My Liberation Notes

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

My Liberation Notes
( 나의 해방일지 / Naeui Haebangilji / My Liberation Journal)
MyDramaList rating: 7.5/10

Hi everyone! I’m bringing you another review right before the end of April. I hope everyone is feeling the start of spring wherever they are. I certainly am, although it’s really just the start of it. As I mentioned in my previous review, I decided to catch up on some more recent hyped Netflix K-Dramas before I go back to my golden oldies watchlist, and I finally got to watch this one. I’m really glad I did, because it’s definitely my kind of genre in K-Drama. It distinguishes itself from ‘regular’ dramas in more than one way, and I’ll try to phrase my opinions and thoughts on it as well as I can. I had no idea what the story was about, as I always kept my distance from spoilers, which I’m glad I did, because it enabled me to completely immerse myself in the unpredictability of this show. There were also several of my favorite actors in it, which I didn’t know beforehand, so that added to the surprise.

My Liberation Notes is a 16-episode Netflix K-Drama with episodes lasting about 1 hour and 7 minutes each. It follows the lives of three siblings, whose daily life consists of commuting from their family house in the countryside to their jobs in Seoul and back. Yeom Gi Jeong (played by Lee El), Yeom Chang Hee (played my Lee Min Gi) and Yeom Mi Jeong (played by Kim Ji Won) are all in their thirties but still live with their parents in a village called Sampo, in the Gyeonggi-do Province which surrounds Seoul. Their parents, father Yeom Je Ho (played by Cheon Ho Jin) and mother Kwak Hye Sook (played by Lee Kyung Sung), are quite the conservative couple. Father barely speaks and is just out and about working all day. Besides harvesting crops, he has a small factory called Sampo Sinks, where he manufactures sink cabinets. He runs a small business making and delivering these to customers in the city. Mother is the ultimate housewife who’s constantly cooking and cleaning and worrying whether her children will ever get married and leave the house. There is not a lot of emotional bonding within the family, or should I say, there’s a serious lack of it. The children don’t talk with their parents about their struggles, and amongst each other they’re usually bickering. They don’t get involved with each other’s lives that much. They’re a family of individuals.
And then there’s the mysterious Mr. Goo (played by Son Seok Goo), a strong young man who one day appeared in Sampo and started living near the Yeom family house while helping Father Yeom out with his daily work. Mr. Goo doesn’t talk much either, which is probably why Father Yeom likes to have him around so much. No one knows his full name or where he came from, all they know is that he drinks every single day and he never engages in conversation.
You could say the series lacks a singular evident storyline, it’s more like a slice-of-life depiction of the three siblings – followed later by Mr. Goo – while they navigate through their adult lives in the pressuring society of South Korea. While the ‘liberation’ theme comes mostly from Mi Jeong’s storyline, in the end all of them find their own kind of liberation.

I have to say right off the bat that watching this series gave me a feeling similar to when I was watching Something in the Rain. It started out really good and became increasingly interesting to me in the first half. In the second half, there was a moment where I started wondering where it would go, and just when I felt like that part was dragging on a bit, the ending felt completely wholesome again. It’s nice that they all managed to find their own kind of liberation in the end, like all these things that had a hold on them for the entirety of the show suddenly started falling away one by one. When I finished the final episode, I also felt like I had been liberated from something, so I liked how it had that effect.
This is without a doubt one of the more unique shows I’ve seen in a long time. I love how unpretentious it was, I love how brave the main characters were for finding a way to speak their minds even though the majority of the people around them would look at them weirdly. I think it brings a very important message with regards to South Korean society, about how succumbing to the mainstream way of life can be both mind-numbing and maddening at the same time. The siblings definitely belonged to the group of people that were meant to search for their own path, even if that meant going against the one-direction traffic of their surroundings.

Since this series is more character-driven than story-driven, and its characters are all interesting in their own way, I will go through this review by means of character analysis. I feel like going character-by-character will prove to be the most effective way to go.

I’d like to start with Yeom Mi Jeong, the youngest sibling, as her storyline will enable me to get directly to the series’ title and main theme. Mi Jeong is without a doubt the most timid of the siblings. She’s an introvert, but that doesn’t mean that she doesn’t have an edge. You could say that behind her quiet demeanor there’s a silent rage that she only rarely expresses. Mi Jeong has always been the most helpful child to her parents’ work in the countryside, and she’s the only one who never complains when they’re asking for help. Unlike her older brother and sister, who fight a lot, she keeps to minding her own business most of the time, until other people involve her. She works at a sort of designing company (if I’m correct), where she gets the chance to design layouts for pamphlets and business cards etcetera. While she’s quite good at it, her manager always finds ways to reject everything she comes up with. As she sits quite close to his desk, her working hours include long periods of hearing him curse under his breath while he’s striking through all her proposals. At least she has some female colleagues who (seem to) have her back, but Mi Jeong usually smiles rather than engage in vindictive gossiping with them. These female colleagues are always trying to get Mi Jeong out of her shell, they try to convince her to stay and go clubbing or drinking with them, they try to get stories about her private life out of her, but Mi Jeong doesn’t usually talk about herself. She seems to be the introvert friend in a group of extraverts. Except she’s not a friend. She doesn’t even feel a connection with her female peers, except for maybe one of them. Mi Jeong actually doesn’t like any of the people she meets in her daily life, and this only feeds her growing inner rage.
As if her daily life isn’t already tedious enough dealing with people she doesn’t like and commuting to places she doesn’t want to go, her company starts making her life even harder by forcing her to join a social activity club. The company has a system of extracurricular activity clubs, to make working life more fun and bring colleagues from different departments together. It seems like a fun initiative… until you’re being forced to participate. Mi Jeong is one of the few people who hasn’t joined a club yet. More importantly, she has no interest in joining one at all. She’s called in several times by the club consultant (played by Lee Ji Hye), who just can’t seem to understand why she doesn’t want to join one, and who keeps urging her to make more social contacts within the company. Eventually, just to get out of these consultations, Mi Jeong and two other people who refuse to join a club decide to start their own, The Liberation Club. These two others are Park Sang Min (played by Park Soo Young) and Jo Tae Hoon (played by Lee Ki Woo). They’re all from different departments and basically just know each other’s faces from crossing paths in the hallway, but they all have their own reason for not wanting to join a club. Since simply creating a club to get it over with doesn’t cut it, the consultant keeps asking them to come up with visual proof of the kind of activities they do at The Liberation Club. What it comes down to is that they meet up once in a while and talk about the things they want to be liberated from. It’s not a pity club, they’re not looking for comfort or advice, it’s really just each member taking time to talk about things that they feel bothered by. It may not come close to the social gatherings of the other clubs, but to the three of them, it definitely causes some kind of relief and they’re not the only ones. After the consultant sits in on one of their meetings, she’s so impressed by it that she decides to join herself, becoming the fourth member. They decide to start writing down their thoughts in-between gatherings in notebooks, and then present what they’ve written when they get together. That’s how the liberation notes come into the picture.
In the meantime, Mi Jeong has other things to worry about. Her ex-boyfriend cheated her out of six million won for an ‘investment’ and then left her to live abroad with another woman. He keeps refusing to pay her back, saying he doesn’t have any money himself at the moment, causing Mi Jeong to receive notices of delinquency from her bank. Because she doesn’t want her family to find out, she changes her address briefly to that of Mr. Goo’s, so the bank’s letters won’t be delivered to her family house. From this point on, Mi Jeong starts approaching Mr. Goo more often. It seems like she was already a bit interested in him from the start but never bothered to talk to him as he never answered, but at some point her inner rage starts boiling and she boldly goes up to him one night, surprising him with words that will change his view of her forever: ‘Worship me.’

It was so interesting to see Mi Jeong transforming throughout the series. I related to her in a lot of aspects. The whole thing about her being forced to join a club reminded me of something a friend of mine recently went through. Her company was doing this team dinner and everyone was supposed to participate in this kind of talent show. Despite repeatedly telling the organisors how uncomfortable she was with performing in front of people, everyone around her was like ‘well, we’re all doing it too, so you should just get over it’. It made us both aware of the fact that introverted people are overlooked on so many occasions.
In any case, it didn’t come as a surprise to me that Mi Jeong’s rage kept piling up, and I’m impressed that she kept it together until the very end. Once she got to talking and started opening up to Mr. Goo, we get to see this whole different side of her. She’s not insecure, she’s not timid or shy. I felt like she was overlooked, and that made it hard for her to see her own worth, but it didn’t make her lose confidence, per se. She just gained a whole bunch of people to curse out inside her head. In the beginning, she would just let everything wash over her and not talk back even when she was being treated unfairly, but I think it was a big step for her to actually step up when she found out her manager and one of her female colleague ‘friends’ were having an affair and he saved his mistress under Mi Jeong’s name on his phone. I honestly didn’t understand how that woman had the nerve to slap Mi Jeong in the face while she had been the one dragging Mi Jeong into this mess. Anyways, it definitely felt like Mi Jeong was maturing in her own way and decided there was room for her to live her life the way she wanted to.
Her relationship with Mr. Goo, one of the more apparent storylines, was also very interesting. In the beginning I was really excited for their growing tension to explode at some point, but they kept it pretty conservative! I didn’t expect that. He kisses her one time, but it’s not even captured in detail, as soon as he leans in the shot is zoomed out and we can’t even see it clearly from that distance. Even when they meet up again later and nothing was holding them back anymore, I was just waiting for them to show some sort of physical affection, but in hindsight I also think it’s quite refreshing that they didn’t make it about that. Their chemistry was clear enough through their gazes and conversations, so a part of me was also glad to see a relationship work out like this, without the physical intimacy that people are always asking for. Of course, I wouldn’t have minded it, but I also respect that they chose not to put too much focus on that. The most important thing was that Mi Jeong and Mr. Goo understood each other, despite coming from completely different worlds.

Let me move on to Yeom Gi Jeong, the oldest sibling. Gi Jeong is nearing forty, she works at a statistics company and she has yet to find the love of her life. She’s more outspoken about her frustrations than Mi Jeong, and she tends to get home late because she can’t stop herself from going for a drink (or more) after work. At one point, she decides to set herself an ultimatum: if she hasn’t found someone to love by the time it’s winter, she’ll shave all her hair off. However, it turns out to be a bit of a challenge to find a guy who’s up for sweeping her off her feet. Once Gi Jeong starts talking, her quirks inevitably come out and this has rarely worked in her favor. I really loved the scene where she had that blind date and started talking about how she would prove her devotion by picking up her husband’s severed head, and how she admired Maria for staying with Jesus while he was being crucified. To her, those extreme cases may have illustrated some sincerely noble acts of love, but to other people they were a reason to run away as fast as they could.
Gi Jeong eventually falls in love with Mi Jeong’s Liberation Club member Jo Tae Hoon, who also happens to be the younger brother of one of her old school friends. I will go into more detail about Tae Hoon and his circumstances later, but let’s just say that they make an interesting pair. He’s the first man who seems to be genuinely charmed by Gi Jeong’s quirks, they’re always smiling a lot when they’re together, and Gi Jeong becomes quite passionate about him. Initially, Gi Jeong is in it by herself, which she realizes after confessing to Tae Hoon for the first time. Even though he initially doesn’t give her a straight answer, her bold confession is the trigger for his feelings towards her to unfold, and they still end up together. Although they face struggles, mostly caused by Tae Hoon’s family, they are determined to stick together, and eventually they even agree to get married, even though the series ends before this happens.
I think that finding love was one of the main driving forces for Gi Jeong’s character. I thought it was kind of funny that this came out when she was complaining about how her manager at work allegedly dated almost all of the female employees, and had given lottery tickets to every single employee in the company, except for her. Instead of seeing it as a good thing that she at least wouldn’t be treated like that, it made her doubt herself all the more because she was the only woman who he hadn’t gotten involved with. As in, she was prepared to be one of those women rather than being ostracized by herself, because that made her feel like she wasn’t attractive enough. I liked how she just went to confront her manager and they ended up becoming friends who exchanged dating advice. I kind of expected him to still fall for her at some point, because I thought he started looking at her differently when she started glowing after falling for Tae Hoon, but he kind of disappeared towards the end of the show, which was a pity. On the other hand, I liked that they didn’t make him into this typical male character, the rumors weren’t all true about him being a player and whatnot, and it also seemed like he learned from Gi Jeong, in a way. Anyways, finding love was always a driving factor for Gi Jeong, that’s for sure. I think she struggled more with things in terms of beauty and feminity, in hindsight. It never became a true obsession, but I believe that she was dealing with a lot of pressure from being the oldest daughter, nearing forty and not having found anyone to marry yet. Even when Tae Hoon agrees to marry her, the plan is to wait until his daughter is twenty years old, and Gi Jeong then struggles again with the thought that she’ll be fifty when that time comes. So I guess Gi Jeong’s sorrows mostly come from the conformity that women are supposed to find love and get married within a certain time span.

I started liking Gi Jeong the most when she started falling for Tae Hoon. In the beginning I wasn’t completely sure what her deal was, and I thought she was a bit unhinged, to be honest. I also thought it was quite childish of her to get all bitter after seeing Mi Jeong and Mr. Goo getting closer. It just really showed how uninvolved they were in each other’s lives, she wouldn’t even support her younger sister for finding love before she could. But from the moment she became a lovestruck schoolgirl over Tae Hoon, I started finding her so incredibly endearing. The urges to show her affection were so relatable. I loved the part where she was like, ‘I never understood why people took pictures of their food before eating, but now I also want to take pictures so I can show Tae Hoon what I’m eating’. I really liked how this habit jumped over to Tae Hoon as well after Gi Jeong confessed to him. One of my favorite parts was when Gi Jeong was all 😭 after her disastrous confession, and a rainbow came out and she was like ‘why do I still want to send him a picture of that rainbow??’ and in the meantime, somewhere else, Tae Hoon chose to take a picture of it, almost subconsciously.

I find Chang Hee one of the more complicated characters to analyze, because his storyline jumped from one event to another and I feel like I missed a couple of transitions. In contrast to his two siblings, his storyline wasn’t focussed on romance at all, more on money and proving himself to his father. Towards the end, I felt like there were more things happening off-screen than on-screen, which we only learned about when the focus went back to him. Maybe I wasn’t paying close enough attention, but for me it kind of jumped from him suddenly quitting his job to suddenly having to pay off debts to suddenly having some sort of relationship with his childhood friend Hyeon Ah (more about her later as well). I watched the last couple of episodes with some time in-between, so it could be that it just didn’t linger in my memory, but I got a bit confused about his storyline towards the end.
In my opinion, Chang Hee starts out as the most obnoxious of the three siblings, and ends up with maybe the most character development out of everyone. In the beginning, he’s just a selfish guy with won signs in his eyes. He thinks he can take on the world if he just has a mountain of money and a nice car. Despite his ambitions, Chang Hee usually lazies around the house on his free days and only reluctantly comes to help out with the farming after he’s been repeatedly asked to. To me, he felt like a little kid in a grown man’s body, also in his behavior towards Mr. Goo. After seeing Mr. Goo perform that crazy high jump, Chang Hee starts idolizing him, and he reaches a new level of respect when Mr. Goo lends him a Rolls-Royce that he had standing around somewhere. Mr. Goo becomes the older respectable brother that he never had. I laughed so hard when he ended up showing Mr. Goo the damage he’d accidentally gotten on the car and he had to run a marathon to escape him, lol.
While Chang Hee doesn’t seem to suffer much under society’s pressure, he is always complaining about something. He works at a company that manages convenience stores and he is also personally responsible for some of these stores. He seems to be liked well enough by the people he works with, a bit too much in some cases. I found it so strange that he would just allow that woman to keep calling him for hours to rant about her deceased husband. With his personality, I didn’t really understand why he put up with that and why he ended up getting Hyeon Ah to solve the problem for him. I guess he was the kind of person who would complain about people behind their backs but tried to keep himself composed when they were in front of him. The same went for that woman he worked with, who was sitting next to him and couldn’t shut up. The funny thing is that one of the first things I thought was that Chang Hee also couldn’t stop talking whenever something was bothering him, and it surprised me that he was also able to reflect on himself. Despite the fact that I apparently completed missed or forgot about when or how he quit his job, it was nice to see that helping out his parents on the farm started coming more naturally to him. Honestly, I related to him at this point because I also became unemployed recently and I was exactly the same in that all I wanted for the next few months was just to relax and enjoy my free time, without immediately being nagged by my parents about my next steps. I feel like from this point on, and then strengthened by the passing of his mother, Chang Hee finally made the final steps to maturity. He was finally able to reflect on himself and this also enabled him to suddenly realize that he had always been present when someone close to him passed away. From that moment on, it was like he became The Man Moved By The Universe. In the final episode, he goes into a building to visit an exposition, but he ends up in ‘the wrong room’ where people are being prepared for becoming funeral planners. In an unexpected way, he ended up exactly where he was supposed to be.
The only thing I didn’t completely follow, as I said, was his relationship with Hyeon Ah. I got that they were childhood friends and they were close enough that he would always ask her to pretend to be his girlfriend and get him out of certain situations. After his mother passed, he asks Hyeon Ah to marry him after she says that at his cremation, she’ll probably be the one watching behind the window. However, I never really felt a romantic connection between them and we also see their relationship fall apart pretty fast. Also, Hyeon Ah already had a partner, who was dying of cancer. So that part wasn’t completely clear to me.

To me, Chang Hee was all the more interesting because he wasn’t completely likable. He wasn’t a nice, friendly gentleman, he was selfish and self-absorbed and greedy, but he still managed to find his way out of his own darkness. Even though there were some potential love interests throughout the story, he always ended up the most happy when he was alone. Unlike Gi Jeong for example, he took solace in the fact that he didn’t need anyone else to rely on but himself. I started feeling for him more after the story explored his relationship with his father more. I will talk about the parents separately later, but I just thought how interesting it was that Chang Hee and his father had gotten so estranged while they were actually so much alike.
Once he started maturing, I started feeling more sympathetic towards him. In the final episode, there’s this part where he’s sitting at this fire with his two Sampo neighborhood friends and he’s talking about why he decided to give up a business that could’ve earned him tons of money. It was so good when he talked about how proud he was of himself, how much he could love himself now for being mature enough to not linger on those petty thoughts he used to have, to swallow them and not speak them out loud.

Finally, let me go over Mr. Goo before I turn to some of the important side characters. When we meet him, he’s as much a mystery to us as he is to the Yeom family. I kind of liked his vibe from the start, this charming mystery man of few words. I was also really interested in how his relationship with Mi Jeong would develop. It was nice to see him actually get caught off guard by her, how she actually managed to scare him at times with the things she said. I was ready for him to slowly start letting his walls down for her, especially when it became more serious.
As it turns out, Mr. Goo, or Goo Ja Gyeong, is definitely a bit of a shady guy. I kind of expected him to be part of a maffia organization or something, and I wasn’t completely wrong. Mr. Goo was working under a dangerous and influential guy who managed a bunch of host clubs. Apparently he’d been a host himself before he climbed his way up, and now he’s mostly in charge of making sure all the clubs and the managers pay their bills on time. When a manager fails to get money from a customer, he’s sent after them to make sure they pay, and not in the most friendly way. It can get quite violent. At some point, Mr. Goo was apparently in a relationship with the sister of one of his work acquaintances, but this sister was severely depressed and ended up unaliving herself. Around this time, this work acquaintance decided to betray Mr. Goo and take him out. Mr. Goo incidentally found out about this and decided to disappear into the countryside – that’s how he ended up at Sampo. About halfway through the story, he is discovered by his former work acquaintances, and one of them even visits the Yeom family house to convince him to come back. Mr. Goo eventually decides to return after the brother of his ex meets an unfortunate end during a pursuit when he’s found out for dealing drugs. However, this only worsens his alcoholism. As I mentioned before, one of Mr. Goo’s characteristics is that he drinks a lot, every day. He has an entire collection of empty soju bottles in his house. After Mi Jeong gets him to talk, and she’s really the only one who gets him to open up like that, he keeps saying that drinking makes him feel comfortable, that whenever he’s sober, he can only think about all the people who have wronged him and feel angry towards them.
I found it very interesting to see how much Mr. Goo changed throughout the show. In the final episode, he was nothing like the person he was in the first episode. He had no problem talking to Mi Jeong, he was smiling at her and looking at her with those shiny eyes (seriously, the way he looked at her). I was kind of worried that he would be the only person who wouldn’t find his liberation, because his drinking became worse and worse and then he even started slipping up during work and stuff. But the relief that final scene brought me, the one where he chose to pick up that coin and leave the whiskey bottle behind, was immense. Even though he may not completely leave it behind, it was a first step, and the fact that he was finally strong enough to start ‘trudging step by step’ together with Mi Jeong was really nice.

Overall, I really loved how they managed to portray everything in an ultimately uplifting way without turning corny. There was something real and powerful in the way everyone reached their own kind of liberation, and how they went about it. It was so realistic, also in how the series left a couple of things open. We never see how the relationship between Mi Jeong and Mr. Goo works out, we don’t see Gi Jeong and Tae Hoon get married, we don’t see Chang Hee become a funeral planner. The story ends at a point where they have all found something that might lead to their liberation, and that in itself is already uplifting. The most defining point of that for me was when they decided to restart The Liberation Club and, according to Park Sang Min’s words, ‘keep going until it works’. Mi Jeong previously said that while she didn’t feel completely liberated yet, the meetings had at least helped her figure out the cause of her frustrations, and that was already a big step. I think this was a very defining moment, and a very good way to end the series. Life doesn’t have a defined ‘ending point’, like some point that you have to get to in order to reach liberation or something like that. Getting to the point where you become aware of the source of your problems and taking steps to go in the direction of fixing them and improving your own life is already such an important step in itself.

I want to talk a bit about the siblings’ parents, as they also played an immensely important part in the story. You might wonder how the children got to grow up so differently from their parents, but I read a book last year which kind of reminded me of this, in which the children became estranged from their parents exactly because their parents never talked about things. Because they could never confide in their parents, the children were forced to figure their own stuff out and this can go either way. All I’m saying is that I wasn’t surprised how everyone was so ‘on their own’ despite being a family of five.
It’s mentioned somewhere that Father Yeom is a very shy man, and that’s why he doesn’t talk much. He seems to be the conservative kind of father who never shows his emotional side to his wife and children, even though he actually cares and worries about them a lot. In the beginning he seems quite indifferent towards Chang Hee, but I was so happy with that flashback of him being surprised seeing his son win that tracking competition. And how he suddenly became a child in racing that other family’s car after they’d looked down on them for having a less successful harvest, that really cracked me up. I love how in that moment, Chang Hee and his father were one, the son cheering on his father. Father suddenly got that mischievous gleam in his eye, and that was the only time in the entire series that he behaved like that, but I loved it. We don’t get much insight in Father’s frame of mind, as he doesn’t disclose much about himself, but it’s undeniable that part of it is due to awkwardness in showing affection. After his wife suddenly passes away, the bond between him and Chang Hee becomes much better as his son starts helping him out around the house more, and he’s even able to remarry at some point. When Mr. Goo comes to visit him, he gives him Mi Jeong’s phone number and the most beautiful example of liberation takes place in the final episode, when he tells his kids that he doesn’t mind if they all choose to live their lives without getting married. He was finally able to talk to his children, and this was beautiful. I really feel like, specifically for Gi Jeong but also for Mi Jeong, this was one of their major liberations. The way they both teared up after hearing their conservative father tell them they were free to live however they wanted was really touching.

