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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Flipped
( 喜欢你时风好甜 / Xi Huan Ni Shi Feng Hao Tian / I Like You When The Wind Is Sweet)
MyDramaList rating: 7.0/10

Hey all! It’s time for one last review before the month is over. Honestly, I’m in a very busy period as I have an important entrance test in a couple of days, but I was nearing the end of this show rapidly and I really didn’t want to wait a full week to finish the final episode and write this review… so here I am, slacking off from my studying for just one day. I don’t think this review will be very long as it’s a fairly simple story. All in all, I liked it. I thought it was refreshing and original, the humor was good and I liked the characters. Of course I have several things to say about it, I always do, but this will be a fairly positive review. I previously mixed up this title with the Japanese drama Switched and I’m glad to say the two are nothing alike. I remember seeing a short scene from the first episode somewhere and putting it on my list as it looked cute. It’s been a while since I became so giddy about a main couple’s chemistry, so that was definitely one of its major bonus points for me. I also liked how they wrapped up the story without leaving too many loose ends, although I did find the ending a bit confusing.

Flipped is a 24-episode C-Drama with episodes lasting about 25 minutes each, and that’s excluding the opening and ending sequences as they take about 5 minutes off the total duration. (Honestly, I’m used to lengthy OP/ED themes in Chinese dramas but the ending sequence here was 4 minutes long and even for C-Dramas I think that is a lot.) This love story with a fantastical twist is about the romance between Qi Xun (played by Gao Han Yu), the founder and chief architect of the architectural design company MIST, and Feng Shuang Shuang (played by Chen Yu Mi/Charlene Chen), a painter who starts working at MIST as a project designer.
Qi Xun has been living with his younger sister Qi Tian (played by Lin Yan Rou) after they lost their parents in a terrible car accident, and after this accident somehow the siblings gained supernatural powers. Qi Xun is able to teleport anywhere as long as he’s been there before or has a picture of the place, and Qi Tian has become clairvoyant, troubled by visions and foretelling dreams. She even has the ability to see into the future, but this takes a big toll on her health. Qi Xun has been starting to feel the side effects of his powers as well. Together with his loyal friend Shi Lang (played by Sun Ke Jie/Jack Sun), he is looking for a way to cure Qi Tian and finds out that besides ‘talented’ like themselves, there are also ‘healers’ who exist to ease the pain of the ‘talented’. A lead to a renowned healer teleports Qi Xun to an art gallery where he meets Shuang Shuang for the first time. Just before this encounter, Qi Tian has another vision and tells her brother that a lady who is a painter will take away his first kiss. Shuang Shuang is a freelance painter who has already provided some artworks to MIST before, and when she’s offered an official contract to work at the company Qi Xun is somehow drawn to her instinctively. Once he establishes the assumption that Shuang Shuang is, in fact, a healer, he initially approaches her with the objective of getting her to cure his sister, but his feelings quickly develop into something more.

What I liked right off the bat was that the relationship between Qi Xun and Shuang Shuang developed so naturally. Although an accidental kiss like theirs in the first episode would’ve sent a regular drama heroine slapping the guy in the face and asking him what the hell he thinks he’s doing, Shuang Shuang immediately goes🤭🤭 and instantly tries to figure out whether he really likes her or not. Although Qi Xun does give her some mixed signals in the beginning -and that’s only because he’s still figuring out whether he’s drawn to her because she’s a healer or because of ~twue love~-, he confirms his feelings to her in episode 8 (which, going by the length of the episodes, feels quite fast) and they build it up nicely until halfway through the show. Their romance developed so naturally and cutely and I loved their chemistry. Especially those kissing scenes, those got me like 👀 because the passion between them was so clear from the start.

In terms of build-up in general, I think it was very nicely written. They built up the adorable blossoming of Qi Xun and Shuang Shuang’s relationship, and then halfway through there’s a turning point when Shuang Shuang becomes aware of her powers in regards to Qi Tian for the first time, doubt comes in regarding Qi Xun’s motives for approaching her, and a new character is introduced. The opening and ending themes also changed halfway through, suddenly adding a more melancholic and somber tone to the series as the truth about the whole situation comes to light. You could definitely divide the show up in two parts, not only based on the OP/ED sequences but also on the developments in the story.

Before I go on, I need to introduce a couple more important side characters, first of all surrounding Shuang Shuang. When we first meet her, she’s run away from home and, more importantly, from her father, Feng Yun (played by Miao Zi Jie). After her mother disappeared when she was still very young, her father has been extremely protective of her, even to the point of locking her up in the house. She was never allowed to go outside or even play with kids her own age, and it took her years to finally escape and try to make her own life without his obstruction. When the story starts, she is hiding from him and when he finds the apartment building she lives in, Shuang Shuang is able to hide with the help of her new neighbor Kun Lan (played by Gu Lan Di). Kun Lan has just moved into the same building as her and seems to have ulterior motives of approaching Shuang Shuang. It’s hinted that he already knows who she is and that he’s bent on watching over her for some reason. After helping her out a couple of times, he reveals to her that they met before as kids, when Shuang Shuang was locked up in her house and they played together even though there was a window separating them. How he’s come to find her and why he’s so determined to stay by her side is revealed when we find out Kun Lan comes from a line of ‘protectors’ or ‘guardians’ who are sworn to protect ‘healers’. The question of why healers need protection is answered when we find out the truth about Shuang Shuang’s mom, Xun Xue (Hong Zi Han), the renowned female doctor Qi Xun also learned about. It really seems that every power has a price, and it’s kind of cruel to think that no one asked for these powers and some didn’t even know about them. ‘The talented’ suffer from exerting their powers and need ‘healers’ to cure them, the ‘healers’ suffer from exerting their powers and need ‘guardians’ to protect them.
In any case, Kun Lan is set on staying with Shuang Shuang and as he seems to already have feelings for her by the time they actually meet as adults, it just feels like the perfect arrangement for him to have her stay at his place while she’s hiding from her father. However, Shuang Shuang only sees him as a good friend and she’s already starting to fall for Qi Xun at this point. Heck, she and Qi Xun have already started dating while Kun Lan is also trying to act like a boyfriend to Shuang Shuang.
At some point Shuang Shuang finally manages to come eye to eye with her father and they make up, although I personally didn’t think she needed to apologize for being inconsiderate towards him in the way he raised her because it definitely was excessive to lock her up like that. When Feng Yun becomes aware of the two men hovering around his daughter, he gets suspicious. He seems to know more about the situation and feels that Shuang Shuang would be better off away from these people. We find out in the end that he is very scared that she’ll turn out the same way as her mother, his wife Xun Xue the healer, who ended up losing her life because of exerting her powers.

About this, I have to also introduce the side plot involving He Zheng Chang. He Zheng Chang (played by Zhu Wen Chao) is introduced as a suspicious-looking delivery man who delivers a package to Shuang Shuang’s apartment. He keeps popping up and is even shown having photos of all the main characters pinned on a wall in his hideout. His story is revealed in bits and pieces, but what it comes down to is that he and his older brother (played by the same actor with greying hair) were suffering from an incurable disease that would make them age much faster than usual. They came to Xun Xue for help but she refused to cure them, and he saw his brother gradually succumb to desperation. On a night when he knew his brother would visit Xun Xue again to try and persuade her, a fire broke out at Xun Xue’s house and they both perished. Although Zheng Chang didn’t see what actually happened to them, he just knew his brother was there and assumed that Xun Xue must’ve killed him. Ever since then, he’s held an insatiable grudge towards Xun Xue and her family, and strives to find her and take revenge on her, convinced she must still be alive as they never found her body in the debris. He first goes after Feng Yun, but then starts going after Shuang Shuang as well. A friend of his, Jian Bai (Yao Mi) also works at MIST and reluctantly helps him get access to Shuang Shuang’s phone, but during the climax in which Zheng Chang tries to kill both Feng Yun and Shuang Shuang, she steps in and manages to make him see clearly that his revenge won’t solve anything, as Xun Xue is already gone and there’s no one left to take vengeance on.
This is pretty much the only ‘extreme’ side plot of the series, the rest of it just focusses on the relationship between Qi Xun and Shuang Shuang and the impending fate of Qi Tian, who grows weaker by the day.

Speaking of Qi Tian, let’s talk about her some more. Depicted as a fragile little princess -Qi Xun doesn’t even like the idea of her walking around on her own two feet- Qi Tian is the embodiment of someone who’s a victim of her powers. She hasn’t asked for them, they just come to her and weaken her without mercy. While she manages to stay unyieldingly cheerful and positive and occasionally even neglects the dangers of her powers –she tends to go ‘just one little peak won’t hurt’ while she’s been told time and time again that looking into the future will only shorten her already short lifespan– the ending reveals that she’s aware of much more than she’s let on. She finds out what will happen to her by herself, and also realizes that in order to save her, Shuang Shuang will have to sacrifice her own life. The fact that even Qi Xun didn’t know this until after Qi Tian had already taken her fate into her own hands and disappeared just showed how little was known about everyone’s powers and how they existed opposite each other. It’s not like there was a manual or some written rules on how things worked, it was clear that no one knew about all the ins and outs of the matter.
After guiding her brother in the direction of Shuang Shuang, Qi Tian also starts seeing visions of herself and Kun Lan, and as soon as she meets him in real life she convinces herself that they must be meant to be as well. She immediately sets her eyes on him and approaches him, even though Kun Lan only has eyes for Shuang Shuang. Shi Lang watches Qi Tian fawn over Kun Lan with envy and sorrow, as it’s clear from the start that he harbors more-than-brotherly feelings for her himself, but still he doesn’t get in their way as he claims Qi Tian’s happiness means everything to him.
I found it pretty interesting that they showed the relativity of Qi Tian’s visions in the way her relationship with Kun Lan developed. She approaches him after seeing him in her visions and just assumes they’re meant to be together, but Kun Lan never actually returns her feelings. He acknowledges them, and it’s clear that despite his initial aversion towards her he does come to care about her a bit, but he never actually becomes the kind of person to her that she envisions. I actually thought it was pretty refreshing that they didn’t go for the obvious choice to make him fall for her after all and prove her visions right. Her visions with him still came true, but only because Qi Tian took the initiative herself in performing those activities with him in order to make her visions come true. I also liked that there were a couple of scenes that she foresaw that then happened afterwards without her or anyone else witnessing it. It was as if her visions were more meant for us, the viewers, to go ‘ohhh, this is the scene that she foresaw!’ when it came around. On the other hand, the scene in which she saw herself laid out in the setting she first assumed would be her wedding was never shown, we never see Kun Lan and Shi Lang meet up there to commemorate her. I liked how they played with the credibility and relativity of those predictions, and how they showed that her idyllic visions of her and Kun Lan together turned out differently from what they initially seemed.

Going back to some other important side characters, there’s Du Wan Tian (played by Wang Si Ping/Jenna Wang). Wan Tian is MIST’s co-founder and Qi Xun’s longtime friend. They’ve known each other for ages and built up MIST together. At the company, she’s known as the ‘Iron Lady’ for her unyielding personality, but when it comes to her feelings for Qi Xun, she’s really just like any other woman with a one-sided crush. She becomes a mentor to Shuang Shuang despite her envy towards her for being at the receiving end of Qi Xun’s feelings. I actually liked her character, despite her tendency to become a bit petty towards Shuang Shuang at some points. I liked how mature she was in separating her personal feelings from her professional ones. I even wrote down a quote of hers from one of the first episodes, in which she and Qi Xun were talking about Shuang Shuang’s capabilities to stay at the company. “I may have come from a wealthy family and I can easily get what I want, but I will never deny anyone’s hard work for my own agenda. I know how hard it is to try and hold onto a dream.” Despite her initial disapproval of Shuang Shuang (seriously, when she went all out on her saying she had ‘low academic qualifications, low capabilities, a problematic work attitude and lack of basic professionalism’ after she’d literally been there for ONE day🙄), and her pettiness towards her when Qi Xun officially rejected her feelings for him, Wan Tian did prove herself to be bigger than that and she even took over MIST entirely when Qi Xun took time off to deal with his personal circumstances surrounding his sister.

Lastly, we need to talk about Shen Tong. Shen Tong (played by Han Sheng Sheng/Dara Hanfman) is introduced halfway through the show and it’s first hinted that she is also a ‘healer’. We see her taking care of a young boy in a hospital and easing his pain. Shuang Shuang meets her when she ends up in the same hospital after fainting from using her powers on Qi Tian for the first time. The two hit it off well and Shuang Shuang immediately feels like she’s known Shen Tong from before. Shen Tong’s character seems a little ambiguous at first since she’s nice to Shuang Shuang but at the same time tries to seduce and even blackmail Qi Xun into getting intimate with her in exchange for saving his sister instead of Shuang Shuang. She’s also seen with Kun Lan a couple of times, when he offers to protect her as a ‘guardian’. In the end, it turns out she’s not actually a ‘healer’ but another ‘talented’, with the ability to paralyze others, also in terms of taking away people’s pain. We find out that she’s lost the love of her life in the final couple of episodes and she ends up donating her own heart to the young boy in the hospital.

All in all, there’s only a small group of characters including the supporting cast and I think it was enough to establish a meaningful story without too many distracting side plots. Characters like Zheng Chang, Wan Tian and Shen Tong all contributed to the main characters’ storyline in their own way. There’s just a couple of things I want to mention that slightly annoyed or confused me, but apart from that I thought everything came together quite nicely.

I’d like to give some more detailed comments on all the main characters before I go on to my analysis. First of all, my girl Shuang Shuang. Honestly, I was so happy with her character. I loved that she wasn’t a typical drama heroine as in that she was passive or just went along with whatever other people were expecting and asking of her. She seemed to be a really easygoing and simple person and I noticed she naturally smiled a lot. But the aspects that made me like her so much all had to do with the fact that she took no BS. She stood up for herself, she stuck to her own boundaries and she came out with her feelings towards confusing situations very directly. I loved how she just went to Qi Xun to eliminate any doubts or confusions about their relationship, and I also liked that when she heard about Qi Xun’s initial ulterior motives, her first instinct wasn’t to immediately avoid him but to actually talk to him and confirm it herself. When she confronted Qi Xun after hearing him (drunk) talk to Shi Lang, she conveyed her hurt and disappointment in him so clearly that she literally left him speechless. He didn’t have a single thing to say to defend himself because she was so in the right and her feelings were so valid, and this was the case throughout the entire show. In contrast to Qi Xun himself, it seemed like she was way more steady in her feelings, she made sure she had nothing to apologize for to him, she made her feelings clear from the start and she also cared about not ruining her relationship with Kun Lan after he confessed to her. Even when others warned her about not getting too close to Qi Xun/Kun Lan/Shen Tong, she always went ‘they’re good people and I’m going to talk to them myself’ and she never let anyone walk over her. With the exception of some situations at work, for example when she got scolded for that presentation mistake while it wasn’t her fault, she tended to apologize before trying to defend herself, but then when Qi Xun would scold her in private she’d be like ‘are you kidding me?’. She knew when to apologize even if something wasn’t her fault and that made her very professional. I liked how her hobby of painting never fully disappeared from her storyline, until the final episode she’s seen painting in her room. As dramas sometimes tend to forget about such characteristics and traits throughout a show, I was glad at least this remained consistent. She stood up for herself, she protected her own values and on the other hand she also let love in very easily. If she were real I would’ve wanted to be friends with her.

For Qi Xun, he was initially established as a very stoic and anti-social guy, he never let anyone get close to him or his sister and he always tended to keep away from engaging in personal contact with people. However, the way he was drawn to Shuang Shuang was just so natural and it immediately brought such a silly and adorable side out of him that I couldn’t help liking him. Shuang Shuang just immediately caught him off guard and I’m glad they added such a comical side to his otherwise stern character. I really folded over some of his facial expressions and the way he started bending over backwards for Shuang Shuang. At some points I did find him a little dramatic, like when Shuang Shuang confronted him after overhearing him drunk-talking to Shi Lang about why he approached her. Instead of immediately explaining that by then his feelings for her were real he was just standing there clenching his fists and jaw and slapping himself and crying, and I was like, bro, pull yourself together. I also found him a bit dramatical in his decision to just disappear from Shuang Shuang’s life in the end and the way he started gross-sobbing after that one postcard. It just felt like he made things very big in his mind while he could’ve just leaned on Shuang Shuang’s support in those moments. However, all in all I thought he made for a very original male lead character. I liked that they gave him multiple layers and the way they all came out fuelled by his increasing love for Shuang Shuang. Bro really got it bad. I think he was put in a very relatable dilemma when it came to protecting his sister and then falling for the person who could possibly save her, and that was even before he found out that he’d eventually had to choose between the two of them. I feel like a whole new world of emotions opened up for him and he had to get accustomed to that.

As I mentioned before, I really LIVED for the chemistry between Qi Xun and Shuang Shuang. Their kissing scenes were all pure fire and the way they came together and opened up to each other so naturally was really nice to see. Their relationship and chemistry was definitely one of the highlights in this series for me, whenever they had a scene together I would just be like😳😳because I knew there was going to be another passionate kiss at some point. I really enjoyed watching their performance together, it completely drew me in. I have to admit that I was in a kind of delulu-state myself while watching this drama, so that definitely helped in making me feel extra giddy during their scenes together, haha.

