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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Mask Girl
(마스크걸 / Maseukeu Geol)
MyDramaList rating: 7.5/10

Hiya! Not me unexpectedly adding in another review before the end of the month. Sometimes I like to switch up my watchlist with new releases I’ve spotted on Netflix, and this was one of them. While I may have gotten a certain impression from the trailer, in the end it blew all of my expectations right out of the window. It ended up being about something entirely different than I anticipated. Despite the heavy adult themes present in this series, I ended up appreciating it for the acting, the structuring, the storytelling/building, the cinematography and the underlying message that pretty much came full circle in the final episode. In terms of style and genre (including the bizarro elements), I’d put it in-between Somebody and The School Nurse Files, which are also short Netflix K-Dramas that I watched this year. On the one hand, there were aspects that would normally make me look away, but on the other hand I found it really intriguing for several reasons, and I’m excited to share those in this review. Let’s dive into it!

Mask Girl is a Netflix K-Drama with six episodes of about an hour each. It’s constructed as a three-part story in which every two episodes form one chapter. It focusses on rise and fall of Internet phenomenon ‘Mask Girl’, who becomes more infamous than famous after getting involved in a gruesome murder scandal. It explicitly deals with the implications and consequences of Mask Girl’s actions in the years following said scandal. Each episode focusses on a different person in Mask Girl’s life, and each person creates a new entry point for the story to proceed. I will structure my review accordingly, person by person. After each ‘chapter’ I will comment on that part of the story and analyze and ‘relativize’ each character as much as possible before moving on to the next part. I’ll also devote some comments on the plot twists that each ‘chapter’ brought about, which occasionally surprised me.

The first two episodes take place in 2009.
Episode one introduces us to the main protagonist, Mask Girl herself, Kim Mo Mi (played by Lee Han Byul). Ever since she was a little child, Mo Mi has dreamed of becoming a famous popstar, she loves being on stage and has an undeniable talent for dancing. Despite this glorious dream, she has had to face the cruel truth that she’d never be given the chance to show herself to the world because of her looks – just like my previous watch Birth of a Beauty the theme of South Korea’s demanding beauty standards plays a big role in this story and the main character’s psyche. Even her own mother tells her she’s too ugly to make it as a celebrity, and she’s booed off the stage by her schoolmates whenever she participates in talent shows. In short, all people see is her face, which is considered to be visually unappealing, and no one seems able to look past her exterior to recognize her talent.
In 2009, Mo Mi is working as an accountant for an insurance company, where she spends her time bitterly gossipping about the pretty new girl who’s doted on by all their male coworkers, while secretly crushing on her manager, Park Gi Hoon (Choi Daniel ♡). She lives an unremarkable life, very different from what she dreamed of as a child. However, she hasn’t completely let go of her dream. There’s still a part of her that longs to be seen and admired, and she expresses this through disguising herself with a mask and wig, performing in front of her webcam to receive heart points from followers. I’m not exactly sure what these kinds of livestreams are called, but I’ve seen them appear in several dramas before. Someone records a livestream from their room in which they perform some kind of entertainment or service to their followers, who can give appreciative hearts which are converted into money. Mask Girl’s livestreams usually include her dancing, but she definitely adds a sensual touch to it by wearing revealing outfits and emphasizing her (all-natural) bossom when she’s interacting with the people in her chat. She has built quite a fanbase and typically goes online every night.
In the second episode, we are introduced to Joo Oh Nam (played by Ahn Jae Hong), who works at the same company and in the same office as Mo Mi. Oh Nam can be described as a typical otaku – on the outside he’s a typical introverted guy who doesn’t seem to take particular care of his appearance, but at home he has a whole collection of figurines and inflatable dolls, and he regularly jerks off to hentai. He even speaks in Japanese to one of his air dolls, it’s very typical. In any case, Oh Nam happens to be one of Mask Girl’s most loyal followers and he’s developed a pretty big virtual crush on her.
At some point, he starts seeing parallels between Mask Girl and his coworker Mo Mi, and becomes the first person to find that they’re the same person. Rather than expose her, he falls even harder, for Mo Mi herself this time, and vows to protect her from scumbag men. When Mo Mi is taken advantage of by one of Mask Girl’s fans who offers to take her out for dinner while live-Tweeting about how ugly she is during their ‘date’, Oh Nam takes it upon himself to save her, tracking her down to a motel, prepared to do whatever is necessary to keep her and her secret identity safe.

Let’s talk a bit about Mo Mi and Oh Nam, since their ‘relationship’ forms a pretty important foundation of the story, or at least how it continues into the future.
First of all, it’s important to note how their stories correlate to each other. I found it really interesting to see how the first two episodes structured the basic element of them existing right next to each other but already creating such a difference in their respective perspectives. For example, we only find out through Oh Nam’s POV that he’s been present in Mo Mi’s work environment the entire time. He’s been there in the background in every single scene, but he’s never highlighted in Mo Mi’s POV for the simple reason that she is not aware of him. As much as Mo Mi plays a part in Oh Nam’s life, especially when he finds out she’s Mask Girl, Mo Mi is not even aware of Oh Nam’s presence, even when he sits right next to her at work. He only appears in Mo Mi’s story once, as a coworker who tries to tell her something before she gets on the elevator. The short conversation they have after they get off the elevator is, again, only shown in Oh Nam’s POV, which suggests that it wasn’t even memorable enough for Mo Mi’s.
The second episode merges Oh Nam’s POV into Mo Mi’s, but not the other way around. We find out how much Oh Nam has been keeping an eye on Mo Mi only through his POV. For example, the night when Mo Mi finds out that her beloved manager and the pretty lady are having an affair. For her, this is a shocking revelation which causes her to become so distressed that she gets super drunk and ends up taking off her clothes during a livestream, resulting in her suspension from the website. For Oh Nam, the discovery of the adultery comes as a huge relief as he was terrified that it was Mo Mi and the manager together, and he comes home exhilarated only to get surprised by Mask Girl’s reaction to it in her video that night.
By structuring the scenes like this, it was emphasized how different the focus of these characters were, even when they were so close to each other, and I found that really interesting. Oh Nam’s scenes merge his presence into Mo Mi’s story, but not the other way around. While their storylines happen simultaneously, they still go in such different directions and lead to such different interpretations and reactions.
Another thing I found remarkable about this show was that it allowed me to empathize with all the main characters (with which I mean the predominantly featured characters in each episode) in spite of their extreme and problematic actions. Looking at the whole story, you could say that there isn’t a single main character who is innately ‘good’ in the sense that they don’t have a single problematic or twisted trait to them. Still, for some reason, I was able to understand where everyone came from, and that doesn’t happen very often. In typical dramas, there’s always a clear distinction between the good guys and the bad guys, and you can easily point out who has the right to do something ‘bad’ and who doesn’t. Mask Girl kind of plays with that logic, especially in how it creates a background for all the main characters that enables us to relativize with them, even when they go to extreme lengths.

To start with Mo Mi, our heroine, when we are first introduced to her I found her the most relatable person ever. I admit I have a weak spot for characters who are gaslighted into believing their ugliness is a crime to society, especially when they’re not even ugly people. Mo Mi never had someone to fall back on, no one to tell her she was beautiful and valid and that everything would be alright. Her own mother wouldn’t even do that. Despite this, it does look like she learns how to accept her fate, and she developed a quite tenacious tendency towards people who would take advantage of her or who would openly ridicule her. In a sense, I was really glad she was at least able to stand up for herself properly. She may have been acting very subdued and introverted at work, but we also see her publicly call out a guy on the subway who’s hand brushed her butt, even dragging him to the police station. It may have kept killing her inside whenever something like that happened, but at least she stood her ground. She didn’t have it easy. It was like, every time she finally dared feel a little bit confident, someone would come along and kick her right back into the ground. She just couldn’t catch a break, she wasn’t given the chance to feel good about herself for even a moment, and that was awful.
I think it’s safe to say that what happened with Handsome Monk (or ‘Motel Guy’ as I prefer to call him) was the final drop in the already brim-filled bucket that pushed her over the edge and made her decide that she couldn’t live like this any longer. Honestly, I was so disappointed during this part. It actually seemed like he was being genuine when she took her mask off and he didn’t even flinch before going all, ‘Why are you wearing a mask? You’re beautiful’. It was so good to see Mo Mi open up and laugh and have a good time. Sure, it was to be expected that it was yet another prank, because so far all male characters in the story had turned out to be douchebags, but I still found myself going 😓 when it was revealed that he was indeed just playing her. I did like how she charged at him when he revealed his true colors and they had that awkward fight in and around the waterbed (seriously, the waterbed was a paid actor). During their wrestling, they fall through the curtains of the bed and Motel Guy hits his head hard on the stone sink and is rendered unconscious.
The way Mo Mi reacted to seeing Motel Guy lying there and how puddle of blood was starting to form under his head proved to me even more that she wasn’t a bad person. On the contrary, I wanted to grab her by the shoulders and shake her to get it through to her that it wasn’t her fault. It’s not like she meant to kill him or something, she was literally trying to get away from him. I honestly didn’t see how she would be in the wrong if she’d call the police and tell them the true story. Yes, she had followed him into the motel room, but she was super hesitant and she’d mentioned multiple times that she felt uncomfortable and that she wanted to go somewhere else. He didn’t let her go and then tried to take advantage of her, and in her struggle to get away from him, this had happened. There was no intended murder whatsoever, and honestly I wasn’t even that surprised that he was still alive.
In any case, after going home and taking a bath, I guess the hallucination of her face melting off was a kind of metaphor of her losing her mind. She disappears for a while after that and when we see her again at the end of Oh Nam’s POV, we see that she’s had plastic surgery as her whole head is wrapped in bandages. I’m guessing she made up her mind that she really had to change her face if she didn’t want to be treated like this by anyone else again that same night after the motel incident.
The biggest plottwist for me was how at the end of the second episode, Mo Mi’s insanity took over and she actually went so far as to kill Oh Nam. I guess I just wasn’t aware of how ‘not okay’ she was, despite consistently giving the impression she’d accepted the way she looked. I think that Oh Nam just happened to visit her while she was spiralling big-time, and his sudden sexual advances on her in combination with what she’d just gone through (both with Motel Guy and with her manager) came over her in a wave of heated rage and despair. I still don’t believe she wanted to go that far. Seeing how she started sobbing after she’d finished stabbing, it just showed how completely out-of-control she’d gotten. I honestly think she temporarily lost her mind and that led to this very regrettable action. It’s so sad because I wonder what would’ve happened if Oh Nam had told her that the guy had still been alive. Would that have helped? I’m not sure if it would’ve made things that much better, to be honest.

There are different sides to analyze in Oh Nam as well. We’re initially made to empathize with him through a concise flashback sequence of how much he’s been bullied his entire life, and how this has caused him to adapt to his environment by making himself invisible. He starts seeking his relief in the world of anime (particularly the erotic kind) and becomes what one would call a typical otaku. Just in case people aren’t sure what this term entails: it’s a Japanese term which refers to a specific group of very fanatic individuals and it commonly has a bit of a negative connotation as it’s mainly used to indicate people who have become slightly delusional in their fanaticism regarding a certain topic.
Oh Nam doesn’t get to rely on his looks much, but it seems like he’s found peace with it, just like how he’s found peace with his way of living and his virtual relationships, including the one with Mask Girl. As one of her most loyal followers, he always posts encouraging and validating comments, and Mask Girl regularly acknowledges him by his username.
Despite his tendency to get pervertedly passionate about Mask Girl, one thing that I did find surprisingly decent of him was that he actually covered his screen when she started taking her clothes off during that disastrous livestream. While other followers were cheering her on or commenting on how badly she was behaving, his first reaction was to NOT look at her naked body, and this instinctive behavior to respect her privacy made me feel like he did have a pure side – at least it meant that he wasn’t rotten to the core. He became seriously concerned for Mo Mi’s wellbeing and started looking out for her, even though it may have looked like stalking to an outsider. I mean, he even got rid of Motel Guy’s body to keep her involvement in the whole incident a secret.
Same as with Mo Mi, I don’t think he ever imagined ending up in a situation like this, and the adrenaline probably caused him to act without thinking straight, which made the situation even more messy and complicated without intending to do so. Even though I definitely did not condone how he suddenly forced himself onto Mo Mi – and I was really surprised by this because he’d been so respectful towards her before – I keep thinking that that was also him giving in to some feral, long-suppressed desire. He may have regretted it later as well, if he’d been given the chance. In any case, despite his perversion I also can’t find it in myself to completely write Oh Nam off, because I still believe that he wasn’t completely rotten. He genuinely cared about Mo Mi and thought she was beautiful the way she was. He probably showed more sincerity than any other male character in the entire show, so there must have been some good in him, even though it took such perverse forms.

The end of this first chapter, these two episodes, created the first plottwist for me. Honestly after the motel incident I started to think that maybe the story would be about Mo Mi and Oh Nam teaming up to get away with murder and keep Mask Girl’s identity a secret. I guess this was also a reason why Mo Mi killing Oh Nam came as such a surprise, because it just made me go ‘OKAY GUESS NOT🥲’. Honestly, if they’d met under different circumstances and Oh Nam’s actions of keeping an eye on her and following her had come out a bit more subtly, I feel like the two may have made a good team. They definitely had similar issues, they were both ostracized for the way they looked at both hid behind their PC screens and virtual systems of validation to find solace.

The third and fourth episodes, chapter two of the story, takes place a year later, in 2010. To bridge the gap, we are introduced to a new main character, Oh Nam’s mother Kim Kyung Ja (played by Yeom Hye Ran). Accordingly to the structure of every episode, we first get a little background story of her and her relationshionship with her son. We’ve heard her voice before on the phone in Oh Nam’s POV and from there it seems like she’s quite a fierce mom. She keeps scolding him for not sending her money and new clothes like the kids of her peers, and consistently pushes him to get married. When we are introduced to her in person, we learn that there’s a lot of layers to her character that you wouldn’t typically expect from an elderly foul-mouthed hillbilly who’s also a loyal churchgoer. Despite her strong language and awkward way of expressing affection, it’s clear as day how much she cares for her son. You could say she’s the epitome of a tsundere, because she hides her disappointment when her son tells her he wants to live on his own by scolding him even more and even accuses him of ungratefulness. In reality, we see her love shine through her actions: she keeps sending him food and tries to call him as regularly as possible, much to Oh Nam’s own annoyance.
What I found the most interesting when seeing Kyung Ja’s POV was revealed was that she had such an inaccurate image of her son. It’s clear that she had no idea of his perverted tendencies and she consistently told everyone how her son was the sweetest and meekest boy in the world. She may have scolded him for not sending her money or clothes, but on the other hand she told her peers that he did do those things, so there was definitely an aspect of wanting to keep up appearances, as well. The fact that she didn’t know about his lifestyle was proven when she and those two agents got into his house after not being able to contact him for some time, and she saw those naked air dolls lying around. Kyung Ja’s life is turned upside down initially when they discover a dismembered body in Oh Nam’s fridge. Kyung Ja naturally assumes it’s her son, but when it turns out to be someone else (Motel Guy), she starts doing her own research in order to find her son, because it does seem like he’s disappeared after having something to do with that dismembered body.
The sheer effort this lady puts in to locate her son is admirable: she takes computer lessons so she can go through his computer and inevitably stumbles across Mask Girl. When not much later Oh Nam’s body is found and a clear connection is made to Mask Girl, and Kyung Ja starts digging even deeper into her fanbase to get an understanding of her son’s involvement with her, which results in her also making the link between Mask Girl and his colleague Kim Mo Mi. As she deals with her grief for her son, Kyung Ja is taken over by a force of vengeful rage when she acknowledges Mask Girl’s involvement in her son’s death. She decides she won’t rest before she finds this mystery girl and makes her pay for what she did.
After some searching with the help of one of Mask Girl’s online fans who’s trying to keep tabs on her, Kyung Ja comes across a young woman who she starts believing might be Mask Girl. The woman in question has had plastic surgery, and she goes by different names. After following her one time she even spots the same necklace on her as the one she’s seen Mask Girl wear in one of her livestreams, and she takes action to corner ‘the little bitch’. However, the woman claims that she’s not Mask Girl, on the contrary, she shares a hatred for her and would like to assist Kyung Ja in her revenge plan.

The truth about this young woman is explored in the fourth episode, and we are introduced to Kim Choon Ae, who is about the same age as Mo Mi. Again, in consistency with the rest of the episodes, we first get Choon Ae’s background story from when she was a teenager (where’s she played by Kim Sang Ji). Being a bit of an outsider at her new school, she fell head over heels for a male idol trainee in her class, Choi Boo Young (U-KISS’ Lee Joon Young). When they met a couple of years later as Choon Ae was working in a convenience store, Boo Young swayed her into selling cigarettes and alcohol to him and his friends. After that, he kept visiting her and made her feel like she’d become a special person to him. He even invited her to his birthday party at a club one night. Due to her feelings for him, Choon Ae was never able to recognize the signs, not even when he asked her to pay for the entire club night. Seriously, feelings or not, you don’t invite someone to your party and then ask them to pay for everything, that’s BS. But yeah, Choon Ae believed him when he told her he’d pay her back (which of course never happened) and kept supporting him throughout his idol traineeship. After his debut, she once visited his agency to leave him a gift, and then she overheard him talking about her to a groupmate. Much to her shock, she heard him refer to her as his ‘ATM’, aka the person who always gave him money whenever he asked for it. In her rage after realizing how he’s been using her, Choon Ae published damaging and malicious content of him, photos from the club that revealed him smoking and drinking, which ultimately ruined his entire career.
Now, in 2010, Choon Ae is all grown up (and now played by Han Jae Yi). She’s changed her face and name and works mainly as a hostess. One day during a promotion job, she suddenly sees Boo Young and she finds herself approaching and greeting him. Seeing how she looks now, Boo Young was more than willing to immediately get it on with her (🚩) and Choon Ae even lets him stay at her house indefinitely. However, during the months that follow in which Choon Ae builds up a respectable career and salary as a successful hostess, she develops more and more disdain towards her freeloader. He just sits around playing games all day and doesn’t even contribute to the household she so generously offered to share with him.
Choon Ae initially tells Kyung Ja that she met Mo Mi (now played by Nana/Lim Jin Ah) when the latter became a new employee at her hostess bar, and that she basically lost her entire clientele to Mo Mi. However, when we see Choon Ae’s POV, we find out that the two women are actually best friends, and Choon Ae is only trying to get Kyung Ja off her bestie’s trail. Choon Ae and Mo Mi bonded over their shared past, having been ridiculed and taken advantage of for their looks. They also both ended up changing their faces to allow themselves a better life. Mo Mi even trusts Choon Ae with the story of Oh Nam, and Choon Ae proves to be a true friend to Mo Mi by not judging her for it.
While Choon Ae tries to keep Kyung Ja away from Mo Mi, she faces another threatening situation. Boo Young has somehow found out that she was the one who published the pictures that ruined his career. Not only does he refuse to leave her house, he starts physically abusing her. He starts beating her (AND her dog!!🤬🤬), and this escalates on the night Choon Ae and Mo Mi have decided to run away together. The two women end up strangling Boo Young with a dog leash and he ends up dismembered in a suitcase, just like Motel Guy. As they drive away to get rid of the body and hopefully head towards a new life (this is also where Mo Mi tells Choon Ae that she thinks she’s pregnant with Oh Nam’s child), they’re not aware that Kyung Ja is following them by car. One of her informant Mask Girl fans revealed that Choon Ae and Mo Mi were in cahoots together. The episode and this second chapter of the story ends tragically with Choon Ae getting fatally shot by Kyung Ja (that long shot of her being blasted backwards was insane, by the way). She uses her last strength to save Mo Mi from Kyung Ja by knocking the latter out, and then passes away in Mo Mi’s arms. Mo Mi ultimately drives away after pushing the remaining car, with Kyung Ja in it, into the water. We are led to believe that hereby, Kyung Ja has been taken out of the equation. I’m not entirely sure what she did with Choon Ae’s body.

Because there’s still a whole part on Kyung Ja to come, I’ll leave her character relativization until after my analysis of the story’s final part. Let’s talk a bit about Choon Ae instead. There are so many parallels between Choon Ae and Mo Mi that it’s almost freaky, and it’s no surprise they hit it off so well. They both decide to undergo plastic surgery after growing up being ostracized for the way they look, and it’s truly heartwarming to see how close they get. Honestly, at some point I wouldn’t even have been surprised if they had become more than friends, because that’s how emotionally intimate they were. I could’ve totally seen them bring up Mo Mi’s child together, too. Honestly, this part of the story had so many twists it became hard to keep up, first when Choon Ae turned out to know Mo Mi, and then when it was revealed she was actually friends with her, not enemies. If these two girls had met when they were both teenagers, they might’ve been able to find solace in each other and face their situations together from the start.
I did have mixed feelings about her taking in Boo Young, though. I honestly thought she had all the reasons in the world to expose his rotten nature like that, but after seeing for herself what kind of person he was, she still went to him when she recognized him. Was it some sort of weird nurturing thing, like, to make him acknowledge that she’d always been there for him, even after making sure he lost his idol career? It kind of felt like she still found herself drawn to him and she still wanted him to ‘see’ her, even after she’d changed her face, or rather because she’d changed it. At least she succeeded in that, because he agreed to sleep with her right away after he saw her new face (🚩). I couldn’t help but think it was naive of her to assume he’d become a better person after she’d show him some hospitality. On the other hand, that naivety and weakness also made her so incredibly human and realistic in her mixed feelings. Sometimes you just find yourself drawn to someone who you know is bad news, but you can’t help yourself craving for their confirmation and validation. I guess that must have also been the case for Choon Ae. I definitely wouldn’t say she’s a bad person, she helped people who didn’t deserve it because she genuinely wanted to, she cared for them. She and Mo Mi were a platonic match made in heaven, and although I did think they could’ve ran away as soon as they rendered Boo Young unconscious without actually killing him all the way, I was kind of impressed by how they handled him together. The knowing looks of pain and despair they gave each other were quite heart-wrenching, in my opinion. When Kyung Ja came after them, she even went so far as to pretend she was the real Mo Mi in order to save her friend. It was really sad how unfair her death was, as collateral damage to Kyung Ja’s revenge plan.

Can I just say how immensely relieved I was that Ping Ping survived? That little doggie was the most precious thing. I loved how loyal it was to Choon Ae and how it even started barking to warn her that Boo Young was close 😭 When Boo Young kicked her I was literally going 💪🏻🤬💪🏻 at the screen. Mo Mi ended up taking Ping Ping with her and left her at her mother’s house together with her newborn child.

For me, the plot twists in this part of the story lay mostly in that I was continuously misled by who Choon Ae was and what her intentions were. First she was Mask Girl and then she was not, then she was Mask Girl’s enemy and then she was actually her best friend… I kept being pulled into different directions, and this made this part very exciting. The writers definitely played with unexpected twists and turns and it really helped me get even more invested in what was happening.

In the final chapter of the story, episodes five and six, we move on to the years in which Mo Mi is in prison. In 2011, Mask Girl finally turns herself in. We have to assume that she gave birth to her child somewhere before she went to jail, because she is still able to personally deliver her baby (and Ping Ping) to her mother’s house, probably with the intention of turning herself in.
As we’ve seen from the very beginning in Mo Mi’s past, her mother Shim Young Hee (played by Moon Sook) has never been a very warm and loving figure to her. If the two were already barely speaking before the Mask Girl scandal, the ties were completely cut off afterwards. When Mo Mi temporarily disappears from the narrative after entering jail, we get some more insight in her mother’s life through the way she raises her granddaughter.
I don’t know what caused the spark of genius in this particular name-giving, but Mo Mi names her daughter Mi Mo. Mi Mo (as a child played by Kim Ha Neul) grows up as an unproblematic, cheerful child. She sometimes wishes her grandmother would tell her more about her parents, but she’s not really bothered by growing up without them. However, no secret can remain uncovered, and Mi Mo ends up finding out about her mother’s identity and the whole Mask Girl scandal in a rather unfortunate way. Somehow a rumor has been spread around, causing her school friends to all turn on her and she’s suddenly called ‘a murderer’s daughter’ and ‘a monster’ by passersby. As her grandma still keeps her mouth shut, Mi Mo is forced to go in search of the truth all by herself and this brings her to the source through which most people get their information from: the Internet.
Let me just get this straight: Mi Mo is SIX years old in 2017. She has to deal with all this stuff, including the knowledge that her mother is apparently in jail for murdering someone, all by herself at the age of SIX. She has NO ONE to fall back on. Her grandmother refuses to explain anything, and she just has to find ways to process the whole thing by herself. With her six-year old brain, it is nowhere near possible to make sense of this, as she’s simply too young to understand anything. Mi Mo is left to her own devices and starts developing problematic behavior. We see her switch from attempting to strangle herself to dancing in front of her mirror wearing a mask – she goes through different phases in trying to come to terms with the whole Mask Girl/mom thing and I don’t think it’s very surprising that she grows up to be a bit of a problematic youth with delinquent tendencies.

After transferring to a different school once again, teen Mi Mo (now played by Shin Ye Seo) finds herself seated next to a girl named Kim Ye Choon (played by Kim Min Seo). While they’re both initially reluctant to get along, Ye Choon gradually becomes more interested in Mi Mo as she discovers her ‘darker’ side.
Ye Choon is the oldest of a family of five, with two younger siblings that take up most of her parents’ attention. As the oldest child, she is expected to help more around the house and assist in taking care of her siblings. Ye Choon is a typical teenager so she finds it all a bit bothersome and craves for a bit more adventure in her life. When Mi Mo appears, Ye Choon finds herself drawn to her as Mi Mo seems to have a bit of a dark past. She doesn’t have parents and it seems like she gets into trouble a lot. She even has scars of cutting marks on her wrist, which Ye Choon finds fascinating. In her own naïve way, Ye Choon starts approaching Mi Mo by making up things about her own life, such as that her dad is abusive. She even attempts to cut her own wrist just to prove to Mi Mo that they are alike.
Through Che Yoon’s persistence, the two girls gradually grow closer and develop a close friendship. Mi Mo eventually even tells Ye Choon about her mother, under the condition that she can never tell anyone else. Not long after that, the rumor about Mi Mo being Mask Girl’s daughter suddenly starts getting around her school again, and Mi Mo immediately turns on Ye Choon – after all, she’s the only one who knew about it. This is also when she finds out Ye Choon has been lying about her dire family situation, and Mi Mo’s trust in her crumbles completely. Now there’s only one person left for her to go to – the sweet tteokbokki grandma who’s helped her through hard times ever since she was a child.

I’ve been looking forward to this part of my analysis, because there’s so much to say about their respective perspectives.
First of all, I think we can all agree that Mi Mo is probably the biggest victim of this entire story. Even when it must have been Mo Mi’s intention to have her child grow up with her grandmother so that she wouldn’t have to live under Mask Girl’s shadow, this little girl’s life was ruined before she even reached an age at which she could make sense of things all by herself. We see clearly that little Mi Mo didn’t have a single bad tendency in her, there was no indication of being ‘rotten from the start’ as her grandmother had described Mo Mi (although in Mo Mi’s case that also wasn’t true). It was so incredibly cruel that this child of all people was made to suffer under the reputation of her mother while she didn’t even grow up with her mother. Her mother wasn’t even there to directly influence her, she’d never met her, so how could people automatically assume that she was a ‘bad seed’ from the start? I always find it so sickening when people start portraying parents’ misdeeds on their innocent children. Mi Mo was literally isolated and ended up having no choice but to rely on the few people that did show her kindness, even though it often resulted in betrayal. It was because of her trust issues caused by this constant betrayal that she immediately condemned Ye Choon. After all, this was how she’d been living her life ever since it came out that she was Mask Girl’s daughter. Whenever people found out about it, they always responded in the same way, and it was natural that this messed Mi Mo up.
I seriously have no words for how messed up it was that Mi Mo had to deal with this all by herself. I’ll say something more general about this in terms of all the main characters later, but how could her grandmother not even have supported her after this came out? She clearly saw how she started behaving, but instead of reprimanding her she should’ve realized that she needed TLC more than anything at that point. Instead she just let Mi Mo do her own thing and become a delinquent, just as she’d let Mo Mi develop her own issues. I think it’s safe to say that, despite her good intentions and hidden feelings of affection towards both her daughter and granddaughter, Shim Young Hee was definitely not fit to raise a child. She was more like a strict governness than a warm (grand)mother, no wonder how both the girls she raised turned out so estranged. I just felt so sorry for Mi Mo that she was made to go through this all by herself at the age of SIX, because that was completely messed up.

While I think it’s easy to condemn Ye Choon for not exactly stimulating Mi Mo’s trust issues by lying about her own situation, I couldn’t help but relate to how she was feeling so much. Honestly, I’ve never a more accurate depiction of a teenager than Ye Choon. You just need to keep in mind that the way she behaved was so typical for a kid her age. Honestly, I recognize it from when I was in the first years of high school. I remember there was this group I hung out with that started doing Wicca, and I just assumed that I would have to participate in that if I wanted to be part of their group. I never stopped to think about what Wicca actually was and how it could get seriously dark, it was just something I apparently had to do in order to get closer to these people. I even remember just nodding along when being told me I had to do an initiation ritual and whatnot. Luckily I never ended up joining them, also because they were definitely not my ‘friends’, but I just remember that feeling of just going along with something before even thinking about what it actually meant and what I was actually doing. It also has to do with the naïve thought that showing you have things in common automatically creates a stronger bond with someone. You could just see how little awareness Ye Choon had of everything while she cheerfully showed Mi Mo her make-believe wrist scars and how she just made up those stories about her father hitting her mom. She didn’t stop to think about how messed up that was. Everything she did was purely to get closer to Mi Mo and to give her the impression that she understood her situation. Don’t get me wrong, I went ‘oh God, Ye Choon🤦🏻‍♀️’ on a very regular basis, but I just understood so well where her behavior came from that I couldn’t even fully blame her for it. What mattered the most was that it came from a good place and it was never her intention to betray Mi Mo.

Honestly I felt like the friendship between Mi Mo and Ye Choon was a karmic reincarnation of the one between Mo Mi and Choon Ae. I mean, their names even share the same syllables. There’s even an interesting parallel in the introductions of Choon Ae and Mi Mo – they’re both made fun of for their unusual names by their classmates when they introduce themselves to their new class.
Ye Choon accepts Mi Mo just as naturally as Choon Ae accepted Mo Mi, and both pairs develop a very meaningful emotional bond. You could even go so far as to link Choon Ae and Ye Choon by saying that Choon Ae dealt with physical abuse and Ye Choon lied about dealing with physical abuse.
Things like these just made me think about every little detail of this show, and I think it’s genius how they added these references and parallels, linking all the chapters of Mo Mi’s life, including Mi Mo’s together like that.
In terms of consistencies, I don’t know if this was intentional (it probably was), but I found it interesting how almost everyone was called ‘Kim’ in this story. When looking at the episode titles, which consist of the name of the main character that’s featured in that particular episode, ‘Kim’ is definitely the predominant name, even though none of the people named Kim are actually related to each other. There’s Kim Mo Mi, Kim Mi Mo, Kim Kyung Ja, Kim Choon Ae, Kim Ye Choon. I can’t help but feel like there’s a reason for it, to tie everyone together in some sort of cosmic way.

In episode six, the final episode of the final chapter, the series focusses on Mo Mi again while she serves her jail time between 2012 and 2023. After an initially rocky start to win the respect of the most influential prisoner in her cell block, Mo Mi (now played by Go Hyun Jung) has devoted herself to display exemplary behavior, even going so far as to pretend she’s converted herself to Christianism. As the possibility of an early parole approaches, she first receives a letter notifying of her daughter’s misconduct, and not much later she is confronted with the real danger at hand, and possibly the biggest plot twist of the latter half of the show: the return of Kyung Ja.
Because Kyung Ja didn’t die. She managed to get out of that sinking car just in time and with that, the final insanity switch in her mind finally flipped. After initially feeling lost when she finds out Mo Mi has been locked up and she has no way to deal with her lingering feelings of vengeance, the cruellest method falls into her lap when she discovers Mi Mo. After changing her own face (which I didn’t even realize because she’s portrayed by the same actress throughout the show) and name, she approaches Mi Mo on purpose. To the child herself, she becomes that sweet tteokbboki grandma who’s always there for her when she’s sad, but we see through her POV that she is actually the person who turns everyone against her overnight, and she’s the one who spreads the rumor about her being Mask Girl’s daughter, knowing Mi Mo would start suspecting Ye Choon. Kyung Ja’s new goal is to keep punishing Mo Mi while she’s in jail, through her daughter, her own granddaughter. To be fair I’m not actually sure Kyung Ja was aware of the fact that Mi Mo was conceived by Oh Nam, and I don’t know if that knowledge would’ve changed anything. In any case, it was enough for her to know that she was Mo Mi’s child.
After visiting Mo Mi in prison as part of a Bible-reading volunteer group and revealing her evil plan to harm her daughter, Mo Mi goes to great lengths to escape prison and go after her.
The final showdown takes place at Kyung Ja’s remote house in the mountains where Mo Mi, her mother and even Ye Choon come together to save Mi Mo. In the process, Mo Mi, her mother, and Kyung Ja all end up getting killed.

Again, I just couldn’t fathom who messy this whole thing must have been for Mi Mo. Not only does the last person she thought she could trust, the sweet tteokbokki grandma, turn out to be a lunatic who wanted to take revenge on her mother, she even has to watch her attack her own grandmother with a knife and, after finally meeting her biological mother for the first time, she immediately loses her again in front of her eyes. Mo Mi takes the bullet Kyung Ja aimed at Mi Mo in the back and dies in her daughter’s arms. This final part was so freaking intense and despite the fact that we’d seen hesitation in Kyung Ja’s eyes when it came to harming Mi Mo, her insanity just came to a climax here.
I’m just glad that Mi Mo turned out okay, and that she was taken in by Ye Choon’s parents (who already had three kids = superheroes). I just wished she wouldn’t have had to go through any of this mess.

To finally get to Kyung Ja, it’s safe to say that this woman completely lost herself in her grief and turned completely insane. The lengths she went through even after Mo Mi was locked up, still not granting her some respite and reflection on what she’d done showed just how serious she was about getting justice for her son.
Despite her extreme actions, I couldn’t help but notice that she also wasn’t like the typical villain without a conscience who just mercilessly went on to execute her revenge. As a matter of fact, she is very well aware that Mi Mo has done nothing wrong, she even tells her so. We also see her flinch with hesitation when she acknowledges Mi Mo’s goodness on several occasions.
I won’t relativize everything she’s done, because she also had a hand in taking several innocent lives that had nothing to do with her revenge. But I do remember that, when she was first introduced in the third episode, I spent the entire episode feeling so sorry for her. I kept thinking ‘oh that poor woman’ for what she went through after losing her son. Her grief was absolutely heart-wrenching, and it was incredible how she could still muster the energy and strength to devote herself to finding out what had happened to Oh Nam, even going the extra mile of taking computer classes to get into his mind better. Everything she did came from the feelings of a bereaved mother, and I couldn’t forget about that. Her revenge didn’t make her blind to the fact that she was making an innocent child suffer. I think it was just that she’d gone so far already that she wasn’t able to allow herself to get swayed by sentimentality anymore. She’d decided that she would devote the rest of her life to punishing Mask Girl, and Mi Mo allowed her to keep doing that even after Mo Mi had already admitted to her own misdeeds. She was too far gone to be able to think straight anymore and this was the only way she could think of that would help her find closure in coming to terms with her loss. Of course, I definitely think punishing Mo Mi by killing her best friend, mother and even attempting to kill her daughter was very excessive. It was probably for the better that the police shot her in the end, because she just wouldn’t have stopped.

To end my already quite elaborate story and character analyses, I just want to make a final comment about the ending, because as I said it brought the whole story full circle in my opinion.
In the final scene, we see Mi Mo watching an old video of her mom when she was little, the one that we’ve been shown in the first episode during Mo Mi’s character introduction. It shows Mo Mi as a little girl participating in a dance/talent contest. When the host asks her what she wants to be what she grows up, little Mo Mi says, ‘I want to become someone who is loved by another person’. I mean. If this doesn’t sum up the entire show, I don’t know what does. Because when you think of it, every single main character in every single episode in this story is the same. They all grow up as people without any love or admiration from other. In almost all cases, they didn’t even grow up with the ‘normal’ unconditional love and warmth from their parents. No one has a special person they can fall back on, a life partner or whatever you wish to call it. Every action from every single main character ultimately stemmed from the desire to be loved by someone. It just all clicked together when little Mo Mi said that. I hadn’t even expected her to say that, I was expecting her to simply say ‘I want to become famous’. The fact that Mo Mi, as a little girl, was already able to hit the nail on the head and phrase the desire of possibly every person on this planet like that, as an innocent child’s wish, that just wrapped up the entire story with such a powerful final message. It really felt as if everything came full circle right then and there, as Mi Mo was tearfully watching her mother’s innocent smile, unaware of the dark future that awaited her.
‘I just want to become someone who is loved by another person’. As simple as that.

Apologies for the detailed story summary and analysis, but there are just so many parts that I wanted to touch upon and I want the show to be acknowledged for its genius in its entirety. Besides the many parallels and interesting character developments, I was really impressed by the show’s way of storytelling, namely the way it constantly added new POVs to thicken the plot. The structure of the storybuilding reminded me of a book I read last year, ‘How High We Go In The Dark’ by Sequoia Nagamatsu, which follows the development of a specific global crisis. Rather than create an entire story within the time period in which that crisis occurs, it builds up a timeline by placing every single chapter in a different time period, phase and part of the world to create a complete history of how that global crisis develops into the future, and how ultimately generations in the far future are still influenced by the way their predecessors coped during that crisis. I recognized this structure in Mask Girl because it shows how far one single inciting incident can stretch so far into the future and how much it can keep influencing people’s lives years later. Even after Mask Girl isn’t a contemporary phenomenon anymore, people still remember her and retain their associations of her. I thought it was very interesting to build a story about an incident that completely spins out of control, ultimately causing the main involved person to get stuck in a situation she can’t escape from.

I gained so much insight from this story, but also so many questions. When is someone good or bad? What is good or bad behavior? Does being connected to someone problematic automatically make you problematic as well? Is evilness or rottenness innate or created?
In response to the last question, I’d definitely say that in the case of Mask Girl people tended to develop a dark side due to the influence of other people. Every main character of each episode became the way they were because of how other people had treated them ever since they were young, in addition to the lack of a solid support system. No one was born with the urge to wreak havoc, no one simply woke up one day and decided to go kill someone, it was all much more complicated than that. With the sole exception of Kyung Ja, even when they had strong negative feelings towards another person, no one considered murder as a first option. Of course, this doesn’t take away the fact that almost every character does end up committing a serious crime throughout this story, but I also feel like this has to do with the theme of how people act when they are pushed over the edge in extreme situations.

In terms of genre, Mask Girl is definitely a very turbulent and emotional series and it depicts a lot of violence and both physical and sexual assault. In contrast, I found the level of nudity quite mild: they mostly just showed butts and only mentioned boobs and it wasn’t nearly as explicit as for example in Somebody. I remember that when I first saw the trailer on Netflix, which only features a scene from episode 1, I just thought the whole series would be about this woman who was secretly an Internet celebrity and how she had to keep that a secret. I even thought it was a comedy when I started watching, only to go full, ‘What the Jesus Christ was that?!’ at the end of the second episode. The story took such an unexpected turn and went in such a different direction that what I’d expected. In hindsight I think it was more about Mask Girl as a symbol rather than a still-active phenomenon.
Structuring it like a timeline in which Mask Girl goes from a big hit to a vague memory (even though the associations with her misdeeds remain well-known) was a genius decision. It also highlights the biased media presentation of how Mask Girl’s story becomes subject to the public opinion. Rumors about her are spread by people who don’t even know what really happened, no one knew her and Oh Nam and no one was aware of the circumstances they were in at that moment. No one thinks about how it may have been an accident, or that she was defending herself while being raped. The only thing that matters to the public is that she killed him, and so she must be a cold-blooded killer.
Even when it gets out that her child goes to a certain school, no one even considers the fact that the child is innocent and that she didn’t even grow up with the direct influence of her mother. None of that matters, everyone is just instinctively driven to keep their own kids away from her.
It gives such a painfully accurate depiction of typical human behavior, especially in the context of crisis and scandal. I found it quite enlightening.
My only personal qualm with this show is probably that, despite its impressive cinematography and overall structure, it definitely wasn’t a light watch. It was incredibly emotionally loaded and featured extreme depictions of aggressive and escalated behavior. It did feel like I had to brace myself nonstop throughout the entire series, because even the smallest sweet or touching moment would quickly evolve into something dark and heavy again. I personally like to have a balance between light and dark moments. Although this series definitely makes a strong statement about the nature of people, the constant focus on human perversity and insanity wasn’t always that easy to swallow.

As I’ve now tackled all my comments on the story itself, I’d like to mention some practical details I found noteworthy. First of all, I was intrigued by the opening sequence. I’ve never seen anything like it. I always love it when they come up with something abstract which still contains clear visual references to the story. I think it captured the estranging aspect of living a double life, changing your appearance, and the (sometimes unwanted) attention from other people quite well. It was very eerie and unsettling in combination with the music, but I still played it each time to discover more recognizable images, like how the lines of red blood seeping through the crevices around floor tiles (literally depicted in the motel scene) turns into computer keys (a reference to the Internet world of Mask Girl but also Mo Mi’s office job) and how that in turn changes into teeth and a mouth and a woman covering her face with a mask. The metaphorical act of putting on a mask also gets a double meaning, because it’s really not just about Mask Girl with her signature mask. It’s a metaphor for hiding who you truly are, and this didn’t only apply to Mask Girl. Every single main character was wearing a mask, everyone kept something about their true identity hidden, whether it was actually changing their identity or lying about their home situation. Everyone pretended to be someone else in a way, which tied every single character together in an incredibly intricate way.

I also want to give a huge shoutout to the cinematography because it was AMAZING. Honestly, it was an absolute masterpiece to look at in terms of how each shot was framed, because that in itself told a very clear story. A show that looks good in terms of how it was filmed always gets bonus points from me.

Let’s get on with the cast comments, shall we?

Honestly, I’m surprised that this was Lee Han Byul’s first ever drama. I could’ve sworn I knew her from something else. In any case, I really liked her portrayal of the OG Mo Mi. Especially the way she managed to retain the layered personality of someone who sometimes just couldn’t contain her rage against stupid people. I found her very refreshing in that she wasn’t a typical ‘boohoo, people think I’m ugly’ kind of female lead, she would literally charge at someone and call them out in public, and that was really gratifying. She lay a very good foundation for the other two Mo Mis to build on, especially in terms of the aggressive tendencies. Also, maybe this is weird to say, but I still find it strange how people hated on Mo Mi’s face so much. I personally didn’t even find her that ugly (hello, that bone structure??) and honestly, I bet people would give so much for a body like hers. It was repeated throughout the series that she never had anything done to her body, it was only ever her face people didn’t like. I wonder how people have so much time on their hands to literally pick one specific part of someone’s appearance that doesn’t agree with them and focus all their hatefulness on that. In any case, I liked Lee Han Byul’s performance a lot and I hope that Mask Girl contributes in kickstarting her career and that I’ll get to see her more often in the future!

To be fair, I had seen on MyDramaList that Ahn Jae Hong was in this, but it still took me a long close-up of Oh Nam to realize it was him. I guess I’m just so used to young people in K-Dramas always having perfect skin, but here that all went out of the window and that’s probably also something that contributed in making everything so realistic. I mainly know Ahn Jae Hong from Fight For My Way, but he’s also been in Legend of the Blue Sea. This is definitely the best role I’ve seen him in so far, even if it’s just in terms of expressivity. I would’ve never even imagined him as a character like Oh Nam, but they gave him an incredible transformation. It’s a pity he only appeared in the first couple of episodes, even though of course his ‘legacy’ lived on in Mi Mo, although she would never know him. It’s kind of sad, I wonder how he’d have felt knowing Mo Mi gave birth to the child that was conceived when he forced himself on her. Anyways, I’ve discussed his character elaborately enough in the above section. I was really impressed by his performance and I’m definitely going to see more of him, so let’s see what more he has in store!

If there was anyone who impressed me the most in this series, it was without a doubt Yeom Hye Ran. First of all, the actress herself is only 47. How the heck did they make her look so much like a grandma? The transformation tactics in this series were amazing. I see I’ve only seen her before in Goblin, but there are a lot of big drama titles on her repertoire and I’m also going to be watching a couple of those, so I’m excited to see more of her. I was blown away by this woman, how she was able to exude so much tenacity through such a small body, haha. Her expressions were incredible, her energy was incredible. For some reason I really liked how she was so foul-mouthed because it became almost funny at times how she was cussing everyone and everything out. Combining that with the other side of her, for example after she had to identify her son’s body just made me internally applaud her versatility. How have I not seen more of this woman. She was truly amazing.

Apparently, Nana (or Lim Jin Ah) is a former member of Orange Caramel! I haven’t seen anything with her before, but it was nice seeing her as Mo Mi 2.0 because she exuded such strength in finally being able to express the confidence she’d previously only felt as Mask Girl. I really enjoyed the scene where she was dancing together with Choon Ae and they were having so much fun together. After she went to jail, I liked how that confidence got a slightly sharper edge and her tenacious tendencies came out more, for example when she kept charging at that one woman from Ahn Eun Sook’s crew, even though she kept getting locked up for it, she kept coming back for her. She suddenly managed to become intimidating, which I thought was pretty cool. Her emotional variety, which came out for example in the scene where Choon Ae died in her arms, was also impressive. I think she did a really good job.

I see that Han Jae Yi was also in Something in the Rain, Room No. 9, Hotel Del Luna and Melting Me Softly, which I’ve all watched in the last couple of years, but I don’t immediately remember her from anything. I may have recognized her face from any of those, but this is the first time I’ve really noticed her individual performance. I found Choon Ae to be a typical tragic heroine who, and maybe this puts it a but cruelly, just couldn’t learn from her mistakes. I loved how she was such a great friend to Mo Mi when Mo Mi needed it the most, especially after taking on her new identity. To find someone to bond over that after she must have felt so alone, it must have truly created something special between them. Honestly, I could see a whole Thelma and Louise scenario for them where they drove around together. I don’t think either of them would’ve craved something more than that. It was sad how she came to her end, I thought her character could’ve done with more validation for the goodness in her heart. I see from her dramas on MyDramaList that I’m going to see her in more dramas in the future, so I’ll keep my eyes peeled for her there!

My girl Kim Min Seo is going places! I previously only knew her from the ODG YouTube channel, after which I saw her properly act for the first time in Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha, and now she’s in this! As I’ve elaborated, I really related to Ye Choon’s character because she was such a child but she still had such an urgency to help her best friend in need, even when the situation turned out to be much more dangerous than she could’ve ever anticipated. Honestly, I was terrified that she’d get stuck in the middle of the crossfire, but luckily she survived and she and Mi Mo even got to be like sisters since Ye Choon’s parents took her in. She’s still only fourteen years old, so I guess she still has to grow into an actor a bit more. So far I’ve only seen her play stubborn teenagers, so I hope she’ll get the chance to portray even more challenging and mature roles in the future. I’m rooting for her!

I haven’t seen Shin Ye Seo in anything yet, but I probably will. I thought she did a really good job portraying the different sides of Mi Mo’s character as a teenager, both the softer one and the edgier one. Despite her looking so sweet when she smiles, she also managed to pull off the intimidating youth delinquent vibe very well. With everything that came her way (thanks to Kyung Ja), I had nothing but compassion and respect for how Mi Mo had to deal with all of that by herself. Especially in that final episode, when she meets her biological mom for the first time, only to immediately lose her right in front of her eyes, that girl really got some severely unnecessary trauma thrown onto her plate and I’m just happy that after that, she at least had a new family in Ye Choon’s. I hope she gets more opportunities to show off her skills!

Go Hyun Jung looks so familiar to me, but I haven’t seen her in anything before. I thought she pulled of the Final Mo Mi very well, because she really mixed the first two versions of her characters and merged them into one. I found it interesting how she apparently just cut off her hair and lost the necessity to flaunt the beauty that had been such a driving force in her life so far, but she still retained that kind of manic energy, especially in her calmer scenes. When she was calm and obedient, I felt the manic bubbling underneath her surface more than when she lashed out, for some reason. Her energy was really good. I also liked seeing her portray the motherly feelings towards Mi Mo, because we hadn’t seen that in Mo Mi at all before she got Kyung Ja’s letter notifying her of her daughter’s misconduct in school. The way she literally jumped in front of her daughter without a second hesitation proved enough. I actually found myself feeling sorry for the fact they could never spend time together. I would’ve liked some Mo Mi-Mi Mo mother-daughter scenes at the end, but it wasn’t meant to be, unfortunately. I liked her performance.

Me being me, I can’t finish a review without mentioning people I like who made a cameo, so let me just quickly give a shoutout to Choi Daniel, lol. I love him too much to ignore him. It was kind of refreshing to see him as a less than ethical character here, although I did appreciate at least he never directly hated on Mo Mi’s looks or talked badly about her. It was generally icky of him to have an affair with his employee, but he did remain sort of respectable towards Mo Mi when he apologized to her via text. At least he didn’t cuss her out or something. I just kept thinking that, should this event have happened later on in the stories, he might have actually ended up like motel and idol guy, but I guess it was fortunate for him that he escaped the crossfire just in time, although I did feel like being betrayed by his affections played a part in driving Mo Mi over the edge. I just liked seeing him, even if it was just for two episodes.

I guess I’ve now come to the official end of this review. For such a short drama I sure wrote a lot! It took me an entire day again✌🏻I’m glad I gave this drama a shot because it turned out to be so different from what I’d expected and I came out with a lot of new thoughts and things to process. Coming out of the initial layer of ‘what the heck did I just watch’, I feel like there are a lot of valuable messages in this series, and as I mentioned I really appreciated the ultra-human way in which all the characters were written. It’s not often that you see a K-Drama in which basically all the men are depicted as scumbags – I’m not surprised it’s based on a webtoon written by a woman, lol. It was screenwritten and directed by a man, though! I am very impressed by it. Gosh, how I enjoy the feeling of discovering hidden gems!

I will be watching another newly discovered recent Netflix K-Drama next. I’m guessing it’ll also be quite short, so who knows how soon I’ll get to write my next review? Stay tuned and find out!

Bye-bee! x

Birth of a Beauty

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Birth of a Beauty
(미녀의 탄생 / Minyeoeui Tansaeng)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hello hello! As you may have noticed it’s been almost a month since my last review, and I think I won’t be able to share that many more before the end of the year. My studies are consuming me daily and it’s getting pretty difficult to find time to finish series quickly, let alone spend a whole day on a review. I really hope things will settle down a bit, because I’m definitely going to keep watching and reviewing, but please just note that my life has become increasingly busy in the past few months. With that being said, I finally got to watch this golden oldie from 2014. I’d heard of it and knew it by name, but I’d never gotten around to watch it, and now at least I can say I saw it and I’m excited to share my opinions on it. I ended my last review with the assumption that I’d get frustrated with this one as it’s an older drama with presumably a lot of standard tropes, but much to my surprise I actually wasn’t that annoyed by it at all! Sure, it has typical storylines, occasionally cringy acting and plotholes, but I still thought it exceeded for example the revenge story from Fates and Furies.

Birth of a Beauty is an SBS K-Drama with 21 episodes of about an hour each. I thought 21 was a pretty unique number of episodes, especially because the story took off with such speed from the start. I was curious to see how they’d spread it out over 21 episodes.
The story focusses on the life of Sa Geum Ran (originally played by Ha Jae Sook), a middle-aged housewife. She married into a wealthy family and after her husband had to go to The States soon after their wedding for work reasons, she’s been left to take care of her in-laws’ housekeeping.
While Geum Ran is possibly the most ideal daughter-in-law a family could wish for in terms of loyalty and willingness to work herself to the bone for her in-laws, she does not get any kind of gratitude for it in return. On the contrary, she is ridiculed by her sisters-in-law (Kang Kyung Heon and Jin Ye Sol) for being bigger in size and dressing a bit old-fashionedly, and her mother-in-law (Kim Young Ae) treats her like a typical Cinderella. No matter the amount of work and effort she puts in, she never gets a thank you, and is just taken for granted. The only person who seems to be sympathetic towards her is her father-in-law (Han Jin Hee), as he’s old friends with her own mother, and I also feel like their connection may have played a part in the matchmaking of Geum Ran and her husband in the first place. Anyways, father-in-law is barely at home, he’s running for something or at least building a campaign, so he doesn’t realize how his wife and daughters treat Geum Ran and how much she has to endure. The only person who makes life bearable for Geum Ran in her in-laws’ house is her grandmother-in-law (Kim Young Ok, as always a treasure), who has dementia but who absolutely dotes on Geum Ran.
The most important thing to the story here is that Geum Ran is not considered to be attractive because of her size and fashion style. While trying to remain as optimistic as possible, she finds that her lack of visual appeal definitely obstructs her from certain things in life, and she’s even applied to appear on a TV show that offers a full-body make-over (aka plastic surgery) to try and make her life easier. I think it’s safe to say that in a society like South Korea, outward beauty is considered to be a huge benefit, and especially in old-fashioned K-Dramas we find that people who do not meet these beauty standards, even by being a size larger than the norm, are immediately categorized as ‘unattractive’. Geum Ran is someone who, no matter her vast inner strength and beauty, is only ever judged for the way she looks on the outside, and this immediately makes her the perfect tragic heroine. Despite the nasty things she has to endure, she keeps working herself to the bone for her in-laws as she really loves to cook and clean, and the main thing that keeps her going is the thought of her beloved husband, Lee Kang Joon (played by Jung Gyeo Woon). However, as if she didn’t already have enough to worry about, things start going downhill for Geum Ran even more. Not only does she find out her husband has been back in South Korea for a long time, she also discovers that he’s been having an affair with a younger, skinnier, ‘prettier’ woman for a while as well. What’s more, her mother- and sisters-in-law all knew about this affair and purposely left Geum Ran in the dark about it just to laugh at the unyielding trust she has in her husband. The woman Kang Joon is seeing is Gyo Chae Yeon (played by Wang Ji Hye), a news anchor/talkshow host who works for HBS, the company of which Kang Joon is a director. Geum Ran tries talking to Chae Yeon, but this doesn’t do anything as Chae Yeon has no intention of stepping away from Kang Joon. On the contrary, she ridicules Geum Ran just as much, telling her to take a look in the mirror and ask herself if she really thinks Kang Joon would want to be with her. Then, Kang Joon himself even returns his wedding ring, saying that they should probably stop acting like a married couple altogether.
Despite her considerable physical strength and ability to stay optimistic and positive, this whole mess inevitably (and understandably) drains Geum Ran’s confidence. Her consistent support and work for her husband and his family is only rewarded by being played for a fool by her entire in-law family, including her husband and his mistress. She can’t even tell her own mother about it because she’s too embarrassed. One night, after telling Kang Joon she wants to file for divorce and tell the press about his affair with Chae Yeon (as they’re both influential people and HBS is a big company), Geum Ran heads out in her car in the dark, heavily distressed. Misfortune strikes when, on the way, she gets into a terrible accident – she’s forced to dodge an oncoming car, busts through a safety rail and crashes down into the water below.

All in all, the introduction we get of Geum Ran’s character is meant to create immense sympathy for her and her situation. We see how she’s being treated, how awful her in-laws are to her and how few people she has to lean on, even in her own family. The few people that liked and sympathized with her didn’t add up to the amount of ridicule and scorn she received from everyone else. There wasn’t even any kind of woman-to-woman support, no one thought or even cared about Geum Ran’s feelings. To think that she had to go through all of that just because people didn’t like the way she looked is awful, but it’s also a very important cornerstone of the story. Besides her prior plan to appear on that make-over show, it’s only shown how much Geum Ran believes changing her appearance will help her situation by what she does next. It’s a sad preface, but it also immediately gets to the point of Geum Ran’s determination to immediately change her life for the better, and this is also a powerful indicator of how strong she actually is.

