns out that he was pulling all the strings. Song In had something genuinely threatening about him, all the more because he always remained so calm. I kept calling him Mr. Smugface because he always had that little smile on his lips. It really seemed like nothing would be able to shake his confidence, so I was very surprised when it turned out that he did have a weak spot – Boo Yong. I mentioned before that some characters’ reactions to a certain death surprised me, and this was also the case for Song In. In his earlier scenes with Boo Yong, he kind of seemed to be playing with her when she got jealous of him expressing interest in San. I felt like he was the kind of guy who’d keep a woman hooked but would never tell her he loved her. Imagine my surprise when I saw his response to Boo Yong’s death – he witnessed it first-hand through a small window in a screen. Even though he’d always been just about the plan, after she died the only thing that seemed to matter to him was that he avenged her – heck, he even started hallucinating that she was there and kept talking to her. I honestly had no idea he actually loved Boo Yong that much from how he treated her when she was alive, I lowkey thought he was just playing her, seeing as that he actually encouraged her to get intimate with the King and all that. That really surprised me, and I’m honestly not sure how I feel about the way he just abandoned the anti-Yuan plan and just set his mind to taking away Won’s most loved person from him as well.
I guess this relates to what I mentioned earlier, that every character at least seemed to have a heart, because even after all he did, I still couldn’t help but be happy for him that he at least got to be reunited with Boo Yong when he died. I actually thought it was sweet how she appeared before him as he was dying, as if she was coming to get him. The fact that I was actually able to feel that kind of sentiment for these two characters was wild even to me, but I guess it really comes down to how well their characters were written. They were a match made in Hell, so at least they got to see each other there. Aww.

I realize I haven’t talked much about the Royal Assistant Secretary himself that much yet. Song Bang Yeong is the only spy from the anti-Yuan movement who actually manages to avoid persecution and is even able to keep his position, which kind of pissed me off. I honestly didn’t really understand what his part was in all of it, because he definitely helped in poisoning the King against his son, but then he still seemed to care for the King to remain in power. I guess some of his motives were revealed in his conversation with Master Lee towards the end, when he asked him which side he should choose to remain unscathed in the aftermath. I guess he really just cared about that. I’m also still not sure how he felt about Song In and Boo Yong. He always acted like some kind of court jester with his exaggerated way of speaking and comical facial expressions, but even when they announced that Song In had died, his face just went 😯 – he didn’t even seem genuinely shocked by it. In hindsight I would’ve liked to see a bit more of him without his mask. We do get a couple of smug grins from him here and there but I was actually curious to learn more about his concrete motivations to go against the Queen and Crown Prince. I mean, after everything was said and done, he still remained in his RAS position to serve the Crown Prince, so he can’t have hated him that much.

If there’s one consistent question mark that I have regarding all the members of the anti-Yuan movement, it’s that it wasn’t clear to me where any of them came from. If Song In’s background was already vague to me, Boo Yong’s was simply unknown. I wish they would have revealed a bit more about how Song In and Boo Yong met at least, or how they both got so wrapped up in this plan together that she started brewing potions and poisons. Despite the fact that she was an absolute witch, and I didn’t mind it too much when she got bodied, I still found her quite an interesting character. I would’ve liked a bit more insight into her relationship with Song In and what she was thinking about everything they were doing. She was a very engaging villain character, and she definitely played her role well because she legit set my teeth on edge whenever she came on-screen, lol. I guess they were just really lucky that the King was such an easy target and she could just slither her way into his arms without ever raising suspicion. Which made it even more thrilling when the King would occasionally become lucid, because then it seemed as if he was actually suspicious of her. I got goosebumps when he suddenly asked her if the rumor about Won wanting to attack him wasn’t just something she’d whispered into his ear. Those moments contributed greatly to what made this series so exciting for me. You kept hoping that the right people would realize what was happening, but every single time they seemed to get close, the villains did something to shut them up again. It was a very thrilling cat and mouse game, all the way through.

Lastly, I just need to devote one paragraph to Master Lee, because he was undoubtedly one of my favorite characters. I don’t know what it is with Master Lees, because the sage from Alchemy of Souls was called the same and he was also one of my favorite characters. I guess Master Lees are just collectively awesome. It was established that Master Lee used to be a court official, but that he was banned for being insolent towards the King or something. This seemed to be confirmed when he and the King talked at the end and the King told him that he was the only one who wasn’t scared to throw the dirty truth at him, and it even felt like he respected him for that. In any case, Master Lee is eventually summoned to the palace and it’s thanks to him that Won manages to stay ahead of the anti-Yuan people for a while. I loved that whenever someone expressed surprise about how Master Lee was so well aware of everything going on in the palace, he’d just point at his ear and go, “I have very good ears 😀”, lol. The way he saw through everyone’s BS was so satisfying. He had so many funny one-liners, I hate that I can’t remember them now, but he was the only character that consistently made me laugh out loud. It was just so great to have at least one reliable wise person around who saw through all the shady business and actually managed to help the good side in restoring justice. I really loved Master Lee’s character, he was the best.

I think that’s it for my character analysis, and again it took me more than one day to finish it. I don’t know what it is these days that I can’t seem to finish a review in a single day anymore. Anyways, if it takes a bit longer to produce a better and more elaborate review, so be it.

In terms of criticisms, there are a few things that I may have already mentioned throughout my analysis which I’d like to elaborate on. For starters, as much as I came to enjoy the series in general, I have to admit that it took me some time to get into it at first. Besides the fact that it started off with a salvo of many different names, places and titles, I also had some trouble determining from the start who everyone was, who they were related to and how.
Let me give some examples. Firstly, after just being introduced to “Master Lee” by that name, back in the palace they started referring to him by his full name “Lee Seung Hyu”, which I didn’t know yet at the time. I didn’t immediately make the connection with him, which already caused a confusion.
It also took me a while to figure out who the current Queen actually was. This confusion was caused by the fact that, whenever someone started talking about the King’s first wife Princess Jeonghwa, they showed the flashback of young Queen Wonseong. I distinctly remember that the opening shot of young Queen Wonseong entering the palace for the first time was accompanied by the on-screen text “Princess Jeonghwa, demoted from Crown Princess to Princess”. This text didn’t appear when the first wife was depicted, she didn’t even get a proper introduction, only that “the King already had a wife and a son”. As Princess Jeonghwa was established to be Rin’s aunt, the Chancellor’s sister, I didn’t think the current Queen was her because of the way she treated Rin. Also, it was said that Princess Jeonghwa disappeared somewhere and was never seen again, so it wouldn’t make sense if the current Queen was her. It would’ve been clearer if they’d just introduced the current Queen by her name from the start and shown the text about Princess Jeonghwa in a shot featuring the King’s first wife. If they’d just introduced the current Queen with an on-screen text saying “Queen Wonseong” at her first appearance, that would’ve solved it, but the flashback confused me every time. In the end, I only got the official confirmation when the Queen died, because then everyone suddenly started calling her by her name, Wonseong. This happened with several people, as I mentioned this was the case with Murathai as well. I didn’t catch his name even once before they mentioned it after he died, and that stopped me from making the earlier connection that he’d been the Queen’s only present guard from Yuan and that I shouldn’t have doubted his loyalty to her because he was a part of her home.
Another thing that remained ambiguous to me was how exactly Song In and Song Bang Yeong were related. It may have been just bad subtitling, but in the version I watched their relation changed at least three times. I believe he was referred to as the Royal Assistant Secretary’s cousin, son and brother throughout the series. Looking at the age difference between them, I can only assume they must’ve been either brothers or cousins, but even if that was the case they couldn’t have been that close. I mean, if they had been, I would’ve at least expected Song Bang Yeong to respond a little bit more emotionally to the news of Song In’s death. There’s a chance that I missed this detail, but I just thought it was a bit wishy-washy that they couldn’t even clarify how the main villain was actually connected to the royal family. There must have been a reason that he was able to get such close access to the King, right?
Finally, because of the lack of clarification on several elements from the start, the real reason behind the anti-Yuan conspiracy also took a very long time to land. I ended up filling in the reason behind the tribute deal mostly by myself as that it must have been a agreement between Goryeo and Yuan through the merging of their dynasties, but even this was never actually explained in the story. While it’s not a bad thing to have to figure things out by myself in a story, it would have definitely helped me to have certain things clarified a bit more by the narrative.

Before I go onto my cast comments, I’d just like to point out something about the series’ title. I noticed that there are two English titles for this series, The King Loves and The King in Love. I personally think that the first one is more grammatically accurate to the Korean title, and to be honest I also prefer that one because it resonates much more with the overarching theme of Won coming to terms with his love for his two best friends. It’s interesting that it says “The King” though, because Won only ascends the throne in the very final episode when all of this has already happened. The Korean word used in the title is “Wang”, which means “King” but can also refer to the royal family name that both Won and Rin share. In any case, it felt more natural to me to use the title The King Loves in this review because I feel like that connects better to Won’s emotional development.

By the way, I know I’ve mentioned the opening sequence before and how it kind of tricks us into believing that Won and San are endgame, but what was that actually about? I’m actually kind of curious why they decided to go with this misleading opening sequence of Won kissing San while Rin sadly watches on. What was the thought behind it? I’m just saying, I could actually appreciate it if it was purely meant to troll the viewer into getting the wrong expectations, but looking at the tone of the series I doubt they’d pull a prank like that. Seriously, if anyone has a theory I’d love to hear it, because I’m genuinely curious.

We have reached the segment we (mostly me) have all been waiting for! It’s cast comment time! I know this review is already quite lengthy but I couldn’t skip the cast comments because I found a lot of surprising new sides to actors I already thought I knew, and I just want to give everyone a shoutout for performing so well.

Until now, I’ve only seen Im Si Wan in introverted, gentle and mild character roles – I’m thinking mainly about his roles in Run On and Summer Strike. As such, it was delightful to see him in the role of Won. I thoroughly enjoyed his performance. It was clear that he understood the role so well, and he really went beyond the script and added so much to Won’s character that I couldn’t help but love him. His facial expressions and the way he portrayed Won’s darker and edgier sides really surprised me, as did his emotional acting in for example the scene where the Queen passed away. He was incredible, I’m so glad I got to see this side of him. This series has proven to me what a great actor he truly is. Bravo!

I’m not gonna lie, this series actually reignited my love for Hong Jong Hyun. It just confirmed what I’ve been saying for so long while I defended him for always getting cast as angsty, creepy or ill-mannered guys (looking mainly at Wild Romance, White Christmas, Moon Lovers: Scarlet Heart Ryeo, My Absolute Boyfriend). I always knew there was a soft and gentle side in him, and I’m so freaking happy that it came out in this series. It was such a comfort seeing him portray such a genuinely kind and caring character for a change. I was genuinely psyched that he got the girl, because my heart was already breaking at his sad puppy face watching Won and San together from afar in the opening sequence. I’m crushing on him all over again, I can’t help it. I’m even more happy I saw this drama now. 😭🙏🏻

I’ll keep repeating it, but I loved the chemistry between the two male leads so much. Their friendship seemed so natural and they expressed their unspoken dedication to each other so effortlessly. Seriously, friendship goals. They were amazing together.

I never actually saw Im Yoon Ah act in anything before, although that’s definitely going to change since King the Land is also still on my list. I’m curious to see her portray a different variety of roles now. I really liked the energy that she put into her performance of San. I know I commented on how I thought she kind of lost her spunk throughout the show, but I did like seeing how she switched between different layers of her character – in a way it was actually admirable how she was able to become a completely different person once she transformed back into Eun San. Maybe it’s better to view So Hwa and San as two different people: So Hwa the carefree and fearless and San the fragile and delicate. Maybe Won fell in love with So Hwa and Rin fell in love with San, and she chose Rin because he loved her for the real her. I don’t know, I’m probably thinking about it too much. In any case, I really liked the chemistry between her and the two male leads as well, the scenes where the three of them frolicked around were really sweet. I also really loved the sequence where she was walking while balancing on a fence and the shot shifted from Rin behind her to Won who caught her as she almost fell while following the course of a flower petal. I think that shot on its own depicted their dynamic very well, or at least how they started out with Won being more straightforward in showing his interest while Rin was still holding back.
Anyways, I liked Yoon Ah’s performance and I’m really excited to see more of her!

I can’t go on to the next characters before mentioning the once again incredible performances by the younger versions of the main leads. Nam Da Reum, Yoon Chan Young and Lee Seo Yeon are all bright stars of the future. I’d never seen Lee Seo Yeon before but I thought she did an incredible job as young San in the flashback of the bandit attack and the scene where Won passed her mother’s dying wish onto her. I’ve seen both Nam Da Reum and Yoon Chan Young in several younger version roles before, and they are such consistently talented young actors. Honestly, the talent of Korean child and teen actors never ceases to amaze me.

I’ve seen Park Hwan Hee in a couple of shows like Who Are You: School 2015, Descendants of the Sun, Jealousy Incarnate and Are You Human Too?. I barely remember her appearances apart from the last one since I wrote a review on that. I remember her playing such a brat in that series, lol. It was nice to see her as the sweet and delicate Dan, the role fitted her very well. I love how she retained strength in her pureness – I never once felt like she became weak or pathetic. Since Dan was such a naive and powerless girl who was as much shoved around by the higher ups as the main leads were, it would be an easy choice to make her like a passive puppet, but I’m glad they managed to write her as such a significant character. It was really nice to see her in a role that I hadn’t seen of her yet. I’ll definitely remember her portrayal of Dan, she was such a cinnamon roll.

I honestly think this is the first time I’ve seen Jang Young Nam portray an innately good person! 😂 She’s somehow always cast as evil people (like in It’s Okay to Not Be Okay and Crash Course in Romance). In the beginning I feared that she might have been cast as another nasty lady, a Queen even this time, but it was a really nice surprise to see her thaw towards San. I started feeling for her more and more as the anti-Yuan people’s plan started bearing fruits, and the way she ultimately met her end was genuinely sad. I really liked seeing a new side to her acting, and I thought her chemistry with her on-screen son Im Si Wan was really touching. The Queen was such a great character, honestly. I’m still sad about what happened to her and how she was incapacitated to do anything about it. Truly a great performance from Jang Young Nam, her performance really managed to make me feel for her and touch me throughout the series.

I didn’t exactly recognize Oh Min Seok as I was watching the show, but apparently he was the jerk cousin in Kill Me, Heal Me. I’ve yet to see more sympathetic performances of him, but I guess he’s a good casting choice for a smug villain. I have to admit he played the role of Song In very well. The ones that remain calm and smiling under all the circumstances are the ones to be truly feared. In a way it’s a shame he lost his cool after Boo Yong died, because he was a very intimidating villain. I think it made him even more scary because he was actually fighting for a valid cause, but he just went overboard in his methods to achieve that goal. In hindsight, you can’t deny that there must have been something good in him. He was actively trying to stop the tribute deal, which was indeed horrible. I just wished there would’ve been a bit more background information on him, where he came from and how he grew up, that would explain why he became as twisted as he did. But yeah, I think he did a great job. I thought it was very clever to gradually make him a bigger and bigger threat throughout the series, it really helped build up the tension.

I thought I recognized Choo Soo Hyun from somewhere, but I see she’s only done five dramas up until 2018 and the only one of them I’ve seen is Pinocchio, and I don’t think I remember her from there. In any case, speaking of another good villain role: I think we can all agree that Boo Yong – I purposely didn’t refer to her as Queen Moo Bi in my review since she doesn’t deserve that title – was a nasty piece of work. Yet again, just like with Song In, there was a part inside of her that was loving and good and genuinely cared about her lover. I really would’ve liked to get a bit more background information on her as well, especially about how she and Song In met and started their rebellion against the Crown Prince together. The fact that I hated her character with a passion is only thanks to her acting, it just means she did a great job. The expression on her face when she lulled the King back to sleep as he was about to wake up when the Queen busted them was ENRAGING but SO COOL. I have to admit that the energy and ferve with which she played her character was very satisfying to watch.

The way my mouth fell open when I realized Choi Jong Hwan also played that stoic guy from Birth of a Beauty! What a world of difference! Song Bang Yeong was probably the most animated character out of everyone. His acting made me think of a jester in a traditional stage play, with his exaggerated expressions and way of speaking. I couldn’t find it irritating even if I wanted to, because he still made it work and he was genuinely immersed in his role. This goes for all the more comical characters in this series, by the way, the way they acted proved my point that if an actor takes his character seriously, he doesn’t have to try to be funny to be amusing. The same went for Song Bang Yeong, because his comical acting amongst the gradually increasing turmoil in the palace actually did bring a deeper layer to his character as well. I liked that he stood out against the others in that way, he kept you thinking that there was more to him but even in conversations where he didn’t need to pretend he kept up the act, and that was a very interesting choice. He was an interesting character for sure, and the actor definitely surprised me.

Apparently they only take ballet classes together, but I keep thinking that Park Ji Hyun and Park Gyu Young are sisters because they look SO much alike! Seriously, I feel like every time I see Park Ji Hyun I first mistake her for Park Gyu Young and then look up if they’re related every single time, lol.
It actually took me a moment to realize that Bi Yeon’s actress was the second female lead in Rookie Historian Goo Hae Ryung. This was actually only her second drama, and I see that she’s done a couple more historical ones – she does look natural in the genre. It was cool seeing her in a different role, and I’m looking forward to seeing more of her acting. She did a really good job as Bi Yeon, I really loved her and San’s friendship even though she was “just” her maid. Even after what happened to her, she kept caring so much about her lady and knowingly went along with the mix-up in order to protect her. Her emotional acting game was really strong in this one, even more so when you look at the stoic personality of her character in Rookie.

When Moo Seok made his first appearance in the story, he reminded me of Yang Cha from Arthdal Chronicles. I felt like he resembled him a lot, with the black attire and the mask and the stoicness. I guess that’s why he immediately felt familiar to me, even though I haven’t seen him in anything else so far. I can’t deny that I was bummed out that he and Bi Yeon couldn’t end up living happily ever after together. I had the feeling it was going to happen as soon as he hesitated at Song In’s order, but it was still sad that he actually had to die. Sadness forever. But I liked the duality in his performance as well – I happen to have a weak spot for dangerous men who turn out to be very gentle and caring on the inside. I see on MDL that this was actually his first drama and he’s still going, so I hope to encounter him in a different role in the future – I’m really curious to see him in a modern-day role now.

Imagine my surprise when, right after thinking that Moo Seok reminded me of Yang Cha, I found out that Yang Cha’s actor was actually in this series himself. What a crazy coincidence! I thought Ki Do Hoon looked vaguely familiar but he mostly just reminded me of Sung Joon, haha. Too many associations here, I’ll keep it simple. I guess I didn’t make the connection right away because he’s a lot younger in this series; it was actually his second drama as well. It’s probably just that he looks more grown-up in Arthdal Chronicles and Love Alarm and that’s why I didn’t recognize him right away. 😌 Anyways, he received a new medal of honor on my list because I really liked his portrayal of Jang Ui. The same went for Seo Jae Woo, who played Jin Gwan. Even as royal guards who were just following orders, there was so much more to their characters. I keep mentioning the scene where they both cried when they had to shoot Rin off that cliff, but I can’t help it. It just hit differently to see these young men, who were always so steadfast, shed tears for their friend like that. They really managed to touch me with their performances.

I’ve seen Eom Hyo Seob in many a series before this (like School 2013, My Love From Another Star, Doctors, Shopping King Louie, While You Were Sleeping, I’m Not a Robot, He is Psychometric, Extraordinary You and Start-Up) and he always delivers, whether he plays a jerk or a good guy. This is definitely my favorite role of him so far. He had just the right balance between wise and goofy and I lived for it. I can still hear his quirky “Aha 😀” and I’m thinking of adapting that phrase whenever I hear someone talk BS, lol. Honestly, this will be one of his more memorable performances for me, I really, really enjoyed what he brought to this series.

As always, I never skip a mention of Ahn Se Ha whenever he appears in a series. Honestly, this man is the manifestation of being funny without trying to be. I absolutely loved him as Gae Won. His comical timing is just effortlessly perfect. I love how he always gets so immersed in his characters, even when it’s just a guest appearance or a cameo. In this case again, as I already mentioned in my analysis, he managed to make Gae Won so much more than just a funny-looking thief. While there was definitely a Mr. Smart and Mr. Dumb dynamic between him and Yeom Bok, they never took it too far and their involvement and contributions to the story were always relevant to the plot. I loved how Won actually ended up recruiting them for his team because he acknowledged how useful they were.
In any case, another great performance from Ahn Se Ha, this man never disappoints.

To sum up this lengthy review: I liked this series a lot. Admittedly, it took me a couple of episodes to get into it, and whenever I took some time in-between episodes I always needed some time to get back into the story as well, but then it still always managed to grab me. This definitely isn’t the type of show that you can just put on in the background while you’re doing something else; I did this a couple of times and I just know I missed some details here and there because of it. As I mentioned, there were some minor confusions and a lack of clarity here and there that I had to fill in by myself, but I can’t say that ruined my watching experience. There were a lot of moments that genuinely touched me, and I stand by my point that I think it was very well-written. The characters and the story were fleshed out really well, the acting was great, the cinematography was stunning, the music was good… I really liked it. It’s been a while since I felt myself feeling so much for almost every single character and managed to see something redeemable in everyone – I think the last time might have actually been Alchemy of Souls. I love it when historical dramas manage to literally sweep me away to that world and time, and I also thought it was really cool that this story was actually based on historical facts and people that really existed. Lastly, I really loved the twist that San and Rin ended up together, and it just made me so happy to see new acting styles of all these familiar actors. It was a really exciting series and I’m glad I finally got to watch it.

And with that, I have finally reached the end of this lengthy review! There’s one more month until the end of the year and I’m really curious what drama my Wheel of Fortune will pick out next.

Until then, bye-bee! x

Oh! Master

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Oh! Master
(오! 주인님 / Oh! Jooinnim)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hello hello! Welcome to another review! I’m glad I was able to finish this a lot sooner than the previous one. It was nice to watch another good ol’ romantic comedy whilst my translation work is nearing its final phase. I honestly didn’t remember putting this one on my list, but it probably had to do with the fact that Lee Min Gi played the male lead, since he’s one of my favorite Korean actors. I saw from the get-go that it didn’t have a lot of positive reviews on MDL, but I still wanted to see for myself. In hindsight, my fourteenth watch of this year had a lot of enjoyable parts as well as parts that I absolutely hated. I’m excited to share my thoughts, so let’s get to it!

Oh! Master is an iQiyi/MBC K-Drama with 16 episodes of about 1 hour and 20 minutes. It tells the love story of renowned script writer Han Bi Soo (played by Lee Min Gi) and famous actress Oh Joo In (played by Nana/Im Jin Ah).
Han Bi Soo is introduced as a cold and selfish guy who doesn’t care about other people as long as he is free to do what he wants. Although he is a successful script writer that keeps producing one hit crime drama after another, he causes his agency and the people around him a lot of anxiety because of his personality. Although he has plenty of people around him that actually care about him and not just the work he delivers, he doesn’t let anyone in emotionally and tends to get very crabby even in a professional environment. The only person he ever treats warmly is his mother, Kang Hae Jin (played by Lee Hwi Hyang); she can do nothing wrong. He even treats his own father coldly, although it is soon established that this has to do with something Bi Soo found out about his father when he was still in high school. He apparently saw his dad do something bad and got estranged from him ever since. Besides that, he’s also become very fussy about keeping his house clean and he absolutely can’t stand it when doors or drawers are ajar. He claims it’s because he gets distracted by “what could be behind it”.
At work, Bi Soo’s team consists of Director Yoo Dae Young (played by Kim Kwang Shik) and assistant writer Jung Jae Hwan (played by Song Yoo Taek).
Apart from work, Bi Soo can often be found at a vintage record shop called Just Record, where he occasionally helps out the owner Kim Chang Gyu (played by Kim Chang Wan) by looking after the shop.
On the other hand we have Oh Joo In, a very popular actress who’s mostly famous for her appearances in romantic comedies and being the spokesmodel for KT Cosmetics. Despite the fact that her agency wants her to maintain her current image, Joo In is drawn to Bi Soo’s newest drama script about a female killer. Even after she’s already been rejected by him three times and gets rejected again when she personally comes to ask him for this particular role, Joo In remains adamant on joining his drama.
Behind her glamorous celebrity life, Joo In is quite an easygoing person who likes to relax and have a beer when she gets home. In contrast to Bi Soo, she is very close with her team, consisting of director Kim Yi Na (played by Woo Hee Jin) and her road manager Bae Gwang Ja (played by Lee Hyun Jung).
Joo In’s best friend is Jung Yoo Jin (played by Kang Min Hyuk), who is actually a shareholder of KT Cosmetics – it’s his older sister’s company. Yoo Jin went to study in Paris to become a visual designer after graduating high school. While he has always secretly been in love with Joo In, she’s only ever considered him as a friend. In order to make his move on Joo In as more than friends, Yoo Jin comes back to Korea halfway through the story and becomes the second male lead.
The only thing Joo In seems to have in common with Bi Soo is that she has a really close relationship with her mother, Yoon Jung Hwa (played by Kim Ho Jung). After losing her father when she was still a teen, it’s been her and her mom against the world. After her mother got admitted to a nursing home because of advancing Alzheimer’s, Joo In has been trying to buy back their old family home so she can live there with her mother again.
Fate has it, Joo In’s old family home is the same house that Bi Soo is currently living in. She eventually manages to buy it back from Bi Soo’s mother, the current owner, who in turn wants Bi Soo to come back home. Even after Bi Soo is faced with the truth that the house no longer belongs to him, he’s such a creature of habit that he finds himself unable to work on his scripts in any other room than his study at the house. As such, the two opposites eventually strike up a deal: Joo In will become his new drama’s female lead, and in return Bi Soo can keep using his study room at the house for the scriptwriting 24/7.
While the story progresses as a typical “enemies to lovers that end up sharing a house” romantic comedy in which two polar opposites gradually grow fond of each other, there is a second major plotline where Bi Soo is brought back to life by a mysterious angel figure (played by Kang Seung Ho) after getting into a serious car accident. This figure tells Bi Soo that he gave him a life extension, but that he will still die/disappear within a short period of time.

I have to admit the “life extension” plotline immediately threw me off a little. I wasn’t expecting a supernatural element in the story, so that immediately had me shifting my expectations. Also, even though they introduced this bizarre event quite early on, within the first episode even, it took them quite a while to get back to it. I even occasionally forgot about it until suddenly the angel figure appeared again to remind Bi Soo that he didn’t have much time left. In hindsight I still don’t really understand the meaning or relevance of adding this plotline to the story when it could’ve been just an enjoyable romcom without it. Maybe I’m just biased because this plotline contributed largely to my most hated part of the story.

I’d first like to analyze the lead characters a bit and talk about the build-up in their relationship, including the love triangle with Yoo Jin.
As I mentioned before, Han Bi Soo is introduced to us as a rude and selfish guy. From his very first appearance, we see how he openly disrespects and dismisses people in order to get what he wants. He only ever trusts himself and isn’t even open to the suggestion of leaning on others for help or advice. He creates a lot of fuss for his employers as well since he keeps rejecting potential actors for his dramas. I think it was very characteristic of him to not even care about the actors as people at all – they just existed to fill in his roles. This was also reflected in how he didn’t even remember Joo In’s name after he rejected her for a role three times before. He didn’t even care to remember people he didn’t find worthy, not even when they were successful and well-known from other shows. He only ever cared about his own work.
On the other hand, Joo In is a genuinely open and warm person. Despite the fact that she got rejected by Bi Soo several times before, she follows her instinct as an actor and keeps respecting him despite his personality. I really liked her entrance at their one-on-one meeting and how her face fell as soon as she realized he was anything but impressed. In fact I liked it so much I made a gif out of it.

You could see she was really just trying her best to make a good impression because she respected his writing, and how offended she was when he treated her so disrespectfully in return. Joo In always tried to remain civilized and mature, even when others didn’t treat her the same way. I thought she was well-written as an actress because she seemed to handle things very professionally, even after what happened with that obsessive and spiteful stylist. I also liked that she wasn’t the typical “full-of-herself” kind of actress. Sure, she was confident in her looks and skills, but she remained genuinely friendly and laid-back to everyone she worked with, and that made her a very sympathetic character in my opinion.
In most of the synopses on drama source websites and even on the above poster, there’s a slogan that describes the couple as “a man who won’t date and a woman who can’t date”. However, as the story started, I was relieved to find that they weren’t actually defined by the fact that they chose not to date. I guess the slogan just refers to the fact that Bi Soo was too self-righteous for a relationship and Joo In had never dated despite her image as a romcom actress, but they both seemed perfectly happy with themselves the way they were, even without a romantic partner.
I really loved how close they both were to their moms. In hindsight I’d say their respective bonds with their mothers touched me more than their romantic relationship. I thought it was really sweet how Bi Soo started warming up to Joo In after witnessing the state her mother was in. At some point, Jung Hwa has an Alzheimer episode in which she mistakes Bi Soo for her late husband and he is thoughtful enough to play along for an entire day until she becomes lucid again. I really loved the part where he ended up dancing with Joo In’s mom and how he kept playing his part even after Jung Hwa realized she’d been having an episode. It was really nice that Bi Soo initially softened towards Joo In out of empathy with regards to what she was going through with her mother.
While it started with a respectful gesture towards her mother, I really liked the gradual build-up and development of the romance between Bi Soo and Joo In, despite the occasional cheesiness. I also liked that Bi Soo caught feelings first, since that was such a rare thing to happen. Although I did find the way he suddenly accepted his feelings for her a bit abrupt (he went from slapping himself for dreaming about her to confessing his undying love to her within the same episode), I did like the way things progressed and how the romantic tension slowly built between them. Yes, he could get slightly childish and petty, especially after Yoo Jin turned up as a love rival, but I honestly found it quite endearing how he started showing affection to her. Joo In’s feelings also developed very naturally, and I liked that she genuinely considered his love confession even when it surprised her and she couldn’t reciprocate it on the spot. All in all it was a solid example of a typical “enemies to lovers” trope drama.

I really enjoyed their relationship leading up to Bi Soo’s love confession, since it brought out the subtle chemistry between the main actors and it felt like they were drawn to each other very naturally. It seemed so self-evident that they were both mutually attracted to each other that it actually threw me off when Yoo Jin suddenly came into the picture.
Yoo Jin had been able to intercept a snooping journalist who was about to release an article on how Bi Soo and Joo In were living together, and he’d come up with the (for him) very convenient solution to distract the attention from those “rumors” by announcing that he and Joo In were dating instead – they were close friends and she was the spokesperson for his family’s cosmetic brand after all.
Yoo Jin prompts this suggestion RIGHT AFTER Joo In tells Bi Soo that she will consider his confession, and for some reason, she IMMEDIATELY agrees to go along with Yoo Jin’s plan to “fake date” him, RIGHT IN FRONT of Bi Soo. Honestly, that was kind of a dick move on Joo In’s part. I just couldn’t understand how she wasn’t able to deduct that that was a super insensitive thing to do in front of the person who just confessed his true feelings for her. When Bi Soo silently walked off after that she literally went, “huh, did I upset him in some way?🤔”. I honestly didn’t understand why she did that. The only possible reason I could think of was that she genuinely didn’t consider Yoo Jin as more than a friend and she just went along with it as an, “oh yeah, that’s a good plan, thanks for helping me out, bestie” without even linking it to what she felt for Bi Soo. Still, the fact that she didn’t even consider how that would make Bi Soo feel was kind of unrealistic to me, because she’d seemed so clearly attracted to him and offered to genuinely consider his confession just before that. Also, if she really didn’t feel anything for Yoo Jin at that point, it was also inconsistent with what happened next.
Shortly after she starts “fake dating” Yoo Jin, she SOMEHOW SUDDENLY develops feelings for him anyway, even after reassuring Bi Soo that wouldn’t happen. I actually hated that. It was super weird because in my opinion the tension she already had with Bi Soo at that point was NOWHERE to be found in her interactions with Yoo Jin. I honestly still don’t understand why they wrote this in. Why was it necessary to give Yoo Jin false hope, when it would just end with Joo In rejecting him because she only felt comfortable with him as a friend? I didn’t think it was necessary to create this extra drama by suddenly including Yoo Jin as an actual potential love rival when Joo In had never considered him as such up to that point. Why now, suddenly? They could’ve just let Yoo Jin exist as the second male lead who never actually stood a chance but kept making a move until Joo In officially drew the line, without giving him temporary false hope.
When she actually sat the two of them down and admitted she had feelings for both of them, I was like “nah man”. It felt so out of character for her, the way she dropped that on them and then just walked off, leaving them to fight it out amongst themselves while SHE was the one who had to sort out her feelings. It suddenly turned into some kind of Single’s Inferno competition between two guys trying to win over the same girl. Honestly, that would’ve given me the ick. I’d be like, girl, if you can’t be sure about me, then I deserve better, bye. But the fact that the guys actually starting competing over her, trying to trump each other by getting her to choose whose self-made food she liked better? Seriously? Why did it suddenly have to become so shallow? It took ALL the romance away for me. She was going to pick Bi Soo anyway, and when they officially got together they just reverted back to their initial cute dynamic, so I honestly didn’t think it was necessary to include this weird intermission.
As a matter of fact, the competition didn’t even end after Bi Soo and Joo In started dating. Yoo Jin kept trying to worm his way in and grasp any opportunity he could to get Joo In to spend time with him. On the other hand, whenever Yoo Jin came over to the house, Bi Soo would consistently rub it in his face that “he won”. It got pretty petty and childish at some point. Even after Joo In had already made up her mind about who she was romantically attracted to, it still felt as if they continued the competition behind her back.
In addition to that, and this will link to my most hated part of the story which I’ll elaborate on later, I didn’t see the point of Bi Soo gloating so much about his and Joo In’s relationship to Yoo Jin if he was just going to ask him to “take care of her” after he had to leave anyway. Like, why rub it in his face and be so petty in showing him how happy you are with Joo In when you’re going to appoint him as your back-up man all the same? I generally don’t like it when the male leads start talking about the female lead behind her back to discuss “who will make her the happiest” or “who will take care of her best”. As if that’s up to them to decide! Why did neither of them even ask Joo In what she wanted? In that aspect they were both pretty selfish in their feelings for her, because they just followed their own intentions. Yoo Jin still planned on proposing to her even after she already rejected him I mean, come on!
I really didn’t like how opportunistic Yoo Jin became when it came to sliding back into Joo In’s life whenever she had a falling out with Bi Soo. It was like he was waiting for a chance to get Joo In back at his side. In fact, he actually said this to his secretary when Joo In came to him after taking distance from Bi Soo, that “at least I’ve got her at my side again”.
It’s not that I truly disliked the male leads and it was clear that they were both genuine about their feelings for Joo In, but some things about the way they talked about her and tried to win her over were pretty toxic. Having said that, again I did really like the way the relationship between Bi Soo and Joo In started and built up in the first half of the show. It brought me back to old school romcom K-Dramas and I enjoyed those scenes a lot.