Kun Lan was that typical second male lead character that we all love for being an absolute puppy to the female lead, but we also know from the start that he’s not going to make his way into her heart like that. I really loved him in his friendship and loyalty towards Shuang Shuang, the way he helped her get away from her father and the way his first priority was always to make sure she was safe. He did get a little bit selfish in his feelings for her, for example in the fact that he just assumed she would be happy with him and claimed that he was the only one who could make her happy. I generally dislike this claim because I believe personal happiness exclusively comes from within and no one is ever fully able to make another person happy. But his feelings came from a good place and that was most important.
I did go😒 when he tried to convince Shuang Shuang of Qi Xun’s bad intentions while he should’ve known how serious Qi Xun was about her, but I also appreciated how besides that he never actively tried to sabotage their relationship, and he took a (quite literal) step back when he finally saw that Shuang Shuang would never see him as anything more than just a good friend. To leave without a personal goodbye to her, though, that also kind of hurt and I could tell that Shuang Shuang had mixed feelings as by then she knew about his true feelings for her and she must’ve known the reason he’d decided to take a distance had something to do with the fact that she couldn’t reciprocate his feelings. I would’ve liked them to remain good friends, but I’m not exactly sure if Kun Lan was planning to keep in touch, even after taking a break.
I also liked that he at least became a bit more considerate towards Qi Tian, despite continuously rejecting her feelings. I sometimes felt like he was a bit harsh, but on the other hand I also thought it was good of him to set his boundaries with her, all the more when he realized how she felt about him. He also probably wanted to protect her from falling even deeper and ending up heartbroken because he hadn’t been clear enough or something. He still acknowledged how much it meant to her and still went on all those activities with her, and I also believe he did feel hurt when she said goodbye to him on that beach. It would’ve been nice if he could’ve started reciprocating her feelings at some point, but I also thought it was more real that he ended up not falling for her at all, because it would’ve been very predictable if they’d ended up together because of Qi Tian’s visions. I liked the scene where they started saving snails together, that was really cute. 

Can I just say that I LOVED the dynamic between Qi Xun and Kun Lan? I actually got Goblin/Grim Reaper vibes from them at times. The way they competed for Shuang Shuang and how that resulted in bromance-bordering moments, even though the both of them kept denying any kind of budding affection for one another. I really liked how they would just go😑😒at each other, but in the end they still managed to maintain at least some sort of comradery, without ever speaking the actual words, of course. I really liked their dynamic in trying to one-up each other and those repeating situations of them going for the same foods to put on Shuang Shuang’s plates really sent me.

I already talked a bit about Qi Tian, but I just want to mention that I liked the fact that they didn’t make her a complete stereotype either. She seemed to be the typical fragile little princess with a terrible curse, who kept getting herself into trouble by constantly neglecting the immediate danger of it. She wasn’t even personally involved in her brother’s search for a ‘healer’ and I don’t think she actually asked for one either. In the end, she seemed to be much wiser than she got credit for. I believe that she knew her condition very well, maybe she didn’t actually expect to die so soon until she saw that vision but she had gotten accustomed to her powers and always tried to see the good sides in it. I loved how excited she was when she started seeing visions of her brother finding a love of his own, she really wanted him to be happy and stop running away from living his own life in order to watch over her.
I saw her approaching Kun Lan going either way, and although it was too bad she didn’t end up having her own imagined fairytale wedding, I did think it was powerful to have her face up to the reality of her visions and that just because she saw something didn’t automatically mean it would happen like that. I also really wondered about the genuinity of her feelings for Kun Lan because it initially seemed to be completely based on the fact that she saw him in her visions and she therefore limited the possibilities of someone else being her ‘one and only’. I would’ve liked it if she at least acknowledged Shi Lang’s feelings for her once, because I really felt like she did my guy a bit dirty. While her decision to take herself out of the equation to erase her brother’s painful dilemma of who to save, I still thought it was a bit hurtful of her to just leave like that without even a personal message to Qi Xun. Besides that, she was absolutely lovely and it was really sad that she had such a cruel fate waiting for her.

As I mentioned I was watching this drama a bit sporadically in-between studying and making weekly homework, so while I was really invested in the beginning, in the middle there was more space in-between my watches and I feel like I’ve already forgotten about some events that happened in the beginning of the show. I actually partially rewatched the first episode to remind myself of how exactly Qi Xun came to approach Shuang Shuang. I just want to jot down a couple of scenes that I remember that made me feel certain ways, and I hope it all fits coherently in what I’ve written so far. I will probably go over it again next week when I have more time to see if everything makes sense, lol. (Edit: I did go over it again👍🏻.)
First of all, I want to talk about the part where Shuang Shuang had to prove herself as an asset to MIST, after she first made a mistake during a presentation, which wasn’t even her fault as she was using someone else’s laptop and they should’ve just closed all their tabs properly. She gets to go on a field trip with the designing team to look at the construction of a care home. By this time, rumors about her and Qi Xun were already going around and I really disliked the female colleague that Shuang Shuang had to share a room with. She just went on and on about wanting to know the details about her relationship with Qi Xun AND Kun Lan (as he’d been driving Shuang Shuang to work and had brought the team food a couple of times, making them suspect he was her boyfriend) and I loved how Shuang Shuang just shut her down. Again, I loved this part so much I wrote it down. “First of all, the boy who sent the steamboat (Kun Lan) is my friend. He is neither my boyfriend nor some rich businessman. Secondly, my relationship with Mr. Qi is the same as yours. I am an employee of MIST. Thirdly, I came here for work. I have no obligation to expose any aspect of my personal life to you to fulfill your gossip needs. Please put a halt to your imagination.” 👏🏻 👏🏻 👏🏻 I loved how she set her boundaries and stood up for herself there.
The next day after visiting the care home, it suddenly starts pouring and when the team rushes back to the bus to return to the hotel and the members are asked to check whether their roommates are all there, the same female colleague just says ‘yes’ without even looking if Shuang Shuang is actually there, and Shuang Shuang gets left behind at the care home. They literally just leave without her, and this wasn’t just on that colleague. Honestly, they were with FIVE people. How did NO ONE, not even team leader Wan Tian, notice her absence?! If you’re only with five people I wouldn’t even find it necessary to check if everyone’s there through a buddy-system, you can literally do a head count in two seconds. Heck, you should be able to see who’s missing right away with just one glance. So yeah, that was really neglectful of them. When Qi Xun found out about it, he literally pushed himself through his car trauma by driving all the way to the care home to find her himself. Wan Tian and the team were just standing around after they realized Shuang Shuang wasn’t there. All because of some petty rumors towards Shuang Shuang’s alleged connection to Mr. Qi. That’s some real professional teamwork, guys.
After Qi Xun found Shuang Shuang, I also loved how normally she responded to his story about his powers, and how she immediately jumped up when he mentioned Qi Tian’s deteriorating health. She wasn’t even aware of how she herself fit into the picture at this point, but just seeing how determined she was to help out definitely triggered Qi Xun to finally confirm his feelings for her and that kiss was absolute🔥FIRE🔥. It was also cute to see how Shuang Shuang went to his house the next day after they’d come back from the trip just to double-check if this now officially meant they were together. The way their relationship was finally confirmed and how it developed from there on was really adorable, it was so cute to see how completely smitten Qi Xun became Shuang Shuang. 

There were a few things that confused me a bit, mainly in terms of Kun Lan’s and Wan Tian’s unrequited feelings. Honestly, while Kun Lan’s intentions with Shuang Shuang were obvious from the start, I did find it a bit difficult to gauge him. He also knew more than he let on to Shuang Shuang, and he also even had an assistant (Wang Zha Zha, played by Fang Xin) who would help him figure out stuff about both Shuang Shuang and Qi Xun and who even called him ‘Young Master’ (at least in the less-than-perfect subtitles I watched the show in). The first time Kun Lan and Feng Yun walk into Qi Xun and Shuang Shuang cuddling, I found it kind of strange to see that Kun Lan didn’t even seem surprised. I thought this was the first time he got official evidence of the fact that his feelings for Shuang Shuang were one-sided, and that she was actually already together with Qi Xun to the point of getting physical with him. He remained quite stoic throughout the whole thing. It could be that he just kept believing that, even if she chose Qi Xun at first, he himself would always be the most perfect choice for her and she would come to him eventually, but that would’ve given him a level of confidence that I personally didn’t see in him. I just didn’t expect to him to remain so calm after finding out about their relationship. I also found the way he started poisoning Shuang Shuang against Qi Xun after she found out about his original motives to approach her really toxic. He and Feng Yun really went, “🐍He never really loved you, he’s only ever cared about his sister, he’s used you and your feelings for him to his advantage🐍” and I was glad that Shuang Shuang responded with, ‘please just leave me alone for a moment, I need to figure this out by myself’. My respect for Kun Lan really went down a little bit there, when he tried to use her decreasing trust in Qi Xun to his own advantage.
I also found the way he left in the end a bit vague. After Qi Tian had bid him farewell and he knew he was never going to win Shuang Shuang’s affection, he just decided to disappear whoever knows where. We only see him in one short scene with Shi Lang in the end, where he inquires whether Shi Lang ‘took care of something’, which I guess referrerd to Shi Lang sending Qi Xun that one fake postcard of him and Qi Tian getting married. Other than that we don’t really find out what happens to him, so that was kind of an anticlimax for the second male lead character of the show.
Regarding Wan Tian, I was equally surprised to find her so shocked and distraught after Qi Xun rejected her feelings. I was convinced she already knew about how he felt for Shuang Shuang, because she’d already made some remarks and observations (I thought) about their relationship at work. Still, the fact that she confessed her feelings to him on her own birthday made me feel like she expected it to go well. It’s already a risky occasion to do such a thing as it can make the festive mood go either way, but then she was so shocked and started crying so much after his rejection? That kind of confused me, and I also went ‘nahhh’ when she then started acting all petty towards Shuang Shuang afterwards. Her confession happened during a weird time as Qi Xun was in the middle of winning Shuang Shuang back and Shuang Shuang was just in the process of forgiving him. I don’t know, I just kept being surprised by certain characters’ reactions as I’d assumed they were already aware of Qi Xun’s and Shuang Shuang’s relationship.
Lastly, I have something to say about the ending of the show, and with this I mainly mean Qi Tian’s ending. This was the only part that really made me go ‘???’ First of all, I was already a bit annoyed by the fact that Qi Tian KEPT taking peeks into the future when every single time it would result in her passing out. Maybe she was aware of what she was doing as she’d already seen her own death, but it really seemed to me as if she was just being naïve. Like when she went ‘one more peek’ and she saw her brother in the future looking all haggard and lost and she went ‘oh no, why does he look like that’ I literally went ‘BECAUSE YOU’RE GOING TO DIE SOON GIRL’. Like, seriously, even though she’d already figured everything out by herself and took the choice of dying so Qi Xun wouldn’t have to choose between saving her or Shuang Shuang, this just made her seem so freaking naïve. And I felt so bad for Shi Lang when he was carrying her to the hospital (seriously, no taxis around?) and she just spat a whole blorb of blood over his clothes and then went ‘no, don’t take me to a hospital’. I was like, GIRL, you got nothing to say here! Honestly, I found it kind of harsh of her to go all ‘Shi Lang, if you love me, don’t take me there’, actually using his feelings for her against him. Throughout the entire show she acted like she wasn’t aware of his feelings for her, and then this. Not only that, but she actually asked him to LIE to Qi Xun about it. She told him to just tell her brother he took her travelling. In the end we find out Shi Lang has been sending fake postcards from him and Qi Tian to Qi Xun to make him believe they are out travelling together (at least, that’s what I assume as the video I watched didn’t include subtitles for the postcards so I don’t actually know what was written on them that made Qi Xun start gross-sobbing at the end. Kind of a bummer, DramaCool😒).
Anyways, I just found it weird because Qi Xun already found Qi Tian’s journal in which she wrote about her decision and then she and Shi Lang just disappeared on him without a word and he never found out what happened to them besides receiving Shi Lang’s fake postcards. I thought that wasn’t really fair towards Qi Xun as he had always been the one to care for Qi Tian the most, it was him who’d constantly been looking for ways to cure her. The fact that she made that decision by herself without even saying goodbye to her brother, no matter how characteristic of her love for him, was still not really okay in my opinion. Until he received that card stating that Qi Tian and Shi Lang got married (I deducted this from the pictures as, again, I don’t know what was in the letter thanks to the bad subtitling), Qi Xun never stopped looking for the two and he only returns to Shuang Shuang after getting this postcard.
This too, by the way. They all find out about the truth on the same night Qi Tian collapses. Qi Xun and Shuang Shuang had been together just briefly before, walking on the beach where Qi Xun actually PROPOSED and asked Shuang Shuang if she wanted to start a FAMILY with him. When they both found out about this news, they didn’t even get to talk about it with each other. Qi Xun just disappeared after his whole dramatic monologue of how he needed to let go of his past with Shuang Shuang because he couldn’t deal with it anymore after losing Qi Tian(?). But then after getting that postcard a year later (again, no subtitles for the ‘….year(s) later’) he suddenly goes back to her as if nothing’s changed. I was actually happy when Shuang Shuang initially slapped him and started hitting him, because MAN. They should’ve been together while processing what happened to Qi Tian, they should’ve helped each other heal, but no, he just disappeared and then came back on his own terms. I mean, of course I’m happy they still ended up together, but the whole situation, including the build-up to the climax in which first Shen Tong, then Kun Lan and then Qi Tian fell away, gave it such a double feeling and I was kind of angry at Qi Tian for not only rejecting medical help but making Shi Lang do that for her. Qi Xun deserved to be there when his sister, his only remaining family member that he’d spent his entire life taking care of, would pass away and now he didn’t even know what happened to her. I just found that a bit unfair to him. On the other hand, I also found it unfair of him to just disappear on Shuang Shuang after freaking proposing to her, like Shuang Shuang wasn’t even given a chance to decide what she would’ve done, even though it had been the plan from the start to have her cure Qi Tian. It was a bit messy, even though it ultimately ended well.
My final confusion lies with the very last scene. The show ends with several short scenes showing the characters in the aftermath of things, we see Shi Lang making the fake postcards and meeting up with Kun Lan, and we also see Wan Tian in her new element as MIST’s official chief architect. It ends with her being introduced to a new trainee and this is literally the same actor as Qi Xun. I mean, he was a different character but I was like, why didn’t they just introduce a new handsome guy character? Why did it have to be someone with the exact same face as Qi Xun? Like, this just made it seem like Qi Xun had a doppelganger or a lost twin and it just formed more questions than if they’d simply introduced a new trainee for Wan Tian to fall in love with. It may have been a trivial detail, but it definitely made me go ‘???’, especially since it was the very final scene of the entire series.

Something I appreciated about this show is its attention to detail and the fact they came back to certain things or ended up explaining things that might have otherwise been plot holes or loose ends. For example, how they ended up tying everyone’s shared past together.
Qi Xun somehow has a memory of ending up at Xun Xue’s place after his parents’ car accident and during the confrontation with Zheng Chang he remembers being present during the fire that took both Xun Xue and Zheng Chang’s brother. As it turns out, the day of the car accident Qi Xun’s parents had just bought a painting from Feng Yun (who was a painter himself) which showed Xun Xue and their house. As soon as the accident happened and Qi Xun’s powers manifested, he undeliberately teleported to the place inside the painting, and that’s where Xun Xue found him and brought him in. He also remembers her collapsing after healing him and accidentally setting the house on fire, after which Zheng Chang’s brother appeared. Zheng Chang’s brother actually saved little Shuang Shuang and Qi Xun from the house before going back inside for Xun Xue, only to witness her going up in green sparkles and by then it had been too late for him to escape himself. The only error here lay in the fact that Qi Xun couldn’t have personally witnessed Xun Xue going up in green sparkled as he’d already been carried out of the house by then. 
As another example, in an earlier flashback we’d seen Feng Yun collapsing outside of the house at seeing the fire, crying about the loss of his wife even though he didn’t have any visual evidence that she was in the house yet. Later it’s revealed that he knew she was dead because he saw the green sparkles dance among the flames, and he knew her body would turn into those sparkles as soon as she died. Little things like that, that just made me go ‘ahh, so that’s how he knew’ just contributed to my enjoyment of the show. I appreciated that they made the effort to clarify several details in certain events.
Admittedly, the fact that Zheng Chang’s entire revenge plan was based on a misunderstanding was a bit of a bitter pill to swallow. It usually kind of debunks the storyline for me, although it didn’t bother me that much here. I personally always find it so annoying when a bad guy goes, ‘TELL THE TRUTH!’ and then, after being told the truth, they’re like, ‘YOU’RE LYING!’, like, do you want the truth or not? I’m glad at least Zheng Chang was able to open his eyes to his own madness when Jian Bai was even willing to set herself on fire if that meant that he would let his vengeance rest. After his story ended, they still let him come back briefly in the final episode, showing him at a Buddhist temple to pray and burn some incense for his brother, so that was a nice final closure moment for his character.