Miraculously, Geum Ran survives the freak incident, and after she’s pulled herself from the water, the first thing she does is visit one of the surgeons from the make-over program to beg him to ‘please make her pretty’. The fact that she apparently knew his contact info even though she wasn’t admitted to the program, and the fact that this was the first thing that popped into her mind after going through such a horrific accident is kind of wild to me. Anyways, she visits that plastic surgeon’s house, but the person who opens the door is actually not the surgeon himself. It’s Han Tae Hee (played by Joo Sang Wook), the adopted brother of the surgeon, who’s just crashing at his place for the time being. For some reason I still don’t really get, he pretends that he is the doctor she’s looking for and he agrees to help her out. He ‘designs’ Geum Ran’s new appearance based on ‘the ultimate beauty’ according to Korean visual aesthetics standards. After getting his surgeon brother to perform the procedure under the radar (did he fly him in for this? I’m still not sure how this happened exactly), Geum Ran (now played by Han Ye Seul) is unrecognizable. Going by the new name of Sara to shape her new identity, she gets to live the life of a beautiful woman who turns heads wherever she goes. After the initial high of her new appearance, Sara joins forces with Tae Hee to set a following plan in motion. After all, she didn’t just get full-body plastic surgery to look pretty and move on with her life. She wants revenge.
Tae Hee, who is initially kind of an enigma as he pretends to be a doctor and doesn’t share his true identity, is actually the heir of a big corporation called Winner Group. His grandmother, Mrs. Park (Kim Yong Rim) is the CEO. When he was ten years old, his parents perished in a horrific warehouse explosion. Tae Hee managed to escape and while wandering around a highway, he was picked up by a friendly man. The man took him into his own house and made him part of his family, and that is how Tae Hee grew up with his two children: Ji Hoon, the plastic surgeon (played by In Gyo Jin) and, oh yes, Chae Yeon. He grew up as an older brother to Gyo Chae Yeon, the very woman Geum Ran’s husband cheated on her with. What’s more, Tae Hee has developed more than just brotherly feelings for Chae Yeon. While Chae Yeon has been aware of his feelings she never responded to them, probably to protect the close bond they had as near-siblings. In any case, Tae Hee is not happy with the relationship and approaching engagement between Chae Yeon and Kang Joon (which happens mere days after Geum Ran’s disappearance). Not only because of his own feelings for Chae Yeon, but also because he just doesn’t trust Kang Joon, and these suspicions are only strengthened when he hears Geum Ran’s story.
In summary, Geum Ran/Sara and Tae Hee discover that they have a common goal in wanting to break Kang Joon and Chae Yeon apart. Geum Ran wants to give Chae Yeon a taste of her own medicine, and Tae Hee doesn’t want Chae Yeon near Kang Joon after learning about how much of a jerk he is.

While Sara’s initial plan is to seduce Kang Joon with her newly acquired outward beauty and win him back, punishing Chae Yeon in the process, things start changing rapidly as more and more information comes out about the true nature of Geum Ran’s ‘accident’. While it takes almost no effort to be liked and invited in by Kang Joon’s family and Sara gradually makes her way into Kang Joon’s life again, she encounters a few very painful truths. For one, she overhears her (ex-)in-laws shamelessly talk about Geum Ran, badmouthing her even after she’s gone and presumed dead. She also has to witness them treat her own mother like trash when she comes asking questions about what happened to her daughter. And, worst of all: she finds out that the car that made her swerve and burst through that safety rail was driven by no one other than Kang Joon himself, and that it was a deliberate attempt to murder her. She also finds out that Chae Yeon saw the whole thing happen and did nothing to help her either. Naturally, this discovery also makes Tae Hee reconsider his feelings about Chae Yeon, and he starts sympathizing and siding with Sara more and more as they gather more intel.
While only Kang Joon and Chae Yeon ‘know’ what really happened to Geum Ran, her (ex-)in-laws (except for the father) don’t seem to care one bit about the fact that Geum Ran probably died. They may not have known about Kang Joon’s direct involvement yet at this point, but they still keep talking down on their (ex-)daughter/sister-in-law, and Sara is there to hear and witness all of it.
As a result, the plan changes from winning Kang Joon back to destroying him. While continuously acting out new plans to interfere with the relationship/engagement/marriage between Kang Joon and Chae Yeon (I still can’t believe they got married three weeks after Geum Ran’s ‘death’), Sara and Tae Hee get closer through their teamwork and eventually develop romantic feelings for each other.
However, just when they feel like their revenge has played out successfully and they prepare themselves to move on with their own lives, Kang Joon and Chae Yeon start getting suspicious themselves about the relationship between Sara and Tae Hee. First simply about how they know each other, but then even more when they discover the two are actually living together. From then on, Kang Joon and Chae Yeon, while hating each other’s guts at that point, start their own counter-revenge plans to find out the truth about this mysterious Sara woman who turned up to mess up their lives, ultimately taking revenge back on the people who took revenge on them. Still following?😆
In the midst of this complicated double-revenge plan, there is yet another player who wishes to contribute to the downfall of Tae Hee, in particular. What Tae Hee doesn’t know is that the explosion that killed his parents was supposed to kill him too, as it was a deliberate attack to get rid of the original Winner Group heirs. This was all orchestrated by a woman called Son Ji Sook (Kim Chung), who had an illegitimate child by Tae Hee’s father after getting him drunk one night. Mrs. Park never acknowledged her as a daughter-in-law (I mean, she took sexual advantage of her son after all) and this has triggered a strong feeling of revenge in Ji Sook. After Mrs. Park turned her and her illegitimate son away, Ji Sook used her past romantic connection to one of Mrs. Park’s trusted men, Kim Joon Chul (Choi Jong Hwan), and pressed him into executing the explosion. Now, the illegitimate son, Tae Hee’s half-brother Han Min Hyuk (played by Han Sang Jin) is the Director of Strategic Planning at Winner Group and he’s planning to become the new CEO. Taking advantage of Mrs. Park’s grieved absence as she’s looking for her still-missing grandson, Min Hyuk and his mother start planning their way to the top, as they have now gained enough power to silence Mrs. Park. When Tae Hee finally comes back to reveal that he is the lost heir of Winner Group, Min Hyuk and his mother keep trying to find ways to get rid of him, including assault and attempted murder.

Basically, we can distinguish three main storylines: the revenge plan of Sara and Tae Hee, the counter-revenge plan of Kang Joon and Chae Yeon, and the quest for Winner Group of Min Hyuk and his mother. These three storylines are entwined as all characters get involved with each other throughout the story. One aspect of old-fashioned dramas is that the way everyone is connected is always quite intricate and complicated, so I’ll try to explain it as best as I can.
First we have Geum Ran, who is initially involved with Kang Joon, her husband, his family, and Chae Yeon, the woman her husband cheated on her with. She gets involved with Tae Hee when he helps her to transform into Sara. Other than that, there’s Geum Ran’s mother Shim Yeo Ok (Lee Jong Nam) who’s old friends with Kang Joon’s father, and her best friend Eun Kyung Joo (Shim Yi Young).
Tae Hee first of all has ties to Winner Group, as his grandmother is the CEO and he is put in charge of the sub-branch Winner Food when he returns to the company. He has ties to Ji Hoon and Chae Yeon as he was raised as part of their family, and he is related to Min Hyuk and Son Ji Sook, not just in family terms, but also because Min Hyuk is after his family’s company.
Kang Joon is a director at HBS, and he knows Min Hyuk because HBS is planned to merge with (or take over) Winner Group. He is originally tied to Geum Ran and Chae Yeon, and then is seduced by Sara. When he first learns of Sara’s involvement with Tae Hee, he starts conspiring against Tae Hee with Min Hyuk, and when he finds out the truth about who Sara really is, he also starts intimidating her as well as her mother.
Chae Yeon is a well-known face from TV. She’s mostly involved with Kang Joon and her two brothers Tae Hee and Ji Hoon. She first decides to get back at Sara for stealing Kang Joon away from her, but after finding out Sara is Geum Ran, she goes on to get back at Geum Ran for ‘ruining her life’. She starts manipulating people, including Mrs. Park, so they’ll turn on Sara.
Min Hyuk falls in love with Sara pretty much at first sight, even before he knows she’s involved with Tae Hee. He gets Sara opportunities to work as a model for Winner Group and as a chef, getting her to appear on the popular cooking competition show ‘Birth of a Chef’.
Min Hyuk’s mother Son Ji Sook is involved with Tae Hee’s family and Kim Joon Chul, whom she uses as a pawn to take revenge on Mrs. Park for not accepting her into the Winner Group family. She aids Min Hyuk in his plans to become the new Winner Group CEO.

One important thing that I want to elaborate on is the way in which Sara gets involved in the feud between Tae Hee and Min Hyuk. Because of her new exceptional and outstanding beauty, Sara often gets noticed and recognized by people in public, and it happens frequently that people just start filming her while she’s eating somewhere. Not only do they film her without her consent, they even release the videos online where they go viral and Sara becomes famous as a kind of ‘mysterious mukbang beauty’. I guess it’s the way her beauty shines even more when she’s enjoying food which makes these videos stand out so much, but I still think it’s disrespectful to just start filming someone in their private time without their consent. In any case, this is where Min Hyuk first encounters her as well, as he recognizes her face from those videos when he sees her in real life and becomes interested in her. After getting to know her a bit better and learning about her passion for food and cooking, he plays a significant part in getting her on that cooking competition, so Sara owes him a lot of gratitude for that opportunity. As he becomes more greedy to keep her to himself, he eventually even starts punishing her for remaining loyal to Tae Hee by orchestrating several assaults on him. It gets pretty intense.
Honestly, Min Hyuk felt like a distraction to me because he just turned up as Suitor No.3 besides Tae Hee and Kang Joon, and Sara already had her hands full with everything else going on. Min Hyuk started pursuing Sara without being aware of the whole Geum Ran situation, basically barging his way into her life. The way he just started showing up at places where she was with bouquets of flowers, being all ‘we keep meeting, this must be destiny’ while Sara was like, ‘sorry, who are you?’ made him seem a little delusional, even. She was just being friendly because he was friendly to her, she never gave any indication of reciprocated romantic feelings, and yet he became so obsessed with her that he even started threatening Tae Hee’s life if she wouldn’t stay away from him. Super romantic, dude. I don’t know what it was with men in this story, but every one of them seemed to at least have several violent tendencies. I still find it worrying how Min Hyuk just started planning Tae Hee’s murder with his mom with that glint of excitement in his eye, and how he got so happy at that shareholders’ meeting in the final episode because he thought Tae Hee was dead.
In any case, as Min Hyuk was the farthest removed from the main storyline, I just immediately dismissed him as a potential love rival, and this was only strengthened by that fact that there were already too many men that Sara had to deal with in her life.

Going on about Sara, honestly, can we just acknowledge how much shit she was dealt? Not only as Geum Ran, but even as Sara? After Chae Yeon started turning people against her, she was basically bombarded with people threatening or blackmailing her, telling her to stay away from Tae Hee and gaslighting her into thinking that she was making everyone’s lives worse. If there’s one trope I hate that did appear in this show, it’s the one in which the tragic heroine, the female lead who has every right in the world to be happy, gets gaslighted into believing she’s the source of the world’s misery. This was also the case for Sara, and I wished she’d communicated with Tae Hee better, especially during this part. Because I don’t think Tae Hee was actually even aware of a majority of the things she had to endure. It was so stupid that everyone put everything on Sara, everyone only ever came to Sara to tell her that she needed to leave Tae Hee because she was putting him in danger, but no one ever had the guts to go to Tae Hee and tell him that he needed to get away from Sara. Sara just became the recipient of all the scorn and that wasn’t fair. It was like she was being punished for trying to stand up for herself, for trying to be genuinely happy for once in her life. Seeing what she was facing, I don’t even blame her for stepping away from it for a while to at least protect Tae Hee, but I still think she could’ve communicated it to him better instead of just pushing him away without any real explanation. It only caused Tae Hee to become desperate and neglect his Winner Food work. She could’ve told him the truth and then they could’ve started pretending they broke up while still secretly keeping each up to date. Sara could’ve started gathering intel on Min Hyuk’s true motives while working her way up in his favor. But no, they didn’t even communicate about how Min Hyuk was Tae Hee’s enemy. As a result, Min Hyuk started using Sara in trying to make Tae Hee believe she’d switched sides, creating even more cracks in the trust between them.
I think this was the only part during the series where I was a bit frustrated with Sara, because it just seemed like she didn’t have a clue what she was getting herself into. She’d broken up with Tae Hee because people kept telling her she was putting him in danger, but then it was like the plan just stopped from there, and when she finally discovered Min Hyuk was the evil mastermind behind the attacks on Tae Hee, she just froze as she didn’t know what to do.
On the other hand, I loved Sara most when she was in complete control of her situation. Her character development was really consistent and I liked that it started from the outside (dealing with her past and changing her appearance) and ended in her becoming so strong on the inside that she didn’t even care about hiding her true identity anymore. She learned to embrace herself as Geum Ran, moving past the outward aspects, and this was really admirable. She just needed to get in touch with her own true strength. Speaking of that strength, I was a little confused on several occasions because despite her established physical strength (I believe she even had a black belt in judo?), she sometimes just seemed to forget about that when she was cornered by someone. I mean, she could’ve easily shrugged them off or thrown them on the ground, we’ve seen her do it before. I guess her fear just took over in those scenes, but I just kept going like, ‘girl, you know you can just throw him over your shoulder!’ whenever this happened, lol.
But yeah, ultimately the story is really about Sara finding her inner strength and beauty and accepting herself fully as Geum Ran. She may have changed her face, but she never changed who she was and she didn’t have to because Geum Ran deserved love and happiness as much as anyone else. She deserved to live as herself without being needlessly ridiculed. I liked that they kept Sara’s relationship with herself as Geum Ran do apparent throughout the show, how she even had that conversation in the mirror with Geum Ran in which they were encouraging each other. It was a literal illustration of Sara coming to terms with her past and building her inner strength. It was nice that they kept the OG Geum Ran in for a while, not just as a flashback or picture, but as an actual presence within Sara and someone she still got to fall back on. I also liked that they devoted a part to making Tae Hee fall in love with Geum Ran rather than Sara, because I thought it was so powerful of Sara that she wanted to be loved for who she was inside, rather than for her new pretty face and nice body. I liked this part in particular because I remember thinking about this as well, whether Tae Hee did actually love her as Geum Ran, and whether he’d actually still be attracted to her if she’d had her old appearance. I liked that they addressed it, to also confront Tae Hee with his own possible prejudice, because it was entirely possible that he would still be less attracted to her had she still looked like Geum Ran. Random reference, but I remember also thinking this while I was watching Abyss, because I kept wondering if the main couple would’ve really fallen for each other if they’d still looked like their original selves, as their new forms were considered to be more attractive (at least in the male lead’s case). At least Birth of a Beauty made a point of addressing this, and I appreciated it because at some point I also needed confirmation from Tae Hee that he was not just one of many to fall for Sara’s appearance.
Some of my favorite Sara moments happened towards the end, when she was just plain DONE with Chae Yeon whenever the latter cornered her. Chae Yeon kept trying to intimidate her and at some point Sara was just looking at her like 😑, lol. I loved how she started standing up for herself, calling everyone out on how despicable they were being. She actually started voicing thoughts I’d had throughout the series, so that was really satisfying.

To make some general remarks about the story as a whole, as I mentioned in the beginning I was really curious to see how this story would be spread out over 21 episodes, especially because it took off so rapidly from the start. From the first episode on we dive head-first into the execution of the revenge plan and I was like, ‘OK yeah, bring it on, no dragging, love it!’ I couldn’t help make a reference to Fates and Furies, probably also because of Joo Sang Wook but also because it reminded me of how annoyed I was while watching it because the female lead’s ‘revenge plan’ there was so inconsistent and she didn’t even put in effort to gain intel on the person she was trying to get revenge on. In contrast, Sara and Tae Hee put in a lot of effort and they make a really great team. They even go so far as to wiretap Kang Joon’s bedroom to listen in on his (phone) conversations. It would sometimes take them a while to realize people were onto them or that they were being tricked themselves, but they never truly let their guard down. I was just glad that they waited for all the important pieces of evidence before going too far without any concrete proof. Learn from that, Goo Hae Ra!
I also thought it was interesting that the whole notion of ‘taking revenge’ was put into perspective depending on the character. While we are led to feel sympathetic towards Geum Ran’s reasons for wanting to take revenge, we are consequently also led to feel that Kang Joon and Chae Yeon don’t have any right to take revenge back. After all, they are the bad guys, they should get what they deserve. I was very aware of this while I was watching because I found it interesting that the story is constructed so that Chae Yeon isn’t deemed to be allowed to feel revengeful towards Sara because she brought it upon herself. Admittedly, I felt the exact same way, but it helped to at least be aware of the irony. Taking revenge on someone, no matter who it is or for what reason, is still something that’s considered to be ‘bad’. Depending on the situation it can be deemed to be fair or unfair, and that’s left up to the viewer. I just found it interesting to keep this in mind while watching this show.
What helped in condemning the ‘villains’ in this story is that none of the bad guys seemed to have a single ounce of remorse, or even the ability to self-reflect on what they’d done to deserve revenge from the people they’d hurt. Even in the case of Min Hyuk, who wasn’t part of Sara’s revenge plan, he also didn’t have a single shred of remorse in him when it came to inflicting damage on innocent people just to maintain his own reputation at the top. What I’m trying to say is that this show deals with very typical ‘good versus bad’ stereotypes, in which the bad guys are actually made out to be quite inhuman through their actions. It was established very clearly who was in the right and the wrong, and who deserved to be happy, and that was quite typical in itself.
Despite this typicalness, I did like that they added the meaningful emphasis on the main leads’ character development, and on Sara’s journey to fully accept her own inner strength and beauty. It just made the ending, in which every villain finally faces the consequences for their actions and receive appropriate punishment for it while Sara and Tae Hee can finally start preparing their wedding, that much more satisfying. I really liked how Sara summed up to Chae Yeon that the difference between the two of them lay in the fact that she (Sara) had owned up to her actions, including lying about her true identity, and asked for forgiveness, while Chae Yeon never admitted to what she’d done and never took any responsibility for any of the harm she caused other people. This just proves again how they put the whole thing in perspective, as people are inclined to show more empathy towards people who take responsibility for their actions and show remorse.
In terms of the main leads’ development in general, I think Tae Hee summarized that very neatly as that the most important thing they’d achieved through their revenge plan was that they’d made each other stronger and helped each other through the pain of their respective pasts. Sara stood by Tae Hee through his Broken Heart Syndrom while Tae Hee was always supportive of Sara’s decision and always made her feel like the special person she was.

Now that I’ve identified several things I liked about the show, I’d like to talk about some things that I found a little too typical, or that just didn’t add up or were badly written in my opinion. Of course, being aware that this is from 2014, I told myself beforehand that it was bound to get cheesy. It’s just something that’s inevitable in old-school K-Dramas. In hindsight, there weren’t that many tropes that annoyed me per se – I just had a strong dislike towards the second leads, as they were plain despicable people.
One of the main things that made me go 🤔 was the way in which Kang Joon found out Sara was Geum Ran. It was established from the get-go that Sara underwent an entire physical transformation, and that basically her entire body had been changed, from toenail to scalp. It was also mentioned that she’d gotten hair implants, and this seems obvious as Sara has entire different hair than Geum Ran did. Which means that her hair is not her own, or at least that it doesn’t contain Geum Ran’s DNA, right?. Because they’re implants, right? So can somebody please explain to me how the heck Kang Joon was able to get a DNA sample from her hair strands? Isn’t that actually a really big plothole? I don’t exactly remember the details about the hair extensions, but it would seem logical that they’re not bound to Geum Ran’s DNA, and there was at least one other comment under this episode that had the same thought, so I know I’m not alone 😂.
I also remember some lazy writing in the scene where Sara asks Kang Joon to drive her to the spot where he’d Geum Ran off the road, to see his reaction. What happens is that they make Kang Joon believe Geum Ran is still alive, and that she’s meeting him there, while Sara doesn’t know anything. Kang Joon gets out of the car at some point to get closer, after which he is hit on the back of the head by Sara and passes out on the road. When he wakes up, he is super confused about what happened in general, but also about what happened to Sara, as she was still in the car when he was knocked out. When he asks Sara about this the next time they meet, Sara literally goes for, ‘Oh you know, I’d just gone to the bathroom, and when I came back you were passed out on the road’. I mean. Even with his limited functioning brain cells, Kang Joon should’ve known that this didn’t make any sense. They were in the middle of a road, late at night, and she’d been inside the car when he got out. She couldn’t have gotten out to pee without him noticing (I’m still not sure how she got out of the car to sneak up on him and knock him out without him noticing, to be honest), and there certainly wasn’t any apparent bathroom facility nearby. All in all, this excuse just didn’t make any sense and I was kind of surprised Sara hadn’t prepared a better excuse, because it would’ve been more than logical if she’d seen something. Kang Joon was asking valid questions, admittedly. So yeah, either Sara really just didn’t think that one through (which kind of clashed with how discrete she’d been in the plan so far), or it was just lazy writing. In any case, Kang Joon didn’t even stop to think that that excuse wasn’t even applicable, he just went along with it.
Another scene that pissed me off because of it illogicalness was that petty trick from Chae Yeon to stop Sara and Tae Hee from going abroad to get married. She knew when they were supposed to leave, and then happened to ‘call in sick’ so that Sara would have to jump in for her program on the day of their flight. First of all, Sara wasn’t working there as a host, so asking her to fill in was already kind of weird, but the weirdest thing was that Chae Yeon literally came to see her to gloat the minute after the producer told her this. As in, the producer told her Chae Yeon had called in sick while Chae Yeon was literally standing there going, ‘oh oopsie, were you planning to go somewhere that day?’ And neither the producer or any other staff member was like, ‘hey, you’re not sick!’ It was so weird. And then even when Sara didn’t show up on the day she was supposed to fill in, Chae Yeon was also there, purely to add to people’s frustrations in going, 🐍’how irresponsible of Sara that she’s not here!’🐍 Like, did seriously no one stop to look at her and go, ‘yo, this all happened because you called in ‘sick’ and you’re clearly not, so you do it!’ I mean, everything Chae Yeon did was so obviously intended to ruin Sara’s reputation, all the backhanded comments and sassy remarks. It was just unrealistic how oblivious the rest of the staff members were.

I think I’ve already established that Chae Yeon was my least favorite character in this show, but I want to elaborate on it a little further. The main thing that annoyed me about her was how she was so incapable of self-reflection. Even after experiencing the exact same situation she herself inflicted on Geum Ran, she never stopped to think, ‘oh my god, is this how I made Geum Ran/another woman feel? Is this what it must’ve been like for her?’ Nope, she just went, ‘Geum Ran ruined my life and now she deserves to suffer’. Girl, this wouldn’t even have happened if you hadn’t felt the need to get involved with Kang Joon in the first place. By then she knew for herself what a scumbag he was, so I just couldn’t understand how, until the very end, she could never bring herself to even feel the slightest bit of remorse towards Geum Ran. Even when Sara came to her in an attempt to get her support because Tae Hee was in danger, someone they both cared about, she just wouldn’t budge.
The ways in which she tried to bring Sara down were such low blows, as well. I mean, come on, the peanut allergy thing? Sometimes it was like she just wanted to play a prank without considering the dangerous consequences. The fact that she would find pleasure in seeing Sara choke to death or succumb to an allergic reaction, just because it proved that she was Geum Ran, just made her such a witch. I actually called her Snake Chae Yeon throughout the show because of manipulative tendencies and because she was so fake. She basically switched personalities in every scene she appeared in, from fake-worried and caring towards Mrs. Park, pretending to care about Tae Hee’s wellbeing and that Sara had a bad influence on him, to fake-crying about how Kang Joon cheated on her and cornering Sara to gloat because she knew who she really was and that made her invincible. She could only see how she was made into a victim of everything, she never once stopped to think about what she did to deserve it. It was sickening how she started manipulating Mrs. Park, acting like she was so invested in Winner Group’s success and all that. Honestly, I was hoping for a scene in which Mrs. Park learned about how Chae Yeon had just been trying to poison her against Sara while she only did it for personal gain – she was only ever looking for someone who could get her to the top. She didn’t care whether it was Kang Joon or Tae Hee, although I did find it kind of surprising that she would even use Tae Hee’s feelings for her against him, as they’d been so close. The way she started clinging onto him, thinking he’d always choose her over Sara while he was already way over his romantic feelings for her was kind of laughable. I loved that scene where she called him out, pretending to be lost or sick or something, and he just left his secretary with her after making sure she was okay. So much for your plan to get him away from Sara! She even already texted Sara like, ‘Tae Hee is with me, you should stop waiting for him’, it was so childish and lame. I can’t deny I kind of relished in the despair on her face after Sara outed her on her own talkshow and she had nothing to fall back on anymore. It was wild how even after she lost everything and it finally seemed like she had to give it to Sara, she was still too cowardly to face up to her actions, and even to face Sara personally to return the building she’d stolen from her.

In terms of most-hated characters, Kang Joon comes in as a close second after Chae Yeon. Just like any villain character in this show, Kang Joon seemed to have no conscience whatsoever. Admittedly I found it kind of comical how, after getting rid of Geum Ran and going through all that trouble to get with Chae Yeon, he literally pulled the exact same thing on her with Sara, a mere week later. He was definitely a creature of habit, in the worst sense. He literally turned his back on Chae Yeon the second he laid eyes on Sara, and it only took a couple of days for him to tell Sara he loved her. He just blatantly started having another affair under the eyes of his freshly new wife, it was so typical.
What made Kang Joon so creepy was that, besides just being a jerk, he actually started stalking Sara after he found out she was Geum Ran, suddenly being all, ‘You’re still legally my wife, I’m not letting you go’. Like, why would you cling onto her after first trying to kill her? What reason could you possibly have for that? The sickest thing was that he would keep visiting Sara at her house and work, cornering her and actually say stuff like, ‘I wouldn’t mind being married to you and living with you again now that you look like this.’ Seriously, 🤮🤮🤮, what a disgusting creep. I’m also still baffled by the fact that he actually got Geum Ran’s mother forcibly admitted to a mental hospital when he suspected she may be behind the text messages he started receiving from Geum Ran. Seriously, it should not even occur to you that this frail lady, who’s just trying to mourn the sudden loss of her daughter, would actually do something like that. He physically threatened her outside of her house and then just had her kidnapped like that, what the actual fuck. Besides from being cruel, it was also so meaningless. Besides the occasional threats and intimidations towards Geum Ran and her mother, at some point he really didn’t have that much going for him anymore. After his family learned about his involvement in Geum Ran’s ‘death’ and they knew that he was even being blackmailed by Chae Yeon because she had the blackbox footage, no one really supported him anymore. He just started conspiring with Min Hyuk to still feel like he had some power in bringing Sara and Tae Hee down, but it all resulted in his own downfall. I mean, come on, he actually believed Tae Hee would help him leave the country by giving him a legit false passport? It was really satisfying to see him get cornered at the airport like that. Just like Chae Yeon, he just couldn’t bring himself to reflect on the despicable things he’d done, and how he deserved to be locked up. In his mind, he was the one being wronged, never the other way around. He and Chae Yeon might have actually been a match made in hell, seeing as their ways of thinking were so similar.
Looking at Kang Joon’s family, it’s not really a surprise where he got his limited amount of brain cells from – his mother and sisters definitely weren’t the sharpest tools in the box either. It’s a pity no one really took after his father, because he was undoubtedly the most decent of the bunch. I honestly didn’t even care about his aggressive tendencies, because what mattered most was that he cared about Geum Ran and was prepared to condemn his family members rather than hush things up in order to protect them. I think what said a lot about what kind of person he was really was lay in the fact that he knew the least of what was going on, but still was the first person to go and apologize to Geum Ran’s mother. When he found out in the final episode that Sara had been Geum Ran all this time, he literally cried as he was telling that he wished her all the happiness in the world, that was so touching. His abundance of sincerity stood in such stark contrast with the selfish and insincere way in which his wife and daughters came crawling. They just came to ask Sara for forgiveness to feel better about themselves, and also to beg her to not reveal the part Kang Joon had played in her attempted murder (again, ✨the audacity✨).
To be fair, I did feel like mother-in-law had the most sincere reaction when Kang Joon told her Sara was Geum Ran. She actually said, ‘Oh my goodness, imagine how miserable Sara must have been hearing us talk about Geum Ran like that all this time’. I mean, at least that sounded kind of reflective. If they hadn’t added the topic of redeeming Kang Joon in their apologies, I may have even redeemed them a little bit, but unfortunately that was not the case. It reminded me of that backhanded apology from Crash Course in Romance, where those women only came to ask the female lead for forgiveness so that she’d put in a good word for their kids with the math teacher. I was really proud of Sara for sitting there like 😒, calling them out on their BS before walking away. They weren’t even worthy of redemption, not after how they treated her and her mother. The way Min Young kept calling her ‘Pig Sister-in-law’ even after she died AND after they knew she was still alive. The way they literally threw Geum Ran’s mother on the street and poured water on her so she’d stop asking questions about what they’d done to her daughter. When father-in-law found out they’d done all that to his old friend he got SO mad – I honestly don’t understand how he could live with those pigheads. I could understand why he preferred to be out of the house so much though, lol.

Speaking of Geum Ran’s mother, I felt for her so much. After losing her daughter overnight, she also had to deal with her awful in-laws who just came at her while she just wanted to know what had happened to her daughter. She didn’t even know about Kang Joon’s cheating, so she really came to them without knowing anything, and she had all the right in the world to know what was going on. I’m glad at least father-in-law was sympathetic towards her. It was nice to see a softer side of him behind his stern exterior. I felt like he was nicer to Geum Ran’s mom than he was to his own wife, lol. In any case, I really loved Geum Ran’s mother because despite being a frail lady who didn’t have the power to force people to tell her the truth, she remained so strong. Even after discovering that Sara was her daughter, she never even went to confront her about it. She was prepared to just watch her evolve into this new person and find a happy life from a distance, but when Sara came to her in times of need, she always welcomed her without hesitation. Even after being physically threatened by Kang Joon herself, she still had the strength to stand up to him whenever he suddenly appeared in front of them again. She was remarkable, and it was clear as day where Geum Ran got her inner strength from.
Honestly, and this might be a bit mean to say, but I wouldn’t really have missed Kyung Joo in the whole thing. Like, it was nice that Geum Ran had one solid friend (although we never saw them spend time together when Geum Ran was still herself, she was only introduced after she transformed into Sara), and that she stuck with Yeo Ok after Geum Ran had disappeared, but I didn’t really feel like she contributed that much to the story. I just found her to be a bit ditzy and very oblivious to what was happening around her. Maybe it also had to do with the actress’ acting, because she was just very dramatic in her expressions. Whenever she learned some new information, for example that Geum Ran was still alive, she’d just go, ‘WHAT?? 😲😲😲’ in this exaggerated and almost comical way, and I couldn’t really feel any depth from her. Even in the final episode, when she just blurted out to Sara that she also wanted to get full-body plastic surgery, I just found it kind of insensitive of her as she didn’t even think about how much Sara had had to endure because of her physical transformation, and how she was still fearful of any symptoms she may get from the drastic changes made to her body. She just didn’t really add anything significant to the story in my opinion, sorry.

On the other hand, someone who I thought did contribute to the story despite his minor role was Ji Hoon. I still find it a bit vague how exactly he was pulled into Sara’s surgery by Tae Hee, because he recognized Geum Ran by name and face as the patient but he only knew that he had to keep it a secret and he didn’t even know that she was now Sara? He must have seen the end result of the surgery before he bandaged her face, right? I found it a bit hard to gauge how much he knew, but I guess he wasn’t aware of the severity of the secret because he gave it away quite easily to Chae Yeon.
In any case, I did sympathize with him because, even though he remained mostly on Chae Yeon’s side, he did acknowledge how much Tae Hee and Sara started caring for each other. He was definitely one of the people that was being manipulated by Chae Yeon’s self-victimization, and I couldn’t blame him for standing up for his family. But at least he had a conscience, and I think it said a lot about him as well when he allowed Sara to visit Tae Hee in the hospital after Mrs. Park had sent her away. I liked how he sat next to her on that bench and was like, ‘You know, I still can’t approve of you, but everyone’s gone so you can go see him now’. Just like Mrs. Park, he only asked Sara to stay away from Tae Hee because Chae Yeon had made him believe that she had been lying about her identity. He didn’t even know she was the person he’d operated on by then, so it was all kind of messed up. In any case, Ji Hoon was just trying to look out for his family and was therefore wary of anyone who could possibly harm them, and that’s a valid thing. What made me sympathize with him even more was that he did condemn Chae Yeon after he found out she’d been an accomplice in Geum Ran’s accident all along, and I liked how he told her she needed to own up to her own actions and come clean to Sara personally. When all was well and Sara and Tae Hee got married, he did seem to enjoy seeing his brother so genuinely happy, so that was good.

As badass as I’d hoped Mrs. Park to be, I really would’ve liked her to have a better nose for untrustworthy people, and with that I specifically mean Chae Yeon and Kim Joon Chul. She already had Min Hyuk and his mother on the radar, for good reason, but she could’ve been more alert to people who had lesser obvious motives to interfere with her family. Even while she didn’t trust Min Hyuk and Ji Sook, she still let herself be surprised time and time again when they’d actually go another step further, and that just proved to me that her dislike of them didn’t reach to actually suspecting them to be capable of such atrocities. As someone of her position, I also found it very strange that she let Chae Yeon in like that while she didn’t even know her. Chae Yeon just appeared out of nowhere in the room where she was basically being held by Min Hyuk and Ji Sook and she didn’t even wonder how she got in there and what she came for. Chae Yeon only introduced herself as the person Tae Hee grew up with, and that was enough for her to trust her, and it was also weird that she believed her hisses about Sara so easily while Sara was literally the person who reunited her with her long lost grandson. I just found it peculiar that, even within her position as someone who constantly had to watch her back because her own family could betray her at any moment, she just decided to trust Chae Yeon blindly and didn’t even think to consider she might have something to gain from spreading negative rumors about Sara. As I said, I just wanted Mrs. Park to find out about how Chae Yeon had been manipulating her, because Chae Yeon deserved a slap in the face.
I’m glad at least Kim Joon Chul came clean about his actions, how he literally went on his knees before Mrs. Park and even personally led the police to Ji Sook to get her arrested. No matter how awful the things he did were, at least his conscience caught up with him when Min Hyuk asked him to recreate that warehouse explosion to kill Tae Hee. The entire time I had such mixed feelings about him, how he could even stand next to Mrs. Park after killing her son and daughter-in-law, but I guess it really must’ve eaten him up to some extent. Admittedly, he only abandoned Ji Sook after confirming that she didn’t really care about what would happen to him, so there was definitely an element of loss in personal gain from the situation, but in the end I was just glad he decided not to do it, also because it was just so meaningless.

Now that I’ve discussed all the main and important side character in more detail, I just want to say something about the romantic relationship between Sara and Tae Hee. Now that I think of it, I guess it’s safe to say that besides them, there wasn’t a single other couple in this series that had an unproblematic relationship, lol. Of course, Sara and Tae Hee also had their fair share of turbulation, but at least they always found their way back to each other.
To be fair, even though I really liked their dynamic when they started out as a team and the whole ‘growing stronger together’ idea is really wonderful, I still think their relationship left several things to be desired. First of all, in terms of passion. As far as physical intimacy goes, although there are some hugs, it doesn’t really go much further than one kiss in episode 10, when they first confirm their feelings for each other. The kiss itself, although it was undeniably sweet, is still quite dry and static – they move towards each other very slowly until they just stand there pressing lips together. I mean, it’s what’s to be expected of an old-school K-Drama, but I still found it a pity that they didn’t really move beyond that level of intimacy. On the contrary, when they officially get together they’re like two giddy teenagers holding hands. Throughout the series their love language mainly consisted of staring and smiling and giving each other words of affirmation. Also, I just didn’t vibe with the whole name-calling of ‘Ahjumma’ and ‘Doctor’, I just didn’t find it romantic😬. I feel like Tae Hee’s personality also changed completely after he finally accepted his true feelings for Sara. He went from a super tsundere who kept denying the possibility of his attraction to her to an over-excited puppy dog who stepped on the accelerator. He immediately went ahead to think of marriage and children without considering Sara’s negative association regarding her previous marriage. It was more than logical for her to consider very carefully whether she wanted to get married again, but he just assumed she didn’t have any doubt and pushed that proposal on her. Even though the fact she didn’t want to get married again wasn’t the real reason for her breaking up with Tae Hee, I was proud of her for setting a boundary because with or without the break-up, it was way too fast and they were still in the middle of a really messy situation. Their first marriage plans had a really weird timing, so it was for the better that they waited until everything was settled. In any case, I thought it was very brave of Sara to, despite her actual willingness to marry Tae Hee, still give herself some more time. Also, despite the fact that Sara didn’t communicate to him properly about the true reason for the break-up, I still feel like Tae Hee could’ve guessed what caused her to do it. He may not have been aware of the fact that a lot of people had been pushing her to stay away from him, but come on, he could’ve easily just asked Chae Yeon or Mrs. Park if they’d said anything. It was obvious from Chae Yeon’s reaction to the break-up that she benefitted from it, I mean, the way she just suddenly started clinging onto him after they broke up and used the opportunity to talk even more smack about Sara should’ve been enough proof that she had something to do with it. Mrs. Park and Ji Hoon would’ve probably just told him the truth that they’d indeed talked to Sara and asked her to break up with him. He could’ve gotten the information literally from anyone, but still he decided to mope all by himself. That was a bit immature of him, and also how he immediately condemned Sara when Min Hyuk, his enemy of all people, started using her against him. There were just a lot of things that made me feel like their trust in each other wasn’t actually that solid. Tae Hee was moving way too fast and needed to slow down, and although it was a bit frustrating at some point, I’m still glad he got the time to work it out by himself, because when they were finally able to get together again, they’d grown even stronger once more.
I still think I liked them best when they just started out as a team, because their dynamic was so fun and I loved how, despite the fact they didn’t even know each other that well, they just immediately leaned on each other and backed each other up. They got along so effortlessly and that was really nice to see. Of course we know from the start that they’re going to fall for each other and it was sweet when they finally got married, but all in all I still would’ve liked to see a bit more feeling from their romance rather than just words to prove it. At least the part where Tae Hee was put under hypnosis to see Sara as Geum Ran and was forced to fall for her first before he could see Sara’s new looks again was one thing that helped in creating a bit more credibility in his true attraction to her, but I personally would’ve liked a bit more passion in terms of physical intimacy🤷🏻‍♀️.

As I’ve now reached the end of my main analysis, I just want to comment on a couple more practical details before moving on to my cast comments. First of all, the catchy music. I particularly liked the title track song ‘She’ by Jonghyun (🙏🏻may he Rest in Peace🙏🏻), as it just fit the scenes it was used in so well. I vibed each time the line ‘Oh I’m in lo~ove with you’ came on, haha. I also liked the song ‘Dazzling’ by Lee Hae Na. The ballads that were used were properly dramatic, and I just liked the general sound of the OST.
Regarding the series’ title itself, I liked that they kept it as a reference to the story. Sara wins a cooking competition called ‘Birth of a Chef’ at some point, and I believe there’s a few more uses of the word pun in the rest of the series as well, even with regards to Tae Hee. Besides it being the literal English translation of the Korean title, I just liked how well it fitted the entire story and also referred to an expression used in the series.

Time for the cast comments! This might be a lesser positive section, as I wasn’t that impressed by the acting overall (🥲) but I still want to go over some people because I knew the majority of the cast and I just like making comments 😌.

Starting on a positive note with the OG Geum Ran, Ha Jae Sook. I’ve seen her once before in My Absolute Boyfriend and I even believe she was my favorite character there. Honestly, #JusticeForOGSaGeumRan. I really loved her. She was such a sweetheart and deserved so much better. I actually found it a pity that we didn’t get to know her a bit better the way she was before she turned into Sara, also because now I found it hard to gauge whether Sara really kept all of Geum Ran’s mannerisms and stuff. It’s through Sara that we learn about her background in judo and how she always sang trot songs, and I wish we’d at least gotten to see a bit more of those habits so we as viewers could clearly recognize them in Sara. I did like that they kept her in the show as more than just a flashback, but that she appeared in that mirror scene and when Tae Hee was hypnotized to see her as what she used to look like. I would’ve liked to see more of that, even, but this sufficed. At least it was clear enough that Sara still fell back on her at times, and that the reference to OG Geum Ran played an important part in Sara’s journey to accept herself for who she really was. Ha Jae Sook was absolutely lovely in this, she gave off such a warm and loving energy. I liked to see her in this and I enjoyed her performance.

I’ve seen Han Ye Seul before in Madame Antoine (which I loved) and 20th Century Boy and Girl (which I found incredibly boring). I don’t want to sound mean, but the thing I always have with her is that I feel like she’s casted a lot for her looks. As in, when they need a character to play a model, or just someone who is defined as being ‘particularly’ visually attractive, they go for her. At least that’s the impression I’ve gotten from what I’ve seen from her so far. Don’t get me wrong, I know she’s a good actress because she really delivered in Madame Antoine, but for the rest I guess I’ve only seen her in things where her character was led first and foremost by her looks. She was casted as an attractive person, and I still need some persuasion to really appreciate her for her acting skills. If someone has a recommendation of a drama with her where she does act beyond her looks, please let me know, because I really want to see more variety from her. No hard feelings towards the actress whatsoever, I’m just stating my opinion based on what I’ve seen of her so far. In any case, while there were moments where I really enjoyed her quirkiness, there were also moments where I thought she became a bit stiff or awkward. As I mentioned in the above comments about OG Geum Ran, I just didn’t get a clear enough impression of OG Geum Ran’s original personality to be able to determine if Sara proceeded to replicate her exact habits. It was like we got to know everything there was to know about how she’d always been through Sara rather than through OG Geum Ran. So yeah, the typical ahjumma habits, the humming of trots songs, the quirky head-in-neck out-loud-laughing was fun and all, but I just had to assume that those were things Geum Ran used to do. I would’ve liked to get a clearer transition from Geum Ran to Sara in terms of mannerisms to get the image that she was really the same person in a different body. I hope I’m explaining it clearly enough, haha.
By the way, I just saw an article on MDL announcing Han Ye Seul’s possible return in a drama series after a four-year hiatus. Her last project was from 2019, so I wonder what she’s been up to. I wish that I could see more from her, but I’m unlikely to dig deeper than 2014 and I’ve seen her most recent stuff, so I guess I’ll just have to wait until something new comes out. Anyways, to sum it up: while I thought she was probably the ideal casting choice for Sara in terms of visuals, I still would’ve liked to get a bit more depth in her acting. But all in all, she did well.

I’ve seen Joo Sang Wook before in Fantastic and Fates and Furies, as mentioned. I feel like his performance of Tae Hee may have come closer to his character in Fantastic, because I remember him being kind of eccentric there as well. I definitely appreciated the goofiness with which he played Tae Hee because it was such a stark contrast with his melancholical character in F&F, which is what I remember him most clearly from. However, sometimes I feel like he gives off a bit of a forced impression, that he tries to be funny rather than that his acting comes from within. Just like with Han Ye Seul, I really want to see more variety in his acting. I know I at least have one more drama of him on my list (Touch), so hopefully that’ll be a nice addition to my references. All in all, it was nice to see him as a more eccentric character. Before we find out he’s the heir of Winner Group he’s kind of an enigma, and I also wondered why he was pretending to be a doctor to Sara. Even after he’d confessed he wasn’t a doctor, Sara kept calling him ‘Doctor’, which I kept finding kind of weird because it just didn’t seemed a bit random.
As I mentioned earlier, I was a bit disappointed in the main leads’ (passionate) chemistry, but I still liked the dynamic between Tae Hee and Sara, especially in the beginning when they teamed up for the first time. They were like a comedy duo and it was very entertaining to see them start out all awkwardly and then become more confident in their tactics throughout the series. My favorite moment was definitely when he walked into that shareholders’ meeting in the final episode while Min Hyuk thought he’d been killed and was just like, ‘hiya, let’s just do that voting thing again, shall we?’ 👌🏻 I liked seeing him as a more energetic character from him, I hope to see more of him in the future.

It’s funny because the second the relationship between Geum Ran and Kang Joon was established, I found myself thinking that they reminded me of Oh My Venus, where the guy dumped his long-term girlfriend because she was fat. And then I realized that Jung Gyeo Woon was actually played that guy as well! No wonder he seemed so familiar, he was basically the same character in a different font, lol. (By the way, not me just realizing that Oh My Venus is from 2015 and came out just one year after BoaB 🙉 why does OMV feel like a much more recent drama?) Anyways, apparently he also appeared in God’s Gift – 14 Days, but it’s been too long for me to remember. I sure hope he also gets casted as friendly people every once in a while! It seems like he’s typically casted as the jerk second male lead, lol. Admittedly, he was very convincing as Scumbag Kang Joon, I think this is probably the most intimidated I’ve been by him so far. He really started creeping me out at some point. It feels as though I haven’t seen him appear in much recently, and after checking I see that his last project was from 2017, so I’m not sure if he’s still all that active 🤔. I wonder if I’ll ever get to see him as a nice person in a drama, I’m really curious as to what vibe he’ll give off with a different energy!

I thought I didn’t recognize Wang Ji Hye, but apparently she was also the second female lead in Personal Preference. It’s been a very long time since I’ve seen that, but I do have a vague memory of the second female lead, and in particular her manic psycho eyes, lol. I guess that must have been her, indeed! 🙉 So yeah, I have very few nice things to say about her character, as I’ve established elaborately in my review, but I have to give the actress some credit for making me loathe Chae Yeon so much. I’m not sure if it was even the writers’ intention to make the viewers feel sorry for Chae Yeon at some point, but I don’t feel like that was the case. It wasn’t for me, anyway. While I always like to compliment actors who play bad guys successfully, I did sometimes get a bit annoyed by her acting. She was laying it on real thick with her manic eyes and grins to emphasize her twistedness and she could’ve done with less. She would’ve probably been more unpredictable and intimidating if she’d kept on a poker face, for example. Anyways, I see she’s been actively doing projects up to 2021 so far, so maybe I’ll get to see her in something else in the future. I just want to see her as a friendly character for a change, lol.

I’ve seen Han Sang Jin before in Hyde, Jekyll, Me and Circle, and I know I liked these shows but I don’t remember him from either of them because it’s been too long. You can clearly see what happens if I don’t write reviews about shows, they just kind of appear into the abyss of distant memories, lol. I see on MDL that he’s also in at least one other show that’s coming up on my list, so hopefully I’ll get to see another side of his acting. I have the feeling that I didn’t see him as a villain before, because I instinctively didn’t associate him with an evil character, which is a good thing, I guess. Min Hyuk was definitely a very intensely layered character, although I still don’t completely understand where his personal greed came from, if it wasn’t solely the influence of his mother. He was ostracized by his father’s family for being an illegitimate child, but was that really a reason to start killing people? His intentions were definitely problematic, and I also felt like his crush on Sara only complicated things. His infatuation with her made an even bigger mess of his already twisted plan to take over Winner Group. It was so gratifying to see all those board members turn against him during that final shareholders’ meeting, and to see him glare at Tae Hee while he was being dragged away by the police👌🏻I think he showed a nice variety of sides to his acting, from the friendly face he used exclusively for Sara to the gob he pulled whenever Tae Hee came into his line of vision. I think with this role he’s showed more than I’ve seen in other roles of him so far, so that was nice.

It took me a moment to realize that In Gyo Jin was actually pretty handsome when he was younger, lol. The only other dramas I’ve seen him in, at least the ones I wrote reviews about, feature him as a kind of perverted middle-aged man, and I think this was the first time I saw something in which he didn’t play a comic relief character. He really impressed me with Ji Hoon’s calm and sober personality because it showed a side of his acting I hadn’t seen before. I know him from Sassy Go Go, Jugglers (oh GOD, I remember his character in Jugglers 🫥) and most recently in Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha. I really liked seeing him here, I thought Ji Hoon was one of those characters who existed in-between the chaos, and it was necessary to have someone like him there to add some balance to the scale. Although he wasn’t particularly supportive of Tae Hee and Sara’s relationship, he never became as petty as his sister. He had to see both sides of a situation before he would judge it, and I’m not even mad at him for instinctively sticking with his family. I think he was probably the only person who’d remain on Chae Yeon’s side after everyone left her, and I dearly hope Chae Yeon is also aware of that. I liked his performance.

I feel like I’ve seen Han Jin Hee in a whole bunch of things, but apparently I only know him from I Miss You and High Schooler King of Life. In any case, he’s a familiar face and because he has such a typically stern exterior and expression, I liked seeing a more gentle side of him as Kang Joon’s father. At least not his entire family was a chaos pit. He definitely touched me the most in the final episode when he told Sara with tears in his eyes how sorry he was and how much he hoped she would be happy. If that wasn’t the epitome of sincerity, I don’t know what was. It may have been the most sincere thing anyone said in the entire series. It’s always nice to see a side of certain actors I haven’t seen before, and I really liked him in this show for being one of the few decent people with a normal conscience.

I just discovered Kim Young Ae died of pancreatic cancer in 2017, three years after this show came out. She was only 66. She’d been appearing in dramas and movies ever since the 70s, and her last project stems from 2016. I’ve seen her before in The Moon That Embraces The Sun (as the Queen Dowager), Kill Me, Heal Me (as the ML’s grandmother) and Doctors (as the FL’s grandmother). While her character as Kang Joon’s mother was of course nowhere near decent, I did think she made the most out of portraying her. I can imagine that it can be kind of fun to play a character on the bad side. I did get the impression that she had a good time pretending to be so dramatic, constantly going, ‘Oh, my head, my poor head’ whenever new and damaging information about Kang Joon came forward. While she still only came to ask Sara for forgiveness with the wrong intentions, I was surprised that her first reaction to learning that Sara was Geum Ran wasn’t something like, ‘So she tricked us this whole time, how dare she!’ She didn’t pin it back on her like Kang Joon and Chae Yeon did, she actually made a reflective comment on how hard it must’ve been for her, and that surprised me. I wonder what kind of person mother-in-law really was behind her marriage, because I didn’t really understand how she and father-in-law had ever been in love with each other, lol. So yeah, her character was definitely not that sympathetic, but I’d like to think she had fun with it. May she Rest in Peace 🙏🏻

I’ve only seen Kim Chung before in Cinderella’s Sister, but it feels like a decade since I’ve watched that so I don’t remember her. To be completely honest, I didn’t like her acting at all. She was doing too much with her facial expressions and too little with her acting skills. It just felt like she pasted it on too much without truly feeling what she was supposed to convey, and that’s kind of risky when you’re also playing a villain character for which people will already have less sympathy. That was the case for me, anyways. Maybe I’ll see some other drama with her in the future where she delivers a more notable performance, but what she did in this show just wasn’t it for me. Then again, this is my only reference of her, she’s been doing dramas and movies since the 80s, so I’m sure this isn’t all there is to her acting.

I’ve seen Lee Jong Nam before in My Girlfriend is a Nine-Tailed Fox and Mask. As I said in my review, Geum Ran’s mother or Shim Yeo Ok to use her full character name, was possibly one of my favorite characters. She was just so steady, even through all the threats she received and the things she was made to endure at Kang Joon’s hands. She was so strong. I wish there could have been some scenes between her and OG Geum Ran in the beginning, I wanted to see their mother-daughter dynamic, because even after she and Sara were reunited, they never even hugged or showed any kind of deep bond, even though they were very close as I understood. There was that cute photo of OG Geum Ran and her mother at a judo game, but I didn’t really know how Geum Ran’s relationship with her mother was, and this also couldn’t be established right away after she transformed into Sara, as she only kept watching her mother from a distance. I don’t know, I would’ve liked to see a bit more mother-daughter bonding, I guess. I did love the scene where Kang Joon visited Sara at that restaurant where she’d disappeared to, and her mother came in to shoo him away. Even when the last time she’d seen him, he’d threatened her and put her in a mental hospital, she still didn’t back away from him in order to protect her daughter, and that was amazing. I really liked her performance, she was the best mom to Geum Ran.

I’ve seen Shim Yi Young before in Mary Stayed Out All Night, Legend of the Blue Sea, Thirty But Seventeen, Fates and Furies (👀) and Love Alarm, and there’s some more dramas with her on my watchlist. I’ve already mentioned in my review that I didn’t really think she was that much of an important character, and I also had some difficulty with her acting, to be honest. It just felt like she was trying really hard to play a ditzy, carefree person and it just kind of clashed with the rest of the characters? I’m not really sure how to explain it. I just felt like her acting was too exaggerated and the fact that they ended with her telling Sara she also wanted surgery was kind of inappropriate, lol. It just felt like she had no idea what Sara had gone through, despite allegedly being her closest friend. Here again, I would’ve liked to see some scenes between her and OG Geum Ran to establish their friendship, because I didn’t really feel a best friend connection between her and Sara, even after they were reunited. I know she can do better because I’ve seen her in more things, so I guess this was just a starting phase and she’s been improving her acting a lot since then.

I haven’t seen anything with Kim Yong Rim, aka Mrs. Park, but I had the same kind of opinion as with a couple of other actors’ performances in this series. While I liked Mrs. Park’s character in itself, I did feel like she sometimes overacted a bit with pulling grumpy faces and making grunting sounds when she was displeased (which was often). I would’ve liked her to be a bit more alert to people that might approach her for personal gain, such as Chae Yeon. It just didn’t make sense to me why her character would just let a stranger in and believe everything they say without considering the option that they might be out for something. I’m curious to see more sides of her acting, as I’m sure she’s done a lot, so hopefully I’ll see more of her acting in future watches.

It took me longer than a day (again) to properly structure my review, but at least I managed to add everything I wanted to say. All in all, it was definitely not the best show I’ve watch in terms of quality, but for an old-school K-Drama I still found it quite entertaining. Sometimes cringy acting and sloppy writing are just part of the deal, and I wasn’t even bothered that much by the stylistic inconsistencies. My frustration primarily went to the villain characters, which is pretty much the point, I guess. Apart from that I thought it was really nice that the writers included the meaningful layer of Geum Ran/Sara’s character development and that they focussed on getting her and Tae Hee to help each other heal and fully accept themselves before they could be truly happy together. I’m glad I gave this show a chance, despite everything I was invested in the story and I found the ending extremely gratifying. Not gonna lie, I was literally clapping throughout the final episode because it was so 👏🏻 freaking 👏🏻 satisfying 👏🏻 how all the bad guys finally got what they deserved. It was definitely a better revenge story than F&F (yes, I’m gonna keep saying it). The thing with revenge plots is that they sometimes get pretty dark and intense when you dive into the revenge-taker’s mind, as we also saw for example in Itaewon Class. Birth of a Beauty however, manages to keep its tone light, while never diminishing the effect the revenge plot has on everyone. I liked that throughout the revenge being executed, there were so many funny and sweet moment to balance it out. The whole preface of a woman who changes her appearance to get back at her unfaithful husband and his mistress may be quite extreme, but they never made it into a comedy act or something not to be taken seriously. This was also reflected in Sara reflecting on the physical consequences her plastic surgeries could possibly inflict on her later on. I think they managed to maintain the balance between the light and the more heavy stuff very well.
Apart from the satisfaction of the final episode in terms of justice finally being served, I also think a lot of the main messages from the story were conveyed through this final bit. For example, when Kyung Joo asked Sara about why she thought the people had embraced her even after she admitted to lying about her true identity, Sara said that she thought it must be because there are so many people who are able to relate to Geum Ran’s pain. It’s funny how the main female lead, the tragic heroine who was the biggest victim of all, never started acting like a victim in the way Chae Yeon did, for example. It just really put things in perspective, and that’s also why I feel like Geum Ran is a really iconic lead female character. She went to hell and back but only came out stronger, but inside and out, and managed to pave the way for her own happy ending, all by herself. We can definitely learn from her!

As the end of the year draws near (hey, that rhymes), I think I’m going to watch some shorter (Netflix) shows to get into a more relaxed mood. I hope I’ll be able to upload a couple more reviews before the year ends, but I’m not going to rush anything. You’ll see it when it appears! Thanks again for reading this all the way through, I hope my efforts paid off in restructuring and rewriting it.

Well then, until next time!
Bye-bee! x

Crush

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Crush
( 原来我很爱你 / Yuan Lai Wo Hen Ai Ni / So I Love You Very Much)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hi everyone! It’s time for a new review! I hope everyone’s enjoying the spooky season so far and finding ways to keep themselves warm and comfortable. I’m still very busy with my studies, but it’s nice to spend my free moments watching series, even if it takes me longer to finish something than before. This one was also recommended to me, although I don’t remember by whom, haha. I just know I put it on my list because someone mentioned it to me, and I probably wouldn’t have discovered it if it hadn’t been for that, so here we are. I am excited to share my views on this show as I have several things to say about it, both in a positive and in a more critical way. All in all, I enjoyed it, it was definitely one of the qualitatively better Chinese dramas I’ve seen so far. Besides the portrayal of a handicapped lead character, I also really liked the interwoven theme of music and how it can truly bring people together.

