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Put Your Head on My Shoulder

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Put Your Head on My Shoulder
(致我们暖暖的小时光 / Zhi Wo Men Nuan Nuan De Xiao Shi Guang /
To Our Warm Little Times)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hello~ Back with a new review and with this one I am welcoming the last month of this year. Isn’t time going by incredibly fast these days? We’re already starting 2023 in a couple of weeks! Anyways, I was worried that this drama would take me a long time (since Chinese dramas often tend to be quite lengthy) but it was actually a relatively short and very light watch. I watched it on DramaCool, even though the English subtitles aren’t that good. I guess I could’ve also watched it on YouTube, but oh well. So yeah, I’m finally officially finalizing my 2019 batch of Asian dramas, and this is actually the only Chinese drama I watched this year! Not to fret, there are many more to come!
I think I put this on my list after thinking something about it looked cute, and that’s really what it was, a simple cute love story, not too much drama or intrigues. It can be nice for a change not to have too much characters, storylines and plot twists in a drama. So let’s start this review right away!

Put Your Head on My Shoulder is a 24-episode Chinese drama series that focusses on the relationship between two college students who end up living together in the same house. Si Tu Mo (played by Xing Fei) is an accounting major who has a hidden ambition for advertising, but she never gets into any advertising jobs because of her irrelevant accounting background. She lives in a campus dorm with three other girls, and they are all quite close with each other. There’s Wang Shan (Zheng Ying Chen), Meng Lu (Gao Yu Fei) and Hu Niu (Chen Jing Jing). Amongst each other, they all call each other Mo Mo, Shan Shan, Lu Lu and Niu Niu (I found it easier to remember that way). Mo Mo is especially close with Shan Shan. At the beginning of the series, Mo Mo has a crush on Fu Pei (played by Tang Xiao Tian), and it’s shown that the two of them have had a crush on each other since high school, but for some reason nothing official has happened between them yet. Fu Pei told Mo Mo to wait until they’d graduated before they would date, and Mo Mo just went along with it, but even in the present, she keeps being let down by him. When they’re together, he tells her the sweetest things, he tells her he’ll always be there for her, but when she actually needs him to accompany her somewhere or look out for her, he never shows up. And it’s starting to eat away at Mo Mo – she’s losing her patience with him, for good reason.
Fu Pei also lives in a dorm on campus with three other guys, amongst whom Gu Wei Yi (played by Lin Yi), a science major. Unlike Mo Mo, Wei Yi is studying what he wants to pursue, he even gets a place in an esteemed professor’s experiment class despite being only a junior student. There’s only two other students in this class, and they are both seniors, so it’s a pretty big deal.
Mo Mo and Wei Yi meet for the first time when Fu Pei and Mo Mo crash into Wei Yi with their bike and when leaving, Wei Yi and Mo Mo incidentally swap bags (they’re both black with letters on it, it can happen in the chaos).
What already stood out to me from the start was that, even though Wei Yi already knew Fu Pei, the first thing he did when the crash happened was ask Mo Mo if she was okay. That immediately told me that he wasn’t a coldhearted guy who’d just walk away, he already had really good manners and from the start he was always kind to Mo Mo even when he didn’t even know her yet.
I just wanted to put that in there as a first observation.
Anyways, as Mo Mo is just on her way to a job interview and Wei Yi to an important exam (the one that would give him the chance to participate in beforementioned professor’s class), the bag swapping happens at a very inconvenient time. Mo Mo isn’t able to show her artistic work that she prepared for the interview, and Wei Yi isn’t allowed to participate in the exam without his student ID card. However, they don’t hold any specific grudge against each other, they swap their bags back and Mo Mo even helps Wei Yi to get another chance at proving he earns a place in that professor’s class, causing him to be admitted anyway.
They keep meeting on several occasions, and it keeps happening that whenever Fu Pei fails Mo Mo, Wei Yi always ends up appearing instead of him. In the first few episodes only, even when Fu Pei doesn’t ask him personally to go in his place, Wei Yi is always looking after Mo Mo, even when they’ve not developed feelings for one another yet.
Mo Mo is struggling a lot with her feelings for Fu Pei, because seriously, what was this guy’s deal. He kept acting like he was Mo Mo’s boyfriend when they were together, but then always let her down. He didn’t show up, he was supposed to go to this interview with her in a remote neighborhood but didn’t show up and then she went alone and got mugged and injured on the street. And for some reason, Fu Pei would always ask Wei Yi to go in his place when he couldn’t make it to something with Mo Mo, but still when he noticed that Wei Yi and Mo Mo were getting along better, he be like, ‘wow wow what’s happening here’. Like, bro, you literally pushed them together.
Anyways, when Mo Mo eventually gets an internship at an accounting firm, she keeps struggling because it’s very far from her dorm and she keeps coming back very late, to the dismay of the dorm manager. At one point, her mom calls her to say that a friend of hers has a house closer to her workplace where she can stay, if she’s okay with that friend’s child also living there. Assuming it’s just another girl her age living there (otherwise her mom wouldn’t have suggested it so easily), Mo Mo eventually agrees and goes to stay there for at least a little while. SHOCKER. The other person living there is actually Wei Yi. Turns out, their mothers are friends from way back and they didn’t even think about the fact that the other child was of the opposite sex, but then again, they also don’t really mind. Honestly, what is it with Chinese moms that just want their kids to get settled so quickly, lol. But yeah, stuff happens and Mo Mo also moves back and forth to the dorm a couple of times, but they ultimately end up living together in that house for good. And that’s what the whole story is about.

The story is about how they start living together, how they start getting involved in each other’s lives more, and how they gradually fall for each other. As far as we can see, Wei Yi is the first one to fall. I personally think it all started when Mo Mo’s mom came to stay with them for a few days and there was just this kind of ‘family warmth’ around the house, with the three of them eating together, there was chatter, there was bickering, there was laughter. Wei Yi didn’t have that kind of warmth in his own family, so you could see how much good that did him. When Mo Mo’s mom left, and then Mo Mo went back to her dorm as well, the house was just so quiet and empty, and he immediately decided that he wanted to have Mo Mo back in the house. I actually think that missing her presence there after having spent just a short time with her, was already the first sign of him falling for her.
And honestly, could this boy be any sweeter? He did so much for Mo Mo, even behind her back without her noticing. He always kept her company, he sacrificed stuff so that she could be happy, he pretended to be allergic to stuff just so she could have it instead. He tried to confess to her several times, and if only Mo Mo would’ve had his level of knowledge when it came to science, she would’ve known it was the sweetest thing ever, but unfortunately Wei Yi was kind of socially awkward and his message never came across. He even got help from his professor and fellow science classmate, they helped him come up with all these ideas, but it was never clear enough to Mo Mo. It’s funny how in these scenes, we see more from Wei Yi’s perspective and we don’t actually know for sure if Mo Mo is really that oblivious or if she’s just faking that she doesn’t see what he was trying to do. I think she did at some point figure out what his intentions were, even though she didn’t exactly get the execution of it. So imagine my relief when that scene came where they were having breakfast together and Mo Mo was just like ‘Yo, do you like me?’ Instead of continuing this endless cycle of misunderstandings and failed confessions, I was so happy that she just came out with it like that, and they were both like ‘Yeah, me too’ and that was that. It was pretty refreshing and simple for a confirmation of love, haha.

As Wei Yi and Mo Mo are getting closer, there’s still the issue of Fu Pei. Mo Mo is still mad at him, and this doesn’t get better when he almost kisses Shan Shan in a drunk state when the four of them are hanging out at Wei Yi/Mo Mo’s house. We see Mo Mo get properly hurt by his actions, she cries about it and properly processes it by herself. I liked the metaphor that was mentioned through Mo Mo’s narration, because it so clearly wrapped up her final feelings for Fu Pei. “Every product of glass will have a caution sticker on the packing. But not everyone will take caution of it. They’ll think it won’t be broken easily, it’s all right, it’s always gone well in the past. However, when they open the packing, they will find it broken. And then what do you do? You’ll have to throw it away.” She initially also is a little mad at Shan Shan, even though I thought that was a bit misplaced. Shan Shan was such a supportive friend to Mo Mo, even though she developed a crush on Fu Pei herself, she still tried to get the two to make amends first before following her own feelings. She kept hanging out with Fu Pei, she helped him study and eventually helped him through his official ‘breakup’ with Mo Mo, after which he realized he really cared about Shan Shan as well. But I will talk about that a bit more later. Anyways, as soon as Fu Pei and Mo Mo are officially not a thing anymore and the two couples are established, which happens in the first half of the series, the whole rest of the show focusses on how their relationships progress, the ups and downs, the tensions and the snuggles, etc.

What I found so refreshing about this series was the fact there was actually no drama. Normally, even in Chinese series, there’s at least one bitchy girl character with her eyes set on the male lead who will do anything to get in the female lead’s way, or there will be at least one another aggressive male character that’s also pining for the female lead, but even that didn’t happen here. Yes, Wei Yi had some admirers, for example that senior from his experiment class Xie Yu Yin (Zhou Zi Xin), but she never even got close to getting Wei Yi’s attention in that way, she was never a real threat. And she also wasn’t a bad person, because she never tried to get between Wei Yi and Mo Mo, even though she still had to get over him. In the end, hearing that they got married in Germany, she even smiled at them as she walked away, because she also just couldn’t deny that they were always meant to be.
Fu Pei, even though he may have been a kind of ‘love rival’ in the beginning, also didn’t turn out to be that bad. He definitely needed Shan Shan to be brought back to his senses, but after that these two were also a really cute couple and there was never any real drama between them and Wei Yi and Mo Mo.
And I guess there was that celebrity that Mo Mo worked with a couple of times, Lin Zhi Cun (Zhou Jun Wei), he could’ve been a possible love rival for Mo Mo, Wei Yi definitely eyed him suspiciously, but that never really went anywhere either.
So in that aspect, it’s a fairly uneventful series. There’s not much spectacle or drama, it’s just really fluffy and romantic and cute. That doesn’t necessarily mean anything bad, because as I’ve mentioned many times before it can be really nice to have a casual and light romantic story without too much drama, but in the end this also made it not so special for me. I still rated it as I usually rate cute stories without much depth, because I did like watching it, but that was pretty much it. It’s just really cute.

Let me first go by the characters one by one to get deeper into my analysis.
First of all, Si Tu Mo. Our girl Mo Mo is a very self-righteous girl, she’s not insecure and she really stands up for what she wants and believes is right. This becomes very clear when she manages to fulfill her dream of starting to work at an advertising company, and she’s put off by a scheme the company pulls. She and her fellow intern have entered an ad for a design contest and they win, but then find out that the company put their boss’ name on it. When they are determined to say something about it, they are cut off as their boss offers them a full employment, obviously to keep them silent. It was nice to see how, in the 6-months-after jump, it was shown that, even after being appointed employees of the month, both Mo Mo and her fellow intern resigned because they still didn’t stand for what the company did and how they tried to get away with it. Until the end Mo Mo was determined to get all the credit she deserved for her own work, and she wouldn’t let people get away with excuses anymore. Maybe she learned from her experience with Fu Pei, I don’t know, but it was very empowering.
Other than that, we can see she’s very straightforward, but also quite whimsical. It seemed like, even if she got the idea that Wei Yi might like her, as soon as he would do something confusing, she immediately discouraged herself again. I’m not sure if she was just playing hard to get, but she definitely gave Wei Yi a hard time trying to please her. When they officially got together, she still kept acting kind of awkward and got mad at him for the tiniest things. One thing that did annoy me a bit about Mo Mo at some point was her constant distrust of Wei Yi’s relationship with Xie Yu Yin. Like, as I said, there was literally nothing going on between them. Yu Yin may have had a crush on Wei Yi, but Wei Yi had always been very clear about his feelings for Mo Mo, even in his science class, so Yu Yin knew that she didn’t stand a chance. There was nothing to worry about there, but even when she would just see them talk to each other, Mo Mo would start acting super petty and childish, ignoring Wei Yi until he went through the dust to apologize to her (even though there was nothing to apologize for). I don’t know why she kept convincing herself to be intimidated by Yu Yin while everyone knew there was nothing to be suspicious about. So that put me off a little. However, Mo Mo’s mom also explained to Wei Yi at some point that Mo Mo would start acting weirdly when she got reluctant or anxious, so I guess that explained it. But it still didn’t stop me from going ‘Omg, come on girl, don’t be such a petty child’ every once in a while. Other than that, I didn’t really have any problems with Mo Mo’s character, I liked how straightforward she was.
I also really liked Mo Mo’s mom (played by Xu Mei Ling). The way she was just shipping her daughter with Wei Yi from the start was so funny, and how she literally made Mo Mo sign this contract of not being allowed to move out of the house and would just send it to Wei Yi to use it against her whenever Mo Mo was threatening to leave again. She kept sending Wei Yi stuff that would keep Mo Mo with him, haha. She may have been a bit fussy, mostly to Mo Mo, but she was a really friendly and lovely mother figure and nothing but supportive to the two from the start.

On another note, can we just appreciate how well this drama normalized things like periods and sexuality? I never expected to see these kinds of things in a Chinese drama, but even though overall things didn’t get too graphic (there was no skin shown whatsoever and the makeout scenes were all cut off pretty fast before it skipped to the next morning – which was kind of a bummer), they showed several instances in which Mo Mo was on her period, with all the physical and emotional consequences. After the bag swapping when they first met, Wei Yi was made to buy Mo Mo new menstrual pads as he incidentally lost the ones that were in her bag. The scene in which the store employee started to explain all those different kinds of pads to him, which ones were softer and such SENT me. I really never expected to see this kind of menstrual talk in a Chinese drama, that was really funny. Also, after the couple fails to have sex for the first time (Mo Mo’s ‘It’s okay. As you said before, theory is different than practice’ comment, I COULD NOT), Wei Yi very earnestly starts researching the female genitals online, even starts following international webinars. Like, the moment this image of the female sexual organ appeared on his screen I was like, “👀Is this even allowed in a Chinese drama??👀” I liked how they were so open-minded and didn’t make a big awkward deal about it.

I thought Gu Wei Yi was an absolute puppy. He seemed so certain of himself, but as soon as he started falling for Mo Mo he just kept getting so confused by her emotions and whimsicality that I felt sorry for him a couple of times, haha. She really didn’t go easy on him. And still he always remained this super patient, loyal and sweet boyfriend to her. It was so funny how serious he got about it, that he even went to have after-school gatherings with Professor Jiang (Jie Bing) and his senior classmate Zhou Lei (Zhang Hao Lun) and they’d come up with strategies together about how Wei Yi could confess his feelings to her in the best way. It was always just so sweet and respectful, and he never ever crossed her boundaries, except probably when he drunk-kissed her after her birthday celebration and forgot all about it the next day. Seeing him after Mo Mo had made him remember was very entertaining, because he was just so shocked and ashamed of himself, it was adorable. Anyways, the scientific ways in which he tried to confess!! Can we just admire his originality and sweetness in that?! He literally wrote out this formula that came down to the meaning of that Mo Mo was ‘the structure of this world’ and another one that, if you’d drawn the lines completely, it would form a heart shape. Admittedly, yes, he could’ve anticipated better that Mo Mo wouldn’t be able to understand science at his level, but they were still really cute gestures.
He may not have had a very close/warm relationship with his parents, but he also wasn’t on bad terms with them per se. His father was a renovator, so he spent a lot of time helping him out with dismantling stuff and putting things back together – which explains a lot of his behavior and love for science. He just has this genuine curiosity for things, whenever he doesn’t know something he immediately just looks it up, from emotional stuff to how to actually fix devices, I thought that was a funny and cute character trait that he had. His mom (played by Rong Rong) was clearly eager to get closer to him, but he never really felt that comfortable around her or maybe she hadn’t been very present in his youth because he got along better with his dad or something, I’m not sure. Anyways, it was nice that both parent couples were shown and how the mothers just immediately started planning their kids’ wedding and the dads were still just sitting there like, ‘Wait a minute, are you saying my kid is already dating someone?!’ But there was no real quarrel between them or anything, everyone was on board with everything.

I appreciated the limited number of characters in this drama. Sometimes, a lot of characters are created that are then somehow bound or connected to each other’s past and stuff, but in this drama, there was one small core of characters and that was it. There was Wei Yi, his family and people around him at college, and there was Mo Mo, her family and people around her at college, and eventually at her internship, but that number of people was also few. When she starts at Ori Advertising, she finds out her fellow intern, Tu Jie Er (Yi Sha) used to be her classmate in high school, a girl who also had a crush on Fu Pei. But even after finding out that Mo Mo and Fu Pei were still kind of seeing/hanging out with each other, the girl didn’t make a big deal out of it, she also didn’t become spiteful towards Mo Mo at work even though she was clearly been favoritized because of her background. It initially seemed like she wasn’t putting in as much effort as Mo Mo, even asking her to do stuff for their project by herself although Mo Mo was already swamped with both college and work-work, but in the end the two did stick together. I guess the only reason why they gave this girl the connection to being Mo Mo’s old classmate was that she could already know about Mo Mo and Fu Pei’s prior relationship, but otherwise, in my opinion, there wasn’t really a reason why she should’ve been connected to Mo Mo. It didn’t really matter anyway, and she was the only character that was revealed to have some sort of past connection with any of the main characters.

Fu Pei was definitely a bit of a tormented guy in the beginning. In the first half of the series, I referred to him as ‘a hot mess’. He just couldn’t make up his mind about Mo Mo, instead of talking about his feelings he went and got himself drunk all the time, it was a little pathetic. He was introduced as such a cheerful and sporty guy, and he kind of lost that side of him at some point. It’s only after he’s already gotten together with Shan Shan that we meet his dad and this puts a bit more clarity on the situation. His dad may have been wealthy, but he was the kind that was never there for his son as a father, and he was always seeing different women. He wasn’t faithful to Fu Pei’s mom yet he still felt like he had the right to tell his son what to do and how. He kept meddling in his life, setting him up on blind dates and actually got angry when Fu Pei told him he already had a girlfriend because even without meeting her, he already knew ‘she’s not good enough for him’. Well, let me tell you sir, Shan Shan was EXACTLY what Fu Pei needed. I really appreciated how the both of them stood up against his dad, and I believe in the final confrontation Shan Shan really did manage to impress him. Fu Pei shook off all the pressure he’d been feeling because of his urge to always please his dad, and he decided to start up his own company. He and Shan Shan stay together after graduation, he proposes, they manage to get a loan for the company, and all’s well with the world. It was nice to see how, once the ‘mess’ was lifted from his shoulders, Fu Pei quite easily went back to being his bright self, and I still believe it’s all thanks to Shan Shan.

I really liked Shan Shan. Like Mo Mo, she wasn’t the typical ditzy cutesy girl, she was really strong and just, and strict whenever she needed to be, especially towards Fu Pei. She wasn’t shy to tell him how she felt about him from the start, but she still told him to deal with his feelings for Mo Mo first before committing to her. She literally helped him through his lingering feelings for Mo Mo by just being by (and on) his side, helping him study and just being there for him and that’s what he needed. There is one moment where they do break up for a short while. If I understood correctly, it was because Shan Shan felt like she was forcing Fu Pei to study and take an exam while he didn’t actually want to, even though he kept telling her he did. He kept accompanying her to study but stopped doing what he loved to do, playing basketball, hanging out with his friends etc., and it was tiring for Shan Shan to see him pretend to go for something he didn’t actually want. All in all, I think her behavior during this situation also contributed to Fu Pei getting his act together, because that’s when he started thinking about what it was that he really wanted to do.
There was one scene that took place during this situation that bothered me. Of course, going through their break, Shan Shan wanted to talk about it to her friends. She wanted to talk about her feelings, about her reasons for being mad at Fu Pei, but no one had time for her. She kept calling and texting Mo Mo, but Mo Mo was busy getting it on with Wei Yi. At one point, Shan Shan just comes over to their house and kind of imposes on Mo Mo, even though the main couple was planning to have a nice romantic home date. I was actually bothered by all three characters at this point, even though I understood everyone’s perspective. Shan Shan really wanted to talk to her best friend and ended up imposing on her without seemingly caring if Mo Mo was available for it. Mo Mo went along with it, she took Shan Shan to her room but then barely even listened to her while she was talking. I believe she was just on her computer or writing/drawing something and even semi-falling asleep at some point because Shan Shan talked for hours. I thought that, even though Mo Mo wasn’t actually up for talking, once she decided she would hear Shan Shan out, she could’ve at least listened to her and give her some friendly advice, not openly acting so indifferent about it. It was so clear that she and Wei Yi just wanted Shan Shan to leave, but instead of just telling her ‘Sorry, I understand you’re in a tough spot and I really want to be there for you, but now really isn’t a good time, can we talk tomorrow?’ or something like that, they let her in and just sat there acting annoyed about it. Wei Yi too, he was just getting impatient and kept texting Mo Mo to get Shan Shan to leave, which, while I understood his feelings, still was a bit rude to Shan Shan in this situation. I don’t know, this whole scene was just awkward because it felt like every single person was uncomfortable in a different way. But luckily, Fu Pei managed to make it up to Shan Shan quickly enough after that and Wei Yi and Mo Mo didn’t have to deal with conflicted Shan Shan ever again.

I just want to talk a bit about some side characters before I move on to the final part of my analysis.
As I mentioned before, Wei Yi’s ‘crew’ at college consisted of three people, Professor Jiang, Zhou Lei and Xie Yu Yin. The dynamic between these characters was really funny. So Professor Jiang (who is incidentally married to the manager of Mo Mo’s dorm) is an elderly man and he is in charge of a special experiment project class that prepares only several students for admission to an esteemed university in Germany. Once you get into Professor Jiang’s class, you know you’re on the right path. He may be an elderly man, but he’s very friendly and easygoing with his three students, and even starts giving Wei Yi tips for getting closer to his girlfriend. He even lends him a super old-fashioned ‘How to Seduce Girls’ book that he used way back when he was wooing his current wife. As much as he supports Wei Yi, he still is professional enough not to actually favoritize him, even though it sometimes may seem like that. But Wei Yi is just that talented, and as his professor he just wants to support him as much as he can.
Zhou Lei considers Wei Yi to be his rival in science. He is the kind of senior who keeps wanting to prove that he is smarter than Wei Yi, but always fails. Not to mention that he is also talented enough, but he just keeps falling shorter than a junior student and that hurts his pride. Zhou Lei is generally a comical character, but I still felt for him, he was still a really nice guy. I thought it was really funny how panicky he would get when someone would start coughing or sneezing in the lab – that definitely made sense watching it during the pandemic. And I really laughed when Wei Yi had a slight cold and was working in the lab and Zhou Lei came to bring him some food from the cafeteria in a freaking hazmat suit. This guy was on a different level of cautiousness, haha.
I also liked Xie Yu Yin. She would’ve been this really obvious choice for a love rival, and although she did have a crush on Wei Yi, she never imposed her feelings on him and when he just put it out there that he was wooing Mo Mo, she silently resigned and didn’t bother anyone with the fact that she got a bit heartbroken by that. She never even approached Wei Yi with any romantic intentions after that, and she also didn’t get bitchy towards Mo Mo. When she and Wei Yi were both selected to go to Germany, it also wasn’t like she was excited for getting a chance to be alone with him or anything like that. I really liked it when the three ran into each other in Germany and that she was able to smile so genuinely after hearing that they’d gotten married. She never meant any evil towards their happiness and I appreciated that.
The only person I didn’t like was that other senior student that came by somewhere in the middle, Lu Jian Shi (Li Meng Fan). Like, what was her deal? She was so judgemental. She was actually the girl that Fu Pei was set on a blind date with by his father, and where he brought Shan Shan in to tell him that he already had a girlfriend. I don’t think Jian Shi was even into Fu Pei, but still afterwards she just went and badmouthed him behind his back, like he was such a loser and all that and I was like, girl… you literally met the guy once? Is that how hurt your pride was that your blind date already had a girlfriend? And she also just went and told Yu Yin that Wei Yi should be into her rather than Mo Mo, which, again, who the heck are you to meddle? She just went and poked her nose into other’s people’s businesses. I liked the scene where Wei Yi just told her off in the library, that was really satisfying. Seriously, some people really have nothing better to do in their lives or something.

As I was expecting Yu Yin to become a love rival to Mo Mo, I was expecting Lin Zhi Cun to become one to Wei Yi. There were definitely more opportunities there, but all those chances were cut off before they could even grow into some very serious. So when Mo Mo starts working for this advertising company, one time she has to work with a celebrity (I believe he’s an actor) called Lin Zhi Cun for an advertisement shoot. In the beginning he seems quite snobby, but he likes how down-to-earth Mo Mo is and although he seems not very intimidated by Wei Yi, he doesn’t put any further effort into approaching Mo Mo romantically. He even finds out coincidentally that she resigned from that advertising company in the last episode, and then he supports her by making her resignation letter go viral which says, ‘My boss was too ugly so I quit’. I mean, LOL. Was it really his place to do that? Mo Mo didn’t seem to mind it, so we’ll just let it slide. I guess he was just trying to remain on Mo Mo’s side by also exposing her company for what they did or something. Anyways, I couldn’t really dislike him because he didn’t do anything wrong, and I’m glad he didn’t become a love rival because it would’ve just been a waste of time. It was just Wei Yi and Mo Mo, all the way, always.

Also, can we please quit using western actors in Chinese dramas only to give them such awkward lines? There was this one girl in Germany that kept bothering Wei Yi because she was in love with him and it was just so awkward. Like, I feel the only times western actors appear in Chinese dramas (possibly with the exception of Christine in the Taiwanese ItaKiss) it’s just to show a westerner and make fun of the fact they don’t speak Chinese OR to show that the main lead speaks great English, it’s never actually to highlight the performance of the western actor. Sorry if I said something mean there, but I just always feel awkward seeing western people in Chinese dramas, they never contribute anything serious and they’re always kind of meh.

When Wei Yi heard that he was selected to go to Germany, and he and Mo Mo had to say goodbye, it was so sad because here I finally felt all Mo Mo’s true feelings for him come to light. She’d acted so coy and whimsical before, but now she really couldn’t stop herself from crying at not being able to meet him for six months. And Wei Yi… the fact that he took her favorite mug with him to have something of her with him T^T I was kind of scared that they might pass each other, because just before Mo Mo decided to go to Germany six months later, Wei Yi had mentioned already having bought a plane ticket back to China, but luckily that didn’t happen. The scene where he realized she’d come to visit him and he found her sleeping in his bed, the suppressed joy he showed there (only suppressed because he didn’t want to wake her) and the way he just kept saying her name was so cute T^T
Also, and this was a major heartpuncher for me, but Wei Yi was the only one to constantly keep calling her ‘Si Tu Mo’ while everyone else called her Mo Mo, and then during one intimate scene he suddenly called her ‘Mo Mo’ for the first time and that had me SCREAMING. That was just the cutest thing ever, all the more because that just showed she’d finally broken down all his walls. He’d always been nothing but respectful to her, even when she was being difficult he never vented his frustration on her but just went and tried to figure out by himself how he could fix it. He really was one big walking green flag and it was the cutest thing ever.
I do have to admit I was a bit disappointed by their marriage though. When they went into that church in Germany (btw why was everyone talking fluent English, I didn’t hear a single word of German lol), and that priest just started reciting those vows I was like, no wait, this isn’t actually already it, right?? I felt just like Mo Mo, I mean, there wasn’t even a ring or anything! In my head it just didn’t count, there was no record or signature or ring or whatever thing to prove they’d gotten married and she didn’t even get to wear a wedding dress! And then back in China they only went to register their marriage, which was also sweet but still not the whole thing. They did put on the wedding clothes for a photoshoot, but it wasn’t clear to me if they would actually have a ceremony or some sort of party with their family and friends. Either way, I kind of hoped for a nice ceremony, but oh well, haha.
By the way I liked that there was a short special episode that showed some brief scenes leading up to their marriage registration and Mo Mo’s pregnancy. This special episode is only 14 minutes long and it gives just a tiny bit more information on when Mo Mo supposedly got pregnant and some in-between dialogues they had that weren’t shown in the series, such as Wei Yi showing Mo Mo how to make a piece of glass harder than a diamond after she boasted about how Fu Pei proposed to Shan Shan with a diamond ring. The idea of Wei Yi making his own wedding ring was just so sweet. I would totally see him do that, too. He kept saying such sweet things to Mo Mo, he really loved her more than he could put into eloquent words.
So yeah, the series ends with Mo Mo and Wei Yi racing off in a car in their wedding clothes on their way to the photoshoot, and Wei Yi briefly reflects on his journey with his new wife, mentioning that he would always find himself getting into a fast car when she was driving and that was put so accurately. He got swept off his feet by this whirlwind that was Mo Mo, full of emotions and mood swings, but he still didn’t want to change it for the world. And in the final after-credit scene of the series and the special episode, they suddenly have this little bratty kid that orders them around, lol. Gu Mo Wei, a perfect combination of both his parents, and not only in name.

Before I go on to the cast comments, I want to mention something about the soundtrack and the series’ English title. It reminded me a bit of Something in the Rain, in which the original Korean title translated to something different than the English title. The original Chinese title apparently translates to something along the lines of To Our Warm Little Times/Moments. So I wondered what made them come up with ‘Put Your Head on My Shoulder’ as the English title, and then I noticed that one of the OSTs had this exact line in it, just like with Something in the Rain, where one of the OST tracks had this as the title. I wondered if they took this as inspiration for the English title. I personally think To Our Warm Little Times also fits the series very well, as it’s really a compilation of Wei Yi and Mo Mo’s lovely moments together. Put Your Head on My Shoulder also has a really nice and warm comfortable feeling to it, and as a matter of fact Mo Mo does put her head on Wei Yi’s shoulder a number of times so in that aspect it’s also not an inaccurate title, haha. Anyways, all in all, I agree with both titles. And I really liked the soundtrack in general, too, I saved at least two songs.

The thing with Chinese dramas is that I know very few Chinese actors, so I never have a lot of references to compare their performances to other shows I’ve seen them in, which can be refreshing since I just have to base my opinions on my first impressions.

Incidentally, I did know Xing Fei, I saw her in Master Devil Please Don’t Kiss Me last year. Again, I really liked her character. I just really like that she isn’t the typical apathetic heroine, but she always gives the female lead some spice and it’s nice to see that, especially in a Chinese drama since they tend to be a bit conservative sometimes. I liked that Mo Mo’s character was so realistic in her ambiguity and whimsicality. Like, I finally understood how guys sometimes say that they can’t figure out women – admittedly, Mo Mo was pretty hard to follow based on her actions sometimes, even for me as a woman. But she just has this quirkiness about her, she’s cute and small but she can also be really demanding, and I just liked how she could be so matter-of-factly about some things. I still appreciate the normalization of the menstruation thing, because I’ve only ever seen people get super awkward about this in dramas when it was mentioned or suggested. The way she talked about it was as I would do as well – for women, it’s a natural thing that happens every month and it’s freaking uncomfortable so please, men, don’t go all ‘EW TMI’ because you don’t even know how TMI it can get. We should be able to express our discomfort regarding this, so I was grateful that it was finally depicted as such. I believe I will see more dramas with her in the future, but so far I’m really liking her performances as a female lead.

I can’t say I’m actually surprised, but Lin Yi is actually 5 years younger than Xing Fei in real life. I kept thinking that he looked really young despite being so tall, so I can’t say I’m actually surprised. During this drama, he was 20 years old while his co-star was 25. I really liked his performance, from his confused puppy moments to the moments where he realized he had to step up his game towards Mo Mo. The scenes where he was able to express his love for her where the sweetest, because it just oozed from his face how much he loved her. I liked that the writers gave him specific habits, like looking up things and his genuine curiosity to take things apart and try and fix them by himself again. It made him a very realistic character, the tiny things that he did in-between, the quirks and the habits. And how some things just became habits to him, for example keeping a hair band of Mo Mo’s in his desk drawer so he would have one within reach whenever she asked for one and stuff. It was these tiny details that said more than words about how much he loved her. And I also loved how naturally it came to him too, once he realized he liked her he never went into denial, he just accepted it and moved forward with his new intentions. He was such a pure character, a loyal puppy to the end.

I see that Tang Xiao Tian is in another drama with Xing Fei where they’re actually the main couple, so I might try that one out as well, haha. Fu Pei started out as kind of problematic character but really just needed to be sorted out. I think that Shan Shan was responsible for a big part of his character development, but we have to give him some credit as well. I feel like the situation with his father was weighing more heavily on him then anyone would expect, and more than he himself would initially admit. But it could be that this is what caused him to be so indecisive about what he wanted, even in personal things like his relationship with Mo Mo. He was only able to see this clearly after he met Shan Shan and that’s when he just became better and better as a person. He got to show some different sides to his acting, both funny and silly and serious and messy. I’m curious to his performances in other things now!

I really liked Zheng Ying Chen as Shan Shan. She was calm and serious, but she really had her act together all the way. She took the right things seriously, but still created room to enjoy things like getting into a relationship. She first meets Fu Pei when he comes to the dorm looking for Mo Mo, but she keeps bumping into him a couple of times when things between Fu Pei and Mo Mo go sour, and then she just starts looking out for him. I liked how she and Mo Mo made up so quickly after the drunk-kissing thing, because honestly I didn’t see how Shan Shan was at fault, she was the one being drunk-kissed without having asked for it. Anyways, I liked the earnesty of her character, how she worried about practical things. No matter how much she wanted to spend time with Fu Pei, she also cared about him not giving up what he wanted to do just so he could be with her. She was really mature and I liked that a lot.

I’ve seen Rong Rong (Wei Yi’s mom) before in Love til the End of Summer, she seemed kind of familiar to me. I thought she and Xu Mei Ling (Mo Mo’s mom) had a nice dynamic as well, Rong Rong played a more serene mom and Xu Mei Ling was a bit more adamant when it came to getting their kids together. I liked them both equally as they both just fully supported their kids and their relationship. Mo Mo’s mom’s appearance in a scene always made for a funny moment and Wei Yi’s mom was always just really sweet. I liked how they portrayed these two women, and that Wei Yi’s mom was still able to get a little closer to her son.

I see that I recognize Zhou Zi Xin from A Love So Beautiful, but I don’t actually remember her from there. She is so pretty! I liked that they kept her as a nice character and didn’t make her into a jealous bitchy girl that wanted to sabotage the main couple’s relationship. It was nice to have so many mature characters in a Chinese drama for a change!
This also went for Zhang Hao Lun, I really liked his character Zhou Lei even though he started out to be a bit bitter towards Wei Yi, he didn’t succumb to his envy of him but only used it to work harder and get smarter and I appreciated that about him.
I could’t help but think it was funny how Professor Jiang and that dorm manager were married, especially when it became clear that the dorm manager was definitely wearing the pants in their relationship and still the professor was trying to give Wei Yi tips on how to approach Mo Mo, haha. I liked how Jie Bing made the professor appear so approachable, like the students were so at ease with him and even though he was still the teacher, they could really talk to him about anything. Even when the whole thing went down that Zhou Lei had to take care of a kitten but no one could take it, the professor even (albeit reluctantly) let him keep it at the lab and in the end he even took care of it after Wei Yi’s allergies didn’t allow him to take care of it at his house any longer (the fact that Wei Yi even brought it home despite his cat allergy again proved that this guy was too sweet for his own good). I liked all three characters as they all became really supportive people to Wei Yi.

So yeah, that’s about it for this review! I had a good time watching it, it wasn’t a very eventful series but it purely focussed on the romance between the two main leads. Sometimes happiness can be found in the tiniest of things, the tiniest attention to detail or the minimal effort to be there for someone. I really liked how this drama managed to address such details. Wei Yi was a true genius when it came to the details of taking care of Mo Mo and the other way around, although Mo Mo kept enjoying teasing him about it more, like how she confronted him with the fact that he pretended to be allergic to mantis prawns that one time at the beach. They really go through all sorts of situations together, taking care of a kitten, living with a vacuum robot (Circle was their official first child and no one can tell me otherwise), they comforted each other, they bickered with each other, they went through all their daily routines, but they always ended up on the couch together watching a scary movie. I liked the use of recurring themes and objects, like the mantis prawns, the stinky snail noodles that Mo Mo loved to eat and Wei Yi couldn’t stand because of the smell, these were all things that just added to their relationship. It was cute, funny and romantic. It may have lacked depth, but that didn’t take the fun out of it for me. Cute romantic stories are my go-to genre, after all, they’re the best pallet cleansers and the most comfortable kind of watches for me, so I’m not complaining. It’s uncomplicated and uneventful, but in a refreshing way, a true slice of life romance. The relationship between the two leads happens so naturally, and neither of them goes in denial after they find out how they feel, they both face their feelings head on, so there are barely any misunderstandings – the only misunderstandings happen because of Mo Mo’s occasional stubbornness, but that’s usually solved within a single episode. She always ends up with her head on Wei Yi’s shoulder and then all’s well in the world again.

For some reason I really like watching these kind of comfy romance series at the end of the year, as it just makes me feel all cozy and warm inside. So I’m just going to keep watching some more cute romance now! I hope everyone is keeping themselves (and others, maybe?) warm in these cold days at the end of the year, and I will be back soon with a new review. Thanks for reading!

Bye-bee~!

3-nen A-gumi

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

3-nen A-gumi
(3年A組: 今から皆さんは、人質です/Sannen A-gumi: Ima kara minasan ha, hitoshiji desu / Class 3-A: From now on, you are all hostages)
MyDramaList rating: 8.0/10

Hello everybody! Winter is already upon us, it’s getting colder and wetter and I personally try to keep myself as warm and cozy as possible. It’s almost the end of the year, which means I’m doing my best to finish some final watch list items within 2022! This one had been on my list for a while too; I guess I saw Suda Masaki was in it and thought it would be worth it. And let me tell you, it was. Big-time. I’ll try my best to write this review as watching this show was a rollercoaster journey for me and there’s so much to unravel that halfway through I was already thinking, ‘how the heck am I going to write this review?!’ But I’ll give it my best shot. You may notice already that I rated this show higher than any drama I’ve watched this year. It’s without a doubt one of the best Japanese dramas I’ve seen in a very long time. So let’s go and “Let’s think!”

3-nen A-gumi is a 10-episode Japanese drama series that focusses on Class 3-A of Kaiou High School. On the first of March, ten days before the third years graduate, 3-A’s homeroom (and art) teacher Hiiragi Ibuki, nicknamed ‘Bukki/Bookie’ (played by Suda Masaki) locks his classroom and announces to his students that for the next ten days, they will be his hostages. Thinking that it’s some weird joke, the students laugh it off, but then Hiiragi actually sets off a bomb that barricades the exit of the third floor. The rest of the students and teachers are able to evacuate the building immediately, but class 3-A is stuck.
As the 3-A students are now properly alarmed, Hiiragi tells them that now he will start ‘his final lesson’, starting with the question, ‘What makes this class different from other classes?’ As it happens, about half a year earlier, one of the students from 3-A, a popular girl named Kageyama Reina (played by Kamishiraishi Moka) committed suicide. As the best member of the school swimming club, she was caught in a scandal that claimed she had used doping during one of the tournaments, and a video was uploaded online to prove this. From this point on, she was shunned at school and everyone just assumed that this was what drove her over the edge. However, Hiiragi seems convinced that this wasn’t the real reason for Reina’s suicide and he urges his students to work and think together in order to realize what has truly happened.
With a class full of initially reluctant students, including several with lingering attachments to Reina and others who have other secret/indirect involvements in the case, Hiiragi starts out quite aggressively, using serious threats and force to snap his students out of their negligent way of thinking. He even starts out by saying that if they don’t give a correct answer by 8 PM every day, he will kill one of the students, and it initially seems like he means it, as he indeed ‘stabs’ one of them at the end of the first day and drags the body away to the art supply room, after which it isn’t seen again. Whenever the students try to overpower him, he sets off another bomb or makes another threat to keep them at bay.
However, as the days progress and they peel off layer after layer to Reina’s suicide case, it becomes more and more clear to the students what exactly Hiiragi is doing, what his motives are, and what the true meaning behind his actions is and they start acknowledging and respecting their teacher. After all, as it turns out, he is only trying to protect them and open their eyes to the reality of the society they live in. His ‘final lesson’ is designed to teach them the most important lesson of all before they graduate.

As I mentioned in my intro, I consider this drama to be one of the best Japanese dramas I’ve seen so far. I went into it without any expectations in particular, but when I came out I found myself being deeply moved. I even cried at some point. Even though I’ve only spent maybe two weeks finishing this show and the special, it really feels like I’ve been on the entire journey with the characters. I think that’s a very good aspect of it, it really made me feel like I was in that classroom with them and went through the same emotional rollercoaster as the students.

Besides the classroom scenes, we also follow some storylines happening outside of the school, such as the police team that is in charge of the case. One detective in particular, Gunji Masato (played by Shiina Kippei) is determined to take action. As a former teacher himself, he has experienced the loss of a promising student and that’s why he feels connected to this case.
On the other hand, there’s the other teachers, who set up camp in the school gymnasium as they have to deal with some practical issues such as soothing the students’ parents. Teacher Takechi Yamato (Tanabe Seiichi) uses the situation to his advantage to make appearances on TV shows and even manages to obtain a certain degree of popularity and fame – the TV items he appears in soon no longer have anything to do with the hostage case and he’s just starting to build a franchise.

Another very important aspect of this series is the app ‘Mind Voice’ which is being used as a kind of online platform in which everyone can anonymously post comments. Even though on the one hand it’s a fun way to get to know more like-minded people, on the other hand it can also become a viciously aggressive platform, especially when it comes to spreading rumors.
This app played a big part in Reina’s case as well, as the video of her taking doping was posted there and as a result, everyone started bashing Reina for it online.

Let me start by giving some more information about Hiiragi, and then go through the ‘assignments’ one by one. I will already reveal the whole plot from the start, otherwise it’ll take way too long to analyze everything.
When we meet Hiiragi in the first episode, on the day he decides to execute his hostage plan, we still don’t know anything about him. He sometimes mentions something about himself, or what he used to do, but he never reveals anything specific about his past, which leads one to quickly believe that he might actually be a crazy or dangerous person. He doesn’t seem to have any real sentiment towards his students when he starts his ‘lesson’, and this disconnection just makes him feel all the more unpredictable and scary. One minute he might seem nice enough, but then the next he’ll still tell the students that he’ll kill another one of them if they don’t get the assignment right.
So, what’s Hiiragi’s real story? Hiiragi only started being a teacher a couple of years before the whole thing went down. Before teaching, he used to be a suit actor in a tokusatsu superhero franchise. I think the best known example of this is the Kamen Rider series (look it up if you’re interested). Anyways, basically he played a villain character who’s catchphrase was ‘Let’s think!’ At the time, he was dating the daughter of his studio’s director. His girlfriend, Sagara Fumika (Tsuchimura Kaho) also used to be a teacher, but she quit after a fake video was spread about her on Mind Voice and the online comments mentally scarred her. She is currently sitting at home, trying to recuperate. Her father, Hiiragi’s former studio boss, Sagara Takahiko (Yajima Kenichi), is taking care of her. When the hostage situation is featured on the news, he tries to keep Fumika from watching it, as he knows that she’ll feel responsible – what happened to Reina is similar to what happened to her before.
Hiiragi’s past with the superhero franchise is teased and revealed bit by bit throughout the story. First and foremost, he still uses the catchphrase ‘Let’s think!’ in every single lesson. He also at some point mentions that he used to dream about becoming a superhero actor. And then we also get to see short scenes of the franchised show as a kind of foreshadowing for tricks he uses during the hostage situation. For example, some time after he has ‘killed’ the first student, there’s a snippet from the show in which the villain’s hand is severed (all special effects, of course). Not long after, a couple of students confront Hiiragi to prove that he actually killed their classmate, and Hiiragi throws them a severed hand, claiming it’s their classmate’s. Of course, this is a fake hand. He pulls a similar trick later, when he takes away five students to allegedly kill, and causes another explosion, leaving some severed arms and legs among the debris. These arms and legs too turn out to be fake. As it happens, Sagara Takahiko is one of the people who helped Hiiragi to prepare for this big plan – he provided him with a lot of props from the show itself.

Just in-between, I didn’t believe it for a second when Hiiragi started saying he would kill the students. Even when he ‘stabbed’ that one student on the first day, I just didn’t believe it was real. First of all, practically, from the teasers of this show there was nothing about any of the students dying and I’d only ever seen really positive reviews so I just didn’t expect it to be ‘that kind of show’. Secondly, from the start it just didn’t make sense to kill the students, as the whole purpose was to have the class work and think together. It would be purely for shock value to kill them, and it just didn’t make sense why he’d do that. So I didn’t buy it from the start. I did waver after the first episode though, because it did make me go like, ‘…. no way, right?’, but then when the thing happened with the severed hand etc I was like, ‘yeah, right’. That really confirmed to me that it had be fake. No matter how crazy Hiiragi may have appeared, he also acted way too relaxed for someone who just killed a kid. Also, even after telling the police that there were now 28 students left, he still asked them to bring a total of 30 rice balls to the school because the kids were starting to get hungry. In the end, it was just another way to spread a rumor on Mind Voice and make the people believe different things.

Anyways, as he was working as a suit actor, his girlfriend confided in him that this one other teacher at her school kept trying to bribe her. This teacher, none other than Takechi Yamato, was known for recommending students for a sports scholarship to this specific sports college, Gosho University. He was after one of Fumika’s students, and asked her if he could take care of that student, but she knew something was up and kept refusing, even after he started offering her money. When she told him she would sue him, he threatened her and not much later, a fake video popped up on Mind Voice featuring her and a student of hers going somewhere together. I don’t even really know what was suggested through the video, maybe that she was meeting her student in private or something, but in any case, it completely ruined her. The online hate comments made her resign. Hiiragi heard about this, and that Takechi was behind it, and a few years later he applied for a job at the school that Takechi was working at, Kaiou.
It was around this time that Hiiragi was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. Despite his initial intention to keep an eye on Takechi, this diagnose spun Hiiragi’s life upside down and he started to live his life indifferently, not really caring about his revenge anymore. That is, until Reina came to him with her problem. He discovered that Takechi had been doing the same thing all over again, he wanted to recommend Reina to Gosho University, but she knew about his suspicious connections and refused, threatening to sue him. Takechi couldn’t have this and again, not much later, a fake video popped up about Reina using doping, and again, it blew up on Mind Voice.
Fully realizing that Takechi was the culprit of this, and that he was doing it repeatedly, ruining people’s lives with posting fake videos, Hiiragi decided that he had to take action before this would happen again, starting with his own class, the students that abandoned Reina in her darkest moments because of their own negligence. It’s not only to get back at Takechi and make him go through the same thing, but also to teach his students to become more aware of the consequences of their actions, to become more responsible and open-minded. Even though it wasn’t any of the student’s personal fault that this happened to Reina, their negligence did help to get the situation where it ended, it did lead Reina to commit suicide.

As Hiiragi reveals in the end, he had three main objectives.
The first one was to make Takechi realize his own crime by making him go through the same pain that he had inflicted on Fumika and Reina. Hiiragi actually made a fake video in which Takechi was seen entering a building with Reina on the day she committed suicide and uploaded it on Mind Voice, before revealing that it had been edited. However, because of that fake video, everyone on Mind Voice turned their target on Takechi and started bashing him online, causing Takechi to become just as paranoid as Reina before she decided to end her life.
By the way, this was depicted quite cleverly by suddenly showing some scenes literally through the eyes of Takechi. I first didn’t fully understand what this meant, but it was just to show that, ever since Hiiragi diverted the public’s attention to him, he was starting to become more and more paranoid and started hallucinating. He started imagining everyone looking at him as if he was an enemy, he heard the Mind Voice comments out loud as if they were being said by everyone around him. In the flashback of Reina’s suicide we see that Reina was suffering from the exact same mental symptoms.
The second objective was to inform the world about the violence on social media. By using fake videos and changing the situation a couple of times, Hiiragi wanted to make everyone realize how easy it was to get people online excited with only uncertain information. He announces Mind Voice to be the true murderer of Reina. She ended up taking her own life because of the cyber bullying she had to endure after the fake video was uploaded. Even though these commenters didn’t even know her and just mindlessly went along with the hype, they were actually oil to the fire that drove Reina over the edge.
The final reason was that Hiiragi wanted to teach his students the importance of individual and critical thinking. He didn’t want them to become adults who turned a blind eye when people around them were hurting, because that’s what happens in current society – we turn a blind eye because people hurt all over the world, it’s become a normal thing. He wanted to teach his students to be responsible for their own words and actions, to hold back and think, to first make sure whether it’s really the correct thing to do before making a decision that could influence someone’s life. As I mentioned before, even though they weren’t personally responsible, there were definitely some students who could’ve done something before it was too late.
On the final day, Hiiragi holds a livestream on Mind Voice in which he confronts all the SNS users of their contribution to Reina’s death. It’s additionally painful as you can see that even throughout Hiiragi’s passionate speech, the mindless and hurtful comments just keep coming. It doesn’t seem like anyone is taking him seriously and they keep telling him to die and stop blaming everything on them as ‘this is just a safe online space where we can say what we want, don’t put all your accusations on us’, bla bla bla.
The only thing that Hiiragi wanted in the end was to make people aware of their harmful behavior online, how just mindlessly going along with any kind of information, even without actual sources or truth, just for their own entertainment, could lead to a young and promising person like Reina taking her own life.