Now that I’ve discussed the main love triangle, I’d like to talk a bit more about the leads’ family members. Starting with Bi Soo’s family, as I mentioned in the beginning he got estranged from his father when he was eighteen and he busted him doing something unforgiveable. It’s eventually revealed that he witnessed his father having an affair through an ajar door, and this led him to become so neurotic about always closing doors. He’s never forgiven his father and it has only strengthened his love for his mother.
I found the detail of him calling his mother by her first name a nice little quirk, by the way. The subtitles I watched missed the relevance of this – I remember a scene where they were literally talking about how he always called her “Hae Jin-ssi” instead of “Mom” while in the subtitles it was consistently translated as “Mom”😅.
Kang Hae Jin is the director of Sein Hospital where she works with her husband. She’s been a doctor for a very long time but suddenly finds herself on the receiving end of healthcare when she is diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer. While she keeps this a secret from her husband and son, Hae Jin sets out to reconnect with some old friends: her first love Kim Chang Gyu (the record shop owner) and her old friend Yoon Jung Hwa (Joo In’s mother). These reconnections are all successful and the three of them start meeting up again, often at the record shop. As her illness progresses, Hae Jin ultimately retires from the hospital and gets herself admitted to the same nursing home as Jung Hwa so they can spend their remaining time together like roommates.
Honestly, I lived for this friendship. It was so full of genuine love and care for one another that it actually warmed my heart. I know I often say that I prefer it when supporting storylines don’t distract too much from the main storyline, but this was such a wholesome and beautiful addition to the main story that I actually ended up liking it more than the main leads’ romance.
I really loved Kang Hae Jin. She was such a beautiful and strong woman, and so genuinely kind to everyone. In the beginning I kind of feared that she might become an evil mother-in-law, but I’m really glad she got on so well with Joo In from the start and immediately knew she’d be a great match for her son. She remained so solid and strong throughout the story, even when she started succumbing to her illness. I don’t remember the last time I got so attached to a lead character’s mother, haha.
The same went for Jung Hwa, by the way. She was such a lovely mother to Joo In and I loved her warm smile. The flashbacks and information about how she and her late husband would spend time and dance together was so sweet. They managed to establish the mother-daughter relationship between her and Joo In so well that it actually hurt when she suddenly couldn’t recognize Joo In anymore. From how she reacted, both when she became lucid after mistaking Bi Soo for her husband and after she found out she forgot about her daughter for a moment, it was clear to see what kind of person she was. That’s why I found it so sweet of Bi Soo to play along with it in order to cover for Jung Hwa’s embarassment. The shock and terror on Jung Hwa’s face when Hae Jin told her she forgot about Joo In for a moment was physically painful. They really did such a good job in establishing the true love and care between the mothers and their children, I think this might be the most touching depiction of a mother-child bond I’ve seen in a K-Drama so far.
The friendship between Hae Jin and Jung Hwa was also delightful, it was so heartwarming to see them welcome each other back into their lives, and how they started thinking of each other and shipping their children together, lol.
I also really liked Kim Chang Gyu, he was such a goofball. It was really nice to have a slightly eccentric and fun energy in-between all the serious and dramatic topics. It was established that Chang Gyu and Hae Jin had a crush on each other back in the day, but that neither of them acted on it. Honestly, I would’ve found it cute if they still got together after reuniting, even if they didn’t put an official label on it. Their platonic friendship was really endearing to watch.
I also liked the friendship between Bi Soo and Chang Gyu. They’d met when Bi Soo came into the record shop and cried to a record after just witnessing his father’s affair, and after that he found himself coming to visit the shop more often. It became a safe and familiar place for him. It was nice that they kept coming back to the shop and listen to records in the listening room, that was a nice recurring element. It was also funny when Chang Gyu and Hae Jin established that Bi Soo might’ve even been Chang Gyu’s son and he called him up like, “Hey son, you know I could’ve been your dad!” The playfulness with which Chang Gyu interacted with both Hae Jin and Bi Soo was really endearing.
Another relation to Hae Jin that I liked was the nurse lady, Jung Sang Eun (played by Bae Hae Seon). There was a part where I actually feared she might’ve been the person her husband cheated on back in the day because of how awkwardly they acted when Hae Jin told them she was going to recommend both of them to become the next hospital director, but I’m really glad that turned out not to be the case. It was cool that Sang Eun ended up successing Hae Jin, the husband was a douche anyway. He actually blamed Hae Jin for not choosing him while the choice wasn’t even up to her, she recommended them both and the board decided. I’m glad she divorced him. The part where she confronted him and got mad at him, not only for cheating on her in the past but also for threatening Bi Soo into keeping silent about it was really satisfying. That guy needed to GO. She was much better off with her new old friends.
Even in her friendship with Sang Eun it was clear that Hae Jin was a genuinely kind person. Apparently she’d helped Sang Eun out when the latter started out as a nurse, and I also really liked the story of how she was the first person to properly comfort Sang Eun after her husband suddenly passed away. She was the first person who didn’t swamp her with worried questions about how she was doing, but who took her out for dinner and a drink. When Sang Eun told her that and Hae Jin admitted that she actually didn’t really know how to comfort her at the time, this honestly struck a chord with me. I’ve been hearing some stories from my friends lately about how they worry about and struggle with some things. I always try to be supportive and provide my own experiences with similar situations in order to relate to them and make them feel understood. Whenever I admit that I’m not sure if my words are helpful, they always tell me that they don’t need me to give advice; having someone listen to their story and relate to it is enough. I honestly felt like Hae Jin was that kind of friend as well, she just tried to comfort her friends by spending some time with them and distracting them with something fun rather than keep confronting them with what happened. Every aspect that was revealed about Hae Jin made me love her more. She was such a wholesome character, and the same went for Jung Hwa and Chang Gyu. I also thought it was nice that Sang Eun became kind of a supporting character in Hae Jin’s and Bi Soo’s story, how she comforted both of them and related to their experiences by reflecting on how it had been for her after she lost her husband. She was a really a caring person and it was heartwarming to watch her friendship with Hae Jin.

Hae Jin’s deteriorating illness also influences Bi Soo’s life, not only because he wants his drama to premiere while she is still alive, but also because he himself still gets visits from the mysterious angel figure that keeps telling him that he is also going to die soon. Hae Jin eventually passes away before the drama airs, and when Bi Soo goes through her things, he finds something very interesting: a little picture of a man – the mysterious angel figure. It had already been established before that his father – the one who cheated – wasn’t his biological father, and that his real father passed away in a car accident before Bi Soo was born. While Hae Jin was already pregnant at the time, his dad got into the accident as he was on his way to propose to her (a heartbreaking detail, OF COURSE he was on his way to propose 😭💔). In any case, the mysterious angel figure turns out to be Bi Soo’s biological father, Lee Gwang Chul (if I remember correctly – MDL only lists him as “man in white” but I know for sure that Hae Jin told Bi Soo his name in the show). Since Bi Soo got into a car accident, just like his dad, Gwang Chul managed to get him a life extention so he could at least be with his mom before she died. He also wanted Bi Soo to experience love, as he himself died with the regret that he never got to propose to Hae Jin and live out a happy and loving life with her.
I know I probably could’ve seen it coming from miles away as they kept talking about Bi Soo’s biological father and it would’ve been random if he was just a completely unrelated mystery angel. Still, when they found his picture in Hae Jin’s things I was like, “WAIT IT’S HIS DAD?!?! 🤯🤯🤯”. I actually really liked that plot twist. It was also a nice revelation that the angel had good intentions with Bi Soo from the start and that he’d done everything he could to help him even though he couldn’t completely save him from death. It would’ve been really nice to see some flashbacks of Gwang Chul and Hae Jin, or to see Hae Jin reunite with him in Heaven or something. Still, I thought it was really nice that they added him as a caring figure that watched over the son that he never got to raise.

Just to make an in-between comment: something I really appreciated about this show was that, as I already mentioned in the above sections, it did a really good job at establishing and explaining a lot of aspects to the characters’ personalities that made them very credible and realistic. For example, the fact that Bi Soo’s neurotic habit of closing all the doors resulted from his trauma of witnessing his father having an affair through an open door. They revealed that explanation quite early into the story, before it became clear what he’d seen his father do, but it immediately made me go, “Oh, so that’s why he does that, I get it.” I’m glad they put in the effort to address details like that, even with a simple and logical explanation. I was also happy that they ultimately established who the angel figure was and what the life extension deal was about. I was kind of worried that they would never explain it and leave the figure as a random unnamed angel, but the revelation of his identity and the reason why he made sure Bi Soo’s life was extended for at least that long put me at ease, so I welcomed that.
I also liked little details like that they actually referred back to elements from Joo In and Yoo Jin’s shared past, like the unicorn and that they had pictures together from when they were still in high school and stuff like that. They might seem like little things, but I’ve seen enough dramas where they don’t even bother being consistent with small details like that, so I do see it as a sign that it was well-written and thought out. They added a lot of small elements that kept coming back throughout the story in unexpected ways, and I liked that attention to detail.

Before moving on to my most hated part of the story, I want to talk about two more love story plotlines that were included in this drama. The first one is the romance between Bi Soo’s assistant writer Jung Jae Hwan and Joo In’s road manager Bae Gwang Ja. Gwang Ja falls for Jae Hwan at first sight when he accompanies Bi Soo as he settles into the study room for the first time after moving out of the house. Funnily enough it immediately seems to be mutual, and the two make a very light and lovey-dovey couple throughout the show.
While I will admit that it was sometimes nice to have a little breather from the drama that occasionally occurred between Bi Soo and Joo In, I think this was probably the most shallow romance storyline in the whole show. It was all exterior, the cheesiness, the openly affectionate gestures, the way they talked to each other. It was all laid on so thick, but it didn’t actually make me feel anything on the inside. Their scenes also became repetitive when they took different sides in the conflict between Bi Soo and Joo In. There was actually one scene that they pretty much replicated, I distinctly remember seeing the second scene and going, “this was literally the same conversation they had in their previous scene together”. Gwang Ja complained about Bi Soo to Jae Hwan, Jae Hwan took Bi Soo’s side, Gwang Ja got mad at Jae Hwan and left the room pouting, “I’m disappointed in you”. This repetitive element in turn caused their scenes to become almost filler-like, like they stopped contributing anything to the main story. I mean, they could’ve at least had some in-between scenes where they put their heads together to think of a way to help Bi Soo and Joo In make up or something. Instead their scenes just became empty farces of Gwang Ja calling Jae Hwan “My Jae Hwan” and telling him how sexy he was. Whenever they discussed Bi Soo and Joo In they always ended up parting ways because they both took the side of their own employer. I think as a couple they definitely had their cute moments, but the writers could’ve definitely fleshed them out way more and have them contribute to the main story much better. They did get Bi Soo to ask Gwang Ja for help in order to soften Joo In when she was mad at him one time, so why didn’t they do more with that? I honestly think Gwang Ja and Jae Hwan could’ve contributed way more to the story if they’d been written as a slightly more mature couple that acknowledged their employers’ respective flaws.

The other supporting romance storyline that I actually did like was the one between Bi Soo’s director Yoo Dae Young and Joo In’s director Kim Yi Na. They actually paired up both teams as couples, which was kind of funny. In contrast to Gwang Ja and Jae Hyun, this couple was maybe a bit too mature, haha. I thought it was really cute how Yi Na started warming up to Dae Young while he was constantly telling himself that she was way out of his league. I loved how he went out of his comfort zone to make a move on her, and how he simultaneously remained respectful when she asked for distance. I thought it brought a very mature layer to their relationship when Yi Na told him that she was hesitant because she’d experienced living together with a lover before which went wrong. His face when she told him he could get find a better woman than her 😭. You could see hear him think, “No I won’t”, because he was so insecure about his looks 😭. It was really cute how she gradually started allowing herself to adore him and how happy he was when she finally agreed to let him in. Their relationship just existed on its own, it didn’t affect the main story or anything, but it was still a nice addition and a nice example of two grown adults with their respective insecurities and restraints who could still properly communicate their feelings to each other.

Which brings me to the part I’ve been waiting to vent about – my main criticism of this show and the part that partially ruined the story for me. It actually almost ruined Lee Min Gi for me, and I will never forgive them for that.
As we know from the start, Bi Soo has been getting visits from a mysterious angel figure that tells him he will soon disappear from the face of the earth. As a matter of fact, Bi Soo actually starts disappearing for short periods of time. This started about halfway through the show, after he and Joo In finally got together. I remember that at that point I was JUST thinking, “now that the romance has been established, I wonder what they’ll fill the second half of the show with”, and that’s when he disappeared for the first time. The angel tells him that in 49 days, he will disappear forever, and Bi Soo is made to believe this when he later disappears again at the exact moment the angel told him. Shortly after finding out about this, Bi Soo finds out about his mom’s illness. He doesn’t tell anyone about his own issue. Admittedly, it would be kind of hard to explain that he was brought back to life by an angel and it was understandable that he didn’t want to bother his mother with that news. In any case, it happens somewhere around the time that Hae Jin moves into the nursing home and Joo In is being a super supportive girlfriend that regularly visits her. I don’t remember what exactly caused the switch, but somehow the realization that he will soon disappear and leave his loved ones behind leads Bi Soo to the sudden decision that he doesn’t want to put Joo In through that.
People who have read more reviews from me will know that one of my most hated tropes is the one where one main lead pushes the other away in order to “protect” them. Apparently for some people it’s easier to break someone’s heart than tell them a painful truth which they can then face together. Much to my disdain, this drama was no exception to that trope, but that wasn’t all. Not only did Bi Soo suddenly start pushing Joo In away without a single explanation, he actually took it to the next level and became the most horrible, hurtful and gaslighting person ever. Besides the fact that he didn’t even acknowledge that his sudden change in behavior came completely out of the blue and would of course be very hard for Joo In to understand, he actively started gaslighting her that SHE wasn’t able to let go of HIM, while HE was the one who couldn’t bring himself to tell her the truth. He literally started treating her like trash one day after he told her he loved her. What made it even worse was that, besides the fact that he suddenly told her that it wasn’t any of her business to get involved with his mom anymore, he actually took their conflict to the work floor. During a meeting with her he literally says that he’s been stressed out lately because “someone can’t take no for an answer”. That was so passive agressive, not to mention it was a business meeting and there were actually people in the room with them. When Joo In gets carried away during the first script reading – because he literally used their romantic endeavors as inspiration!! – he openly criticizes her for being unprofessional with the ENTIRE CAST present.
It just went from bad to worse. As if it wasn’t bad enough that he told her he only used her as inspiration for his female character and that he didn’t have any feelings for her. Every single time he pulled something like that or walked away from the problem I just went, “how is it actually getting WORSE AND WORSE?!” It just made it all the more frustrating because HE was the problem. HE suddenly selfishly decided their relationship was over and started telling other people that while Joo In was still unable to process what the hell he was even doing. I couldn’t believe he actually went as far as to invite her and Yoo Jin to a bar and just went, “There you go, you two can get together now” and that he even invited his childhood crush to a dinner with Joo In just to make her jealous. Like, he even started involving other people’s feelings as well. Luckily Joo In (as well as everyone else he got involved) saw exactly what he was trying to do, but it just sucked that he was so persistent on not telling anyone what his true reason was. To be fair, it didn’t even matter if he felt bad about it – if he was going to agonize by himself in his room after leaving Joo In hurt like that time and time again, why inflict that pain on her in the first place? When he finds her crying in her room one night after she’s finally agreed to break up with him, he actually goes over to her to tell her to take her crying outside because she’s being too loud. Honestly, it didn’t even look like he was faking it, he looked way too unconcerned throughout the whole thing. After all the effort he went through to make Joo In fall for him, it was incomprehensible to me that he was able to return to his room and go, “well, at least now she won’t get hurt”. It was plain unrealistic how he apparently couldn’t get it through his thick skull that he was hurting her way more than he would’ve if he’d just told her the truth. Even after she literally ended up hospitalized because of the stress he caused her, he STILL wouldn’t open up about it. It really took the trope I already hated the most to a legit UNBEARABLE level. Within three episodes, I lost ALL my respect and sympathy for Bi Soo. Even after they eventually made up again, their romance just wasn’t the same for me. I couldn’t even watch their passionate kisses after that because his character was ruined for me completely and “kissing it better” didn’t help to redeem him at all. I honestly cannot put into words how frustrated and angry this part made me. I just found it unfathomable how he didn’t realize that he was unnecessarily making everything worse. He wasted so much time that he could’ve spent happily with Joo In as they anticipated his final moments together. Honestly, this part actually ruined their romance for me.

I saw a lot of comments from people about how they also hated Joo In for putting up with the whole ordeal, but I honestly stood by her. The way she responded to his change in behavior was very realistic to me. It made sense how she initially thought he was pulling a weird joke and then got increasingly confused and frustrated as he kept going. While I personally would’ve made use of my landlady rights and kicked him out on at least five occasions, I do think it was characteristic of her to hold on to him. She loved him so much and it was clear that he was trying to push her away for a reason. I thought it was really mature of her that she just KNEW he had to be hiding something and she didn’t just accept that he apparently stopped loving her overnight.
I do have to admit that it bothered me when she found his notes about dying in 49 days and all she did was tilt her head and go, “huh, I wonder if he’s depressed or something” and just left it at that 🥲. Like, that was a fairly concerning factor that she could’ve asked him about, as it was something he wrote and wouldn’t be able to dismiss as easily.
Anyways, despite the fact that I admired how she tried to hold on to her love for him as long as she could, it did come as quite a relief when she finally took some distance and started letting go of him. At that point I was like, no matter how much you love someone, if this is how they deal with their shit you know that’s not okay. He just became a major red flag. I was lowkey reminded of the couple from Douse Mou Nigerarenai, although I felt much more empathy for the female lead in this case. I can’t believe Bi Soo kept it up even after Joo In witnessed him disappear right in front of her, he literally kept gaslighting her that she was imagining things. He only admitted that he “didn’t want her to get hurt” after she had to pull it out of him with everything she had, it was unbelievable.
As I said, that whole ordeal just ruined their relationship for me. I wasn’t even able to enjoy it when they reverted back to their initial dynamic after they finally made up and Bi Soo told her the truth. At least they were finally able to do what they could’ve done all this time, anticipate his final moments and enjoy the time they had left together to the fullest. But by that point it had lost all meaning to me.
What bothered me the most wasn’t just the exaggerated “pushing her away” trope, but the fact that it completely ruined the main couple for me. Honestly at some point I didn’t even want them to get back together, I even started thinking that Yoo Jin might be a better boyfriend for Joo In after all, because at least he would never do anything to hurt her.
Similar to what happened with the love triangle intermission, I just ended up feeling that it was unnecessary to create this immense exaggerated drama only to have them end up right where they started and just dismiss all the hurt that had been done. I didn’t agree with Joo In for forgiving him so easily, he literally only said sorry ONCE and she was like “you don’t need to be sorry”. EXCUSE ME? He absolutely needed to be sorry! Sorry was the very least he needed to be!

One thing I appreciated about the ending was that it actually did end with Bi Soo disappearing. I have to admit I got confused for a second when they showed that story he told her about how he didn’t disappear and ended up living happily ever after, but that was on me for missing the transition, lol. It would’ve honestly ruined it for me even more if they ended up finding some sort of loophole to bring him back, like they did in My Demon. I thought it was better that he did end up disappearing, because through that they at least stayed true to the inevitability of his death and the deal his father was able to strike for him. I found it much more powerful that it ended with Joo In moving on with her life whilst holding on to her fond memories of him. It was touching that she could keep holding on to little things that reminded her of him. I have to admit that at first I found his suggestion to use her mother’s forgetful episodes as an opportunity to practice different roles a bit problematic, but I did like that they brought that back in the end when her mother started forgetting her more often, as it did help Joo In to deal with it better. This also traced back to my earlier point that I liked the attention to detail in this show, they kept bringing certain elements and things they’d shared back in a touching way.

I think I’ve covered most of what I wanted to share about the content of this series. Before I move on to my cast comments I’d like to make a final note on the series’ title. The Korean title of the show is “Oh! Jooinnnim”, which refers directly to Joo In’s full name and the main leads’ house sharing deal. As part of the agreement, Joo In has to call Bi Soo “jakganim” (“writer”) while Bi Soo has to call Joo In “jooinnim”, which is a formal address (like “Ms. Joo In”) and also refers to the fact that she is the “master” of the house.
I know that the more well-known English title for this series is “Oh My Ladylord”, but since it’s established in the series that “jooinnim” means “master” and Bi Soo also addresses her as “master” rather than “my ladylord” (“master” is formal enough), I decided to use the title “Oh! Master” here to retain that reference.

Like last time, I wrote this review in parts in-between my translation work and course assignments, and I have to admit it actually feels nice to divide my time to finish it. I’ve gotten so used to writing reviews in a single day that I started pushing myself a bit to keep doing that. However, it’s happening more often that I just can’t get in the mood or find the right concentration to go at it, so I’ve allowed myself to spend some more time establishing my arguments and making sure I include everything I want to share. I might take this approach more often in the future, as it helps take away the pressure of finishing a review within a single day (a pressure which I’m putting on myself, of course).

Let’s get on with the cast comments shall we? 🤗

I’ve only seen Nana/Im Jin Ah before in Mask Girl, where she was the final evolution of Kim Mo Mi. Back then I already thought she was gorgeous, and seeing her as a glamorous actress/model in this only confirmed that for me. Her smile is so dazzling 🌟 I have to say I really enjoyed her acting. Her expressions were amazing and made me laugh from the get-go. Throughout the show I think she did a really good job balancing out the different layers of her character, from the celebrity to the worried daughter. Both her expressions and her bubbly acting reminded me of two of my favorite Japanese actresses, Ayase Haruka and Ishihara Satomi. The way she exuded a natural sense of confidence without coming across as arrogant really helped build sympathy for her, she didn’t seem like someone who’d be caught off guard or swept off her feet that easily. I also really liked her chemistry with Lee Min Gi in the first half of the show when the romance between the main leads was building up. I really hope I’ll get to see more of her acting, because now I’ve already seen her in two completely different roles and I really enjoyed both.

As much as I love Lee Min Gi, part of me still can’t believe he accepted this role 😅. I usually love seeing him in romantic comedies because he always manages to steal my heart with his cute awkwardness. I do feel like he tends to be cast as the same kind of guy in romcoms though, he’s usually the awkward, robotic, apathetic guy who finds himself suddenly lightened up by the female lead. My favorite romcom with him is still Because This is My First Life. Besides that I’ve also seen him in Shut Up Flower Boy Band (I got major flashbacks when Bi Soo got hit by that car in the first episode 😭), What’s Wrong With Secretary Kim? (everyone loved that BTiMFL reunion), The Beauty Inside (admittedly not a favorite), My Liberation Notes (🫶🏻), and an old movie called Quick. I know there are still some shows with him on my watchlist, so I’m excited for that.
All in all, although his character was ultimately ruined for me because of the stupid avoidance trope, Lee Min Gi did do a very good job. He really went the extra mile to make his character as unsympathetic as possible. One thing I like about him is how he can portray such rude and unapologetic characters because I can imagine how hard it must be to portray a character that you yourself find insufferable. I remember I also didn’t find his character in MLN sympathetic but I was still able to enjoy the fervor with which he played him. Oh! Master will probably be categorized alongside my lesser favorites like TBI, but I’m glad to say the show didn’t ruin him for me completely – I’m still really excited to see him appear in more shows.

I know Kang Min Hyuk from CNBLUE (he used to be my friend’s bias), and I’ve seen him before in a couple of shows, like Heartstrings and The Heirs, in which I liked him a lot. This was the first time I’ve seen him portray a second male lead in a love triangle. While Yoo Jin seemed like a friendly enough person, one thing that did bother me was that they tied him to Joo In so much that he didn’t really seem to have a personality outside of that. Like, his feelings for Joo In were what defined him, literally, and all his appearances in the show were linked to his love for her. In hindsight there wasn’t really anything remarkable that I can say about his personality, and that’s a pity because Kang Min Hyuk is a fine actor and he could’ve brought way more to the character if it had been fleshed out a bit better. He did a good job nonetheless, this was just a comment on the writing. I’m curious to see him in more different roles, because I’ve definitely seen enough variation from him to know he is able of much more than just a persistent second lead character.

While Lee Hwi Hyang has been appearing in dramas since the 70s, I honestly believe this is the first time I’ve seen her in anything. I really loved her performance as Kang Hae Jin, she brought such a wholesome and lovely energy to her character. She had great chemistry with all the other actors and she exuded an unyielding spark of joy that warmed my heart. I loved that the parts about her past that were revealed all contributed equally to her character, how she’d lost the love of her life and still was able to give so much warmth and care to the people around her. I think she was a very well-written and established character. As I mentioned in my analysis I can’t remember the last time I felt so taken with a lead character’s mother, she did such a great job. I just couldn’t help but feel drawn to the warmth she exuded through her portrayal of Kang Hae Jin.

I thought Kim Ho Jung looked familiar and I have indeed seen her in some shows before, but this role of hers will probably stick with me the most. She also appeared in Age of Youth Season 2 and That Man Oh Soo and I remember her character from Arthdal Chronicles as well. Kim Ho Jung has such a beautifully loving smile, it warmed me every single time. I really loved her chemistry with Nana, and as I said they did a really good job establishing the strong bond between them. If it weren’t for that, the scenes where she would suddenly not recognize her daughter anymore probably wouldn’t have made as much of an impact, so that was great. I loved that, while her Alzheimer’s was gradually getting worse, she was still able to contribute so much to the story while being lucid, and it was bittersweet to see her forgetfulness increase in the ending. I think the relationship between Joo In and Jung Hwa was also very relevant to Joo In’s individual character building, so it was nice to see how she contributed to that as well. I really hope to see her portray more varying characters in the future!

Kim Chang Wan is one of those actors that I’m always happy to see even if he plays a bad guy, lol. He just has such a quirky energy about him. I’ve seen him before in Coffee Prince, My Love From Another Star, Hwarang, 20th Century Boy and Girl, Jugglers, Something in the Rain and It’s Okay Not to Be Okay. He always brings an unexpected energy to his characters, there is always this joyous glint in his eye that makes his performances become so endearing to watch. In this show as well, Chang Gyu was such a goofball, how he would just slump over the cashier and stare at Hae Jin or triumphantly get his guitar to play her a song. I really liked the energy that he brought, and also that he was a bit of a rock to Bi Soo. I didn’t know he would be in this show so it was a nice surprise to suddenly see him appear like that. Here’s to spotting him many more times in many more dramas to come!

Another familiar face that I always like to see is Bae Hae Seon. I’ve seen her in a bunch of things, also often as a guest appearance, like Jealousy Incarnate, While You Were Sleeping, Wok of Love, Come and Hug Me, The Secret Life of My Secretary, Hotel del Luna, It’s Okay to Not Be Okay, SF8: Baby It’s Over Outside, Start-Up, Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha and Crash Course in Romance. I like how she also always manages to bring something new to her characters and she never shies away from being a little quirky. I honestly feel like she’s a very intelligent actress that is able to tap into a lot of different perspectives and emotions, and I would like to see her in more main or recurring roles rather than just guest appearances because she’s really good. I liked that she appeared in this, she was great (as always).

I guess it’s not strange that I haven’t seen Lee Hyun Jung in anything because she’s only done two dramas so far. I feel like she may be a bit of a comical TV personality or something, because she was definitely cast as the comedy sidekick. As I mentioned in my analysis of Gwang Ja, I would’ve personally liked it if she’d acted a bit more from the heart and less from the face and voice. There were more than enough opportunities to be funny, and also more than enough opportunities to show a slightly more mature side, both towards the situation between Bi Soo and Joo In and towards Jae Hwan. I won’t deny that she brought a nice energy and it was nice that besides a road manager she was also a close friend to Joo In. I’m curious if she’ll appear in more shows in the future, I hope I can see a bit more serious acting from her!

Song Yoo Taek also only has three dramas to his name. He didn’t immediately look familiar to me, but apparently he was also in Arthdal Chronicles. I actually thought he was way younger than Lee Hyun Jung as they made a deal about her being his “noona” (and I think she also looks much older than him 🫢) but he’s actually just one year younger than her. I really liked Jae Hwan, he had a really endearing energy about him. I actually think he was better able to channel a more serious side, but he was often snowed under by Gwang Ja’s exuberance. A part of me found it a pity that he went along with her energy rather than remain a bit more serious to balance her out. Anyways, he delivered a nice performance and it was nice to see how he actually became the writer for the second season of Bi Soo’s drama. I hope to see more of him as well, he had a really nice screen presence.

It was such a nice change to see Kim Kwang Shik in a role that wasn’t a mean or grumpy ahjussi! I’ve seen him in a couple of shows before, like Andante, 20th Century Boy and Girl and The Light in Your Eyes, and I think he often appears in cameos or guest appearances as well. I really loved that they gave Director Yoon a romance storyline of his own, because characters like him usually just exist on the business side of things. He brought a really nice element to the story and I enjoyed his performance a lot. I’m not much of an aegyo person but it was funny to see a buff man like him channel a cute side of himself. In terms of acting variety his performance in this show definitely made him rise in my esteem.

Woo Hee Jin was another familiar face. I’ve seen her in Healer, Moon Lovers: Scarlet Heart Ryeo, Dali and the Cocky Prince and My Demon. There’s a couple more of her dramas on my list, so I’m definitely going to see her again. It was nice to see her in a more comical role than usual, I really liked how Yi Na found herself drawn to Dae Young, almost in spite of herself. I always like to see familiar faces portray a kind of role that I haven’t seen them in before, but it seemed to come quite natural to her. As I mentioned before, I liked how she gradually decided to let Dae Young in and eventually told him why she was hesitating – if only the male lead could have communicated as clearly as that 🙄. In hindsight, I think the dynamic and relationship between Yi Na and Dae Young was probably the most interesting and engaging one in the show for me, and that was all because of the chemistry between Woo Hee Jin and Kim Kwang Shik, so well done!

Finally, I just want to give a final shoutout to Kang Seung Ho, who played the mysterious angel/Bi Soo’s biological father. Funny how you suddenly discover a new actor and then you go on to see them in other stuff even though you’d never seen them in anything before. Kang Seung Ho played Noh Do Kyung in My Demon, which I watched very recently. He made such a big impression on me there, also because I’d never seen him before, and now he suddenly appeared as such a mild and gentle angel father! That was really unexpected but it was a nice surprise to see him appear. As I said, I would’ve liked to see some more flashbacks of him and when he and Hae Jin were happy together. The flashback scene of him running across the street with that bouquet of flowers before he died was heartbreaking, and I wished I could remember him by more than that. But all in all I think he did a nice job and I liked the final revelation that he turned out to be Bi Soo’s father watching him from Heaven, that was a really nice twist.

All in all, I think this could have been a perfectly enjoyable romcom without the addition of the life extension plot and the male lead turning into the biggest jerk ever. I honestly liked the simple preset of Joo In buying the house and Bi Soo using it for his writing – that was the only element necessary to instigate their feelings for each other. The added drama of the out-of-the-blue second male lead competition was unnecessary and the trope of Bi Soo pushing Joo In away completely killed the vibe for me. Of course there will always be annoying tropes in dramas, but this one really took it to the next level and resulted in me completely losing my connection to the main leads. Which is a pity, because their kissing scenes after that were really passionate and I would’ve liked to enjoy those without constantly being reminded of what Bi Soo did and how he was forgiven and redeemed way too easily.
On the other hand I really loved the side stories about the main leads’ mothers and as I said I also really liked the attention to detail and the acting, especially Nana’s. There were many factors that still enabled me to enjoy it, so it’s still going to get a pass. I typically really like romcoms like this, so I hope I’ll be able to watch more that don’t have too many unnecessarily frustrating tropes. Sometimes less is more, writers!

I will be finishing my translation by the end of this month, which is very exciting. In the meantime I hope I can still finish a review or two, but no pressure from myself this time. I’m very excited to see what I’ll be watching next.

Until next time! x

Road to Rebirth

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Road to Rebirth
(爱在星空下 / Ài Zài Xīngkōng Xià / Love Under the Stars)
MyDramaList rating: 5.5/10

Hello there, it’s been a while! I was planning on uploading another review in September, but then this show turned out to be very lengthy and it took me a long time to get through it, so here we are more than a month later! The thirteenth show my Wheel of Fortune app picked out for me was another one that I must have put on my list after picking it up somewhere. Although I like discovering new shows that I’d otherwise never get to earlier, unfortunately this show didn’t really do it for me. There is a lot to say about it, and I’ll definitely highlight as much as I can, but all in all I didn’t enjoy it very much. I think it had great potential, but the quality of the writing and execution just fell short to me. Still, it’s an extensive project that deserves a proper review, so I will do my best to make something worthwhile out of it.