Crush is a iQiyi Chinese drama series with 24 episodes of about 45 minutes each. It tells the love story of Sang Wu Yan (played by Wan Peng) and Su Nian Qin (played by Lin Yan Jun/Evan Lin). At the beginning of the story, Sang Wu Yan is a psychology major who simultaneously works part-time at a radio broadcasting station, as she has a separate love for music and radio-making. She’s always listening to her favorite broadcasting channels on her phone and keeps track of new releases, particularly from her favorite ‘mystery’ songwriter and composer Yi Jin. She initially lives with her college- and roommate Cheng Yin (Chen Mei Yi) in the city Xiamen, whereas her hometown is called Tongcheng (I’m just mentioning this here because these two cities will be referred to hereafter as well as she goes back and forth between them a couple of times).
When we first meet Wu Yan, she’s in a bit of an awkward situation with two of her best friends, Wei Hao (Li Jia Hao) and Xu Qian (Niu Yu Kun). Wu Yan and Wei Hao basically grew up together and at some point, even when they weren’t officially ‘dating’, Wu Yan had kind of expected to end up with him. As for Xu Qian, Wu Yan met her in school and became friends with her through their shared love for the radio, and Wei Hao later joined their little group. Shortly before the start of the story, Wu Yan has busted Wei Hao and Xu Qian making out, and although the two have been trying to make amends with her, Wu Yan has been avoiding them both for a while.
On the other hand, there’s Su Nian Qin, a young man who is visually impaired and doesn’t seem to have any family to support him, yet he lives quite comfortably in a big house. We find out quite soon that Nian Qin is actually the mystery composer Yi Jin, of whom Wu Yan is such a fan. Because of the trauma regarding his childhood (his mother passing away in a car accident right in front of him -while he couldn’t see- and his father turning his back on him and dumping him at a care home), Nian Qin has closed himself off from other people almost completely, with the sole exception of his agent/relative Yu Xiao Lu (Li Jia Qi). When his father suddenly reaches out to him after years, he wants nothing to do with him, and what makes it even more awkward is that his stepmother is not only Nian Qin’s age, but they actually used to be friends and classmates (stuff be messy). Xiao Lu is actually the sister of this stepmother, but for some reason he’s okay with having her around as his caretaker/manager. He has no intention of revealing that he is Yi Jin either because he doesn’t want to be in the spotlight. He’s gotten used to living in the dark, not seeing anyone and not being seen in return.
One day, Wu Yan takes a break outside the radio station building and sits on a park bench listening to the most recent Yi Jin release, singing along completely out of tune (since she’s tone deaf, a fun detail), before realizing that there’s a very handsome young man sitting on the bench next to her – and she falls for Nian Qin at first sight. They meet again at the radio station, where she first realizes he’s blind because of his walking stick, but she misses the opportunity to find out that he’s Yi Jin. However, it doesn’t take long for Wu Yan to figure it out as she ends up doing an internship at a special education school where Nian Qin just happens to substitute for someone as well, teaching the visually impaired children how to read braille. When she hears him play the piano in the music room, Wu Yan quickly connects the dots. Even though Nian Qin is quite annoyed by her persistent nature at first – because when she starts pursuing him she doesn’t beat around the bush – he comes to appreciate her presence more and more. Very gradually, Wu Yan manages to work her way into Nian Qin’s heart and when the latter finally acknowledges his own feelings for her, the two start a really sweet relationship.

Just to clarify, Nian Qin is not completely blind. He can distinguish shapes and movements when they happen right in front of him, but he can’t make out sharp details. Whether it’s light or dark also doesn’t seem to affect his sight much. In any case, it’s not like he can’t ‘sense’ Wu Yan’s presence whatsoever. He still has all his other (amplified) senses to know that she’s near, like through her scent and voice. Wu Yan, in turn, tries to be as considerate as possible in dealing with her boyfriend’s impairment without making him seem like some patient in need of constant care. While she’s initially the kind of person who keeps asking if he needs help with something, she becomes so used to his handicap that it sometimes even seems like she forgets he can’t see well altogether. In any case, she shows that she wants to understand him, for example in trying to walk around her own apartment blindfolded to feel what it must be like for him. Even when they get married in the end, I thought it was a really touching decision of her to walk down the aisle with her eyes closed, even though Nian Qin’s eyesight was already restored by that point. I just mean to say, she really tries to understand her boyfriend and all of his issues as best she can to support him as well as possible.

So yeah, the story is about Wu Yan and Nian Qin meeting, falling in love and getting together, with Nian Qin’s visual impairment as the central theme, followed closely by their shared love for music. I loved the love language that was created between them, how she would guide him through the house in order to (re)decorate, hold his hands to trace her face or tried to show him the warmth effect of light on his skin, how she got him to feel the texture of leaves and enjoyed the sound of rain with him. In terms of music, Nian Qin would never let an opportunity slide to tease Wu Yan about her tone-deafness, he would teach her how to play the piano, they would exchange music playlists, etc. The sweet moments of their relationship were illustrated really beautifully in ways to show how much they accepted each other, flaws and all, but never made each other feel bad about their respective shortcomings.
The relationship between the two builds up for about 10 episodes before things start going awry, they face some serious turbulence and break up. Then there’s a 3-year time leap into the future where they meet again. By then, Nian Qin has gotten his eyesight fixed, patched things up with his dad’s family and is now the CEO of his father’s business. As I thought Nian Qin’s visual impairment would be the main theme of the show, I found this transformation quite surprising, also because it made it seem like Nian Qin was the only one who had to ‘get his life back together’ after the break-up, even though his impairment and ambiguous family ties allegedly ‘weren’t an issue’ when he and Wu Yan first got together.
Anyhow, after meeting again like this Nian Qin and Wu Yan eventually get together again, and then suddenly no one has any remarks anymore. They start anew without any other ‘inconveniences’, they get married, and the show ends with Wu Yan getting pregnant and ultimately with them taking a walk as a happy little family. All’s well that ends well.

HOWEVER. Before it gets to that point, there’s a lot of problematic stuff that happens and I need to devote a paragraph to this because it was the most frustrating part of the show for me. It wasn’t even the typical love triangle/rival kind of drama, which in hindsight might have even been less stressful, lol. Honestly I was kind of scared that this would happen because it seemed llike Wu Yan’s senior at the radio broadcasting agency had a thing for Nian Qin and even became jealous of their relationship to the point where she even started to treat Wu Yan in a petty way at work, but then suddenly she was happy for them and nothing of the sort happened afterwards (I’m not counting that Peng Rui Xing guy because he didn’t even come close to becoming a love rival). No, I’m talking about the break-up arc, which takes from about episode 10 to 16. Up until this point, I was really enjoying the show, the story, the build-up of the romance between the two leads and the element of music, but then this happened and I’m still not entirely sure what went down or how it happened, but here goes my analysis.

First of all I need to introduce Wu Yan’s parents, and especially her mom. Cheng Jia Ying (played by Ma Li) is all too eager to see her daughter get married, and whenever things don’t go her way in this (for example in the situation with Wei Hao), she’s the first to blame Wu Yan for messing things up. She’s more critical than her husband in regards to who her daughter should end up with, so naturally when she hears her daughter’s new boyfriend is both ‘blind’ and ‘an orphan’ (both not entirely true but this is just how her prejudicial mind registers it) she’s beside herself with disdain. She refuses to even meet Nian Qin in person and throws a tantrum in trying to get Wu Yan to break up with him and move back home.
All in all, I found Wu Yan’s mother very childish. She kept treating Wu Yan like a little child while she was literally an adult, living by herself, taking care of her own life. I get that you’d want to ensure that your child is in good hands when she engages in a romantic relationship, and that the external factors of Nian Qin’s visual impairment and background may have been a reason to worry, but I found it really unfair of her to not even meet with him and just base her entire opinion of him on a couple of prejudices. Her narrow-mindedness is only confirmed when she’s introduced to Nian Qin when the two get together again three years later, when his sight is restored and he’s a CEO, because then she’s suddenly the happiest mother-in-law in the world.
About Wu Yan’s father, he doesn’t appear as much as her mother, and he sadly passes away halfway through the story, but even though he was constantly made out to have the same views as his wife on his daughter’s relationship, he actually shows that he’s much more open-minded than Wu Yan’s mother. When Wu Yan visits him at the hospital and he asks about her boyfriend, she immediately brings up the facts that he’s visually impaired and grew up in a care home, but is then interrupted by her father asking, ‘yeah, but do you love him? that’s the most important thing’ and I was like FINALLY someone who sees reason🙏🏻THANK YOU DAD🙏🏻 So yeah, although his wife was going around telling everyone, including Nian Qin, that she and her husband BOTH disapproved of their relationship, in the end this was only attributed to her own pettiness. Nian Qin never even got to meet Wu Yan’s father in the end, which was quite sad.

I can no longer avoid talking about the part that frustrated me the most. The part where things just went from bad to worse to worst, not just in terms of events and incidents, but also when it comes to the deteriorating communication between Wu Yan and Nian Qin. I’ll try to go through the events and the effects they have on the couple as briefly as possible.
The first incenting incident is when Wu Yan’s mother comes to visit her daughter in Xiamen, but refuses to meet with Nian Qin. Wu Yan has told Nian Qin she’s bringing someone over to introduce to him, and Xiao Lu then tells him this is probably her mom since she saw the two women get into a car together, so naturally Nian Qin is quite excited and anxious to meet his girlfriend’s mother for the first time.
However, the next moment he can’t reach Wu Yan for the entire day. She only picks up his calls once or twice to tell him, ‘not now, I’m busy’ without giving him any indication of what she’s busy with or where she is. Like, I get that she was fighting with her mom, but this actually involved him as well, it involved their relationship, so I felt like she should’ve at least kept him in the loop about the situation in general, and not just (literally) keep him in the dark. The next day, she returns home without bringing anyone else, and when Nian Qin asks her about the visitor she said she’d bring, she just makes up an excuse like, ‘oh yeah no something came up’. I don’t know about you, but I don’t think this is considered to be proper communication. I actually found it quite selfish of her to just pretend nothing had happened, and all the more because she basically took advantage of the fact that Nian Qin couldn’t see or find out what was happening for himself.
Secondly, and this is a tragic part, but the same night Wu Yan’s mom returns home to Tongcheng and starts ranting to her husband about how irresponsible their daughter is, Wu Yan’s father collapses due to a brain hemorrhage and is taken to the hospital with urgency. In response to this, Wu Yan’s mother decides NOT TO TELL WU YAN. As in, she actually hides from her own daughter that her father is in the hospital in critical condition, and she even lies to her, making up reasons why he can’t come to the phone (he’s on a business trip, he’s already asleep, etc.). And then when Wu Yan eventually finds out through some random relative who’s like, ‘oh by the way I heard about your father, is he okay?’ (because yeah, who wouldn’t expect a daughter to know about her own father’s condition?), Wu Yan’s mother even has the audacity to still pin it on Wu Yan. It’s not even because she didn’t tell her what had happened, no, even if she’d told her, Wu Yan would’ve only cared about her own love life rather than taking care of her parents. How dare you even say that as a mother to your child? Had Wu Yan known about this from the start, she would’ve immediately travelled back to Tongcheng, so her mother was just making up excuses to guilt-trip her daughter into coming back home and breaking up with Nian Qin.
This part kind of overlaps with another part which causes more friction in the relationship between Wu Yan and Nian Qin. Actually, the two have already decided they want to get married, and Nian Qin has even made an appointment with his (estranged) family to introduce Wu Yan to his father. Unfortunately, the news about Wu Yan’s father’s condition reaches her a day before this appointment, and she immediately decides to go back to Tongcheng, which I can’t blame her for. However, in her panicked state, she completely forgets to consider Nian Qin’s feelings. I feel like everything would’ve been alright if she’d just told Nian Qin what she’d heard and I have no doubt that he would’ve immediately let her go back home, in fact he would’ve probably insisted to go with her. Instead, she literally just runs off – when Xiao Lu asks her, ‘what about meeting Nian Qin’s father tomorrow?’ she literally says, ‘that’s not important right now’ (I mean, kinda harsh?) and she just returns home to pack her stuff while Nian Qin is standing right next to her, getting all anxious about why she’s suddenly leaving, and she still doesn’t tell him ANYTHING. In fact, she gets mad at him for trying to stop her from leaving, calling him selfish before storming off. Girl, how is he supposed to understand why you suddenly have to leave if you don’t explain a single damn thing to him? I couldn’t blame him for trying to stop her, because he (naturally) misunderstood the situation. This was an example where it seemed like Wu Yan just forgot about his visual impairment. She got mad at him for not grasping the situation while he literally couldn’t see and she didn’t tell him anything. Instead of talking with him about the situation at hand and letting him in on her troubles so that they could figure something out together, she just left him standing there and then proceeded to text Xiao Lu about what happened. She takes the time to send his agent a proper text explaining what has happened to her father, but she doesn’t even bother telling her boyfriend about it in person. What the actual heck.
In the meantime, Nian Qin also receives a phone call from Wu Yan’s mom, where she tells him how she and her husband (who’s literally incapacitated at that moment) both disapprove of their relationship – he has to hear about this whole ongoing conflict between Wu Yan and her mom through his girlfriend’s mom. Naturally, this only strengthens his anxiety in that he’s not good enough for Wu Yan’s family. Simultaneously, his own father (who’s waiting for a liver donor) also takes a turn for the worse and in his already stressful situation of dealing with Wu Yan, Nian Qin is forced to get in contact with the family he’s been trying to avoid for years.
After taking care of her dad for a short while and being assured by him that everything is fine, Wu Yan briefly goes back to Xiamen to make up with Nian Qin, but then she overhears him talking about how he feels like he’s a burden to her family. I don’t exactly remember what he said but it was taken out of context and it sounded like he was criticizing her parents or something, so she gets angry at him again, AGAIN without properly talking to him to figure out the misunderstanding. She immediately returns to Tongcheng after this failed attempt at reconciliation (which was completely on her, in my opinion), and while she gets drunk on a bench that night, sadly her father passes away.

So yeah, it’s a whole rollercoaster of unfortunate events that leads to the crumbling of Wu Yan and Nian Qin’s relationship. My frustrations were a bit divided, because in terms of Wu Yan VS. her mom I was definitely on Team Wu Yan. Her mom kept her in the dark about her father’s condition yet still found ways to lay the blame on her, and she even pushed her away rather than unite in their grief after the father’s passing. The fact that she couldn’t get past her own pride and pettiness even in situations like this was just unbelievable to me and I felt really sorry for Wu Yan.
On the other hand, in terms of Wu Yan VS. Nian Qin, I was Team Nian Qin all the way. The only reason Nian Qin isn’t able to communicate properly is because Wu Yan just leaves him behind grasping at straws as to what she’s thinking. I just couldn’t understand why she would do this to him after being so persistent in pursuing him in the first place. She literally keeps him in the dark and doesn’t even consider his feelings in all of it. Heck, Nian Qin only finds out Wu Yan’s father passed away when she freaking broadcasts the story on the radio for everyone to hear, three years later. She never tells him anything personally, and I hated that he had to find out that way. Because as soon as he finds out her father passed away while she was back in Xiamen to visit him, he starts blaming himself for keeping Wu Yan from being with her dad the moment he passed. Everything just led to annoying and unnecessary feelings of guilt and it was really frustrating to watch. Despite the fact that they were doing so well in terms of communicating when it came to Wu Yan adapting to Nian Qin’s needs as a visual impaired person, when it came to tackling serious situations like this together, it seemed that they really weren’t that solid as a couple at all.

Let me just take a quick breather here to talk about Wei Hao and Xu Qian, because they are quite important supporting characters who also have their own storyline in-between the whole Wu Yan VS. Nian Qin drama. Despite the fact that we’re initially led to believe Wei Hao cheated on Wu Yan by kissing Xu Qian – at least that’s how it seemed to me at first – it turns out that there really wasn’t any kind of romantic relationship between Wu Yan and Wei Hao, and it’s more like Wu Yan feels betrayed by suddenly finding herself ‘left out’ while her two best friends developed feelings for each other. Once this feeling subsides, and they all prove that they’re not willing to let something like this ruin their friendship, they all manage to come around and make amends and continue to be good friends throughout the story.
I thought it was nice how they were all involved in music in some way: while Wu Yan may have been tone deaf and settled for working at a radio broadcasting station, Wei Hao and Xu Qian were part of their university’s band Momo, with Wei Hao on the guitar and Xu Qian as the vocalist (unlike Wu Yan she is a really good singer). One part of the story is about the band getting a chance to sign under the label of the broadcasting agency Wu Yan works at, but Xu Qian is under too much pressure from her family to settle for a musican’s life and is determined to stick to an office job, although she realizes she doesn’t enjoy working at the radio station as much as Wu Yan does. It even plays a part in her relationship with Wei Hao at some point, because he is much less ambitious than her. He’s not the type for an office job, the musician life suits him much better and that troubles Xu Qian a bit, even though she wouldn’t want him to change who he is for the world. In any case, they manage to make it work and Wei Hao also ends up working for a big company, one that is eventually taken over by Nian Qin as the new CEO. After the 3-year time leap, Wei Hao and Xu Qian have gotten married and there are some cute scenes where Wei Hao is seen picking Xu Qian up after work and other instances where the two consistently have each other’s back, so that’s very sweet.

So yeah, then there’s the 3-year time leap in which Nian Qin decides to fix his sight after all (I am convinced he did this for Wu Yan no matter what other reasons he may have had) and takes up his father’s business as the new CEO, also taking over the company Wei Hao works at. In the meantime, Wu Yan is approaching her graduation and besides working as a broadcaster she also works (or volunteers?) at a center for children with a special needs; she’s put in charge of a little boy with autism at some point. When they meet again, Nian Qin seems to have become an entirely different person – he’s suddenly extremely assertive (and sometimes even quite agressive) in trying to win Wu Yan’s affection and when they finally get back together he also becomes more clingy than ever, occasionally even to Wu Yan’s own aversion. I could understand it from his point of view though – after feeling so isolated during his visual impairment, now that he could see again he probably just wanted to make sure he had as much control over everything that was important to him as possible, and Wu Yan had become his entire world. He would drop work meetings whenever he sensed he needed to be by her side, his devotion was definitely remarkable. That’s not to say it didn’t get a bit annoying or even restrictive at some point.
Honestly, as much as I admired Nian Qin’s devotion when it came to Wu Yan, at some point towards the ending, particularly after they got married, I was a bit put off by him trying to make a typical housewife out of her. The routine of her having to greet him when he came home, the forehead kisses and the arm rubs, the fact that he didn’t even want her to go shopping when she got pregnant and the fact that he wanted her to treat him the same way as she treated her autistic child patient, blowing on his food for him and stuff all really gave me the ick. I couldn’t even get mad at Wu Yan when she was talking with Xiao Lu and she went, ‘so unless we get divorced I’ll have to deal with his behavior for the rest of my life?’, lol. I mean, of course she wasn’t really planning on divorcing him, but it still made me go like, yeah girl, you’re stuck with him now!🤷🏻‍♀️I think it’s safe to say that this drama fits the classic trope of ‘she fell first but he fell harder’ to a fault.

There’s one more thing I want to comment on in terms of the relationship dynamic between Wu Yan and Nian Qin, especially because it changed so much with Nian Qin’s transformation after the 3-year time leap. In the first part, where Nian Qin is still visually impaired, he is a very passive person. Of course, he’s learned not to make sudden movements and he’s careful with walking, but also in his expressions, he seems to be kind of numb and emotionless. His first transformation happens when he and Wu Yan first get together, when he still has the handicap. He starts smiling and laughing more, and gets a more mischievous streak. After regaining his eyesight completely, it’s like nothing is holding him back anymore, and he kind of bulldozer-corners Wu Yan in his attempts to get her back. The first few times when he initiates a kiss with her it’s also quite forceful, and Wu Yan even pushes him away. In contrast, while Wu Yan made the most effort in pursuing Nian Qin in the first place, as soon as he opens up to her more and starts initiating physical intimacy, she tends to become quite tsundere (giving him ‘behave yourself’ side glances etc.) and in their mutually consented kissing scenes, she’s definitely the receiver rather than the kisser – and I’d kind of hoped and expected more than that. As much as I loved the little nose rubs, forehead kisses and hugs, I was hoping there might be some more passion or even one proper make-out scene, but alas. We never even see them get intimate in a way that suggests they slept together, although they must have after they got married. Because of the ‘dryness’ of their intimate scenes I was actually a bit surprised when the first morning sickness scene came. I mean, it was predictable in the sense that they’d JUST talked about having kids the previous night and now suddenly she was pregnant, but since there had never been any indication of an intimate scene where this may have happened, it was also a bit surprising. In any case, I just wanted to note that I found the changing dynamic of the leads as they engaged in their relationship interesting, but I also wished it would’ve been a bit more mutually passionate once they finally got together and nothing was holding them back anymore.

I’ve mostly talked about my criticisms now, but there were also plenty of things that I really liked about it and which contributed to my high rating. My first impression of the show was that it looked really good. I’m talking in terms of cinematography, the quality of how it was filmed and the transitions of scenes.
In terms of transition, there is one example I remember distinctly where Nian Qin started talking about his world and it started with a pitch-black screen, only for the camera to pan sideways and reveal that the black screen was actually the back of the piano he was sitting at – I thought that was a really genius transition since it wasn’t just about his world being ‘pitch-black’ but also how his world was that piano, his life consisted majorily of the music he composed.
Apart from that, the acting in general was really good and even the dubbing didn’t bother me that much, except for some minor moments in which someone was panting way too loudly while running down a corridor and when they added some background chatter with actual conversations which just made it sound noisy. The dubbing itself was quite subtle, and most of the time I didn’t even notice it was being dubbed, so that’s a good sign. I was also really happy with the subtitles on Dramacool for a change! Chinese series are often fansubbed in very broken English, but they actually did a pretty decent job here so it was easy to read the subtitles as well.
In terms of the story, one thing I liked in particular was the musical theme, not just the role that music played in the main characters’ lives, but also how they inserted the music into the scenes through depicting the lyrics on screen. In the end they even went so far as to use the songs from the soundtrack as the songs that were written by Yi Jin, probably also because Evan Lin sang a couple of them himself, but I thought that was a nice addition. For example, how Wu Yan’s father’s go-to karaoke song was a song that we’d already heard in the soundtrack before, and how the final song that Yi Jin writes for Wu Yan was the shows’ opening theme. Besides this practical adaptation of the music, I also liked the theme it brought with it – the way it brought everyone together. Honestly, if you think about it, all the main characters are brought together by music or their love for it. Wu Yan and Nian Qin meet through Wu Yan’s love for radio and music and the fact that she recognizes him as Yi Jin. Wei Hao and Xu Qian’s relationship deepens and is eventually sealed by the band they’re in (it’s at their final band stage that Wei Hao finally asks Xu Qian out). Wu Yan and Xu Qian also become friends through their shared love of radio broadcasts. It all ties together with the music theme and I’m glad they remained consistent in keeping the musical element in, although it did disappear into the background a little bit after Nian Qin ‘retired’ as Yi Jin and started working for his father’s company. It was nice that the show ended with him releasing one final song as Yi Jin and Wu Yan exclusively broadcasting it on her radio show.
What I also appreciated, and I’ve seen most reviews compliment the show on this, was the depiction of a visually impaired main character in a way that (ironically) makes the viewer see the world through his eyes all the better. I honestly related more to Nian Qin than to Wu Yan in the beginning, even though Wu Yan’s struggles were also very understandable. It made me think of other shows I’ve seen where a main character had some sort of handicap, like in Perfect World and The Beauty Inside, but I think this show did a really good job portraying an impairment without making it into something shameful or pathetic. They didn’t make Nian Qin a victim of his condition, he was just living his life as he’d always been and yeah, Wu Yan may have lighted something in him that ultimately made him decide to give surgery a chance, but if it hadn’t been for her he would’ve probably been content with going on living in his dark little world. I liked how it went further than just making him a handicapped character, and it put a lot of situations in perspective, for example the one with the photograph of his family that he didn’t even know was there. Despite being so comfortable in his restricted life, Nian Qin would still find out about cases where even the people closest to him took advantage of his disability. No matter how good Xiao Lu’s intentions were when she put the photograph there, she still did it behind his back and lied to him that it was just a painting because she knew he wouldn’t want it in his house. Despite my frustration regarding what went down between Wu Yan and Nian Qin during the break-up arc, I did find it interesting to see how someone who was visually impaired would fare during a situation like this, as for Nian Qin there was also the additional factor of being downgraded because of his handicap by his future in-laws. As painful as it was to watch sometimes, I still found it a quite powerful feature of the show. I also found it very touching how important the care home and the children at the special school were to Nian Qin exactly because he came from a similar background. His bond with the little blind girl Xiao Wei (Cong Shang) was also very sweet.
All in all I found the concept of the story very endearing, it initially really reminded me of Perfect World mostly because of the FL’s devotion to adapt to a life with a disabled partner. But it was still very unique in its kind and in hindsight I even think it dealt with different types of ‘handicaps’. It deals with psychological issues, grief and loss, as much as with forming connections and gaining understanding of other people’s thoughts and feelings. There was nothing exaggerated about it, it was messy at times but that messiness also added to the character of the story because life is messy, as is dealing with relationships.

Finally, I want (and need) to talk about something that personally threw me off at the end of the show. As I was nearing the end I was already starting to think about how I was going to structure my review, and then this happened and it completely derailed my plans. I’m talking about the plot twist that’s revealed in the second-to-last episode, the one revealing the death of Cheng Yin.
I’ve mentioned her briefly before, but Cheng Yin is Wu Yan’s college- and roommate back in Xiamen, they live together before Wu Yan moves in with Nian Qin and they keep in touch even when Wu Yan moves back to her hometown Tongcheng. Cheng Yin is Wu Yan’s loyal friend and support system, she cares for Wu Yan in times of need, after she breaks up with Nian Qin and after her father passes away.
I have to say in advance that I completely missed any sign of what had actually happened, even though after rewatching episodes 15-20 I am still looking for a table to slap myself in the face with because it wa actually really obvious Still, I want to share some issues I have with this plot twist.
In summary, there’s an incident in episode 15 where, after Wu Yan and Cheng Yin return from a dinner/drinks get-together at Wei Hao and Xu Qian’s apartment (in the break-up arc when Wu Yan is briefly back in Xiamen), the two girls get stuck in an elevator. Cheng Yin apparently has severe claustrophobia and we see her in a lot of panic while Wu Yan tries to calm her down. The next moment, we see Wu Yan wake up in the hospital to Xu Qian beside her bed, and when she asks about Cheng Yin, Xu Qian just says that Wei Hao is checking on her, that’s it. Later that same episode, Wu Yan and Cheng Yin are depicted lying in Cheng Yin’s bed in their shared apartment, Cheng Yin has a band-aid on her forehead and Wu Yan is cuddling her, and tells her that she’s going to move back to Tongcheng because she has to be with her mom and wants to move away from Nian Qin.
After this, Cheng Yin still appears until episode 20, in scenes that take place in Wu Yan’s new apartment in Tongcheng. Again, I completely missed this, and in my defense, I found it hard to keep track of the many places Wu Yan went to (one moment she was living with Cheng Yin in Xiamen, then with her mom in Tongcheng, then on her own in Tongcheng, then with Nian Qin in some apartment or his house) so that’s probably why it didn’t connect with me instantly. Of course, there’s no way Cheng Yin would suddenly be living with Wu Yan in her apartment in Tongcheng, Wu Yan just moved away from her. Then again, even if I’d noticed this and thought it strange, I still don’t think I would’ve immediately made the connection that all of those conversations with Cheng Yin in her apartment merely happened in Wu Yan’s head. It still didn’t cause me to grasp that Cheng Yin actually didn’t even survive the lift accident.
In episode 21, there is one ‘clear’ sign that something is off, when Wu Yan and Nian Qin get into an elevator together which also gets stuck (seriously, malfunctioning elevators were a thing in this show). When Wu Yan recalls that she was in a similar situation with Cheng Yin before, she suddenly starts spacing out, unable to finish the story of what happened after that. Nian Qin is easily able to distract her by talking about other things. Then in the next episode, 22, when they’re back at Wu Yan’s mom’s place in Tongcheng, Nian Qin mentions to Wei Hao (who’s also come to visit with Xu Qian) that Wu Yan has gone to visit Cheng Yin, to which Wei Hao goes, ‘Bro, are you kidding? Cheng Yin died three years ago.’
Again, this made me go full MIND=BLOWN because I hadn’t noticed a single thing. After rewatching it and realizing all the scenes with Cheng Yin after the lift incident took place at Wu Yan’s place in Tongcheng where Cheng Yin couldn’t even be present, I feel like I just didn’t pay close enough attention, but there are still some things I want to say about this revelation.
Whether I missed it or not, it came completely out of the blue for me and I still think they could’ve made it clearer. In the scenes where Wu Yan is talking to Cheng Yin – or, as Wei Hao clarifies, an imaginary person she created with Cheng Yin’s mannerisms to fill up the void and minimize her alone time at her apartment – Cheng Yin is always just acting as her roommate, taking out the laundry, cleaning, eating Wu Yan’s food, or she’s just reading on the couch or something. Even in scenes where they’re not talking, she’s depicted just chilling in the background. What would’ve made it clearer to me from the start is if they’d for example made it look like Wu Yan was having a conversation with her, and then reveal that the room was actually empty after she leaves or something. Because it felt so familiar to have her faithful friend and roommate there, and no one else talked about what had actually happened either, leaving it unmentioned was what made me oblivious as well. I found the fact that no one ever even talked about what happened to Cheng Yin and we’re only told the truth matter-of-factly three years later kind of weird. I get that it must have been very traumatic for Wu Yan to lose her best friend so quickly after losing her father, and that that caused her to develop this kind of coping mechanism, but even after three years, it seemed like everyone was still avoiding confronting her with the truth. How was it that she was able to get over her father’s death and live with it, visit his grave and reminisce about him, but Cheng Yin had to be kept as a taboo out of fear to trigger her? I don’t really understand why they kept it so vague.
Furthermore, I just don’t really see the relevance in killing Cheng Yin off in the first place. It was a very dramatic plot twist to insert in the second-to-last episode, to suddenly spring this psychological issue Wu Yan apparently had been having for three years on us. Also, the fact that they used this issue as just another reason for Nian Qin to want to keep Wu Yan close – as if he didn’t already have enough reasons for that – kind of put me off. Nian Qin had by then already gone so far as to fake his own eyesight going bad again to keep Wu Yan from going back to Tongcheng (or Xiamen, I honestly couldn’t keep track anymore at this point). He was constantly trying to come up with ways to make sure Wu Yan would remain by his side, and after he found out about what really happened to Cheng Yin, he started sheltering Wu Yan even more, as if she was some feeble patient. He even started talking about how he was jealous of Cheng Yin and how he didn’t want to lose Wu Yan to her. After rewatching it I get that this probably came from the way Wei Hao explained that Wu Yan created the image of Cheng Yin at times when she was feeling lost so she didn’t have to be alone and I understand that Nian Qin became bent on becoming that person for her instead so she wouldn’t have to keep holding on to Cheng Yin’s memory, but still. I just wonder why killing Cheng Yin off in this way and then remain so subtle and vague about it until that final moment was necessary. They could’ve either made it more obvious from the start, or they could’ve just left it out, in my opinion.
One other thing is that, through this revelation, we are suddenly confronted with the realization that, for the entire 3-years later period, Wu Yan hasn’t actually been a very credible main character, as it’s not even established clearly whether she’s fully aware of her own mental state when she’s ‘talking’ with Cheng Yin. Whenever the memory of what happened seems to return she kind of goes blank, which does suggest she becomes aware of some sort of suppressed memory. Then again, we don’t get to know anything from Wu Yan’s perspective, which had been the norm from the beginning of the show, so you could say there’s a kind of sudden shift. From that point on we’re primarily shown how Nian Qin sees things and he starts acting according to what he believes Wu Yan needs, which is also subjective.
So yeah, this whole plot twist revelation only complicated for me what so far had been a very easy-to-follow story and I’m still not completely sure what to think of it. It definitely complicated my review-writing as I only realized it after going back to rewatch the Cheng Yin episodes of the second half to grasp what I’d missed.

Before moving on to my cast comments, I just want to make some final practical remarks, starting with (as I tend to do more lately) the title of the show. Apparently, this drama was based on a Chinese webtoon of the same name, which was literally translated as ‘So I Love You Very Much’, which is also the title of the song Yi Jin composes for Wu Yan after their break-up. I’m not sure how they got to the simplified title of ‘Crush’, because in my opinion it kind of diminishes the essence of the story, and unlike the original title it doesn’t even directly refer to one of Yi Jin’s song titles.
To make one more mention of the music used in this drama, I’m definitely downloading at least half of the soundtrack because the songs they used were really good. I liked how they made use of their talented cast’s musical talents and created opportunities to showcase these throughout the show. The underlying theme of radio broadcasting is always a soothing one, and I remember making a note about this in previous reviews like Radio Romance, but the way radio is being broadcasted in Asian dramas is just so different from where I’m from. It’s like they create this soothing vibe with poetic MCs in-between songs. When I turn on the radio at home, all I hear is people making stupid jokes and talking about nonsense that has nothing to do with the repetitive batch of popular songs they play throughout the day. So yeah, whenever radio broadcasting is depicted in Asian dramas I always like it, it’s really comforting to listen to it.

I think that’s all for what I wanted to talk about in terms of my analysis, so now I’m going to go over a few of the actors. As is common for me with Chinese dramas, I didn’t really know any of the actors, but I thought the acting in general was pretty good so I’ll just pick a couple of the main actors to comment on.

To be honest I thought I knew Wan Peng from something because she looks really familiar, but I don’t see anything I might know her from on her MDL list. Anyways, I liked her portrayal of Wu Yan overall. As I said, there were moments where I was extremely frustrated by how badly her character communicated and how long it took for her to reflect on how unreasonable and childish she’d been herself, but despite all of that she still managed to make Wu Yan a likable and relatable character. I also really liked her facial expressions, especially in the beginning. She definitely showed multiple sides to her acting and emotional range, and retained an equally bubbly and mature personality. Of course now that I’ve grasped the reality of the Cheng Yin incident I realize that she must’ve been portraying even more psychological layers than I was aware of, so that’s definitely something to remember. Besides her passivity in the kissing scenes, I generally liked her performance. I might see her in some dramas in the future, so I’m curious to what other qualities she has to show! Oh, and I also liked that she sang the opening theme, and then when the song was featured as Yi Jin’s final song in the final episode, it was a duet version between the two lead actors. I thought that was a cute detail in the soundtrack.

Apparently, Lin Yan Jun/Evan Lin only has this and one other drama from 2021 to his name to date! I can’t say I was surprised to learn that he was formerly an idol because he sings very well. All in all I think he acted pretty well in this show. It was fun to see his character’s transformation, and he definitely showed versatility in his expressions and emotional range. Despite the uneven dynamic in the intimate scenes I thought at least he put in some real effort in expressing his passionate feelings for Wu Yan, lol. I usually get a bit weirded out when formely passive characters suddenly become all lovey-dovey and clingy once they fall in love (I remember I also mentioned this in my review of Jugglers), but then again I guess love can really change a person and make them open up and act in ways they’d have otherwise. He definitely fell harder and in the end he occasionally went a bit too far for my taste, but I still sympathized with him. He really just wanted to become Wu Yan’s world as much as she’d become his. I wonder if he’ll do any more acting projects in the future, it seemed to suit him.

Li Jia Hao has such a friendly face, he just seems like a really nice person when you look at him, lol. I was really curious as to what kind of character Wei Hao would be, as we’re first introduced as Wu Yan’s ‘cheating boyfriend’, but when the nature of his relationship with Wu Yan is explained and we get to know him and see how sincere he is about Xu Qian, you can’t really see him as anything else than a really good friend and a nice guy. I liked that he and Xu Qian had their only little love story playing out in the background because they really became kind of like a pallet cleanser for me when stuff between the main leads got too dramatic. It was nice to also get a bit of character development from Wei Hao, and he proved that he was so much more than just a second male lead character. I feel like Chinese romantic dramas do this a lot, rather than having a love triangle they like to focus on two main couples and their respective storylines. At least it was like that with the past couple of Chinese dramas I’ve watched (eg. Put Your Head on My Shoulder and Flipped). In any case, I liked that Wei Hao remained a loyal friend to Wu Yan until the end, and I also liked that he didn’t get sucked into the main leads’ drama. Instead he just focussed on his own happiness with Xu Qian witout losing his purpose as an important supporting character. I’d definitely call him a ‘supporting’ rather than a ‘side’ character because he was an unmissable part of Wu Yan’s support system. I liked Li Jia Hao’s performance, especially in the later parts where he was talking with Nian Qin about Wu Yan but simultaneously trying not to be too harsh to him because he was also his boss, lol. He really made me laugh out loud a couple of times, too.

Niu Yu Kun has only done four dramas so far, and I see she’s also a model and a singer. I like that they made use of the musical talents of the actors for this drama, although I don’t think she was the actual singer of the song used for Momo’s promotion (which was an awesome song by the way). As soon as Xu Qian appeared and it became clear how much she wanted to talk to Wu Yan about what had happened with Wei Hao, I just felt knew she couldn’t be a bad person. From the start she was so bent on making amends with her friend, heck she was even willing to get rid of her feelings for Wei Hao if it meant fixing her friendship with Wu Yan, and that made her by definition a good person to me. I also liked that we got to see a bit about her family background and how she felt like she was being pushed to achieve something great, even though it went against her heart’s desire of making music with the band. I also liked to see that there was a bit of turbulence between her and Wei Hao throughout the story when it came to their future goals, and whether they still felt like they could fit their different lifestyles together, but I think it was a really big step of her to finally let go and even quit her office job at some point. She realized that being with Wei Hao and enjoying life with him was the most important to her and when she finally allowed herself to let go of the pressure from her family, it was clear how happy that made her. Just like Wei Hao she was also a very important part of Wu Yan’s support system. I actually think the two of them basically started caring for Wu Yan even more after the Cheng Yin thing (which I’m still denying really happened). Anyways, I think Niu Yu Kun did a good job portraying Xu Qian’s personality as a both rational and mature ever-loyal friend.

As with almost every main character I felt like I knew Ma Li from something, but I was wrong (again). She was really impactful as Wu Yan’s mom for reasons I’ve already explained well enough, haha. While I didn’t particularly like Wu Yan’s mother, even after she suddenly became super sweet to Nian Qin once his eyesight was better and he turned out to have an influential family🤔, I guess we just have to say that the character was insufferable because the actress did a good job💁🏻‍♀️. All I can say is that while I didn’t agree with anything she said to Wu Yan in most of the show (and I was pretty pissed at Wu Yan for repeating her mother’s words to Nian Qin when they broke up), I am glad that they at least found some solace in one another after the father passed away. I actually expected her to just shut Wu Yan out, but because Wu Yan chose to stick by her side and even actually broke up with Nian Qin, I think she should be very thankful for the sacrifices that her daughter made for her. I wonder if I’m going to see more of her as she’s done a lot of dramas, but I guess we’ll have to wait and see! For now I’ll just say she portrayed a very fierce mother(-in-law), haha.

I’m going to end with Cheng Yin, bless her soul. Like many of the main actors, Chen Mei Yi only has three dramas to her name so far, plus one that’s still in production. I immediately liked Cheng Yin because she was truly a voice of reason for Wu Yan. I really loved the friendship dynamic between Wu Yan and Cheng Yin, they had really fun conversations and I also loved how Wu Yan would call her ‘honey’ and stuff. Cheng Yin was Wu Yan’s back-up when she needed to get away from Nian Qin during the break-up arc, and then when she came back to Xiamen while her father was in critical condition and after he passed away. It seems all the more logical to me now why Wu Yan would picture Cheng Yin, her ever so faithful and supporting roommate, in the apartment with her, to call upon whenever she felt out of sorts. She remained Wu Yan’s voice of reason even after she was gone, and that was quite beautiful, in a way. As I said, Cheng Yin was one of my favorite supporting characters, I really liked her and also Chen Mei Yi’s portrayal of her.

Because I had to correct my final piece of criticism as I realized I completely missed out on the Cheng Yin situation, it took me a bit longer than planned to finish this review, haha. At least my frustrations about that final plot twist have made way for a wave of revelation and self-criticism for not noticing it earlier, lol. Anyways, I stand by my rating of this show. It was well-written, well-executed and well-acted. It looked really professional, the cinematography was good and the acting was very immersive. It deals with important themes stretching from handicaps and (psychological) trauma to dealing with loss, grief and connecting people, in particular through music. I personally think the final addition of Wu Yan’s psychological trauma and what happened to Cheng Yin could’ve either been left out or played out a little differently, because it just created a lot of last-minute complications and confusions for me. The show was enjoyable and engaging enough for me the way it was before that bomb was dropped, so that would probably be one critical point I’d give the show. Other than that, there were a lot of beautiful and soothing moments, the relationship between Wu Yan and Nian Qin built up really nicely and it was very touching to see how much they came to mean to each other, despite their respective flaws and shortcomings – and I’m not even primarily talking about Nian Qin’s impairment here.

For my next watch I am going to watch another ‘goldien oldie’ from 2014, which will probably have a lot of classic tropes, so I’ll have to prepare myself mentally for more frustrations, haha. Still, I’m excited and curious to finally check it out. Until then, keep yourselves warm and comfortable, and I’ll be back before you know it.😉

Bye-bee!
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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Wok of Love
(기름진 멜로 / Gireumjin Mello / Greasy Melo)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hello hello hello! Not me sneaking in one more review for September! As I mentioned in my previous review, I started a new chapter of my life this month which has completely filled my daily schedule with activities, so I wasn’t left with much time to watch episodes, but I still wanted to include this in my checked off watch items for September. I decided I wanted to include some series that have been recommended to me by fellow K-Drama lovers, and this one in particular was suggested by one of my lovely penpals because of her personal love for Lee Joon Ho (can’t blame her). It surprised me in a lot of ways and I was seriously debating on how to rate it at the end. All in all, I had a fun time watching it, and its lightness and comicalness were a very refreshing and charming aspect of it, but I also still found that it lacked a certain depth that I personally would’ve liked, and there were a lot of loose ends and inconsistencies. I really want to share my views with you, so let’s go!

Wok of Love is a K-Drama that you can either watch as 19 episodes of about an hour or 38 back-to-back episodes of about 30 minutes (I watched it in the latter format on Dramacool). This in itself is already quite a unique number of episodes, as K-Dramas usually tend to be a bit shorter, like 16 one-hour episodes or 32 back-to-back episodes. In any case, the plot of Wok of Love is centered on the revenge plan of hotel sous-chef Seo Poong (played by 2PM’s Lee Joon Ho). When we meet him, he is on top of the world, he’s about to get married to his beloved fiancée and he’s under the impression that he’ll be promoted to main chef at the restaurant he works at, Finishing Touch, which is located on the top floor of the famous Giant Hotel. He is thriving and therefore not aware that within one day, his whole life will be crumbling apart. Not only is he unaware of the deep-rooted resentment that the current main chef, Wang Cheon Soo (played by Im Won Hee) holds against him, but his so-beloved fiancée Seok Dal Hee (Cha Joo Young) is actually also having an affair, with none other than Giant Hotel’s CEO, Yong Seung Ryong (played by Kim Sa Kwon). After finding out about the affair and losing his position at Finishing Touch because both the main chef and his assumed friends at the restaurant all betray him, Poong vows to take revenge on Giant Hotel by starting his own Chinese food business to steal all of Finishing Touch’s customers away from them.
In the meantime, we also meet Mr. Doo Chil Seong (played by Jang Hyuk), a gangster/loan shark who has his own money-lending business called Light and Shadow Loans. He owns a building (the Chil Seong Building👌🏻) in which he has his office, but underneath that he also has a Chinese restaurant called the Hungry Frying Pan. While Chil Seong and his group of loyal men tend to the restaurant, they barely have any business and their food isn’t great. It also doesn’t help that it’s right opposite the Giant Hotel, which of course pulls in all the customers. Chil Seong is about to sell the restaurant when Poong suddenly appears, livid with vengeance, and demands that he gets to turn this restaurant into Finishing Touch’s rival. All he has to do is just get Chil Seong’s defensive men on his side and teach them how to cook. Despite their initial aversion towards each other, Chil Seong agrees to put Poong in charge of the restaurant, while he goes about the business he personally has with Yong Seung Ryong.
Finally, there’s Dan Sae Woo (played by Jung Ryeo Won), a young woman from a wealthy family (her father owns a bank) who, despite her rich upbringing and many privileges, doesn’t exactly flaunt around her wealthy background. Just like Poong, she’s about to get married when we first meet her, but on the day of the wedding everything falls apart for her too. Her dad is suddenly arrested for committing fraud and her husband just vanishes after not even turning up at the wedding. In some unexpected turn of events, she keeps meeting Poong and he keeps missing the chance to make her jjajangmyeon, but she somehow also ends up at the Hungry Frying Pan and as they manage to gather some more staff and get their business going, Poong’s revenge seems to come closer and closer.

I have to say from the start that it took me a couple of episodes to get into the story. It started off with a lot of information and rushed character introductions. We are shown glimpses of characters’ lives before we are actually ‘properly’ introduced to them. The three main leads already meet each other in the first episode, but this was also kind of confusing to me. They all meet by coincidence at the hairsalon, and Sae Woo just randomly starts talking to Chil Seong about how his haircut makes him look like a gangster – which immediately made me go like ‘wait, what, who even is this woman to start talking to him like that?’ – but then Chil Seong just falls in love with her (?) and in the next segment Sae Woo also starts rambling on to Poong about her upcoming wedding. At this point, only Poong had been introduced in more detail, so for the other two it felt like a very hasty and random introduction, especially since they were supposedly main characters but we had no idea who they were yet. We only find out afterwards that Chil Seong is actually a gangster, for example. It took away a bit of the comical element, and this happened on more occasions, as I will explain in a moment.

Despite the chaotic start of the show, as soon as everything (and everyone) started coming together and we actually got to the original ‘revenge plot’ of the story, I found that it became increasingly more entertaining to watch, and I really liked how they also managed to put in some truly heartfelt moments. My favorite parts included the scenes where they were all working together in the (by then called Hungry Wok) kitchen, I liked how they all closed the gaps that were initially between them and, of course, the cooking scenes themselves, because I’ve never started craving Chinese food as much as I have while I was watching this. Mouth. Watering.👌🏻It may have taken a while to get out of the confusing ‘who is everyone and how did everyone end up here’ part, but once they started working together and the relationship between the three leads deepened (I also really liked the brotherly affection that grew between Poong and Chil Seong), it all started making more sense. On the other hand, as soon as the story got on track, some of the more random elements from the beginning started making less sense to me and at some point I just felt like the whole revenge plan kind of lost its purpose. Of course, Poong manages to get his revenge on Giant Hotel and Finishing Touch, but at that point it didn’t even seem to matter all that much to him anymore the way it did in the beginning. Things that were initially made out to be plot- or character-defining kind of disappeared throughout the story here and there, while some other things were retained, for example the fortune cookie reference, so I found it a bit inconsistent at times.

Let me start by introducing the main characters and important side characters in a bit more detail. Starting with Poong, as I personally see him as the main character (even more so than Chil Seong and Sae Woo). We get to know him and his history in more detail from the start and we’re also able to hear his thoughts. Poong lost both of his parents at a young age and was then taken care of by the father of his future bride, Dal Hee. You could say in hindsight that it was probably more out of a feeling of obligation towards her father that he wanted to marry Dal Hee, as he’d promised her father he would take care of her. Not that he didn’t sincerely love her, but I think the obligation he felt towards her played a very important part in his reason to want to marry her. And to be fair, Dal Hee was mostly in the wrong here. She was actively sleeping with Seung Ryong while still going ahead with her marriage to Poong, and she even ended up going ahead with the wedding because she felt bad for him. We’re not shown how exactly they break up after being married for a month or something, but it’s suggested that Dal Hee told him she’d been seeing another guy. Of course, we know the moment he finds out the other guy is his own boss, because that’s the scene he slams his kitchen knife into Seung Ryong’s hotel room door. In any case, while I feel like he did have the desire to win Dal Hee back at first, it soon proves to be a lost cause – not to mention Dal Hee actually disappears from the story altogether. This is one of the examples I wanted to give, because I found it a bit weird. She stops appearing, I think after the scene in which Poong throws his knife into the wall above Seung Ryong’s bed where they’re sleeping together. I felt like she might have had another part to play, especially after Poong would succeed in getting Hungry Wok to thrive, but then she just never appeared again and is only mentioned one time by Seung Ryong when he tells Poong he’ll break up with Dal Hee if he’ll come back to work at Finishing Touch (and that made me go, ‘Dal Hee’s not even in the show anymore, bro’). So yeah, that was kind of a loose end, in my opinion. Not that I particularly wanted her to reappear or anything, but I just thought they’d give her some more purpose in the story as it developed – who knows she’d even try to get back together with Poong after seeing how well he was doing and become a love rival to Sae Woo? Anyways, moving on.
In regards to the Finishing Touch kitchen staff, we have to talk a bit about Chef Wang. From what I understood he was originally a Chinese chef (whether he was actually Chinese or not is left to be questioned because he didn’t seem to talk with an accent), and he came to South Korea with some money he ran away with (more about that later). He then built his way up as the main chef at Finishing Touch. Chef Wang’s character is built on pride, he doesn’t want anyone to question his knowledge, skill or experience, he’s not particularly open to new ideas or tactics, and he’s definitely not up for the idea to give his position to Poong, despite his talent. What’s funny is that the most prideful characters, the ones with all the high-quality experience and skills, actually turn out to be the most selfish and immature characters in the show. Basically the entire Giant Hotel-affiliated body of characters were frustratingly childish in their attempts to get back at Poong, and I really found myself grinding my teeth on several occasions. Because the thing is, Poong has every reason to be mad and to demand some sort of justice from the restaurant – after all, they unfairly threw him under the bus and everyone just cared about their own personal gain when it came to kicking him out, even his ‘friends’. The fact that they basically sent in the cavalry in order to stop Poong while he was working from a tiny, gangster-run restaurant just proved to me how insecure they actually were about their own business. If they really stood above Poong, they could’ve just let him do his thing and not look back at him. Instead they started conjuring up all these bribes and unfair ways to cheat Poong out of customers, it was really low. Even in that final competition, they literally sabotaged some members of Poong’s kitchen crew to get there on time. Like, seriously, is that how insecure you are? And then they were also super smug about their victory, like how can you feel proud about winning like that? They even stole Poong’s recipes and techniques and wouldn’t even admit it, it was really childish. It set my teeth on edge and a part of me even wanted Poong to lash out at them, but I think it was contrastively mature of him to just keep a straight face and not complain about a single thing. And hey, he still won, so boo for them.
About his three ‘friends’ at Finishing Touch, as much as they were all seemingly rooting for him while he was anticipating his promotion, Maeng Sam Seon (Oh Ui Shik), Gan Bo Ra (Hong Yoon Hwa) and Gong Rae Yeon (Kang Rae Yeon) all immediately caved as soon as Chef Wang started probing them about throwing Poong under the bus. I sincerely disliked them, even after they ultimately made up again, because they still never sincerely apologized to Poong. Even after he’d just left Finishing Touch, Poong still believed in them when they said they had nothing to do with it, and they didn’t know where his recipe notebook was while they literally stole it themselves, unbeknowst to even Chef Wang. There was just a lot of unfairness and frustration there, which I always find hard to swallow.

Before I move on to the others, I just want to lay a quick overview of some terms used in this drama, as it depicted professional kitchen cooking. Of course I don’t know if it’s common to collectively yell out ‘Service/Good to go!’ as soon as a dish is ready to be served, but it did create a nice vibe within the kitchen, as if everyone was genuinely happy that a dish got approved and was deemed worthy of service. For me personally it was the first time learning about all these utensils and terms like ‘Fire/Cutting/Noodle Part’. The Fire Parts of the kitchen are basically the people handling the wok (and ladle), the ones that are literally ‘closest to the fire’ and who are in charge of cooking the ingredients to the point of ready-to-serve. The Cutting Parts are the people in charge of cutting, so they have to know how to deal with different sorts of knives and the way different ingredients need to be chopped up in order to get passed on to the Fire Parts. They need to deliver the ingredients to make sure all the ingredients are chopped up in the right way (size, shape, etc.) so they can just pass them on to the Fire Parts ready-to-be-cooked. The Noodle Parts are in charge of kneading the dough for noodles, but also for dumplings and other fried dishes. They have to be strong as they need to use their arms a lot for the kneading and rolling. In some dishes, the dough needs to be paper thin, so getting the dough the exact right thickness also falls to the Noodle Parts.
I found the division of these tasks very interesting to see, mostly because it made the kitchen work look like a properly functioning machine in which everyone was dependent on each other. If one Part makes a mistake, it also affects the delivery of the other Parts. I guess that’s also a reason why everyone would be so happy when the main chef would call ‘Service’, because it proved that all Parts had worked together properly and all the ingredients had been prepared successfully. The calling of ‘Service!’ was basically a confirmation that they’d all managed to contribute successfully to a dish, so I thought that was a nice way to keep the entire kitchen motivated.

Moving on to Chil Seong, our gangster who we (or at least I) just couldn’t help but love. From the start, even when he’s dealing with bad guys, I just got the impression that Chil Seong wasn’t that much of a bad guy himself. He didn’t seem innately evil like for example Seung Ryong or that Crooked guy. Yes, he is a loan shark and he would go after people with his gang to get his money back, but there is just something about him that makes you feel like, ‘he can’t be that bad’. I think for me that something already manifested itself in the first episode when he fell for Sae Woo at first sight. A man who succumbs to a woman’s smile that easily can’t possibly be that heartless. Even after being repeatedly rejected by Sae Woo and seeing how she and Poong are drawn to each other, he never becomes bitter or vengeful about it, he even gives them his blessing. From the way he treated the little kitten (Dim Sum😭) to the way he literally got himself stabbed in order to retrieve Poong’s recipe notebook, the way he helped Sae Woo’s dad get acquitted of all charges and how he dealt with his mother when he found out she had cancer, I couldn’t help but feel that Chil Seong was a really good guy at heart.
Behind him there is his eternally loyal gang of men who, despite their initial disdain towards Poong, end up as unmissable assets in Hungry Wok’s kitchen, and I really liked their unwavering support and loyalty towards Chil Seong. Let me go over them one by one: there’s Oh Maeng Dal (Jo Jae Yoon), Jeon Yi Man (Choi Gi Seob), Kwang Dong Shik (Kim Hyun Joon), Bong Chi Soo (Cha In Ha) and there was also Yang Kang Ho (Choi Won Myung), but just like Dal Hee he suddenly disappeared at some point, without even an explanation. At some point I just caught myself going, ‘wait, wasn’t there another guy at the beginning?’. I don’t remember them ever justifying his disappearance, so I have no idea what happened there. Anyways, in the end there’s only four of them. Maeng Dal is kind of the leader of the gang as he is the oldest, and while he initially seems to be the most tiring to deal with for Poong, he also softens considerably after meeting Seol Ja and while he keeps helping Chil Seong with dealing with the Seung Ryong case. I think all the characters were already innately ‘good’ from the start, they just had to get over some prejudices, but afterwards they really became a good team in the kitchen as well. I liked the Gangster Squad mostly because of the funny contrast between them being actual softies but still always being there to have Chil Seong’s back when he needed them. Besides his loyal team of gangsters, there is also the old mysterious lady, later revealed to be called Kim Seon Nyeo (played by Lee Mi Sook) who keeps popping up to sell gum around Hungry Wok. No one, including Chil Seong, seems to know who she is, and they just tolerate her while treating her as the annoying old neighborhood lady. However, she’s ultimately revealed to be Chil Seong’s birth mother who abandoned him when he was five or something. I guess she started feeling guilty but still couldn’t bring herself to reveal her true identity to him, so she just kept popping up while nagging people to hide her underlying sentiment. I did find it peculiar that she’d keep following Chil Seong around, even when he was being attacked and even took him to the hospital and all that, but yeah that explained that. Chil Seong’s father (also played by Jang Hyuk, as he’s made out to be the spitting image of his dad, even in terms of hairstyle) used to be a famous boxer but he passed away of a heart attack (I believe?) right after becoming champion.

To note down some more inconsistencies and loose ends here, starting with the whole mother and son revelation, this actually didn’t come as a surprise to me. I believe it was even already mentioned before, when Chil Seong was in the hospital and the lady literally called him her son, although that could’ve been just a sentimental expression. Still, because of this I’d already entertained the possibility that she could be his mother, so the official ‘revelation’ kind of made me go like, ‘okay but didn’t we already know this?’ I felt like this was supposed to be a major ‘OMG she’s his MOM??!!’ moment in the story, but the effect was taken out of it for me.
In terms of the gangsters, there was another minor plotline in which Dong Shik’s wife, who was working at Giant Hotel as a cleaner, was having an affair with Sam Seon, who in turn didn’t know she was married. This affair was shown/mentioned a couple of times in the beginning, but then never came back. I thought it was okay to keep this additional resentment side plot in, but they just kind of threw it away until suddenly in one of the final episodes, when the Hungry Wok crew started working at Finishing Touch, Dong Shik suddenly comes at Sam Seon for sleeping with his wife, and that just made me go like, ‘why now?’. He already knew it was Sam Seon, I feel like he already saw him before, and they’d already been working in the same kitchen for a few days by then, so why suddenly add in this particular moment for Dong Shik to attack him? It was a bit random to me.