Let’s go about the 10 days of the hostage plan one by one.
On the first day, the assignment that Hiiragi gives his students is to come up with the reason why Reina killed herself. He also assigns one student in particular to answer him by 8 PM. If that student can’t tell him the correct reason by then, he’ll kill one of the students. The student he points out to answer him is Kayano Sakura (played by Nagano Mei).
Sakura was Reina’s closest friend. She was obsessed with her, as were a lot of people, to the point that she was actually secretly taking pictures of her. Her fascination with her might have seemed a little weird at first, but Reina actually thought it was interesting and asked Sakura if she wanted to be friends. They got along great, up until the point where the fake video was uploaded and Sakura was kind of cornered by her classmates to stay away from Reina, as this rumor would harm her too. However, until the end, Sakura wanted to stay by Reina’s side. She regrets now more than ever the period when she briefly left Reina’s side. Even though she knows there is more at play than just the fake video, Sakura goes along with her classmates’ pushes and tells Hiiragi that the reason is purely the doping accusation. That’s the wrong answer, and even after Sakura comes clean about her true feelings and regrets towards Reina, Hiiragi doesn’t go back on his word that he will kill someone. A very tense situation occurs when someone mentions then that he should just kill Sakura then, and Hiiragi snaps as he’s so frustrated with everyone’s negligence, even after Sakura basically had a mental breakdown in front of them minutes before. He then proceeds to seemingly stab one of the male students, and this is caught on an audio broadcast to the police, as Hiiragi has them listen in every evening.
The rumor that Hiiragi killed a student starts spreading on Mind Voice, and its users start attacking him online by calling him a murderer.
On the second day, Hiiragi specifies that it was someone in Class 3-A who posted the fake video of Reina on Mind Voice, someone who had also been posting really nasty and even intrusive comments about her online. Their assignment of the day is to figure out who this person is, or more ideally, for that person to come clean about it. During the day, there is a collision between Sakura and Usami Kaho (played by Kawaei Rina). Kaho, who used to be Reina’s best friend before she started hanging out with Sakura, still holds resentment towards Sakura for ‘taking away her best friend’. Even though, as we see through flashbacks, it’s clear that Kaho was only posing Reina around as her friend to make herself seem better. This made Reina feel like Kaho wasn’t sincerely being her friend because she cared about her, but more because her popularity rates would go up by being friends with the most popular girl in school. All Reina wanted was just to have a genuine friend who wasn’t idealizing her, and who didn’t care if she wasn’t as perfect or strong as everyone seemed to think. But she was let down, first by Kaho and then by Sakura, who also seemed to see her for this super strong person, which she wasn’t. At the end of the day, the real culprit doesn’t turn themselves in and just when Hiiragi makes a move to kill another student, Sakura steps forward to take the blame. She’s quickly interruped by Kaho, who then confesses to be the person who uploaded the fake video and finds a kind of redemption in her confession. However, despite uploading the video, she claims she wasn’t the person who actually made the video, she just found it as a DVD file in her bag one day and decided to upload it out of spite. As this was the right answer, no one was killed that day.
On the third day, the assignment becomes similar to the previous day: who made the fake video? This time, he also asks the police to cooperate by providing them with the fake video in question. See if they can figure it out. In this episode, some more information is revealed about Reina’s swimming team. Two students who were also from the swimming team are highlighted. Kumazawa Karen (Hotta Mayu) and Makabe Kakeru (Kamio Fuju). They got along fine, although Karen was a bit envious of Reina’s skills as she never managed to beat her. She also had a crush on Kakeru, but Kakeru liked Reina (and probably the other way around). One day, Kakeru got himself beaten up by a gang that was after Reina for pretending to be her boyfriend and his legs got messed up so bad he had to give up swimming. Karen blamed Reina for this, although deep down she knew this wasn’t completely true but she just needed someone to blame. Anyways, the fake video was taken in the swimming club’s locker room. We see Reina taking a pill from a pill bottle and after she leaves the camera person goes to check out the bottle by themselves to reveal it has a doping label on it. It’s visible that the person taking the bottle out of the locker is wearing a jacket that belongs to the swimming club and it has some stains on it. The police try to figure out where the stain came from by inquiring about what each of the swimming club members had for lunch that particular day, and come to the final conclusion that it has to be Karen. However, she denies it. And that’s when Satomi Kaito (Suzuki Jin) comes into light. As the most popular guy in class, Kaito has a fan club of girls in Class 3-A, but he actually also had a crush on Reina. He was rejected by her, and this instilled a grudgeful feeling within him – men are fragile when it comes to their pride. Think about it, Kakeru literally lost his physical ability to swim but Kaito just couldn’t handle a rejection. During the confrontation, Kaito admits to filming the video (he borrowed Kakeru’s jacket), but he wasn’t the person who edited it or put it in Kaho’s bag. Even though Kaito confessed, since the police’s answer was wrong, this time Hiiragi’s selects five students that he will kill, Kaito being one of them. This is when he fakes blowing five students up using those fake severed arms and legs.
On the fourth day, the assignment is to identify who suggested Kaito to make a fake video, as that’s what he previously confessed. A fellow student put the idea in his head to make the video. This time, the culprit confesses immediately. It’s Kai Hayato (Katayose Ryota), the alleged delinquent of 3-A. He easily announces that he was the one who edited the video, but Hiiragi doesn’t believe him. Yes, he was the one who told Kaito to take the video, but he wasn’t the one who actually edited it. After this day, an even bigger plot is revealed, namely the involvement of a dangerous gang called Berumuzu. It turns out that Kai was being threatened by the leader of this gang and made to do errands for him as he was financially struggling at home. With a sick mother and two younger siblings to take care of, Hayato had to give up his own dream of dancing to take care of his family. One time, a former dance crew member asked him to arrange a meeting between Reina and this ‘senpai’ of his, who was a big fan of hers, and he would get paid for it. When he brought Reina to the meeting point, it turned out to be kidnapping situation, but Hayato helped Reina escape. Despite being jealous of her as she was able to do what she loved to do while he couldn’t continue dancing, he didn’t mean for her to get actually hurt like that. In any case, to make up for that, the Berumuzu leader asked him to get him a video of Reina, and he did it, but he’s too scared to expose the gang because they would hurt his family if he told on them. The day ends in a heartful talk between Hayato and his best friend Ishikura Kota (Sakumoto Takara), urging him to confide in his friends when he’s struggling as he always has people around him who will help and support him.
While this was going on during days 2, 3 and 4, the Mind Voice users started getting excited and turned Hiiragi into a criminal online based on the leaked information about the increasing murder victims.
From here on, Hiiragi’s health starts deteriorating fast and he starts passing out more frequently. While he’s unconscious, the other students, now convinced their classmates are still alive, start searching for them, but when they find them, the six students refuse to even leave the school anymore as they are now in the loop of Hiiragi’s intentions. Another student, Aizawa Hiroki (Hagiwara Riku) turns out to have been acting as a spy for Hiiragi, as he was instructed to secretly post updates about what was happening inside on Mind Voice to stir up the public. Hiroki was making a documentary about Reina while she was still alive, and Hiiragi asked him to assist him in the whole plan and use all the footage he’d shot so far. Hiroki was the only one who knew about the hostage plan in advance. During a conflict between the students whether they should or shouldn’t stay in the school, it is also revealed that Suwa Yuzuki (Imada Mio) was actually dating Berumuzu’s leader. She wanted to become a model, and he became sort of like a sponsor figure to her, enabling her to get certain modelling jobs etc. After learning about her boyfriend’s involvement in Reina’s case, Yuzuki comes clean about this relationship and hands over a pendant belonging to her boyfriend, which contains a USB file with a list of all the fake video requests Berumuzu has received. From that file, they learn that it was one of their teachers that requested the fake video on Reina.
After this information and the fact that Hiiragi didn’t actually kill any of the students is revealed, the Mind Voice users start praising Hiiragi and even call him a hero.
After it’s revealed that one of the teachers is behind the fake video, the students are left to speculate who it could be. Which teacher would do something like this? Here, Minakoshi Suzune (Fukuhara Haruka) speaks up. As a former member of the swimming club, she was allegedly forced to quit by coach Tsuboi (Kamio Yu). It seemed like he didn’t approve of her dating as it interfered with her swimming practice and he quite harshly kicked her off the team. Suzune has always had lingering resentments about this, and is quick to point her finger at Tsuboi for ‘probably doing something similar to Reina’. She asks one girl who managed to keep her cellphone even though they were supposed to hand them all in to take a video of her accusing Mr. Tsuboi and post it on Mind Voice. During the final confrontation of the day, Suzune is cornered as Mr. Tsuboi’s innocence is revealed. Her mom had called him in on the results from a checkup she’d gotten at the hospital. The hospital informed him that Suzune was suffering from a serious heart condition triggered by excessive physical exercise. This is why Tsuboi, although unnecessarily harshly, had to throw her off the team, only because he knew she would be harmed if she continued swimming. As Suzune was not aware of this she immediately regrets making the confession video, only to be relieved when Hiiragi tells her he stopped the other girl from posting the video just in time. He doesn’t let her off easy though, because this is exactly the lesson he means to teach: to think and find true proof before posting something online that could be extremely harmful to someone’s life and reputation.
I personally found this one of the most intense confrontations, when Hiiragi nearly assaulted Suzune and pushed her up against the wall in order to get it through to her what her video could have caused. Even though I get the importance of that lesson, he did really manage to get it across in a very forceful way. Again, I guess it was the only way to make his students become truly aware.
At the end of the day, on Hiiragi’s order, Sagara Takahiko uploads a video on Mind Voice that shows a man guiding a student looking a lot like Reina from the back inside a building on the day she committed suicide. Hiiragi announces to the others outside that he has now cornered the teacher who ordered the fake video, and identifies Takechi Yamato as that teacher.
As soon as Hiiragi reveals that Takechi is the teacher responsible, the Mind Voice users turn their suspicion toward him.
From the moment Takechi is being accused of being the culprit, there are two students who refuse to believe his involvement. These students are Seo Yudai (Mochizuki Ayumu) and Uoyama Hana (Tomita Miu). The reason why they defend him is because they too were benefitting from Takechi’s generosity to recommend them to Gosho University. As two students with limited opportunities, this recommendation means the world to them, as they’re finally being given a chance they otherwise would never get. While Hiiragi urges them to then try and prove Takechi’s innocence by themselves, we get to see how Takechi slowly starts crumbling under the comments that are starting to spread about him. The truth about Fumika’s experience with Takechi is also revealed and Yudai and Hana are forced to come to terms with the fact that despite his ‘benevolence’ towards them, Takechi truly meant no good. They may just as well have become the next victims of his shady recommendation scheme.
Even though Takechi is first under suspicion because of the outfit the person in the video is wearing, as it matches something Takechi has worn on TV before, but at the end of this day, a picture is released that zoomed in on a reflective mirror near the entrance of the building and shows that it’s Takechi coming out of that building.
When this is revealed to be actually Takechi, the Mind Voice users start cornering and attacking Takechi online.
I have to say that I was personally still suspicious, because even though Takechi seemed to be guilty of something at this point, I was still interested why he reacted so confused and why he kept saying that wasn’t him in the video, even though there was now ‘proof’ that it was him. I kept thinking there was still something not totally right. Either that or he had an evil twin.
On the eighth day, while Takechi was becoming more and more paranoid as his confession to ordering the video with Berumuzu was broadcasted online, two students belonging to the video editing club (or something similar) realize something is up with the video. Horibe Runa (Mori Nana) and Nishizaki Soma (Imai Yuki) discover that the video was edited, and are able to peel off the layer that was placed over Takechi’s face – revealing it to be actually Hiiragi himself.
In a flasback, it is revealed that Runa and Soma had previously discovered that Reina’s video was fake, that the bottle label – which actually contained regular vitamin supplements – was edited with a label that suggested doping meds. However, Soma urged Runa to keep it quiet and leave it at that as the rumors had already run their course. Truthfully, Soma was actually the person who contributed to the spreading of the doping rumors on Mind Voice. Publicizing that it was fake would just harm his own credibility. However, now both of them felt equally bad about not stopping the rumors or revealing that the video was fake before and are determined to not make the same mistake again after realizing the true repercussions. Runa stops Soma before he posts the video revealing Hiiragi to be the true culprit and this is when the whole class finally starts doing what Hiiragi had wanted all along: they start discussing the whole thing together, they think together critically and carefully, and use their imagination to come to a conclusion on what to do. At the end of the day, Hiiragi is cornered by Detective Gunji, but is surprisingly saved by his former suit actor collegue, who actually dressed up as the superhero character Garm Phoenix to save Hiiragi and help him to now take Gunji as his hostage.
In the meantime, the Mind Voice users are still relentlessly criticizing Takechi online despite there being no real evidence.
Even though the students decided not to post the fake video, Sagara Takahiko does. The video revealing it’s Hiiragi, not Takechi, coming out of the building spreads on Mind Voice and guides everyone into a new direction. At the end of this day, Hiiragi reveals all his main objectives to his students and promises to set them free the next day. He needed to make himself the enemy of the nation before he could step out to reveal himself to his main audience: Mind Voice.
As soon as they see it’s Hiiragi in the video instead of Takechi, the Mind Voice users immediately switch their target to him again and resume attacking Hiiragi online.
During the night of March 9, Hiiragi tells his entire story to Gunji, and the next morning he goes up to the roof to finally confront the true culprit: the Mind Voice users. He reveals that the video in which he appears was, in fact, also a fake video that he made and he used this as yet another example to tell the Mind Voice users that they go along so easily with unreliable information. He gives an overview of all the tricks he used to sway them throughout those ten days (I mentioned these observations in bold in the above paragraphs) and urges them to realize how many times in the past few days they actually changed their opinions. Just by relying on unreliable information, how many cruel things have they posted, how many people have they insulted? The whole reason he started this incident was because he wanted to bring to light this brainless behavior of the people online.
While he’s giving his speech, with the help of Gunji the students manage to break their way out of the bombarded obstruction in their hallway and make it just in time to save Hiiragi when he nearly throws himself off the school roof. This final action of his is partly to show Sakura that she needs to let go of her guilt. In fact, Sakura was there when Reina jumped off the building. She witnessed for herself how Reina couldn’t take it anymore but she grabbed her hand when her friend jumped. She grabbed her hand, but Reina urged her to let go. Sakura didn’t want to let go, but after it happened she made herself believe that she let go of Reina’s hand because she truly believed it would put her friend at ease. Anyways, by doing the same thing with Hiiragi, grabbing his hand after he’d jumped, and getting help from her classmates in pulling him back up, Hiiragi convinces her that she was never at fault for anything, as she truly wanted both Reina and him to live. Hiiragi is consequently arrested and the students are finally able to get out of the school.

A few years later, Class 3-A has a reunion in their old classroom to watch the documentary about Reina that Hiroki finished. It is revealed that by then, Hiiragi has already passed away, despite making it through one more year before succumbing to his cancer.

I think I was able to go through all major events, because there was so much happening in just those 10 episodes. I haven’t even gotten to all the stuff that was happening in the police department, but I think these were the most important things. The one final thing I want to mention was that Hiiragi had not been planning this whole event alone. I mentioned he’d gotten help from Sagara Takahiko before, and that Hiroki was also an insider to the plan, but Hiiragi also had help from an insider at the police station, Officer Igarashi Toru (played by Otomo Kohei). Igarashi is revealed to be Fumika’s biological father, even though she herself doesn’t know that because Sagara Takahiko has always cared for her and raised her as his own daughter. In any case, he agrees to help out with the plan after Hiiragi emphasizes that this is not simply a revenge action against Takechi – it’s to make sure something like this never happens again.

So all in all, yeah, a lot happens. There’s a lot of intense events and collisions between students in the classroom, as well as many funny and heartwarming moments. I personally lived for Hana’s infatuation with Sunaga Ken (Furukawa Tsuyoshi) and the bonds that were formed between all the students. As said before, even though several students were highlighted throughout the assignments, every single student had a distinct role and personality. Everyone was mentioned by name at least once and it was very clear who stood by who, who was friends with whom, this was given value at any given moment. I’m talking about simple things like the Kaito fangirls sticking up for him, students running to their friends after finding them safe and alive and how there were regular romantic tensions as well, and also at least one couple. It was really well-structured and it was also very clear how every single student changed from episode 1 to 10. I genuinely feel like I have to watch the whole thing again after finishing it, to see even more clearly what Hiiragi was doing from the start. But comparing how negligent and careless the students’ way of thinking was in the beginning to the final episodes when they finally truly understood what Hiiragi was trying to teach them, that in itself was already a really powerful message. Hiiragi managed to open the minds of 29 people within 10 days, and all he wanted was for the Mind Voice users to come to their senses in less time. If only it worked like that.
But I really liked the ending. Even though, as Sakura also points out during that reunion, nothing has really changed in society, and nothing has really changed on Mind Voice, we are shown one single person, someone who had been appearing as a Mind Voice user several times before, excitedly adding to the harsh comments. We see that, under the narration of Sakura wishing that Hiiragi’s message may have at least reached one single person, this person changes his mind. We see him typing out a hate comment on Mind Voice but then deciding not to post it. And I think that was a very powerful way to end the series, because it just concluded Hiiragi’s objective. He did manage to at least reach one person with his message. And you know what they say, it all starts with a single lit candle.

So besides all the drama that happened within the classroom itself and the police office, we also see how the other teachers are coping with the situation. In the beginning, I wasn’t really sure what to think as Takechi’s behavior was so ridiculous. From the start I didn’t fully trust him as he was the first person to avert his gaze and smile to himself while muttering ‘This is starting to look interesting’ when the whole hostage thing just started. He immediately jumped on the opportunity to promote himself as being the most representative teacher of this age, which was on the one hand amusing but on the other hand it really made me go, ‘Is this guy for real?’ Like, it was crazy how an opportunist would arise in this situation, especially when word got around that Hiiragi was actually killing the students. But in the end, it did explain a part of his character. He was conspiring with the principal of Gosho University to get as many recommended students as possible, but most of his recommended students would quit after a year or so because they couldn’t take it. When people started finding out about his connections and openly obstructed him from gaining more recommendations, he started conspiring with Berumuzu, asking them to help him corner certain people for going against him. He was living his life entirely on his own terms, treating students as mere commodities. As long as he could get money out of recommending students, he didn’t care if they actually made it or not and for that he definitely deserved to be locked up. The other teachers, despite not being very useful in the whole solving of the case at all, are positioned to be the spectators that exist outside of Mind Voice. Even though Mind Voice is everywhere and it’s being used as the main outlet of information from the classroom, the other teachers have more practical things to deal with, such as the students’ parents and they also have to cooperate with the police when they’re there. There are a few moments when they are involved in the assignments, and in the assignment of figuring out which teacher requested the video of Reina, they are also highlighted, especially Mr. Tsuboi. Even though the teachers mostly attributed to the more comical side of the show, it was definitely expressed that they cared sincerely about the school and the students. The principal showed great compassion to Takechi, even after discovering what he’d done, and he also helped Suzune realize that Mr. Tsuboi had always been thinking about her wellbeing. Honestly, all the characters were highlighted in their own way without it becoming too much, and that was a really strong aspect of this show.

If people only knew what was really going on. That was one of Hiiragi’s main arguments. If only people had known about what was fake and what wasn’t. Despite not blaming his students personally or directly for Reina’s death, it wasn’t strange that Hiiragi felt the need to be forceful with them, as they really did need to be taught a lesson, and this was the only way to make them fully realize what they had done and what they should have done. Sure, his approaches were very intense and I still don’t fully see the need of him pretending to kill people in order to get their attention, but it also proved how desperate he was in gaining the attention that was needed to face this problem head-on. His harsh lessons every single day were what was needed for the students, for ALL students, to fully realize what kind of consequences their mindless words and actions could have on the people around them.

Before going on to my cast comments, I want to briefly talk about the special, which I watched right after the main show. I just wasn’t ready to say goodbye to the characters yet, that’s how much impact this show had on me. The special is called ‘Class 3-A: From now on, this is everyone’s special graduation ceremony’ (3年A組: 今から皆さんだけの、卒業式です/3 Nen A Gumi: Ima kara minasan dake no, Sotsugyoshiki desu). It takes place on March 10, right after Hiiragi has been taken away by the police. The students are all back in the classroom and Hiroki suddenly discovers a video file on Hiiragi’s laptop that remained after all the other files were deleted. It’s called ‘Graduation Ceremony’ and it’s a video that Hiiragi recorded somewhere during the past ten days. Through the video, he orders Hiroki to take out the box of graduation certificates under his desk and he orders Sakura to go to the art room to start preparing some things. Then, he starts calling out all students’ names one by one, in alphabetical order, to comment on their personality during the past ten days and to ask them to tell him their dreams for the future.
In-between, they move to the art room which Sakura has been instructed to decorate just so that it seems like an actual graduation ceremony and they also find drawings that Hiiragi has made of each and every one of them, every single student’s smiling portrait.
Can I just say that I nearly bawled my eyes out during this special? It’s only two episodes, but the way every single student is given one last moment in the spotlight, one last chance to remark on their experiences and to voice their ambitions for the future was just so wonderful. It really highlighted how much attention Hiiragi had paid to each single student during those ten days, in-between all the dramatic events. He remarked something about every single person’s character and behavior and it was immensely emotional.
Despite it being a special, and while I believe that some people may have chosen not to watch it, it really felt like an important point of closure to the whole series, because graduation was something that it had all led up to. In any case, I’m very glad I watched it, because it just made me love every single student more, even the people who hadn’t been featured that much before. I thought it just showed so much respect to each actor, as well, it give them all equality and didn’t make one character seem more important than the other.

Okay, so let’s move on to the cast comments now! For the students, I’m not going to mention every single one of them but just some that jumped out to me in particular. That’s not to say that they all performed really well! I was very impressed with the overall acting skills in this drama, it never once became annoying for me.

If Suda Masaki was one of the main reasons why I started this show, he definitely proved me right. This man is PHENOMENAL. I’ve loved him in every single thing I’ve seen him in (and he is in a LOT of things), but here he really blew me away. Things I’ve seen him in include Rich Man Poor Woman, Shinigami-kun, Mondai no Aru Restaurant, Tamiou, Love Song, Jimi ni Sugoi! and Todome no Kiss. His versatility, his acting range is almost scary good. Because even when he legit freaked me the heck out a couple of times, I never stopped smiling behind my screen because I was enjoying his acting so much. The most amazing thing, and I’d really have to rewatch this show to make sure of that, was that he was so good at hiding Hiiragi’s true feelings. For example, at certain moments his eyes would shoot fire, while later it’d be revealed that in those moments he felt really bad for scaring his students so much. And the look in his eyes when he saw Fumika as soon as he came out of the school building, the way he looked at her truly broke my heart. Struggling to see his plan through to the end while simultaneously gradually succumbing to his disease made him so fanatic, so desperate, and he may have come across as a crazy person at times, but this was the first time we actually saw him look into the eyes of someone he loved so much. Seriously, his performance gave me goosebumps. Suda Masaki is incredible and he proved that one more time in this show.

I’ve seen Nagano Mei before in Itsuka Kono Koi wo Omoidashite Kitto Naiteshimau and Koe Koi. She looked really familiar to me, although it’s been too long since I watched these shows for me to really remember her performance there. Anyways, as she was the only student being featured in the poster I kind of assumed from the start that she would be a prominent character, maybe even the person that it all came down to. Much to my surprise, her involvement was already dealt with in the first episode, and from then on she just remained the most loyal student to Hiiragi, as she was convinced of his good intentions. She was also the only one to see through his facade during one assignment. At the beginning of the day he had said that they would play a game called ‘Believe it or Don’t Believe it’, and had explained that whenever he had his glasses on, he was speaking the truth, and when he had them off, he was lying. After going through a whole dramatic episode which left everyone completely distraught, she was the only one who remarked that he’d done exactly as he’d announced: he’d spoken the truth when he was wearing his glasses, and he’d lied when he wasn’t wearing them. The rest of the class just forgot about the game as Hiiragi’s acting was so believable, but because Sakura kept this in mind, she was able to see the truth in his behavior. I’d imagined Sakura to maybe be one of the influential or popular girls in class, but she was actually kind of an underdog. Until she became friends with Reina, even though she wasn’t bullied or anything, she seemed kind of a loner, also with her fascination with pro-wrestling and stuff that usually put people off. I thought it was really interesting how Sakura’s character gradually developed throughout the ten days. Her character also makes me want to watch the whole thing all over again, as I want to pay more attention to her behavior after understanding all that she’s been through. She was always soft spoken and introvert, but she never became a pushover and she never became annoying or anything like that. I think she performed really well.

I really thought I recognized Katayose Ryota from something, but it turns out that I don’t. I guess he just looks like someone then? He hasn’t even done that many dramas yet, according to DramaWiki. Also, he’s a member of J-Pop group which… I can’t say I’m surprised. Kai (I’ve been calling him Hayato during my review so as not to break the consistency of addressing everyone by their first name, but he’s mainly called ‘Kai’ in the show) first seemed to be this typical delinquent student, chilling in the back of the class with his buddies, goofing around. It’s mentioned in the first episode that he’d once gotten involved with the police before. At the time it just seemed like a remark to emphasize his reputation at school but later of course we find out it’s because he got involved in that almost-kidnapping case in which he saved Reina. I loved how there were all these tiny references and foreshadowing elements before you even knew that it would come back to be properly explained. Anyways, Kai was definitely a good guy. It didn’t take him very long to acknowledge the seriousness of what Hiiragi was doing and he just went along with it at some point. Also when he immediately confessed to being the person who came with the idea of making the video about Reina, he must have been so done with another excruciating day of discussions, poor guy. But I think it was a very major element for his character development that he was confronted with the fact that his buddies really wanted him to rely on them. All in all, I loved the fact that there were so many guys crying in this show, it gave me hope for humanity. Kai really learned his lesson and even though it definitely softened him, it still didn’t change who he was and I think it’s really great that he kept that consistency in his acting performance.

I need to mention Tomita Miu because I’ve analyzed her performance before in Switched. She was one of the few actresses that I’d seen in a drama before. I LOVED Hana. She was such a funny, lovable and relatable character and I was so happy that for once, there wasn’t ever a single mention of her being ‘bigger’. Honestly, in Asian dramas, when someone is ‘bigger’, it’s always pointed out at some point. But in Hana’s case, that was not important. She also wasn’t an underdog, she wasn’t bullied, she had enough friends and was liked by everyone. It was a very big contrast to her original character in Switched, and I really loved seeing this side of her. As I mentioned before, her infatuation with Sunaga threw me every single time, and also how they ended up together and during the reunion it was revealed that she’d confessed 12 times before he finally caved. I really loved her character and think she also got more than enough opportunity to show different sides to her acting. Go Tomita Miu!

I didn’t know Kamishiraishi Moka, but what I found so interesting in this show was that, even though all her scenes were flashbacks, it still felt like she was there. She was still a part of the class, her empty desk an eternal reminder of that. She still very much felt like an active part of the show, even during the hostage situation when she wasn’t even physically there.
I couldn’t help but feel that Reina was really lonely. Everyone at school looked at her as some sort of perfect human being, and when she tried to make friends with someone they’d also put her on a pedestal. I think Karen and Kakeru might have been the only people that didn’t act like that, especially Kakeru, who really liked her for who she was and not for her skills and reputation at school and swimming. It was painful to see how she kept being let down by her friends, she really just wanted a genuine friend who liked her for who she was and didn’t have so many expectations of her based on her reputation. She knew herself that she wasn’t a perfect and strong person, and she wanted people to acknowledge that. It was heartbreaking to see her break free of Sakura’s grasp as she was trying to save her – she had really reached her limit. On the other hand, although she was hurt by her classmates, she never truly blamed anyone for what happened to her. Heck, she even blamed herself for neglecting Kaho and writing to Sakura that they shouldn’t be friends anymore. It was scary that so many shady people had their marks on her, too. Like, that gang that just came to seek her out and beat up Kakeru just because they thought he was her boyfriend? She really became a victim of something beyond her power, even involving a gang leader that she didn’t even know of. I think it was really powerful when Hiiragi urged his students to understand that what happened to Reina could have happened to any one of them.

I’ve only seen Imada Mio before in Hana Nochi Hare, that’s probably why she seemed familiar to me. I liked Yuzuki’s character because she wasn’t a stereotypical kind of female character. On the one hand, I believe she was considered to be quite popular, she had many friends and she was aiming to become a model. On the other hand, she was also someone you shouldn’t mess with. She spoke up against the guys many times, not scared of anything. This was only confirmed after the revelation that she was actually dating Berumuzu’s leader, but she was still brave enough to sell him out, because she saw that it was not right what was done to Reina. Even though she didn’t even specifically like Reina, she wouldn’t wish that upon her and that made her a very humane character. I loved the scene where Hiiragi told her that she didn’t do anything wrong. I thought her character made a real impact in this show, as it didn’t just make her the scary popular girl, but you could also see her bonding with her friends throughout the whole thing.

The thing is, up until now I’ve always had a bit of an aversion against Fukuhara Haruka. I only know her from Good Morning Call but she kind of annoyed me there, to be honest. I think it’s mostly her voice and the fact that I can always see that she’s acting. Of course they’re all acting, but she just has it plasted on her a bit more obviously. And in the beginning, I also felt that from her in this show. She was initially highlighted because she was part of a couple and her boyfriend was the first person to get ‘killed’ by Hiiragi, but after they were reunited and her whole issue with Tsuboi came along, I’ve come to change my mind about her a bit. The confrontation part, where she’s literally pushed against the wall while Hiiragi was screaming at her and she just stood there and cried, her silent acting was really good. Probably better than any of her dialogue parts. (I found a great picture of this scene on MyDramaList, so I’ll just add it for reference.) It was the first time I saw her so genuinely expressing emotion without adding something extra to it. I found it interesting to see her as part of this show as I’d taken her for more of a typical romantic comedy actress, but that in itself was enough to make her stand out. In the end, I have to say I saw a new side of her and it has made me realize that she might be a better actress than I initially gathered.

Finally, I just want to give a shoutout to a couple more students that were mostly side characters but still really touched me in a way. First, Mori Nana, who played Runa. She really hadn’t been featured as much before, but when the episode came with her and Soma in which they revealed that the video was fake, her acting was so realistic I almost forgot it was acting. It really felt like how someone in this situation would actually talk and express her emotions, as if it wasn’t scripted, so that was amazing.
And then there was Sakumoto Takara, who played Kota, Kai’s closest friend who felt so hurt when he found out his friend had been carrying all those burdens by himself and who just came to hug him after his whole involvement with the gang was revealed. That was true friendship right there, and I remember just feeling so grateful that this series allowed such sincere expressions of emotions and feelings between men without it becoming something ‘soft or feminine’. And I just generally really liked Kota’s vibe, and also how he kept trying to get with Runa and she kept brushing him off, lol. My guy was just going for it.
Finally, I want to give one final shoutout to my boy Fuwa Kodai who was a sobbing mess throughout the whole show. Seriously, in every scene he was crying and also during the graduation special. I just wanted to give him a big hug.
Here’s to crying men/men showing emotion in Asian dramas!! I’m all here for it!

I don’t think I’ve seen Shiina Kippei in anything before, but I liked that they made him so sympathetic to the case. He was really handling from personal feelings, he’d lost a promising student and decided to become a police officer to stop these things from happening again. I think that he, if he’d also been in the loop of Hiiragi’s plan, would’ve agreed to help him out as well. He may have looked like any grumpy old man, but he definitely had his heart in the right place and I liked that after hearing Hiiragi out, he just went to help the students get through the obstruction. He was a nice and dependable character and I wish he could’ve stayed on the case through the end (he was taken off it at some point, I believe after they gave the wrong answer to an assignment).

Otomo Kohei also looked familiar to me, but I’ve also not seen anything with him before. It was a nice surprise that Igarashi was Hiiragi’s accomplice, and he managed to keep it up for quite some time (I didn’t like the guy who replaced him, lol). It was also funny that they made him to be Fumika’s biological father, but I wonder if that was just to give him a reason to work along with the plan, otherwise they would’ve had to make up a different reason why Sagara Takahiko would’ve known him. Anyways, it was good as long as he stood behind Hiiragi’s intentions. I think he was a nice character as well.

I’ve seen Tanabe Seiichi in several things before, he also has a very familiar face. I know him from Kimi ha Petto, 11-nin mo Iru!, Higashino Keigo Mysteries, Dear Sister and Boku, Unmei no Hito desu. I feel like he always plays sympathetic characters, so it was funny to see him as a two-faced character for a change. Someone who would smile and honestly not admit to doing anything wrong while he was literally commiting a crime. It gave a new layer to him as an actor, in my opinion, it was interesting to see. I’m glad that even though it seemed so unlikely that he would realize his own mistake, he did come to Fumika in the end to apologize, and with that one of Hiiragi’s objectives was concluded, at least, to make Takechi realize the crime he’d committed.

I realize now that I’ve seen Tsuchimura Kaho before in Koi ga Heta demo Ikitemasu, and I remember watching this but it’s also as if I unlocked a new memory, lol. Anyways, Fumika looked familiar. I was really wondering what had happened to her, and it was funny how in the beginning we as the viewers were also being led to believe different things, because in the beginning it really felt as if Hiiragi himself had been some sort of crazy abusive boyfriend or something. Even her father initially told the police that Hiiragi was a terrible person. In the end, that was all part of the plan, of course, because Hiiragi needed to be made into an enemy in order to get the whole nation’s attention. Anyways, I liked that Fumika wasn’t just written to be a helpless woman stuck at home, she really wanted to help however she could, but her father wouldn’t let her talk to the police. She managed to get away relatively unscathed as in, she didn’t have to lose her life, but you could still see how much it scarred her nonetheless. You may not see it on someone from the outside, but sometimes wounds of the mind are even more serious than physical wounds. Physical wounds can heal with some time and ointment, but there’s no bandaid to paste on such an untouchable thing as the mind.

I’ve seen Yajima Kenichi in Sunao ni Narenakute and Tantei no Tantei, so that’s probably what I recognize him from. I found his character really enigmatic, for some reason. I guess it’s just because he also held his true feelings about the case a secret at first. He had been an accomplice from the start, he supported Hiiragi fully but he also wanted to keep his daughter out of it by telling the police he had nothing to do with Hiiragi. He was a good ally to have, he ended up posting several important videos to Mind Voice on the instruction of Hiiragi himself. From that point on, when it was all revealed to be part of a bigger plan in which multiple people were involved, I became really intrigued of how it would be concluded. I also found him a really good fit for the director of superhero franchise, I don’t know why but his face looks like he could be character in one of those things himself, haha.

Okay, so now that I’ve concluded my cast comments, let me just conclude my thoughts. As I’ve already mentioned several times before, I thought this show was really good all in all. I was intrigued from the start and the deeper it went, the better it got. I love how they still managed to keep it light in-between the tense parts, because those bits for me were a constant reminder of that everything would be okay in the end, that Hiiragi wasn’t going to really harm anyone, and that everything would play out fine. Also, it made it more enjoyable rather than keeping it angsty and intense from beginning to end. The balance of light and heavy was what kept me on the edge of my seat. I remember that part when all the students kind of let their guard down after realizing they weren’t in any actual danger and they got their phones back etc, but then Hiiragi still announced to the police that he would kill 10 students if they got the assignment wrong and it was like, ‘…wait, we’ve established that he’s kidding, right?’ Hiiragi was just so unpredictable. Even when it would feel safe one moment, he could still snap or lash out the next and that really kept everyone on their toes.
The structure was really good, and it also had some surprising elements in it. For example, when an episode suddenly started from Takechi’s perspective, or when episode 9 suddenly started with the reunion a year later, even though we were still in the middle of the hostage situation. I thought those were interesting choices, but the dots were always connected by the end of the episode or the next one. I liked how small references and foreshadowings were made to trivial things that would only start making sense later – like, the fact that they thought all these tiny details out and came back to explain them later was really clever writing.
I liked that every single character was highlighted, among the students I really felt like no one was less than the other. I’ve never seen a high school setting drama in which every single student was given a proper character and position within the class, not just as filler characters. I think that was a really original and challenging setup, to really create a class of 29 students who all had to get their moment of redemption in one way or another. There was a really good balance of character types, from loud to more quiet students, from fighters to observers. Hiiragi treated every single student equally, no matter whether it was a boy or a girl, he treated them like people, and this was sometimes really merciless but otherwise it really felt like he saw them as the proper human beings that they would turn out to be after truly understanding his lesson. The graduation special just felt like a cherry on top of the cake that was the main show.
I was really impressed, I had not expected such a deeply layered show with such a powerful message at the end. And I also appreciate how it didn’t idealize anything at the end, after everything was concluded. The truth is that no matter who preaches this, and we all know it’s true, it will probably never change. People will always keep hiding behind their screens, they will always keep commenting hateful things without thinking twice about it or feel any guilt towards the person they’re targeting. So I find it promising enough when it manages to reach at least one person. It all starts with one person.

So yeah, I stand behind my ranking of this series, it just got better and better and it really has been one of the best shows I’ve watched in a while, especially within this year. I would recommend it very much. It has a great balance of psychological drama and comedy, it fits right into my alley. And I’m definitely keeping an eye out for more Suda Masaki dramas because this guy is a flipping genius.

So now I’m going back to something lighter again, there’s a limit to how much psychological heavy stuff I can handle in a row, haha. Anyways, I hope I was able to make this another worthwhile review and I’ll try to finish a couple more reviews before the end of the year. In the meantime, let’s not forget to take with us the message that 3-A provided us with.
Let’s keep thinking clearly and critically, let’s use our imagination and not let ourselves be swept away with the Mind(less) Voice(s), both online and in our heads. Whenever we come across a situation that seems off, let’s not judge too quickly.
“Let’s Think!” 😉






The Sound of Magic

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

The Sound of Magic
(안나라수마나라 / Annara Sumanara)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hello everyone! It’s getting colder, the festive holidays are approaching and this is the time of year that I always long for some warmth and wonder. Which made this series the ideal choice for an end-of-year show! My main reason for moving this one up on my list was because I really wanted to start watching Actor’s Meet, and this was the only one I hadn’t seen yet. Still, it definitely surprised me in many ways. I didn’t really know what to expect of it, apart that it was about magic, but the story itself turned out to have a much deeper theme and message than I’d anticipated. I’m excited to share my thoughts about this one. I actually forced myself to wait with finishing it – if I hadn’t I would’ve finished it in two days, probably. I thought I needed to take my time with it and not rush through it, as it deserved to be waited for.
Again, I don’t expect this to be a really long review as the show itself is so short. Overall, I liked it, especially when the darker themes came to light, but there’s also a couple of things I wish to point out which I thought could’ve been explained better or that I would’ve liked to get a clearer answer to. So let’s get to it, or should I first ask: “Do you… believe in magic?”

The Sound of Magic is a 6-episode Netflix K-Drama with each episode lasting about 1 hour and 10 minutes. In my experience, each episode felt like a short movie. The main story is about Yoon Ah Yi (played by Choi Sung Eun), a high school student with a very miserable life. She was forced to become an adult way too soon, as not only did her mother abandon her at a young age, but her father also left her and her younger sister to fend for themselves after he got himself into heaps of debt. Ah Yi now has to take care of herself and her younger sister Yoo Yi (played by Hong Jung Min). She has to take care of all the finances while she’s simultaneously trying to perform well at school. She has several part-time jobs, but of course none of those pay enough. At the moment the series starts, she has no idea where her father is as he barely contacts his children, and she’s trying to figure out her life as she goes, getting more and more exhausted every day. As a result, she also starts neglecting her appearance and this makes her an easy target at school for bullies who make fun of her obsession with money. It just seems like she’s a minority in all aspects, she doesn’t come from a wealthy background, even if she performs well in school she’ll always be pushed aside for students from better off families, she has to scrape the money from her part-time jobs together to even buy a bag of rice and a new set of stockings. Nothing seems to be going her way and it’s exhausting.
That is, until she meets a mysterious man at the abandoned theme park in town, who claims to be a real magician (Ji Chang Wook). There have been rumors going around at Ah Yi’s school about this ‘crazy’ magician, but no one had ever seen him in person. Ah Yi is initially very wary of him, as she’s wary of adults in general after being constantly let down by them. But the magician keeps appearing and even helps her out a few times. When her boss from the convenience store suddenly becomes touchy, he makes him disappear. When loan sharks come to her house to push her to pay back her father’s debts, he makes them go away. As she starts spending more time with him after school and even starts taking magic lessons from him, Ah Yi finds that even though his magic can’t take her sorrows or actual problems away, it does help her rediscover the joys that she hasn’t had the luxury of experiencing as a kid. It doesn’t even occur to her how suspicious it may look to others, or the fact that she doesn’t know anything about this man, not even his real name. When suspicious things start happening around Ah Yi’s neighborhood and the magician becomes a suspect for being involved with several muggings and the disappearance of one of Ah Yi’s classmates, the question of who this man actually is becomes more pressing. Ah Yi seems to be the only one who believes he’s a good person, but on the other hand she still doesn’t even know who he is, so it’s not very convincing to the police either.
Besides Ah Yi, there’s also her classmate Na Il Deung (played by Hwang In Yeop), a boy who always ranks 1st place in class except for math, as Ah Yi always manages to beat him in that. His interest in her starts out of curiosity of how she always ranks 1st in math, but it doesn’t take long for him to develop feelings for her, even though he tries to suppress them very much. Il Deung comes from a wealthy family and his parents have been pressing him since childhood to be the best in everything so he’s always been walking that road they laid out for him without question. But when he meets Ah Yi and discovers her relationship with this strange magician, he also starts getting involved in their meetings and the magician even manages to open Il Deung’s eyes to the reality of his own situation. When the truth about the magician comes to light and there seems to be even more reason to doubt his sanity, Ah Yi and Il Deung are the only ones willing to stand up for him.

I’ll start by saying that the originality of this show already gives it bonus points for me. It’s not a regular K-Drama at all, heck, it’s part musical! I believe I did hear somewhere before that there were songs in it but I must have forgotten because the minute they started singing in the 1st episode (which was like, 1 minute into the show), I immediately found myself pressing pause because ‘what the heck was happening’. It still came as a surprise. I have to admit throughout the series I still couldn’t get completely used to the fact they’d just start singing, it just felt so weird in a K-Drama! I did think it gave a nice additional layer to the fictional aspect of it, as the whole point was to make Ah Yi escape from her daily struggles for a moment, and I also believe the whole sequences that played out during the songs might not have actually happened (such as the flying merry-go-round horses etc.), but as the darker themes came to light later on it became harder for me to distinguish what was ‘real’ and what wasn’t. As in, what part of the magic that he showed her was real and what wasn’t. Especially after we find out that he didn’t actually make the store owner disappear but just pushed him over a railing, for example. He did make it snow and lit fireworks with a snap of his fingers, and also those blue sparkly butterflies… All these things were visible to everyone, not just Ah Yi and Il Deung, so that really made me wonder if he was really a magician or if these things happened by coincidence (doesn’t seem so) or if it was really only about opening people’s eyes to miracles, if not actual magic, just to make them feel better or restore a feeling that they should’ve gotten to explore more as kids.

It was interesting from the start to see the dynamic between Ri Eul (as he eventually introduces himself) and Ah Yi. Ah Yi is a kid who was forced to become an adult too soon, and Ri Eul is an adult who seems unable to let go of being a kid.

Let me go into a bit more depth in regard to the main characters.
Ah Yi is the kind of character that you just can’t help but feel for. She really has it tough and she really can’t catch a break. It’s like a domino of misfortune, Murphy’s Law, whatever you want to call it. Especially the fact that she doesn’t get any kind of support and doesn’t have any adults around her that she can lean on. She’s a teenager, but she can’t even afford the luxury to go to school and study and meet up with friends without worry. She’s constantly worrying about money, to the point of actually resorting to crawling through the dust for it. She even ends up accepting a deal with Il Deung to perform poorly on her math test just because he pays her for it. It was so sad to watch her resort to all these low ways of getting her hands on more money, but on the other hand – what choice did she have? There was no one who would help her, no one who even reached out to her out of the goodness of their heart. The convenience store owner starts out being super supportive and nice to her and then suddenly transforms into a monster when she asks him for an advance payment after her dad bails on her again. When she gets into trouble for making that deal with Il Deung about him paying her to flunk her test and she tells the teachers the truth about her situation, they twist it into making Il Deung the hero for being so generous with her. The moment she realizes that her obstacle in life isn’t money but immature grown-ups, it’s like something falls off her and I believe that’s also the moment that she starts opening up to Ri Eul more. At least he is an adult that allows her to be a kid and tells her it’s alright to do whatever she wants without worrying too much about what kind of adult she herself will become.
I really loved the part where she told him she wanted to meet her future self just to be ensured that she would turn out alright, and Ri Eul let her meet her younger self, so that her younger self could be assured. Even though I still don’t understand completely whether this was actual time travel magic or that it was just him somehow enabling her to come to terms with the doubts she’d had since she was a child, I found it a really beautiful scene. It was also really beautiful when she talked about how she never even felt like she had the luxury of waiting for Santa atChristmas since he never came to her, and how Ri Eul made her feel like she now finally got a kind of ‘Santa’ for herself too.
I liked that in the end, it was really about Ah Yi figuring out her path, it was about her finding her place in a society where she didn’t seem to fit in, and the focus wasn’t for example on her and Il Deung ending up together. It really was about Ah Yi’s journey to turn into a real responsible adult, not the version she was forced into. She ends up becoming the kind of adult she wants to become, one that can contribute to the imagination of children and encourage them to believe in magic/miracles while they still can.
Her struggle with society and how she feels like she can’t depend on any of the adults around her, her lack of a specific adult as a role model, even in regard to her own father, hits really hard. I can’t say I personally relate to every aspect of her struggles, but the part about not fitting in, feeling like you don’t really have a solid support system and just dream about things getting better without actually knowing how to get there, that I can very well understand. Ah Yi is in a terrifying position, she really has to find a solution all by herself and she also has her younger sister to take care of, who very much depends on her. Yoo Yi is the sole light in Ah Yi’s life, and Ah Yi never once thinks of her as a burden. She does very much blame their father for not taking responsibility for Yoo Yi, though. Yoo Yi is the reason she keeps going even though she is both physically and mentally exhausted. I think the bond between the two sisters was really beautiful, also because Yoo Yi, despite being able to really help her older sister with anything, never loses faith in her. I feel like Yoo Yi is more mature than her age and that she is definitely onto at least part of the situation, but she never pressures Ah Yi and she never makes anything harder than it already is. She also takes the responsibility to refrain from participating in certain school activities, for example, for the sake of saving money. She knows it’s not easy on her sister and wants to help her as much as she can, although Ah Yi tries as much as she can to still enable her sister at least to enjoy whatever activities she wants to participate in.
Honestly, that part where their dad (Jo Han Chul) suddenly shows up and then runs away with literally ALL the money that Ah Yi had saved up, even the money she was planning to return to Il Deung, that was awful. How could he be such a coward! And then he just called her from a pay phone to make a lame excuse like ‘sorry I’m such a bad father’. Seriously, if you’re already aware of it, if you already know exactly what you’re putting your kids through and how you’re making them suffer, why make it even harder for them by stealing what they barely scraped together?! That doesn’t make you any better than the crap adults they already have to deal with, such as those loan sharks. And it’s not like that’s going to solve any of your debt problems, either! That made me so mad. I’m glad that they manage to make up in the end and that he gets a job and starts visiting them every weekend, but in the beginning I really couldn’t not believe how much of a coward he was.
Also, I’m not sure if I just missed this but I don’t exactly understand what happened to their mother. I remember that they showed that she abandoned them and Ah Yi saw her leave, but the way Ah Yi was leaving messages to her mom made it seem like her mother had passed away. Or maybe that’s just how Ah Yi learned to accept it and what she made her younger sister believe? I’m not sure whether she actually died or just abandoned them. In her memories with her mom, it’s always just the two of them, so maybe it was before Yoo Yi was born or when she was still very little. In any case, even though it seemed like she was honoring her mother’s memory by leaving messages for her, at the same time it also felt like she still really yearned for her mother to come back home. When Ri Eul tries to comfort her by making all her KakaoTalk messages to her mom appear as ‘Read’ and she flips, he really seems startled that he misinterpreted the situation – he probably just thought that her mother wasn’t replying to her and it would make Ah Yi feel better to see that she was at least reading her messages – I couldn’t really blame him because I was also confused about the whole thing.