While Mother was also a very typical conservative housewife, I did feel like she was more concerned about the struggles that her children, mostly her daughters, went through. She was never the hug-it-out kind of mom, but there were moments where it became abundantly clear how much happiness she wished for her children. She always had a gentle expression when looking at their childhood photos, and I felt like she was the kind of wife who’d scoff about her husband’s inability to communicate but didn’t actually take it to heart. It was quite cosy how she’d just complain about him while he was sitting right next to her, as if that was their love language, in a way. We only get to see her emotional side right before she passes away. Despite never really smiling widely, she was so excited to see Tae Hoon after learning about Gi Jeong’s relationship, and she also seemed to be really hurt by hearing about Mi Jeong’s sadness after Mr. Goo left. In those two final scenes, that took place on the afternoon before she died in the evening, showed just how much she cared for her children and how much happiness she wanted for them.
Needless to say I was really surprised when she suddenly passed away, I don’t even know the reason for sure. Did she hit her head during that racing incident? Did she suddenly have a heart attack while resting? She seemed to be completely healthy so it came as a shock for me, too. Her passing had a different effect on each relative. I believe it hit Mi Jeong more directly, especially because it had just been a short time since Mr. Goo had left, and it felt like being left by several people in a row, including her ‘friend’ at work. On the other hand, it also caused all three siblings to finally leave the house and move to Seoul. It made Chang Hee decide to be more dependable and it made Gi Jeong go through some important experiences as well. Maybe it’s a bit cruel to say, but it felt like her passing did allow a certain liberation to happen within the family.

Speaking about families, I’d like to talk a bit about Tae Hoon. He is introduced in the first episode, in a quite embarrassing situation. In short, Tae Hoon and his daughter happen to sit right next to the Yeom sisters in a café when Gi Jeong is ranting about some guy she was seeing who turned out to be a single father. I mean, of course she couldn’t possibly know that the person sitting right next to her was going through a similar situation, and I thought it was weird they made such a big deal out of feeling called out by someone that wasn’t even talking about them, but it was a bit embarrassing either way.
As I mentioned before, Jo Tae Hoon works at the same company as Mi Jeong, only in a different department. They have seen each other’s face before, but they initially don’t really know each other. Despite joining The Liberation Club together, Mi Jeong never becomes very close with him, but they are on friendly terms with each other and this remains after he and Gi Jeong start dating. Tae Hoon is a single father with a teenage daughter called Jo Yoo Rim (played by Kang Joo Ha). His wife left him for another family, and he has trouble bonding with his pubescent daughter. Besides that, he has two sisters, Jo Hee Seon (Kim Ro Sa) and Jo Gyeong Seon (Jung Soo Young) who help him take care of Yoo Rim. Gyeong Seon is Gi Jeong’s old school friend and they reconnect after Gi Jeong gets an eye treatment at Gyeong Seon’s clinic. However, as soon as the real nature of Gi Jeong and Tae Hoon’s relationship becomes clear, Gyeong Seon actively protests against it, mostly because of what Gi Jeong said during the beforementioned incident, which Yoo Rim told her about. Gyeong Seon keeps looking for reasons to cancel Gi Jeong, so to say. Despite Tae Hoon’s less than welcoming family (apart from Hee Seon), the couple becomes determined to stay together.
Going back a bit to where they first start hanging out, I just want to comment that I found them a really endearing couple. Tae Hoon is quite sullen, but he really lights up when he’s with Gi Jeong, they have interesting conversations and get along really well. It was kind of cute how he only became aware of the implications after Gi Jeong gathered the courage to speak her feelings, like he had this denseness about him, but he never became a wimp. He may have lacked a little spine in standing up for Gi Jeong against his family, but he remained very adamant in his feelings for her and that in itself was a strong characteristic of him. I can’t deny that I found him a little pessimistic, also in how his own experiences had caused him to feel sorry for every small child he saw because he was worried about the painful experiences they would have to endure in the future, but I guess that’s just the blow that life dealt him. It reflected his feelings towards a hopeful future, seeing what his ex-wife leaving them had done to Yoo Rim, and how he was now depending on his sisters’ help so much. I was just happy for him that he got to meet someone new in Gi Jeong who could make him smile. Honestly, that final scene where he came to her house drunk to give her a rose, that was so cute. I wish there would’ve been more scenes that showed his more affectionate side. I was also kind of sad they didn’t have a kissing scene, but oh well. I definitely cracked up that one time when Gi Jeong blurted out ‘next time we can sleep together!’ leaving him all speechless.

As much as I thought I had Ji Hyeon Ah (played by Jeon Hye Jin) figured out, she became kind of a vague character to me in the end. She was just so different at the start of the show. She only appeared as a side character in the siblings’ storylines, so there wasn’t much linearity in her own story. The image that I got was that she grew up with the siblings in Sampo, but moved to Seoul after graduation and they’d always kept in touch. The siblings are sometimes able to meet up with her in Seoul after work, and she also comes to visit them in Sampo on occasion. She appears to be a fun-loving older sister figure, who occasionally gets involved with bad boyfriends. Mi Jeong comes to visit her at her house one time, and then she hears how Hyeon Ah’s then-boyfriend is intimidating her and breaking stuff in her apartment. Despite her own less-than-ideal situation, Hyeon Ah is always there when one of the siblings needs an issue worked out. She often helps Chang Hee out in situations where she needs to pretend to be his girlfriend, and she never complains about it. She’s a very loyal friend who cares about everyone’s wellbeing more than her own, it seems. At some point we find out that she is being terrorized by another boyfriend’s mother and we find out that this guy is in the hospital succumbing to cancer. I wasn’t sure who this guy was, if he was an ex-boyfriend or if she was seeing other people while he was in the hospital. In any case, suddenly there was this guy in the hospital who couldn’t let her go and she kept visiting him. I didn’t really understand what was going on there. Chang Hee also seemed to know the guy and was friendly with him, so he can’t have been a bad person. Chang Hee ends up visiting him several times when Hyeon Ah can’t make it, and the boyfriend even asks Chang Hee to take care of Hyeon Ah after he’s gone. Shortly before he passes, Chang Hee proposes to Hyeon Ah and they start dating…? I questionmark this because again, I didn’t fully understand the situation. I didn’t think it made much sense for them to get together. The boyfriend passes away when Chang Hee is the only one present, as he can’t get hold of Hyeon Ah. So yeah, that’s what I got from it, but throughout it all Hyeon Ah also suddenly became this really docile, vulnerable person and I just felt like I missed a few crucial steps in her life story. That was something I would’ve liked to get more clarity about. Other than that I liked her character, and I was fine with her remaining a kind of whimsical supporting figure in the siblings’ lives. I just didn’t really understand how she somehow ended up with Chang Hee, as I didn’t feel any chemistry between them besides close childhood friends.

Speaking of childhood friends, I thought it was an interesting choice in itself to create the community of Sampo. The way it’s explained is that normally, no one stays there. It’s a village that has more people leaving than staying, and that’s why it’s a surprise to everyone that Mr. Goo suddenly decided to start living there. Chang Hee has two friends from Sampo, even though they’re all really different. As a child growing up in a village like that, you don’t really have another choice but to play with the other children there, because they’re the only peers you have to grow up with. As Chang Hee also mentions at some point in the beginning, he wouldn’t even call Oh Doo Hwan (Han Sang Jo) and Seok Jung Hoon (Jo Min Gook) his friends if it weren’t for that reason. They’re his friends by default because they all grew up together in Sampo, something like that. It felt like the siblings’ relationship with Sampo itself was already complicated enough. It took them so long to actually move away, their mother was already worried that they would never leave, but I could never tell whether they preferred to keep living there over living in Seoul. I think it was just that they were used to living there, they were used to their way of living while helping their parents out (especially Mi Jeong). It had a lot of inconveniences, like the tediously long commute, but still none of them took action to move to Seoul before. I thought that was quite interesting.

I just want to briefly mention a couple of supporting characters that deserve a shoutout.
First of all, Oh Doo Hwan, Chang Hee’s closest childhood friend in Sampo. Depicted as a bit of a comic relief character, only strengthened by his goofy appearance, Doo Hwan remained to be a very close and true friend to the siblings. I believe he was a gym teacher or soccer coach at the local school. Despite him often being used as a target of ridicule by Chang Hee, he did prove to be someone who stayed in Sampo and got his life together. I thought he was a nice presence in the Sampo scenes, and I thought that he might have been a bit underestimated by the majority. In any case, he was always really happy to see his friends come back home to Sampo and he really cared about everyone’s wellbeing, just like Hyeon Ah. He also helped out with Gi Jeong’s confession plan without a second of hesitation, I thought that also proved something.

I wanted to mention Gi Jeong’s manager Park Ji Woo (played by Kim Woo Hyung), who I’ve briefly talked about before. I just really liked how being confronted by Gi Jeong for not giving her any lottery tickets eventually made him aide her in her mission to find love before winter came. I know I said I kind of expected him to still fall for Gi Jeong, but on the other hand it really wasn’t the kind of show that dealt with typical love triangles. I just found it a waste that he basically disappeared after his relationship with that one female employee ended. She was weird, by the way, she was going all ‘don’t spend so much time with my boyfriend’ to Gi Jeong, and to her boyfriend himself she was acting all distanced. I didn’t get what her deal was, so I didn’t feel sorry for her when he ended it. In a way, he kind of liberated himself, too!

I cannot forget Sam Shik (played by Kim Min Song), Mr. Goo’s faithful assistant in the host club business. It was funny how Mr. Goo always kept calling him by different names, from Yeom Mi Jeong to Kim Woo Bin, lol. I don’t know if he really just couldn’t be bothered or what, haha. Anyways, he was saved on his phone as Sam Shik so I’ll keep referring to him as that. This guy has such a bad-guy face, he was perfectly cast for someone in that business. All the while being a really nice person, he really tried to take care of Mr. Goo, he always followed him. I just wanted to mention him because I liked his character and he was a prime example of ‘don’t judge a book by its cover’.

Finally, the only nice female colleague of Mi Jeong who’d always chat with her in the coffee corner and always felt sorry for what was happening to her, Bo Ram (played by Seo Ji An). I don’t know, I just liked her vibe and she was one of the girls who seemed to see things for what they were, including those other gossiping female colleagues. She remained on Mi Jeong’s side until the end and was always trying to relate to her. I just liked her character and it was nice to see them meeting up again in the final episode.

The opening animation was really soothing, in a way. I liked how it combined the endless commutes of the three siblings with the small in-between moments of peace. I also noticed that, while it was originally an instrumental soundtrack, around episode 13 maybe, vocals were added. I wonder what the reason for that was. I liked it well enough as an instrumental, but it was interesting that at some point they decided to add the vocals in. I like how the opening and the soundtrack had this soothing, comforting feeling, how it was filled with bright colors in contrast to how the world must have looked to the main characters. It was an interesting contrast, I think. Animated opening sequences are always nice because the essence of the series has to be depicted within a limited amount of animated frames. I think they succeeded well in doing that.

Alright, so before I move on to my cast comments I just want to make some final comments about the series itself, the structure and things that jumped out to me. Overall, as I said in my introduction, I really enjoy this genre of K-Drama, the slightly slow-paced type that goes deeper than just funny dialogues and comic relief. I thought it was very well written and I enjoyed watching it, I found it very engaging to get to know these intriguing characters. I think the phrase ‘less is more’ goes very well for this show. There would occasionally be scenes that played out in complete silence, apart from maybe a voice-over. I loved how they kept so much open for interpretation, or how they didn’t point out every single thing that happened in a Captain Obvious-kind of way. Its strength lay in its images, and sometimes emphasizing a gesture or a gaze said more than words. However, I can’t deny that in some cases, I need to have things spelled out to me. I like the silent understanding theme, but only if I understand it, lol. There were a couple of things that remained a bit unclear to me, and while I don’t necessarily see that as a bad thing – the unspoken aspect is also one of this show’s charms – I still would’ve liked to get some more clarification on a few things, like for example Hyeon Ah’s situation. By showing only fragments of some storylines, I feel like I missed some things, and I wish I hadn’t. On the other hand, the choice to leave room for interpretation and the fact that they chose for an open ending really fit the series’ style. In hindsight, I think it would’ve been weird to show a ‘happy ending’ for everyone, because the whole point of the story was for everyone to keep navigating through their lives. It’s nice that they chose to end the show at the moment they finally go in search of their true liberation. After finally being liberated from the things that bound them to the previous chapter of their lives (their mother passing, Mi Jeong’s ex paying back the money he owed her, their father taking away the pressure of getting married), they are now at the start of a new chapter in which they can start to discover a whole new life for themselves, on their own terms, without being bound to their parents/family house/Sampo anymore. And that’s a pretty good way to end it, with the promise of a new hopeful beginning. It really felt like I was following these people as they closed one chapter and started on a new one.
In terms of structure, I thought it was very well written. The dialogues weren’t only meaningful and engaging, but they always had a way of being repeated, like they were reverberating throughout the story. I really loved that Gi Jeong made a final reference to her ‘severed head’ story in the final episode, when Tae Hoon came to bring her a rose, but the head had fallen off. When Gi Jeong was talking about her worries to wait until she turned fifty to get married, there was a repetition in being overheard by a group of people at another table, just like in the situation with Tae Hoon and his daughter in the first episode. I really loved that guest appearance of Jung Young Joo as a fifty-year old lady who told Gi Jeong that turning fifty wouldn’t make her feel any different than turning thirty of eighty, because you always kept having regrets in one way or another. That was really powerful.
Also, there was one episode that just really made me go🤯. It ends with Mi Jeong walking home, a bit disappointed that Mr. Goo was not waiting for her at the station, and she is suddenly passed by an ambulance heading towards her house. The next episode very skillfully mixed Mi Jeong’s life just after Mr. Goo left with flashforwards to Mr. Goo’s new life after returning to his business, and this was done really well. But it’s only until the end of that episode that we, through Mr. Goo, find out that Mother has passed away, and then we’re suddenly taken back to that scene with the ambulance and it just all falls into place so well! That was the moment the ambulance came to pick up her mother. The way this whole episode was structured to finally get back to the end of the previous episode was really well done.

Okay then, to the cast comments! As I said there were some of my favorite actors in this one, and a lot that surprised me in a good way, so I’m exciting to go over them.

I think this is the most timid role I’ve ever seen Kim Ji Won play. So timid yet so unpredictable and even dangerous, in a way. She really keeps surprising me with every new thing I see of her. I am so happy she’s broken free of her typecasting for the typical bitchy character, because she has so many different qualities. I mean, she undeniably has an RBF, but she has so many different expressions, and she can use her cold expressions in many more ways than just ‘bitchy’. I loved how multilayered she made Mi Jeong. I think there’s only so many ways a younger person weighed down by her family’s and society’s expectations can deal with loneliness, with the feeling she has no one around her who truly cares about who she is and what she thinks. It’s the easiest to just go along with the mainstream, but when that keeps making you unhappy, what do you do? I was glad that she was able to find The Liberation Club and at least find some like-minded people. Her chemistry with Mr. Goo was incredibly strong, I was surprised they were able to hold it in, lol. So far I’ve seen Kim Ji Won in a lot of things, To The Beautiful You, The Heirs, Descendants of the Sun, Fight For My Way, Lovestruck in the City and Arthdal Chronicles (still said she’s not going to be in Season 2😭). With every new drama she does, she shows me a new side to her and she’s gradually rising on my list of favorite actresses. I was really impressed with her acting. I’m keeping an eye on any new project she’s going to be in!

If Lee Min Gi wasn’t already one of my favorite actors, he certainly proved himself all over again through this show. My god, this guy is good. No matter how obnoxious Chang Hee was, it was because of my love for the actor that I just enjoyed every single second of his performance. I loved how I finally got to see him as a completely different type of character, and he acted it out so well. I loved how he just didn’t hold back, like there was so much gleefulness in his portrayal of Chang Hee. The thing is, Chang Hee never thought of himself as a bad person, and he really made me believe that through his performance. I really loved his antics, his silliness, his little-boy-in-grown-man’s-body-ness. He was a perfect cast, I’m really happy to have seen him in this. I was kind of disappointed about the last thing I watched of him, so it meant all the more to me to be completely blown away by his acting again. This guy is amazing, and he’s definitely gone up a few more ranks in my favorites list. I’ve seen him before in Shut Up Flower Boy Band, Because This is My First Life, and most recently The Beauty Inside. I am really excited about his next projects!

Honestly I only remember Lee El from her role in Goblin where she was this mystery deity lady, so it was a real pleasant surprise for me to see her as such a real, messy human being, haha. As I mentioned before, it took me some episodes to warm up to her, but after that she became one of my favorite characters. I was just so genuinely happy for her when she finally found someone who liked her to, and despite her lovestruckness she still managed not to make it too cringy. And if she did, she owned it like a real woman would. I loved how she portrayed Gi Jeong’s vulnerability through a tough exterior, how she would just say what she felt even if it was embarrassing. I remember this one scene where Tae Hoon’s older sister hugged her tightly and her face just when from a smile to an I-want-to-cry face over her shoulder, before changing back to a smile. The subtlety of that, where she was just pretending to be fine until someone actually showed her a gesture of affection, it stuck with me because it was so realistic and relatable. It was also powerful how even cutting her hair became a way to liberate herself. Her quirks were really interesting, I really liked how she portrayed Gi Jeong, she was amazing.

Son Seok Goo looks so familiar to me, and now I see that he was in Sense8?? Like, I don’t even know him from a K-Drama, but from an international series? Anyways, I thought he was a really nice casting choice for Mr. Goo. He made for a really intriguing mystery man in the beginning, all stoic and intimidating, but then when his story was revealed and he opened up to Mi Jeong, it was like that all melted away and he becomes such a different person when he smiles! I really loved the chemistry between him and Kim Ji Won, even without physical intimacy there was so much going on between them. The way he looked at her after meeting her again was really sweet, he just couldn’t stop himself from smiling, lol. This is the first main role I’ve seen of him, even though he looks so familiar I feel like I know him from more than just one thing. In all truth, I liked him so much as the mysterious man that he was that I would’ve been okay if they hadn’t even revealed the entire truth about who he was. It was kind of his charm that he was such an enigma, and to be honest the fact that he was involved in shady business was a bit predictable. But anyways, he did a very good job and I’m curious to what he will do in the future!

I had no idea Lee Ki Woo was in this show! Somehow that keeps happening, lol. I was so happy to see him, even though he was again casted as a kind of sullen, melancholic character. The final scene when he came to visit Gi Jeong when he was drunk and acted all goofy was the Lee Ki Woo that I love to see the most, so I hope he can soon get another chance to act like that again! But yeah, at least he wasn’t a bad guy here, I really thought he and Gi Jeong made a cute couple together. He may have been a little hesitant at first, but when he kept smiling in his scenes with her, it warmed my heart. A smile suits him best😌So far, I’ve seen him in Flower Boy Ramyeon Shop (where I developed my first crush on him), Just Between Lovers and Fates and Furies. I’m glad that he’s still active and he’s already doing new projects, I can’t wait to see more stuff from him.

I have seen Cheon Ho Jin before in Doctor Stranger, Moonlight Drawn by Clouds and Chicago Typewriter. I don’t actually remember what characters he played, but at least I’ve seen him before, he looked really familiar. I’m positive that I have never seen him in a role like this before, though. I think he was one of the actors who proved his skills mostly through silent acting, and he did really well. Even without speaking, he was such a distinctive character as the siblings’ father. I couldn’t help but feel sorry for him too, because he definitely meant well, but he just lacked the skills to interact properly with his family, and this was undoubtedly due to how he himself was raised. I think it’s just a generation-gap thing. Also the way he kept asking Chang Hee what his plan was and didn’t settle for just ‘living well’, because what did that mean? I think he just wanted to be sure his kids would end up alright and I’m glad he was able give his children his blessing to live the way they wanted.

I’m shocked that Lee Kyung Sung doesn’t have more than three projects to her name! I was convinced I knew her from something, but this is only her first drama acting job? I can’t believe it. As I said, I was really surprised when the mother suddenly died, I definitely didn’t see that coming. In hindsight I feel like it was used as a plot tool to set the final part of the siblings’ liberation process in motion, but then again I found it a very surprising choice. At least we got to see a fragment of the worries she was carrying before she passed, and I thought she portrayed the hidden affection she had for her children very well. She definitely wasn’t a soft and weak lady either, I thought she had some real fire in her. I lowkey wondered how she and the father ended up together as such polar opposites, haha. Anyways, I liked her performance and I hope she gets more projects!

Jeon Hye Jin looks so familiar to me but I haven’t seen her in anything before (except Oh! My Lady, but that was ages ago). How can this be? As I said, I really wanted to get some more information on Hyeon Ah and what exactly was going on with her. I think she pretended like she was doing better than she actually was, just not to worry her friends, but I kind of missed what exactly the deal was that she had to keep taking care of her sick boyfriend while repeatedly getting involved with other guys in the meantime. I’m guessing the guy she was mentioning in the beginning that she meant to break up with soon, was the guy who trashed her apartment, not the one in the hospital bed. Anyways, I liked how despite her edgy lifestyle she kept showing up for her childhood friends from Sampo, she made for a really interesting supporting character. I was interested to get some more insight in her, and also in the true nature of her relationship with Chang Hee, because I just don’t believe they had romantic feelings for each other.

Apparently, Han Sang Jo also played the physical education teacher in True Beauty, which I don’t even remember🙉. This is the first I saw of him, and I really liked Doo Hwan. I felt a bit bad that he was being teased so much because of his appearance, since I’m sure he had a lot of redeeming qualities! He was a very loyal friend, for one! I liked how he was always kind of dragged into things, usually by Chang Hee but sometimes also by Gi Jeong, but he always saw them through. He was all the more interesting because he took himself very seriously, and that always makes characters more effortlessly funny.
This is Jo Min Gook’s first drama project, and it was nice to have him, Han Sang Jo and Lee Min Gi together as this little group of friends. I could totally envision them as little boys hiding in self-discovered places, pulling mischief. It was nice to see some new faces in this show.

