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The Makanai: Cooking for the Maiko House

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

The Makanai: Cooking for the Maiko House
( 舞妓さんちのまかないさん / Maikosanchi no Makanaisan)
MyDramaList rating: 7.5/10

Hiya! Just popping in with a final March review! I decided to watch this after I saw the trailer on Netflix, and it looked so nice that I didn’t want to wait. Also, it’s directed by my favorite Japanese director, Mr. Koreeda Hirokazu, so I knew it would be worthwhile to check it out. It took me back to the serenity of Japanese culture and made me remember why I fell in love with it. Even after finishing 5 years of Japan Studies, it still taught me things I didn’t know about geisha culture. It was like I went back to this familiar place of learning about Japanese culture, so that probably added to the nostalgia. It’s a really short show with not that many events, so this probably won’t be a very lengthy review, but I still wanted to discuss it because it deserves just as much attention as any other drama series would. I’m really glad I went ahead with it, especially after finishing a couple of series that were less to my personal liking, because this drama really felt like ‘coming home’ to something. The vibe is beautifully authentic, and it felt like watching a movie with great cinematography and acting that exceeded dialogue at times. It’s been a while since I’ve felt so at ease while watching a series, and I really appreciated that feeling.

The Makanai: Cooking for the Maiko House is a 9-episode Japanese Netflix drama, with each episode lasting about 45 minutes. The story is about two 16-year old girls and best friends Nozuki Kiyo (played by Mori Nana) and Herai Sumire (played by Deguchi Natsuki). The two of them are originally from Aomori, but after a school trip to Kyoto and meeting a beautiful geiko called Momoko (Hashimoto Ai) there, the two decide that they want to become maiko themselves as well. In the first episode, the two girls travel to Kyoto and start their adventure at the Saku House. The Saku House is one of the many houses that lodge maiko-in-training in the Gion district, which is famous for producing many maiko and geiko. The house is led by two ‘mothers’, Mother Chiyo (played by Matsuzaka Keiko) and Mother Azusa (played by Tokiwa Takako), who welcome the girls warmly. The house further lodges three maiko, Tsurukoma, Kikuno and Kotono (respectively played by Fukuchi Momoko, Wakayanagi Kotoko and Minami Kotona), and another 17-year old girl called Ryoko (played by Makita Aju), who is later revealed to be Mother Azusa’s biological daughter. She’s the only one in the house who doesn’t want to have anything to do with the maiko life. While Sumire seems to thrive in her lessons and turns out to be a natural talent, it becomes clear quite fast that Kiyo isn’t as suited for the maiko life as her friend. From the start, Kiyo seems to be more interested in helping the house’s makanai-san with her cooking preparations, and she doesn’t seem that apt to the flower arrangement or mai dancing lessons. The mai instructor informs Mother Azusa that she doesn’t think Kiyo is suited to become a maiko, and Kiyo has to decide what she wants to do – go home to Aomori and return to school there, or find something else she wants to do here. When the makanai-san sprains her back and Kiyo offers to fill in for her, everyone is astonished to find Kiyo’s incredible cooking skills. And so, at the age of 16, Kiyo ends up becoming the house’s makanai-san, meaning she is in charge of cooking for all the people in the house every day, from breakfast to dinner. This way, she and Sumire aren’t separated, and Kiyo can still continue to root for her friend while she finds her own ultimate path as The Makanai, Cooking for the Maiko House.

I looked up what the official definition of makanai was, since it doesn’t actually seem to refer to a person as much as it does to the food service itself. It stands for ‘boarding’, ‘lodging’, ‘catering’, so basically the meals that come with admission to a certain place. You could say makanai-san means something like ‘kitchen manager’, or plainly ‘person in charge of staff meals’. I find it so interesting that the Japanese language sometimes just takes an adjective, puts -san behind it, and turns it into a personification of that adjective.

As I already mentioned briefly in my introduction, it’s a short series with not many spectacular events. The main storyline is about Kiyo continuing to produce meals for the Saku House lodgers, and her increasing respect towards the food and her new workplace, and on the other hand we see Sumire develop in her path to become a maiko. The series is filled with scenes from within the house, the interactions between the maiko girls and the Mothers, alternated with scenes of the girls’ lessons, both in performing and the lessons they learn from their senior geiko.
I found out that geiko and geisha are pretty much the same thing, but geiko is the Kyoto dialect word for it. To respect the setting of the show, I will therefore keep using the word geiko in this review. Maiko is the term used for young girls who are training to become a geiko. Just thought I’d clear that up before moving on.

This show reminded me a lot of “Memoirs of a Geisha“, only without any rivalisation or scheming. I liked how the atmosphere between all the Saku House girls and women, even the ones who already graduated, was consistently warm and friendly. Everyone got along well, everyone rooted for each other, and that made it very comforting to watch. Even the people who see or saw each other as ‘rivals’ don’t actually go head to head, it never becomes tense. Sumire goes in training under the geiko she and Kiyo met on that school trip, Momoko. Momoko graduated from Saku House before and she is the number one popular geiko in their district, so the ultimate rolemodel for Sumire and the other girls. Even though Momoko is very stoic, she never becomes nasty in any way. Even when confronted with her former peer Yoshino (played by Matsuoka Mayu), even though they’re polar opposites and perfect rival material, their relationship never actually grows sour. Even though there may have been some rivalry between several people, it never leads to any real tension and everyone respects each other in their own way. That was nice to see.

One of the things I liked about this series’ concept, and here I will refer to a comment I read on My DramaList, is that the image of geisha has become such an iconic representation of traditional Japan. It has become an object of the external eye, something we look at and admire from afar. The lovely thing about this show is that it focusses on the ‘behind the scenes’ of this representation, the domesticity of the household, the interactions between the women when they’re not out as their maiko/geiko personas. For example, it was so nice to see Tsurukoma, Kikuno and Kotono bicker over trivial things, complain about maintaining their hair and laugh about everyday jokes. I thought it was so nice that this story showed the girls and women both ways, as themselves and as their personas. It just made every character so real. Even though not every character is explored in terms of backstory or reason why they ended up at Saku House, you can just tell everyone is there for their own reason, and it’s also possible to leave as soon as they decide it’s not what they want after all. The same goes for the Mothers, always portrayed wearing kimono and looking elegant, but at the same time Mother Azusa is getting it on with a school teacher and Mother Chiyo has an affinity with popular Korean actors – how hard I LOL’ed when she revealed her little Hyun Bin altar, I absolutely loved that. It was such a nice thing to give every single character some kind of quirk, like how Mother Azusa was such a ditz sometimes, how Tsurukoma loved doing impressions and how Kotono developed a crush on the delivery guy. Seeing maiko and geiko from a distance, you always wonder what kind of person could be behind that get-up, and this series really made me realize how they really are all just regular people. It really puts the geiko life in a new perspective for me, I liked that.

Because this story was very character-based, I would like to go through my analysis in the same way: character-by-character. I think diving into the characters alone will probably enable me to get all the points across that I wish to make about this show.

First of all, our girl Kiyo, the title character. I found it interesting how the title of the series focusses on Kiyo, while you could say that Kiyo was the ultimate supporting character. She was the person who stood in the background, preparing the meals while her peers went into the world as maiko. Kiyo’s role in the Saku House household became vital in its simple supportiveness, and I think that makes her a very interesting character to dissect.
We don’t find out much about Kiyo’s family. All we see is that she has been living with her grandmother (Shiraishi Kayoko) who probably had a hand in teaching her how to cook. Looking at her personality, it could very well be that she was influenced by Sumire’s drive to become a maiko more than that she actually wanted that for herself. From her very first entry into Saku House, Kiyo immediately has difficulty switching to the Kyoto-dialect maiko-style speech. She can’t seem to keep her flower arrangements upright and her body doesn’t adapt to the mai dance movements. On the other hand, she keeps noticing what people are eating, she keeps thinking about what there will be for dinner and what she’ll be able to help the makanai-san with when she’ll come by. It’s a classic case of ‘if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a wall…’, Kiyo was never meant to become a maiko, and to her it feels like a fateful experience that she encounters the work of being the makanai at the house. While everyone continously keeps asking her if she’s really happy doing this work all by herself, if she’s not having a hard time, if she’s really happy staying in the background while her friends spread their wings as maiko, she always replies with a big smile on her face that she feels like she was meant to come to Saku House to become the makanai. She ends up being the character who feels like she’s in the right place the most, while we see several maiko and geiko around her debate their choices. In a way, she becomes an inspiration for many people around her, and it ultimately even results in one of the maiko leaving the house as she realizes it’s not her true passion after all. Seeing someone be so happy and passionate about what they’re doing can result in confirming your own passion, but it can also result in a confrontation with the fact that you do not feel like that. I guess Kiyo became a sort of mirror for the people around her while she was doing her own thing, and that’s kind of amazing. I think it was very refreshing to have a title character who isn’t necessarily the center of attention, or even the main character in her own life. She’s happy doing her own thing in the background, not drawing too much attention to herself while letting her peers take the spotlight, you don’t often see that.
It wasn’t just about cooking for Kiyo, it was so much more than that. I found it very interesting and respectable to see how she was filled with this pure respect for the utensils and ingredients she worked with. They way she would watch the food so closely while she was preparing it, the little smiles it got out of her when she saw how an ingredient would react to a certain way of cooking or boiling, the genuine interest she had in learning about how each season influenced the manner of preparation. I’ve never seen a character so smitten with an occupation before, the excitement just spat off her face while she was cooking, and it was wonderful.

I guess you could say that Sumire struggled more with Kiyo’s change of plans than Kiyo herself. When she heard that Kiyo wasn’t to continue her maiko training, she seemed to be very distraught, especially since they both held such emotional value to their promise of becoming maiko together. Even when the plan was still for Kiyo to leave the house, I wondered whether Sumire would truly be able to keep going with Kiyo gone. After Kiyo became the makanai, Sumire kept worrying whether Kiyo was okay with that, especially when she rapidly made her way up to becoming a maiko herself. Kiyo would assure her time and time again that she was happy where she was, and seeing her friend smile so sincerely always managed to cheer Sumire up, but even so I often wondered what Sumire was really thinking, since it still seemed to bother her in some way.
As it happens, Sumire is truly one of the best maiko-in-training of her batch, and she’s given the chance to become a maiko sooner than anyone expected. As she’s training under Momoko, her maiko name will take one character from her senior’s name, and she eventually becomes Momohana, written with the meaning of ‘peach’ and ‘flower’. I think the name really suits her innocent beauty.
While Kiyo only had her grandmother, Sumire gets a little more family backstory, mostly in the sense that her father initially disapproves of her going to Kyoto to become a maiko. Sumire’s father visits the Saku House in one episode, where everyone eventually manages to convince him that Sumire is in good hands there and that she’s doing very well. He even shows up when Sumire, or Momohana I should say, is officially introduced as maiko and goes around the town to pay her respects. Sumire also doesn’t seem to have a lot holding her back in terms of homesickness or anything, and she initially dislikes her father for disagreeing with her choice, but she does make her peace with him in the end.
Other than that, Kiyo and Sumire have one other childhood friend back in Aomori, Nakawatari Kenta (played by Jo Kairi), a boy who’s very skilled in baseball. It initially seems like Sumire has a little bit of a crush on him, but she never vocalizes this and in the end I wondered if it was actually true. Something did seem to bother her in terms of a one-sided crush, anyways.
I found Sumire a very interesting character because she exuded nothing but pureness and innocence, but I sometimes found it really hard to gauge what she was thinking. It seemed like she had a lot on her mind at times, but she would never ‘bother’ Kiyo with it, and Kiyo always automatically managed to cheer her up. I would’ve liked to get a more detailed peak inside Sumire’s head at times, because now she remained a little mysterious, in a way. Which also added to the charm of her character, because despite her young and pure appearance, there definitely seemed to be something profound within her. I wish I could put my finger on it.

The friendship between Kiyo and Sumire is the main theme of the show. The relentless trust and comfort the two find with each other, how, despite the fact that they each go their own paths during the day, they always can’t wait to come home to each other at the end of it. How Kiyo always thinks about making something special for Sumire, how Kiyo is the first person Sumire runs to when she hears she is to become a maiko. The fact that Sumire refuses to eat mini sandwiches because she’s only going to eat the ones Kiyo has promised to make for her maiko debut. The simple comfort of having that one person who’s just always there for you, who you can always rely on. Sometimes a soulmate isn’t a romantic partner. These girls really proved that for me. I really loved how matter-of-fact that was, especially for Kiyo. When the other maiko commented on the fact that she saved a portion for Sumire or when she’s making something specifically for her, Kiyo would just smile and go like ‘You got me!’. I just found their friendship so healing, because it was so natural and genuine. The two girls had their own lives and their own daily tasks, but they always found that moment where they could catch up over a hot bowl of soup that Kiyo made at the end of the day. I just became so happy for them that they could remain friends while staying at the same house with different ambitions. It’s really one of the most pure depictions of friendship that I’ve seen in an Asian drama so far.

Momoko was another story entirely. I kept getting reminded of the character Hatsumomo from Memoirs of a Geisha, but I really loved that Momoko had an edge to her personality while it never made her an unpleasant character. As the most successful recent graduate of Saku House, Momoko is seen as the ultimate rolemodel for the current maiko and definitely for Sumire. While maintaining a certain stoicness in her geiko persona, she definitely has a mischievous and quirky streak to her in real life. We learn that she has an affinity with horror movies, for example. She takes her friend to the movies one time and teases him because he’s too scared to watch it, she’s also seen playing games at home with him later on. Something that I found interesting about her is that, while she was on top of the world in terms of her geiko career, we still see her debate whether or not to follow her heart. This friend I just mentioned, Iwai Masaru (played by Morisaki Win, or Win Kyaw Htoo) tells her he has to go to Tokyo for work and it’s clear that he means to ask her to come with him. He knows her as herself (I believe he calls her Mao-chan) and he makes her think twice about whether she really wants to continue being a geiko rather than, for example, marrying him. Although I kept finding it hard to determine what exactly she was thinking, Momoko decides to keep being a geiko, as she feels like she was born for it.
I liked how her sense of ‘rivalry’ towards Kiyo sprung from Sumire, how she was supposed to be Sumire’s trainer but Kiyo would always hold such a big space in Sumire’s heart that even Momoko felt like she was competing with her. It was nice how Kiyo managed to inspire her with the ichi-go ichi-e, the ‘once in a lifetime encounter’ idea. Kiyo told her that she would greet and thank her ingredients and utensils every single day before she started using them, because no matter the routine of her work, every single ingredient was different based on the day. That’s what made it so enjoyable for her, even if she used some ingredients multiple times, it always felt to her like she was ‘meeting’ them for the first time. I really loved that particular explanation, because it again emphasized how sincere Kiyo was about her work and how seriously she took it. She never got bored of it because she found something new and exciting about it by herself every single day, and this is what ultimately also inspired Momoko when she felt like she was in a bit of a slump (maybe, again, I’m not entirely sure what she was feeling at that point). But I thought it was really cool how Momoko used that exact quote from Kiyo later on in an interview, how she would greet every new day as if she was meeting it for the first time.

In contrast to Momoko, Yoshino really is that breath of fresh air that completely breaks the standard of geiko always having to be elegant and reserved. It was so nice to see an actual jester mingle with all those conservative-looking girls. Yoshino is such an entertainer, and it just made me so curious to how she may have looked as a geiko in full make-up performing a mai, for example. Yoshino is a former graduate who unexpectedly returns to Saku House to make herself right at home and not give anyone an actual explanation of why she’d come back. We find out eventually, when her husband comes to take her back, that she just decided she wanted a divorce since she couldn’t stand her mother-in-law anymore and so she came back to the place she felt most comfortable at. She is a former geiko who tells everyone that she has always been Momoko’s biggest rival while they were training together, while we can probably all take that with a grain of salt. Her behavior is much more exaggerated than the others girls’ and she misbehaves sometimes but it’s all forgiven because she is Yoshino, after all. I always like characters like her because there’s clearly something deeper underneath the carnival mask and that’s exactly what I felt with Yoshino too. The few times she has a sincere conversation with someone it becomes clear she is undeniably a good person. I liked the dynamic between her and Momoko a lot, also how she could crack through Momoko’s stoicness sometimes, you could tell they were actually on good terms with each other. It was also nice to see how Momoko saw Yoshino as her equal, despite her own first-ranking position as geiko. Despite the friendly bickering there is an undeniable sense of respect between the two of them, and that made their relationship very interesting to watch as well.