Na Il Deung’s story was of a different caliber than Ah Yi’s, but I can’t say which of them had it worse. Even though Il Deung has the support that Ah Yi lacks, ever since he was a child he was stripped completely of his own free will. He has been raised with the idea that he needs to make his parents (mostly his father) proud and his only form of acknowledgement comes from his father praising him, so he never even looks beyond that. As he finds himself getting attracted to Ah Yi, he also keeps trying to push it away or worse, he tries to use his newly established connection with her to get something out of it which will please his family. In a way, he is also still quite immature in the beginning. He is adorable when he manages to get closer to Ah Yi, and it becomes really clear for the viewers that he likes her a lot. Heck, when he blurted out that ‘okay, so that means we’re dating now’ and they both went ‘What?’ ‘What?’, that was hilarious. But then the next day he was all cold again and then suddenly asked her to flunk her math test so he could become #1 again. In my native language we have a saying that literally translates to ‘teasing girls is asking for kisses’. It refers to the typical behavior that young boys portray towards their girl crushes, if he teases her a lot, it means that he actually really likes her. That’s what it felt like to me at some point, all the more because he became blatantly suspicious and jealous of her relationship with Ri Eul and then he just started treating her badly at school as well. When he has his first personal encounter with Ri Eul, the magician shows him a nightmarish vision of how he’s been living his life, from study desk to study desk, exam to exam, trying to keep ahead of all his peers who all try to get to the next stage just as desperately. He sees students fall over and be trampled over by others on their way. All in all I found it a very creepy but also impactful scene (and song). After that, he can’t really get it out of his head and it becomes clear as day to him that he has only been following the ‘asphalt’ path that his parents laid out for him. But no flowers grow on asphalt paths, and that is exactly what he starts yearning for. He gets inspired by how Ah Yi opens up to Ri Eul and even starts learning magic from him, so much so that he starts longing to be in that same ‘field of flowers’ as them. I think the metaphors of the flower field and the asphalt road were really well thought of for Il Deung, because they represented two opposites: the asphalt road that didn’t allow any side tracks or distractions and only led him from desk to desk, and the endless field of flowers which he could run through as far as he wanted without limitations.
I really liked the scene in which Il Deung had his first solo song, when he offered his earphone to Ah Yi while they were studying in the library and then they were in that same flower field together and he was singing to her and playing his guitar. In that scene, he looked so happy and free of worry, he doesn’t appear like that in any other moment of the show. I think it just showed that, even though he’d never considered it before, he completely blossomed when being exposed to the possibility of going off the asphalt path and finding his own way. And the fact that both Ah Yi and Ri Eul keep showing him these possibilities only strengthens him in his tendency to stray from that asphalt path.
I have to say that his parents (played by Yoo Jae Myung and Kim Hye Eun) are really stereotypical examples of parents that didn’t allow their child to do anything but study. His mother literally tells him to his face that he’s not allowed to do ANYTHING except studying, that everything that’s not studying is a waste of time. I just can’t believe those kinds of parents. They claim to love their children and that they want the best for them, but they never even let them be children. They don’t even allow them to play or hang out with friends or develop social skills. Il Deung didn’t seem to have any friends, either inside or outside of school, he was always by himself, just like Ah Yi. I understand that this is a very real situation in many Asian societies, I’ve seen it in a lot of school-setting dramas before that some children are pushed so hard by their parents to study and get so little freedom in doing anything else while that’s equally (or even more) important to their social development. Il Deung was definitely someone who suffered, even though he grew up thinking it was normal as no one had ever confronted him with the reality before. Although he was suspicious of Ri Eul at first, I feel like he did come to respect him in some way, in the end enough to maintain on his side throughout all the suspicions that were raised against him.

And then there’s Ri Eul himself. We’re only given the full truth about him in the final episode, when he’s being pursued by the police for alleged involvement in the disappearance of one of Ah Yi and Il Deung’s classmates.
So when we meet him first through Ah Yi, he really seems like this mystery man who can make your worries disappear. He’s presented initially as an eccentric man who has the answers to everything, although it’s not exactly clear what his intentions are. I’d say Ah Yi was 100% right to be wary of him, although at some point I found myself urging her to just let him help her in whatever way. It just felt like finally someone was offering a legit helping hand and she kept swatting it away, although again, she had every reason to be suspicious after what she’d been through with literally every adult around her.
Ri Eul gets criticized a lot by different people that he’s a weirdo, a crazy person, an adult acting like a kid by hiding in an abandoned theme park like that, having seemingly lost sense of reality. He doesn’t seem to take any of these criticisms to heart, but one thing that he does get sensitive about is when people question his authenticity as a magician. He doesn’t like it when people tell him he’s fake and he loves to prove them wrong. However, throughout the series he does show some suspicious behavior. All in all he seems to have some sort of issue, although it remains vague for some time what exactly is going on with him. At some point I actually started believing that he was bipolar or schizophrenic or something. When a girl from Ah Yi and Il Deung’s class goes missing and Ah Yi asks him about it, he doesn’t really say anything but it feels like he knows something about it, when someone in his exact attire is spotted on several CCTV’s around the place where this girl went missing and after a mugging on an old lady, the police start asking around. Ri Eul never really gives a clear answer regarding whether he has anything to do with it. Or when he does say he has nothing to do with it, it’s still not sincere enough to fully believe it. We see footage of him attacking a guy in the place he stays at in the theme park with a knife, and we see him almost choke one of Ah Yi and Il Deung’s other classmates when she comes snooping (more about her later). It definitely seems like he’s not 100% sane, and that just raises more questions. Who is he really, and how did he end up in that theme park?
As I said before, we only find out about Ri Eul’s real identity and backstory in the final episode, through his former classmate Min Ji Soo (played by Park Ha Na). Ji Soo has appeared several times before, Ah Yi meets her a couple of times when she comes to deliver some food to Ri Eul in the theme park. Ah Yi is curious about her from the start, about how she knows him and what their relationship is (she initially thinks she’s his wife). While Ri Eul is being held in police custody, Ji Soo tells Ah Yi and Il Deung about Ri Eul as a teenager. Turns out, his real name is Ryu Min Hyuk. He was Ji Soo’s first love in high school, but he never really responded to her advances so they just stayed friends. At some point, Min Hyuk started to change, he seemingly became more anxious and stressed and his grades started dropping. At one point, he even jumped off the school roof and while he was saved, he then was taken into a mental hospital. As it turns out, Min Hyuk’s high school situation wasn’t that much different from Il Deung’s. He was also under a lot of pressure from his parents, who were both successful professors. He lived his life to please his parents and in that, he also became aware of the ‘asphalt path’ that he was being urged to follow. Once he became aware of that, his whole world started spinning and he ended up being branded a ‘crazy person’ just for not fitting into society’s set standards. As an adult, he deliberately chose to stay a child as much as he could, and most importantly, to help other youngsters in similar situations to recover the magic that they were being obstructed from experiencing in their childhood. Youngsters like Ah Yi and Il Deung, who were raised with their noses pointed towards their future before they could even really enjoy being kids.
In the end it’s revealed that Ri Eul (or Min Hyuk)’s alleged involvement with the disappeared girl and the muggings is all part of a plan to frame him. In truth, he was just hanging around the theme park trying to get Ah Yi and Il Deung to experience being a child again. He wasn’t completely sane, I’ll give you that, but I don’t believe he had any ill intentions. He only got mad at that girl when she started snooping because he didn’t like her poking her nose where it didn’t belong and, most importantly, she injured his parrot, and that bird meant the world to him. I’m not saying that he did right in assaulting her, but I do think that in his mind, he was just angry because of that and it’s not like he actually wanted to kill her.
But so yeah, I definitely found it interesting to see how similar Ri Eul’s own high school situation had been to Il Deung’s. He didn’t even approach Il Deung himself, they just happened to meet because of Ah Yi, but it was clear that Ri Eul immediately recognized Il Deung’s situation and that’s why he was able to immediately confront him with it. I like to think that once he recognized what Il Deung was going through, he wanted to help him get out of it as soon as possible because in his own time, there was no one around who recognized or acknowledged his situation. He was the one who needed to be reached out to, and because he himself suffered like that he made it his calling to be that kind of adult to youngsters going through similar realities. He knew as no other how harsh society could be on those people. Again, I don’t exactly get how he could hear these kids ‘call out for help in their minds’, if that was another real magic trick he possessed or if he just felt it after meeting Ah Yi and Il Deung once, but I can imagine how that would make him seem like a hero, or, according to Ah Yi’s analogy, a Santa figure.
I mentioned the bird before, but I want to say something more about it. Ri Eul keeps a beautiful red ara parrot in his lair at the theme park. He calls her Mi Nyeo (or ‘Bella’, as per the English Netflix subtitles) and she is the only living being that he seems to carry any personal attachment to. He has taught her how to speak and she regularly makes remarks to people that come to visit, not all of them equally friendly. She only utters friendly remarks to Ri Eul. How he came upon this beautiful bird is not revealed, we only see how desperate and sad he becomes when Mi Nyeo is hurt and from the way he flips out to the person responsible it’s clear that he has a deep emotional connection with the parrot. I would’ve liked to know a bit more about how he encountered her, like where did he get her from and how did they build up this bond? It was really sad that she didn’t make it after being injured like that.

By the way, I think the naming of the main characters is really interesting.
‘Ah Yi’, spelled 아이 in Korean, literally means ‘child’. When Ri Eul hears Ah Yi’s name for the first time, he comments, ‘Ah, so that means that even when you become an adult, you’ll always be a child’. At the moment he says this, Ah Yi is still very much struggling with her situation so I can understand that that wasn’t something she liked to hear. It just reminded her of the fact that she would always remain like that, a child that wouldn’t be taken seriously by adults, even after becoming one herself. But I believe that Ri Eul meant it as a good thing, as he thought that one should never lose the child within. In the end, though, it’s really fitting as Ah Yi takes over Ri Eul’s work in his honor and starts performing magic for children.
‘Il Deung’, spelled 일등, literally means ‘First Place’. It can also be seen as a kind of curse his parents laid on him. Naming your only child ‘First Place’, I mean sure, no pressure or anything.
‘Ri Eul’, spelled as 리을 is, I believe, the Korean pronunciation of the English word ‘real’. The magician only eventually introduces himself to Ah Yi as ‘for now, I’m Ri Eul’, but I think it’s safe to assume that him naming himself this has everything to with the fact that he is so bent on making everyone believe he is a real magician. I can’t really think of any other reason for this name, I just think he made it up from the English word ‘real’ even though that wasn’t explicitly stated as the reason.
The original Korean title of the series is ‘Annara Sumannara’, which is the magic spell that Ri Eul uses throughout the show. I think it would translate as something like ‘Abracadabra’? Anyways, it’s interesting to see they put this as the title, as if uttering the series’ title itself is already supposed to make you believe in magic.
On the other hand, I wonder about the choice for the English title ‘The Sound of Magic’, because it’s not really about sound as far as I gathered. Maybe it’s a reference to the musical aspect of the show? They might as well have called ‘Abracadabra’, IMO.

Let me move on to some significant supporting characters now.
First of all, Baek Ha Na (played by Ji Hye Won). She is a very confident girl in Ah Yi and Il Deung’s class. She’s a typical high school girl who cares about her appearance and social media ratings. Whenever she finds something interesting, she won’t let it go, even if that means relentlessly poking her nose into other people’s business. She’s one of the first people we see in the first episode telling other classmates about the rumor of the crazy magician in the theme park, and she’s also the person who consistently bothers Ah Yi at school by ‘accidentally’ bumping into her to make her fall down or drop her food in the cafeteria. Rather than feeling sorry for her and helping her out, she decides to make a joke out of the fact that Ah Yi is too poor to even buy herself a new pair of stockings. She indirectly humiliates her by first dropping a 50,000 yen note under Ah Yi’s desk and then, after confirming that she took it, coming into the classroom all ‘worried’ asking if anyone has seen her 50,000 yen note. Even though she already knows Ah Yi took it (she even recorded it on camera), she’s just doing it to see if Ah Yi will fold and admit that she took it. When Ah Yi doesn’t, she makes her feel even worse by just shrugging it off as that she’s made someone’s day and that she’ll led it slide because losing a 50,000 yen note doesn’t mean anything to her. It was really mean. It may have felt like a charity to her, but the intention of the joke was really mean, she could’ve just left the 50,000 yen there for Ah Yi to find and not said anything about it, that would’ve been kinder and it would’ve made Ah Yi feel less guilty about taking it.
All in all, I would call Ha Na gutsy if not a bit reckless. She kept going to the theme park by herself in the dark even after already encountering Ri Eul several times and she never made a good impression. She kept going there to snoop around and even plant hidden cameras while she knew that he wasn’t very fond of her. Again, I didn’t approve of how Ri Eul vented his anger on her because he really became scary dangerous there for a moment, but I also still thought that Ha Na was out of her depth by continuously provoking him. She kept saying she didn’t believe him to be a real magician and we all know how much he dislikes hearing that. In the end she was able to record some disturbing footage on one of the hidden cameras she’d installed (of which Ri Eul wasn’t aware), which showed him attacking someone with a knife. She then proceeds to relay this footage to Ah Yi and Il Deung to make them more suspicious of him as well. Either way, I didn’t really like her character simply because she got too caught up in other people’s business and I think she went a bit too far in provoking Ri Eul even though she should’ve been aware of the consequences of her actions. She should’ve known the danger of going in there all by herself in the night. Even when it wasn’t established yet whether Ri Eul was actually dangerous or not, it was still a big risk to take and I found it pretty reckless of her to keep going back there, especially all by herself.
At school, she always has this one friend that she drags everywhere with her, even though this friend usually tries to dissuade her from snooping too much. This girl, Kim So Hee (played by Kim Bo Yoon) seems to be a bit nicer than Ha Na. In any case, it seemed to me as if she actually wanted Ha Na to stop bothering Ah Yi as well, and she kept telling her not to keep bothering the magician as well. Maybe she was just scared, but I did agree with her. At least she was aware of the possible dangers Ha Na could be getting herself into. Still, she kept going along with her as if despite her doubts she just wasn’t able to say no to her friend. After Ha Na was attacked by Ri Eul, she even went on to spread that fact to her classmates, making sure Ah Yi heard it. That just made me go like, what are you giving Ah Yi the stink face for, it’s not like she had anything to do with that. Anyways, So Hee was a bit of a sheep but at least she seemed to have a bit more of a conscience than Ha Na.

Finally, I’ll address the case of the girl that goes missing from Ah Yi’s class. This girl, Seo Ha Yoon (played by Oh So Hyun) only appears in the first episode (I believe) and she goes missing around the same time that Ah Yi meets Ri Eul. Ha Yoon seems to also be a quiet girl without any friends in class, and we last see her when Ah Yi passes her on her way to her part-time job at the convenience store – Ha Yoon is just on her way out. I don’t believe Ah Yi actually sees her, by the way, they just pass each other without really acknowledging each other. Anyways, that’s the last time she appears on screen before she disappears. No one has an inkling of what could have happened, but throughout the series the police keep getting tiny pieces of information. One of those pieces of information is that Ri Eul was spotted on a CCTV in an alleyway that had shown Ha Yoon just some hours before. They also found some of her belongings in the theme park. In the beginning, I thought that maybe she’d also encountered Ri Eul and he may have done something. I didn’t think it would be anything bad, but I remember feeling like she was also a bit of an outcast at school so I thought that maybe he’d reached out to her too and she’d asked him to make her disappear or something. I don’t know what I was thinking, lol. Anyways, Ri Eul himself neither confirms nor denies anything when Ah Yi asks him about it. I kept thinking that even if he didn’t have anything to do with it, he may have at least known something about it. Either way, there’s a whole investigation and as ‘the magician’ keeps popping up in other cases in the same neighborhood, the police believe they have good reason to suspect him. An adult man living by himself in an abandoned theme park going around telling everyone he’s a magician… there’s reason to be suspicious of that in itself. I can imagine that they wouldn’t put it past him to be some sort of pervert altogether. In the final episode, Ha Yoon’s body is found in a reservoir in a park somewhere and Ri Eul is arrested. But what actually happened is a very different story.
Let me talk about the convenience store owner (played by Yoon Kyung Ho). So when we first meet him, he seems to be a very kind person. He’s the first adult we see treating Ah Yi nicely. When he busts her as she’s about to take a bite out of a perfectly good hamburger that a customer left behind, he doesn’t judge her. He even gives her 50,000 yen on her first day because she’s doing such a good job. It finally seems like Ah Yi can get some support after all. However, when emergency strikes again and Ah Yi musters up all her courage to ask for an advance payment even though she only just started working there, the owner suddenly changes. He reluctantly agrees, saying he feels sorry for her situation, but then he suddenly starts touching her and tells her she can think of him as a kind uncle and that’s when Ah Yi is AGAIN confronted by the fact that she just can’t seem to find a single decent grown-up in her life. Ri Eul appears and ‘disappears’ him – he makes Ah Yi believe that he magicked him away while we later find out he actually just pushed him over a railing and just flapped his cape to make sure Ah Yi didn’t see it. Either way, the owner does seem to disappear for a while, which only strengthens Ah Yi in her belief that Ri Eul can make people disappear. But then it’s even scarier when he suddenly appears again, when Ah Yi is being interrogated by her teachers about her involvement with Ri Eul by the police. There the owner states that Ri Eul is a fraud, that he injured him and that Ah Yi is in cahoots with him as well. In the end, we find out that he is the person responsible not only for the disappearance (and murder) of Ha Yoon, but also of the muggings as he started pulling stunts to frame Ri Eul after what he did to him.
Ha Yoon used to work at the same convenience store as Ah Yi, and she was caught trying to steal money from the cashier. The owner did the same thing to her he did to Ah Yi, he pretended to be all understanding about her situation before putting his hands on her, but Ha Yoon was one step ahead of him – she actually caught him on camera. She strikes up a deal with him to not publish the footage if he’ll help her out with more money and they agree to meet at the theme park to close the deal. But what happens then is that the owner ambushes Ha Yoon from behind in the dark and silences her… quite literally. While Ah Yi and Ri Eul were happily singing a song up in the ferris wheel nearby, Ha Yoon was murdered and disposed of by the convenience store owner. It’s later revealed that he bought a similar attire as Ri Eul usually wears, and went around in the dark to mug people – after all, who could see a face in the dark, people would only remember the attire and if he’d just use the catchphrase that Ri Eul always used (‘Do you… believe in magic?’), it would be a piece of cake to get him convicted of that. He eventually gets busted after Ah Yi reports him for sexual assault to the police and they find the attire when they search his house.

There’s one other major piece of evidence that suddenly finds its way to the police, and this is footage from one of the CCTVs in the theme park, even though none of these cameras work anymore. For some reason, this one camera came back on for exactly four minutes, just when the ambush on Ha Yoon took place. This, again, made me wonder about the authenticity of Ri Eul’s magic. Because we see that, while Ri Eul was showing Ah Yi fireworks (the fireworks’ lights also appeared in the camera footage, that was the link to when exactly it happened), one of his blue sparkly butterflies flew out and landed on that specific camera, turning it on. Just as before, one of these butterflies had turned on all the streetlights in Ah Yi’s street as she was walking home alone in the dark. So were these actual magical butterflies? I’m still not sure which parts of Ri Eul’s magic were real and which were more metaphorical. The butterflies seemed to have a special meaning, as one appeared to teen Min Hyuk as he was about to jump off the school roof, and to Il Deung when he succumbed to the pressure that one time as well. I can’t say for sure what they meant, exactly, because it also felt like the butterflies symbolized the youngsters’ signal to get off the asphalt path, but then how did Ri Eul come to control the butterflies as an adult? WHAT EXACTLY WERE THOSE BUTTERFLIES??

So yeah, I think I’ve now covered all the characters and the most important events that happened in the show. I still feel like I missed a lot of hidden meanings and metaphors/symbols, but I also think I got the essence of the message the story wanted to convey. I can say that it was definitely very different from what I’d expected, but I was positively surprised. For me, it honestly could’ve done without the musical numbers although I do understand where the idea came from. The point of musical numbers is to also take you away from the situation at hand to just let go and be free and sing and dance without looking weird. In this case, I just kept wondering whether the whole sequences of the sung numbers were something that happened in Ah Yi’s mind, or if a passerby, for example, would witness the exact same thing. I highly doubt that even within the fictional elements of the story, those horses actually flew off the merry-go-round. But there were some things that seemed to be Ri Eul’s magic’s doing, such as the butterflies and the magic mailbox for example. It wasn’t completely clear to me to which extent the magic tricks were real and to which extent they were exaggerated in the character’s minds.
But still, be that as it may, this series was definitely a gem in the way it conveyed such a deep and serious topic in such a fantastical way. Ri Eul exists purely to help teenagers connect with the child inside them, to enable them to still feel how they should’ve been allowed to feel when they were children before they were robbed of that luxury at a way too early age. Ri Eul of course still remains to be quite the ambiguous character as it’s still a fact that he’s not completely sane and possibly dangerous when he’s provoked, but his intentions have always been good – he went through it himself and chose to live the rest of his life in seclusion only to be the reaching helping hand to youngsters who, like him, aren’t aware of the toxicity of their situation or in any case, who are not able to get out of the situation by themselves. I definitely did not expect this sociological issue of pressured children to be included in this, so for that in itself the originality of the plot gets some bonus points.

On to the cast comments!

This is the third Ji Chang Wook drama I’ve watched this year and can I just say, this man has been surprising me consistently! Just when I thought I’d seen what he was capable of as an actor, seeing him both in Backstreet Rookie and this, it just surprised me. It feels like he keeps choosing dramas that aren’t exactly his mainstream kind of genre, but he still pulls it off! As Ri Eul I really got some very angsty and even dangerous vibes from him, something I never felt from him before. I was really positively surprised by his performance and also – he can even sing?! What can’t this man do?! I also know that he’s very acrobatic, so I would’ve liked to see some more of that in here as well, it would’ve been the perfect opportunity to showcase all those hidden skills! In any case, I liked him in this. He played a completely different character from what I was used to, so mysterious and enigmatic at first, and then suddenly so unpredictable and vulnerable as well. He was able to convey more sides to his acting to me in these 6 episodes than in all the dramas I’ve seen him in so far, so that was cool!

I didn’t know Choi Sung Eun from anything, I see this was only her third drama to date. She did however seem very familiar to me, but I guess then I may have confused her for someone else. In any case, to not even have done so many dramas yet and then already being cast for one like this with musical songs and everything seems a pretty big challenge! I wonder if maybe she’s a musical actress or something? Anyways, I think she should be very very proud of her performance of Ah Yi, she’s such a layered character and she got to show such a tormented and vulnerable side to her, only to balance it out with the happiness she managed to portray in her songs with the magician. I also really loved her chemistry with her younger sister. I hope we get to see more of her in the near future!

So this was actually the first show I got to see with Hwang In Yeop in it and MAN this guy is good. (I was going to say ‘kid’ instead of ‘guy’ but I just found out he’s older than me so can’t really do that, lol.) Anyways, I think he’s really making his breakthrough as he’s appearing in more and more stuff these days so I had some expectations but I really loved his performance. As what I said for Ji Chang Wook above, within just 6 episodes he showed so many sides to his acting. I think he was a really good casting choice for Il Deung. There are several dramas of his in my to watch list, so I know I’m going to see more of him, but I was really blown away by his performance here. He portrayed the struggles of a teenager stuck in the ways his parents paved for him really well and even though he did some questionable stuff in the beginning, I started feeling more and more empathic towards him when he was confronted with the struggles he wasn’t even fully aware of himself yet. I also thought he was really adorable when he started developing feelings for Ah Yi, I wish there would’ve been more of that. Although, as I mentioned in the beginning, I also respect that that’s not what the focus of the show was about. I really can’t wait to see more shows he appeared in!

I was wondering what I recognized Ji Hye Won from, and I realized she was one of patients in the hospital from It’s Okay to Not Be Okay! The girl who eloped with the alcoholic guy! She was SO different here, everything about her character was different. It was fun seeing her as such a brazen girl like Ha Na. As I said, I didn’t really like the character, but that didn’t have anything to do with the actress. I think she did a good job, overall! Even though her way of going about things was questionable, I do feel like she was looking out for Ah Yi when she told her to be more suspicious of Ri Eul. I do feel like she didn’t want anything to happen to her, or anyone for that matter, especially after experiencing Ri Eul’s anger first-hand. So in a way, I don’t feel like she was a bad person. She was just very young and immature, which is to be expected of a regular girl that age. After all, she wasn’t forced to become an adult before her time like Ah Yi.

So the little sister actually has more drama acting experience than her older sister? Hong Jung Min, what a precious little girl she was. Apparently I’ve seen her before in Cinderella and the Four Knights and I will see her again soon in some of my to watch series. I liked that even though Yoo Yi was more of a supporting character, she also got to sing a beautiful song and she even sang IU’s ‘Knees’ which was such a perfect song for their situation. I feel like Yoo Yi really was an indispensable part of Ah Yi’s story and character. Even though she was the angel little sister who never got angry or impatient or desperate with their situation, I do feel like she was more aware of the misery her sister was experiencing and that she must have felt very sorry she couldn’t do more to help her. She was the epitome of lightness in this series, I kept referring to her as Ah Yi’s light at the end of the dark tunnel, the light she always got to go home to. Also when the dad briefly returned, Yoo Yi never blamed him for anything. I think all she wanted was just to have her family together. I’m glad they got there in the end. Oh and that scene when Ah Yi thought she was missing and went all over to look for her and then got the call from one of Yoo Yi’s friend’s mom that she’d fallen asleep while playing there… if that didn’t emphasize how much Yoo Yi meant to Ah Yi, then I don’t even know anymore. That was heartbreaking.

I love Jo Han Chul! We don’t usually get to see him as a non-comical character, so I was happy to see this side of him as well. Although I’ve already voiced my dislike of the father’s behavior, Jo Han Chul can do little wrong in my eyes. He still portrayed the character really well. I think he was Ah Yi’s main example of how much you could screw up as an adult. Of course she loved him, but he was the kind of an adult she did not want to become. Of course it taught her what she needed to know, but it was still incredibly irresponsible of him to leave his kids like that, after their mother also already had left them all for the same reason (probably). The scene where he phoned Ah Yi and was just kind of smiling away his embarrassment and guilt really hit differently. There’s a difference between screwing up and owning up to it and realizing your mistake but still making up excuses because ‘after all, I’m just a terrible dad’. Ah Yi had all the reason in the world to be mad at him. Finally getting a job and visiting them more was the least he could do to make up for it.

Not me flinching when I realized Il Deung’s dad was played by the same guy who played the bad guy in Itaewon Class! He had such a different vibe around him here! I further know Yoo Jae Myung from Jealousy Incarnate, Hwarang and Strong Woman Do Bong Soon. I kept wanting him to be a better dad, one who would be more forgiving than the mom when it turned out his son was struggling, but he was just as bad. It felt like he managed to remain calmer about the situation, though, but he still only wanted his son to perform in line with his own reputation.

Il Deung’s mom’s actress was also in Itaewon Class! I further know Kim Hye Eun from Romantic Doctor Teacher Kim, Introverted Boss, Radio Romance, Are You Human Too?, Encounter and Clean With Passion For Now. She’s a very familiar face. As the mom, who is typically more emotional in dealing with her children’s struggles, I really expected more from her. The way she dealt with Il Deung’s ‘rebellion’ definitely was not the way to go. She only restricted him more rather than listen to what he had to say and see that the way she raised him was not okay. She gave a good performance of a relentless mom who didn’t see any fault in her own ways, though. It was also a different side of her acting that I saw here, as I feel like I’ve only seen her in more sympathetic characters so far, haha.

I had the same kind of issue with Yoon Kyung Ho. I’ve only ever seen him as sympathetic guys, so to suddenly see him explode off the screen like that, to suddenly see him as such a dangerous guy was really surprising! It isn’t until then that you realize what a big and potentially scary guy he can be, haha. I’ve seen him in a bunch of stuff like Goblin, Duel, Age of Youth, I’m Not a Robot and Itaewon Class as well. Big Itaewon Class family reunion happening, as I saw Ryu Kyung Soo also made a guest appearance! Anyways, it was nice also seeing a different side than usual from Yoon Kyung Ho. I still envision him as a very friendly ahjussi though, haha.

I also want to give a shoutout to Joo Ye Rim who played the young Ah Yi – she was fantastic. I really choked up during the scene where teenage Ah Yi came face to face with her younger self and managed to comfort her, that was so beautiful and well thought of, flipping it around a bit to current Ah Yi comforting her younger self rather than meeting her twenty-or thirtysomething self from the future.
And of course I cannot forget best boy Nam Da Reum who played teenage Ryu Min Hyuk – I don’t know how he does it but he seriously looked like a young Ji Chang Wook? This guy is such a genius actor, I can’t wait to see him turn old enough to finally get his own main roles rather than always being cast as the ML’s younger version. He deserves it all!

And with that, I’ve come to the end of my review. It’s been a really fun ride, a really unexpected ride and I’m glad I gave it a try. It definitely is not a typical K-Drama, but I think that’s also part of its charm because it’s exactly what sets it apart from the rest. It conveys a serious sociological issue through depictions of magic, imagination, hope and freedom. As I mentioned before, I couldn’t quite get used to the musical numbers, and I can imagine people finding it awkward or skipping through those, but for me, when they started singing I just paid extra close attention to the lyrics. I imagine it being Ah Yi’s hidden thoughts that she otherwise could not properly convey, and in accordance with the magical elements, it just made sense to make her sing them out as this is also how it goes in musicals – they sing out their true feelings and thoughts because they can’t simply say them. It really surprised me from the get-go when they all started to sing and dance but that’s also what immediately intrigued me about it.
I also really liked that they made an additional after-credit scene in which the cast takes their bows as if they’ve just finished performing the whole show as a stage performance in front of an audience. You could suddenly see all the actors as themselves, interacting and dancing with each other and it was just a really cheerful way to end the show.
All in all, it was unique, it was original, it was surprising and it was striking in its approach to convey such a serious message. I enjoyed it, it had been a while since I actually refrained from watching it in one go, I really would’ve gone straight through it if I wasn’t planning on writing a review. Otherwise this review would’ve been posted two days after the previous one and I wasn’t going to do that to myself, haha. I’m glad I spread it out a bit more so that I could take my time with writing a worthwhile review about it.
I’d say the only thing that it lacked for me was some more understanding of how exactly Ri Eul’s magic worked. I would’ve liked to know for sure where Ah Yi’s imagination started and where the actual magic tricks ended and vice versa. The few loose ends to make it an open ending weren’t necessarily a bad thing, but it still made me wonder about what happened to several other characters. For example, we don’t get to see Il Deung in the final ‘X years later’ part, which made me wonder whether he and Ah Yi still kept in touch. I wondered about the period in which Ri Eul started living in that theme park, I wondered how he met Mi Nyeo. But yeah, mostly I wondered about the magic tricks. Of course everything was fictional, but even within this series, I feel like there was a limit to what was actually happening and what was the experience of it happening. Like, Ri Eul turning on the merry-go-round was one thing, the horses flying off it another. One might have actually happened, the other may have been exaggerated in Ah Yi’s imagination. I would’ve liked to get a clearer distinction between the two. But apart from that, I really enjoyed the show.

So yeah, this was my last Netflix K-Drama of the year, the final ones on my 2022 list are all ‘regular’ dramas, but I’ll definitely keep watching K-Drama on Netflix as it’s such a comfortable platform to watch them on. I’ve now lined up all the dramas I plan on finishing within this year, so please look forward to a couple more soon! Without my intention I incidentally chose several short dramas in a row, that’s why I’m going through them so fast now, haha. Anyways, I’ll be back soon enough, so stay tuned and don’t forget: whenever you feel down and need to believe in a miracle, you know which magic words to use!

*\ Annara Sumannara /*

Bye-bee! ^^



The Silent Sea

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

The Silent Sea
(고요의 바다 / Goyoui Bada)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hi everyone! It has only been a week since my last review, but I was able to finish this one surprisingly fast. I knew from the start that it was a short series, but the episodes also turned out to be very short for a Korean drama series, so I went through it very quickly. As it wasn’t the type of genre that I usually watch, I was really curious to this one as it had looked very thrilling to me from the trailer and I was also interested to see the chemistry/dynamic of the popular lead actors in a genre that I haven’t really seen them in before. Before I started on it, I felt like it would be a sort of Armaggedon-vibe show, a crew of multiple people going on a dangerous mission in space where they discover something even more dangerous than they’d anticipated, and they’re taken out one by one until only several (predictable) people remain. That’s what I imagined. Although it did follow along the first few expectations I had, it also still managed to surprise me and it really kept me on the edge of my seat until the end. The only thing keeping me back from giving it a higher rating is my dissatisfaction with the ending. Leggo.

The Silent Sea is an 8-episode K-Drama with episodes of each about 40-50 minutes, which is short for a Netflix K-Drama (in my experience, at least). The story is set on Earth in the future, and in a quite dystopian future at that. Earth is basically a barren wasteland, there’s barely any water left on the surface. Sea levels are dropping and there’s barely any rainfall. Contamination of the existing water has a big influence on health all over the world, and there’s a lot of research going on regarding artificial farming which doesn’t require much water usage. The water shortage in its turn causes global food shortage, and so the cycle goes on and on. In fact, in the current society, people’s allowed amount of water is determined by a regulation that links one’s rank to the amount of water they’re allowed to get. This regulation doesn’t just apply to water usage, but also to other privileges like better medical care. One needs to have a certain rank to be allowed better treatment. It really reminded me of an escalated version of Nosedive (Black Mirror), where ranks determine everything. Anyways, in this world where people are desperate for water and are actually lining up for hours to fill up their plastic water tanks, the SAA (Space and Aeronautics Administration) sends a special team of scientists and specialists to the Moon to fetch an important sample from the Balhae Lunar Research Station. This station is about to be shut down because of a terrible radiation leak accident that happened 5 years ago which killed all 117 crew members present at the station at the time. Whatever they were working on or what exactly happened is not known even to the SAA, and this also goes for the exact contents of the sample. The team is basically sent there with no concrete information on what they’re supposed to retrieve.
As a former esteemed astrobiologist turned ethologist, Dr. Song Ji An (played by Bae Doo Na) is the person that the SAA wants most to participate in this mission. They claim it’s because her skills will contribute greatly to the mission, and they give her the final decision on what’s to be done with the sample when they find it. However, for Ji An there’s another, more personal reason why she reluctantly decides to go on this mission – her older sister Song Won Kyung (played by Kang Mal Geum) was one of the researchers at Balhae Station.

From the start, I thought the whole mission seemed hella suspicious. They aren’t given any concrete information on what exactly they have to travel all the way to the Moon for, they literally only get a picture of what the capsule containing the sample looks like, and the information that the sample needs to be kept under extremely low temperatures. Why it needs to be kept under extremely low temperatures, no one knows. Also, they are told that they really only need to secure ONE single capsule of the sample, no need to go in for more. Why send a full 11-people team just to obtain ONE capsule? If there really was nothing going on in that station, they wouldn’t have felt the need to send so many people, right? In any case, I would’ve definitely wanted to know what I was getting into before risking my life in outer space, so I could very well understand Ji An’s suspicion.
Why did she still decide to go, then? As she already establishes in the beginning, she’s not an astrobiologist anymore, there’s nothing out there. The thing is, she used to be really close with her sister after their parents died. Her sister told her once about ‘the silent sea’, referring to the darker parts that are visible on the Moon, parts that were rumored to contain water. She said she wanted to show Ji An the ocean again, if possible. But then suddenly a few years later, her sister left without saying anything, and Ji An only finds out she’d been doing research in outer space when the SAA informs her of Won Kyung’s death. What she was doing up there, Ji An doesn’t know, as it was all kept under wraps and she didn’t keep in touch with her sister that much after she’d left. The final time that her sister contacted her was five years earlier, and Ji An didn’t pick up the phone. After realizing that her sister may have called her in her last moments when the accident took place, Ji An feels a sort of connection to finding out what happened to her, also maybe to suppress a little bit of guilt for not picking up her call that time. Furthermore, Ji An discovers an email from her sister with an encrypted message in it. After encrypting it, it gives her the message ‘FIND LUNA’. For Ji An, this feels like her sister is asking her to go to Balhae Station, and that’s why she decides to go.

Including Ji An, the whole crew consists of 11 people in total, 9 men and 2 women. Let me just list them all below.
Song Ji An, astrobiologist.
Captain Han Yoon Jae (played by Gong Yoo), the team leader.
Hong Ga Young (played by Kim Sun Young), the team doctor.
Pilot Kim Sun (played by Lee Sung Wook) and co-pilot Lee Gi Soo (Choi Young Woo). The co-pilot was originally supposed to be someone else, a woman, but she was suddenly and without explanation substituted for Gi Soo on the day of departure.
Engineers Gong Soo Chan (Jung Soon Won) and Ryu Tae Seok (Lee Joon).
Head of security Gong Soo Hyuk (played by Lee Moo Saeng), also Soo Chan’s older brother.
E1 and E2 (respectively played by Cha Rae Hyung and Yoo Hee Je).
Mr. Hwang (Yoo Jung Joo), an advisor who contributed to the construction of Balhae Station.

So yeah, the crew leaves and while the initial departure goes smoothly, they soon find themselves with a loose bracket (or something) on the outer surface of the ship and are forced to make an emergency landing at about 7,6 km distance from Balhae Station – they have to walk all the way there while their oxygen is slowly running out. Not only that, their entire space ship crashes into the abyss so they have no way back by themselves. It is in this dire beginning situation that they already lose their first crew member, Mr. Hwang. He punctures his ribs during the emergency landing and isn’t able to make it all the way to the station. With his last breaths, he does already give a strange warning. He mutters ‘Water’, and when Captain Han interprets it as that he wants water and moves to replenish his tank, Mr. Hwang urgently stops him and is only able to mutter ‘Not… The water… don’t’, before he passes away. So yeah, there’s something about the water. As a Whovian, this immediately screamed The Waters of Mars and it did not sit well with me from the start.
After arriving at Balhae, the crew quickly does several shocking and strange discoveries. They find out there’s actually nothing wrong with the radiation levels. They discover the bodies of all the 117 crew members that were left at Balhae after ‘the accident’ showing very strange symptoms – it looks like they’ve drowned. In outer space. Furthermore, when they find the storage rooms containing the capsules, it looks like they’ve all been wreckaged and they can’t find a single capsule that isn’t empty. Before they even get all the information to understand what’s going on (or what went on at the Station five years ago), the crew is faced with an increasingly alarming situation as the members are taken one by one, either by an invisible (supposed) virus that makes every liquid in their body turn into multiplying water and makes them drown from the inside, or (in a rather bloody manner) by a mysterious entity that seems to be lurking about the Station. Something that very much does NOT want them to take even a single sample away from it.
As they manage to get the comms working again, through Captain Han’s contact with the SAA back on Earth, more suspicions seem to rise as it seems that the SAA does have more knowledge than they initially claimed to have. Especially Director Choi (Gil Hae Yeon) starts acting more and more suspicious and Captain Han starts doubting the true goal of the mission.
To make things even worse, it’s revealed that both Gi Soo and Tae Seok are actually spies for the RX (Resource Exploration for Space Mining and Planetary Development), a transnational agency that wants to obtain the samples for themselves. Kim Sun even refers to them once as ‘the resource Mafia’. Tae Seok volunteered for this mission as he was actually also there five years earlier when he closed the door on those 117 people, disabling them from getting out alive. Gi Soo’s last minute appointment to the team is also explained through this. Both of them plan to obtain at least one sample by themselves before turning against the rest of the crew to try to get out by himself.

Okay, so let me just summarize the whole deal here before I find myself recapping the entire series, that’s not what we’re doing here. Basically, five years ago, the researchers sent to Balhae Station (including Won Kyung) discovered water on the Moon. They called it ‘lunar water’ and when they started researching it, they came to the major discovery that this water, when it came into contact with any sort of other liquid, would multiply. Thinking they may have found a potential solution to the water shortage on Earth, the researchers began to experiment, first on animals, fish… and then on human clones. They used a young girl clone code-named ‘Luna’ and kept experimenting on her until the 73rd attempt, when her body suddenly seemed to have become immune to the lunar water.
On the day of the accident, the system suddenly detects a ‘thermoregular anomaly’ and urges everyone to evacuate. No one knows what’s going on, and while all researchers desperately try to get to the exit, some of the lunar water leaks out of some capsules that were knocked over in the crowd rush. When the RX (I guess, they were also there?) starts closing the gates one by one and the people become more desperate to search for another way out, more and more people start succumbing after accidentally coming into contact with the escaping lunar water. In the end, being locked in with no way out and with a spreading water virus on the loose, no one survived the outbreak except Luna, as she’s immune to the lunar water now. Luna basically becomes a guard dog for the samples of lunar water since in her case, the water heals her and makes her harder, better, faster, stronger. So much so that she can move at incredible speed and is able to sever body parts with her bare hands without too much effort. She also has developed some fish-like elements to her body, like gills in her neck, and when she blinks it happens horizontally rather then vertically. So yeah, Luna is the mysterious entity roaming around and violently injuring and killing crew members that try to take samples away from her. She’s also the Luna from Won Kyung’s encrypted ‘FIND LUNA’ message, and for some reason, Ji An is the only one who can calm her down. She’s the only one that wants to believe she doesn’t hurt people because she wants to, but only because she’s scared. At some point while trying to capture Luna, the girl bites Ji An, and this bite ends up saving Ji An’s life – when she herself comes into contact with the lunar water, the traces of Luna’s DNA through the bite wound work as an antidote against the water.

To give a short summary of the order and manner of the crew member’s deaths:
Mr. Hwang dies of his injuries and lack of oxygen caused by the crash landing before making it to Balhae.
Soo Chan is exposed to the lunar water by getting into contact with one of the dead bodies while trying to obtain a sample capsule.
Gi Soo is killed by Luna when he tries to get away with a full sample capsule from one of the storage rooms.
E1 dies after being fatally injured by Luna when they discover the final hidden storage room filled with sample capsules.
E2 is shot by Tae Seok after overhearing him talk to the RX on the phone.
Kim Sun is shot by Tae Seok after confronting him and then killed by the lunar water the same way as Soo Chan.
Tae Seok himself is soaked by the lunar water released through the air vent and is also shot by both Soo Hyuk and Captain Han.
Soo Hyuk is shot by Tae Seok in his final moments and doesn’t make it in time to escape the Station.
Captain Han sacrifices himself when the air lock needs to be depressurized from the outside. He’s engulfed by the lunar water outbreak but ultimately dies after he’s catapulted out of the Station onto the Moon surface by the water.
The only people to make it out of the Station alive are the women of the company, Ji An, Dr. Hong, and Luna. A rescue ship arrives just at that moment and it’s suggested they’re brought to safety. The final words over the comms of the rescue ship are: ‘Survivors have been rescued and samples secured.’
‘What condition are they in?’ (The survivors or the samples?)
‘Yet to confirm.’
‘Have a safe flight back.’
‘Switching to autonomous navigation system.’
And that’s the end.

I want to comment on a couple of things that the show lacked in my opinion.
First of all, I found it a pity that there wasn’t an equal division of character development or even character background for each character. It took me at least 4 episodes to get an idea of who was who, and that was only after several people had already died. I actually went back to the first couple of episodes to rewatch certain parts with the knowledge I gained after finishing the whole thing, and only then it became a bit more clear to me. Also, the foreshadowing became much more apparent.
The only person we get a proper backstory from is Ji An. We learn about her sister and more about her motives. It was especially interesting to see Ji An’s emotional journey as she discovers the illegal experimenting that her sister had been doing – she really has to unravel some personal emotional baggage here, even though she’s one of the most stoic characters in the whole series.
On Captain Han’s side, we only find out that he has a young daughter who’s in the hospital because she can’t use her legs and his rank isn’t high enough to improve her medical care. Apart from that, we don’t learn anything about Captain Han’s life, only that he’s probably used to just doing as he’s told on SAA missions. He clashes the most with Ji An in the beginning, as he is determined to stick to the mission they were given even when Ji An is much more interested what exactly happened at the Station five years ago, if not radiation leakage. It isn’t until the crew members start dying one by one and they find out about Luna, that Captain Han also becomes more and more suspicious of the SAA’s intentions of sending them there. Also since the SAA director’s instructions suddenly change once he informs them of a possible ‘survivor’ or ‘intruder’ that’s in there with them. Suddenly the Director instructs them to grab as many samples as they can, and they can’t allow this intruder to get away with any of it. In fact, they will only send a backup ship after they’d secured the intruder. It was all very strange.
In any case, my point is that I had some trouble connecting with the characters in the beginning. People started falling away before I was even able to get an idea of who they were, which was a pity. I felt this specifically with Soo Chan, for some reason. I just felt like he’d be around for a while longer, but he really died already in the third episode, within a single hour of being exposed to the lunar water. He seemed to be a fun, comic relief kind of character together with Kim Sun, but he was killed off way too soon in my opinion. It did give Soo Hyuk a new layer though, as he was forced to watch his little brother die like that and I suddenly became very aware of the fact that they’d indeed been brothers, even though it was only mentioned briefly once before. Anyways, the exact links between all the characters hadn’t been fully established in my brain yet before people already started disappearing, so that made it a bit hard to get accustomed to everyone.
Also, who the heck were E1 and E2 and why didn’t they have normal names? I would’ve liked to know a bit more about them, especially E2, or Freckles as I called him until, you know, he died. In his case I really found it a pity because I felt like he was the youngest of the group but he got the least action and he was killed so needlessly after already being unconscious for an entire episode. He just had to wake up in the same room as Tae Seok as he was doing his spy thing. It really was a pity.
So yeah, while I understand that 8 episodes is limited time to establish all of the characters equally, I really would’ve liked to get some more personal information besides their initial short self introductions.
Even in the way they died, sometimes I wished they’d given it a bit more meaning. Like for example, Kim Sun dying the exact same way as his best friend Soo Chan. He was forced to watch his buddy die like that and then it was happening to him and it was over even quicker than before. They could’ve used the bracelets more as well, the bracelets Soo Chan, Soo Hyuk and Kim Sun were all wearing as a promise to get out together alive. There were so many possibilities of adding a little more personal depth to the characters, but in the end they all just died alone without mercy – which on the other hand, is also very realistic and symbolic of the mercilessness of their situation and environment. But still, I had mixed feelings about it. I think there could’ve been more personal connections established, that would’ve added even more weight to the situation of losing the people around them. Now, except for a few people, everyone was basically unrelated to one another, so even when people died, there was always a sort of awkward tension around it, because even though it was horrible, there wasn’t a personal connection with the person to be shared.
The same went for the memorial thing. In the first episode, it’s shown that the memorial of the 117 crew members of Balhae Station doesn’t even mention their names, it’s a quite unpersonal memorial. I get that they’d kept it a secret just as that Ji An never knew her sister was part of that research, but the SAA did still reveal to Ji An that her sister was part of it after she died. They must’ve known the identities of all those people, they must informed told more families (I hope), so why still not put their names on the memorial? And it just made me wonder what they would do about this mission? Would they also make a memorial for the 9 people that didn’t come back this time?
That’s the thing that bothers me the most about the ending. I would’ve liked to get a kind of closure. Any kind of closure, really. Because it just feels like nothing was solved. What happened after Ji An and Dr. Hong got back to Earth? What happened to Luna? Did they again leave all the bodies up there? Did they again not make an effort to commemorate the brave people that went on that mission? What happened to Captain Han’s daughter after he didn’t return? What happened to the SAA, did Ji An and Dr. Hong reveal the truth about the whole thing? Honestly, I have more questions now than I had at the beginning of the series. It just doesn’t feel complete, and that’s a real pity.