Road to Rebirth is a ZJTV C-Drama with 46 episodes of about 45 minutes each, which I personally watched on the Yo Yo English Channel on YouTube. It’s centered around the life of Su Xing (played by Jerry/Jia Nai Liang), a famous actor and the representative star of his agency Style. With the support of his manager Peter (Liang Chao), he has worked himself up from extra to top actor. Despite his widespread popularity, he has become known for his occasional erratic and arrogant behavior towards producers and directors. While many have gotten fed up with his attitude, he keeps getting away with it because of his status and reputation. One thing can’t be denied: Su Xing is extremely passionate about acting. He takes every single role he plays very seriously and always does all the necessary research to make his performances as realistic and heartfelt as possible. While he occasionally misbehaves towards the film crew members, he does treat the extras and rookie actors kindly; he’s been in their position and knows how hard the industry is to starting actors. Within his agency, he also treats his juniors the same way, and one of them is a young woman named Zhu Li. Zhu Li (played by Chen Xiao Yun) has always looked up to Su Xing and even harbors feelings for him. Unlike him she has a very hard time getting roles, and Su Xing has always supported her by getting her to appear in minor roles in his dramas. Other than that, it’s clear to see that Peter and the company in general favor Su Xing above all of their other actors, and blatantly pass the other artists over when it comes to catering to their top star. At some point, the agency receives an application of a new young aspiring actor called Qi Yue. Qi Yue (Fu Meng Bo) is a former model and gym instructor who suddenly decided he wanted to become an actor. After joining Style, he starts out in Su Xing’s shadow and also quickly falls in love with Zhu Li.
Regarding his private life, Su Xing lives with his mother Su Li Zhen (played by Yang Qing) and a seven-year old boy he claims to be his nephew, Xiao Bu Ding (played by Liang Xiao Run) – his real name is eventually revealed to be Su Run Xi, but he’s called Xiao Bu Ding throughout the show, so I’ll stick to that. It’s suggested that the boy is actually his illegitimate son, but this remains unclear for some time. In any case, he’s raising his “nephew” at his mother’s house, and keeps him away from the media as much as possible.
On the other hand we have the female lead character, a young woman called Sun Xiao Ai (played by Ivy/Yi Han Chen). She lives in her countryside hometown and runs a locally famous noodle shop with her fiancé, Fang Peng (Wang Xiao Wei). While they are about to get married, it is clear that Fang Peng has some issues with the way his soon-to-be-wife occasionally makes decisions about the shop without consulting him (masculine pride can be a fragile thing, as we know). Apart from her relation to Fang Peng, Xiao Ai has a younger brother named Sun Yi Hang (played by Pei Li Yan) who is sitting out a prison sentence at the start of the show. Xiao Ai is an independent woman who loves her work, shows a lot of compassion to others and isn’t afraid to stand up for herself.
These two polar opposite lead characters meet when Su Xing is scheduled to film a variety show in Xiao Ai’s hometown, and her noodle shop is chosen for the local catering. They immediately start off on the wrong foot when Su Xing doesn’t agree with the food Xiao Ai brings him, and they unwillingly keep crossing paths while he’s filming there. More than that, when one member of the variety show cast ends up getting stuck in traffic, Xiao Ai is invited to fill in and form a team with Su Xing.
Due to an unfortunate twist of events, the show’s wrap-up party at Xiao Ai’s house coincides with a very turbulent wedding dress fitting for Xiao Ai, in which she not only discovers that her fiancé has lost all their savings in a fraudulous investment scam, but also that he’s been sleeping with her best friend, which has resulted in a pregnancy that he’s suddenly decided to take responsibility for. Xiao Ai responds to this situation by getting drunk, returning home to the wrap-up party, and falling off her own roof with Su Xing after mistaking him for Fang Peng.

Quite a lengthy introduction/summary, I know, but that’s only the tip of the iceberg. As I mentioned before, the show has 46 episodes and includes a lot of dramatic events. I don’t even know if I’ll be able to get to all of them – I don’t want this review to go on forever – but I’ll take the time to address the events that I remember most vividly and that stood out to me the most.

The variety show is not the only thing that brings Su Xing and Xiao Ai together. Turns out, Xiao Ai is actually Zhu Li’s cousin. After the whole incident with Fang Peng, Zhu Li invites Xiao Ai to come live at her place, which happens to be next door to Su Xing. Xiao Ai’s erratic drunk behavior gets published by the media, which gets her labeled as a ‘crazy fan’ and the event impacts Su Xing’s reputation as well since she openly called him out for cheating on her (because she mistook him for Fang Peng). Her family is jeopardized even more when her brother Yi Hang gets out of prison and openly assaults Su Xing for dragging his sister’s name through the mud. While Su Xing refuses to clear Xiao Ai’s name, he does promise not to sue Yi Hang, under one condition: Xiao Ai has to become the new nanny at his mother’s place. For context: in-between all of this, Su Xing has been searching for a nanny to take care of his mother and Xiao Bu Ding since he himself is so rarely at home. When he tasks Zhu Li with finding him a suitable nanny, she gets Xiao Ai in there one time and Xiao Bu Ding immediately takes a liking to her. Although he is reluctant to accept it, Su Xing has to agree that so far no nanny has beaten Xiao Ai’s family, cooking and household skills, so he basically gets her to work at his house with the promise that he’ll leave her brother alone.

I just want to address something here. When I looked up summaries of this show on drama source websites, I got the impression that the story would be about Xiao Ai getting swayed into working at a famous actor’s house because of her cousin, and that it would take her only a short time to discover his sweet sides and fall for him. Imagine my surprise when she actually got blackmailed into labor by said famous actor, who went on to treat her awfully throughout the majority of the show. For me, the starting point of their “work relationship” was also the starting point of my aversion towards their romantic relationship, and unfortunately that feeling never went away. Although I knew from the beginning that they were going to end up together, I just couldn’t understand how that would ever happen from the way they started out. Even as they gradually got closer and friendlier, there wasn’t a single moment where I felt like their relationship developed into something romantic or passionate. I don’t like to say it, but I honestly can’t remember the last time I felt this little chemistry between two main characters. I’m not just talking about the actors, I’m actually talking about character compatibility. There are many ways to make the “enemies to lovers” and “opposites attract” tropes work – they’re both tropes that I normally really like – but this just wasn’t it for me.

I saw a lot of comments on the videos I watched where people expressed their disdain with Xiao Ai on being so forgiving towards Fang Peng and Su Xing. Admittedly, I also didn’t like that she kept helping Fang Peng out even after they split up – she owed him NOTHING and was in NO WAY responsible for the mess he made. The way Su Xing treated her after that was also horrible, all the more because he actually KNEW about her circumstances. He’d heard that her fiancé cheated on her and impregnated another girl, he KNEW the shite she was facing and he STILL refused to help her out or even clear her name to the press. He really went, “as far as I know, you ARE a crazy fan🤷🏻‍♂️”, which was INFURIATING. And that was a consistent thing he did. At some point in the beginning, he gets the nanny at his mother’s house into trouble after being nice to her, which makes his mom fire her on the spot because she suspects she’s flirting with him (🙄) and he does NOTHING to clear up the misunderstanding. He really made a thing of creating a mess and watching other people fight it out for him while just looking on indifferently like 🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♂️. Even after seeing him treat his juniors and the extras on set nicely, it didn’t redeem him for me because he kept treating people like Xiao Ai like trash. The most irritating habit he had, which was also the main thing that kept me from warming up to him and his relationship with Xiao Ai, was that he accused people without first investigating the truth. Xiao Ai literally gave her whole life to him after she started working for him. She became his biggest supporter and stood by him through every shitty thing he faced at his company. She was the only consistent person at his side during his rehabilitation after even Peter abandoned him. You’d think that would create a bond between people, but no, as soon as Su Xing was back on his feet, a single word from Peter was enough to immediately make him turn on Xiao Ai again. After everything she did for him, after all that she sacrificed to be at his beck and call, he was THAT quick to accuse her of betraying him, even though he always ended up finding out she did nothing wrong. He had to crawl back and apologize time after time and she kept forgiving him, and I kept thinking “what the heck is going on”.
That “confession” scene between them also completely threw me off. If I had to explain it, I’d say that it felt like they were slowly but surely warming up to each other, but there weren’t any strong indications in both of them that they were developing strong feelings for each other. At some point Su Xing did start to look at her differently and made some flirty comments, but she always just pushed him away saying, “That’s gross” and it never felt like it reached a peak moment of “Okay, NOW they’re totally into each other”. So when Su Xing suddenly jumped out of that pond and smooched her like “I love you too” it just really threw me off. In the build-up of things, it felt like a really weird timing, and I also need to mention that at that particular moment Xiao Ai was literally crying because she thought he’d killed himself. So yeah, nothing about that confession or kiss was romantic to me. Seriously, Qi Yue and Zhu Li had more passionate kisses than they did. Besides this “explosion of passion”, Su Xing and Xiao Ai share ONE peck in the final episode, and that’s it. Like, it can be very touching when a couple doesn’t go through all the typical “romance build-up” steps and their feelings develop without them actually talking about it, but my point is that I didn’t. feel. anything. whatsoever. On the contrary, when they suddenly started acting like lovers it just weirded me out because in terms of build-up it felt like they never left the “supportive friend” stage.

Anyways, after this paragraph it’s probably not surprising when I say that I supported the second male lead a lot more than Su Xing. Ye Lang (played by Ran Xu) is initially introduced as Su Xing’s massage therapist after he suffers a minor back injury from falling off aforementioned roof. He’s a master in TCM (traditional Chinese medicine) and performs miracles that even Su Xing finds hard to criticize. In the meantime, Ye Lang meets Xiao Ai by chance when she finds a hurt rabbit next to the road and Ye Lang offers to take care of it. Everything about their encounter and the way they organically got along immediately made me favor him over Su Xing. Of course, they ended up not being a great romantic match and I didn’t like how he kept trying to persuade Xiao Ai after she’d already rejected him five times, but I still thought he treated her way better from the start. It was really nice to see how he supported her interest in TCM and combining it with cooking. I really liked the concept of his medicinal restaurant as well, I’d never heard of anything like that. So yeah, even though Xiao Ai pretty much fell asleep during their “dates” and he couldn’t take a hint, I still thought he was a better fit for her than Su Xing, and that says a lot. I gotta give it to him, once Su Xing and Xiao Ai officially got together he did kindly back off and kept supporting Xiao Ai, even if that meant helping Su Xing out, so I had to respect him for swallowing his pride a couple times. That double proposal scene on the bridge in Xiao Ai’s hometown at the end though… that was pure cringe. It made me think of the balcony scene in My Demon where they both just stood there holding out their hand to her😭. There was one comment on this video that threw me so I’m just gonna share it: “If I were put in the same position as the bridge scene I would’ve jumped in the water and swam back home. Too much stress lol” (-@morningr.9502) 😂. It made it all the more painful because Ye Lang was literally proposing after getting repeatedly rejected by her, like what did he expect?🥲
Also, there was this part in the beginning where Ye Lang, or Eason (?) as Su Xing knew him, kind of became their go-to person to rant about each other and I just couldn’t figure out if Ye Lang actually knew who they were talking about and that they were living together? I feel like he did know, so why would he put himself through that match-making shite if he was going to try and win Xiao Ai’s heart for himself? It didn’t really make sense to me, lol.

While the main storyline was probably meant to be about Su Xing and Xiao Ai, I actually found that the supporting storylines got way more screentime and build-up. Honestly, this series might as well have been centered solely on The Dramas of Style Agency, because the amount of scenes in Peter’s office was insane. I saw in the comments that a lot of people actually started skipping Peter’s scenes because they took up so much screentime with so little relevant information.
Basically, Peter was a very shitty manager. Even though he and Su Xing went way back and he definitely started out as a decent supportive agent, he’s come to a point where there’s only dollar signs in his eyes. Or yuan signs, I guess, since it’s China. I honestly didn’t understand what he was trying to pull but it seemed like he told his actors he would get them a role in a new upcoming drama but then held private meetings with producers and directors to persuade them otherwise? Like, the only artists we ever see him deal with are Su Xing, Zhu Li and Qi Yue, but he honestly didn’t help any of them. It was just a repetition of the same conversation over and over again. Whenever the artists got suspicious of his actions, he’d always get back at them with the classic “I’m your only card here, you need to trust me” and they’d be like “oh okay, thank you Peter, you’re really looking out for me, I’m sorry I doubted you!😀” … So yeah, I understand why people started skipping his scenes. They were too repetitive and took up way too much screentime. I would’ve been more interested if there had been a solid storyline and argument to what he was doing and the office scenes actually contained vital information to the plot or something. I didn’t skip any scenes, but at some point I actually found myself looking at my phone during those scenes, and when a drama loses my attention, you know it’s not going to get a high rating.

On the other hand I want to emphasize one thing I did appreciate about this series. I’ve seen a lot of Asian drama series that feature a famous actor or actress as the main character, but compared to those I thought it was really interesting to focus on the behind-the-scenes of stardom rather than the glamor aspect. Yes, Su Xing was very popular and the show does include references to his performances and fans, but the majority of the story is based on the scheming that’s happening behind closed doors. The private meetings between managers, producers and directors and actors trying to trump each other backstage. The focus was much more on how miserable all the people at Style Agency were because Peter was screwing everything up. I’ve never seen a drama series featuring an actor’s agency that focussed on how the artists gradually started losing their minds, and I thought that was actually pretty powerful.

Using that as a segue, I genuinely felt for Zhu Li. She was literally a mouse in a trap with no way to escape, constantly having to rely on her seniors to put in a good word for her so she’d get a minor role somewhere. It’s a mystery to me why Peter held onto her when he clearly wasn’t intending to give her any work. Even when she got a job, he cut it short. When Qi Yue became the new face of the company, Peter actually started telling her he only kept her on because Qi Yue liked her and she was the only person who could get him to stay. It was awful. He even made her sign another TEN-YEAR contract!! For what?! Ten years of no activity? Honestly, I couldn’t blame Zhu Li for losing trust in literally everyone around her. There were definitely times when she was acting like a spoiled little girl, for example when she got angry at Xiao Ai for getting close with Su Xing behind her back, and she was definitely not blameless for keeping Qi Yue on a leash in the beginning, but I could see the position she was in and that did make me feel bad for her. She’s probably one of the few characters that I actually felt bad for regardless of the questionable things she did. She just became desperate for any kind of attention. I thought it was an incredibly powerful move of her to turn Qi Yue in at the end when she realized he’d completely lost his mind. Considering that he was literally the only person she had left that genuinely cared about her, that must have been an excruciating decision to make, but she still did it. It was nice that she got out better at the end – although I really didn’t need Peter and fresh-out-of-jail Qi Yue to be at that awards ceremony. But yeah, Zhu Li definitely deserved better.
All in all I thought it was a very original choice to focus on the dark side of the entertainment industry, on the shite the actors were put through behind the scenes instead of highlighting the red carpet glamor. Looking at this from a new angle put a lot of things in perspective, and I thought that was pretty refreshing, regardless of the fact that the majority of the characters were basically miserable throughout the show, lol.

Maybe it’s time to talk about Qi Yue now. Like I mentioned before, Qi Yue started out as a model and fitness instructor and just suddenly decided to become an actor and apply to Style Agency, home to top star Su Xing. I have no idea how he got in without any prior acting experience, but I guess we should disregard that detail. Anyways, while he starts out admiring Su Xing and aspires to be like him, it doesn’t take him long to realize that Su Xing is literally everything everyone ever talks about. When he joins Peter for introductory dinners with directors, they always just talk about Su Xing and whether he can be the lead in a next movie/drama/play. As a result, Qi Yue gradually starts hating Su Xing more and more, and this eventually leads to him going to very extreme lengths to discredit him. He starts going out of his way to manipulate and fool people to create situations that’ll harm Su Xing’s reputation beyond repair. He starts staging situations that will scandalize Su Xing, he starts kissing up to women with connections to certain directors to gain their favor, and he openly starts cheating to win from Su Xing in audition processes. It gets very ugly. In Zhu Li’s case, I could understand where her misery and despair came from. I could understand that she felt helpless and her little attempts at coverage reflected that. But Qi Yue was just plain ugly. He became a very ugly person, inside and out. I don’t remember ever looking at a character in a drama and genuinely thinking, “You are so ugly”. I mean come on, what did he expect when he joined Su Xing’s agency? That Su Xing would retire in a year and he would just naturally take over from him despite having no acting experience whatsoever? It just seemed like Su Xing was his only rival in the entire world, and that as long as he was out of the way, everything would just naturally fall on his plate. I couldn’t help but laugh at all those moments when he lost an opportunity after discrediting Su Xing and the role just went to another popular actor, like, he really thought he was the default option whenever Su Xing fell away. Also, his acting sucked. This was emphasized several times by directors who told him that he was just portraying the emotions but didn’t understand the character he was playing. But instead of taking that feedback and working hard on his skills to improve, he just blamed Su Xing for everything. Honestly, I had to hand it to Su Xing for remaining so mature towards him. It was very nasty to watch Qi Yue just jump at any occasion to make Su Xing look bad, he really lost it at some point. And yeah, of course Peter was also to blame, because he kept promising to help Qi Yue but then pushed him aside as soon as Su Xing popped up again. But instead of opening his eyes and realizing what a shitty company he signed up for, he just blamed the top actor for not allowing him a chance to shine, as if that was truly up to Su Xing. It was really pitiful. I still can’t believe it took almost the entire show for him to realize that Peter had never been helping him out at all. When a character behaves the same way for 46 episodes and nothing changes, no character development happens and the same scenario is repeated over and over again, that just proves to me that you don’t know what to do with a character. Honestly, it got really hard to watch Qi Yue at some point. I wish they’d established his character a bit better or at least made him mature a little bit. Now he just gradually turned into this “muhaha” crazy rival character, except it wasn’t impressive at all.

The dirtiest thing they pulled on Su Xing was definitely taking advantage of his absence during his rehab. At some point, Su Xing injures his lower back on set during a stunt and this turns out to be so bad that he actually becomes temporarily paralyzed. Imagine that, the most passionate actor suddenly realizing he can’t feel his legs anymore. And while Xiao Ai and even Ye Lang went out of their way to help him back on his feet through this disastrous episode of his life, Peter took the opportunity to actively promote Qi Yue while Su Xing was out of the picture. He didn’t even visit him during his recovery. Of course he proved himself to be double-shitty when he immediately pushed Qi Yue aside as soon as Su Xing re-appeared to take back the role that Qi Yue had conveniently taken over. But the fact that they actually pulled that, that they took advantage of Su Xing’s serious injury and not even looked back at him while he could just as well have lost function of his legs forever? That was lower than low.
I also really, REALLY hated the part when Su Xing got harrassed on set by those petty directors. Yes, he’d been arrogant to them in the past and it was good for him to reflect on that, but the way they treated him was plain petty childish bullying. I get that they wanted to get back at him, but the way they went about it was so unprofessional. They literally wasted precious set time by making him do the same scene over and over and over again just to bully him. I also couldn’t believe they actually asked him to do a major stunt when he’d JUST recovered, like, that went too far even for a petty get-back-at-him. Seriously, that made me SO angry. At the time Su Xing was facing all sorts of backlash for things he didn’t even do, things that Qi Yue staged or manipulated to put him in a bad light, so he really didn’t deserve to be treated like that. I hated the part where he got cheated by one person after another. The only good it did was make Su Xing reflect on how he’d treated people in the past, but even for that it went way too far. I think that was the only time I actually felt bad for Su Xing, because that was just plain unfair.

By the way, I actually thought in advance that the rehabilitation would be the biggest event in the show. Since the first episode starts with Su Xing doing an audition where he channels the pain and despair from his rehab, and also since it was so extensively covered in the opening and ending sequences, I thought that that would be the main event that would bring him and Xiao Ai together, that she would get him back on his feet. I honestly thought the title “Road to Rebirth” would mostly refer to the fact that Xiao Ai helped him through this one major setback. But in the end the “arc” of the rehabilitation lasted about what, five episodes? And as soon as it ended Su Xing turned on Xiao Ai again because of something Peter told him, so yeah, the idea that that would actually bring them together for real was swept out of the window right there and then. That was the thing, when I finally thought they were building up to something, Su Xing’s stupid accusatory habit just made the house of cards collapse again. I actually think it would’ve been a good idea to focus on this one big event as the main foundation of their relationship. Unfortunately it just turned out to be one of a million tiny arcs, so that also contributed to the lack of build-up that I experienced.

Of course, Chinese dramas are typically lengthy, and when I watched Love Under the Moon earlier this year I also felt like they could’ve shortened it or at least made the story a bit more engaging. All in all, I think there were enough inciting incidents in this series that caused some sort of chaos in the story. Whether it was Su Xing’s accident, the staged DUI incident or The Comeback of the Shitty Ex, there was enough to keep the story engaging. However, my main criticism is that the supporting storylines, as I briefly mentioned before, got way more coverage than the main one, which should’ve been Su Xing and Xiao Ai’s love story. The main focus was consistently on the ongoing scheming at Style Agency, and as a result that stuff became bigger than the lead characters’ story. I think this also contributed to why I felt so disconnected from the relationship between the main leads. We barely see scenes of Su Xing and Xiao Ai warming up to each other, it’s just suddenly there one day. On the other hand, the toxic relationship between Zhu Li and Qi Yue and even the romance between Yi Hang and Yu Xuan were explored in much more detail. I remember seeing a similar thing in True Beauty, when some side characters got way more screentime than necessary and it started to distract from the main storyline, and I never like that. I just want to follow a clear storyline and some complementing ones on the side that all contribute equally to the story. In this case, there was too much to focus on, too much noise if you will, and I ended up getting increasingly frustrated by everyone acting ugly rather than that I was able to enjoy the main characters’ romance. Apart from that, things also just started making less and less sense to me, and this only added to my confusion and frustration. I swear, throughout the second half of the show I was just sitting there shaking my head in disbelief towards every single thing, and then they also started adding in all these unnecessary extra tropes towards the end, like Yu Xuan’s blood clot and faked amnesia and Min Na coming back and Xiao Bu Ding not actually being Su Xing’s son – like, these all literally happened in just the final five episodes. It took me right back to the ending of My Demon where they just kept adding in more dramatic details and flashbacks until the very final episode. It just became too much at some point, especially considering they had more than 40 episodes to build up to things. Instead they spent the majority of the show on repetitive scenes between Peter and Qi Yue. I don’t like to rant this much, but I just need to express how frustrating it became to watch. In the end the only characters that actually brought me joy in this show where Qing Ping, Yan Xi and Xiao Bu Ding, because they were all precious cinnamon rolls that didn’t deserve to be involved in the actions of the shady people around them.

Before talking about said precious cinnamon rolls, I want to talk about Yi Hang and Yu Xuan. As I mentioned before, Xiao Ai’s younger brother Yi Hang starts out in prison – I don’t even remember what he did, I don’t think it was that big of a crime but he was definitely a troublemaker. It doesn’t take long for him to get out, together with this other guy who gets picked up by his girlfriend. As soon as Yi Hang lays eyes on this girlfriend, he is sold. Not only does she ride an awesome motorcycle, but the way she dresses and talks fits his type to a T. When she leaves she drops a card from a club and Yi Hang is so whipped that he gets someone to figure out what club it is to find his mystery girl. Mystery girl turns out to be called Liang Yu Xuan (played by Wang Jing Yan) and she is a part-time singer and drum player at said club, so he immediately applies for a job there as well, as a bartender. While Yu Xuan is initially annoyed by this boy who keeps trying to impress her in the most childish ways, she eventually warms up to him and they ultimately end up dating.
When Yi Hang’s wooing attempts started, I expected it to just become a casual on-the-side storyline. Same as with the main couple, although I kind of expected them to end up together, I honestly didn’t think they were a very good match. It would’ve actually made more sense to me if Yu Xuan had never fallen for him. I found Yi Hang very annoying in his attempts to woo Yu Xuan. There are limits to the things you can do to impress someone, and while it’s admirable to show that you’re willing to indulge in the other person’s interests, Yi Hang really went ALL IN. It seemed to me like he was bent on showing her how “cool” he was while that wasn’t him at all. He just acted like a little child, and the way he showed affection for Yu Xuan became kind of animated, like how an animated character would drool over the person they daydreamed about. I get that they wanted him to be the comically silly impulsive character, but I just found it silly. He was basically an enthusiastic puppy that got infatuated with someone, but none of it felt genuine to me. It was as if his focus was more on impressing her than on actually getting to know her as a person. It felt almost like it was a game to him where he had to keep pursuing Yu Xuan until she gave in. It felt pretty shallow to me.
Now that I think of it, this shallowness also extended to his relationship with his sister. Apart from the fact that he and Xiao Ai were siblings, I didn’t get any sibling vibes from them whatsoever. From the way they treated each other, it just felt like they vaguely knew each other, I never felt a sibling connection between them. I also really didn’t like how Yi Hang kept persisting that Ye Lang was Xiao Ai’s soulmate. She kept telling him time and time again that he had to stop and that she didn’t have feelings for Ye Lang, but it’s like he either didn’t hear her or he didn’t want to hear her. Both in this aspect and in his advances on Yu Xuan it felt like he only put in effort on the outside but he never actually listened to or showed genuine interest in the other person’s feelings. His affection was just very animated and performed, which occasionally just made it cringy and not heartfelt. I remember that scene where he and Yu Xuan just started dating and told the club manager and he was like, throwing hearts at Yu Xuan or something and the club manager was watching it like 🤢, lol.
I actually screenshotted the manager’s face because it was EXACTLY the face I made during this part 😂😂.


Yu Xuan’s true identity is actually kept a mystery for quite some time. Apart from the fact that we know her name, we don’t actually know much about her, and at a certain point it’s even suggested that she is somehow related to Su Xing. There is one scene where Su Xing is listening to her sing at the bar and they share a very particular look, as if they both recognize each other. Later on, when Yu Xuan visits Yi Hang and Su Xing happens to be visiting Xiao Ai at the same time, the two basically freeze and become super awkward after seeing each other, even though Su Xing does treat Yu Xuan well by adding extra food to her plate. Ultimately, it’s revealed that Yu Xuan is actually Su Xing’s half-sister, the product of the affair that caused Su Xing’s parents to divorce. Yu Xuan’s mother used to work at their house as a housekeeper and Su Xing’s father impregnated her and divorced his wife to live with her instead (Fang Peng flashback, anyone?). Yu Xuan basically grew up alone, I don’t remember what happened to her parents but Su Xing’s mom did everything to keep her away from the family, labeling her a homewrecker (although of course Yu Xuan couldn’t help being born under these circumstances). Anyways, she eventually ends up living with Su Xing’s family.
There’s one thing about Yu Xuan that I really want to note as odd, because as soon as they hinted that she was somehow linked to Su Xing, something weird happened to her character. At first we only see her as the cool chick that Yi Hang is trying to pursue. Then, suddenly we see a Su Xing fan club meeting with Yan Xi and Qing Ping, and Yu Xuan just comes walking in to join them. During that meeting, she appears to be super bubbly and actively interested in supporting Su Xing. She’s not even dressed the way she usually is, and that just made me so confused. It came completely out of the blue for me that she was suddenly an integral part of the Su Xing fanclub and even Yan Xi and Qing Ping knew her. I thought they could’ve made that reveal a bit more subtle, especially in the process of revealing her as Su Xing’s half-sister. Even if the rock chick thing was just a facade and this was her true self, there must have been a better way to smoothly introduce that, because this just confused the heck out of me.
Regardless of Yi Hang “clearing his mission” of getting Yu Xuan to fall for him, Yu Xuan got some an additional dramatic storyline towards the end that also belongs to my category of too much unnecessary drama to the story that didn’t contribute to the plot. At some point, she and Yi Hang get into an accident when he recklessly jumps on her motorcycle to prove he can drive it. It’s not a serious accident – Yu Xuan falls on the ground and Yi Hang hurts his wrist – but when Yu Xuan gets a just-in-case check-up she gets the shock of her life: she actually has a blood clot in her brain that’s in a very risky position to operate on. I think she already had it and it just happened to get discovered through this check-up, because the accident definitely wasn’t major enough to cause something like that. In any case, the operation has an extremely low success rate and although Yi Hang manages to persuade her not to take it, her symptoms get worse and worse and when the success rate increases to 20%, she still decides to take it. Luckily, everything ends well and although I hated the fake amnesia trope I was glad that at least they wrapped this up in the final couple of episodes. What I could not fathom though, was that after extensively debating whether or not to undergo a low-success surgery and even making peace with the possibility that she could die during said surgery, she actually made a fuss about her hair getting cut off. Seriously, I had no words for that, that was such an unnecessary thing to add to the whole situation. You’d think she’d thought everything through, down to the actual fact that she could die, but NO! NOT THE HAIR! THAT WAS ALL SHE HAD LEFT OF HER MOM! Xiao Ai actually had to remind her of the fact that her hair would grow back and it would still be her mom’s DNA 💀. That was such a random and unnecessary detail to add to that situation, and it completely threw me off guard after watching Yu Xuan make that super mature decision. Like, seriously, you’re more prepared to die in a surgery than you are prepared to cut your hair off, even though it will eventually grow back? Talk about priorities, my goodness.
The last point that I want to make about Yi Hang and Yu Xuan is that while I personally wasn’t that invested in their romance, their love story still managed to become bigger than the main leads’. We see much more of Yi Hang’s crazy attempts to win Yu Xuan over than we see Xiao Ai and Su Xing get gradually closer. With the wonky balance between the focus of the different characters, I ultimately didn’t get invested in any of the romantic relationships at all, which is, in a way, kind of impressive.

It’s finally time to talk about my cinnamon rolls!🍩🍩
I’ll start with Qing Ping, my consistent fave. Qing Ping (played by Jackie/You Ming Tan) is Su Xing’s assistant who is always by his side when he’s on the road or on set. He’s extremely loyal to Su Xing and one of the few people who remain on his side after Qi Yue starts poisoning the world against him. In fact, he actually starts spying on Qi Yue to pass information through to the Su Xing fanclub in an attempt to bust him. Qing Ping was arguably the most unproblematic character in this show. He was just a good guy who fortunately became aware of Peter and Qi Yue’s shady schemes and chose to stick to Su Xing throughout. Even after he became Qi Yue’s assistant and Su Xing went back to being an extra on set, he always made sure to pass by Su Xing to check in on him and pass him something to eat or drink. Even if he did something thoughtless or didn’t give all the necessary information from the start, I could never hate Qing Ping because he was a genuinely good guy who never meant anyone harm.
I also really liked Yan Xi, the president of the Su Xing fanclub. I don’t know why, but for some reason I can’t find the name of the actress anywhere. I actually went as far as finding out the characters of her name and going through the end credits but it looks like she’s not even credited. I am baffled. She was such an important supporting character with a name, a role and a purpose, and they didn’t even include her in the cast list. Well, I’m definitely giving her a shoutout now. Yan Xi is first introduced as kind of a contrasting character to Xiao Ai. While Xiao Ai is initially repulsed by Su Xing, Yan Xi is actively supporting him. What I liked about her character was that, after all the extreme depictions we’ve seen of fans and fanclubs in dramas, she wasn’t just a mindless groupie. She actually made work of showing Su Xing how much his fans still supported him even after he was discredited. She personally came to visit him with flowers during his rehabilitation and encouraged him with her personal story of how much he means to her and so many others. As soon as he gets jeopardized, it doesn’t take her long to suspect Qi Yue since he has a lot to gain from Su Xing’s absence. I loved how involved she got in her private investigation to bust Qi Yue’s lies. She was such a wholesome character. If anyone has any idea who the actress is that played Yan Xi, please let me know because I really want to credit her. She was one of the few characters that actually managed to make me feel something in this show 😅.
Honestly, if there had to be a cute side couple in this show, I wanted it to be Qing Ping and Yan Xi. Qing Ping definitely liked her and they were close friends already, so it could have actually been possible. Imagine that, the one couple I actually shipped didn’t end up together🥲💔.

Finally, we have to talk about Xiao Bu Ding. This little boy was one of the main reasons I kept watching until the end, and his scenes where the only ones that legit tugged at my heartstrings during this show.
In the beginning, it’s suggested that Xiao Bu Ding is the illegitimate child of Su Xing and another actress called Min Na, who left to America to pursue her career after giving birth to him. Su Xing got full custody of the child because Min Na basically turned her back on both of them and hasn’t been there for Xiao Bu Ding at all, apart from a short annual visit during his birthday. Su Xing’s family signed him up as the child of Su Xing’s older brother who tragically died in a plane crash, and therefore Bu Ding has grown up calling Su Xing “Uncle”. He also has no idea that the “pretty aunt” who visits him on his birthday is his mom.
The first time we learn that Su Xing has a heart is when we see him with Xiao Bu Ding. He actually wants to take a break from his beloved acting to spend more time with him. We don’t see Xiao Bu Ding that often throughout the show, but he is an important key character that grounds Su Xing and also brings him closer to his more compassionate side, and it’s also because of him that Xiao Ai gets to stay on at their house. Apart from that, he’s just the cutest little curly-haired boy on the block. The final episode wrecked me the most out of the whole show – my heart was not ready to see him cry and say that he wanted his uncle to be his dad 😭😭😭. That part hit me in the heart and I’m keeping it with me. I didn’t even care that his acting was a bit awkward sometimes because he was just the most precious thing ever and he did amazing for his age. I actually just realized that he was eleven years old when this aired, bro I thought he was actually seven?! I thought he was much younger than that! Anyways, Xiao Bu Ding provided the necessary sparkle in-between all the crazy shady drama and I was very thankful for that.

Although I didn’t like Su Xing’s mom (Yang Qing) that much in the beginning, for example when she fired that nanny for “flirting” with Su Xing and she was initially also kind of harsh to Xiao Ai, everything changed when the Fire nation attacked when she stood up for Xiao Ai after Su Xing scolded her for being responsible for his mom’s fall (which wasn’t true, please refer back to his accusatory habit without fact-checking first). From that point on, I found her a very delightful woman with a very good nose for shady people. It was nice to see how Xiao Ai grew on her and how she picked her side more and more often. When Min Na came back, I just relished in Li Zhen’s disdain with her, that was really satisfying. It was also cute what she had going on with the butler? Driver? I’m honestly not sure who he was, the elderly guy who was often at their house and was clearly taken with her, haha. It’s always nice to have a mom on the good side, and I’m glad she didn’t turn out to be a nasty mother figure. I actually liked her acting a lot, she had a very natural way of being funny.