I am so grateful to Jung Soo Young in this drama for proving something eg. Hwang Bo Ra keeps failing to prove. I’ve seen Jung Soo Young in a couple of series before, like Who Are You: School 2015, Jugglers and most recently in Fates and Furies. Apart from that she’s appeared in many a comical guest role, for example in Me Too, Flower!, Fight For My Way and Go Go Waikiki. I know I keep repeating myself but I find this a very important point: a character is most funny if they’re not acting to be funny. They’re most funny if they take each other completely seriously. I wouldn’t say Gyeong Seon was meant to be a funny character, but Jung Soo Young always brings something funny to her characters, even if it’s just in the expressions. And I thought that in this series, she did a really good job to be funny without meaning to be. She took herself extremely seriously and she didn’t do more than necessary with her expressions to make it over the top. I really liked that about her, because it still made her serious enough to see her as more than just an annoying sister trying to protest against her brother’s new girlfriend. Despite her rivalry against Gi Jeong, I did like her character because she still wasn’t a bad person and she cared very much about her family. I always like it when actors can bring this kind of duality to their performances. Thank you, Jung Soo Young!

I hadn’t seen Kim Ro Sa in anything before either, even though she too looks familiar to me. She was the friendlier older sister who probably had already seen enough drama in her life to make a big deal about her younger brother finding new love after already raising a teenage daughter. It was nice that she didn’t make it into something bigger like Gyeong Seon, and she was consistently nice to Gi Jeong. She also had a nice vibe around her and she cared a lot about Yoo Rim, she was perfect fun auntie material. I liked her character. Also, I see she’s in some of my watchlist shows, so I’m definitely going to see more from her!

I think I must be recognizing Kang Joo Ha from stuff she did as a child, like Legend of the Blue Sea, Hwarang and Individualist Ms. Ji Young. Now she’s a teenager and I hope she gets a lot more opportunities in the future. I found the dynamic between Tae Hoon and Yoo Rim really interesting, you never really saw them interact much together and I had the feeling that Yoo Rim may have completely shut herself off from him after her mother abandoned them. But when Gi Jeong started talking about what it was like losing her mother and Yoo Rim started crying… I don’t know, there was definitely some depth in her character. I wish we could’ve gotten to know Yoo Rim a bit better, not just as the scary teenager who barely said a word. She did well, no doubt about that, her acting was really good, but I would’ve just liked to get some more insight in what was going on inside her head.

It’s been a very long time since I saw Park Soo Young in something! I know him from King of High School, Pinocchio, Uncontrollably Fond, Individualist Ms. Ji Young, My Mister, Come and Hug Me and My First First Love. It was nice to see him portray such a profound character as Park Sang Min. He may not seem like much, but going by the things he said I just felt like he had a bigger presence than you might think. He was basically the person who kept The Liberation Club going, and who even came up with the idea to hand in their notes to have them made into a book. He was a nice addition to the cast, and always a familiar face in a drama series. It was nice to see an old familiar face like this again.

I recognized Lee Ji Hye immediately from a small role she had in Crash Course in Romance, which I just finished, but I see she was also in The Light in Your Eyes. I liked the transformation from the club consultant. She was initially one of the people who just wouldn’t understand people’s reasons for not wanting to join a club, but she kept an open mind and was drawn into the concept of The Liberation Club. I liked how she immediately related to it, and immediately reflected on herself, in how she wanted to stop her face from immediately turning into a smile at any given occasion. It was a really nice twist they gave to her, and she was a nice and original addition to the club. I liked her, she was a very typical lady, lol.

I’m not even surprised that Kim Min Song was part of the bad guys’ crew in The King: Eternal Monarch and Midnight Runners, if you see his picture he would fit right in, haha. That’s why I liked that they gave him a more friendly twist in this show. He’s also in a couple of more series on my watchlist, so I’m curious what else he can bring to the table! Although I didn’t really care for anyone within Mr. Goo’s shady business circle, I did like Sam Shik, he had his heart in the right place.

Seo Ji An somehow reminded me of Seung Hee from the girl group Oh My Girl, I don’t know why, maybe something in her face? Anyways, I wanted to mention her because she’s an upcoming actress (this was the first drama project out of her current three) and I liked her character a lot in this show. Despite the fact that Mi Jeong liked almost no one around her, it was clear that Bo Ram proved her loyalty to her as they kept in touch even after they’d separated ways. I just found it so great that there was at least one person fully on Mi Jeong’s side in that toxic company, so shoutout to Bo Ram!

I’ve reached the end of my cast comments, which only leaves me to say some concluding words before I close off this review. It wasn’t a very big review to write since the story doesn’t take long to explain, it was mostly the psyche of the characters that intrigued me to go into some more detail. I really liked how all the characters were written, so humane and layered. There wasn’t a single one-dimensional character and I really appreciated that. The dynamics between the characters were also really interesting and original, the fact that being a family doesn’t actually mean anything if you’re all just minding your own business. It wouldn’t have made a big difference if they had been complete strangers to each other, so that was very interesting.
I also thought they did a great job steering away from standard tropes and cringeworthy situations. Everything was really real, there was no sugarcoating, it just painted a very real picture of people feeling lost in a society that pushes them to live ‘The Korean Dream’, whatever that may be. I think this show can definitely be seen as an anthem for the lonely and the introverted. As a major introvert myself, I found it really nice and inspiring to see representation of this in several of the main characters.
The relationship between Mi Jeong and Mr. Goo was unique in its kind, and it definitely wasn’t perfect but what I liked about it the most was that they weren’t trying to change each other. Mi Jeong never once told Mr. Goo to stop drinking, for example, she just smiled when he bought another bottle. The important thing is that he decided to change for her, without her even asking it. There was something really vulnerable about them when they were together, and they were constantly trying to scare each other away, testing each other’s limits to see how long they would stick around. It made their chemistry kind of exciting and I liked it.
Apart from that of course it also deals with heavier themes such as loneliness, pressure and loss. I kind of expected it to fall into a similar category as Our Blues before I started watching it, but it gave a completely different vibe despite being just as good a drama. I think the tone of My Liberation Notes may be a little bit somber, but it definitely becomes lighter in the end and I thought the ending was really meaningful and wholesome. I’m glad I watched it.

Next up is another recent hyped Netflix K-Drama that I’ve been looking forward to and I’ve seen a lot of emotional reviews about it so I’m very curious! I hope I’ll be back soon with a review, but I’m not in a hurry. Until next time!

Bye-bee! ^^

Crash Course in Romance

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Crash Course in Romance
( 일타 스캔들 / Ilta Sukaendeul / One Hit Scandal)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hello everybody! As I mentioned in my last review, I’ve decided to check out a couple of more recent Netflix K-Dramas that I’ve been putting off before I move on with my list of older watchlist items. Sometimes I just can’t help but get interested in new releases and then they crawl their way up to the top of my watchlist – it’s just how it goes sometimes! So yes, that’s why I decided to go off track for a bit, starting with this one! I remember seeing one scene from it, thinking it looked really cute, and I also heard about it from a friend, so I decided to check it out for myself. I wasn’t actually sure what it was about from the start, so that was exciting, but it left me with a lot of mixed feelings towards the end. Although I thought the show was good in itself in terms of acting and story/concept, I just kept getting frustrated while watching it and the ending really left me hanging onto so many unresolved feelings. My rating went down a bit as I was watching it, but anyway, I still really want to share my thoughts, so let’s go!

Crash Course in Romance is a 16-episode Netflix K-Drama with episodes of about 1 hour and 15 minutes each. It focusses on the vicious education system in South Korea and how far parents are willing to go to get their children into the best academies and cram schools to prepare them for CSATs, even when that leads to them losing sight of their children’s (mental) health in the process. Choi Chi Yeol (played by Jung Kyung Ho) is a high-level math teacher who basically has a celebrity status. He’s the teacher that every parent wants their child to be tutored by. His popularity comes not only from his social status and good looks, but also from his way of teaching and how he manages to energize and motivate his students. His nickname is The Trillion Won Man, for his societal value due to his success rate of getting students into top universities. Despite being a highly acclaimed teacher at The Pride Academy, the most sought-after private tutoring school in Seoul, Chi Yeol personally has trouble keeping up a healthy lifestyle. He suffers from insomnia which makes him constantly exhausted and irritable, and on top of that he can’t even eat properly – everything he consumes immediately comes back out. He only has his assistant Ji Dong Hee (played by Shin Jae Ha) to take care of him, who always tries to get him to eat and sleep properly, drives him everywhere and seems to be the only one to truly care about Chi Yeol’s wellbeing. Dong Hee is part of Chi Yeol’s management team at The Pride, that books events for him to participate in, such as interviews and Q&A sessions, but also math camps and exclusive tutoring programs. One day, Dong Hee gets him a bag of food from a popular side dish store and miraculously, Chi Yeol is able to finish the entire meal without throwing up. He is immediately intrigued by this food, not just because he’s able to eat all of it, but also because it gives him a nostalgic feeling; when he was a student himself, he used to get free meals from an elderly lady that ran a restaurant in his neighborhood, and this food takes him back to those meals.
As it happens, the food comes from a side dish store called Nation’s Best Banchan (Side Dishes), which is run by Nam Haeng Seon (played by Jeon Do Yeon). Haeng Seon used to be a very promising handball player, but her whole life changed after her older sister dropped her 5-year old daughter off at Haeng Seon’s place and disappeared. Shortly after this, Haeng Seon’s mother (another beautiful guest appearance of Kim Mi Kyung) passed away, leaving Haeng Seon to give up her handball ambitions to take care of her niece together with her ASD younger brother Nam Jae Woo (played by Oh Ui Shik). Now, a little over ten years later, Nam Hae Yi (played by Noh Yoon Seo) is like Haeng Seon’s actual daughter – in fact, to keep things simple they even refer to each other as ‘mom’ and ‘daughter’ in public, keeping the fact that they are actually aunt and niece a secret, even at Hae Yi’s school. Together with Jae Woo and Kim Young Joo (played by Lee Bong Ryeon), Haeng Seon’s bestie from her handball days who now works in the store with her, they are a happy little family.
Chi Yeol and Haeng Seon first meet under less than friendly circumstances – Chi Yeol confiscates Jae Woo’s phone after the latter takes a picture of his jacket with a tiger on it (Jae Woo is fascinated by lions and tigers), and he ends up breaking the phone altogether. When it turns out Jae Woo never took Chi Yeol’s picture, Chi Yeol tries to make it up to Haeng Seon without revealing who he is, and this is how the two keep running into each other. Haeng Seon is initially very wary of him, but after finding out that he’s the Star Teacher that Hae Yi has been talking about, her attitude towards him becomes very benevolent and grateful and they strike a deal: Chi Yeol will tutor Hae Yi in private and Haeng Seon will keep providing him with meals.
That is basically the preface of the main couple’s relationship: Chi Yeol has trouble eating, he discovers that for some reason he’s only able to digest Haeng Seon’s food, and eventually he realizes that she’s the daughter of the woman who used to feed him when he was a struggling student. As they get closer he starts getting more involved with her family and starts to see Haeng Seon as the bright, energetic and strong, caring woman that she is. Their romance develops in a very natural way, and it’s really sweet to see how Haeng Seon kind of ‘revives’ Chi Yeol to become healthier and happier than ever.

I’d known about the incredible stress Korean society puts on their students to achieve the highest possible scores, and about these vicious types of parents who’d push their kids beyond their limits, but this series really makes a point of showing just how toxic this can be, and to how much misery it can lead. There are more than one instances depicted of mothers who push down on their firstborns until they crack (even to the point of committing suicide), and then just proceed to do the exact same thing to their secondborns, as if they don’t even realize what went wrong with their eldests. They really went, ‘oh, it didn’t work out with the first one, then I’m going to try it on the second one’. It was very hard to watch at times. This, in combination with the fact that besides the main leads and their little family NO ONE seemed to be able to mind their own business, the fact that people just spread malicious and baseless rumors purely out of personal gain, was appalling and kept me frustrated until the very end. It just didn’t leave me with a satisfied feeling because after doing all those nasty things, not a single person came out with a sincere apology. All the people who’d behaved badly were kind of ‘redeemed’ in the end and I was not feeling it at all. I wanted at least one of them to show some maturity and make a genuine apology to Haeng Seon, but even that didn’t happen. And then I haven’t even mentioned the metal ball killer case yet.

I thought long and hard about how to structure this review as there is SO much going on in this series. Besides the love story between Chi Yeol and Haeng Seon, there’s the story about Hae Yi and her school friends, about Soo Ah and her mom, about Sun Jae’s mom and his older brother, the metal ball killer case… I really want to go over all these storylines and their respective key characters in a coherent way, because I have a lot to say about everyone. I’ve decided that I will start by going into more depth about Chi Yeol and Haeng Seon and their respective situations first, and then make my way through the other characters, going by household.

To begin with Chi Yeol, I have to start out by saying that this is probably the first time ever that the male lead has been my favorite character in a show. Despite his irritable behavior in the beginning, I really felt for him because he is, understandably, under a whole lot of stress himself. Not only does he have an incredible reputation to uphold which involves both good and bad responses – like any celebrity he also has some serious haters and is under a lot of pressure to perform – he is also very aware of the stress-induced industry he plays a part in. In the final episode, he even admits that he feels guilty about playing a small part as a radar in the machinery that occasionally drives students over the edge, and to have to deal with these toxic parents all the time. I really liked the fact that he was mature enough to acknowledge that, and he also seemed to be one of the few people at The Pride who actually saw things for what they were. They didn’t make it a secret that the director of The Pride was constantly being bribed by The Moms, and as soon as Chi Yeol got a whiff of something being off, he would immediately call the director out for it. He’d be like ‘yo, there’s something shady going on here and I don’t want to be a part of it’. Especially when Hae Yi suddenly gets kicked out of the All Care program for some weird made-up reason, he really went, ‘okay well, then count me out too, because this is some unfair shit’. I really loved him for being so real and it was really good to see him live up again after meeting Haeng Seon, she had such a great influence on him.
One major part of his stress, and also why he is so aware of what his position within this industry entails, comes from the fact that he’s seen with his own eyes what it can do to people. There used to be a girl student, Jung Soo Hyeon, whom he tutored when he was still a teaching assistant, and she ultimately killed herself because her mother drove her into cheating her way to the top. Apparently, her mother had acquired the actual exam sheets and forced her daughter to ace the exam with those, and the girl couldn’t take that pressure. All in all, this mom was one of the worst examples, as the pressure she put on her kids was plain mental abuse. And even after losing her daughter, she just went on to treat her younger son the exact same way. The younger son, Jung Seong Hyeon, was ultimately charged for murdering his own mother because he also cracked under the pressure, especially after losing his older sister. He was eventually acquitted of all charges, but this story keeps popping up in the background as we get to know Chi Yeol better and we also learn that one of the presently active police detectives who was involved in the case at that time, always kept suspicions about the kid’s innocence. In any case, Chi Yeol’s insomnia is strengthened by nightmares about the last times he spoke with Soo Hyeon and he is plagued by how he might have been able to help her. I guess that’s also what drives him to become more outspoken towards similar issues after he becomes healthier. In his irritable state he can’t really be bothered, but after regaining his spirit because of Haeng Seon, he starts acting more and more benevolent towards less privileged kids and even offers to tutor Hae Yi in private after she’s kicked out of the All Care program. It was really nice to see someone learn from their experiences and using it as a way to improve themselves in future situations. Chi Yeol was such a good person and I really liked him, especially after he and Haeng Seon confirmed their relationship. The way he looked at her was just so adorable, he became such a doting boyfriend while never neglecting his duties as a teacher – if anything, you could say he just became more attentive to shady things that happened around him.

I honestly found the way they incorporated that case of Soo Hyeon’s younger brother into the story very nice. Like, they would start out by casually mentioning it a couple of times, but still often enough that I kept thinking, ‘this must be coming back at some point, otherwise they wouldn’t keep bringing it up’. And then when the weird stuff started happening and the police started investigating that metal ball killer case, more and more links were made and the way they eventually reached what was truly going on was pretty well drawn-out in my opinion. I was really interested to find out what was happening, and I found it a pretty original storyline.
So what’s happening is that there is a series of attacks in which people get shot at with small metal balls, resulting in at least two deaths. It’s first heavily suggested that the older brother of Hae Yi’s best friend is involved, since he tends to go out at night and dresses anonymously, and it does seem like he is somewhat involved when his mom finds some metal balls in his desk drawer. However, exactly because it was so heavily suggested, I never thought he was the culprit. For one, the attacks all happened to people who had bothered Chi Yeol in some way, and the older brother didn’t even have a personal link to Chi Yeol.
So then I started thinking about that younger brother, that story that kept popping up, and I started to expect him to come back into the story at some point. In a flashback we see that Chi Yeol was kind to him at Soo Hyeon’s funeral, and Soo Hyeon had been fond of Chi Yeol, so I thought it might have to do with the younger brother sticking up for Chi Yeol in memory of his sister.
I only started suspecting Dong Hee after that one scene in which that police detective lingered on him just a second too long, as if he remembered him from somewhere. That was the very first thing that made me go, ‘wait, is there something more to Dong Hee?’ So then I was left thinking, ‘ok so it’s either going to be Dong Hee who turns out to be more than just a loyal assistant, or that younger brother is coming back’. At that point, it still didn’t occur to me that they might be the same person.

The thing that probably bothers me the most in the entire series, besides The Moms that I still need to get to, is the ending. So many people do such nasty things, things that actually harm other people’s lives for no reason, and NONE of the victims actually end up getting any justice. In the metal ball killer case as well as The Moms’ cases, after all the damage they create, not a single one of them brings out a genuine apology or even an acknowledgement of the fact they did something wrong. It was like, every single person that needed to apologize for something was too shameless or self-absorbed to even feel guilty. As I am already on the topic of Dong Hee, I will start with him, and I will get to The Moms later.
So yeah, it turns out that Chi Yeol’s assistant Dong Hee is actually Jung Seong Hyeon, Soo Hyeon’s younger brother who was charged with the murder of his own mother (which is revealed to be true). Soo Hyeon had told him about Chi Yeol and how he was the only adult she could rely on, and Seong Hyeon then proceeded to honor his sister’s memory by becoming Chi Yeol’s right hand. That in itself would be an honorable thing, if it weren’t for the fact that Dong Hee has become completely delusional in his ‘quest’ to ‘protect’ Chi Yeol. He thinks he now has the right to ‘eliminate’ every ‘obstacle’ that gets in Chi Yeol’s way. He targets people that either bother Chi Yeol or that distract him from his teaching duties – the latter being his reason for eventually going after Haeng Seon and, consequently, Hae Yi.
On the one hand, I found it pretty original that the typically smiling, loyal assistant turned out to be the bad guy for once, and to me it wasn’t even that far-fetched to make Dong Hee secretly obsessed with Chi Yeol, if you thought about his mental state after being mentally abused by his mother and broken by the loss of his sister. But even within his messed-up logic, his arguments still didn’t make sense to me. He claimed that he only wanted the best for Chi Yeol, but that meant that he actually preferred him when he was swamped with work and tried to cope with his insomnia and inability to eat a proper meal. Like, if he really cared about Chi Yeol, why couldn’t he be supportive when he became properly healthy and happy? It just started feeling like Dong Hee became obsessed to the point where he wanted Chi Yeol all to himself. After all, anyone who saw the relationship between Chi Yeol and Haeng Seon would agree that Haeng Seon wasn’t bothering him, she was helping him become the best version of himself. But no, to Dong Hee, Haeng Seon was only getting in the way, she was taking away Chi Yeol’s time that he’d otherwise spend with Dong Hee, and therefore she was a distraction and a nuisance to him. Also, she was making Chi Yeol’s memories of Soo Hyeon fade away, and he could not let that happen. As if he had anything to say about Chi Yeol’s personal life and the people he chose to spend his private time with, now he wouldn’t even let Chi Yeol heal from his traumas. Dong Hee never felt even an inch of guilt about the people he’d harmed and killed. I couldn’t believe he’d go so far as to try and kill Hae Yi after she’d already gotten into a coma, it went really far.
And then, after that entire build-up, until the point where he is finally confronted by Chi Yeol, he just cries at him that he did everything for his sake, as if that made it justifiable. After making himself the victim in all of it he gets all dramatic, saying ‘I can’t live like this anymore’ and jumps off the hospital roof. And that was that. He is dead on the spot, he can’t even be charged with any of the crimes and murders he’s committed, and none of the victims will have justice. He will be mentioned on the news as ‘a suspect’ in the metal ball killer case, rather than ‘the culprit’. I really hated that they just cut off the storyline like that. I wanted him to be charged with everything he committed and get thrown into jail and some serious therapy sessions. Also, the fact that they did this in the first half of the second-to-last episode and then filled the remaining 1,5 episode with some casual family/redeeming arc really pissed me off. I didn’t care for it at all. I’d much more preferred it if they’d actually made a case about putting Dong Hee behind bars, and about making everyone who did nasty things apologize for what they did, it was the least they could’ve done to give the victims a bit of justice.

I want to give a short summary of the crimes that Dong Hee committed and why/how.
First of all, the stray cats. The inhumanity. Dong Hee actually practiced shooting his metal balls at a couple of stray cats to see if he could shoot hard enough to kill a living creature (at least, that’s what I imagine).
Before it gets picked up by the police, there is this girl who is seemingly obsessed with Chi Yeol who even sneaks into his house and hugs him without his consent one time. Not long after that, we see her walking down an alley in the dark where she gets attacked by someone shooting a metal ball at her. We see her falling down, seemingly unconscious, the next day she doesn’t show up at the academy, and we never see her again. I actually found it kind of weird that she was never mentioned again or even found. Like, did no one notice she was suddenly gone? They only kept mentioning the two cases that left a body behind, but I always kept wondering what happened to stalker girl. Even if she was delusional, she needed help more than she deserved to die.
The second time is when a metal ball is shot through Haeng Seon’s shop window, while Chi Yeol is in there with them. This happens after he comes to make amends for judging Jae Woo when he took those pictures, and in hindsight I feel like the metal ball may have either been meant for Haeng Seon or Jae Woo, as they both aggravated Chi Yeol at the time. This time no one gets hurt, but it’s still an attack so they report it to the police. Later, the police is able to link this report to the next couple of attacks.
As I mentioned before, at some point Hae Yi is kicked out of the All Care program. She was initially elected as one of seven students who would get exclusive tutoring by Chi Yeol in order to prepare for medical school exams. After getting in because of her own efforts in math, just before the program starts she is suddenly taken out of it for some weird reason that wasn’t specified before. In the meantime, we get to see exactly what happens. There’s a lady who keeps trying to persuade The Moms to get her delinquent son Young Min into the All Care program. Having a personal grudge against Hae Yi/Haeng Seon at that point, The Moms actually manage to bribe the director of The Pride into swapping her out with that boy. After one single lesson, Young Min is already so disrespectful towards Chi Yeol in class that Chi Yeol sends him away, and that same night the boy gets into a mysterious accident and ends up ‘falling off’ a balcony, leading to this death. Again, a metal ball is found on the scene. — Just in-between, they showed the scene of Young Min being followed by someone at the very beginning of the series. At the time, I just thought that was to show that weird things were already happening to Chi Yeol’s students before we were even introduced to Chi Yeol himself, but then the actual event happened a couple of episodes later. I was just wondering what the random foreshadowing was about. —
The final case is of a fellow The Pride teacher called Jin Yi Sang (played by Jin Il Joo), who by then had already been busted by Chi Yeol himself for being his main online hater, Chiyeolsucks. Yi Sang was about to reveal that Chi Yeol was private-tutoring Hae Yi and he was going to link that to his past of tutoring Soo Hyeon, creating suggestions of Chi Yeol getting involved with his female students more than once, but Chi Yeol had managed to keep him silent after busting him. Not long after that, Yi Sang is attacked in his own building and shot by a metal ball. He then goes missing for a while until his body is found in a river a while later. A metal ball was found in his breast pocket, and I’m guessing he may have put it there himself as a dying message.
As I said, just when the police suspect Dong Hee of being Seong Hyeon and therefore the metal ball killer, he jumps off a roof before they can officially hear him out and confirm their suspicions. Dong Hee will always remain a ‘suspect’ rather than a ‘culprit’. His inability to even relate to the severity of his actions, how needless they were, was alarming, and I keep repeating that every victim deserved justice. The stalker girl and Young Min were only teenagers who should’ve had all the time in the world to mature and reflect on their behaviors, and Yi Sang had already stopped posting malicious stuff about Chi Yeol and being busted by him was all the punishment he needed in my opinion.