Mother Chiyo is the older already nearing 70, I believe) ‘mother’ of Saku House, a very serene but easygoing lady with, as I mentioned before, a hidden affinity for Korean actors. Maybe with actors in general, because it’s also revealed her first love was a famous kabuki actor named Bando Yajuro (who made a guest appearance as himself). I kept wondering how she came to host at Saku House, but I guess it happened after she graduated from being a geiko herself. As far as I understand she never got married or had children, so I would’ve liked to get some more information on her life and past as a former geiko. I did like the little story and catch-up session she got with the kabuki actor, and how they established that while they may have had a crush on each other, they never went along with it and that’s the reason why they could still meet up and talk like this after 60 years had passed.

Mother Azusa was one of my favorite characters because of her quirkiness. When Kiyo and Sumire first enter Saku House, they are warned by Ryoko that Mother Azusa isn’t as nice as she seems and that they should run away while they still can, but Mother Azusa is actually super kind! Maybe it was just Ryoko trying to scare the newbies away and simultaneously expressing some disdain for her own mother. Anyways, Mother Azusa was appropriately strict at the right moments, but I don’t think there was even a moment where she got genuinely angry, she always seemed very concerned for the girls’ futures. Whether she had to tell Kiyo about her unsuitability to become a maiko or tell Sumire about her rapidly nearing maiko graduation, she always took the person in question apart to have a sincere talk with them. When she saw one of the maiko sitting by herself, clearly contemplating something, she would always ask if anything was wrong, she was always there to support in whatever way and that made her a really likeable character. I really liked that scene where she sat Sumire down to tell her about her fast-nearing promotion to maiko and went ‘I have good news and bad news, which do you want first?’ and the bad news was just that she’d eaten Sumire’s snack from the fridge, lol.
Mother Azusa clearly had been through her own share of experiences, both good and bad. If I understand correctly she had to quit being a geiko after giving birth to Ryoko but still decided to remain within the same world to support future maiko, even though this made her relationship with Ryoko quite awkward as she now acted like a ‘mother’ to her maiko ‘daughters’ more than she could act like a mother to her real daughter. It’s only towards the end that Ryoko finally calls her ‘mom’ one time instead of ‘Azusa’ and we see how happy this makes her. In the meantime, Mother Azusa is clearly forming a bond with this neighborhood teacher, Mr. Tanabe (played by Iura Arata). They’re often seen taking strolls together and it’s clear that they’re both fond of each other. Mr. Tanabe also admits that he’s planning on eventually proposing to Mother Azusa. It was nice how Ryoko, in her own way, gave her blessing to him.

I thought Ryoko was an interesting character because she stood in such stark contrast to the rest of Saku House’s lodgers. She’s kind of scruffy-looking, and she makes more snarky and uninterested remarks than anyone else, but she seems to be the kind of girl who hides her true feelings behind a tough mask. It initially seems like she’s looking down on the friendship between Kiyo and Sumire, but it turns out she’s actually envious of having that kind of person for herself. Once she comes to terms with her own honest feelings, it becomes easier for her to show more affection and gratitude towards people in the household, including her own mother. I’m not sure if Mother Azusa was first married or that Ryoko is an illegitimate child, but in any case, her biological father has a new family of his own now. I couldn’t make out if the father actually knew about her or not. She goes to see him one time but doesn’t actually approach him – she just watches him with his new family and mentions she doesn’t need to say hi. I’m also not sure what her true feelings towards her mother are, except that she doesn’t really feel close to her. I just got the impression that Ryoko, being surrounded by this world she had no affinity with whatsoever, felt very lonely not to have any peers around her with whom she could talk about her own life. I guess that’s what made her so envious of the friendship between Kiyo and Sumire, and it made her wonder if she’d ever meet such a person for herself as well. It was nice getting a little insight into her mind, into how alone she felt. I’m just glad she came to terms with her situation eventually.

I’m not sure in which order I should list the three maiko girls, but I’ll just go with Tsurukoma, then Kikuno, then Kotono. Tsurukoma stands apart because of her glasses. Maiko aren’t supposed to wear glasses, so everytime she wears them in the house it just makes the duality of her real self and her maiko persona that much clearer. I’m not sure if she was actually the oldest of the three, but it did feel like that. Despite the fact that she seemed to be doing well and that she was performing steadily enough, being confronted with both Kiyo’s and Sumire’s perseverence and determination in their respective paths, Tsurukoma comes to the conclusion that becoming a geiko isn’t her real passion after all and she leaves the house in the final episode. Throughout the show she probably has the most interaction with Kiyo, she seems to be interested in her the most and Kiyo also at some point makes something special for her while the others are still sleeping.
Tsurukoma can be seen as the most quirky of the three maiko girls, as she leans the most towards being an entertainer, including doing impressions. I really liked how her name seemed to be the most individualistic too, I wonder from which senior she received a character for her name. For Kikuno and Kotono, I just assumed they both got the ‘no’ from Yoshino, but I’m not sure as Momoko and Yoshino are the only two former geiko shown in the series.
Kikuno doesn’t get as much storyline, but she is mostly depicted as being the strictest out of the three girls, especially towards Kotono. She always scolds Kotono for spacing out or being late for something, but it’s clear that she is just concerned for her.
I think it’s safe to assume that Kotono is the youngest of the three, as she still seems to be the most immature in terms of experience. I thought it was cute how she developed an innocent crush on the chubby delivery guy, and how there was some potential budding romance between them as he was quite taken with her as well. When confronted with questions of the others about what in the world she saw in him, Kotono only commented that the guy had ‘such sincere/kind eyes’. That was really sweet.

In one of the final episodes, a new girl named Riko (played by Narumi Kanon) joins Saku House as a new aspiring maiko. When she appeared I realized she was shown once before, very briefly, when Kiyo and Sumire go to pray at an altar or statue, I don’t remember what it was for but Riko is shown at that statue before them, rolling the stone ball very aggressively before her school friends tell her to make way for the two girls standing in line. Riko also initially doesn’t seem like maiko material at all, she has a bigger build and a very loud and energetic way of speaking. Her mother also seemed to be a bit unsure, lol. I liked it when Mother Chiyo went ‘you took in another odd one, didn’t you’ to Mother Azusa, haha. This only happens in the second-to-last episode so Riko doesn’t actually get much development, but she’s taken into the house without any further prejudice from anyone. I guess it also just proved how welcoming Saku House was to anyone willing to make an effort, and how they never judged new aspirant girls based on their appearance.

I just have a couple of people left that I want to mention, people that were linked to, or helped out at Saku House and appeared occasionally as regulars.
First of all, of course, Mr. Tanabe. I don’t exactly know how he was related to Mother Azusa, he was depicted teaching just once so I assumed he was a teacher, maybe at Ryoko’s school? I’m not sure. Anyways, he appears a lot at the Saku Bar and is often taking walks with Mother Azusa. It seems like he is familiar with all the maiko girls too, and always joins to watch performances.
I really liked the mai instructor lady, named oshisho-san Sakurai Kimie (played by Toda Keiko). She was strict during the lessons, but she really thought about what would be good for the girls and I liked how she had that running gag of her commenting on the food they brought her on her breaks, lol. She made me laugh multiple times, I just thought she was a really funny character, but she never lost her sincerity either.
Besides her, there were Mr. Takeshi and Mr. Hiroshi, father and son, who occasionally helped out. When they needed to change the window frames for the winter in the house, for example, they would come and change them. On the other hand they also helped the girls change into their kimonos for performances and such. I’m not sure what exactly their ‘profession’ was, but it was clear that their family had been helping out at Saku House for several generations. It really just made all the people, not just the lodgers of Saku House itself but also the people who helped out regularly, seem like one big family.
And then there was the Saku Bar. At some point I thought that the bar was connected to the Saku House, as sometimes Mother Chiyo or Mother Azusa would enter the bar through a door in the back. Anyways, the bartender was Mr. Ren (played by Lily Franky). He seemed to also be part of the Saku family, although I wasn’t sure in what way exactly. He also seemed to be on good terms with Ryoko, and she was the only person sharp enough to see that he would have difficulty with the fact that Mother Azusa and Mr. Tanabe would get married – although I wasn’t sure whether that meant he was secretly in love with Mother Azusa or with Mr. Tanabe, lol. In any case, he was always a very loyal and familiar figure. In the end, during Momohana’s maiko debut, he was the one who offered her a drink while mentioning something along the lines of ‘this one is for one-sided love’, and this really made me wonder about Sumire’s feelings, and if that was really about Kenta.
Finally, I wanted to give a final mention to Mr. Seino (played by Omi Toshinori) who was in charge of taking pictures of the maiko and geiko with an analog camera. He seemed to be a personal fan of Tsurukoma, as he was really sad to see her go and he even gave her an entire photo album of pictures he’d taken of her during her life as a maiko.
All of these people felt like they were part of the family, everyone was constantly encouraging each other and that was really nice.

One theme that came back with several characters but still remained a little vague, was the one of romance and marriage prospects. While it wasn’t particularly discouraged to be in love as a maiko, fact remained that they wouldn’t be able to remain maiko or geiko after they got married or had a child. I’ve always felt that this has to do with the fact that geiko should remain ‘pure’ and ‘untouched’. On the other hand, former geiko like Yoshino and Mother Azusa were also not shamed for quitting being a geiko after deciding to do either of these things, so I’m not sure how heavy it truly weighs. In any case, I just wanted to write a bit about the feelings that Mother Azusa, Momoko and Sumire may have been carrying when it came to romance and marriage prospects.
Mother Azusa didn’t seem to have much trouble envisioning getting together with Mr. Tanabe. As she was already no longer an official geiko, I don’t think it would’ve been such a big issue for her. I mean, even Mother Chiyo at one point asks her if she’s really okay with staying at Saku House because she herself wouldn’t mind if Azusa decided to marry Mr. Tanabe and move out. We don’t actually get to see the relationship between Mother Azusa and Mr. Tanabe evolve in the end, but it does end on a positive note in terms of Ryoko giving her blessing to the both of them. I’m not sure if that was indeed something that stood in their way of confirming their feelings, but I think it definitely helped them, especially Mr. Tanabe.
In Momoko’s case, it seemed to be a bit more complicated. I sometimes found it hard to determine what she was thinking. I think the whole concept of experiencing romance while you’re in the occupation of geiko is pretty complicated, as you can’t really afford to get distracted and you remain to be the object of other people’s admiration, so there’s no easy way to get away from it once you’re actually in it and making your way to the top. I did feel like Momoko had feelings for Iwai, and that maybe a part of her did want to stay with him, or rather, wanted him to stay with her, but she just couldn’t give up her life as a geiko. I also didn’t feel like she wanted to quit, because she mentioned a couple of times before that she really felt like she was meant to be doing this. So when Mother Azusa asked her if she wanted to quit and she suddenly said ‘I don’t know’, I was quite surprised. I couldn’t figure her out completely, but she did eventually stick with being a geiko, I guess because she really couldn’t bring herself to quit, after all. But it was hard to figure out her true feelings for Iwai, since she never spoke them out loud.
This also went for Sumire, I felt like she was quite similar to Momoko in that sense. She just had this really ambitious and genuine attitude towards becoming a maiko, but in-between we would get flashbacks from her about things they’d been through with Kenta, and just generally things that suggested that she was thinking about him. She would keep reading the New Year’s card he’d sent to her Kiyo and her. At first, I honestly thought there would be a kind of love triangle between her, Kiyo and Kenta. Sometimes it seemed to me as if Kenta had a crush on Kiyo and Sumire was having a one-sided crush on Kenta but could still never bring herself to feel resentful towards Kiyo. I’m not sure what it was because, again, it was never spoken out loud. But there was definitely something about Sumire, something was still bothering her deep down. I really wonder what it was.

The above paragraph brings me to a separate comment about the dialogue in this drama. I’ve mentioned it briefly in my introduction before, but I just loved how this drama sometimes resorted to silence and facial expressions rather than dialogue. The dialogues in itself were all really good, but sometimes the characters managed to convey so much by doing so little and I loved that. Especially the expressions shared between Kiyo and Sumire, like literally no words were required.
The other side of that is that some things were not expressed or explained as clearly as I would’ve liked. Although the charm of keeping certain messages hidden spoke to me in some way, in the end I did find it a pity that I couldn’t figure out what feelings and thoughts for example Momoko and Sumire were holding back. I’m not always the sharpest person so sometimes I need things spelled out to me, lol. Although I loved that sometimes silence was worth more than words, I would’ve liked some things to be explained in more words, haha.

Oh, one more character that I want to mention because I kept wondering about her: Yumi (played by Miura Rina). I thought that she was from a different house, because Kiyo and Sumire often talked with her on the balcony where they’d hang their laundry and Yumi was on the balcony that belonged to the other house. However, one time she did manage to come into Saku House and was sitting on the staircase. She didn’t actually live and eat in Saku House, but it seemed like she was also training to become a maiko. Until the end I wasn’t quite sure where she came from/belonged to. She remained a bit of a mystery to me. I initially thought she was just another maiko-in-training who they kept running into, but her appearances kept making me think there was more to her character.

I really like how this series places the traditional theme of maiko and geiko in a modern day setting. To make a series like this in 2023 feels like it’s meant to be educative. It just shows that even in modern times, Japan will always hold on to their rich culture and tradition that links to their history. Geiko will always be a symbol of pureness and gracefulness, and I found it very refreshing to see how learning the traditional arts of mai and flower arrangement still attract young girls these days, it proves how truly timeless it is. I’ve never been to Kyoto before but I can definitely see the appeal in taking a trip there and wandering through Gion, I bet it might feel like going back in time in a way. I love how they can still make these traditional themes so appealing for modern audiences, the whole vibe of the series really drew me in from the start.

As I anticipated, I was able to apply most of my comments on this series in the above character analyses, so now it’s time for some cast comments! I really liked the fact that I knew almost none of the actors before, I loved discovering all these new talented people. All in all I found the acting very nice and realistic, they truly created a very authentic vibe and I liked all the characters in their own way.

I didn’t even recognize her, but Mori Nana actually appeared in 3-nen A-gumi! I even gave her a special shoutout in my review because of her amazing natural acting there! She really impressed me in The Makanai. She portrayed the simplicity of her character so well, her easygoing nature and how well she naturally adapted to working in the Saku House. Her friendship with Sumire was so natural that verbal confirmation wasn’t needed, and it really seemed like she was genuinely happy where she was. She didn’t have any dark thoughts or heavy feelings, it seemed. I can’t remember the last time I saw such an uncomplicated main character in a show. Her genuine smile and unbiased kindness just makes it impossible to dislike her. I am looking forward to seeing more series with her, I believe there are a few left on my watchlist, but she definitely made me realize what I already briefly noticed in her appearance in 3-nen A-gumi, this girl has something so naturally charming about her and her acting is incredibly realistic, almost as if it’s unscripted. I really liked her performance.

I hadn’t seen Deguchi Natsuki before, but I really liked her in The Makanai. She really was a perfect fit for the role of Sumire. She has this incredibly pure and innocent youthful beauty about her. We get to see the journey of such a young girl growing into a maiko and it was really interesting to see how she, despite her attachments to Kiyo, still managed to pave her own way and remain determined throughout the whole ordeal. While I thought her quiet acting was amazing, as mentioned before I would’ve liked to get some more insight in Sumire’s thoughts. The only narration we ever get in the story is from Kiyo, and Sumire seems to keep most of her thoughts and feelings to herself. I liked that she really exceeded being just ‘the best friend’ of the title character, because the story was as much about her as it was about Kiyo. I was really impressed with her subtle acting, half of the time it didn’t even seem like acting because she was just immersed in taking in all the impressions around her. The way her eyes lit up when she was watching Momoko perform, for instance, or how she took in everything during her lessons. It really felt like watching a documentary about her actually training to become a maiko. She was amazingly natural.