We’ve come to the final important character, and once again it’s one we all (hopefully) hate. As I mentioned before, Xiao Bu Ding’s mother is an actress that Su Xing used to be with since they both started out as rookie actors, but for some reason she ended up leaving them behind and went to America to pursue her career there. In the beginning, I believe it is mentioned that she would be the first Chinese actress to star in an X-Men movie or something. Anyways, we soon find out that Peter and Min Na’s manager Shu Xiao Pei (Zhu Xuan) – another piece of work that I’m not even going to elaborate on in this review – both collaborated in separating them, and that Peter somehow disabled her from coming back to China. That’s why I got the idea that they were actually strategically separated and unable to reunite apart from the few times Min Na managed to sneak in and visit Xiao Bu Ding. However, when Min Na eventually returns to China during Su Xing’s lowest point, we find out what really happened.
Turns out, Min Na (played by Li Yi Xiao) actively chose her career over the child she just gave birth to. She sashayed away and never reached out to either of them. She didn’t even bother to act like a proper mother to Xiao Bu Ding, not once for seven whole years. But then, all of a sudden, out of the blue, she decides that she has the right to help Su Xing back on his feet and take responsibility for Xiao Bu Ding. Just like that. She hasn’t been around for seven years but SUDDENLY she feels the urge to take her son for herself and maybe even get back together with Su Xing. I don’t know if that’s really what she wanted, but she very actively tried to convince him to ban Xiao Ai from his life with the whole “she’s not a good match for you” BS. Admittedly, I didn’t think they were compatible either, but Min Na shouldn’t have gotten a say in who Su Xing surrounded himself with after abandoning him like that. She actually approached Xiao Ai behind Su Xing’s back as soon as she arrived in China to tell her to get away from him, like?? Who are you, lady?
What made me jump off my chair the most was the way she suddenly “couldn’t help herself” to tell Bu Ding she was his mom. That was insane beyond words. She saw Xiao Ai talking to Bu Ding – get this: Bu Ding had just told her that he didn’t like Min Na and Xiao Ai was actually DEFENDING her – and just barged in, yelling at Xiao Ai to stay away from her son. After that she literally GRABBED and SHOOK Xiao Bu Ding by the shoulders, screaming “I AM YOUR MOTHER!!”, traumatizing the poor boy for life. She absolutely LOST it, and then went back as if she did nothing wrong, she didn’t even apologize to Bu Ding for scaring him. If that tells me one thing, it’s that she has no idea how to be a mother. It was like she just thought giving him gifts and doting on him was enough. She just wanted to take him back with her to America (by force, if necessary) and didn’t stop to think about how Xiao Bu Ding felt. Seriously, that kid was TERRIFIED. And it made it even worse when she just grabbed him out of Su Xing’s arms to take him away. The fact that she was able to watch them cry and hug each other as they were saying goodbye and that didn’t make her think, “Omg look at them, I am the worst person for separating them”, she still grabbed Bu Ding and dragged him off. At least she finally came to her senses and let him go because she “didn’t want her son to hate her for the rest of her life”. Woman, you’ve never even been in your son’s life, I’m sure it won’t be too different for either of you if you leave him with the man who literally raised him as his father. Because, yeah, another last-minute dramatic revelation in the final episode is that Su Xing was in fact NOT Xiao Bu Ding’s biological father. On the night Min Na broke up with him, she got drunk and slept with a random guy she mistook for him. Although it must have been around the same time she last slept with Su Xing, otherwise he would’ve known Xiao Bu Ding wasn’t his child from the start, right? Anyways, yeah, I honestly don’t really understand why it was necessary that Su Xing was NOT his father, because he was, in everything he’d done for him. I get that they needed a reason that Min Na could use to get full custody over Bu Ding, but I found it a bit weird that they only revealed the fact that Su Xing and Bu Ding weren’t related until the very last episode.
In any case, I really didn’t like the fact that Min Na just suddenly barged back into their lives like that. It made me think of the mother from Crash Course in Romance who suddenly came back ten years later after dumping her daughter with her sister without a word and just started criticizing the people who had actually raised her child in her place. Like, who has time for that, especially in the last couple of episodes? If it was going to be like that, they could’ve let Min Na step in a bit earlier, but no, she even kept rejecting opportunities to help Su Xing out before that, so it felt really random why she suddenly decided to come back and ruin people’s lives so late into the show.

Lastly, I want to give one big shoutout to a side character that made a deep impact on me. I’m talking about Cheng Chun Lai, the young rookie actor who was present when Su Xing got into that major accident on set. Chun Lai (played by Xiao Ding Dong) was one of the rookie actors that Su Xing was nice to, and he was an absolute sweetheart. Su Xing even gave him something that belonged to him and Chun Lai was so incredibly thankful. It was heartbreaking that the accident happened while Chun Lai was his co-star (they were acting out a fight on horses and Chun Lai accidentally bumped Su Xing off his horse, after which he made the bad fall). But what broke my heart in pieces was that every single bystander, from the director to Peter to anyone else, put all the blame on Chun Lai. The poor boy was already besides himself with agony and guilt and he even came to the hospital crying because he felt so bad. Of course he wasn’t to blame. Imagine the horror of accidentally causing your idol to get injured. But it absolutely GUTTED me how everyone started gaslighting Chun Lai that he was responsible, even when Su Xing stood up for him (and thank god he did this time). That was so awful and unfair to that poor boy. I really wanted to credit him because he actually touched my heart. Luckily DramaWiki listed him (I’m still salty about Yan Xi’s actress).

Now that we’re finally through the character analysis, I just want to discuss one more point of criticism before my conclusion. As long as it’s taken me to write up till now already, I don’t even think I’m going to list all the cast members 🥲.
Apart from the lengthiness and occasional randomness in the storylines and character developments, there are some things I’d like to point out that I found a bit sloppy. What it comes down to is that, despite its 46 episodes, it was very clear to see that this drama didn’t have a very big budget. I don’t want to criticize that too much because dramas are expensive projects and it often happens that something just doesn’t work out as qualitatively well as one would like. But my issue was that it felt to me as if they actually tried to make it look high-quality even though they blatantly flaunted the cheapness around.
I’ll start with the dubbing. I know that many Chinese dramas do this for time and cost-cutting reasons (which is kind of weird for this seemingly low-budget show), but I found it downright sloppy. It was inconsistent, for one, because some actors weren’t dubbed while others were. Xiao Ai was one of the main characters who was consistently dubbed and her voice just didn’t match her lip movements. It didn’t feel like she was the one talking at all, and I think the least you can do with dubbing is make sure the voice matches the person.
Then there was the music. I remember also mentioning this in my review of The Big Boss, where they had an “idol” character but never actually let him sing and just dubbed his performances over with the soundtrack or some other song that he was definitely NOT lipsynching to. They did the same thing here, for example when Yu Xuan performed at the club. One of the songs from the soundtrack happened to be the song that she always sang (literally, it was the same song over and over again). But sometimes they also did other weird things, like turning up the music when there was a dialogue going on or cueing the soundtrack when someone was actually singing a different song so the two songs clashed. I actually went 🫤 a couple of times because it was not pleasant to listen to.
Then there was the wardrobe issue. I saw a lot of comments on the YouTube videos I watched mentioning it as well, but most of the characters wore the same clothes over and over again. I remember seeing Zhu Li in that red pants suit the first time (I just realized she’s also wearing it on the poster 🙉) and thinking the color looked really good on her – and then I got to see her wear it about 50 times more throughout the show. Qi Yue also had a recurring shirt, the one that said “Treat Boys And Girls The Same” – he was even wearing it when he came to visit that award show at the end, I was like “heyyy there’s that shirt again”😂. Also, Peter with his eternal short pants 🥲 It just started to become very obvious at some point and that also contributed to a kind of cheap look, especially for the characters that were supposed to be actors – you’d think they have a bigger assortment of clothes to wear. And that’s what I mean, it actually started to impact the credibility of the show, because it wasn’t realistic for people to always walk around wearing the same clothes, especially in the entertainment industry. Details like that just made it seem as if they didn’t spend much thought on how to make things look, and that was a shame.
I also remember when Qi Yue briefly hurt his arm and had to wear a cast, which literally looked like he was wearing a roll of kitchen paper around his arm until he slammed it off against the wall and all this plaster fell off 💀 Like, I couldn’t even take that seriously.
SPEAKING OF TAKING THINGS SERIOUSLY. Did anyone else notice that the banners at the funeral of Su Xing’s former teacher all spelled “Extreme, painful mourning”?? 💀💀 I actually made a TikTok about it because it was such an unfortunate moment to show Engrish. It was meant to be an extremely touching scene, with Su Xing doing a speech about his former teacher, and all I could see was “Extreme, painful mourning” plastered all over the walls. 💀 That was not a very welcome distraction, especially not in a scene that was meant to be moving. They could’ve at least double-checked the English or made sure not to feature the text in the shot, because it took away all the seriousness for me.
One other thing I noticed is that they didn’t seem to have put much thought in how things worked. Take Xiao Bu Ding’s allergy, for example. Bu Ding has allergic asthma and is not allowed to play with little animals. At some point, however, he picks up a rabbit and immediately gets an asthma attack. I don’t know what they told the boy, probably to pick it up and immediately start acting like he couldn’t breathe or something. But I saw some valid comments on the videos from people with actual asthma who went like “Uhhh… that’s not how that works, people”. It’s like they added this element to Xiao Bu Ding’s character without even thinking to look up what an actual asthma attack looked like. It’s not something that happens within two seconds of touching a bunny, that’s for sure. So yeah, this also contributed to the feeling that they really didn’t do much research for the show.
Another thing I found distracting was the lack of consistency in shots. Of course, it’s hard to maintain complete continuancy, for example when two people are talking and face each other in one frame and look the other way in the next. But in this show, they honestly didn’t even put in effort to check if things added up, if you ask me. For example, during video calls when one of the people appeared in the top corner, sometimes it was just a frozen screen made to look as if they were quietly listening to what the other was saying. Sometimes it was an actual moving shot, but it felt like it had been recorded separately without any back-talk, so it was just a shot of them smiling and listening quietly, even though the next shot would for example show them with a worried expression.
The most extreme example of shot inconsistency was when Xiao Ai recorded a video of Xiao Bu Ding for Su Xing. She was walking backwards while circling around a tree as she filmed him. Later, when Su Xing watches the video she made, it shows Xiao Bu Ding walking and looking straight ahead as he’s talking, and you can even see Xiao Ai’s side in the frame, walking next to him, like someone else shot the video in front of them! It was so weird! I just couldn’t understand how no one from the editing saw this and went “Yo… this doesn’t make sense.” Those details just make the editing look sloppy, and on top of everything else, that did not contribute to a satisfying watching experience.
I also remember this scene where Min Na started sending Su Xing emails from America which he didn’t respond to. I guess it was meant to show that a lot of time passed in-between the emails, but the way they edited it made it look like she was literally sending one email after another with the same single long sentence in it. I think she even kept wearing the same outfit, so that didn’t help. It was only until Su Xing suddenly wore a different shirt that I was like, “Oh wait is this a different day?” Like, there were such weird things in the editing. Even the scene where Su Xing scolded Min Na for scaring Xiao Bu Ding was followed by a scene where they were happily looking at Xiao Bu Ding’s baby photos together as if nothing had happened. It really wasn’t clear how much time passed in-between certain scenes and that caused me all the more confusion.

So yeah, all in all it’s safe to say I didn’t have the best watching experience, and it also didn’t help that the English subtitles on the Yo Yo Channel was below par. I don’t know why it’s so hard to find proper English subtitles for Chinese dramas. At least I got to watch it in good quality, but it left a lot to be desired.
I’m not going to include an elaborate cast comment section on this one. It’s taken me about four days to finish this review in-between all my busy translation work and assignments, so honestly I’m just glad to reach the end 😅. I’ll just make some brief comments on some acting performances that I did and didn’t like and be done with it.

I actually had mixed feelings about the acting. I guess you could say it was at least consistent with the rest of the elements in the show that some people performed better than others. There were a lot of people praising Jerry Liang’s acting in this show, but honestly I wasn’t too impressed with it. There were touching moments, yes, but he used a lot of the same expressions and sometimes layed it on a bit too thick for my liking. I really wanted to be impressed by his acting in the audition tape, the one that the series also started with, where he channelled the pain he’d felt during his recovery, but honestly I didn’t find it that convincing. I don’t think it’s a natural response to realizing you can’t move your legs to actually slap them and say “Hey, hello, why aren’t you working??” In my opinion it would’ve been much more powerful if he just let himself be swept up in the emotion and left out any lines. Sometimes lines are surplus and actually ruin the effect of a heartfelt scene. That’s just my opinion. I think it also had to do with the fact that I just couldn’t fully warm up to Su Xing until the end, although I did like the parts where he showed how passionate he was about acting, for example when he was researching or rehearsing.
I really didn’t like Fu Meng Bo’s acting. I get that Qi Yue was meant to be a bad actor, but the scenes in which he lost his mind in the end where plain cringe to watch, especially with that fisheye lens that made him look anything but flattering.
On the other hand, I actually did like Chen Xiao Yun’s performance as Zhu Li. I think she did a great job actually. She was one of the few that actually managed to sweep me along with her emotions. Her crying card was on fleek and I really liked her expressions.
In terms of emotional range I also liked Ivy Chen’s performance, but mostly her crying scenes, which maybe sounds weird. The way she cried when Su Xing was able to briefly stand up for the first time since his accident was really impressive. Other than that, I didn’t really get a lot from her. As the female lead, I really would’ve liked to get inside her head a bit more, but I kept feeling detached from her. She occasionally had the same vague, empty look in her eyes and she made weird transitions in her emotions, like suddenly being all smiley again after a serious scene, which didn’t always make sense to me. It was kind of disappointing, because I remember really liking her acting in Skip Beat! (which I watched more than ten years ago).
As for Pei Yi Lan, his acting just wasn’t my style. I get the character he had to play and how he was meant to be impulsive and reckless, but he also layed in on a bit too thick for my liking. I liked Wang Jing Yan’s acting, but the inconsistency in her character made it a bit hard for me to gauge the kind of person she really was. I just liked her because she was chill most of the time (except during the hair-cutting scene💀).
Apart from that, I already mentioned I liked Yang Qing, the actress that played Su Xing’s mom, and I already talked about my cinnamon rolls, so no need to elaborate on them, I think.

I probably wouldn’t recommend this show. It was too lengthy, too repetitive, and it didn’t build up in character development and romance as I’d hoped it would. I definitely found the concept interesting and it had the potential of a proper “enemies to lovers” trope romance drama with the shady entertainment business as its backdrop, but the writing, editing and execution really fell short in my opinion. I’m still grading it above five because I liked that they chose to frame it with the perspective of the behind-the-scenes scheming rather than the glamorous celebrity life. I think there should be more dramas that shine a light on the dark side of the entertainment business with the management rather than the artists at its focus. And there were definitely some touching moments in there, don’t get me wrong. But all in all there was too much noise and there were too many sloppy flaws that distracted from the actual storyline and even the romance build-up of the main couple.

Needless to say I’m very excited to move onto a new show, which hopefully won’t take me as long to finish as this one 😅. We’re already nearing the end of the year and I feel like I’ve barely watched any shows this year, so I hope I can get a few more in before the end of 2024. No hurries, of course, but I’d hate for this to be the last or second-to-last one, haha.

Until then!
Bye-bee! x

My Demon

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

My Demon
(마이데몬 / Mai Demon)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hi everyone! Thought I’d drop off another review before the end of the month and before I go on holiday next week! It’s been kind of a wild ride the past few weeks – even though I’ve officially graduated I immediately had to settle all kinds of things for my book translation project and it’s been very busy! Still, I’m glad that I can find the time to enjoy dramas in the meantime, and I really wanted to finish this one before taking some time off. So yeah, the twelfth show my Wheel of Fortune app picked out for me was a pretty recent one! I admit that I’m updating my list regularly with new shows, so it can happen that a new one slides in every now and then. I was excited to finally watch this, since it had been on my Netflix K-Drama list for a while, mainly because of the main leads. I’d heard varying responses, so I was eager to find out what it was about for myself. All in all, I found it enjoyable, but there were a couple of elements that didn’t really make sense to me, so I’m eager to discuss those. Let’s go!

My Demon is a Netflix K-Drama that consists of 16 episodes of about one hour and six minutes long. The story follows Jung Goo Won (played by Song Kang), a demon who’s been living for over 200 years. Throughout the years he’s been going around making deals with humans – he grants their wish if they agree to sign a contract that will send their souls to Hell ten years later. In his demon business there is no place for compassion; apart from the bad guys he strikes up deals with, Goo Won actively takes advantage of innocent people in the most tragic and desperate moments of their lives. When he’s not doing his demon work, he acts as the CEO of Sunwol Theatre, which specializes in performances of traditional sword dancing. The only two human companions he has by his side are his secretary Park Bok Gyu (played by Heo Jung Do), who remembers himself striking up a deal with Goo Won in a past life, and Jin Ga Young (played by Jo Hye Joo), nicknamed “Star Jin”, the main solo sword dancer of Sunwol Theatre. Goo Won saved Ga Young from her abusive father when she was still very young, and she got attached to him and stuck by his side, gradually developing romantic feelings for him.
On the other hand, we have Do Do Hee (played by Kim Yoo Jung). After her parents died in a car accident on the night of her eleventh birthday, Do Hee was adopted by Joo Cheon Sook, or “Madam Joo” (played by Kim Hae Sook), the CEO of the extensive Mirae Group. While initially distant, Madam Joo developed an affection for her newly adopted daughter that grew way deeper than what she felt towards her biological children. Although her oldest son Noh Seok Min (played by Kim Tae Hoon) is the rightful heir to Mirae Group, Madam Joo doesn’t make bones about the fact that she’d rather transfer everything to Do Hee after she passes. She’s even made Do Hee the CEO of Mirae Food and Beverages, giving her control over her own branch of the company. As expected, Do Hee is not treated very warmly by her adoptive siblings. Apart from Seok Min, there’s also Madam Joo’s daughter Noh Soo An (played by Lee Yoon Ji), who’s as aggravated by the idea of Do Hee succeeding the CEO as her brother is. The only person on Do Hee’s side is her adoptive cousin, Joo Seok Hoon – the son of Madam Joo’s brother. Seok Hoon (played by Lee Sang Yi) is the only one that seems to care about Do Hee, and he even seems to harbor romantic feelings for her. Do Hee’s only not family-related trustee is her stoic secretary, Shin Da Jung (played by Seo Jung Yeon).
When the story starts, Madam Joo is shown to continuously push Do Hee to go on blind dates – she seems eager to see her married before she succumbs to her deteriorating health. Do Hee ultimately agrees to go on a blind date, on the condition that Madam Joo goes for a health checkup.
Goo Won and Do Hee meet at a restaurant where Do Hee mistakes him for her blind date while he just happens to be there to enjoy some cake – his regular reward to himself after collecting another soul. They start out on crabby terms, but they keep crossing paths and ultimately Goo Won targets Do Hee as his next client when she calls for help after getting assaulted by a mysterious man in a mask. Things don’t go as planned, and somehow Goo Won’s powers – which are sealed by a cross-shaped tattoo on his arm – transfer to Do Hee. Now without his powers, he has no choice but to strike up a deal with Do Hee: until they find a way to return his powers to him, he will be Do Hee’s personal bodyguard.

Let me just start out by saying that this was a very extensive drama with a lot of characters and storylines. Just when I thought I was starting to understand what was going on, another storyline or piece of information was presented that either added more depth or revealed something entirely new. At some point it felt to me as if they kept adding new dramatic things that didn’t actually contribute to the main plot that much. Until the very last episode, new pieces of information were revealed to the point where I didn’t think they even mattered that much anymore. Furthermore, this show had a knack for creating very dramatic and shocking moments and then basically debunking or fixing them immediately afterwards, diminishing the effect as a result. This, in combination with some inconsistencies and things I would’ve liked to have clarified more, made it quite challenging to construct a review with all the elements in a coherent order. There’s a lot of things I want to discuss, so please bear with me.

Let’s start out with an overview of Madam Joo’s family, since it personally took me some time to understand how exactly everyone was related. First of all there is Madam Joo, Joo Cheon Sook, who was apparently married to someone with the family name “Noh”, since both her children, Seok Min and Soo An, share that name. Seok Min is married to Kim Se Ra (played by Jo Yeon Hee) and they have an adult son called Noh Do Kyung (played by Kang Seung Ho). Soo An’s husband is never revealed, but she has two young twin sons called Austin and Justin (played by Park Do Yoon and Kang Da On respectively). Madam Joo’s hippie brother and his wife have retreated to the countryside, and in their place their son Joo Seok Hoon has been appointed director of the financing department of Mirae Group.
From the get-go, it’s clear that Madam Joo is not very fond of her biological children. She seems quite detached and cold when she talks to them and only wants to keep Do Hee close. She even comments on how her children will probably throw a party once she passes away, which turns out to be some serious foreshadowing – when she passes away after a couple of episodes, her funeral definitely feels more like a party than a grieving ceremony. When Madam Joo’s final will is revealed, it states that Do Hee will inherit Mirae Group on the condition of getting married, revealing the reason why she was so adamant on Do Hee going on those blind dates. Her final will comes as a big shock for her biological children of course, and it sets in motion a dirty game of family politics. To what lengths are the rightful Mirae Group heirs willing to go to stop Do Hee from succeeding Madam Joo as the CEO? Do Hee initially puts up a good fight as she immediately asks Goo Won to marry her, to which he only agrees after witnessing for himself just how much danger she’s in. Having fulfilled Madam Joo’s condition, Do Hee doesn’t back down easily, and only ends up giving up her candidacy after Goo Won is stabbed by the masked killer, in order to protect him as well as herself.

Honestly, Do Hee really doesn’t have it easy. She holds her head incredibly high as the “fake” member of the family and she’s very mature for her age – which is understandable if you look at the environment and family she had to grow up in after losing her parents. Madam Joo is definitely her protector, and Do Hee knows she doesn’t have much to fear from the other family members as long as she is there to shield her, but that all changes when Madam Joo abruptly passes away. Madam Joo meant the world to Do Hee, as she was the one who saved her after her parents died and the only person who seemed to have good intentions towards her. This is also confirmed when Do Hee is faced with the suggestion that Madam Joo was just using her to redeem herself from her past wrongdoings; it was obvious to see how much even the suggestion of that truth hurt Do Hee. After being left alone in that hostile family, Do Hee is the only one who suspects foul play in Madam Joo’s death, but no one is willing to listen and her attempts to start an investigation are harshly interrupted. Moreover, Do Hee suddenly also starts getting targeted by a mysterious killer with a mask. Even with Goo Won as her bodyguard, her life is threatened time and time again – it seems obvious that someone wants her gone, and fast. It really made me feel for Do Hee from the start, because those events completely justified how hard it was for her to trust people. In fact, she’s more than right to distrust people, because it doesn’t take too long until it’s revealed that the masked killer is in contact with someone inside her family.
I have to admit I really admired Do Hee as a character. In-between everything, she kept persevering, she kept showing up at work, she kept holding her head high. When things got too serious, she was even willing to give up her candidacy for the new chairman position purely because she valued her own life and Goo Won’s more than going up against the petty family politics Seok Min was trying to pull. No matter what traumatic event she went through – and she went through a LOT – she always got back up and I really admired that in her character. She was a young woman who’d gotten used to being self-dependent, and she constantly had to fall back on that whenever she lost someone important to her. One part that really struck me was when she comforted herself after Goo Won had disappeared the first time by hugging herself and saying, “Come on Do Hee, you’ve been alone before, things have just gone back to how they used to be”. That’s basically how I comfort myself every time I create a special place for someone in my heart only to lose them. She was such a strong character, even after being struck down and paralyzed, there was no doubt that she was going to pick herself up again eventually. Her mental strength really impressed me.

I like to believe that her unyielding strength was also one of the things that made Goo Won fall for her. Before the whole fated destiny past life element came in, I really liked how gradually and naturally the bond between Do Hee and Goo Won developed. Goo Won is first introduced as this mysterious, mythical creature who has lived through centuries without ever developing an attachment to humans. However, there is still a part of him that isn’t completely detached, because he does keep Secretary Park and Ga Young around and he still has vague dreams about his mortal life before he became a demon. Although he claims to despise humans, he certainly enjoys some human-made treats every once in a while, as he has the habit of eating a delicious cake when he finishes a deal. He has a playful and mischievous side to him which doesn’t make him seem all that intimidating for a demon. By the way, I’m not entirely sure how to identify him exactly, because the words “demon” and “devil” were used interchangeably. His self-introduction went like, “I’m a demon. In other words, the Devil.” But in my perception, demons are different from devils, and it didn’t feel like he was the Devil (as in, Satan or whatever). There didn’t seem to be any others of his kind around doing demon business like him, either. He was basically acting as a missionary on Earth to get more people into Hell. I’ll just keep referring to him as a demon here rather than a/the devil, because I find it confusing 😅. Anyway, Goo Won (whose name, as pointed out by Do Hee, apparently means “salvation”) seems to be shrouded in mystery. He can’t remember who he used to be or how he became a demon, and he’s as frazzled by his fragmented dreams as anyone. Still, he seems to have gotten used to his powers and also likes using them, which makes losing them deeply upsetting for him. He also doesn’t understand how his powers could have transferred to Do Hee, which means that his knowledge of “everything demon” also has its limits. I don’t think he even thoroughly read the Demon manual himself, as he didn’t actually seem to care much for the book. Whenever Secretary Park wanted to use it he got angry at him for treating him like a utensil that needed a manual, and after it disappeared he barely put in effort to look for it, even though it gave the enemy a lot of useful information about him and (the limitations of) his powers. The first and foremost rule is that Goo Won cannot personally kill a human or bring a dead person back to life. If he does that, he will go up in flames or “spontaneous combustion”. After trying to figure out several ways of getting his powers back from Do Hee without getting too involved with her, he ends up giving in to her proposal of being her bodyguard and, eventually, husband. As they spend more and more time together and Goo Won keeps saving her and becomes her most trusted person after Madam Joo passes, the tension between them (which was already partially there from the beginning, on Do Hee’s side at least), deepens and Goo Won finally realizes his true feelings for her after she gives up her chairman candidacy for him. Since they’re already married when they officially become a couple, it’s all just lovey-dovey from there on out, until the next threat presents itself.

I will briefly remark on the addition of the past life destiny element in this story. I’ve used the term “destiny element” before to indicate a plot tool that fatefully ties two characters together in some way, either through a past life or childhood or other type of earlier encounter. In the case of My Demon, the writers created a backstory for Goo Won and tied his reason for becoming a demon to the tragic sacrifice of his true love. Back in the Joseon Period, Goo Won – then called Seo Yi Sun – was a Young Master with a noble background, and he fell in love with a low-class courtesan called Wol Shim. After he saw her dancing with swords by a stream one day, he was basically whipped and he approached her until she opened up to him. Because their respective statuses wouldn’t allow them to get married, they both turned to Catholicism, which promised a changed world where everyone would be equal. This reminded me of a part from Rookie Historian Goo Hae Ryung, where one of the historians was banished for secretly practicing Catholicism – it was unheard of at the time to practice Western religion. After some time, Yi Sun went to take a scholars’ examination and left Wol Shim behind, promising that they’d get married when he came back. Unfortunately, Wol Shim was selected as the sole Catholic to be sacrificed in order to stop their secret religious gatherings, and Yi Sun came back too late – she’d already been slain down. In a fit of uncontrolled rage he then slaughtered everyone who was gathered at the sacrifice, everyone who let her die and betrayed them, including himself in the end. Needless to say, Do Hee is Wol Shim’s reincarnation.
So yeah, they created an entire backstory to tie Goo Won and Do Hee’s past lives together, creating an additional reason for why his powers transferred to her: Yi Sun gave Wol Shim his necklace with a cross on it before he left (his tattoo is the exact image of that specific cross).
While the past life backstory was touching and all, I do have some remarks about it. For one, I found the timing in which it was presented in the story a bit odd. At the time that it was revealed, the main storyline was in full throttle and there were some serious developments in the Noh family politics. I believe either Do Kyung had just turned himself in and taken the blame for his dad’s deeds or he’d just killed himself – in any case I remember just being really invested in the main story at that point, and then when the past life flashback episode came in I just couldn’t really care about it all that much. I was like, “okay sure, this explains their special bond I guess, but honestly I just want to know what’s happening with Seok Min and Do Kyung right now!”
Secondly, I actually had already made peace with my own interpretation of why the tattoo transferred, so the added past life explanation didn’t really seem that necessary to me. I just thought that the reason Goo Won’s powers transferred to Do Hee in the first place was because he’d lost consciousness, and she was the first living presence that came near him – his powers must have just settled in the first living body they came in contact with. After all, that’s what happened when his powers returned as well: Do Hee was unconscious, Goo Won touched her while still being conscious, and his powers returned to him. I just assumed it had happened like that, that his powers just transferred to the nearest person after the original owner lost consciousness or passed away. God herself even told Goo Won that he’d only get his powers back once Do Hee would die, because then the powers would return to their original owner. I thought that was a simple enough theory to explain the mystery of the transferred tattoo. But through the past life backstory, they added a whole other layer to that connection, and tied it to the memory of that cross-necklace they’d interchanged as Yi Sun and Wol Shim. Like, I get that they wanted to include the story of how Goo Won became a demon, but honestly in the grand scale of everything that was going on, the whole added story of their shared past lives just didn’t seem that significant to me. Even after Do Hee remembered her own past life as Wol Shim and we got to see the exact same flashbacks from her perspective, the only added element was that he came into her life at a moment when she was about to take her own life. The fact that he “saved” her in the first place was significant to the extent that it needed its whole own past life episode, I guess. Sorry, I don’t mean to sound salty and I don’t want to diminish the emotional weight of the past life backstory, because it was very touching and tragic, but while I was watching I couldn’t help but feel like it wasn’t as important to reveal all that information at that specific timing, when the developments in the main storyline were way more pressing and interesting to me. I honestly wouldn’t have minded if it had remained ambiguous how exactly Goo Won became a demon, or that we’d only hear a summary of what went down that drove him to become one. Just like with Crash Landing on You, there didn’t really need to be a destiny element in it for me to justify the special bond between the two leads.

The only aspect from the past life story that impacted the present story was that it just made it all the more wry for Ga Young. She’d started sword dancing to draw Goo Won’s attention, as she’d seen him looking at the big painting of sword dancing maidens in the main hall of the theatre with a strange longing in his eyes. In her attempts to get him to notice her, she only ever kept reminding him of his first love, and consequently Do Hee. Ga Young really never stood a chance, which was kind of sad for her.
I actually really liked Ga Young’s character. She was the faithful companion who got attached to the person who saved her, who in turn never looked back at her. She developed a serious grudge against Do Hee, and even ended up misleading Seok Hoon by convincing him that Do Hee was in serious danger with Goo Won by her side. All she wanted was Do Hee gone so she could have Goo Won to herself again and she didn’t even care what would happen to Do Hee. Coming face to face with her own dark side, Ga Young eventually redeemed herself by making up with Do Hee and choosing her own path abroad, away from Goo Won. She may have been a bit crazy in the beginning, but I never thought of her as a bad person. On the contrary, I think it was very cool of her to stand behind her own decisions, saying, “This is who I am” and even admit that she’d do the same if she could go back in time because she was only ever following her own heart. Admittedly, not owning up to the damage you’ve done and just hiding behind your actions saying, “This is who I am” can be problematic, but in Ga Young’s case I didn’t feel any real spitefulness. I mean, the ending in which she saves a little girl from her abusive father and decides to stay in Korea just to be her personal “angel” was so wholesome. She really matured and became a better person in her own way throughout the story.

While Secretary Park is mainly a comical character in the show, I really liked him as Goo Won’s faithful assistant and sidekick. Despite his ties to Goo Won he was still his own person with his own life running the preparations for Ga Young’s shows etc., and I really liked how loyal and kind he was. He knew that what Goo Won was doing was very immoral, but he kept believing in his good nature and encouraged every little sign of compassion and kindness that grew in him after meeting Do Hee.
I think we can all agree I’m a ten amongst these threes that it was very obvious from the start that they were going to push the two secretaries together. The deal was basically sealed in the scene where Ms. Shin got drunk and started complimenting Bok Gyu on his character as he was trying to take her home. Their dynamic was quite endearing as well, they had a typical golden retriever versus black cat vibe going on. Bok Gyu was super excited and giddy, and while Da Jung felt the same, her stoic nature initially stood in the way of her giving in to it, especially with onlookers.
While I’m all for fun and games in K-Dramas, the fact that they kept going out of their way to hide that they were together from the Mirae F&B team did become a little excessive at some point. Like, I get that Ms. Shin valued her privacy, but she shouldn’t have had to pretend like they weren’t together. I didn’t even think the team would care about it that much if they found out, it wouldn’t be such a big deal and their attempts to hide it would have been completely unnecessary. And that’s exactly what happened. Although it was a big step of Ms. Shin to come clean to her co-workers and be like, “We’re dating!” and I applauded her for stepping out of her comfort zone, as I expected the team didn’t even blink an eye and was like, “So you’re finally confirming it, huh”. Like, I like comical filler scenes as long as they make sense, and this just became a bit too slapsticky for me in the end. Still, they were really sweet together. I especially loved the moment they shared when Ms. Shin had spoken from her heart to Do Hee after Goo Won disappeared the first time and she came out and Bok Gyu was waiting for her and she just looked at him so lovingly and leaned her head against his chest as if she was about to cry. That was a really sweet and intimate moment. I think the reason I liked seeing them like that was because it was the first time they shared a genuine moment and it wasn’t made comical by them having to hide or pretend they were arguing in order to avoid suspicion.
I’d like to add that I thought Ms. Shin was a very interesting character, especially as Do Hee’s secretary. She used to work for Madam Joo for a long time. In the beginning, back when I didn’t even trust Seok Hoon, I was also wondering whether Ms. Shin was to be trusted. I think that had to do with that time in the first episode when she didn’t insist on taking Do Hee home, and that’s when Do Hee first got assaulted by the masked killer, who had disguised himself as her designated driver. It was almost like Ms. Shin knew something was going to happen. In the beginning her stoic personality made it a bit hard to determine how she really felt about Do Hee, but it gradually became more obvious that she really cared about her wellbeing, and she ended up worrying about her and taking care of her a lot. I think Ms. Shin and Do Hee were a really nice and fun team together, although they continuously kept their relationship professional. The part where they got drunk together and then got all embarrassed facing each other at work the next day was really amusing.

Within Do Hee’s team at Mirae F&B, there were three colleagues who were basically a comic relief trio throughout the story, and they were always the people that Ms. Shin and Bok Gyu were trying to avoid. The trio consists of Han Min Soo (Park Jin Woo), Lee Han Sung (Hong Jin Ki) and Choi Jung Mi (Lee Ji Won). I liked how Ms. Choi had this thing with her tarot cards that allowed her to become useful to both Do Hee and Goo Won at some point when they wanted insight in their future. They were always together, the three of them, going on team dinners and hanging out – apparently none of them had a social life with people outside of work, lol. It was also funny how they were basically the people responsible for promoting the product placement. The product placement in this show was again very obvious, there was this type of drink in different primary colors that everyone in the office was always drinking and that they were allegedly producing at Mirae F&B, and there was the Kopiko chocolate snack. Whenever a character in the show drank or ate some of these things, it was always followed by a sentence like, “Wow, that really wakes me up!” or “Wow, I feel so refreshed/energized now!” which was kind of typical. Anyways, it was nice to have some uncomplicated side characters that kept popping up in-between all the drama.