Haeng Seon and her family become a main victim of a lot of stuff. Haeng Seon is one of the few ‘moms’ who is not familiar at all with the world of The Moms, the world in which their kids’ futures all depend on their grades. As someone who never got an education herself because she had to take care of Hae Yi, she’s been doing just fine making a living by selling her amazing side dishes, and she’s proved that she can do just as well in society as someone with an academic record. Anyways, she cares about Hae Yi’s wishes and puts in a lot of effort to get her niece into The Pride, purely out of support because it’s what Hae Yi wants. When The Moms start noticing that Haeng Seon is also suddenly trying to get her daughter into tutoring lessons, they don’t initially expect much result for her, but when Hae Yi suddenly starts acing her math tests and even exceeds the initial top students, they start getting suspicious that there might be something else going on. Hae Yi becomes acknowledged by Chi Yeol himself as he notices her great progress, and she’s even admitted into the exclusive All Care program. While Hae Yi has managed to get this far all because of her own efforts – in combination with Chi Yeol’s tutoring of course – it doesn’t sit well with many other students and their parents. After all, she wasn’t part of the ‘top’ before – how is she suddenly acing all those tests? There must be something going on there, right? This can’t just be the results of her own efforts, right?
As a result of these suspicions, Hae Yi becomes a target of The Moms, who will do anything to keep their own kids at the top. Hae Yi becomes a competitor and instead of trying to beat her fair and square, they resort to bribing and corruption to keep Hae Yi away from the top, starting with the All Care program. Their kids feel intimidated by Hae Yi, so she has to disappear, that’s basically what it comes down to. While Haeng Seon keeps trying to defend Hae Yi and talk to people to find out what is going on, no one comes clean, no one provides her with an honest explanation. The fact that they pulled all this fraudulous stuff behind their backs and then didn’t even come up with a proper explanation was really frustrating. Chi Yeol, who is also suspicious of the reason why Hae Yi was kicked out of the All Care program and who is all for giving her the chance she deserves, comes up with the idea to secretly tutor her in private at Haeng Seon’s house, as long as Haeng Seon will keep delivering him lunchboxes. At some point, The Moms get their hands on CCTV footage of Haeng Seon visiting Chi Yeol’s house to deliver the food. What follows is an entirely different ‘scandal’ in which Haeng Seon is accused of providing Chi Yeol with ‘sexual favors’ in return for him privately tutoring her daughter. It really gets out of hand and the rumors starts escalating in severity. I remember this part really, REALLY frustrated the heck out of me. These Moms created a LOT of worthless drama for Haeng Seon’s family.
The thing I appreciated most about Haeng Seon was that, like Chi Yeol, she didn’t just let things slide. She stood up against unfairness, and after someone had posted something, she would just go straight up to that person to demand an explanation. Something that personally always triggers me is the frustration of being the only rational person trying to talk to a bunch of ignorant people. Even after everything went down and The Moms started protesting at the school about something, Haeng Seon just came up to them all by herself and literally went, ‘I don’t understand any of you, but I don’t think this is right’. All the while keeping her humility, she kept speaking out when something didn’t feel right, and that was really admirable of her. Because yeah, stuff kept happening to her for no reason, and she had all the right in the world to receive a proper explanation and an apology, multiple ones even. She was just a really kind and down-to-earth character who saw injustice for what it was. Her hunch about Dong Hee was also right from the start, even if it initially seemed like plain pettiness. I loved how mature she was, she truly proved that you didn’t need an academic degree to be a properly functioning human being in society. She was better than all of them, and I stand by that.

I really loved Chi Yeol and Haeng Seon together. It’s been a while since I truly savored the slowburn of a relationship like this. The way they were attracted to one another just came across as so natural, they really fell for each other’s ‘person’, and the age gap didn’t even come into play as a reason to hold back. I loved how, even though it was an enemies-to-lovers trope, it wasn’t as standard or stereotypical as in other dramas. They still felt like a very original pair to me, and I loved how adorable they were in their scenes together. Their kissing scenes were really good and they just portrayed their love for each other so well. I loved their dynamic and chemistry.

I’m not going to lie, the first time Jae Woo popped up I really thought, ‘oh god, this is going to be a copy-paste from the older brother from It’s Okay to Not Be Okay‘. It’s like, that portrayal of a character on the autism spectrum has become so iconic that this is how autistic characters will be portrayed from now on. I felt like Jae Woo’s behavior in the beginning was very similar to Moon Sang Tae’s, and that made me feel a bit mixed about the character’s originality. Don’t get me wrong, I think it’s a really good thing that ASD characters are getting represented more and more these days, also through for example Move to Heaven and Extraordinary Attorney Woo, and even in those dramas the characters all display a different kind of autism. I’m just saying that I would feel a bit bad if it suddenly became a kind of caricature, with a comical effect, even. In the end, I do feel like Jae Woo was different, so I may have judged him too quickly in the beginning. For instance, I was surprised by the way Haeng Seon interacted with him. At first I found it kind of weird that she would call him out, hit him and occasionally not take him seriously or even listen to him, but in the end I realized that just meant she was treating him like she would anyone else, rather than as a handicapped person. She wasn’t the type of ‘glass child’ that Moon Gang Tae was, for example. Jae Woo was able to function properly, he went out by himself, he was helping out at the shop and everything. He also didn’t seem to have too much trouble being touched, and I was surprised by the development of him and Young Joo falling for each other.
The scene that angried me the most was the one with the waffle incident. Jae Woo often took walks as he had a certain routine, and he’d gotten attached to this waffle place, and specifically the waffles that this one female employee made. One morning, he finds out she changed her shifts to the evening, so he visits her again in the evening. From her reaction when he walks in it’s immediately clear that she must have changed her shifts because of him, because Jae Woo made her uncomfortable. After Jae Woo makes a clumsy attempt to help her when she accidentally gets chocolate sauce on her, the woman’s colleague (and boyfriend) steps in and threatens Jae Woo to leave his girlfriend alone, causing Jae Woo to panic and strike out so the guy falls down. Jae Woo is then even locked up for a night, as the guy calls assault. It was very hard to watch Haeng Seon apologize for her brother’s behavior to the couple. Seriously, it was just like that scene where Moon Sang Tae was pushed to the ground by those parents just because he was admiring their kid’s dinosaur costume. You could see in one glance that Jae Woo must be on the autism spectrum or something similar, so why would you treat him that harshly from the start when you know he can’t help it? Even when the female employee learned it really was just because of her waffles, she couldn’t even bring herself to be thankful for his patronage. It wasn’t that he was trying to get closer to her personally, he didn’t have a crush on her or anything, he just really loved her waffles. Honestly, even when the woman told Haeng Seon she would drop the lawsuit her boyfriend was threatening with, it just felt like she was doing it out of pity, as she was glancing down at Haeng Seon’s feet and saw she was only wearing slippers. It didn’t feel like she actually felt remorse over judging an ASD person, so it didn’t sit well with me. Anyways, through that speech of Haeng Seon’s it becomes clear just how close she and Jae Woo are, how well she knows him, how closely she has always been watching him as they grew up together, and how she raised him after their mother died. It was just so sad that she had to bow down to a couple of rude ignorant people who’d judge an autistic person for behaving ‘abnormally’, because she and Jae Woo really had nothing to apologize for. But that again was Haeng Seon’s nature, as well. She knew her place, she knew she sometimes had to apologize just to keep the peace, and not because she was actually sorry for what happened.

I really liked Young Joo as well, she felt like part of the family. The only thing keeping her from that was the fact that she didn’t live in the same house as them. She was always the person Haeng Seon could fall back on, her #1 dial in case of emergencies (even after she got together with Chi Yeol). Young Joo would always drop anything to help Haeng Seon and her family out, ever since they’d been on the handball team together as teenagers. Their friendship was truly heartwarming, and they could never stay mad at each other for long. I kind of liked how they made Young Joo and Jae Woo a couple, like, it wasn’t even that unexpected but it still managed to surprise me. I really loved that scene where Jae Woo confessed and Young Joo kept stopping him from eating that squid and just pressed her face against his shoulder, that was really sweet.

Now that we’ve covered most of what was good about the show, let’s move on to the other families and my further frustrations, lol. Let’s start with Hae Yi’s best friend Lee Sun Jae (played by Lee Chae Min). His mother Jang Seo Jin (played by Jang Young Nam) is a top lawyer, and she is very strict on Sun Jae to get the highest grades possible. Sun Jae’s older brother Lee Hee Jae (played by Kim Tae Jung) was her first target – she pushed him until he cracked and ended up becoming a complete shut-in. He only rarely leaves the house in the middle of the night to do who-knows-what, and he barely even talks anymore. After losing Hee Jae, Mom then focussed her energy on Sun Jae. Instead of showing any kind of motherly warmth or genuine care for his wellbeing, the only thing she tells him is to study, and she even gets mad at him for sharing his notes with his friends and classmates (aka Hae Yi), because she sees everyone as competition. When at some point Sun Jae’s grades start slipping more and more, she resorts to illegal manners to get his grades up, and she actually gives him ‘practice questions’ that turn out to be actual exam questions. She literally forces her own child to cheat on his exams, a parallel to Soo Hyeon’s situation.
Sun Jae is a really nice boy and Hae Yi’s best friend for good reason. Despite the fact that he’s had a crush on her for a while, he never forces himself on her and he values her friendship more than anything. He’s always supported Hae Yi in her studies as well, even when she starts doing better than him, it doesn’t even bother him. He keeps sharing notes and practice sheets with her – that is, until it comes to the questions his mom provides him with. Of course, he doesn’t know that they are the actual exam questions so he also shares them with Hae Yi, ending up getting her into the situation of cheating with him, and this puts a temporary strain on their friendship (but only because he refuses to talk to her afterwards). His mom even goes so far as to contact Hae Yi personally to tell her to stop hanging out with her son because she distracts him. Sun Jae is driven to the edge of suicide at a certain point, he really loses it because of his mom’s tight grip on him and his social interactions. Luckily, he is stopped by his classmate. When he finally manages to get himself together, he confesses to Hae Yi and while she initially puts him on hold until she finishes her CSATs, we see in the final episode that she gives him a chance.
Sun Jae’s mom was vicious in the way that she herself was also not 100% mentally stable. She was constantly working overtime and developed a habit of getting drunk by herself at night. She’s also fought with her husband a lot, and even banned him from the house at some point, leaving her alone with her two estranged sons. As she discovers Hee Jae’s suspicious behavior and finds the metal balls in his room, she also starts linking him to the recent attacks. When Hee Jae gets arrested by the police (they’ve spotted his face on some of the CCTV footage), she brazenly steps in to defend her own son. Is this actually allowed? I thought that, just like with surgeons, there would be some sort of rule when it came to personal cases for lawyers? Anyways, she vows to ‘defend’ her son, but in truth she just wants him to stay silent because she also fears he is guilty in some way. I really loved how Hee Jae was so fed up with her at that point that he just went, ‘I’m a witness’ in court, and then when his mom asked him why he hadn’t told her that before, he was like, ‘You never even asked me about my connection to the case, you suspected me from the get-go just as much as the police’. Eat that, woman.
To add just a little more on Hee Jae, he’s introduced from the start as a very angsty character. We learn through Sun Jae that he has been incredibly pressured about his studies by their mom until he couldn’t take it anymore, and now he has become almost like a ghost in their house. It’s suggested that he has something to do with the metal ball attacks and this is strengthened by the fact that his mom finds the balls in his room. It turns out that he has been acting increasingly anxious not because he harmed people himself, but because he witnessed at least one of the attacks, the one on Yi Sang. He started following the metal ball killer after discovering what he did to the stray cats, as Hee Jae had been feeding them before. I was glad that, after giving his witness statement and finally talking back to his mom, he was able to calm down a little. And even though I still didn’t forgive Seo Jin for how she’d treated him, it was nice to see that they started taking trips together and it was sweet how he came to visit her when he was on leave from the military in the final episode.
Sun Jae ends up coming clean about the fact that his mom gave him the exam papers, even if that meant he would be disqualified from the midterms. He ends up dropping out of high school to later take the GED at his own pace.
His father comes back to defend his wife in her trial (they work at the same law firm), and this leads to them making amends and at the end the family of four is back eating dinner together again. Despite that ‘happy ending’, it was so obvious that the mom was trying to butter up her oldest son, like suddenly she was all about spending quality time with him, and I was like, yeah right, NOW you feel like you have to show that you care as his mother.
The thing that was a bit unpredictable about Jang Seo Jin was that, even though she was a tiger mom, she still didn’t really belong to The Moms’ group that was all about spreading rumors. I had really hoped that at least she would stay out of it, also when Soo Ah’s mom asked for her cooperation in kicking Hae Yi out of the All Care program. She rejected it at first, but then just happened to see Hae Yi and Sun Jae walking together and that made her go ‘oh right, she’s a distraction to Sun Jae’ and she still went along with the plan. That was probably the moment I lost all remaining shreds of respect for her, and she never reclaimed them for me because she also never apologized for what she did. It just seemed like at some point, what had happened was just ‘a done deal’ and it wasn’t even necessary to apologize for it anymore.

Moving on to my main cause of frustration throughout the entire show: Soo Ah and her mom. Bang Soo Ah (played by Kang Na Eon) is one of Hae Yi’s classmates in high school, and one of the most ambitious students. She puts everything she has into her studying and strives to always be number one. Her mother, Cho Soo Hee (played by Kim Sun Young) basically represents The Moms and has the most influence in bribing The Pride’s director. As soon as Soo Ah gives a squeak, Mommy would do anything in her power to appease her. Their mother-daughter relationship seemed really toxic to me from the start, as it actually looked like Soo Hee was a bit scared of her daughter. She just tried to comfort her whenever she was having moods (which was very often), and she was the kind of mom who would ‘take care of it’ when Soo Ah would whine about something. More specifically, about Hae Yi. Hae Yi’s sudden rise in math skills doesn’t go unnoticed in class and Soo Ah becomes positively intimidated by her. Instead of just doing her own thing and focus on her own stuff, she finds herself constantly looking over her shoulder to see what Hae Yi is doing, to see how Hae Yi did on her test. Soo Ah is the one who starts the suspicions that Hae Yi must be receiving private tutoring from Chi Yeol, or how else would she have all these materials that were exclusive to the All Care program? Based on her daughter’s whining and baseless suspicions, Soo Hee would get her nose into all sorts of things that had nothing to do with her, purely out of self-gain. She would start posting stuff on The Moms’ online platform, spreading baseless rumors and making sure that Soo Ah’s place in the top wasn’t at risk of being taken away by anyone else. The Moms justified their self-proclaimed entitlement to Chi Yeol’s tutoring classes as that they were just concerned of people trying to claim him for themselves, again making Chi Yeol into some sort of unattainable celebrity that belonged to everyone. Everyone The Moms approved of, that is.
Soo Hee may have held some power over The Moms and The Pride’s director, but she was definitely not a good mother. When Soo Ah would start crying like a baby about how annoyed she was by Hae Yi, she should’ve treated it for what it was, the childish whims of a teenager. She should’ve told her daughter not to keep looking at others but focus on her own life. But no, she actually went along with it, feeding Soo Ah’s vindictive moods, and that was so nasty. She literally went, ‘Oh no we can’t have that, Mommy will fix it for you so please stop crying’. It was so toxic how she didn’t even think about how many people’s lives she would ruin, as long as she could get Soo Ah to like her. It’s sad when in hindsight you realize it wasn’t even about Hae Yi – it was about Soo Ah’s lack of confidence and the fact that her study stress had already reached the level where she freaked out when anyone would come close to her in terms of grades.
I was truly shocked to see how shameless Soo Hee was. It was one thing to constantly poke her nose into other people’s business under the mask of ‘securing her daughter’s future’, but to actually post an entire article about Haeng Seon’s ‘sexual favors’ to Chi Yeol while she didn’t even have any evidence for it besides some CCTV footage of her bringing lunchboxes to Chi Yeol’s door? And then, when Haeng Seon came to her house to ask for an honest explanation (which she had every right to), she even hid inside her house, like seriously, how cowardly can you be? You knowingly post an article that ruins an individual’s life and then you’re too scared to face them when they come asking questions? And then when she went out and Haeng Seon was waiting for her she acted all victim-y, as if Haeng Seon was invading her privacy and she really went ‘I just wrote about what I saw’ when the actual person involved who knew the truth was standing right in front of her. I really wanted to punch her in the face there, my goodness. How could a person be like that? And then after the whole scandal was dissolved and it all turned out to be a lie, and the other moms were even urging her to apologize to Haeng Seon, she still acted all, ‘why should I, I just followed everyone’s suspicions’. Oh, she really set my teeth on edge. I was glad that after that, the other moms were kind of done with her, and when she came up with some new gossip, they were all like, yeah, right, there we go again. Everything she pulled after that was just embarrassing, really. Especially when she led this whole group of protestors to the school to demand Sun Jae be expelled for cheating on that exam. By then, Sun Jae had already confessed, the midterm scores had already been updated without Sun Jae’s score, everything had already been settled, so what the heck was she still doing, going like, ‘expel him, he’s not allowed to get first place!’ He already lost first place, it had already been dealt with by the school, and he’d already decided to drop out by himself. Any situation in which she felt like she had any kind of power just made her seem even more lame.
She was one of the people who I just desperately wanted to apologize to Haeng Seon because she needed to. She had done really nasty things. Even the apologies from the other moms didn’t mollify me because it needed to come from Soo Hee. And then they spent the remaining final episode time on ‘redeeming’ her when she’s faced with a scandal herself as it was revealed her husband was having an affair. Admittedly, her husband was an asshole for gaslighting her about how he ‘didn’t have a choice but to get his needs fulfilled somewhere else, because she had made him lonely’, that was solid BS. But the fact that she was now on the receiving end of a scandal herself did seem like proper karma. When Haeng Seon did something nice for her while she was injured and she started crying, I really wanted to say, yeah, I hope you realize now what a horrible person you’ve been. She didn’t need to be redeemed for me, I just wanted her to be a mature adult and own up to the harmful stuff she did.
Also, I completely blame her for what happened to Young Min. If she hadn’t gotten involved in giving Hae Yi’s place in the All Care program to him, he would have lived. It wasn’t directly her fault that he died, of course, but the situation could’ve been avoided altogether if the boy hadn’t gotten that place in the All Care program in the first place, if they’d just stuck with the original arrangement with Hae Yi, so that was definitely on her. But even for that, she never took any responsibility, she didn’t even express any kind of shock that a kid from Soo Ah’s private class died like that after she had made sure he had gotten that spot.
In the final half of the series, Soo Ah starts losing her mind, just like Sun Jae. The exam questions start swimming before her eyes and she even starts hallucinating about physically harming Hae Yi. It was kind of a comfort to see her get freaked out by that, because at least that meant that, despite her dislike towards Hae Yi, she didn’t actually want her to get hurt. Especially after hearing about Hae Yi’s accident, she definitely took a step back. Even though she also didn’t apologize to Hae Yi, she did improve her attitude after Hae Yi came back to school and she even started showing a kinder side to her personality that we didn’t see before. It became abundantly clear that sometimes the kids are more mature than the parents, as even Soo Ah at some point started yelling at her mom to cut it out already. The consistent inability of Soo Hee to recognize what was actually wrong with Soo Ah was mindblowing. The girl was completely freaking out because studying was driving her crazy and all Soo Hee could do was just blink her eyes and be like, ‘What’s wrong, why are you crying? Tell me so I can fix it for you.’ Like, there was 0% of any empathy or even recognition to what her daughter was going through, and that just made me feel like Soo Hee wasn’t even fully aware of what she was doing when she was trying to ‘fix’ stuff for her. It was pathetic.

I also don’t want to redeem the other moms, because even though they eventually came around and apologized to Haeng Seon in Soo Hee’s stead, they were all just as sanctimonious. None of them spared a critical thought for whatever Soo Hee was saying in the beginning, and it was only after the truth came out that they started acting all, ‘Oh, we’re so sorry we judged you so quickly, don’t worry we’re not like Soo Hee’. I mean, even after they started taking Soo Hee’s stories with a grain of salt, they still kept hanging out with her, they were still hungry for gossip. I personally found Dan Ji’s mom, Lee Mi Ok (played by Hwang Bo Ra) really annoying in her hypocrisy. She came back to Haeng Seon on her knees to apologize, but it really lacked sincerity. She just wanted to get back in her good favor so she could buy side dishes from her again. The fact that the other moms had the audacity to come crawling back to ‘apologize’ as a shield to ask Haeng Seon if she could talk Chi Yeol into coming back to teach at The Pride, that was really unbelievable. Mi Ok was just such a hypocritical character to begin with, her own daughter wasn’t even in The Pride and she still followed Soo Hee around as if she was one of The Moms, it was kind of lame.