I felt like this show had so much potential. It started out so great, I really was pulled into it from the start. The imagery of the moon and the shadowed parts that just make it seem like a sea of nothingness was properly haunting. I find The Silent Sea a very appropriate title, not just because of the association with Won Kyung’s referral to the dark parts of the moon, but because it really felt like they were trapped in an ocean of silence, the Moon itself. It also refers to the more literal association of the lunar water becoming a sea that made people drown from the inside – Soo Chan and Kim Sun are literally depicted going down under a water surface as they succumb to it. I also thought the opening sequence was beautiful and after paying close attention, I found that it actually tells the full story of the show in very simple images. We see water that takes on several shapes of people until it bursts out into a multitude of single drops, we see an astronaut in a forest that goes through three stages of draught until it burns, we see the rocket launch into space and an astronaut drowning until there’s a zoomout to a single astronaut sitting (seemingly dead or at least unconscious) leaned against some rocks on the Moon surface when the words ‘The Silent Sea’ appear in the night-black sky. It basically sums up the whole show.
It’s just that they left too many things open and it frustrates me. I wanted to connect more to the characters, I wanted to know where they came from, what they wanted to get back to. How they got into this mission, or into this line of work, even. I wanted Director Choi and the SAA to be busted for covering up the whole ordeal, I wanted justice. I wanted everyone to at least get a proper memorial and burial. I still rated it as I did because the things that WERE there were really good and I can’t really say anything bad about it. What bugs me here are the things that WEREN’T shown, and I can’t remember ever being so frustrated about an open ending before. I need more than this.

I will move on to my cast comments now before concluding this review.

Honestly, I’ve only seen a couple of things from Bae Doo Na, and all of them were foreign projects. I’ve seen her in Sense8 and the Japanese movie Air Doll. This is the first actual Korean drama that I’ve seen her in. In my opinion, she always has the same kind of appearance and I’ve also ever seen her play really stoic characters. Maybe it’s type casting, but anyways, I’m not mentioning it as a bad thing. I thought she was really good in The Silent Sea. I loved that at least from her side we got some character story and development and while she initially kept a firm distance from the rest of the crew and stuck to her own interests, she did gradually open up more as the situation grew more dire. I don’t know you’d have a choice in such a situation, because you just have to start sticking together, but still, I think she went through an interesting personal journey. She never wanted to be there, she was fine being oblivious about the true nature of her sister’s disappearance and death. But because she was pushed into this, she became more invested in it again. I liked to see a more vulnerable side of her in the end, and also her compassion towards Luna. At the beginning her stoicness made it a bit hard for me to empathize with her, but in the end, as is fitting with the main character, I really sympathized with her and rooted for her to get out of there and go back to the safety of the Earth surface. I think she did a really good job portraying the layers of Ji An’s personality, all the more because Ji An held back her emotions so much.

Once again I can say that I’ve seen Gong Yoo in a serious acting role that wasn’t about his appearance or popularity. I like that he’s doing these series that seem to lay outside of his usual genre. Then again, I haven’t seen Train to Busan, apparently he’s really good in that one, as well. Anyways, I know him from The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince to Big to Goblin, and I always seem to like his performances. He’s a good actor and it really felt like I was seeing a new side of him in this show. As I mentioned, I would’ve liked to get more backstory from his side, I don’t know how they would’ve had to insert that somewhere, but in the end it still felt like I knew next to nothing about him. He was such a just Captain, he really cared about his crew members and you could see how much it killed him to go against Tae Seok because he felt so betrayed by him. It was a nice kind of development to see him adapt more to the situation and consequently, Ji An’s views on what the mission should be. In his own way, he changed his mindset for the better and he had a radar for certain things as well. At some point he suddenly randomly commented about the fact that Tae Seok had voluntarily signed up for the mission, as if he just had a feeling about him. I would’ve liked to get a bit more insight into his personal life apart from his daughter, but I still liked his character enough as it was. I really do wonder what would happen to his daughter now, though…

Lee Joon was one of the faces that looked familiar to me, and then I realized he’s the main from Drama Special: What’s The Ghost Doing? !!! No wonder I didn’t immediately make the connection, haha! He’s also a former member of K-Pop group MBLAQ, apparently. But yeah, he definitely showed a very new side to his acting from what I saw in the other one. He didn’t really stand out to me much in the beginning, but I started getting suspicious about him because there was just something about the way he sometimes looked at people, like a glance that lasted just a little too long to be a regular look. When it was revealed that besides Gi Soo, he too was working for the RX and that he actually started killing the crew members upon confrontation rather than trying to maintain his cover, he suddenly became all dangerous and that was scary but interesting. I think this must have been a pretty challenging role, also because for the first half of the series he really had to work hard not to seem suspicious.

I already announced this in my previous review, but I knew that Kim Sun Young was in this and I was really excited to see her in a more serious role again. Usually, her serious acting really gives me goosebumps. To sum up again what I know her from: Shopping King Louie, Legend of the Blue Sea, Lookout, Because This is My First LifeRomance is a Bonus BookCrash Landing on You and Backstreet Rookie and, most recently, Her Private Life. Dr. Hong was one of the characters that I felt was really established clearly from the beginning, the kind of person she was. But then as soon as they arrived at the Station, there wasn’t really a lot to do with the traits she’d been given as emergency struck right away and she was mostly just freaking out about the things happening around her. I liked that she was another strong and dependable female character, and that she managed to get out alive, but I also felt like she remained mostly in the background. Of course, without a doctor everyone is screwed, so they must have deliberately tried to keep her away from the danger as much as possible, but for me it felt like this obstructed her character in expressing herself as she did best. Her first introduction to Ji An, how casual and confident she seemed, and how she would comment on the people idly chatting on the spacecraft, I would’ve liked to see more snarky moments of her like that. With her it felt like her personality was suppressed a little by the events that happened, there was no room for her to be her calm and collected self the way she was when she first introduced herself. Anyways, this didn’t have anything to do with her acting of course, she was still very good. It was just another example of the lack of distinguishable personality traits of each of the characters.

Lee Moo Saeng also looked familiar to me, and I guess it’s because I remember him from Melting Me Softly. It also took me a while to get familiar with his character, although it got better -however weird this is to say- after Soo Chan died. The scene in which he was watching him, muttering ‘Hang in there’ to his younger brother hit me quite hard, as it was the first time I saw any of the male characters really soften. After that he recollected himself very quickly, but from that point on there was always that hurt in him that somehow made it easier for me to feel for him. It was kind of predictable that he was also going to die before the end, but still I found it a pity. It would’ve been nice if more people managed to get out alive. Despite his tendency to quickly aim his gun at things (like Luna), I still couldn’t dislike him because he was Soo Chan’s brother and that made him a good person. He also just accepted that he wouldn’t make it as soon as he got shot. In the end, I did like his character.

KIM SUN DESERVED BETTER. Honestly, as soon as he was making his way towards the command center where Tae Seok was and in the meantime they were all informed that Tae Seok was the spy, I just knew what was waiting for him, but I still had hoped that he wouldn’t die. Seriously, the guy just wanted to go home T^T He’d already had to watch his best friend die, he’d watched as Luna tore E1’s forearm off just to get the sample out of his hand, he’d already lost all the faith he’d put in his friendship bracelet to get out alive, but still he just wanted to go home and his death really killed me. He was just crying to Tae Seok that he wanted them all to go home while the water was starting to mingle with his blood. Kim Sun was the best of them and I stand by that.
I’ve seen Lee Sung Wook before in Duel (apparently) and most recently in Extraordinary Attorney Woo, he was in the ATM copyright case. He’s also in a couple of dramas that are still on my list, so looking forward to that. I really liked Kim Sun, he was the fun and carefree character that you just need in a story full of darkness. Although I already knew he wouldn’t stand a chance on his own, either to the virus or to something else, it just killed me that he ended up exactly like Soo Chan. When it was shown how he drowned inside, I kind of hoped Soo Chan to pop up to reach for his hand, at least they would’ve been together. T^T

Apparently I know Jung Soon Won from Fight For My Way, but I don’t remember him from there. In any case, I’ve already mentioned what I thought about what happened to Soo Chan. I just felt really bad for him since he’d just barely got in there alive – he was struggling with the access codes while everyone was running out of oxygen which was a really intense moment and I’d just expected him to be around for longer than he did. Although it was sad that he died first, he did immediately point them in the direction of the lunar water, so it did speed things up with regards to finding out stuff. I just wished, again, that I’d learned more about him, even got more scenes of him with his brother, because now I wouldn’t have known they were related if it weren’t for that single mention of their father. He also deserved better. See, here I start struggling with commenting on the actor’s performance because he actually wasn’t in the story for that long, I just got enough from the character to like him sufficiently to mention him here. I can imagine the scene where he was puking out all that water and Dr. Hong stuck all these tubes in him in the hope of making it easier for him to breathe must have been pretty intense to film, so just for his performance in that scene alone, I was impressed.

As I mentioned before, two of the most enigmatic members of the crew to me were E1 and E2. I don’t even know why they had these similar code names or nicknames, their real names weren’t even revealed. E1 got slightly more screentime than E2, I feel, because he also spent some time exploring with Ji An in the beginning. But there was just so little personal information about their characters. I wish there had been more to go on. I also don’t know this actor apart from (apparently) a cameo in Room No. 9.
I was a little more attached to E2 because he was cute (ehem), and his death just felt really unfair to me. I haven’t seen him in anything before, but when I check his Insta (purely for research purposes) it looks like he’s a stage actor. Anyways, especially since he seemed to be the youngest crew member and didn’t get any kind of individual highlight, I was all the more curious if he was still going to have a moment to shine, but that moment turned out to be his death. Also, when Dr. Hong found his body in the fridge… that was the moment I decided Tae Seok could rot in hell for all I cared. Also, apparently his freckles aren’t real?? I feel betrayed, lol.

I’m just going through the rest of the crew quickly as I’m already halfway through. I really thought I recognized Choi Young Woo from somewhere but checking DramaWiki I don’t see anything that I’d know him from? He gave me the creeps as soon as he entered the spacecraft and everyone was like, “Who the hell is this guy?” Also, when he made a very inappropriate joke when they found the first body that showed the symptoms of drowning, he was like, “I’m jealous. I know he’s a dead man, but at least he had as much water as he wanted, haha” and everyone just looked at him like, “What is wrong with you?” From the start, it just seemed like he didn’t fit in, he was the type to laugh manically in tense situation. I have to say I also didn’t expect him to die so soon, I thought there’d be more time for him to explore and gradually it would become clear that he wasn’t to be trusted. But yeah, he brought it onto himself, going in to fetch a sample by himself in a storage room where Luna was lurking around.

There was barely any time to get to know Mr. Hwang as he died as soon as they landed, but I’m glad at least they gave a couple of flashbacks to show that Ji An had talked with him before. He also seemed to know more about the Balhae accident then he let on, and as soon as Ji An asked him about ‘Luna’, he said he doubted the Director brought that topic up with her and just left. But hey, at least he did give them the initial warning about the water! It was a shame he was the first to die because he was the only person of the crew who’d been at Balhae before, heck, who’d contributed to its construction so he would’ve known much more about the structure of the Station and where all the shafts led and stuff. I like to think that he had prior knowledge of the lunar water and would’ve been able to contribute to the mission very well, but he just got unlucky. Poor guy.

I haven’t seen Kang Mal Geum in anything before either, but I liked that we were still given some insight in Won Kyung’s side of the story in the end. Instead of keeping her intentions with the experimenting a secret for Ji An to ponder for eternity, we actually were provided with some flashbacks of Won Kyung’s researching days, and how she ended up in the pile of people after getting locked in by the RX. It was a nice change to have someone actually leave a memory in regret rather than pride, however weird that may sound. But Won Kyung definitely reflected on herself and realized that what she was doing was wrong, but she still had a goal to work towards – she wanted to show Ji An the ocean. She wanted to bring water back to Earth for her younger sister to see, and that was worth more to her than anything else. Her conflicted feelings about this just made her more human to me, even though she only appeared in flashbacks. They didn’t actually find her body, I kind of expected that to happen and to be a defining moment for Ji An as well. At first I thought somehow her body wasn’t there, but I guess she was just amongst those bodies somewhere and they just didn’t really search for her specifically. Anyways, I thought that, even though Won Kyung only existed in Ji An’s memories, she was still an interesting character.

When it was revealed that Luna was a child, she immediately became less scary to me, despite her exorcist-reminiscent movements and speed. I really wonder what happened to Luna as soon as she was brought to Earth. Would the SAA have just stuck to their plan to continue experimenting on her or would Ji An have taken her in to keep her away from that? I guess we’ll never know. Anyways, I couldn’t help but notice that this girl is so pretty! Kim Shi Ah, she’s only 14 years old and she already gave such a performance without even speaking! Her glares were more than enough to convey what she was feeling to me, and that’s pretty impressive. She’s only just starting out acting in movies and dramas, so who knows what we’ll see of her in the future!

Let’s move on to the final significant characters, the people from the SAA. Director Choi, played by Gil Hae Yeon, for example. I’ve mentioned this before in my earlier reviews of Gil Hae Yeon’s characters but once again, she impressed me. From the loving mother in Melting Me Softly to the unbearable one in Something in the Rain, here she was a director with a lot of blood on her hands, but she wasn’t completely heartless, I felt. She had recurring flashbacks of what happened and it was clear that it didn’t sit right with her, no matter how cool she played it opposite the crew members. I really would’ve liked to know more about her actual involvement in the Balhae accident. It was revealed only through photographs that she personally knew Won Kyung, so what exactly was their relationship? It seemed pretty heartless of her to send Ji An on this mission just because she knew she wouldn’t reveal her sister’s wrongdoings after she came back. I just really would’ve liked to see Director Choi’s reaction after the rescue ship brought the survivors back to Earth, I wanted to know what happened to her. I just have the feeling Ji An wouldn’t sit still – she would protect Luna, all the way.

I know Heo Sung Tae from God’s Gift – 14 Days and Tunnel… and I feel like I know him from much more, but I guess not. In any case, he’s also quite a familiar face. I thought his duality was interesting. At first I just assumed he was Director Choi’s puppet, he knew exactly what was going on but pretended not to. But then he was shown checking up on Captain Han’s daughter in the hospital frequently and keeping in touch with him, and then I felt like he might have a good relationship with Captain Han, which would make him less bad. Maybe he would take over the care for the daughter? I don’t really know, but I guess he also just went along with what he was told by Director Choi. He was also there with her when they went to inform Ji An of her sister’s passing. I’m not entirely sure what his role was other than that, that’s also something I would’ve liked to get more intel on.

I may have been a little critical overall, but I did enjoy watching this show. For me it really helped that the cause of the danger, the lunar water and Luna both, were revealed quite quickly – this immediately took one level of anxiety away from me, haha. I really was on the edge of my seat for the most part, as I was really scared but also interested to see what would happen. In the end, I think it’s safe to say that the most damage was done by the people themselves, not the water or Luna. If they’d let it be, neither of them would’ve hurt anyone. It’s because the water was released by human hands that it started effecting people. As I saw someone mention in a comment somewhere, water in a desolated and Silent place is even more treacherous, all the more because it hasn’t been touched by human hands and therefore it’s more unpredictable and out of control. The water on Earth has been ‘tamed’ by humans so much that we now decide in what way it’s being used, we literally shape water the way we need it. The water on the Moon is unshaped, untouched, and therefore all the more unruly. I think this drama also shows that once humans start meddling with things that lay beyond their control, they only make things worse. They may have good intentions with it, like how they thought the lunar water might save the water shortage on Earth, but at the end of the day it really is just better to leave it alone. I truly wish no one will ever try to get water from outer space, whether it’s the Moon or Mars… Just leave the extraterrestial water alone, please. It’s not meant for us.
I guess my expectations for this series were pretty high and I was a bit disappointed by the openness of the ending and the lack of equal character building, but apart from that I still thought it was a good show. It was very well-acted, the cinematography was stunning (seriously, the shots of the moon with all those pitch-black parts that made it look like complete void really gave me goosebumps), and the tension build-up was very well done, as well as the overall construction of the story. At some point it felt to me like they were starting to rush a bit in killing all the remaining characters off as they were headed toward the ending, and that made me go ‘I don’t like this’, especially when it was Kim Sun’s time to go. I’m glad to say that despite my initial struggle to relate to the characters, I did start to feel for several throughout the story, and when they died it really did hurt. I just would’ve preferred to have a bit more overall closure at the end, but maybe it’s also realistic in a way, not to show a concrete solution to the problem. We’ll never know if they ended up utilizing the samples of lunar water for good, just like we’ll never know what will become of our own Earth until it gets there.

So yeah, there we are. It may not have been a very long review, but it did feel long as I was typing it, haha. I spent another full day on this review, so I hope it’s worthwhile to read. I didn’t expect to finish it so quickly, but this format of shorter episodes and shorter length drama really helped. I hope to see more of these hidden gems appear, because this is certainly very promising stuff. It felt more like watching a movie than a drama, to be honest, and writing this review therefore also felt different, I guess just because the genre is so unusual for me to write about. I do think this story has a lot of things we can learn from, where it’s about exploring outer space or just heeding climate change – we don’t want our world to end up the way it has in this show, but it’s definitely heading somewhere unpleasant, as far as I can tell. Let me just end this review with two requests: 1. to be mindful of our water usage, and 2. to never, EVER, get any kind of untested substance from outer space to Earth. Let’s not let The Waters of Mars or The Silent Sea become a reality, please.

I’ll be back soon with a new review, so until then, bye-bee!

Her Private Life

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Her Private Life
(그녀의 사생활 / Geunyeoui Sasaenghwal)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hi everyone! Here I am coming back to you with a new review before the month is officially over! I’m kind of going back and forth between my 2019/2020 batch watchlist items and series which were released in the last two years, so please bear with me! This one was also on my list for a while, ever since I saw these two actors would be the mains and I was really curious to see them in a romantic drama together. It didn’t take me a long time to go through this, especially the first half of the show since I personally found it very addicting. I took some breaks in-between the final episodes for no particular reason but I did still want to finish it by the end of the month, also for no particular reason, lol. It just felt like a nice way to conclude my drama reviews for this month. Anyways, I really can’t wait to write my thoughts and feelings about this drama, so let’s get into it without further ado.

Her Private Life is a 16-episode K-Drama with episodes of about 1 hour and 10 minutes each. It’s about Sung Deok Mi (played by Park Min Young), a woman who is the head curator at an art gallery called Cheum Gallery. She’s been into art ever since she was a child. First she wanted to be an artist herself, but after sustaining an injury to her wrist and having to give up making art herself as a profession, she went to work on the other side, the researching and collecting side. On the outside, she seems like a very hard-working and respectable curator who puts in all the possible effort even though at the end of the day all the credit always goes to the gallery’s eccentric but negligent director. Deok Mi pulls through it just because she loves her job so much and she also has a good relationship with her team mates.
Deok Mi’s family consists of her father (played by Maeng Sang Hoon), her mother (played by Kim Mi Kyung), and Nam Eun Gi (played by Ahn Bo Hyun). Eun Gi is not related to her by blood, but he was raised by her parents as their own child when Eun Gi’s own mother (played by Park Myung Shin) had some personal issues after giving birth to him. He’s like Deok Mi’s best male friend and brother figure, even though Eun Gi has actually developed romantic feelings for Deok Mi in the meantime. Besides Eun Gi, Deok Mi’s other closest friend is Lee Sun Joo (played by Park Jin Joo), and these two are truly inseperable. Even though Sun Joo already has a family of her own, the two women always make time to meet up and talk every single day, mostly about their shared passion: fangirling.
Coming to the fangirling, you could say Deok Mi actually lives a double life. On the outside, she just seems to be this esteemed curator, but once she’s done with work and she goes home, it’s time to divulge into her favorite pastime. The way she explains it, she’s been a fangirl all her life, and this was something born inside her. Like her mother is always knitting and her father’s always caring for his stone collection, Deok Mi finds her solace in fangirling. While the object of her obsession has changed over the years, Deok Mi’s current fixation lies with Cha Shi An (played by Jung Jae Won), a member of the K-Pop group White Ocean. Her entire room is filled with fanart, merchandise and even a lifesize cardboard figure of Shi An, and even within the fandom she’s quite famous as she runs one of his biggest fansites under the name ‘Shi An is My Life’. As she is well-informed about his work schedule, Deok Mi always manages to find out where he’s going to appear, and then she always makes sure she’s there with her camera lens to take as many clear close-up shots of him as she can. She then edits those pictures and posts them on her fansite, so she can contribute to the joy of fellow fans who may not be able to attend his events. It’s interesting to see how this fangirling life just makes sense to Deok Mi, even though she’s aware of how it may come across to other people. She’s not ashamed about her passion towards her closest friends, but she does keep it a secret from her colleagues at work, for example. She knows it will make her look unprofessional and she doesn’t want it to influence her career. On the other hand, nothing can stop her from supporting Shi An in whatever way possible, whether it’s continuing her fansite, buying him gifts or otherwise promoting his talents. The only people who know about Deok Mi’s secret identity as fangirl Shi An is My Life are Eun Gi and Sun Joo, the latter being a major Shi An fangirl herself as well.
Moving on the male lead of the drama, there’s Ryan Gold (played by Kim Jae Wook). He’s originally Korean but was adopted in the US, and there he’s been making a name for himself as a very influential and critical artist. However, for a while now he’s not been able to paint anymore, so he’s just been making appearances at galleries to judge other people’s artworks. You could say that now he’s become more of a collector than an artist himself. No one knows what the reason is that he stopped painting, and he won’t release any information about it, or about when he might be making a comeback as an artist. In any case, Ryan Gold ends up travelling back to South Korea and, as it happens, becomes the new director at Cheum Gallery. By then, he and Deok Mi have already met once before and haven’t gotten along very well from the start, so of course there’s initial tension between them. However, it doesn’t take long before they’re drawn to each other more and more and from there on their relationship evolves not only into a strong partnership as director and head curator at work, but also as mutually supportive partners in life.

Let me just say right off the bat that I really liked how relatively uncomplicated this drama was. I mean, yes, there were some childhood traumas to dissect and some misunderstandings to get through, but it all happened quite smoothly and it all ended very wholesomely. I really liked that, even when the heavier themes came to light, overall they weren’t made much heavier than they were, and people handled them like real adults without dwelling too much on past regrets or memories. There were just a couple of things that bugged me, which I will of course explain in this review, but other than that I really don’t have anything critical to say about this show. I really enjoyed watching it.
I realized that in my synopsis, I wrote way more about Deok Mi than I did about Ryan, but that’s because in the beginning of the show, we really don’t know much about Ryan yet while Deok Mi is very much introduced as the main character. Throughout the series, we get to see Ryan’s side of the story more and more. It’s like the more he becomes an occupying presence in Deok Mi’s life, the more we get to see of him in the whole series as well. I found it really nice to see their relationship develop, it became such a healthy one. Deok Mi ends up pulling him through all his traumas and painful childhood memories and they really become the most supportive partners to each other, both at work as in their personal lives. It was really comforting to see.

I have to say that as someone who also listens to a lot of K-Pop and who has an inkling of how stuff can go down in fandoms, it was really interesting to get an insight from someone like Deok Mi. It’s like, it comforts her to support someone, it makes her feel good to share Shi An’s talents and beauty with the world and get other people to appreciate him as much as she does. She’s not obsessive as in that she wants him for herself or anything like that, even as a major fan she still is reasonable enough to distinguish between different kinds of fans. The way she talks about him to me seemed like she was just proud of her own son or something, there wasn’t even romantical interest involved. Even though she would completely lose herself when just looking at his pictures, she would always explain it as being content with just watching him from a distance. So when an occasion should arise where she would actually get a chance to meet him in real life, she would completely tense up and not know what to say or do with herself. How do you meet someone in a professional setting without revealing that you actually already know everything about them? As it happens, an occasion DOES arise for Deok Mi to meet with Shi An in real life, and this is all thanks to Ryan Gold.

Deok Mi and Ryan meet for the first time at an auction abroad. Deok Mi has been sent there by her director to collect some paintings for the gallery, and Ryan is there for a more personal interest in one of the auction items. They happen to be sat next to one another and as soon as Ryan catches her eye, Deok Mi is taken by his looks, muttering that he ‘looks just like Shi An’. When Ryan’s interest auction item appears, it just happens to be a painting that Shi An featured in a program that Deok Mi recently watched, making her interested in it as well as she immediately thinks of gifting it to Shi An as a present. However, she loses it to Ryan.

(Fun foreshadowing fact, by the way: the moment Deok Mi sets eyes on Ryan and mutters that he looks just like Shi An, I just had this feeling that there might indeed be a connection between Ryan and Shi An, although I wasn’t quite sure yet what kind of connection. When it turns out that Ryan and Shi An also live in the same building, one floor apart, and Shi An starts familiarizing with Ryan, calling him ‘hyung’ and just being so comfortable around him, I felt more and more that there was something peculiar about it. So yeah, when the whole half-brother plot twist was revealed, I wasn’t actually that surprised.)

Not long after that, they meet again at the airport, where Ryan just happens to be arriving at the same time as Shi An. Deok Mi is there as Shi An is My Life, incognito, and they accidentally bump into each other as a horde of fans storms toward Shi An while Deok Mi is trying to get some good pictures. Neither of them make the connection right away as Deok Mi’s face is hidden behind her mask and she also doesn’t recognize Ryan right away (they met abroad after all, she doesn’t expect to meet him in Korea). After she flees to avoid confrontation, Ryan picks up her Shi An schedule notebook that she leaves behind.
The next time they meet and fully recognize one another again, is when Ryan appears at Cheum Gallery as the new director. This is initially a stab in the back for Deok Mi, as the previous director had hinted that she would be appointed the next director.
While the two of them don’t get along very well in the beginning, they are kind of ‘forced’ to work together when Deok Mi accidentally becomes involved in a scandal involving Shi An. Ryan takes her with him to meet with Shi An – the gallery wants him to participate in a new exhibition, and someone manages to sneak a shot of Deok Mi and Shi An in the same room. In order to protect her, Ryan proposes that they start a ‘fake dating’ rumor between the two of them to get the rumors of her and Shi An out of the way. For him this doesn’t have any heavy intentions yet because at this point he still believes Deok Mi is in a secret relationship with Sun Joo – he’s misinterpreting a couple of occasions where he’s seen them get all excited together without knowing the context of their apparent (friendly) intimacy. Deok Mi initially refuses, but after being seriously harrassed by some Shi An fans, she agrees to do it. The pressure to perform their fake dating becomes even higher when another big Shi An fan suddenly starts working at the gallery as an intern, the former director’s daughter Kim Hyo Jin (played by Kim Bo Ra), nicknamed Sindy. Sindy is a rival figure to Shi An is My Life and Deok Mi recognizes her immediately. In order to convince mostly Sindy that she’s actually dating Ryan, and that the whole deal with Shi An was a misunderstanding, Ryan and Deok Mi really put in a lot of effort to maintain their fake relationship and it works so well that they actually start developing some feelings for each other for real, to the point that they want to stop pretending.

Now here I will stop briefly to make a point about the single moment in this show that REALLY pissed me off. I was enjoying it so much up until episode 6, I was really excited about the growing tensions between the main leads. I’d already been disappointed once by a fake kiss from Ryan’s side – he did it just because he saw Sindy was watching – but I was able to let it slide because it still added to the romantic tension between them. And then the scene came where Ryan visits Deok Mi’s house and she puts a blindfold on him because she doesn’t want him to see her house interior (because, you know, Shi An is everywhere). By this time, her feelings for him have already reached a significant high point and when she accidentally falls on top of him on the couch, she literally narrates that she will follow her true feelings from now on and she kisses him, resulting in a responding kiss and just a very romantic and sexy first makeout scene to end the episode. I was beyond excited that this was already happening so soon in the story (should’ve known better). But honestly. To give us this whole scene including build-up, even play the whole thing AGAIN in the next episode and then just undoing it like that?! They were making out so passionately like that on the couch and then suddenly it was like ‘Ms. Deok Mi?’ and she snapped out of her IMAGINATION. As in, they really gave us crumbs and then took them away from us again and I was SO pissed, lol. I was so pissed that whole episode after that because Deok Mi just wouldn’t be honest about her feelings and didn’t give Ryan any chance to explain that he was only telling her he wanted to stop the fake relationship because he wanted to start a REAL one. When they had their actual real makeout scene, I honestly waited again until they replayed it in the next episode just to make sure they didn’t pull the same trick again, I just wanted to save myself another disappointment, lol. No but seriously, that was uncalled for. It was such a cute moment they had, and I would’ve loved it to be real, that Ryan would’ve just taken off his blindfold and kissed her back without even caring about how her room looked.
For sure, by that time, Ryan had already figured out that Deok Mi was Shi An is My Life, as he had recognized her handwriting from the writing in the notebook he picked up at the airport. He even went so far as to register on her fansite, just to get to know more about her fangirling identity, which I think shows just how interested he was in her. He literally didn’t even mind, he wasn’t freaked out or repulsed by it, he was only fascinated by it. Seeing Deok Mi get all excited about Shi An, seeing her expression when she was all into that just made her that much more attractive to him and honestly – wouldn’t we all want someone to accept us like that? Anyways, so yeah, the only part that frustrated me was around episodes 7-8 when there was suddenly so much unnecessary confusion about their feelings when Ryan started saying he wanted to end their fake relationship. He really needed to spell it out to her what he meant by it. I liked that while Deok Mi wasn’t sure about his real feelings for her, Ryan seemed to be convinced that it was mutual between them, he just knew and that’s why he was able to keep calm about it, I think. He knew he just had to explain it to her and all would be well. Admittedly, their REAL first makeout scene at that carpentry shop was satisfying as hell, so it made up for the disappointment of the first one being fake. Still pissed about it, though. xD

So yeah, once they become an official couple, it really only seems to be going upwards for them. They never argue, they support each other through everything and they manage to still keep everything professional at work.
As a team, Cheum Gallery starts preparing for a special new exhibition that features some works collected by several artists, not just painters but also writers, dancers, etc. With the paintings he’s been featuring in his program, Shi An also becomes someone the gallery would like to enter in this exhibition. Shi An initially doesn’t seem too interested, but then he agrees on the condition that he wants to exhibit all nine of artist Lee Sol’s paintings. This poses a challenge since most of these paintings have been lost and there’s too little personal information on the artist herself to find them all with ease. Both Shi An and Ryan seem to have a connection with these paintings, and the auction item from when Deok Mi and Ryan first met was also one of these paintings.
What characterizes these paintings is that they display soap bubbles in different color shades and sizes, and in some of the bubbles there’s an additional imagery displayed. While continually looking for additional Lee Sol paintings to pop up, Deok Mi and Ryan’s relationship deepens as the secrets between them decrease and Ryan starts opening up to Deok Mi more and more.

Then there’s the issue of Eun Gi. As I mentioned before. Eun Gi was raised as Deok Mi’s twin brother by her parents. By now he’s already been reunited with his real mom and they get along quite well, but for some unexplained reasons his mom wasn’t immediately able to take care of him as soon as he was born. Deok Mi’s mother is a mother figure by nature, she likes being called ‘mother’ and she likes taking care of youngsters when they need a place to stay for a while. So as a friend, she naturally agreed to take care of Eun Gi for as long as his mom needed to get back on her feet.
Honestly, I found these circumstances a bit weird. It wasn’t clear to me from the start what exactly was Eun Gi’s position in Deok Mi’s family. In the first few episodes, I actually thought he was her real brother. As I’d just finished a drama in which one of the FL’s love interests was her direct cousin, I literally went ‘oh god, not again’, but then Eun Gi seemed to care for Deok Mi more than just as a brother and I went, ‘Ok wait, what’s going on here?’. He even went around telling people he was her brother, so what was the deal? Anyways, okay, so he isn’t her actual brother. But also the deal with his mom leaving him to be raised by Deok Mi’s family while dealing with some unexplained ‘personal issues’… I don’t know, it seemed a little weird. How everyone just accepted the situation and didn’t make a big deal out of it was also interesting to me. And then after a while Eun Gi’s mom just reappeared and everything was right in the world again even though Eun Gi still kept calling Deok Mi’s parents ‘Mom and Dad’… I would be confused too, is all I’m saying. I’m also wondering why, if he immediately saw Ryan as a threat, he didn’t just explain to him right away that he wasn’t actually Deok Mi’s brother, because that’s how he introduced himself as to Ryan the first time they met.
Either way, Eun Gi runs a taekwondo school for kids. Sun Joo’s kid is also one of his students. I believe he’s had a crush on Deok Mi ever since high school, and it just grew and grew but he never got to tell her in a serious context what his true feelings towards her were. I think he also had a harder time because deep down he knew that Deok Mi didn’t see him the same way and he may have been worried how their relationship would change after he told her. As a matter of fact, at some point literally everyone except Deok Mi knows how Eun Gi feels about her, but she won’t accept it as the truth until Eun Gi himself confronts her. When that happens, she rejects him as expected, but I was really happy about the way Eun Gi dealt with it. I guess he saw it coming, as by then Deok Mi was already dating Ryan openly as well. But I’m just so glad he didn’t get petty and jealous, instead he realized that he just didn’t want to lose Deok Mi as his sister-like friend whom he grew up with and just decided to get over it and support her so their friendship didn’t have to change. That was really admirable of him.

On Ryan’s side, there’s also the appearance of a potential love rival, at least before Deok Mi and Ryan actually confess their feelings toward each other. Choi Da In (played by Hong Seo Young), an acquaintance of Ryan from New York, is a designer/visual artist he’s worked with before, who’s now in a bit of a slump. She’s been romantically interested in Ryan for a while and doesn’t hide it either, even though Ryan has rejected her approaches continuously. She also comes back to Korea, both to get out of her slump and to get to work more with Ryan again. Even though she makes it clear from the start to Deok Mi that she’s interested in Ryan, she also doesn’t get petty and jealous when the two leads get together. She doesn’t actively stand in their way, and she’s pretty chill about it altogether, which I also appreciated. She gets to bond with Eun Gi over their mutual one-sided romantic feelings, and they become drinking buddies. She ends up becoming the new visual director for Shi An’s new MV as well as for his contribution to the exhibition, and manages to get out of her slump. At the end of the series she decides to move back to the US.

In the meantime, we also get a storyline about Sun Joo and how she deals with a major event in her personal life as well. Sun Joo owns a café and this café is also a recurring place where many of the characters meet. Deok Mi always comes by the café before she goes to work, and she visits Sun Joo there all the time. Sun Joo is married to Kang Seung Min (Im Ji Gyu) and they have a kid together named Geon Woo (Jung Shi Yool – THE CUTEST THING). Unlike Ryan’s acceptance of Deok Mi’s fangirl identity, Seung Min has always felt a little bit uncomfortable by Sun Joo’s fangirling tendencies, but as he knows how much it means to her, he never stopped her from doing anything. Although she feels like marrying and having a kid (actually she married Seung Min because she got pregnant first) has limited her possibilities in fangirling, Sun Joo still grabs whatever opportunity she has to join Deok Mi in her fangirling. As she has some money (her father is also the landlord of the café she runs and Seung Min is a TV show producer), Sun Joo is even sometimes able to indulge into the fandom with Deok Mi even more, for example when she suggests renting a specific hotel suite that Shi An once stayed in to embark on a ‘fan pilgrimmage’, as they call it.
Seung Min is struggling at work since he wants to change from detective stories to variety shows, but in order to do that he’s forced to participate in a documentary that kind of puts idol fandoms in a bad light. Knowing fully well how much his wife will hate him for doing it, he still ends up working on it, and this really breaks something in their relationship. More than him contributing to something that criticizes something she’s so passionate about, Sun Joo feels really betrayed by the fact that he uses their marriage and their child as a defense to her anger towards him, which, I mean, fair enough.
They do manage to make up eventually, though, after Seung Min makes clear how much he loves her. While Seung Min is in the background, Sun Joo finds out that her café part-timer Joo Hyuk (Yoo Yong Min) is actually a really talented singer of a band, and he becomes kind of a new fixation for her. She starts supporting him and his band, starts playing his music in her café and even starts up a fansite for him. Seung Min ultimately wins back Sun Joo’s affection when he reaches out to Joo Hyuk and proposes to introduce him to a friend of his who is a music producer who can help him with making his first album. In the context of still supporting Sun Joo in her fangirling, he keeps making clear that he loves her nonetheless, and Sun Joo can’t help but fall for him again.

Moving back to Cheum Gallery, I’ve mentioned Sindy before, or Kim Hyo Jin. She initially starts working as an intern at Cheum because she’s the person who snapped that shot of Deok Mi with Shi An, creating the scandal, and she wants to figure out by herself what the nature of the situation is. She is really suspicious of Deok Mi and Ryan’s relationship at first. I first thought she was a pretty careless lady, also taking the intern job while not seeming very interested in the job itself, as she had ulterior motives. She really just got in because her mom was the former director. While she may initially have been introduced as a rival-figure to Deok Mi, I did like how she matured and how she did get to become more interested in her work at the gallery as well. She got to design the merchandise for the exhibition and to see Shi An in real life was of course the biggest reward for her. I guess she may have been a little more of an ‘intrusive’ fan than Deok Mi, as Deok Mi was never interested in digging up or creating scandals, but Sindy was always rivalling against Shi An is My Life for being the biggest Shi An fan, I guess.
As for her relationship with her mother, Hyo Jin also had some stuff to work through. The former director of the Cheum gallery – let me introduce her officially now, is Eom So Hye (Kim Sun Young). She’s the wife of a politician (or something?) who basically just got this art gallery to take care of to have something to do in her free time. Even though she never really extends a finger to actually make things happen – as I mentioned before Deok Mi was doing all the work – she unfortunately still got all the credit for successful events. When her husband gets locked up in jail for using the gallery as a slush fund, Eom So Hye is forced to resign from the director’s position and while she enjoys bullying Deok Mi by suddenly appointing Ryan Gold instead of her as she’d indicated, she doesn’t like how Ryan Gold dismisses her decisions from the side. I guess she’d hoped he’d still listen to her, but once he takes charge he just gives her the ‘you’re not the director anymore, stay out of it’ attitude, and she doesn’t like that. One more thing she doesn’t like is idols – all the more because her daughter Hyo Jin is so obsessed with them. In fact, Deok Mi managed to get her job in the first place because the other candidate is brutally rejected after expressing to have some interest in idols, and Deok Mi therefore really has to keep her secret life a secret from work.
Anyways, there is some tension between Hyo Jin and her mother when Eom So Hye realizes Hyo Jin has still been continuing her idol fangirling activities rather than taking her work at the gallery seriously, Hyo Jin has her mom’s card taken away from her and is told to survive on her own for a while. Hyo Jin ends up at Deok Mi’s parents’ house (I don’t fully remember how but I recall she visited there before and Deok Mi’s mom told her she was always welcome to visit again). Deok Mi’s mom takes her in without too much questioning after understanding that she just needs to have a break from her mom. Despite her eccentricity, Eom So Hye does realize her true feelings of attachment toward her daughter and after a confrontation with Deok Mi’s parents, Hyo Jin is able to go home and make up with her mom. In the final episode, the husband is also released from prison and all’s well with Eom So Hye, as well. She even becomes kind of a Shi An fangirl herself after seeing him at the exhibition and being taken by how handsome he is.

I want to give a brief shoutout to Deok Mi’s team at the gallery before moving onto the more serious themes/storylines of this show. Yoo Kyung Ah (Seo Ye Hwa) and Kim Yoo Seob (Jung Won Chang) are Deok Mi’s colleagues who also go through the whole ordeal with Eom So Hye and Ryan Gold being appointed as the new director and all. It’s clear from the start that these two have the hots for each other, but they only admit they are officially dating at the end of the series. Anyways, even though they are just side characters, and despite Kyung Ah’s initial attachments to Eom So Hye even after she’s not the director anymore, these two have always been loyal to Deok Mi and they have always been supportive of her relationship with Ryan as well. They never bore any ill intentions toward Deok Mi, just appreciation, especially when Eom So Hye would get all the credit for their hard work. It was nice having them as a kind of loyal team that Deok Mi could always fall back on at work. I liked them.

Okay, so now I have summarized most of the characters and storylines that happen throughout the series while Deok Mi and Ryan get together, and now it’s time to move onto the main storyline which carries the ‘heaviest’ aspect of this drama – Ryan’s childhood.
As established in the beginning of this review, we don’t really know much about Ryan when he is first introduced. What his background is, how he got adopted in the US, why he can’t paint anymore, there are a lot of question marks there. Even though he seems to be a pretty easygoing person once he and Deok Mi get together, he starts showing his vulnerable sides to Deok Mi more and more and we learn through his recurring nightmares that he went through something harsh as a kid.
In his memory, he was abandoned by his mom when he was seven years old. She left him alone and that’s how he ended up at an orphanage through which he was adopted by a couple living in the US. He’s always had these recurring dreams of the moment his mom abandoned him, and this is why holding people’s hands has become a sensitive thing to him. Or rather, letting go of people’s hands. He dislikes holding people’s hands because he loathes the moment of letting go – it reminds him of being abandoned by his mom. While being confronted with Lee Sol’s soap bubble painting series on the one hand mentally disables him to paint, they also seem to unlock some new suppressed memories in him, as he suddenly remembers being in the same room as the person painting these pictures. Connecting the dots, he starts believing that artist Lee Sol might be his mother. So his memories are basically of his mother neglecting him over her paintings and abandoning him, not a very positive remembrance altogether, I’d say.

At first, it seems like a coincidence that he is brought into contact with Shi An, that they live in the same building and that there’s a kind of familiarity between them. Shi An somehow feels like he wants to become closer with him, he calls him ‘hyung’ and Ryan just feels like an older brother to him. One time, Shi An’s mother (played by Lee Il Hwa) comes to visit him and it’s revealed that she is actually artist Lee Sol and that Shi An has known this all along. He even tells his mom upfront that he’s been collecting her paintings for her and that he wants to honor her paintings at this exhibition, also to give her back the name ‘Lee Sol’, as a tribute to her as an artist. She expresses her discomfort with these paintings being displayed, and it’s clear that she has some very sorrowful associations with them.
As her visiting and the revelation that she’s Shi An’s mother happens around the same time Ryan starts believing Lee Sol is his mother, it’s not hard to connect the dots that she must also be Ryan’s mother and that he and Shi An are actually half brothers. Still, we need to fill in the story of the past. When Ryan confronts her with the news that he is her son, it takes some time before they can actually sit down and talk together. But when they do, the truth is revealed and it is NOT what we have been led to think.
All in all, Ryan’s original Korean name is Heo Yoon Je. He lived with his mom (I’ll just call her Lee Sol even though it’s not her real name) and they were actually really happy together. She based her soap bubble paintings on the image of Yoon Je blowing bubbles and added several of his favorite childhood memories (amusement park attractions etc.) as easter eggs within the bubbles. One time, she was going to meet with someone who might help her promote her paintings, and she just told Yoon Je to wait for her at the playground until she got back. Unfortunately, she got into a car accident on the way back and her injuries were so severe that she wasn’t immediately able to communicate to anybody that her child was still waiting for her at the playground. So by the time she was able to do so, Yoon Je had already disappeared from the place where he’d been waiting. She looked for him for a long time, but by then he’d probably already been taken to an orphanage and gotten adopted and shipped off to the US. It’s an incredibly sad thing that happened.
Either way, both Ryan and his mom get their closure as they don’t blame each other for anything that happened, and they manage to make amends. Lee Sol agrees to the exhibition once all the paintings are found and the whole imagery of all the paintings combined show the beautiful full image of her son blowing all those bubbles. I personally like the paintings so much, I’ll just share a picture here.


But then, there’s another part of the story, the part of how Yoon Je ended up at the orphanage. And here, surprisingly (or not), Deok Mi’s family turns out to be involved. Incidentally, Deok Mi and Eun Gi were playing at the playground where Yoon Je was waiting for his mother, and the three started playing together as they were all the same age. When Yoon Je walked along with the other two to their home, Deok Mi’s mother decided to take him in for dinner as she would go to the playground to check if his mother would come back. When she didn’t, Deok Mi’s mom kind of naturally took Yoon Je in, as she did with Eun Gi. However, at some point, something major happened and it became financially tight for the family. Deok Mi’s mother became desperate and in a fragile state of mind, she took Yoon Je to the orphanage as she couldn’t take care of him anymore and his mother never showed up. By the time she changed her mind and went back for him, he’d already been adopted and sent to the US. Deok Mi’s mom never truly let go of this event, and felt sorry for that little boy all these years.
It isn’t until Eun Gi coincidentally hears mention of Ryan’s Korean name Yoon Je that his memory is triggered and he realizes he must be that boy. He tells Deok Mi’s mother as well, as the whole family somehow has accepted that Deok Mi is the only one who doesn’t have any memories from that time. It’s a shock at first, to find out the guy their daughter is dating is actually the same boy they left at the orphanage all those years ago and who they never thought they’d see again. Deok Mi’s mom is very apologetic toward Ryan, but luckily he’s grown into a very mature adult and tells her it’s all in the past. He thanks her for taking him in for as long as she did and tells her he bears no grudges towards her decision from that time whatsoever. This was one of those cases that I mentioned in the beginning, where I was glad they didn’t make the past events heavier than they should be. If Ryan had still born a grudge and it would’ve created tension between him and Deok Mi’s family, it would’ve been even more painful, but now he was literally like, ‘As a 7-year old child I would never have understood, but thinking back on it now as an adult, I can clearly see why you did what you did’ and I was like… Wow. Thank the lord for Ryan Gold’s maturity. I was a bit worried about Deok Mi’s response though, because she reacted in a much more dramatic way than Ryan himself did. I kind of feared that, even though she herself wasn’t even remotely aware of what went down as a kid, she would still blame herself or her mother for the whole thing.

And now to my final piece of criticim on this show: Deok Soo. When the whole issue of Deok Mi’s family’s involvement in Ryan’s past is explained, in the second-to-last episode the writers of this series found it necessary to create one additional plot tool to explain A. why Deok Mi doesn’t have any memories from that time and B. to create an additional reason for Deok Mi’s mom to be desperate enough to take Yoon Je to the orphanage. This plot tool goes by the name of Deok Soo, Deok Mi’s younger brother. He was also there at the time of Yoon Je’s arrival and temporary stay with Deok Mi’s family, but he is never mentioned before. Deok Mi’s parents and Eun Gi are the only ones who seem to remember him. Deok Mi and Deok Soo got into a car accident together one day and Deok Soo didn’t survive it. Deok Mi consequently forgot everything about her younger brother, as a coping mechanism or suppressive reaction, I suppose. Anyways, after this happened, Deok Mi’s parents were of course completely derailed for a while. Deok Mi’s father started obsessively collecting stones and secluded himself from the rest of the family, and Deok Mi’s mother couldn’t deal with the consequences of losing her youngest child, probably in combination with still having these other children in the house, and this probably also dealt the family with a hard financial blow, so she must have felt like she had no other choice but to take Yoon Je away. By the time things had settled down and she realized she made a mistake, Yoon Je had already been adopted.
It may have already been obvious from the way I introduced this segment, but honestly, I found it kind of unnecessary to suddenly introduce this plot tool of a forgotten younger brother in the second-to-last episode. Most of all because Deok Mi was just trying to process that her family had been involved in Ryan’s past, and now she also suddenly had to face this other painful truth. It was like, ‘Hi, sorry, I know you’re grieving and processing right now, but there’s actually one more thing: you used to have a little brother and he died and you forgot all about him. Just so you know.’ That’s what it came across as to me. For me, they didn’t have to add this reason to justify the fact that Deok Mi didn’t have all of her childhood memories (I mean, who does?), or that the mom needed an extra reason to be distraught enough to push Yoon Je away. Financial issues would’ve sufficed for me as a good enough reason, she was already raising two additional children that weren’t hers, after all. The only reason that remained in the end was that the cause of Deok Mi’s father’s obsession with collecting stones – on the day they brought Deok Soo to a temple to be buried, he found a warm stone that reminded him of the warmth of Deok Soo’s hands and ever since then he’d been travelling around looking for more reminders of him – that in itself I found a very heartwarming reasoning. However, in that case, I would’ve liked to have Deok Soo introduced or at least hinted at earlier on the series. Now it just came out of the blue, last minute, and I really found myself thinking, what’s the point in revealing all this extra pain now, especially since Deok Mi was already dealing with enough as it was, without also adding to it the guilt of forgetting about her little brother.