By the way, not me being shook at the fact that both Mori Nana and Deguchi Natsuki are actually 21 years old?! Honestly, when they said they were 16 in the show I didn’t even believe them, lol. Especially Deguchi Natsuki looks incredibly young for her age. I’m shook.

I kept trying to convince myself that I knew Hashimoto Ai from something, but it turns out I don’t. She looks so familiar, though! Anyways, wow. This woman is a literal piece of art. In her geiko outfit, she literally looked like she stepped out of a painting. I am not surprised at all that she’s a model in real life, being all tall and lanky and gorgeous. Even her face, the sharp nose and chin, everything about her is so aesthetic, I can’t even fathom it. Once again, a perfect casting choice, she really made Momoko the mysterious yet quirky character that she was. I was very impressed with her performance.

I kept thinking about how much Matsuoka Mayu reminded me of the Korean actress Seo Jung Yeon for some reason, but I now realize that I’ve seen her before in Mondai no Aru Restaurant. I would never have guessed that was her. In that series, she was basically what Ryoko was like in The Makanai! Admittedly, that was almost 10 years ago so of course she’d have aged, lol. Anyways, I really liked the vibe that Yoshino brought with her, it was nice to see a variety in personalities, because that really made you realize how any kind of person could be suited to become a geiko in their own way. If there had been more episodes, I definitely would have liked to see a flashback of the time when Momoko and Yoshino were still in training, that would be really nice. I liked how natural the entertainer persona came to her, too.

Apparently I’ve seen Matsuzaka Keiko before in Hayako-sensei, but it has been too long ago for me to remember her from there. I was sure I probably knew her from somewhere because again, she looked really familiar. I liked how quirky Mother Chiyo was, already in her affinity with Korean actors, lol, that just made her super relatable all of a sudden. But also in her gracefulness towards that kabuki actor who was her first love. I was curious to know a little more about her backstory, but the way she was depicted now was also nice because of her simplicity. She was a very nice character, maybe not as much of a mother figure as Mother Azusa, but she really cared about all the girls and held good relationships with everyone. She made Mother Chiyo into a very quirky lady, even at the age of 70!

Tokiwa Takako was another one of those actresses that I swore I knew from something, but it turns out I don’t. How come all these people have such familiar faces? Anyways, I really loved Mother Azusa. I kind of expected her to be really strict or something, but I loved that they gave her such a ditzy quirk. The thing with her eating Sumire’s snack and accidentally giving her the wrong comb to wear, she was just so human and I loved it. I would’ve liked to see Mr. Tanabe actually go on one knee, but I guess we’ll just have to imagine that happening for ourselves. Mother Azusa was a really kind person, she obviously cared about all the maiko in her care as much as she cared about Ryoko, although she may have been a little awkward in expressing her feelings towards her own child. I thought it was nice to give her a backstory like that. While all the characters were always smiling and seemingly happy, you just know that in their time, they must’ve also gone through a lot of stuff, not all of it nice. I love how she portrayed Mother Azusa as such a relatable character.

Makita Aju is actually a year younger than Mori Nana and Deguchi Natsuki, I really wouldn’t have thought that. I haven’t seen her in anything else before, but I really liked her natural acting as well. She was someone who’d usually kind of glance down rather than directly talking to people, and whose words may have come across as a bit more harsh than she would’ve meant. I think she portrayed the rebelliousness layered by loneliness in Ryoko very well, I felt for her at times because it seemed like she didn’t have that many people she could rely on, like even friends she could meet up with. It was interesting that there was one character like her within that house, at least one person who kept a distance from it all, who stayed away but was still accepted into the family. I think she did very well, I think in hindsight Ryoko may have been one of the most interesting characters to me.

Fukuchi Momoko is going on my list of actresses to keep an eye on. I LOVED Tsurukoma. There was just something about her that immediately made me like her, I don’t know what. It was so nice seeing this girl with her maiko-hairstyle and these old-fashioned strap-connected glasses, it immediately made her this ‘character’, like you could immediately see the duality of her as a person versus her being a maiko. Apart from the fact that I find her super pretty, despite her youthfulness there was something wise and profound about her face (I see that she’s indeed a bit older than the others, she’s 25 in real life), and I found it a refreshing choice to make Tsurukoma eventually decide to quit being a maiko. I hadn’t seen it coming, but it made her seem all the more mature to me for realizing that there was more for her to discover, that this wasn’t her final destination. Her performance entertained me to no end, I really loved all of the scenes she appeared in. I really hope I’ll get to see more dramas with her, I believe there are some left on my watchlist. Looking forward to that!

Wakayanagi Kotoko in turn reminds me of a younger version of Korean actress Seo Ji Hye. Again, she looks so familiar but I haven’t seen her in anything before. I would’ve liked to know a bit more about Kikuno’s story, but I liked that the three maiko girls all had their own personality and that they all still worked really hard to achieve their goal. Kikuno clearly took care of Kotono most of all, and at some point I even thought they might be actual sisters, because their names were also kept so similar. That didn’t seem to be the case, though, so maybe she just took her role as ‘older sister’ very seriously. I liked her performance.

Apparently this is Minami Kotona’s drama acting debut! According to MyDramaList she’s working on one movie right now, but she hasn’t done anything else before. It seems like she’s the youngest of the bunch too, she’s only 16 years old. In the series they really made them all look practically the same age, so that’s cool. She was probably the character closest in age to Kiyo and Sumire when they entered the Saku House and it felt like she also hadn’t been a maiko for that long yet, maybe she’d just made her debut. What I’ve said about most all people until now also goes for her: I really liked how naturally she acted and the slightly ditzy side to her also suited her very well. I loved how, when they were filming that horror movie sequence, she was just walking around with that bald patch on and even opened the door to the delivery guy without even feeling a little bit ashamed, haha. She’s really cute, too!

Iura Arata is such a familiar face by now that I’m not even surprised to see him anymore, haha. I feel like he’s appearing in a lot lately, mostly Netflix series. I know him from Rich Man Poor Woman, Tantei no Tantei, Unnatural and I recently saw him as a guest appearance in First Love: Hatsukoi. It was nice seeing a slightly less arrogant or grumpy character from him for a change, haha, he really played Mr. Tanabe very sympathetically and I was just waiting for him to officially confess to Mother Azusa. I liked his character, how we was kind of adopted into the Saku House family even though he also stood outside of it for the most part. He was just a very familiar presence to everyone. It was nice to see him in this.

Lily Franky is such an iconic actor, and this is actually the first time I’ve seen him appear in a drama series! I’ve only ever seen him in movies, and specifically Koreeda Hirokazu movies before. I guess he couldn’t leave him out of this one, either. Apparently he’s done plenty of drama series before, I’ve just never seen them, lol. Some movies I’ve seen of him are Like Father, Like Son (Koreeda), Our Little Sister (Koreeda), Shoplifters (Koreeda) and I recently saw him in the movie Call Me Chihiro, which is also on Netflix. I really like him, he always adds such a nice touch to all the characters that he plays, so it was nice to see him here as a friendly bartender.

I think I’ll keep it at that for the cast comments! I think the acting overall was really nice and realistic, and it just gave the whole series such an authentic feel to it. Everyone acted out their lines so naturally, and the way the show was structured felt like a documentary about these girls’ lives, that’s how unscripted it sometimes felt. When I say ‘unscripted’ I just mean to say that it felt that they were not following a script. I liked how we just fall into the story, it is also authentic in the way it introduces you to the characters without actually providing a profile, like ‘name, age, role in the house’. You really get to know the characters according to how often they appear through the story and what they tell you about themselves. In this way, we get to know more about some characters and less about others and that in itself also makes it really realistic.
I guess the only criticism I have is that it is so short and there is still so much I want to know. There are still a lot of characters I want to know more about, I want more backstories. I want to see Mr. Tanabe propose to Mother Azusa, I want to see some flashbacks from Momoko’s and Yoshino’s time in the house, I want to see how Riko will do in her training, etc. I’ve just gotten genuinely curious about everyone’s story, and leaving me hanging has got me feeling mixed. It’s been a great watch and I don’t even fully blame it for leaving several things open (Japanese movies and series tend to do that, anyway), but I guess the fact that I felt like I need more was exactly because of how good it is. It’s just gotten me invested in this big Saku House family so much that I don’t want to leave so soon. The lack of exciting events may also induce some criticism but on the other hand, slow-paced daily life-based stories are very much my thing, and it’s also what I love about Mr. Koreeda’s films. So yeah, my only criticisms exist because of how much I enjoyed the show. I really hope Japan keeps making these kinds of shows, because so far I’m really liking them.

If I had to sum up all the things I liked about this show, it would go something like this: I liked how it managed to balance the traditional aspect of the geisha culture with the respectful preparation of Japanese food. The food depicted was absolutely mouth-watering and it made me want to get a bite of every single thing Kiyo made. It’s a story about true friendship, friendship that perseveres through unforesoon circumstances, friendship made stronger by genuine mutual care and encouragement. The way everyone rooted and was genuinely happy for each other when they managed to advance on their path, even if it caused some inevitable envy. I loved how every character played an important role, and how it was emphasized how maiko and geiko truly are nothing without the additional support of their seniors, teachers and helpers. The support system they have behind the scenes is incredible. It taught me so much about Japanese culture, even when I already thought I’d learned most of what there was to learn. It actually made me want to visit Gion, Kyoto and feel this sensation for myself, see actual maiko and geiko with my own eyes, because now I feel like I can bring up more respect and understanding for them than before. The story is apparently based on a manga series, but they managed to bring it to life so well that it might as well have been a reconstruction or a documentary of a geiko‘s personal experience or something. I just loved the authenticity, the Kyoto-dialect that was mostly used, the ookini-s and the otanomoushimasu-s. And I loved how it was about inclusion. The fact that Saku House admitted girls from all backgrounds and personalities, even ‘odd ones out’ like Riko, because they never judged anyone based on their appearance or behavior. It was all just so nice, so welcoming, so warm. Also, I’m absolutely craving Japanese food now.

This show is definitely a gem amongst all the new stuff that’s been coming out on Netflix these days. I am glad I was able to see a drama series from Mr. Koreeda Hirokazu after only having seen films from him, but this might just as well have been one of his films, the style was unmistakable. The acting was great, the vibe was alluring, it was really my kind of series. The only thing I can comment is that it wasn’t very eventful, as in, dramatic, and I would’ve loved to see much more content, but I also can’t say that these points make the series less good. It’s an ichi-go ichi-e, a one of a kind gem, and that’s my final word on it.

I’ve decided that it’s time to catch up on some more recent hyped releases before I go on with my watchlist, because they keep piling up and I can’t keep up with them if I let them go by for too long. So up next is going to be a very recent newly hyped romantic comedy, I’m really curious!

Until then, bye-bee!

So I Married an Anti-Fan

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.


So I Married an Anti-Fan
( 그래서 나는 안티팬과 결혼했다 / Geuraeseo Naneun Antipaengwa Gyeolhonhaedda)
MyDramaList rating: 6.0/10

Hey everyone, it’s time for a new review! This one had been on my list for a while, and after my last watch I was really excited to start on it. I’d heard some stories about how it was going to get cancelled or whatnot, so I really wanted to see what this could’ve been about. Turns out it didn’t have to do with any controversy per se, but more with the fact that they weren’t able to find a broadcasting channel for the show? In any case, I guess they figured that out because we are now able to watch it completely online. My expectations were that it would maybe be a bit similar to Her Private Life or something, as it also revolved around an idol fandom and the entertainment industry, but it turned out to be quite different, and I have to say that unfortunately I didn’t end up liking this one as much as I’d hoped. I will elaborate on that more in this review of course, but that’s just to give you a heads up. Okay, so let’s get to it!

So I Married an Anti-Fan is a 16-episode K-Drama with episodes lasting about an hour each. The story is about aspiring journalist Lee Geun Young (played by SNSD’s Choi Soo Young), who seems to be the ultimate doormat. Her nickname at work is ‘Just Geun Young’ (aka ‘geunyang geunyeong’) because it’s so easy to dump tasks on her and say ‘Just let Geun Young do it’, because she never stands up for herself. In one of these instances, she’s chosen to cover a task where she needs to take a picture of/have a short interview with idol popstar Hoo Joon (played by Choi Tae Joon). She and one of her colleagues, Go Soo Hwan (Kim Min Gyu, always a fave), are sent to this club where he’ll make an appearance, but she doesn’t get the chance to talk with him. After having dinner with Soo Hwan and getting a little drunk, Geun Young goes in search of the bathroom but instead stumbles upon Hoo Joon having a seemingly earnest conversation with a girl she can’t identify. The girl seems very upset and at one point it even looks like Hoo Joon strikes her, but then he notices Geun Young and goes after her. Without even giving her a chance to explain herself, Hoo Joon smashes the camera in her hands and this incident creates the first bad connection between them. When Hoo Joon leaves the building later, Geun Young even goes after him and throws her shoe at his head, hitting him, which causes her to get some bad press as a result. Hoo Joon is so popular nation-wide that Geun Young is automatically put away as the bad guy, because after all Hoo Joon would never do anything to provoke such behavior. In any case, Geun Young is fired from her job almost immediately afterwards and, assuming it has to do with Hoo Joon’s influence in the matter, she decides to become his anti-fan and starts demonstrating outside his agency, much to the dislike of his fans.
Admittedly, Geun Young is going through a rough patch around that time. She quite recently broke up with her boyfriend after finding out he was actually gay (nice twist) and was using her as his beard, and then after she loses her job, she also loses her house. She stays with her friend Mi Jung (played by Kim Ha Kyung) for a while, but Mi Jung has a boyfriend who is planning to move in, so Geun Young doesn’t feel comfortable intruding on their space. And now, she’s also starting to become a target of online hate from Hoo Joon’s fans. In any case, we can understand that she’s in a tight spot.
On Hoo Joon’s side, we find out that he was actually not directly responsible for Geun Young losing her job, after he hears what happened to her he even mentions that he found it quite extreme to fire her over something like that. Apart from that, he still doesn’t exactly like Geun Young, so he doesn’t extend a helping hand or anything either.
Then, the both of them are suddenly approached by the producers of a new variety show called ‘So I Married an/my Anti-Fan’. The idea of the show is to put Hoo Joon and Geun Young in one house together and make them pretend like they are a married couple. I wonder if this idea was inspired by the actual existing show involving celebrities called ‘So We Got Married’. They initially both refuse the offer, but Geun Young is in desperate need of money and Hoo Joon has to keep up his reputation of being a forgiving and loving national treasure. So they end up doing it, and that’s how their real story starts.
In the meantime, we have two other important characters, the second main leads if you will. One of them is Choi Jae Joon, nicknamed JJ (played by Hwang Chan Sung), the CEO of his own talent agency, and Oh In Hyung (played by Han Ji An), a trainee under JJ, who was originally part of a girl group that disbanded and is now working hard for her second debut as a solo artist. Jae Joon and In Hyung used to be trainees together with Hoo Joon and the three of them used to be very close friends – Hoo Joon and In Hyung were even in a relationship at some point. However, things turned sour between them after Hoo Joon suddenly got his chance to debut (even though he started later than the other two) and became increasingly popular, leaving the other two behind. While In Hyung has never blamed him for his success even though it ended up driving them apart, Jae Joon has remained consistently bitter towards Hoo Joon, accusing him of betraying him and In Hyung. Especially after Hoo Joon refused joining Jae Joon’s agency. Out of spite, Jae Joon ‘took’ In Hyung into his agency to keep her on his side, also because he had been in love with her since even before Hoo Joon joined them as trainees. Let’s just say there’s a lot of bad blood between the two guys, mainly on Jae Joon’s side. Even though the relationship between Hoo Joon and In Hyung is now also very awkward and uncomfortable, it’s clear that they still care for each other, even if it’s not in that romantic way anymore. It’s more like, they wish each other luck in their respective careers, if they have to work together, so be it, but outside of that they’re not actually keeping in contact. They both have each other saved on their phones as ‘Stranger’ and they only call each other in case of emergencies. Actually one of the reasons why Hoo Joon decided to take on the variety show with Geun Young is because his management threatened that if he didn’t do it, he’d have to do it with In Hyung, and he didn’t want to put her (or himself) in that position.
So that’s how it starts, Hoo Joon and Geun Young start the variety show ‘So I Married an/my Anti-Fan’ together and while they’re both initially out to get each other, they end up falling in love.