I’ve gone through the Sunwol and Mirae Group side characters now, so I’d like to go back to the Noh family for a bit. Honestly, when the family members were initially introduced in the first episode during the family photoshoot with Madam Joo, I found it very chaotic and hard to follow who was who and how everyone was related. It actually took me a couple of episodes to figure out that Do Kyung was Seok Min’s son, and not some other younger brother. This was because none of them seemed particularly familial or even genuinely friendly with one another. Seok Min and Do Kyung didn’t act like a father and son at all, in my opinion. What gave me a much clearer introduction to the family members and a glimpse into their true colors was a sequence at the end of the second episode. Shots of Ga Young dancing with her swords were interchanged with short sequences of each family member, including Seok Hoon, expressing a certain darkness, either through their expression or otherwise. This is why I didn’t even dare to trust Seok Hoon in the beginning, I felt like everyone had some ulterior motive or unspoken secret that set them against Do Hee. Seok Hoon could’ve just as well pretended to be on Do Hee’s side to get to the chairman position as well, who knew! We’ve seen this kind of betrayal before, for example in Café Minamdang🤷🏻‍♀️. Anyways, despite my initial distrust, Seok Hoon turned out to be the greatest oppa to Do Hee. I was opposed to a potential romance between them from the start simply because I felt like he was way too old for her (there’s an 8-year difference between the two actors). Honestly, the marriage proposal kind of threw me off (ngl, that whole scene with him and Goo Won both reaching out their hand to Do Hee on the balcony was kind of cringy 😅), but I did like that he didn’t give up in terms of showing how much Do Hee meant to him. He kept acting like a protective older brother to her until the end, and I also liked how his relationship with Goo Won improved into a subtle bromance, lol. To think he was initially establishing theories on how Goo Won was a vampire, and how Goo Won was offended by that, haha. It was a really nice gesture of Goo Won to heal Seok Hoon’s broken arm, and after that they got on good terms. I even briefly thought they were going to push Seok Hoon and Ga Young together, as they were both the “rejected” love rivals and some series tend to do that, but I think it was for the better that they didn’t. Not everyone needs to be involved with each other, lol. But yeah, Seok Hoon was a really compassionate character who, again despite my initial suspicions, wasn’t aware of any of Seok Min’s devilry.

It seems like we have now come to the villain of the story. I liked the implied notion that, while Goo Won was a demon, Seok Min turned out to be the actual Devil in the story. I think it was powerful to first show how intimidating he was by the way he manipulated the people around him, how he threatened and bribed people before his true colors of being an abuser and killer were revealed. The revelation that Seok Min was the one who’d orchestrated all the attacks on Do Hee and instructed the masked killer didn’t come as a big surprise. We’d seen glimpses of the mysterious “Abraxas” whose orders the masked man was following opening and shutting a lighter, which was a habit of Seok Min. From what I gathered in the end, Madam Joo used to be quite a relentless business lady with a lot of dark deeds to her name. However, after she adopted Do Hee, she suddenly started redeeming herself and even started praying and confessing her sins in church in order to go to Heaven. It seemed like this new version of his mother threw Seok Min off, as he’d grown up in her example and had developed quite a twisted personality. I do feel like his reasons for harming Do Hee (and consequently Goo Won) escalated throughout the developments in the story until they didn’t really make sense anymore and he just wanted them gone because they’d made sure everything was taken away from him. Despite the fact that he had Goo Won’s Demon manual, there wasn’t anything he could do with it because he didn’t have powers himself, so I didn’t really see how that contributed to anything except the fact that he knew Goo Won wouldn’t be able to kill him without bursting into flames. Seok Min was a typical sociopath that seemed like a very calm and collected gentleman but was an extremely manipulative, stone cold man. He didn’t care even care about his family, he dominated his household and abused his wife and son until they were too scared to stand up against him. Everything to secure total power, both over his family and Mirae Group, everything to make sure no one was around to oppose him, ever.
There were definitely some things that I would’ve liked explained in a bit more detail. For starters, I would’ve liked more information on the relationship between Madam Joo and Seok Min. What kind of things had Madam Joo done, and did Seok Min truly grow up admiring that side of her? Why did he feel the need to record the conversation between her and Do Hee’s parents on the night of their accident? Was he already creating leverage on her? But why, if that was the side of his mother that he wished had remained? When he was shouting at Do Hee in their confrontation that his mother became soft because of her, it seemed like he didn’t like the effect Do Hee had had on his mother. It’s still a bit confusing to me what exactly his intentions were, with everything he did. I mean, he ended up killing his own mother himself in the end, by tampering with her medication. In any case, Seok Min’s greed for Mirae Group seemed to gradually escalate from bad to worse, and in the end it didn’t even seem like it was just about the chairman position anymore. He even freed a freaking homicidal maniac from prison to send him after Do Hee, so surely it had to be more personal than that.

Speaking of the masked killer dude, maybe this is as good a moment as any to introduce him. Before we actually find out who he is, we are shown glimpses of this guy that show that he is the one that’s after Do Hee. His name is revealed to be Gi Kwang Chul (played by Kim Seol Jin) and before we even learn that he’s set up by Seok Min, it seemed like he was just your average maniac. He seemed to be living in the dressing room of some abandoned old theater, and he had a lot of different masks hanging around. He also had a lot of pictures of Do Hee pinned to the wall and he seemed to be kind of obsessed with (killing) her, seen from the way he kept looking at those pictures. He definitely had some screws loose, he kept dancing around the dressing room as if in a trance, and when he got to Do Hee he was clearly enjoying it. So yeah, it seemed like he was just some killer who happened to have it out for her. Still, especially after finding out that he’s under the instructions of Seok Min, I found it hard to believe he didn’t also have some sort of personal connection to Do Hee. From the way he was interacting with those pictures and the lengths he went to hit her in the most personal way? I mean, he broke into her house and Goo Won’s office, he stole Goo Won’s Demon manual to pass it on to Seok Min, he snuck into all these places Do Hee went, he even went so far as to stab Goo Won in the heart so he wouldn’t be able to protect her anymore – I found it hard to believe it was just another assassination job with no strings attached. And it became all the more confusing when we did get the confirmation that it had been Seok Min all along, and Seok Min burned him to a crisp inside the dressing room. Was that just because Kwang Chul had told him Goo Won had seen his face? It still seemed a quite drastic measure to close him inside a room and set it on fire. Apart from one mention of that he freed him from prison, we don’t get any more information about the relationship between Seok Min and Kwang Chul. I thought that was kind of disappointing, because Kwang Chul was definitely a very scary villain and I was actually interested in learning more about who he was and where he came from. It was like they introduced this super intimidating and capable antagonist, and then just killed him off without revealing any further information about him apart from that he’d been a repeating offender. Like, this guy was able to get into every single place unnoticed, he just dressed up as a security guard or a construction worker and that was it. He even snuck into Do Hee’s house and put on a record while she was in the next room, not suspecting a thing. Like, this guy had mad scary skills. He literally dangled Do Hee from her own balcony and whistled and giggled while cutting the sheets that tied her one by one. This was no ordinary assassin, it really seemed personal, also with all the pictures he had of her. I just thought he’d have some sort of connection to her, or at least one personal reason why he’d go that far. But none of that was explained, only that Seok Min had been instructing him, and then he was killed by Seok Min because Goo Won had seen his face, at least that’s what was suggested. In my opinion, his character definitely deserved more closure than that.

In the whole scheme of things that were going on in the Noh family, there is one more thing that still isn’t clear to me: to what extent was Do Kyung involved in all of this? Do Kyung was receiving the same texts from Kwang Chul on his phone as his dad. This could mean that he was either the mastermind himself, or that he was simply in CC as his dad’s accomplice. But then it was revealed that he actually synched his dad’s phone with a separate mobile phone to keep track of his correspondence with Kwang Chul. In other words, Do Kyung knew what his father was up to, and it seemed like he was keeping tabs on his activities, but he didn’t actually do anything about it. He seemed just as spiteful towards Do Hee as his father, so initially I just assumed he and his dad were in it together. When it was revealed that Do Kyung was severely abused by his dad, I was seriously disturbed. The parts that were revealed about what was going on in that family were really messed up. I’m still kind of bummed out about the fact that Do Kyung never got to speak his truth. I don’t know what he was trying to do keeping tabs on his dad, because he kept taking the abuse and also kept doing filthy jobs for him. I don’t even know if him running into Do Hee in that gasoline station shop with his car was under the orders of his dad or just because he was losing his mind. At that point it was clear where he got the psychotic tendencies from, so it could’ve been either one of those explanations. In hindsight, I find it a pity that they never revealed Do Kyung’s true intentions and plans. While I was properly creeped out by him in the beginning, I actually developed some serious compassion for Do Kyung after he hung himself. That final talk he had with his mom where she actually told him he had himself to blame for the abuse and that he should’ve just obeyed his father like she had really rubbed me the wrong way. I couldn’t blame Do Kyung for telling her she was just as bad as his dad. As much as I empathized with Se Ra in the sense that she was stuck in an abusive marriage and only kept obeying her husband because she was terrified of him and was just trying to survive, she should not have spoken to her son like that when he was actually trying to protect her and make a difference. Seeing how messed up Do Kyung was by the time of their last talk, it didn’t come as a big surprise that that made him snap. It just really stung that he’d endured all that in order to protect his mother, and she turned on him like that, guilt-tripping him for bringing it on himself. Despite the fact that she came around in the end and even started a charity for child victims of domestic violence, I just couldn’t find it in myself to truly forgive her because she still put on freaking headphones with nature sounds to dampen her son’s screams. Do Kyung became so messed up because of both his parents and he never got the chance to tell his side of the story. That’s what I found the biggest pity in the end, the revelation that Do Kyung was a victim of the Noh family as much as Do Hee was, and the fact that he never got his redemption and justice. I was actually disappointed when he hung himself. I understand why he did it, but it was frustrating because I had hoped that he’d at least be able to tell his full truth about how he was actually innocent and had been trying to expose his dad. Honestly, I still have so many questions about Do Kyung, there was so much left unexplained about how his father was using him for his dirty work and how he truly felt about everything his father made him do. With the tapping of his dad’s phone it almost seemed like he may have been gathering evidence on him, just like his mom. Why didn’t they work together in that case? If Do Kyung had known that his mother was trying to do the same, maybe they wouldn’t have ended up like this, blaming each other for both trying to deal with the situation in different ways. Even if their combined attempts didn’t lead to anything, two people would’ve been stronger than one, and they at least would’ve had each other’s backs.
As I said, the fact that Se Ra ultimately turned her husband in and devoted herself to a charity for child victims of domestic violence was a nice gesture, but it honestly didn’t redeem her for me. The way she told Do Kyung how this was all his own fault, in combination with the sweet flashback of the two of them at the end was just too wry. No matter how scared you are, knowingly turning a blind eye to abuse – and especially the abuse of your own child! – without even trying to step in can be seen as equally bad as executing the abuse itself. Again, I understand she was terrified, and let’s not forget she was also getting abused herself, but she really shouldn’t have told her son that it was his own fault and that he should’ve just taken it quietly like she did. That was the last thing Do Kyung needed to hear at that point. Losing her son like that was the final push it took for her to realize that she really did need to step up against her husband. Seeing Seok Min cry those fake crocodile tears at his son’s funeral knowing he didn’t even care at all was probably the final drop for her.

Apart from the tragedy that was the Noh family, there was also Soo An. The way Soo An was depicted also seemed to lean more towards a comical type of character, because she was the most outrageously dramatic out of all of them. Of all the family members Do Hee had to face, Soo An was the least intimidating. Starting from the fact that she was a hysterical mess and her reactions to every single unfortunate and tragic event that happened in the family were quite exaggerated, it was probably best that she was left out of it. I thought it was a bit tricky to have a character like her in-between the crossfire of the Noh family, because she basically became the most oblivious family member of them all. It seemed like she was behind on all the developments as well. When Do Kyung hanged himself, and everyone was in shock and/or grieving (or pretending to), she came bursting in to yell about how Do Kyung had allegedly killed her mother, which was literally last episode’s news. It made it a bit hard to take her seriously at times, with her overly fancy getups and overdramatic responses to everything. The only scene that genuinely touched me was when she was completely paralyzed by the news that Seok Min had been responsible for everything, and she actually forgot to yell at her two boys, and they came up to hug her. That was a really sweet moment. Apart from that, it just seemed like she was written as a character that shouldn’t be taken too seriously. Even the fact that she named her boys Austin and Justin, resulting in her constantly yelling their names in a comical fashion was enough to proof that. While I didn’t mind that she wasn’t as evil as Seok Min, I didn’t really know what to think of her being portrayed so comically, because she would’ve been a really easy target should she have gone against Seok Min – I’m a 100% positive that he wouldn’t have spared her either. In any case, I did like that in the end she made up with Do Hee. It was funny that she buttered Seok Hoon up with the exact same words as she used for Do Hee, and Do Hee was like, “You need to find some new words”, lol. I really loved that Seok Hoon ultimately became the new chairman, and also Do Hee’s reasoning for why she didn’t come back for the position after Seok Min was gone. After all her screaming about Do Hee potentially becoming the chairman, it was nice that Soo An ultimately did accept Seok Hoon as the new chairman, and that she made peace with the knowledge that at least her boys would be able to succeed the company in the next generation.

One last character that I need to discuss before I’ll go on to my critical discussion of specific scenes and storylines is God. After crossing paths with a homeless lady a couple of times, Goo Won realizes that she must be some sort of deity, because she seems to know exactly what’s going on with him. It ultimately leads to the revelation that she is God (played by Cha Chung Hwa). While she uses a perception filter to get into fancy cafés and gambling places, through Goo Won’s eyes she always looks like a homeless person. Apparently, she’s the one who made him into a demon and bestowed his demon work on him because she “needed a worker on Earth”. She’s also the one who tells him that Do Hee has to die for his powers to return, and she watches the choices he makes to protect Do Hee with dismay. Although she keeps claiming that she doesn’t feel any emotional attachment to humans, she still brings Goo Won back to Do Hee in the end after he sacrifices himself for her. I thought it was an interesting choice to depict God in this way, also because she definitely didn’t have all the knowledge or power to do literally everything. There was something very mysterious about her, despite her comical demeanor. I found her an interesting character.

Now that I’ve gone through all of the most important characters, I’d like to discuss some points that form my main criticism on this series. All in all, I felt like things started getting a little wobbly from the second half on. The acting became a bit overdramatic here and there, there was an increase in very intense events that were almost immediately debunked or nullified, and there were some inconsistencies and ambiguities that I would’ve liked clearer answers to.
First of all I want to establish that I understand that, when teasing certain flashbacks, the writers didn’t want to give away all the information yet. Still, I found that there was a lack of consistency in some teased flashbacks that could’ve been avoided. For example, in the scene where the deal is revealed that Do Hee’s father made with Goo Won. When that flashback is first teased, Do Hee’s dad is shown crawling over the ground all bloodied by himself, as if he was trying to get away from something he got involved in. In the actual flashback, he wasn’t crawling over the floor by himself, but he was on the ground together with his very pregnant wife who took a bad fall. He was looking around yelling for help, and that’s when Goo Won came to him. The setting was just very different from what had been teased in the initial flashback. Again, I get that they didn’t want to give away anything that might suggest something had happened to Do Hee’s mom yet, but they could’ve still showed her lying next to him and it would’ve still been a mystery what was going on. Also, it was very predictable that Do Hee’s father’s wish would’ve had something to do with Do Hee. His deal was made around the time she was born (since the contract ended when she would just turn eleven), and it had already been mentioned that Do Hee’s parents had her quite late in life, so it was possible that there might have been complications around her birth. Of course I’d never expected yet another major dramatic flashback scene where her parents had to look for hospitals on foot after first getting into an accident and then being turned away by the first hospital – that was another additional dramatic scene right at the end that felt a little excessive to me, to be honest. Anyways, the inconsistency in the flashbacks wasn’t really necessary in my opinion, they could’ve just shown the same scene and kept it vague.

To name some more examples of dramatic scenes that only ended up causing shock value because they were almost immediately debunked or nullified, there was the scene where Do Kyung ran into Do Hee with his car whilst at the gasoline station shop. The whole assault seemed very excessive in itself, with the explosion and the fire and everything, yet it was solved very easily and conveniently. Not only did they both make it out unscathed but Goo Won’s powers also somehow mysteriously returned. It just made you go like, “OH MY GOD” and then, five minutes later, “Oh nevermind, they’re fine”, and this was repeated a couple of times.
Goo Won breaks up with Do Hee under the dramatic notion of “I’ll disappear until she finds her happy ending without me”, but then still visits her every single night when she’s sleeping, puts her to bed and stays with her until the morning. That doesn’t look like letting go, man. He was even keeping an eye on her whilst she was out with her colleagues and stuff. It just made the whole situation feel like, why did you feel the need to break her heart and break up with her if you’re just gonna keep tabs on her from a distance?

One example that combines the inconsistency of flashbacks and the shock value element was the scene in which Goo Won got his memories of his past life back. The way the flashback is initially constructed, in combination with Goo Won’s shocked reaction to remembering it, makes it look like he was the one who killed Wol Shim himself. He literally mumbles, “I’m the one who killed you” and throws himself a holw guilt-trip pity party. When the whole flashback is revealed and we find out Wol Shim was sacrificed without him even being there, that honestly made me go like, “so, what, he wasn’t even there when she was killed?” Again, I get that they didn’t want to give away everything yet, but this just kept putting me on the wrong track time and time again, which became a bit tiring at some point.
The same went for the gradual step-by-step revelation of what really went down between Madam Joo and Do Hee’s parents. First it’s a just a thing of the past: Madam Joo had business relations with Do Hee’s dad, Do Hee’s parents passed away and Madam Joo took on the responsibility for Do Hee. Then suddenly it’s suggested that Madam Joo knew more about or actually had something to do with the accident. Then it’s revealed that while she was trying to get back at them, she didn’t personally kill them. And then it’s suddenly revealed that Goo Won was there at the crash site. The thing is, this was just an additional piece of information to fill in a backstory at the end of the main storyline, my head didn’t need all of this last minute angst when there were only two episodes of the show left.
I also felt this way about the revelation of Madam Joo’s pancreatic cancer. It just added another dramatic reason to the already established ones that Madam Joo had for wanting Do Hee to get married fast. This was literally revealed in the last episode, so it really didn’t matter anymore at that point. It was enough for me to know that Madam Joo was already in bad health, that she wanted Do Hee to get married before she ran out of time, and that she was murdered because her medication was tampered with. In a way this debunked her death in the same way as Do Hee’s father’s – they knew they were going to die anyway.
The sudden revelation that Goo Won was involved in at least Do Hee’s dad’s death and that he had been there at the crash site came as a surprise to me because, again, I wasn’t expecting any more dramatic revelations while approaching the end of the show. Additionally, while I get that Goo Won wouldn’t remember them because it had happened at a time when he couldn’t care less about the names and faces of the people he made deals with, he’d still actually come eye to eye with Madam Joo before, so I found it a bit odd that he didn’t even remember her. For someone with such a tight work procedure as him when it came to collecting people’s souls, he didn’t seem to be especially sharp about connecting dots with people he’d offered deals to. That kind of connected to how lax he was when it came to retrieving the Demon manual, and I found that a bit odd to be honest. You would’ve have thought he would be very on top of things and protective of anything that could be used against him.
One thing I also found odd was that Goo Won’s secretary suddenly just happened to find out everything about Goo Won’s past life at the exact moment that Goo Won remembered it himself. There was this whole mystery element of him not being able to remember how he became a demon, and then when he finally retrieves his memories Bok Gyu just somehow happens to be reading a scroll or article and goes, “Oh hey, I think I just found out everything about your past life, I can’t believe what you’ve been through!” The timing was way too convenient, as if they just wanted to create an easy way to make Bok Gyu suddenly aware of everything without having to include a scene in which Goo Won told him about it himself. I thought that was a bit of weird writing.

The most bizarre event, one that I still can make neither heads nor tails of, is the “death” of Seok Min. After Goo Won stops him from strangling Do Hee, Seok Min lets himself fall off a skyscraper with the maniacal last words, “I can still escape to Hell!”. The next day, it’s announced on the news that he committed suicide by jumping off a building. Except they haven’t found his body yet. That already made me go 🤨 because how can you already publicly broadcast what happened to someone if you don’t even have the body? Did someone see him fall and recognize him as he was falling or something? Like, it was clear that he was still alive because no body equals not dead in most cases, but why was it already broadcasted on the news like that? Also, how the heck did he manage to survive that fall? He’s not even limping when we get the confirmation that he’s indeed still alive.
The next confusion occurred when Do Hee visited the prosecutor on her case, who goes, “So, it’s been a week since Noh Seok Min jumped into the Han River.” The Han River?? Where did that suddenly come from?? As far as I could see there was no river at the bottom of that building! It was really confusing where this came from, and Do Hee also didn’t rebut it or anything. If the news was already broadcasting that he’d jumped from a building, where did that Han River story suddenly come from? Everything about his “death” was so inconsistent and confusing, I just couldn’t keep up.
I also didn’t understand why Seok Min went through the effort of burning half his face so “the Devil wouldn’t be able to find/recognize him” after he literally let himself fall screaming that he could always escape to Hell.
My biggest confusion occurred during the final confrontation between Seok Min and Do Hee, when he kidnaps her and reveals his “new face” to her. Goo Won comes in to save the day and basically buries Seok Min under a collapsing piece of rock. He removes it before it actually kills him, but Seok Min is depicted lying on the ground, coughing up blood and seemingly losing consciousness. Then, all of a sudden, he just comes walking around the corner with a shotgun. Honestly, that moment was kind of ridiculous. Yes, he was off screen, but you can’t tell me that he suddenly was able to get up unnoticed after being crushed and walk all the way around to get his shotgun and surprise them from the other side. I honestly thought someone else was coming through the door because the idea that it was Seok Min didn’t even occur to me. That turn of events was so confusing to me that it distracted me from the dramatic scene that followed, where Do Hee got shot and Goo Won saved her life, enabling his own spontaneous combustion. I still don’t get that part at all. At that point everything was crumbling down, from the ceiling to the logic of the occurring events.

The final example I’ll give relating to a shocking event that was debunked was the very final part where Goo Won was brought back by God. After the second-to-last episode, I was really curious what would happen. I had the feeling they’d probably bring him back somehow, but logically there wasn’t really a way to do that, because he’d broken the main Demon rule of bringing someone back from the dead. To have that entire Goblin-reminiscent dramatic scene of him disintegrating in Do Hee’s arms and depicting the paralysis that Do Hee was left in, only for God to then just go, “Nah, you know what, let me give you a Christmas miracle.” ??? I initially thought she made them go back in time, with the winding clocks and the fact that they ended up in the same spot where Do Hee first got his tattoo, but no, he was just suddenly back and all was good and well again. I mean, as I said I had expected that he would probably be brought back even though it wouldn’t really make sense, but I was still disappointed by the convenient way in which they made it happen. For me, it really debunked the effect of the super dramatic combustion scene. It also didn’t make sense to me that God would just suddenly become empathic towards a human being. She’d made such a deal about being merciless, she’d even encouraged Goo Won to let Do Hee die so he could get his powers back, and she seemed genuinely disappointed by his decision to sacrifice himself. So it was very odd for her to just go, “You know what, I’m in a good mood.” Like, everything combined, all the final dramatic revelations and flashbacks just ended up being unnecessary shock value things that the writers could’ve either solved differently or done without entirely, in my opinion.

Having mentioned these critical remarks, there were also a lot of things I liked and enjoyed about this series. I did have a good time watching it, but from the second half on things just started getting a bit excessive. I really felt like it wasn’t necessary to make every single backstory and revelation so dramatic, especially towards the end of the story. Honestly, I wouldn’t have minded if some things remained ambiguous, for example the details about Goo Won becoming a demon or the deal that Do Hee’s dad made. It felt like the events were clear enough for the viewer to fill them in mostly by themselves without revealing the actual details. Apart from that, there were some really beautiful and touching moments, even in the side stories. The scene where Goo Won went to make a deal with this old man who just wanted his ailing wife to remember him one last time actually brought a tear to my eye. It was just a short scene, and the elderly couple weren’t even recurring characters, but just that one scene when the wife was talking to the younger version of her husband – UGH. That was so heartwrenching. Moments like that, including the tender moments between for example Bok Gyu and Da Jung, proved that the writers really knew how to create a touching scene and story without too much dramatics around it. Just one strong connection between two people that didn’t need too many words to explain it. I really appreciated those kinds of scenes.

Since I want to end this review on a happy note, I just want to make mention of some final funny side characters that I really appreciated.
First of all, the guy that Do Hee was initially supposed to go on a blind date with when she met Goo Won. She meets him for another blind date when Goo Won is her bodyguard and honestly, this guy cracked me up. Choi Woo Sun (played by Lee Kang Wook) was depicted as a guy with a really lame sense of humor, but I honestly felt for him. When Goo Won actually got the lobster to claw him in the lip I genuinely felt sorry for the guy, like, that was just mean! I liked that he came back as Do Hee’s prosecutor and didn’t hold any resentment against her. It was nice that they made him return rather than just keep him as a one-episode guest actor. He deserved someone who appreciated him the way he was, lol.
I also really liked the police officers who kept trying to help Do Hee and Goo Won find the masked killer. In the end, the police weren’t really able to solve anything by themselves but they were good people on the right side. I liked how Officer Park Kyung Soo (played by Lim Chul Hyung) was kind of enamored by Goo Won and strived to be like him, lol. They were nice supporting characters.
Lastly, of course I can’t forget about the Wild Dogs — I mean the Perilla Leaves and Big Scallions! In the first episode, Goo Won collects the soul of a mob leader, and his gang initially keeps coming after Goo Won to get revenge on him for killing their boss, but they then change sides and become Goo Won’s personal mob. They reminded me of the gang from Strong Woman Do Bong Soon that started following Bong Soon around after she initially kicked their butts, lol. They were a comical bunch, and I especially liked their leader, “No. 2” (played by Jung Soon Won). These guys were just so immersed in their devotion to Goo Won, even though the demon himself hadn’t even asked for it. I loved how they ended up starting their own restaurant and how touched they were when Goo Won came to visit them in person. Just like with the Mirae F&B members, it was just nice to have them appear every once in a while for some uncomplicated comic relief. They were really funny, I liked them.

This review has taken me a lot longer than I planned, longer than a day at least, so let’s just get on with the cast comments and call it a night, shall we? On a general note, I really liked seeing so many familiar faces and also seeing some new sides to actors I thought I’d seen more than enough of. I liked the cast overall, and I’m excited to comment on the actors.

I am so freaking proud of Kim Yoo Jung. She’s one of those actresses that I’ve watched in dramas ever since she was a child actor and it feels like I’ve basically seen her grow up through those. The first show I ever saw her in was The Moon that Embraces the Sun, back when she still played younger versions of the female lead characters. In the meantime I’ve also seen her in Moonlight Drawn By Clouds, Clean With Passion For Now and Backstreet Rookie. There are still some dramas with her on my list. It was the first time for me to see her in a real adult role, a CEO even, and I was really impressed with how maturely she portrayed Do Hee. I was expecting to see the typical “deer in headlights” face during shocking or surprising scenes way more, but I was impressed by how she seemed to have developed her facial expressions. Her chemistry with Song Kang also seemed very natural. It was a very refreshing new side of her acting that caught me off guard in all the right ways. I’m glad she’s finally getting to show a more mature side of her acting and that she doesn’t just gets cast for teenage and student roles anymore. I think she did very well!

Song Kang also showed me a new side to his acting that I wasn’t expecting. After seeing him in Love Alarm and Nevertheless,, I thought the choice to cast him as a demon was very fitting since he has that devilish charm about him. Still, I was positively surprised that his character didn’t have that same toxic vibe around him. It was actually refreshing to see him in a bit of a caricature role with some comical aspects to him. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him act comically at all before, actually, so that was a nice new side to discover of him. I knew that with the combination of him and Kim Yoo Jung, their kissing scenes wouldn’t leave much to be desired and I’m glad I was right. It’s just nice to have a main couple that you know won’t be disappointing in terms of displaying chemistry. All in all I think he did a very good job, I’d love to see more unexpected sides to his acting!

I’ve officially dubbed Kim Hae Sook the Korean equivalent of Dame Judi Dench. I always love her performances, she’s such a treasure in anything she plays a part. I loved that, even after her character passed away quite early on in the show, she still remained an important and consistent character through all the flashbacks. She really lived on, and I loved how she sometimes just appeared next to Do Hee as a comforting presence when she needed her support. I’m glad we still got to see Madam Joo’s story unfold even after she was gone. I’ve seen Kim Hae Sook before in a bunch of shows like I Hear Your Voice, Pinocchio, About Time, Room No. 9 and Start-Up, and I hope to keep seeing much more of her. She always seems to have such good acting chemistry with her co-stars, I also really loved her scenes with young Do Hee and how that girl gradually brought a loving smile to her face. She was impeccable, as always.

I didn’t know Lee Sang Yi was in this when I started watching, so he was another friendly familiar face to see. As I mentioned in my review, I initially didn’t trust him, but I’m glad Do Hee at least had a couple of allies around her. Without Seok Hoon’s support, she would’ve probably been in even bigger trouble. I was curious to what lengths he would be willing to go for her and if he would really become a love rival, but I’m glad that he didn’t become pitiful after being rejected and the fact that he actually put in effort to become friendly with Goo Won also supported his good nature. He was the embodiment of “if you love her, let her go and support her happiness even if it isn’t with you”. It was also a nice development that he became the new chairman at the end, I don’t think anyone would have foreseen that (certainly not Seok Min). It was nice to see him mature in his own way and be his own person as well. I’ve seen Lee Sang Yi before in a couple of shows, like The Third Charm and Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha. Apparently he also appeared in Manhole and Andante, but these are too long ago for me to remember him from. In any case, I didn’t feel like I saw a whole new side of his acting per se, but I don’t think I’ve actually seen him react to such dramatic scenes before, so it was refreshing to at least see variety in his emotional range. He still seems to be stuck in second male lead roles though, so I hope he’ll get the chance to show more and more of his acting skills. I have no doubt I’ll see him pop up again in more dramas on my list, so I’m excited to see him depict more different roles.

First of all, I just want to say that Jo Hye Joo is freaking gorgeous. She has a really characteristic face and somehow her gaze really pulled me in. She’s one of the few actors in this show that I didn’t know, but she definitely made an impression. As I mentioned in my comments on Ga Young’s character, I really liked how real she was. She stood behind her own choices, even if she ended up feeling stupid about them, but she always owned up to what she did, unapologetically. I loved that she was way more than what Goo Won treated her as, she was way more than a former DV-victim or a rejected second female lead, and it was really powerful of her to embrace that and choose her own path in the end. It really made me root for her and I didn’t expect to do so when I was introduced to her, so that was a nice unexpected development. I’m really excited to see her appear in more shows and different roles. I think she did a really good job showing a variety of expressions and emotions, and her character was established very well. Can’t wait to see more of her!

I could’ve sworn I’d seen more of Heo Jung Do, but I guess I just remember him most clearly from Rookie Historian Goo Hae Ryung, Something in the Rain and Crash Course in Romance since it hasn’t been that long since I watched those. He was also in W – Two Worlds, but that’s too long ago for me to remember and I probably didn’t register him as much back then since I didn’t recognize him yet. I’ll probably see him appear more often in the dramas that are still on my list. In any case, he was another familiar face and I really liked how he portrayed Park Bok Gyu. He was a really comforting and supporting ally to Goo Won, and all in all a good guy. I couldn’t help but think he really deserved someone like Ms. Shin, who would take note of his loyal, good and sweet nature. Although he sometimes did get a little bit slapsticky, it didn’t bother me because the actor still managed to put on a very enjoyable performance.

I will keep saying it: Seo Jung Yeon is one of my favorite middle-aged Korean actresses. No matter what kind of role she plays, she always manages to nail it, and a drama in which she plays a role I’ve already seen of her has yet to appear. The same went for this show, even though she’s such a familiar face she always manages to show a side of her that I haven’t seen before. I found Ms. Shin such an interesting character, with her stoic exterior that hid a very giddy girly heart. I’ve seen her in so many shows, like Valid Love, She Was Pretty, Descendents of the Sun, Moonlight Drawn by Clouds, Bride of the Water God, Something in the Rain, Come and Hug Me (probably still my favorite role of hers), Melting Me Softly, The King: Eternal Monarch, Run On, Nevertheless, (where she actually played Song Kang’s mom), Dali and the Cocky Prince, Our Beloved Summer, and there are still a bunch of her dramas on my to-watch list. I’m always happy to see her and I will always give her a shoutout, even if she just makes a guest appearance.

Moving on to the Noh family members, this was actually the first time I’ve ever seen Kim Tae Hoon play a bad guy. I’ve always associated him with nice fatherly roles, so his character in this show definitely burst that bubble. I’ve seen him before in Hidden Identity, Fantastic, Lookout and Persona. It had been a while since I saw him in a drama as well, so that in combination with the unexpected casting choice was kind of exciting. His usually bright smile suddenly got a very different vibe to it, haha. Apart from the aspects that I mentioned that made me really confused about the way he escalated in the end, I think he did a really great job portraying a sociopath. I hadn’t seen him wear these expressions before, so that was cool. I guess he’s still appearing in dramas regularly, so I’ll probably come across him again some time. In any case, it was nice to see this new side of his acting, he made a very intimidating villain.

Speaking of intimidating villains, Kim Seol Jin really knocked it out of the park with his creepy portrayal of Gi Kwang Chul. From the few dramas he’s appeared in so far I’ve only watched Arthdal Chronicles, but I don’t remember him from there. Still, he looked familiar. Anyways, he created a very scary character and as I mentioned in my review, I was actually a bit disappointed that he was just offed by Seok Min like that. As creepy as he was, I still wanted to know more about him and why he did what he did. What did Seok Min have on him, and why was he so passionate about killing Do Hee in the most personal way? I initially expected him to last much longer because he made such a perfect killer character, even if he was just under the instructions of Seok Min. His character and performance actually left me wanting for more, and that doesn’t happen a lot with serial killer characters. He did a really good job.

I want to give a very big shoutout to Kang Seung Ho for his portrayal of Noh Do Kyung. I hadn’t seen him in anything before and apparently he only has four drama projects to his name as of now. I really hope he’ll get the chance to act more because his performance in this show was actually my favorite, in hindsight. He managed to give such a compelling and haunting performance of Do Kyung, and it stuck with me until the end. Even though he genuinely creeped me out at first, I was actually very sad when his character passed away, because it was just when they’d revealed his abuse and how seriously messed up he was because of his dad. I’m still disappointed that they didn’t give more insight in Do Kyung’s intentions and if he really hated Do Hee or not. They were around the same age as far as I’m aware, so they might have actually gotten along if their family hadn’t been like this. I don’t know, something about Do Kyung and the way Kang Seung Ho portrayed him just stuck with me, and it doesn’t often happen that an actor I don’t know is able to touch me like that. I found his performance really impressive and I hope to see more of him in the future!