Before going on to my cast comments and conclusion I just want to mention a couple more things, one of them being, as I mentioned this before, the fact that the writers played with the relativity of supernatural powers. I thought it was really powerful that they actually showed a darker side to it, emphasizing the downside of the powers rather than the fantastical awesomeness of them. The fact that everyone with powers, ‘talented’, ‘healers’ and ‘guardians’, were basically fated to suffer in one way or another gave an unexpected edge to the show that I didn’t see coming. In hindsight it really made me think that everything is so relative. Even things you foresee in the future may not happen the way they seem. It just gave a different layer and load to it all. Despite being allegedly aware of her powers and how they worked, Qi Tian still remained naïve in interpreting them, she still failed to consider the true twists and turns her visions could take.
I also want to comment on the series’ title, because I’m actually not sure what the English title ‘Flipped’ could possibly refer to. The Chinese title apparently translates to something completely different, something along the lines of ‘When I Like You, The Wind is So Sweet’ or ‘I Like You When The Wind is Sweet’. That title also doesn’t make much sense to me, as it’s never mentioned as a phrase and there’s no reference to any sweet wind throughout the show. I find it hard to come up with a suitable title myself, which isn’t my job of course, but I think both these titles are actually quite ambiguous and don’t necessarily refer to any specific key element of the show.
Lastly, I just want to address some reviews and comments I saw on MyDramaList, as many people seemed to have been disappointed by the development and the ending of this drama, and even described the writing as bad and the acting as cringe-worthy. I don’t agree with that. The only cringe-worthy thing to me was the dubbing, but the acting itself didn’t bother me at all and I’m usually very critical on that. I also thought the writing was pretty good, as I mentioned they paid attention to detail, the dialogues were good and the humor was actually funny. I also don’t understand why people would find the ending so disappointing, as people’s ratings usually depend on the main couple ending up together and that was the case so what’s the complaining about? I only found the ending confusing and a bit bothersome when it came to how they wrapped things up with Qi Tian, or rather how she chose to wrap her own story up and took Shi Lang with her in that, but besides that I honestly don’t have much to criticize. I wasn’t sure what the story would be about, I only knew there would be some fantastical element in it and I think they incorporated it well enough into the story without making it too far-fetched. I’m glad I watched it with an open mind and I was able to enjoy it just fine. So yeah, that’s as far as my commentary goes.

Let’s go on the cast comments now! As usual with Chinese dramas, I knew absolutely none of the cast members which made it very refreshing and exciting to watch. What I found interesting when looking up the cast is that about half of the actors is actually Taiwanese, and now I’m wondering if that may have contributed to the reason for the dubbing, as some people may have had different accents? I’m not sure, but I found it interesting.

I have the feeling that I have some more dramas on my list with Gao Han Yu, but I’d never seen him before. For some reason his face gave me Hwang In Yeop-vibes… maybe it’s the slanted eyes🤷🏻‍♀️. Anyways, I liked seeing different sides of his acting in this show. He made such an obvious typecast for a stoic, pokerfaced evil boss, but I really liked that he showed some silly and funny sides as well. He occasionally had me laughing out loud with his facial expressions and I actually went😳😳a couple of times in the kissing scenes because he definitely brought the sexy back! Although I found him a little bit overdramatic at times, it still didn’t bother me enough to get annoyed with his character. Honestly, until his character’s final decision to disappear from Shuang Shuang’s life without a word, I really loved how he was always looking out for her, and literally ‘Apparating’ by her side whenever she was in need. She became all he could think about and I was so glad that he just pushed Shen Tong aside when she started making advances on him, he never once got tempted to just give her one kiss so she would help him or something, he stuck to his morals. I liked his performance. Also, I just realized how well his younger version was cast. Guo Dian Jia really has the same (Hwang In Yeop-vibe) kind of face as Gao Han Yu, I thought that was kind of cool.

I just found out Chen Yu Mi is the same age as me 👀 She has such a beautiful natural smile and I really liked her portrayal of Shuang Shuang. She was so sweet and innocent, but she never became a pushover, she stood her ground and set her boundaries and I really appreciated the fire in her character. I also really loved how well she interacted with her fellow actors, I remember the scene where she was sitting with the boy in the hospital who didn’t know he now had Shen Tong’s heart in him, and the way she was looking at him talk, just pure love and sadness in her eyes… I will personally come for anyone who calls her out for bad acting because it’s simply not true. She performed greatly and I stand by that. I hope I’ll be able to see her in more C-Dramas in the future!

I just found out this was Gu Lan Di’s FIRST drama performance. Funny, because he was the only cast member that made me think I’d seen him in something before, haha. Anyways, I liked the way he portrayed his character. He was such a puppy in appearance, I couldn’t help but feel fluffy when watching him, lol. I kind of liked how they showed more than only his kindness towards Shuang Shuang; they actually made him seem a bit petty and harsh when it came to things that weren’t as important to him, even towards Qi Tian. I would’ve liked his character to get some more final closure though, because he just went away and I was like, ‘where’d you go, man?’. He’s been appearing in several things starting from this year, so I can only hope he’ll be able to develop his acting career and maybe I’ll see him perform in something else in the future.

Adding to the surprise, Flipped was also Lin Yan Rou’s first drama project! It definitely didn’t seem like that. Sure, her character was supposed to act a little childishly, but I also think she did a really good job in portraying the hidden layers of Qi Tian. I remember this scene where she’d just seen the vision of her own death and she was talking happily with her brother, and the second he left the room her eyes suddenly clouded over. Like, she did very well in switching between moods and emotions in my opinion. The dubbing definitely annoyed me a bit in her case, especially in adding all the soft sounds in-between and the way she was whispering to Shi Lang not to take her to the hospital when I couldn’t even see the actress’s lips move. But I wasn’t actually bothered with her acting itself in any way. I think she did exactly what she was supposed to, perform the fragile, innocent little princess who went a bit too far in exploring the boundaries of her cursed powers. I liked that they made her so unexpectedly wise in knowing exactly what was going on, and while I still feel that it wasn’t completely fair of her to just leave her brother out of her decision altogether, I still think it was a very brave and noble thing to do, as she cared for her brother’s happiness with Shuang Shuang more than anything, especially after accepting her own sad fate.

I may not have talked about Wan Tian all that much in this review, but I do think Wang Si Ping was a nice addition to the cast and I also liked her performance. Her image as the ‘Iron Lady’ fell through quite fast as soon as we saw the way she looked at Qi Xun, but I still liked to see how human she was, even in her switching between being mature and petty while she was figuring out how she felt about Shuang Shuang taking up that spot in Qi Xun’s heart that she desired so much herself. I kept feeling that she was a good person who just occasionally slipped up in her way of handling the situation. I liked that despite her instinctive reaction towards Shuang Shuang as a love rival, she kept trying to treat her professionally at work and ended up respecting her for the work she did. I really liked the scene where they got drunk at the same restaurant and there was this brief moment of sisterhood between the two of them, I wanted to believe that Wan Tian did kind of warm up to Shuang Shuang more after that.

Sun Ke Jie also has a very small number of projects to his name, only two! I kind of felt sorry for Shi Lang because he just had to take care of stuff for Qi Xun and then had to go out with Qi Tian at random moments of the day (and night). Occasionally it did feel like his presence was taken a bit for granted, and I still don’t fully forgive Qi Tian for pulling the ‘if you love me’ card on him after ignoring his feelings for her throughout the entire show. What was so good about him was that, despite his own feelings for Qi Tian, he never got actively petty towards Kun Lan, he was actually willing to tolerate Qi Tian getting together with Kun Lan, or with anyone for that matter, as long as it made her happy. He literally says ‘Qi Tian’s life is my life’ in the very first episode. Another example of the consistency in this show was that it ended showing him editing photos of him and Qi Tian, something he was also doing in the first episode when we’re first introduced to him. To keep that element going until the end again proved to me the writers paid attention to detail and knew what they were doing. I felt mostly sorry for Shi Lang, but I really loved how loyal his character was throughout.

Zhu Wen Chao kept reminding me of Kim Sung Chul 👀 again, probably because of his facial features. I kept wondering what his deal was in the beginning when it wasn’t completely clear yet what his intentions were. The fact that he just kidnapped a woman from the care home without first checking if she was actually Xun Xue kind of made me go ‘…’, like if you’re going to make a revenge plan, at least execute it properly. I did appreciate that he didn’t additionally harm Shuang Shuang the first time just because she got involved, because sometimes people get hurt as collateral damage even though they got nothing to do with nothing. But then when he kidnapped her again together with her father and went on about his revenge plan even though Xun Xue was long gone… I also found it fitting that Feng Yun just kept repeating, “you want to know where Xun Xue is?” “you want to know where Xun Xue is?!” because the question was just so ridiculous to him. Although Zheng Chang’s side story may not have seemed completely relevant in the beginning, I did like how they used the climax of it to establish what truly happened the night of that fire and how everyone’s fates had somehow already been intertwined ever since. Besides from the excessive angsty expressions, I think he performed well enough.

Again, I may not have talked that much about Feng Yun before, but Miao Zi Jie definitely did well in portraying the double sides of a concerned father. I think it was a good thing that they explained his past with Xun Xue in the end, because it did justify his actions towards his daughter a little bit. I still found it quite excessive of him to lock her up from the outside world entirely, but I did empathize with his wish for her not to end up like her mother, knowing she possessed the same healer powers. He had personally seen how it had killed his wife, and he knew people would be coming for Shuang Shuang as well once they found out she was Xun Xue’s daughter, so he did everything he could to protect her. He never had any ill intentions towards his daughter, he just escalated a bit in trying to guard her from the dangers of the world. While I understood his initial suspicion towards Qi Xun and Kun Lan, I did feel like he could’ve dropped his guard a little bit once he understood how much they truly cared about his daughter. I did like that when Qi Xun came back to Shuang Shuang in the end, he didn’t butt in, he just stepped back and even cried a little, which suggested that he finally gave them his blessing.

Han Sheng Sheng/Dara Hanfman (apparently she’s half Taiwanese half English, which would explain her slightly different look) also has only two drama titles to her name. I did find her on Instagram and she seems to have her own clothing line, so that’s cool. Anyways, as confused as I initially was about Shen Tong, as she suddenly started blackmailing Qi Xun into getting physical with her so she would help him out (which she wouldn’t have been able to do, in hindsight, as she wasn’t a ‘healer’). It first seemed like she might be two-faced, but I’m glad it was just an act she put on. Still not exactly sure why she felt the need to put the act on, but I’m glad she turned out to be a good person. I also think her story contributed in the way that she, like Xun Xue, became a victim to her own powers as it kept pulling people to her who only wanted to benefit from the way her powers made them feel at ease. It was really sad that she lost the love of her life so suddenly, and I thought it was a really powerful decision of her to get her heart transplanted into the young boy, who was suffering from the same thing as her loved one. Despite her short presence in the story I still think she shared a meaningful message.

I think with this I’ve summed up my comments and opinions about this series well enough. As I said, I may go over it one more time after my busy week (edit: which I did), but I just wanted to get this first version out there before the end of the month (not me setting deadlines for myself, lol). All in all, I found this a very entertaining watch, it was an original story and I liked the characters. I saw some people complaining about the absence of a real threat or bad guy but seriously, it only made for a nice, easy-to-follow story without adding more drama than necessary. Every character contributed something to the story in their own way and despite some debatable decisions and confusions in the end, I don’t really have any serious criticisms to share about it. I’m glad I was able to watch it, as it had been on my list for a long time and I enjoyed it, that’s all that matters to me.

I’m now going to go on with a part of my watchlist that includes several K-Drama that over very much overdue and I’m very excited to finally watch them! I hope to be able to provide my next review within next month but then again I also don’t want to rush anything. I’m not going to spoil anything either, but let me just say that I’m definitely going to get in the summer mood for my next couple of watches.

Thanks for reading all the way through my review again, and until next time!

Bye-bee! ^^

Konya, Katte ni Dakishimetemo Ii Desu Ka?

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Konya, Katte ni Dakishimetemo Ii Desu Ka?
( 今夜、勝手に抱きしめてもいいですか? / Can I Just Hug You Tonight?)
MyDramaList rating: 6.0/10

Hello hello, and welcome to this short in-between review! I think I’ve mentioned it a couple of times before, but one thing I enjoy about Japanese dramas is that they’re always so short and light, very easy to digest and enjoy. After my last watch I was desperate for some light entertainment, and I definitely got that out of this show. I was a bit confused as there seems to be very little known about this series, it didn’t even have a page on DramaWiki or AsianWiki. So, like I did for Good Morning Call, I created the page myself, feel free to check it out here. It’s a very simple and short story with a small cast of characters, so it shouldn’t be too hard to write a review about it. Beside it being a very “typical” Japanese romcom which definitely lacked a lot of depth, there were still things that jumped out to me that I appreciated and liked about it. Let’s get going!

Konya, Katte ni Dakishimetemo Ii Desu Ka? is a 12-episode J-Ddrama, with episodes of 24 minutes each, an enjoyable length to binge-watch. The story is about college student Saeki Riko (played by Yahagi Honoka), who despite her easygoing nature doesn’t really have a clear idea of what she wants to pursue in life. When it comes to romance, she’s also quite clumsy as she tends to just go out with whoever confesses his love to her, and she always ends up backing out when she realizes that mutual feelings are required in order to make a relationship work. Riko lives with her best friend Amamiya Yoshino (played by Kamura Mami), who is striving to become a kindergarten teacher. They met Shindo Arata (played by Nakao Masaki) in their college bouldering club, and they often hang out together at the girls’ house to have takoyaki parties etc. Arata has been in love with Riko since the first time he was introduced to her. Yoshino has been in love with Arata since she was first introduced to him. Riko is oblivious to both these facts, as she herself still can’t let go of her childhood friend and first love ‘Shu-chan’, whom she hasn’t seen in years.
After dating a co-worker escalates into a stalker situation and Riko decides it’s better to look for a new job, Arata suggests she come work with him, as they are always looking for young, new employees at his team. He works for a business that aims to redevelop their city with new creative ideas to make it more attractive (it reminded me a bit of Project Atami). When Riko gladly accepts the opportunity and arrives at her new job, fate has it that there, she meets her first love again. ‘Shu-chan’, aka Ichihara Shuji (played by Mizuno Masaru) is now a promising photographer who works in the same share office building as Riko and Arata. For Riko, it’s as if nothing’s changed between them, but Shuji initially acts like he doesn’t recognize her and treats her indifferently. However, as they gradually reconnect this doesn’t go unnoticed by Shuji’s agent Fukai Midoriko (played by Iriyama Noriko), who is bent on him not getting distracted in pursuing his dream of becoming a professional photographer. Besides that, she’s also personally interested, if not slightly obsessed, with Shuji herself.
While Riko and Shuji gradually close the gap between them as former childhood friends, they get caught up in a romantic turbulence (as MDL so strikingly puts it) as everyone’s feelings come out in the open, sometimes not the way they wanted. We’re dealing with a love pentagon this time, not your good old triangle. In-between this romantic turbulence, Riko also sets about finding a dream of her own, which she ultimately finds in wedding planning.

Let me just talk about the main characters briefly before going on to my comments about the story.
To start, let’s talk about Riko. We first get to know her after yet another failed dating attempt with someone she doesn’t have feelings for. From the very first episode on, we learn that Riko is very honest about her feelings, she brings her thoughts into words very clearly, and it’s easy to understand her way of thinking. She’s also very good at reflecting, sometimes even too good. When her co-worker/ex-boyfriend ends up ambushing her and she sees how he can’t let her go, she immediately blames herself for leading him on and not drawing a line earlier. She easily blames herself for (indirectly) causing other people trouble or misfortune, also in situations when it’s really not her fault. She’s a very open, easygoing and cheerful lady with an easy smile that quickly draws people in. Despite her accessible personality, she also tends to live in her own world a bit. When she meets Shuji again and he doesn’t immediately confirm that he is indeed her childhood friend, she starts monitoring him to gather evidence that he must be her ‘Shu-chan’. I can’t deny I found it kind of funny that she basically set up a PowerPoint presentation to convince Shuji that he was ‘Shu-chan’, as if he wouldn’t know that himself. On the other hand, this also shows her determination, to follow through with whatever it is she wants to achieve.
What I really liked about Riko was that she was so open and honest about her feelings. Whenever an occasion occurred in which she had a conflict with someone close to her, she immediately set out to talk about it, and she really cared about other people’s feelings. She didn’t make too much drama out of things that didn’t concern her personally, she was just living her own life, she was living in the moment, and her uncomplicatedness was very welcome to me. Yes, she certainly had some slightly immature tendencies and she was oblivious as heck, but she never became annoying in my opinion. In her defense, despite it being obvious how her friends were feeling about her and each other, they never told her before, so how was she supposed to know about it? You can’t just always assume everyone reads the room the same way.

As Riko’s best friend, Yoshino was put in a bit of an awkward spot with her feelings for Arata. She already knew he fancied Riko, and when Yoshino was alone with him it was always a bit more awkward than when Riko was with them. But then again, her feelings were really relatable. Sure, I was wondering from the start why she hadn’t told Riko anything in the entire two years since she started liking Arata, and her getting annoyed with Riko for being thoughtless or senseless while Riko didn’t have a clue what she was talking about was a bit unfair. But I did like that she never became petty towards Riko. I couldn’t blame her for sometimes getting fed up with the fact that Riko was so oblivious, but she did end up solving her own problem by ultimately confessing to Arata, and when he rejected her, she really just went ‘oh well’ and went on with her life. In contrast to Arata himself, who kind of kept clinging to Riko even after she rejected him, Yoshino immediately dealt with the rejection so maturely, she just decided not to waste anymore time on her unrequited feelings and immediately got over it. It was nice that she already got a date so soon after, the rejection really seemed to have fallen off of her and that was very nice. I always appreciate it when people don’t add too much drama to their unrequited feelings and just get on with their lives if it doesn’t work out.