Through all of the above-mentioned happenings and storylines, Deok Mi and Ryan remain as close as ever, nothing seems to be able to break them apart. On the contrary, it’s like neither can do anything to upset the other. At some points I felt a bit anxious when Deok Mi would try to help Ryan get out of something, thinking that it might be too much too soon, but in the end it may have been exactly the kind of push Ryan needed. For example, when she starts trying to get him to draw again. As we’ve seen in the beginning, his mental block is so large that he can barely pick up a brush, let alone put a stroke on the canvas, but Deok Mi starts by helping him draw a contour of their hands during a volunteering day at an orphanage. After that, she asks him to paint a portrait of her, even if it’s just drawing a line to contour her profile’s shadow on the canvas. I kept feeling like she was treading on thin ice, as personally I didn’t feel like he’d be up to it yet, but in the end she really did get him to paint again. Of course it must’ve also helped that his trauma involving his mom’s memory was resolved, and Deok Mi also comments at seeing his new portraits that they’ve become much ‘warmer’ than before.
I just really loved this couple. Not only was their intimate chemistry AMAZING, they just seemed so at ease with each other, and I also really loved the simple scenes in which they just held hands and hugged. The whole ‘holding hands’ story was really sweet, all the more when Deok Mi told him that if he ever needed it, he could always hold her hand because she would never let go. I loved how they came clean about all their secrets, that Ryan also confessed that he had ‘infiltrated’ Deok Mi’s fansite and that he’d already known she was Shi An is My Life for a while. Speaking of secrets, the only thing I would’ve liked to see was Deok Mi confessing to Shi An that she was Shi An is My Life, because Shi An was definitely very fond of this fan, he always checked what she posted on her fansite and was seemingly worried when he saw she put her site on hiatus – this is when Deok Mi decides to go to the US with Ryan. I would’ve liked to see his reaction, especially because I think he might already have figured something out – he did believe Deok Mi to be a fan at some point, after all.
It did occur to me that throughout the series, Deok Mi became more and more at ease around Shi An. Like, at the end of the show she was definitely not on the same level anymore as she was when Ryan took her to meet Shi An the very first time and all she could do was just stare at him, smiling creepily. Towards the end, probably also because she found love in her personal life and a lot of things happened in the meantime, it seemed like she didn’t go out anonymously to take pictures as much anymore. She was able to calm down and become more put-together when facing Shi An in professional settings, so I guess there was a bit of character development for her as well, even though she remained pretty consistent throughout the series, all in all.

I think by now I’ve mentioned all that I wanted to say about the series story-wise, so I’m going on to the cast comments now. Overall, I really liked the casting, they all did a really great job in portraying all these cool and interesting characters.

As soon as I saw Park Min Young on the poster, I knew that chemistry-wise, this would be a worthwhile drama to watch. She always delivers on the romance part and I just generally like her as an actress. So far I’ve seen her in Sungkyunkwan Scandal, Healer, What’s Wrong with Secretary Kim? and the variety show Busted!. I couldn’t help but admire once more how freaking stylish she looks, her fashion style did kind of remind me of Secretary Kim in a way, but it was nice to see her in a different kind of character, one that had more leadership within her own career, rather than a secretary. Overall, I really enjoyed her performance, she always manages to make her characters so likeable and uncomplicated, even after some suppressed memories resurface. I will keep watching her dramas because I always like seeing her in these kinds of genres. I really liked to see a more goofy side to her in the beginning, because she always seems so graceful, and now she really was that squealing fangirl – it was a side I hadn’t seen of her before, so that was neat.

My oh my, how FINE is Kim Jae Wook, SERIOUSLY. I haven’t even seen that much of him in dramas, I just remember being in love with him in Coffee Prince, and since then I’ve only seen him in Mary Stayed Out All Night (also ages ago) and Temperature of Love, in which his characters wasn’t particularly sympathetic. I’m also really curious to see him in Crazy Love alongside Crystal Jung! Anyways, I liked him so much in this drama. It was nice to see him as a likeable character again, haha. But he was so great in expressing his emotions towards the FL, he showed a variety of emotions that I hadn’t seen from him before, he’s usually pretty stoic in my experience, but here he really went all the way in being that passionate ML and I loved it.

The only thing I’ve seen of Ahn Bo Hyun so far is Itaewon Class (oh, and Descendants of the Sun, apparently), but there he was such a jerk that I kind of had to get used to him being a likeable character here. At first I was a bit anxious that he would get a little petty in his rivalry with the ML over the FL, but I’m really glad they kept his character to be the true friend to the FL that he always was. I also liked that he came to the conclusion by himself that he didn’t want to ruin their friendship and got over his feelings all by himself, moving on without getting involved any further. I thought it was sweet that at the end, it was hinted that he got something going on with Hyo Jin, I would like to see where that was going, haha. Overall, I think that in a sympathetic character role, he’s just really sweet. You could also see how well he was doing for himself in the final episode, and I was genuinely happy for him. By the way, I recently saw that he’s now filming for a drama adaptation of See You in My 19th Life together with Shin Hye Sun! I JUST finished the webtoon, so I’m really curious as to what part he’s going to play and how that will be. Looking forward to seeing more of his acting!

I don’t really remember where I recognized Deok Mi’s father from, but he did look familiar to me. After looking it up, it seems that I know him from Rooftop Prince and Hyde, Jekyll, Me. Anyways, I liked that, even though the stone collection aspect seemed so random in the beginning, they ended up explaining it as such a beautiful way to remember his youngest child. I still would’ve liked to see more of Deok Mi’s parents’ relationship or how it used to be, because now it just seemed like he could never so anything right to his wife anymore, so that was a bit sad for him. He deserved a bit more recognition, in my opinion.

As always, all my love for Kim Mi Kyung. Actually, she has played Park Min Young’s mother before in Sungkyunkwan Scandal, I was wondering why the combination of these two women looked so familiar, haha. Other than that, I’ve seen her in a bunch of stuff, like Secret Garden, Baby-faced Beauty, I Miss You, I Hear Your Voice, The Master’s Sun, The Heirs, Healer, Another Oh Hae Young, The Sound of Your Heart, Sensitive Boss, 20th Century Boy and Girl, Go Back Couple, It’s Okay to Not Be Okay, and still a lot more of here dramas are on my to watch list. This woman will always have my heart, she’s just such a natural mother figure. I just want to give her a big hug.

Park Jin Joo, honestly what is left to say. She’s an icon. She’s literally in everything, but she has yet to land a main role and I really hope she gets one someday, even though she always aces the side character/best friend roles. She’s also an AMAZING singer, so I think it would be so cool if she could show her skills off in a drama one day, as well. Anyways, I know her from countless appearances in dramas, such as The Girl Who Sees Smells, Jealousy Incarnate, Reunited Worlds, While You Were Sleeping, Encounter, It’s Okay to Not Be Okay, Lovestruck in the City, Our Beloved Summer, and cameos in Legend of the Blue Sea, Hotel Del Luna and Backstreet Rookie. I really liked her as Sun Joo, especially since it wasn’t just a comical role, but she also really got a serious family situation to deal with and I liked to see her (I believe for the first time) as a mother, as well. She was so cute with her little son and her husband, she once again managed to show a new side to her, and I think that’s a gift she has.

Kim Sun Young, another icon and one of my favorite actresses. The thing with her is, I find her AMAZING in serious roles, or when she gets the chance to do a serious scene, but I tend to get a little annoyed with her performance when she’s cast as a comical role, because it seems like she sometimes puts in too much effort to be funny, even though she is already funny enough without making the extra effort. This role of Eom So Hye was such a character. As if her appearance wasn’t already extravagant enough, she will just go the extra mile to make the character not just funny, but kind of obnoxious, haha. I don’t want to sound too negative because I still really like her as an actress, but sometimes I feel it’s a shame when she’s cast as just funny roles, because her serious acting always gives me goosebumps. Actually, the drama I’m watching after this is a more serious drama and she’s also in it, so I’m really curious to her performance there. I’ve seen her so far in Shopping King Louie, Legend of the Blue Sea, Lookout, Because This is My First Life, Romance is a Bonus Book, Crash Landing on You and Backstreet Rookie. Can’t wait for my next drama!

I was wondering what I recognized Seo Ye Hwa from, but of course she was the best friend in Backstreet Rookie! Her appearance and behavior was so drastically different it took me a while to recognize her, haha. So good job for her on that already! Besides that I haven’t seen anything with her yet, but I liked that, in contrast to her performance in BR, she also pulled off a more ‘normal’ person, haha. I liked that, even though she was just a side character and didn’t have a backstory in particular, she still made the most of her scenes, like I could still see how she had comical talent even though her character wasn’t even specifically meant to be funny. I would like to see more of her acting.

Kim Bo Ra is also a familiar face. According to DramaWiki I’ve only seen her in Who Are You – School 2015 and that she had a cameo in The Master’s Sun, but I know her from somewhere else as well. I remember she was also a guest appearance on an episode of Busted, but I really thought I knew her from more. Anyways, I liked her as Hyo Jin. She was a typical impulsive twentysomething who just did whatever she wanted, and although she may have seemed a little spiteful in the beginning, I didn’t really come to hate her or anything. In a way, she had the same intentions as the FL, she just wanted to watch over her idol, and that was what she was most passionate about. Even after her mom tried to stop her, she couldn’t go against what made her heart throb and that in itself is also a pretty brave thing to do, especially if you’re from a wealthy family and other things are expected of you. All in all, I liked how she wasn’t a stereotypical antagonist or anything like that, she made a turn for the better as well.

Jung Jae Won. At last a drama has presented itself with this guy that did not make me dislike him. Honestly, so far I’ve only seen him in parts where I thought he was a complete brat, both in Room No. 9 and in Arthdal Chronicles where he played the young version of Tagon. I see he hasn’t actually done that many dramas yet, AC being the last one from 2019. Anyways, he was the perfect cast for a K-Pop idol, he has the smile and the looks and everything. I have to admit I was scared that they were actually going to bring him into the love triangle, or at least get him involved even closer in the FL’s personal life, but I’m glad he stayed a bit more on the side, as we also see the FL calm down in her nervousness around him. He still remained a person of her admiration, but from afar, and she was okay not to get any closer than that. I thought it was nice that Shi An just felt like he had to bring his mother and supposed older brother (which he figured out by himself, by the way) together through those paintings. I was kind of worried that he would be kind of a jerk behind the smile as well, but luckily he seemed to remain a nice enough person.
So yeah, I actually didn’t dislike his character here, haha!

Lee Il Hwa is also such a familiar face, I think she also played the mom character in the dramas I’ve seen of her so far. I’ve seen her in Heartstrings, You Who Came From The Stars, Doctor Stranger and She Was Pretty. She has a kind of sophisticated elegance about her, and I thought she was a really good cast for both Ryan and Shi An’s mother.

I know Heo Seo Young from The Liar and His Lover and more recently I’ve seen her in My Absolute Boyfriend, where she was a psychopath, so it was nice to see her in a more sympathetic role this time. I actually thought Da In was pretty cool, she didn’t come across as a very hostile love rival or anything like that, she really played it cool and kept calm and all that. I liked how down to earth she was. She didn’t even get to do that much, but I still liked that they wrote her character the way they did and gave her a personal kind of closure in which she got out of her slump. I would’ve also found it interesting if she and Eun Gi became a thing, but I also like that they just remained friends.

I recently saw Im Ji Gyu in Fates and Furies where he was one of the few characters I actually liked, haha. He has a really friendly face. It was nice to see him as a father figure and in combination with Park Jin Joo, he made a really sweet husband. Apart from this, I’ve seen him (apparently) in God’s Gift – 14 Days, Fantastic, Go Back Couple and Radio Romance, and he’s also in a couple of other dramas that are still on my to watch list. I would like to see more of his acting, I’m starting to like him.

Before I conclude, I just want to make one final criticizing comment to a couple of comments I read on one of the first few episodes of this series that just baffled me. So, as I mentioned in my review somewhere, in the beginning Ryan believes that Deok Mi and Sun Joo are in a secret relationship together. This misunderstanding starts with him booking the suite that the two fangirls plan to stay at for their fan pilgrimmage and Sun Joo tries to convince him to give them the suite. In her explanation she mentions that she likes someone and it’s not easy for her to actually see that person and that’s why she wants to stay in this suite because that person has stayed there before. Of course, we know she’s talking about Shi An. However, after rejecting her, Ryan sees her later that evening at the bar with another woman (this is Deok Mi, but he only sees her from behind so he doesn’t recognize her). The two women are just watching a performance video of Shi An, but from the back it looks like they are hugging each other, so when he suddenly interprets Sun Joo’s earlier words to apply to this woman, he suddenly feels like a complete jerk and he actually gives them the suite. Later on, there are a couple of more situations in which he sees them being all touchy-feely with each other and draws his conclusions. I have to say that it was kind of funny how, when Sun Joo offered to take pictures of him and Deok Mi being all lovey-dovey to strenghten their fake dating rumor, he was all like ‘how can she be okay with her own girlfriend doing this’ and Deok Mi even fed his imagination by saying things like ‘oh yeah, she gets crazy about seeing me be intimate with other people’. Like, okay, the misunderstanding was kind of funny. Anyways, I just wanted to make the point of Ryan being completely okay about these two women being together, and that he was more than happy to help them get together. Somewhere in the first few episodes, Deok Mi and Ryan visit a writer who they wanted to participate in the exhibition as well, but who was hesitant about sharing the pictures his dear friend had left behind. In the end it was suggested, not even explicitly mentioned but heavily suggested, that these two men were more than friends.
Now I personally always really appreciate seeing the theme of homosexuality being normalized in K-Drama, because I feel like it’s still not accepted as a normal thing overall in South Korean society. There could always still be more, of course, but it’s a good start to at least start mentioning the theme. However, to get to my point, I read a couple of disgusting and ridiculous comments on one of these episodes and it just made me wonder. Basically, some people were commenting on how they didn’t like these homosexual connotations to be apparent because what they liked about K-Drama was that it’s different from American shows. It’s not explicit, it’s not about sex, it’s about pure man-woman romance. And they just went on saying stuff like, ‘why are they suddenly bringing all these homosexual themes into this drama, why does it suddenly have to become all sexually driven, this is not what I’m here for’ etc. And my mind was just blown. Like, what the heck are these people even talking about?! Just because there’s a HINT of a homosexual couple in it makes it ‘sexually driven’?! Bro, the word ‘gay’ wasn’t even mentioned, it was purely SUGGESTED. And if you are so against ‘sexually driven’ dramas, wouldn’t you have a bigger issue with the chemistry of the main leads? Because that relationship was definitely the most passionate of the whole series. So if you are okay with that but call a single HINT of a homosexual relationship ‘vulgar and sexually-driven’, then the issue lies with you. It saddens me that there are people out there with this kind of mindset. I watch K-Drama purely because it gives me joy and I could care less if the main leads are male or female as long as the romance makes my heart throb. My apologies for the sudden criticism, but I just wanted to get it off my chest. I hope we can all remain civil and kind about this sort of thing.

Okay, so! We’re finally at the end of this review. It took me a while to structure the whole thing, but I think I managed to get it down the way I wanted. This has actually been a really nice throwback to the kind of genre of K-Drama I originally fell in love with. The romance was great, the characters were funny, the story itself was solid, the drama didn’t get too DRAMA-ish, and it showed some very healthy human relationships. I was looking forward to watching this, and I was not disappointed. I really loved Park Min Young and Kim Jae Wook’s chemistry, I’ll keep repeating that, haha. It wasn’t a combination that I’d expected per se, but they really did a good job. So yeah, if anyone would ask about a good romance drama, I would definitely consider recommending this one. Also because it wasn’t so heavy and the few heavy themes are all smoothened out in the end quite quickly.
I also liked that it highlighted K-Pop fans and that it didn’t necessarily put them in a bad light. On the contrary, I could relate to the FL’s feelings towards her idol. Maybe it’s because I know a little bit about the scene, but I know that, while fandoms overall might have a bit of a negative association, not all fans are like that. There are also fans that are purely encouraging towards their idols, that support them through everything and that also aren’t obsessed with actually meeting them and wanting them for themselves. As the word ‘sasaeng’ was in the title, I was scared that a sasaeng would also appear, but in the end, no one was so intrusive as to actually form a danger towards any of the idols depicted, so that was good. I hope we can all learn from dramas what we can and not just choose to be biased about these fangirls. We all have to do something that makes our heart throb to get through our daily lives, don’t we? Why should this be any different? I really liked the message that even though you might have a hobby like this, that could be seen as embarrassing, especially when you have a professional career, it’s always good to stay true to yourself, because people will see you in your element and admire how much you radiate when you do what you love to do the most. I think that’s probably one of the messages I got from this, to never be ashamed of your personal passions because people will come to accept you for who you are once you are brave enough to stand up for it.

So I’ll now be moving onto a series from this year that piqued my interest and while it’s not my usual kind of genre, I’m very curious as to what it’ll be like. I’ll be back with another review next month. Until then, bye-bee! ^^

Hajimete Koi wo Shita Hi ni Yomu Hanashi

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Hajimete Koi wo Shita Hi ni Yomu Hanashi
(初めて恋をした日に読む話 / A Story to Read When You First Fall in Love)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hi there! I’m back with another review before the end of the month. I’m not sure if I will be able to finish another one within October, but anyways, here we are. Sometimes it’s just so nice to watch a shorter, lighter drama after watching so many heavy lengthy ones, you know. That’s what I like about Japanese dramas, they’re always so uncomplicated and light and entertaining. I don’t remember exactly what made me put this one on my list, but my interest is usually piqued by these kinds of romance stories, especially the ones with long titles that just immediately make you curious to the story. It feels like a long time since I watched a series like this, and I thought it was… interesting. I don’t think it will be a very long review as it’s not a long or heavy show, but I still wanted to convey my thoughts on it like with any other review. Let’s get right into it!

Hajimete Koi wo Shita Hi ni Yomu Hanashi (HajiKoi for short), is a 10-episode J-Drama with episodes of about an hour each (which is quite long for a J-Drama I think). It’s based on a manga series of the same name by Mochida Aki. The story stretches over two years, from 2017 to 2019, and centers on Harumi Junko (played by Fukada Kyoko), a woman in her early thirties who is a cram school teacher in Tokyo. A cram school that, in this case, prepares high school students for admission to a university of their choice, from smaller colleges to big ones like Tokyo University (for convenience I’ll refer to it as Todai for the rest of the review). When she was in high school, Junko used to be a huge study geek. The only thing she focussed on was studying, she never even dated or showed interest in anything else. Under the encouragement of her mother she strived to get into Todai, but despite studying so hard she failed the entrance exam. After that, she kind of lost her way. She couldn’t bring herself to try again, and as she grew older she also remained unsure of what to do with her life. She has no luck in finding romance, and even in her job she doesn’t feel any kind of validation. The students under her supervision keep asking to be transferred to other teachers within the cram school, and her boss tells her that at this rate, her contract will not be extended. In short, Junko is down in the dumps, she’s lost her spark and she has no idea how to fix her situation.
That is until she meets a group of high schoolers, and one of them jumps out to her immediately because of his pink-dyed hair. This boy, Yuri Kyohei (played by Yokohama Ryusei) later suddenly shows up at Junko’s cram school with his dad, who is some kind of politician (it later turns out he’s the Minister of Education). His father wants Kyohei to get into Todai, no matter how impossible that will seem as he is currently enrolled in a high school with a fairly bad reputation. When Junko overhears the father talk about his son like that, she is immediately reminded of how hard her own mother was on her, and she stands up for Kyohei, telling him not to listen to what his parents want, but to choose for himself. As much as this aggravates her boss and Kyohei’s father and brings her employment in even further jeopardy, Kyohei himself is immediately intrigued by her and, sure enough, the next day he appears at the cram school again, asking Junko if she can get him into Todai. She refuses at first, because how can she get a boy from a debatable high school into the biggest college of Japan when she couldn’t even get in after studying her butt off? However, something happens which makes her determined enough to give it a try and she decides to still use her remaining contract period to help Kyohei study. As the two embark on this challenge together, they develop a very tight bond and Kyohei even falls in love with her. Junko regains her passion for studying and teaching while Kyohei sets a different goal for himself: when he turns 18 and gets into Todai, he will confess his love to her.

Junko ends up getting wooed by three different men in the series. Besides Kyohei, there’s her cousin Yakumo Masashi (played by Nagayama Kento), who’s been in love with her for 20 years ever since high school but whose attempts to show his affection have always gone unacknowledged by Junko. And then there’s her former delinquent classmate now turned Kyohei’s homeroom teacher Yamashita Kazuma (played by Nakamura Tomoya). He’s the only person who ever asked Junko out back in high school, but since she was so occupied with studying back then, she never even considered the option of dating at the time. Now that he appears again, and freshly divorced at that, there could be a chance for a do-over.

First of all, can I just mention that I have never seen such a questionable lineup of love interests in a drama series before? Junko’s options literally come down to her former classmate, her cousin and a minor. And the thing is, everyone in the series seems to urge that these are the only three options she has. It’s like, she has to choose one of these three, there are no other options beyond this, it’s too late to go in search of someone else at this point. That was really weird to me. What was also weird was that no one seemed to make a big deal about the idea of her marrying her own cousin (literally her direct cousin, the son of her mother’s sister), or that everyone just accepted her being romantic with her 17-year old student. Legally, I believe Yamashita was the only feasible option, but as it was so clear from the start that they wouldn’t result to anything, I was kind of anxious to see what she’d do in the end. I’m still not completely comfortable with it, to be honest. Of course you could say it’s open-minded of the writers (or the mangaka, actually) to normalize these options and give it a ‘love is love, it has no age or boundaries’ message, but still… Anyways.

The main story is about Junko and Kyohei, or ‘Yuri-yuri’ as Junko nicknames him, and their journey together as she helps him study to get into Todai. I’ve never seen a series in which studying was glorified this much, it really took a subject that’s normally considered to be boring/tedious and turned it into something fun and rewarding, so that was pretty cool. I liked how at several points, a comparison was made to an amusement park, in which students would get excited about the new things they’d learn. It just put studying into a new perspective for me, one I’d never really considered before (even though I’ve done my own fair share of studying at college). I thought it was cool how they used the gradual passing of time to show Kyohei’s progress, and that he really started getting better and better at studying, with all the ups and downs that came with it. I thought they balanced this process out very well throughout the series. Even though they keep encountering obstacles during their cramming, they always end up in the same space together again, and Junko’s determination to get Kyohei into Todai becomes truly unyielding at some point. Her determination also starts rubbing off on Kyohei more and more, until he really starts taking his studies seriously and starts wanting to get into Todai for himself, not just to rebel against his father.

Let me talk a bit more about the main characters in detail before I go on to describe several of the events that go down in the story that attempt to shake either Junko or Kyohei’s determination or confidence.

Junko is a very interesting person. Despite not achieving anything as an adult and feeling really insecure about that, she used to be an incredible student. She was really smart and also had a natural beauty which made her very popular, even though she turned down every kind of confession she got. Even though she struggled under the pressure to study for Todai, she went all the way but when she failed, she really believed her one and only chance at a future and career had been taken away from her. Or let’s say, the people in her direct surroundings made her believe so. And I’m talking mostly about her mother.
Seriously, in the first couple of episodes I really hate Junko’s mom (played by Dan Fumi). She was so harsh after Junko, she literally slapped her in the face when she didn’t make it into Todai and as we meet Junko for the first time as an adult, from the first episode on, she’s constantly making mean remarks about how she raised a failure. Later on, she turns around and we get to understand what made her like that, but in the beginning she was really unpleasant. Junko’s father (played by Ishimaru Kenjiro) is much more easy-going about it, but Junko and her mother really don’t get along well in the beginning. Junko is in her early twenties, she still lives at home with her parents as she has no stable employment and the option of her marrying and moving out is still not close in sight.
I liked that despite her ditziness, Junko had a very clear backstory. At the beginning I was thinking, what the heck is she doing at this cram school when she can’t even teach? But then it was revealed that she used to be the biggest study geek ever and once she regained her spark for teaching, she gradually started feeling so much better, also about herself. It just goes to show that finding your passion can really do miracles for your self-esteem. I liked that Junko at some point mentioned that she was starting to like herself again more and more, and that this was already such a big achievement for her after all those years of feeling like a failure. She was a very likeable character, with her heart in the right place, but she just lacked a specific type of social awareness towards the people that showed (romantic) interest in her. Looking at how she was raised and pressured from high school on, it’s not hard to understand her perspective – she never had the luxury of time to even think about dating, and even as an adult she finds it hard to recognize signs. However, I still thought there was a limit to that, and in some instances she really was incredibly dense. When a man was standing in front of her and literally told her, ‘I like you’ to her face, she still would interpret it as something else. I’m glad that at least in the end she finally acknowledged all three men’s feelings for her, but it did take some time for her to become aware of the love square she was in, and this can sometimes be a little bit annoying. It didn’t bother me that much in this case because I actually didn’t want her to end up with any of the guys, but I do think that it would’ve bugged me more if I had a specific preference in mind, because there just didn’t seem to be any process in the guys’ approaches right up until the end.

As much as I was sceptical of Masashi as a love interest for Junko, I did really like his character. He was the typical example of someone who did make it into Todai and now had a successful job and was still popular among his colleagues and the ladies. He fell in love with his cousin Junko in high school when she, even after being harrassed and bullied by some girls because Masashi had rejected one of them, didn’t even blink an eye and just asked them to at least leave her study supplies alone. Even though he was the popular guy with the reputation of making a girl fall in love with him after 7 seconds of eye contact, he now fell in love with Junko after 7 seconds of eye contact with her.
Even though I didn’t want them to end up together, I did feel sorry for Masashi for being so blatantly overlooked by Junko. He would organize whole plans to ask her out and confess to her, but in the end she always obliviously took rain checks because Kyohei’s studying got in the way. Being stood up because something else came up always sucks because it basically means something else came up which they consider to be more important than the appointment they already had with you. And Masashi really had to put up with a lot of that. I did find it quite presumptious of him to just plan out all these things and even already plan out a proposal while he already knew Junko didn’t even consider him that way. He just kept going for it, which can be considered to be brave, but in this case you just knew nothing was going to come out of it. When he suddenly came out and just kissed her on the mouth – seriously, how was he expecting Junko to react to that?! Even if he couldn’t hold back his feelings anymore, he still should have considered the fact that this would be a very shocking, out-of-the-blue happening to Junko. I’m glad that Junko was able to properly consider him and then honestly told him that the way she liked him wasn’t the romantic kind of ‘like’ and they were able to talk it out. He just needed her to be clear about her feelings towards him, and that was enough for him to move on. Even though he could’ve already accepted that, I get that he needed her to say it out loud. And he also didn’t become bitter towards her and Kyohei after that. I actually liked that, when Junko lied to Kyohei that she was getting married to Masashi even though she’d actually rejected him, he got properly pissed at her for using him in that lie, which was fair. Luckily at least he kept being aware of his own worth as well, no matter how much he loved Junko. He didn’t just let her get away with everything.

Honestly, even though I knew he also wouldn’t be an option, I was Team Yamashita all the way. Not just because he was my type the most out of everyone (I don’t know why but he gave me Choi Daniel vibes for some reason), but just because he was so chill about everything and the most forward about his feelings for Junko. Maybe it had to do with the fact that he’d already confessed to her before, but he was the only one who succeeded in taking Junko out on a date and he got her to at least consider him as an option. He ended up becoming a teacher inspired by Junko as she helped him study in high school while no one else deemed him able of graduating, and he ended up becoming Kyohei’s teacher in high school. At first, he also seems to be knocked down by adulthood, especially after his wife issues their divorce and he can’t really get his students to really focus on studying. But after meeting Junko again, his spark is also re-ignited and he manages to get his class to graduate at the end as well.
I do still feel bad about how he ended up, because his (ex-)wife was acting so weird. Like, when we meet Yamashita, we see him constantly get messages from his wife that he needs to issue the divorce papers asap. After doing that, everything seems to be straightened out, but then she suddenly appears at his doostep again, all giggly and bashful and ‘can’t we give it another chance’. Like, what the actual fuck? She was the one who kept pushing for a divorce and now she’s just like, teehee, can we try again? And then Yamashita is basically forced into remarrying her because of a scandal including her father, a big politician. Now it’s a bit complicated to explain, but basically his ex-wife’s father (so his ex-father-in-law) is also a big political figure who gets caught up in a scandal but instead of owning up to his mistakes, he drags Kyohei’s father, his colleague, through the mud and blames him for it. Because of this, Kyohei’s family is about to go down and this will be a very bad influence on his chances to get into Todai as well. In order to solve the scandal, Yamashita is coerced by his ex-father-in-law to get back with his ex-wife, and then the father-in-law will clear Kyohei’s father’s name. Honestly, I still don’t understand why this was all necessary, but Yamashita chose to give up on Junko and get back with his ex-wife and quit teaching so he could start working for his in-law’s family. In the final episode, however, Yamashita tells Junko that his ex-wife still hasn’t accepted his proposal and that he’s in the process of wooing her again. Like, what the heck is up with this woman?! First she divorces him, then basically goes along with her dad’s plan to persuade him to marry her again, then she doesn’t even agree to it immediately. I don’t know what she was playing at. I was sad for Yamashita that he found himself in this situation. He didn’t seem to mind so much in the end, but I still found it unfair. He deserved better.

Kyohei has had a bad relationship with his father ever since his mother passed away. He started rebelling against him by neglecting his studies and painting his hair pink, but when his father seemingly gives up on him getting into Todai, it prompts him to rebel against him the other way around and actually get into Todai, just to prove a point to him. As much as he doesn’t take it seriously in the beginning, he really starts becoming more and more serious about his studies when Junko starts teaching him, and ultimately achieves the one thing no one deemed possible from the start: he actually manages to get into Todai. Not without setbacks, he faces several disappointments in his mock exams and loses confidence several times, also during the scandal thing his dad is involved with. He’s also simultaneously struggling with his feelings for Junko, as he keeps getting confronted with the fact that to her, he’s just her student, and she’ll never see him as a man and all that because of their age difference. But he keeps trying as well, because to him, it doesn’t matter that she’s older and has a bad back and that she’ll be 40 by the time he graduates Todai. To be honest, even though I already felt like they might end up together, one reason I felt like they shouldn’t was also that, even though his feelings might be so passionate at that moment, it’s another thing to actually think about the future. Maybe it’s easier for me to relate to Junko as I’m also around the same age as her. The thought of getting together with a 17-year old is just unthinkable to me for many reasons, besides just the age gap. Even if it might feel okay in the beginning, once you get older, it will become more and more awkward. I felt like Kyohei was only focussing on himself and how he felt then and there, and it was almost as if he was looking forward to becoming 18 so he wouldn’t be a minor anymore, without realizing that Junko by that time also had aged another year or two. At the end of the show, she was already 34 and he was 18. I mean, props to ignoring the age norm and just following your heart, truly, but I couldn’t help feeling a little uncomfortable about it. Despite relating more to Junko’s reasons for not giving in to her feelings for Kyohei, I didn’t think she handled it well. She kept him at bay by explicitly referring to him as ‘a kid’ and emphasizing ‘of course I wouldn’t be able to date a 17-year old’ in front of him. I also didn’t understand why she had to lie to him about accepting Masashi’s proposal, because it literally took a day for him to find out that wasn’t true and she had to confess the truth anyway. I think it was good that she was honest with him during that confrontation in the teacher’s room, but I just wished she’d been clear about it sooner. She just kept beating around the bush and avoiding the subject with him, and then just be completely zoned out when she was with her friend out drinking later, like, woman! Get yourself together! At least be clear about your feelings to everyone who’s pulling at you! She owed them that and it took her way too long to come clean about what was truly going on in her heart and mind. I also found it difficult to figure out what exactly she was feeling because she just wouldn’t put it into words, but when she eventually did, it seemed like it had been really clear to her from the start how she felt. So why didn’t she speak out about it sooner? This bothered me a little.
I think she was already aware of Kyohei’s feelings for her for a while and she initially kept making up excuses to keep him at bay, as I mentioned before.

One thing I was really afraid of was that, when Junko got into that accident on the day of the first Todai exam, Kyohei would choose to go to her and blow his whole chance of getting into Todai. I’ve seen it happen before in other dramas and I just really hoped that he would still go and take his exams, because it would defeat the entire purpose of the series and where it led up to if he decided to give it all up now, and it would definitely be the opposite of what Junko would’ve wanted. I was so relieved that he still went to take his exams, because he also realized that he couldn’t give up what they’d worked for for so long. They really had me concerned there for a moment, but I was happy that he used his common sense and not just mindlessly went over to her, even though that was his first instinct. I wasn’t sure what the whole purpose was of that accident, it seemed pretty dramatic, all the more because of the timing of course, but I guess it was just a plot tool to put Kyohei over that final step to really ace his exams. It was still very typical, though, and I also wasn’t completely on board with the fact that they informed him of it at that point. They literally gave him the option to go to Junko, instead of urging him to please still try to take his exams and make her proud so he could come visit her first things after he was done.

One of the more drastic choices she made resulted in one of the major events that occurs at some point. As she realizes she won’t be of much help to Kyohei’s studies when it comes to math, Junko manages to get him into a very respectable cram school with a very successful and popular math tutor, to give him the best chance at studying math under a worthy teacher. Of course, Kyohei just wants Junko, but eventually agrees when she clarifies that she lacks the confidence in her own math skills and really thinks he should be tutored by someone else for that.
The teacher he’s assigned to calls herself is a very popular and attractive woman who’s referred to as Momo-chan-sensei by her (mainly male) students. From the start, we see this look in her eye that announces trouble. We found out then that this teacher is actually one of the girls who bullied Junko in high school because she had a crush on Masashi but was rejected by him. Why they chose to vent their bullying on Junko is still kind of weird, but I guess it was to punish her for the fact that Masashi had more interest in Junko and it was just jealousy bullying. Bullying justifications will never make sense to me. Anyways, apparently this woman, Makise Tomona (played by Takanashi Rin), lied about her entire resume and even created a fake identity to get into this cram school as a teacher. It didn’t take away the fact that she was a good teacher, but the way she encouraged her (again, mostly male) students was just a bit… weird. She also got super clingy with Kyohei, grabbing his arm and trying to make him like her. Turns out, she again is just trying to get back at Junko because of her past resentment towards her and tries to steal Kyohei away from her, fortunately to no avail. In the end, she comes clear about her true self and becomes a more sympathetic person. I felt like she may have had some sort of identity crisis herself. I still don’t really know what to make of her character, but in the end it took her some time to be okay with herself the way she was, not the way she wanted to be seen by others. I think that was her deal.
One of the moments where I was most impressed by Junko (and also the actress herself) was how she confronted Makise and how, after Makise asked to still let her tutor Kyohei, she told her that he was her student and she wouldn’t let her use him to fill her own hole of emptiness. That was really awesome. We finally got to see this cool and protective side of Junko, which was unlike the sides I saw of her so far. That bit really made me go, Woah~ kakkoii. And of course it made Kyohei fall for her even harder. Poor guy really had no way to escape, haha.

I just realize I haven’t even mentioned Miwa yet! I need to talk about Miwa. Matsuoka Miwa (played by Adachi Yumi) was Junko’s childhood friend and former middle school classmate to her and Masashi (she didn’t go to the same high school as them, but they always remained close friends). She owns a hostess bar called Miwa, named after herself obviously, and she’s always there to help people out with romantic advice. She’s a very loyal friend to Junko, and even though she also tries to help Masashi out, she always keeps saying that she is on Junko’s side. She never judges her friend for anything, she even thinks Junko getting together with a 17-year old was pretty refreshing and interesting. She keeps saying that it’s a very flattering thing to be liked by a high schooler at her age, although I’m still not sure if this was very healthy feedback. Anyways, she was a really fun character. She even got her own love story, with Masashi’s assistant Nishioi (played by Hamanaka Bunichi), even though they both initially lied about their identities to each other because they didn’t want to be judged on their social statuses and just accepted for who they were inside. Fortunately for them, this played out well and they even got engaged at the end of the story. Anyways, while Miwa might not have the same educational background as Junko, she knows a lot about social situations and people, and is often the voice of reason when Junko doesn’t know what to do.
The only thing she did that I didn’t agree with was that she called Kyohei with the news of Junko’s accident minutes before his exam. Like, yes, Junko was supposed to see him off at the entrance and he was already worried why she wasn’t there and he couldn’t reach her, but to actually put him into this position while he should only be focussing on his exams… I understand where she was coming from when she informed him, but I just don’t think she should’ve given him the option of coming to the hospital instead of taking his exams. If it were me, I would’ve probably just informed him of the situation and then urged him to go take his exams, that that’s what Junko would want, and that he could just come to her as soon as he was ready. There were enough people by Junko’s side at the hospital and she wasn’t in critical condition, so please just focus on your exam. Anyways, luckily he did choose the right thing, but I was really anxious there for a moment. I just thought Miwa shouldn’t have brought the news like that.

And finally, there’s Etou Mika (played by Yoshikawa Ai), a high school student from an all girl’s school that Kyohei and his friends meet during a group date with some girls from her school. Miwa, who is chaperoning the date basically, immediately points out that she’s a ‘passive blamer’ and that she’s good at getting guys’ attention with her attitude so the boys should be careful around her. What it basically comes down to is that Mika has lost her sense of self-value. She admits to dating several older men and that she even has sexual relations with them. She has completely adjusted her character to what these guys find attractive, but doesn’t really have any self-esteem beyond that. Whenever she gets caught with one of these guys, they always point fingers to her, that she was the one who seduces them and acted all innocent and stuff. So yeah, that is really not a good position to be in. Mika gets interested in Kyohei at the group date and even ‘infiltrates’ his cram school to take lessons with him, even though he just wants to be alone with Junko. Anyways, Mika also becomes Junko’s student and also starts studying harder to get into a college, although she’s not as ambitious as Kyohei. In the end, while she fails the admission exam for Kyoto University, she manages to get into Waseda. As soon as Mika starts liking Junko, she becomes more lenient when she realizes Kyohei really doesn’t have eyes for anything else. I liked that she still went on to confess her feelings to him, just to let go of him. I think she even got together with one of Kyohei’s friends at the end, that was cute.

So yeah, I think we can establish that one of the possible side themes of this story also had to do with the characters coming to terms with themselves and finding their way in life. Some people had tried to change themselves so much or went along too much with how other people perceived them that they lost sight of their own value and Junko helped them to regain that feeling, even if she wasn’t aware of that herself. She might have seemed like the wrong person to give life advice after failing to fulfill any of the goals she’d set for herself as a teenager in the future, but she still had the power to make people realize their own worth, as she was also trying to do that herself. It was like, her finally finding back her own spark made it easier for her to also ‘teach’ others to find back theirs, even though this kind of teaching went beyond the kind that’s taught in a classroom. She may have lost sight of her own worth at some point, but being surrounded by so many people who believed in her helped her to grow into the ‘mature adult’ she ends up as at the end of the story. In a way, it can be seen as a coming-of-age theme as well, although in this case it’s not as much coming of actual age, but moving on from a certain adolescent mindset. Junko never deemed herself a proper adult as she thought she didn’t pass all the landmarks that would make her one, but after sorting out her feelings and helping Kyohei get into Todai, she finally managed to get over it. It’s mentioned by several people including her mom and Kyohei himself, that getting Kyohei into Todai might feel to Junko as if she can make up for her own failure – if she can at least get another student into Todai, she may move on from her own insecurity. I guess it’s debatable whether this is a good reason or not, I do think it’s partially what it may have been like for Junko, but I couldn’t really resent her for it. That’s because it was so obviously not just for that reason, but also because she really wanted to help Kyohei. I can’t really blame her for that.
It was also good that she managed to make up with her mother. We find out that her mother has always been insecure herself as she married into an entire family of Todai-graduates while she didn’t have such an education herself. She felt like her in-laws always judged her for that, and that was the main reason why she wanted at least Junko to also get into Todai, because that way she could prove to her in-laws that at least she managed to raise Junko properly. In the process though, she was way too hard on Junko. Junko knew that her mother would be more upset than her about her failing, so she tried to keep positive and that way created this fake, uncomfortable smile even when she wasn’t feeling cheerful. Her mother just wouldn’t get off her case in the beginning, Junko couldn’t even enter the room and she’d make a snarky remark. She also told her off for trying to give a boy like Kyohei hope of getting into Todai and told her to give up on him. When Junko finally went against her mom to tell her to leave her student alone, the mom seemed to realize how hard she’d been on her daughter, purely out of her own sense of inferiority towards her in-laws. I’m glad that this backstory was included because it really made a lot of sense to me. Peope are exposed to social pressure in many different ways and I do relate to the mom for feeling inferior as her entire in-law family kept confronting her with the fact that she didn’t graduate from a big university. Like, as if that should matter, of course, but the fact that there’s still so many people who think in social ranks like that is sad.
Thinking about it like this, it also gave the relationship between Miwa and Nishioi another layer, as they wanted to be loved for something beyond their educational backgrounds and money, so they decided to keep it a secret from each other. Adding these kinds of messages and layers to an otherwise simple romance story was a pretty interesting choice and it definitely made the whole series less one-dimensional. I actually raised my rating of the series while I was writing this review because more things kept popping up that made me go, ‘hey, now that I think about it, this was actually pretty good about it’.
I guess the only thing that just made me go ‘hmmm…’ was the fact that I just wasn’t comfortable with Junko’s love interest choices. I actually didn’t want her to end up with any of them, haha.

Also, that final confession. When Junko finally realized that she was going to accept Kyohei’s feelings after all and she came to visit him just after his class ended. They had that whole intimate, proposal-like scene right there, in the middle of the classroom, with half of the class still sitting there being all like 👁👄👁 at what was happening. I couldn’t even watch their kiss properly because I was cringing so hard, like what was with this choice of time and place?! Wouldn’t you find normally somewhere more private to do this?! This was just so awkward!!

Lastly, I want to give a shoutout to a couple more side characters before I move on to my cast comments and conclusion.
First of all, Junko’s cram school boss, played by Namase Katsuhisa, who is literally in every school-related drama I’ve watched so far. He just has this principal-kind of vibe, I guess? Anyways, I liked that they didn’t just make him the evil boss, but they really made him a sensible person. Like, even when Junko initially hands in her resignation, he gave her really valid feedback on how he felt her motivation lacked for the job, and it wasn’t mean or devalidating in the slightest. I liked how they also just made him a real person with his own values and reasons for being a teacher, and not just added him for comical value.
Then, there was Gori-san (played by Minagawa Sarutoki), the eccentric owner of the pub that Junko and her friends would frequent to drink and hang out. He was really funny and always lightened up the mood without becoming annoying. Even though he was kept outside of the drama part, he was always there to make everyone feel better and his okonomiyaki looked seriously delicious.
Then, Mon-chan!! Mon-chan (played by Marin), was one of the hostesses from Miwa’s bar who also happened to be a history geek – she was always talking about samurai and shogun and she was just such an enjoyable character. She didn’t even appear that much, but she was always so happy and bubbly and I just really liked her, haha.
And finally, Kyohei’s group of friends. There was Endo, Nara, Kabu and Kisa (respectively played by Nagato Takato, Horike Kazuki, Sakurai Keisuke and Wakabayashi Takuya) and they all had their own established personalities. They mostly also added a comical element to the series, but I just really liked them as Kyohei’s group of loyal friends. They always had his back, even when he kind of went his own way in studying for Todai, they never told him to give up or that it was hopeless for him. I loved how they all had their own traits, for example for Kabu was so passionate about hamburger steaks and it was used as a running gag that people always got information out of him by treating him to one. And how Kisa was always the one that never spoke, but then suddenly started speaking after meeting Mika and everyone was like ‘HE SPOKE !!!👁👄👁’, haha. I think it was so important for Kyohei to have this group of guys to fall back on, they never let him down. Friendship goals!

I think I’ve now covered the parts of the story and the characters that I wanted to mention the most, so let’s move on to the cast comments!

I’ve only seen Fukada Kyoko before in Dame na Watashi ni Koishite Kudasai, in which she played kind of a similar character, also a woman who was also hopeless. I guess she just has that natural ditzy vibe about her, and same as with that previous series, I had to get used to her acting in the beginning. When she didn’t have a clear goal to work towards, she sometimes became a bit passive, also in her expressions. However, in contrast, I was really impressed by the scenes in which she showed incredible determination, like the one I mentioned before in which she told Makise off. Also when she went against her mother, and the scenes in which she finally conveyed her true honest feelings to Masashi and Kyohei, those really changed my previous bias about her, because I thought that extra spark of energy in her acting made a really big difference. Overall, I liked Junko, although her denseness sometimes made me a bit impatient. I mean, she just kept making up far-fetched reasons for why someone would suddenly hug her and tell her they liked her. She just didn’t see the possibility of love while it was standing right in front of her, in the shape of three different people.

I’ve only seen Nagayama Kento in Koizora, a very long time ago, so I don’t really remember him from there. All in all, I really liked how he portrayed Masashi, with the vigor and hopeless determination to make Junko aware of his feelings for her. The fact that he was her cousin never sat 100% well with me, and I kept wondering how everyone just accepted the idea of him and Junko getting together. Where I come from, that would have been seriously frowned upon. I also didn’t think it would be so easily accepted in Japanese society, but maybe I’m thinking about it too seriously. Anyways, even though I really didn’t want him and Junko together, I still really liked his character and felt for him. In hindsight, I now think he didn’t have a choice, love hits you however it does and he just had the bad luck to fall in love with his cousin. Unable to move on from his feelings, he just tried to make the best out of it.
I really liked his scenes with Nishioi, too, they had a really fun dynamic together. I loved how Nishioi would just roll his eyes at him but still always helped him out whenever he could.

I don’t know Yokohama Ryusei from anything either, but I see at least one other drama he’s in that’s also on my watch list so I know I’ll be seeing him again. I can imagine it might have challenging for him to star in a romantic comedy opposite an actress 14 years his age (he was 22 at the time this drama aired and Fukada Kyoko 36). But I think the awkwardness was very fitting and he still didn’t hold back in acting out his character’s feelings for his teacher. He was just such a typical teenager, just going ahead with what he was feeling, even though that also made him seem quite naive, as he was not thinking too much about the future yet. At least he stopped to think about Junko’s side more than once and he did mature in his own way, even though he was just focussed on getting to 18 and not being a minor anymore. Even though the most apparent chemistry existed between Junko and Kyohei, I still hadn’t expected a 100% if they would actually let them end up together. But I guess they just followed the manga? I haven’t read it, but I can only assume that’s how it ends. Anyways, even though I did cringe about him sometimes, I can only imagine that he also cringed a lot himself while filming this, haha, and it in turn also made him more believable as a character since he had to go against two adult guys for a woman. But hey, he did win in the end, so good for him.

As I mentioned before, out of the three love choices, even though I knew he didn’t have a chance, I was Team Yamashita. I really liked his actor, he just acted really naturally and was super chill. The episode that started with Junko tying him up in her bed sheets and he was like ‘…the fuck is she doing’ really cracked me up, haha. He was so dry sometimes. I still find it a bummer that he was forced to abandon the love square because of that weird situation with his ex-wife’s father. It just seemed to me like his ex-wife couldn’t make up her mind about him, but that shouldn’t have been his concern.
Looking at this actor’s list of performances, I see that he was in Yankee-kun to Megane-chan, but I also don’t remember him from there, it’s been too long ago since I watched that. Anyways, of all the three guys, he was my favorite, and I liked that despite his flirty and straightforward attitude towards Junko, he also knew when to step back.

I kept thinking what I recognized Miwa from, but then I realized she was in Repeat! She apparently also appeared in Kuragehime, but I don’t remember her from there. Adachi Yumi was casted really well as Miwa, I really liked her performance. You know how they say that academic education isn’t all there is to know, and that social knowledge and streetsmarts are also useful to have? Miwa was a great example of someone who came out pretty successful with her own business despite her lack of a college education. She was one of my favorite characters simply because she was so straight to the point and she really had a good sense of people’s personalities. She was a really good person for Junko to have on her side.

I like that, even though Namase Katsuhisa was probably a pretty predictable casting choice for this role, he did add something extra to the role. Like, as I’ve seen him in several dramas I thought I’d seen everything there was about his acting by now, but he still managed to surprised me. Even though he was a side character, he contributed greatly to Junko’s growth as a teacher, and he did come to acknowledge her worth after seeing her take on this particular challenge. He was the one who gave her the chance to make it happen, he encouraged her to try. He also may not have believed her to succeed, but it seemed to me that he really cared about her finding back her spark, and it wasn’t just his school’s reputation that he cared about.
To sum up what I’ve seen him in so far: all the seasons of Gokusen (I think this is the first thing I ever saw of him, and he just made a big impression as that typical school principal), Gakkou no Kaidan (again, a teacher role), Ishitachi no Renai Jijou, Kizoku Tantei and, most recently, Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu. I do like him as an actor, he’s always a nice familiar face.

Apparently, Yoshikawa Ai was the female lead’s younger sister in Minami-kun no Koibito, where she was acting under her previous stage name Yoshida Riko. Anyways, again, I liked that the character of EtoMika didn’t end up being another stereotype. It was really nice to see how her character matured, and that Junko was there to take care of her as she wasn’t able to get out of her complicated situation by herself. Mika just really seemed to be that shallow girl that always took advantage of her female charms as that was all she knew to use that worked on guys, but at some point she realized that she was drifting away from her true self. That scene where this guy was about to take her into a love hotel and she just stood there, mumbling ‘I was there someone to stop me from going inside, to tell me not to go’, was really sad. It was just generally sad to see her confidence crumble like that, but I’m glad she managed to turn around for the better. It made her character that much more relatable and sympathetic to me.