I just want to clarify from the start that my criticism on this show didn’t lie in the actors’ performances. I think everyone did a great job and played their characters very convincingly. I think my dislike stemmed mostly from the fact that I couldn’t fully sympathize with most of the characters, especially the four main leads. I’ve never had this before while watching a K-Drama, but the relationships between all the main characters were all so messy and problematic, and even toxic at times, that I constantly had this gloomy feeling hanging over me while I was watching it. Especially in the first half of the series, everything was so icky, even between the main leads, and that’s also part of the reason why I couldn’t fully support the main couple. It just didn’t feel right. Everyone had their reasons, everyone had their backgrounds and all that, but the way they all treated each other was really problematic, and I couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable about it until the end, even though it did get a little bit better towards the finale.

I think it’ll be good to start by introducing the four main characters and their relationship dynamics, because besides the above there’s still a lot more to say about it.
Let me start with Geun Young. I read a lot of negative comments about Geun Young’s character, especially in the first half of the show, but I have to say that that was the part where, rather than disliking her, I mostly just felt really bad for her. True, she was a doormat, she couldn’t stand up for herself and didn’t manage to speak up even in cases where it really wasn’t that hard, only causing herself to be put in dire situations over and over again. But it can’t be denied that she was put in an incredibly bad position. It was really sad to see how she just couldn’t get anyone to listen to her, no one even took the time to think about her situation or to put themselves in her shoes for a moment. Even the producers from the variety show acted like these super nice and supportive people who were trying to improve her public image, only to resort to evil-editing in the show, causing her to receive more and more online hate and then not even offering support when she was literally assaulted by Hoo Joon’s fans in public. They kept telling her ‘it will blow over and hey, look on the bright side, our ratings have never been higher!’ Like, are you freaking kidding me? I didn’t believe they actually cared about Geun Young, it was always only about their show and their ratings.
I found it a bit hard to typify Geun Young’s character. Her parents were living in the countryside, she lived and worked in Seoul, and she wanted to be a journalist with specialization in the entertainment industry (I guess), and as far as I know, for that kind of work you need to be really persistent and tenacious at times. You can’t afford to be hesitant to step up to celebrities and ask them about private stuff, you can’t think about being sentimental when you’re writing an article that could possibly destroy an artist’s image. It didn’t really seem to fit Geun Young’s personality in my opinion.
Rather than having actual trouble voicing her opinions, it seemed to me as if it mainly happened in groups of people that she felt were higher in rank than her, people she couldn’t refuse. Because one-on-one, she had no trouble telling someone off. But for some reason, when it was her in front of multiple people, she just couldn’t speak her mind freely or she just waited until the chance passed for her to say something. Which also doesn’t seem like very journalist-like behavior. I don’t know, I guess what I’m saying is that I found it difficult to determine what kind of person she was, and I was very curious about giving a character like her the ambition for journalism, of all things. In general, it seemed like she was quite a passive person by nature, she was patient, she put up with things and she had trouble speaking up about feeling uncomfortable, which continuously put her in situations she could’ve easily avoided by simply saying ‘no’. Even after telling her ex-boyfriend off in the first episode, I mean she showed there and then that she was sick and tired of always being so patient with people, so I thought that that was the moment where she decided she was going to change, but she really doesn’t, not even at the end of the show. There were a few instances where she was straightforward and honest with people, which I very much appreciated. Like how she declined that contract from Superpatch to spy on Hoo Joon while she was filming the show, and how she eventually saw through Jae Joon’s motives of bringing Hoo Joon down. Those were the only moments where I finally saw a strong side in her, but apart from those, she remained pretty passive and that was a pity.
The thing that happened in Japan was one of the things that really made me roll my eyes, though. As much as I could relate to her being unable to speak up, this was just stupid. They arrive for a shooting session in Okinawa, and it’s automatically assumed by the producer team that everyone has already been to Japan (aka Okinawa) at least once. Geun Young fails to speak up about the fact that she has never been to Japan (aka Okinawa), and as a result she’s forced to guide Hoo Joon around. Like, why would you let yourself be put into that position? There was more than enough opportunity for her to say ‘excuse me, I’ve never been here so I can’t guide someone around’. But she still put up with the lie and just made an even bigger fool out of herself getting them lost. That was probably the first time for me to get annoyed with her inability to speak up for herself, because this was just ridiculous. As if it was a shameful thing to admit! It was the producers’ mistake to just blindly assume that everyone had been there.
On a side note, I found it weird how they didn’t make a difference between being in Japan (in general) and being on Okinawa (in particular). If someone would say to me, I’m going to Japan, my first thought would be Tokyo or Osaka. But Okinawa is a completely separate island, it’s all the way to the south of the main islands and as far as I know, it has its own culture and language/dialect. So just assuming that having been to Japan before automatically means that everyone knows their way around Okinawa felt unrealistically presumptious to me. Like, I’ve been to Japan, I’ve lived in Tokyo, but I’ve never been to Okinawa before, so I wouldn’t know my way around there either. It’s just weird that they would say ‘we’re going to Japan’ instead of ‘we’re going to Okinawa’, and that they just assume everyone has been to Okinawa before as if it’s the same thing as having been to mainland Japan, when it’s literally a separate island. Anyways.
Even when the relationship between Hoo Joon and Geun Young improves, I still found her way too patient. It really felt as if she was just letting everything happen while Hoo Joon was the one who initiated everything. She was always on the receiving end. I mean, if that was okay for her, then great, but it just made her seem like the most passive party in their relationship as well. Hoo Joon was constantly the person who came to her, who initiated all the kisses, while she kept letting herself be surprised. Seriously, even after he’d already kissed her three times, she still went 👁👄👁 when he’d suddenly hug or kiss her again. She just stood there while he kissed her and made their relationship work, basically. I would’ve liked to see more scenes in which she took things into her own hands.
Speaking of moments where I wished she’d stood up for herself more, there was for example the scene where he stood her up and she waited for him in the snow. She left her phone at home by accident (seriously, what is it with her and her phone, first she accidentally takes someone else’s phone, then she forgets her phone at home, then she doesn’t notice it ringing right next to her?), but even when she realizes he’s late, she just stays there. I’m not sure she realized she didn’t have her phone, but come on, even when you don’t realize and you’re already waiting for more than an hour, what’s stopping you from just going home, even if it’s just to pick up your phone and go back? I didn’t get why she just kept sitting there without even thinking, oh maybe something came up and he contacted me but I don’t have my phone. And then when she finally gets home and sees her phone there with his message that something did come up, she just texts ‘It’s okay’, like WHY?! I would’ve just told him, ‘yo I forgot my phone at home and just got your message after waiting for you in the snow for three hours. Do what you want with this information, but I now caught a cold because of this, bye.’ Like, even in a situation like that she still let him walk all over her and I didn’t see the point, she could’ve just been honest, there was nothing to do about the situation anymore, either way. Make him feel bad about standing you up, don’t be shy!
Also, her naivety when it came to Superpatch suddenly hiring her without even expecting to spill any tea about her time on the show with Hoo Joon. Seriously, she should not have kept that personal file on Hoo Joon on her laptop for anyone to access. I mean, she was fooled, but she should have known from her first interview with that director that Superpatch was a company of opportunistic jerks, and I found it very neglectful of her to not even lock away her private files before just handing her laptop over to a colleague on her first day. I would’ve kept standing by that colleague’s side while she installed the stuff, like, I wouldn’t have let the laptop or its contents out of my sight. While it was a bit extreme of her to completely blame herself for In Hyung and Jae Joon’s car accident, because that in itself wasn’t her fault, but I get that she’d punish herself for her own stupidity in not being more careful with the stuff she wrote in her anti-fan period. All in all, in my opinion Geun Young was just way too much of a ditz to be a journalist. Maybe that’s why at some point people started encouraging her to pick up writing instead, lol.

I liked Geun Young’s parents a lot. I’m not entirely sure what exactly it was that her mother (played by Yoon Bok In) did, she was playing the hwatu cards everytime she was on screen and at some point it seemed like she was also drawing them herself? I’m not sure, but I liked that she was the kind of tough love mom who may have cut the lease on Geun Young’s house and scolded her over the phone, but when Hoo Joon visited them, she was still suspicious of him and still wanted proof that he was worthy of her daughter first. Her dad (played by Park Chul Min) was also so great, like whenever Geun Young was evil-edited on TV, he would break down the town’s antennas, haha. I really liked how wary the both of them initially were of Hoo Joon, knowing he was partly responsible for what their daughter had to go through on that show, and it was nice that they both really had her back.

Oh, and I thought it was interesting that it seemed like shoes were kind of a symbol in the beginning. In the first episode, Geun Young wears a pair of shoes that her ex-boyfriend gave her, but they are too big for her. Later in the show, she receives a pair that doesn’t fit well either, and at some point she receives a pair from Hoo Joon which finally fit, after he’s asked her ex-boyfriend for her size. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but I like that at some point she made this parallel between ill-fitting shoes and her relationship with Hoo Joon, how he just ‘didn’t fit her’. She came back on that, obviously, but for some reason I liked that they kept that theme of ill-fitting shoes in it. Also, because their whole story began with an ill-fitted shoe being thrown at Hoo Joon’s head, of course.

One other character I severely disliked was Geun Young’s initial boss at the journalist company she worked, the woman nicknamed Mean Moon Hee (played by Yoo Seo Jin). She was such a bitch. Not only did she keep Geun Young in the dark about the real reason she was fired, basically letting her unleash all her anger towards Hoo Joon for no reason, she even went so far as to steal Geun Young’s previous proposals. She’d constantly bring Geun Young down, even after she already left the company, and the way she acted all smug about it was really irritating. With her, I also wondered why she suddenly decided to come clean to Geun Young at the end, it wouldn’t have hurt to just keep her character as the meanie ex-boss she didn’t want to run into ever again. Anyways, I sincerely disliked this woman, she was also very petty in her own way.

Hoo Joon kept giving me a lot of mixed signals in the beginning, and I really didn’t like him at first. Even though he didn’t seem too bad, in that he didn’t actually press for Geun Young’s dismissal from work even after she threw a shoe at him, but even after that he really didn’t help Geun Young out even when he knew she was going through hard times because of his fans. In the development of their relationship, rather than taking the initiative, it felt more like he just decided that they were going to be lovers without even checking with Geun Young first if she was on the same boat with him. If I had to put into words how I felt towards him, I’d say that even though he seemed sympathetic in a general way, he didn’t actually go out of his way to extend a helping hand to people until something had already happened to them. Something like that. He knew exactly what Geun Young would be going through, he knew his fans and how hardcore they could be, and still he just kind of stood by and watched. When he spotted her upset or crying, he’d just be like ‘hang in there’, like yeah, because taking it on himself to tell his fans to go easy on her was too much to expect, apparently. He did start standing up for her more after the song leak-issue, and of course after they started seeing each other in secret, but before that, even at times when he was already warming up to her, he would just watch and do nothing. One time that really pissed me off, was when he asked Geun Young to wait in line for an entire night so she could get a new video game soundtrack for him, and he didn’t even thank her for it afterwards. Like, it was at that moment that he heard that she supposedly signed that contract with Superpatch and had been spying on him all this time, but even so he still could have had the decency to at least thank her for keeping his spot in that row. What was up with him bringing her there and then leaving halfway anyway? He brought her there, he made her stay up for 10 hours for something that didn’t even involve her, and then he couldn’t even bring himself to say ‘thanks for the trouble’? No matter how suspicious he was of her by then, that was just dirty. It was also wrong of him to assume that without double-checking, by the way. Because it wasn’t even true, and instead of keeping a closer eye on the matter, he suddenly just turned completely cold towards her. After that, Geun Young was assaulted by his fans AGAIN and he didn’t even do anything. He legit just went, ‘That’s not right, I wonder where security is’, and walked AWAY. When he was finally told that the contract thing wasn’t true, he got angry at his informant, while he himself also shouldn’t have assumed, all the more because at that point I thought he might not even believe she would do that. Anyways, he would just play with her feelings on and off in the beginning, being super nice and chivalrous one day and completely unconcerned about her the next, so I get why Geun Young also got confused by him. And instead of genuinely apologizing after he unrighteously accused her of something and treated her like trash, he’d just butter her up with some expensive gift like a pair of shoes. Seriously, how hard is it to say ‘sorry’? I really didn’t appreciate that side of him. And that’s also why I didn’t care for their first kiss at all. It came at the completely wrong time, and it just felt wrong to me. I literally went, ‘What the fuck, NO’ when it happened. He said something like, ‘I’m so pissed off at you, I get so confused and worried and now I just need to confirm what this is’. Like, it was completely on HIS terms and she was more than right to push him away because what the actual fudge, man. Of course they still kissed after that, but really, this is the first time as far as I can remember that I did not agree with a first kiss between the main couple. The timing was weird, right after this thing happened and he was supposed to apologize to her.
Even though he finally became consistent in his behavior towards Geun Young after they kissed (as in, at least he didn’t turn his back on her again after that), he still kept being super casual about things that would cause Geun Young a lot of trouble. For example, when that producer thought it would be a fun idea to release the footage of them accidentally bumping lips on the first day of shooting. Everyone knew that that would only unleash even more fan hate towards Geun Young, and still when it was released and Geun Young panicked, Hoo Joon just made it into a casual joke like, ‘hey, but at least now us kissing isn’t an accident anymore’, as if he didn’t even take it seriously what this would do to her. Everything was smooth-sailing for him, but apart from some general worrying about Geun Young’s wellbeing, it took him way too long to actually hold that press conference and tell everyone that they needed to leave her alone, and that was mainly to clear his own name, or rather all the lies that had been built up around his celebrity persona. So yeah, I found it weird how their relationship went along with Hoo Joon’s wishes and Geun Young kind of just went along with it.
Also, I want to mention Hoo Joon’s family situation because I am still confused. He tells Geun Young at some point that he was born in Alaska and that his father left him when he was really young. His mother stayed in Alaska, and while he calls her multiple times throughout the show, she never picks up. Which caused me confusion because why was that? Was she avoiding him? Was she actually there? Was she dead and was he just calling out of a sense of melancholy? She only picks up the phone after he finally finds out about his father and then she just cries. Colour me intrigued, because I still have no idea what that was about. The only thing we find out is that there is this ring that his father left – his mother told him it was his father’s ring, and with that ring he and Manager Seo are trying to find out where his father is. In the end it (or rather Jae Joon, because he gets himself involved) leads him to a lawyer, and he says that yes, that ring belongs to him, but Hoo Joon’s father used it to propose to Hoo Joon’s mother and engraved the Y A M A letters in it. (I called what they stood for by the way✌️ but not before going, ‘…You Are My Anti-Fan?’ xD). Anyways, the whole story was a bit vague for me until the end, but eventually it turns out his father passed away and he’s able to visit his grave. What additional purpose this whole quest with the ring was about, what it actually contributed to Hoo Joon’s development, I am not sure.

If I had to point out one single person that wasn’t even slightly problematic to me in this show, I would say Hoo Joon’s manager Seo Ji Hyang (played by Kim Seon Hyuk). He was the best guy. Not only was he always loyal to Hoo Joon, he really cared about Geun Young’s wellbeing as well, he supported their relationship without a single bit of judgement, only worry that it would harm the both of them. He was Hoo Joon’s person, but he never turned his back on others even when Hoo Joon did, with the exception of Jae Joon and In Hyung, he was actively trying to keep Hoo Joon away from them for everyone’s sake. So yeah, he was the greatest, and no other character in the show came even close to his level of sincerity.