Speaking of Arata, my boy had it bad. It was a cruel cosmic joke that he ended up being the person to reunite Riko and Shuji. I did feel like he was a bit more greedy and selfish in his feelings for Riko, but he was also able to relate and eventually deal with the fact that she didn’t like him back. Something that I felt through this series on several occasions was that you can’t force your feelings onto someone. No matter how deeply you feel for them, if it’s not mutual, you just have to deal with that. Pushing it won’t make things better, on the contrary. I’m glad that Arata stayed at Riko’s side as her friend, but I did feel like somehow it wasn’t as easy for him to let go. He kept involving himself in Riko’s love life in the sense that he kept confronting Shuji with how he was treating Riko, and that’s where I went a little 😬 because that really shouldn’t have been any of his business. He kept acting like Riko’s knight in shining armor, he kept trying to protect her instead of letting her deal with her own stuff. On the other hand, I couldn’t help but feel for him as he was a really good guy and despite the fact that it was killing him inside to see Riko and Shuji grow closer after he was rejected, he never let anything jeopardize his friendship with Riko. I also liked how sweet and apologetic he was towards Yoshino when he couldn’t return her feelings, he actually hugged her back for a moment before he said sorry and I’m just glad they were able to go back to normal without too much awkwardness afterwards.

Of all the people, Shuji was the person who was the least clear in voicing what he was going through. While everyone was confessing and getting rejected and being honest about their feelings, he was the only person that made me go, ‘dude, no one is going to know what you’re thinking if you don’t say anything’. I also found the transition of him being all ‘the Shuji you knew from childhood is gone’ to suddenly being on good terms with Riko again kind of strange. It was as if I missed some build-up and for all I knew he really just cared for her as a precious childhood friend. Especially since he was getting it on with Midoriko a couple of times and I initially didn’t think that was just to distract himself. I mean, the way he kissed Midoriko was much more passionate than that one final kiss between him and Riko in the final episode. I guess he was passionate about distracting himself 🙄 Anyways, his feelings were the least clear to me of all the characters and that was a shame because I really wanted to know what was going on inside his head. Instead, this is the farthest removed I’ve felt from a ‘male lead’ character in a long time. Even when he eventually talked to Yoshino and Arata about what Midoriko was plotting, he still didn’t speak clearly and the two really had to pull the words out of him. I would’ve liked to get a bit more clarity from him from the start, because now I did not feel the build-up between him and Riko, and I would’ve liked to root for the main couple a bit more.

Midoriko was that typical petty J-Drama chick that, if she doesn’t kill you with frustration, she just makes you laugh because she’s just so unbelievable. In my case, it was the latter. She was just so typical, I couldn’t with her. As the oldest of all the main characters, she was the most child-like of them all. As the daughter of a very influential CEO and Shuji’s agent, she had a lot of connections but instead of taking a more professional approach of, for example, getting Shuji the chance to go abroad so he would be away from Riko while still keeping his career and dreams in mind, she decided it would be better to threaten him into marrying her under the condition that she made Riko’s newfound dream of becoming a wedding planner at her father’s company come true. Like, the fact that she went that far and that it became all about either Riko or Shuji giving up their dream for each other, was just laughable because it was so ridiculous. That a grown and established woman like herself would go to such lengths just because she was jealous that Shuji was falling for his childhood friend – because it had absolutely nothing to do with him ‘getting distracted’, he was professional enough – was kind of wild to me. Despite the fact that she was constantly going ‘what the heck am I doing’ to herself, which suggested she was aware of how crazy she was being, she still didn’t stop and only became crazier. I was also surprised how she managed to string Shuji along, because he could’ve been like ‘nah man’ much earlier in my opinion, it shouldn’t have taken him that long to see what she was trying to pull.

I want to establish something with regard to my previous review about The One and Only. I usually don’t compare my ratings as I decide by feeling, but just in case people are following my reviews chronologically and wonder why I gave this show a higher rating than the previous one, I will give an explanation about that now as I’ve debated about it myself as well. While KonDaki may not be as heavily loaden or in-depth, one major thing I liked about it was the communication between the main characters – and the actors, for that matter. It just helps me make sense so much better if I can relate to the characters’ feelings, and despite it being a bit cringy now and then, I really liked how well the actors connected with each other. They were constantly paying attention, looking at and listening to each other, and in conveying their feelings I could really see their responses develope very naturally. Everyone was processing their emotions clearly and realistically, and I thought everyone was very good in their facial expressions as well. I could see that they all took their characters and their feelings seriously, and so it didn’t matter if their lines were cheesy, the delivery was sincere and that is something I really missed from my last watch. There was a huge difference in how they communicated with each other. Even in the case of Midoriko with her crazy eyes, she went for it without holding back and I respected that, even though I still didn’t like her character. So yeah, I just wanted to explain that because I couldn’t help think about it myself when I rated this show. This is how much I love healthy communication in a drama, it can literally add an entire point to my rating of a show, haha.

Let me talk a bit about the relationships between all the characters in more detail. First of all, the friendship between Riko, Yoshino and Arata. We see in a flashback that they met about two years before the story starts, when Arata joined the bouldering club that Riko and Yoshino were members of (I guess it was just the three of them since there were never any other people present during their bouldering sessions). In their first conversation, we see the exact moment in which Arata falls for Riko, as well as the moment that Yoshino falls for Arata, despite immediately seeing the way he looks at her best friend. I found their friendship really nice to watch. The way they always hung out at the girls’ house, the way Yoshino would always prepare stuff to fry and eat together, how they went bouldering together. It’s always the three of them, so you don’t actually get to dissect their individual connections with each other until one member is suddenly absent. It was a bit sad that while Yoshino didn’t mind being alone with Arata -in fact, she tried creating opportunities but he would always keep inviting Riko as well- Arata always got a bit awkward when it was just the two of them, and he’d always keep asking where Riko was. Still, the way he rejected her confession made me feel that he really cared about her as a friend, and I really loved that he didn’t push her away when she hugged him, that he even held her by her arms for a moment before he said what she already expected. I was glad that they went back to being normal friends afterwards, it only showed how much their friendship meant to them both. While Yoshino moved on pretty swiftly, Arata had more difficulty letting go. I kind of felt Riko’s unease with him at some points, for example when he hugged her from behind on that bridge that one time and basically told her to rely on him and use him to get over Shuji… I was like, how could he expect Riko to take advantage of his feelings like that? Like, I get that his feelings were more difficult to push down after his rejection and that it annoyed him to see Shuji, the guy Riko rejected him for, not facing up to his feelings towards her, but I really went, ‘Arata bro, let it go, don’t do this to yourself’ a couple of times. It would’ve been healthier for him to just move on like Yoshino did. On the other hand, I also liked that they showed different ways of moving on/dealing with rejection with different characters. After all, everyone deals with it their own way.

With the whole premise of Riko and Shuji being childhood friends and Riko having had a crush on him as a kid and all… once they were reunited, honestly, that’s all it felt like to me. It never actually became more, I didn’t really feel any romantic love between them. To me, their relationship felt like it was based on Riko’s childhood crush on Shuji, and Shuji’s wish to protect Riko as his sister-like childhood friend.
As I mentioned before, the switch from Shuji’s indifferent ‘I’ve changed, the boy you once loved is gone’ attitude to them suddenly going hiking and bonding together was a bit sudden and I kept feeling like I was missing developments between them. If it weren’t for Shuji occasionally mentioning that he liked Riko to Arata or someone else, I honestly wouldn’t have been able to gauge what he was truly feeling for her. For all I knew, he really did see her as just a childhood friend, and they both seemed comfortable enough with that. When he initially rejected her, I think Riko dealt with it quite maturely, despite the fact that it hurt her she really tried to accept that he must have never seen her as more than a childhood friend, and she was willing to deal with that as long as they could remain good friends. She was even able to acknowledge his alleged feelings for Midoriko when she heard about him ‘giving up his dream to marry her’, even though it hurt her a lot. She was willing to suffer while she let him go fulfill his dream, it was never her intention to stand in his way or claim a part in his life by force, like Midoriko tried to do. I actually quite liked the friendship between Riko and Shuji, even without the alleged romance which I wasn’t feeling. They pulled off being friends quite realistically.
One point of confusion I want to add in here is that I didn’t quite understand when exactly Shuji started liking Riko. At one point it’s suggested that he already liked her from when they were childhood friends, and that he even started pursuing his dream of taking pictures in space because of Riko. Through this, Arata even makes the deduction that he never actually stood a chance, because the two of them already liked each other way before he even came into the picture. But then at the end, when Shuji finally comes clean about his true feelings for Riko, he says ‘I don’t know when it started, but I started falling for you’, suggesting that he only fell for her after they were reunited. As it was suggested before that he started pursuing photography because of Riko and even for her, to show her his pictures taken from the sky, I assumed he must’ve been keeping her in mind the entire time, even when he didn’t expect to ever see her again. Like, I thought it was established that he’d had feelings for her ever since way back when. But now he just ‘happened to fall in love’ with the same girl who incidentally also inspired his entire dream and career from when he was a kid? As I already wasn’t completely up to speed with their romantic development, this made it even less clear to me as I had no idea when or where his character must have started falling for Riko, he kind of remained the same throughout the entire series. From Riko’s side, it was more than clear what her feelings were from the start, and she also showed the most initiative in her feelings for Shuji, like in the way she remembered all of this habits and quirks from when they were kids. She really showed how much she’d been thinking about him all this time, while on the other hand Shuji apparently only really started noticing her after they were reunited. I just felt like they weren’t quite on the same wavelength from the start, and this created a bit of an inbalance in the portrayal of their feelings for each other.

Also, what the heck was going on between Shuji and Midoriko? I thought their relationship was purely professional, even when Midoriko was being clingy with him, but he actually went along with making out with her a couple of times and I wasn’t quite sure if that was only because he wanted to distract himself from thinking about Riko. It seemed to me that this had already been going on for a while, from even before he was reunited with Riko. Also, why would he go against his feelings for Riko so much? What was so bad about him falling for her? It couldn’t possibly have been worse than him getting intimate with his own agent. Why would he feed into Midoriko’s delusion that he was interested in her and not take her obsession with him seriously until so much later? I had the feeling he knew exactly what kind of person she was, so it kind of baffled me that it took him so long to acknowledge that she had been creating drama for Riko. Also, why did he even agree to that ridiculous engagement arrangement? They were acting as if that was really the only solution, the only way out and I was just like, dude, seriously, have some self-respect and get yourself out of there, it’s not like she actually has anything to say or do about how you choose to live your life. His decision to call it off also came kind of randomly, because in the scene before he even confirmed again to Yoshino and Arata that this was the only way for him to go. I was so glad that Riko had been listening in, because otherwise she would’ve never known his side of the story. I loved how she took matters into her own hands and just went into the office declining the job offer from her side, telling Shuji that he didn’t need to keep protecting her as if she was a little kid. Also, when Midoriko was like ‘you’ll never be able to work in this industry’ (bitch, who are you to decide that?), Riko was like ‘I don’t care, I’ll work extra hard, as long as I don’t have to be associated with the company that treated Shu-chan this way’ I was like 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 Riko was the only person who saw sense and chose for the clearest solution right then and there, and I was super proud of her for being so mature, more than the two grown adults in front of her. I also liked that she walked away from that dinner, because there was literally no reason she should’ve put herself through that.

I believe that if Midoriko wasn’t so bent on bringing Riko down, she could’ve easily been a pretty good senpai to her. When she was being nice, she seemed to be really easygoing and understanding of people. I was honestly thrown off by how nice she was to Riko when she offered to help with the weddding party, I didn’t even believe she was faking it at that point. It seemed that, despite her plan to get Riko in trouble for using a wrong photo, she was actually interested in helping out. When she was like that, I really thought, ‘look, she can actually be nice, it’s not that hard’. It was just a bit frustrating that, while everyone was just living their own lives and solving their own problems, she was the one adding focus and weight to the relationship between Riko and Shuji. Even when the two in question were perfectly happy with their newly ignited friendship (before it even became more than that), she kept being like, ‘you care that much about her? you’re willing to give up everything for that girl?’ Like, even when she was the one responsible for getting Riko in trouble and even jeopardizing Shuji’s career, when Shuji had to go kneel in apology and fix the situation, Midoriko always kept going back to, ‘this is how far you’re willing to go for her?’ Even when it wasn’t about Riko per se, the way she kept focussing so much attention on that, more than the actual people involved, was kind of annoying. Like, if she’d done it purely with Shuji’s career in mind and at least prioritized his dream above anything else, I would’ve been able to see where she was coming from as his agent. But now, despite always claiming to put everything on the line for Shuji to grow as a professional, she pulled stuff that took his dreams away from him more than Riko ever did. She just became so immature and greedy in her personal feelings that I kind of lost respect for her as a professional agent. She should’ve at least kept Shuji’s dream as a priority before she started treating it as something to hold over him to manipulate him. I remember a situation from Hajimete Koi wo Shita Hi ni Yomu Hanashi where this guy was forced to remarry his ex-wife purely to save someone else from facing jeopardy, and it’s just wild to me how this is apparently a recurring trope.

When it wasn’t about the unrequited feelings and the rejections, they added in some random parts to emphasize the friendship between the main characters. Admittedly, they were a bit Captain Obvious in how they created a conversation leading up to ‘Anyways, next time on KonDaki!’, but I did like that they added some random back-and-forth dialogue between Riko and Yoshino, for example. I remember one scene when they were eating pizza (or something) and Riko was like, ‘Let’s clean up and go to bed’ and they kept ushering the other person to clean up the mess, lol. They filled about ten seconds with them literally going, ‘Douzo’… ‘Douzo’… ‘Douzo.’ I thought it was kind of funny, but only because, like I said before, the actors really went for it, despite it sometimes being a little cheesy or lame. I could appreciate that they wanted to show some light and funny interactions in-between the dramatic events of the story.

I feel like I’m already running out of things to say, but hey, that’s what you get for reviewing a short and relatively unproblematic drama, haha. Before I head towards my conclusion I just want to mention a few points that I found a bit random or weird.
First of all, in terms of practical things, the title of the show. I understand that there is an original work of this story, but I couldn’t find anything about it, even whether it’s a manga or a novel. Anyways, although the title of this series, which translates as something along the lines of ‘Can I Selfishly Embrace You Tonight?’ sounds like any typical J-Drama title, I didn’t actually understand what it referred to. It didn’t have a direct link to a specific event in the story and it’s never mentioned as a phrase in the series, either. I just wondered where it came from and what it referred to. I personally didn’t really feel like it related to the story in any particular way.
Secondly, the opening sequence. I mean, I get that the red thread of fate is a popular theme in Japanese love stories, but again, despite the fact that it added dramatic effect, there was no direct lead to anything that happened in the show. The red thread of fate is never even mentioned by any of the characters, they never even talk about ‘destiny’ or anything like that, and I just wondered why they chose for an opening sequence including the red thread of fate while it had nothing to do with the story. The characters aren’t even bound to each other by fate, besides Riko and Shuji, none of them even knew each other before college/work and despite some people ending up together, I never once felt like they were ‘bound by fate’. So yeah, I found it a bit random, even as a typically used theme. Additionally, I always get a bit sceptical when a sequence shows the main characters staring blankly into the camera, because it never conveys any kind of emotion to me. I guess it’s supposed to give a dreamy or dramatic vibe, but it didn’t make sense to me to show all the main characters in this dazed, stoic and emotionless state, as they never appear like this throughout the show. It just made me wonder what the opening sequence was supposed to convey. I had no idea what to think about it, I couldn’t gauge what I was supposed to be getting from that opening.
As for the ending sequence (loved the song, by the way, and it was nice that the singer made a cameo appearance as a florist at some point), it showed at least some reference to the story as it depicted the characters in settings that often appeared in the series, and I guess the tears referred to them all processing their complicated/unrequited feelings. So, despite the kind of pasted-on dramaticness of that, I could see where it came from. Don’t get me started on the fakeness of those tears though, because I’m still not sure if they were CGI or just tear liquid, lol.
Lastly, and this pertains to the story, but how the freaking heck did they come up with the decision to have Arata and Midoriko end up together?! Seriously, that made the least sense to me out of everything. If anything I would’ve rooted for Arata and Yoshino to still end up together, but this?! It was so random, out-of-the-blue and misplaced, I couldn’t even be positively surprised. I just went, WHAT?! when they showed Riko advising on their wedding party, and them being all lovey-dovey with each other. That was just… something I definitely didn’t ask for. There was no need for anyone to end up with anyone besides Riko and Shuji (which also wasn’t even a necessity for me to be honest), but to then push two people together who literally had NOTHING to do with each other the entire show? As in, right, they worked in the same office building, but Arata was just as pissed at her as anyone for what she did to Riko. This was the last thing I expected to happen and I didn’t care for it at all.

I think I’ve said about everything I wanted now, so let’s go on to the cast comments!