All in all, I did like this series, I think it brought more depth than a typical J-Drama and I even though I’m still not 100% okay with the love interest options, I am now able to attach more value to the underlying messages than to what they went for in terms of romantic closure. While I was writing this review, I raised my initial rating by a full point because more and more good things about it kept coming to mind.
I would say the thing I liked most about it was the depth of all the characters, and especially how everyone ultimately managed to find a piece of self-validation that reinstated their confidence in themselves. I didn’t agree with all the solutions, like forcing Yamashita in that particular position and really going all the way with pushing Junko and Kyohei together romantically instead of just creating a very tight teacher-student bond between them. I wished Junko would just find her power and happiness in her job rather than continuing to be focussed on getting married, because she seemed happy enough as it was without having the whole marriage thing pressuring her. In the end, she didn’t allow herself to even enjoy a romantic relationship with Kyohei without the prospect of getting married, simply because she felt like she didn’t have another choice at this point and she didn’t have the luxury of enjoying dating someone casually at her age. It’s kind of crazy to me how much pressure is put on some people in some societies, as if marriage truly is the final box you’re supposed to check in life in order to become happy.
Anyways, apart from that, I liked how every single character had depth, everyone managed to regain a part of themselves that they’d lost, which they now were able to embrace again. Looking at it like that, Junko really might have been a great teacher all along, and she really did miss out on something after she gave up on all of her options after failing Todai once.
One part that I liked in the series, even though it was a bittersweet moment for Junko, was when they received letters that they had written to themselves in high school. This seemed like such an interesting concept to me. So as 15-year olds, they wrote a letter to their future selves, and these letters were delivered to them at some point. In these letters, they asked their future selves how they were doing, if they’d managed to achieve the goals they’d set for themselves back then, etc. And even though Junko wasn’t able to fulfill a single goal that she’d set for herself at 15, I do think that letter served as another trigger for her in the end. She may have felt down after receiving it initially, but at some point she did come to terms with the fact that, even though it took her a bit longer than others, she was still able to make something of her life. I don’t know, I just really wanted to root for her, and I was mostly happy that she managed to ‘fall in love with herself’ again. I would’ve been fine if that was what the show ended with, to be honest, with her just becoming happy with herself, rather than forcing her to choose between her cousin and her student.

I believe it still became a pretty elaborate review, but I was in a flow while writing it, so that’s a good thing I guess. I like it when I start out writing a review and along the way I become aware of things I hadn’t even thought of. For example, I never really understood how the title corresponded to the series. “Hajimete Koi wo Shita Hi ni Yomu Hanashi” was the title of a book that Junko was reading in the first episode, when Kyohei first came to the cram school with his dad. As that was the only reference to the title in the series, I still didn’t understand why they would choose this particular quote, because in my opinion it didn’t seem to have anything to do with the events in the series. And then the obvious thing hit me: that book was the story that Junko was reading on the day that her story with Kyohei began. More so, it was even probably the day that Kyohei first fell for her. So, from Kyohei’s perspective, that book was literally ‘the story that was read when he first fell in love’, and now it also makes sense to me why he was smiling so fondly at that book in the end. It just suddenly made sense to me while I was going over it in my head, no matter how obvious it may have been for other viewers.
Despite the simple romantic comedy format, this series brought a story about more than that, about regaining your identity and spark, and about how to make your mark when society deems you not worthy enough. I think especially in such a strict society as Japan’s, this story may definitely have expressed some important messages and still managed to be subtle about it. It took me some time to really mull it over and analyze it before realizing these messages, but I’m glad I did it, because now it feels more like a hidden gem. I definitely feel different about it now than how I felt when I was in the middle of watching it.

With this drama I have managed to finish 9 dramas(+reviews) in 5 months! I’m now going to try and decide how I want to proceed with my watch list, as there are also a bunch of more recent drama releases that I can’t wait to get to. It’s going to be a surprise what my next review will be about for a while, so bear with me! ^^

Bye-bee~!

Fates and Furies

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Fates and Furies
(운명과 분노 / Unmyeonggwa Bunno)
MyDramaList rating: 6.0/10

Hello hello! Welcome to my new review. We’re nearing the end of October, and with that, the end of the year! It’s going so fast, don’t you think? Anyways, I finally got to watch this classic which was recommended to me by my K-Drama bestie some years ago. It just goes to show how long it sometimes takes me to actually watch something after it gets recommended to me. I wrote the recommendation down and it finally came out on top of my watch list so here we are! I have so much to say about this drama, and I’ll admit right away that I have a lot of mixed feelings about it. It definitely felt like a more oldschool vibe, ‘classical’ K-Drama, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but it also gave me a lot of frustrations. To me, it was like a mixture of High Society and Mask, but then plus 50 times the drama. But then, despite my frustrations, the ending kind of turned things around for me. I will do my best to explain my thoughts and feelings as well as possible. Let’s go!

Fates and Furies is a K-Drama from 2018 which you can watch in either 20 episodes of about an hour, or 40 episodes of about half an hour each. I watched it in the 20 episodes format. The story centers around Goo Hae Ra (played by Lee Min Jung), the daughter of a shoemaker who has a small workshop in Busan. After her father passed away, she was left alone with her older sister Hyun Joo (played by Cha Soo Yeon), and the two are very close. Hae Ra gets the chance to go to Italy to study shoe design there, and with her sister’s encouragement, she departs on her journey. However, she ends up tossing her studies and career prospects aside a couple of years later, when she hears that her sister back in Busan has been in a terrible accident. She returns to South Korea immediately to find that her sister is comatose, and they can’t tell for sure what has happened to her – except that it looks like a suicide attempt. In order to keep paying the hospital bills, Hae Ra succumbs to producing fake brand shoes in her father’s workshop, and simultaneously her debts keep piling up. When her long-time acquaintance Kim Chang Soo* (played by Heo Joon Seok) offers her a day job to show an Italian business man around town who’s there for a work meeting, she accepts it for the money. As Hae Ra speaks fluent Italian from the time she studied there, she can do some interpretor’s work as well. During this meeting where she is the interpretor for the Italian, she meets Tae In Joon.

*I just want to add right away that I’m actually still not quite sure who Chang Soo exactly was to Hae Ra. He seemed like a friend or an acquaintance that’s been around for a while, but she also owed him money and in the beginning I thought he was a kind of loan shark because he also threatened that he’d destroy her dad’s workshop if she didn’t pay him back in time. He becomes more of a dependable friend in the end, though.

Tae In Joon (played by Joo Sang Wook) is the eldest son of the CEO of the nationally established Gold Group. Gold Group owns several brands and businesses, among which Gold Shoes, a shoe designing company of which In Joon is the CEO. In Joon might be the legitimate first-born son of the CEO, but his mother passed away years before and he blames his father for what happened to her (we never find out the true circumstances of her death – I believe she had an illness? In any case, it seems like his dad basically turned his back on her).
The Tae household consists of the following people:
Father Tae Pil Woon (Go In Bum), Gold Group’s CEO.
Stepmother Han Sung Sook (played by Song Ok Sook).
In Joon’s half-brother Tae Jung Ho (Gong Jung Hwan), CEO of Gold Construction.
In Joon’s half-sister Tae Jung Min (Park Soo Ah).
There’s also Jung Ho’s wife Go Ah Jung (Shim Yi Young). Jung Ho and Ah Jung have a son, Min Woo, who was sent to the States to study (apart from a photograph he doesn’t actually appear in the series, he’s just mentioned a lot).
In Joon also has an uncle from his mother’s side, Hyun Jung Soo (Jo Seung Yeon), who works as the CEO’s secretary.

From the first encounter with the Tae household, we can see that this is not a healthily functioning family. Everyone seems to have a terrible temper – the CEO is regularly shown smashing things with his golf club, twentysomething rebel daughter Jung Min is constantly running away from home, misbehaving and screaming at everyone, and daughter-in-law Ah Jung is badly mistreated and even abused by her own husband and mother-in-law. Jung Ho is the opposite of a sweetheart, he’s done countless bad and heartless things that his mother has always been covering up for him. Jung Ho and his mother only really care about obtaining all the company shares including In Joon’s, and they will do whatever it takes to get them from him, even if they have to go against the CEO himself.
Understandably, In Joon prefers not to be in the same house as his family. He doesn’t have a good relationship with any of his family members and stays away from them as much as he can. His uncle is the only person on his side in the family, but in trying to maintain In Joon’s position at the company, he also frequently takes measures that In Joon doesn’t agree with.
When In Joon meets Hae Ra in Busan as she’s interpreting for his potential Italian business partner, he is instantly taken with her – all the more when he spots her hands and realizes she works in the shoe business. After Hae Ra manages to persuade the Italian guy to sign the contract and In Joon discovers the impressive designs she made when she was studying in Italy, he decides to bring her onto his own team at Gold Shoes in Seoul.

Now this is where we are introduced to the second set of lead characters in this series, Cha Soo Hyun and Jin Tae Oh.
Cha Soo Hyun (played by So Yi Hyun) is a very famous announcer who also works for Gold Group. She is In Joon’s fiancée, even though the two share no apparent romantic feelings for each other – it’s a purely political marriage. Soo Hyun may be famous, but personality-wise she’s also known to be very rude and unfriendly when the cameras aren’t on her.
Jin Tae Oh (played by Lee Ki Woo) is the CEO of a big department store chain called Centan. He resides in Hong Kong with his young sickly daughter Jennie (Kim Dan Woo), but returns to Seoul, seemingly to have his daughter get better hospital care. He also comes to see Soo Hyun, and there’s obviously some history between the two, but Soo Hyun brushes him aside. When Tae Oh finds out that Soo Hyun is engaged to In Joon, he starts plotting a sort of revenge against her, using Hae Ra to his advantage, whom he also met in Busan shortly before.
It’s only revealed later in the series how exactly Tae Oh managed to find Hae Ra in Busan and why he chose her of all people for this task. In any case, the series starts with Hae Ra accepting In Joon’s offer to come work for him at Gold Shoes while she’s simultaneously being pressured by Tae Oh to seduce In Joon so that the marriage between him and Soo Hyun will be cancelled. Let’s start from there.

I’ve mentioned before that I had mixed feelings about this series. One, because it frustrated the heck out of me, and two because I still found it had some interesting plot twists. For example, in regards to the way the series starts with these four main characters; it turns out that it’s really not just about them. A lot of the things they go through in the first half of the series can, in hindsight, actually be seen as ‘collateral damage’ or even ‘events that have nothing to do with the big picture’. All four of them somehow get wrapped up in a case that none of them personally have anything to do with. I found that very interesting.
I suspect it will be no easy task to try and explain everything in a review since there was a lot happening and there were many side plots to it, but I will try my best.

I will just drop from the start that everything ultimately revolves around the accident of Hae Ra’s sister Hyun Joo. Even though none of the four main characters know anything about it, they are all strung along in a plan/plot to reveal the truth about this case – even though it doesn’t exactly go as planned and it even takes a couple of casualties to find out the truth.

In return for receiving complete improved hospital care for her sister from Jin Tae Oh, Hae Ra moves to Seoul together with her best friend Kang Sun Young (Jung Soo Young) and her younger brother Kang Eui Geon (Jung Yoon Hak). Sun Young and Eui Geon have also known the two sisters their whole lives, and especially Sun Young is affected by Hae Ra’s plan to dig into it even deeper. She doesn’t think it’s a good idea for her friend to get too deeply involved, but she also can’t blame Hae Ra for wanting justice for her sister, especially when they find out it might not have been an accident.

As soon as Hae Ra gets to Seoul, she is immediately confronted by Soo Hyun, who instantly accuses her of being ‘just another poor woman who mistook In Joon’s generosity for an opportunity to get something more out of him’. So, before Hae Ra has even decided to go along with the seduction plan, she is already accused of having malicious motives towards In Joon, and this prompts her even more to actually go along with the plan, even if it’s just to piss off Soo Hyun. The two women are not very amicable with each other, to say the least.
As it happens, Hae Ra doesn’t even have to make a lot of effort to win In Joon over – he’s already fallen for her at first sight, and the only thing she has to do is just keep appearing in front of him so he’ll start believing in their ‘fate’ more and more. When she gets the job at Gold Shoes on In Joon’s recommendation, Hae Ra is not welcomed warmly by the rest of the team at all. The Design team is very fond of In Joon, but they do not approve of Hae Ra, especially when she keeps turning up late or sometimes doesn’t even turn up at all. In Joon just seems to accept everything she does, and feels like the only thing he needs to do is protect her, both from Soo Hyun (who has already slapped her in the face several times by now) and from his family, as even his uncle sends people to chase her away from In Joon. This does work in Hae Ra’s favor, as she can pretend to be a victim that’s being bullied by everyone, and it will only make In Joon take care of her and protect her even more. But once she seduces him, once she gets him to give up everything for her – what then? What’s her next motive? And what actually are her own feelings about the whole situation and In Joon? And why is Jin Tae Oh so bend on taking revenge on Soo Hyun? Why does he need Hae Ra’s help to remove In Joon from the equation? So many questions!

As it happens, just as the seduction plan is starting to go somewhere, Hae Ra gets her hands on some evidence that In Joon was the person who took her sister to the hospital on the night of her accident. His signature is on the hospital admission receipt and he paid for her intake. After that, Hae Ra also finds the original papers from her sister’s examination, which say that ‘it might not have been a suicide’. So what, was her sister murdered then? What the heck went down there while Hae Ra was in Italy?
Slowly but surely, Hae Ra is strengthened in her belief that In Joon’s family has something to do with her sister’s accident, and this ultimately shifts to the belief that In Joon himself is responsible for it.
I would like to emphasize that these beliefs were all based on fragmented pieces of indirect evidence from people who were all biased against In Joon, or people who were bribed to say he was involved in some way. It was frustrating because even though we as viewers know from the start that In Joon is innocent, Hae Ra doesn’t, she doesn’t know anything. She lacks any knowledge of In Joon’s personal life or even his relationship with his family that’s out to ruin him, and just goes on to suspect him based on those indirect pieces of evidence. Of course it doesn’t help that Stepmom and Jung Ho have a hand in bribing people with their influence – wherever Hae Ra goes to question someone, all it results to is leading her further along the path of suspecting In Joon’s direct involvement. As her evidence keeps growing, her seduction plan gradually turns into a revenge plan, and she ultimately decides that she will even marry In Joon in order to find out what happened to her sister. I’d say you find out such things before you legally bind yourself to someone and become a part of their family, but hey, who am I?

Needless to say that In Joon is actually innocent. The whole thing was another misdoing of Jung Ho, as he fooled around with Hyun Joo when he was in Busan one time, and ended up getting her pregnant. After refusing to get an abortion like Jung Ho immediately orders her to, Hyun Joo ends up visiting him at his house to confront him and his family with the fact that she’s going to have the baby and that she’ll report/sue them if they don’t register the child as Jung Ho’s.
Later that night, outside the house In Joon finds her unconscious in her car full of carbon dioxide, and takes her to the hospital. That’s the only thing he did, the only way he was involved. He walked into her as he was leaving the house and she was in front of it earlier that evening, and when he returned later, she was unconscious in her car. The only thing he might be considered ‘guilty’ of is that he was forced by his uncle to hush it up even when he knew that his brother was responsible for it.
One of the indirect pieces of evidence that Hae Ra gets her hands on is a CCTV picture of In Joon and Hyun Joo meeting outside the Tae residence. Of course this (again) doesn’t prove anything, in fact they literally just passed each other on the way in/out, but still to Hae Ra this is clear proof that In Joon had something to do with her sister’s accident because, look! This means they knew each other!

It still seems weird that Jin Tae Oh knew how to find Hae Ra to seduce In Joon, as if he knew that her presence in the Tae family would unchain something. In fact, he didn’t know that. He was visited by a mysterious person in Hong Kong, who gave him a letter with the instruction that he should find a Goo Hae Ra in Busan and get her to meet Tae In Joon, and that she would destroy him. So in this regard, Tae Oh was also utilized without being personally involved in the case.
Tae Oh’s only concern was to get Soo Hyun, the biological mother of his sickly daughter, to donate her kidney so his child may live. He’s not even interested in getting back together with Soo Hyun, but seeing her doing so well after turning her back on him and Jennie just makes him very angry, and that instills the need in him to get her engagement to be torn apart. In a way you could say he uses the situation to his advantage; he simultaneously gets Hae Ra to meet In Joon, but it becomes his own plan to make her seduce him to get back at Soo Hyun.

Soo Hyun is already struggling with maintaining the image of her ‘successful’ engagement to In Joon, but when Tae Oh suddenly pops up and confronts her with the fact that their daughter is sick, she doesn’t want anything to do with it. It’s like, she’s already under enough pressure as it is, why does her ex suddenly have to appear too and complicate stuff even more? It’s clear that he’s out to bother her, as he even complicates a collaboration that Gold Shoes wishes to make with Centan. He also doesn’t hold back his frustration towards Hae Ra when she initially doesn’t seem to make much progress in her seduction of In Joon. Soo Hyun becomes more and more suspicious of Hae Ra, because once she starts digging in Hae Ra’s past and motives, she also starts feeling like she may not have the best intentions towards In Joon. Honestly, I did feel like Soo Hyun had some feelings for In Joon, but that she just protected herself because she knew In Joon didn’t feel the same way about her. She still got mad when she spotted In Joon and Hae Ra together, and when he stood up for Hae Ra and not her in their confrontations, so I do think she was hurt by his actions. In the end, In Joon really should’ve listened to her and picked up her calls as she tried to contact him just before Hae Ra drugged him – it would’ve saved him a lot of trouble.

As Hae Ra becomes more determined about her plan, she even asks her friend Sun Young for help. Sun Young just happens to work at a massage salon where a lot of rich ladies come to, including Stepmom. Sun Young is urged by her superior to keep her mouth shut because her Busan accent is so strong it will annoy the clients. Surprisingly, Stepmom takes a liking to her, assuming she’s a mute, and goes on to blab about her entire family to her during the massage sessions. Sun Young is urged by Hae Ra to take advantage of her position and even takes to snooping around the Tae residence when she’s asked to come there to give Stepmom a massage at her own home.

In the meantime, we also have Ah Jung, Jung Ho’s wife who’s being treated as a maid after her family went to ruin and she became ‘useless’ to the Tae family. It’s revealed later that the CEO himself was responsible for her family’s demise. Ah Jung is like a ghost in the Tae residence, she doesn’t say a word and just has to stand by Stepmom’s side at all times. However, she has installed several wiretapping devices in different parts of the house and has been recording all the family’s conversations for at least three years, probably to use as evidence some day. Why is it taking her so long to publish them, though? She’s literally being treated like trash every single day, she’s not even allowed to see her own son. Whenever she brings up the topic of getting Min Woo back to South Korea, Jung Ho just starts beating her. It’s clear she will never accomplish anything in this house, so what’s making her stay on for so long?

Then there’s also another storyline of Jung Min and Eui Geon. Eui Geon accepts a day job to hang out with this rich girl and while they initially hate each other’s guts, they slowly become closer and even fall for each other in the end. Even though Jung Min is a brat, she doesn’t have any inkling about the true nature of her family’s bad deeds, and she also doesn’t wish her brother In Joon any real harm. She’s just too young to be kept in the loop of what’s really going on at home.

Hae Ra only finds out that it was all Jung Ho and his mother’s doing after In Joon has already been arrested and sentenced to jail for two years. In those two years, she decides to start a new revenge plan to get back at Jung Ho and to clear In Joon’s name. She keeps her position as a trusted figure towards Stepmom and helps out when Jung Min runs away from home to bring her back etc. She takes over the CEO position of In Joon at Gold Shoes, which must have initially felt like the ultimate betrayal to In Joon – first she locks him up, then she takes over his company – but it’s actually to make sure Gold Shoes remains a business. Jung Ho was planning to get rid of it, and now he’s just using it as a slush fund, for which Hae Ra is also gathering evidence to eventually publish, thereby also risking her own involvement.
In the meantime, Stepmom and Jung Ho are keeping the CEO sedated at home, as he would cause too much trouble since he revealed that he actually planned to give his entire company shares to In Joon. With anonymous help from Hae Ra, the pieces of evidence make their way to In Joon, and once he has literally all the existing proof (including all the tape recordings from Ah Jung), he very satisfyingly takes care of Jung Ho and his stepmother. He makes a deal with the doctor taking care of his father to wake him up again, he publishes the recordings in which Jung Ho admits to several crimes and he even manages to get his shares back. All’s well that ends well.

Let me leave it at this for now. I will move on to a couple of points that were either the source of major frustration to me, or which I found unexpected in other way before proceeding with my cast comments.

First of all, Goo Hae Ra herself. I may have already made a couple of sarcastic comments above, but honestly, even though I always try not to get too mean about characters, even if I didn’t like them, I just couldn’t help myself with her. It’s been a while since I’ve truly disliked a female lead in a K-Drama this much and it all has to do with the lack of clarity in her motivation and choices. Nothing she did made any sense to me. For one, she seemed incredibly passive throughout the whole series. If you think about how much the character had to deal with, finding out there’s more to her sister’s accident than she thought and then falling for the guy who may have been involved in that very case, I was expecting some serious emotional acting, but instead I was never fully able to read what was going on in her head. It may have been the actress’ acting that just didn’t sit well with me, but I honestly didn’t know for sure what Hae Ra was feeling or thinking during the entirety of the show. I don’t even know for sure if she was actually really in love with In Joon, seeing as she let her suspicions towards him win so easily over her own alleged romantic feelings for him. And this is pretty intense, because she even kissed him, she slept with him, and agreed to marry him. I just assumed from the start that the whole trope was gonna be, her falling for the guy that she was planning revenge on, but I just couldn’t tell for sure by the way she was acting. I felt like it was still too easy for her to just throw him under the bus. If her feelings for him had actually grown, that would’ve been much harder for her to do. Now I just didn’t feel any kind of chemistry from her side. She just kept smiling and saying, ‘yes, I love you too’ and ‘yes, I will marry you’, and then after In Joon put their engagement in motion, she suddenly started acting all distant and angry at him… I mean, if she had an actual clear plan to take revenge on him, she would’ve been able to see how confusing her behavior was to him, because she literally changed her attitude towards him overnight, but it didn’t seem like it was a deliberate choice – it just seemed as if she literally didn’t know what to do. It just wasn’t clear to me at all what the actress was trying to convey through her character.
It also seemed like she was bluffing a lot of the time, even when confronting Soo Hyun or someone else. It was like she just wanted to seem like she had her stuff together, but she really didn’t. She just kept stating that she would now choose her own path, and yes, she would seduce and destroy In Joon, but when she was with him, she really didn’t do anything at all. She always talked in the same tone, and she always had the same look in her eyes, and it never told me anything. It was kind of a bummer, because you just always want to be on the main character’s side and at least know what’s going on inside their head.
The fact that she acted so confident and mighty about her seduction/revenge plan and then didn’t even bother to do some basic background research on In Joon’s relationship with his family, for instance, was just unbelievable to me. I mean, come on, it wouldn’t have been so hard for her to find out that his stepmom and half brother would do anything to frame him. In fact, she should’ve known about that if she even slightly looked into In Joon’s life, but no, she just focussed on gaining his trust without actually knowing what kind of person he was. She also just blindly accepted everything that Stepmom told her, that In Joon was the one who’d gotten her sister pregnant and all that. She blindly believed any kind of indirect evidence, no matter who gave it to her, she never even went so far as to thoroughly check the evidence she got. She literally trusted Chang Soo to provide her with useful info while he was even more of an outsider to the whole case than she was. I can’t believe that, when In Joon had just been arrested and Chang Soo came to her with the news that it was actually Jung Ho all along, she literally yelled at him, ‘Why didn’t you tell me sooner??’. As if that was Chang Soo’s fault! She was the one who just went ahead with the incomplete clues she had and put an innocent man behind bars for two years without double-checking anything. And then to think that even after she reported him, she was like, ‘hmm, something still doesn’t feel right’. Yeah, no shit, Sherlock.
Even when she “confronted” In Joon, it wasn’t even a confrontation. If she actually wanted to confront him, she would’ve asked him the question and he would’ve responded ‘I didn’t do it’ and everything would’ve been explained there and then. But no, she actually drugged him first and waited for him to pass out on the floor before she went all, ‘I know what you did’, when he couldn’t even defend himself anymore. Like, how does that make sense? I guess she wasn’t even looking for a ‘why’ anymore because she already accepted that he was the culprit. She just went about her ‘revenge’ the completely wrong way, and in trying to bring justice to her sister she only brought her the opposite.
Also, was I the only one who found it incredible that for the entire two years that In Joon was in jail, Hae Ra didn’t manage to do a single thing to get him out earlier or clear his name? She just let him sit there, she never even paid him a visit or sent him a letter to let him know how sorry she was and that she was working on a plan to clear his name and bring Jung Ho down. Not a single thing.

Also, what a BS plan was it to make In Joon and Soo Hyun believe that Hae Ra and Tae Oh were dating. Seriously, when they ‘revealed’ that as a way to explain how they knew each other, I was like PFFF YEAH GREAT PLAN GUYS. That was such a weak attempt in trying to still their suspicions and it also made NO sense. Tae Oh had basically just admitted to Soo Hyun the reason that he wanted to take revenge on her, and Hae Ra had been actively flirting with In Joon, and now they just showed up together like, ‘Hi, we’re dating’ and it was just so fake. I could tell Soo Hyun didn’t believe it for a second, and In Joon was just like, ‘well then why the heck were you flirting with me, woman?’ Seriously, that was just so lame and it was almost funny how they were sitting there next to each other with their confident expressions. And then Hae Ra literally caved only a day later. ‘Actually, it was a lie, we’re not really dating.’ REALLY. YOU DON’T SAY. Honestly, they could’ve made up any kind of excuse, they could’ve said they were childhood friends, cousins twice removed, ANYTHING. Honestly, what the heck did they think they were going to accomplish with this fake news?

Moving on to the more serious part of the show, I thought it was completely unnecessary for Sun Young to die. I get that maybe they wanted to raise the suspense by making people find out the truth but then obstructing them from telling Hae Ra in time, but this was just plain shock-value. During a snooping session at the Tae residence, Sun Young stumbles upon Ah Jung’s hidden tape recordings and listens to the one from November 2015, which is when Hyun Joo’s accident took place. There she hears the whole recording of Hyun Joo making a scene about her baby and that it’s Jung Ho’s, not In Joon’s. Sun Young then flees the residence in a very emotional state, and bumps into Stepmom, who automatically sends some security guards after her because she assumes she stole something. While being chased and simultaneously trying to reach Hae Ra on the phone, Sun Young is hit by a truck and the tape recording is run over by a car. As if it wasn’t frustrating enough that a piece of concrete evidence was ruined, Sun Young just got unalived altogether. Like, fair enough, if Hae Ra had found out the truth at this point, the series would’ve been over very quickly. But I still found it a very drastic decision to kill Sun Young off. She was such a nice character, and completely uninvolved with the whole case. She literally died for something she didn’t even understand and shouldn’t have been wrapped up in. Part of me did partially blame Hae Ra for urging her to find out more about the Tae family, because it just seemed like she was asking other people to do the dirty work while she just tried to win In Joon’s trust and didn’t even bother trying to do any research or snooping by herself. She really put other people at risk while all she did was make sure In Joon trusted her, which he already did 100% from the start.

I got even more mad at Hae Ra when she then went on trying to string Eui Geon along in helping her out as well, even though he resented her partially too for what happened to his sister. Hae Ra actually went all ‘those people killed her’ to rile him up, and I was like, uhh no. That’s simply not true. The Tae family was insane, but they didn’t kill her, Sun Young’s death was, as bitter as it is, an accident. Stepmom just assumed she was a thief and cleared her name to the cops out of ‘the goodness of her heart’, but she wasn’t even aware of the tape recordings or what had made Sun Young flee the house. Sun Young herself got overemotional and didn’t watch out well enough. I’m very sorry that it happened, but that’s the truth.
I also didn’t think it was necessary to kill off In Joon’s uncle. Of course, in his case, his death was fully orchestrated by Jung Ho, and it was also a very unfortunate moment because he was just about to deliver all the evidence of Jung Ho’s involvement with Hyun Joo to In Joon. It wasn’t unexpected of course, because like Sun Young, every person that was even close to revealing the truth (or part of it) was taken out of the equation in one way or another, and Stepmom openly spoke about how she wasn’t afraid to bury/kill anyone if it benefitted her son. Still, since in the uncle’s case the evidence was (partly) saved, I also couldn’t completely agree with the fact they just killed him off. I would’ve liked to see Chang Soo secure the evidence and take the uncle to the hospital to recover. Oh well.

Regarding In Joon, MY GOSH I felt so sorry for this guy. He was the main victim in everything. He was the most innocent person, and yet everyone was framing him, blaming him, punishing him for things he wasn’t even responsible for. He had been all alone ever since his mother passed away, and just when he thought he’d found a companion in Hae Ra, she also went straight ahead and betrayed him. What a sad world. He deserved so much better.
Although it did take me some time to warm up to him in the beginning, simply because he was also quite stoic in his expressions, in hindsight I think he had the most reasonable feelings of any characters’ in the show. Once he started getting romantically involved with Hae Ra, there was no doubt about it, he made it abundantly clear how he felt about her, and he also made it clear to her, unlike the other way around. I guess his love for her also blinded him for the lack of affection that she showed him in return.
When he got out of prison, I thought his resolve was really believable, as well as how hurt he’d been by Hae Ra’s actions. I’m glad how satisfying the last couple of episodes were because justice was actually restored and In Joon got all his shares back and everything. You could clearly see how mixed he felt about Hae Ra helping him out the way she did at the end, risking her own career as well. I believe he never really stopped loving her, but that he was mainly telling himself to resent her, even after discovering that she was also, partly, a victim of the situation since she was misguided by his stepmother. Imagine being betrayed by the person you’re so in love with, the person you’re planning to marry and for whom you gave up your prior engagement and all of your company shares. Does that immediately eradicate all the feelings you ever had for that person? I think it’s more complicated than that. He definitely resented her for what she did to him, but I also believe he couldn’t find it in himself to completely banish her from his life forever.

Cha Soo Hyun was undeniably ‘the bitch’ in the beginning of the series, but I really think she made a big development in character. She didn’t change completely, but she did mature. I liked how Jennie still hit a sensitive chord with her, even though she was the one who tried to get rid of her as a baby. She did end up donating her kidney and she did come to the airport to say goodbye and allowed Jennie to call her mom before Tae Oh took her back to Hong Kong. I guess Soo Hyun also got a bit tired of the whole family politics, even from her own mother as she kept forcing her to go on blind dates after her engagement to In Joon fell through. She may not have become a more friendly person per se, but I think at least the events put things in perspective for her. It’s kind of funny to think how Soo Hyun, even as the second female lead, literally didn’t have anything to do with the whole Jung Ho/Hyun Joo case. She was just very suspicious of Hae Ra and cared enough about In Joon to warn him about her, with good reason. I liked that she didn’t end up poking her nose into that whole affair, it was already messy and dramatic enough as it was without more unrelated people getting involved. And this at least gave her the opportunity to disappear for a while unnoticed as she anonymously got her kidney surgery.

Same went for Tae Oh, I honestly believe he just saw an opportunity to use the situation he was provided with to his own advantage and utilized it to bother Soo Hyun. The only thing he wanted from her was her kidney (I couldn’t help but chuckle as I literally muttered out loud, ‘guess what, he needs her kidney’ before he actually said, ‘I need your kidney’), but he just decided to be petty towards her for the last time before he got what he wanted. I’m actually glad they weren’t forced back together because that would’ve been unrealistic. It was clearly in the past what they once felt for each other, and this was just the last piece of closure for both of them.

I think it was mostly just frustrating because the viewer gets information that the lead character doesn’t. When we know that the lead character is taking a wrong turn, we cannot correct them and that just sucks because we’re forced to watch them screw up. I think that was one of my main issues with Hae Ra. She only saw what was right in front of her and she didn’t think to look beyond that. If she was truly making a ‘plan’, she should’ve been prepared to go the extra mile and do the extra research. But she just went along to gain In Joon’s trust, focussing completely on him as a person, without even thinking about asking him about his life or what background he came from, looking for anything concrete she could use against him. If she was seriously planning on marrying him, wouldn’t that be a normal thing to inquire about? What kind of family you’d actually be getting yourself into?
I guess that’s also what made their relationship seem so one-sided to me. In Joon was completely smitten with her and did all kinds of things for her out of his own volition because he thought about her all the time. Hae Ra didn’t do anything for him. Even when they met at work she just acted passively and was almost surprised to see him act like a boyfriend, even after they’d already slept together. Weird.
I also think that the ending in which In Joon suddenly decides to forgive her after all, was kind of forced. He’d been so clear about not forgiving her, or at least that it would take him a very long time to forgive her, and now suddenly he was like, you know what, I get that you’re sorry and it seems that we’d both make the same choice again even after knowing the truth, so hey, let’s hug it out.

However frustrated I was during the main part of the series, the ending did change things for the better and even surprised me a little. At some point I only had two burning questions: one, when Ah Jung would come out with those tapes, and two, when the heck Hyun Joo would wake up. I was just waiting for that shot of her in the hospital where they’d zoom in on her hand and showed how her finger moved. She just had to wake up, I felt, in order to conclude all this. To have this whole case unravel while she was unconscious and then just end it without her ever waking up just felt implausible. So when it happened, I was like YAY FINALLY. It only happened in the final episode, and then soon after, the final plot twist is revealed: the fact that Ah Jung was actually behind all of it. I’m still not entirely sure how I feel about it.
I didn’t expect her to be behind everything, I just thought she’d become a more important figure when she’d come out with those evidence tapes. Despite all the reasons she had against Jung Ho, I still don’t fully understand why she went to Hong Kong to tell Tae Oh to bring Hae Ra and In Joon together. I mean, I already knew it was her from the first time Tae Oh talked about it, even though then only the back of her head was shown. I already knew it was her, but I was curious about her motives. I thought at first that maybe she’d been forced by Jung Ho to go there and instruct Tae Oh as such, but now that turned out not to be the case. Maybe it was just to place Hae Ra close to their family so ultimately the truth about Jung Ho’s deeds came to light? But then things really didn’t go quite as planned, I imagine.
I do understand why she did that to Hyun Joo, though. I didn’t believe she had any malicious intent towards her. Jung Ho had been treating her so badly and she’d been gathering evidence against him for so long, I could only imagine she was out to get him and didn’t want him to get his hands on any other victims. So I was kind of relieved when it turned out that she did it involuntarily, in her despair not to allow another child of Jung Ho into the world. Of course, it’s not right what she did and she’s lucky that Hyun Joo survived, but I could understand where she was coming from, at least. She was also a major victim of the family’s misdoings, and all she cared about was just getting her son back, but other than that I still don’t believe she had any malicious intents towards anyone but her husband and mother-in-law. She even helped In Joon by giving him all the tapes in order to clear his name, so maybe she also saw how her orchestrating Tae Oh to get Hae Ra in touch with In Joon had gotten out of hand, and it was her way of making amends? I’m still not completely sure about that part.

Okay, now I want to go on to some cast comments before I conclude!

I’ve only seen Lee Min Jung before in Boys Before Flowers and Big, which I don’t want to talk about ever again. As I’ve already mentioned in Hae Ra’s character analysis, I wasn’t very impressed with her performance in this series. I don’t know if it was also bad writing, but I just didn’t like the way she acted. She lacked energy and everything was just constantly one tone, one expression. For such a dramatic story as this, I would’ve expected her to give more, especially in the scene where she heard her sister regained consciousness, like what the heck was with that weak response? I found it really difficult to decipher what emotions she was trying to convey and I was just frustrated with her the whole way through. She was like this in Big as well, and I had really hoped to see her in a series that at least wasn’t as badly written as that one. Unfortunately, I was not very convinced by her in this one, either.
Apparently, she and Joo Sang Wook also played a couple in Cunning Single Lady, a drama that I’m also still interested in. I really wonder how their chemistry is in that show. Anyways, I just hope she can prove to me that she’s capable of more, because I liked her so much in Boys Before Flowers but I’ve never seen the same kind of energy she had there from her since.

I’ve only seen Joo Sang Wook before in Fantastic, and it’s been a while since I watched that so I can’t remember a lot. I just remember he had a much more energetic role than he had here. I still thought he portrayed a very sympathetic character in this show, a guy from such a complicated family finding himself falling for a complete stranger, only to be harshly betrayed by her. Even though he might have been quite stoic in the beginning of the series, his responses always made sense to me and I still think he’s the main victim of everything that went down in the story, I truly felt for him. I think I’ll see more of him as I continue with my watch list. I can’t deny that I have gotten a bit interested in Cunning Single Lady now, even if it’s just to see how their chemistry was in that show, as it was basically non-existent in this one.

As I looked her up, I guess I know So Yi Hyun from Heartstrings, but that’s also too long ago for me to remember. Even though I disliked her character at first, I’m glad the writers at least gave her some relatable layers throughout the story. She was raised in a world of connections and family politics, and it may have stripped her from attaching too much value to any real emotions or feelings she may have had. Her confrontation with her daughter proved that. She could be so sharp, but she did try to warn In Joon because she cared for his safety and she did donate her kidney to her daughter because she did want her to grow up and live healthily. It’s not even that she made a whole change in personality, but I do think she matured for the better in the end. I still ended up liking her more than Hae Ra. I said what I said.

As much as I love Lee Ki Woo, I keep getting sad when he gets casted as unfriendly people, haha. I had the same in Just Between Lovers, whenever he appears on screen I just want to like him. When he first appeared here, all sweet with his daughter on the plane, I was like Yayy~ Lee Ki Woo~ but then the way he started acting towards Hae Ra when she couldn’t live up to his expectations was just mean. He made a big fuss about getting his revenge on Soo Hyun and although Hae Ra didn’t even have anything to do with that, he vented it on her and that wasn’t fair. However, I do like how he also just stuck to the part that he was actually responsible for and took his hands off Hae Ra once she started making her own radical decisions on how she would continue to take away everything from In Joon. At least Tae Oh had the decency to apologize for the part that he was actually responsible for, and also revealed that Ah Jung was the woman who’d come to visit him in Hong Kong and started the whole thing in the first place.
I want to see more shows in which he plays lovable characters though! He’s such a bean and I’ll probably never get over the fact that he was my first major K-Drama actor crush ever, after seeing him in Flower Boy Ramyun Shop.

I liked how overall, this series had a lot of actors that I didn’t know very well. Most people I recognized by face, but when I looked them up I was like… I guess I know them from this and this but I honestly don’t remember them that well.
For example, the stepmother, played by Song Ok Sook. Her face seems SO familiar to me, and according to DramaWiki I’ve seen her in several shows like Rooftop Prince, I Miss You, Fated to Love You and Missing 9. From the last one I know she was the reporter, but from the ones before that I’ll just have to believe that I know her from there. The thing is, even though she was one of the major bad guys, I kind of liked her character. She was really shrewd, but she just acted with such a good energy that I kind of liked how nasty she was, haha. It just all comes down to the commitment of the actor, I guess. She was funny in her own way, and then would just pretend to be oblivious until she was exposed and something in her would just change and be like, ‘huh, I’ve underestimated you…’ and I liked that.

Gong Jung Hwan was really well-casted for this role. I’ve seen him in Blood, Cinderella and the Four Knights, Ruler: Master of the Mask, and recently in My Absolute Boyfriend and Rookie Historian Goo Hae Ryung. I think this is the first show where I’ve seen him as a real villain and it suited him very well. He really pulled off the heartless bastard and that look he would get in his eyes… damn. Creepy stuff. Honestly, Jung Ho was a scumbag. Not a single thing he did came from the heart, he was always just thinking about money. He even persuaded his mother to regain the money he lost and needed back over getting back Jung Min, her own daughter, because that just wasn’t important to him. He didn’t care about anything or anyone but himself, not even within his own family. He really got what he deserved in the end. I loved the scene where he was giving the speech about how his father was in critical condition and they just rolled him in in a wheelchair like, ‘Hi, you were saying?’

Shim Yi Young is also such a familiar face, I feel like I’ve seen her in several things, but not in many major roles. I most recently saw her in Love Alarm as the second (turned first?) male lead’s mom. She just has this really sweet mom vibe, I think. It was hard watching her get treated so badly by her in-laws and even her own husband. When Jung Ho walked in on his mom slapping her and just went ‘take her to another room and hit her there, don’t do it out in the open’, I was like, are you for real, sir?!?!?! She got it really bad, and I really wanted her to get out of that house. Especially when Sun Young died after discovering those tapes, and Ah Jung realized one tape was missing, I was expecting something to happen but it still took another two years before she decided she’d release the tapes for In Joon’s sake. In the end, she used two things that she’d actually meant for herself for other people, the tapes and the carbon dioxide. I guess that just means that she didn’t plan anything out in advance and her plans also kept changing, so maybe it wasn’t that odd that she hadn’t left the house yet, maybe she kept waiting for something more to happen that she could add to the list of Tae family misdeeds.

I just found out that Park Soo Ah is former member Lizzy of Orange Caramel! I haven’t seen her in any dramas before. In any case, I think she was a good casting choice for Jung Min, she really was a brat, haha. It’s funny how with every member of the Tae family I was like, yeah, they definitely got their temper from their dad. I liked how Jung Min matured and changed throughout the series, mostly because of Eui Geon, I guess. After what happened to Sun Young he started blaming her family and told her he didn’t want to see her again, and she just resigned to going back home, but she never forgot about him. It was cute how she, as such an unruly kid, got attached to someone like that and for once there wasn’t any additional drama about her dating a guy from a poorer background – there were actually more important things going on this time. And the scene in which she was made to overhear how her mother chose Jung Ho and his money over getting her back home was thought out very well from Hae Ra’s side, I’ll give her that. I like how in the end she and Eui Geon were videocalling as husband and wife.

I’ve seen Jung Soo Young in Who Are You – School 2015 and Jugglers, but even though I don’t specifically remember her from there, her face is definitely very familiar. As I said, I really didn’t agree with the death of her character. She could’ve just remained a supporting character on Hae Ra’s side. Despite becoming a trigger to Hae Ra’s urge to find the culprit ASAP, I really don’t see why she had to die. It was sad. I thought she was a really nice character to have, she lightened the mood and it’s just always nice for the main character to have a comfort person to rely on once things get tough.

Apparently, Jung Yoon Hak is a member of K-Pop group Supernova. I don’t know them, but okay! I felt bad for him because for the carefree person that he was and should’ve remained to be, he went through a lot. His older sister and only remaining family (as far as mentioned) was taken from him because of something their friend had told her to do, so yeah, if you’re going to put your blame somewhere… I gave him all the reason to want to stay away from Hae Ra and the whole situation for a while. I even got kind of mad at Hae Ra when she just made her way back into his life and basically gave him the same task that Tae Oh had laid upon her, to get back with Jung Min because that way he could also get his hands on her shares. I mean, what the heck gave her that right? Anyways, I’m glad he ended up back with Jung Min because they loved each other and no other reason. He was a very sympathetic character, and a good loyal figure, but I still felt for the way he had to get involved in the whole thing.

I’ve seen Heo Joon Seok in Oh! My Lady, The Girl Who Sees Smells, Suspicious Partner and Our Beloved Summer. Another familiar face. Despite his dodgy appearance and vibe in the beginning of the series, Kim Chang Soo turned out to be a hero. He turned out to be one of the best characters. He always cared about Hae Ra and her sister’s safety and tried as best he could to help Hae Ra out with gaining info, but as a complete outsider, you can’t expect him to get everything from the right source, either. I didn’t blame him at all for providing Hae Ra with incomplete evidence because that was literally all that he could get his hands on. He did, however, warn her several times not to go in too deep and that not everything might be what it seemed. In my opinion, he did warn her not to just believe anything she heard – it was all on her for going ahead while she didn’t have 100% certainty on the evidence. Yes, I’m still bothered that she dared blaming Chang Soo for that. Anyways, in the end he also became sort of an ally to In Joon, as he helped him to get a moment with Hyun Joo alone after she woke up. He also was the hero who just happened to follow the uncle at the time of his accident and found out firsthand from him that it was all Jung Ho and he even managed to save most of the evidence. At first, when it seemed like he only took the photograph from the burning pile of papers I was like, you could’ve taken the other documents as well!! The photograph of Jung Ho and Hyun Joo is also still indirect evidence!! But then it turned out he did manage to obtain most of the evidence and put everything on a USB stick, clever guy. I really liked his character, he was the type who would get into scrapes for people and not get a thank you for it, but still do it again.

Cha Soo Yeon didn’t really have a lot to do in the show besides lying in a hospital bed unconscious, but I still liked that they didn’t just use her as Hae Ra’s Achilles heel, but that she remained her own person and that she regained consciousness at the end. I didn’t know the actress from anything else, but I liked how resilient she made Hyun Joo appear, not simply backing off after Jung Ho simply ordered her to get an abortion and disappear from his life as if nothing happened. I also appreciated that, when In Joon came to visit the Busan shoe workshop in the final episode, she apologized to him on behalf of Hae Ra. I think it must have been a very uncomfortable talk between the sisters when Hae Ra had to tell her how she went after the wrong guy and Hyun Joo naturally understood how much In Joon had come to suffer under the whole situation, while she never had any beef with him. I just thought that was really considerate of her, especially since she was the last person who owed anyone any kind of apology.
I see the actress hasn’t done a lot of dramas yet, but I hope she’ll get the chance to act more in the future as I did think she performed well for the limited screentime that she had. Even without the screentime, I still liked her more than I liked Hae Ra. Again, I said what I said.

One final special shoutout to Im Ji Gyu and Jo Wan Gi, who respectively played In Joon’s assistant Kim and Gold Shoes factory worker Kim Seok Jin, because they were the only good people who stood by In Joon’s side until the end. They were the two people waiting for him outside when he got out of prison, and they were the most loyal to him throughout the entire show. I really loved these guys.

So yeah, this was a pretty complicated review to write for me and I’ll definitely have to go over it again to see if I didn’t miss anything. Anyways, yes, it was quite a complicated story but I still thought it was well written, especially how it wrapped up in the end. There were some events in-between that didn’t make much sense to me, like the Hae Ra/Tae Oh-dating pretense and I did initially think that putting Jung Min and Eui Geon together was kind of a stretch, but all in all they managed to resolve these things in the end. My main problem was just with the female lead, as I found her so unbelievably stupid. Seriously, the summary on DramaWiki starts with ‘Goo Hae Ra is a smart and beautiful woman’, well. She might have been smart in her approach to ‘seduce’ In Joon, but in her deduction skills and approach to execute her revenge plan, she really could’ve taken a basic course on distinguishing indirect evidence from definite evidence. Even to a noob like me it was unrealistic how she went ahead with her plan to ruin someone without even making 100% sure whether or not she got the right guy. I also still think that, if she had any intuition at all, she would’ve known that In Joon was innocent, I mean come on, they even slept together – did she seriously not find out a single thing about his personal life? Did she really just sleep with him without a single thought in her mind? Anyways, guess I’ll just have to live with this frustration now, haha. Apart from that, I liked the ending and how justice was finally served. That was very satisfying indeed.
I probably wouldn’t recommend this drama, though, because for me unfortunately the frustrations still weighed heavier than the things I thought were good about it. I definitely thought they solved the problem well, but it took a very long time, literally until the second-to-last episode.

I will now go on to something much lighter and more entertaining, I hope, and then I can start on my next batch of watch list items, of which I haven’t even decided the order yet so that should be a nice surprise for the both of us!

I’ll be back soon, bye-bee!!

Extraordinary Attorney Woo

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Extraordinary Attorney Woo
( 이상한 변호사 우영우 / Yisanghan Byeonhosa U-yeong-u)
MyDramaList rating: 7.5/10

Hiya! Back with a new review before the end of the month, and this was a very much anticipated one! I decided to watch it in-between my to-watch list items simply because I got so many recommendations and I just really didn’t want to wait. I’m glad I made that decision! Even though law dramas are usually not really my cup of tea, I can say beforehand that I still was able to enjoy this drama. I will go into more detail in the body of my review, but I just want to mention in advance that even for people who are not into law themes, this can be a very insightful and enjoyable drama. It’s very interesting that they created this story about someone with a handicap taking on the challenge of such a representative job as an attorney. Showing the viewer the world through the eyes of such a person, through her experiences and perceptions that ‘normal’ people cannot fully comprehend, it creates such an immersive and interesting story. The fact that we are shown how much the protagonist struggles with her own issues, how much she is aware of it, and how much she would like to communicate properly with others, just makes her impossible to get frustrated with. Let’s get on with it, shall we?