Choi Jae Joon was another character that really set my teeth on edge. I can’t remember the last time I’ve been this annoyed by a second male lead. He was such a petty child. His reason for hating Hoo Joon and continuously wanting to bring him down in whatever way possible bordered on obsessive and irrational and it clearly originated from a major inferiority complex. Basically, Jae Joon got increasingly jealous of Hoo Joon, especially after he got together with In Hyung. For some reason, Jae Joon felt more entitled to In Hyung because he knew her first. He knew her longer, he trained with her longer, so he should’ve gotten together with her. Amazing logic. Anyways, he kept his jealousy about their relationship hidden for a while, but then when Hoo Joon got to debut first and then declined Jae Joon’s offer to join his agency, he decided that that was the ultimate betrayal and from that moment on, he had the right to take everything away from Hoo Joon, starting with In Hyung. I don’t know exactly how it went, but Hoo Joon showed up at In Hyung’s debut party (or the celebration of her entering JJ’s agency) and saw Jae Joon kissing her, so I guess by then Jae Joon and In Hyung had already gotten together. It just made things really awkward between them. But one of the worst things was that in his plan to keep In Hyung away from Hoo Joon, Jae Joon also limits In Hyung in a lot of opportunities that are necessary to climb up in her career. After all, she has to start from the bottom in order to gain fame again, and he basically takes away all her openings, just because he doesn’t want her to catch a glimpse of Hoo Joon’s face. And strangely enough, a lot of the openings that In Hyung gets lead her to a collaboration with Hoo Joon in one way or another. She gets the chance to sing the guide track for a new duet, and this happens to be Hoo Joon’s new song. She happens to get a commercial gig in Okinawa, and this happens to be with Hoo Joon.
Besides his childish behavior towards Hoo Joon and In Hyung, Jae Joon is also just a really irresponsible CEO. He gives the permission himself for In Hyung taking these jobs, because he won’t even listen to the managers when they tell him ‘hey, there’s this commercial and they can’t find anyone to do it…’ and Jae Joon would be like ‘whatever, just send anyone, deal with it somehow’ and then of course In Hyung would jump to the occasion because she is just desperate for any chance she can get. The way Jae Joon kept sulking about these things was so childish. I get that he was also under a lot of pressure from his dad who gave him the company and his older brother (nice guest appearance of Sung Hoon, by the way), but he was really not in a stable mindset to run a company. He only cared about keeping In Hyung away from Hoo Joon, even if that meant literally blocking her career. And whenever In Hyung told him off and said to him that he needed to let the whole Hoo Joon thing go (like, even she was moving past it) he would just become super toxic and tell her that she couldn’t go anywhere etcetera etcetera. It was just pathetic. He would even call out Hoo Joon to meet him at night ‘to talk’ and then punch him in the face and feel smug about it. Like, wow, you’re so accomplished now. Seriously, one type of character that always gets on my nerves is the type that acts all high and mighty, but in reality is just really lame and childish. That’s what Jae Joon made me feel like too.
The thing that made me super confused in the end was the way (and the reason) Jae Joon changed his mind about Hoo Joon. Just before the accident, he has a talk with Hoo Joon which ends in him giving him the contact of that lawyer that’s linked to his father. Hoo Joon tells him that his father abandoned him as a kid and this seems to shake Jae Joon up. Then he says something along the lines of, ‘You ‘having it all’ always made me feel less guilty about hating you, but now that I know you were also abandoned by your father as a kid I can’t even do that anymore’. This already made me go…. wait, what? Was that what this was about? And then after he gets into that car accident with In Hyung, he wakes up and he has a flashback that reveals that everything that happened between him and Hoo Joon in the past was because of Hoo Joon’s CEO. It’s revealed that Jae Joon knew that Hoo Joon didn’t want to debut first but was forced to by the CEO. So, if he knew that all along, it makes even less sense to me why he always fixated all this hatred on Hoo Joon.
After he wakes up from the accident, it’s like he’s suddenly a completely different person. Maybe he came to see how stupidly he had behaved all this time and chose to turn over a new leaf? From that flashback, it seemed like he had been aware of the CEO’s hand in everything all along, so was it really just the jealousy of Hoo Joon seemingly ‘having it all’ that kept him going wasting all his time and energy on obstructing Hoo Joon? I mean, he even went so far as to get involved in Hoo Joon’s quest to find his father, which was none of his business. Why would he go so far to find dirt on Hoo Joon, when he knew all along that the CEO was behind all of it? He really must have lost his mind as his jealousy of Hoo Joon escalated with the day. It’s crazy.
Lastly, I found it interesting how he kept being so nice to Geun Young. I get that he was glad to have an ally in his hatred towards Hoo Joon in the beginning after seeing her throw that shoe, but it also felt like he was going to use her to his advantage. It just felt like his approaching her had an ulterior motive from the start, so I couldn’t really take him seriously in that either, his kindness just seemed fake and he was clearly victimizing himself in front of her. It made me feel like he didn’t actually care whether it was In Hyung, it just had to be him snatching away the person who was most important to Hoo Joon at that moment. Like, he even tried to recruit Geun Young for his agency while she wasn’t even a celebrity. So yeah, at some point I found myself thinking he didn’t actually care about In Hyung per se, he only cared about keeping her (or anything Hoo Joon held dear) to himself only to obstruct Hoo Joon in truly ‘having it all’. I mean, towards Hoo Joon he even spoke very disrespectfully about In Hyung, calling her a ‘thing he picked up after Hoo Joon abandoned it’. When Hoo Joon’s interest shifts to Geun Young, Jae Joon has to get her on his side too and in that process, he completely starts neglecting In Hyung’s career. I felt like the only moment in which he truly saw In Hyung was when she was screaming at him right before crossing the street with the intent of getting hit by a car.
Despite the fact that I was really confused by him suddenly waking up as a nice and calm person after the accident, I didn’t even really care about the fact that he and In Hyung got together again. The only thing that bothers is how quickly everything suddenly seemed to be ‘okay’ between them again, because their relationship throughout the show was so incredibly toxic.

Talking about In Hyung, I also had mixed feelings about her, although I didn’t dislike her as much as the previously mentioned characters. I kind of liked that she was mature in the sense that she just cared about her career, and was only anxious because of the tensions between the three of them. It was nice that she didn’t hold Hoo Joon responsible for anything and she also got fed up with Jae Joon’s constant obsession with wanting to tear him down. While her CEO/boyfriend was just digging himself deeper and deeper into his own misery, she was constantly struggling to make her second break. She joined Jae Joon’s agency and even started dating him (already a potential red flag, a CEO dating one of his trainees) thinking that he cared for her and her career and that he would fully support her. Instead, whatever she tried, he kept on following her around just to tell her that she wasn’t allowed to do stuff. He literally took every opportunity away from her out of personal spite towards Hoo Joon, not even caring about In Hyung’s career. She was righteously fed up with that, but it was sad to see that no matter what she said or did, she just couldn’t pull completely free from him, and he kept finding her. It was really annoying, especially after she personally moved away from his company. I really went, ‘omg, leave her alone already’ multiple times.
On the other hand, it seemed like she cared about her own career so much that she didn’t even think about other people. I found her a bit naive in this, because if she’d just read a single article about the variety show, or even about who Geun Young was, she should have known that, as soon as a scandal around Hoo Joon happened, Geun Young would be blamed for it. She should’ve known that Geun Young would be used as a scapegoat, because she was ‘The Anti-Fan’ and she’d already received so much hate for the way the variety show portrayed her. So to just mindlessly leak that duet song with her guide track on it and then going, ‘Oh sorry Geun Young, I didn’t think they would blame it on you’ was just DUMB. Again, I get it, she was desperate, but contrarily to Geun Young, she didn’t think about the consequences of her actions, or what it would do to other people. I liked that Geun Young stood up for herself after hearing this ‘apology’ from In Hyung, like ‘what the heck, you should have thought about how this would hurt multiple people around you’. So on the one side, I liked that In Hyung wasn’t the type of second female lead/ML’s ex who would start sabotaging Hoo Joon’s new relationship, I liked that she saw Jae Joon for what he was and that what he was doing wasn’t right. She tried to become independent and fight for her own career, but I didn’t like how apathic she became in some situations. Like, when coming face-to-face with Hoo Joon, she just became this shaky little lamb, also in that first episode scene where Geun Young spots them together at that club. I also found it quite extreme that she actually tried to unalive herself twice, the second time with the actual purpose of making Jae Joon watch on and regret it. Especially since the direct cause of this final loss in opportunity wasn’t actually Jae Joon’s fault. I really believe that this was what made Jae Joon finally open his eyes to what he’d mentally done to her, so that was good in a sense, but it was really extreme. In Hyung was completely lost, she didn’t see any further opportunity to climb up and losing her ‘last’ chance (as far as she could see) was enough to blame it all on Jae Joon and decide to ‘leave this world’. She only survived because Jae Joon jumped in after her and received most of the collision – I also still don’t get why she would think that he would just watch her get hit by a car, by the way. But anyways, they end up happily ever after, after they reconnect in the aftermath and they even start living together.

I found the relationship between Geun Young and In Hyung one of the most awkward relationships I’ve seen between two female leads so far. They really didn’t have anything to say to each other. Geun Young got interested in who she was after seeing her around Hoo Joon a couple of times, where she always looked really upset, but despite some minor interactions, the first time they really talked was after In Hyung confessed that she was the one who leaked that song. Like, there wasn’t bad blood between them per se, but they also didn’t become close or anything. They just acknowledged each other’s existence and went on with their lives, which I appreciated in the sense that there was no additional drama created between the two of them. But it was still a bit awkward.

The variety show ‘So I Married an/my Anti-Fan’ was the idea of two producers, named Han Jae Won (played by Dong Hyun Bae) and Noh Do Yoon (played by Lim Do Yoon). Although they seem to be a friendly bunch at first, it becomes clear that they really only care about their show’s ratings. Honestly, I didn’t really find their characters all that sympathetic. They were portrayed as really friendly, and also there was some romantic tension between the two of them which even got its own a side storyline, but I just couldn’t agree with how they treated Geun Young throughout the variety show. Geun Young was so desperate and the fact that she was a people-pleaser didn’t help at all, but those people really should’ve considered her position more. On set they would be super friendly and supportive towards her, and then they would keep evil-editing her, causing her to get even more online hate comments, heck, she was literally assaulted by Hoo Joon’s fans in public several times and no one did anything. Everyone was just standing around like ‘why isn’t security doing anything?’ They were standing RIGHT THERE, even Hoo Joon, but no one stepped in to tell people to keep a distance. Geun Young was in more need of a security team than Hoo Joon. And then afterwards they would just crawl in to ask her if she was okay and act all sorry about what happened. Seriously, it was infuriating. Geun Young literally became the scapegoat of everything bad that happened to Hoo Joon and still it seemed like a fun idea of Producer Han to add in that scene of them accidentally kissing. It was all about the media spectacle, who cares if one person’s life is ruined as a result? I was so mad when they heard the show was getting cancelled and Producer Noh actually went, ‘Even after I went through so much trouble for this show’. Like, really? YOU went through trouble? Geun Young literally became Hated By The Nation because of their show, she got so much shit dropped onto her that she couldn’t even walk down the streets without being bothered, she had to secretly stay over at the penthouse they were filming at because she didn’t have a house, but no, you had it tough, Ms. Noh. After all, show ratings are more important than people’s personal lives, everyone knows that. Sorry, I get very sarcastic but I just couldn’t stand her being so senseless while they knew better than anyone what their editing would do to Geun Young’s reputation.

Hoo Joon’s CEO Bae Young Seok (played by Kim Min Kyo) also gave me mixed signals. I first thought he was nice, a kind of comic relief character even, and it was clear that Hoo Joon was very loyal to him. It’s even revealed that he chose to stay with him rather than go to Jae Joon’s agency because he knew about Young Seok’s money problems, he had kids and even some relative in the hospital at some point (Hoo Joon overheard him talking on the phone about pending hospital bills), so it was clear that he was in debt. Hoo Joon stayed with him because he wanted to help him out, as he had been his manager all that time and had always been such a nice man. But I guess at some point he became really desperate for money and he became a scrooge? Or something? Like all of a sudden his CEO was suddenly a bad guy and I even started thinking that maybe that hospital bill phonecall had been fake, that he’d manipulated Hoo Joon in coming to his agency, that the feud between Hoo Joon and Jae Joon had been based on lies and misunderstands all this time, or something. That didn’t seem to be the case, but the CEO definitely started acting badly at some point. I can’t remember all the details, but he issued a couple of articles putting Geun Young in a worse light after finding out (from a vengeful Jae Joon) that the two were seeing each other, and he also gave the order to cancel the variety show. It was kind of an anticlimax to see how everything was smoothened out so quickly after Hoo Joon paid his debts for him, all of a sudden the bad blood was gone and all was right with the world again.

Moving away from the characters that were active in the entertainment industry, I also have some things to say about Geun Young’s friends, starting with Mi Jung. She was a good enough friend to Geun Young, even offering her to stay at her house and Geun Young ends up lying to her about where she’s staying (since she’s actually not allowed to stay at the penthouse), to keep her from worrying about her. But what bothered me about Mi Jung was her relationship with her boyfriend Shin Hyuk (played by Baek Seung Heon). He was studying for the bar exam to become a lawyer, which she strongly encouraged, but he was also a big fan of Hoo Joon and he knew a lot about idols and stuff. As soon as he started talking about that, she started acting as if she was ashamed of him, trying to make him stop talking and all of that. Honestly, Geun Young included, they all kind of dismissed whatever Shin Hyuk was saying, and I thought that was kind of rude because he was genuinely a nice guy. He was only figuring out what he wanted to do and Mi Jung treated him really badly when he just expressed other ideas than the bar exam. Like, he wasn’t allowed to think out loud about other potential career options besides the bar exam because she had ‘invested’ all this time and effort in him? Or something? Like, what the heck was that, it didn’t seem like she loved him for who he was at all. I firmly stand by the fact that she was the one responsible for their break-up, he had all the right to walk away from her at that point. And then even when it was clear she was missing him, when he came back she still acted all tsundere and made him apologize to her, like she really went ‘you have a lot to be sorry for’ and I was like ??? She was the one who shamed him for thinking out loud about other career possibilities, she should’ve been the one to apologize. So yeah, I didn’t like Mi Jung in that aspect, and I thought Shin Hyuk was an absolute bean, she did him so dirty.

I can’t forget to talk a bit more about Soo Hwan, I think I’ve only mentioned him before once. Anyways, I thought he’d play a bigger role in the story, as he is the only side character featured in the opening sequence, and at first I was even scared that he might also fall in love with Geun Young or something, but he really was just a friend of Geun Young’s who appeared only a couple of times to show support. I guess they included him in the opening purely because it was Kim Min Gyu, lol, he deserves recognition no matter how small his role is. But yeah, he was a nice friend to Geun Young until the end, I liked how the three of them (Geun Young, Mi Jung and him) would meet up occasionally and just drink and gossip.

I just want to jot down two scenes that confused me in which Jae Joon and Geun Young realized something, and I wasn’t able to spot where this realization came from. The first scene is where Jae Joon happens to see some roman letters in the office of this lawyer, roman letters that were also on the ring that Hoo Joon was using to track down his father. Now please tell me, was I blind or was it just really unclear what Jae Joon was looking at when he asked that lawyer ‘what are those roman numbers?’ I watched the scene two times, but I couldn’t spot where he was looking, I couldn’t spot these letters anywhere.
Secondly, in the final episode, Geun Young is reading this article about Hoo Joon after he has confessed all the lies surrounding his celebrity persona, and without even being shown what the article actually said, she suddenly goes, ‘That person…’ and she’s suddenly reminded of this guy that Hoo Joon helped one time to nail his marriage proposal. Again, was I missing something here or did this idea really come from out of nowhere? These may not be very relevant details to the story but I still wanted to jot them down since they stuck with me, lol.