I’m not gonna lie, I might be a little bit biased towards Yahagi Honoka. I just like her so much. To this day she remains to be my favorite ever Kotoko (loved that little reference to ItaKiss in the first episode by the way, when she was handing out ItaKissaten vouchers, no way that escaped me xD) and I just generally like her way of acting. I think it’s in the way she always completely goes for it, she’s not afraid to show exaggerated expressions and she always takes her character very seriously, even though she has to act in a petty or cheesy way. I saw some comments on MDL about how, if you hated her character in ItaKiss you also wouldn’t be able to stand her here, like people were actually comparing this show to ItaKiss and I don’t understand it because it’s nothing alike. Riko wasn’t anything like Kotoko in expressing her feelings to Shuji, so that comparison can be thrown right out of the window as far as I’m concerned. She was much more mature and collected, and even in her feelings for Shuji she never let herself get dragged away. I liked the genuinety with which she portrayed Riko a lot. To me, she just has the ability to convey her character’s feelings in a very realistic and relatable way, and she always seems to be really in the moment, never pasted on.
So far I’ve only seen her in Itazura na Kiss, Kizoku Tantei and Nee Sensei, Shiranai no?, where she played the FL’s love rival and showed a petty side for the first time. I feel like she’ll always get casted for a sweet girl because of her lovely smile and tendency to give a bit of a ditzy/clumsy touch to her character, but I’d really love to see more variety from her, because I’m convinced she’d also be able to pull off roles that might not be so typical. Can’t wait to see more of her!

I understand that Mizuno Masaru was the leader of a Japanese idol group called BOYS AND MEN (I see that he ‘graduated’ from the group last year). Based on his looks, I’m not particularly surprised. I have to say, that despite the lack of clarity I got from Shuji’s character, I didn’t dislike his acting. He could’ve given more in his expressions as he tended to be a bit stoic, but I could see that there was something going on behind his eyes, and he was definitely feeling his character. If it weren’t for the confusion I felt with regards to Shuji’s feelings for Riko, also in combination with what exactly his relationship with Midoriko was, I would’ve probably liked his performance a bit more, but I still think he did relatively well. I haven’t seen any other dramas with him, but maybe he’ll start doing more acting jobs now that he’s graduated from his idol group? Any case, I wish him luck in his further career!

I haven’t seen anything from Nakao Masaki before either, but I quite liked his performance as Arata. I think he did really well with his expressions, and I could tell he was connecting and communicating with his fellow actors very well. Despite the fact that he got to take on some of the more possibly ‘cringy’ stuff, like back hugging his unrequited crush and yelling at Shuji about how he shouldn’t make Riko cry, I could tell he was really going for it, he took his character very seriously and that made him consistently sympathetic throughout the show. Even if the lines were a bit dramatic, he delivered them very sincerely and I appreciated that. I wonder if I’ll see more stuff from him in the future. I wouldn’t mind, he seems talented!

Just like Mizuno Masaru (and the drama itself until I made it), Kamura Mami doesn’t have a DramaWiki page, and I found her on AsianWiki. Apparently she’s only been in two other projects. I thought she was really good as Yoshino. She had this really sweet, motherly vibe around her, I just got that from the way she always took care of Riko and cooked for her friends. I really appreciated how real her character was, she wasn’t a pushover, she got annoyed like anyone would in certain occasions, but she never pushed it on others and she dealt with her own issues by herself very maturely. I thought it was really nice to see how she went on with her life after Arata rejected her, even after having liked him for two years. She never let her envy of Riko in her position get the better of her, she knew it wasn’t worth destroying their friendship over something like that. I also really liked her realness in terms of response. She got properly ‘ what the actual f–‘ angry at Midoriko and Shuji over how they were treating Riko. I remember that scene when Shuji told them about what Midoriko had done and how this was the only thing he could do to ‘protect’ Riko’s dream and how Yoshino was just looking at him like ‘🤨??!!’, like ‘ what the heck are you even talking about, man’. Her expression conveyed exactly what I was feeling as I was listening to his vague explanation, so I really aligned with her there, haha. I hope she gets to be in more stuff, I really liked her here.

I don’t recognize Iriyama Noriko from anything, but I see now that she appeared in an episode of Mondai no Aru Restaurant. I don’t remember her from there, but I liked that show a lot. Anyways, she was definitely a little all over the place with her expressions, it felt like she was the least able to get her face under control. I mean, it worked in her favor, especially when she started going a bit cuckoo. She was definitely a good fit for the role of Midoriko in terms of her typecasting as a business lady, and I liked her only at times when she was just focussing on her work and not on trying to sabotage Riko and Shuji’s friendship, even before it became more than that. I see she’s done a lot of dramas so far, ever since 2005. In terms of character, I couldn’t but feel like she stood apart from the other four. She didn’t really belong to their circle and she felt a bit like the odd one out, also in the opending and ending themes. I didn’t feel like she belonged in the love pentagon as much as the rest, to be honest. Her only link was Shuji (still not acknowledging her with Arata), so her position within the “romantic turbulence” felt a bit different. It also bothered me a little that she was supposedly the eldest out of all of them and therefore the one who should’ve acted like a proper adult the most, but she ended up being the most childish of them all. She was a little child that couldn’t get the piece of cake she wanted, so then went on doing a bunch of cumbersome things that would make the person who didn’t want to give her the cake miserable, even though that didn’t actually solve her problem either. On the other hand, I wasn’t bothered by her as much as I would’ve in a different setting. It helped that the series itself was so light, because now her pettiness just became laughable and even slightly entertaining to me rather than purely frustrating and annoying.

I want to give one final recognition to Takemori Sento who played Arata and Riko’s boss, Mr. Ninomiya. I really liked him! He seemed like a super fun boss and he was always really nice and funny. I liked how they worked with him in organizing that wedding party for him and his future wife, and how he was so supportive of Riko finding her dream in that successful endeavor. I don’t know him from anything else either, but I just wanted to mention him since I liked his character a lot.

So yeah, overall I thought it was an entertaining watch. It’s short, it’s light, the drama in terms of unrequited crushes and rejections is dealt with very swiftly as soon as it starts, there are no major dragged-out confrontations or conflicts between people and everyone communicates with each other. Despite the typicalness of it, the occasional cringy lines or dramatic gestures, I generally liked the acting and the cast. The story was simple and it was easy to relate to the characters. Short stories like these are always a nice kind of pallet cleanser after watching a bunch of lengthy or heavy shows, so I welcomed it warmly. Even the fact that I didn’t actually feel the relationship or chemistry between the main couple that much wasn’t enough to make me dislike this. It was enough for me to see how well the actors acted together, it really made me want to join one of their takoyaki parties.

Next up is a Chinese series because I haven’t watched one of those in a while. After that we’re going back to K-Drama for a while, so let’s enjoy some variety while we can, shall we? Thanks again for reading all the way through this review, I was originally planning to write it later but the mood to finish the final episode just came over me in the middle of the day, so I went with the flow, haha.

Until next time!

Bye-bee! x

The One and Only

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

The One and Only
(한 사람만 / Han Saramman / Just One Person)
MyDramaList rating: 5.0/10

Hi everyone! June is here and so am I, with a new review. The weather is only getting warmer here, and while I try to enjoy it as much as I can, I also have started studying for a new endeavor. I’m still glad I was able to finish this series in-between, because I wouldn’t have wanted to drag it out longer than necessary. I’ll say from the start that the thoughts I will express in this review might belong to the ‘unpopular opinion’ category, as I’ve seen many positive and supportive reviews about this show. After debating on how to rate it, I’ve decided to go for a slightly lower rating based on the fact that I have more critical comments to list than things I liked about it. I do want to emphasize that I acknowledge the intended message, and that I don’t want to dismiss it based on its serious themes. The way they chose to go about it just didn’t really work for me. Let me just give a trigger warning: this series deals with themes like domestic violence, child neglect/abuse/abandonment, terminal illness and death.

The One and Only is a 16-episode K-Drama with episodes of about 1 hour and 10 minutes each. The story is about Pyo In Sook (played by Ahn Eun Jin), a young woman with an unfortunate past who works as a skin scrubber in a local sauna. Her mother disappeared from her life when she was young, and then her father basically dumped her at her grandmother’s place and never looked back. Growing up with her grandmother Yook Sung Ja (played by Go Doo Shim), In Sook has always been quite gloomy and pessimistic. She’s made peace with the fact that her life sucks and doesn’t really care much about living happily. The only person In Sook seems to care about besides her grandmother is a little girl from her neighborhood called Ha San Ah (played by Seo Yeon Woo). San Ah’s father Ha Yong Geun is an alcoholic with very abusive tendencies and is known to beat his wife and daughter in his drunken fits. San Ah’s mother Woo Kyung Mi, his main target, manages to sneak out of the house to earn some money so she can get San Ah out as well, nonetheless leaving her daughter alone with her dangerous husband for some time. In Sook and her grandmother have helped San Ah out several times when she was running or trying to hide from her father. Everyone knows about the girl’s situation, but it never changes and it always ends with San Ah having to go back home.
One day, In Sook has a dizzy spell at work and when she gets a check-up done at the hospital, she learns that she has a brain tumor. Not just that, but it’s already developed a lot and they’re hesitant to operate on it since it’s in a tricky spot as well. In Sook decides to register at the Morning Light Hospice, of which she sees an advertisement. She tells her grandmother that she’s taking a trip overseas and while feeling bad about lying to her and leaving San Ah behind unprotected, she moves into the hospice without anyone knowing.
At the hospice, she meets the nurses and her fellow residents, amongst whom her two roommates Kang Se Yeon (played by Kang Ye Won) and Sung Mi Do (played by Park Soo Young/Joy). While she’s getting used to all these new characters around her with all their different views on life and death, shortly after getting there In Sook receives a video call from her grandmother, all bruised and beaten by San Ah’s father. In a fit of reckless determination, In Sook, Se Yeon and Mi Do decide that, if they’re going to die, they can at least take one bad person with them, and they sneak out of the hospice to deal with San Ah’s father that same night.
When they get there, the three women are confronted with a young man who’s after the same thing as them: getting rid of Ha Yong Geun. This man is Min Woo Cheon (played by Kim Kyung Nam), a hitman who received an order to get rid of San Ah’s father and specifically, to retrieve his phone. In Sook ends up knocking Ha Yong Geun unconsciousness with a golf club and the four leave him there, assuming he’s dead. In Sook tells Woo Cheon to take San Ah to her grandma’s place and the three women return to the hospice, only to wake to the news that San Ah’s father was -indeed- found dead at the scene they left him in.
The police investigation, led by detective Jo Shi Yeong (played by Do Sang Woo), manages to get Woo Cheon on their radar quite fast, and they are also swiftly able to link him to In Sook, and before long the two of them become major suspects in the case.
Among the events that unfold as they are suspected of not only Ha Yong Geun’s murder, but also several consecutive murders, In Sook and Woo Cheon find out they have a special past connection and they fall in love with each other. In the meantime, In Sook finds her mindset changing as her and her fellow patients’ illnesses worsen. While in the beginning she’s bent on taking the blame for the murder of Ha Yong Geun -because nothing matters and she’s dying anyway-, being surrounded by her fellow hospice residents and sparked by her encounter with Woo Cheon, she slowly but surely starts to have second thoughts about how she wants to spend the limited time she has left.

I’ll keep the summary up to here, because there are already so many things bubbling up that I want to talk about. First of all, we can establish that the preface of the story is quite heavy. Most of the main characters have a traumatic backstory that includes a history with either domestic violence and/or child neglect/abandonment. Introducing San Ah’s DV situation so early on in the show sets the tone very strongly, only to top it up with In Sook’s terminal illness. It just immediately makes the overall vibe of the show very heavy and gloomy, with everyone being pessimistic about life in one way or another.
I think it’s very challenging to have a story with so many heavy themes, all the more if you don’t want to overdramatize things. In my personal experience in acting, overdramatizing things that are already heavy in itself can sometimes have the opposite effect on a scene. Unfortunately, that’s exactly what happened to me while I was watching this show. It happened quite frequently that they would overdramatize an already dramatic situation only to completely ruin the effect of the scene.
Honestly, in combining the women’s hospice situation with the police investigation, I felt like the writers struggled to keep in mind was most important. In some cases they added more drama and heaviness to the police investigation than to the hospice situation, while in other cases they dealt really lightly and casually with things that I would’ve considered taking more seriously. I also missed coherence in the events and construction of the story in general, and I didn’t feel a true and genuine connection between the main characters, even though that was the whole setup of the story.
Overall, I felt like they kept emphasizing the form and intention of things more in words than in feeling. I often didn’t actually feel the urgency of some situations, also because of the regular overdramatization. In my opinion, the severeness of the whole story was ‘pasted on’ more than that it came from a genuine place, and that sometimes also had to do with the acting. I’ll try my best to clarify that statement later on.

Let me start by summarizing all the main characters’ backstories and give my personal comments on them. Even for K-Drama standards, I honestly didn’t expect every single main character to have such a troubling past. As if getting diagnosed with a terminal illness in their 20s/30s wasn’t enough, all of them also happened to have had miserable childhoods.
I forgot to mention it before, but besides her abandonment as a child, In Sook also has a hearing impediment. She once had an ear infection as a kid, and some girls pretending to be her friends pushed her into a swimming pool, irreparably damaging her hearing. This is also a reason why she tends to keep to herself and not depend on others.
While her mother disappeared on her when she was still a child, In Sook’s father Pyo Kang Seon (Jang Hyun Sung) is still present in the story. He owns a café and In Sook even visits him to inform him that she’s sick. I assumed the reason why she told him and not her grandmother probably had to do with the fact that she felt more distant from him – it was probably easier for her to tell him without getting emotional. Anyways, her father never acted as a father to her and they’ve grown quite estranged from one another. When he suddenly starts acting more caring toward her after she goes into the hospice, I related to her feeling of discomfort, as it just felt weird for him to suddenly pretend to be a father to her after leaving her alone for so long. Especially after he tells her that her mother isn’t alive anymore, crushing any remaining hope she had left of ever seeing her again.
Seeing San Ah being left alone in her problematic home situation, In Sook relates to the little girl and becomes adamant about protecting her. Even if that means eliminating San Ah’s father and/or taking the blame for it – if it means San Ah can be happily reunited with her mother, it’ll be worth it for In Sook.
Honestly, while I do think that In Sook’s character was established the most clearly out of everyone and remained the most consistent throughout the story, I did find her kind of selfish in her decision-making. Taking the burden of Ha Yong Geun’s murder upon herself to protect San Ah seemed initially very selfless of her -seen from her perspective of having nothing to lose-, but on the other hand, in that almost heroic tendency she forgot to think about the people that she would leave behind herself, first and foremost her grandmother. What started out as a selfless, almost self-punishing quest to take all of San Ah’s misery along with her when she died, she didn’t consider other people’s feelings, she didn’t consult with anyone about the things she planned to do. Admittedly, she probably didn’t know how to, because she never had anyone to depend on before, but even after making new friends and forming new bonds at the hospice, she still didn’t let go of this tendency to take it all upon herself, even when there were actually more people involved. In the end, I actually thought she obstructed the police investigation a lot by claiming responsibility and continuously diverting the police’s attention away from the true culprit. No matter how selfless her decision was to do it all for San Ah, she was still only thinking about herself while this whole situation involved other people’s lives, lives that shouldn’t have been her responsibility to bear.
Also in the way she didn’t even communicate properly what was going on with Se Yeon and Mi Do, I really thought she could’ve handled it better. I didn’t see her as a victim at all, since she personally chose to deal with the situation as she did, and she didn’t need to be redeemed as some unfortunate soul who was dragged into a situation against her will. She had her plan all figured out, she’d already accepted that this was how she was going to spend her remaining time, and until the very end she kept rejecting her grandmother’s and Woo Cheon’s urges to still consider surgery and challenge life for as long as she could.

Woo Cheon grew up happily as an only child, but when he was still very young, his father attempted patricide. He drove their car into a forest and released carbon dioxide. Woo Cheon and his mom barely made it out; they were rescued by a young girl who just happened to be wandering through that forest by herself at that moment and who heard Woo Cheon banging on the car window from inside. Ever since then, Woo Cheon has remembered that girl and wondered what could have happened to her.
As if this event wasn’t traumatic enough, Woo Cheon also ended up getting involved in a classmate’s death. Even though it was an accident, said classmate’s mother decided to curse him and personally make his life a living hell. She made sure nothing came easy to him anymore. Even after the patricide, when his mother’s health took a turn for the worse, this woman even obstructed him from taking her to the hospital. This woman personally made her son’s alleged murderer miserable, and she caused Woo Cheon to end up in a ditch, despite originally being a very smart kid with bright prospects.
As an adult, being forced to wander in shady circles because of what that woman did to him, Woo Cheon got caught up in a business of contracted murder. Behind the cover of an air cleaner parts company, Woo Cheon had been executing many orders before he met In Sook. When he meets In Sook, he’s fascinated by her immediately, and when he sees her childhood pictures after bringing San Ah to grandma’s house, he is able to confirm that In Sook is the girl who saved him from the patricide all those years ago. In a crazy turn of events, the contract hitman falls in love at first sight and from there on he’s basically In Sook’s puppy throughout the whole show. He even goes so far as to become a caretaker at the hospice. While he’s initially ordered to get the phone from Ha Yong Geun, it doesn’t take Woo Cheon long to go against his orders and stick with In Sook as her health worsens. This sudden change in his behavior is very troubling for his workplace, as Woo Cheon is not the only one being pressured to deliver Ha Yong Geun’s phone to the anonymous client who ordered his murder.
Honestly, as much as I loved Woo Cheon in the beginning – Kim Kyung Nam was the main reason I wanted to watch this show – his puppylike behavior became a bit passive and tedious toward the end. At some point I found myself wondering, is he going to take any action at all? He just completely abandoned his workplace and colleagues just to quietly sit/stand/lie next to In Sook. In their scenes together, he only ever talked to her in the same monotonous whispery voice, and only hugged or kissed her when she was upset. Seeing him act so soft from the start made his alleged history of being a hitman quite hard to believe. He was such an emotional being, he cried over a picture of a foreign girl he didn’t even know, he put a flower in the hair of a dead man in a mood of pure sentimentality. Added by the fact that we aren’t actually shown any of his contracted murder cases, he just didn’t seem like the kind of guy who could kill someone in cold blood. I agreed with that police officer’s statement in the end, that ‘they didn’t actually have any evidence of the contracted murders he committed’. Like them, I also didn’t have any visual evidence apart from him seemingly ordering a car to hit a guy from a distance in the first episode. It definitely added to my skepticism regarding the true nature of his character.