I hadn’t seen Jo Yeon Hee in anything before either, but she still seemed familiar to me. Or maybe she just reminded me of many a daughter-in-law in a rich K-Drama family. I appreciated the writers at least gave her some personality and backbone, and I always try to keep in mind that it’s all the more challenging for an actor to portray a character who makes bad decisions. I wish I could have seen more of the bond between Do Kyung and his mother, because we really only got that final flashback after Do Kyung had already died that suggested that they were on good terms and cared about each other. If that had been revealed a bit earlier, or if there had been more talks between mother and son than just the final one in prison, I would’ve gotten a better feel of their bond. Now it kind of came as a surprise that they even really cared about one another at all. I think the actress did a good enough job still, and my main issues of course have to do with the writing more than with her performance, so I’ll keep that separate. In any case, she was a new face to me and I wonder if I’ll see her pop up again somewhere.

Lee Yoon Ji is one of those actresses, along with for example Hwang Bo Ra, who just seem to have this urge to make every role they play funny. While there were definitely some scenes where I was impressed by her serious acting, it still seemed to me like she was making a bit of a caricature out of Soo An, and there were times where I felt like she could’ve toned down the comical aspect a little bit. Of course, her character was probably written this way, but I still think she could’ve been a bit more subtle with the comedy act sometimes. The first series I saw her in was Dream High (wayyy back) and after that I’ve also seen her in Revolutionary Love and The Third Charm, where I believe her character got cancer at some point, so that was also a bit more serious. She also had a guest role in Extraordinary Attorney Woo, although I don’t remember her from there clearly. In any case, she’s a familiar face and she’s been doing dramas for a very long time. I hope I’ll get to see more serious acting skills from her whenever I came across her again.

I remember Cha Chung Hwa most clearly from her role in Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha, but she also appeared in Shopping King Louie, Hotel del Luna, Crash Landing on You and Itaewon Class. I’ll definitely come across her again in my future watches. I thought she was a really cool casting choice for the character of God who disguised herself as a homeless person. I spotted one scene where they forgot to dirty her teeth, though 👀. Also, I noticed that on MDL she’s credited as “Noh Sook Nyeo” but I don’t remember her being referred to by that name (maybe by that waiter in the gambling bar?) and I also find it odd that she has the same family name as the Noh family, so I left it out of my review to avoid confusion. I initially didn’t expect her to be the God but at least some deity or something, because she definitely made some very specific and pointed remarks at Goo Won which suggested she was somehow part of his world. Apart from the uncharacteristic moment at the end where she just brought him back like that, I thought it was nice that, despite her casual demeanor, she actually didn’t care that much about human sentiment. Just because she was God it didn’t mean that she was willing to do anything for just everyone, and that made her character more powerful as well. I think Cha Chung Hwa did a really nice job of portraying such an eccentric character, because there have already been such different depictions of gods and deities in K-Dramas and it’s hard to stay original. I liked her performance, it was very refreshing in my opinion.

I just wanted to give a shoutout to Jung Soon Won, who played the second-in-command member of the Wild Dogs gang. I recognized him immediately as the guy who died first in The Silent Sea, so I was happy that he at least had more screentime here, lol. He apparently also appeared in Heartstrings, Tunnel and Fight for My Way, but I don’t remember him from those. In any case, I’m going to see him again in more dramas, and I can’t wait because I just like his face and way of acting, haha. Together with the other gang members he really went for his character and that energy was really nice to see. I hope to see him again in something else soon!

Just like with Seo Jung Yeon, I always, ALWAYS make a mention of Ahn Se Ha, even when he’s just a guest actor. I was so happy when he appeared in the flashback of Goo Won’s past life as his former servant – it made me hope we’d see him again in a reincarnation as well, but alas. In any case, Ahn Se Ha is one of those actors who just always delivers, even if he only appears in a single episode. His humor is always on point and he’s such a steady actor, I really love him. I just can’t not mention him whenever I review something he appears in. We stan Ahn Se Ha on this blog, Ahn Se Ha is the best.

All in all, I’d say it was an enjoyable watch, but I do understand the mixed reviews I’d heard in advance now. There were definitely some plotholes and inconsistencies here and there, and I just don’t like it when they make this super dramatic and shocking thing happen and then just take the entire effect away the very next moment. While I respect that they wanted to wrap up all the storylines and backstories by revealing the truth from start to finish, including Do Hee’s dad’s deal with Goo Won and Goo Won and Do Hee’s full past life history, the way they positioned these revelations in the story were a bit off to me and mostly just distracted from the main storyline, which was already very engaging in itself. It just ended up as a continuously piling up mountain of dramatic events that lasted until the very last episode. Apart from that, as I said I had a good time watching it, the acting and the chemistry between the actors was good and there were some really touching moments. I’m glad I watched it, and it was really nice to see a bunch of both new and familiar actors portray unexpected and impressive acting skills.

I’ll be going on holiday at the start of next month so I don’t know if I’ll get to watch and review another show before the end of September, but we’ll see about that. I’m very excited to find out what I’ll get to watch next!

Until next time!
Bye-bee! x

Perfect and Casual

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Perfect and Casual
(完美先生和差不多小姐 / Wánměi Xiānshēng Hé Chā Bù Duō Xiǎojiě / Mr. Perfect and Ms. Almost)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hello there! Just thought I’d drop off one more review before the end of the month since I’ve been putting off finishing this drama in-between lots of other activities. I’m still waiting for my final thesis grade and I’m preparing to translate a novel, and I need to apply for a couple of grants to start, so my mind has been a bit distracted. But I didn’t want to take too long to finish this since I got really into it from the start and I realized that taking too much time in-between kind of pulled me out of that. In any case, here we are! The eleventh show my Spin the Wheel app picked out for me was this Chinese romantic comedy! I’ll say from the bat that I really liked it. I’m usually a bit sceptical about Chinese romcoms since they tend to be more conservative and stereotypical, but this one made me really excited while watching it, so that was great. Without any further ado, let’s get started!

Perfect and Casual is a Mango TV Chinese drama series with 24 episodes of about 45 minutes each. It tells the love story of Yun Shu (played by Xu Ruo Han) and Zhang Si Nian (played by Wei Zhe Ming).
Yun Shu is a college student majoring in Statistics who’s about to defend her thesis and graduate. Besides her studies, her big passion is drawing comics. She has an older sister named Yun Lan (played by Ma Yu Ting) who is a lawyer and who is currently working abroad. In her absence, Yun Shu is supposed to secure a place for the two of them to live together when Yun Lan comes back. Luckily, they have a cousin working in real estate who is able to secure an amazing deal for a house; an offer that’s almost too good to be true. Yun Shu is asked to sign the contract and transfer the entire amount of money on the morning of her thesis defense, which causes her to be late for the latter and fail her defense by default. Turns out luck really isn’t on her side at all, because not only does her new job not allow her to start working without her thesis approval, she also finds out that the house she bought already belongs to someone else – her cousin scammed her out of 2 million yuan and disappeared without a trace.
To make matters even more awkward, the house she was supposed to start living in belongs to none other than the professor who failed her thesis defense, Zhang Si Nian. Si Nian is Yun Shu’s teacher in Statistics, a highly skilled mathematician whose goal it is to win the Fields mathematician prize before he turns 35. Not only is he a genius in maths and statistics, his whole personality seems to be built on formulas and scientific explanations. He calculates every single detail of his life – you could say that if mathematics would have a human form, it would look like him. He does everything with his head and not his heart, and this also influences his inability to truly empathize with people. The only person Si Nian truly cares about with his heart is his grandfather, Zhang Mao Zhi (Cui Ke Fa), who is in treatment at the hospital for his stage 4 cancer (or a cancerous disease at any rate).
Despite the fact that Si Nian initially doesn’t even want to help Yun Shu out in her situation, he quickly realizes that without his help, she’ll keep trusting the wrong people. In contrast to him, Yun Shu is empathetic to a fault; she doesn’t even want to report her cousin to the police because he’s family. On first glance one could say that this makes her incredibly naive and clueless about the world, but it all really comes back to her genuine trust in the goodness of people. On the other hand, Si Nian always weighs the risks and dangers of putting his trust in people and therefore rarely relies on others.
After some initial turbulence, these two polar opposites somehow manage to find a common goal: Si Nian is only able to persuade his grandfather to undergo surgery if he introduces him to a girlfriend, and Yun Shu needs to prove her independence and responsibility to her sister and find a solid place to stay to get her issues in order. They strike up an agreement for sharing the house, which then evolves into a marital contract when grandfather’s deteriorating health becomes a bigger issue.

Apart from the main couple, the story also features side stories about Yun Shu’s older sister Yun Lan and her romance with popular actor Lu Yu (Dai Yun Fan) and the on-and-off relationship between Yun Shu’s two closest friends Gao Zhi Yi (Zhao Luo Ran) and Lin Nuo (Sheng Gang Shuai).

After the first few episodes, this series already got me excited because it reminded me a lot of Because This is My First Life. The premise was also reminiscent of shows like Good Morning Call and Put Your Head on My Shoulder in which the main leads get scammed into sharing a house or just end up living with someone else. In any case, this story had several of my favorite ingredients: a slowburn romance and a detached guy versus attached girl trope. I always love it when the naive bubbly girl manages to tear down the walls of the meticulous cold guy, and the main couple of this series did a great job at pacing out that slowburn. Honestly, it’s been a while since a romcom (especially a Chinese one) got me all giggling and kicking my feet during romantic scenes. The swoon really got to me and I lived for it.

I’d like to go through the main characters one by one, starting by the main couple. Overall I thought the characters in this show were all very well-written and acted out. They were all connected but still living their separate lives with their own issues and troubles. It’s always nice to see side characters exist as their own persons when they aren’t hanging out with the main leads.
I really liked Yun Shu. While she appeared to be very clumzy and naive in the beginning, falling for scam after scam, she really grew and matured throughout the show and I applauded her choices more than once. When she realized her feelings for Si Nian, or “Mr. Zhang” as she consistently kept calling him (even after they get married), I found it so relatable to see her go back and forth between “he probably doesn’t feel the same” and “but could he possibly feel the same?” and the scene where he basically confronted her with the fact that he just saw her as contractual party B was very painful. However, I really loved how she responded to it. I kind of relate to how she kept her feelings to herself rather than confront him with it, because that’s usually how I deal with one-sided crushes as well. Rather than becoming all weepy and pathetic she actually pulled herself together after just one night and immediately moved out to create a physical and psychological distance from him. I really respected her decision to physically remove herself from the house in order to give herself the distance and space needed to get over him without neglecting the agreed upon activities such as visiting grandfather together. She really went, “okay, if it’s really just a contractual partnership you want, then don’t expect me to keep clinging onto you either”. And of course, this turned out to be the trigger Si Nian’s feelings for her, because as soon as she was gone he started thinking and worrying about her more. I just loved how she dealt with her feelings and immediately moved out and found herself a new job, proving to him how capable she was on her own. As soon as she let go of her attachment to him, she immediately started attracting new people like Lawyer Meng as well. I guess it just goes to show that living your own life in your own way will, in one way or another, always bring the right people on your path. In the end, it was only a matter of time before Si Nian realized that what he felt for her was actual love, and then she still met him in the middle. When they were finally together and her temp job at the law firm ended, she was even able to switch to her true passion, drawing comics. She really came a long way into finally finding what she really wanted to do, and that’s another thing I related to. The scene where her friends and family threw her a surprise party for getting into the comic art studio and she just looked around at everyone with tears in her eyes, barely believing how blessed she was with so much love and support around her, was really touching.
I also loved that, while the appearance of another woman who was pining for Si Nian’s may have caused some anxiety for Yun Shu, she never became scared that Si Nian might leave her. It happens so often that, even in fully established relationships and marriages, one of the leads remains suspicious of the other’s interactions with other (wo)men, but I’m so glad when she stood up to Chu Chu like, “I respect you and all, but Si Nian and I are married and in love and I don’t need to hear from you that we aren’t a good fit, have a nice day”. I loved how she stood up for herself there, that was one moment where I realized how much she’d grown and how much confidence she’d built up naturally throughout the story. Another scene that showed how much she’d matured was when the shady cousin suddenly reappeared and had the audacity to pull Yun Shu into his other debts as well. Like, seriously, you scam your own niece out of 2 million yuan and then you just expect her to pay another 100,000 yuan for you? What the heck was wrong with this guy? I was so glad that Yun Shu saw this BS for what it was and was ready to just walk out on him there and then. When she decided to stay, it was only because he was family – she never paid a single coin for him and this was all the more powerful because I just know she would’ve helped him out if she had still been the same person as when he scammed her in the first place. Honestly I was kind of worried that she might fold but I’m so happy she didn’t, because this again proved how much she’d grown and how much better she’d become at standing up for herself. After all, it didn’t make any sense for her to pay for what he got himself into.
One final thing that I applauded was that, even though she did end up staying with Si Nian in the end, she did tell him honestly that she wanted to go to Japan to work at her favorite cartoonist’s studio. I was afraid that she was just going to drop it because she felt bad for leaving him behind and that she’d keep saying it was all right even though she really wanted to go. I preferred this way, that she changed her mind on her own and decided not to go instead of being forced to give up her dream because of someone else’s priorities. It was really sweet how supportive Si Nian was of her going to Japan, and I felt like the fact that he had wanted her to go strengthened Yun Shu’s resolve to stay even more.
All in all I think that Yun Shu was a very well-written character and she also evolved really naturally throughout the story. I found myself rooting for her all the way, because she was so likable and good. Although she never lost her empathy and trust in people, she did become better at standing up to people and setting boundaries, and that was really satisfying to watch.

I love how we gradually got to see Si Nian lowering his walls, because what came out of that was the purest cinnamonroll ever. I am so weak for characters like him, lol. It was just so endearing to see how he became aware of the fact that his feelings and actions towards Yun Shu weren’t just related to the contract but out of genuine concern for her wellbeing. I loved the scenes in which he caught himself staring at her and becoming aware of his heightened heart rate. He tried to keep dismissing it with his mathematician’s mindset, but he really couldn’t help himself in the end. Truthfully, the scenes where he started keeping an eye on her while she was working at the supermarket and started getting suspicious of her relationship with Lawyer Meng were quite typical, but I’m glad he finally came eye to eye with his true feelings when he did. It was balanced out just long enough for it not to become tedious, in my opinion. Honestly, you can’t tell me he fell for her only after confirming his heart rate through those scientific results – I don’t even remember what that was about to be honest – because he started acting like a jealous boyfriend way before that. He was literally and physically putting himself between Yun Shu and Lawyer Meng time and time again, like who was he trying to kid? But what I loved about him the most was that he consistently respected Yun Shu in everything she did. He respected her choices and decisions and even though he always offered to help her out, he also always accepted her when she asked for the time and space to deal with things by herself. I don’t remember a single time when he forced himself or his mindset on her. She was like a beam of sunlight to him, she broke him out of his rusty walls and he loved her so much for it. The way he looked at her, so full of fondness, just warmed my heart. His love went way further than just wanting to be intimate – he literally became her number one supporter throughout everything she strived to accomplish: the cartoons, going to Japan, acing her thesis defense the second time round. It was a really nice full circle moment when the show ended with Yun Shu’s second attempt to defend her thesis and he just grabbed her hand and ran with her to the building so she wouldn’t be late this time 🥹. That was really sweet. Si Nian was really sweet. Even in their intimacy and romance, he kept reflecting on his own shortcomings when it came to feel and express feeling. I loved how he was like, “I’m very inexperienced in romance, so let me do more research first”. He really wanted to do well for Yun Shu and that in itself was the most romantic thing ever.
I really loved seeing Si Nian’s character grow from a complete robot to a very warm human being. We already know from the start that he has it in him to care for people when looking at his relationship with his grandfather, but it was nice to see him allow himself some TLC as well.

I guess it’s no surprise that the romance between Yun Shu and Si Nian was one of my favorite things about this show. As I mentioned earlier, they got me old school giggling like a teenager with their slowburn and I just loved their subtle intimacy. The random and sneaky kisses were ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 I love it when a couple just becomes so mutually confident in what they have that they don’t even look around to notice other people looking their way. They got so comfortable with each other in their daily life that I didn’t even mind that it stayed at a couple of kisses. Admittedly, I did feel like they were building up to a bit more passion because they kept getting interrupted at some point, and so I was a little disappointed when they just skipped over the bed scene like that, but even without that kind of passion their chemistry was very addictive to watch. Yun Shu had me every single time she called Si Nian by his first name too, because she usually referred to him as “Mr. Zhang”. I believe Si Nian kissed her for the first time when she casually called him by his name on the phone, and that gave me all sorts of butterflies. Every single scene of them together had me like 😊🤭. It’s been a while since I enjoyed watching a main couple this much.

Moving on to Yun Shu’s accomplished lawyer sister, Yun Lan. Yun Lan is a real business lady and puts work before everything. She’s quite rigid with Yun Shu as well, although this does stem from a certain protectiveness towards her. If we thought Yun Shu and Si Nian were opposites, it seems like the writers thought it would be funny to give Yun Lan a complete polar opposite of her own. When Yun Shu and Si Nian are planning their (at the time still purely contractual) wedding, Yun Lan is summoned as Yun Shu’s Best Lady, while Si Nian invites his childhood friend Lu Yu, who is now a famous and popular actor, as his Best Man. What the soon-to-be-wedded couple doesn’t know is that Yun Lan and Lu Yu have actually met before. More than that, they’ve had a one night stand together – after which Yun Lan disappeared without even leaving a note. Despite her attempts to avoid him they inevitably meet again at the wedding and Lu Yu immediately continues to pursue her.
As practical and business-minded as Yun Lan was, I didn’t find it hard to understand why being with Lu Yu made her feel avoidant, initially. It was clear that she was trying to suppress how much she really liked him, but the scenes in which they couldn’t even walk the street without him getting surrounded by picture-demanding fans definitely struck a chord. I know for a fact that I would never be able to date a celebrity and deal with the risk of constantly being a target of gossip and potential scandal. Since Yun Lan usually had no trouble speaking her mind, I guess the fact that she kept quiet and preferred to silently remove herself from the situation had to do with the fact that it made her insecure, and she didn’t want to give in to that? That’s what it seemed like to me, anyway. And honestly, even though I feel like Yun Lan could’ve expressed that in words more clearly to Lu Yu, I thought he could’ve been a bit more considerate in that aspect as well. I get that it was normal for him, but it wasn’t right of him to just expect her to be okay with that without even addressing it. I found it hard to believe that, even after she did tell him that she didn’t feel comfortable in his fan-filled world, he would still propose to her in public like that at the end, surrounded by people filming it without her consent, even yelling out loud that he’d heard she was pregnant. I thought that was quite insensitive of him, to be honest. I totally understood why she made something up in order to flee the scene and go somewhere more private.
In any case, I felt like, even though her character was first introduced as a kind of catalyst to Yun Shu’s – since the housing problem needed to be fixed before she came back – she really got her own storyline apart from Yun Shu and the two only met up a couple of times throughout the story. Despite her tsundere personality I like to believe that Yun Lan was a very caring older sister to Yun Shu who kept worrying about her while simultaneously letting her figure stuff out by herself.
I thought her dynamic with Lu Yu was quite interesting as well. At times she was clearly the more dominant person, putting him in his place and not giving him what he wanted. But then there were also times when she got all shy and coy to hide her embarrassment from him while he was beside himself with joy in her presence. Their relationship definitely lacked the amount of build-up and development of Yun Shu’s and Si Nian’s, and I do admit that I was less invested in their love story, but it was still cute enough.

Lu Yu was basically just a puppy, lol. Apart from being a good actor he didn’t hesitate to chase after what he wanted and he never gave up on Yun Lan. He may have been a bit too spontaneous and impulsive at times, but it always came from a good place. One thing that I would’ve liked to see more of was a bit of backstory regarding his friendship with Si Nian, though. I just couldn’t really imagine the two of them befriending each other. Maybe I forgot about it, but I only remember the grandfather talking about their compatibility in the final episode, and that wasn’t enough for me to fathom their friendship, lol. Like, it was just very random that Si Nian, who always kept to himself, happened to be friends with one of the most well-known people in the country 😂. The two of them made a very odd pair, haha.
Apart from what I previously talked about, how I thought Lu Yu could be a bit oblivious to how his status would influence his dating life, I can’t deny that he was a good person. He really loved Yun Lan and he never wanted to hurt her. I found it a bit out of character for him to just break up with her over that lawsuit without hearing her side of the story first, but it was very typical of him to run back to her immediately after hearing how she basically saved him through that agreement. Although I tend to appreciate uncomplicated characters like him, I guess I still would’ve liked a bit more depth when it came to him, or at least a little bit more reflection when it came to how his fame impacted Yun Lan in their relationship.

Moving on to the next relationship depicted in the series: Zhi Yi and Lin Nuo. Zhi Yi, nicknamed “Yi Yi”, and Lin Nuo are Yun Shu’s closest friends. They always met on campus but they were all in different departments so I guess they must have known each other from earlier on. It’s revealed from the get-go that Yi Yi and Lin Nuo are exes; they used to date and broke up, but Lin Nuo still seems to have some lingering feelings towards Yi Yi. The two of them bicker a lot and there is undeniably some tension between the two of them, but Yi Yi is actively dating one guy after the next. Yun Shu often ends up in the middle of their bickering, but she’s always encouraging them to get along.
The thing that I found most interesting about the relationship between Yi Yi and Lin Nuo was that it was the most realistic (and problematic) in the show. Apart from the two previously discussed surprising but fateful matches, it was nice to also see a relationship that didn’t work out so great.
I’d like to start with Yi Yi, since I think she was the biggest factor in where things went wrong. So Yi Yi is a very bubbly “girly” girl, she cares about her appearance and knows how to wrap guys around her finger. When everything is going well and she’s in a good mood, she’s the nicest and most supportive friend ever. I liked her friendship with Yun Shu, they clicked very naturally despite being so different. Still, Yi Yi also has a different side to her: she’s stubborn and gets suspicious quite easy. Once she suspects something, she tends to jump to conclusions and end things before even hearing the other person out. Throughout the story, there are two instances of this happening, which both lead to the break-up of a relationship that could’ve been perfectly normal. First of all, Gu Xiao. There was nothing wrong with him. He may have seemed like a bit of a player – mostly through Lin Nuo’s perspective – but there was actually nothing wrong with him. He was serious about Yi Yi and never meant to hurt her.
His situation where he was pretending to still be with his ex only to reassure his ex’s mom who was in the hospital reminded me of a movie I watched recently, called Sliding Doors. Of course he should’ve just told Yi Yi about it in advance or at least take her opinion about it into consideration (knowing Yi Yi, she would’ve probably objected to him getting involved in it in the first place). Of course he should’ve immediately cleared things up when his ex blatantly introduced herself to Yi Yi as his girlfriend. But Yi Yi also didn’t give him the chance to talk. If she’d heard him out and understood that he was just putting up an act for his ex’s mom, things might have been different. Or not, because she did say at some point that she wanted to believe him. In any case, I really didn’t like how she just jumped on Lin Nuo as a rebound after that, even when Gu Xiao was still trying to apologize and explain it to her. What’s worse, I honestly felt like she was just trying to distract herself from Gu Xiao. When they played that “answer without thinking” game she literally said Gu Xiao’s name and not Lin Nuo’s. Lin Nuo had all the reason in the world to be upset about that because he really liked her and she couldn’t even pretend to reciprocate it. When they got back together she was the one who got the ick and became uncomfortable, but instead of figuring out her own feelings and trying to put into words what she felt for Lin Nuo, she just sabotaged their relationship by putting it all on Lin Nuo. She really did him dirty, breaking up with him because she walked on him getting his freaking finger bandaged by a female colleague. It felt like she was just looking for a way out of the relationship and created a reason to break up with him and blame him for it. That was really nasty of her.
The scene where she crashed at Yun Shu’s and Si Nian’s place reminded me of a very similar situation in Put Your Head on My Shoulder, where the FL’s best friend also crashed at the main couple’s place after a break-up and kept asking the FL to stay with her even though the ML and FL kind of wanted to get it on, lol. I found that scene a bit slapsticky to be honest, with Yun Shu trying to sneak out without Yi Yi noticing. She could’ve just told her she had to go to the bathroom – I don’t think Yi Yi would’ve come after her and dragged her away from Si Nian. Anyways, Yi Yi became all gloomy and dramatic after that.
I was actually really proud of Lin Nuo for standing up to her when she came crawling back to him at the end. She came back all weepy like, “I know I made a mistake, I’m so sorry” and he was like, “Girl, you took me for granted and I’m not just getting back together with you like this.” That was really strong of him, especially since he’d been the one who was all over her in the beginning.
Although I did like Yi Yi as Yun Shu’s supportive friend, I really didn’t like how she treated Lin Nuo and dealt with her relationships. Lin Nuo, on the other hand, kind of grew on me throughout the story. He was right to move away from her, because this instead made Yi Yi more determined to right her wrongs with him. It’s kind of suggested that they make up at the end, when Yi Yi told him she’d chase him all the way to Africa.
By the way, I found it kind of typical that the brochure Yi Yi looked at just said “Africa” and not any specific country in Africa. Like, they are aware that Africa is a continent, not a country, right? I can understand that Lin Nuo, who also lied about going with his female colleague, wouldn’t even give her the specifics of where exactly in Africa he was going, but that she just went “I’ll find you in Africa” without even thinking about where to go was kind of typical to me.
In any case, I liked the dynamic of Yun Shu, Yi Yi and Lin Nuo as friends, and it would’ve been cute if Yi Yi and Lin Nuo had gotten back together, but not like that. Not as a rebound or a result of taking someone for granted. Yi Yi literally gave Lin Nuo new (false) hope only to crush it again. She really should’ve figured out her own feelings better before jumping into a new relationship with him, because it was very clearly a way to distract her mind from Gu Xiao. Lin Nuo deserved better and I’m glad he cut himself free from Yi Yi at the end. Their text messages at the end seemed to suggest that Yi Yi was going to win him back and they’d probably end up together again, but I’m kind of happy it cut off at a point where Lin Nuo was still distancing himself from her. While it was about time for her to show some effort and initiative, I honestly wouldn’t really care either way if they got back together or not.

And then there are two characters that I wanted to discuss that are basically the “love rivals” in the story, even though neither of them ever really stood a chance. Although they both turned out to be okay people, I still had a problem with the way both of them started meddling with the relationship between Yun Shu and Si Nian.
First of all, Lawyer Meng Ren (played by Qi Han). He basically appears out of nowhere when Yun Shu is working at a supermarket after moving away from Si Nian and offers her a job at his law firm. Although he was initially asked to do this by Si Nian, Meng Ren starts developing feelings for Yun Shu himself in the process. His advances are strengthened by his knowledge of their contractual marriage, and he just assumes that means they don’t actually have feelings for each other and that he can just sweep Yun Shu off her feet. Honestly, he came on a bit too strong in my opinion. It was kind of awkward seeing him put out all these romantic gestures knowing that Yun Shu didn’t have feelings for him at all. Still, when she clearly told him she loved Si Nian, he didn’t bother her again – he accepted his defeat graciously and I appreciated that about him.
On the other hand, there was Lin Chu Chu (played by Sheng Lang Xi), Si Nian’s former studymate. They both studied mathematics abroad and bonded there, so they became quite close and got to know each other’s personalities (and peculiarities) well. Si Nian had always told her that his only goal in life was to win the Fields prize and that he would never even consider a relationship before he’d achieved that because it would only distract him. I guess that must have put her at ease since that meant she didn’t have to worry about him starting anything with anyone. When she returned to China several months later and became Si Nian’s colleague at the university, she probably expected to pick up from where they left. Imagine her surprise when she found out he didn’t just fall in love in that short time but even got married!
Honestly, I should’ve known from the start that Chu Chu was a meddler – she’s literally introduced butting into a couple’s business, telling them to just hold hands already. Yun Shu and Yi Yi witness this and are immediately filled with admiration for her grace and bravery (I would’ve told her to mind her own business, but hey, who am I). Chu Chu and Yun Shu have another friendly encounter later and start forming a nice friendship before they find out who they both are to Si Nian. Again, I thought Yun Shu was so empathic and relatable in her way of dealing with it, how she just came out and told Chu Chu that she really couldn’t have known that the guy she’d been telling her about was Si Nian. Like, her response was the most logical in that situation. From Chu Chu’s side, things got even more awkward, as she was on the losing end of course and she somehow just can’t understand how Si Nian fell for Yun Shu, who was so different from him. What bothered me the most about Chu Chu was that she just claimed ownership of Si Nian by going all “I’ve known him much longer and liked him first” and started butting into their relationship. Honestly, by the time she showed up, Yun Shu and Si Nian had already dismissed their initial contract because they’d fallen for each other for real, so who was she to suddenly burst in and go all “but you’re on a contract, you’re not actually suitable for each other” on them? Who was she to tell both of them that they weren’t right for each other? You’d think that was something they’d be able to figure out for themselves! 🤷🏻‍♀️ I already mentioned it but I really loved how Yun Shu stood up against her when she did that. Their contract and relationship had nothing to do with her and the contract was already a thing of the past by then, so why did she feel like she had the right to wave that in their faces? Admittedly, when Si Nian just started making out with Yun Shu in front of her I was like, “ouch 🥲” but I guess that was really the only way to make her back off? In any case, it was good that it didn’t sour her relationships with either of them entirely and she moved on with her life, but I really didn’t appreciate her meddling that much.

Finally, I want to talk a little bit about grandpa Zhang, because he was the sweetest man ever. I feel like he knew way more than he was given credit for, and it may not have even mattered to him how Si Nian and Yun Shu got together. He just knew they were perfect for each other from the moment he met Yun Shu. He was the first (and initially only) person who saw through their differences before he even saw them together. I think it was really nice that he immediately identified Yun Shu as a suitable partner because he must have known exactly what kind of person Si Nian needed, more than Si Nian himself would ever care to admit. I’m glad he made it through the series and didn’t pass away somewhere along the line – it was as if Si Nian and Yun Shu’s relationship literally kept him alive. He was such a nice character. I also loved how he immediately urged for Yun Shu to go fulfill her dreams in Japan even though that would mean he and Si Nian wouldn’t get to see her for a while. For someone who kept wanting the two of them to be together, it was extra heartwarming to see how much he also supported Yun Shu’s personal goals and dreams. He was the best grandpa.❤️

While the story in its entirety was well-structured and balanced out, I did feel like the ending was cut off a bit abruptly and we don’t get closure for all the characters. What happened with grandpa’s treatment? Why did Lawyer Meng suddenly just disappear from the story towards the end? What was the deal with Yi Yi and Lin Nuo’s ending? Although I appreciated a recap of the main couple’s journey at the end, there was still too much that I wanted wrapped up, so the ending felt a bit rushed to me, also with the very hasty “bed scene” and all that. It was as if the writers suddenly felt the pressure of having to add one last passionate gesture but realized they didn’t have enough time to add a full scene so they just created a silly transition to skip over it and get it over with. In any case, apart from the ending I really enjoyed the story and the romance between Yun Shu and Si Nian.

As it was quite a simple story with a simple cast of characters, I think I’ve mentioned most of my thoughts and criticisms on the characters and the story by now, so let’s look at the title next. I wanted to point this out because I sometimes like clarifying titles, especially when the original and English titles are different. I liked how they stuck with a similar title in English this time. In my experience, Chinese dramas usually have very long original titles which then get translated into English as a super short and generic title, sometimes even a single word (looking at you, Crush 👀). The English title “Perfect and Casual” has a summarizing ring to it, as if to describe a person or relationship that is both perfect and casual. However, when looking at the Chinese title, it may have been more fitting for the English to put the terms opposite one another more, like “Perfect versus Casual”, because it’s meant to indicate Si Nian (Mr. Perfect) and Yun Shu (Ms. Casual). It’s even clarified in the final episode through Si Nian’s narration of how Yun Shu’s “casual” ended up making his life “perfect”. I think it’s a very sweet and suitable title, although I would’ve liked to get a better definition of “casual”. I believe Yun Shu mentions somewhere in the beginning that “Ms. Casual” is her actual nickname, but it’s not that she’s casual as in that she doesn’t put effort into anything – maybe only in the beginning when her ambitions aren’t that high yet. I think that it relates more to how she’s less rigid than Si Nian, so I’m not actually sure if “casual” would be the correct term. It’s not as if “perfect” and “casual” are antonyms, something casual can also be perfect. I’m probably reading into it way more than necessary again, but I just like thinking about this kind of stuff, lol. I just need everything to make sense. 😂

Time for the cast comments! I didn’t know a single actor in this show, which isn’t uncommon as I don’t watch that many Chinese dramas. I thought that overall, the acting was very good and sincere. There wasn’t any kind of overacting that really stuck out to me or annoyed me as far as I can remember. Of course, the dubbing will always remain a thing (I saw that MDL even credited Lu Yu’s voice-over, I hadn’t seen that before!), but the voices suited the actors very well so I barely noticed it.

Xu Ruo Han reminded me of a whole bunch of people, from Jung So Min to Da Hyun from TWICE. I really liked her performance as Yun Shu. It doesn’t happen that often that the female lead is actually my favorite character, but this was definitely the case here. She played the role so naturally and sympathetically that, even when Yun Shu continuously kept getting into trouble, I never once got frustrated with her. I think it was really impressive how she managed to convey the character’s sentiment without making her pitiful.
I saw on MDL that this was actually her first drama! She made her debut in 2020 and has now appeared in four of five shows in the past few years. I really want to see more of her acting now. She was really natural and showed great chemistry with the male lead. She’s going on my new favorite actresses list!

Something about Wei Zhe Ming (or Miles Wei)’s facial structure reminds me of Hwan Woong from ONEUS? 😂 I have the strangest face associations, I know. Anyways, I really liked seeing him portray multiple sides of his acting in this show. He did a great job and gradually melting for his female co-star, haha. Seriously, the way he would look at her gave me butterflies! And it was super endearing to see him build Si Nian’s character and allowing him to get a bit more straightforward in showing his affection to Yun Shu. I repeat: I lived for their chemistry, haha. None of it felt uncharacteristic or awkward. Even in the scenes that were supposed to be awkward, he was just really endearing. I think I actually have some other shows with him on my list, so I’m excited to see more of his acting. I really liked his performance and the way he portrayed his character in this show.