Finally, and this will be my final criticism for this analysis, I want to briefly talk about Hae Yi’s biological mom turning up again. While Hae Yi is still in a coma from barely escaping Dong Hee, and the story of Dong Hee being Jung Seong Hyeon is still in full throttle, all of a sudden Hae Yi’s biological mother Nam Haeng Ja (played by Bae Hae Seon) comes back. My initial surprise of the writers’ choice to suddenly make her come back at that specific moment only made way for confusion and irritation when she turned out to be just as shameless as any of the other characters. They really made her come back only to create some sort of wry comedy situation with her as this typical money-obsessed caricature that acted as if she’d done nothing wrong in disappearing for over ten years. She actually responded to Haeng Seon’s question of where she’d been all that time with, ‘I was in Japan, so what’. In over ten years she didn’t even send Hae Yi a post-it note, and now she suddenly barged in claiming complete entitlement over her daughter. She lay crying over Hae Yi’s comatose body and started pointing fingers at Haeng Seon and Jae Woo for not taking care of her properly. The actual, freaking audacity of this woman. I couldn’t even laugh about it, it just came at such a random moment, and I still don’t understand why they put it in at all. I wouldn’t have minded if she never showed up at all, she disappeared and that was it. If she were to come back, I would’ve expected a more serious situation, but now they just had her come in acting like some silly funny lady, only to reveal that she wasn’t even back for Hae Yi – she just came to get money from her siblings. What the heck was that about? I just didn’t understand why they’d choose to completely cut off the Dong Hee storyline, only to create one final episode of Hae Yi’s biological mom receiving redemption. I am still at a loss for words regarding this decision.
Also, Hae Yi’s decision to move with her mom to Japan came out of nowhere. She had literally just talked with Sun Jae about how disappointed she was in meeting her mom again, how she didn’t like the kind of person she was and how she’d envisioned their reunion so differently, and then suddenly she starts cold-shouldering Haeng Seon and Jae Woo, saying that she wants to live with her mom in Japan. I still don’t understand where that came from, and it definitely didn’t look like Hae Yi was being honest, either. Her mom mentioned something (to whoever she was talking to on the phone) about Hae Yi feeling like a bother to Haeng Seon now that her mother was back or something, but that also came out of nowhere. I did expect the mom to just leave while Hae Yi was at school, because she herself didn’t even want Hae Yi to come live with her, that much was obvious. I just didn’t understand anything about this final arc, I wanted the storyline of the metal ball killer to be concluded in a satisfactory way, that’s all I asked for, not this randomness.

I will conclude my analysis of the characters and storylines by mentioning some final good characters. First of all, Hae Yi’s friends besides Sun Jae, Lee Dan Ji (played by Ryu Da In) and Seo Geon Hoo (played by Lee Min Jae). I loved how loyal they were to Hae Yi. Despite her mom’s involvement with The Moms, Dan Ji wasn’t even trying to get into The Pride herself, which also led to her slightly becoming a third wheel to Hae Yi and Sun Jae at some point, but I loved that she kept her chin up and she never left their side. Even when the truth about Hae Yi’s private tutoring was revealed, and the fact that Haeng Seon wasn’t her real mom (props to Hae Yi for coming out with that on that livestream simply to dissolve the scandal about her mom and Chi Yeol having a secret affair – because having an affair with a student’s mom was less bad than with a student’s aunt 🙄), she was always there to welcome Hae Yi back into the classroom with open arms. I also really loved Geon Hoo, he was such a refreshing character. He was introduced as a former ice hockey player who had to get back to school after sustaining an injury (I believe?) and he developed a crush on Hae Yi when she started helping him study. I also liked how he and Sun Jae had this kind of rivalry between them at first, which then turned into friendship, and Geon Hoo was the one who kept pulling Sun Jae back from the school roof’s edge when he was trying to jump. I also appreciated how he didn’t butt in when Sun Jae confessed to Hae Yi, even though he watched it happen from a distance and could’ve easily interrupted the moment. He was that fair. I didn’t personally care for him to be pushed towards Soo Ah at the end, I think it was enough that they acknowledged that she had a kinder side to her. Anyways, Hae Yi really had the best friends she could wish for. Especially after we learn that she was so scared to reveal that Haeng Seon wasn’t her real mom after she previously told a ‘friend’ and that girl used the information to get Hae Yi ostracized in class, as if it was a shameful thing for her to be raised by her aunt because her mom abandoned her 😣.

I also liked the homeroom teacher, Jeon Jong Ryeol (played by Kim Da Hwin), Chi Yeol’s former classmate. He was initially bitter towards Chi Yeol because he thought he looked down on his former classmates after getting the Star Teacher status, but he turned out to be a pretty nice guy and he and Chi Yeol even became friends again. He also really cared about his students and he kept standing up for Hae Yi and Sun Jae, that was really nice. They really needed a teacher to be on their side, and he offered help whenever he could.

All in all, I’ll just say that while I liked the show’s story and the dynamic of the main couple, there were just too many characters that frustrated the heck out of me, and I really didn’t like the ending. It was such a waste in my opinion, because the whole metal ball killer case and Dong Hee turning out to be that obsessed person made for such a good plot twist, and then they just gave it up like that. None of the characters who did something to apologize for were made to acknowledge their wrongful deeds and I didn’t like how they were actually redeemed in the end, as if we suddenly needed to sympathize with them. I didn’t, that’s for sure.
Of course, I still liked the ending in terms of the proposal (not the new scandal about Chi Yeol and that blind date girl thooo🙉) and how the people that did make amends made up and all, but there were too many things left that shouldn’t have just been brushed over and redeemed.

I liked the opening animation a lot, it really gave a clear image of Chi Yeol and Haeng Seon’s relationship, or at least the way they met. It didn’t include any references to the many other events that happened in the show, but I liked how simple and clear it was and it just made me think how well the two main actors were cast. The touch of adding a mathematical reference to each episode title was nicely found. Also, the food from Haeng Seon’s store looked soooo good. I really wished I could go there myself to assemble a lunchbox, it’s such a nice and unique store concept!
Regarding the title, I couldn’t help but notice that the English title isn’t an exact translation of the Korean title. The Korean title refers directly to a scandal, probably the scandal between Chi Yeol and Haeng Seon that only comes out in episode 9, if I remember correctly. I guess that for the English title they went with something that referred to the education-aspect of the show, the ‘crash course’. As I felt that their romance happened in its own little bubble on the side of all the other drama, it’s interesting how the title suggests it’s about the romance between Chi Yeol and Haeng Seon, as if they needed to get a ‘crash course’ in romance while it happened so naturally to them! The Korean title translates to something like ‘One Hit Scandal’. I just picked up that the ‘ilta‘ part also referred to Chi Yeol’s nickname ‘Star Teacher’, but I’m not sure. So it seems that the Korean title focusses more on their Scandal, and the English title focusses more on their Romance. I guess you can look at it whichever way you want.

Just before moving on to the cast comments, I just wanted to mention something that kept me busy during the entire series: what the heck is the math that they teach in school in Asian countries?! I’ve seen it before in Chinese and Japanese dramas, but what are all these incredibly complicated-looking formulas and terms? It’s all gibberish to me. I’m already on the verge of dyscalculia, but I couldn’t even try to make sense of what Chi Yeol was teaching. It didn’t even look like high school mathematics to me, more like physics or science or something. So yeah, I was in no position to judge if anything that was taught in this drama was true, I was just staring blankly at the chalkboard most of the time, lol.

It’s cast comment time!

I believe this is only the third drama I’ve seen of Jung Kyung Ho. Actually, I stand corrected, I know him from I’m Sorry, I Love You and Missing 9, but he’s also had some guest appearances in High-end Crush, Crash Landing on You, and Gyeryong Fairytale (the spoon-worm💀). I really loved him in this show and he was so well-cast, especially with his physique. As I mentioned before, I think Chi Yeol might be my favorite character, and it was all made possible by Jung Kyung Ho, because he made this character so wholesome. I really loved his acting, he brought such a fun side to it. He was effortlessly funny and his smile is so genuine and it just made me smile with him, haha. It was also nice that they gave him a couple of quirks, like consistently getting people’s names wrong and going fishing when he needed to clear his head. I know that in real life he’s Choi Soo Young’s fiancé, and that they’re finally getting married after like 10 years of dating! This drama definitely made me see his charm. I really liked his performance, and his chemistry with Jeon Do Yeon was really nice. Chi Yeol had so many different sides to him, but he still remained so unproblematic, and there were so many green flags about the way he responded to situations. He was definitely one of the main aspects of this show that got me through all the frustrations I felt, he made it worth watching until the end.

I’ve never seen Jeon Do Yeon in anything before. I see she’s also done a lot of movies. It was nice to see a normalization of a relationship in which the woman was older than the man. In real life, there is an 11-year age gap between them, Jeon Do Yeon is 50 and Jung Kyung Ho is 39. Funny how the other way around often seems to raise critical opinions, but this passes as totally normal. Anyways, the characters’ ages are never mentioned in the series, Chi Yeol only starts calling her ‘noona’ at some point, so they generally don’t put too much emphasis on it. I liked how little it mattered to them, and how little they cared about other people’s opinions when appearing in public together. Jeon Do Yeon made Haeng Seon such a likable, bright and sober character, she was such a sympathetic person and it came to her so naturally. She really looked like a woman who had lived her life to the fullest and was still doing that in middle-age. I loved how at least she was acting like a normal person and lived her life without constantly comparing her own life to that of other people. Her chemistry with Jung Kyung Ho looked so natural as well, the two really goofed around without it getting cheesy and I liked how she let herself be caught off guard by his unexpected silliness. I really liked her performance.

I love Oh Ui Shik, and I really hoped he wouldn’t become just another typical ASD character as they get depicted nowadays, but I’m glad that even despite the similarities, he still brought something new to the table. I’ve seen him in a bunch of stuff, like Oh My Ghostess, Moonlight Drawn by Clouds, Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo, Circle, Fight For My Way, While You Were Sleeping, Are You Human Too?, Wife I Know, Romance is a Bonus Book, Touch Your Heart, Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha, and most recently in True Beauty. He pulled off the Asperger character very well, even though I can’t deny that it reminded me very much of Moon Sang Tae. I liked that, despite his inability to read people’s emotions that well, he was definitely able to pick up on people’s reactions, especially from Young Joo, after he initially rejected her. He was immediately able to recognize that she was upset even though she was laughing, and he instantly started reflecting on his words and how they may have hurt her. I felt really bad for him during the scenes when the metal ball shattered the window, when the thing happened in the waffle shop, and when that livestreamer barged into the shop to publicize Haeng Seon’s face to the world when she was being suspected of having an affair with Chi Yeol. He was literally walking around screaming from being triggered and people on the livestream were making fun of that, that was awful. I think Oh Ui Shik just has a face for a kind character, I don’t remember ever seeing him as a bad guy, it would just be such a weird switch, haha. Then again, it would be interesting to see. Anyways, I always love him in whatever he appears in, and this was no exception.

My girl Lee Bong Ryeon! I know her from Tomorrow With You, While You Were Sleeping, Melting Me Softly, Run On, Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha, Extraordinary Attorney Woo, and the movie Burning, and I know I will see her again soon. I really love how she’s such a typical little lady but she always brings something strong and sassy to her characters, and I live for her deadpan-face. I really liked seeing her with Oh Ui Shik, they were two nice and familiar faces that finally got paired up together. I really liked Young Joo’s character, and how her running gag was that she was always joining random clubs to meet men, lol. She was a truly loyal friend to Haeng Seon, those two were really besties for life, and she also cared a lot about Hae Yi. She was a really nice addition and supporting figure to the ‘good side’ of the characters.

Noh Yoon Seo is definitely making her way up in the drama acting world! I just recently saw her for the first time in Our Blues and I also watched the movie 20th Century Girl in the meantime. Also, I just saw an article that she’s already in talks of a new drama. It’s like she really has been skyrocketing since her debut last year. Apart from the very final part where she suddenly announced that she was moving to Japan to live with her biological mother, I completely stood by Hae Yi throughout the whole show. She was a real victim of her surroundings, she was just focussing on her own life and her own grades and random people just decided they were entitled to take that away from her. I felt so bad for her, especially when that scandal came out about Haeng Seon and Chi Yeol, and how those brats in the cafeteria started yelling stuff about her and her mom. I was ready to throw some shoes there. I was so proud of her to just jump into that livestream to tell the whole world that Haeng Seon was her aunt, not her mom and that ‘it’s not an affair, it’s just a romance!’ It was so brave of her to just put everything on the line, and I was happy for her that she had such loyal friends in Sun Jae, Dan Ji and Geon Hoo. She was such a sweet girl, I liked her performance.

I kept wondering what I knew Shin Jae Ha from, but I see that he was in Pinocchio, Sassy Go Go, Go Ho’s Starry Night and While You Were Sleeping, so I probably remember his face from one of those. He has a really familiar face. I’m having difficulty looking at his smiling face without getting the creeps now, though, haha. Anyways, I still think it was a nice twist to make the typically loyal and kind assistant into a psycho. I really just wished his character would have grown a conscience at some point, the fact that he cared about Chi Yeol made him not 100% bad but he was really disturbed. I didn’t like that they just made him jump off a roof and be done with it. He deserved to get a proper villain arc after he was busted for being Jung Seong Hyeon. In the beginning he seemed like such a nice guy, and it seemed like at first he just got a little uncomfortable that he suddenly didn’t have to take care of Chi Yeol anymore because of Haeng Seon, but then when he plain-out ignored her at the bowling alley and just told her off for distracting Chi Yeol with that sweet psycho smile on his face… and then when he pulled that when they were on the yacht and just went all puppy-eyed as soon as Chi Yeol came to him… He played it very well.

I hadn’t seen Lee Chae Min in anything before either, but I see he’s going to be in the adaptation of See You in My 19th Life, so I’m excited for that! He’s been doing dramas mostly since 2021, so I guess he’s also expanding his projects now, good for him! I really felt for Sun Jae, because you could tell he wanted to just enjoy his high school days. I really liked that part with him and Hae Yi where they just hung out and rode the bus together, it was so peaceful and you could just see how much they enjoyed each other’s company without any tensions. His mom really got the better of him at some point, and I did want to tell him off when he refused to speak to Hae Yi after that thing with the exam papers went down, I thought he would go to her immediately to apologize and explain that he didn’t know anything about it (I bet Hae Yi also didn’t immediately think the worst of him, she never did). Like, I would understand that he’d feel flustered, but then he suddenly pushed her away and I didn’t understand why. Anyway, he came back and they made up and his excitement when Hae Yi kissed him on the cheek and thereby kind of confirmed her feelings for him was really cute. I liked that Hae Yi took her time to settle her feelings for him, and I also liked that he gave her all the space after she told him to wait after the CSATs. Even as just friends, their chemistry seemed really natural.

I know Jang Young Nam from It’s Okay to Not Be Okay, as the head nurse who turned out to be the psycho mom. Apparently she also had a supporting role in The Moon That Embraces The Sun and Pinocchio and only NOW I realize she was the female coach from Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo! I kept thinking I didn’t know her from anything, but I was wrong. In any case, I didn’t really like Sun Jae’s mom, I don’t know what her deal was exactly but she was definitely not 100% alright. One scene that did stick with me was when she was at Soo Hee’s place with the other moms and Haeng Seon and she kind of provoked her and Soo Hee lost it, that scene was pretty intense but in a good way. At first I wanted to like her because she was so sceptical of the other moms and she at least seemed to have her own reasons for wanting Sun Jae to perform well, but she diminished by still going along with the plan to swap Hae Yi’s place in All Care out with that Young Min kid. I really wished she wouldn’t get involved in any of the other moms’ petty plans. I also saw her attempts to make amends with Hee Jae as buttering up, like she definitely had some stuff to apologize for, but as no one ever apologizes in this show, she just suddenly started acting really nice to him, and even he was caught off guard at the start, lol. Her attitude towards her sons was not okay, she was definitely at fault for being the kind of mother who would cheat to get her children to the top and not even bother with them after they cracked. But the actress’ performance was good, not gonna lie.

I was really impressed by Kim Sun Young, mostly because I’d never thought I’d hate a character she’d play so much as I hated Soo Hee. I loved that this was probably one of the few ‘serious’ roles I’ve seen of her, she usually always gets a kind of hysterical or comical role, but here I really saw a serious side and it was so refreshing. Now I know for sure how wide her versatility is. I’d been hoping to see this side of her acting for ages. I think it says a lot that I can still be so positive about the actress of the character that made me so mad on so many occasions. You know what they say, when you can’t stand the villain it’s because the actor’s doing a good job, and she definitely did. My goodness, this woman. After seeing her in Shopping King Louie, Legend of the Blue Sea, Lookout, Because This is My First Life, Romance is a Bonus Book, Her Private Life, Crash Landing on You, Backstreet Rookie and most recently in The Silent Sea, I can say confidently that she is definitely an actress with a LOT of talent and a LOT of versatility and I will always remain excited to see her appear in shows.

Kang Na Eon hasn’t been in that many dramas yet, I think this is only her second out of three so far. As much as Soo Ah bothered me in the beginning, I was just waiting for her to come to terms with the fact that she was under too much pressure. She was acting like a spoiled teenager, and it may be a kind of a stretch to say she was responsible for everything her mother caused, because of course she never actually asked her mother to get rid of anyone. She was cunning like that in the beginning, because she definitely hinted to her mom that Hae Yi’s presence was bothering her and that she wanted her mom to do something about it. But when she started spooking herself out with hallucinations of throwing Hae Yi down the stairs, it was clear that she was startled by that and that proved to me that she wouldn’t actually go that far. It was nice seeing a slightly nicer side of her at the end, although it was a shame it took that long to surface. Still, there was nothing wrong with her performance, she did well.

I’m going to make a similar remark about Hwang Bo Ra as I did in my previous review of her, because AGAIN I just saw the exact same thing that she always does. So far, I’ve seen her in Fight For My Way, What’s Wrong With Secretary Kim?, Touch Your Heart, A Business Proposal and most recently in Dali and The Cocky Prince. My issue with Hwang Bo Ra is that she always goes out of her way to be funny in an exaggerated way, and it often results in me not actually finding her funny. I keep hoping she’s going to show a more serious side to her acting, like Kim Sun Young did in this show for example, but she always shows the same thing and I’m getting a bit tired of it. Her character didn’t actually have to be a comic character, she was just a shallow follower who ended up using the dent in Soo Hee’s credibility to come out as a better person, as she was prepared to come crawling back to Haeng Seon for forgiveness. She always feels the need to move her face in every direction, both when speaking and when reacting to others, and sometimes it’s just too much. I am still hoping that I’ll see a different side of her, because from the last couple of things I’ve seen her in it seems to become a bit of a one-trick pony. Other than that, she’s always a familiar face and it’s not that I’m allergic to her, I would just like to see some more variety in her acting.

Is it just me or did Dan Ji and her mom not actually have a single scene together? It just occurred to me, lol. They only referred to each other as ‘I heard from my mom’ or ‘my Dan Ji told me…’ but I don’t think they actually appeared together even once. Typical. Anyways, I really loved Dan Ji, and Ryu Da In made her such an approachable and relatable friend to Hae Yi. Even when she was hurt after finding out that Hae Yi and Sun Jae had kept Hae Yi’s private tutoring from her, she didn’t stay mad for long, as soon as Hae Yi started getting targeted by rumors she was back at her side. When Hae Yi didn’t come to school she was beside herself with worry. Get yourself a friend like that! She actually reminded me of someone I know, haha, I don’t know, her energy was just super bubbly and likable.

Apparently, Lee Min Jae was in While You Were Sleeping, but that’s the only thing I’ve seen that he appeared in before. He’s definitely done more dramas than the other student characters in this series. I really liked Geon Hoo, he was such a nice addition to Hae Yi’s group of friends. I loved how he brought this relaxed vibe into the classroom, like finally another student who wasn’t occupied with achieving as much, but who still got interested in improving his grades on his own terms, if his friends would help him. I liked the scene where he took Hae Yi ice skating, and I definitely saw the charm in him. The scene where they met when he stopped Hae Yi from tumbling down the stairs with his foot, lol, what an entrance. He was a really nice, fresh breeze within the chaos of stress. I really liked his character.

It was nice seeing both familiar and unfamiliar faces in this drama. I just want to make it clear that, despite my criticisms on this series, it had nothing to do with the acting, I think all of the actors did really well, even the ones that set my teeth on edge. Sometimes you just have to deal with the fact that not everyone is nice, and in that sense this drama was very realistic, lol. The story was good and the cast was good, I loved the main couple and their little family, the romance aspect was very well established and so was the plot twist arc about Dong Hee and the metal ball killer. It’s really just the way they chose to wrap things up, how they left all the inexcusable events open without justice and devoted the final episode to redeeming characters that didn’t need to be redeemed in my opinion. Other than that, it’s filled with a lot of enjoyable parts, and the ending also had me smiling and tearing up a little. Haeng Seon was a better mother to Hae Yi than her older sister could ever be, and it’s probably for the best that Hae Yi was left on Haeng Seon’s doorstep.

Still, I’m happy I gave this drama a chance and I’m going to keep watching some more Netflix K-Dramas now that came out in the past year. I’m not sure how long the next one is going to take me as I’m prepared for some real emotional stuff that comes with it, but you’ll see my review appear whenever I’m done, so until then!

Bye-bee! ^^

The Makanai: Cooking for the Maiko House

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

The Makanai: Cooking for the Maiko House
( 舞妓さんちのまかないさん / Maikosanchi no Makanaisan)
MyDramaList rating: 7.5/10

Hiya! Just popping in with a final March review! I decided to watch this after I saw the trailer on Netflix, and it looked so nice that I didn’t want to wait. Also, it’s directed by my favorite Japanese director, Mr. Koreeda Hirokazu, so I knew it would be worthwhile to check it out. It took me back to the serenity of Japanese culture and made me remember why I fell in love with it. Even after finishing 5 years of Japan Studies, it still taught me things I didn’t know about geisha culture. It was like I went back to this familiar place of learning about Japanese culture, so that probably added to the nostalgia. It’s a really short show with not that many events, so this probably won’t be a very lengthy review, but I still wanted to discuss it because it deserves just as much attention as any other drama series would. I’m really glad I went ahead with it, especially after finishing a couple of series that were less to my personal liking, because this drama really felt like ‘coming home’ to something. The vibe is beautifully authentic, and it felt like watching a movie with great cinematography and acting that exceeded dialogue at times. It’s been a while since I’ve felt so at ease while watching a series, and I really appreciated that feeling.