Sae Woo’s part contains probably the most inconsistencies in the story for me, so let’s go to it. As I mentioned before, Sae Woo is originally from a wealthy family, and she’s suddenly stripped of her privileges after her father is unfairly charged with bank fraud or money-laundering or something (my brain tends to go on standby mode when financial stuff is mentioned so I couldn’t keep 100% track of what was going on exactly). The first few episodes in which everything was still very fuzzy and chaotic to me mostly had to do with Sae Woo because despite her being the female lead character, I feel like the writers kept her character very vague. I had a lot of difficulty gauging what exactly she was feeling and she was also very ambiguous about her feelings, especially towards Poong and Chil Seong. I have to admit that in the beginning, I was really scared for another Jealousy Incarnate situation in which she wouldn’t be able to choose between the two guys. There’s this one time when Chil Seong kisses her, and she doesn’t object to it, she even goes, ‘Hm, that was kind of nice and warm’, and she also doesn’t come out with her true feelings towards Poong even after he flat-out tells her he likes her but wants to keep a distance because he also knows that Chil Seong has feelings for her. I remember going like, ‘NO, WHY’ when she initially went, ‘okay, sure’, like, what? This is the point where you say, ‘I already rejected Chil Seong and I have feelings for you too, so please don’t hold back, we can talk to Chil Seong together’ or something. Anyways, I just found Sae Woo very hard to gauge. On the other hand I also really liked how easygoing she was, she never made a huge drama about emotional situations and she was very bubbly and quirky and I liked that. It was nice to have a female lead character who just kind of went with the punches without wallowing in self-pity. When she did have it tough, she just gross-sobbed it out, had a drink and got over it the next day.
The first thing that made me go ‘???’ was when she received that call, right after all hell broke loose on her wedding day. Literally, her father gets arrested, her husband bails altogether, her mom faints and then she even receives a phone call about terminal cancer from a doctor. Honestly, the terminal cancer call at that moment made me go, ‘really?😑 it’s going to be this level of stereotypical?’ There was literally no preceding clue that she might be sick whatsoever, so this was just super out of the blue and random. And then, the next moment she’s suddenly walking around town with her freaking horse while wearing her fencing mask. She eventually ends up at Chil Seong’s money-lending business as a last resort and uses the ‘I have terminal cancer’ card on him. Turns out, the cancer call is actually about her horse, not her. But the way this was revealed was also stripped of its potential ‘OOOH it was the HORSE’ effect. I don’t know how exactly it would’ve had the right effect on me, but the way it was revealed was just really anticlimactic and it didn’t even make me feel anything, like shock or relief that it wasn’t about Sae Woo herself. It just made me go, ‘wait… huh? oh, it was about the horse? oh, but… huh, okay…🤨’. Also, there was the fact that they started out with this running gag of narrating the horse’s thoughts but then also completely bailed on that. In the first couple of episodes (in which the horse also gets cured completely, so no further dramatic developments in that area either), the horse is often narrated, thinking about how much he misses Sae Woo and even going off to his neighbor horse about how much he and Sae Woo love each other, and he’s always waiting for her to come back. And then the whole horse is gone for the majority of the show, and Sae Woo only gets back to him once after her dad is released from prison, being like ‘ahh, sorry that I had to leave you alone for so long’. Damn straight, he didn’t appear for like 20 episodes, and they never gave him another narrated thought. So yeah, at least be consistent if you’re gonna add in fun elements like that, because now it just seemed random that they added it in at first only to completely drop it at some point.
For my next point, I have to move on to Sae Woo’s family and consequently, Hungry Wok’s main staff. We are introduced to three initially random people who all end up coming to Hungry Frying Pan/Wok for a job. There’s Chae Seol Ja (played by Park Ji Young), Im Geok Jeong (played by Tae Hang Ho) and Mrs. Jin Jung Hye (also played by Lee Mi Sook). They initially don’t seem to have any connection to each other or Hungry Wok, but we eventually find out that they are very connected. Seol Ja has a history with Chef Wang, in fact she’s the person who’s money he stole to run away to South Korea. They used to date when they were still both in China, and Seol Ja trained under him as a very high-skilled Cutting Part. Again, I don’t know if Seol Ja was actually supposed to be of Chinese origin, because it did seem like she had an accent. Anyways, after coming to South Korea and starting work at Poong’s new kitchen, she quickly deducts that Poong won’t be able to pay her that much and she’s swayed a couple of times by Chef Wang’s propositions to come work with him at Finishing Touch. She ends up remaining loyal to Poong.
Then there’s Geok Jeong (whose name, I believe, is used as a word pun several times because it means ‘to worry’ – I remember at least one scene in which Poong mentioned something about worrying and the shot changed to Geok Jeong as soon as Poong used the word ‘geokjeong’, lol). Geok Jeong has a limp, and therefore he keeps getting rejected for jobs. Somehow, he is recommended to work as a Noodle Part at Hungry Wok by Seol Ja, suggesting that they know each other. And then Mrs. Jin comes in, and while she’s initially taken on as a dish washer, she ends up showing more affinity with waitressing work. She has won some beauty contest in the past and she’s at least able to distract the customers from the idea that the restaurant is run by gangsters, so she manages to get a lot of people in. Apart from that, she’s a typical lady who clearly never had to work a single day in her life, and Poong lashes out on her for being clumzy and incapable more than once. Fun fact: these three people are actually Sae Woo’s family. That is to say – Mrs. Jin is her mother, and Seol Ja and Geok Jeong have been helping her out at the family house for a long time. I believe Seol Ja came to Mrs. Jin as soon as she came to Korea after Chef Wang ran away with her money, and both her and Geok Jeong have been loyal to her and Sae Woo’s dad ever since. The four of them live in the same house.
Now, the way they revealed that these people were part of Sae Woo’s household could’ve also been done much more effectively. I felt that, again, the ‘omg wait they’re all in this together?!’ effect it should have had was taken away by the slightly sloppy delivery they went for. Besides, even after revealing that they are all related in some way, to the end I still have no idea how Seol Ja and Geok Jeong know each other. I went from several different ideas to none at all. At first I thought Seol Ja and Geok Jeong were siblings, also because Geok Jeong called Seol Ja ‘noona’, but their surnames are different. It was revealed that Seol Ja came to Mrs. Jin’s house to ask her to take her on as household staff, but how she got in touch with Mrs. Jin or how Geok Jeong got taken on – I still have no idea. From what I gathered in the end, Seol Ja and Geok Jeong just both happened to work at Sae Woo’s parents’ house and became like aunt/cousin figures to Sae Woo (Seol Ja tells Poong at some point that she’s ‘like an aunt to Sae Woo’, but it’s never fully explained what their family dynamic is exactly. They just keep saying ‘we’re a family, we’re a family’, even when half of them aren’t even blood-related. So yeah, I found that a bit confusing throughout. Also, I don’t know if this was just me but before it’s even revealed that Sae Woo and Seol Ja know each other, Sae Woo is actually there when Seol Ja has her ‘test’ to apply for the Cutting Part position, but then later Sae Woo says something about how she didn’t know Seol Ja was hired there. That also made me go like, ‘huh, but they actually saw each other there, right?’ I don’t know, there were just a lot of cases in which characters had already met before but then later acted like they saw each other for the first time or something. For my own mind, I would’ve liked to get a bit more clarity on that. Because now it was like the writers themselves weren’t sure whether to make the fact that they all knew each other a big plot reveal moment or not. They kind of stranded somewhere in the middle, so the effect was, again, lost on me.

Also, I didn’t really see why they chose to cast the same actress for both Mrs. Jin and Chil Seong’s mother. As in, I don’t see the point. It would’ve made more sense to me if they’d actually linked those two women to each other in the story, because on pictures of Chil Seong’s mom when she was younger, she looked exactly like Mrs. Jin. They could’ve made them distantly related or something. But now it literally didn’t add anything, it didn’t have any meaning. They could’ve just as well cast a different actress for Mrs. Jin or Chil Seong’s mom. Not that Lee Mi Sook’s acting was bad or that I didn’t like seeing her as two completely different characters – it was definitely impressive how she performed the double role – but within the story it just didn’t make sense to me. I would’ve expected them to at least link the resemblance of Mrs. Jin and Chil Seong’s mom, or at least make a remark about how similar they looked, just like with Chil Seong and his dad. Now I just find myself wondering why they chose to do this without any explanation.

So yeah, all in all I identified a few loose ends (Dal Hee, Kang Ho, the HORSE – although at least he appeared one final time at the end) and some inconsistencies in encounters between people and how several pieces of important information were revealed in a pretty anticlimactic way. I just felt like they missed the right timing with some potentially effective plot twist revelations.

Lastly, I want to talk a little bit about Yong Seung Ryong because this bastard was involved in way more than he cared to admit and I also want to discuss his personality a little bit. In principle we first meet Seung Ryong as Poong’s boss at Giant Hotel, and we see that he’s making out with Dal Hee before we even know she’s Poong’s fiancée. Throughout the show, he’s basically a massive prick who looks down on Poong when he’s kicked out, feeling like the man because he gets the girl and Poong’s threats to take revenge are just silly noises to his ears. However, at some point he finds himself forced to acknowledge Poong’s skill as he manages to persuade the hospital staff that usually comes to Giant Hotel to come have some Chinese dishes at Hungry Wok, classic (basic) dishes that Finishing Touch doesn’t serve because it’s ‘below them’ (seriously, as a professional chef, how can you say any dish is below you?). In any case, they start losing customers to Hungry Wok because they serve the same dishes for only a tenth of FT’s price. And, you know, sometimes people just crave a good old familiar bowl of jjajangmyeon, jjampong or sweet and sour stir-fried pork. And then Seung Ryong starts helping Chef Wang in his attempts to sabotage Poong’s business, primarily by bribing the hospital director to eat at FT even when there’s already been a competition in which a hospital staff member had to choose between the two restaurants’ jjajangmyeon. Like, seriously, this guy only knew how to play foul. It is later revealed that it was none other than Seung Ryong who was actually responsible for what Sae Woo’s father was arrested for. If I understood correctly, he had a company called Ultra Construction, and he hired someone to take a huge loan from Mr. Dan’s bank to fund it, so that it later looked like Mr. Dan himself had made that shady donation or something. In any case, Chil Seong is onto his case and he’s basically working on that while Poong and Sae Woo focus on getting Hungry Wok into business.
I kind of got confused about Seung Ryong’s motives as the story progressed because suddenly he rented out Hungry Wok for himself and he even admitted in front of Chef Wang that he wanted Poong to come back to Finishing Touch, so now suddenly he was trying to get on his good side again? After that he just became more and more lame and powerless, even before Chil Seong dealt him the final blow of buying Giant Hotel’s estate. He went from this super influential and dominating scared-of-nothing character to someone who couldn’t do anything on his own. I had to laugh this one time when he was pushing Chef Wang to get rid of Poong’s patronage and he said that the success of Giant Hotel mostly lay in Finishing Touch. Shouldn’t you be a bit more worried about the faring of your hotel when it’s primarily reliant on the profit of its restaurant? Did these guys even know what they were doing or at what kind of place they were working?

In any case, Sae Woo’s father is eventually released from prison and Seung Ryong is prosecuted for fraud and a bunch of other illegal stuff. Chil Seong manages to ‘win’ Giant Hotel’s building in an auction, Finishing Touch now belongs to him. Chef Wang is kicked out (no idea where he goes, he also disappears after being dismissed) and Poong becomes the main chef and has to work with both the FT staff and his Hungry Wok people, which proves to be a whole different challenge in itself.
Seriously, I got so mad when they had that fallout in the FT kitchen in one of the final episodes. First of all, I didn’t even understand why Poong kept Sam Seon on in the first place after his blatant betrayal and zero show of repentence. Poong wanted to keep the lunch hours open for ‘normal customers’ who just wanted a bowl of jjajangmyeon for the same price as at Hungry Wok, so in that way they wouldn’t completely lose their old business. These customers were just as important as the FT regulars, and it wasn’t fair that they now all had to go eat at a hotel that charged ten times the price they were used to. At hearing this, Sam Seon just completely snapped at him and started lecturing him while the only thing he did was prove his own narrow-mindedness. Throughout the show, but especially here, I couldn’t help but think that the only thing everyone from Giant Hotel or FT has is pride. Nothing else. They don’t even care about the food they make, it’s only about their reputation and the amount of money they make. They seriously don’t want to make jjajangmyeon because they consider themselves to be ‘high-trained chefs’ who don’t ‘stoop to such a low and basic level of cooking’. How the heck do you even call yourself a chef with that mindset? Not that I can relate, but shouldn’t you have some basic respect for any kind of dish that you can make? Sam Seon’s outrage just didn’t make any sense to me. The only thing it did was prove to me that they don’t even care about the food and the feelings of the customers eating it. They feel so elevated above the level of ‘basic Chinese dishes’ that they don’t even show up on the first day when they are going to try the lunch hour deal out. What a bunch of pros – not. I just enjoyed it when they came back and realized they’d had a huge amount of customers who all emptied their bowls to the final bite. I guess they must have severely underestimated Poong’s patronage at Hungry Wok. They were all like, ‘uhh we can’t serve food during lunch hours for only 24 dollars, it’s below our pay rate’, but even if they charged only a tenth of their FT prices, with the amount of Hungry Wok customers that came during lunch, they actually made a whole lot of extra profit.
I really loved the part where Poong told Sam Seon that working at a hotel restaurant doesn’t say anything about your skills as a chef, just like working at a small, gangster-run shop doesn’t. What matters is that the customers finish their plates and come back for more. That’s what defines your skill as a chef. It just really made me feel like Poong, who initially used to be one of those FT chefs, really learned from his experiences at Hungry Wok, it really changed his view on cooking and serving customers and I think this statement confirmed his character development most of all.

Finally, I want to talk a bit about the personal relationships (both familial, romantic and friendly/platonic) in the story. There are many relationship dynamics, both emotional and obligational.
First of all, there’s the dynamic between the three main leads, Poong, Chil Seong and Sae Woo. Chil Seong falls in love with Sae Woo first, and after meeting her again when they start Poong’s revenge plan at Hungry Frying Pan, where Poong and Sae Woo are both dealing with their respective failed marriages, he gives her a lot of space. Sae Woo is aware of his feelings but lets him know several times that she’s not interested in him like that. Despite this rejection, Chil Seong refuses to become awkward around Sae Woo and they remain to be on good terms, even more so when he helps to get her dad out of prison.
On the other hand, Chil Seong proves his worth to Poong once and for all by literally risking his life in order to get Poong’s recipe notebook back from the Finishing Touch kitchen. After this, he’s officially gained Poong’s respect and Poong starts calling him ‘hyung’ and even ends up living at Chil Seong’s place above Hungry Wok. Because he knows that Chil Seong has feelings for Sae Woo and he doesn’t want to lose his friendship with him, Poong initially restrains himself in his own growing feelings for Sae Woo, even though things definitely appear to be working out between the both of them.
Poong and Sae Woo eventually start dating in secret because they don’t want to hurt Chil Seong’s feelings and Sae Woo also doesn’t want her family to find out since they don’t exactly see eye to eye with Poong, because of the way he treats Mrs. Jin in the kitchen. I personally found it really sad that Chil Seong found out about it the way he did, he just happens to see them kiss in front of the restaurant while they think no one is looking and it just made me go☹️. I wasn’t rooting for Chil Seong and Sae Woo per se, but he was such a good guy and I just felt bad that he had to find out this way.
On the other hand, he had more than enough stuff to deal with, starting with the discovery of the mystery lady being his mom, so maybe it was good that he had other things to focus on. That way he was able to take a bit of distance from everything that was happening at Hungry Wok.
Actually, I would’ve liked Chil Seong to end up with that veterinarian lady. There was this woman who he kept crossing paths with but he kept failing to recognize her for some reason and she kept getting agitated about that. After meeting by chance four times, also after he took Dim Sum to the veterinary hospital where she worked, she was like, ‘I don’t know what your deal is, but the next time we meet, I’m gonna assume this is fate so you better remember my name’, lol. I liked her spunk. I would’ve liked some sort of conclusion as to where his connection with her was going, but alas, we’ll never know.

Then, of course there’s the romantic relationship between Poong and Sae Woo, the one we all saw coming from the start but still developed quite naturally. I really liked their chemistry, actually. I was kind of frustrated that they didn’t just go for each other as soon as they knew each other’s feelings (seriously, when Sae Woo accepted that Poong wanted to restrain himself for Chil Seong’s sake I was like ‘WHY WOULD YOU SAY OK TO THAT?!😨’). But I really liked how Poong came to accept his own feelings for her so naturally, how he just didn’t know what to do with himself sometimes because he wanted to touch her so badly and the cozy scenes between them were really cute, just like their kissing scenes. (The scene where she uses her body to put out the fire on his uniform and he’s like, ‘Dang😳🔥’, haha.) I also liked how they kept the reference to that ‘your true love is right in front of you’ fortune cookie and how he ultimately uses that to propose to her, that was really sweet. There is no ‘conclusive’ confirmation in the form of marriage or whatever to their romance, but the show ends with them making out in the FT kitchen after he proposes to her and she responds with ‘Service/Good to go’, which was also kind of cute. I found their relationship dynamic quite interesting, especially because they start out as polar opposites personality-wise, but it really seems as if Sae Woo starts rubbing off on Poong at some point, and he visibly softens and becomes more affectionate towards her. There are times where they have to hide their relationship in the kitchen and he treats her quite strictly (causing him to be even less popular by Sae Woo’s family), but he always comes back to her afterwards with a ‘sorry I said that’ pouty face.
By the way, to this very moment I still don’t fully understand why Mrs. Jin was so extremely against their relationship. Like, she could’ve had a personal grudge against Poong for the way he treated her at Hungry Wok (although I have to admit she really wasn’t of much use there), but she just remained determined to disapprove of him even after seeing how much he cared for her daughter and she kept punishing him, even to the point of forbidding Seol Ja and Geok Jeong to join him at FT. Honestly, if I were Seol Ja and Geok Jeong, I would’ve just gone, there was physically nothing Mrs. Jin could do to stop them, so that in itself was also a bit exaggerated. Even Sae Woo’s father didn’t seem to mind as much as his wife did, so in the end it just became a bit childish how she kept trying to persuade him to stop dating her daughter. She also didn’t think about what Sae Woo wanted. Poong himself had already tried to persuade her not to work at FT because he worried it would be too much for her, but Sae Woo was the one who decided for herself that she wanted to keep working there because she’d sincerely come to love cooking and working with the wok. At some point I just really wanted Mrs. Jin to give in, because everyone knew she wasn’t going to keep them apart no matter how hard she tried.

As I mentioned before, I really liked Chil Seong’s gang, mostly because of their unwavering loyalty towards him. Chil Seong certainly found a trustworthy bunch, and it was admirable how firmly they stood by him in everything that happened. Even when they all were dealing with their own stuff, for example how Maeng Dal and Seol Ja got together and how Dong Shik found out his wife was having an affair, they were always there to have Chil Seong’s back, and I liked how they also became an indispensable part of Poong’s kitchen. It was so nice when Yi Man’s dish got approved for the first time and everyone just shot each other triumphant glances. They became a family of their own at Hungry Wok, and later expanded that to Finishing Touch, and in that transition they had the backs of all their fellow Hungry Wok members when they had to stand up against those self-assured FT pricks. I just really liked the bonds that were created once Hungry Wok became a successful business, and everyone that hated each other in the beginning started getting along better.  

Before I go on to my cast comments, I want to make two final practical comments about the title and the poster for this series. Regarding the title, again there’s a difference between English and Korean. In Korean, the show is called something like ‘Greasy Melo’ and I think that actually fits the vibe of the show very well. It basically prides itself on its cheesiness, and the greasy is of course a reference to the cooking. On the other hand, I think Wok of Love is also very fitting, especially because Poong and Sae Woo literally fall for each other while he teaches her how to use the wok, and she even becomes ‘the ladle to his wok’ for a while after he injures his hand. So I think both titles are good as they keep both a reference to a part of the story and to the genre of the series as being a slightly cheesy melo-romance.

Regarding the poster, I initially had another image at the top of this post but I actually think it’s not as fitting for the series so I chose the one that simply features Poong feeding Sae Woo some (heart-shaped) food – as he does quite often in the series as well. I just want to make this remark because I saw someone comment on it in another review and I thought that person made a fair point. First of all, the other image features the three main leads, including Chil Seong, side by side. That in itself isn’t the issue, per se, but it shows Chil Seong in a way that suggests he’s also part of the kitchen staff, waving a kitchen knife, while in fact Chil Seong is the only person at Hungry Wok who is not primarily affiliated with the restaurant. He owns it, he occasionally comes to check on it and he sometimes helps out with serving customers when it’s really busy, but he never actually touches any kitchen utensils or ingredients, so depicting him as part of the kitchen crew like this is a bit misleading. Also, he only has the hairstyle he dons on the picture in the very final episode when he enters Giant Hotel as its owner for the first time. His characteristic gangster hairstyle is what defines him as Chil Seong, especially after Sae Woo mentions it makes him look like a gangster in episode 1. He has the same weird hairstyle throughout the entire show, so why suddenly depict him in this way, with an appearance he literally only shows once in the entire show?
I also personally think the way the image depicts Sae Woo in the middle, as the center, is a bit misleading and even a bit unfair. In all honesty, Poong should be featured in the middle as he’s the main chef and in charge of the kitchen, while Sae Woo is never anything more than a kitchen assistant, even at FT. Depicting her like this, in that confident pose as if she’s the boss, is also not entirely true to the story. Adding to that the way that Poong is on the side, just throwing some flour around with a sheepish smile on his face – all in all I don’t find that this image gives a very accurate impression of the three main characters.

Time for the cast comments!

As I mentioned in my introduction, this drama was recommended to me by my penpal who loves Lee Joon Ho, and I gladly took the chance because I’ve seen him before in Just Between Lovers where I really liked him. I was not disappointed. It was nice to see a different character from him, especially the more silly and cheesy bits, because he pulled it off very well. He definitely gave me butterflies in his romantic scenes as well, especially in the way he lowered his voice sometimes🫣. I personally think that Poong should be seen as the true main character here, even before Sae Woo, because it was his story that was explored the most, he’s the one we have to empathize with as he goes about his revenge plan. I also feel like he had the most character development out of everyone. I really liked Lee Joon Ho’s performance as Poong, and I’m excited to see more of him – in fact, there are a couple of his dramas on my to-watch list!

I hadn’t seen Jung Ryeo Won in anything before, but I know that she’s in at least one more show that’s on my watchlist because I recognize her face. By the way, not me gasping when I discovered she’s actually 9 years older than Lee Joon Ho! I wouldn’t have guessed that! She was 37 when this drama aired while Lee Joon Ho was 28. I mean, they established that she was older than him in the series and he also called her ‘noona’ there, but that was like a one-year difference! Anyways, I just mean to say that seeing their chemistry looked really natural and I kind of forgot about Poong being older than Sae Woo at times. I think Jung Ryeo Won did a really good job portraying Sae Woo’s eccentricity. I’ve seen reviews calling Sae Woo as annoying (one even described her as ‘the most annoying FL of all time’ which I find a bit exaggerated – still doesn’t beat Jealousy Incarnate for me🙃). I was actually relieved she didn’t get more annoying. Yes, I occasionally found it hard to gauge what she was truly feeling, especially when she was still going back and forth between Chil Seong and Poong’s advances in the beginning, but once she went for Poong, she went all the way. I liked how giddy she got at every display of affection and protection from Poong’s side and I personally think she has a very contagious smile, as well. Seeing her smile just made me smile in a natural cause-and-effect kind of way, lol. I’m really curious to see her in other shows, so I hope I can get to that one show on my list soon. Since I don’t have any other reference to her acting, I can’t say that much yet, but I liked the originality and quirkiness of her character, although I sometimes missed a bit of clarity from her. Then again, she just did what the script said, so I can’t really blame her for that. In any case, she was a fun female lead character, and I still find it interesting how there were differences in the ‘main character-ness’ of the main leads, lol. I liked her energy and I actually kind of liked having such a light and carefree female lead for a change.

I’ve only seen Jang Hyuk once before, in Fated to Love You where he also played a bit of an eccentric guy. His eccentricity there was way more exaggerated, so I was wondering how far he would go in Wok of Love, but I actually really came to like his character because of how much he held back. As in, he didn’t overdo it, Chil Seong was already eccentric enough the way he was without adding additional quirks to it. I actually really liked the depth they gave his character by focusing more on fixing his relationship with his mother and showing his professional business side rather than just having him uselessly watch from the side how the others dealt with Hungry Wok. They really made him into his own character, not making him become dependable on his part in Poong’s character development or in whether or not he would receive Sae Woo’s affection. I really liked that about him, and it made him even more likeable in the way he kept being a part of the ‘family’ whilst also going about his own business that stood apart from the restaurant feuds. I really liked Jang Hyuk’s performance and I think his portrayal of the softer sides of Chil Seong’s personality really helped in that. The last thing I needed was an already quirky character trying to emphasize those quirks more than necessary. In that, the way he would make those upside-down peace signs and the way he yelped ‘Sneezing!’ when he sneezed, or the way he loved quoting Nietzsche was enough. He was a very well-balanced character, one of the more layered characters of the series, and I felt for him throughout the entire story as he overcame his own issues by himself.

As I mentioned, I didn’t really understand why Lee Mi Sook was cast as two different characters who didn’t have anything to do with each other, but it didn’t take away from the fact that she acted very well. I mostly remember her from Jealousy Incarnate, but now I see she was also in Cinderella’s Sister (which feels like ages ago so I don’t recognize her from that but I assume she was the FL’s mother) and Temperature of Love (which I believe Sae Woo was even reading at some point, so that may have been a subtle reference). She definitely showed me a new side to her acting, especially as Chil Seong’s mother, and she was a nice addition to the cast. I just kind of hoped there’d be some sort of surprising link that would describe the resemblance between her two characters, or if someone would just make a comment about it because it was so obvious when looking at Seon Nyeo’s younger pictures. To pull this and then leave it unaddressed just didn’t sit right with me, lol. Maybe it’s my neurodivergence, but I just can’t deal with things like this remaining completely unaddressed. Usually when shows bring back a character from a previous season as a new character, there’s always some sort of explanation, or at least a mentioning of the resemblance (Doctor Who is very good at this). If they’re going to make it appear like a completely random thing, then why deliberately choose to cast someone in a double role? Anyways, I don’t want this to affect my cast comment to much so I’ll leave it at that. Lee Mi Sook did very well, although I kind of liked her more as Seon Nyeo because it was a type of character I hadn’t seen her play before.

I know Park Ji Young from Jealousy Incarnate, Moon Lovers: Scarlet Heart Ryeo and The Liar and His Lover, and there’s some more dramas with her on my watchlist, so I’m excited for those. This was the first time seeing her in this kind of role, as a more hands-on down-to-earth kind of lady. I also liked her accent, although I’m still not sure if that was supposed to suggest she was originally from China or that it was a different kind of Korean accent. In any case, although I admired Seol Ja’s loyalty to Mrs. Jin, there were times where I really wanted her to just do whatever she wanted. Why did she need permission to work at Finishing Touch, and why was the only solution to start working there for her and Geok Jeong to move out of Mrs. Jin’s house? As if it was that extreme a betrayal? Also, I really didn’t like it when she was actually debating on going to Finishing Touch, even after Chef Wang betrayed her like that in the past. I get that she needed money, but she really shouldn’t even have debated leaving Poong like that. I’m glad she decided to stay, and it was also kind of funny how, despite her faithful nature, money was always something that managed to sway her. I liked the scene where she got all excited because Maeng Dal received all the money that Chil Seong plastered his building’s walls with, but then completely lost it when Maeng Dal said he wanted to use most of it to help support other people, lol. They were a cute couple, although I find their chemistry a bit awkward at times. In any case, Park Ji Young is always a nice familiar face in K-Dramas and it was nice to see her and Lee Mi Sook act together again, as they also acted closely together in Jealousy Incarnate. It feels like quite a while since I saw her appear in anything, too, so that was nice. I hope to see more of her again soon!

I really like Tae Hang Ho. Besides his appearances in Pinocchio (which is from 2014?! I thought it was a much more recent show🙉), Hidden Identity, Oh My Ghostess, High-end Crush, Uncontrollably Fond, Moonlight Drawn By Clouds, Missing Nine, The Great Seducer, I’ve also seen him in some variety shows like Busted! and From The New World. He just makes me want to hug him, lol. He has such a nice energy, and despite his tendency to be more of a comical character, he always keeps it real. I remember I really empathized with his character in Missing Nine, and I also liked Geok Jeong, especially the time when he came with Poong to Finishing Touch and knocked a bunch of those guys out. He was basically a teddy bear who makes everyone forget how strong he actually is, with his limp and his twitching lip. It was also cute how Bo Ra developed a crush on him. As I didn’t expect to see him in this series, it was another nice surprise. Like with Seol Ja, I still would’ve liked him to be a bit more self-dependent and not just blindly follow Mrs. Jin’s restrictions, because that stood apart from how much they felt like they owed her. The only loose end with his character to me was that until the end I didn’t get any clarity on where he came from. How did he end up at Sae Woo’s family house, how did he meet Seol Ja? I suppose they met somewhere in the cooking field as she knew how good his skills were, but nothing was clarified. Still, I liked his performance.

In my watching experience, Jo Jae Yoon is always ever casted as obnoxious characters, so I found it really nice to see him as Maeng Dal here. In the beginning he did have some annoying tendencies, but he also grew as a person and I think his character may have had the most character development after Poong. I’ve seen him before in Blood, Descendants of the Sun, Fantastic, Rookie Historian Goo Hae Ryung, but I feel like he’s had a lot of guest appearances and cameos as well. This was the first ‘main’ side character role I’ve seen him in and I actually came to like his character. I’ve said this before, but sometimes when actors try to be funny, they tend to overdo because their sole purpose is to be funny while in reality, what’s the most funny is when people are funny without trying to be. Jo Jae Yoon has been on the edge of overdoing it several times, but here I actually liked how seriously Maeng Dal took himself, and in that he sometimes became even funnier because he wasn’t trying to be funny. Still following? Anyways, I just mean to say that, while I was a bit worried that he might become this really obnoxious guy, even whilst being loyal to Chil Seong, I was actually positively surprised by how Maeng Dal turned out. Yes, he was a bit annoying in his determination to obstruct Poong in the beginning, but he really made a change for the better, and that was only confirmed when he showed his compassion towards the people around him by announcing he was going to give all that money to support them. The roles I’ve seen so far of Jo Jae Yoon were kind of redeemed through Maeng Dal, so that was nice.

I hadn’t seen anything with Kim Sa Kwon before, but I think I will see him again in some later watchlist items. In any case, I’ve already talked about how much of a jackass Yong Seung Ryong was, so in that aspect the actor definitely delivered. As if he wasn’t already a big enough douche for showing no compassion towards Poong after taking his girl away from him while they were about to get married (and I honestly don’t believe Seung Ryong was planning on marrying Dal Hee, he was just having fun), the way he acted towards him -and Chil Seong, for that matter- afterwards just kept proving that he was a living scumbag of a man, all the more after we find out what he’s done to make Sae Woo’s family go bankrupt. Anyways, no hate to the actor, only to the character. I guess the fact that I found Seung Ryong so annoying had to do with how well the actor portrayed his douche-ness, so props to him for that, lol. It was kind of weird that Dal Hee suddenly disappeared, because I definitely expected her to appear more often in Seung Ryong’s company to provoke Poong even more. In any case, I’m probably going to see more of his acting and future watches, so then I’ll hopefully be able to give more feedback on his acting performance. For now I’ll just say he portrayed the arrogance and dominant attitude of Seung Ryong very well.

While I always like to see Im Won Hee in dramas as he’s such an underrated actor and capable of so much more than just being funny, it’s always weird to see him as a bad guy, haha. I really liked his role though, even though Chef Wang was insufferable, but he played him with such triumphant venom that I couldn’t help but applaud Im Won Hee for his versatility. For me, he falls a bit in the same category as Jo Jae Yoon, but he also redeemed himself for me here because he too took himself very seriously. I think the last things I saw him in were Melting Me Softly and Room No. 9, but I also know him from Strong Woman Do Bong Soon, Move to Heaven, and undoubtedly some other guest appearances. It was really funny seeing him as a relentless chef who, despite his self-proclaimed high status as a professional chef still lowered himself to bring other people down in very immature ways. I was entertained by his character while simultaneously hating his guts, and that’s something that not all actors can pull off, so well done, Mr. Im Won Hee.

I kind of struggled with my morals here because I usually have nothing but praising words for Oh Ui Shik’s characters, and I still do, except that I really wasn’t prepared to hate his character so much😂. Sam Seon was such an unreasonable back-stabbing snake that I couldn’t even find it in myself to forgive him the way Poong did. Poong is a freaking saint. In any case, it was still very nice to see him and I guess he also has to occasionally portray different kinds of roles (not just friendly ones) to work on her repertoire so I can also see the admirable part in this performance. I’ve seen Oh Ui Shik in a bunch of series so far, Oh My Ghostess (which was his debut😯I didn’t know), Moonlight Drawn By Clouds, Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo, Circle, Fight For My Way, While You Were Sleeping, Are You Human Too?, Wife I Know, Romance is a Bonus Book, Touch Your Heart, True Beauty, Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha and most recently in Crash Course in Romance. Lots of favorites in that list, and even more coming up on my watchlist. Oh Ui Shik is definitely one of my favorite steady actors who always deliver, no matter what their character is. In Sam Seon’s case as well, he felt completely justified in his actions, he wasn’t playing a bad guy while thinking of himself as a bad guy, and that made his performance even more realistic and, consequently, annoying because he was so in the wrong and he didn’t even see how petty he was being. Still, I’m always happy to see him and he definitely delivered again.

By the way, I just discovered that the director of this series also directed Suspicious Partner and A Business Proposal, two of my favorite shows! And I’m actually not surprised that the screenwriter also worked on Jealousy Incarnate, because for some reason I just expected there to be a link somewhere. Not just because both Park Ji Young and Lee Mi Sook were in it, because the story structure as a whole also kind of reminded me of it. I’m just glad they didn’t let Wok of Love play out the way Jealousy Incarnate did, because Jealousy Incarnate made my skin crawl and Wok of Love didn’t🙃.

I think I already briefly touched on it, but I just want to comment once more that in terms of food, this series is an absolute pleasure to watch. Seriously, every single episode made me crave jjajangmyeon and stir-fried pork, and don’t even get me started on that All Shrimp Festival🤤. The competitions between Hungry Wok and Finishing Touch may have been a bit immature, but I was not complaining because everything looked so. freaking. good. The combination of delicious-looking food and simultaneously learning more about kitchen business and how intense it is, how much teamwork you need to get everything to work properly, was very interesting and educating. As I said, my favorite scenes were when everyone was working happily together in the Hungry Wok kitchen, once they all learned how to work like a well-oiled machine they looked like they were having so much fun and they actually made the whole process from kitchen to table look a party.
All in all, I had a good time watching this, it was fun and light and it was nice to not have to be so emotionally invested in some really dramatic storyline. On the other hand, as I’ve elaborated, I did miss a little bit of depth in the overall plot, and there were some tiny sloppy details that could’ve been either clarified or solved better. But I’m still happy that I watched it. Now I will have to relay my thoughts to the friend who recommended it to me, haha.

I’m actually not sure yet what I’m going to watch next, and I haven’t had that for a while😆. I’m thinking of sliding in another series that’s been recommended to me before I decide on how to go on with my watchlist, I just want to switch it up a little bit. So yeah, it’s going to be a surprise for the both of us! I hope I was able to make this a worthwhile review to read, and I’m not sure how long it’ll take me to finish the next one in combination with my (suddenly) hectic daily schedule, but you’ll hear me from soon anyways.

Until then, bye-bee! x

Saiai

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Saiai
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MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hello! I want to say ‘Happy start of autumn season!’, but it’s still like mid-summer where I am, with temperatures of around 30 degrees Celsius, so it feels weird to say it’s already September. Anyways, to start on my end-of-year batch of watch items, I would like to share this review with you. I took a bit longer to finish this show compared to the past couple of series I watched. I’m about to start a new semester AND a new part-time job next week, so from now on it’ll also probably take me longer to finish shows and reviews, sorry in advance. I liked watching this show because it really made me feel like I was watching it as I would on Japanese TV. The type of story and the pace of it was different than Japanese dramas I usually watch, and that was interesting for me. I have to say in advance that, although I thought the build-up and storytelling was pretty good and it kept me guessing what the real truth behind everything was until the very end, it still lacked a certain spark for me to get really excited about it. I was interested, but not invested, per se. Nevertheless, I want to make this a worthwhile review as always, so please bear with me!

Saiai is a 10-episode Japanese drama that I personally watched on my local Netflix, but which was originally broadcasted on the TBS network (the Tokyo Broadcasting System). Each episode has a duration of about 45 minutes. The perspective of the show is interesting in itself, because although you could say the story is mainly about Sanada Rio (played by Yoshitaka Yuriko) and her drive to develop a medicine that can cure her younger half-brother’s cognitive condition, you could also say that we follow her through the lens of her hometown friend/crush Miyazaki Daiki (played by Matsushita Kouhei). That’s how the story starts anyway, with Daiki’s narration about how things turned out so messed up with Rio, his teenage crush. I’d say it follows both of their perspectives, but as neither of them have all pieces of the truth, there’s a lot to fill in. In any case, the story in itself spans over 15 years, from 2006 to 2021, and it includes a couple of crime cases to which the main characters, especially Rio’s family, seem to be related.

I have to say from the start that I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I’d only seen part of the trailer on Netflix and just assumed that it would be another dramatic romance story. I certainly didn’t expect it to be a police detective drama, so that was an interesting surprise.
The story goes back and forth between three different years: 2006, 2012 and 2021. The first inciting incident happens in 2006, when Rio is still living as Asamiya Rio with her father Tatsuo (Mitsuishi Ken) and her -at the time- nine-year-old half-brother Yuu (Hiiragi Hinata) in the prefecture Gifu. Her father runs a dormitory for the athletic track team of the local Shiroyama University, to which Daiki also belongs. As Rio and Yuu are constantly around at the dormitory, helping their father out there, they’re basically ‘part of the team’ and they always eat together with the college students and get along with them.
An important thing to note is that Yuu suffers from a condition where he loses his memory after intense events or emotional outbursts. This condition was caused by a nasty fall on the head at the playground, which caused a diffuse axonal injury. Sometimes, when Yuu gets worked up or gets into a fight with a classmate, he ends up forgetting about what happened afterwards. Rio, who partly blames herself because she just happened to be looking the other way when he fell, has become determined to study medicine in Tokyo and develop a cure for Yuu’s condition.
At the same time, there is something going on between Rio and Daiki, as well. It’s like they both know that they like each other, but they keep putting off the moment when they’ll actually tell each other how they feel. Rio plans on telling Daiki after she passes her entry exam to study in Tokyo, but then Daiki says he wants to be the first to tell her, and so it keeps getting postponed, even though there is undeniably something there.
The inciting incident in question takes place in September 2006, when father Tatsuo has given Daiki a ride in his truck to Osaka so he can attend his sister’s wedding there. That night, a typhoon strikes and while most of the college students are secretly getting high on weed upstairs, Rio is cornered in the dorm kitchen by a guy named Watanabe Kousuke (Asai Daichi). When she wakes up later that night, she doesn’t have any memory of what happened, but her father is already back and acting strange and she even finds her own sweater tucked away somewhere, covered in blood. No one wants to tell her what’s going on, she has no memory of anything and Watanabe Kousuke has vanished from the face of the earth. He’s reported missing and his father, Watanabe Akira (Sakou Yoshi), even comes to the dormitory desperate to get answers about what happened to his son, but no one knows about his whereabouts. Not long after that, right on the day of Rio’s entrance exam, her father Tatsuo suddenly passes away from a subarachnoidal haemorrhage. After her father’s funeral, a man named Kase Kenichiro (played by Iura Arata) suddenly turns up, with the intention of taking Rio with him to Tokyo, to reunite her with her mother and the rest of the Sanada family. She decides to go with him and bid Daiki and her hometown farewell. She leaves Yuu behind with their grandmother but they keep in close contact.

As Rio joins her mother’s family and becomes Sanada Rio, her life changes completely. While her mother Azusa (Yakushimaru Hiroko) seems most happy to see her again, her older brother Masanobu (Okuno Eita) doesn’t want anything to do with her. Her mother wants her to start working for her company, Sanada Group, and Rio eventually becomes the CEO for Sanada Group’s medical care branch, Sanada Wellness, where she finally gets to work on the medicine for Yuu’s condition. She manages to keep her chin up since she’s still in close contact with Yuu and -occasionally- Daiki in Gifu, and when she finds a way to deal with Masanobu, things get a little easier on Rio’s side.

But then something happens that turns her world upside down. When she’s back in Gifu one time for a visit, Yuu tells her that he found a ‘scary video’ on his cellphone. He doesn’t remember recording it, and he asks Rio to watch it for him and delete it if it’s too scary. Turns out, this video contains shocking evidence of what happened during that stormy night in 2006 and it also allows Rio to recall some things that she’d rather not have remembered.
On that night in September 2006, the night of the typhoon, Rio was drugged by Watanabe Kousuke, and just when he was about to lay his hands on her while she was lying unconscious on the dorm kitchen floor, Yuu stumbled upon them while he was filming with his cellphone. In the struggle that followed, Yuu grabbed a random pipe to defend himself and accidentally stabbed Watanabe with it. Due to his condition Yuu lost all of his memories of it, and Rio realizes their father must’ve known about it, since he’d been holding onto Yuu’s phone after the incident, and he kept telling Rio not to worry about anything when she talked to him that night. Rio deletes the video and promises Yuu that she’ll always protect him.
Yuu ultimately comes over to Tokyo in 2012 when he’s 15, after their grandmother passes away. He stays with the Sanada family for a while, but then one day he disappears, leaving only an alarming note that he’s ‘remembered everything’. It doesn’t take long for Kase to reassure Rio that Yuu is safe and that her mother has made sure he’s in good hands, but that he doesn’t want to see her for a while. Rio still gets monthly postcards from him, but that’s it. Meanwhile she keeps working on the medicine, which is called SND-580.

Then, in 2021, fifteen years after Typhoon Night and the disappearance of Watanabe Kousuke, Watanabe Sr. is suddenly found dead in a pond in Shibaike Park. The marks on his body suggest a crime, and Daiki, who is now part of the Komazawa police force in Tokyo, is set on the case with his partner Kuwata Hitomi (Sakuma Yui). The case inevitably brings him back to Rio, and they meet again when Daiki goes in to ask her some questions because she was caught on CCTV having an encounter with Watanabe Sr. shortly before his body was found. As they reunite, questions start popping up again about both cases. While Rio is reunited with a now 24-year old Yuu (now played by Takahashi Fumiya), several hidden agendas within Sanada Group are revealed, Rio is being threatened by a journalist accusing her family’s company of fraud, and the police keeps tracing lead after lead to get to the bottom of both Watanabes’ cases, everyone continues to try to hold on to what’s most important to them, their own individual ‘saiai’.

One thing I liked about this show is that it came pretty much full-circle with the ‘saiai’ element, both as the title and the main theme of the story. I really felt that everything that happened was to protect Rio and Yuu, to make sure they would be able to live happily together and for Yuu to get the chance to be cured. Everything that was done came from a devotion to protect what the ‘culprits’ held dearest. I say ‘culprits’ but I’m not just referring to the people who were directly responsible for a murder. I’m also referring to the people who were compliant in hushing things up. Everyone was guilty in a way, be it directly or indirectly. Some people took the blame to protect others, some hid the truth to protect others, some directly silenced people to protect others. I really found myself judging each ‘crime’ in terms of whether I really saw it as such. A couple of the deaths were actually accidents, but the involved people still became ‘criminals’ because they never spoke up about the truth, or actively hushed it up, even if it was to protect someone. Watanabe Kousuke was revealed to be a scumbag who’d already taken advantage of multiple young women by drugging them, so I couldn’t even feel bad about his death, and to hear his father say that he’d just been ‘joking around’ and the women ‘probably asked for it’ also made it hard for me to blame Kase for what he did to him. There were a lot of grey areas and I found it interesting to get such a different perspective on a police investigation case.
In hindsight, even with only ten episodes, I realize that there’s a LOT happening in this show, but the way they paced everything never gave me anxiety. I never felt like too much was happening at the same time, so that was good. I also liked that basically every episode ended with a little plottwist or the revelation of someone unexpected being involved in one of the cases. It kept me on my toes, so to say, even though I wasn’t as invested as I would’ve liked to be. They still managed to keep it engaging and thrilling whenever they found a new lead or introduced a new piece of evidence.

Let’s just get to the different cases and characters that are introduced in this show. I strive to at least cover all the people that are featured on the flyer above. Fun fact by the way, I learned about this in a class the other day, but has it occurred to anyone else before that Japanese flyers usually feature the main cast? Apparently that’s because in Japan, showcasing the main cast is the primary method to promote a drama series. People base their decision of whether or not to watch it on the main cast, and that’s why on Japanese drama flyers and posters, you’re bound to see at least part of the main cast introduced. In this case, the focus is undeniably on the main cast as well, but it also features some minor characters. Maybe they needed to fill up the space and therefore inserted some supporting characters? Who knows.
Anyways, on the poster we’ve got from top to bottom left to right: Watanabe Akira, Goto, Tachibana Shiori, Sanada Azusa, Rio, Kase, Yamao, Daiki, Tatsuo, Kuwata, Masanobu and Yuu.
As I’ve already talked about the Watanabe Kousuke case, let’s just start with talking about Sanada Group and the Sanada family. Just to clarify the family tree: Rio’s parents are Asamiya Tatsuo and Sanada Azusa, they are divorced. She shares the same mother with Masanobu and the same father with Yuu. We don’t learn anything about Masanobu’s and Yuu’s different mother and father, Rio sees them as her direct siblings without fussing too much about it.
Sanada Azusa is Sanada Group’s CEO. I honestly don’t really know what kind of group company it is, but it contains a lot of branches and companies and it’s a very influential corporation. One of the Group’s most loyal employees is Goto Shinsuke (played by Oikawa Mitsuhiro), and he was even in the running to take over the Group when Azusa’s husband was still running it. In any case, Goto is a very dedicated employee, Sanada Group is his home and he wants to protect it at all costs, so imagine his surprise when suddenly the inexperienced daughter of the CEO appears out of nowhere and gets promoted to the job he was supposed to get after so many years of loyal service. His loyalty to Azusa goes as far as that he’s actually been aiding her in some illegal donation fraud business, something that’s partly uncovered by a persistent female reporter named Tachibana Shiori (played by Tanaka Minami). Shiori is later identified as another past victim of Watanabe Kousuke, the only victim who reported him to the police but got no response. Now she’s poking her nose around Sanada Group and even threatens Rio a couple of times by publishing articles in which she questions the credibility of the medicine she’s working on.
In the meantime, Rio is reunited with her now grown-up little brother Yuu, who even briefly worked as an informant for Goto only to make sure Rio was doing alright. When they reunite, he is initially reluctant to come back to her because he claims to also have been responsible for Watanabe Akira’s death – he has a video of strangling the old man and pushing him into the water, even though he himself doesn’t remember this. In Gifu, they find a video of their father Tatsuo confessing to the murder on Watanabe Kousuke, and giving instructions on where he buried the body. Yuu is taken in for questioning, but as he doesn’t remember his own actions, they can’t find any concrete proof. When new evidence pops up of Watanabe Sr. being seen alive after Yuu allegedly strangled him, the charges against Yuu are dropped and he goes to live with Rio and even agrees (after some debate) to undergo the trials for the SND-580 medicine. Rio couldn’t be happier as she’s approaching her dream of finally curing Yuu.
In the police office, captain Yamao Atsushi (played by Tsuda Kenjiro) takes issue with Daiki’s personal relationship with Rio, and wants him to use his connection to her for his work, without being distracted by his personal feelings for her. Daiki ultimately gets demoted because Kuwata reports his personal involvement with Rio and Yuu to the police force. Still, even after being demoted, Kuwata keeps asking Daiki for help in the case as she’s bent on solving it and they are not making much progress without him.
And then there are some other minor characters who are not on the poster, like Nagashima who was part of the Shiroyama track team and got caught for being in possession of weed the day after the typhoon, Aoki who was the track team’s manager and who had also been a victim of Watanabe Kousuke, and Fujii, a former friend of Daiki’s who also works in investigation (I believe?) and who is also doing his own research about the 2006 case. To be fair, I would’ve probably switched Yamao with Fujii on the poster, because despite being a minor character, I think in the end Fujii had a slightly more significant role than Yamao did. But hey, that’s just my opinion.

Now that I try to summarize it all I realize how many things were actually going on at the same time, and I apologize if it’s not written down very coherently – I might get back to it later and polish it up a bit. Let’s just say there is a lot of controversy about Rio, about her alleged involvement in a disappearance/murder case, how she’s making an advanced new medicine and how her family’s company is involved in fraudulous business. It becomes increasingly hard for her to determine who she can trust, and she even starts doubting her own mother at some point. The only people she feels like she can trust are Yuu, Daiki and Kase, but the end of the show reveals that, despite his genuine care for Rio and her family, Kase also definitely has more skeletons in his closet than he lets on.

Let’s do some brief character analyses, because there are a lot of complicated feelings between many of the characters and I think the series established a couple of interesting points of view for everyone.
Rio has always been very bright, smart and cheerful. When we first meet her through Daiki’s eyes, we see her charm immediately. She’s always in good spirits and she does everything for her little brother Yuu. It’s not easy for her to leave Gifu, the track team, Yuu and Daiki behind to move to Tokyo, but her determination to make a difference and help others like Yuu with cognitive conditions is stronger than anything. Even through all the events that happen in the story, she always ends up going back to the lab to keep working, and when they finally get the green light for the completed medicine in the final episode, I was personally also really happy for her, because this is what she’d been working on the entire time. When I first saw how she changed after becoming the Sanada Wellness CEO, when Daiki meets her again as an adult, I was a bit scared that she’d put on a mask – she initially pretends she doesn’t recognize Daiki, she’s acting a bit tough saying she doesn’t know anything and has never seen Watanabe Kousuke before. But I’m glad she got back to him afterwards like, ‘sorry about how I acted earlier, I’m not in a position to just freely chat like friends’. As in, she explained her situation to him to make it up to him. Even though she’d definitely become more rigid and careful, the old Rio was still in there, and her feelings for Daiki remained unchanged as well. I really liked the scene where they basically tough-confessed to each other that they never pictured anyone else to have a future with, that was really sweet. There isn’t any physical intimacy between them except for the hand holding, they never even kiss, but the scenes in which they’re chatting and snacking together made it more than clear how they felt about each other. I was scared she’d push Daiki away and keep rejecting his advances, but it was nice how despite her occasionally distant attitude she was still like, ‘I feel the same way, you know’, in such a matter-of-factly way.
I’m also really happy that they didn’t create any funny chemistry between her and Kase. At some point I felt like they might’ve headed in that direction, where Kase’s brotherly feelings actually became something more, but luckily it never went there.

We first meet Kase as a sort of ‘mystery man’ at the funeral of Rio’s father. Once in Tokyo, mother Azusa introduces him to Rio as ‘part of the family’ and ‘someone she can entrust with anything’. He’s basically the Sanada Group lawyer, but he also becomes like a kind of personal bodyguard to Rio. While he remains a bit mysterious throughout the series, his genuine heart for Rio and Yuu is undeniable and he does whatever he can to bring them together and make sure they are safe. After Rio he’s probably the person who is the happiest when the news reaches him that the medicine has been approved. He goes after everyone who might endanger or bring harm to them. To negotiate, not threaten. Even when the things he’s done are revealed, I couldn’t bring myself to dislike him because it was so clear that he had a good heart and only wanted to help the people placed under his protection.
In the end, just when the police realize his involvement in all the crime cases, he disappears and escapes the judicial consequences of his ‘criminal’ involvement. I say ‘criminal’ because, as I mentioned before, Kase was one of those people who made me really question what ‘being involved in a crime’ entailed, exactly. We ultimately find out that father Tatsuo met up with him on the night of the typhoon in 2006 to ask him to take care of Rio’s college fees, and they went back to Gifu together after they received nine-year-old Yuu’s panic-call that he’d stabbed someone. Back at the dormitory, Tatsuo stopped Kase from calling an ambulance and he ended up helping him bury Watanabe Kousuke’s body and hush the whole thing up. In that, he may have been an accomplice in hiding evidence from the police, but he wasn’t actually directly involved in the crime.
Now Watanabe Sr.’s case is different because Kase did actually murder him. He wasn’t going to, he was actually going to call him an ambulance and take him to the police station as he asked, but then the old man let slip that he knew Yuu had killed his son and he started saying all those things about how Kousuke had no fault in anything, he was just playing games with those women and they had it coming, etcetera, and then Kase was like, ‘welp now you’ve changed my mind’. Of course it’s still not good to commit murder even if the victim is a scumbag, but it just plays with your perspective in a tricky way because after hearing that I was also like, ‘wow, well, you can swim around in that pond for a while longer for all I care’. Thirdly, he confronted Tachibana Shiori and tried to convince her not to publish the article about the donation fraud, not right before the approval of SND-580, and in an attempt to grab the pamphlets from her hand, she tumbled backwards over the railing. Shiori’s death was definitely a tragic accident, but Kase was guilty of not calling 911 and just leaving her there. When you look at these three deeds, and think about how he did everything to protect Rio from getting her medicine project taken away and Yuu from being convicted of second-degree murder as a child, how ‘guilty’ does that truly make him? I think it’s tricky. It can’t be denied that he broke the law and that’s still something to be convicted for. But I don’t know, I just couldn’t see him as a bad guy or a criminal, for some reason.

Seeing Rio’s unconventional family tree, one might think that Azusa may have had other intentions of bringing Rio over to Tokyo, because why would she suddenly be interested in keeping her daughter by her side whom she hadn’t contacted for years? Especially when introduced to Masanobu, my first thought was whether this was really a joint decision from the Sanada family, because he certainly didn’t seem happy about it. Azusa, on the other hand, seemed very happy to have Rio back and immediately trusted her enough to take on part of her company. During all the events, Azusa is often depicted as a spectator, someone who keeps an eye on Rio and how she reacts to certain things, but she always manages to stay relatively calm about everything. She maintains good relations with Goto, with Kase, with everyone. When the truth about the donation fraud slush fund comes out, she suddenly surprises everyone by sacrificing her own position and making a public announcement that she alone is responsible for committing fraud, but that no member of her family has ever been involved in any murder case. With this, she tries to get the bad publicity off of Rio, to enable her to keep developing the medicine, even if it costs her her own career. I think that, despite Azusa’s much-left-to-be-desired behavior as a mother in Rio’s life, this definitely proved how much she trusted her daughter. I liked Azusa because she had a bit of a mysterious edge about her, and though I initially thought she was kind of an unexpected baddy, being all like, ‘we donated that slush fund money to charity, it’s all ever been for a good cause’, in the end I did feel like she was also just trying to do what she could to protect her family.

As one of the people most effected by Azusa’s sacrifice, I found Goto’s character development very interesting, although I have to say he became a bit too dramatic for me at some point. He starts out as this typical, almost anime-like villain, with the slanted eyes, the tight mouth, the cold behavior and the evil smirk when he gets his way at Rio’s expense. But once Shiori starts getting on his case about the fraud, he suddenly becomes super shifty and even tries to run away. Despite having played an active role in the donation fraud business alongside Azusa, Goto is truly dedicated to his work at Sanada Group, he sees the company as the only place he’ll ever belong. At first he’s suspected of being involved in Shiori’s death, but as he so aptly says to Rio in the final episode, ‘I’m capable of hiding iniquities, but not of murder.’ Though he seems to be a bit of a cold opportunist in the beginning, throughout the show his devotion to Azusa and the company becomes more apparent and in a way, that redeemed him for me a little bit.

I found it a real pity that Shiori had to die, because she just came clean to Rio, they just had a good talk and it’s not even like her death stopped the article from coming out, because that still got published by her colleague afterwards. It feels weird to say because it was sad either way, but I was strangely relieved that she wasn’t murdered, at least. This series had a lot of events made out to be crimes that turned out to be (partly) accidents, and I found that an interesting approach.
Of course you can’t keep out the press and the media in cases like this, certainly when the plots keep thickening. Shiori really seemed to be a bit of a reckless reporter in that she didn’t show any fear and just poked her nose where it didn’t belong. She even got assaulted and tied up in the back of a car once before being rescued by Goto (of all people).
The flashback of her at that training camp when she tried to reach out to Rio for help while Watanabe Kousuke was dragging her drugged body away was heartbreaking, and yet that’s the most fragile we ever see her in the entire show. She was a tough cookie who, like Aoki also, refused to see herself as a victim and who just wanted to do some good in the world and be praised for that.
I remember the scene in the final episode when Daiki was talking to Shiori’s mother after Shiori’s funeral had passed. Her mother expressed her regret of informing the police of her daughter’s single suicide attempt in college, because now they immediately went ‘well, she did try to commit suicide before…’ and tried to brush it off as that. It was just really sad what happened to Shiori, she was really just trying to find her place in the world.