To say a bit about the relationship between In Sook and Woo Cheon in general, although it started as a really cute and tender puppy love, as I just described it became a bit flat to me throughout the show. It was nice that they had built this bond, and that In Sook finally allowed herself to feel affection for someone, something she never thought she’d do, let alone in the limited time she had. But their whole endeavor of running away and going in hiding without a real plan or purpose, and then just sitting/walking/laying around in bed all day… At some point I really wondered if there was going to be any action in either of them. Like, the soft tenderness was basically all there was to their relationship. I liked the occasional spark, like when Woo Cheon would suddenly appear wearing a matching couple outfit, going against his own cringes, that always made me chuckle because that was like, an element of something new happening, some sort of event in their otherwise monotonous displays of affection towards each other.
I also didn’t really think the destiny element of them having met before as kids added a lot to their relationship. Woo Cheon could’ve just as well fallen head over heels for her at first sight without the additional link of her having saved his life in the past. It was a strong foundation to base his feelings on, of course, but in the end it only served as a tool to bring the two together after In Sook realized who he was. I would’ve liked to see them come together without this particular link, because it was such a special thing for In Sook to naturally open herself up to someone for the first time. Now it just felt like the fact that she’d been connected with Woo Cheon in the past was the main reason she let him in, and she wouldn’t have accepted him so easily if they had been complete strangers. I guess it bothered me a little that their relationship seemed to rely heavily (if not solely) on their past connection.
All in all I just felt like there were a lot of cases where they added a specific detail or instigating reason for something, and then completely lost sight of it later. Like, the importance of the foreign girl’s picture and the dog Woo Cheon was taking care of – they seemed to be really important things for Woo Cheon, but at some point they were just never mentioned again. Even in terms of In Sook’s hearing impediment, as someone on MDL sharply pointed out: they made such a big deal about her being hard of hearing, so much so that she didn’t even hear the fire alarm go off when a fire broke out at the hospice – yet from some point on it wasn’t really mentioned again and she also had no trouble hearing Woo Cheon despite his whispery way of talking. It’s like, they started off with a lot of specifics, and then just dropped them throughout the show, seemingly forgetting about them. All of that added to the messiness of the writing in my opinion.

Se Yeon was also a victim of domestic violence as a kid. She had to watch her mom get beaten by her dad, and when he would collapse on his bed afterwards, she was sent in after him to clip his toenails or soothe him in some other way.
As an adult, Se Yeon is married to a guy who, despite his genuine love for her, has let her slave away for his mother during their entire marriage. Tending to her demented mother-in-law’s antics, even bringing her own mother along in taking care of her, Se Yeon has become utterly unhappy and lonely in her marriage. Add to that the fact that she’s had a couple of miscarriages and the revelation that she has lingering attachments to a woman she was in a secret relationship with during her college days. She meets this woman, Ji Yoon Seo (Lee Young Jin) again by chance as her new divorce lawyer and this reignites a spark between them. Besides her fourth-stage blood cancer, Se Yeon has also developed a habit of sleepwalking, and this is how she’s introduced to In Sook on the first night she arrives at the hospice. It also turns out that she was sleepwalking the entire night of the attack on Ha Yong Geun, as she doesn’t remember anything about it the next day. Initially, this works to her disadvantage as Mi Do immediately pins the act on her as she doesn’t remember anything anyway (#TrueFriendshipGoals). However, Se Yeon ultimately remembers everything and becomes the peacemaker between In Sook and Mi Do, whose personalities clash the most. She also manages to work out her divorce case and make peace with her own mother and her in-law before she passes.
Honestly, even though I empathized a lot with Se Yeon’s backstory, her character just fell very flat to me. She was so passive the entire time and I couldn’t quite gauge her. I didn’t get any kind of personality from her. Like, she was a nice character, she was a good person, but I didn’t actually feel anything for her. If I did, her death would’ve probably made a much bigger impact on me. It was touching that she was able to see the green light and that she passed peacefully with her head resting on In Sook’s shoulder, but it didn’t make me feel anything within, for some reason. Her character was just too unspecific, there weren’t any specific traits about her that made her stand out to me and made me like her in particular.
I did like that it was normalized that she had a history with another woman, but again nothing was specified. Se Yeon herself remained very stoic, and even when she was talking about her own experiences I couldn’t figure out what she was actually feeling. Her dialogues mostly consisted of monotonous, sentimental phrases spoken into air more than directly to the others. She would reminisce about things a lot but they remained words more than that they became real feelings towards what she’d experienced.

Mi Do is a popular influencer with countless followers on Instagram. As a child, she was involved in a very tragic accident involving her younger brother. While she ventured out onto some rocks at sea, her little brother tried to follow her (supposedly, as we don’t get to see what actually happened to him) and ended up falling into the water, drowning. Mi Do has had to grow up not only with her own feelings of guilt, but also the guilt that her parents projected on her. She moved to Seoul and started posting a lot of information about herself online, in the faint hope that her parents would see her and take note of how she’s doing. Her parents never came to visit her after she’s diagnosed with stomach cancer, and despite the fact that she puts up a front and flaunts with her many rich and influential friends, Mi Do is actually very lonely. The only person who takes an apparent interest in her is her friend Goo Ji Pyo (played by Han Gyu Won), a chaebol who also invested in the hospice, if I remember correctly. Though Mi Do has a one-sided crush on him at first, at some point he starts returning her fancies and they even decide to get engaged and married, although his true intentions towards her are never fully confirmed. I personally never felt like he truly loved her, also in how his immediate response to Mi Do asking questions was to gaslight her and redirect those questions back to her, making her feel like she wasn’t being sincere towards him either. Their relationship seemed problematic to me because it felt like a yearning for attention from Mi Do’s side versus an act of charity towards his dying friend from Ji Pyo’s side.
At the end of the series, Mi Do’s mother visits her once, only to ask her for money. In a way, this helps Mi Do finally let go of whatever hopes she’s had of reconciling with her parents. She’s able to let go of her final regrets before she passes.
I’m not going to lie, I only started feeling empathic towards Mi Do in the final two episodes. When her mom came to visit and not only shamelessly asked for money rather than how she was doing but even accused her of lying about her illness on social media, that was appalling. That was the first time I truly felt bad for Mi Do, she didn’t deserve to be treated like that, least of all by her own mother. How her mom just stopped caring about her like that is beyond me. After losing one child, she couldn’t bring herself to love her remaining one, she even saw it as a betrayal towards her deceased child if she’d continue to love Mi Do. I totally agreed with Mi Do when she told her mom to just leave. No need for that kind of negativity, that’s not the kind of closure she needed when she was already at the end of her life. I’m glad she made peace with the fact that she now didn’t have to hope for anything from her parents ever again. In the final episode, I really felt sorry for her, you could see her just fade away, she was only a shade of the beautiful lively influencer that she was at the beginning of the series.
While the final two episodes kind of redeemed her for me, up until that point I never actually found her particularly sympathetic, to be honest. She was really self-absorbed, and although I understood that she didn’t like to be kept out of things, she didn’t make a habit of putting herself in other people’s shoes either.

Based on the summary from MyDramaList (which I now find to be very misleading), I expected the story to be about these three women forming a strong bond during their time in the hospice, contemplating life and death. It immediately made me think of Andante, which did a really good job of balancing the hopeful nature of the peaceful place with the cruel truth of the people residing there.
A hospice is a place where sick people who can no longer be cured are waiting for their end. There is nothing romantic about it. Of course I can understand that it offers some solace as a final resting place, a place to calmly spend what remaining time the patients have in a nice and peaceful environment. I assume that in this show, the objective was also to depict the hospice as a place for healing, where people without hope of recovery came together and made some nice final memories, despite having already accepted their fate.
I found it a bit difficult to construct my critical comments on this part because I really want to acknowledge the hopeful message they tried to convey through the hospice, but I just felt like they went about it in a way that I personally couldn’t relate to that much.
Honestly, I was kind of surprised about the fact itself that In Sook registered for a hospice, because it didn’t seem to be in her nature to ask for help or care like that. I didn’t find it characteristic of her at all to voluntarily get admitted to a place like that, and to voluntarily get herself surrounded by all these other people.
Anyways, as soon as she gets there she is greeted by a quirky group of residents, including the nurses. There’s Moon Young Ji (So Hee Jung), an ALS-patient who’s always accompanied by her young daughter Ji Hoo (Kim Soo Hyung). There’s Shaman Lady Cha Yeo Wol (Joo In Young), who has ovarian cancer, Oh Cheon Deok (Sung Byung Sook), an elderly lady who’s in the final stage of colon cancer but still has an incredible appetite, and finally Choi Sung Hae (Lee Hang Na) aka the ‘hope’ of the hospice, nicknamed as such because she’s been living relatively healthily for two years, which is longer than was estimated when she was first diagnosed with liver cancer.
Despite all being terminally ill, it was as if these people were introduced as a kind of comic relief side characters. The way they introduced themselves to In Sook was also a bit like, ‘Hi there, I am (…), I have this type of cancer. So what brings you here?’ While I can understand that they wanted to establish the hospice as a place of relief and comfort from everyone’s troubles, it still felt a bit weird to choose this of all settings to base the comic relief in, presenting it as a kind of fun club that In Sook was joining. The only moment I truly felt the earnestness of the hospice setting was when Young Ji passed away, because it felt like a kind of wake-up call that made everyone remember that they were all dying in there. Until something like that happened, everyone was just kind of carelessly frolicking around.
Adding to this, I was also weirded out by the frivolous characters of Sisters Magdalena and Veronica. Sister Magdalena (played by Lee Soo Mi) is the director of the hospice, and she’s a woman with a very jolly disposition and a preference for good wine. Now I suppose it’s not prohibited for nuns to drink wine, but she still didn’t seem very nun-like to me in personality. The same went for Sister Veronica (played by Yoon Bo Ra), who was clearly interested in finding a nice guy, or at least fangirling over handsome men. She even ended up with one of the police officers from the investigation.
All in all, I guess in hindsight I just didn’t really see the necessity of tying this suggestion of Christianity to the hospice. It could’ve just as well been a regular care home without people dressing up as nuns. Other than these two Sisters, I didn’t catch any other reference to Christianity. It wasn’t like they had masses or that the residents were encouraged to pray to God or anything. It was more like a volunteering service, with the remaining staff mostly made up of ex-convicts. What was the additional value of making the two women nuns rather than simply nurses? If it had been the point to make it a Christian style hospice, there should’ve been more consistent references to that. Would Shaman Lady Yeo Wol have chosen to stay at a Christian hospice? It just seemed a bit random to add in nuns but no further indication that there was a link to Christian faith at the hospice, and it only added to my feeling that the hospice was creating a certain ambiance purely for entertainment.

I guess my main criticism regarding the hospice was the fact that they mainly chose it and its residents for the comic relief parts. The decision to depict the hospice as a kind of fun daycare center with picnics and bazaars gave me an odd feeling, like they were really putting on a show to distract people from thinking about the fact that they’re dying. Of course, it can be a welcome distraction from thinking about it all the time, but I just didn’t think it was good to completely push it away. I would’ve personally tried not to depict the hospice like a more carefree and happy place than it actually was.
In the end, the ex-convict staff members and Woo Cheon are talking about how the hospice also healed their wounds during their service there, and that strengthened me even more in the idea that that was supposed to be the image that the hospice portrayed. I got the idea from the way they depicted it, but during the series itself this just wasn’t proven to me strongly enough. Again, only in the form, the way they tried to create the impression that the hospice was the kind of place that would make you feel like that. I didn’t actually feel it for myself, and that took away a lot of the experience. It was literally like listening to people talk about something great and not being able to relate in the same way, even though you were supposed to.

To conclude my comment section about the hospice, I lastly want to mention the case of Choi Sung Hae, the ‘hope’ of the hospice. At some point there’s this whole party celebrating that Sung Hae made a miraculous full recovery. That already made me go 🤨 because, really? The tumor just shrank and disappeared by itself? Seeing as she was always referred to as the ‘hope’ of the hospice, she was sent off memorably, giving everyone left behind hope that they can also still recover (or something). Heck, she even went on Mi Do’s livestream to give a sentimental speech about how she miraculously recovered. Well guess what, turns out it’s all a lie. She’s not recovering, she’s moving to a hospital to sit out the final part of her illness. Seeing as she’s the ‘hope’ of the hospice, she feels like she can’t show the others that she’s actually dying, and that’s why -in agreement with Sister Magdalena- they decided to make it look like she recovered. …I couldn’t agree more with In Sook at this point, because seriously? False hope is what you’re going for, in a place like this? The fact that she used her reputation as the hospice’s ‘hope’ to justify why she did this, I was like, are you kidding me? The people that called her that only did so because she managed to live longer than was estimated, they don’t actually expected her to live. I just couldn’t agree with this method of lying and giving the others false hope, even if it was to ease their minds. This was another thing that just baffled me about how they dealt with stuff at the hospice, they were so bent on keeping up a cheerful and hopeful front that they would even lie to their patients. These people were already preparing themselves to die, they didn’t even expect to make a full recovery anymore, so why give them even more false hope? Also, it seemed like some people were actually aware of the fact that they were being lied to, so really, what was the whole point of this farce?
It was so wry because I remember that this episode, which was also called ‘Hope’, was a pretty wholesome episode altogether. Different characters talked about different kinds of hope, and for the first time I felt something come together in the story. But then this happened. Like, fair enough, false hope is also hope, but I was seriously disappointed in how they dealt with this. Sung Hae felt like she couldn’t even be honest about her condition to her hospice friends, only because she didn’t want to disappoint them that she wasn’t actually worthy of the ‘hospice hope’ title. So much for keeping up a nickname!

I just want to talk a bit about In Sook’s circle, namely her grandmother, father, and San Ah.
Yook Sung Ja raised her granddaughter as her own child after her son left the young girl on her doorstep following the disappearance of his wife. She cares about In Sook more than anyone, and is also broken by the news of her illness more than anyone. After finding out about In Sook’s admission to the hospice, Sung Ja starts frequenting the place and helps out with the cooking. While also being kept in the dark of what’s truly going on, and only occasionally being surprised by news fragments of In Sook being suspected for murder, Sung Ja always stays loyal to her granddaughter and highly encourages her relationship with Woo Cheon, as she sees that he has the ability to make In Sook smile as she’s never done before.
Sung Ja was definitely one of my favorite characters in this show, this lovely yet edgy old lady who so powerfully faced life despite all the misery that happened in her direct environment. The scene where she’d just heard about In Sook’s illness and she had this monologue like, ‘I’ve only ever asked for one thing, for In Sook to be happy, why can’t she have even that?’, that gave me goosebumps. The way she just couldn’t understand why In Sook kept getting more misfortune thrown her way, she only wished for her granddaughter to smile and have some joy and love in her life. She knew her better than anyone else, knew what she went through with her parents and everything, and she was always there to cook her a meal and care for her, despite In Sook’s frequent fits of anger.
On the other hand, In Sook’s father Pyo Kang Seon kind of made a fool out of himself. He was very well aware of the fact that he had fully abandoned his daughter, and he did seem kind of awkward in his communication with her when she came to visit to tell him about her diagnosis. But then somehow he starts feeling extra bad about his behavior and starts trying to redeem himself as her father, even visiting her at the hospice and suddenly caring about Woo Cheon as In Sook’s boyfriend. Like In Sook, I was kind of like, ‘yeah, right, now you come running’ whenever he showed up, but I guess it was well enough that the whole family managed to make up. The scene where the four of them had a meal together and he kept giving Woo Cheon pieces was nice, I admit. But as a character he really didn’t have that much to add to the story.

If there’s any character that stole my heart in this show, it’s little San Ah. So young, yet so wise. I loved how she just saw through everyone at once. Even when she was intimidated by her father, she was always looking around, always staying alert. The fact that she didn’t drink the milk he was trying to feed her, immediately realizing there must be something in it, the way she just knew her mother had done it, and how she didn’t blame In Sook or her mother because she acknowledged they did everything in order to protect her. She was one of the most mature characters in the whole show. I liked how she also started coming to the hospice more and became friends with Ji Hoo. In hindsight, In Sook really shouldn’t have been that worried about how San Ah would turn out, the girl herself basically told her mother to turn herself in as she would stay with In Sook’s grandma, no worries. She was so wise and mature for her age, it was sad to realize that must’ve come from her experiences, but I was glad that there was at least one person in the story who acted smartly and didn’t make a bigger drama out of things. She really dealt with her situation better than In Sook did, I’d say.