The Makanai: Cooking for the Maiko House is a 9-episode Japanese Netflix drama, with each episode lasting about 45 minutes. The story is about two 16-year old girls and best friends Nozuki Kiyo (played by Mori Nana) and Herai Sumire (played by Deguchi Natsuki). The two of them are originally from Aomori, but after a school trip to Kyoto and meeting a beautiful geiko called Momoko (Hashimoto Ai) there, the two decide that they want to become maiko themselves as well. In the first episode, the two girls travel to Kyoto and start their adventure at the Saku House. The Saku House is one of the many houses that lodge maiko-in-training in the Gion district, which is famous for producing many maiko and geiko. The house is led by two ‘mothers’, Mother Chiyo (played by Matsuzaka Keiko) and Mother Azusa (played by Tokiwa Takako), who welcome the girls warmly. The house further lodges three maiko, Tsurukoma, Kikuno and Kotono (respectively played by Fukuchi Momoko, Wakayanagi Kotoko and Minami Kotona), and another 17-year old girl called Ryoko (played by Makita Aju), who is later revealed to be Mother Azusa’s biological daughter. She’s the only one in the house who doesn’t want to have anything to do with the maiko life. While Sumire seems to thrive in her lessons and turns out to be a natural talent, it becomes clear quite fast that Kiyo isn’t as suited for the maiko life as her friend. From the start, Kiyo seems to be more interested in helping the house’s makanai-san with her cooking preparations, and she doesn’t seem that apt to the flower arrangement or mai dancing lessons. The mai instructor informs Mother Azusa that she doesn’t think Kiyo is suited to become a maiko, and Kiyo has to decide what she wants to do – go home to Aomori and return to school there, or find something else she wants to do here. When the makanai-san sprains her back and Kiyo offers to fill in for her, everyone is astonished to find Kiyo’s incredible cooking skills. And so, at the age of 16, Kiyo ends up becoming the house’s makanai-san, meaning she is in charge of cooking for all the people in the house every day, from breakfast to dinner. This way, she and Sumire aren’t separated, and Kiyo can still continue to root for her friend while she finds her own ultimate path as The Makanai, Cooking for the Maiko House.

I looked up what the official definition of makanai was, since it doesn’t actually seem to refer to a person as much as it does to the food service itself. It stands for ‘boarding’, ‘lodging’, ‘catering’, so basically the meals that come with admission to a certain place. You could say makanai-san means something like ‘kitchen manager’, or plainly ‘person in charge of staff meals’. I find it so interesting that the Japanese language sometimes just takes an adjective, puts -san behind it, and turns it into a personification of that adjective.

As I already mentioned briefly in my introduction, it’s a short series with not many spectacular events. The main storyline is about Kiyo continuing to produce meals for the Saku House lodgers, and her increasing respect towards the food and her new workplace, and on the other hand we see Sumire develop in her path to become a maiko. The series is filled with scenes from within the house, the interactions between the maiko girls and the Mothers, alternated with scenes of the girls’ lessons, both in performing and the lessons they learn from their senior geiko.
I found out that geiko and geisha are pretty much the same thing, but geiko is the Kyoto dialect word for it. To respect the setting of the show, I will therefore keep using the word geiko in this review. Maiko is the term used for young girls who are training to become a geiko. Just thought I’d clear that up before moving on.

This show reminded me a lot of “Memoirs of a Geisha“, only without any rivalisation or scheming. I liked how the atmosphere between all the Saku House girls and women, even the ones who already graduated, was consistently warm and friendly. Everyone got along well, everyone rooted for each other, and that made it very comforting to watch. Even the people who see or saw each other as ‘rivals’ don’t actually go head to head, it never becomes tense. Sumire goes in training under the geiko she and Kiyo met on that school trip, Momoko. Momoko graduated from Saku House before and she is the number one popular geiko in their district, so the ultimate rolemodel for Sumire and the other girls. Even though Momoko is very stoic, she never becomes nasty in any way. Even when confronted with her former peer Yoshino (played by Matsuoka Mayu), even though they’re polar opposites and perfect rival material, their relationship never actually grows sour. Even though there may have been some rivalry between several people, it never leads to any real tension and everyone respects each other in their own way. That was nice to see.

One of the things I liked about this series’ concept, and here I will refer to a comment I read on My DramaList, is that the image of geisha has become such an iconic representation of traditional Japan. It has become an object of the external eye, something we look at and admire from afar. The lovely thing about this show is that it focusses on the ‘behind the scenes’ of this representation, the domesticity of the household, the interactions between the women when they’re not out as their maiko/geiko personas. For example, it was so nice to see Tsurukoma, Kikuno and Kotono bicker over trivial things, complain about maintaining their hair and laugh about everyday jokes. I thought it was so nice that this story showed the girls and women both ways, as themselves and as their personas. It just made every character so real. Even though not every character is explored in terms of backstory or reason why they ended up at Saku House, you can just tell everyone is there for their own reason, and it’s also possible to leave as soon as they decide it’s not what they want after all. The same goes for the Mothers, always portrayed wearing kimono and looking elegant, but at the same time Mother Azusa is getting it on with a school teacher and Mother Chiyo has an affinity with popular Korean actors – how hard I LOL’ed when she revealed her little Hyun Bin altar, I absolutely loved that. It was such a nice thing to give every single character some kind of quirk, like how Mother Azusa was such a ditz sometimes, how Tsurukoma loved doing impressions and how Kotono developed a crush on the delivery guy. Seeing maiko and geiko from a distance, you always wonder what kind of person could be behind that get-up, and this series really made me realize how they really are all just regular people. It really puts the geiko life in a new perspective for me, I liked that.

Because this story was very character-based, I would like to go through my analysis in the same way: character-by-character. I think diving into the characters alone will probably enable me to get all the points across that I wish to make about this show.

First of all, our girl Kiyo, the title character. I found it interesting how the title of the series focusses on Kiyo, while you could say that Kiyo was the ultimate supporting character. She was the person who stood in the background, preparing the meals while her peers went into the world as maiko. Kiyo’s role in the Saku House household became vital in its simple supportiveness, and I think that makes her a very interesting character to dissect.
We don’t find out much about Kiyo’s family. All we see is that she has been living with her grandmother (Shiraishi Kayoko) who probably had a hand in teaching her how to cook. Looking at her personality, it could very well be that she was influenced by Sumire’s drive to become a maiko more than that she actually wanted that for herself. From her very first entry into Saku House, Kiyo immediately has difficulty switching to the Kyoto-dialect maiko-style speech. She can’t seem to keep her flower arrangements upright and her body doesn’t adapt to the mai dance movements. On the other hand, she keeps noticing what people are eating, she keeps thinking about what there will be for dinner and what she’ll be able to help the makanai-san with when she’ll come by. It’s a classic case of ‘if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a wall…’, Kiyo was never meant to become a maiko, and to her it feels like a fateful experience that she encounters the work of being the makanai at the house. While everyone continously keeps asking her if she’s really happy doing this work all by herself, if she’s not having a hard time, if she’s really happy staying in the background while her friends spread their wings as maiko, she always replies with a big smile on her face that she feels like she was meant to come to Saku House to become the makanai. She ends up being the character who feels like she’s in the right place the most, while we see several maiko and geiko around her debate their choices. In a way, she becomes an inspiration for many people around her, and it ultimately even results in one of the maiko leaving the house as she realizes it’s not her true passion after all. Seeing someone be so happy and passionate about what they’re doing can result in confirming your own passion, but it can also result in a confrontation with the fact that you do not feel like that. I guess Kiyo became a sort of mirror for the people around her while she was doing her own thing, and that’s kind of amazing. I think it was very refreshing to have a title character who isn’t necessarily the center of attention, or even the main character in her own life. She’s happy doing her own thing in the background, not drawing too much attention to herself while letting her peers take the spotlight, you don’t often see that.
It wasn’t just about cooking for Kiyo, it was so much more than that. I found it very interesting and respectable to see how she was filled with this pure respect for the utensils and ingredients she worked with. They way she would watch the food so closely while she was preparing it, the little smiles it got out of her when she saw how an ingredient would react to a certain way of cooking or boiling, the genuine interest she had in learning about how each season influenced the manner of preparation. I’ve never seen a character so smitten with an occupation before, the excitement just spat off her face while she was cooking, and it was wonderful.

I guess you could say that Sumire struggled more with Kiyo’s change of plans than Kiyo herself. When she heard that Kiyo wasn’t to continue her maiko training, she seemed to be very distraught, especially since they both held such emotional value to their promise of becoming maiko together. Even when the plan was still for Kiyo to leave the house, I wondered whether Sumire would truly be able to keep going with Kiyo gone. After Kiyo became the makanai, Sumire kept worrying whether Kiyo was okay with that, especially when she rapidly made her way up to becoming a maiko herself. Kiyo would assure her time and time again that she was happy where she was, and seeing her friend smile so sincerely always managed to cheer Sumire up, but even so I often wondered what Sumire was really thinking, since it still seemed to bother her in some way.
As it happens, Sumire is truly one of the best maiko-in-training of her batch, and she’s given the chance to become a maiko sooner than anyone expected. As she’s training under Momoko, her maiko name will take one character from her senior’s name, and she eventually becomes Momohana, written with the meaning of ‘peach’ and ‘flower’. I think the name really suits her innocent beauty.
While Kiyo only had her grandmother, Sumire gets a little more family backstory, mostly in the sense that her father initially disapproves of her going to Kyoto to become a maiko. Sumire’s father visits the Saku House in one episode, where everyone eventually manages to convince him that Sumire is in good hands there and that she’s doing very well. He even shows up when Sumire, or Momohana I should say, is officially introduced as maiko and goes around the town to pay her respects. Sumire also doesn’t seem to have a lot holding her back in terms of homesickness or anything, and she initially dislikes her father for disagreeing with her choice, but she does make her peace with him in the end.
Other than that, Kiyo and Sumire have one other childhood friend back in Aomori, Nakawatari Kenta (played by Jo Kairi), a boy who’s very skilled in baseball. It initially seems like Sumire has a little bit of a crush on him, but she never vocalizes this and in the end I wondered if it was actually true. Something did seem to bother her in terms of a one-sided crush, anyways.
I found Sumire a very interesting character because she exuded nothing but pureness and innocence, but I sometimes found it really hard to gauge what she was thinking. It seemed like she had a lot on her mind at times, but she would never ‘bother’ Kiyo with it, and Kiyo always automatically managed to cheer her up. I would’ve liked to get a more detailed peak inside Sumire’s head at times, because now she remained a little mysterious, in a way. Which also added to the charm of her character, because despite her young and pure appearance, there definitely seemed to be something profound within her. I wish I could put my finger on it.

The friendship between Kiyo and Sumire is the main theme of the show. The relentless trust and comfort the two find with each other, how, despite the fact that they each go their own paths during the day, they always can’t wait to come home to each other at the end of it. How Kiyo always thinks about making something special for Sumire, how Kiyo is the first person Sumire runs to when she hears she is to become a maiko. The fact that Sumire refuses to eat mini sandwiches because she’s only going to eat the ones Kiyo has promised to make for her maiko debut. The simple comfort of having that one person who’s just always there for you, who you can always rely on. Sometimes a soulmate isn’t a romantic partner. These girls really proved that for me. I really loved how matter-of-fact that was, especially for Kiyo. When the other maiko commented on the fact that she saved a portion for Sumire or when she’s making something specifically for her, Kiyo would just smile and go like ‘You got me!’. I just found their friendship so healing, because it was so natural and genuine. The two girls had their own lives and their own daily tasks, but they always found that moment where they could catch up over a hot bowl of soup that Kiyo made at the end of the day. I just became so happy for them that they could remain friends while staying at the same house with different ambitions. It’s really one of the most pure depictions of friendship that I’ve seen in an Asian drama so far.

Momoko was another story entirely. I kept getting reminded of the character Hatsumomo from Memoirs of a Geisha, but I really loved that Momoko had an edge to her personality while it never made her an unpleasant character. As the most successful recent graduate of Saku House, Momoko is seen as the ultimate rolemodel for the current maiko and definitely for Sumire. While maintaining a certain stoicness in her geiko persona, she definitely has a mischievous and quirky streak to her in real life. We learn that she has an affinity with horror movies, for example. She takes her friend to the movies one time and teases him because he’s too scared to watch it, she’s also seen playing games at home with him later on. Something that I found interesting about her is that, while she was on top of the world in terms of her geiko career, we still see her debate whether or not to follow her heart. This friend I just mentioned, Iwai Masaru (played by Morisaki Win, or Win Kyaw Htoo) tells her he has to go to Tokyo for work and it’s clear that he means to ask her to come with him. He knows her as herself (I believe he calls her Mao-chan) and he makes her think twice about whether she really wants to continue being a geiko rather than, for example, marrying him. Although I kept finding it hard to determine what exactly she was thinking, Momoko decides to keep being a geiko, as she feels like she was born for it.
I liked how her sense of ‘rivalry’ towards Kiyo sprung from Sumire, how she was supposed to be Sumire’s trainer but Kiyo would always hold such a big space in Sumire’s heart that even Momoko felt like she was competing with her. It was nice how Kiyo managed to inspire her with the ichi-go ichi-e, the ‘once in a lifetime encounter’ idea. Kiyo told her that she would greet and thank her ingredients and utensils every single day before she started using them, because no matter the routine of her work, every single ingredient was different based on the day. That’s what made it so enjoyable for her, even if she used some ingredients multiple times, it always felt to her like she was ‘meeting’ them for the first time. I really loved that particular explanation, because it again emphasized how sincere Kiyo was about her work and how seriously she took it. She never got bored of it because she found something new and exciting about it by herself every single day, and this is what ultimately also inspired Momoko when she felt like she was in a bit of a slump (maybe, again, I’m not entirely sure what she was feeling at that point). But I thought it was really cool how Momoko used that exact quote from Kiyo later on in an interview, how she would greet every new day as if she was meeting it for the first time.

In contrast to Momoko, Yoshino really is that breath of fresh air that completely breaks the standard of geiko always having to be elegant and reserved. It was so nice to see an actual jester mingle with all those conservative-looking girls. Yoshino is such an entertainer, and it just made me so curious to how she may have looked as a geiko in full make-up performing a mai, for example. Yoshino is a former graduate who unexpectedly returns to Saku House to make herself right at home and not give anyone an actual explanation of why she’d come back. We find out eventually, when her husband comes to take her back, that she just decided she wanted a divorce since she couldn’t stand her mother-in-law anymore and so she came back to the place she felt most comfortable at. She is a former geiko who tells everyone that she has always been Momoko’s biggest rival while they were training together, while we can probably all take that with a grain of salt. Her behavior is much more exaggerated than the others girls’ and she misbehaves sometimes but it’s all forgiven because she is Yoshino, after all. I always like characters like her because there’s clearly something deeper underneath the carnival mask and that’s exactly what I felt with Yoshino too. The few times she has a sincere conversation with someone it becomes clear she is undeniably a good person. I liked the dynamic between her and Momoko a lot, also how she could crack through Momoko’s stoicness sometimes, you could tell they were actually on good terms with each other. It was also nice to see how Momoko saw Yoshino as her equal, despite her own first-ranking position as geiko. Despite the friendly bickering there is an undeniable sense of respect between the two of them, and that made their relationship very interesting to watch as well.

Mother Chiyo is the older already nearing 70, I believe) ‘mother’ of Saku House, a very serene but easygoing lady with, as I mentioned before, a hidden affinity for Korean actors. Maybe with actors in general, because it’s also revealed her first love was a famous kabuki actor named Bando Yajuro (who made a guest appearance as himself). I kept wondering how she came to host at Saku House, but I guess it happened after she graduated from being a geiko herself. As far as I understand she never got married or had children, so I would’ve liked to get some more information on her life and past as a former geiko. I did like the little story and catch-up session she got with the kabuki actor, and how they established that while they may have had a crush on each other, they never went along with it and that’s the reason why they could still meet up and talk like this after 60 years had passed.

Mother Azusa was one of my favorite characters because of her quirkiness. When Kiyo and Sumire first enter Saku House, they are warned by Ryoko that Mother Azusa isn’t as nice as she seems and that they should run away while they still can, but Mother Azusa is actually super kind! Maybe it was just Ryoko trying to scare the newbies away and simultaneously expressing some disdain for her own mother. Anyways, Mother Azusa was appropriately strict at the right moments, but I don’t think there was even a moment where she got genuinely angry, she always seemed very concerned for the girls’ futures. Whether she had to tell Kiyo about her unsuitability to become a maiko or tell Sumire about her rapidly nearing maiko graduation, she always took the person in question apart to have a sincere talk with them. When she saw one of the maiko sitting by herself, clearly contemplating something, she would always ask if anything was wrong, she was always there to support in whatever way and that made her a really likeable character. I really liked that scene where she sat Sumire down to tell her about her fast-nearing promotion to maiko and went ‘I have good news and bad news, which do you want first?’ and the bad news was just that she’d eaten Sumire’s snack from the fridge, lol.
Mother Azusa clearly had been through her own share of experiences, both good and bad. If I understand correctly she had to quit being a geiko after giving birth to Ryoko but still decided to remain within the same world to support future maiko, even though this made her relationship with Ryoko quite awkward as she now acted like a ‘mother’ to her maiko ‘daughters’ more than she could act like a mother to her real daughter. It’s only towards the end that Ryoko finally calls her ‘mom’ one time instead of ‘Azusa’ and we see how happy this makes her. In the meantime, Mother Azusa is clearly forming a bond with this neighborhood teacher, Mr. Tanabe (played by Iura Arata). They’re often seen taking strolls together and it’s clear that they’re both fond of each other. Mr. Tanabe also admits that he’s planning on eventually proposing to Mother Azusa. It was nice how Ryoko, in her own way, gave her blessing to him.

I thought Ryoko was an interesting character because she stood in such stark contrast to the rest of Saku House’s lodgers. She’s kind of scruffy-looking, and she makes more snarky and uninterested remarks than anyone else, but she seems to be the kind of girl who hides her true feelings behind a tough mask. It initially seems like she’s looking down on the friendship between Kiyo and Sumire, but it turns out she’s actually envious of having that kind of person for herself. Once she comes to terms with her own honest feelings, it becomes easier for her to show more affection and gratitude towards people in the household, including her own mother. I’m not sure if Mother Azusa was first married or that Ryoko is an illegitimate child, but in any case, her biological father has a new family of his own now. I couldn’t make out if the father actually knew about her or not. She goes to see him one time but doesn’t actually approach him – she just watches him with his new family and mentions she doesn’t need to say hi. I’m also not sure what her true feelings towards her mother are, except that she doesn’t really feel close to her. I just got the impression that Ryoko, being surrounded by this world she had no affinity with whatsoever, felt very lonely not to have any peers around her with whom she could talk about her own life. I guess that’s what made her so envious of the friendship between Kiyo and Sumire, and it made her wonder if she’d ever meet such a person for herself as well. It was nice getting a little insight into her mind, into how alone she felt. I’m just glad she came to terms with her situation eventually.

I’m not sure in which order I should list the three maiko girls, but I’ll just go with Tsurukoma, then Kikuno, then Kotono. Tsurukoma stands apart because of her glasses. Maiko aren’t supposed to wear glasses, so everytime she wears them in the house it just makes the duality of her real self and her maiko persona that much clearer. I’m not sure if she was actually the oldest of the three, but it did feel like that. Despite the fact that she seemed to be doing well and that she was performing steadily enough, being confronted with both Kiyo’s and Sumire’s perseverence and determination in their respective paths, Tsurukoma comes to the conclusion that becoming a geiko isn’t her real passion after all and she leaves the house in the final episode. Throughout the show she probably has the most interaction with Kiyo, she seems to be interested in her the most and Kiyo also at some point makes something special for her while the others are still sleeping.
Tsurukoma can be seen as the most quirky of the three maiko girls, as she leans the most towards being an entertainer, including doing impressions. I really liked how her name seemed to be the most individualistic too, I wonder from which senior she received a character for her name. For Kikuno and Kotono, I just assumed they both got the ‘no’ from Yoshino, but I’m not sure as Momoko and Yoshino are the only two former geiko shown in the series.
Kikuno doesn’t get as much storyline, but she is mostly depicted as being the strictest out of the three girls, especially towards Kotono. She always scolds Kotono for spacing out or being late for something, but it’s clear that she is just concerned for her.
I think it’s safe to assume that Kotono is the youngest of the three, as she still seems to be the most immature in terms of experience. I thought it was cute how she developed an innocent crush on the chubby delivery guy, and how there was some potential budding romance between them as he was quite taken with her as well. When confronted with questions of the others about what in the world she saw in him, Kotono only commented that the guy had ‘such sincere/kind eyes’. That was really sweet.

In one of the final episodes, a new girl named Riko (played by Narumi Kanon) joins Saku House as a new aspiring maiko. When she appeared I realized she was shown once before, very briefly, when Kiyo and Sumire go to pray at an altar or statue, I don’t remember what it was for but Riko is shown at that statue before them, rolling the stone ball very aggressively before her school friends tell her to make way for the two girls standing in line. Riko also initially doesn’t seem like maiko material at all, she has a bigger build and a very loud and energetic way of speaking. Her mother also seemed to be a bit unsure, lol. I liked it when Mother Chiyo went ‘you took in another odd one, didn’t you’ to Mother Azusa, haha. This only happens in the second-to-last episode so Riko doesn’t actually get much development, but she’s taken into the house without any further prejudice from anyone. I guess it also just proved how welcoming Saku House was to anyone willing to make an effort, and how they never judged new aspirant girls based on their appearance.

I just have a couple of people left that I want to mention, people that were linked to, or helped out at Saku House and appeared occasionally as regulars.
First of all, of course, Mr. Tanabe. I don’t exactly know how he was related to Mother Azusa, he was depicted teaching just once so I assumed he was a teacher, maybe at Ryoko’s school? I’m not sure. Anyways, he appears a lot at the Saku Bar and is often taking walks with Mother Azusa. It seems like he is familiar with all the maiko girls too, and always joins to watch performances.
I really liked the mai instructor lady, named oshisho-san Sakurai Kimie (played by Toda Keiko). She was strict during the lessons, but she really thought about what would be good for the girls and I liked how she had that running gag of her commenting on the food they brought her on her breaks, lol. She made me laugh multiple times, I just thought she was a really funny character, but she never lost her sincerity either.
Besides her, there were Mr. Takeshi and Mr. Hiroshi, father and son, who occasionally helped out. When they needed to change the window frames for the winter in the house, for example, they would come and change them. On the other hand they also helped the girls change into their kimonos for performances and such. I’m not sure what exactly their ‘profession’ was, but it was clear that their family had been helping out at Saku House for several generations. It really just made all the people, not just the lodgers of Saku House itself but also the people who helped out regularly, seem like one big family.
And then there was the Saku Bar. At some point I thought that the bar was connected to the Saku House, as sometimes Mother Chiyo or Mother Azusa would enter the bar through a door in the back. Anyways, the bartender was Mr. Ren (played by Lily Franky). He seemed to also be part of the Saku family, although I wasn’t sure in what way exactly. He also seemed to be on good terms with Ryoko, and she was the only person sharp enough to see that he would have difficulty with the fact that Mother Azusa and Mr. Tanabe would get married – although I wasn’t sure whether that meant he was secretly in love with Mother Azusa or with Mr. Tanabe, lol. In any case, he was always a very loyal and familiar figure. In the end, during Momohana’s maiko debut, he was the one who offered her a drink while mentioning something along the lines of ‘this one is for one-sided love’, and this really made me wonder about Sumire’s feelings, and if that was really about Kenta.
Finally, I wanted to give a final mention to Mr. Seino (played by Omi Toshinori) who was in charge of taking pictures of the maiko and geiko with an analog camera. He seemed to be a personal fan of Tsurukoma, as he was really sad to see her go and he even gave her an entire photo album of pictures he’d taken of her during her life as a maiko.
All of these people felt like they were part of the family, everyone was constantly encouraging each other and that was really nice.