Extraordinary Attorney Woo is a 16-episode Netflix K-Drama with each episode lasting about 1 hour and 20 minutes. It tells the story of 27-year old Woo Young Woo (played by Park Eun Bin). Woo Young Woo has ASD (autism spectrum disorder), and lives with her father, Woo Gwang Ho (played by Jeon Bae Soo) who owns a kimbap shop. Despite her handicap, from a young age on it became clear that Young Woo had a strong affinity with law. Even though she didn’t talk for the first couple of years of her life, when she started talking, the first words that came out of her were law-related; as it happens, she had memorized one of her dad’s old law books from beginning to end. When her father was first confronted with the fact that his daughter was autistic, he struggled a lot by himself. His daughter wouldn’t even look at him, talk to him or hold his hand, and as a single dad this made him feel very lonely. Imagine his relief when she started talking, and about law at that. As he himself has been a law student, he finds a way to communicate with his daughter through legal terms, and it works out somehow.
When the story starts, Young Woo has just been hired as a rookie lawyer at a big law firm called Hanbada. From there on, she will have to face many trials, both professional and personal, as she keeps struggling with her social and emotional skills, while she simultaneously has to learn how to confidently represent clients in the courtroom. At her new job, she meets a couple of new people she will regularly work with, such as the team she becomes a part of. The team is led by Attorney Jung Myung Seok (played by Kang Ki Young), and further consists of fellow rookie attorneys Choi Soo Yeon (played by Ha Yoon Kyung) and Kwon Min Woo (played by Joo Jong Hyuk). She also becomes close with Lee Joon Ho (played by Kang Tae Ho), who works in litigation in the same office and often goes with her to help secure evidence.
Young Woo has one close friend, Dong Geurami (played by Joo Hyun Young), who works at a pub and is kind of the comic relief character of the series as she always tries to help Young Woo get out of her shell in funny ways.

Let me say in advance that in multiple ways, this series reminded me of Move to Heaven. Not just because of the autism spectrum disorder that both protagonists of these series have and their mutual interest in aquatic creatures, but also because of the structure of the series: every episode features a different case, with two 2-part stories as the exception. In every episode, the protagonist faces a new challenge, both personally as professionally, and they both have their own ways of maintaining their daily work routine. The only difference I would point out is that in this drama, they added a romantic aspect between the protagonist and another person. I found it very interesting that they chose to do this, as you don’t often see representation of an autistic person committing to a romantic relationship. I did like that the romance, as important as it was, was kept as a side story. The main plot is really about Young Woo, and how she handles cases, grows from her experiences, and how this also affects her ability to learn about the feelings of the people around her.
Still, there were definitely some aspects that reminded me of Move to Heaven. And that’s why I would like to structure my review similarly to the one I wrote for that one, by briefly going through all cases one by one, pointing out the lessons that Young Woo learned from each case. Before I do that though, I would like to write a bit more about the main characters individually.

First of all, Woo Young Woo herself. As I have established above, she’s had an affinity and interest in law ever since she was young. The rules and regulations that the law offers make her feel comfortable as she can always rely on it to make sense of the world around her. She claims to love the law and is willing to challenge her own disability to be able to perform confidently in the courtroom, which is admirable. Simultaneously, she has one other big passion: whales. When she’s not talking about law, she’s talking about whales. How exactly this interest came to be is not clear to me, but whales are a major part of her life. Not only is her room filled with drawings, figurines, plushies and other stuff related to them, she also uses a lot of whale analogies to relate to her personal life (like how she feels like a narwhal in a tank full of belugas), and also to make sense of her clients’ situations at times. Whenever she has a ‘Eureka’ moment, as an alternative to a light bulb flickering on, it’s illustrated by some kind of whale or dolphin jumping out of the water. Besides these specific interests and preferred conversation topics, there are various quirks that keep coming back. Her favorite food is kimbap, as it shows all the ingredients and she won’t be alarmed by any unexpected flavors, and it’s all she’s ever seen eating throughout the show (at some point I seriously started wondering if she ever ate anything else), she always wears headphones when she’s on her way to work and back (even though it’s not revealed what she listens to exactly – maybe whale sounds or maybe nothing at all?), she has to count to three before entering a new room as she needs to prepare herself for the transition of moving from one space to another, she doesn’t like holding hands (the longest she’s held her dad’s hand is 57 seconds and that’s already a lot for her), and she panics when people start screaming or get violent with each other. In those situations, it helps for her to be held really tightly, as pressure on her body will help calm her nerves. And, what’s probably most characteristic of her, she always introduces herself in the same way: “My name is Woo Young Woo. Whether it’s read straight or flipped, it’s still Woo Young Woo. Kayak, Deed, Rotator, Noon, Racecar, Woo Young Woo.” This of course refers to the spelling of her name, that whether you flip it around, her name is always read as ‘Woo Young Woo’, and she illustrates this with other examples of reversible words. In Korean, of course, she uses other words, but it must’ve been hard on the translators/subtitlers to literally translate it. Anyways, they brought the point across well enough. I suppose having a name like that must also be comforting to her, in a way, as it has a solid structure and people will always read it the way it’s meant to be read. In regard to her appearance, Young Woo has a clean bob cut hairstyle and she always dresses really plainly, slightly old-fashioned even, in a grey-coloured jacket and knee-length skirt.
As a child with ASD, it was hard for her to fit in at school, and she was also bullied a lot as no one seemed to be able to understand her. There was this scene that made me really mad. I mean, I’m sure at least the teachers were aware that she has ASD? And even if not, it was blatantly obvious that she must’ve had something like it? So when Young Woo was tricked into reading a note out loud offending the teacher, the teacher should have known that she was being pranked and set up. It was SO obvious, as she seemed oblivious and the others were all snickering behind her back. But no, instead, the teacher actually SLAPPED Young Woo in the face. Like, WHAT?! Literally NOTHING was done to give her additional support, it was like no one even knew what was wrong with her, everyone just thought she was being weird for no reason. I can’t imagine the staff wasn’t informed of her condition at all when she enrolled, that shouldn’t have been kept a secret. Anyways, the only person there willing to stand up for Young Woo was Geurami. Geurami was kind of the ‘punky delinquent’ kid in class, but Young Woo was strangely comforted by her and started following her around and the two became close friends after that. Young Woo sometimes visits the pub that Geurami works at to ask for her advice on social situations when she’s not sure how to handle them. The two have their own iconic greeting as well, the by now famous “Woo to the Young to the Woo” – “Dong to the Geu to the Rami”.


Despite her occasionally detached behavior, it’s clear enough when Young Woo cares for a person. She might not be able to show affection by skinship or verbal communication very well, but she has a very clear sense of justice and she’s able to at least try to empathize when people spell out to her how they feel. Especially when the relationship between her and Joon Ho starts to develop, Young Woo is prepared to step out of her comfort zone if it means she’ll be able to relay her true feelings to him properly.

The main dramatic plot twist surrounding Young Woo occurs when it’s revealed that she’s actually the illegitimate daughter of Hanbada’s rival law company Taesan’s CEO, Tae Soo Mi (played by Jin Kyung). She and Young Woo’s father had been dating in secret as teenagers, but as Soo Mi was from a wealthy family, it was considered a scandal that she’d gotten pregnant out of wedlock with a poor guy, so she gave the child to him after she’s given birth and he was asked to disappear from her life, even if that meant that he had to give up his own law career. So he did, and mother dear never ever even bothered inquiring after her daughter again. As it happens, Hanbada’s CEO Han Seon Young (played by Baek Ji Won) has always seen Tae Soo Mi as a rival, and also somehow is an old friend of Young Woo’s father. Honestly, I’m not exactly sure about this as their relations to each other weren’t elaborated on in detail, but it just seemed like they all knew each other from law school or something. Anyways, Han Seon Young eventually finds out about Young Woo being Soo Mi’s daughter and plots to use this against Soo Mi, as she’s just about to be elected Minister of Justice. Both women try to get Young Woo and her father out of the picture when they find out, to “protect them”, but we all know everything they do is to just protect their own images. I couldn’t really sympathize with either of them, I’m just glad their feud kind of blew over in the end (at least for now). But more about that later.

Let me go over Young Woo’s Hanbada team mates one by one.
First of all there’s Jung Myung Seok, who is like her senior or mentor, if you like. He is basically the team leader and although he’s skeptical as soon as Young Woo steps in, he’s the first person to change his mind about her after seeing her skills. He’s able to see through the complications her disability may bring after just a day, and keeps giving her new tasks to develop herself. Throughout the series we find out some more details about his personal life, especially when he gets sick. He’s diagnosed with Stage 3 stomach cancer, possibly caused by being a workaholic. He’s always been so fixated on work that it even ruined his marriage, and even though his ex-wife comes back in the picture after he is diagnosed, in order to give their relationship another chance she actually asks him to quit Hanbada as she won’t be able to take it again if nothing changes when he gets discharged, giving him some serious food for thought. Anyways, Myung Seok is a good guy and a respectable lawyer, although he’s faced the duality of the job more than once. Even when you find out your client is in the wrong, you have the responsibility to defend them, even if it goes against social justice. It’s up to each lawyer to decide in that, but he has always chosen the client’s needs before justice, as he claims when Young Woo asks him for advice towards the end of the series. He’s a good mentor, he doesn’t tell Young Woo what she should do but encourages her to choose what kind of lawyer she wants to be by herself.

Then there’s Choi Soo Yeon, Young Woo’s classmate from law school, who initially is a bit annoyed by Young Woo’s appointment to her team as she’s always seen her as a rival, but who eventually opens up to her more and becomes a good and loyal friend to Young Woo. She initially has a crush on Joon Ho, but chooses to step away when she finds out his affection for Young Woo without too much resentment – she even starts supporting the two of them. I’d describe her personality as trying to be tough while she’s actually really sweet. We also see some out-of-office scenes with her, and this only helps to gain more sympathy for her as we see her struggle with blind dates. She even goes on a date with the owner of the pub Geurami works at one time, but he creeps her out with his relentless food-related dad jokes. When they meet more often on other occasions, it seems like they can put it behind them, though. While struggling through her own stuff and cases, Soo Yeon gets another shock as she suddenly finds herself attracted to her co-worker Kwon Min Woo.

Kwon Min Woo, nicknamed Tactician Kwon Min Woo, is the team member who remains suspicious of Young Woo for the longest time. He doesn’t treat her as an equal, but as a rival, and he even strives to work her out of Hanbada for a while. When rumors start spreading about Young Woo being hired by Hanbada because of the CEO’s connections to her father (and the fact that her mother is Tae Soo Mi), Min Woo adds fuel to the fire by starting to write posts on the company’s bulletin board. He doesn’t seem to be a very sympathetic guy until the end, especially when he makes a secret deal with Tae Soo Mi herself to get Young Woo to either quit or get fired from Hanbada. However, Soo Yeon seems to have a good influence on him, as he starts to adapt more and more to behavior that she finds attractive in a man, and in the end he also gives up on his deal with Tae Soo Mi, as he claims he ‘wants to start living like a fool’ – another quote derived directly from something Soo Yeon says to him. So yeah, it seems like he turns around a little at the end, but I still don’t trust him completely.

And then of course there’s Lee Joon Ho. He’s not an attorney himself, but he’s basically the standard litigation officer for Young Woo’s team, as he often helps them out with their cases, drives them to witness interrogations and helps to secure evidence for them. From day one, he’s nice to Young Woo and seems to find her very interesting. He becomes her first friend at the office, and he agrees to have lunch with her every day, giving her an opportunity to talk about whales in her free time. He also helps her concur the revolving doors of the office (the ‘One, Two, Three’ dance they do T^T) and at times when she feels discouraged about representing her clients properly, he’s always there to remind her of her qualities. As he falls for her he’s not even bothered by her ASD, but it does cause a certain tension between them, especially when they visit his sister and Young Woo overhears her telling Joon Ho that he can’t date ‘someone like her’, because it’ll mean he’ll just always have to ‘take care of her’. Because of this Young Woo becomes aware of the fact that, just like with her father, she might make the people she loves feel lonely because she can’t return their affection in the same way. She decides, with her own logic, that it would be better for Joon Ho if they break up, but when she sees that it breaks his heart, she doesn’t know how to deal with it. Seriously, that breakup was one of the most heart-wrenching ones ever because you could just understand both sides so well. Young Woo just states her conclusion to the situation, the resolve she deems most appropriate, as if it were a case. Also, something suddenly reminds her of the case while she’s in the middle of her breakup and she just goes on to talk about the case, as that’s how her mind works. Joon Ho, shocked by the sudden declaration of break-up, is heartbroken to see her move on from the topic to something else so quickly and spells out to her that it really hurts his feelings how she just changes the topic like that, to which Young Woo can only give a simple apology. You can’t be angry with either of them because you know that Young Woo can’t help the way she is, the way her mind works, but on the other side you also really understand Joon Ho’s feelings and frustrations. I’m glad they were able to work it out though, at least Young Woo was able to explain to him her reason for breaking up, making Joon Ho understand that she did it out of concern for him, to which he is able to reflect better on his own feelings. I really liked how they finally got back together, how they had that talk in the car where Joon Ho compared their relationship to that of a cat and its owner, how the cat also doesn’t always return the affection, and how sometimes it can make him feel lonely, but it can also make him feel very happy when they do get chances to connect. And the way Young Woo then says, ‘that’s not a fair analogy because the cat also loves the owner very much’, before she slipped out of the car and how they smiled at each other through the car window while processing that this meant that they were getting back together, that was really cute.

I now would like to go over all the episodes one by one to give a brief summary of how every case taught Young Woo something new and valuable.

The first episode concerned an elderly couple, Young Woo’s old neighbors from her childhood. It was a case that worked out in her favor, as she was able to prove that the wife did not actually cause her husband’s death. The thing here was that these neighbors happened to be the people present when Young Woo uttered her very first (law-related) words as a child. The husband was always very hot-tempered and got in a fight with her dad at the time, which caused her to panic and start yelling law jargon. When her dad found out about her skill to memorize law terms and rules, the wife was there to praise the fact that she might become a lawyer one day. This case ends victorious for Young Woo, and it was so impactful that I couldn’t help but celebrate with her – this was the case that initially proved her skills to her team members.

The second case was about a feud between two families – a daughter from one side and a son from the other were getting married, but as they walked away from the altar, the bride’s dress slipped off, causing a big scandal. Everything regarding this case was handled by the bride’s father, but it was very clear that this was nothing but a political marriage, the bride and groom didn’t even love each other. In fact, the bride turned out to be in love with another woman, and the case ends when she personally calls off the lawsuit altogether to make an escapade with her true love. This case just really proved to me that some rich families only care about throwing around their money on big scandal spectacles and they don’t actually care about the real problem – the daughter never wanted any of it, and was just miserable that she was continuously set up with marriages she wasn’t interested in.

The third case was one of the heaviest, in my opinion. Young Woo was asked to defend another autistic person, but this person’s case of ASD was on a completely different level than hers. It just really showed that some people might see all cases of autism as the same, that people who have autism all automatically understand each other, which isn’t the case at all. This was one of the most frustrating cases to watch for me, honestly. A severely autistic young man is accused of murdering his older brother, but he can’t communicate anything properly, and as soon as people start asking him questions, he just starts screaming. In the end, it becomes clear that the older brother committed suicide, and the autistic brother was just trying to save him, but as the defendent wasn’t able to testify properly because of his severe autism and just said ‘Yes’ to everything, they couldn’t help him. After this case, Young Woo temporarily loses her confidence and even quits her work for a while as she’s distraught by the knowledge that she’s not able to defend someone like herself properly, that she can’t be dependable as a lawyer. What really pissed me off during this case was that the prosecution really crossed a line by drawing a comparison between Young Woo and the defendent. Seriously, what was his deal making it so personal? He was one of those people who just saw autism as one and the same thing for everyone, and he just went on about how the fact that the defendent couldn’t properly testify meant they should also question the legitimacy of Young Woo’s performance as an attorney. It was disgusting.

The fourth episode was about Geurami’s father, who got himself in a pickle because of a deal made with his two older brothers after their father passed away. They basically tricked him into signing an agreement that would lead to him getting the least profit of the heritage. They used some alleged law rule as an argument to persuade him to sign it, and this was against the law, but they had a hard time getting anyone to witness that they had actually used this argument. This was frustrating because the two brothers just seemed to bribe anyone who could testify against them, even after Young Woo’s team managed to get them to agree to testify. However, here they managed to still get their way as Geurami and her father went to provoke the two brothers into attacking them. Honestly, those two brothers were despicable. They literally used their status as older brothers against their youngest brother so he couldn’t refuse them, and then tricked him into suffering the most less and gaining the most debt, even though he had a family to support. And then when he came to confront them, they only scolded him being disrespectful while THEY had made him lose everything, financially. It just makes me so mad when people who did a bad thing make others feel like they are the bad ones. Like, at least own up to your bad deeds. Anyways, when all was settled they suddenly came crawling back, saying stuff like ‘we also don’t have much, please forgive us’, like, yeah, go to the moon.

The fifth case, the one about the ATM companies, didn’t interest me much content-wise, but it was definitely a case that proved how being a lawyer can be difficult, as you can’t let your own judgement play a part. This is the first case that Young Woo encounters in the series in which it turns out that her client isn’t actually the truthful one, and the outcome leaves a bitter taste. Despite being able to identify all the blatant signs of someone lying, Young Woo still looks past it, and she blames herself for it afterwards.

Then the sixth case, another frustrating one, about a mother that wants to be reunited with her daughter. The mother just happens to be a North Korean defector who is in jail for alleged assault on a woman who supposedly had money that belonged to her. The most frustrating thing here was that there were so many unfair forces working against them. The assaulted was already bruised up because of her abusive husband, but the doctor making the autopsy report just happened to be very biased against North Korean defectors, and he manipulated the report according to his own views. Luckily, the judge they worked with for this case saw the facts for what they were and they managed to acquit the mother of her charges, but not without any emotional process. This was a case Soo Yeon was in charge of in which Young Woo was assigned to help, and this was a good cooperation as Soo Yeon was quite emotionally involved by the mother’s story, and Young Woo was able to look at it more objectively.

The seventh case and the first 2-part arc of the series was about a group of inhabitants that objected a highway being built right through their village. In this case, for the first time in the series, Hanbada was set opposite Taesan, and this is where Young Woo meets her biological mother Tae Soo Mi for the first time. They eventually manage to win the case by proving that the procedure of applying for the village’s beautiful tree as a natural monument was sabotaged, and that with this approval, the highway construction would not be allowed to happen. At the end of this 2-parter, Young Woo confronts Tae Soo Mi with the fact that she’s her daughter, leaving Soo Mi in complete shock.

The eight case was about the self-proclaimed leader of a children’t liberation movement who hijacked a bus of kids on their way to their after-school academy to take them to the mountains and play to their heart’s content instead. This one hit differently as it involved children, mainly children who were denied any playtime, even when they weren’t even teenagers yet. Their parents only wanted them to study, even after school was out they had to go straight to the academy to continue studying. The kids that were on the hijacked bus actually had the greatest time of their lives for once, but the entire focus went to this guy (who was even said academy’s director’s son) being a kidnapper. He just wanted these kids to be able to play and let them be kids, as he also didn’t get that luxury when he was little. His mother, the academy’s director, was forced to reflect on the fact that she was too busy caring for other children’s education than to make sure her own child was doing okay. This case really highlighted a common aspect of South Korean society – the education system that basically forces children to put their academics before everything, even their own physical and mental health. The duality of this case was that this guy, who even changed his name to ‘Fart’ just so he could make children laugh when they said it, was shamed for rebelling against a system that was just wrong. I’m glad at least they got to show everyone in the courtroom this in the end.

The ninth case again hit differently, as Young Woo is asked to defend a client who is accused of sexually abusing a mentally handicapped girl. Despite the fact that the two were in a relationship, the girl’s mother had twisted the story so that it would seem the guy took advantage of her child, just because she didn’t approve of their relationship and there were rumors of him pulling the same trick with other mentally handicapped girls before (we don’t find out if this is true or not). The girl comes to Young Woo to tell her that it wasn’t abuse, that she consented and that she loved the guy and vice versa, but once in the courtroom the pressure becomes too much for her and she’s not able to give the same statement to the judge, not with her mother there. Here again, it becomes clear that a handicapped person will always be seen as some sort of victim, especially when it’s a woman. In the earlier case of the autistic brother, people were quicker to accuse him because of his build and aggressive tendencies, but I think that even if the handicapped girl had been able to testify that she had consented, her mother would have still made sure her story was turned around.

The tenth case was another frustrating one, it was about three mates who had promised to share the money if one of them won the lottery, but when one of them did, he ended up denying this promise. While it was initially hard to back this case up since it seemed to be just a promise between friends that wasn’t fulfilled, one of these three men takes action to show the lawyers just how much he depended on that promise. He even brings his wife to the office to show how much he loves her and wants to be able to support her financially. As they help him get his share of the money, however, he makes the worst transformation. As soon as he gets his hands on the money, he turns on his wife, files for a divorce, and starts spending it on expensive stuff. It’s also revealed that he’s had an affair all along with another woman, and he becomes increasingly aggressive. The case ends rather dramatically as the guy dies in a car accident when he frantically wants to chase after his wife, but I do think it ended for the best because his wife and their two kids got all the money in the end. Seriously, this man creeped me the heck out.

The eleventh case was about a company that suddenly started prioritizing firing female employees as opposed to their husbands (in the cases of married couples working at the same company), even though several of these women had given their entire lives to the company, even at the cost of not taking full advantage of their maternity leave. Here Young Woo is faced with a very eccentric lawyer who defends these women, who is an activist in female rights herself. The judge from the North Korean defector case returns here as well, but in this case it doesn’t end favorably for the women, on the contrary, all their accusations are dismissed. Young Woo is flabbergasted when she finds out how casual the women and their eccentric attorney when it comes to preparing for their next trial, and how optimistic they remain even after losing the case. At the end of this case, Myung Seok finds out that he’s sick.

The twelfth case of the series, the second 2-parter, involves the team taking a trip to Jeju Island. Myung Seok is by now aware of his diagnosis and therefore has a different motive of taking a trip there with his team, taking the opportunity to visit some places he holds dear from when he went there on his honeymoon. The trip becomes kind of like a holiday, in which Joon Ho also introduces Young Woo to his sister who lives there. But of course there’s also still there for a case. One of Young Woo’s dad’s regular customers has complained that he had to pay 3,000 won just to enter a certain area in Jeju because it was close to a temple with a cultural heritage status, even though he wasn’t even visiting that specific temple. He claims that he’s willing to issue a lawsuit just to get his 3,000 won back (to each his own). Anyways, they will have to defend this dissatisfied man opposite a legion of monks from the temple as the defendants. During this trip, a lot of things happen also outside of the case, such as the breakup between Young Woo and Joon Ho, and the blossoming feelings between Soo Yeon and Min Woo. In the meantime, Myung Seok gets hospitalized there after collapsing in the courtroom, and it becomes Young Woo’s personal mission to track down the chef of a certain meat noodle restaurant that Myung Seok wanted to visit but couldn’t because it closed down. The case closes in their favor at the end, as Myung Seok suggests a service at Hanbada to the abbot through which they can get special funding for their cultural heritage area.

The final two episodes feature the thirteenth and final case of the series, and here Young Woo isn’t just confronted with a very tricky case, but she also has to work with an attorney who goes against everything she stands for – and vice versa.

Which leads me to introduce Attorney Jang Seung Joon (played by Choi Dae Hoon). Honestly, when he was introduced the first time, I thought he was really eccentric and funny. The way he and Myung Seok seemed to have this bromance thing going on, how he turned this electric chair upside down in his office. But when he appeared after that, he only just seemed to be intolerable. He first publicly humiliated Myung Seok in the cafeteria after Myung Seok’s case caused him to lose a specific contract he had with a client. And when he has to take over Young Woo’s team when Myung Seok undergoes and recovers from surgery, he just became the most ridiculous person ever. He turns out to be the classical example of a corrupt lawyer who won’t hesitate to commit to bribes and take advantage of connections in order to get people on his side. As he’s from the same university as Min Woo, he immediately takes a favoritism-based liking to him and even urges Min Woo to follow him into using their alumni status to make a good impression on other seniors from the same college. It aggravated me so much when Seung Joon went along with the plan of the defendant to bribe the judge simply because he was also from the same college – it was only more than right that the judge immediately recognized what was happening and got really offended and walked out. Seriously, what the heck were they thinking, he even asked Min Woo to tag along, dragging him through the mud while he wasn’t even aware of the plan!

The case they are faced with concerns a big investment company (I believe) that gets hacked, losing about 4 million people’s personal data. The plaintiffs want to focus on the fact that the company should have had better security software installed, and Young Woo’s team keeps trying to bypass their arguments, but it’s not easy. And then we find out that Tae Soo Mi’s own son, a 17-year old computer science prodigy, is responsible for the hacking, and that he was urged by the company’s co-CEO himself. Choi Sang Hyun (played by Choi Hyun Jin) feels really bad about what he’s done, especially after he finds out the other co-CEO attempted suicide out of despair and it was never his intention to let it come that far. He comes clean to his mother about it, but Tae Soo Mi tells him to keep quiet as she’s just about to be elected Minister of Justice and this really can’t happen right now. But Sang Hyun is determined to give himself in, and after various attempts (all of which obstructed by his mother), he comes to Young Woo, as he already figured out they are half brother and sister by then. However, entering his confession as evidence goes against their client’s defense, so this is where Young Woo has to decide what kind of lawyer she wants to be. Tae Soo Mi also gets involved in trying to send her son away so he can’t testify in person, but Young Woo manages to persuade her. She even steps away from her Minister of Justice position to focus on being a good mother to her child. In the meantime, Han Seon Young herself also got involved in the case as she reckoned this would bring more shame to Tae Soo Mi and she wouldn’t even have to publish the article about Young Woo being her illegitimate daughter. In the end, she just lets Tae Soo Mi ‘get off easily’ after she watches her renounce her political position.
The story reaches full closure here as Young Woo and her dad don’t have to go anywhere, no one’s reputation will be ruined, and Young Woo and Joon Ho get back together. The series ends with a victorious moment of Young Woo as she finally manages to tackle the revolving doors of the office building by herself and proclaims that she identifies the new feeling/emotion she has unlocked as a ‘sense of fulfillment’.

All in all, I really liked that this series dealt with all sorts of cases. From murder suspects to copyright infringement cases, from emotional to political cases, all sorts of themes came by and that was very interesting to see, as each case of course asks for a different kind of approach and defense that can be used. I also liked how for every case, the judge and opposing parties were different, it just gave a very real insight in how they’re faced with different people with different mindsets and approaches for every single case. Some prosecutors are more complacent, some judges are more susceptible to kiss-assery, some people let themselves get bribed, others are more lenient. It’s always so easy to think in black and white, to feel like ‘justice should be served’, but this drama definitely showed that that’s not as easy in practice. As a lawyer, you must be able to set aside your own feelings and thoughts about a person, you must be able to defend someone even if you know they’re in the wrong without feeling bad about it. And even if you do, you must be able to justify it as you’re ‘simply doing your job’. It’s definitely not an easy job and I’m still flabbergasted at how Young Woo was able to take this challenge on, especially since being an attorney is such an important job. You have to be representative, you have to present eloquently and confidently, and she is not even able to look people in the eye directly. I can imagine how that would not seem very trustworthy, how people wouldn’t opt for her as a person to defend them, and that’s just one thing that she has to prove to the world, and to herself. It’s heartwarming to see how she wants to challenge herself in that, how she strives the become a dependable lawyer to her clients, and how simultaneously the strives to be a good romantic partner to Joon Ho, even though she knows she will never be able to return the affection in the same way. In this way, her romantic life and professional life drew a kind of unexpected parallel, as she was exploring them both equally at the same time.

I went through many different emotions while watching this drama, one moment I would be so frustrated and mad, and the next I would be enjoying myself so much. I felt the butterflies between Young Woo and Joon Ho, how they gradually got closer and it just felt right. There were a lot of interesting characters, both main and side roles, and it was just really interesting to see so many people in such different situations and how everyone always responds differently to things as well. I remember also mentioning this in my Move to Heaven review, that it was very realistic to see how simple-minded some people could be, how money sometimes meant more to people than other (seemingly) more important things.
How laws and rules can be so convenient until the point where they are used against you, and you have to figure out a way to get around it as they can also be relentless against less fortunate people that can’t fight for their own justice.

I will make some cast comments before I conclude.

I only know Park Eun Bin from Age of Youth because she was my very favorite character there, but even between her role there and here, there is an ocean of difference. I’m more interested to see other dramas with her now, because I feel like she has really impressive versatility in her acting. My first choice would be The King’s Affection because it’s a historical drama and it would again show her in a completely different setting and concept which I’m excited for. I think she did a really good job, I can’t imagine it must have been easy at all to portray this kind of ability when you don’t have any personal experience with what it must be like. As I mentioned in my introduction, people with ASD are usually not considered to be ‘normal’ people, and I have to admit that I too am not very good with certain autistic people because I also tend to get frustrated and impatient with them easily. However, there wasn’t a single moment that I got frustrated with Young Woo because it was so clear that she was aware of her own issues and she really did her best to still challenge herself in them, she put herself outside of her comfort zone multiple times in order to do her job as an attorney and to convince the guy she liked that she really liked him. Even during their breakup, while from our perspective Joon Ho’s feelings would seem to be most understandable, I couldn’t help but feel really bad for Young Woo as well when she simply apologized, because it was just so clear that she didn’t know how else to respond to hurting someone else’s feelings as she’s just wired differently. I think this series did a really good job on putting in perspective the whole notion of handicapped people being seen as an inconvenience, as a burden. No person is the same, even within the autism spectrum, and it’s not right to just dismiss them just because they don’t experience things the same way as ‘normal’ people.

Have I mentioned before that I love Kang Tae Oh? I believe so, in My First First Love, Short, That Man Oh Soo and Run On. There’s also still plenty of dramas he’s in that are on my watch list, so I won’t have to say goodbye to him just yet, haha. Boy oh boy, if ever there was a good guy, it’s Lee Joon Ho. I’ve seen so many reviews and comments referring to him as ‘walking Mr. Green Flag’ to show just how perfect he is. I loved how uncomplicated he was, he didn’t have a real backstory or baggage, and he just was instantly drawn to Young Woo, not even bothered that she was autistic. He was just so sweet, always. And so helpful in the cases, as well. He wasn’t just a love-struck puppy either, he really contributed to the show in his own way. I’m really glad they’re going to wait for him to return from military service before they proceed with season 2, because he can’t be left out!

I was really happy to see Kang Ki Young in this drama. As I’ve mentioned before multiple times, I’ve become so used to him being cast as the comic relief role that I sometimes forget what a great serious actor he can be. I’ve seen him in several things, like High Schooler King of Life, Oh My Ghostess, Let’s Fight Ghost, W- Two Worlds, Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo, the Three Colors of Fantasies series, Tunnel, While You Were Sleeping, I’m Not a Robot, What’s Wrong with Secretary Kim? and Wife I Know. With his role as Jung Myung Seok he definitely proved his quality again, not just as a comedy actor, but as a real serious actor. I wasn’t sure what kind of character he would be, but I really liked that he become Young Woo’s mentor and that he was immediately prepared to change his way of thinking as well, he was the first person at Hanbada who put aside his bias about her as a person with ASD to give her chance based on her abilites. I really liked his character and I hope to see more of him in future dramas!

I didn’t know Ha Yoon Kyung from anything yet, but I’ll probably see more performances of her in the future! I really liked her as Choi Soo Yeon, how her character grew as much as the main character, and how she also had to deal with her own issues, both personally as in her career. It was really nice to see her become such a supporting figure to Young Woo, and even though I didn’t like Min Woo I still couldn’t help myself finding it cute if they’d end up together, especially seeing her fight it so much, haha.

Apparently, I know Joo Jong Hyuk from My ID is Gangnam Beauty and Clean With Passion For Now but I can’t remember him from either drama (whoops). I did feel like I’d seen his face before, so I guess that’s why. His character was very interesting in his duality, because I just couldn’t find him sympathetic until the end, but I still kept hoping he would change and I still liked that he would change himself for Soo Yeon. I think he let go of his stupid intentions at the end of the series, but I still am not 100% sure about it. If a second season comes, I would like to see the relationship between him and Soo Yeon deeper, that’ll be interesting to watch! He was kind of the antagonist, the rival that Young Woo wasn’t even aware of, trying to bring her down behind her back. I do like that Young Woo never gave him any kind of attention, even when she found out that he’d been spreading rumors she never fully let it get to her, and she didn’t go all desperate on him why we would do that to her, either. I guess he could only just give up in the end because it wouldn’t make anything better, and I’m glad that’s what he chose to do.

I haven’t seen anything with Joo Hyun Young before, but Geurami was definitely one of my favorite characters in the show. It was nice to see Young Woo having a friend that was so innately different from her and still allowing her to step into her comfort zone. Like, Geurami even occasionally just hugged Young Woo and she let her – that must be a next level of comfortability for her. I liked that we got to see how they became friends and that Geurami always has Young Woo’s back. Also, when she and the pub owner joined them on their trip to Jeju Island, she just made everything better. I cracked up when she started moving to the sounds of the temple ritual while they were supposed to pray, lol. Her eccentricity and casual attitude just softened a lot of the tension in certain situations, and it really helped make things more entertaining and enjoyable. I also found it funny that she had a small crush on Min Woo in the beginning, even though it never turned very serious and she was forced to step back when she saw him and Soo Yeon caught in a gaze this one time, she was just like ‘looking at the way they’re staring at each other, it’s over for me’, lol. I really liked her, hopefully she’ll do more dramas in the future!

I realized I knew Baek Ji Won from Encounter, where she played Park Bo Gum and P.O.’s mother and I remember because I thought she and P.O. looked so much alike, haha. Anyways, I didn’t realize it before because her character was so different there, but I know I was also very frustrated with her character at that time. Here, she was next level frustrated, though. At first I was all like, hell yeah, a female law firm CEO, and she seemed nice enough too when she took in Young Woo at Hanbada, but then her whole rivalry with Tae Soo Mi came out and that she hired Young Woo knowing she was her daughter because no one else would hire her… and then she actually wanted to use Young Woo to get back at Tae Soo Mi. Honestly, I don’t even know what this feud was about, and I don’t even think Tae Soo Mi ever even acknowledged her, like they never actually came to stand face to face or anything, so what was this about, really? I hope they will get in more detail about this in season two, as the ending did not give me the feeling it was over between them. Anyways, I liked how, despite her kind her face can like, there was a darker side to her acting and it made me really notice her for it.
On a side note, I now see she was also in Fight For My Way, Reunited Worlds and About Time and I don’t remember her from those series, so I should really pay better attention.

It’s been a while since I saw Jin Kyung in a drama! I don’t even remember what the last drama was I saw her in, but I know her from Pinocchio, Blood, Oh My Venus, Gogh The Starry Night, Uncontrollably Fond and Romantic Doctor Teacher Kim (season one, still haven’t seen the second one yet). I guess it’s my first time writing a review on a drama with her in it. Despite my dislike for her character, she really blew me away with her acting in this series, especially in the scene when Young Woo revealed to her that she was her daughter. The way her face changed was incredible. I had hoped that that would’ve made her respond differently, especially when she asked Young Woo if she ever resented her for leaving her, but then the next thing she pulled was visit Young Woo’s father and try to get them to move to Boston?! Like, seriously?! She even went as far as to go all, ‘you promised you would disappear, why are you showing your face again’, like WOMAN. He DID disappear, he gave up his entire law career just so you wouldn’t get into any scandals, what gives you the right to come to him with this BS now?! Damn. At least she decided to be a better mom to Sang Hyun than she ever was to Young Woo, but damn. Anyways, in Jin Kyung’s case I’ll just say that, again, if you hated the character, it just means the actor did a good job. And nothing can make me hate Jin Kyung, so there’s that.

I really liked Jeon Bae Soo as Young Woo’s dad. I know him from Fight For My Way, Revolutionary Love, Thirteen But Seventeen, and The King: Eternal Monarch, and in ALL these dramas he played the female lead’s father, lol. He has a really friendly face, and I liked that in this series we also got to see how much he struggled with raising Young Woo as a single father, how hard it must have been for him to raise a daughter that wouldn’t speak or even look at him, and that didn’t like to be held by him. And still, he’s her father, so he can’t get frustrated with her. He still is the single most supporting figure in her life, whether she will acknowledge it or not. I liked his character, also how he got justifiably mad at Han Seon Young and Tae Soo Mi for trying to mess with him and Young Woo, because he just wanted to stay out of that feud, and with good reason. It was sad that he even started considering taking Taesan’s offer to move to Boston, even if it was just to get away from the shit that would hit Young Woo and would make it impossible for her to get another job at a respectable law firm. He had no choice but to let Seon Young take her for the reasons she had because he knew his daughter wouldn’t be able to get such a chance anywhere else. There were some serious layers to his role, he wasn’t just the happy supportive dad, he also got his own backstory explained, and I really felt for him.

Now that I looked it up, I see that I know Choi Dae Hoon from Big, Are You Human Too? and Crash Landing on You, and I guess I remember him mostly from the latter because his face looked really familiar to me (also, I’ve suppressed most of Big since it was just so bad). As I mentioned before, I initially thought he would be a really cool eccentric attorney when he appeared in the first episode, I loved his bickering love-hate relationship with Myung Seok and I had no idea that he would actually be such an insufferable person. Seriously, what DIDN’T this man do that wasn’t bad? He tried to bribe a judge based on connections, he took credit for his employees arguments even after initially dismissing them himself, he left his juniors to the journalists while sneaking away by himself, he screamed at Young Woo for correcting him on his jargon even though later on the judge in court did exactly the same – he just seemed really incompetent at his job in practice. The cases where he defended his client that we get to see, he was constantly slipping up and getting in over his head, and then when his juniors would step up to correct him, he would just get mad at them for challenging his authority, like, seriously man? I had hoped he would be a cool character, but he was one of the most frustrating recurring characters in the whole show. But yeah, I guess that means he also did a good job as an actor, haha. I bet that if he’d been like his first appearance during the entire show, he would’ve been really cool. Now his eccentricity from the beginning kind of stopped making sense to me when he turned out to be such a jerk.

Lastly, I just want to mention that the opening sequence was so soothing but addicting to watch. I never skipped it, purely because it’s so satisfying, even with the happy little music in the background. It just gives such a clean and innocent view of Young Woo’s daily life and how structured it is, from her breakfast kimbap to how she makes her way to work. I also liked the recurring element of whales, orcas and dolphins flying through the air, and how they popped up whenever she had a brilliant idea. It reminded me of that scene from It’s Okay to Not Be Okay, in which they showed the older brother’s excitement through pictures on the street coming to life. He also had ASD, if I remember correctly. The use of whales to add to her perspective and the way she analyzed things and people was very refreshing. I hope that she’ll get to see some whales in real life in the second season, because I was so sad that she and Joon Ho didn’t get to see them when they were in Jeju Island because of their breakup.
Regarding the title, I also want to add that I like how they interpreted the English translation of it. I believe the Korean word ‘isanghan’ can be translated to a variety of words, from ‘strange’ to ‘suspicious’ to ‘unusual’, but many of those words have a slightly negative connotation if you ask me. I think a translation like ‘extraordinary’ fits it much better, because it immediately gives a more positive feel to it, rather than the title referring to the main protagonist as ‘unusual’ or ‘weird’.

With that, I would like to conclude my review, it took me a whole day to write this, haha. I think I’ve now managed to write down the main points I wanted to make about it, and I hope it’s worthwhile to read.
All in all, I found it a very interesting series. I understand the recommendations I got, and although I was prepared to be underwhelmed – as often happens when a series gets overhyped – this wasn’t the case. I find it very impressive how the series was structured, and how, despite its unusual protagonist, it didn’t necessarily became ‘funny’. There’s much to be said about Woo Young Woo’s character, and I get that there may be a funny or amusing aspect about how she was portrayed, but I never stopped taking her seriously. It was fascinating to me how someone with such a handicap would be able to take on such a challenging and representative job as an attorney. It was very insightful to get a different type of look inside the career of a lawyer, even though I’ve seen other law-themed dramas before, but this one still hit differently. I’m very curious what they’ll make of the second season, because I believe it’s been confirmed there will be one. I hope the relationships between Young Woo & Joon Ho and Soo Yeon & Min Woo will be further explored, as well as the origin of the rivarly that Han Seon Young has towards Tae Soo Mi, because that still isn’t clear to me.

All the different cases and the different people and situations featured in those cases just made me realize again how relative everything is. Situations and stories are never black and white, there are so many grey areas and you just have to see who is telling the truth in the end, even after it’s too late. For sure this is a big reason why I’m not that interested in law, because it’s never just about justice, it’s about so much more than that. I liked how this series dealt with all these different cases, and also how there were good and bad ones, and how it wasn’t just about winning a case, but more about becoming aware and learning from your own experiences and mistakes to grow as an attorney, no matter what kind of attorney you wanted to be. To place a person with ASD in such a position seems tricky to me, but I think the writers did a very good job. I haven’t seen any experts or people with ASD react to this, so I can’t say for sure if it’s all entirely accurate, but from the ASD characters I’ve seen portrayed in K-Dramas so far, there are always at least several similar aspects that keep popping up, so I suppose they do have a general idea of certain known symptoms that these people cope with.

I will now go on with my ever growing to-watch list, moving on to a slightly older series from 2018. I hope my reviews remain to be interesting enough to read, I will keep putting my hard work into them! It was nice spending a day on a review again, it’s really felt like a long time since I wrote my last one even though it was within the same month – I’ve just been dealing with a lot of stuff in the meantime, which also caused me to finish the final episodes of this series later than I planned, as I initially went through it quite fast. Anyways, I will keep taking my time to write worthwhile reviews and I’ll be back soon, so stay tuned!

Bye-bee~

Drunk in Good Taste

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Drunk in Good Taste
( #좋맛탱: 좋은 맛에 취하다 / #Jotmattaeng: Joeun Mase Chwihada)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hiya! Told you I’d be back soon! You know how nice it can be to just watch a short drama in-between lengthier ones? It really feels like a palette cleanser and a breather and gives me new energy to start on something lengthier again afterwards. So here we are! I can’t say for sure how this one ended up on my list but I probably noticed it somewhere, thought it looked cute, and added it. Sometimes it’s as simple as that. And it definitely was cute! This will be a pretty short review, not everything needs to be equally elaborate, and since this was such a short show, there’s not too much to discuss! I still wanted to share my thoughts on it though, so I hope I can still make this one as worthwhile to read as any other review I write.

Before I start, I just want to share that I’ve now found a new website to watch K-Drama on. I used to watch on DramaCool and other sites like that, but it always bothered me how many pop-ups and ads those sites brought with them. Now I discovered HiTV (www.gohitv.com). It has great quality, no pop-ups or ads, and it’s very up-to-date with new shows. It also has some variety shows on it! Even though it doesn’t have the Netflix K-Drama on it (since, you know, they’re Netflix K-Drama), I was able to find a short Naver drama like this on it! I could watch it in HQ without any disturbance. All in all, I would definitely recommend! I thought it might also be nice to share the platforms I use from time to time. I still have to explore it a bit more, but so far I’m really liking what this site has to offer.

Drunk in Good Taste is a Naver drama which you can either watch as 10 episodes of 15 minutes, or 2 episodes of each about an hour. I actually couldn’t find the 10-episode version anywhere, so I watched the 2-episode version on HiTV. Anyways, the story is about a 20-year old sophomore girl called Jung Choong Nam (played by Kim Hyang Gi). She’s just starting at her new college and is determined to blend in, although she feels a bit awkward. She doesn’t really have friends, she just moved in with her older sister but they’re kind of estranged from each other. Choong Nam’s big passion is desserts, as she’s been infatuated with sweets since she was a child. She is even a dessert influencer, so she has a “Stargram” account on which she posts pictures of all kinds of sweets and desserts, and she has a pretty big amount of followers, too. Sweets are what helps her through the day, like when she’s awkward to meet new people, she pictures them as desserts (to each their own, I guess). On her first day, she mistakes a fellow sophomore for a sunbae, and this leads to them actually becoming close friends. This fellow sophomore is Lee Yeon Nam (played by Kim Min Gyu). He seems to be interested in Choong Nam from the start, and looks out for her a lot, especially towards a certain senior she can’t shake off.
When Choong Nam gets bothered by some negative comments on her Stargram, she decides she needs to improve the quality of her photos and decides to join the Photography Club, dragging Yeon Nam with her. In this club, they meet Tae Yi (played by Lee Yoo Young) , a popular female sunbae who immediately develops an interest in Yeon Nam, even though he doesn’t have eyes for anyone else but Choong Nam. Tae Yi is the kind of girl who only cares about appearances. She seems to be pretty shallow in the beginning, she shares her entire life on Stargram and basically only uploads selfies. She’s gotten used to people admiring her, calling her pretty, and sending her gifts, like fans to a celebrity. She’s rumored to get herself a new boyfriend every month, and that’s why it never seems to be very serious. When she obviously goes after Yeon Nam, he also immediately notices it for what it is, and judges her for it too. Even though Yeon Nam already has feelings for Choong Nam from the start, Choong Nam is not aware of this initially. When Tae Yi asks her to help her out with him, she just agrees. In the meantime, she secretly has a crush herself, on the manager of her favorite sweetshop Daldaguri (also her Stargram account name). This manager also happens to be the person who introduced her to sweets when she was a child.
The other part of the story is about Choong Nam’s sister Seo Hyun (played by Noh Eul), who is dealing with her own issues. She works at a publishing company, but she has trouble coming up with new interesting ideas for a book. She’s also pretty stoic/emotionless, so she’s not very skilled at opening up to people. This also doesn’t make her reunion with her younger sister any easier, as she also doesn’t like sweets – they have very little to talk about. However, Choong Nam manages to get her sister to open up to the concept of desserts, and Seo Hyun takes enough interest in it to decide to make this her new publishing project. She starts meeting up frequently with Daldaguri’s manager to interview him, and in the meantime she also becomes more comfortable with Choong Nam and her colleagues at work. When Daldaguri’s manager eventually admits his feelings for her, she ends up rejecting him as she has by then realized how much she likes to be focussed on her work. There’s also another person at her company who starts showing interest in her, but the show ends without her ending up with either of them.

All in all, it’s a very simple and cute romance story, with desserts and social media as background themes. As the subtitle on the poster says, it’s exactly that, ‘a romance sweet like a dessert’. That’s pretty much all there is to it. It’s mostly about Choong Nam and Yeon Nam getting together, and mainly him supporting her with her Stargram account. On the other hand, he also helps her see that she doesn’t need to change who she is – both in terms of her social media and in real life. He’s always the person pointing out to her that she’s perfect the way she is, awkwardness and all. And for social media, he shows her that, if there are 2 negative comments among a 100 positive ones, she shouldn’t have to change her style just to please those 2.
Despite the story being about them as a couple, Choong Nam is definitely the main character. Yeon Nam doesn’t get any backstory of his own, and he mostly just goes along with whatever Choong Nam wants to do. Like, I’m glad that in the end he starts to define his own dreams of working at a publishing company, but he never mentioned anything about that before then. Also, when the Daldaguri’s manager turns out to be his uncle and they live in the same house, nothing is further explained. We don’t get any information about his background, and this makes him a very uncomplicated character, almost too uncomplicated.
Admittedly, besides Choong Nam’s story with her sister, she also doesn’t really get a backstory. Nothing is mentioned about their parents or how they end up living together again. I just assumed that Choong Nam went to live with her sister since it was close to her new college, but I don’t believe they actually explained it.

The story seemed to lack depth, in general. Even when it came to Choong Nam’s ‘crush’ on Daldaguri’s manager, it still didn’t seem to be more than just a childhood crush. He was the first person to introduce her to desserts as a child, but in the flashback he seems to be the exact same age (at least, it’s the same actor) as when Choong Nam is 20 years old. Therefore I immediately thought this was never going to be a serious thing. Especially when it was revealed that he was Yeon Nam’s UNCLE, that definitely made me go, damn… how old is this guy! So yeah, she probably just got attached to him as the charming guy who put sweets in her life. I didn’t actually realize that her crush on him was real, because she never even says that she likes him out loud. When Tae Yi asks her if she does, she just giggles a bit, but doesn’t really respond or confirm it. I don’t know, it didn’t seem that sincere to me. Also, why was she so vague about it towards Yeon Nam if it was really an unrequited love she was struggling with? In the end, she didn’t even mind the guy going after her sister, so it can’t have been such a heavy crush.