Daiki is the kind of guy who’ll never show his soft side to anyone, not even to the people he’s close with. Even with Rio, though it’s obvious how much he loves her, when he tries to talk sweetly to her it’s just super tsundere and I loved it, haha. But what I found really characteristic of him, and that’s something that’s pointed out to him by others a couple of times as well, is that he just can’t help himself digging into something. Even when the 2006 case should’ve already been closed and finalized, he couldn’t help himself to still visit old acquaintances and ask them questions. It’s just a thing he does, something he has inside him, and that’s what makes him very suitable for the police detective work. It makes him very dedicated and reliable. I get that it was tricky for his team to let him stay on the case after discovering what his (past) connection to Rio and Yuu was, though. Isn’t there an actual rule for that? That you can’t be linked to cases you have some sort of connection with because it can cloud your judgement? In any case, I found it brave of him to just keep doing his own research even after being demoted, because he was not going to give up.
I really liked his dynamic with Kuwata too, and her running gags of using hand cream and the way everyone kept saying her name wrong. Kuwata was also very humane in that no matter how much she understood Daiki’s position and his feelings towards Rio, she still couldn’t condone it from a professional perspective, and it was the right thing to do to report that. Daiki himself didn’t even blame her for it, and I think that also showed how close they were as partners. Kuwata just couldn’t stand how Yamao was dealing with the case and that he even at some point got promoted and just left it unfinished. I loved how Kuwata just straight-out declared she would never do something like that and how she’d see the case through until the end, even if she had to do it all by herself.

I also liked how they didn’t end up making Yuu a complete victim in everything. From my perspective, he was not accountable for the murder on Watanabe Kousuke, first of all because it was an accident and second of all because it was self-defense and he didn’t even remember what he’d done afterwards. He only kept pleading guilty because he’d seen himself on that video, and in the case of Watanabe Sr., even this video turned out to be inconclusive evidence, because the old man turned out to be alive after that footage. I think it was really sad but also really brave of Yuu that he was willing to turn himself in. He was convinced he’d done those things and he needed to be punished for them, and he was willing to face the consequences. Rio always treated him like her little brother, but he became so mature. He even decided to become a lawyer like Kase so that he could also start protecting people. When the charges against him were dropped for the Watanabe Sr. case, the way they started living together so peacefully and happily was really sweet. All in all I really loved the dynamic between the siblings, they meant the world to each other and Rio really went so far as to create a whole new freaking medicine to cure his rare condition. Their relationship was the dearest of the dearest and therefore I think the title applies to them the best.

Regarding the soundtrack, I love me a good Utada Hikaru song. I’m always happy to hear Utada Hikaru songs in Japanese dramas because it takes me back to the old HYD days, to ‘Flavor of Life’ and those kinds of classic drama OSTs. ‘Kimi ni Muchuu’ was no exception. I also liked the suspenseful track ‘Saiai’ by Yokoyama Masaru, it always added an edge to an already thrilling situation.

I think with this I’ve covered most of my thoughts about the characters and the cases in this story. I really hope it all reads coherently, as I was getting things jumbled up a little bit while writing this review. Anyways, let’s get to the cast comments!

I’ve seen Yoshitaka Yuriko before in Tokyo DOGS (major throwback, by the way), Watashi ga Renai Dekinai Riyuu and Tokyo Tarareba Musume, and I know that there are at least two other dramas with her on my watch list. I really like her as an actress. I think she’s especially great at showing off her bright side, I love her smile and the energy she gives off. I think this was the most serious role I’ve seen her play so far. While I personally found it a bit of a pity that ‘the old Rio’ didn’t come out as much after becoming an adult, and she remained a bit distant even with Daiki, I think she did a good job of portraying Rio’s multiple layers. She was very determined to work for what she held dearest, and it was very satisfying to see her accomplish her goal in the final episode. Despite having peace with her relationship with Daiki the way it was, I wouldn’t be me if I wasn’t the tiniest bit disappointed that there wasn’t a kiss, haha. On the other hand, romance wasn’t the main focus of this story, and it would’ve maybe become a completely different series if they’d suddenly started making out, so maybe it was for the better like this. I loved the way the series ends with a shot of the two of them visiting walking back hand-in-hand after visiting the Asamiya family grave together and how the scene just morphed into the final screen with the characters for ‘saiai’. That also made me think that their love for each other was a very important ‘saiai’ in the story. I really want to watch more shows with Yoshitaka Yuriko because I really like her. I hope I can get to one of those watch list items soon!

I don’t believe I’ve seen Matsushita Kouhei in anything before, but I really liked him as ‘Dai-chan’. I just liked the way he portrayed the character so realistically and never became cringy, even in the scenes where he was most definitely flustered because of Rio. He’s also really handsome, in my opinion. I just liked how he seemed to be this really laid-back don’t-bother kind of guy, but when it came to people he cared about, he really went all the way and did whatever he could to help them out. I think I liked him the most in his dynamics with Rio, Kuwata and little Yuu. It was just really sweet how he would suddenly open up and start cracking jokes when he was with his childhood friends. As I said, I wouldn’t have minded at least one little kiss between him and Rio, because I felt that once she would give him the green light, he would not be able to hold himself back, lol. It was really sweet that he wanted to protect her until the end, even after Kase disappeared and he never told her how the case was wrapped up. I loved how, when Rio was like, ‘I think I have a pretty good idea about Kase-san’, he still went like, ‘what could you possibly mean?🤔’. I don’t know, there was just this understanding between them that they played out very well. I hope I can see more of his shows in the future!

Is it just me or is Iura Arata in almost every single Netflix J-Drama I watch these days? I know him from Rich Man Poor Woman, Tantei no Tantei, Unnatural, and this year I saw him in First Love: Hatsukoi and The Makanai. He’s always a very steady actor and I believe this may be one of the most ‘dear’ roles I’ve seen him in so far. I remember really liking his role in The Makanai too, so maybe I just like it when he plays a ‘kind’ character, haha. I’m used to seeing him in kind of villainy roles, so seeing him being nice is like a relief, haha. That’s the thing, no matter what role he plays, he always shows something new that I haven’t seen him do before, and I like that a lot. Here too, even though he was revealed to have secrets in the end, it’s not like he was suddenly revealed to be the typical ‘it was me all along muhaha’ type of villain; I still had sympathy for his character even though he committed some crimes, and that’s all because he portrayed Kase as such a genuinely kind man. You come to love him because he loves Rio and Yuu so much. I really liked his performance here.

Not trying to fangirl here or anything, but Takahashi Fumiya is such a gorgeous boy. He was only 20 when this drama aired! To be honest I just knew he was Yuu from the moment they introduced him as Goto’s informant, althought I did wonder at first why he would spy on his sister. Anyways, he was adorable. Both as the puppy-eyed ‘what do I do’ Yuu as the more confident and independent Yuu he became after he started living with Rio. I also loved how he basically shipped Rio and Daiki and kept trying to get them to make up and talk together. I haven’t seen anything with Takahashi Fumiya before, but the way he smiled somehow reminded me of Kang Tae Oh, so I guess it just felt like I’d seen him before, lol. I really liked how he managed to portray Yuu as someone who’d become a victim of his own condition, but without making the character become pathetic. I have at least one other Netflix J-Drama with him on my watch list, so I hope I get to see more of his acting soon!
Adding to this, I want to also mention Hiiragi Hinata, who played the nine-year old Yuu. This little boy stole my heart, for real. His scenes with Yoshitaka Yuriko as his big sister and Matsushita Kouhei as his (basically) big brother-in-law were incredibly sweet. He did an amazing job channelling the fear going through Yuu on that typhoon night, how he was just sitting curled up in a corner screaming while his father and Kase were trying to think of a way to save this precious child from conviction. I was really impressed by his performance, seriously, Japanese child actors are going places!

I feel like I should recognize Yakushimaru Hiroko from more, but I think I’ve only seen her as Satomi-chan’s mother in Unnatural before. I thought she was a really nice casting choice for Rio’s mother, and I also liked how her character remained original in its own way. In a more typical story, the mother would’ve actually been evil or something, you know. I liked that Azusa really didn’t have anything to do with any of the murder cases, and that she had the guts and the decency to stand up for her own fraudulous business if that meant it could save her daughter’s and her family’s reputation as a whole. She may not have been the warmest mother to Rio in terms of emotional support, but she definitely showed her daughter how to be strong and how important it is to be able to rely on family. I thought she performed very well, also in keeping Azusa’s hidden agenda a mystery for so long before the truth finally came out.

I know now why Oikawa Mitsuhiro gave me the creeps from the get-go: he was the predator teacher in the 2016 Erased movie! Other than that I probably recognize him from the movie Love Like the Falling Petals, which I watched recently, but I don’t remember which character he played (whoops). Anyways, apart from those two movies I haven’t seen him in a drama series before. I think he was the only actor in this series whose acting started bothering me a little bit at some points. He was such a typical character with his poker face and constant dead-glare, that it was just weird to suddenly see him make exaggerated expressions, or even to see him smile. I don’t know, it just seemed so out of character for him to suddenly become so lame after the fraud business got shut down. When he showed up at Azusa’s office looking all raggedy, it was such a stark contrast with how he usually walked those halls, with his back straight in his tight suit and his nose in the air. What did redeem him for me a little bit was that he came out with an honest explanation to Rio at the end. He had always simply acted out of his devotion for Sanada Group, that was all he knew and wanted to stay true to, and that in itself is an admirable thing. Of course, scamming old people in care homes out of their money is unforgiveable, and he knew that too, but it also felt like he had nowhere else to go. He was only ever loyal to his work and there is something to say for his sacrifice. I did feel a bit more compassion for him towards the end, when the whole frigid attitude made way for more self-reflection. I wonder if I’ll ever come across him in a drama where he plays a friendly character, that should be interesting to see!

I don’t know what it is about Tanaka Minami exactly, but something in her face reminds me of Lee Min Jung. Anyways, I haven’t seen her in any drama series before. Something I learned while looking her up on MDL was that she actually worked at TBS and she’s currently working as a freelance announcer herself, besides acting. Must be interesting to get to play a character who’s in a business that you’re personally familiar with! I liked Shiori, and I would’ve liked to get to know her a bit better. Because of the short duration of the show there isn’t that much time for elaborate backstories, and the most important information we get about her is that she fell victim to Watanabe Kousuke and had a dark period in college, but there was still a lot about her that could’ve been uncovered had she not been killed off. I still find that a pity, really. I found her a very intriguing character, especially after she reveals to Kase that she just wants to be acknowledged for doing something good in the world – where does that desire come from? She never expresses any interest in being acknowledged that much before, she even tells Goto that there’s nothing interesting about her and that he shouldn’t even bother helping her out. She was a character that I definitely would’ve liked to have more backstory. I really liked how she performed Shiori in her brazen, reckless kind of way.

I see that I’ve seen Sakuma Yui in the movie Call Me Chihiro which I also watched not too long ago, yet I already have difficulty remembering her from there (my memory is literally the worst). First of all, she’s gorgeous. I really liked how she carried that androgynous look as seemingly being the only woman in the police force. They never show her wearing more feminine clothes either, and that really shaped her character for me, it gave the impression that she was comfortable in her own skin, and that was very cool about her. I loved that she wasn’t just Daiki’s sidekick, but that she actually started taking the lead in the case after he left the team. Her determination and loyalty towards both her job and Daiki, even when he was off the team, made her very likeable. It was also nice that they gave her some quirks, like always using hand cream and the fact that the entire team called her ‘Kuwako’ and she was always like ‘Kuwata desu😑’. I liked that she became more and more her own person throughout the story. I hope to see more of her acting!

Lastly, I just want to mention Tsuda Kenjiro because I kept wondering why he seemed (and sounded) so familiar, only to come to the realization that he’s one of my favorite voice actors🤯. I’ve never seen him appear in a drama or movie before, so it took me a while to make the connection! It was funny to see him appear here as Daiki’s police captain, although I still feel like his character was a bit too minor to put on the poster, lol. In any case, it was nice seeing him on-screen as a real person rather than just listening to his beautiful voice, haha.

Well then, I’ve covered the cast members that I wanted to comment on the most!
As I already shared in my introduction, while I liked this series as a whole -it was well-written, the acting and the story were good and it kept surprising me with new twists and pieces of evidence- it didn’t fill me with as much excitement as I would’ve liked. I’m not sure what it was, but it just lacked a certain spark for me to get really invested in the story. Although I think this was the right duration for the story to unfold and be wrapped up nicely, I still would’ve liked to get more closure, and sometimes things were kept purposely vague or mysterious for engaging reasons while I just wanted people to speak up, lol. What I did like was that the title fit the story so well, and that I really felt that every single character acted out of their own ‘saiai’, their own devotion to what was dearest and most important to them. The themes of different types of love, loyalty and commitment came through very clearly and it definitely had a powerful message. I personally really liked the love that existed between Rio, Yuu and Daiki, and also the loyalty and genuine fondness that Kase felt towards Rio and the Sanada family as a whole. It showed how everyone can be driven by their own dedication to something, whether it’s a person, a place or a career, and how far people are willing to go when it comes to protecting what’s dearest to them, even if it takes them down the dark path. I’m glad I gave it a chance, it was very interesting and original in its own way.

As I’m bound to get super busy the coming months, I’m not sure how much time I will have in-between to continue my watchlist, so I can’t promise when my next review will be out, but I’m definitely going to try to at least upload one review per month! Wish me luck, haha.

Goodbye for now! Bye-bee! x

Ito-kun A to E

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Ito-kun A to E
(伊藤くん A to E / The Many Faces of Ito)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hiya! I bet you thought I was done for this month – and then I wasn’t! No but seriously, I didn’t know beforehand this show would be so short and easy to digest that I would get to finish it within a couple of days and write a proper review about it. Actually, I even got the chance to use this particular watch for a homework assignment since I had to watch a movie and write a little synopsis about it. This review is a bit special in the sense that this story consists of two parts, an 8-episode drama series and a movie. Sometimes, a movie adaptation is made of a formerly released drama series as a recap or a remake, but in this case, it’s actually a complimentary movie – I would highly recommend watching it after finishing the drama because a lot of things will make much more sense. I don’t think I’ll lose much time on the story itself, so I think I’ll devote a special part of this review to putting the drama and the movie side by side and see how they balance each other out, because I personally found that really interesting to think about.

To start with the drama series, Ito-kun A to E is a Netflix J-Drama released in 2017 with 8 episodes of about 25 minutes – not that lengthy. It tells the story of thirtysomething screenwriter Yazaki Rio (played by Kimura Fumino) who had a major hit with a certain drama series (‘Tokyo Doll House’) a number of years ago and is still profiting from that show’s popularity and success. However, she hasn’t exactly been keeping up the successful work after that. On the contrary, she’s only written one book in which she gives young women advice on relationships, and that’s it. She wants to keep writing, and the drama producer she worked with on Tokyo Doll House, Tamura Shinya (played by Tanaka Kei), wants her to keep writing, but for some reason Rio has been in a slump for a while now. To fill up the emptiness she finished this relationship advice book and the story starts with her giving a little information session about her book to interested young women who are struggling with relationships. At the end of the session, the participants are encouraged to ask Rio for personal advice through submitting a form in which they share their struggles. While Rio initially has no interest in personally answering the questions of these ‘pathetic’ women, her interest is piqued when she discovers that four participants have submitted their form with a story about a man named ‘Ito’. After sharing this with Tamura, Rio decides to call on these four women to come for interviews at her house, thinking that she might hear them out and give advice while simultaneously use their stories for her new drama proposal, something that will surpass Tokyo Doll House. Four women and one man named Ito… what exciting story could come out of this chanceful discovery?

I think it’s important to know from the get-go that while Rio is undeniably the main character, she is not a very empathic person. Even as the main character, we don’t really get to see through her, we only see how she is now, bitter and skeptical while she looks down on all those women who get played by the men in their lives. Her decision to start interviewing these four women is by no means a genuine gesture to help them – she means to just sit there and nod and smile and fake-empathize with them, only to harshly judge them and scoff at their stupidity the second they leave. Rio is not a very ‘kind’ person in that aspect. Which makes her all the more interesting as a character, in my opinion.

Let’s look at the four women and their connection to this mysterious Ito. Rio hears the four women out and visualizes their encounters with Ito based on their stories. As the scenes are all visualized through Rio, we don’t actually get to see the real Ito, as Rio doesn’t know what he looks like. She visualizes him in turn for different men she personally knows in order to get an understanding of what he must be like. As she visualizes the women’s stories, we see their encounters with Ito played out with Rio being in the same room with them, watching their conversations and giving snarky comments while she continuously judges the women for being so naïve.
The drama basically divides the episodes as two per woman (A, B, C, D) like a kind of case file, so I’m going to follow that order and system.

Woman A is Shimahara Tomomi (played by Sasaki Nozomi). Tomomi allegedly has been in a relationship with ‘Ito-kun’ for five years, but they’ve never had sex. She wants to, but for some reason it hasn’t happened so far. When she tells her story, Rio visualizes Woman A’s Ito as her producer Tamura, after getting the image of him being quite conceited. She ultimately puts Tomomi down as ‘the ultimate doormat’; while Tomomi herself consistently romanticizes and idealizes her relationship with Ito, it turns out that Ito actually treats her very badly and keeps her at arm’s length to actually progress in their ‘relationship’. He just calls out to her from time to time to get some dinner or a drink, vents about his work and takes her genuine care for him for granted. No matter how many times it happens, no matter how many times Tomomi decides to let it go, whenever he reaches out she’s right back to square one, answering to his every need. During one situation she describes, Ito casually tells her he’s fallen in love with a girl from the tutoring school he works part-time at, and that he wants to remain loyal to her and refuses to sleep with Tomomi. For Tomomi, this comes completely out of the blue as the way she saw their relationship apparently was not how it’d been for him all this time. She got him expensive sweets only to find out he gave them to his crush, she got him 200,000 yen to join a seminar he was interested in only to be judged for being too pushy, and when she still went when he texted her to go to a concert, she only arrived there to find out he just wanted to get rid of his ticket because his crush refused to go. For Ito, Tomomi has always been nothing but a convenience, someone he could just call when he was bored or needed to kill some time.

In-between the stories, we meet another screenwriter who’s signed by Tamura’s agency, Kuzumi Kentaro, nicknamed ‘Kuzuken’ (played by Nakamura Tomoya). We learn about him through Tamura, who tells Rio that Kuzuken’s new proposal was rejected and that the producer agency even cut ties with him. Kuzuken is in a bit of a slump as well, just like Rio, as he doesn’t have anything new and inspiring to write, and he sometimes just hangs out at Rio’s place as they’re on good terms with each other. He refers to Rio as ‘sensei’, from which we learn that he regards her as a respectable senior in their field of work. Apart from his position as a fellow screenwriter, Kuzuken also turns out to play an unexpected part in the stories of Women C and D, particularly in the latter’s. But first of all he appears as Rio’s visualization of Ito in Woman B’s story.

Woman B is Nose Shuuko (played by Shida Mirai). While it’s revealed that Shuuko is the girl Ito dumped Tomomi for, her relationship with him is different from what you’d initially expect after hearing what Ito tells Tomomi. Shuuko happens to work part-time at the same tutoring school as Ito, where he is actually the boss’ nephew, and Ito’s crush on her doesn’t exactly include a cute and polite approach. Ito stalks Shuuko. He forces himself on her by giving her gifts and ambushing her after work to walk home together. Shuuko, unlike any of the typical women who participate in Rio’s briefing, doesn’t have any interest in relationships and even claims she ‘doesn’t want to be treated as a woman’ by a man. She’s never asked for Ito’s attention, so to her it just comes across as a bother that he’s suddenly all over her, even to the point of coming to her house after finding out where she lives. Despite her clear disdain with the situation, her passive attitude eventually even gets her roommate and bestie Miyata Maki (played by Yamashita Rio) involved. Maki takes over the concert tickets Ito got for Shuuko and himself, ends up going to the concert together with Tomomi and they even have a pretty good time until Maki starts badmouthing Ito and gets reprimanded for it by Tomomi. After that she becomes a bit pissed at Shuuko for not dealing with her own stuff better. In the end, Shuuko and Ito meet one more time at the orientation meeting of a seminar they’re both interested in (admittedly, this time they met by coincidence as Ito didn’t know Shuuko was also interested in it), but then Shuuko basically judges him for believing in something like that to get him to change his ways, again leaving Ito more inspired than dejected.

After establishing that the Ito from both Woman A and B’s stories are the same person since their stories line up so much, Rio starts to get even more interested in working this case out as a new drama plot, encouraged by Tamura. She initially believes that it’s just a coincidence that these two women have gotten involved with the same guy, and there’s no way that Woman C and D’s stories are also about the same Ito. What are the odds, right?

Woman C & D’s stories are connected from the start, simply because they are best friends. To start with Woman C, Aida Satoko (played by Ikeda Elaiza) is a girl who’s never had a problem attracting men’s attention. She’s basically a butterfly that flies from one guy to the next, but her ‘relationships’ are never serious and always end quickly. While she may have a half-hearted attitude towards finding ‘real love’, one person she does care about is her best friend, Woman D, Jinbo Miki (played by Kaho). The complete opposite of Satoko, Miki is the most pure and innocent girl you can imagine. She’s had a crush on her senpai from university, Ito, for three years and he’s shown interest in her too, but they’ve never been really intimate with each other. Miki cares a lot about being intimate with the person she loves and she is willing to ‘give’ her virginity to Ito. She talks about him a lot to Satoko who seems to be really supportive of her. Honestly, Satoko’s care for Miki seems to be boundless: she even took up a part-time job at Miki’s favorite tart shop (despite personally disliking sweets) so she could buy and gift her her favorite cherry tart for her birthday every year. Despite this seemingly devoted friendship from Satoko’s side, we find out that there’s something else behind her display of wanting to protect her sweet friend from the vileness of men – Rio identifies it as being jealous that her innocent friend now suddenly has a real love story of her own, while she’s only ever gotten used to waking up in empty beds the next morning.
All in all, I’d say there is a certain toxicity in Satoko and Miki’s friendship, because it remains a little vague what exactly Satoko’s intentions are. In any case, after a failed attempt in which Miki was planning on sleeping with Ito but ended up not going through with it, Satoko decides to seduce Ito herself and sleep with him, which she actually does. Ito is here visualized by Rio as the male lead character from Tokyo Doll House, Okita (played by Yamada Yuki). This is when she finds out that Ito himself is also still a virgin, even after Miki told her he made a fuss about her still being a virgin. In any case, sleeping with him once and hearing how he talks about Miki seems to be enough for Satoko, as she herself holds up the excuse that she is just protecting her innocent friend from this douchebag. After this night, she even breaks down crying in the street, presumably out of guilt towards betraying Miki, but she also admits to Rio that she’s always been jealous of Miki. I personally found her true intentions a bit hard to gauge.
When Miki assumes she’s been dumped by Ito after that disastrous night, she decides to make an effort toward him and lose her virginity just to get it over with, so that he’ll want her again. As it happens, Miki and Ito both went to Sophia University at the same time as Kuzuken did, and Kuzuken and Miki are actually on pretty good terms. Because Kuzuken has an image of being quite open-minded and casual, Miki calls on him to ask if he wants to help her out – with losing her virginity, that is. Unaware of the fact that Kuzuken has actually always had a crush on her and that this request therefore holds more meaning to him than to her, they agree to go with the plan. However, as they are about to get things started in the hotel room, Miki receives a call from Ito, and Ito even comes to their hotel room. Needless to say, the night ends without Miki losing her virginity. Apart from that, her oblivion also ends up hurting Kuzuken’s feelings a lot. Ito, who actually only called Miki after first calling Satoko to tell her he’s fallen in love with her before getting completely shut down by her, makes a big scene about how terrible he feels that he’s complicated things between the two girls, but he also declares to Miki face to face that he slept with Satoko and that he was the one who initiated it. Things get messy, is what I’m saying.

A peculiar thing about this show is that, even after finding out about all the stories these four women have with one and the same guy, there’s not actually a conclusion to their stories. The show is not about Rio starting to feel bad for these women and taking revenge on Ito, or about these women finding closure after having been involved with Ito. Every story has kind of an open ending, there’s not exactly a point they all reach where everything’s ‘all good and well’. On the other hand, I wouldn’t call it a bad ending either, since both Shuuko and Maki and Miki and Satoko make up and Tomomi also comes to terms with letting Ito go. It’s just that life goes on, and everyone just manages to get away from Ito, which I guess is a good thing.

We only find out the true identity of Ito in the final episode of the drama – when Tamura calls Rio to tell her that he’s found out who ite is. Turns out, Ito Seijiro (played by Okada Masaki) is a student in Rio’s drama writing class. Some of the women have mentioned something about him aiming to become a script writer, but it still comes as a big surprise for Rio when she finds out she’s actually had personal conversations and encounters with Ito herself. Not just that, the reason his identity comes out is because he’s just submitted a drama proposal of his own, one that bears an uncanny resemblance to the one Rio is working on, only his version is written from the guy’s perspective – his own. Furthermore, his proposal is called ‘Ito-kun A to E’, including a fifth woman, Woman E, who turns out to be no one other than Rio herself. What exactly Ito’s deal with Rio is remains kind of vague, we do see that he’s drawing her at some point during class, but apart from that it doesn’t seem like he has a crush on her or anything – he probably just sees her as a rival, as he knows that she’s also working on a new drama script and he’s even consulted her before about submitting one of his proposals for a contest at her producer’s agency. He’s based his story on his own experiences with these four women, with himself at the center of it. Ito Seijiro is the Ito.

Before I go on to adding the movie to this review, I first briefly want to introduce the topic of Rio’s personal backstory and in particular, her history with Tamura. It’s revealed that Rio and Tamura were actually together for a while, when Tamura was first put in charge of Rio’s script writing for Tokyo Doll House. We aren’t told what exactly their relationship was and how serious it got, but there were definitely some very cozy moments between them and they also slept together at hotels and stuff. At some point, Tamura suddenly announced that he was getting married and their personal relationship ended, even after Tokyo Doll House became such a big success. They still maintain a professional relationship, but it’s pretty clear to see in their scenes together -even before we find out anything happened between them- that there’s some tension there. In the way he leans into her while nudging her shoulder when asking her to work with him again, in the way she keeps brushing him off, acting all coy. In the drama, this aspect of Rio’s background is the only ‘private’ information we learn about her, and she also acts very casual and ignorant about it, although it does seem like she wants to keep working with Tamura too. In the final scene of the drama, Tamura calls Rio to tell her that both her and Ito’s drama proposals were rejected, but that he still wants to work with her on something that’ll surpass Tokyo Doll House, and we can see Rio smiling fondly on the phone as she agrees.

Now, let’s get to the portion of this review I’ve been looking forward to the most: drama VS movie. As I mentioned before, I’ve only ever seen movie adaptations or remakes of dramas – in animations it sometimes happens that a whole season gets ‘recapped’ as a movie with basically the same content. However, in this case, I was really surprised to find that the movie doesn’t just compliment the drama – it actually fleshes it out.
While the drama primarily follows Rio’s gaze and visualization of the events the four women tell her about, the movie focusses on Ito himself, and how he experienced everything that’s happened. While in the drama all the women were ‘treated’ separately as A, B, C and D, the movie follows the chronological timeline of Ito’s affairs with all these women, intertwined. For example, in the first half we basically see him go back and forth between Tomomi and Shuuko, and we get a much clearer sense of cause and effect through this way of storytelling this way. We see more clearly how Ito got Shuuko those sweets and concert tickets, and how they ended up going to Maki and Tomomi, while in the drama it’s only ever discussed rather than shown. We can see Ito’s crush on Shuuko from his own perspective rather than told through Shuuko.
Because of this different perspective, there are also a lot of inconsistencies in the scenes, locations, times and dialogues. The scenes from the movie are not identical to the ones in the drama. However, rather than getting annoyed by those inconsistencies and wondering why they couldn’t synchronize them, I figured that this was all extremely deliberate. After all, the scenes from the drama were all visualized by Rio, who wasn’t even there: that’s just the way she imagined how it must have gone down. A scene that takes place late at night outside Shuuko’s house in Rio’s visualization, takes place in broad daylight in a public place through Ito’s narrative. It’s all very interesting, in my opinion. I find it really clever of the writers to make that distinction between their two stories, because this way it really seems like the drama is Rio’s script proposal and the movie is Ito’s script proposal. They wrote the same story, but from their own perspectives. I thought this concept was really original, because in this way, even though we already know the story from watching the drama first, the movie still gives us new information.
For example, we find out what exactly happened the night Ito and Miki went to that hotel together and failed to have sex. In the drama, we only hear what both of them tell Satoko – Miki tells her that Ito got a bit pushy and when she went to take a shower first he suddenly gave up and they just slept, while Ito tells her that Miki was super excited and asked him to ‘take care of her’ after taking off all her clothes and it just became awkward for him. Through the movie, we find out that neither of these scenarios are the complete truth, because although Miki did take off her clothes and asked Ito to ‘take care of her’, he was definitely willing to give it a shot but got anxious because he was hiding the fact he himself was still a virgin too, and ended up making Miki feel like the bad person for making him feel bad.
It’s also through the movie that we find out that Rio actually planted the idea in Satoko’s head to take concrete action if she wanted to ‘protect her friend’. It isn’t too clear, but she’s definitely more suggestive in the movie than in the drama when she suggests this to Satoko, and it really seems like she’s urging her on to do something, even though from Rio’s perspective this is only to ‘spice up the story’ for her own writing interests. Another example of this is when we find out that what Shuuko says to Ito when they meet at that seminar orientation is a literal repetition of what Rio told her during her last interview. This isn’t clarified in the drama, only in the movie, and then suddenly Shuuko’s determination to walk away from Ito and that seminar gets a different feeling because the words suddenly aren’t just her own – they are words that Rio used to reprimand her, and she in turn uses them to reprimand Ito. So, in this way, she again uses someone else’s help and words to get out of a situation with Ito, rather than coming up with something herself.
There are several of these scenes that just suddenly got a different feeling or layer in the movie, and that convinced me even more that the drama followed Rio’s perspective and displayed feelings. Honestly, the movie gave me much more satisfaction because it was way more transparent and clarifying, also in terms of Rio’s true motivations.

When I say Rio’s true motivations, I mean that the movie clearly elaborates on her lingering feelings for Tamura and her desperation to get his affirmation. While she acts all casual and aloof toward him in the drama series, in the movie she gets way more desperate to get him to support her in her writing, she keeps begging him to let her write the proposal, to believe in her, and one time she even starts yelling and crying when he shows hesitation in whether or not she can pull it off. It just really made me feel like the drama portrayed Rio as she wanted to see herself, as someone who stood above all those pathetic women who were getting manipulated by men, perfectly able to keep a professional distance from Tamura, unimpressed by any advances he made on her. In the movie, we see things differently, and whether this is the truth or the way Ito sees Rio, fact remains that she never completely got over the break-up with Tamura and, most importantly: she realizes that she’s basically the same as those four women – those four women are her. In the movie, she even admits this out loud to Ito in a final confrontation after both their proposals have been rejected. In this aspect, the movie had a much more satisfying conclusion, because Rio finally managed to get to the bottom of her obsession with this script.

Speaking of final closures, I have to talk about Rio’s bath tub for a bit. When Rio first moved into her current, luxurious apartment, back when she was still with Tamura and working on Tokyo Doll House (or just after finishing it – could be that she bought the apartment with the money she got from the show, not sure), we see that she tapes her bath tub shut with red tape. It first seems to be a deliberate decision purely because she’s not going to use that room for the bath and she plans to make it her workroom where she’ll be writing many amazing scripts. The taping of the bath tub symbolizes her determination to become a successful screenwriter, that’s what her own explanation comes down to. However, as we know not much has happened after Tokyo Doll House. Not much happened and the bath tub remains shut. Rio is living her life in that luxurious house with framed posters of Tokyo Doll House everywhere to remind her of her worth, her potential, her talent around every corner, but the bath tub remains taped shut without any new work replacing that first hit.
In the drama, the bath tub is shown sporadically, but we don’t get much clarity on the deeper meaning behind it. For me, it was like I knew it must have had some kind of symbolical meaning but I couldn’t really figure it out at first. It’s clarified much more clearly in the movie, and then it hit me that while it may not have been a literal reference or symbol for one specific thing, it does seem like the bath tub started to define Rio in her entire time during her slump. She kept it closed, unwilling to look back at the feelings she had when she first taped it shut, the hope and excitement and determination she felt when thinking of how many scripts she’d be laying out on that red taped surface. It’s exactly because none of that happened that she’s leaving it the way it is, purely because she doesn’t want to be confronted by how she truly feels, the regrets she truly has, also concerning how her relationship with Tamura ended.
Both in the drama and the movie, she ultimately takes off the tape and opens the bath to find that it’s still completely clean inside, and again in my personal opinion I felt the scene in the movie was way more meaningful than in the drama, where it seemed like kind of a random action. In the movie, Tamura is with her in the room when she un-tapes the tub. After taking the tape off, Rio hesitates and says, ‘Whatever’s in here might be rotten’, to which Tamura asks her, ‘Are you afraid?’, to which she answers, ‘Yes, but I must open it’. Tamura watches her while she takes the lids off and fills the tub with water, and then they are just looking at how it fills up side by side. In this scene, I could feel something from Tamura in the way he looked at her and suddenly called her ‘Rio’ again (he consistently calls her ‘Yazaki-sensei’ throughout the rest of the show). This scene just made much more sense to me in the movie, because it felt like Tamura was actually there to guide her to reopen the bath tub and consequently, metaphorically, open herself up again to the writer she once wanted to be. After that, there’s one final scene of Rio happily sitting on a terrace while writing on her laptop, seemingly having regained her joy in writing again. I thought it made for a very clear and more conclusive ending than the drama did. I liked that the ending of the movie went a bit further than where the drama ended, it had that final important confrontation between Rio and Ito and this bath tub scene which had a completely different feeling to it than in the drama, where she takes off the tape by herself without Tamura being there with her.

Rio remains a quite ambiguous character until the end, but I also thought that was refreshing because it just proved that even to the viewers she consistently kept her feelings to herself. It even takes the perspective of this ‘jerk’ Ito to make her see what she didn’t allow herself to acknowledge, namely that the four women she claimed to look down on actually reminded her of herself. The reason it got this extra layer was purely because of the addition of the movie, and that’s why I would encourage everyone to absolutely watch it in that order: drama, then movie, and definitely not leave the movie out. Watching the movie before the drama is just confusing, because the whole revelation of who Ito is will have less of an impact, and it’s really fun to speculate together with Rio and see Ito performed by in turn Tamura, Kuzuken and Okita.

Despite the less satisfying ending, I have to say that the drama, which I watched in much better quality on Netflix than the movie on Dramacool, has a lot of redeeming features as well. I particularly liked the cinematography, which was really clean and cool and original. I also liked the setting of the scenes where Rio was sitting in on the encounters between the women and Ito, it almost made it feel like a stage play. The way she just sat next to or beside the featured couple and commented on what was being said, continuously smirking and making sassy remarks to the women for being so stupid to fall into this guy’s trap, it gave such a clear insight in Rio’s adaptation of the information these women were giving her. She was unconditionally judging them from the start, and even the advices she gave them were fake. Her only intention was to get these women to stir up some action so she could make her story about them more exciting. It’s pretty awful, and you’d almost think there’d be some sort of conclusion in which all the women found out about Rio’s true motives and moved against her together for taking advantage of their stories and feelings or something. But even that doesn’t happen. Rio’s script isn’t even approved by the producer, it doesn’t come out. All this project does in the end is confront Rio with her own taped-shut and avoided problems, and the conclusion of the story is that she finally finds it in her to open that bath tub again and see how clean it still is on the inside, as clean and hopeful as when she first closed it off with her determination. Now that I (think I) get the reference, I think that it was a really original way to symbolize someone running away from their own problems until they had no choice but to go back there and start anew. Very clever.

One scene that I remember that made an impression on me was the scene when Miki, Kuzuken and Ito (in Miki’s story played out by the real Ito) are in that hotel room together. They made a really interesting cinematographic choice here to feature each character in one shot, so three columns next to each other, almost like a fancam with idols (don’t know why that suddenly popped into my mind, lol). They all maintain their own shot while communicating with each other, and you can see it’s actually all just one take by the way they seamlessly enter each other’s shots as well. Even when they’re not in the correct alignment, and sometimes it’s Kuzuken versus Ito or Ito versus Miki, it somehow worked really well. I thought the way they decided to film this was really unique. Let me add some screenshots to show what I’m talking about.

Although I understand how even the movie can leave some people hanging at the end, all in all I really liked watching the whole thing as kind of a combo deal. To have a movie that’s such an addition to the original drama, not just to make the viewer relive the story but to actually contribute more information to it that keeps us on our toes rather than being a literal repetition of what we’ve seen in those eight episodes before was a really good idea. I’ve honestly never seen something worked out like this, and it definitely beat having to watch a whole new second season just for that extra info. They really made an effort to mirror Rio’s and Ito’s respective stories, to create the same story from two different perspectives, one consisting of eight episodes of 25 minutes and one of a full two-hour sequence.

Before I go onto my cast comments, I just want to mention one more general thing, and that’s that I really enjoy Japanese dramas like this. I’ve actually been reading an originally Japanese novel lately that explores women’s feelings regarding (changes in) their own bodies and attitudes towards sex and pregnancy and things like that, so this story fit well into the mindset that I was already in. I find it really refreshing when topics like this get featured in drama series since they’re usually such a taboo. Romantic relationships are usually so romanticized and idealized that I found it quite relieving to watch a show about how all these women were so innately different in personality and attitude towards their feelings for a man or, in Shuuko’s case, her feelings towards relationships in general and her way of responding to a guy’s feelings toward her. I honestly wasn’t expecting too much from a short show like this, and I honestly also thought there would be some sort of revenge plot against this Ito guy, but the lack of a defining ending destination was also quite charming, in a way, it didn’t bother me. I was just glad Rio reopened the damn bath tub, haha. In the movie, the ending shot is of Ito calling on another girl again – I even believe it’s the girl that got cast in the drama adaptation of the script that won over his and Rio’s – so it seems like he’s definitely not done with whatever he’s doing. But for the rest I thought it was pretty nice how everyone just quietly came to terms with what they’d experienced and started a new life for themselves, free of Ito. It was a surprisingly refreshing ending.

Time for cast comments! The cast in this show was very compact and I knew a couple of the actors already, so that was fun. I was pretty impressed with the acting, overall.

Let’s start with Kimura Fumino. I realize I’ve seen her before in Boku, Unmei no Hito Desu, but it’s been a very long time since I watched that. I might rewatch it and review it someday, as I remember it was pretty funny. With the way her performance of Rio changed from the drama to the movie I realized that Rio must’ve actually been a pretty challenging role to play. While she pulled off the cocky attitude of someone just shaking her head at all these distressed women in front of her, her character got a whole new layer which was explored most successfully in the movie. To see her switch from giving Tamura the cold shoulder to actually clinging onto him, begging him not to give up on her was a big switch, and it just made me wonder all the more who the real Rio was. I also found it refreshing to have a main character who wasn’t actually that friendly. I believe she was a good person, but she’d closed herself off to that bright side just like she closed off the cleanliness of that bath tub with red tape. It’s tricky to gauge Rio’s true nature, although I definitely feel like the movie captured it better, also because that’s where she admits to Ito that she identifies with the four women – then again, the movie was Ito’s perspective so maybe that’s just how he wrote her as Woman E🤯. In any case, it was interesting having such an unfathomable main character for a change. She pulled the role off very well, in my opinion.

Tanaka Kei is one of my favorite Japanese actors, so I was very happy to see him here. I’ve seen him in a bunch of stuff, like Maou, Watashi ga Renai Dekinai Riyuu, Shinigami-kun, 5-ji Kara 9-ji Made, Good Morning Call, Hayako-sensei, Tokyo Tarareba Musume and Koi ga Heta demo Ikitemasu. He just has this natural charm about him, and I like his acting style. I think he was a very nice casting choice for Tamura. We don’t get to know much about Tamura throughout the show, only through a few flashbacks from Rio, and we get a little bit of insight into his workplace through the movie. I was personally very curious what the heck happened that he suddenly thought it was a good idea to announce his upcoming marriage after just sleeping with Rio at a hotel one night. His wife is never mentioned or shown, and we only just see Rio’s closed-off bitterness about it. I kind of liked how Kuzuken was the one who confronted her about her unresolved feelings for Tamura, because otherwise we wouldn’t have known how much it was actually still bothering her.
Rio’s perspective on Tamura in one particular scene was depicted in three different ways: in the first episode they’re at Rio’s house and he stands next to her while she’s looking at a framed Tokyo Doll House poster and he leans in a bit to say that he’d like them to work ‘together’ again. In the repetition of this scene in the second episode, this nudge and lean-in seems to be a little bit closer. In the movie, they’re talking in an office and he’s sitting next to her on a couch and very closely leans in to her while he says it. It just seems like every time this scene is replayed (in Rio’s head, maybe?) he comes a little bit closer, and if that was indeed intentional then I applaud that subtle detail. Honestly, these tiny differences and inconsistencies just made me feel like everything was deliberate and if I’m right about that, then I’m even more impressed by how everything was thought out by the writers. I liked seeing Tanaka Kei in this, and I’m undoubtedly going to see more of his acting again in the future.

I thought I recognized Sasaki Nozomi from something, but from the Japanese dramas I’ve seen so far she’s only appeared in Hayako-sensei, and I don’t actually remember her from there. I think she did a very good job portraying Tomomi, mostly her hopelessness. I don’t mean that in any negative way in terms of her acting, but Tomomi was just a very pitiful lady who didn’t even realize she was being walked all over because she simply refused to see the guy she pledged her heart to as the least trustworthy guy you could imagine. He gaslighted her for being too considerate and desperate to help him whenever she tried to do something nice for him, and still she kept turning up whenever he called for her. It’s scary that some men can have this kind of power over women, all the more when we see he has the exact same effect on Miki. I think deep down Tomomi knew that she wasn’t in the wrong, but his grip on her was just too strong and made her disregard every mean thing he’d ever said. She convinced herself that his mansplaining was truly meant to educate her and make her a better person because he cared for her, etc. It was honestly interesting to see a character like her, a proper doormat, purely because it was so realistic. I liked to see what happened to her character because it stood in such stark contrast with how romantic relationships in dramas are usually romanticized, and that’s exactly what Tomomi was doing, despite everything. Any person with a normal brain would be able to realize that he wasn’t treating her well and that he was using her to his own convenience, but it also made me sympathize with Tomomi because she really got herself stuck in a position she couldn’t get out of. I’m just glad Ito eventually left her alone and she managed to find it in herself to resist seeing him again. I thought she performed a very convincing Tomomi and I liked how she balanced her oblivious naivety with a hidden layer of sad awareness.

I don’t think I’ve seen Shida Mirai in anything before either, although again it feels like I have, lol. Anyways, I found her a really nice casting choice for Shuuko, all the more because appearance-wise you wouldn’t expect her to be the girl Ito would dump Tomomi for. Shuuko is very small and doesn’t dress in a very appealing way – her stylist roomie Maki is often criticizing her for not dressing more fancily – and she has a classic bob cut hairstyle. Looking at all the women Ito dealt with, I found it kind of surprising he developed a crush on Shuuko, of all people. Not to say anything negative about her character though, because it was very refreshing to at least have one woman in there who didn’t want anything to do with relationships, who was even appalled by the idea of being treated like a small, cute thing that needed to be protected by a guy. Despite her tendency to avoid her problems and ask other people to get her out of situations so she could just quietly disappear without facing the consequences – I mean, I can’t say I don’t relate but it’s just not always the best way to deal with stuff – I still thought it was a powerful aspect of her character that she kept following her own path. Yes, Ito bothered her and it annoyed her and she did eventually have to confront him to wipe the idea of getting closer to her out of his head, but after that she got her act together and she even got that super expensive bag to complete her job interview look. I thought she was a very interesting character, very individualistic in contrast to the other three. I liked Shida Mirai’s performance, it was very natural how she portrayed Shuuko’s discomfort with the whole situation.

What is it with familiar-looking Japanese actors that I actually haven’t seen before? Ikeda Elaiza is the same again, I feel like I know her face but there’s not a single show I’ve seen her in before. I found out she’s actually Filipino-Japanese and she’s also a model. I was impressed with how naturally the flirting side of Satoko came out for her. Sometimes when an actress has to flirt it just come across as awkward, but the way she pulled it off really surprised me, I mean, she freaking licked Yamada Yuki’s nose, lol. I found Satoko an interesting character because, as I mentioned, I never fully understood what exactly her intentions were. I wanted to believe she cared about Miki most of all, but what she pulled with Ito was really not it, even if it was just to show Miki that he was the same as any other guy. Rio kept believing that she didn’t want Miki to become happier in love than her, but I think we can establish that Satoko was anything but happy in love. She kept ending up in empty beds after one-night stands and she hadn’t been able to feel real love yet, which made her quite sad in her own way. The way she stood up for Miki and bashed Ito into the ground with that phone call when he called her to say he’d fallen for her definitely seemed to mean something in terms of her prioritizing Miki’s feelings. I just couldn’t help but feel like she felt bad about what she did, after she broke down crying like that. I feel like, encouraged by Rio’s suggestion, she’d temporarily convinced herself that she was sleeping with Ito only to show her best friend what a scumbag he was, but maybe she did feel some sort of rush in the fact that she could steal him from her for a bit? All in all it didn’t seem to me like she was personally interested in Ito whatsoever, in fact she was the one who left the hotel room as soon as he went to take a shower, leaving the empty bed for the other person to wake up in, so to say. The whole thing is just that everything the women told Rio had to be taken with a grain of salt, because none of them were actually completely honest about their own feelings. It made it really tricky to gauge everyone’s true intentions, but I couldn’t help feel that Satoko really cared about Miki. This also showed when Miki came to the tart shop to order two cherry tarts in a way to say, I forgive you, I presume. I thought her performance as Satoko was very convincing.

My favorite girl, Kaho! I’ve seen her before in Otomen, Nobunaga Concerto, Love Song, most recently in First Love: Hatsukoi, and also in the movie Umimachi Diary (Our Little Sister). It feels like I know her from more, though, but maybe it’s just because she’s such a familiar face. I really liked her portrayal of Miki, it’s like I always see a new side of her acting with every project she takes on. In other shows she’s portrayed more confident, casual and shady characters, but Miki really was exactly the way Satoko initially describes her: as pure as can be. On the other hand, she’s also the kind of girl who’s easy to take advantage of, and although I’m not exactly sure of Ito’s true feelings for her (as we’ve established we can’t trust Ito on anything), I’m more than sure that he didn’t care as much about her as Kuzuken did. Honestly, if only she’d chosen Kuzuken. The way he treated her and made her feel at ease right before they were supposed to sleep together was so sweet, and you could feel that Kuzuken really cared about her and wanted to make her feel loved and comfortable, even if she didn’t feel a personal romantic connection with him. The hotel room scene was kind of painful to watch because it was so wry how excited Miki became when she heard Ito was coming, how she just immediately got dressed again and touched up her make-up and Kuzuken was just standing there like, ‘…for real?’ I just rooted so much for Kuzuken at that point that I really felt his gut-wrenching disappointment with him. But I think Kaho portrayed Miki really well, also in the naïve parts where you just wanted to grab her by the shoulders and shake her until she saw sense. Instead she kept defending Ito and putting herself down so he wouldn’t feel bad about himself, exactly like Tomomi. It was hard to watch at times, but I really liked Kaho in this, she was super cute. I hope to see much more of her in the near future!

I actually knew Nakamura Tomoya from Hajimete Koi wo Shita Hi ni Yomu Hanashi which I saw not too long ago and I recognized him because I remember he was my favorite guy in that and he also keeps somehow reminding me of Choi Daniel🤔(and I mean that in the best way possible). Maybe he’s just my type, lol. Anyways, I really loved him as Kuzuken. He was that goofy, casual guy that seemed like he was just playing around most of the time, but as soon as the part with Miki came I was like🥺🥺because he was just so sweet with her. I also loved that they fleshed out his character a bit more in the movie, especially through that scene with him and Rio where he confronted her with the fact that she couldn’t write anymore because she never got any closure for her feelings toward Tamura after he ‘tossed her aside’ and how she was now trying to destroy Ito and his proposal only to secure her own position as famous senior screenwriter even though she couldn’t produce anything new. The movie gave his character much more depth and I really appreciated that. Honestly, I’ve only seen him in a show twice now but Nakamura Tomoya is already rising in my favorite Japanese actors list, I thought his acting was really good here.

As everyone in this cast, I thought I knew Yamashita Rio from something, but I don’t. I thought she was a really nice addition to the cast as Shuuko’s bestie Maki and I was glad that her character got a bit more screentime when she went to that concert with Tomomi and they had a nice time together afterwards. She seemed like a really nice and fun-to-hang-out-with person. I also completely understood how, despite the sacrifices she was willing to make, at some point she wanted Shuuko to fix her own stuff and stop relying on others so much, even though in this case she was the one who suggested taking over the concert tickets herself. I completely understood how something that seemed like a simple solution suddenly became such a messy web of people manipulating each other that she wisely chose to step away from it, even though that meant temporarily leaving her friend to fend for herself. Which, I mean, Shuuko definitely needed to do, so no hard feelings to Maki there. I liked her character and performance a lot.

A special mention goes out to Yamada Yuki even though he wasn’t actually an official character in the story. He was the male lead from Tokyo Doll House that was displayed everywhere, but he never actually appeared as himself, only as Rio’s visualization of Woman C’s Ito. Still, I really liked his performance. I’ve only seen Yamada Yuki before in Itazura na Kiss and coincidentally in the movie Strobe Edge the other day. I see he was also in the movie Shoplifters, but I don’t remember him from there (it’s a very good movie, though, sasuga Koreeda-kantoku). I know that lately he’s been gaining more popularity so I’m sure I’ll see more of him in the near future, but for now I just want to say that I really liked his performance of Ito #C, and also how closely his performance mimicked Okada Masaki’s when he got to play the scene with Satoko himself in the movie. The weird excitement about losing his virginity to a more experienced girl, the make-out scenes, they were really good. I liked seeing him in this.

And then, last but certainly not least, Okada Masaki. It’s funny because I’ve always liked him as an actor and thought he was super cute, but here for the first time he really creeped me out, lol. I guess that’s just how good of an actor he is. I remember the first time I saw him was in the original version of HanaKimi (2007 OG crew right here🤟🏻), Otomen (where he and Kaho were the main leads, actually) and I’ve also seen him in the movie adaptation of Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu (which I also referred to in my review of the drama) and the movie Drive My Car which came out not too long ago and I actually got to watch in the cinema. Okada Masaki has such a refreshing versatility about him, I remember in Otomen he was this super sweet and awkward guy, and then as Ito he turned that awkwardness into a completely different, almost manical kind. I had to give it to him that despite the fact that Ito was definitely a douchebag, he did back his own case very well, to the point of it being obnoxious, haha. Anyways, I was glad to see this side of Okada Masaki’s acting, and it was nice to see him flesh out his character even more in the movie. It was just nice to see him in this.

Overall, I liked this one more than I’d expected, especially because the movie was such an unexpected addition to it. It worked really well to start out with the drama from Rio’s point of view and then bring in the movie led by the real Ito and the story as it really happened in chronological order. For that alone it gets bonus points, haha. I guess its only flaw would be that it’s still relatively short and there’s still a lot to uncover about all the characters. I feel that even with the addition of the movie, we’ve only scratched the surface of all the characters. As much as I accepted Rio for as much as we got to know about her, I still would’ve liked to get more insight into her true feelings, and this also went for Tamura. I was happy that the movie at least gave us a couple of flashbacks into how they first met, but there could still have been more. The taped-shut bath tub thing was much bigger than it was made out to be as well, and even though at least that element was overcome at the end, I still felt like there was a lot left to resolve when it came to Rio’s feelings.
It doesn’t happen often that I find every character equally interesting, whether they’re ‘good’ or ‘bad’, but here, every character was written in such a clever and original way and it was cool how all the stories just came together, even though the women all remain oblivious of the fact that they’re all consulting Rio about the same Ito. The writing and the cinematography were original and powerful, and I really liked the cast and the acting. As I watched it I felt like I’d discovered a hidden gem and a very nice surprise of a show! I’m glad I got to watch it, and, as I said, it even contributed to my homework assignment so, two birds with one stone!   

Next up is another Netflix J-Drama and I assume it’s going to be pretty short as well, so it’ll probably not take me too long to be back with my next review. Until then, bye-bee! x

Extraordinary You

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Extraordinary You
(어쩌다 발견한 하루 / Eojjeoda Balgyeonhan Haru / A Day/Haru Found By Chance)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hello hello! Thought I’d drop another review before the end of the month~ Summer’s nearing its end and we’re heading towards autumn, which means we’re nearing the end of this year already! It’s been a fast ride so far! Anyways, I’m glad that I finally got to watch this show, as it’s been on my list for a while together with my previous watch, and I intentionally took some more time to finish this as I’ve been finishing shows weekly for the past month and I wanted to cut myself some slack, lol. I have to say, I went into this without knowing anything, and I came out of it quite surprised and impressed because I think the story is very original and interesting. It did feel like it started to drag at some point, but it never stopped being interesting and I was really curious how it would end, so in that aspect I gave it a somewhat higher rating. I’m really excited to share my feelings on it!

Extraordinary You is a K-Drama that you can either watch as 32 back-to-back episodes of 30 minutes or as 16 episodes of about an hour – I watched it in the latter format. Our main character is Eun Dan Oh (played by Kim Hye Yoon), a high school student who goes to an elite private school called Seuli High, which only allows rich kids. From the start we get major Hana Yori Dango vibes, not just because of the school setting, but also because there’s a group of handsome rich guys who basically ‘rule the school’ called A3 (which is a clear reference to HYD’s F4, if you ask me). The A3 consists of the leader, Oh Nam Joo (Kim Young Dae), Lee Do Hwa (Jung Geon Joo) and Baek Kyung (Lee Jae Wook). Dan Oh is Baek Kyung’s fiancee, and she’s known the other A3 guys since childhood as well. Despite Dan Oh’s 10-year crush on her fiance Baek Kyung, he in turn has always treated her coldly and pushed her away. Their engagement has been decided by their respective families since they were little and Baek Kyung feels really pressured about marrying Dan Oh because he knows his father only cares about the business aspect of it. On the other hand, Dan Oh also has been diagnosed with a weak heart condition since childhood, and she’s been going in and out of hospitals for as long as she can remember. She always carries a watch which starts beeping as soon as her heartbeat rises, and when our story starts, she’s just had another major surgery. This has been Dan Oh’s life for as long as she’s known – being Baek Kyung’s fiancee, having had a 10-year unrequited crush on him and having a weak heart.
And then she suddenly starts hearing weird sounds, like pages being turned, and she finds herself being teleported to different locations and situations without any memories of how she got there. When she asks her classmates about it, no one seems to have noticed anything – in fact, they keep repeating the same dialogue over and over again.
Dan Oh eventually finds out through the charming school cafeteria guy nicknamed Dried Squid Fairy (played by Lee Tae Ri) that she is in fact a character in a comic book, and everything she’s ever known is just part of her set-up. Not only that, she’s not even the main character, but an extra. She merely just exists in the comic’s story as the main leads’ classmate and Baek Kyung’s fiancee who has a weak heart. Now, somehow, she’s become aware of herself in the ‘shadow’, aka the parts in-between the comic book scenes where she has to play her part. But whatever happens in the ‘shadow’, all the conversations and encounters she has in-between, all of that is erased from her classmates’ minds as soon as the ‘scene’ begins again. Besides Dried Squid Fairy, who clearly knows more than he’s willing to reveal, Dan Oh seems to be the only one to notice what’s going on. And then, she starts noticing someone who keeps helping her out, saving and protecting her whenever she gets hurt. It takes her a while to find the mystery guy, but then she realizes it’s Student Number #13 from her class. Student Number #13 (played by SF9’s Rowoon) is an extra who doesn’t even have a face or name in the comic book. As Dan Oh keeps seeking him out and tries to persuade him to help her in attempting to change her own fate in the story, Number #13 becomes more and more of an established character himself, and Dan Oh ultimately even gives him a name, Haru (which means ‘day’). Dan Oh becomes convinced that Haru can help her change her fate, as she’s been able to change his and make him an official character, at least to the extent of getting him a name and a face and recognition from their other classmates. However, Dried Squid Fairy keeps dissuading them to continue with this as it would harm the original story and might end up upsetting the writer – after all, the writer controls all the characters’ fates and stories and can just make a character disappear without a trace if they want. As more of the story’s characters start becoming aware of themselves and Dan Oh’s feelings for Haru grow stronger than her originally set-up feelings for Baek Kyung, questions of changing one’s fate start looming over everyone. Will it really make a difference what they do in the ‘shadow’? Once the writer makes up their mind about the ending of the story, do the characters really have a choice, as they’re still bound to the comic book’s scenes even when they’re aware that they’re only playing a role? Will Dan Oh and Haru be able to be together when the writer’s bend on pushing Dan Oh and Baek Kyung together?