One theme that came back with several characters but still remained a little vague, was the one of romance and marriage prospects. While it wasn’t particularly discouraged to be in love as a maiko, fact remained that they wouldn’t be able to remain maiko or geiko after they got married or had a child. I’ve always felt that this has to do with the fact that geiko should remain ‘pure’ and ‘untouched’. On the other hand, former geiko like Yoshino and Mother Azusa were also not shamed for quitting being a geiko after deciding to do either of these things, so I’m not sure how heavy it truly weighs. In any case, I just wanted to write a bit about the feelings that Mother Azusa, Momoko and Sumire may have been carrying when it came to romance and marriage prospects.
Mother Azusa didn’t seem to have much trouble envisioning getting together with Mr. Tanabe. As she was already no longer an official geiko, I don’t think it would’ve been such a big issue for her. I mean, even Mother Chiyo at one point asks her if she’s really okay with staying at Saku House because she herself wouldn’t mind if Azusa decided to marry Mr. Tanabe and move out. We don’t actually get to see the relationship between Mother Azusa and Mr. Tanabe evolve in the end, but it does end on a positive note in terms of Ryoko giving her blessing to the both of them. I’m not sure if that was indeed something that stood in their way of confirming their feelings, but I think it definitely helped them, especially Mr. Tanabe.
In Momoko’s case, it seemed to be a bit more complicated. I sometimes found it hard to determine what she was thinking. I think the whole concept of experiencing romance while you’re in the occupation of geiko is pretty complicated, as you can’t really afford to get distracted and you remain to be the object of other people’s admiration, so there’s no easy way to get away from it once you’re actually in it and making your way to the top. I did feel like Momoko had feelings for Iwai, and that maybe a part of her did want to stay with him, or rather, wanted him to stay with her, but she just couldn’t give up her life as a geiko. I also didn’t feel like she wanted to quit, because she mentioned a couple of times before that she really felt like she was meant to be doing this. So when Mother Azusa asked her if she wanted to quit and she suddenly said ‘I don’t know’, I was quite surprised. I couldn’t figure her out completely, but she did eventually stick with being a geiko, I guess because she really couldn’t bring herself to quit, after all. But it was hard to figure out her true feelings for Iwai, since she never spoke them out loud.
This also went for Sumire, I felt like she was quite similar to Momoko in that sense. She just had this really ambitious and genuine attitude towards becoming a maiko, but in-between we would get flashbacks from her about things they’d been through with Kenta, and just generally things that suggested that she was thinking about him. She would keep reading the New Year’s card he’d sent to her Kiyo and her. At first, I honestly thought there would be a kind of love triangle between her, Kiyo and Kenta. Sometimes it seemed to me as if Kenta had a crush on Kiyo and Sumire was having a one-sided crush on Kenta but could still never bring herself to feel resentful towards Kiyo. I’m not sure what it was because, again, it was never spoken out loud. But there was definitely something about Sumire, something was still bothering her deep down. I really wonder what it was.

The above paragraph brings me to a separate comment about the dialogue in this drama. I’ve mentioned it briefly in my introduction before, but I just loved how this drama sometimes resorted to silence and facial expressions rather than dialogue. The dialogues in itself were all really good, but sometimes the characters managed to convey so much by doing so little and I loved that. Especially the expressions shared between Kiyo and Sumire, like literally no words were required.
The other side of that is that some things were not expressed or explained as clearly as I would’ve liked. Although the charm of keeping certain messages hidden spoke to me in some way, in the end I did find it a pity that I couldn’t figure out what feelings and thoughts for example Momoko and Sumire were holding back. I’m not always the sharpest person so sometimes I need things spelled out to me, lol. Although I loved that sometimes silence was worth more than words, I would’ve liked some things to be explained in more words, haha.

Oh, one more character that I want to mention because I kept wondering about her: Yumi (played by Miura Rina). I thought that she was from a different house, because Kiyo and Sumire often talked with her on the balcony where they’d hang their laundry and Yumi was on the balcony that belonged to the other house. However, one time she did manage to come into Saku House and was sitting on the staircase. She didn’t actually live and eat in Saku House, but it seemed like she was also training to become a maiko. Until the end I wasn’t quite sure where she came from/belonged to. She remained a bit of a mystery to me. I initially thought she was just another maiko-in-training who they kept running into, but her appearances kept making me think there was more to her character.

I really like how this series places the traditional theme of maiko and geiko in a modern day setting. To make a series like this in 2023 feels like it’s meant to be educative. It just shows that even in modern times, Japan will always hold on to their rich culture and tradition that links to their history. Geiko will always be a symbol of pureness and gracefulness, and I found it very refreshing to see how learning the traditional arts of mai and flower arrangement still attract young girls these days, it proves how truly timeless it is. I’ve never been to Kyoto before but I can definitely see the appeal in taking a trip there and wandering through Gion, I bet it might feel like going back in time in a way. I love how they can still make these traditional themes so appealing for modern audiences, the whole vibe of the series really drew me in from the start.

As I anticipated, I was able to apply most of my comments on this series in the above character analyses, so now it’s time for some cast comments! I really liked the fact that I knew almost none of the actors before, I loved discovering all these new talented people. All in all I found the acting very nice and realistic, they truly created a very authentic vibe and I liked all the characters in their own way.

I didn’t even recognize her, but Mori Nana actually appeared in 3-nen A-gumi! I even gave her a special shoutout in my review because of her amazing natural acting there! She really impressed me in The Makanai. She portrayed the simplicity of her character so well, her easygoing nature and how well she naturally adapted to working in the Saku House. Her friendship with Sumire was so natural that verbal confirmation wasn’t needed, and it really seemed like she was genuinely happy where she was. She didn’t have any dark thoughts or heavy feelings, it seemed. I can’t remember the last time I saw such an uncomplicated main character in a show. Her genuine smile and unbiased kindness just makes it impossible to dislike her. I am looking forward to seeing more series with her, I believe there are a few left on my watchlist, but she definitely made me realize what I already briefly noticed in her appearance in 3-nen A-gumi, this girl has something so naturally charming about her and her acting is incredibly realistic, almost as if it’s unscripted. I really liked her performance.

I hadn’t seen Deguchi Natsuki before, but I really liked her in The Makanai. She really was a perfect fit for the role of Sumire. She has this incredibly pure and innocent youthful beauty about her. We get to see the journey of such a young girl growing into a maiko and it was really interesting to see how she, despite her attachments to Kiyo, still managed to pave her own way and remain determined throughout the whole ordeal. While I thought her quiet acting was amazing, as mentioned before I would’ve liked to get some more insight in Sumire’s thoughts. The only narration we ever get in the story is from Kiyo, and Sumire seems to keep most of her thoughts and feelings to herself. I liked that she really exceeded being just ‘the best friend’ of the title character, because the story was as much about her as it was about Kiyo. I was really impressed with her subtle acting, half of the time it didn’t even seem like acting because she was just immersed in taking in all the impressions around her. The way her eyes lit up when she was watching Momoko perform, for instance, or how she took in everything during her lessons. It really felt like watching a documentary about her actually training to become a maiko. She was amazingly natural.

By the way, not me being shook at the fact that both Mori Nana and Deguchi Natsuki are actually 21 years old?! Honestly, when they said they were 16 in the show I didn’t even believe them, lol. Especially Deguchi Natsuki looks incredibly young for her age. I’m shook.

I kept trying to convince myself that I knew Hashimoto Ai from something, but it turns out I don’t. She looks so familiar, though! Anyways, wow. This woman is a literal piece of art. In her geiko outfit, she literally looked like she stepped out of a painting. I am not surprised at all that she’s a model in real life, being all tall and lanky and gorgeous. Even her face, the sharp nose and chin, everything about her is so aesthetic, I can’t even fathom it. Once again, a perfect casting choice, she really made Momoko the mysterious yet quirky character that she was. I was very impressed with her performance.

I kept thinking about how much Matsuoka Mayu reminded me of the Korean actress Seo Jung Yeon for some reason, but I now realize that I’ve seen her before in Mondai no Aru Restaurant. I would never have guessed that was her. In that series, she was basically what Ryoko was like in The Makanai! Admittedly, that was almost 10 years ago so of course she’d have aged, lol. Anyways, I really liked the vibe that Yoshino brought with her, it was nice to see a variety in personalities, because that really made you realize how any kind of person could be suited to become a geiko in their own way. If there had been more episodes, I definitely would have liked to see a flashback of the time when Momoko and Yoshino were still in training, that would be really nice. I liked how natural the entertainer persona came to her, too.

Apparently I’ve seen Matsuzaka Keiko before in Hayako-sensei, but it has been too long ago for me to remember her from there. I was sure I probably knew her from somewhere because again, she looked really familiar. I liked how quirky Mother Chiyo was, already in her affinity with Korean actors, lol, that just made her super relatable all of a sudden. But also in her gracefulness towards that kabuki actor who was her first love. I was curious to know a little more about her backstory, but the way she was depicted now was also nice because of her simplicity. She was a very nice character, maybe not as much of a mother figure as Mother Azusa, but she really cared about all the girls and held good relationships with everyone. She made Mother Chiyo into a very quirky lady, even at the age of 70!

Tokiwa Takako was another one of those actresses that I swore I knew from something, but it turns out I don’t. How come all these people have such familiar faces? Anyways, I really loved Mother Azusa. I kind of expected her to be really strict or something, but I loved that they gave her such a ditzy quirk. The thing with her eating Sumire’s snack and accidentally giving her the wrong comb to wear, she was just so human and I loved it. I would’ve liked to see Mr. Tanabe actually go on one knee, but I guess we’ll just have to imagine that happening for ourselves. Mother Azusa was a really kind person, she obviously cared about all the maiko in her care as much as she cared about Ryoko, although she may have been a little awkward in expressing her feelings towards her own child. I thought it was nice to give her a backstory like that. While all the characters were always smiling and seemingly happy, you just know that in their time, they must’ve also gone through a lot of stuff, not all of it nice. I love how she portrayed Mother Azusa as such a relatable character.

Makita Aju is actually a year younger than Mori Nana and Deguchi Natsuki, I really wouldn’t have thought that. I haven’t seen her in anything else before, but I really liked her natural acting as well. She was someone who’d usually kind of glance down rather than directly talking to people, and whose words may have come across as a bit more harsh than she would’ve meant. I think she portrayed the rebelliousness layered by loneliness in Ryoko very well, I felt for her at times because it seemed like she didn’t have that many people she could rely on, like even friends she could meet up with. It was interesting that there was one character like her within that house, at least one person who kept a distance from it all, who stayed away but was still accepted into the family. I think she did very well, I think in hindsight Ryoko may have been one of the most interesting characters to me.

Fukuchi Momoko is going on my list of actresses to keep an eye on. I LOVED Tsurukoma. There was just something about her that immediately made me like her, I don’t know what. It was so nice seeing this girl with her maiko-hairstyle and these old-fashioned strap-connected glasses, it immediately made her this ‘character’, like you could immediately see the duality of her as a person versus her being a maiko. Apart from the fact that I find her super pretty, despite her youthfulness there was something wise and profound about her face (I see that she’s indeed a bit older than the others, she’s 25 in real life), and I found it a refreshing choice to make Tsurukoma eventually decide to quit being a maiko. I hadn’t seen it coming, but it made her seem all the more mature to me for realizing that there was more for her to discover, that this wasn’t her final destination. Her performance entertained me to no end, I really loved all of the scenes she appeared in. I really hope I’ll get to see more dramas with her, I believe there are some left on my watchlist. Looking forward to that!

Wakayanagi Kotoko in turn reminds me of a younger version of Korean actress Seo Ji Hye. Again, she looks so familiar but I haven’t seen her in anything before. I would’ve liked to know a bit more about Kikuno’s story, but I liked that the three maiko girls all had their own personality and that they all still worked really hard to achieve their goal. Kikuno clearly took care of Kotono most of all, and at some point I even thought they might be actual sisters, because their names were also kept so similar. That didn’t seem to be the case, though, so maybe she just took her role as ‘older sister’ very seriously. I liked her performance.

Apparently this is Minami Kotona’s drama acting debut! According to MyDramaList she’s working on one movie right now, but she hasn’t done anything else before. It seems like she’s the youngest of the bunch too, she’s only 16 years old. In the series they really made them all look practically the same age, so that’s cool. She was probably the character closest in age to Kiyo and Sumire when they entered the Saku House and it felt like she also hadn’t been a maiko for that long yet, maybe she’d just made her debut. What I’ve said about most all people until now also goes for her: I really liked how naturally she acted and the slightly ditzy side to her also suited her very well. I loved how, when they were filming that horror movie sequence, she was just walking around with that bald patch on and even opened the door to the delivery guy without even feeling a little bit ashamed, haha. She’s really cute, too!

Iura Arata is such a familiar face by now that I’m not even surprised to see him anymore, haha. I feel like he’s appearing in a lot lately, mostly Netflix series. I know him from Rich Man Poor Woman, Tantei no Tantei, Unnatural and I recently saw him as a guest appearance in First Love: Hatsukoi. It was nice seeing a slightly less arrogant or grumpy character from him for a change, haha, he really played Mr. Tanabe very sympathetically and I was just waiting for him to officially confess to Mother Azusa. I liked his character, how we was kind of adopted into the Saku House family even though he also stood outside of it for the most part. He was just a very familiar presence to everyone. It was nice to see him in this.

Lily Franky is such an iconic actor, and this is actually the first time I’ve seen him appear in a drama series! I’ve only ever seen him in movies, and specifically Koreeda Hirokazu movies before. I guess he couldn’t leave him out of this one, either. Apparently he’s done plenty of drama series before, I’ve just never seen them, lol. Some movies I’ve seen of him are Like Father, Like Son (Koreeda), Our Little Sister (Koreeda), Shoplifters (Koreeda) and I recently saw him in the movie Call Me Chihiro, which is also on Netflix. I really like him, he always adds such a nice touch to all the characters that he plays, so it was nice to see him here as a friendly bartender.

I think I’ll keep it at that for the cast comments! I think the acting overall was really nice and realistic, and it just gave the whole series such an authentic feel to it. Everyone acted out their lines so naturally, and the way the show was structured felt like a documentary about these girls’ lives, that’s how unscripted it sometimes felt. When I say ‘unscripted’ I just mean to say that it felt that they were not following a script. I liked how we just fall into the story, it is also authentic in the way it introduces you to the characters without actually providing a profile, like ‘name, age, role in the house’. You really get to know the characters according to how often they appear through the story and what they tell you about themselves. In this way, we get to know more about some characters and less about others and that in itself also makes it really realistic.
I guess the only criticism I have is that it is so short and there is still so much I want to know. There are still a lot of characters I want to know more about, I want more backstories. I want to see Mr. Tanabe propose to Mother Azusa, I want to see some flashbacks from Momoko’s and Yoshino’s time in the house, I want to see how Riko will do in her training, etc. I’ve just gotten genuinely curious about everyone’s story, and leaving me hanging has got me feeling mixed. It’s been a great watch and I don’t even fully blame it for leaving several things open (Japanese movies and series tend to do that, anyway), but I guess the fact that I felt like I need more was exactly because of how good it is. It’s just gotten me invested in this big Saku House family so much that I don’t want to leave so soon. The lack of exciting events may also induce some criticism but on the other hand, slow-paced daily life-based stories are very much my thing, and it’s also what I love about Mr. Koreeda’s films. So yeah, my only criticisms exist because of how much I enjoyed the show. I really hope Japan keeps making these kinds of shows, because so far I’m really liking them.

If I had to sum up all the things I liked about this show, it would go something like this: I liked how it managed to balance the traditional aspect of the geisha culture with the respectful preparation of Japanese food. The food depicted was absolutely mouth-watering and it made me want to get a bite of every single thing Kiyo made. It’s a story about true friendship, friendship that perseveres through unforesoon circumstances, friendship made stronger by genuine mutual care and encouragement. The way everyone rooted and was genuinely happy for each other when they managed to advance on their path, even if it caused some inevitable envy. I loved how every character played an important role, and how it was emphasized how maiko and geiko truly are nothing without the additional support of their seniors, teachers and helpers. The support system they have behind the scenes is incredible. It taught me so much about Japanese culture, even when I already thought I’d learned most of what there was to learn. It actually made me want to visit Gion, Kyoto and feel this sensation for myself, see actual maiko and geiko with my own eyes, because now I feel like I can bring up more respect and understanding for them than before. The story is apparently based on a manga series, but they managed to bring it to life so well that it might as well have been a reconstruction or a documentary of a geiko‘s personal experience or something. I just loved the authenticity, the Kyoto-dialect that was mostly used, the ookini-s and the otanomoushimasu-s. And I loved how it was about inclusion. The fact that Saku House admitted girls from all backgrounds and personalities, even ‘odd ones out’ like Riko, because they never judged anyone based on their appearance or behavior. It was all just so nice, so welcoming, so warm. Also, I’m absolutely craving Japanese food now.

This show is definitely a gem amongst all the new stuff that’s been coming out on Netflix these days. I am glad I was able to see a drama series from Mr. Koreeda Hirokazu after only having seen films from him, but this might just as well have been one of his films, the style was unmistakable. The acting was great, the vibe was alluring, it was really my kind of series. The only thing I can comment is that it wasn’t very eventful, as in, dramatic, and I would’ve loved to see much more content, but I also can’t say that these points make the series less good. It’s an ichi-go ichi-e, a one of a kind gem, and that’s my final word on it.

I’ve decided that it’s time to catch up on some more recent hyped releases before I go on with my watchlist, because they keep piling up and I can’t keep up with them if I let them go by for too long. So up next is going to be a very recent newly hyped romantic comedy, I’m really curious!

Until then, bye-bee!

So I Married an Anti-Fan

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.


So I Married an Anti-Fan
( 그래서 나는 안티팬과 결혼했다 / Geuraeseo Naneun Antipaengwa Gyeolhonhaedda)
MyDramaList rating: 6.0/10

Hey everyone, it’s time for a new review! This one had been on my list for a while, and after my last watch I was really excited to start on it. I’d heard some stories about how it was going to get cancelled or whatnot, so I really wanted to see what this could’ve been about. Turns out it didn’t have to do with any controversy per se, but more with the fact that they weren’t able to find a broadcasting channel for the show? In any case, I guess they figured that out because we are now able to watch it completely online. My expectations were that it would maybe be a bit similar to Her Private Life or something, as it also revolved around an idol fandom and the entertainment industry, but it turned out to be quite different, and I have to say that unfortunately I didn’t end up liking this one as much as I’d hoped. I will elaborate on that more in this review of course, but that’s just to give you a heads up. Okay, so let’s get to it!

So I Married an Anti-Fan is a 16-episode K-Drama with episodes lasting about an hour each. The story is about aspiring journalist Lee Geun Young (played by SNSD’s Choi Soo Young), who seems to be the ultimate doormat. Her nickname at work is ‘Just Geun Young’ (aka ‘geunyang geunyeong’) because it’s so easy to dump tasks on her and say ‘Just let Geun Young do it’, because she never stands up for herself. In one of these instances, she’s chosen to cover a task where she needs to take a picture of/have a short interview with idol popstar Hoo Joon (played by Choi Tae Joon). She and one of her colleagues, Go Soo Hwan (Kim Min Gyu, always a fave), are sent to this club where he’ll make an appearance, but she doesn’t get the chance to talk with him. After having dinner with Soo Hwan and getting a little drunk, Geun Young goes in search of the bathroom but instead stumbles upon Hoo Joon having a seemingly earnest conversation with a girl she can’t identify. The girl seems very upset and at one point it even looks like Hoo Joon strikes her, but then he notices Geun Young and goes after her. Without even giving her a chance to explain herself, Hoo Joon smashes the camera in her hands and this incident creates the first bad connection between them. When Hoo Joon leaves the building later, Geun Young even goes after him and throws her shoe at his head, hitting him, which causes her to get some bad press as a result. Hoo Joon is so popular nation-wide that Geun Young is automatically put away as the bad guy, because after all Hoo Joon would never do anything to provoke such behavior. In any case, Geun Young is fired from her job almost immediately afterwards and, assuming it has to do with Hoo Joon’s influence in the matter, she decides to become his anti-fan and starts demonstrating outside his agency, much to the dislike of his fans.
Admittedly, Geun Young is going through a rough patch around that time. She quite recently broke up with her boyfriend after finding out he was actually gay (nice twist) and was using her as his beard, and then after she loses her job, she also loses her house. She stays with her friend Mi Jung (played by Kim Ha Kyung) for a while, but Mi Jung has a boyfriend who is planning to move in, so Geun Young doesn’t feel comfortable intruding on their space. And now, she’s also starting to become a target of online hate from Hoo Joon’s fans. In any case, we can understand that she’s in a tight spot.
On Hoo Joon’s side, we find out that he was actually not directly responsible for Geun Young losing her job, after he hears what happened to her he even mentions that he found it quite extreme to fire her over something like that. Apart from that, he still doesn’t exactly like Geun Young, so he doesn’t extend a helping hand or anything either.
Then, the both of them are suddenly approached by the producers of a new variety show called ‘So I Married an/my Anti-Fan’. The idea of the show is to put Hoo Joon and Geun Young in one house together and make them pretend like they are a married couple. I wonder if this idea was inspired by the actual existing show involving celebrities called ‘So We Got Married’. They initially both refuse the offer, but Geun Young is in desperate need of money and Hoo Joon has to keep up his reputation of being a forgiving and loving national treasure. So they end up doing it, and that’s how their real story starts.
In the meantime, we have two other important characters, the second main leads if you will. One of them is Choi Jae Joon, nicknamed JJ (played by Hwang Chan Sung), the CEO of his own talent agency, and Oh In Hyung (played by Han Ji An), a trainee under JJ, who was originally part of a girl group that disbanded and is now working hard for her second debut as a solo artist. Jae Joon and In Hyung used to be trainees together with Hoo Joon and the three of them used to be very close friends – Hoo Joon and In Hyung were even in a relationship at some point. However, things turned sour between them after Hoo Joon suddenly got his chance to debut (even though he started later than the other two) and became increasingly popular, leaving the other two behind. While In Hyung has never blamed him for his success even though it ended up driving them apart, Jae Joon has remained consistently bitter towards Hoo Joon, accusing him of betraying him and In Hyung. Especially after Hoo Joon refused joining Jae Joon’s agency. Out of spite, Jae Joon ‘took’ In Hyung into his agency to keep her on his side, also because he had been in love with her since even before Hoo Joon joined them as trainees. Let’s just say there’s a lot of bad blood between the two guys, mainly on Jae Joon’s side. Even though the relationship between Hoo Joon and In Hyung is now also very awkward and uncomfortable, it’s clear that they still care for each other, even if it’s not in that romantic way anymore. It’s more like, they wish each other luck in their respective careers, if they have to work together, so be it, but outside of that they’re not actually keeping in contact. They both have each other saved on their phones as ‘Stranger’ and they only call each other in case of emergencies. Actually one of the reasons why Hoo Joon decided to take on the variety show with Geun Young is because his management threatened that if he didn’t do it, he’d have to do it with In Hyung, and he didn’t want to put her (or himself) in that position.
So that’s how it starts, Hoo Joon and Geun Young start the variety show ‘So I Married an/my Anti-Fan’ together and while they’re both initially out to get each other, they end up falling in love.