I also couldn’t find it in myself to be angry with San Ah’s mother. I assume she felt horrible the entire time that In Sook was trying to take the blame, and I found it very brave of her to still decide to own up to her crime in the end. Honestly, as much as I loved In Sook’s grandmother, I did feel like she treated San Ah’s mom unfairly after she confessed she’d been the one who killed her own husband. Like, the first thing Sung Ja did was blame her for putting In Sook in the position of taking the blame. When she said, ‘I hate you’, to her, I really went, ‘Nah, granny, that’s not fair’. She and Kang Seon were both acting as if In Sook had been dragged into this mess, as if she had been forced to take the blame, they were pointing fingers at Kyung Mi and Woo Cheon and I was just like, NO. In Sook was responsible for all of it herself. She didn’t even talk to anyone before deciding out of her own volition that she would take the blame. Yes, San Ah’s mom could’ve turned herself in earlier, but it also made sense that she only did it after getting San Ah’s confirmation. The fact that San Ah forgave her was what made her feel okay to speak up. I kind of liked that she also did so without informing In Sook, because it just emphasized how self-absorbed In Sook’s actions had been. I wasn’t even angry at San Ah’s mom, she never asked In Sook to take the blame and it was brave of her to finally step forward when she did.

Let me get back to clarifying my earlier statement about how everything in this drama seemed to be ‘pasted on/performed’ rather than that it came across as genuine to me.
For one, the bond between the three women. I get that the idea was to let these three women grow closer as they all got involved in this murder investigation case, about how In Sook found solace in their company and how they would face their end together. However, truth be told, I only felt this strong bond between them for the first time in the second-to-last episode, right before Se Yeon passed. Before that, I got the idea of their friendship, but I didn’t actually feel it. It was like they were portraying the ‘form’ of the friendship and emphasizing it with words more than with conveying their true feelings in less literal ways. I noticed it a lot, especially with Mi Do (or Joy, in her acting). She acted for herself a lot. For herself, to herself, or within herself, I’m not sure how to phrase it in proper English. I just mean that I often didn’t feel like she was truly connecting with her co-actors when she was delivering her lines. It was in tiny details, like whether or not she was looking at someone while saying her lines. This would already make such a difference in whether or not she was really connecting with others. The fact that this happened frequently was a major reason why I didn’t feel a real connection between the main characters, until right before Se Yeon passed.
In terms of the story, this feeling of a lack of true connection was strengthened by the fact that In Sook kept all kinds of information from the other two. She chose to shoulder everything alone, keeping them out of the loop while they were just as involved as she was. On Mi Do’s side, she just went on reporting stuff to Ji Pyo whenever she felt pissed off at being left out of things. When she discovered that In Sook and Woo Cheon had already secretly come back to the hospice after disappearing for a while, she just assumed they’d been there all this time without telling her and grabbed her phone to call Ji Pyo. And she would’ve done so if Se Yeon hadn’t stopped her in time. This event was already towards the end of the show, when they should already have established some kind of solid trust foundation. Everyone was just acting out of their own interest. Like, okay, I get why Mi Do was disappointed by being kept out of the loop, but she also made everything about herself. She never put herself in In Sook’s shoes either. It was like they created this impression of being a ‘one for all, all for one’ unit-of-three, but in reality the characters’ behavior kept proving to me that they were still too absorbed in their own issues to really look at it from their friends’ perspectives.
It took until the final two episodes for me to finally feel that connection between them, when they pushed their beds together and lay there hugging each other, and when they sent Se Yeon off at the beach. That was the first moment I felt that the three of them had truly come together. Before that it just never felt a 100% real to me.

Creating the impression of a solid family vibe based on trust but not acting accordingly to it in reality wasn’t just reflected within the friendship of the three women alone, it also appeared within the hospice in general. For one, I felt incredibly sorry for Moon Young Ji, the ALS lady. She was the only patient in the side character group who was physically incapacitated and who constantly needed someone to take care of her and monitor her. Her daughter Ji Hoo was almost constantly present in the hospice to help out, but the nurses also occasionally asked fellow residents to take care of her. I don’t know if this is common, I guess it seems plausible as long as there are some healthier residents around who can help out. Anyways, I imagine that asking this from fellow patients relies heavily on a strong shared trust and mutual dependability. You would expect everyone to treat each other with appropriate care and responsibility, seeing as they’re all basically in the same boat.
In contrast to that belief, I was shocked to see how neglectful the main characters were towards Young Ji. They literally forget about her two times, all because they were too absorbed in their own drama, and she had to be taken to the ER both times. Like, she literally started seizing in bed and fell hard on the ground, unable to hold on to anything or call for anyone to help her. They even tried to blame it on the police getting in the way in the second case. Agreed, the police should not have obstructed Woo Cheon in getting to her, but he was supposed to be by her side already. If he had remembered that it was his turn to take care of her, the police wouldn’t have been an issue, so that was not a legit excuse in my opinion. It was his responsibility and he forgot about it in the first place. So much for shared responsibility.
Young Ji’s death genuinely made me cry. The way she was lying there with Ji Hoo in bed next to her… The reason her death hit me extra hard was because of Young Ji’s and Ji Hoo’s mother-daughter bond. Though only played out in a total of seven episodes, theirs was the only relationship in the show that I truly felt in my heart. They were so connected, there was no room for self-importance in their relationship, and that’s what made it so real and painful when Young Ji passed.
I did not get as touched by anything else or any other death for that matter, as much I did with Young Ji’s passing. I said what I said.

Until the end, I never understood why In Sook kept so much information from Se Yeon and Mi Do. Like, all three of them were involved, even though In Sook had been the one wielding the golf club. Se Yeon and Mi Do’s major worry throughout the show was the fact that they believed they killed someone, even though we already find out in the first half that this is not the case. For their peace of mind, In Sook should’ve at least shared with them that they weren’t responsible for the guy’s death. I didn’t understand why she kept her sick friends under that impression until the end, it was completely unnecessary to add to their already dire situations. She could’ve easily chosen to tell them without mentioning she knew it was San Ah’s mom. She could’ve just said, ‘hey, Woo Cheon told me that at his interrogation they said that the cause of death was suffocation, so it wasn’t us’. Like, there was no reason why she wasn’t honest about it, and that bothered me.
Also, I didn’t understand why In Sook and Woo Cheon, after discovering Goo Ji Pyo’s true nature, didn’t at least warn Mi Do not to tell him too much. If they wanted to spare her feelings because they knew she liked Ji Pyo (and honestly, I think Mi Do wouldn’t have believed them right away if they’d told her), they could’ve at least said something like, ‘hey, the whole situation is delicate, people are looking for us, let’s not share too much with other people in general, including Ji Pyo’. Now it just seemed like they didn’t even care to think about how Mi Do was connected to him, and how she might spill some beans to Ji Pyo. They knew she liked and trusted him, and she was going to marry him for god’s sake. Were they really just going to let that happen and let Mi Do live in oblivion while they knew she was marrying a murderer and a fraud? The only thing In Sook said in the end was, ‘I’m sorry, I couldn’t tell you’, like, that’s it? You couldn’t? As in, you were physically incapable to? Girl had all the time and space in the world to tell them in private, they shared a room and the three of them already had several secret discussions after the golf club incident. I just don’t understand why she couldn’t at least ease their minds in that they didn’t kill the guy, and make sure they didn’t reveal too much to others.
I couldn’t blame Mi Do too much in this because she genuinely knew nothing of Ji Pyo’s involvement, but I did still think she could’ve thought to be more careful by herself. I facepalmed so hard when she got drunk and just went full-out, ‘Oppa, I may have killed a person’🤦🏻‍♀️. Even after that she kept telling him stuff about In Sook and Woo Cheon, while they were in hiding at that moment, in secret. Like, she could’ve thought not to talk too much about it in general as they were keeping stuff under wraps in general. This again added to what I meant when I said that despite creating the impression that they were a unit of three that had each other’s backs, in the end every character really just acted out of their own accord and interest, especially In Sook and Mi Do.

On a side note, it also bothered me how much the ‘I’m dying anyways’ line was used as an excuse on so many occasions. It just completely downplayed the severeness of the women’s situation, and again made me feel like it was all words and no real feelings. ‘What does it matter, we’re dying anyways’, ‘who cares if we get arrested for killing someone, we’re dying anyways’. Seriously, how to make light of something so heavy and serious.

Let me go on to the police investigation part of the story, introducing some of the main side characters in the police force.
In the first episode, we are introduced to police detective Jo Shi Yeong, a quite stoic and mysterious guy who seems to have a particular interest in the case, although we never find out what that is. Despite his prominent role in the first half of the series, Jo Shi Yeong’s character disappears completely after episode 10. The only thing mentioned about him afterwards is that he was fired for going against the story that they’d already brought out, about how the whole thing is a serial killer case and all three murders are connected. I assume that for whatever reason his character was written out of the drama, maybe there were some issues with the actor or management or something, but it was clear that this was not the intention from the start. When they mentioned Shi Yeong’s dismissal, I actually started doubting myself for completely missing that, but no, he really just stopped appearing from one episode to the next. I kept hoping he would come back, that he was still there and had been working on something in the background, but alas. It was a shame, because I was really interested in his character and his motivation to get involved in this case. He even reveals to his colleague that there’s something particular drawing him to the case. At some point Ma Jin asks him why he’s so emotional about this particular case and if it has to do with In Sook, to which he answers: ‘You know that’s not the reason’, thereby suggesting there’s something else. But then he disappeared and we never found out what it was.
He didn’t really get to do that much besides interrogating Woo Cheon and finding out he probably wasn’t the killer when Ha Yong Geun’s autopsy revealed that he died from suffocation rather than being struck down with a golf club. It was just at the point where he discovered a lead to Goo Ji Pyo, so I’m still bummed that we didn’t get to see him figuring out the case. Now Ma Jin had to do it all by herself.
Shi Yeong’s team leader Hwang Ma Jin (played by Lee Bong Ryun), starts carrying the entire case by herself as soon as the lead on Goo Ji Pyo is revealed. She singlehandedly goes against her annoying chief (seriously, that lady pissed me off so much) and even disobeys orders following her instinct that In Sook and Woo Cheon may not actually be guilty and that it might not be a serial killer case after all. Assisted by Oh Jin Gyu (played by Jang In Seob) -the officer who ends up with Sister Veronica- she keeps pushing for re-investigation and tries what she can to stop her seniors from releasing unconfirmed suspicions into the world.  

Truthfully, I got the impression that the writers didn’t really know how a normal police investigation worked. I definitely don’t claim to be an expert, but I listen to a weekly true crime podcast and there’s always a specific way in which the police force acts when they discover a murder. One of the first things they always do, is immediately get in touch with the direct family and partner of the victim, as it’s often the case that a partner or someone close knows more about it. Even if it’s just to get an alibi from them or take DNA or to just get them to cooperate in the investigation, I gathered that it was normal to rule out any involvement from direct family and partners first.
In the case of Ha Yong Geun, the police didn’t even talk to San Ah or her mother. They were his direct family members, the direct victims of his abuse which gave them a major motive, but the police didn’t even interrogate them or take DNA or anything. The fact that they didn’t even take San Ah’s mom in for questioning, and she was literally just living her life while they were running around in circles to locate In Sook and Woo Cheon was kind of wild to me. When San Ah’s mom ultimately decides to turn herself in it just felt like a big anticlimax to me. Not because she turned herself in, but because I thought ‘…This was literally the only thing that needed to be done.’ The whole story of In Sook trying to take the blame and her and Woo Cheon debating on whether or not to turn themselves in and then going in hiding again just felt so meaningless then. It was just a whole lot of drama about nothing, when the only thing that needed to be done to solve everything was San Ah’s mom owning up to her own crime.
The fact that the whole police investigation went on and on about In Sook and Woo Cheon’s involvements, and how they kept releasing unconfirmed suspicions to the public without 100% evidence made it all seem very unrealistic to me. Also, to hell with that chief police officer lady who was only ever screaming at people and pointing fingers, threatening to fire people if they didn’t just follow with the story that they had created even if it was false. She’d allegedly been the one to dismiss Shi Yeong, and after San Ah’s mom turned herself in, she herself also disappeared. They only mention that she got frustrated, went for a drink and ended up getting a DUI. Some top-notch police officers, that lot.
It all just seemed so unbelievable. A regular well-functioning police investigation team wouldn’t have acted like this, and they certainly wouldn’t have exposed all kinds of information to the public before the investigation was completely wrapped up and fully confirmed by all involved parties.
In Sook was definitely not helpful in obstructing the investigation by trying to take all the blame and be the hero for San Ah, but I also couldn’t understand why the police didn’t even think about the fact that In Sook may have been protecting someone in taking the blame. They just went along with her confession, but it should’ve been so obvious when her testimony didn’t add up. Seriously, the incompetence of the entire police force was baffling to me.
I was even disappointed in Ma Jin, although she was the only person who realized something wasn’t right after Shi Yeong disappeared and tried to do something about it. She was left completely alone in her attempts to prove her seniors wrong, and her attempts weren’t exactly steadfast. I remember a scene where she followed Goo Ji Pyo all the way to the hospice to ‘confront him’ there in the middle of the hallway, with Mi Do standing there as well, like really, this is how you think you’re going to get it out of him? He just denied knowing anything and she was left standing there, it was kind of lame.
The way the police tried to deal with the case was just super confusing and frustrating and it didn’t give me any assurance that they would figure out the truth. Instead they just started exposing In Sook and Woo Cheon on the news as murder suspects while they didn’t even have any concrete evidence for that yet. So either the writers were striving to portray the police force as a useless bunch, or they just genuinely didn’t know a thing about murder investigation procedures. It seemed like the latter to me.

Let me move on to the final batch of characters, and the truth about all the murder cases.
As mentioned before, Woo Cheon was working for a company that had as its cover parts for air cleaners, called Narae Cleaning. His closest colleague and older friend who stands by him in his work is Shin Tae Il (played by Ahn Chang Hwan). The order for Ha Yong Geun’s phone (and associated murder) came from a guy called Park Seung Seon (played by Choi Young Woo). When they can’t find the phone after Ha Yong Geun’s body is found, Park Seung Seon starts threatening Shin Tae Il to get Woo Cheon to return the phone. Apparently, the phone contains a video that was mistakenly shared with Ha Yong Geun, and he was murdered because of that, because he must have seen that video. The person who ordered Park Seung Seon in turn is Goo Ji Pyo, who apparently had some business in money laundering or whatever (I honestly don’t even remember what it was about because so much drama went into getting that phone back). In any case, Goo Ji Pyo, Mi Do’s friend and fiancé, is the anonymous client all along.
After Ha Yong Geun’s body is found with the flower in his hair, even though Woo Cheon placed it there in a random wave of emotion, people immediately start brandishing the ‘killer’ as sadistic, because why would someone place a flower on a dead man’s head, if not to mock him? When Goo Ji Pyo realizes the indirect involvement of In Sook and Woo Cheon, he keeps telling Mi Do that In Sook only has to turn herself in, and then everything will be solved. He even tries to get rid of Woo Cheon by himself. In any case, Goo Ji Pyo, Park Seung Seon and Shin Tae Il are constantly going back and forth threatening each other throughout the series. In the end it’s revealed that Goo Ji Pyo ordered Park Seung Seon to kill the second guy, but he made sure that the same pink flower was left the same way as it was placed on Ha Yong Geun’s body, to make it look like a serial killer’s signature.
I couldn’t help but find Goo Ji Pyo a little lame, in hindsight. To Mi Do, he had no issue pretending like he was a big shot, but opposite his father he was such a coward. As Park Seung Seon also said, he never got his own hands dirty, he didn’t have the guts to get personally involved but enjoyed sending people to do the work for him. He really thought he had everything sorted out, but then he was just put aside at the end. Shin Tae Il ultimately goes to the police to confess everything, exposing everyone’s involvement including Woo Cheon’s, something that was already hanging over his head for a long time.
By the way, small inconsistency note: was it just me or did they keep changing the name of Shin Tae Il’s daughter? In episode 4 when he comes to pick her up from school he calls her Eun Bi, but then later when he’s on the phone with his daughter and his family is threatened, he suddenly calls her Min Ji. Was that a serious mistake or did he have two daughters who we just never saw on screen at the same time?