One of the first points I want to make about this show is that, from the start, I really enjoyed the fact that the writers played around with perspectives on narrative. The parts where the characters became aware of themselves and started mocking their own personas really cracked me up. Honestly, it reminded me a lot of stage acting, also the way they referred to it as ‘scene’ versus ‘shadow’. It was basically the same as ‘on- and off-stage’. As soon as the ‘scene’ began, the light changed, and as soon the ‘scene’ was done, it was like the curtain dropped and the characters stepped out of their on-stage personas. For characters who aren’t aware of themselves, anything that happens in the ‘shadow’ is wiped from their memories as they only live in the ‘scenes’. For characters who are aware of themselves, they can go and do whatever they want as soon as they’re in the ‘shadow’, and they also remember everything that happens in-between ‘scenes’. In the extreme case of someone dying, there are different outcomes: when a character dies in the ‘scene’, they disappear for good, as they’ve officially passed away and are written out of the story. If a character should die in the ‘shadow’, they are put back in the story as a character who’s not aware of themselves again, without any memories of their ‘shadow’ time from before they ‘died’. The rules are quite well-established and thought through and they keep making sense throughout the story. All in all, I thought it was interesting to play with the idea of a character becoming aware of the fact that they are, indeed, a character in a story. Having the characters contemplate about their own personas when they’re not ‘on-stage’ was a really funny aspect of the show, as they all basically became aware of how cheesy their stories actually were. I also thought that making ‘our’ main character an extra in her own story was a very interesting starting point.

Let me go about my character analysis by establishing the comic book’s main cast and story. The current story, based on the comic book called ‘Secret’ by an anonymous writer which can be found in the school’s library (if you look very closely), focusses on the love story between A3 leader Oh Nam Joo and Dan Oh’s classmate/bullied transfer student Yeo Joo Da (played by Lee Na Eun). Joo Da is actually from a poor family and has to take care of her hospitalized grandmother so she works part-time even though that’s officially not allowed next to her studies. As the new transfer student and the sudden target of Nam Joo’s affection, she’s being relentlessly bullied by a couple of Nam Joo’s main fangirls, among who the story’s ‘villain character’, Dan Oh’s friend Shin Sae Mi (played by Kim Ji In). Dan Oh helps Joo Da out and stands up for her a couple of times, which makes them quite friendly with each other.
Then there’s Lee Do Hwa, the second male lead character who’s fated to be the ‘losing guy’ in the love triangle with Nam Joo and Joo Da. Do Hwa is the sweet, considerate and musically talented guy who always manages to cheer Joo Da up when she’s upset about something Nam Joo has done. Do Hwa is the first character after Dan Oh who becomes aware of himself, and when he comes to the conclusion that he cares for Joo Da both in the ‘scene’ and the ‘shadow’, he also attempts to change his story by confessing his feelings to Joo Da before Nam Joo claims her for himself. In the end, even when Joo Da becomes aware of herself too and it does seem like she’s leaning more toward Do Hwa at some point, she still consciously decides to love Nam Joo back, because he simply cannot exist without her. Joo Da and Do Hwa build and maintain a really precious friendship throughout the story, though, so it didn’t feel like a total failure on Do Hwa’s behalf and Joo Da really did think things through in the ‘shadow’.
Then there’s Baek Kyung and Dan Oh, the childhood friends and fiancees. Despite the fact that Baek Kyung has always treated Dan Oh coldly and pushed away her advances to act like a girlfriend to him and give him gifts and stuff, in hindsight I feel like he always loved her (we see that in their childhood flashbacks as well), but that he tried to push her away because he knew that this marriage, from his family’s side at least, only served as a financial tool. His father didn’t even care about whether Kyung actually had feelings for Dan Oh – heck, he didn’t even care if Dan Oh would die from her heart condition, as long as he had the connection to her family’s business. Also, Kyung was probably really scared of losing Dan Oh the same way he lost his mother, so I definitely think it was mostly him trying to push her away as well as his own true feelings for her, mostly to protect her from hurt and his family’s evil influence. In any case, it takes him a long time to figure out how he must’ve always felt about Dan Oh, and it only happens after he becomes aware of himself. You could say that he and Dan Oh end up going in opposite directions with their feelings; while his true feelings for her grow, hers fade.
Haru, who starts out as the faceless, nameless Student Number #13 in Dan Oh’s class, gradually comes into existence after Dan Oh starts noticing and acknowledging him, and the two fall in love in the ‘shadow’. At some point, because Haru has helped Dan Oh too many times in trying to change her fate, he is deleted from the story and comes back as a clean slate character without any of his memories from his time in the ‘shadow’ with Dan Oh – he is ‘recast’ as Baek Kyung’s loyal friend, which means he has to support Kyung and Dan Oh’s relationship even when he then ‘awakens’ again later.

Somewhere halfway through the story, we are introduced to a different story, a ‘prequel’ to ‘Secret’, if you will, in which Dan Oh, Baek Kyung and Haru are the main love triangle. This story was written before the high school love story they are currently in, and takes place in a fictional historical setting. Events and lines from that story start seeping through the three characters’ stories in ‘Secret’, and stuff becomes even more confusing to everyone. This other story, named ‘Trumpet Creeper’ after the red flower that’s a recurring symbol (it’s also the flower you see on the show’s poster above), ends in Kyung pressuring Haru to kill Dan Oh and even forcing his blade into her himself. The Haru from ‘Secret’ starts getting flashbacks of these times, and he even has a scar on his hand from this previous ‘life’, as if to remind him.
The only person who knows all there is to know about this other story is Dried Squid Fairy, as he was actually quite a major character in ‘Trumpet Creeper’, royalty even, who lost the love of his life because of Kyung’s character. Dried Squid Fairy seems to know the most but he does the least about it, thinking that getting involved or interfering with the intended story will only upset the writer – and that’s something we don’t want to happen. Dried Squid Fairy is usually the person who’s just watching everything unfold from the background without getting into action himself, silently cursing the writer for both punishing him like this and for not being original enough to at least change the characters in every story they write. At some point towards the end, the woman who was Dried Squid Fairy’s love in ‘Trumpet Creeper’ is introduced in ‘Secret’ as a transfer student and Dried Squid Fairy has to deal with her approaching him all over again while knowing how that ended the previous time.
In the final episode, after the story of ‘Secret’ is wrapped up and Haru has disappeared (because all extras slowly start getting taken out as the story’s conclusion approaches), we are taken into the writer’s next story, which again features all the same characters from ‘Secret’, but now as college students. Here, Dan Oh and Haru are reunited, somehow with their memories of the previous story intact.

As I mentioned before, I really liked how this show played with different perspectives on narrative and storytelling, and also on how the characters become aware of the fact that they are set-up as a specific personas. I thought it was super funny, comic book characters looking back on their own scenes while thinking, ‘geez, why are my lines always so cheesy’. Regarding stereotypes, especially when it came to Joo Da, I found it really refreshing how she became her own person when she became aware of herself. We always complain about female lead characters being too apathetic and existing purely as the male lead’s love interest. I just couldn’t help thinking throughout that Joo Da was Barbie and Nam Joo was Ken, lol. It was even more interesting that Nam Joo actually never became aware of himself as such, although he did become aware of the fact that he existed purely for Joo Da, and that’s why Joo Da chose to stay with him. She knew that she would be able to live her own life without him, but this wasn’t the case vice versa. At some point I kind of expected her to choose Do Hwa in the ‘shadow’, but I also liked that she was able to make up her mind and decided to care for Nam Joo even outside the ‘scene’, for her own reasons. It was really nice to see Joo Da start standing up against her bullies by herself and calling out Nam Joo’s mom for being such a hag, lol. It’s basically how you wish characters would respond to being treated unfairly but they never do because of their set-up. Well, in that aspect this show definitely made up for some frustrations in other shows.
I was also able to deal with the cheesiness of everything better because the characters themselves were also aware of it. It didn’t bother me that it was all sweet and sugary because it was a love story in a comic book and that’s just how it was written. I actually cracked up at the animated spotlights that kept shining on the two main leads, and how Do Hwa kept seeing a wreath of roses behind Joo Da’s head when she smiled at him. What made it better for me was the realistic feedback that the characters gave on the story once they became aware of their own positions in it.

One of my absolute favorite aspects of the story was Lee Do Hwa’s love-hate relationship with his violin. As the second male lead (and basically the Hanazawa Rui) of the story, Do Hwa would often be depicted sentimentally playing the violin somewhere and Joo Da would often bump into him while he was doing that. I believe that around the first time that Do Hwa becomes aware of himself, he finds himself in a situation where he’s playing the violin on the rooftop while crying, and from that point on he starts mocking his character for being like that and it took me out every single time. He really went ‘wtf I just found myself crying while playing the violin on the roof, why am I such a loser’,😂. Even when he tried to get rid of the violin, it just kept popping up and he was always like, ‘why am I playing this thing again??😭’. I thought it was hilarious. He would find himself sitting in the music room with Joo Da being like, ‘why is this thing in my hand again😩’. It was just a really funny running gag throughout the story.

I want to dive a little deeper into a couple of the main characters – mostly the ones that became aware of themselves but also some noteworthy others before mentioning some of my more critical points about the show.

First of all, Eun Dan Oh, our heroine who’s just an extra in ‘Secret’. By the way, I don’t know what the Korean association with the term ‘extra’ is but I actually wouldn’t have called Dan Oh an extra. To my knowledge, extras aren’t frequently recurring characters or even characters who get introduced by name and face. Student Number #13 (aka Haru before he was recast as Kyung’s friend) was my definition of an extra, but Dan Oh had a proper role, she had a backstory and a romantic storyline of her own. I would’ve found it more appropriate to refer to her as a side or supporting character, as she and Haru were definitely not the same kind of extra. Haru may have been able to do whatever he wanted in the ‘shadow’ as it wouldn’t have affected the main storyline, but Dan Oh did have an established role to play, so her attempts to change her own storyline would definitely influence the main storyline as well. Maybe it’s normal to refer to all side characters as ‘extras’ in Korean, but I found it a bit strange. Also, they kept referring to Do Hwa as a mere ‘supporting character’ while he was the second male lead, so that also felt a bit off. Maybe these character titles are a bit different in other cultures? Anyways, let’s just keep referring to Dan Oh as an ‘extra’ nonetheless, because it’s essential to the story.
As far as Dan Oh has always known, she’s had a crush on Baek Kyung for 10+ years and she’s always been pleased about her engagement to him, even though he’s been treating her really badly. She was written to only ever consider Kyung as her romantic interest, but then when she becomes aware of herself she suddenly realizes that her feelings for him are like a default setting – in the ‘shadow’ she’s more than aware of how badly he’s treating her and she wonders how her character can possibly have feelings for him when he’s treating her that way. She starts to care less and less about how Kyung treats her in the ‘scenes’ as she sets out to find the mystery guy who’s been helping her out, and when she finally finds him, she is surprised at how a handsome guy like him could be a mere extra.
Student Number #13 doesn’t even speak at first, and it’s not clear if he even understands the instructions she’s trying to give him to help her out. However, we do see that she’s the one who gives him a purpose and an identity by acknowledging him as an individual character who’s more than just background fill-up. In hindsight, it probably also had to do with their former connection through ‘Trumpet Creeper’, but Dan Oh is able to bring Haru back all by herself without ever even remembering her storyline from ‘Trumpet Creeper’ – only Haru and Kyung get flashbacks about the previous story.
In terms of family situation, Dan Oh lives alone with her dad (Uhm Hyo Seop), and it’s revealed that her mother passed away from an illness (maybe also a weak heart condition? I don’t remember) when she was young. Her father treasures her a lot and strives to get her the best medical care there is. Her doctor, Lee Joo Hwa (Yoon Jong Hoon), who happens to be Do Hwa’s older brother because of course everyone is connected, clearly also cares about her wellbeing, and he’s always really conflicted when he has to bring her bad news about her worsening condition. Dan Oh’s relationships with the people directly around her are all very good, she has a really good relationship with her dad and she’s got little to worry about besides her own heart condition.
All in all, I found Dan Oh to be a very original female lead character, because for one she doesn’t seem to have any personal insecurities. I personally found it very refreshing to have a female lead character who just had this natural confidence in herself and who worried about things as they happened in the moment. She’s very bubbly and talkative, and not what you’d typically expect of a character with a weak heart condition. She isn’t allowed to participate in events that will make her heart race too much, but other than that the way she presents herself definitely doesn’t scream ‘terminal heart patient’. She never doubts the relationship between her and Haru, she just lets it happen and doesn’t even care what other people think of it (although that’s also because she knows no one will remember them walking around holding hands once the next ‘scene’ starts anyway). In any case, I really enjoyed the part of the show where she started falling for Haru and the relationship between the two deepened. It definitely gave me the dokidokis😌. It was also cute how they kept finding their way back to each other, even when the writer very strongly kept them apart – for example when they’d agreed to meet under that 300-year old tree on a specific day but Dan Oh was suddenly hospitalized and Haru kept being flicked back to different places so he wouldn’t be able to reach the hospital, that was just mean😞. All in all, they were a very cute couple and I enjoyed watching their romance unfold very much.
One of my favorite scenes between them was when they literally talked about the word ‘extra-ordinary’ and Haru even calls Dan Oh ‘extra-ordinary you’. It just made everything come together so nicely, not just the show’s English title but also that they came to terms with the fact that they were going through a change from an ‘ordinary extra’ to an ‘extra-ordinary extra’. The wordplay in itself was cute, but I also just loved how they kept coming up with ways to make each other have faith and keep going with their relationship in the ‘shadow’, even though there was a chance the writer might ruin things for them.
I honestly felt like Haru wasn’t even supposed to be in ‘Secret’, just like Dried Squid Fairy’s lover from ‘Trumpet Creeper’. Even in the comic book, he was drawn as a faceless extra, there wasn’t even a likeness to the lead character from the previous comic. He just suddenly started coming into existence in situations where Dan Oh would get hurt, and then he would suddenly jump in from nowhere to break her fall. It was interesting to see how his character gradually became bigger and bigger. It must’ve been Dan Oh’s subconscious attraction to his character that literally pulled him back into existence despite not even remembering their previous connection, which is kind of impressive in itself. Both Haru and Dan Oh end up getting ‘reset’ in the story one time, but they always manage to get the other to remember everything in the end and reunite.

Moving on, let’s talk about Baek Kyung a bit more. Kyung’s family situation is a lot more dire than Dan Oh’s. His mother died in the hospital when he was very young (same as Dan Oh), and that’s why he has a deep dislike for hospitals, which also connects to his initial disdain everytime Dan Oh has to get admitted; it forces him to have to visit her in the hospital. His dad (Choi Jin Ho), a royal ass, has remarried and he has another son from that second marriage, Baek Joon Hyun (Bae Hyun Sung). Kyung’s father often criticizes and even hits Kyung for disappointing him, because he wants Kyung to make Dan Oh’s fall for him, he can’t push her away. His interest in Kyung and Dan Oh’s marriage lies purely in the fact that his business needs the financial support from Dan Oh’s family business. Kyung has a strong dislike for his (step-)family as a whole, but his younger step-brother Joon Hyun seems to be quite taken with him. In fact, we find out that Joon Hyun is also aware of himself, and even remembers ‘Trumpet Creeper’ as well. Once Kyung becomes aware of himself, there’s actually not much that changes for him, because his feelings for Dan Oh are the same both in ‘scene’ and ‘shadow, and his personality also doesn’t really change. At some point I started feeling a bit bad for him whenever he and Dan Oh had a romantic scene together and when the scene ended Dan Oh would immediately run away to look for Haru, and Kyung would be left behind being all, ‘I actually wouldn’t have minded holding your hand a bit longer but sure, leave me here by myself😒’. Although I was definitely team Dan Oh/Haru, I couldn’t help but feel for Kyung a bit, and I still feel like if they’d just played out the story as it was originally written without ever adding in Haru, Kyung and Dan Oh would’ve still made a cute couple in their own way, especially after Kyung admitted to his true feelings for her and became a more amiable person altogether. I personally have a bit of a soft spot for guys who act all cold but secretly care a lot, so I couldn’t really hate his character, although I did find him kind of harsh toward Dan Oh in the beginning – but then again, that’s how he was written. I think he managed to come into his own in the end, and he became more likable throughout the story.

Apart from Dan Oh and Kyung, the only other characters that are provided with a recurring family member (and not just a mention) are Do Hwa, Nam Joo and Joo Da. As I mentioned before, Do Hwa’s older brother Joo Hwa is Dan Oh’s doctor, although now that I think about it the two brothers don’t actually have any interaction with each other in the story whatsoever. We meet Nam Joo’s parents and older brother, and mostly his mother keeps popping up to make several attempts to persuade Joo Da to get away from her son (again, HYD flashbacks). We see Joo Da’s hospitalized grandmother one time as well. Other than that, there are no additionally added family members in the cast, which I appreciate because sometimes stories tend to linger on less important storylines. I definitely want to thank the writers for creating this story the way they did because it automatically forced them to stick to this one storyline and not get distracted by too much side noise.

Let me talk a bit about some of Dan Oh’s classmates who never become aware of themselves until the end and who just peacefully exist within the love story of Nam Joo and Joo Da. First of all, and I’ve already mentioned her briefly before, Shin Sae Mi. I have something to say for her character because I think she was anything but one-dimensional, and there was something peculiar about her that I believe made her much less typical than she was probably supposed to be. We are introduced to Sae Mi as Dan Oh’s closest friend in class, together with Ahn Soo Chul (played by Kim Hyun Mok). Sae Mi is basically Nam Joo’s biggest fangirl and as she’s also secured a favorable position in his mom’s esteem (as we see later), status-wise she’d probably even have a chance of getting matched with him or something. Together with three other girls (ironically called Il Jin, Yi Jin and Sam Jin), her role in the ‘scenes’ is to bully Joo Da because she’s jealous of how much attention she gets from Nam Joo.
Honestly, when the character chart of the comic book was revealed and Sae Mi was featured right behind the main love triangle as the main ‘villain’ character, I was kind of surprised because I never actually saw her as a character whose role was bigger than Dan Oh’s. In Dan Oh’s story she’s the friend, and she’s not even that mean. On the contrary, she and Soo Chul are responsible for a lot of comic relief in Dan Oh’s scenes, and when all’s well and done Sae Mi even finds herself developing feelings for Soo Chul in the ‘shadow’, even though she’s not aware of herself there. In the college story in the final episode, Soo Chul even becomes her main love interest as a cool and handsome sunbae, while Nam Joo becomes the weirdo in the strawberry sweater who drink strawberry milk all the time. In any case, I just want to say that I had a hard time acknowledging Sae Mi as the ‘bitch’ in ‘Secret’ because she’s more often shown as Dan Oh’s loyal friend than she’s shown to be a mean girl. I found it interesting how Sae Mi, despite being written as the ‘bully’ of the female lead, was put into such a different perspective. I honestly believe that if Sae Mi would’ve become aware of herself, she would’ve second-guessed her own character as well for being so harsh on Joo Da. I wouldn’t even have been surprised if Sae Mi and Joo Da ended up becoming friends in the ‘shadow’, lol. It just didn’t make sense for her to be written as the bitch character but simultaneously be such a good and loyal friend to Dan Oh, who was regularly standing up for Joo Da. I don’t know how to explain it exactly, but I just thought Sae Mi wasn’t as bad of a character as the writer made her out to be.
Besides Sae Mi’s friends, there’s also a couple of other classmates who were basically named to be Classmates #1, #2 and #3. Somehow there were always three of them, lol. Baek Kyung’s fangirls were called also Ae Il, Ae Ri and Ae Sam, and opposite Il Jin, Yi Jin and Sam Jin you had Yang Il, Yang Yi and Yang Sam, who even went as far as to refer to themselves as ‘Y3’ and had a wish to take over as the new A3, lol. The class president was named Ban Jang, which literally means ‘class monitor’. Even the main leads’ names, Oh Nam Joo and Yeo Joo Da were direct references to the terms ‘male and female lead characters’. It all just added to the argument of how lazy the writer was and I thought it was funny how they thought of details like this. Speaking of which, I don’t know if this was just me but wasn’t there just a running gag with the word ‘seuri’/three’ altogether? Seuri High, A3, Y3, friends #1, #2, #3… maybe it was all part of the writer’s unoriginality from the start, lol.

By the way, I revisited the Extraordinary You cameo that took place in True Beauty. I only just found out that the director for both shows is the same, so that explains a lot, haha. I mentioned the cameo in my review of TB at the time, but as I hadn’t watched EOY yet I wasn’t able to grasp the reference. As soon as I finished EOY I went back to check out the TB cameo again (it’s in episode 4, if you’re interested) and now I am glad to say I finally understand the joke, haha. It’s a scene set in a cinema where the ML interrupts Dan Oh and Kyung while they’re on a date together before the ‘scene’ ends -you even hear the page flip and a part of the OST play in the background- and Dan Oh runs out calling for Haru while Kyung is left behind yelling for her to come back. That was the only cameo I was aware of at the time because of the comments, but I discovered there’s actually one more in episode 15 with Nam Joo. It’s the scene on Namsan Tower where the FL mistakes him for the ML, causing him to drop his strawberry juice. As he picks it up, Nam Joo tells the FL that his girlfriend loves strawberries – which is of course a direct reference to the fact that Nam Joo consistently keeps giving Joo Da strawberry milk because he believes she likes it, even though she just mentioned liking it once. It was funny seeing and understanding these cameos now after finishing the whole show. I also thought it was clever because both shows are based on webtoons – it wouldn’t even be that weird to have them happen in the same universe. I also noticed that in the cameo, Dan Oh has the same longer hairstyle as she does in the college story featured at the end of EOY, so maybe the new story is set in the same world as True Beauty? I thought that was a pretty funny detail. I noticed later that there were a couple more actors from EOY who made a guest appearance in TB, though not necessarily as their EOY characters. I’ll mention those in my cast comments.

Before I go on to my cast comments and conclusion, I just want to give my singular point of criticism on this show. As I briefly mentioned in my introduction, although I really appreciated the original twist of fictional characters becoming aware of themselves and trying to figure out a life in-between the storyline that’s been set up for them, there was a point where the story started to drag on a bit too much for me. At some point, there was a lot of repetition in the dialogue and the only thing anyone ever talked about was ‘can we or can we not change our fate?’, ‘can we change the ‘scene’?’, ‘how did you manage to change the ‘scene’?’, etc. It felt like I was watching the same scene over and over again. Even after Dan Oh and Haru decided that they would just try to enjoy the time they had together in-between the ‘scenes’, they still ended up talking about changing their fates every single time they were together. I don’t know, there just came this point where the story wasn’t going anywhere and Dan Oh was only worrying about her worsening heart condition and whether the writer would let her die or not and there wasn’t anything anyone could do about it. At first Dan Oh was really adamant on changing her fate, then Haru disappeared once and she swore never to try changing her fate again, but then she still kept talking about it non-stop and I was like, ‘make up your mind already!’ It wasn’t dragging to the extent that it became frustrating per se, but it did cause my attention to slip a little bit and that’s also the reason why the final few episodes took me longer to finish. I guess there was just some time to kill before the final conclusion in which Dan Oh would either have a final major surgery or be cured, and they decided to fill it up with endless back-and-forth discussions about nothing. I could’ve done with a little less of that.

Also, I would’ve liked a bit more explanation about those vortex black hole things that suddenly started appearing, because even though several people could see them it was never actually explained what those were supposed to be. The conclusion I came to was that they were some sort of mirrors to the parallel universe of ‘Trumpet Creeper’ that started to seep through once Dan Oh and Haru started interacting in ‘Secret’ (although I’m not sure if that’s the exact point from which they started appearing). They did seem to have a link to the previous story because at some point Haru looked into one and saw a scene from ‘Trumpet Creeper’ unfold, and when he stuck his hand into it he also regained his scar. However, even Dried Squid Fairy was just looking at them like🤔🤔, and I kind of expected him to at least know what they meant, but I guess not. I’ll just stick to my own theory for now, haha.

Before my cast comments I just want to make one final comment on the show’s Korean titles, because I found it interesting that it was so different from the English one again. The English title makes perfect sense, it’s even literally explained in the show, but the Korean title is directly derived from the webtoon it’s based on, and it roughly translates to ‘A Day (or Haru) Found By Chance’, which clearly refers to the name ‘Haru’, which Dan Oh gives him with the embedded hope that he might ‘change her everyday life’. I think it’s kind of a cute and accurate title since Dan Oh does find Haru by chance in ‘Secret’, she manages to find him and pick him out of the crowd by herself while no one else ever even noticed him. I personally do feel like the English title has a more specific reference to the story though, also with the wordplay on them being ‘extras’ and all. I just thought it was interesting to compare the two titles, as I do sometimes.

On to the cast comments! I was glad to see a lot of actors that I hadn’t seen in anything before, and some who I only knew from name or face but now finally have a better picture of!

To start with our heroine, Kim Hye Yoon, when I checked her drama performance list I saw a lot of stuff that I’ve seen but where she only had like a guest role or a 1-episode-only role. I guess I may have seen her face but I’ve never seen her in a main lead role before so I’ll just give a comment on her performance without referring to anything else. As I mentioned earlier, I thought Dan Oh was a really original female lead character, even just by the fact that she wasn’t the heroine in her own story. I thought that was a really clever twist to give, to create a main character who didn’t have to be ‘on-stage’ the entire time but who was able to become her own person in the blank spaces of the main storyline. I think her performance of Dan Oh was very animated, very bubbly, and I liked how she just exuded confidence. I think it might’ve been trickier than it seemed to act out a story within a story, all the more because there are so many sudden scene switches that were most likely recorded separately but still had to look like they happened in an immediate sequence. I thought she consistently kept up the same high energy very well and I’m curious to see her in different kinds of roles!

Even though I know Rowoon, I don’t think I’ve actually seen any dramas with him yet! We’re definitely going to change that – as a matter of fact I know there are a couple of his dramas on my watchlist. I know he’s an idol and that he’s been doing a lot of acting and I was prepared for the fact that he was handsome but I still couldn’t deny that he was ⭐VERY dreamy. Once this initially mysterious, non-speaking role warmed up to Dan Oh and started getting playful with her… well, let’s just say I couldn’t blame Dan Oh’s beeper to go off at certain points. There was this scene when Dan Oh arrived at school and he pulled her towards him by her backpack straps just to say ‘annyeong’ and I was like 😳😳. He really was the cutest, and Dan Oh and Haru made a very adorable pair. I also loved the recurring scenes of them bumping backs together. I am very curious to see him in the dramas that are still on my list, so hopefully I’ll get to watch those soon!

This was actually my first time seeing Lee Jae Wook in action, as well. I knew of him because of the recent Alchemy of Souls hype, and there are a couple more series with him on my watchlist, so I’m excited to see more of him. Baek Kyung was the kind of character that gradually grew on me even though I wasn’t particularly rooting for him. I just thought that, should things have gone wrong and the writer decided to break Dan Oh and Haru apart for good, he’d at least have been a decent back-up since he genuinely cared for her. He was simply too little too late with realizing his true feelings for her. I ended up feeling a bit sad for him because just when he was starting to realize how much he loved Dan Oh, Dan Oh was already convinced that his feelings for her were also because of his set-up. She didn’t even consider the fact that he might’ve started developing real feelings for her the way she did with Haru, and to see him get left behind in the dust after their scenes together did make me feel a bit bad for him. I liked Lee Jae Wook’s performance though, I think he was one of the characters that maintained his character without getting sappy, and I liked the way he’d just walk into a room with Haru or Dried Squid Fairy, scoff, and immediately turn around again, lol. I am curious to see him in different kinds of roles!

Apparently, Lee Na Eun is a former member of K-Pop girl group APRIL (who sadly disbanded last year), which at least explains why there was an APRIL song in the OST, lol. As I mentioned, I liked how they made Joo Da into a multi-dimensional character despite her set-up, and I also liked how Lee Na Eun pulled off the role. The way her face changed when she realized how unfairly she was being treated but never immediately went to the typical bitchy face, and also the way she confronted her bullies and Nam Joo’s mother without actually lowering herself to their level was really satisfying. As I said, Joo Da was Barbie, she was Barbie and she was able to break free from her pattern. She got the chance to make her own decisions despite being fundamentally tied to a man by the writer. I also really liked her friendship with Do Hwa, and part of me even wanted them to end up together, even if it was just to mess with the storyboard a bit more. I just really liked it when Joo Da, of all people, started becoming aware of herself, because as the female lead she just came into so much power she didn’t even realize she had while she was her fragile persona ‘on-stage’. I really liked her character development.

I still find it such an interesting choice to never let Nam Joo become aware of himself. It would’ve been such an obvious thing to do, but they didn’t, and that’s why he was Ken all the more. It was funny to see how the almighty Oh Nam Joo, the Domyouji of the story, was made into such a softie because he just couldn’t escape his set-up of being devoted to Joo Da. In the end it actually made him a little miserable as well and I even felt a bit sorry for him. That ‘scene’ where he bought Joo Da that fancy hairclip and the curtain dropped and Joo Da went, ‘do you even remember when or where you bought this?’ and he was just like, ‘I don’t know, I just think about you all the time’🥲I was like ‘daww, this poor guy’, lol. I still found it sweet of Joo Da to stay with him despite her will to live her own life, seeing how his character just couldn’t exist in the storyline without her. I liked Kim Young Dae’s performance, all the more because he had to portray such a stereotypical character. I liked how his character was also put into perspective and even though he never became aware of himself as the male lead character of the story, I did feel like he voiced some really meaningful stuff at the end. To see his development from the proud and tough school leader to basically a bit of a wimp was really funny and also a bit touching. I’m just going to say it: no matter his set-up, Oh Nam Joo is and was Kenough.

I could’ve sworn I’d seen Jung Geon Joo in something else before, he looks so familiar! Apparently he had a role in The Third Charm, but I don’t remember him from there and I don’t even think I mentioned him in my review (yes, I actually checked). He also had a guest appearance (not a cameo as Do Hwa though) in True Beauty. I guess they just put people from EOY in there as regular easter eggs, lol. In any case, Lee Do Hwa was one of my favorite characters, and not just because of the thing with the violin, although that contributed greatly, lol. I just really liked that at least one of the main characters of the story ‘woke up’ so fast, especially in contrast to Nam Joo, who remained oblivious forever, and it was funny that it was Do Hwa because he was supposed to be the sweet and sentimental one. I remember this one scene where he was stopped in his tracks at a street corner just so he could witness Nam Joo meeting up with Joo Da at her part-time job. Again, I love how they dealt with tropes like this, because we all know those scenes where the second male lead just ‘happens’ to come across the main pairing and has to watch from a distance as they get closer. Here, it was literally like that. Do Hwa was basically teleported from day-time school campus to night-time city street and put in freeze just so he could witness that encounter between them. I remember him being like, ‘why do I have to be transported to a random street corner just to see this and feel miserable?’ It put such a different twist on classical storytelling and tropes in K-Dramas (and comic books, for that matter). Because of his set-up as the second male lead Do Hwa had to endure a lot of this and that made me really empathize with him. He did everything he could in his limited ‘shadow’ time to form a personal connection with Joo Da that wasn’t part of the original story, and he never got in her way as she was figuring stuff out, even after realizing that she’d become aware of herself. I really loved their friendship and I really loved Do Hwa. He was such a sweetheart and he also became such a loyal friend to Dan Oh and Haru, to the extent where he even got heartbroken when one of them suddenly didn’t remember the other anymore because of a reset, haha. He was their number #1 shipper. I loved the final A3 scene where he was hugging Nam Joo and Baek Kyung, crying about how mature they’d all gotten, lol. Bless Lee Do Hwa.

Now I can finally drop some reference dramas here, because if there’s one actor I’ve seen in a bunch of stuff before, it’s Lee Tae Ri. He was in Sungkyunkwan Scandal, The Moon That Embraces the Sun, Rooftop Prince, The Beauty Inside, and he also did a bunch of cameos and guest appareances as far as I can tell. He also had a guest appearance in True Beauty where he worked at the FL’s school cafeteria 👀, so that may have also been a reference to his character in EOY. Dried Squid Fairy (I see he’s credited under the character name Jin Mi Chae on MDL, but I have no recollection of him ever being referred to by that name in the show so I’m just gonna keep calling him DSF) is probably the most mysterious character out of everyone. He seems to be the only one aware of the comic books before Dan Oh finds out about it and he keeps a lot of the truth to himself, but there’s also a lot he apparently doesn’t know. The only concrete piece of information that’s revealed about him is that he was one of the main characters from ‘Trumpet Creeper’, and that he was harshly punished and downgraded by the writer to end up as his current minor character in ‘Secret’. As someone who’s seen the power (or should I say the wrath) of the writer first-hand, he’s the most wary of him and that’s why he keeps dissuading everyone else to interfere with the main story. I think he would’ve probably made a better case for himself if he’d played open card with everyone from the start. He could’ve told them exactly why they had to watch out for what the writer could do. It was because he decided to stay so secretive about it that no one thought to heed his advice. I honestly wish there could’ve been a bit more depth to Dried Squid Fairy’s character, because he was literally just standing there with his arms crossed, brooding but never acting. I wish he could’ve had a more active role in either helping the main characters out, or at least trying to stop what they were trying to do more actively. Now he was basically just the, ‘No… stop… don’t…’ guy who didn’t actually step in to stop anyone from doing anything risky. I do like that Lee Tae Ri is a regular casting choice for historical dramas, it suits him very well. Whenever I see him I always go ‘Heyyy, this guy again!’, haha. It was fun seeing him in this.

I really thought I knew Kim Ji In from something, but looking at her drama list I guess I don’t! I see she had a guest appearance in two episodes of Start-Up, but I don’t remember her from there. Maybe she looks like someone else that I’m confusing her with? I don’t know. Anyways, as I already said about Sae Mi, I was really grateful for how not one-dimensional they made her character, or any of the characters for that matter. Everyone tends to hate the designated ‘villain/bully/bitch’ character, but Sae Mi didn’t seem like a villain/bully/bitch to me at all outside of her ‘scenes’ with Joo Da. I just couldn’t help wondering how she would’ve reacted to becoming aware of her role in the story, but unfortunately, we’ll never find out. I liked Sae Mi’s character (apart from when she bullied Joo Da, of course), she was kind of a mess but she was consistently funny without trying to overdo it and I had to appreciate her friendship towards Dan Oh as well. I liked that she even opened herself up to the possibility of being attracted to Soo Chul at some point and I have to admit they looked pretty good together in the college story, haha. I couldn’t help think that Sae Mi must’ve been a pretty fun role to play, with different sides and challenges to it. I liked her performance.

I haven’t mentioned Soo Hyang, Dried Squid Fairy’s former lover who was suddenly introduced in ‘Secret’ as a transfer student, in my review that much because there wasn’t that much to her that was really important to the main storyline, but I did find it cute when she revealed that she did remember Dried Squid Fairy and they were able to reunite with a hug at the end, that was really sweet. Also, I’ve seen Lee Ye Hyun before in Andante, on which I wrote my very first drama review, so I just wanted to make a mention of that, lol.

Lastly, I want to make a final mention of Bae Hyun Sung, who played Baek Kyung’s younger stepbrother, because I yelped when I recognized him from Our Blues. I have to say I had a feeling about him from the start, I just felt like there was more to him from the way he looked at his brother, so I wasn’t actually that surprised when he revealed that he was also aware of himself, but I did find it interesting that he remembered all the way back to ‘Trumpet Creeper’. Also, since it was allegedly rare for a character to become aware of themselves it did seem a bit random that a minor character like him could be onto everything. I was also confused when he suddenly started appearing at Seuli High with everyone, I hadn’t noticed he was a student there before. Anyways, it was nice to see a familiar face and he’s just such a puppy. I liked how his character stayed true to Baek Kyung rather than follow in the footsteps of his nasty parents.

Well then, I think I’ve reached the conclusion of my review on EOY. I found the story very original and interesting, I loved how they played with classical tropes and flipped perspectives so that the characters themselves got to comment on their own roles and the story they were a part of. I guess it just started getting a little messy for me as soon as ‘Trumpet Creeper’ was dragged into ‘Secret’, and I got a bit impatient when there just didn’t seem to be anything else to talk about besides ‘to change fate or not to change fate’. There were a few things left open that I would’ve liked to get an explanation for, like for example how those vortex holes worked. I also found myself wondering if we’d find out who the writer was in the end. Like, I almost expected the final scene to reveal the real world in which the comic book was being sold, or a revelation in which the writer expressed their disdain on how their characters kept trying to mess around with the story, something like that. Everyone kept making such a big fuss about this powerful and merciless writer and the fact that everyone’s fate was so uncertain because everything was in the hands of this invisible god-like being, and then in the end we don’t even get to find out how exactly the whole thing works. Not that I minded the ending, or the fact that we as viewers remain within the story’s universe until the end, but I can’t deny it left me hanging just a little bit.
Other than that, I really enjoyed watching this, it wasn’t too heavy or too dramatic (even though it was a comic book story), it was entertaining and sweet and I liked the majority of the characters and their multi-dimensionality. I think that, while it had the typical vibes of a romantic love story, it also did a good job of commenting on that typicality, on those stereotypes and tropes. I always love it when dramas express skepticism towards stereotypes. The way the characters became aware of their personas and reflected on them was one of my favorite things about this show. It really put classical drama stories in a new light, and it just made me feel hopeful for new and original ways to explore storytelling in K-Drama.

Next up on my list are a couple of shorter Japanese dramas, so I’m definitely going to be back in a week or so with my next review. Stay tuned!

Bye-bee! x

Nevertheless,

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Nevertheless,
(알고있지만, / Algoitjiman, / I Know, But…)
MyDramaList rating: 7.5/10

Hello there, and welcome to my new review! Within my streak of weekly reviews last month, I deliberately decided to take a bit more time to finish this one. If I wanted, I could’ve finished this within one week because let me tell you: I was ADDICTED. I went through the first half SO fast I actually had to stop myself because it would be a pity to rush through it, and I took some more time finishing the second half. This show has been heavily overdue and it’s been on my list for several years already (ever since it came out, probably), and I’ve seen a lot of mixed reactions on it. I was prepared for the worst, but I’m glad to say that I really liked it. I found it very refreshing, original and realistic how the whole story was constructed and how the characters were portrayed. A couple of points that made this show stand out for me in particular were the realism and messiness of relationships of twentysomethings, the chemistry between the main leads and the challenges the characters face while conveying their feelings through visual arts.

Nevertheless, is a 10-episode Netflix K-Drama with episodes each lasting about one hour and ten minutes. The story follows Yoo Na Bi (played by Han So Hee), a sculpture art college student, and her group of friends/study mates as they navigate life in and out of class, and grapple with relationship issues.
From the get-go, we are introduced to Na Bi in a very awkward situation: she witnesses a sculpture made by her former teacher (turned toxic older boyfriend) which he not only named after her, but even shows her in a very suggestive pose – erotic, even.  It doesn’t take long for Na Bi to break up with him, but then she finds herself a bit disappointed in love – she’s stopped believing in things like destiny, but she still finds herself wanting to date and ‘feel something’ with another person. Shortly after breaking up with her ex, Na Bi finds herself sitting at a bar when suddenly a handsome stranger joins her. It initially seems like he’s mistaking her for his blind date, but he decides to spend the evening with her and Na Bi is positively enchanted by his charming nature. She can’t help but feel attracted to him from the start. However, after spending some nice time together, she overhears him talking on the phone to -she assumes- another girl and decides to ditch him at the bar. Not long after that, she finds out that he goes to the same visual arts college as her, and he’s even in her friend group. His name is Park Jae Eon (played by Song Kang). As they keep bumping into each other Na Bi feels drawn to him more and more, even when she hears everyone say that he doesn’t date, he’s only looking for fun. But when he’s with her – and he certainly puts effort into seeing her and contacting her – it really feels as if he’s being serious with her. Na Bi can’t put her finger on it, but on the other hand she enjoys his company too much that she’s worried she’ll scare him away with ‘serious talk’. At some point, she can’t resist his advances any longer and they become what these days would be referred to as a ‘situationship’. They’re not dating, they’re not bound to each other, but they hook up and have sex a lot. They don’t even tell their friends about it, it’s really just something between the two of them, and while Na Bi seems content for a while, it doesn’t take long for her to get a bit torn about Jae Eon’s true feelings, as she feels her own grow steadily by the day. Their relationship becomes even more strained (and draining) when Na Bi starts performing worse in class, she’s facing possible failure when she can’t seem to figure out what to do with her art piece for the final exhibition. She can’t avoid Jae Eon anywhere, and he keeps popping up and when she finally decides to take the ‘healthy’ decision to distance herself from him and the messy thing that exists between them, Jae Eon in turn starts expressing more and more sincerity towards Na Bi. It appears that, while no one thought it possible, he’s finally starting to change and open up to the possibility of staying true to one girl, but at the same time Na Bi has already decided not to trust him anymore. Especially after Yoon Seol Ah (Lee Yeol Eum) shows up, who claims to be Jae Eon’s girlfriend and starts making Na Bi feel even more insecure and confused. Followed by a reunion of her own with her childhood friend/crush Yang Do Hyuk (played by Chae Jong Hyup) aka a chance at (re)connecting with someone who’s been very serious about her from the start, Na Bi struggles with balancing everything that’s on her mind, but no matter how much she tries, she can’t deny that she doesn’t feel attracted to anyone as much as she does to Jae Eon.
In the meantime, the story also follows a couple of other characters from Na Bi’s college friend group and their respective love stories. There’s Oh Bit Na (played by Yang Hye Ji) and Nam Gyu Hyun (played by Kim Min Gwi) who, despite their natural attraction to each other have to face up to their respective perspectives on relationships and dating. There’s Yoon Sol (played by Lee Ho Jung) and Seo Ji Wan (played by Yoon Seo Ah), two female best friends who have to come to terms with the fact that they feel more for each other than mere friendship, and there’s also the two seniors who monitor the students’ workshop space, Ahn Gyung Joon (Jung Jae Kwang) and Jo Min Young (Han Eu Ddeum) who end up living together.
While the main story follows Na Bi in her swaying feelings towards her relationship with Jae Eon, the side stories provide equally engaging and meaningful developments in Na Bi’s surroundings, and I definitely think that besides the undeniable romantic plots, there’s a heavy focus on friendship in general, and on growing as a person through listening to your own heart and (occasionally) making tough decisions.

I will say right off the bat that besides the main storyline between Na Bi and Jae Eon, I really enjoyed all of the side stories as well. Whenever there was a switch to Sol and Ji Wan, the seniors or Bit Na or anything else I never lost my excitement, because every story had something engaging and interesting going on that kept me invested. It’s a common occurrence in drama series that there’s all these side plots created purely to have something going on in the background apart from the main story but it doesn’t always add that much to the story – sometimes they even distract from the main plot. But in this case, I was constantly interested in what was happening with every single character and sometimes it was even a good distraction from the drama of the main story. I can honestly say there wasn’t a single character I disliked in the main cast. I could understand everyone’s point of view and I found it interesting how they made everyone so original, also in their way of thinking. The discussion that Bit Na and Gyu Hyun had was a very realistic one, as they had to figure out how to compromise between what they each envisioned a dating relationship to be like, and it was also really nice to see how the love between Sol and Ji Wan was normalized, not just between them but in their entire friend group. They were cute and meaningful little stories that highlighted all the side characters and made everyone feel purposeful. I really appreciated that.

Let me go into a bit more detail about the main characters and a couple of the friend group members, as this series lends itself perfectly for character analysis.
Let’s start with our heroine, Yoo Na Bi. Unlike common main characters, we are initially introduced to Na Bi as an individual. She lives by herself and we don’t immediately get to know what her family is like or where she comes from. We just see her by herself, even in class. She has a friend group, but while her friends usually move in groups of at least two, even when she joins a social event, she’s there by herself and often ends up going home alone. It seems like she’s accepted it, she’s quite timid and used to not being the center of attention, in contrast to for example Bit Na. I guess you could see her as the slightly more introverted girl who has some extroverted friends that keep inviting her. She gets along with everyone, though, it’s not like she’s weak at social communication or anything. I just got the feeling she kept her thoughts and feelings mostly to herself. This also appears to be the case when she’s struggling with her art piece, she doesn’t tend to vent to her friends or ask for help that often.
We find out later that she used to live in a town by the sea, and that her mother and aunt still live there. She’s not on good terms with her mom who, as is revealed, has had the consistent tendency of moving from one man to another. On the other hand, Na Bi loves her aunt very much and she even mentions she wishes her aunt was her mother several times. Her aunt is also the one who named her Na Bi (which means ‘butterfly’). Other than her aunt, Na Bi doesn’t have any family she’s close with, no siblings or whatever. She lives by herself and commutes by herself and works by herself and occasionally goes out drinking with her college friends. That’s basically what her life looks like. That is, until she meets Jae Eon. From the moment she meets him, she can’t help but be instinctively attracted to him, and he makes her feel all sorts of ways, from excited to anxious. Even after learning about his reputation, and even after actively trying to stay away from him, she can’t stop feeling an almost gravitational pull towards him. As someone who stopped believing in the romantic and ‘destiny’ aspect of dating and relationships after breaking up with her first love (who was a toxic bastard), her attraction to Jae Eon initially seems to border more on lust than on actual love, and while she’s fine with that for a while, at some point she can’t ignore the fact that she’s developing feelings which, in this case, only complicates the matter. She knows that Jae Eon isn’t interested in dating, and she’s scared to be real with him because she doesn’t want him to leave – although she still decides to take the matter into her own hands at some point and decides she wants to stop seeing him.
All in all, I personally couldn’t help relate to Na Bi. I mean, people can call her weak for constantly giving in to Jae Eon’s advances, but seriously, can you blame her? I think it’s perfectly understandable that she wasn’t able to resist him, especially when you look at how he kept putting in effort to come see her. He made sure they kept meeting, he kept approaching her, he kept checking in on her – I admire the attempts Na Bi made to distance herself because he definitely didn’t make it easy for her. Still, I couldn’t help but get completely invested in their chemistry together. I was waving my red flag around while still being like😳during every single scene they had together. They clearly were so into each other, I couldn’t believe that Jae Eon didn’t feel any kind of real attachment to her, he made way too much effort for that. And Na Bi’s struggle with the whole push-and-pull thing just made sense to me – I honestly think that I would’ve felt equally mixed about the whole situation. I couldn’t blame her for being unable to suppress her attraction to Jae Eon, but I also couldn’t blame her for trying to distance herself from it because it was the healthy thing to do. What I also liked about Na Bi was that, while she definitely struggled, she did try the best she could to fix her own problems by herself. She never got anyone else to solve stuff for her, because she knew no one else could determine what would be the best thing to do better than she herself. She may not have been on top of her own feelings all the time, but she still knew that she needed to sort this out by herself, because despite her own confusion she was still the only person who could figure out what she wanted. The way the series navigates through her struggles in trying to figure out her own feelings compared to what would be the right thing to do was incredibly realistic and relatable, even for someone like me who’s not been in that same situation. I found myself relating to Na Bi and just feeling for her while she had to figure her shit out, all the while trying to cope with all these other things like performing well in class etcetera. I think the depiction of her navigation through everything she went through was very real and human in its complicated messiness. And I also can’t say she made any bad choices, either. She remained very steadfast, also in for example not jumping into a relationship with Do Hyuk just to get a distraction from Jae Eon. I admit I was kind of scared she’d do something like that and then Do Hyuk would get even more hurt when she inevitably would be pulled back to Jae Eon at some point. But I was really proud of her to be like ‘sorry Do Hyuk, this is all really sweet and you’re really sweet but I just don’t feel like I’m in any state to get into another relationship right now, I need to figure my shit out first’. That was such a powerful moment for her, and it just proved that no matter how fragile she seemed at times, she definitely held herself strong. I had a lot of admiration for how she handled her situation and just tried to make sense of it by herself without turning it into too much drama.

I found it very interesting how their relationship posed so many new and original perspectives. For one, I’ve never seen a ‘situationship’ depicted as such in a K-Drama before. I believe ‘situationships’ are kind of a thing these days, because I come across the term everywhere I go on social media. I have to admit I googled it👵🏻because I didn’t know what it entailed, but after seeing this show I was like, ‘I guess this must be one of those’. It’s basically defined as a relationship where you’re not tied to each other, but you’re just hooking up, ‘having fun’ without any strings attached.
The fact that it starts, from the bat, by introducing us to Na Bi through a toxic relationship and then having her move onto a situationship like that, is definitely a very original way of introducing a main character in a K-Drama.    

The first thing to mention about Jae Eon is that initially, we never see his point of view. As in, we never hear his internal monologue, we don’t get to know what he’s thinking, and that only adds to the relatable feelings we get towards Na Bi. We just see him the way Na Bi sees him whenever he appears in front of her, and we get to wonder along with her about what his true intentions might be. What’s interesting is that we do get a couple of internal thoughts from him during the second half of the story, especially when he starts changing his mind about his usual ways. We still don’t get a lot of concluding facts, but at least we see that he is trying to change for Na Bi, and that she is special to him. We even find out that there is, in fact, an element of ‘destiny’ in it for him, as he saw her for the first time standing in front of that sculpture at that exhibition from the first episode. As someone who doesn’t believe in destiny either, Jae Eon chooses not to put too much weight on it, but as his character develops throughout the story, he still chooses to tell her, and the realization of his words is what ultimately drives Na Bi to go back to him.
Despite the fact that we don’t exactly know what Jae Eon is thinking, or what his exact intentions or feelings towards Na Bi are in the beginning, I never thought for a second that he wasn’t sincere about what he did with her. I mean, he put in so much effort to come see her at college, he would come to her house, he would text her… If she was only a plaything for him, wouldn’t he have just pretended to be super into her whenever they met but not put in any effort when they didn’t see each other? I don’t know, it just felt like he was very sincere towards her, even when they weren’t doing it, he was always looking at her in that particular way, always smiling at her expressions and actions, he’d always touch her, even if it was just on the shoulder. He made way too much effort for someone who wasn’t sincere, in my opinion. And this is only confirmed even more when Na Bi’s other friends, who know about Jae Eon’s reputation, also start telling her that ‘hm, he usually doesn’t do that, this is special, he must consider you to be different, he never does that with girls he hooks up with’. He was never toxic to her, in my opinion. He may have had his own perspective on dating, but he never got with people without their full consent. I think the way he always waited for Na Bi to give him the green light was very characteristic of his chivalry. We never see him fight or get mad or violent, only this one time when Na Bi is in danger of getting hurt. He doesn’t seem like a bad person, per se. He just keeps a distance from complicated feelings and prefers things to be simple and fun. That’s the vibe I got from him, anyway.
The only thing we find out about Jae Eon is that his mother is (or used to be) a famous dancer, and we only meet her one time when Jae Eon visits her in the hotel suite she’s staying at. Even though we don’t learn a lot about their mother-son dynamic, it’s still an interesting scene in which we get a more insightful look into Jae Eon’s personal life. Before, when Na Bi asks about his mother one time, he doesn’t really say anything and it just makes Na Bi feel like she’s overstepping as they’re not supposed to get to know each other like that in their situationship. To the end, we still don’t really know much about Jae Eon, or even about how he turned out the way he did. This mystery around him only intensifies with the appearance of Yoon Seol Ah. Honestly, I still don’t fully understand what their relationship was, because I never felt any romantic tension between them, even though Seol Ah claimed to be Jae Eon’s girlfriend. It seems like Jae Eon feels a kind of responsibility towards her, as he keeps meeting up with her as soon as she calls him and he also accompanies her frequently to hospital appointments for her anemia. But I don’t really understand why, and what it meant. He was still being his player self and hooking up with Na Bi while she was in town, so it’s not like he changed his ways for her. Even if she was his original girlfriend and they had an ‘open relationship’ or something, that wasn’t really clear to me. Again, ‘undefined’ relationships are kind of the main focus of this series, so I can’t blame them – I guess it just shows how much I suck with this kind of ambiguity, I just want to know people’s intentions all the time. Seol Ah immediately realizes that there’s something about Na Bi (except for her name) that keeps pulling Jae Eon to her, but she doesn’t get jealous in a petty way, per se. The only thing she does is show up at their college and tell Na Bi that she’s Jae Eon’s girlfriend (while pretending not to know who Na Bi is so she can’t call her out for anything). After Na Bi then responds with the most 🔥🔥response EVER (seriously, I threw my hands in the air when she went, ‘I wouldn’t cut my hair if I were you, you know Jae Eon likes to do it with your hair in a ponytail’🫣🫣), Seol Ah even admits to approving of Na Bi, and she leaves shortly after, even throwing away her matching butterfly lighter. So yeah, she wasn’t a love rival per se, and that definitely saved us all some extra drama, but I wasn’t entirely sure what to make of her either. There didn’t seem to be much lingering attachment between Jae Eon and Seol Ah when she left, they just said goodbye with a friendly hug and that was it. I personally would’ve liked to at least know what exactly their relationship was or used to be.

I’ve already mentioned it in my intro and after that, but the first couple of episodes, especially when Na Bi and Jae Eon first get involved, had me hooked as heck. Despite knowing that there were some problematic aspects and potential red flags, I found myself actually kind of addicted in watching their situationship unfold. It mostly had to do with the chemistry between the main leads, which was like pure turpentine poured on fire. Their scenes together were so addictive to watch. I have a weak spot for passionate expressions of love in K-Dramas, which are usually so conservative. Whenever they break through that conservativeness with adding some extra spice in the make-out scenes, I always cheer. What sets this series apart and makes it special is that rather than build up to finally holding hands after ten episodes, it establishes the sexual tension on Level 100 from the first episode on, then has it explode at the end of the second episode, and it never stops from there. Even after the two stop having sex at some point, they still find themselves making out several times even when Na Bi is trying to distance herself from Jae Eon. They just can’t keep their eyes or hands off each other even when they try. And let me tell you, I didn’t even mind. I know that everyone is like TOXIC! RED FLAG! PROBLEMATIC!, and while I initially agreed, I did find myself wondering if it really was actually that problematic, in hindsight. I mean, Na Bi could’ve seen Jae Eon as a red flag because she knew the effect he had on her, and she found herself addicted to him to the point where she couldn’t seem to run away from it even when she did everything in her power to try. But I don’t think that Jae Eon’s ways were that toxic, per se. He never lied to her about his intentions, he was genuinely interested in her from the start, which is revealed when he tells her she caught his attention from the first moment he saw her at that exhibition. He also never went against her consent; even when he tried kissing her a couple of times, he always held back when he saw she wasn’t ready. He always let her come to him first before responding. I noticed that in the beginning, Na Bi was always the one who kissed him first in order to let him know she was okay before he kissed her back. He kept coming onto her and hooking up with her because he believed she was okay with things the way they were, and Na Bi even admits to bringing that upon herself, she never even blames him because she blames herself more for letting it happen. The minute she starts pushing him away and lets him know she isn’t 100% okay with things, he starts taking that into consideration, he tells her she can define their relationship and he even ends up asking her to date him because that’s what she wants to hear.
To be clear, I did not stand by the things he said in the rain in the second-to-last episode. What he said there was definitely not okay and it lacked so much sincerity that even though I was rooting for him to win Na Bi back at that point, he just made me go, ‘bro, this is not it’. The fact that he admitted to giving Do Hyuk the wrong impression in order to make him jealous and that the reason he asked her to date him was purely because ‘that’s what you wanted to hear, right?’, that was really uncool. Especially since him asking her that made her even more confused, because why was he suddenly going against his nature of never wanting to date? It gave her even more complicated feelings and then he basically said he wasn’t even serious about it. He just wanted to make her feel that so she’d choose him over Do Hyuk. So yeah, that was the only moment I went 👎🏻 👎🏻on Jae Eon. I felt like he was just being mean and not even honest with himself, and that’s not what he owed Na Bi at that point – this only made it easier for her to resent him and push him away even more. He really wasn’t thinking straight at that moment.
Other than that, I didn’t really see a problem with his attitude towards dating, it was his own business and it didn’t seem like he was betraying people. He made sure to only get involved with people who were equally non-serious about hooking up, and so no one got hurt. The whole deal with Jae Eon was that, while everyone knew about his reputation, they all still liked him because it wasn’t like he was a jerk to people or treated people badly. He was a genuinely good friend, he never bothered anyone and he was charming to a fault. All he did was use his charms, and no one could blame him for that. So yeah, I actually don’t think their relationship was that problematic, as they both gave full consent and they both knew what they were getting into. As soon as their feelings changed, so did their relationship and in the end they still got together because they genuinely liked each other. It was summed up by Na Bi in the final episode; she knew Jae Eon probably wasn’t going to make her happy and that she might regret taking him back, but she still wanted to go for it because she couldn’t deny her feelings and consistent attraction to him. Jae Eon clearly made a change for the better, he was even crying in front of her openly now. I don’t see how two consenting adults engaging in a relationship despite knowing that it might not last forever is a red flag. The way in which they chose to give it a chance, following the feelings they were feeling in the present moment instead of worrying about the future, just made it all the more realistic to me.