Now to get to a more general commentary on one of the main themes of this show, which is the entertainment industry as a whole, and in particular, the role of fans. If there’s one thing that this series confirmed for me, is how incredibly harming and toxic the entertainment industry can be, especially in combination with the press. The fans are just mindless beings who go along with any wave the press urges them towards – they can be the most loyal people one day, and the most vicious anti-fans the next. What contributed in me feeling gloomy throughout this show was the fact that the entertainment industry really doesn’t seem to care about people. It just uses the gullibility and naive dreams of people like In Hyung (seriously, when she said ‘I just wanted to be an entertainer, someone who was loved by everyone’, I went ‘oh, honey…’) and make promises to them and then just throw them away without a second thought when the situation gets messy. The only people that care are the idols themselves, they want to succeed, and the agencies are supposed to help them in that, but I get the feeling that for the agencies, it’s not even about the people they promise to help. For them, it’s only about money and reputation. If an artist does well, great, that helps the company, but if they slip up even once, they’re treated like malfunctioning machines.
More than before, this drama series confronted me with the fact that celebrities aren’t seen as normal people by society. They’re supposed to be perfect puppets who never do anything wrong (they even made up all those lies about Hoo Joon, how he studied abroad and how his birthday was on New Year’s Eve to make it more special, only to conceal that he was born outside of South-Korea and grew up without his father for example, because even that can be seen as a ‘minus’), and then when their humanity is revealed even a little bit, everyone turns on them. If they give in to any humane desire or do something bad, even though it’s accepted if any regular person would do it, it makes it an unforgivable sin. In the end, when Hoo Joon gave that press conference, all he wanted to do was the right thing, he wanted to clear himself of all the lies his agency had built around him, but all it did was turn his fans against him, make people call him ‘a liar’ even though he was actually revealing the truth just then. To see how all those fans would be so tenacious in their support for him, and then change overnight because of one article… It’s just stupid. I’ve already been thinking this a lot recently, because people just seem to form their opinions based on news articles while they have no idea what actually happened and this is what makes gossipping about stuff like this so pointless to me. You can keep updated about scandals, sure, but don’t go following things mindlessly and form your opinions about stuff when you weren’t personally there to witness it. It’s such a waste of time. Anyways, I just wanted to mention that I found it interesting that the way Hoo Joon’s fans and the industry + press were portrayed was pretty realistic in its negative extremity. It didn’t sugarcoat anything or made it look like rose petals. While a show like Her Private Life portrays the devotion of the fans in a positive light, So I Married an Anti-Fan takes the interesting choice to put the main character in opposition to those fans. Geun Young seems to be completely alone in her case, at least in having the guts to appear outside Hoo Joon’s agency with cardboard signs to demonstrate her disdain towards him, even though she knows she’ll have to face his fangirls who are waiting on him at the exact same spot. It is relatable to see Geun Young’s will to prove her point, to show Hoo Joon’s mean side to the world, while no one is willing to even listen to her. Unwillingly, she turns an entire fandom against herself and this unleashes the nasty side of fans. I was appalled to see those teenage girls throw eggs at her, like, who raised them so disrespectfully?! It definitely exposes some kind of behavior that appears, especially among very extreme fans, and I prefer that to glorifying fandoms, so for that it gets a bonus point. But it definitely also made the series in its entirety very uncomfortable to watch at times, because you just knew the fans were going to remain an issue until the end and you never knew what they’d do to Geun Young next.
I finally want to give one final mention to Cha Yoo Ri (played by Song Chae Yeon), one of the teenage girls who’s a major Hoo Joon fan. I was annoyed by her from the start because of her constant scoffing laugh, it just made me want to grab her by the shoulders and shake her around saying, ‘you’re just a teenage girl with an infatuation, don’t act like you’re on top of the world’. She also treated Geun Young with a lot of disrespect, but in her case, everything was eventually forgiven because she was just a kid. Sometimes this mindset bothers me, because kids can get away with stuff that’s really not okay. Anyways, then of course she’s given this backstory about her having it tough at home and all that, and she ends up helping Geun Young out one time, but after that she never appears anymore. I kind of expected her to appear more at the end, especially when the whole truth reveal from Hoo Joon happened, I would’ve liked to see her response to that, maybe it would’ve helped her grow up a little.

I think I’ve now covered most of my analysis for each character and the main themes of the show, so I’d like to move on to the cast comments now.
I’ve seen Choi Soo Young before in Run On and Move to Heaven, and her appearances here made me like her a lot. This drama appeared in-between the two I mentioned, and I can only say that I definitely prefer her in stronger female roles. Seeing her in this show reminded me of seeing Lee Sung Kyung in About Time. An actress that’s so powerful in roles of strong-willed woman suddenly put into the role of a passive female character that’s basically dragged around by everyone around her – honestly I didn’t think it suited her very well. Not that her acting was bad or anything, but it was just so weird for me to see Soo Young in such an obedient, people-pleasing role as ‘Geunyang Geun Young’. Type-wise, I just think she’s better suited for more confident and strong-willed female characters. This was confirmed in the few scenes where she did stand up for herself and told people off, because those were the only times I finally felt like Geun Young was growing. I would’ve like to see some more consistency in that, but I guess that wasn’t in the script. I like her as an actress, but I think she can do better than this, they could’ve given Geun Young a bit more fire, rather than making her a passive doormat.

I found it an interesting choice to cast Choi Tae Joon as an idol. I don’t think I’ve actually seen him in a lead role before, now that I think about it. This is also my first review about a series with him, but I’ve seen him before in The Girl Who Sees Smells, Missing 9 and Suspicious Partner. Also, belated congratulations to him for marrying Park Shin Hye and their first child that was born last year (it has the same birthday as me, I found out). The last thing I saw him in was Missing 9 and there he killed several people, so that was definitely an image to come back from, lol. I’m not sure what I thought about him as an idol, his acting wasn’t bad but I guess I just really trouble liking his character. The way he just did everything on his terms, even start his relationship with Geun Young just felt a little icky to me and even though he became nicer in the end, I still didn’t really feel their chemistry throughout it all. So that was a shame. I did like him in other stuff I’ve seen of him (Suspicious Partner is still one of my ultimate favorites), so I hope I will see more of him in the future that will enable to write more positively about his character.
Oh, one thing that I did like was that Choi Tae Joon acted out his idol performances and songs himself, despite not even being an actual singer in real life. I wanted to mention this in contrast to the idol character in my last watch The Big Boss, who was an actual idol trainee and didn’t even get a real chance to show his performance skills – they just dubbed some random soundtrack over it while he was lipsynching to something completely different. Choi Tae Joon isn’t even an idol or a singer, but he still did those performance scenes himself and I respect that.

I only knew Hwang Chan Sung from What’s Wrong with Secretary Kim? where he had a kind of comical side role, so I hadn’t really expected to see him as a second male lead character, to be honest. Hold on, I just discovered that he was also in Suspicious Partner and he played the FL’s crappy ex-boyfriend who gets murdered!! Okay, so maybe I had a bit of a bias against him from the start, haha. Anyways, he made Jae Joon so insufferable for me that I couldn’t even watch his face anymore at some point because I was so annoyed with him. I didn’t really get how they would write him like such a jerk and then suddenly try to gain some sympathy for him halfway through, it certainly didn’t work for me. But I guess he put on a very sincere performance, again, it’s not that his acting was bad, but his character was just really petty. I see that he’s in a couple more series that I still want to watch, so I guess I’ll get to see more of his acting, I hope he can do more than aggravate me, haha.

For some reason Han Ji An doesn’t have her own DramaWiki page so I had to consult a different one. She hasn’t done that much acting work apparently, Anti-Fan has been her latest drama acting job to date (according to AsianWiki). I didn’t know her from anything even though she seems familiar, or maybe she just reminds me of someone, I don’t know. In any case, I think she was a good cast for a (former) idol, she seemed like she could be an idol based on looks, and it sounded like she also sang well. It was a pity that she was depicted as such an angsty character, because at times she seemed to be really mentally strong, also when she was confronting Jae Joon about the way he was treating her. I would’ve liked to see her show that resilience a bit more, I guess, not just standing shakily in a corner. I wonder what other sides there are to her acting, but none of her other shows are currently on my watchlist. I hope she gets more acting chances in the future because again, there was no problem with the acting itself.

Nowadays it’s a bit weird for me to see Kim Min Gyu in a supportive character role since he’s built himself up to lead role material and I’m also really curious to see him in his latest release The Heavenly Idol in which he himself gets to play an idol. I’ve seen him so far in Who Are You – School 2015, Because This is My First Life, Just Between Lovers, Drunk in Good Taste, Backstreet Rookie and A Business Proposal. There’s still several of his shows on watchlist, as well, so no lack of Kim Min Gyu! Even as a side character, he’s always a very friendly and welcome presence on the screen, I liked his character in how loyal he was to Geun Young.

Dong Hyun Bae also doesn’t have a DramaWiki page, but I guess I’ve seen him before in Shut Up Flower Boy Band, he seemed familiar to me. Lim Do Yoon appeared in Heartstrings, Pinocchio and My Secret Romance but I have no recollection whatsoever of her characters there, all I know is that she too seemed familiar. Although I liked their characters as individuals, and it was cute that they rebuilt their romance, I still think they weren’t as nice as they seemed to be to Geun Young. They were still mostly occupied with their careers over the feelings of the people they were working with. In a way you could say it was interesting to include so many self-absorbed people into one show, lol. Anyways, again, and I’ll keep repeating this, it didn’t have anything to do with the acting, I just disliked a lot of the characters and they still made the most of portraying them.

I’ll just keep it at this for the cast comments. I guess my main criticism was just that: it wasn’t that the acting was bad, but I simply didn’t like the majority of the characters, as in, I found it hard to truly sympathize with anyone. Even if I felt bad for some people at times, they would always do something later that would just make me shake my head in disbelief. I still feel like Geun Young and In Hyung were victims in their respective situations and they did all they could to get out of that, but they didn’t really grow as people, Geun Young remained to be consistently patient with people, even falling for the idol she initially hated, and In Hyung also chose to stick with Jae Joon, who had oppressed her for so long. I guess I was just a bit disappointed with how the story unfolded and how self-centered people remained to be. They also made a point of redeeming people that had been jerks throughout the entire show, from Jae Joon to Geun Young’s ex-boss and Hoo Joon’s CEO. As I said, apart from Manager Seo, no one actually made me go ‘YES THAT’S IT’.
The setup of the story is promising, but also very predictable, of course: an anti-fan and an idol eventually falling for each other, a classic enemies to lovers trope. But the relations between all the characters continued to be problematic in some way, and I found it kind of weird that the first confirmation of the romance between Hoo Joon and Geun Young happened at a really wrong moment. I don’t know, I just couldn’t get into their relationship and I even felt like the actors weren’t that well-suited. That’s my personal opinion.
Speaking of personal opinions, I’ve seen interesting discussions in comment sections of the episodes on Dramacool. People tend to be quite harsh on there, and I’ve seen several reactions criticizing these negative comments. I think I made this point about this before in a previous review, but I feel like it’s dangerous to base your decision to (not) watch a series completely on the reviews of other people. There were several people in the comment section saying that the hateful comments almost made them skip this drama, and that they were glad they didn’t because they ended up finishing it and loving it. All I want to say with this is that, while something might not be your cup of tea, don’t go blatantly bashing it online and ruin it for other people. Other people might still like it and miss out on the chance to watch it based on someone else’s personal opinion. One of the main reasons I started writing reviews is to do just that, create a platform where I express my own opinion without forcing it on others. You may agree or disagree with my review, that’s both fine. But that’s the reason that at the top of my reviews it always says ‘Do not read if you still plan on watching this series or haven’t finished it yet’. Just saying, you might keep someone from their new favorite drama, even if you didn’t like it as much.

I think I will keep it at that. I hope that, despite my less positive criticism, it was still a worthwhile review to read. Let me end it on a positive note nonetheless: it’s an interesting story and the acting is good, I believe it does teach a lesson and there are definitely some good scenes in there, I can’t deny.

So now I will move on to the next batch of my 2023 watchlist, I will try to mix in some variety again and you will see my next review appear soon enough.

Until then, bye-bee!

The Big Boss S1 & S2

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

The Big Boss
( 班长大人 / Ban Zhang Da Ren)
MyDramaList rating (for both seasons): 6.0/10

Hiya! It’s time for a new review! Having more free time has really enabled me to focus on some things I love to do, like drama watching! After such a long and emotional rollercoaster as my last watch, I was looking forward to blowing off some steam with a light comedy and well, this one definitely did that. A bit too much, even. I remember putting it on my list after seeing a clip/trailer of it somewhere and thought it looked cute. The overall reviews on MyDramaList are also quite positive, so I was very curious. In the end, unfortunately, I have to say it wasn’t really my cup of tea. I can understand why people like it, and it’s not that I hated it, but it just didn’t do much for me and rather than enjoying the silliness for 36 episodes straight, I found myself becoming increasingly impatient to finish it so I could move on with my list. I don’t expect this to become a really lengthy review, but anyways, let’s just get on with it, shall we?

The Big Boss is a Chinese drama series which consists of 2 seasons of each 18 episodes, with a duration of about 35 minutes each. Actually, I only discovered it was divided into two seasons when I started it, but in the series itself the episodes count on from 1 to 36, so I don’t really see the point of dividing it into two seasons as it was one continuing story and there also wasn’t a change in opening/ending sequences. I did rank the two seasons separately on MyDramaList.
Anyways, the story is about two childhood friends, or at least, two classmates who grew up together in the same neighborhood, but they’re not really on good terms with each other. Ever since they were little, Liao Dan Yi (played by Huang Jun Jie) has been ‘monitoring’ Ye Mu Xi (played by Eleanor Lee/Li Kai Xin). Mu Xi is very innocent and child-like for her age, and for some reason Dan Yi is bent on teaching her how to become more mature. When the time comes for their middle school to start, Mu Xi is excited to finally be free from Dan Yi’s ever-watching eyes. After all, their classes are ranked from 1 to 10 based on exam performance and since Dan Yi is much better at studying than Mu Xi is, there’s no way they’d end up in the same class. However, SHOCKER, she still finds him in her Class 10 when she enters the classroom. Turns out he missed one exam, which was enough to put him in the lowest class, even though he got top grades in the other exams (it’s a true mystery). Not only that, he also volunteers to become Class 10’s class monitor, and Mu Xi can’t let that happen – she won’t have him monitor her at school too! So she very impulsively decides to also run for class monitor, just to beat him. She wins, much to Dan Yi’s (and everyone’s) surprise, and Mu Xi couldn’t be happier, but then she becomes aware of the responsibilities that now fall on her shoulders. As someone who likes skipping through life without a care in the world, she doesn’t really feel like taking on all that by herself, so she calls in the help of her wide and wild imagination to help her navigate through her school life. She calls on her two imaginary friends (a dinosaur and a horse – personified by two actual men in dino & horse costumes), and manages to gather a group of eccentric classmates to join her in the class committee. As the ‘big boss’, Mu Xi will learn a lot about life and taking responsbility by going through many adventures with her classmates, while still competing with Dan Yi in the background.

I liked the original start of the show, in which it was announced that this series included almost every single genre you could think of, fantasy, action, comedy, costume drama, singing and dancing, etc. It is introduced as something that has a little bit of everything, any kind of genre the viewer might like, but that it’s also fitting as a light show to watch while eating some noodles or something. Also, it’s announced from the start that the one thing that this show is NOT, is a love story. I just want to emphasize this because even at the end of the show, people were complaining in the comments about how there was no romance in it – I mean, we were warned from the very beginning! Anyways, the way it starts out is very unique and interesting, also because from the introduction sequence itself I really had no idea what to expect, there seemed to be so much in it and I was curious as to how they would structure the whole thing.
I know it’s typical for Chinese shows that their opening and ending sequences are filled with actual shots and scenes from the series (which I sort of dislike since it gives away so much of the events from the show and it can be quite spoiler-y). But I still found it a bit of a pity that this show really revealed basically everything in their introduction sequence. In hindsight, I don’t think I was surprised by any event that happened in the show, because everything made me go, ‘oh, I’ve seen this shot in the introduction/opening/ending sequence’. So even though it contained a whole load of Mu Xi’s imagination, it didn’t leave too much for mine, as everything felt like I’d already seen it coming. I guess this also is a part of what I’ll later come back to as ‘lazy editing’, but it felt like they didn’t really make an effort to include any additional scenes/story parts that weren’t already ‘spoilered’ in the intro sequence. If they’d done less of that, I might have been a little more surprised and excited for what was going to happen, but they really already revealed most of it from the start, so that was a bit of a bummer.