I think Ma Yu Ting (whose stage name is apparently “Marguax”?), was typecasted very well for the role of Yun Lan. I think she did a good job at balancing Yun Lan’s confidence at the workplace with her insecurity in the romance field. Although I did think her chemistry with Lu Yu’s actor was cute and they even had a passionate kissing scene before the main couple did, the build-up in their relationship still felt a bit off to me for some reason. I felt like their relationship was pasted-on a little bit more than the main couple’s. I guess that had to do with the fact that we don’t see them develop as much as the main couple and we only get occasional glimpses of different scenes in their relationship, so it felt a bit more fragmented. In any case, I think she was a good choice for the role and she really nailed the layers behind Yun Lan’s tsundere personality.

I’m not really surprised to see that there’s a bit of an age gap between Yun Lan and Lu Yu’s actors – it’s only four years but Lu Yu definitely felt much younger to me than Yun Lan, although their ages are never really revealed throughout the show. In any case, Dai Yun Fan was very well casted as the cheeky Lu Yu. The dynamic between this secondary couple was very interesting, in a different way than the main couple, and I know that that can work very well, but for some reason it didn’t really grab my attention that much. I’ve already mentioned it before, but I would’ve liked to see a bit more depth in Lu Yu’s character, and also in the actor’s performance. Like, it was nice that he was so uncomplicated, but it took away that extra layer that the main couple did have. In fact I found him more befitting of the description “casual” than Yun Shu because of this lack of depth. Also in terms of his naivety when it came to considering how Yun Lan would feel about entering his world of stardom – that would’ve been a great aspect to his character that they could’ve explored and worked out more in order to give him some self-reflection, for example. Of course, that’s part of the writing so I can’t really blame the actor for that. His scenes with Yun Lan were cute and he did a good job portraying Lu Yu’s puppy-like excitement. Although their relationship could’ve been established a little bit better in my opinion, I still liked their dynamic.

I’ve said all I needed to say about Yi Yi, but I do want to compliment the actress Zhao Luo Ran for making her so insufferable, lol. You can say whatever you want, but she went all in with the dramatics and the waterworks without going over the top – in fact, she really shaped Yi Yi as someone that we’ve probably all met before. What I liked about her at least was that there were so many different sides to her. The actress definitely got to show off her acting skills and emotional range. She was a very diverse and refreshing character in a way, even though she definitely didn’t know how to deal with her feelings, lol. As aggravating as they can be, we need characters like her in dramas, especially because despite everything, she was still a very good friend to Yun Shu. I respect that she put so much into her performance, it really paid of. A character can only be genuinely annoying when the actor does a good job, and she definitely did that.

I don’t know why, but Sheng Gang Shuai had something of Nam Joo Hyuk about him that I couldn’t quite shake off. From the start I was worried that he would only be the friend/sad ex who kept trying to win Yi Yi back to no avail, so I’m glad at least he got a bit more character development. The way he rejected Yi Yi when she came crawling back to him made me respect his character a lot. It takes a lot to say no to someone that used to have you wrapped around their finger (been there), so it was very satisfying to see him stand his ground at the end. He was a very sympathetic character and his heart was in the right place. I liked that they didn’t make him a pushover when it came to Yi Yi. Lin Nuo really deserved to treated better. In any case, I thought the actor portrayed Lin Nuo in a very bright and sincere way.

With regards to the “love rivals”, I definitely liked Lawyer Meng better than Chu Chu. I think Qi Han (or Hank Qi) did a good job portraying Meng Ren’s efforts while already knowing he didn’t stand a chance. Finally a guy whose pride didn’t obstruct him from moving on! I love seeing a male character that accepts his defeat with honor rather than spite. His sincere care for Yun Shu was also reflected in how he still helped her out with her cousin’s case after she’d rejected him. The man rented out a restaurant and sang and played the piano for a woman who was in a hurry to go home to her husband, and still he managed not to lose face. When Yun Shu (again, very satisfyingly) told him she was still in love with Si Nian, he very graciously stepped away. Again, I’m not entirely sure how Lawyer Meng and Si Nian were acquainted because it also seemed like they were old friends or at least knew each other from before (maybe this was mentioned and I forgot about it, in that case never mind). As with Lu Yu, I would’ve liked a bit more backstory on him and I also found it strange that he just disappeared towards the end. But the actor did a good job and managed to portray Lawyer Meng very sympathetically, despite being a love rival.

Sheng Lang Xi (or Joy Sheng) also looked really familiar to me, but I haven’t seen anything with her. She was introduced as a very gracious and kind character – although I would probably not have appreciated her telling me and my crush to just “hold hands already” – but she really lost some credit points when she started acting all “but but but Si Nian was supposed to be mine”. The fact that she went to nag about it to Lawyer Meng and even he was like “let it go, girl” was pretty funny. Anyways, as occasionally annoying as she was, the actress still portrayed her quite gracefully and I couldn’t find it in me to dislike her completely. I think it’s very difficult to portray a character with problematic tendencies and still make them come across as sympathetic, so she definitely did a good job at that.

I just discovered that Cui Ke Fa also played the ML’s grandfather in Master Devil Do Not Kiss Me! The guy who kept forcing him and the FL to get married. 🥲 As persistent as he was in that, I really loved his portrayal of grandpa Zhang. I really loved his and Si Nian’s relationship. I have to admit I don’t really remember the whole backstory of what happened to Si Nian’s parents, but his grandpa took such good care of him and always made sure to protect him from hurt and harm. I remember him hugging young Si Nian in that flashback, and how he read him that story and made him believe his mom had become a mermaid to ease the pain of losing her – that was all so heartwrenching and it really clicked with how much he meant to Si Nian. I love how Si Nian called him “Academic Zhang” and how they talked about scientific explanations together. I believe grandpa Zhang knew his grandson better than he knew himself, and that was topped off by his judgement of Yun Shu as the ideal partner for him. He was such a precious character, and the actor portrayed him with such sincerity – I couldn’t help but love him.

All in all, I really enjoyed this. I loved the romantic development between the main couple the most, but I also thought the side stories and supporting characters were all very well-written. They all played a part in the main couple’s story as much as in their own, and I really liked that. There were some typical things here and there, some characters had more depth than other, some relationships were better established than others and I still feel like the ending was cut short a bit, but in general I had a good time watching this. I always find it hard to find Chinese romcoms that are just right in balancing the romantic development and don’t get too stereotypical, so this was a very nice surprise and I agree with the relatively high rating on MDL as well.

Despite the simplicity of this story, I took two days to write this review. I just couldn’t get into the right mindset for some reason, and it was nice to allow myself the extra time. I might do that more often in the future as I get busy with my translating project and other activities I have planned in the running towards my new career goals. In any case, thanks for reading the whole thing again. I hope to come across nice unexpected shows like this more often. I’m very curious what my next watch will be, so stay tuned with me!

Bye-bee! x




Seishun Cinderella

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Seishun Cinderella
(青春シンデレラ / Seishun Shinderera)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hello hello! I honestly didn’t think I would be able to finish my next watch within a week of the previous one, but I keep pulling short dramas these days so here we are! Again, a nice switch-up to another Japanese show that came out not too long ago. I didn’t know what this was going to be about, but there was something about time travel in the summary so naturally my interest was piqued! Since I thought it was going to have a link to Cinderella (blame the title), I was really curious to see how time travel would come into play there. It turned out very differently from what I anticipated and I’m excited to share my thoughts on it. I also knew almost no one from the cast, which was refreshing – typically I recognize at least a few people in Japanese dramas. In any case, let’s just get on with it, shall we?

Seishun Cinderella is a Japanese drama series with ten episodes of about 25 minutes each. The story revolves around Hagino Shion (played by Kumada Rinka), a 29-year old beauty consultant. As a single lady who loves indulging in her passion for make-up, she is very content with her life. This content also has to do with the fact that she’s come a very long way since high school. Shion used to be an invisible gray mouse, with her big glasses and odd sense of fashion. She only had one good friend in school, Akiyama Mitsuki (played by Mizutani Kaho), with whom she’s remained close even into adulthood. She’s only ever had a crush on one guy from her class, Hasegawa Souma (played by Honda Kyouya), but faced a bitter rejection from him on the day she finally mustered up her courage to ask him out. His exact words were, “If you’re going to confess, at least do something about your appearance.” Despite the hurtful impact of these words, they also helped Shion in her determination to make something of her life and that’s how she came to pursue a career in the make-up industry. Even though she’s happy with things the way they are now, when Mitsuki surprises her with a group date, Shion is inevitably reminded of her painful rejection and has to acknowledge that she never got over Hasegawa. When she gets home she rips the only high school photo she has of her, Mitsuki and Hasegawa – but then something strange happens. There are blue lights and suddenly she finds herself back in time at the exact moment that picture was taken – for some reason she has returned to her 17-year old self. With her knowledge and life experience of a 29-year old beauty consultant, she quickly changes her high school image. In doing so, she’s able to become much more sociable in class, her friendship with Mitsuki deepens and she’s even able to make romantic progress with Hasegawa in a way she’d never deemed possible. Still, Shion needs to get back to her own timeline at some point, so is it really right to change the past like this?

When I started watching this show and saw how Shion had matured I couldn’t help but think about shows like True Beauty and My ID is Gangnam Beauty, in which the female leads also became interested in cosmetics as a result of a bad experience they had in the past that concerned their appearance. In Seishun Cinderella this was more of an indirect result, as Shion gradually came to discover make-up and not in the direct aftermath of being rejected and finding some way to become more beautiful for someone else. I liked that her passion for make-up was something she happened to discover as time went by and became something that made her really happy and distracted her from negative memories of the past.
When the time travel element hit, it reminded me of Somehow 18, where the male lead was made to travel back in time to save his high school classmate from ending her own life. In Shion’s case, since the time slip happened when she ripped the photo, it seemed to have something to do with Mitsuki and Hasegawa in particular, as they were in the picture with her. It’s not clear why she’s there or what she’s got to do to get back; Shion is left to her own devices to make something of it. She’s travelled from 2022 back to 2010, so a lot has changed and she needs to retrace her own footsteps.

One thing I liked about this story was that they utilized the fact that Shion was an adult in a teenager’s body very well. As in, it’s not like she was visibly uncomfortable in her younger body or anything, but they really played on her maturity and how much she’d grown since high school. It wasn’t always consistent – there were a lot of moments where she acted like a typical teenager in my opinion – but I did appreciate her calling people out on their behavior more. For example when she spoke up to that guy Mitsuki was dating for being a prick, or when she told Hasegawa to just call her cute instead of beating around the bush while complimenting her outfit. In those moments I really appreciated her boldness, because these were things that highlighted her more mature side.
I also thought it was clever to emphasize the fact that Shion was satisfied with the life she’d made for herself in her original timeline. No matter how well things went in this new past she’d created, she still wanted to go back because she worked really hard for that life and for securing her own happiness. Even getting together with her high school crush wasn’t worth leaving that behind, and I found that really strong of her. Apart from that, I liked how they put the effects of time travel in perspective by highlighting Shion’s growing exhaustion with living through a life where she already knew what was going to happen. I guess this also fed the way she preferred things and people to “get to the point” more directly than beating around the bush. She had to sit through a movie “for the first time” and fake being impressed while she’d already seen it a hundred times, she had to spend time with energetic teenagers while she already got tired after walking for a few hours (honestly, same). If I were to be sent back in time to my teenage years, even if it was for a good cause or because I had to change something important, I wouldn’t even want to think about reliving my life starting from that period all over again, from the final exams to the jobs I’ve had. These were all pretty practical things to consider in Shion’s situation, and I don’t think many time travel stories focus on that as much as on just clearing the mission, so I thought it was clever to add that to the story and Shion’s character building as well.

Speaking of character building, I’d like to add in some character analyses as I feel like I haven’t done that in a while. Because of the small cast, most of the characters were fleshed out pretty nicely without any rush, and I just want to discuss a couple of main characters in more detail.
First of all, Shion. Shion is an only child and from her parents it’s clear to see she grew up in a very warm and supportive household; she’s always been encouraged to pursue whatever she wants in terms of work. Honestly, her parents were so wholesome. I loved how, when Shion suddenly started using make-up overnight, her transformation didn’t change anything in how her parents treated her. Like, of course their love for her was unconditional but somehow it became even sweeter because her parents were just genuinely happy for her that she was happy and never even made any comments about her transformation. I really liked her parents.
Shion has always been quite soft-spoken, and even though she got less scared to call people out after she got older, she still preferred to remain in the background. She definitely had her strengths. I thought it was very empowering to see her grow into a beauty consultant, finding pride in how far she’d come and being content with being single as well. I also liked that it wasn’t even her goal to go back in time and get together with Hasegawa; this also became obvious from her attempts to distance herself from him and how she was even prepared to step back when she started suspecting Mitsuki and Hasegawa might have feelings for each other. I think she just needed to get over her trauma and realize that, even if her confession had succeeded, she wouldn’t have wanted to give up the life she made after facing such a harsh rejection. After all, indirectly it had helped her grow and find her strengths and passions by herself. Even though the main part of the series did focus on the growing romance between Shion and Hasegawa, I liked that in the end Shion realized that it wasn’t something she’d easily trade for the skills she developed to gain her own independent happiness.
Despite the empowering elements in Shion’s character, there were also some frustrations that I had which occurred mostly when Shion found out that Hasegawa’s reciprocation of her feelings was the key to sending her back to her own timeline. Sure, her situation was odd, to say the least, and of course she was worried no one would believe her if she told them. But the way she started acting hot and cold towards Hasegawa just wasn’t fair in my opinion. Like, where did that boldness from before go? One evening she runs after him asking him to kiss her, the next day she explicitly tells everyone in their class she doesn’t like him – heck, I didn’t blame Hasegawa for getting confused. Talk about mixed signals! Of course this was before she mustered up the courage to tell Mitsuki and Hasegawa the truth about her situation, but still, I feel like this wasn’t the best way to go for her. This is also what I meant earlier when I mentioned that I sometimes found her behavior a bit inconsistent; she had such surprisingly bold moments and then the next time she just ran away with an apology and no further explanation when she was clearly behaving strangely, even with an understanding of her situation. The fact that she actually lied about the curse being broken so Hasegawa would reciprocate her feelings and unknowingly send her away? Girl… That was low. I’m glad Hasegawa didn’t buy it either.
I think all in all Shion needed this time travel experience to appreciate and depend on her friends more, and maybe she just needed to see how things could’ve worked out. Still, I think the most important thing was that she kept valuing what she’d achieved by herself and wouldn’t even let a much-hoped-for change in romantic development influence that.

Besides the whole thing with Hasegawa, I thought the friendship between Shion and Mitsuki was very wholesome. They kept showing how much they valued each other time and time again. Even when it was suggested that Mitsuki might have had other intentions or was actually jealous of Shion and Hasegawa, I’m glad everyone’s perspectives were revealed. I liked that they devoted at least one episode to Mitsuki’s point of view, because it really helped me get a better understanding of her experiences.
Mitsuki and Shion became friends after Shion bravely stood up against a teacher for saying something mean to Mitsuki. Mitsuki immediately approached her afterwards to thank her and they became friends very soon after that. I loved that Mitsuki, as a more bubbly and popular girl than Shion, didn’t seem to have any kind of judgement towards Shion’s appearance – she was genuinely touched by that simple gesture of kindness. It’s kind of interesting to see how well she picked out her friends while she kept dating absolute douchebags. In the episode that featured her point of view, she mentioned that she just wanted to be liked by everyone even if she knew they had insincere intentions. I’m glad Shion and Hasegawa ended up protecting her from a couple of bad people, but I have to admit I found that aspect a bit contradictory to how she’d seemed to me from the start. It seemed to me like she picked out her true friends very specifically, especially when you look at how different she was from Shion and Kaoru. Even Hasegawa was depicted as kind of an oddball who couldn’t express his emotions properly. How did she end up befriending these people based on their genuine kindness when she herself was prepared to let herself be used by others she knew weren’t sincere about her? I found that a bit hard to understand. What I also found a bit complicated to comprehend were her exact feelings regarding Hasegawa, especially with regards to Shion. With Shion, she always acted as the most supportive friend, actively thinking of ways for them to get together. She even asked her fortune-telling friend Kaoru to cast a love spell on the two so Shion would have luck in her romantic pursuit of Hasegawa. Still, after doing all that, she seemed kind of upset whenever she saw Shion and Hasegawa hanging out together without her. When she went off at Hasegawa during the school trip, I really didn’t understand what went on in her mind. Like, if it was just that she was scared of her two best friends ending up together and leaving her behind, fair enough. But it seemed to also have to do with the fact that Hasegawa used to like her in middle school, even though she rejected him. I don’t know, maybe I didn’t pay enough attention or the way it was explained just went over my head, but I found it hard to follow her thought process. I was just glad that it didn’t lead to a break between her and Shion and she only became more and more supportive of her friends’ relationship after it was all resolved.
Seeing the friendship between Shion and Mitsuki kind of reminded me of Mitsuki and Ayaka from Sashidashinin ha, Dare desu ka? which I watched recently. There is this moment where you fear that something is wrong, but then as they talk it out it only reassures how much they truly value each other’s friendship. I love seeing these kinds of genuine (female) friendships in Japanese dramas, because I feel that in Japan, even between friends, it’s not actually that common to have particularly deep talks about feelings.
I actually would’ve liked to get an insight in how Mitsuki met Kaoru, in the same way as we got a flashback into her past with Shion and Hasegawa. They must have met somewhere in junior high or middle school judging from the uniforms they wear in their pictures together. It was mentioned that Mitsuki switched schools at some point and then met Shion. Looking at the two of them, you could say that type-wise they are a very unique pair, the bubbly sociable girl and the quiet occultist. In this regard, again, I can only say I just really liked Mitsuki’s non-judgemental personality. She really appreciated people based on their character and not on how they looked or what they occupied themselves with. When Shion started talking about time travel, rather than just laugh in her face or declare her insane, Mitsuki immediately offered to ask Kaoru about it. Even though she herself wasn’t particularly interested in the topic, she still went and consulted someone who knew more about it. It mattered to her because it mattered to her friend, and that simple thing was very definitive of her character. I really liked her.

Initially, Hasegawa was the least consistent character to me. First of all, because I’d identified him as this cool popular guy in school and he turned out to be quite an oddball in his own way. When he started acting like a child with the sulking and the pouting, I was like ??? That was such unexpected behavior and I’m not sure what I thought about it to be honest, lol. I get that it was probably the point to reveal sides of him to Shion that she never knew about, but it threw me off a little bit.
What I found interesting was that, from the start, it was clear that Hasegawa was interested in Shion. When she turned up at school with make-up on, he was the only one to recognize her immediately and he even made the remark that “she was always pretty”. He kept making complimentary and even flirty remarks like that, understandably making Shion even more confused as to why he rejected her confession then. I ultimately understood that he only rejected Shion (and others) because he thought very lowly of himself and that rejecting them harshly would make it easier for them to let go of their affection for him. But it was so clear that he was attracted to Shion that I was like, bro, who are you kidding? You can’t keep pushing yourself into a girl’s aura telling her how cute and interesting she is and then refuse to take responsibility for those words. It kind of pissed me off that Shion’s confession to him was just “another one of those” to him. I liked it when Shion called him out on that, only thinking about how he thought he would spare those girls’ feelings and not even considering the fact that his words might actually traumatize them for life, as they did with Shion.
Also, even though he acted all like, “I always found you pretty”, suggesting that he would’ve still fallen for her even without the time travel, fact remains that he only started approaching her more actively after she “became prettier” and started confronting him with his own problematic mindset. Like, I couldn’t help but wonder if her transformation really didn’t make him more aware of her charms, and I guess that’s what kept bugging me a bit as their relationship progressed. It shouldn’t have mattered to him that she dressed oddly in the beginning if he already liked her. I remember thinking the same thing when I was watching Abyss, if the romance between the two leads would have really bloomed the same way if they’d had their original appearances the whole time. In the case of Seishun Cinderella, we’d already seen that Hasegawa originally rejected Shion with the excuse of her appearance. So yeah, I guess that was one reason why I found it hard to warm up to him. Having said that, I can’t deny that I was on his side when Shion started acting all shady about not wanting him to reciprocate her feelings all of a sudden. I also appreciated that he reflected on his own selfish feelings of wanting to keep Shion with him in the end, and that he let her go when she told him how badly she still wanted to go back to her own timeline.
Additionally, despite the fact that the romance that bloomed between them was quite sweet and they had several cute moments, I have to say that I didn’t really feel the chemistry between them as much as I’d hoped. Funnily enough I felt that there were more sparks in the way they looked in each other’s eyes than when they hugged or kissed. I was kind of disappointed with the kisses, to be honest. I know Japanese kissing scenes usually don’t get as spicy as Korean ones, but I definitely hoped for more than just a dry pressing of lips. The expression of their love was more in their words than in their actions. I get that they were only 17 and experiencing a mutual connection at that age must be very intense, but I couldn’t help but sigh when they got more giddy about calling each other by their first name and holding hands than about the more passionate stuff. Even Shion’s additional twelve years of life experience didn’t contribute to any kind of maturity in this situation. I can’t help it, I’m a sucker for a good slowburn that explodes in a passionate outburst of physical intimacy, so this was a little disappointing.

The first time we meet Ito Kaoru (played by Yanai Yumena) is in Shion’s original timeline – she’s also invited to the group date by Mitsuki. From the start she seems quite apprehensive and avoidant of Shion, and she ultimately flees the scene when it’s clear that she’s the odd one out. In fact, she faces the exact same remark as Shion did from Hasegawa in the past: “You’d think that if a woman was coming to a group date she’d at least dress up nicely.” As it happens, Kaoru is more involved in Shion’s time travel than anyone anticipated. In the original past, Shion never even met Kaoru. She never knew that Mitsuki was friends with Kaoru, or that she asked her to cast a love spell on Shion and Hasegawa. What no one knows is that Kaoru didn’t actually cast a love spell – she cast a curse on them to make their romance fail. The curse was contained inside the photograph of the three of them and that’s why Shion time-slipped when she tore up the picture.
Honestly, when push came to shove and Kaoru’s feelings were revealed, I couldn’t empathize with her at all. It’s one thing to be asked to cast a love spell on a friend’s friend and reject it because you have nothing to do with that person and you don’t want to get involved (which is probably what I would’ve done in her position), but to actively decide to curse someone she didn’t know into becoming unlucky in love only because she was jealous of Mitsuki and Shion’s friendship? That’s a whole other level of bitterness. She literally looked at the picture and went, “She’s just as unimpressionable as me, why should she get lucky?” She even had the audacity to blame it all on Shion for “stealing Mitsuki away from her” which was very disproportionate. I remember getting genuinely angry while watching this scene. She could’ve decided to not cast anything, spell or curse, or she could’ve honestly told Mitsuki that she didn’t want to do it and talked it out right there and then. There were so many options and she actively decided to be spiteful. As a result, she ended up traumatizing someone into believing that they were never meant to find love. Admittedly, Shion managed to find her way through life so it wasn’t as if the curse ruined her forever, but it still was a very nasty thing to do.
I feel like Kaoru was forgiven quite easily by Mitsuki. Back in the future she just became a part of the gang and everything was forgotten and forgiven because Shion and Hasegawa still ended up together. She was even depicted commenting on how good they looked together. Like, okay, I guess I’m alright with the whole “all’s well that ends well”, but I would’ve liked a bit more reflection on Kaoru’s behalf instead of her just coming after Shion to urge her to go back to her own timeline.

Before ending my character analyses I just want to comment on Sahara. Sahara Masahiro (played by Wakabayashi Jiei), was the leads’ classmate and groupmate during their school trip. He also at some point started dating Mitsuki, although the only time we saw them as a couple was during that double date. Other than that, he really didn’t appear that much and honestly I was kind of surprised to see that they included him in the final reunion. The main part of the story revolved around Shion, Mitsuki and Hasegawa, and Sahara was really just a side character. Sure, he helped Shion get a lead on Hasegawa’s whereabouts back in the future, but the way they included him in the final reunion almost suggested that there was still a chance for him and Mitsuki or something. I don’t know, it’s not that he wasn’t a nice character or anything but it felt a bit random to me that he was there at the end, lol.

When time was set right and they all reunited in the original timeline, it was kept a bit vague how much Mitsuki and Hasegawa remembered of it all. Mitsuki initially didn’t seem to remember anything but then still invited Kaoru and Sahara because it felt somehow “nostalgic” to have them around for this. Hasegawa does say that he remembers Shion’s last words to him before she travelled back, that she would (probably) love him for the rest of her life. So yeah, it seems that even though the original timeline didn’t change, these two did remember at least an echo of that other timeline that was created when Shion travelled back in time.

I’m glad that at least the time travel phenomenon was explained through that curse, because I’ve seen enough time travel stories where the reason for the time slip is never clarified and I like to have a bit of clarity, even in the most farfetched of stories. I think the story was constructed and paced out well enough and I didn’t feel like any part of the storyline was rushed. I would’ve maybe liked a bit more insight in some relationships here and there, particularly in the case of Kaoru, but this insight was established very well in the main characters so it’s not like there wasn’t any clarity whatsoever. I mostly liked the friendship between Shion and Mitsuki and how Shion ultimately chose for her original hard-worked-for life rather than experience a full-fledged romantic experience with her high school crush. Honestly, even though it was inevitable that Shion and Hasegawa would be reunited at the end of story, I wouldn’t even have minded it if Hasegawa didn’t show up and Shion could just happily live her life with the good new memories she’d made. Some elements that I liked less mostly had to do with ambiguity regarding characters’ intentions and the lack of chemistry between the two leads when it really mattered.

Before I go on to the cast comments I’d like to comment on the series’ title. The original Japanese title is Seishun Cinderella, which can be translated to Youth Cinderella or Cinderella of Youth. In hindsight, I’m not exactly sure what the reference to Cinderella indicates. It wasn’t as if she was racing against a clock or needed to get back before a certain time, so did it have to do with her transformation then? I feel like Japanese shows sometimes use the word “Cinderella” in the title with a very different connotation, just like with Last Cinderella. If anyone can point it out to me more clearly that would be great, I just want to make better sense of it.
On another note, in terms of the poster, I don’t agree with the fact that Mitsuki isn’t on there. It’s just Shion (twice) and Hasegawa. They could have at least put the picture of the three of them at the bottom. If anyone deserved to be featured on the promotion poster it’s Mitsuki. Just stating facts.

It’s time for the cast comments! Since this series only had a small cast of characters, I’ll stick to the actors that portrayed the characters I’ve discussed in my analysis.
I really thought I recognized Kumada Rinka from something, but I guess not! I see that she’s played Yano in the most recent remake of Kimi ni Todoke, which seems like an interesting casting choice. Maybe I’ll check it out sometime (even though I’ve already seen like three versions of the story). I liked her as Shion in both versions of her high school life because it showed that she had the ability to transform. Apart from the unexpected bold actions that stood in such stark contrast with her original past self, I do think there could’ve been some more distinct difference to show she was actually a mature adult now. As it is now, I was only reminded of the fact myself when she spelled it out, but in many regards I didn’t feel like she acted differently from her teenage classmates. I also would’ve liked to see a bit more variety in her expression, because it kind of went back and forth between cute smile and worried eyebrows. I’m interested to see her appear in more stuff, so I hope I get to see another side of her acting in the future.

Mizutani Kaho also made me feel like I knew her from something, but the only show on her record list that I’ve seen is Koe Koi, and I don’t remember her from that. I did see another show that’s still on my list so I know I’ll get to see her in a different show. Anyways, as I mentioned in my review I really liked Mitsuki, and consequently the actress’ portrayal of her. I liked that they gave her an interesting – albeit slightly confusing – storyline. In a way, the fact that I found it confusing to grasp also proves that people have their own feelings that don’t always make sense to others. Sometimes feelings are just hard to explain, so in a way this also made her even more realistic as a character. I liked that the writers chose to make her the most loyal and supportive friend ever, to both Shion and Kaoru. Despite her friendship with Hasegawa she would always choose Shion’s side and she even found it in her to forgive Kaoru. The fact that she initially broke off her friendship with Kaoru because she hurt her friend, not even herself, was also very definitive of her character. It was nice to see how Mitsuki was always so touched when Shion gave back to her in their friendship or stood up for her. I really liked her performance, I think she did a good job showing the different layers of Mitsuki’s character.

I didn’t know Honda Kyouya from anything either, but he certainly made an impression here. I’m curious to see him in a different type of show where he can be less coy though, haha. As I mentioned in my review I was initially a bit confused by what kind of guy Hasegawa was supposed to be. As Shion got to know him better and better he seemed to stray more and more from the image I originally had of him. I thought he would just be this cool aloof guy, but then he started acting like a puppy and cornering Shion to look into her eyes and stuff like that and it threw me off a little, haha. Still, I guess that just means the writers did a good job establishing the characters as multidimensional and interesting. I felt like sometimes his expressions were a bit awkward, but I think he did a nice job all in all. My main issue with him and Kumada Rinka was just that their chemistry sometimes felt a bit wobbly. While I love getting a good heart throb just by the way two people look at each other, I would’ve liked them both to show a bit more passion in the kissing scenes.

Apparently, Yanai Yumena was also in 3-nen A-gumi! I keep revisiting that show and its actors and I love the throwback because it was so good. Anyways, maybe a part of me remembered the actress from 3A but her performance in this show will definitely linger in my memory for longer than any side character. I’ve already expressed my thoughts about Kaoru and her decision to do what she did, but I honestly would’ve loved a bit more insight into her character background. How did she end up getting into fortune-telling, for example? How did she and Mitsuki become friends? There was a lot to explore that might have contextualized her jealous feelings towards Shion at least a little bit. Without context her actions just seemed unnecessarily cruel, so I had hoped to at least get some more background that may have helped me redeem her at least a little bit. She was friends with Mitsuki after all, so she can’t have been a bad person at heart. I’d like to see more of her acting, because looking at the difference in the characters she played in the two shows I’ve seen her in so far, I’m sure there are more sides to her acting.

Funnily enough, Wakabayashi Jiei also appeared in 3-nen A-gumi and I do remember him because of his characteristic face. I also remember him from First Love: Hatsukoi where he played the younger version of the male lead’s best friend. I know him from quite eccentric roles and even though he was a fun enough character in this show, I know he has so much more up his sleeve. He deserved to be featured as more than just a side character who suddenly ended up dating Mitsuki (quite out of the blue, too) and then only made a random appearance at the end as if he was part of the gang. I like his acting, so I hope I get to see him perform in more stuff in the future.

I’ve reached the end of my review before dark again, it’s becoming a pattern, haha. I’m glad I got to watch this show, I’d seen some clips of it and I always love time travel-inspired stories. Although it was quite the complete story in itself, there were some plots and (side) characters that could’ve been fleshed out a little more, and I would’ve also liked to see a bit less awkwardness in the expressed affection between the two leads. Still, it drew me in from the start and the message I take away from it is quite nice. It’s okay to revisit the past and think about how different things could’ve been, but it’s important to live in the present and be thankful for how far you’ve come despite your endured hardships. The things that are meant for you will come to and stay with you, so all you can do is believe in your own journey. I think that in itself is quite a nice message to end this review with.

I’m super excited about my next watch, so until then!
Bye-bee! x

Emperor or Boss

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Emperor or Boss
(陛下在左, 老板在右 / Bìxià Zài Zuǒ, Lǎobǎn Zài Yòu / His Majesty On the Left, My Boss On the Right)
MyDramaList rating: 6.0/10

Hi everyone! Maybe it’s a bit sooner than expected, but I’m sharing another review! I passed my final assignments, which means I basically passed my MA, so what better celebration is there to review another show! The ninth show my Spin-the-Wheel app picked out for me was another short one, so I was able to finish it quite quickly. I liked that it was another Chinese one – my app is really good at switching things up and I’m here for it. As with my previous watch, I didn’t exactly remember when I put this show on my list or why, but I’m always in for a cute romance story so I went in with an open mind. In hindsight I think it was quite silly and cute, even though it lacked depth and I couldn’t really wrap my head around some things. In any case, I’m excited to share my views on it, so let’s go!

Emperor or Boss is a Chinese Mango TV drama series, and there are three different ways to watch it: in 18 episodes of about 15 minutes, in 6 episodes of about 35 minutes, or in 3 episodes of about an hour. I watched it in the format of 6 episodes on BiliBili. The story is about a young woman named Fu Bao (played by Dawn Chen/Chen Fang Tong), who works at an acting agency. On the night of her 24th birthday, she is drinking alone in the storage room at work when she finds an authentic-looking notebook. On the cover it says “The Wishing Notebook”, and that whatever you write in it will come true. In a lonely and drunken daze, Fu Bao writes that she’d like to fall in love with someone as handsome as her boss Wei Lai (played by Ye Xiao Wei). The next morning, she wakes up in her own bed – next to her boss. Shook by the fact that the wish she wrote in the notebook came true – that is, if a suggested night together equals falling in love – she looks for it again, and that’s when suddenly a strange man in traditional attire confronts her. He claims to be Li Ming Shi (played by Yang Ze), the Emperor of the Li State, and his notebook somehow ended up in this world. The only way he can go back to his own world and time is if his name is written in the notebook by the last mentioned person, which, thanks to Fu Bao, is now her boss, Wei Lai. However, Fu Bao just happens to be needing an actor to step in at an audition and Li Ming Shi seems like the perfect candidate – it also happens to be a historical drama they’re casting for. She promises that as long as Ming Shi takes the audition, she’ll ask Wei Lai to write his name in the book so he can return to his own world. However, Ming Shi actually gets hired for the acting job and now has to finish the filming of the drama. Fu Bao, acting as his agent, allows him to stay at her apartment for the time being. The two get close and eventually fall in love. Meanwhile, as a result of waking up next to her that one time, her boss Wei Lai also develops feelings for Fu Bao. The three end up in a love triangle and the series’ title basically sums up the main question: will Fu Bao choose the Emperor or her boss?