Before moving on, I want to comment on the recurring theme of butterflies in this series, because it definitely feels like another destiny element that binds Na Bi and Jae Eon together. First of all, Na Bi herself, as her name literally means butterfly. As it happens, Jae Eon has an affinity with butterflies. He has a butterfly tattoo in his neck, he has a lighter with a butterfly on it, and he even has a whole-ass greenhouse section in his apartment where he keeps butterflies. He ends up making a butterfly decoration and a butterfly bracelet for Na Bi as well. After he gets involved with Na Bi, there’s this scene where he’s talking with Seol Ah about whether or not to free his butterflies, as he keeps changing his mind about that. I couldn’t help but feel that this reference to his butterflies and whether he should free them or not became kind of a metaphor towards his involvement with Na Bi as well. When they first meet, he draws a butterfly on her wrist, as a fake tattoo, and the way she doesn’t wash it off but how it gradually fades away also comes back in the development of their relationship. When Jae Eon ultimately does free his butterflies, he lets them fly away through the window, right at the moment where he’s starting to accept that he needs to give up on Na Bi. I feel like he also refers to Na Bi as ‘a new butterfly’ at some point. Anyways, it all just seemed so perfect. A guy with an affinity for butterflies meets a girl named ‘Butterfly’. I also liked when they talked about different interpretations of the butterfly concept on the night they first meet at the bar. Jae Eon asks Na Bi why she was named after a butterfly and she tells him that, despite there being this standard meaning of ‘hoping she’ll live a life sweet as honey’, her aunt chose her name because of a poem by her favorite author that goes: “Happiness is like a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but if you sit down quietly, it may alight upon you”. She later finds out from her aunt that this was just a made-up story, and the reason behind her name was actually inspired by the ‘life sweet as honey’ thing. The fact that the theme and concept of butterflies kept coming back, both in conversations and in artistic and creative forms, was a very nice consistency. A butterfly may be a very simple symbol, but I feel like they were able to give it many different meanings in this series, which was interesting.

Let’s talk a bit about Do Hyuk. Yang Do Hyuk is Na Bi’s childhood friend/crush who grew up in the same sea town as her. Due to a misunderstanding, he didn’t show up when Na Bi left to move to Seoul when they were kids, but then they suddenly meet on a bus and it’s like nothing has changed between them. Do Hyuk is clearly still – or again – smitten with Na Bi the second he sees her. Do Hyuk is basically the typical second male lead character who is the most caring and sweet considerate person the female lead could wish for – except we all know from the start that he’s not going to win her heart. Honestly, by the time he was introduced, I was already so invested in Na Bi and Jae Eon that I didn’t even want to give Do Hyuk a chance, lol. Compared to the🔥that existed between the main couple, Do Hyuk just fell flat and I even found him a bit boring, to be honest. He’s sweet, he cares about Na Bi a lot, and while in many dramas his character is the one people end up rooting for because he’s less forceful and more considerate of the female lead’s space, the sad truth for Do Hyuk was that Na Bi was already head over heels for Jae Eon by the time they reunited. Even when she came back to the sea town for a break while not being involved with Jae Eon at the time and Do Hyuk sees his chance to woo her, her mind and heart all still occupied fully with Jae Eon, even when she herself wished that wasn’t the case.
Although I found him a bit boring, I still liked Do Hyuk for his kindness and maturity. He basically tells Na Bi that he’ll only stop trying to win her heart when she gives him a clear answer about her feelings for Jae Eon. That’s all he wanted to know, and that was more than fair. As long as he thought he still had a chance, he kept going for it, but I also feel like he knew very well that it was a lost cause the second Jae Eon arrived at that townhouse, because the way Na Bi looked at him said more than anything. I felt a bit bad for him, even, because he just didn’t stand a chance from the start. As I mentioned before, I was a bit scared that Na Bi might take him up on the dating thing purely because she might’ve thought it would distract her from Jae Eon if she focused on being with someone who showed her undivided attention. But I’m glad she was real with him, because it wouldn’t have been right if she’d accepted his confession. It took her a lot of time, in the end, but then she still had to admit to him that she had feelings for Jae Eon, even though she’d tried so hard to deny it. I’m just glad that Do Hyuk didn’t become pathetic in his insecurity. Initially, when he saw her with Jae Eon or when she even mentioned something which he knew was about Jae Eon, his face went ‘☹️’ and that was just sad. I felt like he deserved a clear answer from the start, that would’ve spared him so much pain and idle hope. The answer was already there and everyone knew he didn’t stand a chance, so it was a bit unfair to him. All I can say is that I’m glad he didn’t witness Na Bi and Jae Eon making out in the townhouse after staying behind while the others joined the fireworks party at the beach, because that would’ve been incredibly painful for him and it would’ve only made things even messier.
Besides his failed ambition to become Na Bi’s significant other, he was a really loyal friend to her, and I can understand that Jae Eon was a big red flag to him, as well. He must’ve immediately sensed that this guy was ‘bad news’ and that he had to protect Na Bi from him. Except she didn’t actually need to be protected, she had to deal with it herself, and he gave her the space to do that. Na Bi never bothered him with her issues regarding Jae Eon, she made it clear that she needed to sort things out by herself. I really feel like Na Bi wanted to give Do Hyuk a chance, she saw all his good qualities and knew that he’d be good to her, but she just couldn’t admit she felt a spark with him the way she did with Jae Eon, she couldn’t find it in her heart to use him in any way, because she knew she’d only end up hurting him more in not being as sincere towards him as he was to her. I liked their friendship, but I also feel like it was mostly based on Do Hyuk’s romantic feelings for her, so it kept feeling a bit strained in some way.

Let’s move on to our lovely bunch of side characters, aka Na Bi and Jae Eon’s study mates and friend group members. I don’t think I’ve mentioned this before, but there were actually some defined sunbaehubae relations within the group, even between Na Bi and Jae Eon, because she was actually his sunbae, and therefore older than him. The characters I’m going to write about are mostly from Na Bi’s class, so they appear in the same workshop studio where she works on her final piece.
One of the first friends we meet is Oh Bit Na. She’s young, she’s outgoing, she’s free-spirited and she has an edgy style of fashion. She has basically taken on the command and leadership of the group, in that she often summons everyone and proposes events and workshops and afterparties. She’s the extroverted friend that keeps trying to get Na Bi to participate in social events. However, as she’s one of the people who’s most familiar with Jae Eon’s reputation, when she notices something going on between him and Na Bi, she stands by Na Bi in giving her advice and notifying her about things she knows about Jae Eon. She keeps an eye on them, so to say, to make sure Na Bi doesn’t get hurt, and that’s a strong sign of friendship between them. With others, she may not seem so serious, and she also has quite a casual attitude towards relationships – she sees ‘dating’ as consisting mostly of physical intimacy (kissing and sex), rather than something serious where you, for example, talk about your feelings or actually feel like you owe some sort of responsibility towards the other person. One drunk night, she ends up making out and hooking up with her sunbae Nam Gyu Hyun, who we’ve seen already expressing careful interest in her but never acting on it before. The next morning, Gyu Hyun immediately makes it clear that it wasn’t a drunken mistake for him and while Bit Na initially feels like he’s making way too big of a deal of it, she finds herself suddenly more attracted to him than before. They decide to go out, but then their different views on what a relationship should entail still clash and Bit Na ultimately has to prove to Gyu Hyun that she is serious about him and that she’s willing to engage in serious dating with him.
What I found so interesting about their relationship was that we see these two completely differently wired people who find themselves attracted to each other, despite their moral differences. Bit Na is not only younger in age, but also in mind, compared to Gyu Hyun. She doesn’t want to make a fuss of things, she wants to have fun while she can, and she initially dismisses Gyu Hyun’s opinions because she finds them tiring and too serious. On the other hand we have Gyu Hyun, who is this really laid-back and not very talkative ‘cool’ guy, who lets Bit Na throw her tantrums and purposely distances himself from her until she comes crawling back to him. I thought their dynamic was really cute, especially because Bit Na was initially that ‘OMG I must be going crazy, why am I suddenly having feelings for this guy??’ but she gradually came around to accepting what she felt and despite her slightly immature, pouting tendencies when she wouldn’t get her way, she still managed to convince him that she was able to be serious with him, and after that they didn’t let each other go. I thought they were sweet and they also weren’t a very stereotypical couple, so that made their dynamic interesting to watch.

Sol is one of Na Bi’s closest friends who’s also working on her own sculpture piece for the final exhibition at the same time as Na Bi. I guess you could say that she’s a bit ‘boyish’ in the way she presents herself, she doesn’t dress very ‘girly’ and she’s more stoic in her expressions and actions as well. I initially found it very funny to see how she was so close with Ji Wan, because Ji Wan is the exact opposite of Sol. She’s the cute girl who always dresses up in frilly dresses and skirts with her hair in braids, and she’s continuously going on blind dates. At one point, Sol meets this guy in a café who immediately shows interest in her, and when Ji Wan finds out about this, she suddenly finds herself pissed at Sol, and she starts acting really petty and immature towards her friend when this guy accompanies her to the campus festival.
Unlike the case of the main leads, the build-up in the relationship between Sol and Ji Wan takes roughly the entire series, even though it’s clear from the start that at least Sol is already romantically interested in Ji Wan. Ji Wan’s feelings seem to come into realization as soon as she sees Sol with that guy, and then it takes her another while to fully accept how she truly feels about her best friend. Subconsciously, she must’ve already known, because we see her get very touchy with Sol as soon as she gets drunk. When they’re playing spin-the-bottle at some point while drinking at Na Bi’s house, when the bottle points at Ji Wan, she immediately goes 😚😚at Sol, and when they’re at the workshop in the sea town, she also basically drunk-confesses her feelings to her. She tells her that Sol means the most to her, out of everyone else in her life, even her parents, and that she doesn’t want to be apart from her. Sol is initially a bit pissed at her for this, because she feels like Ji Wan is giving her false hope and playing with her feelings. She ultimately confesses that she has feelings for Ji Wan quite frankly, and Ji Wan isn’t immediately able to answer her – but that’s not because she’s shocked by her friend’s sudden love confession, but because she’s already thinking ahead of what will become of their friendship after they’d break up. She’s eventually able to share this concern with Sol, and when she hears this, she just laughs and tells her not to worry about anything because her feelings will never change.
This is probably the most typical kind of feedback I can give, but I was really happy to see such a normalized lesbian relationship in a K-Drama. The only thing I want to note is that I still think there was a certain stereotypical element in making them a ‘boyish girl & girly girl’ couple, and the fact that they didn’t include a kissing scene for them. I would’ve been even more impressed if they’d actually put in some physical intimacy for them besides just hugs and hand holding, because that would’ve made it feel even more normalized, at least as much as the other depicted relationships were. They let Bit Na and Gyu Hyun kiss, why not every other couple? So yeah, that was the only thing I found a bit of a pity, but otherwise I found Sol and Ji Wan a really cute couple. I loved how neither of them thought it was weird and they’d already both accepted that this might be the case, and how no one in the friend group either made a weird comment about it. Na Bi already knew from the start, apparently, she always knew Sol was talking about Ji Wan when she asked her for advice, and it was just really nice to see how openly affectionate they walked around after they’d confirmed their feelings for each other.

Then there were a couple of other friends who always joined in on the fun of social events even though they didn’t actually get their own elaborate storylines. There was Jang Se Young and Seong Yoon, who were a lovey-dovey couple, and Yoo Se Hoon, who was kind of a third wheel between all the couples, but who initially had a bit of a crush on Sol, and then there was Hwang Jin Soo, who had a crush on Na Bi and became one of the assistants to help her with her art project together with Jae Eon.
These were basically the people who were all on the main leads’ side, they were all good people, but they didn’t actually know about what really was going on, and they were more kind of spreaders of gossip (about Jae Eon, for example). They were a bit more distanced from the actual action, they weren’t as aware of Na Bi’s situation with Jae Eon as Bit Na and Sol were, for example. But they were still a fun bunch, and always loyal to the right people.

And then I’d like to mention one of my favorite (unexpected) potential couples, Ahn Gyung Joon and Jo Min Young. I still don’t exactly know for sure what their function within the campus exactly was, but I got the impression that they worked part-time at the administration office that monitored the workshop of the visual arts students. So when people wanted to work on their projects a little longer, they had to register their names on a form there, and when they needed some more materials, they could apply for them there. They also helped mediate between students and scholarships and internships, if I understood correctly. In any case, there’s this administration office where the characters often pass through and sometimes have lunch at, and the two people working there are their sunbae, Gyung Joon and Min Young. At first there isn’t really anything going on between them, they just work together there and get along fine. But then Min Young suddenly faces this situation where she has to find a new place to live and Gyung Joon offers to let her stay at his place until she finds something else. As they start living together, they clearly become closer and there’s even a couple of tense moments between them. They don’t actually officially end up together as in ‘dating’ at the end of the show, but it’s pretty obvious that it’s going to happen as Gyung Joon was basically acting like a caring husband towards Min Young and she asked him if she can stay at his place. They even already got a kitten to take care of together, so that’s a start. In any case, I thought their little budding love story in-between the messiness of Na Bi and Jae Eon’s situationship was very sweet and a welcome palette cleanser. Not that any of the main story events ever became too heavy for me, but I generally just liked it whenever the story switched over to one of the other side stories, and this was one in particular that I enjoyed. I liked how, even though Min Young seemed to be a bit of a tsundere, she didn’t become annoying or actively tried to push Gyung Joon away when it seemed like he was getting too close. She really just accepted how comfortable she became while staying at his place. I liked the scene where she had to fart on his couch and first made sure he was out of hearing reach, and where she accidentally put on his glasses instead of her own, lol. It was nice seeing her let loose, watching TV in her jersey and just getting comfortable while he was in the same room with her. They just made a natural couple together, even when they weren’t official yet. I liked them.

I want to make two final mentions of characters that I liked, starting with Na Bi’s aunt (played by Yoon Sa Bong). She was such a lovely lady. I could immediately understand why Na Bi would’ve wanted her to be her mom instead of her actual mom, because she basically was her mom already. She cared about Na Bi as if she were her own daughter. I liked that we got to know her a bit better when the whole gang came over to the sea town for that workshop/field trip thing. She just wanted what was best for Na Bi and I feel like she also had a good instinct for people. I don’t think she would’ve let Jae Eon in on learning how to make pottery if she felt in any way that he had malicious intent. I think she must have sensed that he cared about Na Bi a lot, and that’s why she let him in. Even after seeing Na Bi react like that and realizing something must be going on between them, she never poked her nose into Na Bi’s business or tried to get her to talk about her love life or anything. She showed so much love for Na Bi and she made her feel like an adult who was able to take care of her own stuff. I really wanted to hug her, haha.

Lastly, there’s the professor/mentor of the visual arts students from Na Bi’s year (played by Seo Jae Hee). I liked her character as well, mostly because you could see how concerned she was about her students, and mostly about Na Bi. She may have been strict and told Na Bi off for not progressing sufficiently multiple times, expressing her concern regarding Na Bi’s future if she didn’t get her act together, but in the end she was rooting for her as much as everyone. When that terrible thing happened in the final episode where Na Bi’s work is smashed to pieces, she immediately worried about how Na Bi might not be able to repair it in time for the exhibition. I kind of feared that she would get angry at Na Bi for some reason, and make her take responsibility for neglecting her own work or something, but it was a relief to see her come into the administration office all worried about Na Bi. When she expressed how proud she was of how Na Bi ultimately managed to repair her piece in time (with the help of her assistants) and how she could finally feel the emotions emitting from her piece and how she recommended her to go to Paris, that felt like the biggest accomplishment. I really liked that, despite her occasional strictness, the professor was still such a good person and a supportive character towards Na Bi and the others.

To continue on this point, I want to say something about the visual arts theme used in this series. As I’ve mentioned many times before, I always find it really interesting when a drama series covers a specific line or field of work that I’m not familiar with, or that generally isn’t covered much in movies or series. I found it delightful to get an insight into this visual arts college setting and how different it is from a general college. Students walking around in overalls, sneaking out for a smoke –seriously, I’ve never seen the depiction of young people smoking so frequently appear in a K-Drama before–,checking in on each other’s projects, etc. I liked that the work bench Jae Eon usually worked at was outside, as he worked with metal and welding a lot. It was such a breath of fresh air from how colleges are usually portrayed in series. As far as I remember, I’ve never seen artistic schools depicted like this before, so it was very interesting to see.
What I also liked, apart from the external appearance of the setting, was that Na Bi’s rocky journey through her semester is as much a part of her character development as her relationship with Jae Eon is. Seeing her go through all these highs and lows, scoldings and praises when it comes to her art works, it only made me empathize with her more. I was positively LIVID when that happened to her art piece in the final episode, not just because it sucked in general, but because we saw how much Na Bi struggled while working on it through the entire story. She’s been working on it the entire time, giving up on it time and time again before deciding to go for it again, and just when she was getting her confidence back about finishing it in time for the exhibition with the help of Jae Eon and Jin Soo, this happens. It was just too cruel, I was actually angry at the unfairness of it. Especially since it first seemed like someone had done it. It was never specified, but how else was only her piece smashed to bits? If it had just toppled over, it would’ve maybe broken into a couple of large pieces, but it was actually smashed to the last piece, so it felt like some sort of cowardly action. I felt myself crumbling down together with Na Bi when they showed it, it was really awful that this would happen to her, of all people, after everything she was already going through. Anyways, in the end the final piece she put back together with Jae Eon and Jin Soo’s help was even better than the original, so despite the initial setback, it may have been for the better, and it became a literal metaphor of her and Jae Eon fixing their relationship as well.
All in all, I just want to say that I really liked the backdrop of art students majoring in sculpturing, it’s a field of visual arts that doesn’t get depicted much – they usually just show someone being good at painting or something. Also to see the students work with their hands so much, not afraid of getting dirty, and also using welding tools and stuff like that, it was really cool. I liked how they showed how Jae Eon made those butterfly accessories for Na Bi during his classes as well. It was just a nice change of scenery from regular series, and I liked that a lot. Also, Na Bi’s final art piece (using metal wings made by Jae Eon) turned out to be incredible and I’m sharing a picture because it deserves recognition.


One last thing I want to discuss before moving on to my cast comments is the cinematography of this series, as they occasionally made some interesting choices in that. Overall I think the cinematography looked really good and clean. There were a lot of beautiful shots and deliberate choices in positioning as well. I remember one episode starting off with a scene of Na Bi and Jae Eon sitting at the bar where they first met, and the entire time they’re sitting with their backs to the camera. We only see parts of their faces when they choose to glance sideways at each other, but other than that we just see their backs body language from the back. I thought it was quite a powerful shot, and they used more unique cinematic angles that made the whole thing stand out a little more than a regular show. There are also a lot of extreme close-up shots of Na Bi and Jae Eon’s eyes and lips as they trace each other’s features, in order to emphasize the building tension between them, and that worked very well.
One thing that stood out to me in particular was that specific people’s faces were kept out of the shot. For example, Na Bi’s toxic ex-boyfriend. We don’t initially see his face, we only ever see Na Bi. He is revealed in full eventually, but I just found it interesting that they deliberately kept his face out of the frame in some cases. I remember the same went for this ex-hook-up of Jae Eon’s – the one who’s brother came out to punch him and ended up pushing Na Bi to the ground. Jae Eon is seen meeting up with her one last time and she apologizes for her brother’s behavior, but her face is deliberately kept out of the frame as well. I wondered what the concrete idea behind this was – in the case of these two people, they were both an ‘ex’ in a way, so would it have to do with the fact that they were literally ‘out of the picture’ by then? I’m not sure, but I noticed it and I assume it was deliberate so I wonder what the thought behind that must’ve been.

Let’s move on the cast comments!

While I know Han So Hee by face, the only other thing I’ve seen her appear in so far has been Abyss, so it was nice to see her in a lead role for the first time. Scratch that, she was actually also in Reunited Worlds and 100 Day Husband, but this was still the first lead role I’ve seen her in. Since Na Bi was so timid by nature, I was kind of scared that she’d become this typical apathic female lead who couldn’t make up her mind or stand up for herself in an unhealthy relationship, but I was pleasantly surprised by how real her performance was. As I mentioned before, I understood every single feeling that Na Bi had, I understood where she was coming from and why she chose to do what she did. I could relate to her feeling like she needed to get away from this situationship for her own good, but it was also relatable how she just couldn’t stop her instinctive attraction towards Jae Eon. I am glad that she eventually chose to be with him after properly thinking it through; it proved that she was brave enough to take a chance on a relationship that she knew didn’t 100% guarantee a happy future. She chose to focus on her present feelings rather than worry about whether it’d hold in the long run, and that was pretty strong of her. She really took her own issues into her own hands, she dealt with her own shit without involving anyone who didn’t have to be involved. She never became pathetic, is what I mean to say. Even though she was timid, she never became weak, even in the moments where everything just came crashing down. I admired her character, even in how she tried so desperately to get away from Jae Eon. She really tried everything she could, and it was only after attempting so many times that she realized she couldn’t let it go. Combining this with her journey through her semester in which she also struggled to keep performing in her art pieces, occasionally losing the joy of it altogether, she definitely had a lot on her plate but she still proved that she could handle it all on her own. I think Han So Hee did a really good job portraying that inner strength that Na Bi had, especially through her facial expressions. She did really well in expressing all the mixed and confused feelings that Na Bi had towards Jae Eon, and she was also very convincing in how she tried to resist him but then still found herself letting go of that restraint. So far her role here has made the biggest impression on me of everything I’ve seen her in so far. I hope I can see more of her as I’d like to see more variety in her acting as well.

I’ve only seen Song Kang before in Love Alarm (and The Liar and His Lover, which I won’t talk about), and his performance here kind of reminded me of that. Honestly, Love Alarm gave me a similar watching experience as Nevertheless,, in a good way. When Jae Eon first appeared, my initial reaction was ‘does this guy just always get cast for red flag male lead roles or what?’, lol. But I have to admit, he was very convincing. Honestly, I would’ve probably fallen for him too, haha. There’s just something about the way he holds a gaze, and the way his lips curl when he smiles that just made me go 🫢🫣😳 throughout the show, lol. I was kind of impressed by how he could hold himself so well without becoming cheesy, he really excelled at exuding that tension that just made you hold your breath. The intimate scenes between the main leads were so satisfying to watch. If it weren’t for their ‘situationship’ it would’ve been like any other cute main couple romantic scene, but at those moments I didn’t even think about their relationship being unconventional or something. In those scenes it really seemed as if they were both equally fond of each other and chose to spend time together because they both craved it. The chemistry between Han So Hee and Song Kang was, I repeat, amazing. It’s been a while since I’ve been this excited about a main couple’s chemistry in a K-Drama. It was less problematic and toxic than I’d anticipated from the reviews I saw before watching it, and as I explained I’m actually not 100% on board with calling Jae Eon a red flag. Still, I’d like to see more of him in which he’s cast as a different type of character for a change. We know now that he pulls off the seductive and confident straightforward type very well, now I want to see other sides of him too. Forecasting Love and Weather is still on my list, and I’m also still debating whether to watch Navillera or not. We’ll see what I’ll watch of him next!

I didn’t know Chae Jong Hyup before this, I haven’t seen anything he’s appeared in so far. I see he’s in See You In My 19th Life, which is definitely on my list. I found him a very interesting casting choice for the second male lead character. Dong Hyuk just seemed so ‘ordinary’ next to Jae Eon, and I found myself wondering from the start if they were even really trying to make it seem like he stood a chance. If they’d pulled a Love Alarm and suddenly made Na Bi decide to go for him instead of Jae Eon, that would’ve been the plot twist of the century, and I don’t think I would’ve liked the ending as much as I do now. As I said, while I can’t deny Do Hyuk’s sweet, kind, caring and considerate nature, that’s pretty much all there was to him, and he lacked that edge and passion that Jae Eon brought to the table. Still, he did his best, and the actor performed well enough. I would’ve maybe liked to see him show some more adventurous sides in his attempts to woo Na Bi, but on the other hand it just would’ve dragged on the ‘love rivalry’ longer than necessary, so I’m actually not complaining about how things went down. I just found him an interesting casting choice for the second male lead and I wish his character would’ve been a bit less ‘flat’, I guess. But it has nothing to do with his acting, he did really well and I would’ve wanted to be friends with him if he’d been real. Not just for his cooking, I swear. 😇

I kept wondering what I recognized Lee Yeol Eum from, but now I see she’s the annoying girl from High Schooler King of Life! I’m not entirely sure why Seol Ah is credited as part of the main cast together with the three main leads, because she definitely wasn’t as big of a character as the others. She felt more like a side character to me, to be honest, because we also don’t really get to know who she is exactly and what she is to Jae Eon. She only tells Na Bi at some point that she’s Jae Eon’s girlfriend, but it doesn’t seem like they’re together anymore romantically when she comes back from the US. They hang out, but they’re never even shown holding hands or being intimate together, so I wasn’t sure what to make of their relationship. I could only appreciate it when she eventually decided to go back and threw away the lighter, that felt like the official sign that she was letting it all go. It was a relief that she didn’t become the typical ‘jealous ex-girlfriend’ towards Na Bi, I really appreciated how they refrained from adding extra drama and involving more people in stuff than necessary. I don’t really know what else to say about her character, I just wish they revealed a bit more about who she was. Other than that, her acting was fine, she was definitely way less annoying than in High Schooler, lol.

Yang Hye Ji looked familiar to me, but I haven’t seen her in anything before. I thought Bit Na was a very refreshing character who kind of ‘led’ the side character group. I loved how edgy she was, both in fashion style and in personality, and it was even nicer to see her develop this more serious side as her relationship with Gyu Hyun developed. As I said, I really enjoyed their dynamic and I also loved how despite her seemingly casual personality, she really cared a lot about Na Bi and her other friends and she was very loyal in that aspect. I also liked how she eventually started rooting for Na Bi and Jae Eon and just kind of went😏when she spotted them stealing glances at each other. She became their #1 supporter, lol. I generally liked how there were more sides to her, and how she balanced being a loyal friend with being an outgoing person without a care in the world. Her relationship with Gyu Hyun definitely forced her out of her habits a bit, but it only made her become more mature and she grew a lot as a person. It made sense for her to end up with someone a bit older and more mature and serious like Gyu Hyun. I liked her performance a lot, she managed to maintain a level of immaturity that never became annoying to me.

Personally, Gyu Hyun is pretty close to my type – I have a weakness for tall, broad-shouldered guys who appear to be kind of cold but who are actually very warm-hearted. Also, his deep voice with the dialect😳… I loved that he was immediately willing to take responsibility for Bit Na, knowing that he was a bit older and that she still had a more immature mindset when it came to dating. I think he did the right thing in trying to let her come to him, and his strategy of distancing himself after she’d made him feel silly about being serious definitely bore fruit. Their relationship dynamic was very original, I felt like they were the couple that no one expected would end up together, even though they eventually admit having been interested in each other from the start. I haven’t seen Kim Min Gwi in anything before either. He has a really unique look, and I wouldn’t be surprised if he was a model or something. Anyways, I liked Gyu Hyun’s character a lot, not just because of my personal preference, but also because he and Bit Na were such an unexpectedly good fit for each other, and I liked that the side characters’ relationships also got established to the extent of me getting invested in them.

Is it me or does Lee Ho Jung have something of Kim Go Eun going on? Especially when she smiles, she really reminds me of her, maybe that’s why she looked a bit familiar to me. Anyways, apart from an appearance in Moon Lovers: Scarlet Heart Ryeo (which I don’t remember) and the movie Midnight Runners (which I don’t remember) I haven’t seen anything with her before. I really liked Sol. I think she was a really good casting fit for the role, and I also liked that she worked with a different kind of sculpturing, using blocks of concrete (I believe?) to make a more abstract work than for example Na Bi. It was nice having different characters with different vibes around in the workshop, and I particularly liked how at ease Sol was with herself. She’d already accepted that she was in love with Ji Wan, and so even when that guy started making advances, it took her a while to even acknowledge what he was trying to do, because she literally didn’t look at anyone else. I thought it was really strong of her to just come out with her feelings to Ji Wan when she did, she didn’t keep it a secret per se, and she also wasn’t scared of how Ji Wan would react. The way she started smiling when she realized Ji Wan had already accepted her feelings but was just worrying about being able to maintain their friendship, was really sweet. I also liked her style, she seemed like a really chill person to be around and she also knew when to be there for her friends and when to keep a distance. The number of times she meaningfully tapped Ji Wan on the shoulder to shut up when she’d run her mouth about Jae Eon when Na Bi was present… Like, I don’t even know if she really understood what was going on between them, but she had enough sense that she knew the topic was sensitive to Na Bi and she supported her friend. I really liked her performance, I hope I can see her in more things in the future!

While Lee Ho Jung reminded me of Kim Go Eun, Yoon Seo Ah occasionally reminded me a bit of Suzy. I’ve only seen her in True Beauty, where she was the younger version of the FL’s older sister, but I don’t really remember her from there. She made a much bigger impact on me in this series, I think it was a really nice showcase for her. Ji Wan isn’t in the same class as Na Bi and the others, but I do think she is enrolled in the same arts programme – I remember her asking Sol to sit for a reference portrait somewhere in the beginning of the series. Through her reaction after seeing Sol with a guy and consistently being disappointed after finding out her friend is not telling her things, like whether or not she’s planning to study abroad, it was clear from the start that she wasn’t just concerned about her as her best friend, there was something more there. In the beginning, I had the feeling that Sol’s feelings towards her were still unrequited, and that she would’ve had to come out to Ji Wan, but then Ji Wan also started acting like that and I was like, ‘well, at least this will make it less dramatic as they’re both already on the same page’. When she initially walked away after Sol’s confession, I was a bit surprised, but I didn’t think it was because she was appalled by the fact that her best friend was in love with her – I had the idea that she was also very aware of her own feelings, but that she still needed to accept them fully before giving her an answer. Turns out, it wasn’t even that, she just became scared of ruining their friendship by overthinking it! I get it! No, but seriously, I was really happy to see a couple consisting of two girls be featured in such an important side story. The only thing I would’ve wanted to see in addition was a kiss between them, because then it would’ve truly felt like they were depicting it as they depicted any of the relationships in the story. But this was a big step in itself, so we’re on the right track. Ji Wan’s pettiness in the beginning, when that guy came with Sol to their campus festival, was the only thing that briefly made me go😖but still it wasn’t enough to really touch my buttons. I still liked her character a lot. It was fun seeing all these new and refreshing characters who all got along so well.

I didn’t even realize I recognized Jung Jae Kwang, but he was one of the patients in It’s Okay to Not Be Okay. I remember him being the alcohol addict who tried to elope with a girl, lol. Anyways, I really liked Gyung Joon’s character, he was such a sincere guy and I loved how he just turned into this caring husband figure to Min Young. In that final episode scene where she ran out to make it to a job interview and he came running after her in his apron, being all like, ‘Min Young, you forgot your sweets! You always start craving sweets when you get nervous!’, that was so precious. They were such an underrated couple, and nothing concluding even happened between them, but I loved their scenes together so much. He was a really nice addition to the supporting cast, I liked him a lot.

Han Eu Ddeum occasionally reminded me a bit of MAMAMOO’s Solar. She’s so pretty! I can’t say I’m surprised that she’s a model. Then again, it was really nice to see this other side of her, the sitting-on-the-couch-eating-snacks-and-farting-while-watching-TV side. I found out I saw her before as the FL’s younger sister in Valid Love, which is from 2014, and she hasn’t done any other drama series in-between that and this.😮 She is in Celebrity, though, and I’m going to watch that one day, so at least I’ll have that to look forward to. I loved how Min Young kept being flustered by Gyung Joon, but she never turned tsundere or pushed him away, she just accepted the natural flow of their developing relationship and she always accepted his gestures of kindness. I would’ve liked to see their relationship come to a fulfilling confirmation, but on the other hand, we can basically assume that they ended up together. I was surprised because I initially didn’t expect these two to get their own love story, but I liked how Min Young suddenly got into that crisis and how this opened up all sorts of possibilities for her that eventually made her realize she wanted to stay at Gyung Joon’s house. They were very sweet together.

I really liked Seo Jae Hee as the professor. I recently saw her in Twenty-Five Twenty-One, where she had a considerably large supporting role, and while I can’t deny the strict type suits her very well, it was nice to see a warmer and more concerned role of her as the students’ professor. I loved how she genuinely worried about Na Bi’s progress, and I think she might’ve even noticed about some side things that her students were dealing with, because she kept telling Na Bi not to let herself get distracted too much, and in the end she told her to just live, laugh and like whoever the hell she wanted, so that was nice. I don’t think her role even had a name, she’s just credited everywhere as ‘Professor’, but she still deserves a shoutout because she was an underdog important character in Na Bi’s journey through her semester.

I also want to give one final shoutout to Yoon Sa Bong for her lovely portrayal of Na Bi’s aunt. I’ve only seen her before as slightly vexing characters, such as in Arthdal Chronicles. I see she’s also credited in a bunch of other series I’ve seen, like Shopping King Louie, Tomorrow With You, Fight For My Way and The Sound of Magic, but most of those I don’t really remember. She made the biggest lingering impression on me in Arthdal, so that’s what I’m basing most of my references on. It was so nice to see her as such a genuinely sweet aunt to Na Bi, it really made me want to hug her. It was nice to see her portray a character type I hadn’t seen of her before, so that was a nice change.

To finish off with some nice guest appearances of favorite actors: Seo Jung Yeon as Jae Eon’s mother, Ahn Se Ha as Do Hyuk’s noodle restaurant chef and Kim Min Gyu as a random guy in the Internet café who made Bit Na realize that Gyu Hyun’s perspective on dating wasn’t actually that crazy. It’s always nice to see familiar faces pop up like that, they always make me go ‘Heeeey I know you 😃😃’. It was nice to see them.

And with that I think I can conclude my review on Nevertheless,. Speaking of the title, by the way, I liked how they consistently incorporated it in every episode title. Every episode title had the same rhythm to it, with the ‘nevertheless…’ part at the end of the sentence, and only the final episode had the ‘nevertheless…’ part at the beginning of the sentence. Episode titles sometimes tend to be quite poetic and ambiguous, but since ‘algoitjiman…’ is such a colloquial phrase in Korean, it made every episode title sound very simple yet straight to the point.
I ended up enjoying this series more than I expected, to be honest. I was prepared to have my heart broken and to be annoyed out of my mind by indecisive youths who couldn’t make up their minds about relationships, but it actually turned out much more edgy and realistic than I’d anticipated. There was next to no unnecessary drama, everyone just dealt with their own stuff while maintaining solid, loyal friendships, and I even ended up debating about the definition of a ‘red flag relationship’. I liked how diverse and relatable all the characters were and how the story shows different kinds of romantic relationships with different types of couple dynamics. Every side story was interesting, everyone contributed something to the story and the series itself, in terms of cinematography, looked really good. I really enjoyed watching it. It was also refreshing to hear youngsters talk about smoking and sex like it’s the most normal thing in the world, and not making it a taboo topic like many series do.

The main story features a very unconventional relationship, and I thought I’d be much more defensive about it, but I actually found myself getting addicted to the main actors’ chemistry. I honestly think I could watch this again when I’m in the mood for something spicy, lol. I can’t help but feel like I have a similar opinion as when I watched Love Alarm – I’ve seen so many negative reviews about how bad the ending is and how it’s even a ‘waste of time’, and I’m like, what are you complaining about now? What’s not to your liking? I was honestly glad that Na Bi and Jae Eon ended up together, as there was literally no other option and their feelings for each other were undeniable, so what’s problematic about them ending up together? I’ll be on the defending team for this drama, that’s all I’m saying.

Now I’m going on to another, long-awaited series that I’m really curious about. It’s from 2019 and it’s going to be a back-to-back episode series, which I haven’t had in a while. I’ll probably be able to finish it within this month, so stay tuned for the next review!

Until then, bye-bee! ^^

The School Nurse Files

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

The School Nurse Files
(보건교사 안은영 / Bogeongyosa Ahn Eun Young / School Nurse Ahn Eun Young)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hello everyone! Again, it’s only been a week since my last review – I swear I’m not picking these dramas out for their length! I had no idea this show would only be 6 episodes, but here we are. Despite the short length, I feel like this will be a hard review to write since the ‘bizarro’ level of this show is so high I am certain that I didn’t understand every single aspect of the story. I can only share the personal thoughts I had while watching it, all the while being aware that I’m probably missing a lot of hidden layers and symbolisms. I’ve read some additional reviews and I found that a lot of people recognized things that I completely missed, so please be aware that I wrote this review while probably not being aware of a lot of things. I hope I can still make it worthwhile because I do want to discuss it. It was a very unique, original, bizarre and absurd experience watching this show. It wasn’t like anything I’ve seen before. I don’t know what I was expecting, but it definitely exceeded my expectations.

The School Nurse Files is a 6-episode Netflix K-Drama, and each episode lasts about 50 minutes. It’s based on a novel with the same title by Jung Se Rang, who also acted as screenwriter for this drama adaptation. The School Nurse Files follows Ahn Eun Young (played by Jung Yoo Mi), who recently started working as the school nurse at Mokryeon High School. Ever since she was born, she has been able to see what she calls ‘Jellies’, jelly-like alien creatures that not only walk, drift and float all around, but that also form between people like sticky goo. She initially describes Jellies as the stuff snails leave behind, and they take on many different forms and substances. I’ve read a couple of reviews to enlighten myself before writing my own, but it’s overall agreed that the Jellies symbolize ‘human emotions’, and mostly ones that are tough to get rid of – sadness, regret, heavy stuff. Eun Young used to be a regular nurse at a hospital, but a family-like friend of hers recommended Mokryeon to her as the Jellies she’d face at a school would at least be a little less serious than the ones she encountered at the hospital, surrounded by loss and grief. Sure, what better place to find exceedingly messy human emotions than in a high school full of teenagers, where hormones run even wilder because of its repressing and conforming nature? Armed with a toy gun and a rainbow-colored plastic sword, Eun Young strives to strike down as many Jellies within the school as she can. We don’t really know for sure if Jellies are good or evil, it’s never specified what they actually do around the premises, but Eun Young is typically depicted running around the school eradicating them with her invented toy weapons. To everyone around her, she’s literally swinging a toy sword at empty air, but since everyone generally thinks of her as ‘weird’, no one even really notices it anymore.
The school where Eun Young works is peculiar in itself. After the founder of the school passed away, the school’s slogan, ‘Laughing Will Bring Good Fortune’ has been passed down by the remaining staff – every morning the principal leads a virtual chant to all students in which they have to praise their own physical health and laugh out loud for 15 seconds straight. There are portraits and paintings of the founder throughout the school, and even a statue of him at the entrance.
One day, Eun Young discovers a weird energy coming from a basement door that’s padlocked – according to the staff only a certain cleaning company that sterilizes the basement once a year has access to it. However, no one has been able to get a hold of that company for a while now, and the basement door has been locked ever since the founder passed away. In the first episode, something coming from that basement leaks through and stings one of the students. Eun Young realizes something bad is happening, and she goes to see the student’s homeroom teacher, Chinese Characters teacher Hong In Pyo (played by Nam Joo Hyuk). Upon meeting him, she is surprised to see that he has some sort of forcefield around him that protects him from the Jellies. He also exudes a kind of energy that enhances Eun Young’s own, and it’s later revealed that when she holds his hand, he literally has the ability to ‘power’ her aura. Despite this power that he’s not even aware of himself, In Pyo has a disability: he hurt his leg in a motorcycle accident and hasn’t been able to walk properly since. Even with his bad leg, he quickly finds himself drawn to Eun Young and starts helping her out even though he isn’t able to see the Jellies himself. Eun Young and In Pyo form a surprising bond in which they try to find solutions to help students that get affected by the Jellies.

As I mentioned in my introduction, while I most definitely missed a lot of markers in this show, that certainly doesn’t mean I wasn’t able to acknowledge and appreciate its originality and out-of-the-box-ness. I found its weirdness refreshing and was immediately impressed by how all the actors took the liberty of portraying the most extreme sides of their characters, from manical laughter and crying to near-psychotic outbursts of other emotions. The tone is undeniably set in the first episode, when half of the students are suddenly turned into zombie-like creatures that try to jump off the school roof to plunge into the mouth of a giant toad-like Jelly monster that’s been hidden below the school grounds.
Throughout the story, Eun Young finds herself having to deal with a whole lot of stuff, including severing a navel cord-like connection that binds two students together, helping a ‘mite-eater’ whose sole purpose of existence is to eat all the negative energy mites in the school become human, and dealing with the death of an old school friend. Through every single event we see that Eun Young just can’t stop herself from helping out everyone as much as she can. In this way, it’s kind of natural that the energy this takes her, just like the energy it takes to constantly take care of people – she’s a nurse, after all – can be incredibly draining and In Pyo becomes her literal charging battery. Despite his own injury, In Pyo doesn’t seem bothered by anything going on in his life, he’s fully accepted his situation and apparently has loads of emotional supportive energy to spare, because he never runs out of power to assist Eun Young.
On the other hand, we find out that there are more people around in the school who can see the Jellies and who are somehow involved in ‘everything’, but who all deal with it differently than Eun Young does. The new English teacher Mackenzie (played by Yoo Tae Oh) even takes to selling Jellies to students to help them in certain situations – he decides to make money out of it and get the students to ‘solve’ their own issues rather than helping them himself. In one episode he helps a boy who’s regularly bullied by a group of guys from his basketball team to get his spot on the team back by giving him new sneakers that are infused with some sort of grass Jelly. Even after finding out Mackenzie’s point of view on the matter, Eun Young can’t see eye to eye with him and his own selfish ways of dealing with the Jellies.

At the base of all things, including the school and the founder -who also happens to be In Pyo’s grandfather, I failed to mention before- is a certain organization called Safe Happiness (abbreviated to HSP in Korean). I still don’t exactly understand what this organization was about, but it gave me major cult vibes. It turns out that Ilgwang Sterilization, the company that’s supposed to clean the school’s basement every year, is part of HSP, and several members of the school staff are part of it as well. Eun Young’s acupuncturist friend is also revealed to be HSP’s leader in the final episode, a plot twist that would’ve made me go🤯🤯 if only I’d had a better understanding of what it all entailed, lol. Honestly, the HSP part was the most confusing to me. In the final episode it’s revealed that In Pyo’s grandfather also used to be a part of HSP, but after he passed away, suddenly the basement became off-limits to HSP. All the members kept saying that they needed Eun Young and In Pyo at the school because they couldn’t enter the school or the basement yet themselves. What was that about? As the company that had been cleaning it every year, why could they suddenly not enter it anymore? Eun Young and In Pyo weren’t even knowingly working for HSP, so why put so much expectation on them? I didn’t completely understand this, so if anyone knows, please enlighten me!

Since it’s a very arthouse-style series with many absurdistic shots and images and very little internal dialogue from the characters, I find it hard to write a character analysis. We only get to know most of the characters from the outside, we don’t learn anything about their childhood or inner battles, or what exactly goes on in anyone’s head. The only information we get about Eun Young’s past is that her parents got divorced because of her psychological Jelly issues, and she hasn’t had a real ‘family’ since, until she met her acupuncturist friend Hwa Soo (Moon So Ri). We don’t know much about our heroine besides that. We only get to see what we get to see, and admittedly, part of this show’s charm is that it’s really up to what you make of it – there are no literal explanations for what’s happening. As I’ve mentioned before, I am someone who doesn’t always penetrate the surface, I really need things spelled out to me or else I’m going to miss things. However, after reading some other reviews and theories, things have started making a bit more sense to me.

Let me start with the school being a symbol for repressed and conformed behavior. It makes sense to me now that this setting was chosen very deliberately. Maybe it’s because I haven’t personally related to high school as such a place from my own experience, but I can see how Mokryeon could be a depiction of a typical school in Korean society, where students are (unknowingly) encouraged to only excel within school grounds, to abide by the rules of ‘being happy’ without actually being given the opportunity to fully express their feelings when it comes to anything other than studying. Laughing Will Bring Good Fortune, but only within the school’s perimeter – they are literally forced to laugh aggressively for 15 seconds every morning before the school day starts. The thing about the laughing becomes more important later in the story, when it’s revealed that whatever’s inside that basement – a hole now blocked by a stone that used to be a pond – is attracted to laughter, and this is also what linked HSP to the whole case. Of course, laughter isn’t only brought forth by happiness. There’s spiteful laughter as well, laughter that results from bullying, laughter that can exclude people as much as include them. The group of students we meet at Mokryeon are definitely in the middle of a very turbulent time in their youths where they yearn for the unusual and crazy rather than the mundane everyday life. When a mite-eater joins them at school, they don’t even blink at their story and immediately accept them into their group – one of the girls even ends up dating them, making way for something even more shocking: a lesbian relationship on the school premises. How scandalous. (In case you missed it, that was sarcasm.)
The students deal with crushes, the pain of one-sided love and rejection, bullying, trying to conform to a union they don’t feel like they can conform to. There are so many messy feelings bubbling up in them, feelings they are not allowed to express in school, feelings that are released in tenfold once the Jellies take over. In the final episode, a literal tidal wave of bad energy comes rushing up from the basement that causes every single student and staff member to lose control over their repressed emotions: they start picking fights with each other and laugh openly at inappropriate jokes and discussions.
Even though the Jellies are supposedly ‘bad human emotions that need to be extinguished’, it’s interesting how some are depicted in such a cute, tiny and harmless form. They’re really just crawling around the school, they’re not actually hurting anyone. It might be just the idea that the school tries to create, that any kind of ‘worldly desire’ is distracting and is therefore labeled as a bad emotion. The emotions themselves just exist, unseen to the common eye, but definitely there. The fact that Eun Young tries to take them all on by herself seems to indicate a losing battle by default, because how can she possibly take on the suppressed raw emotions of an entire school of teenagers? Eun Young finds herself literally bending over backwards in order to help as many people as she can, without ever getting any acknowledgement for it – something Mackenzie also scoffs at her for – but she still does it because she can’t help herself. I liked this one review that referred to the anatomy doll she keeps carrying around the school on her back as a symbol of the literal ‘dead’ weight of her efforts weighing her down without anyone ever thanking her for it.

Eun Young catches a temporary break from it all after the ghost of her dead school friend Kang Sun (played by Choi Joon Young) explodes in front of her and she’s able to witness his death by construction accident in a kind of abstract flashback. From that point on, for some reason she suddenly can’t see the Jellies anymore and it gives her a peace of mind that she never knew before.
All in all, Eun Young has always lived her life considering herself to be ‘weird’ and unable to fit in. She sees Jellies and ghouls and monsters but she can’t explain it to anyone. Her power is an everyday burden to her that she’s reluctantly learned to live with, but once it disappears, she suddenly finds herself in such a peaceful and quiet world that she initially doesn’t even want the power back. When she regains her power in the final episode, her first reaction is to break out in a legit panic attack. Her repressed desire for wanting to be normal comes out abundantly clear in this scene, and it’s heartbreaking to see. It really made me think that she never wanted any of this power but really just dedicated herself to it because it was the only thing she could do to keep helping people, as an empathic human being rather than a nurse. Despite regaining her power only briefly after losing it, she does end up embracing it, and at the same time she also embraces In Pyo as the one person who’s always there to stand by her side and give her support.

To talk a bit more about the relationship between Eun Young and In Pyo, I loved how they basically confirmed the bond between each other without ever verbalizing it. Just by holding hands, it seemed like the two of them grew in confidence, and not just because of In Pyo’s forcefield. I thought it was very interesting to depict such a scrappy-looking, disabled homeroom teacher like In Pyo as an involuntary hero. You could almost say he’s emotionally invincible in contrast to Eun Young, despite the fact that he has to limp for the rest of his life. I really liked how this one review I read talked about his emotional resilience as his super power. Jellies don’t seem to have an effect on people who’ve already completely accepted themselves, quirks and all, and as we can see out of all the people in the school, there’s only so many people who remain unaffected by the Jellies throughout. I liked that they made such a lowkey character like In Pyo the attraction for people who can see the Jellies and how several teachers, including Mackenzie, are physically drawn to him and his energy. While Eun Young initially seems to be taken by him because of his energy as well, she starts finding more excuses to hold his hand and that’s really cute. Despite the fact that I found Eun Young’s thoughts and feelings a bit hard to gauge throughout the show, it was a nice twist that she became a bit greedy and pouty when it came to In Pyo. Without creating a cringy romantic tension, the writers managed to create this solid bond between them that really came through in that one moment in the final episode when In Pyo grabbed Eun Young’s hand while she was having her panic attack – that single moment of silence and realization between them was instantly enough to defeat the threat. The fact that there was this immense dangerous build-up and it was immediately undone by them holding hands was kind of sweet, though slightly anti-climactic.

Halfway through the show, we meet Baek Hye Min (played by Song Hee Joon), a mite-eater who’s been sent to Mokryeon High School purely to extinguish the immense wave of bad energy mites that the school’s been attracting. Looking like a high school girl, Hye Min tells Eun Young they’re actually genderless, and even admits that they’ve never been a woman before. Being a mite-eater, they’re only allowed to exist for the purpose of eating mites, and they’re only allowed to remain with a certain perimeter (in her case, 5,38 kilometers) and they’re not allowed to live longer than the age of 20. As Hye Min starts blending in with the other students at Mokryeon, not only do they find themselves fully accepted, but they even start yearning for a life ‘beyond the mold’, making them fit in even more with the theme of overall conformity. While the students yearn to scream and shout and let it all out but are repressed to do so within school property, Hye Min starts wondering about life beyond their literal restrictions, beyond the 5,38 kilometers, beyond the age of 20. Eun Young eventually decides to help Hye Min out by giving them a stomach removal that will turn them into a human.
Honestly, Hye Min’s story arc was my favorite because it was a chapter that was very clear to me in every aspect, and it was very touching to see to what extent Eun Young related to her – she also saw Hye Min for someone who existed for a purpose they didn’t ask for, longing for a mundane life to explore as they wished. I thought the bond between Eun Young and Hye Min was one of the most touching ones depicted in the story because the connection between them was so heartfelt and relatable. Here I truly felt for the first time how much Eun Young wanted to help her student, even more so because they weren’t even human, and Eun Young also barely felt like a normal human being herself. I thought the depiction of their relationship was really wonderful.

There are a couple of students that appear frequently throughout the story as their encounters with (to them invisible) Jellies cause them to become of interest to Eun Young in one way or another. In the first episode, we meet Oh Seung Gwon (played by Hyun Woo Seok), typified by the little bonnet he always wears on top of his head. He gets stung by something in the first episode and even after getting treated by Eun Young, through him half the school gets zombified. I’m still not entirely sure what happened to him, but he definitely made a strong first impression. Seung Gwon has a crush on a girl named Sung Ah Ra, nicknamed ‘Jellyfish’ (played by Park Hye Eun), who is apparently very popular by other guys in school as well – in the first episode one of the basketball team bully guys is planning a big love confession for her. Ah Ra is one of the students that maintains her sanity during the zombification, and she witnesses first-hand how Eun Young saves the day. After that, she spends a lot of time in the nurse room, even helping Eun Young out with problems regarding other students. Then there’s Jang Rae Di – or ‘Radi’, as her name is derived from the English word ‘radical’. With her characteristically orange-dyed hair, Radi is introduced as an idol trainee who only comes to school every so often. Just like Ah Ra, she quickly becomes accustomed to Eun Young’s ‘line of work’ – she ends up dating Hye Min after they become human and in the final episode she asks Eun Young if she can help out her mother who can see ghosts. Something I found interesting (which now possibly makes sense to me) is that, when all the students were under the influence of the tidal wave in the final episode and looked like they were all sweating pigs, Radi and Hye Min were the only ones not to appear like that. After it’s revealed where Radi’s name comes from and that she even has a tattoo in her neck that says ‘radical behavior’, it suddenly occurred to me that maybe that’s what saved her from the Jellies’ effect in the end? After embracing her own individuality and dating Hye Min even if that meant becoming a laughing stock at school, she didn’t succumb to the effects that the Jellies had on the other students. Maybe this was because by then she’d finally fully embraced her true feelings and chose to break out of the mold together with Hye Min?
Then, there’s Lee Ji Hyung (played by Kwon Ji Woo), the boy who’s bullied by his basketball team mates and receives the ‘magical’ shoes from Mackenzie. In Ji Hyung’s case, his repressed feelings mostly have to do with his suppressed rage towards his bullies. He never openly goes against them, even when they physically abuse him, even after they come back after getting hurt as a result of Ji Hyung’s trick with the Jelly seeds to get back on the team. Ji Hyung is a very mild-mannered boy, but you can see the tension exuding from him. I think he made a very clear example of a different kind of emotion that hung around the school, the emotion of humiliation and frustration – he just couldn’t find it in him to become violent himself but he did take some satisfaction from winning that basketball match because of those new trainers.
Then there’s the two main troublemakers of the class, Heo Wan Soo, nicknamed ‘Lucky’ (played by Shim Dal Gi) and Kang Min Woo, nicknamed ‘Ruckus’ (played by Lee Seok Hyung). Wan Soo always seems to luck out while Min Woo always seems to complicate matters, but still the two are always together. Their connection is proved to be even stronger when Eun Young notices that there’s a navel cord-like Jelly springing from the back of their necks that connects the two of them. Eun Young and In Pyo are ultimately able to make the Jelly disappear by tying the armpit hair of the two – I still don’t understand how exactly this was done – but in the final episode the Jelly returns bigger than ever when the two of them discover the locked basement together. There’s not much explained about their bond or how close they really are and why, but they do get into a lot of mischief together.
Finally, and I just want to mention her because she’s such a peculiar character, there’s Oh Kyung Hwa (played by… Oh Kyung Hwa). She seems to be the girl who always has one-sided crushes and keeps getting heartbroken over them. She has a crush on Ji Hyung throughout the show, but she’s often seen gross-sobbing in the cafeteria over the fact that her crush doesn’t like her back.

All in all I really liked the portrayal of the students, and all the characters in general. In contrast to a regular K-Drama, there was no focus on making people look attractive and this only added to the realism of this surreal show. The skin imperfections, the frizzy hair, the awkwardness in dealing with their emotions and how to present themselves in school or their daily life, every character was flawed in the most human way and it only added to the story. The computer graphics also made some very drastic and occasionally gross-looking changes to the characters’ appearances, and I couldn’t help but respect everyone for even daring to show this side of themselves. There’s this one part where Go Yoon Jung made a guest appearance as the ghost of a girl whose exam seat cushion had been stolen by Wan Soo. She ultimately blew up in size into a larger-than-life sobbing jelly mess before she exploded. Where in a regular K-Drama, she would only be portrayed as the super pretty girl that she is, this show didn’t hold back in completely deforming her appearance through CGI and I couldn’t help but admire them for taking such chances to highlight the multi-dimensionality of their characters, regardless of whether they looked attractive through CGI or not.

One other contrast I want to mention before going on to some more general remarks and my conclusion was the use of recurring animals and symbolisms to refer to the school’s repressive image versus the literal ocean of emotions the students were dealing with. In other words, let’s talk about the ducks. While I knew from the start they must have had some sort of representational meaning, I was still surprised by the matter-of-factly explanation that the ducks merely symbolize the conformative nature of the school. They’re always waddling in a single-file row, following their leader. I remember this one scene where Eun Young and Hye Min were walking away from the school together, followed by the pointing finger of the founder’s statue, and they passed the ducks that were going the other way – as if they literally went in the opposite direction of the conformed mass, and as this was just when they decided to get Hye Min the stomach removal, I think that makes perfect sense now as it was the moment Hye Min decided to break out of their mold.
On the other hand, there’s an immense fluorescent whale (reminiscent of Extraordinary Attorney Woo) floating over the school at night. This ’emotion whale’ seems to be a literal embodiment of the students’ massively surging moods, and this makes even more sense when a literal flood of repressed emotion emerges from the basement in the final episode, like an actual ocean befitting that whale. Or it could be the whale itself, finally letting the water burst out of its back! I find symbolic references and meanings like this absolutely delightful – I just wish I was better at catching them, lol.

I honestly feel like I should rewatch this show in order to improve my understanding of it. If I’d watch it again, even just with the new theories I’ve read, maybe I’d be able to see through the story a bit better. On the other hand, I feel like it also has a lot of references to Korean culture that I simply can’t fully understand as a European person, like the thing with the exam seat cushions and tying Wan Soo’s and Min Woo’s armpit hair. I don’t have enough knowledge of the cultural connotations of the story to understand what these references entail, I freely admit that because it’s the truth.