In summary, the story is about friendship, and it’s also about both main leads’ development in becoming more mature. Dan Yi and Mu Xi aren’t the typical type of childhood friends we’re familiar with – in stories like this, there’s always a hint of budding romance or something, but I actually found it kind of refreshing that that wasn’t the case in The Big Boss. It’s about their friendship and coming to terms with their honest feelings for each other as friends. I guess what disappointed many viewers the most is that there may have been a tiny hint of romantic interest at the very end of season two. Admittedly, it was like being given a crumb, and then having it taken away because then suddenly the show was over before anything ‘real’ happened.
Admittedly, the promotion of Season 2 is quite misleading. As you can see from the picture I added above for S2, it shows Mu Xi as a kind of Cupid, with Dan Yi and Xiao Dong beneath her, suggesting a potential love triangle. The summary on DramaCool for S2 also mentions a story about both Dan Yi and Xiao Dong confessing their love to Mu Xi on her 18th birthday. I don’t know where this summary came from, because it never happens (Mu Xi’s 18th birthday doesn’t even happen), but I guess that’s why people are still hopefully waiting for a season three in which this will come to pass. I don’t know man, it’s been 6 years now. I don’t see it happen. And even if it did, it’d be kind of random to suddenly turn it into a love story after emphasizing so strongly from the start that this wouldn’t be a love story. So I don’t know, I’m not waiting for it.

Apart from the bond between Dan Yi and Mu Xi, there’s the group of friends that plays a big role, as everyone seems to just go along with Mu Xi’s fantasies and everyone seems to be more on her side than on Dan Yi’s, who wants to focus on studying most of all. Dan Yi often finds himself reluctantly being involved in Mu Xi’s antics, and I guess he secretly likes it, but he always keeps a stern attitude. At the end, he decides that it might be better if he transfers to Class 1 after all, that maybe that will help Mu Xi become more independent rather than him constantly watching over her. It ends with the two finally coming to terms with each other, and they make up and Dan Yi is revealed to transfer back to Class 10 because he somehow ‘again’ managed to miss an exam.

Let me give a quick introduction of the Class 10 committee members. In S1, each character gets a short introductory arc that ends in them becoming friends with Mu Xi and joining the committee. I really liked the sequence in the first episode when Mu Xi goes to her first day of school, and there’s a one-take of the school courtyard in which all the characters are briefly introduced with a sentence or two. I thought that was a really nice way to give a brief and powerful introduction to all the characters in school, and then to further introduce each of them one by one throughout the story. All in all, the character types that were introduced made the show seem very anime-like to me, everyone had a specific role and quirk to them that really defined their persona.
Mu Xi’s first assignment as class monitor is to bring two students to school that didn’t show up for registration on the first day. With the help of Dan Yi, who is now the committee member in charge of studies, they each go after one student.
Dan Yi goes after Xue Xiao Dong (played by Dai Jing Yao), a popular idol who didn’t get to register because he was followed by a group of fans. Mu Xi goes after Zhu Shan Qi (played by Lu Yan Qi). It takes her some time to win her trust, as Shan Qi genuinely doesn’t like the idea of going to school (although I don’t remember a solid reason for it). It turns out that Shan Qi is a big fan of Xiao Dong, so she agrees to register after hearing he’s in their class. Shan Qi’s infatuation with Xiao Dong becomes a running gag throughout the show, even though at times it seems like Xiao Dong is more interested in Mu Xi – although Mu Xi friendzones him time and time again. It turns out that Mu Xi knew Xiao Dong from when he was little, and that he used to be quite fat, and he really wants to let go of that past now that he’s managed to get into shape and gained such popularity as an idol.

Now here I’d like to present my first criticism. I read that Xiao Dong’s actor Dai Jing Yao participated in an idol surviving program AKA he has an actual idol training background, and that this was his drama acting debut. However. If you cast an actual aspiring idol as an idol in a drama series, wouldn’t you at least give him a chance to showcase his abilities a little bit? Seriously, what was up with those lipsynching sequences?? Whenever Xiao Dong had a scene in which he performed a song, they just put some random soundtrack over it. And like, putting on a soundtrack is one thing, but they could’ve at least made it LOOK like he was performing that song?! Every single time, he was lipsynching to something completely different than the soundtrack and it looked really lame. Why couldn’t they have just let him sing something for real, why hide it with such lame editing? And they did it later on as well, with that English song competition! I really didn’t understand why they’d come up with that idea and then just botch it like that. It just looked like lazy writing and editing to me. Also, in the scenes where he performed a dance with his crew, it just looked like a morning gymnastics routine to me, they didn’t even fully show him doing a real dance. They tried to create the vibe, the suggestion of him putting on this great performance, but the editing was really fragmented. Honestly, from what I saw in this show, it just looked like someone pretending to be an idol. I mean, come on, the guy was training to be an idol in real life, why not give him the chance to perform one song or dance live? I really don’t understand why they chose to do that. In the end Xiao Dong was more of an idol in words than in deeds to me.

Shan Qi becomes Mu Xi’s best friend, although she doesn’t really seem to be that empathic to others most of the time. She is often shown sneaking snaps of Xiao Dong sitting behind her in class, and her one trait is that she likes eating spicy strip snacks. Other than that, she didn’t really seem to have any special personality traits. As I mentioned before, her running gag was that she kept trying to stick to Xiao Dong in whatever event the group participated in, she was a typical fangirl, but I didn’t really see a lot of interesting aspects about her character other than that.

Moving on with the character introductions, there are the two brothers Huang Nan and Huang Yi (respectively played by Ge Qiu Gu and Gao Kai). They reminded me a little of Fred and George from the Harry Potter series, except they aren’t twins. They are constantly making trouble, pulling mischief, mainly angering the school director. They are mostly in charge of the comic relief, I guess, but it was a little too ‘in your face slapstick’ for my taste. Anyways, they are always first in line when Mu Xi announces a new activity, and after Mu Xi decides to ‘grow up’ and start studying after Dan Yi leaves Class 10, they are the first to speak up about the fact that they prefer the happy, fun-loving and carefree Mu Xi to the more ‘mature’ one.

Then there’s Shen Wei (played by Jin Di), the astrology lover. She is known for her predictions that usually come true, she loves everything that has to do with fortune-telling, horoscopes and such. Throughout the show it also seems like her predictions are always correct in one way or another. I liked her character, her quirk was a bit more solid than others and she also was a very loyal friend throughout everything that happened.

Yuan Ke Er (played by Zuo Yi Fan) is the artistic girl, she’s great at drawing and painting and continously feels the urge to spray graffiti art whenever she sees a white clean wall. To bring her into the committee, Mu Xi and the others have to face a gang that she’s briefly joined after Mu Xi unintentionally discourages her from drawing on the school bulletin board (or something). Anyways, she joins the committee as the person in charge of art after Mu Xi manages to persuade her to participate in the blackboard art competition, even though they lose. I thought that was a nice moment in which Mu Xi for once realized that winning wasn’t the most important thing, and she genuinely praised Ke Er for doing such a great job and encouraged her that she was still the winner to them. It was nice seeing Mu Xi mature subtly in her own way, through tiny little things.

Then there’s Xiong Tian Cheng (played by Guo Jia Ren), the poetry guy. In the beginning, he is a loner in the biggest sense of the word. He has literally blocked off his desk from the rest of the class with cardboard boxes, and he’s known for being very unhygienic. He is brilliant when it comes to writing, and he helps out students by reviewing their essays and rewriting them. He even has his own little reviewing business on the side, but his father is very strict with him and that’s caused him to seclude himself and neglect his physical hygiene. Mu Xi manages to get him cleaned up and he also becomes part of the committee.

And then there’s my favorite couple, haha. Honestly, I shipped these two more than I shipped Dan Yi and Mu Xi, they were just too adorable. First, Li Yao (played by Zhang Lin Yue), an intimidating-looking girl who everyone just assumed to be a bully, but who was actually very socially awkward because of her military upbringing. Basically, she didn’t even have to say anything and people would just give her stuff and then claim that she bullied them. Honestly, from the first moment on, I knew that wasn’t the truth, it was so obvious that she wasn’t even asking for those snacks and I was convinced people were just misunderstanding things. And that turned out to be the truth. There’s this character in Sayonara Zetsubou-sensei that I was reminded of, Mitama Mayo, her name a pun on ‘mita mama yo’ = ‘exactly as she looks’. It’s this intimidating-looking girl, except in SZ-S everyone assumes that she’s probably misunderstood for her appearance, and they give her the benefit of the doubt, even though it’s revealed she is, actually, ‘exactly as she looks’. In Li Yao’s case, this was the opposite. Everyone assumed that she was a bully because of her stern attitude and harsh way of talking, but they find out that she was raised by a military family and she doesn’t know how to act ‘cute’. I really liked her character, she was probably my favorite.
And then there is Cheng Ling (played by Wang Shu Yi), a bullying victim who was constantly running errands for the guys that were intimidating him. Through his arc, he realizes that he is actually a really good runner and athlete, and he ends up joining the tracking team, where he is respected for his speed and skills and they help him get rid of those bullies. For some reason I don’t fully remember, Cheng Ling is paired up with Li Yao when the committee is trying to help Li Yao make friends. They go with him because he’s a mild person, and funnily enough they make quite the pair. I really liked the tough girl versus soft boy dynamic between them, and it becomes more clear afterwards that Li Yao definitely warms up to Cheng Ling and becomes reluctantly affectionate towards him. I thought it was really cute.

Besides the Class 10 committee, there is also the important ‘second female lead’, and this is the class monitor for Class 1, Guan Xin Yi (played by Deng Yu Li), who develops a crush on Dan Yi and keeps trying to get him to transfer to Class 1. Despite her stoic appearance, she becomes a smitten, silly lovestruck girl whenever Dan Yi is near, and she has many fantasy sequences about him. In turn, Xin Yi is always followed by He Lu Xi (played by Fu Xiao), her sort of ‘bodyguard’. He follows her everywhere and always praises her into the heavens, but he also occasionally butts in when she’s trying to approach Dan Yi, which aggravates her. We learn that Lu Xi is in fact in love with Xin Yi, and in the end he manages to very sincerely confess to her, which undoubtedly makes an impression on her, despite her initial dislike of his constant presence. Honestly, I really liked Xin Yi, I thought she was really pure and I liked the actress’ acting a lot. It was just really painful because Dan Yi was clearly very uncomfortable with her advances and she kept approaching him even after he’d already rejected her feelings, so I also understand how awkward it must have been for Dan Yi that she kept watching him. Anyways, I did feel for Xin Yi in her one-sided crush.

I also want to make a mention of Class 10’s homeroom teacher, Wu Heng (played by Zhang Jia), nicknamed ‘Wu sir’ by almost all Class 10 students. He was a really cool guy, and the perfect teacher for Class 10 because he kept believing in every single one of them. He really saw the benefit in trying to help students with more difficulties in studying to get the best out of them, and he deserves all the praise! I really liked his character, he always stood up for his students and really acted as a friend towards them.

The thing is, I was really waiting for some seriousness in the story. It started out with a clear structure, Mu Xi becoming the class monitor, and I thought it would be structured as such, like every time she would get a new assignment, bring a new student into the group, and that’s how everyone would come together and they would develop all their bonds. While it started out like that, at some point, I lost sight of the structure and it became quite incoherent in my opinion.
One of the main things I was interested in, was the reason behind Dan Yi and Mu Xi’s respective behaviors. Especially since I’d seen a comment that revealed that Mu Xi had quite a sad backstory. That immediately piqued my interest because I thought that that meant that there would be some deeper layer behind the comic mask of the show. From Dan Yi’s side, it’s revealed pretty early on that the reason he keeps monitoring and guiding Mu Xi is because he feels guilty for neglecting her one time when they were kids. He told her to go hide (for hide and seek) just to get rid of her and then she actually went missing and it took five hours to find her. Ever since then, he’s pledged to himself to always keep watching over her, and this is also the reason he deliberately missed an exam so he could be in the same class as her in middle school.
In season 2, it’s ultimately revealed that Mu Xi grew up without her parents. She lost both her parents at a young age (her father disappeared and her mother then died of depression not long afterwards), and she’s been living with her older brother Ye Yi Han (played by Liu Jun Xiao) ever since. Her older brother has always babied her as his little sister, and this explains her immature behavior, because she’s never had to grow up for her brother. It’s also revealed (very casually, might I add) that Mu Xi created her whole Fantasy Kingdom in her mind after Dan Yi stopped playing with her, so you could say she created a fantasy world (including the imaginary friends) in her mind because she was left alone, which gives her character a pretty serious deeper layer. That was the part I was interested in the most, to get into the reality of her character, to go beyond her performed carefree attitude.

So let me now move on to my main criticism of the show, the reason why I say that it wasn’t my cup of tea and why I rated it relatively low on MyDramaList (I gave the first season a 5.5 and the second season a 6).
It becomes clear that the fantasy sequences from Mu Xi’s imagination were an important asset to her character, as she depended on her imagination and took inspiration from her fantasy world to cope with events that happened in real life. As her group of friends starts expanding, each new person she meets also gets a ‘role’ in her Fantasy Kingdom. Whenever something happens, even a trivial conflict or whatever, it gets translated into a fantasy world sequence, and this is basically how Mu Xi deals with things, she makes it into a dramatic fantasy story. This means that almost every single event, every single game, competition, conflict, activity that she encounters throughout the series, is converted into a fantasy story featuring her and her friends as their personas in her imagination. Don’t get me wrong, I get how people find it funny that they kept taking every single thing so seriously that they have to fight it out and face it off in a dramatic fantasy setting, but honestly… after 30+ episodes of the exact same concept, it started becoming incredibly tedious to me. At some point I found myself letting the episodes play out without really paying attention to them anymore, just so I could move on with the series and get it over with. To me, it just distracted from the part that I was most interested in, which was the meaning behind it all, if there was any.
To put it short, some sequences simply lasted way too long. Some points could’ve been made within a minute. Some sequences could’ve been finalized within two minutes. There were so many cases in which a single sequence – in which basically nothing happened – continued for at least three minutes straight and it just felt like they were filling screentime. For example, a scene of two people bickering back and forth about something without ever reaching a conclusion. Or a scene in which someone is daydreaming about someone else, and just sits by themselves acting all giddy, without the daydream actually leading somewhere.
To give some concrete examples, for both ‘real life’ and fantasy sequences:
There is a scene in which Mu Xi is playing loud music in her room just to bother Dan Yi who is trying to study downstairs. The sequence is really just going back and forth between Mu Xi dancing in her room and Dan Yi looking annoyed. There’s no development in the scene, it doesn’t end in any way, Dan Yi doesn’t even go upstairs to ask her to turn it down or something, it’s really just three full minutes of making the point that Mu Xi is doing that to annoy Dan Yi and it really didn’t need three whole minutes to play out.
There is another scene in which Huang Yi finds out he got 80 points in a test and he’s so excited about it that he has to go and show it to every single classmate and boast about it to them. It’s followed by sequences of each several minutes long in which he goes to bother several different people about the fact that the got 80 points on a test. I mean, if they could’ve at least made an interesting conversation about it, fine. But it was literally just him going on and on about it, while the other person wasn’t even paying attention. In the end, of course, it turns out his test got switched up with someone else’s and the joke’s on him. But again, it really didn’t deserve that much screentime. They just dragged out the joke for too long while you already saw the twist/punchline coming, and when it finally came, it just wasn’t funny anymore.
There was an entire episode about the committee playing a phone app game because they’d received a complaint of a classmate whose girlfriend had dumped him because he was so obsessed with that game. In my opinion, they could’ve skipped over the entire sequence. They could’ve shown them go ‘okay, let’s check this game out for ourselves’ and immediately skip to ‘xxx hours later’ and then them getting to the point of what they’d learned from it. Now they went through the entire game, only to come to conclusion, ‘oh yeah, it was pretty fun actually’. Like, what was the point? The point was only made when the classmate saw that Xin Yi had gotten as obsessed with it as he had, and that’s what made him realize how he’d treated his girlfriend. The whole story of what they did when they were in the game was not interesting to me at all. Same went for the episode in which they played the werewolf game, or the military-style laser game. It just took too long to make a point, and then ended up not making a point at all.
In cases where the fantasy world sequences were used to make a point, they went a long way around to actually make that point. For example, they showed this whole fantasy story which ended in Xin Yi obtaining some magic pen that gave her power over everyone until Mu Xi managed to break it, and it turned out to be a story that Mu Xi made up about how her pen got broken. The pen itself wasn’t even introduced until the latter half of the fantasy sequence, there was a whole part before it came to the actual pen, so it just became really far-fetched in my opinion.
In some cases, an episode would have one main story and it would get interrupted by several short in-between skits of classmates doing something. I guess it was to keep giving everyone equal screentime or something, to always show what everyone was up to in their free time, but some of these in-between skits really didn’t have a point either and also just felt like screentime fillers. I mean, what was up with Ke Er playing Red Light Green Light in the middle of the street with classmates who weren’t even participating in the game?
My point is that most events and sequences were dragged out way too long, to the point of just not even being funny anymore. The scenes that were funny were also predictable as heck, and that in turn took the fun out of it in many cases. Like, the hiccup scene was relatively funny in itself, but it wasn’t original. I’ve seen this exact scene in Azumanga Daioh, in which they try to get rid of someone’s hiccups, and in the end the hiccups just move on to someone else. Like, they created all these extensive sequences, but they didn’t make them original. I rarely laughed out loud, I found myself chuckling at most at some scenes, but everything was just so over the top ‘trying to be funny’ that it stopped being funny to me. As I mentioned before in the character introductions, the two brothers really weren’t that funny to me. At times I even got a bit annoyed with them, because they were also kind of perverted and the scene where they went and kissed a random girl on the street as a joke, call me sour, but I really didn’t think that was funny. It was just a bunch of teenagers acting like kids, the fantasy sequences were written and acted out as if a group of children had made up a play, and it was pretty bad in my opinion.
The overall structure was really incoherent, like there would be this whole fantasy sequence without context that had me like, ‘what the heck is going on this time’, and then afterwards, in the real world, it would be revealed that it was another story Mu Xi made up about something really trivial, like her pen breaking. That could’ve been done way better.