To dive right in to my first impressions, I thought that the way it started was all over the place. It starts with Li Ming Shi being chased by his brother and some assassins in a forest, introducing their fight about the notebook before it disappears in a flash of light. Then suddenly the notebook is a prop in the storage where Fu Bao finds it. It also brushes over her waking up next to her boss as a kind of comical but meaningless event. Nothing is explained about how or why the book ended up years into the future, or how Li Ming Shi himself managed to travel there. It’s never even established which dynasty he’s from or whether he realizes he’s travelled through time. They both just seem to accept that they are apparently from “different worlds”.
Although the buildup in the relationship between Fu Bao and Li Ming Shi was quite cute, there was a lot that I would’ve liked to have established more clearly between the two of them. Fu Bao initially doesn’t really seem to take Li Ming Shi seriously when he explains that he’s from way back when. Even after she agrees to let him stay in her apartment, she keeps getting surprised by the fact that he doesn’t know how to use any modern-day utensils, or that flipping a switch to put on the light is like magic to him. She just treats him like any other person: she gets him hooked on bubble tea and instant noodles and just lets him wander around the drama set. It seemed to me as if she wasn’t even that interested in learning more about where he came from or what the whole deal was with the notebook. Her first intentions with him are quite selfish: she needs an actor to fill in for a role, and she holds the promise of asking Wei Lai to write his name over his head while accommodating him until the filming is done. In the meantime, Ming Shi gets more and more used to living in this new world and shows that he’s a quick learner when it comes to using a smartphone and playing video games.
While these two grow naturally closer as they spend so much time together at home and work, Wei Lai’s feelings for Fu Bao are growing as well. He’s not sure from when it started, but it does seem like mysteriously waking up next to her did the trick. From that point on, he’s constantly trying to get alone with Fu Bao. Fu Bao, however, interprets all his advances as ways to tease her or to take advantage of her as her boss.

Honestly, this was another weird thing, because the three are so clearly set up as a love triangle, but I don’t think Wei Lai ever really stood a chance. I don’t think Fu Bao had feelings for him, even when she wrote in that notebook. The summaries I’ve found on different drama source websites are quite misleading too, to be honest. I read somewhere that she wrote that she wanted to sleep with her boss, but the subtitles that I watched clearly stated that she wanted to fall in love with someone “as handsome as him”. How this manifested itself in the two of them waking up next to each other in Fu Bao’s bed – I don’t know, but it definitely instigated Wei Lai’s feelings for her. Still, I’d only call something a love triangle when there is at least a chance for both parties, and in this case Fu Bao’s feelings for Ming Shi developed so naturally that Wei Lai was pretty much just making a fool of himself with his numerous attempts. It actually became a bit awkward to watch at some point, like he just didn’t want to see what was right in front of him, and he kept convincing himself that Fu Bao was into him. I really didn’t like that he became so desperate, even when Fu Bao and Ming Shi had literally conveyed their eternal love for each other right in front of him (which did make me feel for Wei Lai a little, to be honest). You know a love is not sincere when a guy comes to you pleading that he’ll give you more of this and that than the guy you’re dating, as if that’s what it’s about and not your own feelings. So yeah, I don’t think Wei Lai went about it the right way. It would’ve probably been different if he’d been more considerate of Fu Bao’s feelings and not just his own.

Admittedly, despite the many sappy lovey-dovey parts, I really liked it when Fu Bao and Ming Shi finally officially got together, because then suddenly it took a turn I did not expect in this show. The unicorns and rainbows suddenly turned into some serious passion and fire! It actually made it more exciting for me to see how the two immediately became so physically intimate after they professed their mutual love. They literally couldn’t keep their hands or lips off each other! I saw a funny comment on MDL that said, “Those Sailor Moon sheets saw some thangs!” 😂 If that ain’t that the truth! I honestly didn’t expect this level of intimacy in a show that started out as such an innocent romantic comedy. There have been series in which the mutual love confession led to a sappiness that became too much even for me (looking at you, Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha 👀), but I actually thought it was very cute how affectionate Ming Shi became. Like, he went through a really natural development from dignified and stoic to such a smooth-talker! The way he just slipped in flirty lines, like “You are my whole world” and “Because I met you”?? Honestly, the scene where he blow-dried her hair and lifted her onto the basin got me like 😳😳 because it was so smooth?? I actually thought the fact they became super lovey-dovey really fitted the vibe of their relationship so far, they went from friends to lovers without any prior expectations and then just let it happen. I liked that.

Of course the show isn’t complete without some stupid person trying to ruin everyone’s day. One of the other actors from the drama that Ming Shi is doing, a guy named Robert (for some reason), just can’t deal with the fact that Ming Shi is a better actor than him. He goes to despicable lengths to try and “disqualify” Ming Shi, in which he actually endangers his life: he literally loosens the rope holding Ming Shi as he’s hanging midair for an action scene, risking a very high and dangerous fall. Luckily he gets fired for it (I’d say attempted murder but okay), but he comes back in the end because of his eternal grudge against Ming Shi (a sore loser is what he is). When Ming Shi’s older brother Li Ming Qian (played by Wang Zi Ting) – the one who was chasing him in the forest for the notebook in the first episode – also suddenly finds his way to the future, Robert makes a deal with him. He can get Ming Qian to where his little brother is so he can kill him (?!) and then he strives to keep the notebook for himself.
Robert is the kind of person who can’t stand being confronted with the fact that other people are better than him. Don’t be like Robert.

This leads me to another point I would’ve liked to get more clarity on: what was the deal about the two brothers and the notebook? It was established that Ming Qian had super vengeful feelings towards his younger brother for some reason, probably because he got to be the Emperor, but then I’m like, isn’t the older sibling usually next in line? Did the older brother do something that cost him his chance at succession? I didn’t really get why he constantly fought Ming Shi and even wanted to kill him for real. Some brotherly feelings! I get that the notebook had the power of making wishes come true, but was that the main reason or was it just a plot tool? I really would’ve liked some more backstory about how the relationship between the two brothers soured, because now I just had to assume it was what it was without any context to judge the situation for myself. In terms of narrative, the fact that there was no substantial context regarding their upbringing or relationship only made it more extreme that Ming Qian actually wanted to kill his younger brother. No redemption arc for him, no insight into what he’d been through, nope, he was just depicted as a merciless villain and I found that a pity.

All in all, I guess my major criticism would be the lack of character context or backstories. We don’t learn anything about who Fu Bao is, how she came to be an agent at that agency or what kind of environment she grew up in. There is no indication of any family members or friends outside of her workplace. I personally like to have a bit more substantial evidence of how the FL has lived her life leading up to the fateful day she meets her soulmate.
The only character that we get a little bit of context from is Ming Shi, and that revelation brought so much to his character for me. At some point in the last part of the show he tells Fu Bao about how he was brought up, how he always had to live by the rules and wasn’t allowed to even put a single toe out of line. Heck, he wasn’t allowed to eat more than three bites of any kind of food. This little bit of backstory added so much to how his character transformed and how thankful he must have been for Fu Bao to take him into her world and show him what it was like to eat and do whatever he wanted. I couldn’t blame him for not wanting to go back – screw being the Emperor if you can’t even binge-eat your favorite food! It wasn’t much, and I still would’ve liked to know more about his family history, but it was something.
I also really would’ve liked more context on the work relationship between Fu Bao and Wei Lai in advance of the events of the show. How long had they known each other and worked together? Were there any feelings between them before or did that really just fall out of the sky because of the notebook? There are so many things that I wanted to know. Without any context of what their dynamic was originally like, I guess it was just extra awkward to see Wei Lai suddenly coming onto Fu Bao like that. Also, I honestly couldn’t even tell what he was like as a boss because there wasn’t a single scene of him doing his regular job in-between all the advances and interrupting sweet moments between Fu Bao and Ming Shi. Like, if you write a character as the boss of a company, at least support that with some visual evidence rather than just letting him throw around some phrases like, “I have the power to fire you! I’m your boss”. That didn’t really help in building his character, either.
Apart from that, I just wanted to know how the whole timeslip/world-skipping thing worked. Like, which one was it? How and why did the notebook end up in Fu Bao’s time/world? How did Ming Shi and Ming Qian both manage to follow it to Fu Bao’s time/world? Why was it necessary to write their names in the book to bring them back when it wasn’t necessary to enable them to travel through time/worlds? Like, ANY kind of explanation on the different times/worlds would’ve been welcome. It was the last aspect of the story to leave ambiguous, in my opinion, but they still ended up doing just that.
Generally speaking, some more explanation, backstory and context would’ve really helped to put things into perspective more, because the lack of it made a lot of things quite random and awkward.

The final criticism I have is related to the ending. It’s not the first time I’ve a Chinese drama end this way. The main couple is somehow separated and then in the end someone who looks exactly like the ML suddenly pops back up in the FL’s life. I can’t describe it very well, but I remember a similar ending in Flipped, where the ML’s actor suddenly appeared as a “new employee” who just happened to look exactly like the ML. I never know what to think of it. After creating such a dramatic separation scene and showing how Fu Bao and Ming Shi were both crying their eyes out dealing with the loneliness they each had to face when they went back to their own worlds, what was up with the ending of Ming Shi suddenly returning as a “new employee” at the company? Like, if you were just going to reunite them that easily, why make their separation so dramatic? Also, was he really Ming Shi or someone who was the spitting image of him? From the way he was smiling at Fu Bao, you’d think it was him and that he remembered her as she did him, but did no one else recognize him then? Was everyone else’s memory wiped or something? I was so confused when Fu Bao suddenly woke up at that storage room and time seemed to have reverted to her 24th birthday, with the notebook still there, but with the introduction of this “new employee”. Like, what the hell happened? I really didn’t follow the ending. It was a pity because I was sincerely touched by the scene before that, when Fu Bao saw Ming Shi everywhere in her house and she started singing that love song of hers, imagining him to sing along with her while tears were welling up in her eyes. That scene was so touching! 🥺 And then she suddenly woke up back at the start of the show and I was like, wait what?! Don’t tell me everything was a dream?! Did none of it actually happen and did the “new employee” just appear as the person Fu Bao wished for in the notebook? If anyone has a clue of what I’m not getting, please enlighten me, cause I really don’t know what to make of it.

Since it’s such a short show and I’ve already covered all the main events, I just want to give two final shoutouts to supporting characters that I liked.
First of all, Wei Lai’s assistant Du Zi Teng (played by An Qin Fu). I really liked this guy, he was so funny. I loved how he immediately knew Wei Lai was into Fu Bao, and he was just a very friendly figure to everyone. His character brought a really nice energy to the show.
I also really liked Ming Shi’s co-star from the historical drama, He Tao (played by Meng Jia Xin). I loved her friendship with Fu Bao, it was so nice that Fu Bao had a sincere ally on set who would stand up for her. I would’ve liked to see even more of their friendship, though.

You know you’ve written a very short review when you reach the cast comments and think, wow, I’m here already? 😂 That’s the thing with short dramas, they make for very short reviews that are easy and fast to write! I didn’t actually know any of the actors from this show, but I still want to give some comments because I do like getting to know new faces.

Dawn Chen/Chen Fang Tong reminded me SO much of Jang Na Ra. Her little face with the round eyes – she could’ve been her double in Baby-faced Beauty and no-one would’ve known the difference. In the beginning I was a bit confused by the way she portrayed Fu Bao, as in that it was unclear to me what her intentions were with Wei Lai and Ming Shi. But this got better throughout the series and in the end there were some moments where I was genuinely touched by her performance. She seemed so casual and worryfree from the start that I wasn’t sure if she’d get to show us any emotional depth, but they kept that as a surprise for the end, I suppose. I believe there’s at least one other show with her on my watchlist so I’ll be glad to see her in some other series as well. I’m really curious to see her as a different type of character. All in all I thought she was very cute and I came to like her acting more and more throughout the story.

While I was snooping through Yang Ze’s MDL list, I ended up finding some other shows with him that sounded interesting so I put them on my list as well, haha. I think he probably portrayed the development of his character the best out of everyone, undeniably helped by his outward transformation. Although honestly I really didn’t like the short hair and I didn’t really understand why his hair got cut in the first place because he literally had the same hairstyle in the historical drama as he did in real life?? At the end of the series I couldn’t even remember him being all stoic and serious in the beginning. It was nice to get a little bit of backstory about his upbringing, I thought that was a really sweet moment between them. I think that, because his character was fleshed out the most, it automatically made him the character I liked most out of everyone. I wasn’t surprised to see that he’s done a lot of historical dramas, it suits him very well. I’m very curious to see him in some more modern-day shows as a ‘regular’ person too, though.

In my head, Wei Lai’s face was like a combination of Lee Min Ho and Baek Hyun from EXO, lol. I was a bit disappointed when the kind of love he portrayed for Fu Bao turned out to be so shallow. At some point he even got a bit dominant to the point where I was like, uhm, sir, will you kindly back off now? 🙅🏻‍♀️
(Also, Alexa, please play the Charlie Curtis-Beard remix of Brooksie’s “Dude, She’s Just Not Into You”.) Like, it’s not that he ever truly crossed her boundaries or treated her with disrespect, but he was very arrogant in assuming she’d been flirting with him and would just happily throw herself into his arms the second he’d tell her he was interested. When he waited for her with that bouquet of roses in his office I was like… 😬😬 this COULD have been very romantic, but… I’m afraid it’s not. Sorry bro. 🥲 Apart from his very typical dominant male behavior, I did like it when he came out with the pink lightsaber at the end, lol. Even though he got knocked out almost immediately, he came to Fu Bao’s rescue after officially giving up on pursuing her, so that was nice of him. I’m curious to see him portray other characters now!

You may have noticed that I didn’t mention the actor’s name when I discussed Robert, but that’s because I’m not 100% sure MDL credited the correct person. They have him credited as Liu Ze Yu, but the picture that goes with it looks nothing like the guy in the show, so I’m not sure if the picture is wrong or if he was miscredited. Unfortunately every drama source site I’ve checked has a very incomplete cast list for this show so I can’t cross-reference it. Not that I really want to include his character in my cast comments, but I was kind of curious because the actor looked familiar to me.

All in all, I think Emperor or Boss is a very light, silly and cute story that is definitely not to be taken too seriously. To quote one of the comments on MDL, “A silly goofy little drama. Don’t think. Look at the pretty people. Enjoy.” 😂 As someone who personally prefers some more depth and character building, it was a bit too light and shallow for me, but I did really like the chemistry between Fu Bao and Ming Shi and the ending did make the show a bit more interesting for me. I also liked that they used the cute opening song (“By Chance You” by H.K. Group, Lon and Shang Chen) in the show as something that Fu Bao wrote herself which included all kinds of things she associated with love, and how Ming Shi started to use the lyrics as a reference list for what they could do on dates 🥺🥺 I thought that was really sweet.

I’m going to enjoy my free summer to the max now – which of course means that I’m striving to watch a bunch more dramas! I gotta keep up with my reputation of 20+ dramas per year here! No but seriously, I’m really happy to be free from college for the last time and get to catch up on all my creative hobbies and favorite pastimes. You’ll see the next review appear sometime soon!

Until then, bye-bee! x

Yonder

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Yonder
(욘더 / Yondeo)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hey everyone! I’m very glad to have found a moment to share another review with you. I’m currently in the last weeks of my MA and since I’ve submitted my final assignments I finally found some more time to watch series. The eighth show my Spin the Wheel app picked out also happened to be a very short one, so I was able to get through it quite quickly in-between my final assignment submissions. I must say that I didn’t remember this particular title or when I put it on my list, but it definitely must have had to do with the science-fiction theme and the fact that Han Ji Min plays the female lead, as she’s one of my favorite Korean actresses. I went through some mixed feelings while watching this, because while it looks absolutely stunning and has great acting in it, throughout the show the message wasn’t really clear to me. The ending did confirm my thoughts on it though, and for that I’m still giving it a fairly high rating. Let’s get on with it!

Yonder is a TVING K-Drama mini series with 6 episodes of about 35 minutes. It takes place in the near future – somewhere in the 2030s. The first episode starts off by stating that, “following the new law on euthanasia in 2032, a social system was put in place to face death.” We meet magazine reporter Kim Jae Hyun (played by Shin Ha Kyun) right before this new euthanasia procedure is administered to his terminally ill wife Cha Yi Hoo (played by Han Ji Min), who’s suffering from heart cancer. Moments before the procedure is set into motion, a mysterious woman (played by Lee Jung Eun) visits their house, asking for a moment alone with the patient. Jae Hyun has no idea who she is or what she’s there for, but Yi Hoo assures him that she invited her. The woman places a kind of chip behind Yi Hoo’s ear and only leaves Jae Hyun a business card, introducing herself as Seiren before departing without another word. The euthanasia proceeds as planned and Jae Hyun forgets about the strange visit as he has to bury his wife and is thrown into grief.
Not long after the burial, he receives an email – from Yi Hoo. Although he initially believes it to be scam, he quickly realizes it’s coming from the same company Seiren claimed to be from, BY N BY. When forensics contact Jae Hyun as well to ask about the chip they found on Yi Hoo after taking her body in, Jae Hyun deducts that Yi Hoo must have made some sort of contract with BY N BY – and is now apparently sending him video messages from the afterlife.
With the help of some friends, including Hacker Park (played by Bae Yoo Ram), his editor-in-chief (played by Choi Deok Moon) and forensics doctor Cho Eun (played by Joo Bo Bi), Jae Hyun is able to get in contact with the alleged creator of this company, Dr. K (played by Jung Jin Young). It turns out that Dr. K – who himself only ever appears as a hologram for some reason – created a digital world in which people can “design” their own afterlife based on the memories they choose to retain from their lives.
When Jae Hyun decides to visit BY N BY, he gets the chance to meet Yi Hoo again, but he is too disturbed and convinced that it’s all fake to appreciate the reunion. However, this changes when he meets some other people who regularly visit their deceased loved ones at BY N BY. One of them is a young girl named Peach (played by Yoon Yi Re), who lost her father and is more than happy to have found a way to keep spending time with him. She is a strong supporter of Dr. K’s ideas and invites Jae Hyun to meet some more people who are in the same situation. Just when Jae Hyun starts getting used to the idea of BY N BY, a new phenomenon presents itself in the shape of Yonder – the actual afterlife.

As an in-between note I just want to clarify the difference between BY N BY and Yonder the way I understood it – feel free to correct me if you believe I got it wrong. BY N BY basically stores holographic images of a deceased person with a fraction of their memories from when they were alive. They’re like avatars of the real people, you can’t physically touch them. Also, as a living person you can visit them by going through some sort of barrier to cross over to them and you can only stay for a specific period of time. Yonder, on the other hand, is the actual afterlife where the deceased go after passing away, where they basically live peacefully in their personally designed heaven where no time passes. In order to get to Yonder, you have to be dead, you can’t just visit there for a while as a living person, which is the main difference between Yonder and BY N BY.
In a way, BY N BY is like a “front office” to Yonder, introducing the living to the possibility of being reunited with their lost loved ones, like a preview. What makes this system most problematic is that BY N BY also offers the opportunity to make this reunion final.

Things start going awry when the avatars in BY N BY start encouraging their living relatives to come join them in Yonder. It starts with Peach – her father invites her to come live with him forever. It’s sad that Jae Hyun might have been able to talk more sense into her if he hadn’t been interrupted by the chance to interview Dr. K himself. That same night Cho Eun contacts him to say that Peach unalived herself, leaving a note to Jae Hyun saying that she’s sorry but that she has nothing left to live for without her dad. Shockingly, the other people he met from Peach’ circle quickly follow suit – apparently everyone prefers to die to be reunited with their loved ones over trying to make their own living without them. If that isn’t bad enough, the promotion of Yonder as the ideal heaven that promises a better life after death leads to a spike in euthanasia applications and suicides. Despite being so sceptical of BY N BY and Yonder and Dr. K, Jae Hyun eventually decides to join the trend and go live with Yi Hoo in Yonder.

One of the aspects I found hard to grasp in the story was why Jae Hyun suddenly changed tack. It was clear that he was initially very disturbed by the whole idea of BY N BY and Yonder, and he even called Seiren and Dr. K out on how they exploited people’s grief and memories of their loved ones from the start. When he noticed people committing suicide all over the place, he seemed genuinely alarmed – for good reason. Still, he followed them and was genuinely happy to be with Yi Hoo again for a while, as if he suddenly forgot all his (more than valid) skeptical thoughts.
The fact that I found it hard to determine his exact thought process also had to do with the fact that many things were kept very vague and abstract in the story’s narrative. Besides the amount of silent acting, I found many dialogues very cryptic – I generally couldn’t really tell what people were thinking. This in turn only added to the unpredictable nature of the characters and, consequently, the story. It really took “never let them know your next move” to a new level.

I honestly started doubting everything the moment Jae Hyun decided to go to Yonder. The entire time I was with him on how toxic it all was, how “keeping the dead alive” defeated the purpose of dealing with loss and grief and accepting death. Not only that, BY N BY and Yonder actually made money out of people’s grief, encouraging them to keep holding onto it rather than process their loss and move on. I think this was very toxic. I mean come on, to actually take advantage of someone’s grief by creating an avatar of their lost one who actively persuades them to come over to the other side? It’s even disrespectful to the dead, in a way. I don’t believe for a second that Yi Hoo or any of the other deceased people would ask their alive relatives to willingly give up their lives to join them in death.
What I also found intriguing was that apparently Yonder was so real to the deceased that they almost started forgetting they were dead themselves. When Yi Hoo got upset about the fact that their baby wasn’t growing and Jae Hyun also didn’t understand why this was happening, I was like, what? Have you seriously forgotten that you’re in the afterlife? You think new life is going to grow within death? The whole purpose of Yonder was to create a peaceful environment where every single day was the same. I thought it was weird that Jae Hyun, despite already acknowledging the repetitive elements in Yonder, didn’t even realize that no, of course his baby wasn’t going to grow. It never lived in the first place. It was only there because Yi Hoo designed it that way, regretting the fact that she never got to give birth because of her illness.

In the end I was relieved that Jae Hyun got brought back to life and confronted Seiren with the fact that what she was doing was wrong and that she needed to shut Yonder down. Even when it was revealed that Seiren was Dr. K’s wife, and that Dr. K himself was actually in Yonder with their teenage daughter, I couldn’t understand how she could’ve developed Yonder into what it became. When Jae Hyun confronts her in the final episode, it’s like she doesn’t even acknowledge what’s truly happening. She just keeps using the explanation that she built Yonder to accommodate the deceased, but she doesn’t seem to grasp that it isn’t just about people who are already dead. She is actually encouraging people to die, “exploiting people’s feelings to market a fake heaven”, to quote Hacker Park.
In my opinion, there was a different way this could’ve worked. I believe it would give many people a sense of relief to see their deceased loved ones live in a peaceful afterlife without feeling the need to join them. BY N BY could’ve just offered solace, it could’ve just existed to show people that their loved ones passed on happily and provide them with the comforting prospect that, when their time comes, they will be able to join them in that peaceful place. I honestly believe that Yonder may have been established with that initial purpose, but that it took on such extreme proportions because in reality, Seiren herself couldn’t deal with the loss of her husband and daughter.
The way this series portrayed how people kept clinging on to their lost ones, choosing to join them in death rather than cherish their shared memories and move on, was very painful to watch. It just made me feel like Peach and the others all fell victim to BY N BY’s marketing scheme, they literally gave up their lives for the ultimate form of escapism.
In the end, the thing I liked the most about the story was the final message about how memories are made valuable through the fact that you can’t return to them. You will never be able to relive them the same way, apart from replaying them in your head. BY N BY allowed people to relive the entire experience of those memories by recreating the exact environment, sounds, smells and feelings, but that in itself defeats the purpose of having a precious memory to hold onto, especially when someone passes away. What are we without memories? We deal with our losses because we have memories of our times with the ones we lost and those memories help us move on in the end.

Despite my confusion regarding the fact that Jae Hyun gave up his life to go to Yonder, I do feel like he needed the experience of spending time there to come to his final realization. The ultimate message of the story eventually comes down to what he tells Seiren before he turns his back on BY N BY for good: “Every person has a door they can’t close on their own, and you need to have someone to close that door for you.” Yi Hoo had said it to him and he’d repeated it before, but it wasn’t until he said it to Seiren at the end that it really hit me. I think this phrase depicts loss perfectly: when someone passes, they always leave something behind, and it’s up to the remaining relatives to deal with that in order to finally close the metaphorical door they left open. After actually spending time with his wife in the afterlife and realizing that even Yonder had its imperfections, Jae Hyun came to the conclusion that he really just needed to leave his wife behind him. He needed to get closure by “closing the door” his wife left open for him. So in that sense, I thought the ending was very powerful because it came back to the original perspective on how unnatural BY N BY’s proceedings were. Jae Hyun just needed to see for himself what Yonder exactly entailed before he could make the final decision.

All in all, I feel like this series would’ve fitted very well within the anthology of SF8 because of its vibe, setting and Black Mirror-esque qualities. I was particularly reminded of the BM episode “Be Right Back”, where a woman gets a clone of her deceased lover but eventually realizes that even something that looks exactly like him can never truly take his place. I was also reminded of the American series Upload, which, despite being a predominantly comical show, also features a system that “uploads” avatars of deceased people to a perfect resort-like afterlife – where their living relatives can also visit them by using a kind of VR-suit.
In hindsight, I do feel like the way Yonder depicts an ethically problematic way of dealing with grief adds to the powerful message of the story – that it’s important to cherish the memories of your deceased loved ones, but also keep them as just that: memories. The fact that they died isn’t going to change, and you’ll have to close the door at some point, but that doesn’t mean you’ll have to forget about them for good. It’s a complicated process; it’s messy and it’s raw and it makes you sway between indulging in your grief and trying to get over it. I think this series did a good job at depicting that chaos through Jae Hyun’s experiences.

To mention some more practical or technical aspects of the show that I liked: as I mentioned in the beginning, it looked absolutely stunning. From the hauntingly beautiful opening sequence to the shots throughout, it’s a cinematographical masterpiece. Additionally, the music gave me goosebumps in all the right ways. I especially loved the song played during the end credits called “DIVER” by Sondia. I thought it was reminiscent of songs like “Orbit” by Hwasa from The King: Eternal Monarch and “Adrenaline” by Solar from Vincenzo (which I didn’t even watch but I love me a good MAMAMOO K-Drama OST). In general, the series was of amazing cinematographic and musical quality, and the acting was very convincing as well.

I would say the only thing that occasionally bothered me a little was the consistently slow pace of the story and the way in which the characters interacted with each other. I would’ve liked maybe a bit more variety in pace and dynamic between both events and people. The ambiguity of certain dialogues also made it hard to follow things sometimes. For example, at some point it is suggested that Jae Hyun isn’t completely honest with his own feelings, and we also see a flashback in which Yi Hoo tells him this, suggesting that this was already the case before she died. In what way he wasn’t honest with his own feelings, I don’t know. I don’t think it had to do with the fact that he was only acting defensive towards BY N BY but actually yearned to get back in touch with his wife in the afterlife, since he kept coming back to the unethical nature of the service Yi Hoo signed up for.
Also, what exactly was that liquid that Yi Hoo got in Yonder when she snapped after realizing her baby wouldn’t grow? She was admitted to some sort of clinic because she got upset – something that isn’t supposed to happen in Yonder – and then they gave her some sort of medicine to take “when she didn’t feel happy anymore, and that it would take her somewhere dark again.” After they both drink it, Yi Hoo is seen closing her eyes while Jae Hyun is brought back to life. Does that mean that medicine took Yi Hoo to an even deeper layer of death? As in, beyond Yonder, where she really wouldn’t experience any feeling again? Where did it end for her and why did it bring Jae Hyun back to life?
It may have just been me, but I personally need these things spelled out to me otherwise I just won’t understand what’s going on. It also bothered me that no one, not Seiren or Dr. K, could give a clear factual answer to what Yonder actually was. Like, there must have been a simple definition, but they kept beating around the bush and stating cryptic statements. I couldn’t blame Jae Hyun for getting agitated because heck, how hard could it be to just call it by its name? While the lack of clear definitions regarding the concepts of BY N BY and Yonder did challenge me to make sense of them myself, I still would’ve liked some more clarity on the truth. Speaking of more clarity, I would’ve really liked to get some regarding Yi Hoo as well. Since she dies so early into the show, we basically only get to know her through Jae Hyun’s memories of her. We never get to see her thought process in deciding to sign up for BY N BY, and we never find out how she really feels about everything. It’s like she only exists in the show as a fragment of Jae Hyun’s memory where she’s depicted only as he wants to remember her – which again, is also kind of the point, I guess. In any case, I’m just trying to say that while I respect the ambiguity within the show, because it illustrates perfectly how things aren’t just black-and-white sometimes, I personally would’ve liked to get more explanation on what was happening for my own better understanding.

I’ll move on to some cast comments now, which probably won’t take up much space because the short duration of the show also facilitates a fairly small cast of characters.

While I haven’t seen any other dramas with Shin Ha Kyun, I realize that I know him from the movie Inseparable Bros, where he plays a physically incapacitated genius. I think he did a really good job in Yonder. The difference between Jae Hyun’s behavior and expressions in his flashbacks with Yi Hoo and after losing her are the perfect depiction of how losing someone important can just suck out the life and joy from someone. It was really nice to see him smile so widely and goof around with his wife in their shared memories together, all the more because it stood in such contrast with his personality at the start of the show, right before his wife is put down. After making the connection with his performance in Inseparable Bros I know he’s also a great comical actor, and I’m very curious to see more of his acting.

As I mentioned in my introduction, Han Ji Min is one of my favorite Korean actresses and I’ve loved her in everything I’ve seen her in so far. From Rooftop Prince to Hyde, Jekyll, Me to Wife I Know to The Light in Your Eyes and Our Blues, and there’s more series on my list that I’m very much looking forward to. Even though the majority of her scenes where of her character when she wasn’t alive anymore, she still managed to put so much into Yi Hoo’s character. I especially loved the flashback scenes of their worryfree time together, when they’d stroll down a Christmas market or went swimming. Those scenes were so important because they gave much needed insight into the relationship between Jae Hyun and Yi Hoo, how they interacted and experienced valuable moments together. After she got “uploaded” to BY N BY, I found it much harder to gauge her character because she seemed very different from her bubbly self when she was still alive. I have to admit I didn’t understand half of what she told Jae Hyun because it was so cryptic. She couldn’t say what she was, exactly, and even when Jae Hyun asked her what Yonder was, she only answered with “the place I’m in right now, the place where you aren’t”, like, riddle me that! Despite the fact that I would’ve liked to get a more definitive image of her character, I think Han Ji Min did an amazing job portraying a wide variety of emotions again, so this series definitely didn’t have any negative impact on her position on my faves list. I’m really excited for the next thing I’ll get to see her in!

Moving on to another favorite actress, I was really happy to see Lee Jung Eun in this. She’s featured alongside Han Ji Min multiple times, in Wife I Know, The Light in Your Eyes (where she played her mom) and in Our Blues as well. Besides that I’ve seen her in King of High School, Who Are You: School 2015, Oh My Ghostess, Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo, Tomorrow With You and Fight For My Way, and of course the movie Parasite. I’m sure I’ll see her in many more shows, old or new. She’s always such a familiar face and she always delivers a stellar performance. Despite Seiren’s disputable choices in developing Yonder, I can’t deny that she performed the role very well. Seiren may have been quite stoic, but it’s not as if there was no emotion behind it. Especially in the final confrontation scene, it was clear to see that Jae Hyun prompted her to think twice about the true repercussions of creating Yonder. Similar to Yi Hoo, I would’ve liked to see some more character building in Seiren. Like, was that even her real name? What was her life like with her husband and daughter when they were still together? We only see her in one flashback, standing at her daughter’s grave, but she never actually talks about her experiences or emotions throughout the whole process of developing the company based on her husband’s ideas, for example. She remains kind of an enigma, and while that does have its charm, I think it would’ve evoked more empathy for her character if there had been a bit more immersion into her psyche. I think this has more to do with the writing of the character, because Lee Jung Eun’s performance was still great.

Bae Yoo Ram was another familiar face that I thought was a very welcome addition to the cast of Yonder. In series with dark themes it’s always nice to have a light and uncomplicated character that adds a little humor and perspective to the whole thing without it becoming too much. I’ve seen him in a couple of movies such as Midnight Runners and Be With You, but also in dramas like Producer, Oh My Ghostess and Run On. I liked Hacker Park a lot, not just for the humor he brought but also because he was one of the people that kept Jae Hyun grounded and connected to the world of the living. He was there the moment he came back to life and I think he was also one of the few people who never felt the need to go to Yonder despite clearly not having many people to spend his life with. I liked that he was the one to throw the truth about Yonder’s purpose into Seiren’s face at the end. He was a really nice character and I liked how he kind of started making advances on Cho Eun at the end by saying he’d “close the door for her”, that was cute.

Yoon Yi Re hasn’t actually been in that many projects so far, I only see two movies and three series on her repertoire. I’ve seen 20th Century Girl but I have to admit I don’t remember her from there. I still have some shows with her on my watchlist, so I hope I’ll get to see more of her. Peach – or Yoon Soo In, as she eventually reveals her real name to be – was kind of a tragic character. She wasn’t able to let go of her father and decided she’d be happier clinging onto him forever in a bubble afterlife universe instead of exploring her potential in the many years she still had to live out her life. You might say she was “weak”, but I think to say that would be to truly underestimate the way losing a loved one – especially a parent you didn’t get to spend much time with before – can weigh you down. I think that for Peach, she didn’t just have to move on from her dad, she had to move on from the truth that she never got to know him properly, and that’s why the opportunity to reconnect with him must have resonated with her so much. Still, it was sad to see such a young and bright person utter that she didn’t have anyone else besides her father – how lonely must she have truly been behind that bubbly exterior? I think the actress did a very good job in portraying that friction between her cheerfulness and darkness. I hope I get to see more performances of her in the future!

To sum up this review, I think this was a short but powerful series. Although I struggled to find a way to relate to the mindsets that were depicted in this show while I was watching it, in hindsight I feel like the problematics of the depicted issues are actually part of the message. I feel like this may have made for a good movie or drama special or anthology episode as well. I personally would’ve liked it even more if some parts had been defined a bit more clearly and there would’ve been a little more flesh to the characters in terms of background. With just a bit more information on how Jae Hyun met Yi Hoo or Hacker Park, on his profession as a magazine editor, and on the history of Yonder through the relationship between Seiren and Dr. K/Jang Jin Ho. With a little bit more context, it would’ve probably blown me away even more. Still, I was very impressed with the depiction of the story, including its cinematography and soundtrack. I’m all for discovering hidden gems while going through my watchlist, and this was definitely one of them.
I think the ultimate message of the story really has to do with the fact that grief is a complicated and painful process and it affects everyone differently. The ideal way to deal with it is to accept that you’ll never be able to meet with them again and make peace with the fact that you’ll be left with only memories. Still, those memories are worth so much, as they are proof that the people who left are never truly forgotten, and they ensure that they’ll always be with you in an intangible way. They would want you to move on and find a way to move through their absence, and it’s best to honor that wish with everything you’ve got.

Thanks again for reading through this review until the end! I’ll be moving on to my next watch soon, so keep an eye out for the next mystery review!
Until then, bye-bee! x