As reference for my own review – I admit I sometimes read other reviews for inspiration when I have trouble verbalizing my own opinions – I would like to refer to a couple of blogs that give very interesting, detailed and enlightening reviews of this show. Should you want to read more in-depth analyses about hidden meanings and symbolisms that I missed in my review, please check out these reviews:
https://thefangirlverdict.com/2020/12/14/guest-post-the-school-nurse-files-an-alternative-lens/
https://www.dramabeans.com/2020/09/the-school-nurse-files-series-review-part-1/
I find it promising that so many people managed to see the good in this show rather than just brush it off as being way too weird and metaphorical. It definitely deserves an open-minded watch, and sometimes it’s also nice to watch something without trying to put too much meaning to it. It is what you make of it, and I think that’s what can make it so relatable in different ways. It might be an anthem to people who’ve always felt like they didn’t belong, while to others it might feel more like a fever dream. It was definitely a fever dream for me too, but I really tried to concentrate on the message and after educating myself a bit more through other people’s comments, I can definitely recognize several references to contemporary society. I like that it’s so different from a typical K-Drama, as other people have pointed out it definitely suits the Netflix platform very well. I also liked seeing actors that I already knew show completely new sides of their acting, and how everyone really gave their all to make the powerful energy of this show work. It wouldn’t have worked this well without the hysteria, the manicality and the weirdness with which everyone acted. Despite my seemingly lower rating, I enjoyed it a lot. The rating reflects mainly my own lack of full understanding and the fact that I would’ve liked a bit more explanation and closure. There are a lot of things left unsaid and while I can appreciate the charm of the show as it is, I can’t help but feel like I wanted more from it. I really wanted to understand all of it, although I suppose it’s also kind of the point that not everything is explained and dissected.

I liked the music that was used for this show, it really set the series apart from typical K-Drama. The use of eerie sounds and then the Ahn Eun Young-song as a kind of battle theme track heralding the heroine, it really added to the surreal feel of the show and it also stimulated my fascination with what was going to happen next. They created a very engaging soundtrack and I really liked it.
What added to the quirky charm and surreality of the show for me even more was the way in which the episodes were constructed. I think it was a really good choice to refrain from a typical structure, or to ‘conform to the norm’, so to say, but to instead make the events of the story flow into each other in an unpredictable and sometimes even unsettling way. Regular drama series usually have a common storytelling structure in which every episode focusses on a specific character or event, and wraps it up neatly at the end. Here, almost every episode ends in the middle, or right before the climax of the main event Eun Young is dealing with at the time. The arc would be completed in the next episode, and then immediately followed by a new issue which would again, not be solved by the end of the episode. They really keep you hanging, and I found myself going, ‘this cliffhanger is illegal!’ at the end of almost every episode. In my opinion, the quirky nature of the story even came back in the way the episodes were structured, and this also made it very original.

As I mentioned before I found it hard to write proper character analyses for this series, but I will attempt to write a little bit about the main characters as I go through my cast comments.

I’ve only seen Jung Yoo Mi before in the movie Kim Ji Young, Born in 1982. I see she’s more of a movie actress, but she’s done a couple of dramas as well. I will just say that I really liked to see her in such a quirky and unconventional role as Eun Young. Despite being the heroine of the story, she definitely isn’t your mainstream, typical female lead. I have to admit I found her incredibly hard to gauge – every time I thought she was onto what was happening it turned out that she didn’t, and she always needed the help from other people to find a solution for the problem, even though she was the only one who could see the Jellies. In hindsight, the fact that she didn’t always know what to do made her all the more human. It only highlighted the fact that she was no actual superhero, that she was a human being burdened by this peculiar power without knowing everything there was to know about the things she could see. It wasn’t as if having this power her entire life meant that she knew what every single kind of Jelly meant – until the end she didn’t seem to have a clue what they were supposed to be, or even if they were good or bad. She just felt the need to fight them, even if that meant draining her own emotional energy to the max. Despite reading in other people’s reviews about how immensely empathetic Eun Young is, I initially didn’t get that feeling at all. I found her quite socially awkward, not sure how to interact with people or even show them that she cared. I initially didn’t feel as if she personally ‘cared’ as much about everyone at the school, that she was just trying to solve the issue for the general good, but that her empathy towards the students grew throughout the story is undeniable. I think it reached a climax with Hye Min, or even with Kang Sun, even though she didn’t seem that attached to him in the beginning. It literally killed her powers temporarily seeing him pass on, that must mean something. I guess the simple truth about Eun Young is that this strange power of being able to see Jellies everywhere has ostracized her from ‘normal’ people, and that she’s always yearned to be normal, but that she ultimately realizes she can’t escape her fate. She’s a nurse in heart and soul, and in that profession she’s found an invincible need to help people in whatever way she can and she doesn’t even care if she gets credit for it. She’s odd, she’s quirky, she’s manic, she’s lethargic, she’s whimsical, she’s stoic, and somehow she’s all of it at once. I think Jung Yoo Mi did a really good job portraying all those different sides of her, because even though it made Eun Young incredibly hard to gauge, it did make her very relatable as a human being. We’re all messy, we all have different and contradicting sides. It was a very original performance of a very original character.

It was incredibly refreshing to see Nam Joo Hyuk in the role of Hong In Pyo. In the first episode, when he was standing in the back of the class participating in the morning exercise, I just assumed he was another student, I didn’t even realize he was the homeroom teacher. As I saw someone else also point out, seeing him as someone who looked much older than the roles he typically gets cast for was very interesting. We all know Nam Joo Hyuk excels at mild-tempered characters, he just has this easy-going vibe about him which fits him very well, and this is also the case in this show. Despite this characteristic in his acting I found it funny to see him in a permanent state of ‘what the actual fuck’ throughout the story. All the while, his performance was very sincere and it was nice to see how naturally In Pyo accepted Eun Young and her antics, even though he didn’t even know what she was going on about most of the time. I’ve seen Nam Joo Hyuk in a bunch of drama series before, such as Surplus Princess, Who Are You – School 2015, Cheese in the Trap, Moon Lovers: Scarlet Heart Ryeo, Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo, Bride of the Water God, The Light in Your Eyes, Start-Up, and most recently in Twenty-Five Twenty-One. I’ve seen almost everything he’s appeared in so far and I still haven’t tired of him – that says something. He truly showed yet another new and incredibly sincere side to his acting in this drama, and I’ve seen multiple people praise him into the heavens for his performance here. Personally, I’d still like to see him in less typical roles, like Weightlifting Fairy. He always gets cast as these timid and melancholic male lead roles while I know he can also portray much brighter characters. In the case of In Pyo, I think we can all agree that his power lay in his silent resilience, and that was powerful in itself, but in terms of casting, I’m always waiting to see something new of Nam Joo Hyuk rather than what I already know he’s good at.

Yoon Tae Oh seems so familiar to me, but I’ve only seen him as a guest role in Arthdal Chronicles (not that I recognized him from there because he played a Neanthal). I also know of that new movie that recently came out, Past Lives, and I saw him in the trailer. Apart from that I haven’t seen anything he’s done and that baffles me because I could swear I’ve seen him before somewhere. I’m going to watch Love to Hate Me, so at least I know I’m going to see him there, but otherwise… Oh, well. I thought Mackenzie was a very interesting character. His intentions seemed dual, like he was neither a good guy nor a bad guy, but because he stood in opposition to Eun Young we as viewers are kind of led to see him as a bad guy, also because of his relations to HSP. I liked how this series played with the relativity of good and bad, both in people and emotions. It gave the story a kind of flawed judgement that made it even more human and realistic. Despite her own perspective, Eun Young can’t blame Mackenzie for doing with the Jellies what he deems right, just as much as Mackenzie can’t blame Eun Young for trying to do something she deems right. I think Mackenzie was a very interesting opponent for Eun Young. While they don’t literally ‘fight’, their respective mindsets alone set them apart and while challenging ech other’s perspectives, they also learn from each other, even if they don’t necessarily act on it. I think Yoo Tae Oh did very well in maintaining that fine line between making Mackenzie a likeable character or not. It gave his character an edge and unpredictability because you didn’t know what he was going to do next. He certainly didn’t let anyone figure out his next move!

Apparently, Hyun Woo Seok was in Love Alarm, but I don’t remember him from there. He’s only appeared in five dramas and three movies so far, and again I’m surprised because he looks so familiar to me. I guess I’m going to have that with a lot of people from this show. At first he kind of reminded me of Suda Masaki. I thought he suited the show very well. I think the challenge with him is that he is the first student we meet to get entangled in a Jelly-case, and this happens before we are actually properly introduced to him. He sets the tone for the students that are introduced after him, but even though he’s the first one we get to know, we don’t learn much about him. Nevertheless, we still grow to like him and care for him as a character, and I think that’s also something the series did very well – it lets us get attached to these characters without even giving us that much information about them. I think this proved how well the characters were written. Although there’s not much room for character development and analysis throughout the story, the characters are all very distinct and well-established. Seung Gwon was without a doubt one of the characters that I grew to like a lot, he just seemed like a really good guy despite not getting much background story. I also thought his crush on Ah Ra was really sweet. It was funny seeing a seemingly introverted guy like him go into that zombified frenzy, he really went for it and I respect that.

Same story with Park Hye Eun, she looks incredibly familiar to me but when I look at her list I don’t see anything I might know her from. She’s only appeared in two dramas and one movie so far, and there’s one upcoming drama. The School Nurse Files was actually her debut! She fitted in so well in the setting of Mokryeon High, I felt no awkwardness in her acting at all and I think she also embodied the weirdness of the show very well. Seriously, I’ve never seen a show with so many psychotically smiling people in it before, lol. I kept wondering about her nickname ‘Jellyfish’, though. They never explain where it was derived from and it doesn’t necessarily sound like a very positive nickname either, even though half the male student body seemed to have a crush on her. I thought it was interesting that they made her such a popular person at school, she was nothing like the typical ‘school goddess’ one would see in regular K-Dramas. I guess it was her quirkiness that made her stand out, and she was also one of the students who seemed completely at ease with herself – which would explain why she was usually not affected by the Jellies as much as the other students were, with the exception of the final episode when she was definitely being affected (that AIDS-comment to Radi and Hye Min was😬😬). I liked her playfulness and whimsicality in portraying a very typical teenager who didn’t really give a shite about anything. One scene where I really loved her performance was when, in the first episode, she was trying to stop Seung Gwon from throwing himself over the rooftop fence. The way she kept clinging to his leg to stop him from climbing any higher, the way she was bawling her eyes out and begging him to stop. It just showed how much Seung Gwon meant to her even when they weren’t together yet, and I thought that was a very genuine acting performance. Ah Ra doesn’t really show the same level of devotion towards her friends in the rest of the show, not to this intense extent anyways, but I did like how she and Radi naturally accepted Hye Min into their group and immediately bonded with them, looking after them when they got menstrual cramps for the first time and everything. She made me want to know more about Ah Ra.

When Radi first appeared I thought it was Joo Hyun Young, but I guess she and Park Se Jin just look alike? Like most of the cast, Park Se Jin only has a couple of dramas to her name as of yet, including a cameo appearance in Love Alarm which I again don’t remember her from. I thought Radi was a really cool, laid-back character. I remember she was also one of the zombified students in the first episode, but by the final episode it seemed like she stopped feeling the effects of the Jellies, so it was almost like she made a reverse development from Ah Ra, who was fine in the beginning but ended up getting affected like everyone else in the final episode. I didn’t even realize that she would be part of Seung Gwon’s and Ah Ra’s friend group in the beginning, but I liked how casual yet close they all were. There wasn’t any room for more scenes of how she got closer to Hye Min, they just declared they were dating and got laughed at and then Radi jumped at Ah Ra for making that awful remark, but other than that we don’t actually see any romance develop between Radi and Hye Min. I thought it would’ve been nice if they could’ve included a little more of that. Also, the way the show ends with Radi asking Eun Young if she can come by her house because her mom needs help with a bunch of ghosts… that just sounded like the perfect way to tease a second season. I wish we could’ve gotten some more info on Radi as well, she seemed like a really interesting person. Also, I thought they mentioned that she was an idol trainee or something, but then it didn’t come back anymore and now I’m actually not sure if I imagined it😅. Anyways, she was a familiar face, I believe it did come in when they were reporting from the hospital after the zombie-incident and the news reporter recognized her or something. Park Se Jin had this super chill energy about her and I think she embodied Radi’s vibe very well.

Kwon Ji Woo is such a handsome guy! He could easily be a model with those facial features, my goodness. Just like with Park Hye Eun, The School Nurse Files was his debut drama, and he’s only been in five dramas so far. I see he’s also in Youth of May, which is on my watchlist, so at least I’ll see him again there! I liked how all the main male student characters were kind of timid compared to the girls. The scene where his bullies made him trip on that treadmill after putting a plastic bag over his head and he fell so hard that his face started bleeding through the bag… that was really painful to watch. Ji Hyung was such a sweet boy and it was really awful to watch how those guys harassed him. I couldn’t blame him for wanting to get some sort of revenge, and even if he didn’t actually mean for something extreme to happen to those guys, it was very understandable that he felt a kind of fierce triumph. When those guys were gone, he finally got his chance to shine, after all. I symphatized a lot with his character, because even though he did that one thing where he basically eliminated his competition and got back at his bullies without having to face them personally, he never became a bully himself. His personality didn’t change despite that shimmer of vengeance he got, and I think that was really admirable about him, certainly when looking at his reputation as a pushover at school. I’m really curious to see more of Kwon Ji Woo’s acting!

I’ve only seen Shim Dal Gi before as the young version of Lee Jung Eun’s character in Our Blues, but there she also made a big impression on me. Hold on, I see now she was also in IU’s Persona drama! I remember that episode and her character there, although I didn’t really know her as an actress then. She was a really good casting choice for Wan Soo, but also for this drama in general. She really embraced the craziness of the show and she got to show a wide range of variety in her emotional acting as well. In contrast to the actors I’ve mentioned before she’s less of a rookie, with already more than ten dramas and movies to her name. I hope she can keep appearing in dramas, also in more main roles, because I really like her energy and how she doesn’t shy away from going the extra mile when it comes to her using her facial expressions.

Not me realizing I’ve actually seen Lee Seok Hyung in several things before this and I still didn’t recognize him😱The School Nurse Files was his debut drama, but he was also in Lovestruck in the City, Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha and The Sound of Magic! My memory really needs an upgrade… Anyways, I liked his character, and I liked the chemistry between Wan Soo and Min Woo a lot. There wasn’t anything romantic going on between them (Min Woo also had a crush on Ah Ra), they were just really good buddies. Even though Wan Soo was ‘the smart one’ and he was ‘the more clumsy one’, they never fell out or anything. I thought at first that Min Woo would kind of be the class clown, the one who always got scolded for not paying close enough attention, but even within their group of mischief-makers, no one treated him like he was less than the others. I would’ve liked to get a bit more information on how he and Wan Soo got so close, on how they became Lucky and Ruckus, and while I respect that the series in general didn’t focus on background stories, I was really curious about the navel cord-thing. Why were they tied by that thing, how did they manage to temporarily sever it, and how did it suddenly come back after they discovered that basement together? Would the cord remain or would Eun Young sever it for a second time? I wanted to know what it was about their bond that created that thing, so in that sense a little bit more background story would’ve been nice.

This has been Song Hee Joon’s single drama project to date and I am baffled. I have to admit I developed a minor crush on Hye Min, they’re so freaking pretty! Besides this, Song Hee Joon has appeared in two movies, that’s it. Hye Min was my favorite character in the show. I think it’s because their arc was the clearest to me and I found their connection to Eun Young the easiest to understand. I really liked how Song Hee Joon portrayed Hye Min in their innocent and subtle yearning to breaking out of their mite-eater routine. The scene in the final episode where Eun Young and In Pyo finally drove her* past that 5,38km radius point and she* (*changing pronouns here because by this point she had become a female human being) realized that it actually worked was really touching. I liked how in this one review someone talked about how the reason Eun Young related to Hye Min so much was because their desire to break out of the mold went together with an obligation to still keep performing their duty. Right up until their surgery, which they’d been desiring so much, Hye Min still asks Eun Young, ‘What about the school?’ and this is exactly the same thought Eun Young has when she loses her powers. Although she loves not being able to see the Jellies anymore, the feeling that she is the only one to save the school and whatever is going on there never leaves her, and when she gets her powers back she still takes up her plastic sword again, albeit crying with reluctance. I really liked how they made such a clear parallel between these two, and how Hye Min ended up playing a big part in helping Eun Young come to terms with her own true desires as well. I really hope Song Hee Joon can get more acting projects, she was absolutely lovely in this.

I think that I’ve managed to comment on all the actors and characters that I wished to discuss. Of course there are a bunch of other important side characters that I haven’t touched upon as much, but these were the people that stood out to me the most in terms of performance.

All in all, it was a very unique watch and I’m glad I gave it a chance. It most definitely stands apart from ‘regular’ K-Dramas, it’s more edgy and dark with a lot of cussing and gorey stuff like slime and blood in it, but it’s also fun and refreshing, and the animation and special effects are really good. It has an incredible attention to detail in the tiniest placement of objects and construction of shots. By the fact that Jung Se Rang worked on the screenplay I can only assume that the actors were able to get a lot of guidance from the original author on how to interpret the story and the characters.
It would definitely be worth rewatching, even if it’s just to take in the things I learned after finishing it the first time. One time isn’t enough to grasp everything that’s going on, and that in itself makes it very engaging because it proves just how much thought and effort went into it. It’s just not possible to understand everything in one watch. I do have to agree with some other people that I would’ve liked a couple of more episodes, if not a second season. I still feel like there is a lot to uncover in terms of story and character building, and the way the series ended admittedly didn’t give much closure. It only made me feel like there was so much more to the story and I felt bad that it ended there. Besides that, as I also mentioned before, although I appreciate arthouse-style stuff and shows that are a bit more metaphorical and symbolic, I am someone who needs things spelled out to me. I wish it was different, I wish I was able to grasp things immediately the way they’re intended, but I have to admit that I tend to miss a lot of stuff if it’s not made abundantly clear in words or otherwise. That’s why, even after reading a couple of other reviews, I still feel like I didn’t get everything out of it that I could have. This is purely my personal issue which doesn’t have anything to do with the show itself, but it did affect my experience in watching it a little bit. I couldn’t help but feel a lack of closure at the end and with regards to a couple of the storylines. The HSP remained kind of a mystery to me, just like In Pyo’s grandfather’s connection to everything. I could’ve done with a little more, that’s all I’m saying. But it doesn’t take away that the quality of the show and the writing is very impressive. I really love the fact that every shot and every line is deliberate and well thought through. It may be short, but it’s definitely from a different caliber than regular K-Dramas and I mean that in a good way. It highlights the weird and the quirky as a means to adapt to the main character’s struggle with her own ‘abnormality’, but rather than making her feel like the odd one out, the whole show seems to embrace the extraordinary. As In Pyo so aptly summarizes the entire show in the final episode: ‘It’s better to be weird than ordinary.’ To which I can only say: Amen.

To build up the suspense, I’ve hidden a clue within this review as to which drama I’ll be watching next 👀

Until then! x

Gisou Furin

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Gisou Furin
(偽装不倫 / Fake Affair)
MyDramaList rating: 5.5/10

Hello there! Has it been less than a week since my last review? It certainly has, but again, I chose a fairly short drama and I went through it very fast. In all fairness, my impatience to finish this particular drama also had to do with my impatience to just get it over with, as it didn’t take long for me to get incredibly frustrated while watching it. I’ve had my share of typical Japanese drama series, but it’s been a while since I got this agitated during the development of the story. On the other hand, this means that I have a lot to share about it and I’m eager to express my thoughts in this review. Even though my personal criticism on it won’t be that positive per se, I hope I can still make this a worthwhile read.

Gisou Furin is a 10-episode Japanese drama series (episodes lasting about 52 minutes each) which centers around Hama Shoko (played by Watanabe Anne), a 32-year old temp worker who just can’t seem to succeed in finding a suitable marriage partner. She’s been actively participating in so-called ‘marriage hunting activities’ (kekkon katsudou‘konkatsu’ for short) for three years, but it’s become apparent to her that guys just don’t seem to be attracted to her. On the other hand, she’s had to watch how her older sister Yoko (played by Nakama Yukie) traveled the ideal path a woman should: a stable job, a good husband, a steady marriage. Yoko’s husband Yoshizawa Kenji (played by Tanihara Shosuke) is now even living with them at their parents’ house. When Shoko’s current temp contract ends, she decides to give up on konkatsu for good and go on a trip to celebrate this liberation for herself. She enjoys traveling and going on solo trips every so often, and this time her destination is Hakata. She even manages to persuade Yoko to lend her one of her more expensive dresses so she can really get into the self-treating holiday mood. However, when she boards the plane, Shoko finds her sister’s wedding ring tucked inside one of the dress pockets and she accidentally drops it when a piece of luggage hits her on the head. The person who happens to pick it up for her, the person she happens to be sitting next to on the plane, is Banno Jyo (played by Miyazawa Hio). Immediately struck by his handsome appearance and still fuzzy from the hit on her head, Shoko thoughtlessly confirms that the wedding ring is her own, leaving Jyo to believe that she is married. As it was his luggage that hit her, Jyo offers to take her out for dinner at Hakata as a way of apologizing. He is originally from Hakata, and he knows his way around the place, so he offers to show her around. By nightfall, things escalate even further and before Shoko knows it, Jyo suddenly asks her if she’s up for having an affair with him, just for the duration of that short holiday.
Just to give a little more context to the situation in which the story is set, it’s a period in which the news is overflowing with cases of the so-called ‘affair boom’, in which many scandalous affairs amongst celebrities are revealed. It seems to have become a trend for married people to have affairs, and this is also something that Jyo refers to when he asks Shoko the same thing. Of course, we know that Shoko isn’t doing anything wrong – she’s not actually married, so she doesn’t have anything to feel bad about. However, in the spur of the moment, Shoko decides to keep up the lie and goes along with his proposal. They spend the night together. Shoko initially thinks that Jyo is just looking for some fun, and that’s why she tries not to feel too guilty about lying. During their last night together, she takes off her sister’s wedding ring and in the rush of catching her flight early the next morning, she forgets it in the hotel room.
In the meantime, Yoko, Shoko’s 37-year old sister who is so seemingly happily married, is facing a situation of her own. Turns out, she is having an actual affair herself, with a boy 14 years younger than her. Yagami Futa (played by Seto Toshiki) is a 23-year old aspiring boxer with bright pink hair who’s managed to provide Yoko with a sense of youthful freedom that she doesn’t feel in her marriage with Kenji. However, as she doesn’t intend to divorce Kenji, Yoko is keeping up appearances. That is, until Kenji starts noticing she’s not wearing her wedding ring all the time, and she also keeps postponing and last-minute cancelling their plans together.
Initially Shoko is forced to get back in touch with Jyo after losing her sister’s wedding ring. The two sisters find themselves in new predicaments as their situations start getting intertwined more and more. As Shoko’s relationship with Jyo becomes more serious and she finds herself trapped within her own lie more and more, Yoko starts asking for her sister’s help in covering up her affair more often, all the while invoking more and more suspicion with her husband Kenji. As it turns out, literally no one’s life is what it seems, everyone has their own objectives and reasons for their actions, and seemingly decent relationships are revealed to have less ideal hidden layers.

One thing that I want to admit I found good about this show was that it dealt with the relativity of relationships. Nothing was as perfect as it seemed from the outside, and it sure made me change my mind about several characters throughout the show. For example, while I initially judged Yoko for constantly sneaking out of her engagements with Kenji, I did come to understand her point of view when she eventually explained her attraction to Futa, and while I constantly felt sorry for Kenji, his objective to marry Yoko was also put in perspective. While I was initially against Yoko’s relationship with Futa, I did come to see that Futa was kind of a victim in the whole situation as well, as Yoko had also been lying to him from the start. It just proved that every person’s story had a double side to it. Shoko is the main character so we’re primarily shown her story and her thoughts on everything, but the other characters’ truths all take a while to come out, and once everything was out in the open it definitely helped me understand everyone’s situation better. This doesn’t mean I agreed with the way most people chose to deal with their issues, but I’m glad they at least managed to come out with everyone’s truths at the end of the show, for better or for worse.

A couple of things that I hated (yes, I used that word) about the show is that it incorporated a couple of my least favorite tropes into one series, making things actually go from bad to worse throughout the story. The trope in which a lie gets bigger and bigger, the trope where the main leads don’t communicate properly and where one just pushes the other away harshly to ‘protect’ them, the trope of a terminal illness and on top of that, (faked) amnesia. Seriously, whenever I thought things couldn’t get worse, another one of these tropes would present itself to make me go, ‘you know what, never mind’. I was almost constantly frustrated about Shoko’s inability to own up to her lie, the way it kept being postponed for no reason, and the way it took people so long to come out with their honest feelings. Especially in Jyo’s case, his tendency to not even talk to Shoko, to just jump to conclusions and give up and run away so easily without telling anyone anything were all major red flags to me.
I have to admit that I had a really hard time feeling any real chemistry between the two leads, as every single thing that happened between them was kind of problematic and even when they finally managed to see eye to eye and Shoko managed to convince Jyo that he needed to stop lying and running away, it was all wrapped up conveniently easy and I just didn’t feel it.

In the first part of the first episode, I really liked Shoko’s personality. She seemed like a very individualistic woman who accepted that finding a marriage partner and living life the way society expects her to isn’t for her. I thought the fact that she chose to go on a trip to celebrate giving up on marriage hunting was very characteristic of her, especially because traveling is established as something she often does to take her mind off things. I immediately rooted for her to find her own happiness, with or without a guy. However, as soon as she meets Jyo, it’s like her personality changes completely. She immediately starts acting like a helpless damsel in front of a handsome guy. While she tries to convince herself that this is her own decision, that she’s just going to pretend she’s married and enjoy this fake affair for the duration of this trip, I couldn’t really see this reflected in her behavior. To me it seemed like she just became super antsy and stiff. Rather than taking control of her own life and owning up to her self-made decision, it was more like she couldn’t stop herself from getting pulled in this specific direction.
In all honesty, they only met each other that same day, and Jyo was only showing her a very generic type of kindness. I felt like Shoko just kept blaming everything on that bump she got on her head, and the truth was that she immediately wanted to believe they shared some kind of destiny. After all, while three years of marriage hunting in which she’d always been completely honest about herself didn’t work out, one accidental encounter resulting in a lie about her marital status led her to this instantly successful romantic connection. She couldn’t stop romanticizing even if she tried. On top of that, she also finds out that their names are both similar to the names of the main characters in this book called “Night on the Galactic Railroad”, about two friends who travel together in search of true happiness. It all inevitably makes Shoko expect things, and while I couldn’t fully blame her for that, I still don’t think she handled it very well. After meeting again in Tokyo and getting her sister’s ring back from him, Shoko finds herself unwillingly continuing the lie of being married. That is, she actually wants to tell him the truth, and she tries to bring it up multiple times, but it’s always either the wrong timing or an interruption that keeps her from confessing that she’s actually single. It all becomes even more complicated when she makes Jyo believe that Kenji is her husband, and all the while she’s being involved in her sister’s affair as well. It just becomes very messy, and it leads to a lot of misunderstandings that aren’t communicated properly.
Needless to say (but still saying it), the continuous lying and postponement of honesty amongst all the characters formed the main cause of my consistent frustration while watching this series. While I initially liked Shoko’s personality and the way the show started, the story becomes increasingly tedious as she continues with her lies. It’s not just that she kept lying for no solid reason, but the thing that annoyed me the most was that she literally had every opportunity to tell Jyo the truth. She was able to tell him on every single occasion they were together, but for some reason she kept tricking herself into believing she continuously missed her chance. Admittedly, she kept being interrupted whenever she tried to bring it up, but if she really wanted to say it she should’ve just interrupted the interruption. She could’ve just been like, ‘NO, I promised myself I would tell him, I still have to say it’. Instead she’d just go, ‘whelp, missed my chance again’ after every single minor interruption. While I get that it became harder for her to say anything as time went by and the lie became bigger and bigger, she should have still told him. She kept making excuses for herself for not being able to tell him while there was literally no reason to lie. The truth needed to come out sooner or later, and I just couldn’t help but feel annoyed by how she kept putting it off.
I was also confused about the inconsistency of Shoko’s personality. Even though she seemed so determined and liberated in the beginning, her behavior sometimes just changed randomly and I couldn’t put my finger on it. For example, there’s this one time when she’s with Jyo in Asakusa and a group of tourists asks her to guide them around Kaminarimon. There she suddenly reveals herself to be an amazing tour guide, just like that, she’s immediately like, ‘Sure! Let’s go!’ Same goes for when she helps out at Jyo’s sister’s restaurant at some point. She suddenly just starts waiting tables and showing this super social and hospitable side of herself. In my opinion these moments stood in stark contrast with how she acted while she was at home or when she was with Jyo. There, she constantly acted like she was a victim of her situation, she was always driving herself crazy and overthinking every single thing, deeming herself to be incapable of anything useful both in terms of work and romance. Usually, discovering this kind of social skill would serve as a plot tool for a character to realize something they’re good at, ultimately leading to finding a successful career for themselves. But even this didn’t happen. The fact that she just randomly happened to be good at spontaneously helping people out wasn’t linked to anything else in the series, and it also didn’t make her realize a new side of herself or anything, so it just seemed random to me. Despite initially seeming so determined on living her own life, it was also interesting to see how much of a pushover she actually turned out to be. She kept going along with whatever Yoko asked of her to keep her affair a secret. She’d be like, ‘No, I’m not doing this anymore, sis!’ and then still accepted 10,000 yen to help out. Like, seriously? Also, in terms of her dynamic with Jyo, I will say more about this later but I actually didn’t think she looked comfortable around him at all. I didn’t really feel any chemistry between them, which was strange considering that they actually sleep with each other a couple of times, starting with that time in Hakata. You would think sleeping with someone would make you feel more comfortable around them, but in their case it really didn’t do anything in terms of improving their communication. Shoko kept feeling immensely insecure and antsy, she’d overthink it whenever Jyo wouldn’t immediately respond to her texts, and she definitely didn’t look like someone who was confident in her relationship at all, even after Jyo had already told her he was in love with her.

Speaking of Jyo, I have a lot to say about him, and not much of it is positive. We meet him as this seemingly nice, handsome young man on the plane, and his request to have an affair during their holiday definitely makes for a major ‘well, that escalated quickly’ situation. He reveals himself to be a photographer who’s lived in Spain for a long time, and now he’s back in Japan to visit his family there. Throughout the time he spends with Shoko, from her point of view he just seems like the most nice and decent perfect guy. Everything he says seems to come straight from a fairytale, he’s almost unbelievably ideal.
Of course, it doesn’t take long for us to learn that Jyo too has something to hide, and that something is a terminal illness. In Spain, his doctor diagnosed him with a malignant brain tumor, and as the surgery is very risky, Jyo has decided to give up on undergoing it and instead enjoy his remaining time back in Japan without ever telling anyone about it, including his older sister Akari (played by Yamano Megumi). Even though his doctor in Japan encourages him to inform his family of the seriousness of his condition, he chooses not to and he also asks his doctor to keep it a secret from his family.
It’s eventually revealed that as a part of Jyo’s plan to spend his remaining time making up for whatever he still had on his bucket list, he also decided it would be nice to have a final love. Within a world of booming marital affairs, he comes to think it would be ideal to have an affair with a married woman, because when he’d have to go, at least she would have someone to go back to. Even after he starts falling for Shoko for real, this plan of his remains very solid. Despite his growing love for her, he keeps pushing her away when his situation worsens, he never tells her about his condition and he keeps making decisions about what’s best for her without actually communicating with her directly. All the while, his dizzy spells worsen and he keeps collapsing and all the while he keeps lying to everyone that it’s just anemia.
Akari appears to be Jyo’s only present relative and she truly cares a lot about her younger brother. I was seriously glad that Akari was there, because she was one of the only characters who called people out on their BS and who saw the craziness of the whole situation for what it was. I was honestly so glad when she scolded Jyo after she’d found out about his condition – thank god for the doctor who didn’t feel it was right to keep quiet about it. I remember I talked about this before in my review on About Time, but it just really annoys me when people who know they’re going to die don’t even rely on their family members and friends, only because they ‘don’t want them to worry’. Like, are you kidding me? Isn’t that what your family and friends are for? They’re gonna worry if you just die one day unexpectedly, so why aren’t you thinking of what your condition means to them? I just can’t understand how people can be so selfish in trying to appear noble by not telling their loved ones that they’re seriously sick. Maybe it’s easy for me to say as I’ve never been in a similar situation, but it just annoyed me that Jyo kept lying about his condition, and especially how he kept pushing Shoko away and breaking her heart even when she finally managed to tell him the truth about her pretense. Just like with my most hated tropes piling up, the same went for Jyo: just when I thought he couldn’t get any worse, he just kept making another decision that made me go 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️. He kept jumping to conclusions about what was best for Shoko without directly talking to her, he kept doing stuff ‘in her interest’ while never even considering what she might have wanted, and it was very irritating. He just became a major red flag to me, and at some point I even found myself thinking that Shoko should just get over him. Honestly, that Todo guy who expressed interest in her in the final episodes seemed like a really great guy, and she also seemed much more comfortable around him, so I didn’t understand why she’d still go for Jyo after everything he put her through. Seriously, Jyo is as ambiguous as Shoko about his initial feelings for her. When he hears about Shoko’s pretense from Akari, he’s not even mad and immediately acknowledges that she must have had a reason for it, and then when Shoko finally finds the courage to tell him the truth, and he knows how hard this is for her, he literally goes, ‘yeah sorry no I was just having fun, bye now’. Even though he tells other people he left her behind to take a chance on that surgery so he could still be with her, like, why would he then break her heart like that? And then after she comes to him again, rejecting Todo and a new possible chance at happiness, he has the audacity to lie to her face AGAIN that he doesn’t remember her as a side effect of his surgery. The guy was a complete mess and I couldn’t find it in myself to feel for him. Like, why was he continuously not allowing himself to be with Shoko even though he told everyone else that he loved her so much? The lying just took on bizarre proportions and it was all so meaningless that it stopped making sense to me at some point. Shoko had to literally corner him at the airport because he was trying to sneak away to Spain again, and only after hearing some basic encouragement from her, he was like ‘okay you’re right let’s be together😀’ Like… I don’t even have words for how idiotic this was.

So yeah, I did not feel the chemistry between the main leads at all. It didn’t feel to me as if Shoko could be herself when she was with Jyo, and for some reason this kept going against what she herself was saying. It was like she kept defending her love for Jyo time and time again, but in their actual scenes together, it didn’t seem like she felt even physically comfortable around him. Even their kisses and supposedly ‘passionate’ nights together were super stiff and dry, and they definitely didn’t give off the vibes of a couple that had slept together multiple times. It just felt off. In Jyo’s case, I consistently found him stiff and apathetic. He was always just standing there with the same exact look in his eyes, and only the occasional sweet smile. I didn’t feel any personality from him, and that’s why it was even harder to pinpoint where his decisions kept coming from. In a story that emphasizes a relationship built on a lie, and two people falling for each other despite their misconceptions, I would’ve liked to at least get some more ‘feeling’ from the main leads, and the lack of communication again proved to be a major annoyance.

Let’s switch to Yoko’s story now. Yoko is five years older than Shoko, and she’s basically the embodiment of a woman who’s done everything by the book. She graduated with the highest marks, she got a good job, met a nice man who even agreed to live with her at her parents’ house and who gets along well with the rest of her family. Kenji seems to be the perfect husband and son-in-law, he cares for Yoko a lot, always makes time to eat together, he makes sure he doesn’t have to work until too late, etc. Their correspondences always show that they are very gallant and patient with each other. Almost a little too much.
When Shoko first learns of her sister’s affair and Yoko starts trying to get Shoko to assist her in getting out of plans with Kenji, I really judged Yoko for doing so. I thought that she wasn’t dealing with her own issues well enough, and she was making it very obvious. I couldn’t blame Kenji for getting suspicious. Especially when it became super obvious that she was trying to get out of having a simple dinner on her wedding anniversary, which was supposed to be a simple engagement that would keep up the pretense of her successful marriage. I was surprised that she even tried to get out of that. It just made me feel sorry for Kenji, because it didn’t seem like he was a bad person and he appeared to love his wife very much. He always smiled when she sent him a text, he was constantly telling people at work about her and he kept making effort to leave work early so that they could at least have dinner together. This was only strengthened by the fact that I personally felt very uncomfortable with the age gap between Yoko and Futa. Futa was such a young kid and I wondered if Yoko was actually willing to give up her marriage for this boy.
I honestly found it quite inapproppriate of Yoko to keep asking Shoko to help her out – even if she wasn’t able to keep it under wraps by herself it was still her own problem and Shoko already had enough lies of her own to deal with, which Yoko was aware of as well. Yet she never offered to be of any help to Shoko’s situation. At least Shoko tried to deal with her own issues without involving anyone else. Shoko righteously didn’t want any part in her sister’s affair, she also had a good relationship with Kenji and it was low of Yoko to try and bribe her into going all sorts of places just so she could keep lying to Kenji. Shoko naturally felt bad towards Kenji and kept urging her sister to break it off with ‘pink-head’. As a grown woman who was knowingly having an affair for a while already, I thought Yoko must’ve had a clearer idea of what she was doing and how she had to keep her story going without having to ask people to jump in for her.
It takes a while before Yoko reveals the entire truth about her marriage to Shoko, and only then do we understand her reasons for yearning for something that actually makes her happy inside. This actually brings me to another topic of which I’m glad this show addressed it: the fact that in Japanese society, marriage is viewed as an unmissable step in a person’s life plan. The marriage between Yoko and Kenji went by the book, they basically picked each other based on their qualifications and they checked all the boxes. They got married within a year of meeting, and while they haven’t even spent much time as a couple yet, Kenji already starts pushing Yoko on the topic of ‘children’. When she asked to first spend some quality time together as a couple, he only agreed to that as an additional step in their life plan. For Yoko, there never seemed to be any love involved from his side, he was just going through his plan step-by-step. Of course, it’s more than understandable that Yoko felt uncomfortable having children in that situation. It would purely be for the sake of reproduction and heritage, not a decision made out of love. On the other hand, I still couldn’t understand why she found an ideal alternative in Futa, of all people. I get that she was charmed by how hard he was training and making his way with his own bare hands rather than following a path that was laid out for him, but in practical terms, he really was still a kid. It reminded me a lot of the relationship between the leads in Hajimete Koi wo Shita Hi ni Yomu Hanashi (where the boy also had pink hair, by the way – what is up with that?).
This is just my personal opinion, but even in their scenes together it felt more as if Yoko was expressing a kind of motherly affection to him – I think there was one scene in the beginning where they met up at a hotel but I couldn’t even begin to visualize them in bed together, it just felt weird. They didn’t even express any intimacy except a few hugs, and it was all really decent and friendly. Also, to make matters even more complicated, Yoko doesn’t even tell Futa that she’s married. While Futa is getting excited about his ‘unproblematic’ relationship with an older woman, he unknowingly becomes a pawn in the whole affair as well.

By the way, I think there was a major hole in the cover-up plan that Yoko and Shoko were trying to hold up. They were so caught up in not getting caught with ‘the other person’ themselves that they seemed to forget about the fact that the guys they were trying to fool also walked around the same city every day. Kenji and Jyo could’ve easily met by chance and they would recognize each other from when Jyo and Shoko were supposed to go to Hanamaki together. They could’ve started talking and the whole truth could’ve come out. Just like how Shoko accidentally let it slip to Futa that Yoko was married, just like Kenji just went over to Futa as soon as he learned about where he was training. The fact that the sisters didn’t even consider that possibility was kind of a plot hole.

When it came to Kenji, in the end I still felt that it was a bit unfair to him. Even if his main objective was to keep going by the book to fulfill his life plan, I still believed he must have loved Yoko. He wouldn’t have gone as far as he did to keep their marriage going if he didn’t really love her. I think this proved to be true when looking at how they eventually decided to part ways, but also through the fact that Kenji went as far as to challenge Futa to an actual boxing match. For a grown established businessman to literally resort to fighting a boy half his age to defend his marriage surely must have meant something. I kind of liked that he remained a good person, in hindsight. They could’ve made him into a secretly evil tyrant who was abusing Yoko or blackmailing her into doing stuff she didn’t want, but that wasn’t the case. I liked the dynamic between Yoko and Kenji because they were both aware of the other’s objective, and when push came to shove they were able to end things on a friendly note. Kenji reflected on how he’d dismissed the signs that Yoko was drifting away from him, and Yoko reflected on how she’d hurt his feelings. Despite not wanting to continue her marriage with him, she still cared for him, and I think this proved their bond to be quite strong, even if there was no true love between them.

Finally, I want to talk about the handful of people that didn’t annoy me in this show. First of all, Akari. I don’t exactly know what the siblings’ linkage to Spain was, but while Jyo was living there as a photographer, Akari started running a Spanish restaurant in Tokyo, with paella as the main featured dish. I also found it interesting that they both saved each other’s names on their phones written in the Roman alphabet. I guess they must have both experienced life in a foreign country and gotten used to the familiarity of that? Anyways, despite the two siblings living completely seperately from each other, they care for each other a lot. There isn’t anything revealed about their parents, but Akari is definitely a caring older sister to Jyo. When his complicated affair with Shoko becomes known to her, her first instinct is to disapprove of it. There is this moment where Shoko ‘accidentally’ sends Jyo a text message in which she confesses that she’s single. Akari spots the message before Jyo, and while I initially got mad at Akari for deleting the message, I did like how she truthfully told Shoko what she’d done. In hindsight I think it was for the better that she deleted the message, because it was just after Jyo had told her about his initial reason for approaching Shoko and also it really wasn’t something that should be confessed through a text message. At least Akari was honest, and I’m not even mad at her for exposing Shoko’s lie to Jyo before Shoko got the chance to do it herself – it was taking her way too long already. Once Akari realized that Shoko was single, she didn’t even object to their relationship. She could see for herself that the two liked each other and in her (rightful) view, there was literally nothing that stood in their way. And then, when all the misconceptions finally seemed to be tackled, Jyo still started making everything more complicated than it needed to be. Seriously, I still can’t believe that he wouldn’t tell his sister about his illness. I really loved it when Akari went all, ‘you don’t get to decide how I feel about your situation, what the heck were you thinking keeping this from me?!’ on him.
In connection to Akari, I also really liked Dr. Ichinose Takami (played by Mashima Hidekazu), Jyo’s doctor. I liked that at least he had a conscience and couldn’t keep Jyo’s condition a secret from his closest relatives, because it just wasn’t right. I liked how he just deducted that Jyo didn’t know what was best for him, because it really seemed like he didn’t. It was also funny how Akari developed a crush on him, I kind of wanted them to end up together.
I also liked Shoko’s friend and co-temp worker Yamada Masako (played by Tanaka Michiko). Shoko really needed a friend who went through the motions with her, and Masako was the voice of reason when Shoko was making an absolute mess of things. She was always thinking in Shoko’s best interest and kept supporting her even though she was also her own person with her own life. Like Shoko, she’d been trying to find a marriage partner through konkatsu for a long time, but she kept trying until she found someone and I liked how she was always really bright and energetic – her energy really contrasted Shoko’s at times, even though they were still pretty close and got along very well.
Lastly, I just want to devote a few words to Todo Hajime (played by Kiriyama Ren). When he entered the scene I really went, ‘Yay! Finally a green flag guy!’ Although of course I knew he wouldn’t stand a chance in winning Shoko’s affection, I really wished she would’ve given him a chance. He showed so much genuine interest in her personality, while the only reason Jyo gave her when she initially asked him, ‘Why me?’ was, ‘Cause you’re beautiful’. I also thought his response to her rejection was a major green flag. He actually ended up advising her on what to do about the Jyo situation and he made her laugh by doing the funny faces and I was like, ‘Yooo, forget about photo-guy, get yourself a guy like this’.

Before I move on to my cast comments and conclusion, I just wanted to write a bit more on the topic of ‘affairs’. I’ve already covered the topic before in my review of Valid Love, but I remember I thought about it a lot after seeing the Japanese drama Hirugao as well. I think there is something relative about the concept of having an affair. First of all, when dramas depict ‘affairs’, I don’t always find it clear what that entails exactly. What, for example, is the difference between having an affair and two-timing? What is the difference between having an affair and cheating on someone? To me personally, having an affair is when you are married, but you’re seeing someone else in secret on the side. Your relationship with the side person might not be as serious as your marriage, but you might get something out of it that your marriage doesn’t provide you with. People can start affairs for many reasons, like a need for physical intimacy or just to feel something else, to escape from their ‘designated life plan’. In any case, in my opinion an affair has to consist of at least some romantic and sexual element. If all you do is meet up with someone to talk over a cup of coffee, I don’t see that as having an affair. An affair is kept secret for a reason, it can’t be found out or there will be trouble. That’s why it has such a scandalous connotation. If you find yourself falling in love with someone else while you’re married, rather than start an affair I personally think it’s best to figure out for yourself what it is you truly want and cause as little drama as necessary in the way you choose to deal with it. As I’ve mentioned many times before, you can’t control your feelings. People shouldn’t get to blame each other for the fact that their feelings change, but creating a secret around it and lying about it does give people the right to get angry. I personally feel like, if you’re able to deal with the situation on your own, no matter what the consequences are, your choices can be justified. But I think what bothered me about Yoko’s situation was that, while she initially seemed really self-assured of what she was doing, at some point it started to feel like she didn’t have the situation in hand at all. I mean, in the beginning she kept saying that she didn’t intend on divorcing Kenji, but would she have gone so far as to actually give birth for him? How far was she willing to take her marriage in order to cover up her affair? She also lied to Futa about not being married, giving him hope. I just couldn’t fathom how she ultimately placed more expectation in a relationship with a kid than in her own marriage. Futa was only 23, he was still in the bloom of his youth, his preferences and tastes could still change, who knows how long their relationship would last? It’s not like I wanted Yoko to continue in a marriage that she didn’t feel happy in, but to make ‘the other guy’ such a young and naive boy kind of rubbed me the wrong way, I guess. The way she doted on him made me feel like he was her favorite nephew or something. I’m not gonna lie, it was cute how they talked about him catching her when she dared to jump and how she hugged him when she finally decided to live with him, but all in all it made me feel a little icky.

In the end, I actually found myself disagreeing with all of the main characters’ relationships. Jyo in particular was a major red flag to me, but I found everyone at least slightly problematic in their ways of dealing with their own problems. I didn’t feel any chemistry between anyone, and it was as if everyone was constantly saying that they were in love but I didn’t actually feel it. I’d really been hoping for a cute love story, but I ended up spending too much time cursing Shoko for not growing a spine. I really hated how she kept telling herself she missed her chance when she could literally call Jyo up at any time to tell him or ask him to meet up or whatever. It just went on for too long and it became really tedious. When she finally told him face to face, the effect was kind of gone because Jyo already knew the truth, but then my frustration switched to Jyo when he started lying again. After finally resolving that big lie that their whole relationship was based on, he still continued to lie. In the end, he lied more than Shoko did during the entire duration of their ‘relationship’ and I genuinely had the urge to punch him in the face on several occasions. What saved the series for me were the side characters like Akari and Masako, and the fact that the story was based on the Japanese societal norm of that marriage is an accomplishment in life. Going by that ‘affair boom’, this clearly did not prove to hold well with many married couples, and I think that’s definitely important to keep in mind. Marriage doesn’t equal or guarantee happiness.

I think I’ve gone through all my main criticisms of this story and the characters, so I’m going to discuss the cast now. There were quite some familiar faces, but also some people I hadn’t seen before.
I realize that I haven’t actually seen Anne in anything before, but I definitely know her by name and face. She’s the daughter of Watanabe Ken, I never actually realized that. Anyways, it was interesting seeing her in a lead role, and I really wish I could’ve kept liking her performance as much as I did in the first half of the first episode. From the start I really liked her expressions, but as her character plot was dragged out I kept getting annoyed by her behavior more and more. She couldn’t even keep a straight face when she was trying to cover up for her sister, and honestly I was surprised Kenji didn’t bust her much sooner. Whenever she ran into Kenji or Futa and they asked her something about Yoko, she became this super angsty, shifty-eyed mess. She could’ve at least tried to come up with something that would make her less suspicous. Anyway, I’m only assuming Anne just did what the director told her to do and what the script said so maybe I shouldn’t be too harsh on her, but at some point the exaggerated expressions just weren’t funny to me anymore. I wanted her to show more spine and determination, like she’d done in the very beginning. Her portrayal of Shoko made me think of her as passive. When she ultimately came out with the truth she conveyed her feelings so well, so why did she have to drag it out for so long? I didn’t like how she kept making excuses for herself, constantly being like ‘I want to tell him, but…’ NO. If she really wanted to tell him she would’ve done so already. It’s not rocket science. I wish she could’ve focussed more on acting from within and not just rely on exaggerated expressions and dramatic gestures, because her character’s situation really wasn’t as dramatic as she made it out to be.

I was really disappointed by Miyazawa Hio’s performance in this show. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him perform so weakly in a series before. I’ve seen him before in Todome no Kiss and Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu and he still needs to prove to me that he’s more than just a pretty face. In all honesty, and I feel slightly bad about saying this, but there really wasn’t much more to his character than his handsomeness in this series. I felt Jyo severely lacked any kind of personality, and sometimes he was literally just standing there, like a game character in idle mode, without any kind of expression, just staring blankly ahead. His performed feelings towards his co-star didn’t feel real to me at all, I think the couple lacked chemistry in all aspects. The hug they gave each other in the final episode just felt like two friends hugging, I didn’t feel any romantic tension between them, even when they were pressing lips together. So yeah, that was a bit of a bummer.

As soon as Nakama Yukie appeared on screen I squealed, haha. One of the first Japanese dramas I watched was the Gokusen series, and it feels like ages since I’ve seen her appear in something else. I love Nakama Yukie and I think she’s absolutely gorgeous. Apart from the fact that I had trouble relating to her character, I did think she portrayed the layers of emotions and feelings that Yoko was struggling with pretty well. She also stuck to the same kind of expression throughout the series, but I liked that eventually her side of the story allowed me to relate to her more. Despite using her younger sister in her antics, I feel like Yoko was able to reflect on herself very well and I liked how at least she ended up wrapping things up with Kenji. I felt that despite their mutual ‘love’, it felt like they were comfortable around each other, and they even addressed each other by their first names without any suffixes, which I don’t think is very common among married couples per se. As I said, I also didn’t really feel her romantic chemistry with Futa (the age gap is basically the same between the actors as their characters so I can understand if that must have made things a little awkward). But she’s Nakama Yukie, I can’t help being a little biased😇.

I realize that I must recognize Tanihara Shosuke from Otona Joshi, as that’s the only thing I’ve seen of him, even though I don’t remember a lot of it. I thought he looked really familiar. Anyways, I think it was actually an original decision to not make him a bad guy. In series like this, depicting a picture perfect marriage, it would be quite predictable if the guy actually turned out to be a monster, but they actually succeeded in making me feel worse for him than for Yoko. Although I didn’t approve of how he kept urging Yoko for children while she clearly having second thoughts, at least he didn’t force her to do anything against her will. And although I did think he showed a slightly lame side in challenging Futa to that boxing match, I did appreciate how much effort he was willing to make not to divorce Yoko. I really felt like he loved her, even though it wasn’t received or reciprocated as successfully as he would’ve liked. But seriously, when she cancelled that trip to Atami last-minute, I really felt bad for him.

I didn’t know Seto Toshiki from anything either, but his portrayal of Futa just made him seem so young and naive to me. I compared him before to the boy from HajiKoi, but he seemed to be even less mature than him despite being older in age. In HajiKoi it was between a 17-year old and a woman in her early 30s, here it was a 23-year old and a woman in her late 30s, so I guess it’s about the same idea. I can’t imagine what it must have been like for him to act out a romantic relationship with Nakama Yukie, who was 39 when this show came out. I can’t even blame him for the fact that it looked a bit awkward and lacked romantic tension. I personally thought he pasted on the ‘cutesy’ side of his character a bit too much, the pink hair made him look more child-like than mature in my opinion. Honestly, what is it with the pink hair? So far I haven’t seen a single series in which pink hair actually worked, so it just didn’t have the effect on me that it should have, I suppose.

The only things I could possibly know MEGUMI from are Dear Sister and Ishitachi no Renai Jijou, but I believe she only had guest appearances there. As I said, Akari was one of the few characters that I actually liked in this show. In a story that invites so much (unnecessary) drama, it’s always a relief to have a few down-to-earth side characters watching everything unfold from the sidelines going, ‘what the heck is even happening?!’ If it weren’t for Akari, things wouldn’t havve been put in motion. It would’ve taken Shoko an additional three years (at least) before she’d have mustered up the courage to say anything, and probably just as much time to even figure out that Jyo was suffering from a brain tumor. I was beyond happy with her interference. I also liked that she portrayed her as a rational person. Of course she worried when she learned about the suspicious circumstances of her younger brother’s dating partner, but as soon as all that was over, she easily accepted Shoko into the family. She helped her get involved in Jyo’s life more, she invited her to the restaurant and told her to come by once Jyo came back after finishing his surgery, etc. She wasn’t judgemental based on Shoko’s first introduction as a married woman, once she saw for herself that they both really liked each other, she easily gave her the benefit of the doubt.

I must recognize Tanaka Michiko from Kizoku Tantei, although it’s been a while since I watched that. I liked her portrayal of Masako, mostly because she remained her own character outside of Shoko’s drama. Despite being asked to lie for Shoko that she is married a couple of times, Masako isn’t personally involved in the whole thing and I liked that she remained a bit on the outside while still continuing to be a source of support for Shoko. Just like with Akari, I just enjoyed the fact that within all the dramatics, there were still uncomplicated characters like Masako to lighten up the atmosphere.

I’ve seen Mashima Hidekazu before in Youkoso, Waya he, Boku no Yabai Tsuma and Erased, but I think this is the first time I really noticed him in a more apparent role. Thank goodness for Dr. Ichinose, seriously. I’m so glad he chose to inform Akari even though Jyo had asked him not to. I know there’s such a thing as patient confidentiality, but seriously, Jyo didn’t know what he was doing, and literally everyone needed to know what was going on. I liked that he became a more regular ely appearing character, that he got involved a bit more than just remaining Jyo’s doctor. Jyo even told him about his whole situation with Shoko, and I liked that he decided to step in as a friend rather than a doctor at the end. I can’t emphasize enough that it was down-to-earth characters like him that allowed me to have some peace while watching this series, haha.

Not me gasping when I found out that Kiriyama Ren played Arata in Switch Girl!! That’s such a throwback!
Even though Todo was only a minor character that only appeared in the last couple of episodes, I really liked him and I would have liked it if he had been there from the start. I liked his spontaneity in trying to make Shoko laugh with those tricks when she was crying, and how genuinely he approached here. Even when he was rejected, he didn’t take it as a stab to his pride or whatever, he genuinely watched Shoko and listened to her and understood her feelings. In just two episodes he showed more sensitivity towards her than Jyo did in the entire series, just saying. I liked the energy he brought, even as just a side character, he immediately lightened the mood for me and I really needed that.

Finally I just want to give a shoutout to the delightful guest appaearance of Tomita Miu as Kanae, the restaurant owner’s daughter who spontaneously decided to accompany Jyo during his solo trip to Hanamaki. I love Tomita Miu, she makes everything better.

By the way, I just found out that the original manga series that this drama is based on comes from the same author as Princess Jellyfish and Tokyo Tarareba Musume, which I both really like. I’m having a hard time believing that this story belongs to the same author, haha.

Okay! So there we are. I wish I could say I enjoyed watching this drama, but that wouldn’t be completely honest. If I had to sum up the things I appreciated about it, it would be the fact that it dealt with the relativity of ‘affairs’ and the concept of marriage as a ‘life plan’ accomplishment rather than something one does purely out of love. I liked that every character’s story and objective had at least two sides – at least none of the characters were one-dimensional. I guess they did manage to keep it interesting by revealing everyone’s true intentions one by one. The thing that kind of ruined it for me was just the endless dragging out of the lies that both Shoko and Jyo were keeping up. It took way too long for them to finally see eye to eye, and if it weren’t for Shoko, Jyo would’ve just fled back to Spain without looking back, not even caring that he’d broken Shoko’s heart twice for no reason at all except his own cowardice. It’s been a while since I disliked the male lead character this much, the choices he made just didn’t make sense to me. In terms of chemistry, there was also a lot left to be desired. Both in Shoko and Jyo’s case and in Yoko and Futa’s case (or Yoko and Kenji’s case, for that matter), I didn’t feel any kind of ‘love’. I wish they could’ve conveyed it better through body language, gazes and gestures rather than only using words to say it. Besides this, I just really loathe the terminal illness trope because it always ends badly one way or another, and it usually entails the sick character pushing their loved ones away. Also, if it wasn’t enough that I hate the amnesia trope just as much, the fact that Jyo faked it to get away from Shoko (“to protect her”) pissed me off even more.

I really hope the K-Dramas that are next up on my list will give me some more feels because I’m definitely craving some actual romance now, haha. I’m not sure how long it will take for me to finish my next watch, so it’ll be a surprise for both of us when my next review will drop.

Until then, bye-bee! x