All in all, the show looked pretty low-budget and the editing and the writing seemed really lazy at times. The only thing I liked better about the second season was that it at least revealed a little bit more about the main characters and in the final three episodes, they finally added some serious acting. The final three episodes proved to me that there was still some promise in this show, because then it suddenly became all about Dan Yi and Mu Xi, no more fantasy worlds. Even though the scene where they get caught by those security guards at the amusement park started off as another lengthy bickering scene between the two men, I did like that they turned it into a scene where Dan Yi and Mu Xi indirectly expressed their feelings towards each other while giving advice to the two guards, and it was also nice that Mu Xi looked back at those men as they were walking away and briefly saw them as her imaginary dino and horse friends. That was the first time I really felt like those imaginary friends played a part in her maturing. Only in the final three episodes did I get the feeling that there had been some development in the relationship between Dan Yi and Mu Xi. Apart from that, there were some sparse good shots that made me go ‘wow, that’s actually kind of nice’. There’s this scene in which Xiao Dong puts on a whole performance for a girl just to turn down her confession, and then when it’s done and everyone around him starts breaking down the set, Xiao Dong is left standing still in the middle of it, his face dropping and you just feel his pressure of being an idol and succumbing to situations like this to fend people off, and that I actually found a pretty powerful shot. So there were little gems like that hidden in-between, but all in all the fantasy sequences just dragged out too long for me, it took too long to get to the point and then basically everything was wrapped up in the final three episodes. Despite the fact that I found it refreshing that this wasn’t a love story at first, at some point I did find myself starting to long for a romance aspect in the story, because then at least something exciting would be happening.
Even the scene in which Mu Xi reveals her backstory was kind of an anti-climax for me. She helps Xiao Dong out with some acting lessons (which she excels at and he doesn’t) and then suddenly she starts telling this story and at first it didn’t even occur to me that she was telling her own life story. I just thought it was another rehearsing script that they were practicing with. It happened in a sequence of ‘acting exercises’, so they really made it seem like it was another one of those. I’d expected her story to be revealed in a more serious context, but now I was just like, oh, okay, I guess this is it? It was just weird how they occasionally put in some deeper layers of the story in a real curt and casual way. It was the same with that bit about how Mu Xi started creating that fantasy world in her mind. That bit lasted like 5 seconds and then it was done and I was like, ‘wait, go back to that!! That’s what I’m interested in!!’ So yeah, in my opinion, they gave too much screentime to filler stuff, and too little screentime to more important stuff, or at least stuff that I was interested in. The final three episodes got me really interested, and I just wished the rest of it could’ve been as engaging as those last episodes.

There was also the thing with Dan Yi’s grandmother (played by Zheng Kai Nan). I actually thought she was a bit annoying in the beginning, but she ended up being kind of a parallel to Mu Xi, they were quite alike in their playfulness and mischief. It was sad that she passed away at the end of the series (I’m still not sure about her illness because apart from her dementia I didn’t really get how exactly she was ‘sick’ enough to die), but I do like to think that she played a part in Mu Xi’s awareness of life and death. The only thing I couldn’t help but frown at was the fact that they couldn’t even get the woman a proper wig, you literally saw her real hair coming out underneath, so that again was a bit sloppy.

I really liked Mu Xi’s older brother, by the way. I sympathized with his character because he was basically forced to become Mu Xi’s parent after their parents fell away and he probably also didn’t fully know how to go about that, so he just made sure she was happy, loved and fed properly. It was clear that he also struggled sometimes with the fact that Mu Xi refused to grow up, and in that Dan Yi was probably more strict to her than he was, but he still remained to be such a supportive loving brother to her, he never tried to actively change her. I liked when he came to talk to Mu Xi in her classroom about Dan Yi leaving Class 10, he was just a really nice guy. I wasn’t completely sure what kind of work he was doing though, so maybe I missed that, but I guess something with story writing? But then they could’ve also made that come across as a bit more professional, because he kept getting stuck at writing stories starting with ‘Once upon a time’… like, a little bit more inspiration from the writers here? Anyways, it was nice to see Mu Xi at least didn’t have any real sadness back at home, her brother was the most important person to her and she tried to do something back for him on several occasions, so that was nice.

I think I’m forgetting a lot of details about specific arcs, but I guess I have managed to put down my main thoughts on this show. So now I’m gonna go on the cast comments! The nice thing was that I knew almost no one in this cast. Sometimes it’s nice to have a clean slate of actors to give feedback on without referring to other stuff I’ve seen them in.

First of all, Eleanor Lee, or Li Kai Xin. I read that she’s actually Singaporean! I have to say that I did like her acting, she really surprised me at times. Even for a character like Mu Xi, who was very childish and immature, she didn’t get on my nerves per se. I think she acted out the layer behind it pretty well. You could see how sometimes stuff ate her up inside, and then she just masked it by acting like she always did. The few serious scenes she had were really good and those made me think that she is in fact a pretty good actress. I’d have to see more of her, but I did like her as the main lead in this show. Apparently this was one of her first drama acting roles, so maybe I’ll see her again in another more recent Chinese drama! I’d like to see her in a role that’s more serious, because I definitely saw that she had some good acting skills in her more serious scenes. But I have to admit that even in her ‘childish’ scenes as Mu Xi, she never took it too far and made it unbearably cringy or anything. I think she balanced it pretty well, and at some point it really did make me feel like it was okay for her to just stay as she was. It’s okay to remain a kid at heart, even as you grow up.

Huang Jun Jie’s performance made a really nice contrast to Eleanor Lee’s. I think they made a good team. I thought it was sweet that he felt like he needed to guide Mu Xi after he almost abandoned her as a kid, although sometimes I also found myself going ‘why do you even still bother with it, dude, just let her be a kid, it shouldn’t be your responsibility to change her’. I think he did a really good job in pretending to be the strict teacher to her while actually he was just really concerned about her becoming able to fend for herself as an adult. The scenes in which you could see how much he cared for her, and he’d just be smiling in the background while watching her, those were really sweet. When she prepared a birthday cake for him and the positive surprise just beamed off his face… You could tell that he never intended to hurt her in any way, and it was also development on his part to decide to step away, to realize that maybe his constant presence was what kept making her act like that, because she felt like she always had to compete with him. And then when they were arguing at the amusement park and he was like ‘nothing about you is trifle to me’ I was like 👁👄👁 and also when he called her ‘his boss’ and even leaned in… 👁👄👁 Like, even I was getting my hopes up a bit, haha! And then the final scene between them on the beach, when they asked each other if they were happy, and they both said ‘yes’. Like, it was scenes like these that kept me engaged in their relationship. Also, I thought it was a real funny twist to make him tone deaf, I definitely didn’t see that coming. I liked his performance. Also, his smile reminded me of Miura Haruma (T^T).

I guess Lu Yan Qi is the only cast member I’ve seen in a drama before, she was in Love O2O, (although I don’t remember her character🥲). Anyways, I recognized her. I had kind of hoped that there would be more to her character, with the whole introduction where Mu Xi had to persuade her to come to school at first. I’m not even sure why she didn’t want to come to school other than that she just didn’t feel like it, and even as a classmate she didn’t seem to have many exceptional personality traits. She actually seemed a bit one-dimensional to me, as her sole purpose seemed to be being Xiao Dong’s fan. I did like her in the part where she had a small fight with Mu Xi and immediately felt like she had to go apologize, but otherwise she didn’t really seem like someone who’d put a lot of emotional effort in friendships. But I guess that also made her a typical teenager, haha.

I really feel like they did Dai Jing Yao a little dirty as an idol in this show. I would’ve liked to see him do some singing and dancing, to see his actual skills rather than that it was dubbed over by some random track that just busted the show’s lazy editing. Now it was just him continuously saying that he’s an idol and making it look like he played every instrument there was, but there wasn’t any ‘real evidence’, while I feel like it would’ve cost them less if they’d just let him sing a song. If there was anything that this show needed, it was authenticity, and he could’ve brought more of that. Luckily for him I see that he’s gotten more acting roles in dramas after this, so who knows when I might spot him again, I’m curious to see how he’s grown since this show.

I really liked Deng Yu Li’s performance because she showed, in my opinion, the most versatility out of everyone. Her character in ‘real life’ was kind of rigid, but her sweet side came out when she fell for Dan Yi. In her own fantasies and in Mu Xi’s, she also showed sides that we didn’t get to see from her ‘real’ character, so that was nice. Her fantasy sequences with Dan Yi were the only ones that made me laugh because she really went for it! As I’ve mentioned in other reviews before, it works best when the character isn’t trying to be funny, and that’s exactly what she did. She was really in the moment, and when she then suddenly acted really out of character (for example when they all played that phone app game and she became obsessed with it), it was extra funny because it was so unexpected. I think she gave a really genuine performance, I liked her versatility and she’s so pretty, too! I’d love to see more from her.

Ge Qiu Gu reminded me a little of Nam Da Reum, appearance-wise. I see he’s in about 5 new upcoming dramas! He’s doing well for himself! Despite being the older brother of the two, there really wasn’t that much difference between him and his younger brother, haha. They were quite the troublemaking bunch! I thought the idea of having a comic duo like that was nice, and I definitely saw some good acting from him in serious scenes, but I still thought the brothers were a bit over the top in their slapstick acting. It was just really clear that they were trying to be funny, and that’s what made it less effective on me.
Same went for Gao Kai, I totally got the whole concept of their characters, but I found myself occasionally annoyed by their pranks because I just didn’t find them funny 🥲. But anyways, they were a loyal duo and it was nice to see that they really respected Mu Xi for who she was and didn’t want her to change.

Jin Di is so cute and bubbly! Shen Wei was one of the most anime-like characters, with her astrology quirk. I liked that at least she had something that she could always fall back on, not just talking about being an astrology geek, but always having new ways in which she could use that in scenes. I liked that she was that kind of friend who’d always be smiling at everyone, but she definitely knew what was up more than she let on. I thought it was cute that the Huang brothers had a little crush on her, haha. She was one of the more established characters, that was nice to see.

I can’t help but feel like they also did Ke Er a bit dirty. I really liked Zuo Yi Fan in the beginning, I thought she’d be a really cool character, but they put her in a lot of scenes where her character didn’t really come out well. I see that she’s also one of the few actors from this series who hasn’t done that much since this one, which is a shame. I thought her character had a lot of potential, but they only showed off her artistic skills that one time with the blackboard art competition, and after that she suddenly turned into a rock and roll fanatic (?) but again only in words and gestures. It was like they were trying to come up with something new for her character, and then just left it at her occasionally saying ‘I like rock and roll!🤘’ and only proving that by having her sing ‘We Will Rock You’ one time at the singing competition. It just felt a bit lame and I would’ve liked to see her get more action when it came to her artistic qualities. Ke Er deserved better!

I thought Guo Jia Ren was so handsome in this! Like even when he was that loner in class, I couldn’t help but notice that jawline?! Haha, sorry, but I liked that they added him in, even if it was a bit later. I’d almost forgotten about him, I remember he was shown in that introductory one-take in the first episode as he was reciting a poem. Anyways, I liked that at least he got a bit of backstory with his dad, and that they made amends after his dad found out about his good grades and stopped criticizing him so much. I was actually a little interested in his character, I would’ve liked to get a bit more info on him. Anyways.

My favorite girl Zhang Lin Yue! Honestly, Li Yao was my fave. I really liked what she did with the character, she fit the image so perfectly. It was cute to see how she was trying to be cute towards Cheng Ling but it just kept coming out so harshly. I like a layer (if that wasn’t already obvious, lol) and she was one of the few characters that really interested me. I really liked her.

Wang Shu Yi really made an adorable Cheng Ling. I felt so bad for him in the beginning, as he was introduced as that typical timid kid who couldn’t stand up for himself, but after joining the tracking team he became so easygoing! I would’ve loved for him and Li Yao to become an actual couple, I think they were so cute together. Him being one of the few people who could see through her tough mask and catching her off guard really gave them OTP vibes. I liked him.

So yeah, I get where this show was coming from and I get what was probably the idea of it, but I think the way they went about constructing it was pretty sloppy. There were some instances that made it clear what they were going for, and you could definitely see Mu Xi learn from her experiences and become more mature in her own way throughout everything that happened, and not always necessarily because of Dan Yi’s influence. But the way they filled it in was just too tedious. I honestly didn’t feel like they needed two seasons of 18 episodes to construct the message of this story. It could’ve all been so much more to the point. The lengthy fantasy sequences often made me lose sight of what the whole story was about. I had kind of hoped that there would be less of it in the second season, and though it did start out that way, they came back in full power in the middle and that’s when I started paying less attention to it. I didn’t skip anything, I didn’t fastforward through anything, but I did hover over the procession bar many times to check how long a scene would last because I was getting impatient.
I usually like it when a drama series is a bit like an anime, and this is the case with many Chinese dramas in particular. In terms of characters and in terms of skits, I think that if this had been an anime, it would’ve probably been more fun to watch, but now that it was people trying to act like anime-like characters, it became a bit too slapstick for me. Sometimes people were just trying too hard and it took away the fun element for me.
Despite my criticisms, I do wish to end this review on a positive note. I thought the concept of the story was nice, about a girl with a wild imagination navigating through school life, supported by a childhood friend who wants to make sure she turns out alright. Mu Xi is a very admirable character, because she doesn’t care about what other people think of her behavior. Sure, she acts like a spoiled brat sometimes, but it’s not that she’s not aware of what happens around her. She just has a different learning pace, and that should be okay. It was nice seeing a character sticking to her own pace, not succumbing to the expectations of other people. The whole idea of this girl growing in her own way while gathering a group of friends and deepening their bonds was really nice. Honestly, if the fantasy sequences had been less tedious and a bit more coherent, I would’ve enjoyed watching them frolic around in that Fantasy Kingdom, as long as it led somewhere and added to the meaning of the story. The characters were all interesting in their own way, and all had the potential of gaining their own respective stories. I would’ve liked it if they’d given more backstories to all the characters rather than creating far-fetched fantasy stories that didn’t mean anything in the end, they could’ve used the screentime, those 36 episodes, for much more to-the-point narrative building. But anyways, I don’t want to be too sour, it was still a light and comic watch and I understand why some people love the simplicity and pureness of it. It definitely held some lessons.

But I can’t deny that I’m very excited to now move on with my list, haha. I want to keep switching it up more between Korean, Japanese and Chinese dramas, so look forward to some more variety in area and language! I will be back with my next review soon, I think. Until then!

Bye-bee!