All in all, I was extremely confused while watching this drama. I couldn’t pinpoint what the main focus was. Whenever I thought I’d understood the message, they gave it a twist that made me all confused again. I have to admit that the site on which I watched it didn’t have the greatest subtitles, so I may have missed some stuff because of that, but all in all I just can’t say that I understood this series at all.
It was filled with unnecessary drama that dragged on for too long while the solution was right there within reach the entire time. People selfishly took burdens upon themselves and dragged them around for ages, and then when the actual involved party decided to step forward with the truth they were like, oh, but what about my plan to take all the blame?
There were so many inconsistencies in the story, they didn’t deal well with characters and details that were apparent and held meaning in the beginning but just disappeared and lost meaning altogether throughout the story. The main characters kept choosing their own interests over others’ even towards the end when they should’ve already been depending on each other. In Sook and Woo Cheon were constantly going back and forth between turning themselves in or running from the police while there wasn’t even a reason for them to do either of those things. The bad guys were trying to initimidate and threaten each other to no avail, the police were making a mess by not even checking the victims’ direct relatives and just blindly following whatever vague lead presented itself to them…
The last thing I want to do is dismiss the serious and heavy themes that appear in this series. Whenever a show depicts themes like abuse, domestic violence, childhood trauma and illness/death, I just want to take them as seriously as they are. However, in this series I felt that these themes were used mainly for shock value and to make things additionally heavy and dramatic, and that just didn’t sit right with me.
Even after finishing it, I’m still not sure about the message of the story. While Se Yeon and Mi Do succumb to their illnesses and pass away at the end, In Sook suddenly makes the decision of undergoing surgery in the final episode after all. Turns out, she was actually curable this entire time, or at least partially. Letting that happen, showing that the chance for her to undergo surgery and (partly) recover was there all along, the enitre thing she put herself through became even more meaningless. It really took away the emotional aspect of the series for me, and I kept on wondering what the heck was going on and why people were acting so dramatically for no reason.
I found the ending also confusing, even though it’s a seemingly happy one. Despite Ma Jin’s earlier comment on how they couldn’t confirm that Woo Cheon had committed those contracted murders, he does end up in prison for a short while (about 3 months), and when he gets out he goes to see In Sook. We see a bit earlier that she ended up getting surgery, but also that it’s been effecting her memory. They have this lovely rendezvous on the bridge near In Sook’s house, but when they’re facing each other I did not know what was happening. Like, they didn’t clarify anything. Was she actually cured? Did she even remember him? She didn’t seem to immediately recognize him when they were walking towards each other, so I was just waiting for either of them to say something to clarify where they stood. I mean, in itself it was a sweet ending, they were reunited and all, but I still ended up with a bunch of questions about how their whole situation was finally wrapped up.

Before I go on to my cast comments, I want to mention a few more things. As I said in my introduction, there were a couple of things I appreciated which redeemed certain things for me, no matter how small.
First of all, THE DOG. I was bummed when it disappeared at some point, but I really lived for those few short scenes of Woo Cheon running around playing with the dog. It was so cute 😭💖. Gotta love the Drama doggos.
In terms of favorite characters, also in terms of acting, I would say In Sook’s grandma and San Ah. I also really loved Young Ji and Ji Hoo, their mother-daughter bond was extremely precious.
I also want to add in a little mention of Se Yeon’s husband who was dragged into the investigation because the golf club they used to attack Ha Yong Geun belonged to him. Although Oh Young Chan (Han Gyu Won – he has the same name as the actor for Goo Ji Pyo, don’t get too confused) was acting as kind of a jackass in the beginning (he deserved a slap in the face for blaming their loss of money on Se Yeon’s miscarriages), I did appreciate that he reflected on himself so well at the end. He came to visit Se Yeon when she was in the hospital for a short time, and he laid it all out to her, about how he knew that he had made her like this in their marriage and all that. That kind of redeemed him a little bit for me, also because it showed that he felt really bad for treating her like that and how much he and his mother had depended on her. At least he really loved her and he even made peace with her and Yoon Seo’s romantic past. I thought it was really good of him to reflect on their marriage like that, it was a surprise development in his character. It was also good to see that this helped Se Yeon get some closure on all the stressful things that were happening in her life, from her husband to her mother-in-law to making sure her own mom was well taken care of.
I already briefly mentioned it before, but I really liked the scene where the three women were lying in the bed together. This was the first time I truly felt their affection towards each other and I remember distinctly how In Sook was looking at Se Yeon with shiny, affectionate eyes. She was really looking at her, showing her love for her friend purely through her expression. This is exactly what I needed the entire show, more than words or pasted on performances of friendship. That’s all I wanted from this show, I wanted gazes and gestures that made words unnecessary. I wanted them to show theat they cared about each other without just trying to convey that by literally saying ‘I care about you’ without any feeling behind it. That’s what I meant to say by making you feel their bond more than just talking about it.

Now then, on to the cast comments!

Is it just me or does Ahn Eun Jin look like mixture of Jung So Min, Yoon Eun Hye and occasionally even Lee Min Jung? I haven’t seen her in anything before, so that was a fun element. Honestly, I don’t have any real remarks on her acting, I thought she performed pretty well. I guess I just didn’t fully stand behind the choice that the character made, but that had nothing to do with her acting. In Sook must have been a pretty intense role to play, as she has so many layers of buried trauma. It was nice to see her come out of that as her relationship with Woo Cheon deepened, a smile definitely suits her best! I’m looking forward seeing more -less gloomy- performances of her!

As I mentioned before, Kim Kyung Nam was the sole reason for me to put this drama on my list. I have to say that he did manage to impress me, purely because this is the third drama I’ve seen with him (after The King: Eternal Monarch and Come and Hug Me) and yet again he pulled off a completely different character from the other two dramas. I was all ready to dote on him as a problematic stray puppy kind of guy, but in the end I had hoped for a little more action in Woo Cheon’s character. He was so passive throughout the series that I even started to wonder if he was actually a hitman, because there was nothing to show as evidence for the things he claimed he’d done. I liked him the most in parts where a cheeky side came out, a smile or anything that deviated from the same blank stare he usually had when he was looking at In Sook. This is the first time I’ve seen him in a lead role, I hope he’ll get even more chances in the future!  

I also didn’t know Kang Ye Won from anything. As I mentioned in my character analysis of Se Yeon, I found it a pity that, even with such a clear and well-established backstory, Se Yeon still fell so flat to me as a character. She also portrayed a lot of acting that I mentioned before, where it just seemed like she was talking in front of her, more to herself than to the people she was actually talking to. I would’ve liked to see a bit more spunk in her character, like when she lit off the fireworks. I just wanted to see a bit of her as she’d been in her college days, when she was dating Yoon Seo, living her life fairly uncomplicatedly. I really wish that there was more I could comment, but that was what I thought about her performance, there could’ve been more to it.

If I had to grade the three drama performances I’ve seen of Joy so far, I would put this one in the middle, with a big between number #1 and number #3. On the one hand, I liked that she played a completely different character from what she showed in The Great Seducer and The Liar and His Lover. On the other hand, she was the main example of the ‘pasted on’ acting that I’ve been talking about during this review. She lay it on very thickly, to the point where it just became ‘form’, ‘exterior’ rather than actually conveying Mi Do’s feelings, her humanity and personality from within. It got a bit better at the end though, mostly when I finally started sympathizing with her character more, but for the most part she was so busy showing that she was acting as an influencer that I just didn’t really feel the genuinity of it. There’s another new drama of her on my list coming up, so I’m really curious what she’s going to deliver next. If she’s really going to keep doing dramas, there’s still a lot for her to learn, in my opinion.

Oh, how I adore Go Doo Shim. She’s one of those precious granny actresses that will always grab your heart as you watch them in a series. I’ve recently sobbed emotionally about her performance in Our Blues, and before that I’ve seen her in several shows like Gyeryong Fairytale, My Mister and High Society. I love that she has kind of a rough edge about her, it really makes her seem like a lady who’s been through so much in life. On the other hand, she can also portray a very kind and elegant side and a very dominating side. I’ve seen all these sides of her before in the dramas I mentioned I’ve seen her in. She’s such a great veteran actress and I can’t wait to see more of her. She really stole my heart again in this show.

Despite his sudden appearance after episode 10, I still want to talk about Do Sang Woo. What’s weird is that I cannot find anything written on why he suddenly disappeared from the show, so I guess that’ll have to remain a mystery. I realized I’ve seen him before in Backstreet Rookie, where he was kind of a jerk character. Honestly, I was so curious as to what drove Shi Yeong to get personally involved in this case, there may have been some additional connection with him if he’d remained a part of the show. It’s really too bad that an interesting and promising character like him, someone who could’ve really made a difference in the story, was suddenly Disapparated like that. Luckily he’s been appearing in more hyped shows lately, so at least he’s still going strong and working his way up!

While I was really glad to see my girl Lee Bong Ryun in this show, I kind of felt like they did her character here a bit dirty. I guess that she had to carry the entire story of what Shi Yeong should’ve come up with had he been allowed to stay on, but now she was suddenly completely on her own. Also, I didn’t actually get that she was Shi Yeong’s boss, or that she was the team leader at the start, I thought they were just on the same team. I guess they had to change some circumstances after Shi Yeong Disapparated. Anyways, as I know Bong Ryun to be such a steadfast and solid actress, it was almost a bit awkward to see her fail in some attempts to go after the right guy. I really would’ve liked her to get a bit more support from her stupid police colleagues! Anyways, I’m always happy to see her, and this was no exception. Just to give a summary, I’ve seen her so far in Tomorrow With You, While You Were Sleeping, Melting Me Softly, Run On, Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha, Extraordinary Attorney Woo and most recently in Crash Course in Romance.

Little Seo Yeon Woo, who played San Ah, truly touched my heart in this show. I loved how mature she was for her age. In general, I got the impression that the kids knew way better than some of the adults what was going on. I see that she’s been in 8 dramas so far, so I hope she will get many more chances to prove what an intelligent young actress she is!

I can’t believe that I didn’t immediately recognize So Hee Jung as Seung Wan’s mom from Twenty-Five Twenty-One! Like, I recognized her face, but I didn’t make the connection to that specific role at all! She’s amazing! She’s also appeared The Moon That Embraces the Sun, Lookout, Gyeryong Fairytale, Hotel del Luna and Rookie Historian Goo Hae Ryung. Although she only appeared for seven episodes, she portrayed the role of ALS patient so well that she managed to touch me more than several of the main character managed to within the entire series. Down to the voice and the smile hiding the pain, she was such an angel. I really loved her character and I was really mad for people to just forget to take care of her. She deserved better.

For Kim Soo Hyung, little Ji Hoo, this was apparently her first ever drama performance! She’s done a couple more things in the meantime, but I hope she gets many more opportunities. I really loved her innocent portrayal of Ji Hoo, and how she just never succumbed to any negative or evil feelings. She didn’t even blame the people who were supposed to take care of her mother, she harbored no ill fate towards anyone, and that made her so pure and sweet. I really loved her character.

I hadn’t actually seen anything with Lee Hang Na before, but she seemed so familiar. Although as I’ve established in my review, I had kind of mixed feelings about the comical aspect of the hospice residents characters’, but that doesn’t mean that they didn’t perform well. Besides the fact that I just couldn’t understand why she’s pull something like that fake full recovery party just not to disappoint her fellow patients that she did actually get more sick, even though most of them probably already knew what was behind it, I think she was a nice enough lady. She just got lucky with a few more years, but still couldn’t make it through the end. At least, it was never confirmed that she died after leaving the hospice, but it was suggested she was deteriorating. Anyways, as a part of the cheerful trio, I liked her character.

I didn’t know Joo In Young either, but I see that she’s going to be in a few of my upcoming watchlist items, so I’m curious to see more of her acting! With her whole shaman getup and extravagant persona, she was one of the people who really became kind of caricature within the hospice, one of the people that strengthened in feeling a little bit odd about how seriously everyone was taking it. She and the elderly lady end up outliving Se Yeon and Mi Do, and to the end didn’t show any major signs of deterioration, although Yeo Wol definitely had more sulking moments. I think she hid the fact that she knew pretty well what the hospice was trying to do underneath her fancy shaman exterior. I would’ve liked to see a bit more depth or background information on her character, though.

I’ve seen Sung Byung Sook in a couple of things before, like You’re Beautiful, Secret Garden, My Love From Another Star, Doctor Stranger, My Shy Boss and Andante. She’s such a familiar face, another one of the K-Drama grannies that we like to see. It was interesting seeing her as a kind of funny character here, despite her illness. The fact that she was always munching on something and that she ended up becoming a ‘senior influencer’ under Mi Do’s guidance was pretty funny. She was a nice character within the hospice group.

Why did I just assume Han Gyu Won (Goo Ji Pyo) belonged to an idol group? He’s not an idol, and he’s actually my age, lol. Anyways, I see he’s really just starting out making a career in acting, he’s done 7 things so far. To be honest, I wasn’t that impressed with his performance, especially as the proclaimed ‘bad guy’. He made it way too obvious once it was revealed that he was shady. Because of his character he didn’t really get to show multiple sides of his acting, so I just hope he’s improving with every project he takes on.

This guy always freaks me out because he is basically Woo Do Hwan from the future. Like, they could literally be father and son. I just realized I recently saw him in The Silent Sea, where he was a nasty guy, but I didn’t immediately make the link when I saw him here, he looked very different in that other show. Anyways, he had a very typical way of portraying a shady guy, but he got to show many different sides, from confidence to fear, and that was nice to see. Who would’ve thought he actually ended up being a trump card when it was revealed he wasn’t actually dead as Goo Ji Pyo thought. That was a nice twist in itself.

Apparently, Ahn Chang Hwan was in Strong Woman Do Bong Soon and also had a cameo in Backstreet Rookie. Other than that I don’t know him from anything else, but he also has a really familiar face. I had mixed feelings about his character because while I first thought he was a good-hearted guy and would keep Woo Cheon safe, he did actually betray him a couple of times in order to ensure his own safety. It was sad when he learned that they were keeping his family hostage, but luckily Park Seung Seon came to the rescue. It was for the better that he came out with the truth in the end, stuff had been dragged out for too long. I liked that they gave him the additional quirk of a stutter, as that’s not something that is portrayed very often, I thought.

I just saw that Lee Soo Mi appeared in Crash Course in Romance as a guest appearance, but other than that I’m surprised to say that I haven’t seen her in anything yet. Again, she looks so familiar, but I guess not. It doesn’t come as a surprise that she’s a comical actress though, she did seem to have a knack for that in her portrayal of Sister Magdalena. I guess I just would’ve liked to see a more serious and collected side of her behind her ever-cheerful smile in pretending everything was jolly. Like, to have that duality in her character, where she actually was very well aware of the sorrows that happened under her roof, that would’ve made me appreciate her as the hospice’s director even more. It was already there for a bit, but there could’ve been a little bit more to proof to me that not everything was just fun and games to her. I would’ve also liked to get more information on how she came to run the place, or something, like get a bit more insight in who she really was.

It was definitely funny to see Bo Ra in this drama, especially dressed as a nun. I’ve seen her in a couple of things before, like Doctor Stranger, High-end Crush, and a cameo in My ID is Gangnam Beauty. She’s also in seasons 2 and 3 of Doctor Romantic, Teacher Kim, but I’ve only watched season 1. I should get on with those other seasons though, it seems to be a really popular series. Anyways, although I could appreciate Bo Ra’s character for her comic relief, she still contributed to the weird feeling that I got from the entire hospice. It’s nice that she gets more acting roles, though, good luck to her with further opportunities!

By the way, about the title of the series, I believe the Korean title can be interpreted in two ways: ‘the one and only’ and ‘just one person’. I personally thought it was interesting that they let both of these meanings come back in the story. In terms of ‘the one and only’, it talks about Woo Cheon, as he is identified as ‘the one and only’ person for In Sook. On the other hand, ‘just one person’ refers to the decision of the three women in the first episode to take someone, ‘just one bad person’ with them when they die. I thought it was quite witty that they left the interpretation of the title open for what it could apply to at different occasions in the story.

I’ve spent another entire day on this review, and I really struggled with it. I was actually laying awake last night trying to voice my opinions as to make it easier for me to construct my arguments, but as soon as I sat behind my PC, my mind just went blank and I had no idea how to go about it. I just started writing separate paragraphs on things I wanted to say and tried to make it into a whole. I hope it’s coherent enough to follow from beginning to end, but I’ll definitely read it over again to see if I can polish up some parts. (Edit: I came back the following day and completely restructured it while adding some parts I forgot to mention. What can I say, I care about my reviews.✌️)

All in all, I was not very impressed with this series. There were too many parts that didn’t make sense to me, too much unnecessary drama that kind of lost its meaning altogether at the end. I also found it kind of extreme that they added in so many heavy themes, especially when they were all just to show the main characters’ misery and it all sort of lost its purpose at the end. If the objective was to show how tough life could be, well, they succeeded in that at least. But I alsofelt like it lacked in the writing, coherence of the structure and the development of characters’ bonds.
I want to emphasize that I find it hard to be critical because I acknowledge the message that was intended, but this is just what I thought and felt while watching it. Despite the message, they didn’t manage to get it across very well, to me in any case. I really want to be as positive about it as I could be, but I need to stay true to my own opinions. If you don’t agree with me, please be kind in the comments and form a healthy discussion, please don’t be too hard on me in case I missed some significant detail or message. We all watch these shows with our own eyes, process them with our own minds, and these are the points that jumped out to me the most. Unfortunately, the few redeeming parts didn’t outweigh the things that I thought could have been dealt with better. There’s always the chance of a setback in discovering new dramas, it can’t be helped, you can’t like everything you come across. It is what it is.

I will be going on with my watchlist now, moving on to some more light, romantic and comic shows (I hope). Also, for the next two watch items at least I’m going to switch it up in terms of origin again, so please look forward to that!

Enjoy your summer and see you soon!

Bye-bee! xxx