This actually brings me to a point that I thought was quite inconsistent. As I said, it seemed to me from the start that Choong Nam was the real main character. However, sometimes we’d switch over to Yeon Nam’s point of view and find that there were several things that Choong Nam was being mysterious about. I thought the way they switched perspectives wasn’t as effective as it could have been. If they wanted to go with Choong Nam as the real MC, the viewer would also have been aware of her real feelings towards the Daldaguri manager, and it wouldn’t have become a secret to us why she suddenly started working part-time at the sweet shop, or why she kept stuff a secret from Yeon Nam. Looking at it this way, it felt like the MC was keeping secrets from us too. We assume that we know her, as she’s the MC and we see her side of the story, but then suddenly there’s a bunch of things going on with her that are revealed through Yeon Nam’s point of view. It just felt a bit inconsistent to me sometimes.

Generally speaking, I’d say the only ‘deeper’ and more serious message in the story was given to us through Tae Yi. She learns the hard way that it’s not wise to put your entire life on social media. She ends up getting a stalker, and her SNS reputation blows up in her face when people start accusing her of promoting fake products. She learns a real lesson, and therefore I would say she has the most character development. She really comes face to face with her own shallowness and decides to become more humble. She changes her profile to private and stops the whole ‘one-month lover’ thing. She even meets up with Yeon Nam to officially tell him that her feelings for him weren’t fake, as he’d claimed they were. She gets over it like an adult. I think that, out of every character in the show, she may have learned the biggest lesson.

I also had a hard time warming up to Seo Hyun, simply because she seemed so stoic. I could never really read from her what her intentions were, or what she was feeling. I think it was good to make her realize that she wanted to put in more effort at work, but creating a love triangle for her and then not playing it out seemed to ultimately create a bit of a loose end. Of course it was fine that she didn’t end up with anyone, but to me it seemed more like they were going to make her choose between the manager and the co-worker – and then they just dropped it.

It may lack depth, of course it’s a very short drama and I can’t say I was completely bothered by the lack of heaviness in the show. The thing that happened to Tae Yi was the one thing that caused some seriousness, and it honestly surprised me a little in-between all the fluffiness of the story. It almost seemed a little out of place, but I did like how they managed to turn it into a plot tool to get Tae Yi’s character to develop and become more mature.
For a short Naver drama, it was cute and romantic. I liked Choong Nam and Yeon Nam, they were adorable together. The way Yeon Nam’s eyes started to shine whenever he looked at her got me going like, ‘Awwww~~’ every single time, and Choong Nam herself was such a cute bunny, too. I liked how awkward they were, it didn’t bother me at all. The only thing that slightly cringed me out was when he sang to her, but that’s just because that kind of stuff cringes me out by default, lol. It must have also been a very cringy scene to film (in the blooper reel that followed the final ending credits, they showed how Kim Min Gyu couldn’t stop laughing while recording it), so I guess I just became conscious of that awkwardness as well.

The final thing I’ll mention is that I loved all the K-Drama references they used. I spotted Secret Garden, The Heirs and Goblin in there, and maybe more. It gave a fun twist to the events and it made me laugh out loud whenever they inserted one. The fact that they used the Goblin scene of them coming through the misty tunnel at the moment of saving Tae Yi from her stalker also lessened the heaviness of the scene, even though it had been pretty intense up to that moment. I liked how they utilized these references for a comic relief effect. And I’m also glad I was able to recognize them.

I think with this I’ve actually mentioned all there is to mention about the events of the story, so let me just get on with some cast comments and my conclusion.

Even though I knew Kim Hyang Gi’s face, I realize I haven’t actually seen her in anything before! The exception being the movie Space Sweepers, where she only had a very small appearance at the end. Anyways, she’s such a cutie patootie! I can’t disagree with Yeon Nam calling Choong Nam a mochi rice cake, because she really does like one, lol. For some reason she reminded me a bit of Yahagi Honoka in Itazura na Kiss, maybe because of her awkward expressions. I liked how she was just a normal girl, she didn’t try to appear particularly pretty or anything like that, but she still got hit on by guys telling her she was ‘just their type’. She was just really cute and also didn’t drag the obliviousness on for too long, which I could appreciate. I liked that she took the initiative with the second kiss, although I was too distracted by the The Heirs reference that had just been made, haha. Anyways, I know she recently starred in a new historical drama with Kim Min Jae, and all in all I just want to see more sides to her acting, so I’ll keep my eyes and ears open for her!

Kim Min Gyu is in almost everything I watch these days, he has a habit of appearing when I don’t expect him, haha. From the series I’ve watched so far, he’s been in Who Are You – School 2015, The Sound of Your Heart, Because This is My First Life, Just Between Lovers and I’ve mostly recently seen him in Backstreet Rookie and A Business Proposal. He was such a fluffy boy here! I really liked his chemistry with Kim Hyang Gi, they were adorably awkward and sweet together. I can never really say anything bad about him, he’s always such a nice familiar face to see. I hope to see more of his dramas in the near future, I know I’m going to see him soon in some of my still-to-watch list series!

The funny thing is, I didn’t recognize Lee Yoo Young from anything, and even when I look at the things I’ve seen from her, I just don’t remember her! Apparently I’ve seen her in Who Are You – School 2015 and Circle, but I really wouldn’t know! I liked how they managed to turn her character around. She seemed like such a typically written female character in the beginning, all about looks and reputation. I hadn’t thought they’d actually give her a wake-up call like that, but it did change her for the better. In the end I didn’t find her as annoying as I thought she would be in the beginning.

I’ve only seen Noh Eul before in A Business Proposal, where she played the real Shin Geum Hee character from that TV series. I couldn’t stop thinking how much she and Xiaoting from Kep1er look alike, either. Anyways, I see that she used to be an idol, and she also hasn’t done that much acting. I don’t know if it was her lack of experience in acting, or that it really was the lack of emotion that Seo Hyun was able to express in the show, but her acting didn’t really stand out to me. She was an interesting enough character, and I get that it might have been the intention to make her open up more, and this did happen, but I still found her too stiff, overall. I would have at least liked to get an explanation on why her character turned out like that, but now it was just like ‘this is her personality, no further details’. Which again, suited this drama in particular, as no character had real depth. But still, I would’ve liked to get a bit more of a warmth to her personality. Let’s see if she’ll show us more in the future!

I don’t know why, but I can’t find any information about the Daldaguri manager. He’s not even credited on any of the sites that I refer to for cast members, so I have no idea who the actor is! I could swear I’ve seen him before, though… Nowhere, not even on AsianWiki where they usually are the most up-to-date about the cast members, was his name even mentioned. I really want to find out where I know him from, so if anyone has an idea, please comment!

And with that, I’ve already come to the end of this short review! As I said, it was a cute and funny little romance story, but I’ll admit that as a drama in itself it wasn’t particularly that good. It lacked depth and left some loose ends. Even for such a short story, they didn’t wrap up every single storyline they showed, like how Yeon Nam and the Daldaguri manager were related and ended up living at the same house, and how Seo Hyun was going to proceed with her career. Leaving out those details made the story a bit too uncomplicated, and I believe it wouldn’t have done anyone any harm if they’d included at least a few of these plots. Besides that, I enjoyed watching it well enough, with its references and cute fluffiness. Just looking at all those Desserts made me less Stressed. And I think it was interesting that they added in a warning about social media privacy as well, since I wouldn’t have thought they would address something like that. Of course, showing what you love and what you do in your daily life on social media can be fun, but we always have to remember that it can reach more people than we’d expect, and that it’s never wise to reveal too much of yourself on there. No matter how convenient and ideal it seems, the Internet will always be a dangerous and risky place as well.

So now I will finally start on the new series that has just finally been completed on my country area’s Netflix. It won’t be too hard to guess which one, and I’m definitely wary of how much it’s been hyped, but I still want to take my time and give it a fair chance.

Until next time!

Bye-bee!!

Something in the Rain

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Something in the Rain
(밥 잘 사주는 예쁜 누나 / Bap Jal Sajuneun Yeppeun Nuna / Pretty Noona Who Buys Me Food)
MyDramaList rating: 7.5/10

Hi everyone! Summer is almost over and here we are with a new review. I actually meant to finish this one in August, but with my holidays and especially how crazy busy it got once I got back to work afterwards, I wasn’t able to. So unfortunately, no reviews in August! But on the other hand, this felt like a perfect drama to end the summer and to start the autumn season with! I was going to start on a newly hyped series first instead, but since it wasn’t completed yet, I decided that in the meantime, I would continue on with my list and this was also one that kept piquing my interest. I’m glad I finally got the chance to watch it, because it was certainly something! It has been on my list for a while, and I didn’t know anything other than that it was about a relationship between two people with an age gap, but there are definitely multiple things to say about it, so I’d say let’s get started!

Something in the Rain is a 16-episode Netflix K-Drama, with each episode lasting about one hour and a half. The story is about Yoon Jin Ah (played by Son Ye Jin), a 35-year old woman who works at a chain coffee company. The company, called Coffee Bay, basically manages several coffee stores throughout the city. She’s a supervisor, which means that she has several stores under her supervision that she has to monitor and occasionally inspect in case there’s a decrease in sales or when they receive any complaints. She still lives at her parents’ house with her mother (Gil Hae Yeon), her father (Oh Man Seok) and her younger brother Seung Ho (Wi Ha Joon), a college student who prefers to spend his time gaming. Her best friend Seo Kyung Seon (played by Jang So Yeon) works at one of the coffee shops that Jin Ah owns. The two of them are like sisters, always meeting up after work, drinking together, taking care of each other. One day, Kyung Seon’s younger brother Seo Joon Hee (played by Jung Hae In) returns from the US branch of the game developing company he works at. Jin Ah and him have also known each other since they were young, and they get along very well. After meeting again (he works in the same office building as Jin Ah and lives on the same floor opposite Kyung Seon so they walk into each other a lot), they start hanging out more after work as well, getting dinner together, walking home together, etc. They’re not using any words to describe their relationship, but it’s pretty obvious to see that at least Joon Hee has a crush on Jin Ah, probably already had it for a while. Jin Ah is a bit more restrained at first, but it’s undeniable how comfortable she feels around Joon Hee. Everything just clicks so well between them, and it also doesn’t take that long for her to confirm the feelings between them.
What follows is the story of a heartwarming relationship between a younger guy and an older woman, who just really look like they’re meant to be together, but aren’t given the chance to silently and peacefully enjoy each other’s company once people start finding out. Especially Jin Ah’s mother becomes a very big nuisance, and of course the relationship also puts a strain on Jin Ah’s friendship with Kyung Seon. In the meantime, Jin Ah also has to deal with a couple of other annoying situations, such as a persistent ex-boyfriend and a sexual harrassment situation at work.

When I finished the first episode of this series, I was pretty mindblown. I thought it was SO good. I really just sat there thinking, ‘Seriously, how is it already THIS good?!’ And this opinion lasted until about halfway through the series. I’m not saying that it all suddenly went downhill for me or anything, but from some point on (from the point that people started finding out about their relationship and the real drama started), the ridiculousness of the situation took away some of the joy for me. The drama was dragged out and just became frustrating. I just couldn’t understand why people were making such a big fuss about Jin Ah and Joon Hee’s relationship. All the more because I just found out that they were literally only FOUR years apart. From people’s reactions in the show I thought there must’ve at least been a 10-year difference or something, but people were seriously judging them because she was only four years older than him?! This just confirms to me how ridiculous the whole thing was. Of course I’m going to go into much more detail, but I just wanted to have this explained from the start. My ranking after the first few episodes was a bit higher than what it is now after finishing the entire series.

When we meet Jin Ah in the first episode, we immediately get to see that she’s dealing with several annoying things. We see her get dumped by her boyfriend for not ‘exciting him anymore’. We see her get blamed at work for something that actually happens because a male director forgets to look into it and doesn’t admit to his mistake. We see her get pushed around and touched by male seniors during work dinners and karaoke parties. We see her get nagged by her mom as soon as she gets home. She doesn’t have it easy, but she also doesn’t go against it. It’s like she just doesn’t have the energy to fight it, so she just kind of rolls with it without addressing the real issues. She seems pretty easygoing, but in these situations, she’s a bit TOO easygoing. Honestly, in that sense, Jin Ah can be seen as a bit of a pushover. When her ex-boyfriend starts bothering her, she keeps agreeing to meet and talk with him, even though she should’ve known that it was only going to make things worse. When she finally decides to fight back against the sexual harrassment at work, she comes face to face with the fact that she’s been going along with it for about ten years. In the beginning it really seemed to me as if Jin Ah wasn’t as strong and independent as she initially came across as. She’s a 35-year old woman still living at her parents’ house, she can’t say no to people (especially toxic people), she can’t rebel against injustice even though she’s aware what’s going on. The only moments we see her be truly at peace is when she is with Kyung Seon and Joon Hee.

After their mom died and their dad abandoned them, Kyung Seon and Joon Hee have always been welcome at the Yoon house. Their parents knew each other, as friends of acquaintances (I’m not sure), and Jin Ah’s mom felt partially responsible for taking care of them after they were left alone. She would always cook for them when they’d visit and referred to them as her own ‘other’ children. Jin Ah and Kyung Seon are best friends, Joon Hee and Seung Ho are friends, they’re all like one big family and that’s how it has always been. So of course, when Jin Ah and Joon Hee start dating, in secret at first, that’s one thing to consider. Also, people at work would start looking at them different… Things would just change. Jin Ah seems to be a bit more occupied with this than Joon Hee. When they’re together, everything is perfect. When they’re around other people, Jin Ah definitely tends to care more about what other people are going to think. Admittedly, Joon Hee manages to persuade her not to think or care too much about it, for example when he takes her on a trip to meet his friends, who also don’t make a big deal about it. But still, there’s a duality about Jin Ah’s feelings towards her relationship with Joon Hee that I still can’t quite put my finger on. Even though it seems like she wants everyone to just leave them alone, she wants to just show her mom that she can’t force them apart and all that, it still seems to be a thorn in her side that she can’t get everyone to just be okay with her and Joon Hee’s relationship. And this eventually leads to a conflict between them in which it’s brought up that, after all, Joon Hee might be more ‘immature’ than her in the sense that he doesn’t (want to) care about this stuff while she finds she’s unable to fully ignore it. Whether this truly has to do with maturity, IDK, but that’s what it came down to.

Let’s talk a bit more about their relationship, starting from the beginning. Honestly, I thought it was a nice twist from the start to find out the two leads already knew each other. It wasn’t established from the get-go that they were acquainted, so when they met for the first time -as shown in the series- (that beautiful scene of him riding his bicycle in circles around her and her just bursting with laughter), it really felt like a nice and comfortable reunion between two old friends that hadn’t seen each other in a while. Even when they’re not together yet, and let’s be clear: Joon Hee REALLY respects her boundaries while they’re still figuring stuff out, we get to see that even though they’re not trying to get too involved in each other’s business, they do throw sideway glances when they hear the other is going out with another guy/woman. They’re not stopping each other but they’re definitely already ‘minding’ each other’s business. And then, when Jin Ah finally (literally) grabs Joon Hee’s hand, he’s ready to just dive right in. What starts as a series of dinners and aiaigasa walks in the rain, evolves into a series of late night phone calls, late night drives and visits to Joon Hee’s house, any opportunity they can get to meet up and talk and share the small details of their daily lives with one another. It’s a truly heartwarming relationship, and I loved each of these scenes. It’s just so fluffy and soft and sweet, and they just click so well together. You can really see all Jin Ah’s worries fall off her when she’s with Joon Hee, she enjoys his company so much. From their hugs and kisses to their walks and other interactions, it just made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Looking at them, you’d wonder how anyone could be against this.

Seung Ho is the first to find out about it, although I don’t completely remember how it happens. He has a conversation with Joon Hee earlier in the series, when the two aren’t together yet, in which Joon Hee tells him that he has a crush on a 35-year old woman and Seung Ho is like ‘Ewww, that’s like, my sister’s age!’ Little does he know, of course. He seems to be kind of disgusted by it at first, but it doesn’t take long before he (reluctantly) accepts it.
Jin Ah’s dad is the second one to find out, and he is actually told about it by Jin Ah’s ex-boyfriend, who means to use it as a way to sneak his way back into her family’s favor after they separated. This guy is going to get his own paragraph later on, but for now let’s just say that his plan doesn’t work, as Jin Ah’s dad actually seems pretty cool with the idea of his daughter dating a good guy who he’s known since childhood. I think his initial reaction was just to throw off the ex, but he did seem relatively cool with it, overall. I feel like people want to make him look like another toxic parent, but he was nothing like the mom.
When Kyung Seon finds out, they have a whole other issue on their hands. Because this isn’t the same as a random person discovering their secret, this is the person closest to the both of them. For Kyung Seon, there is definitely a factor of betrayal in this relationship. I don’t know how it would’ve been if they had been honest with her about it as soon as their relationship started going that way, so that she would’ve been aware of it from the start, but she actually finds out about it when she discovers Joon Hee’s sketchbook full of drawings of Jin Ah (one with a lipstick kiss on it), and starts connecting the dots all by herself. She’s pissed about it for a while, and even after she and Jin Ah make up and seem to move past it, something definitely breaks in their friendship. I don’t quite understand why Kyung Seon chose this kind of behavior toward Jin Ah, because she must’ve known she never had any malicious intentions towards Joon Hee, but she becomes pretty quick to judge her best friend whenever there is even the slightest suggestion that what is going on between the two of them isn’t serious. For example, the way she reacts when she busts Jin Ah at that blind date and doesn’t even give her a chance to explain what she’s doing there. She just immediately accuses her of toying with Joon Hee’s feelings and looking down on him, while she should’ve known there had to be a reason. She knew how much Jin Ah loved Joon Hee and that she wouldn’t just throw him aside for a blind date after they’d just gotten Kyung Seon’s approval. It just didn’t make any sense to me, the only thing I can think of is that she was already on edge because she was meeting her father at that moment, and she just snapped or something. But even after that, she continues to be angry with her, all the more after facing the consequences with Jin Ah’s mom, although she also knows that that doesn’t come from Jin Ah. She just puts the whole Yoon family in one box and that isn’t fair. All in all, their friendship never becomes completely the same again.
And then there is Jin Ah’s mom, the biggest obstacle of them all. She just doesn’t want to accept it. The only thing she cares about is for Jin Ah to marry a guy who is from a good (wealthy) background and who has a good (stable) financial status. Those are her criteria, feelings aren’t as important as status. That’s probably also why she keeps nagging Jin Ah to make up with her ex-boyfriend, even after he cheated on her, sexually harrassed, stalked and threatened to kill her. I mean, there’s a limit to being conservative and wanting a good and stable marriage for your child. Treating your adult child like they can’t make their own decisions… the gaslighting was NEXT LEVEL. I honestly don’t think I’ve ever seen such a gaslighting character in a K-Drama before. Everyone else was being crazy and unreasonable, and she was the victim because no one could see her point of view. It didn’t occur to her that maybe that was because her point of view was just ridiculous. Seriously, at some point the entire family was so done with her behavior, it was almost amusing. They’d go through this whole drama, explosive fight and all, then she would crawl into bed wallowing in self-pity for a while and you’d just hope she would come to her senses, and then she’d just come back to Jin Ah and tell her she set her up on another blind date. Like, just refusing to accept the situation as it was. It was crazy. She was crazy.
And the worst part was that she was HORRIBLE to Kyung Seon and Joon Hee after finding out. Even though she used to act like a second mother to them, as soon as she found out about her daughter’s involvement with Joon Hee, she couldn’t just calmly tell them that she wasn’t at peace with their relationship. Nah, she had to drag the Seo siblings through the mud, disrespect and look down on them where they stood, telling them they didn’t deserve to become a part of their family. They could never be on the same level as them, with their poor background and lack of stable foundation. Just because their mother died and jerk father abandoned them, as if that was any of their fault. It was disgusting. I really couldn’t believe this woman. She literally caused Jin Ah to break up with Joon Hee right in front of her, just to shut her up. Jin Ah even agreed to go on a blind date just so her mom would stop bringing it up. Of course it didn’t mean anything, it was just a way to keep her mom off her case for another while.
Seriously, her mom ruined everything. And she just wouldn’t admit it! She’d keep saying that Jin Ah was the one who created ‘this mess’, and everyone else was treating her like the bad guy while she just ‘wanted the best for her children’. She was the kind of person that, whenever someone corrected or tried to educate her on something, she would just scoff. The scoffing was excruciatingly annoying, because it just proved that she would never change her mindset. Even when she suddenly ‘apologized’ to Jin Ah in the final episode, I didn’t buy it. I put apology in brackets because it was pure BS to me. ‘I’m sorry, there are just things I need to do as a mom, I couldn’t bear you suffering the consequences of your own decisions.’ Seriously?! Fuck off. And I couldn’t believe Jin Ah actually HUGGED IT OUT with her. Like… what the heck was that?!

After going through a lot of shit regarding Jin Ah’s mom, Joon Hee suddenly decides to move back to the US and work at his company’s branch there again, intending to take Jin Ah with him. This, however, comes at the worst possible time for Jin Ah, since she’s just trying to become independent. She moves out of her parents’ house, finds her own place, and also at work the sexual harrassment case she’s fighting is at its peak. She can’t just abandon everything now and flee to the US. So the two break up.
Some time later, probably a few years (there wasn’t any “….years later” mention as far as I know), they meet again at Seung Ho’s wedding. Joon Hee is just temporarily back in South-Korea for a holiday, and Jin Ah is dating another good-for-nothing guy who’s constantly on the phone for work and doesn’t care to make any time for her. He is, of course, exactly the kind of guy her mom approves of. Anyways, as soon as Jin Ah and Joon Hee see each other again, they both know it was never over between them. Jin Ah wants to try going back to how they were before they even started dating, but they both know that’s not possible. She only suggests it because she doesn’t want it to be awkward when they’ll run into each other. In any case, Jin Ah decides to take up an offer from a friend to live with her on Jeju Island and help her out with her coffee business there.
Just to give another example of Gaslighting Mom: she actually calls Jin Ah “childish” for moving to Jeju Island all of a sudden. Like, seriously? Your nearly 40-year old daughter finally moves out of her parents’ house to start her independent life as an adult away from all the toxicness of her home environment. Sounds like the most mature decision ever to me. Her mom just had a really backwards way of thinking, I guess. After Jin Ah moves to Jeju, Joon Hee comes across the ‘I love you’ voice recording she once left him, officially decides he can’t live without her, goes after her and they make up and stay at Jeju together. Happy ending.

Let’s address some stuff that has already been mentioned before but that I will now talk about more elaborately.
First of all, Lee Gyu Min. Lee Gyu Min (played by Oh Ryoong) is Jin Ah’s boyfriend in episode 1, the one who breaks up with her. Jin Ah is very hurt, since they were together for a pretty long time (a couple of years, at least) and her family loved him. But then she finds out that he’d actually been cheating on her with a younger woman, someone who probably ‘excited’ him more (nice cameo of Z.Hera, by the way). She pulls a revenge plan and causes a situation that makes Younger Woman break up with Gyu Min. Honestly, she could’ve let it slide, but I definitely don’t blame her for wanting to expose him for the cheating bastard that he was. The Younger Woman was better off without him, too, Jin Ah was just helping her out! Anways, for some inexplicable reason, Gyu Min then comes crawling back to Jin Ah, twisting the situation so that it almost looks as if SHE was the one that dumped HIM and he needed to persuade her to get back together. Like, he literally pulls the desperate ‘I will win you back!’ on her. He freaking cheated on her and dumped her himself! Jin Ah isn’t having any of it, and she tells him very clearly, multiple times, that it is over between them. Even Kyung Seon, who also knows him (I believe they all went to college together or something), gets involved and tells him to back off, but he just won’t take the message. He even goes straight to her parents behind her back trying to get back their approval. Her parents don’t even know about the cheating at this point, and he just uses their existing affection for him to his advantage. A tricky situation occurs when Jin Ah tells him and her parents she likes someone else and just then Joon Hee enters with Seung Ho. Gyu Min sees this as his way out. Jin Ah was ALSO cheating on HIM, so she didn’t have any right to accuse him of cheating! This guy, seriously. If that wasn’t enough, he turns up at the coffee store Jin Ah temporarily works at (she gets demoted at work to personally help out at one of the stores she manages) and forces himself on her. Even after already losing all of his dignity, even in front of her parents, he keeps coming back to her. He sends her a flower bouquet with a picture of them in bed together. When Joon Hee finds out and visits him at his house, he finds all these pictures of Jin Ah half-naked from when they were still together. He loses it and beats Gyu Min up. This just strengthens Gyu Min in his mindset of ‘being wronged just the same’. Every single time he bothers Jin Ah and she tries to talk to him again to convince him again that it’s over between them, it’s just another opening to him. In the end, he uses a situation in which Jin Ah actually needs his help (she can’t cut the contract of her old phone without his agreement because it’s under his name) to kidnap her in his car. Instead of driving her to the phone store, he starts speeding on the highway and tells her ‘we’re going to die together’. Jin Ah even gets injured as a result, and STILL he’s not locked up. Until the very end, he keeps treating Jin Ah like SHE’S the person being unreasonable. When they finally part ways after he signs the agreement to cut her old phone contract, and Jin Ah actually EXTENDS HER HAND TO HIM to part ways as adults, he just scoffs and walks away like SHE’S the crazy person. He was a delusional piece of shit. I was more than happy when he finally disappeared off screen.

The level of gaslighting that Jin Ah was facing didn’t just stop at Gyu Min and her mother. It’s time to now address her work situation.
So as I explained before, Jin Ah works at Coffee Bay, a coffee trade company that manages a chain of Coffee Bay stores throughout the city. (I would definitely think twice about joining a company that has as its slogan ‘Roasting One Dream At A Time’, but hey, that’s just me.) When she’s not out to check in on the store managers she works with, she’s in the office. There are a few colleagues to introduce here, starting with the Two Scumbags.
Scumbag No. 1: Mr. Nam (Park Hyuk Kwon). I believe he was a director or something. Anyways, he’s the person responsible for a mistake that Jin Ah has to pay for during the promotional event of a new coffee product at one of her stores in the first episode. He forgot to approve the document for it while she’d handed it in perfectly in time, and then just pretended he never got it. Heck, he SHREDDED the thing so they wouldn’t be able to accuse him. And then just went on in her face like ‘hey what happened, you’re usually so good at your job’. Seriously, the audacity of men in this series still baffles me. Anyways, he’s a typical coward guy who just wants to exert the power that he has in the company without ever getting criticized for it. The thing he has going for him is his rank, because it assures that no one of lower rank can go against him. Everyone knows that he’s responsible, without a doubt, but no one says anything and that’s how he thrives. The only person capable of reprimanding him is Mr. Jo (Kim Jong Tae), the CEO (I guess?). I just felt like he knew he was responsible too, but he just wasn’t able to do anything without evidence, either way it was frustrating. Anyways, Mr. Nam is the coward scumbag who shows his true colors once Jin Ah starts her case against the sexual harrassment: he literally has someone create fake screenshots of fake Line conversations in which Jin Ah sends him messages. This way he is able to show that she went along with everything he ever said to her, it was disgusting how he abused his position.
Scumbag No. 2: Mr. Gong (Lee Hwa Ryong), Jin Ah’s team leader who always enjoyed reprimanding his female employees on how incompetent they were at the office (still can’t get over the fact that they’d just put earplugs in whenever he summoned them to his office, as a standard precaution), only to get really drunk and touchy towards those same employees during work dinners. And there were a LOT of work dinners. Jin Ah would be their usual victim, as she would initially just smile, come over from three tables away just to pour their drinks and cut their barbecue meat for them, and laugh it off as they ‘accidentally’ pulled down her bra straps while she was dancing along to the karaoke sessions. It makes all the other female employees very uncomfortable as well, but we see that Jin Ah is not the only one ‘playing the game’. The nasty thing is that for the majority of them, it’s just something annoying that they feel like they have to deal with as it is ‘part of the job’. It’s nauseating.
At some point, Ms. Jung Young In (played by Seo Jung Yeon) – I don’t exactly know what her position in the company is, but she is close to Mr. Jo and higher than Mr. Nam – issues an initiative through which all female employees can write down their experience with sexual harrassment on the work floor. As a result, all male employees become very anxious to find out more about what they will write down – I guess they are partially aware of their own actions after all.
Let me just go over Jin Ah’s fellow female colleagues. First of all, there’s Kang Se Young (played by Jung Yoo Jin). She’s Jin Ah’s top competitor and very eager to get a promotion. She’s also very proactive when it comes to pursuing what she wants, especially when it comes to guys. She develops an interest in Joon Hee, and even goes so far as to take over Kyung Seon’s store from Jin Ah after she gets demoted, partially to get to know Joon Hee’s sister and suck up to her a bit. After she finds out Joon Hee and Jin Ah are together, she definitely harbors some grudgy feelings towards Jin Ah. I’m not sure if it’s because of these grudgy feelings, but she even accepts a deal with Mr. Nam to keep him informed on the female employees’ actions regarding the sexual harrassment case, just because he promises to get her a promotion. She seems to be someone who, like Jin Ah, also just grins and bears it, but doesn’t find it worth the aggravation to try to fight it. Because of her deal with Mr. Nam, she even starts demotivating a couple of female employees to share their experiences because it will just backlash and they’d risk losing their jobs. Also, because Jin Ah is first in line at the firing zone, they risk getting associated with her and how she always just went along with it. All in all, even though I didn’t think Se Young was a bad person per se, she wasn’t too sympathetic either. In the end, she didn’t even get the promotion even though she snitched on her own team, which was a bit sad for her. But she and Jin Ah end things on a fairly positive note when Jin Ah resigns.
Then there’s Geum Bo Ra (played by Joo Min Kyung). She’s the snarkiest of the colleagues, but mostly because she’s the most aware of the male employees’ behavior, recognizes it exactly for what it is, and doesn’t bother to even try as if she’s okay with it. She actively tries to get out of work dinners or any kind of situation in which she’ll have to spend time with these men, and for good reason. She’s one of the most active participants in trying to get all female employees to share their experiences in the case, even though she also doesn’t know if it’ll make any difference. She clashes with Se Young the most, and is actually the first colleague to find out about Joon Hee and Jin Ah’s relationship as she accidentally walks in on them during a restaurant date. Instead of judging them, she relishes in the fact that she now has a way to tease Se Young, because she knows she has a crush on Joon Hee. Bo Ra becomes a good friend to Jin Ah, and she’s also the person who invites her to come live with her in Jeju, where she starts her own café.
Then there’s Lee Ye Eun (played by Lee Joo Young), the ‘maknae’ of the team. She looks up to Jin Ah a lot and always comes to her after work dinners to complain about the male seniors being all touchy again. Especially in her case, as the youngest of the team, this was hard. She was in the least ideal position to speak up, and even though she wanted to back Jin Ah up in her case, she did get affected by Se Young’s words as well and still tried to not get associated with Jin Ah for a while. She does remain close to Jin Ah’s family, as she’s also invited to Seung Ho’s wedding and by that time she even has a baby already.
There was this one guy, Mr. Choi (Lee Chang Hoon) who seemed to be acting as a kind of spy as well. I think he wasn’t particularly as guilty as Mr. Nam and Mr. Gong were in the case, but he saw the situation as a way to redeem himself and get a promotion as well. He agreed to help Ms. Jung to get evidence of the sexual harrassment from the male seniors. He literally went to have dinner with them and try to get them to talk while wearing a recording pen in his breast pocket, lol. He gathered a bunch of video evidence as well, of the male seniors ‘accidentally’ falling on top of Jin Ah and grabbing her arms and legs under the table etc. As viewers, this is also the first time we see how much Jin Ah has had to deal with, and I could just feel to the core how Ms. Jung reacted to it, with a sigh and a heartfelt ‘…oh, Jin Ah…’ It was really bad. And at to the moment Jin Ah was in the middle of it, when Joon Hee proposed going to the US together, it really did seem like she wouldn’t win the case.
I thought it was nice how they revealed she did, though. When she came to the office that last time to hand in her resignation, the way Ms. Jung reacted almost felt like she’d build up a bad reputation and Ms. Jung just wanted to keep her on because she’d always liked her so much. But then when she went down the elevator with Mr. Jo and he just casually mentioned that ‘Mr. Nam still claims to be innocent even after the verdict’!! I was like, ‘wait, does that mean she DID win?!’ So that’s good, at least. It really can’t have been easy for her, especially after Joon Hee left and she had to deal with it all by herself.
The only thing that was amusing to me about this whole thing was how antsy all the male seniors became when the whole case started and how Mr. Nam and Mr. Gong kept trying to throw each other under the bus. Mr. Gong kept claiming that he did everything just because Mr. Nam had ordered him to, it was so lame it was almost entertaining. I LOVED the part where Jin Ah asked them each separately to join her at the movie theatre but then just made them go there together and they couldn’t face each other at work the next day. It was very satisfying.

The last story arc I wish to talk about before concluding is the one about Kyung Seon and Joon Hee’s father (played by Kim Chang Wan). From what we learn, he abandoned his family and is already onto his third wife after the Seo siblings’ mom. What exactly happened, I don’t know, but Kyung Seon and Joon Hee resent him. When he suddenly turns up back in South Korea (he resides in Canada), Kyung Seon only agrees to meet up with him once, as a kind of obligation she has to her father, but Joon Hee refuses to even take a look at his face. As he is an old friend/acquaintance of Jin Ah’s parents, he contacts her father as well and this unfolds into a very dramatic outburst of emotions at Jin Ah’s parents’ place (also the scene where her mother does her whole disrespectful rant towards Kyung Seon and Joon Hee). Jin Ah meets their dad a couple of times without Joon Hee knowing, and he’s pretty pissed when he finds out because she shouldn’t get involved in it. However, she manages to persuade him to have one final talk with his dad before he leaves for Canada again.
I can’t really figure out what the dad’s deal was, honestly. He never contacted his kids, but then when he suddenly came to South Korea he just expected them to greet him normally. He also doesn’t oppose Joon Hee and Jin Ah’s relationship for a second, on the contrary, he reprimands Jin Ah’s parents for being so against it, only making things worse in the process. There was the one scene in which he suddenly burst out crying in his hotel room and I was like ‘???’ I guess it was just about seeing the kind of situation his kids were in with the whole love affair? But I didn’t quite get it. I guess the most important thing was that he eventually was able to make amends with Joon Hee, and that it became clear that he didn’t stop caring about his children completely.

Can I just remark on the VERY satisfying soundtrack of this series? It was an all-English soundtrack with very jazzy, bluesy tracks and I thought that was a very original choice. I kept singing along to the opening sequence track ‘Stand By Your Man’ by Tammy Wynette, and I also loved the tracks by Rachael Yamagata, ‘Something in the Rain’, ‘La La La’, and ‘Be Somebody’s Love’. The soundtrack really did the show justice. Heck, they even chose ‘Something in the Rain’ as the show’s English title! Speaking of which, I want to comment on the show’s title, both the English one and the Korean one (‘Pretty Noona/Lady/Sister Who Buys Me Food’). I get where they come from. For the Korean title, this is where the relationship between Jin Ah and Joon Hee starts. At the beginning, instead of asking her out, Joon Hee blurts out if she’ll buy him dinner more often. When they have a fight at the end, he literally uses the phrase ‘do you really want to go back to the time where I was just your younger brother’s friend who’d ask you to buy him dinner?’. The Korean title is clearly written from Joon Hee’s perspective, even though Jin Ah seems to be the main protagonist as we see most events through her eyes. It’s interesting how they used the starting point of their relationship as the title, while the story goes much further than that.
For the English title, if you look at the lyrics of ‘Something in the Rain’, it really fits their relationship when they’re together, and they also take quite a few walks in the rain.
Now that I’ve considered both titles more, I can better understand the choices for both of them, but in the beginning I honestly didn’t feel like either embodied the full essence of the story. Yet, as I say, I can see where they might’ve come from and there’s probably a logical explanation for why they chose these titles in the end.

On to the cast comments!

I was excited to see something with Son Ye Jin after Crash Landing on You, even though of course Something in the Rain is from a few years earlier. I just don’t think I’ve seen her in a lot of things, so I always like to see different performances from actors in different shows. I think she made Jin Ah an incredibly beautiful, vulnerable woman. Even though she starts out as kind of a pushover, and I might’ve gotten a little frustrated by her passiveness when it came to talking things through with some people, I couldn’t stop rooting for her. Especially after seeing how much gaslighting she had to deal with, everyone from her mother to her colleagues making her feel like she was the one being unreasonable and crazy, I just really hoped she would manage to break free from them all. I definitely loved her the most in her scenes with Kyung Seon and Joon Hee, because that’s when she came apart and showed herself without restraint, that’s where she felt safest and most comfortable. The fact that I didn’t understand where she came from all of the time – like there were moments when I was like ‘Jin Ah, WHY?!’ – just made her all the more human to me. Our emotions don’t always make sense. There are always bits of immaturity and selfishness that may come out at the wrong moment. But I really felt like she was trapped in every single situation in her life, at home, in her relationship with Gyu Min (even after it ended), at work, and Joon Hee helped her fully come to herself and embrace the power she had within to fight her way out of those prisons. Her acting was very natural and I liked it.

So this is the drama that made everyone fall in love with Jung Hae In! I honestly hadn’t seen him in a main role before, only in some side character roles, like in Blood (he was the ML’s best friend who got killed by the bad vampire man T^T), While You Were Sleeping, and of course his guest appearance in Goblin. It was nice seeing this new side of him. His smile is so endearing, and I loved how he just couldn’t stop himself from smiling whenever he saw Jin Ah, like it was just a cause-and-effect thing. I think Joon Hee was a pretty uncomplicated character, even with his family background, it didn’t really seem to leave a very dark side in him. He was easygoing and hist loyalties lay in the right places. He really went for what he wanted, both in his relationships and in his career. There’s a few more of his dramas on my list, so I’m curious to see more sides of him now! I really loved his chemistry with Son Ye Jin, it didn’t look unnatural at all and I also wasn’t bothered in the slightest by their (minor) age difference.

The funny thing is that I’ve seen Jang So Yeon before in Touch Your Heart and Crash Landing on You, but I remember her as a middle-aged lady? And here she seemed so much younger? Like, I suppose Kyung Seon and Jin Ah were around the same age, but she definitely didn’t feel like 40 to me! It was some years before the series I just mentioned, so maybe it really is just a matter of her getting older, lol. Anyways, Kyung Seon was a really chipper and energetic lady. I liked her character, and also her friendship dynamic with Jin Ah. She really was like an older sister to her, also in how she felt like she needed to protect her from Gyu Min and everything, because Jin Ah just didn’t seem to be able to stand up for himself against his antics. I also get how she’d feel like Jin Ah and Joon Hee betrayed her trust by going behind her back like that, but I did find it disappointing how she was determined to stay mad at Jin Ah, even though she ought to know her best friend would never be so heartless as to treat them the way her mother did. I found it a pity that she put Jin Ah in the same box as their parents, as in that their whole family was like that. I just wanted the two women to be like they used to be, the bestest of friends, and even in the end it felt like there was still a lot to fix, even though Kyung Seon seemed more forgiving already. It was nice to see a completely different side from her than I’d seen so far, to see her be more goofy and energetic and youthful.

I had no idea Wi Ha Joon was in this!! The first episode gave me so many nice surprises, there were all these actors in it that I knew and loved. He was the typical younger brother to Jin Ah, the one that was coddled by his mother the most even though he was spending his time on gaming more than he did on his studies. Despite his attitude, he did care for his sister, as became clear how he started acting towards Gyu Min when he found out what he’d done to her. His friendship with Joon Hee was a bit more casual than the one between the two women, which was probably for the best in the whole love affair thing because Seung Ho came around much easier than Kyung Seon. I mean, finding out your friend is dating your older sister would probably throw everyone off in some way, and for him it was just at the level of ‘do your thing, just don’t make out in front of me’. I’ve only seen him before in Romance is a Bonus Book, but I liked him so much there that I cheered when I saw him appear here, haha. I feel like he has so many sides to his acting as well, so I’m looking forward to seeing more of him.

Jung Yoo Jin has this strong vibe around her, I feel like she always gets clever and confident roles. She’s still stuck in side characters that never get the guy, though. I’ve seen her in W – Two Worlds, Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo (although I don’t remember her from there), Thirty But Seventeen and Romance is a Bonus Book. Anyways, I thought her performance as Kang Se Young was good because for the first time I didn’t find her to be very sympathetic, but that also made the character interesting to me. You always have different types of people who react in their own way to situations, and I guess she was more interested in securing success in her career no matter the means, than she was in standing up for women’s equality on the workfloor. To each her own, I suppose. I’m still waiting for the day that she gets her big break and maybe even a main role!

I really liked Joo Min Kyung as Geum Bo Ra. I hadn’t seen her in any drama before yet, but her character probably went through the biggest change of all, simply because she really became Jin Ah’s person. At the beginning, it didn’t seem like she was particularly interested in becoming friends with anyone in the office, but the events just brought them together and I love how they became so close that they’d even start living together in Jeju. I thought she brought a really good and important energy to the show, because she was the only female employee who from the start spoke up about what was really happening while the rest was still trying to swallow their pride. I’m really curious to see her in more shows!

This is probably the most feminine role I’ve ever seen Lee Joo Young play in a show. After Weightlifting Fairy and Itaewon Class I wondered if she’d ever get a role in which she wouldn’t be cast as a short-haired tomboy, but here we are! I thought she was very cute in the beginning, as she kind of attached herself to Jin Ah but also really looked up to her and respected her. It must have been hard for her to continuously back Jin Ah up, especially when being driven by the fear of losing your job and getting a reputation when you’ve just started out. I felt really bad for her whenever she was left unable to escape from the male seniors forcing her to stay and have dinner with them, but it was purely because she didn’t have the courage to stand up for herself yet. She was always just tagging along with the bigger group. It was much easier to leave together with the other women as a collective than when she was by herself. I didn’t know she was in this drama, and she had a completely different presence from what I’d seen from her so far, so I hope she can keep surprising me!

I was BEYOND happy to see Seo Jung Yeon again and I LOVED her the instant her character appeared. She’s such a queen. Again, I don’t even remember exactly what her position in the company was, but she definitely saw all the male seniors for what they were, even though she didn’t speak a word out loud – she would just give them this resigned but disappointed and judging look, lol. And I loved how, even though what she could do was limited, she always had Jin Ah’s back and she really wanted to bring those scumbags to justice for her. I really, really love this actress, and I have already written many cast comments about her but I will always mention her because she deserves to be acknowledged for the amazing actress that she is.

I didn’t know Oh Man Seok from anything else, but from all the male characters in the show, he was someone I didn’t despise as much. I feel like everyone was always talking about Jin Ah’s parents as one, that they were on the same page about Jin Ah and Joon Hee’s relationship etcetera, but I kept correcting them in my head, that it was just the mom. I think the dad did a good job of trying to go against her, but there was just no correcting her mindset. I liked the dad! I think he was really easygoing and he really didn’t seem to see it as such a big deal when he found out about the love affair. I like how he held the biggest grudge against Gyu Min, and when the latter came to him to ‘reveal’ Jin Ah and Joon Hee’s involvement as a way to regain his trust, the dad was just like, ‘Actually, I’m glad that it’s Joon Hee, I’ve known him forever, and now at least I know that my daughter is with a good and trustworthy man’. BURN!! I thought it was pretty funny how different he was from his wife, it kept me wondering how the heck they ended up in a marriage like this together. At least he was trying to make the most of his retirement, haha. Anyways, despite what other people might think, I thought he was the least bad of Jin Ah’s family.

After seeing her as the FL’s mother in Melting Me Softly, I wrote the following about Gil Hae Yeon:

“I want to give a final shoutout to Gil Hae Yeon (…) I thought this actress was really good. She wasn’t overdramatic, I think she portrayed her emotions very realistically and it really touched me. (…) the duality of her thoughts and feelings was just very human in my opinion. I was impressed by her acting, even as a relatively minor character. So well done, madam!!”
– Melting Me Softly review, January 20, 2022

After seeing her as the FL’s mother in Something in the Rain, I will write about how much I hated her character, haha. No, but seriously, I guess it just means that she performed very well! I will never talk bad about actors, let that be clear. Her character was just unbearable to me, like if she were my mom I wouldn’t even be able to live in the same house as her for as long as Jin Ah did. I can’t remember I’ve been this baffled by someone’s disrespect and inability to self-reflect before. I still can’t understand where she’s coming from, even after pondering the story again. When I told my friend about her, she said, ‘Oh, like the mother in Boys Over Flowers’, and I actually replied with, ‘I dare say she’s worse’ and I stand by it. It wasn’t just about not accepting someone because of their poor background, it went so much deeper than that.
On the other hand, it was really interesting to see this actress portray this kind of character, as I’ve only ever seen her as a ‘normal’, sweet and caring mother before. It definitely must have given the actress a challenge, and that I can respect.

Same went for Kim Chang Wan, to be honest. My first association of him is from You Who Came From The Stars, where he stole everyone’s heart. After that, I’ve seen him in several things, like 1st Shop of Coffee Prince, Hwarang, 20th Century Boy and Girl, Jugglers and It’s Okay to Not Be Okay. I can never get used to seeing him as an unsympathetic character, he just looks so kind! I’m glad that in the end he didn’t seem to be such a bad dad after all, like I actually am still wondering what he did to make his kids resent him so much. It might’ve been solely the fact that he left them after their mom died, but I almost got the impression that he did something else that was unforgiveable. Anyways, it was nice seeing him as another familiar face in this show.

To make a last mention of the great actors who portrayed the worst characters! I’m not even gonna lie, whenever either of these men came on screen, I legit pulled my sock off just so I could throw it at their faces! I’ll repeat, if you hate a character, that just means the actor did a great job! I know Park Hyuk Kwon from Dream High and Producer, apparently, and I see he’s also going to be in some dramas that are still on my list, so I hope he won’t be such a bad character in those. Same goes for Lee Hwa Ryong, who I’ve just found out is in Arthdal Chronicles! I’ll have to pay better attention next time, although at least there he’s a sympathetic character, haha. I can’t say much about Oh Ryoong since I haven’t seen anything else of him, but he definitely set my teeth on edge as Gyu Min!

And with that I’ll end my cast comments!

For my conclusion, I just want to say that this was a commitment of a series. The episodes are pretty lengthy, and you really have to love a slow-paced series without too much action that is mostly focussed on emotion and character development. It really is, first and foremost, about Jin Ah and Joon Hee’s relationship and how their love fights to thrive in a world full of prejudice. It’s about going against social standards and conservative mindsets, including ones that lead to people being treated inequally in any kind of situation, be it in terms of gender or background. Every person needs to make a way for themselves in this world, no matter where you come from is. But love, that just bloody does whatever the heck it wants. It might be inconvenient, it might be messy, and people might think of it what they want, in the end it still always comes down to the two people involved in the love, not the people watching in from the outside.
I really loved Jin Ah and Joon Hee together, it was like two pieces of a puzzle, they just fit and clicked perfectly. I loved how natural and playful their acting was from the start, and the scenes in which they took walks together, had late night phone calls together, and especially when they just went out to see each other in the middle of the night, those scenes brought me so much comfort. To have a person like that. Someone that you can literally just run to whenever, not caring what anyone else might think. Isn’t that the dream? I’m not even talking just in a romantic way, I think it’s even a dream to have a friend or other kind of soulmate like that, who is just always there for you with open arms, whenever, wherever. So that’s what I really liked about it. The whole drama that was created and dragged out became a bit ridiculous to me, especially since there literally was no reason whatsoever why they shouldn’t be together. The people who needed to ‘get used to it’ (or rather, ‘get over it’) weren’t even directly involved in the relationship. It just didn’t make any sense to me how a bunch of outsiders seemed to claim so much ownership over their love.
As I mentioned before, even though my ranking of this show dropped a little towards the end, I still thought it was a good series, especially the beginning had me completely hooked. I also really appreciate how it dived so deeply into the sexual harrassment issue, since I feel like this is still very much a taboo thing. I feel like this really exposed something that happens a lot in real life, and I hope it also educated a lot of people that need to be educated in that aspect. I will always appreciate themes like this to be addressed, all the more in K-Drama since they still seem to hold back a lot when it comes to calling stuff out.

I saw that this year, a Chinese remake of this series came out called Love The Way You Are. I’m not sure if I’ll watch a remake of this one. I think the original one was unique in its own kind.

Before finally starting on my long-awaited, finally complete, hyped new release Netflix K-Drama (huh, which one could it be?), I will watch a short drama in-between that will serve as my palette cleanser. Then we’re off to a couple of more watchlist items and then I’m probably going to catch up on some more Netflix releases because they just keep piling up and I can barely keep up with them!
Anyways, I hope this was a worthwhile review to read and I promise I will be back soon.
Bye-bee!