I just want to clarify from the start that my criticism on this show didn’t lie in the actors’ performances. I think everyone did a great job and played their characters very convincingly. I think my dislike stemmed mostly from the fact that I couldn’t fully sympathize with most of the characters, especially the four main leads. I’ve never had this before while watching a K-Drama, but the relationships between all the main characters were all so messy and problematic, and even toxic at times, that I constantly had this gloomy feeling hanging over me while I was watching it. Especially in the first half of the series, everything was so icky, even between the main leads, and that’s also part of the reason why I couldn’t fully support the main couple. It just didn’t feel right. Everyone had their reasons, everyone had their backgrounds and all that, but the way they all treated each other was really problematic, and I couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable about it until the end, even though it did get a little bit better towards the finale.

I think it’ll be good to start by introducing the four main characters and their relationship dynamics, because besides the above there’s still a lot more to say about it.
Let me start with Geun Young. I read a lot of negative comments about Geun Young’s character, especially in the first half of the show, but I have to say that that was the part where, rather than disliking her, I mostly just felt really bad for her. True, she was a doormat, she couldn’t stand up for herself and didn’t manage to speak up even in cases where it really wasn’t that hard, only causing herself to be put in dire situations over and over again. But it can’t be denied that she was put in an incredibly bad position. It was really sad to see how she just couldn’t get anyone to listen to her, no one even took the time to think about her situation or to put themselves in her shoes for a moment. Even the producers from the variety show acted like these super nice and supportive people who were trying to improve her public image, only to resort to evil-editing in the show, causing her to receive more and more online hate and then not even offering support when she was literally assaulted by Hoo Joon’s fans in public. They kept telling her ‘it will blow over and hey, look on the bright side, our ratings have never been higher!’ Like, are you freaking kidding me? I didn’t believe they actually cared about Geun Young, it was always only about their show and their ratings.
I found it a bit hard to typify Geun Young’s character. Her parents were living in the countryside, she lived and worked in Seoul, and she wanted to be a journalist with specialization in the entertainment industry (I guess), and as far as I know, for that kind of work you need to be really persistent and tenacious at times. You can’t afford to be hesitant to step up to celebrities and ask them about private stuff, you can’t think about being sentimental when you’re writing an article that could possibly destroy an artist’s image. It didn’t really seem to fit Geun Young’s personality in my opinion.
Rather than having actual trouble voicing her opinions, it seemed to me as if it mainly happened in groups of people that she felt were higher in rank than her, people she couldn’t refuse. Because one-on-one, she had no trouble telling someone off. But for some reason, when it was her in front of multiple people, she just couldn’t speak her mind freely or she just waited until the chance passed for her to say something. Which also doesn’t seem like very journalist-like behavior. I don’t know, I guess what I’m saying is that I found it difficult to determine what kind of person she was, and I was very curious about giving a character like her the ambition for journalism, of all things. In general, it seemed like she was quite a passive person by nature, she was patient, she put up with things and she had trouble speaking up about feeling uncomfortable, which continuously put her in situations she could’ve easily avoided by simply saying ‘no’. Even after telling her ex-boyfriend off in the first episode, I mean she showed there and then that she was sick and tired of always being so patient with people, so I thought that that was the moment where she decided she was going to change, but she really doesn’t, not even at the end of the show. There were a few instances where she was straightforward and honest with people, which I very much appreciated. Like how she declined that contract from Superpatch to spy on Hoo Joon while she was filming the show, and how she eventually saw through Jae Joon’s motives of bringing Hoo Joon down. Those were the only moments where I finally saw a strong side in her, but apart from those, she remained pretty passive and that was a pity.
The thing that happened in Japan was one of the things that really made me roll my eyes, though. As much as I could relate to her being unable to speak up, this was just stupid. They arrive for a shooting session in Okinawa, and it’s automatically assumed by the producer team that everyone has already been to Japan (aka Okinawa) at least once. Geun Young fails to speak up about the fact that she has never been to Japan (aka Okinawa), and as a result she’s forced to guide Hoo Joon around. Like, why would you let yourself be put into that position? There was more than enough opportunity for her to say ‘excuse me, I’ve never been here so I can’t guide someone around’. But she still put up with the lie and just made an even bigger fool out of herself getting them lost. That was probably the first time for me to get annoyed with her inability to speak up for herself, because this was just ridiculous. As if it was a shameful thing to admit! It was the producers’ mistake to just blindly assume that everyone had been there.
On a side note, I found it weird how they didn’t make a difference between being in Japan (in general) and being on Okinawa (in particular). If someone would say to me, I’m going to Japan, my first thought would be Tokyo or Osaka. But Okinawa is a completely separate island, it’s all the way to the south of the main islands and as far as I know, it has its own culture and language/dialect. So just assuming that having been to Japan before automatically means that everyone knows their way around Okinawa felt unrealistically presumptious to me. Like, I’ve been to Japan, I’ve lived in Tokyo, but I’ve never been to Okinawa before, so I wouldn’t know my way around there either. It’s just weird that they would say ‘we’re going to Japan’ instead of ‘we’re going to Okinawa’, and that they just assume everyone has been to Okinawa before as if it’s the same thing as having been to mainland Japan, when it’s literally a separate island. Anyways.
Even when the relationship between Hoo Joon and Geun Young improves, I still found her way too patient. It really felt as if she was just letting everything happen while Hoo Joon was the one who initiated everything. She was always on the receiving end. I mean, if that was okay for her, then great, but it just made her seem like the most passive party in their relationship as well. Hoo Joon was constantly the person who came to her, who initiated all the kisses, while she kept letting herself be surprised. Seriously, even after he’d already kissed her three times, she still went 👁👄👁 when he’d suddenly hug or kiss her again. She just stood there while he kissed her and made their relationship work, basically. I would’ve liked to see more scenes in which she took things into her own hands.
Speaking of moments where I wished she’d stood up for herself more, there was for example the scene where he stood her up and she waited for him in the snow. She left her phone at home by accident (seriously, what is it with her and her phone, first she accidentally takes someone else’s phone, then she forgets her phone at home, then she doesn’t notice it ringing right next to her?), but even when she realizes he’s late, she just stays there. I’m not sure she realized she didn’t have her phone, but come on, even when you don’t realize and you’re already waiting for more than an hour, what’s stopping you from just going home, even if it’s just to pick up your phone and go back? I didn’t get why she just kept sitting there without even thinking, oh maybe something came up and he contacted me but I don’t have my phone. And then when she finally gets home and sees her phone there with his message that something did come up, she just texts ‘It’s okay’, like WHY?! I would’ve just told him, ‘yo I forgot my phone at home and just got your message after waiting for you in the snow for three hours. Do what you want with this information, but I now caught a cold because of this, bye.’ Like, even in a situation like that she still let him walk all over her and I didn’t see the point, she could’ve just been honest, there was nothing to do about the situation anymore, either way. Make him feel bad about standing you up, don’t be shy!
Also, her naivety when it came to Superpatch suddenly hiring her without even expecting to spill any tea about her time on the show with Hoo Joon. Seriously, she should not have kept that personal file on Hoo Joon on her laptop for anyone to access. I mean, she was fooled, but she should have known from her first interview with that director that Superpatch was a company of opportunistic jerks, and I found it very neglectful of her to not even lock away her private files before just handing her laptop over to a colleague on her first day. I would’ve kept standing by that colleague’s side while she installed the stuff, like, I wouldn’t have let the laptop or its contents out of my sight. While it was a bit extreme of her to completely blame herself for In Hyung and Jae Joon’s car accident, because that in itself wasn’t her fault, but I get that she’d punish herself for her own stupidity in not being more careful with the stuff she wrote in her anti-fan period. All in all, in my opinion Geun Young was just way too much of a ditz to be a journalist. Maybe that’s why at some point people started encouraging her to pick up writing instead, lol.

I liked Geun Young’s parents a lot. I’m not entirely sure what exactly it was that her mother (played by Yoon Bok In) did, she was playing the hwatu cards everytime she was on screen and at some point it seemed like she was also drawing them herself? I’m not sure, but I liked that she was the kind of tough love mom who may have cut the lease on Geun Young’s house and scolded her over the phone, but when Hoo Joon visited them, she was still suspicious of him and still wanted proof that he was worthy of her daughter first. Her dad (played by Park Chul Min) was also so great, like whenever Geun Young was evil-edited on TV, he would break down the town’s antennas, haha. I really liked how wary the both of them initially were of Hoo Joon, knowing he was partly responsible for what their daughter had to go through on that show, and it was nice that they both really had her back.

Oh, and I thought it was interesting that it seemed like shoes were kind of a symbol in the beginning. In the first episode, Geun Young wears a pair of shoes that her ex-boyfriend gave her, but they are too big for her. Later in the show, she receives a pair that doesn’t fit well either, and at some point she receives a pair from Hoo Joon which finally fit, after he’s asked her ex-boyfriend for her size. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but I like that at some point she made this parallel between ill-fitting shoes and her relationship with Hoo Joon, how he just ‘didn’t fit her’. She came back on that, obviously, but for some reason I liked that they kept that theme of ill-fitting shoes in it. Also, because their whole story began with an ill-fitted shoe being thrown at Hoo Joon’s head, of course.

One other character I severely disliked was Geun Young’s initial boss at the journalist company she worked, the woman nicknamed Mean Moon Hee (played by Yoo Seo Jin). She was such a bitch. Not only did she keep Geun Young in the dark about the real reason she was fired, basically letting her unleash all her anger towards Hoo Joon for no reason, she even went so far as to steal Geun Young’s previous proposals. She’d constantly bring Geun Young down, even after she already left the company, and the way she acted all smug about it was really irritating. With her, I also wondered why she suddenly decided to come clean to Geun Young at the end, it wouldn’t have hurt to just keep her character as the meanie ex-boss she didn’t want to run into ever again. Anyways, I sincerely disliked this woman, she was also very petty in her own way.

Hoo Joon kept giving me a lot of mixed signals in the beginning, and I really didn’t like him at first. Even though he didn’t seem too bad, in that he didn’t actually press for Geun Young’s dismissal from work even after she threw a shoe at him, but even after that he really didn’t help Geun Young out even when he knew she was going through hard times because of his fans. In the development of their relationship, rather than taking the initiative, it felt more like he just decided that they were going to be lovers without even checking with Geun Young first if she was on the same boat with him. If I had to put into words how I felt towards him, I’d say that even though he seemed sympathetic in a general way, he didn’t actually go out of his way to extend a helping hand to people until something had already happened to them. Something like that. He knew exactly what Geun Young would be going through, he knew his fans and how hardcore they could be, and still he just kind of stood by and watched. When he spotted her upset or crying, he’d just be like ‘hang in there’, like yeah, because taking it on himself to tell his fans to go easy on her was too much to expect, apparently. He did start standing up for her more after the song leak-issue, and of course after they started seeing each other in secret, but before that, even at times when he was already warming up to her, he would just watch and do nothing. One time that really pissed me off, was when he asked Geun Young to wait in line for an entire night so she could get a new video game soundtrack for him, and he didn’t even thank her for it afterwards. Like, it was at that moment that he heard that she supposedly signed that contract with Superpatch and had been spying on him all this time, but even so he still could have had the decency to at least thank her for keeping his spot in that row. What was up with him bringing her there and then leaving halfway anyway? He brought her there, he made her stay up for 10 hours for something that didn’t even involve her, and then he couldn’t even bring himself to say ‘thanks for the trouble’? No matter how suspicious he was of her by then, that was just dirty. It was also wrong of him to assume that without double-checking, by the way. Because it wasn’t even true, and instead of keeping a closer eye on the matter, he suddenly just turned completely cold towards her. After that, Geun Young was assaulted by his fans AGAIN and he didn’t even do anything. He legit just went, ‘That’s not right, I wonder where security is’, and walked AWAY. When he was finally told that the contract thing wasn’t true, he got angry at his informant, while he himself also shouldn’t have assumed, all the more because at that point I thought he might not even believe she would do that. Anyways, he would just play with her feelings on and off in the beginning, being super nice and chivalrous one day and completely unconcerned about her the next, so I get why Geun Young also got confused by him. And instead of genuinely apologizing after he unrighteously accused her of something and treated her like trash, he’d just butter her up with some expensive gift like a pair of shoes. Seriously, how hard is it to say ‘sorry’? I really didn’t appreciate that side of him. And that’s also why I didn’t care for their first kiss at all. It came at the completely wrong time, and it just felt wrong to me. I literally went, ‘What the fuck, NO’ when it happened. He said something like, ‘I’m so pissed off at you, I get so confused and worried and now I just need to confirm what this is’. Like, it was completely on HIS terms and she was more than right to push him away because what the actual fudge, man. Of course they still kissed after that, but really, this is the first time as far as I can remember that I did not agree with a first kiss between the main couple. The timing was weird, right after this thing happened and he was supposed to apologize to her.
Even though he finally became consistent in his behavior towards Geun Young after they kissed (as in, at least he didn’t turn his back on her again after that), he still kept being super casual about things that would cause Geun Young a lot of trouble. For example, when that producer thought it would be a fun idea to release the footage of them accidentally bumping lips on the first day of shooting. Everyone knew that that would only unleash even more fan hate towards Geun Young, and still when it was released and Geun Young panicked, Hoo Joon just made it into a casual joke like, ‘hey, but at least now us kissing isn’t an accident anymore’, as if he didn’t even take it seriously what this would do to her. Everything was smooth-sailing for him, but apart from some general worrying about Geun Young’s wellbeing, it took him way too long to actually hold that press conference and tell everyone that they needed to leave her alone, and that was mainly to clear his own name, or rather all the lies that had been built up around his celebrity persona. So yeah, I found it weird how their relationship went along with Hoo Joon’s wishes and Geun Young kind of just went along with it.
Also, I want to mention Hoo Joon’s family situation because I am still confused. He tells Geun Young at some point that he was born in Alaska and that his father left him when he was really young. His mother stayed in Alaska, and while he calls her multiple times throughout the show, she never picks up. Which caused me confusion because why was that? Was she avoiding him? Was she actually there? Was she dead and was he just calling out of a sense of melancholy? She only picks up the phone after he finally finds out about his father and then she just cries. Colour me intrigued, because I still have no idea what that was about. The only thing we find out is that there is this ring that his father left – his mother told him it was his father’s ring, and with that ring he and Manager Seo are trying to find out where his father is. In the end it (or rather Jae Joon, because he gets himself involved) leads him to a lawyer, and he says that yes, that ring belongs to him, but Hoo Joon’s father used it to propose to Hoo Joon’s mother and engraved the Y A M A letters in it. (I called what they stood for by the way✌️ but not before going, ‘…You Are My Anti-Fan?’ xD). Anyways, the whole story was a bit vague for me until the end, but eventually it turns out his father passed away and he’s able to visit his grave. What additional purpose this whole quest with the ring was about, what it actually contributed to Hoo Joon’s development, I am not sure.

If I had to point out one single person that wasn’t even slightly problematic to me in this show, I would say Hoo Joon’s manager Seo Ji Hyang (played by Kim Seon Hyuk). He was the best guy. Not only was he always loyal to Hoo Joon, he really cared about Geun Young’s wellbeing as well, he supported their relationship without a single bit of judgement, only worry that it would harm the both of them. He was Hoo Joon’s person, but he never turned his back on others even when Hoo Joon did, with the exception of Jae Joon and In Hyung, he was actively trying to keep Hoo Joon away from them for everyone’s sake. So yeah, he was the greatest, and no other character in the show came even close to his level of sincerity.

Choi Jae Joon was another character that really set my teeth on edge. I can’t remember the last time I’ve been this annoyed by a second male lead. He was such a petty child. His reason for hating Hoo Joon and continuously wanting to bring him down in whatever way possible bordered on obsessive and irrational and it clearly originated from a major inferiority complex. Basically, Jae Joon got increasingly jealous of Hoo Joon, especially after he got together with In Hyung. For some reason, Jae Joon felt more entitled to In Hyung because he knew her first. He knew her longer, he trained with her longer, so he should’ve gotten together with her. Amazing logic. Anyways, he kept his jealousy about their relationship hidden for a while, but then when Hoo Joon got to debut first and then declined Jae Joon’s offer to join his agency, he decided that that was the ultimate betrayal and from that moment on, he had the right to take everything away from Hoo Joon, starting with In Hyung. I don’t know exactly how it went, but Hoo Joon showed up at In Hyung’s debut party (or the celebration of her entering JJ’s agency) and saw Jae Joon kissing her, so I guess by then Jae Joon and In Hyung had already gotten together. It just made things really awkward between them. But one of the worst things was that in his plan to keep In Hyung away from Hoo Joon, Jae Joon also limits In Hyung in a lot of opportunities that are necessary to climb up in her career. After all, she has to start from the bottom in order to gain fame again, and he basically takes away all her openings, just because he doesn’t want her to catch a glimpse of Hoo Joon’s face. And strangely enough, a lot of the openings that In Hyung gets lead her to a collaboration with Hoo Joon in one way or another. She gets the chance to sing the guide track for a new duet, and this happens to be Hoo Joon’s new song. She happens to get a commercial gig in Okinawa, and this happens to be with Hoo Joon.
Besides his childish behavior towards Hoo Joon and In Hyung, Jae Joon is also just a really irresponsible CEO. He gives the permission himself for In Hyung taking these jobs, because he won’t even listen to the managers when they tell him ‘hey, there’s this commercial and they can’t find anyone to do it…’ and Jae Joon would be like ‘whatever, just send anyone, deal with it somehow’ and then of course In Hyung would jump to the occasion because she is just desperate for any chance she can get. The way Jae Joon kept sulking about these things was so childish. I get that he was also under a lot of pressure from his dad who gave him the company and his older brother (nice guest appearance of Sung Hoon, by the way), but he was really not in a stable mindset to run a company. He only cared about keeping In Hyung away from Hoo Joon, even if that meant literally blocking her career. And whenever In Hyung told him off and said to him that he needed to let the whole Hoo Joon thing go (like, even she was moving past it) he would just become super toxic and tell her that she couldn’t go anywhere etcetera etcetera. It was just pathetic. He would even call out Hoo Joon to meet him at night ‘to talk’ and then punch him in the face and feel smug about it. Like, wow, you’re so accomplished now. Seriously, one type of character that always gets on my nerves is the type that acts all high and mighty, but in reality is just really lame and childish. That’s what Jae Joon made me feel like too.
The thing that made me super confused in the end was the way (and the reason) Jae Joon changed his mind about Hoo Joon. Just before the accident, he has a talk with Hoo Joon which ends in him giving him the contact of that lawyer that’s linked to his father. Hoo Joon tells him that his father abandoned him as a kid and this seems to shake Jae Joon up. Then he says something along the lines of, ‘You ‘having it all’ always made me feel less guilty about hating you, but now that I know you were also abandoned by your father as a kid I can’t even do that anymore’. This already made me go…. wait, what? Was that what this was about? And then after he gets into that car accident with In Hyung, he wakes up and he has a flashback that reveals that everything that happened between him and Hoo Joon in the past was because of Hoo Joon’s CEO. It’s revealed that Jae Joon knew that Hoo Joon didn’t want to debut first but was forced to by the CEO. So, if he knew that all along, it makes even less sense to me why he always fixated all this hatred on Hoo Joon.
After he wakes up from the accident, it’s like he’s suddenly a completely different person. Maybe he came to see how stupidly he had behaved all this time and chose to turn over a new leaf? From that flashback, it seemed like he had been aware of the CEO’s hand in everything all along, so was it really just the jealousy of Hoo Joon seemingly ‘having it all’ that kept him going wasting all his time and energy on obstructing Hoo Joon? I mean, he even went so far as to get involved in Hoo Joon’s quest to find his father, which was none of his business. Why would he go so far to find dirt on Hoo Joon, when he knew all along that the CEO was behind all of it? He really must have lost his mind as his jealousy of Hoo Joon escalated with the day. It’s crazy.
Lastly, I found it interesting how he kept being so nice to Geun Young. I get that he was glad to have an ally in his hatred towards Hoo Joon in the beginning after seeing her throw that shoe, but it also felt like he was going to use her to his advantage. It just felt like his approaching her had an ulterior motive from the start, so I couldn’t really take him seriously in that either, his kindness just seemed fake and he was clearly victimizing himself in front of her. It made me feel like he didn’t actually care whether it was In Hyung, it just had to be him snatching away the person who was most important to Hoo Joon at that moment. Like, he even tried to recruit Geun Young for his agency while she wasn’t even a celebrity. So yeah, at some point I found myself thinking he didn’t actually care about In Hyung per se, he only cared about keeping her (or anything Hoo Joon held dear) to himself only to obstruct Hoo Joon in truly ‘having it all’. I mean, towards Hoo Joon he even spoke very disrespectfully about In Hyung, calling her a ‘thing he picked up after Hoo Joon abandoned it’. When Hoo Joon’s interest shifts to Geun Young, Jae Joon has to get her on his side too and in that process, he completely starts neglecting In Hyung’s career. I felt like the only moment in which he truly saw In Hyung was when she was screaming at him right before crossing the street with the intent of getting hit by a car.
Despite the fact that I was really confused by him suddenly waking up as a nice and calm person after the accident, I didn’t even really care about the fact that he and In Hyung got together again. The only thing that bothers is how quickly everything suddenly seemed to be ‘okay’ between them again, because their relationship throughout the show was so incredibly toxic.

Talking about In Hyung, I also had mixed feelings about her, although I didn’t dislike her as much as the previously mentioned characters. I kind of liked that she was mature in the sense that she just cared about her career, and was only anxious because of the tensions between the three of them. It was nice that she didn’t hold Hoo Joon responsible for anything and she also got fed up with Jae Joon’s constant obsession with wanting to tear him down. While her CEO/boyfriend was just digging himself deeper and deeper into his own misery, she was constantly struggling to make her second break. She joined Jae Joon’s agency and even started dating him (already a potential red flag, a CEO dating one of his trainees) thinking that he cared for her and her career and that he would fully support her. Instead, whatever she tried, he kept on following her around just to tell her that she wasn’t allowed to do stuff. He literally took every opportunity away from her out of personal spite towards Hoo Joon, not even caring about In Hyung’s career. She was righteously fed up with that, but it was sad to see that no matter what she said or did, she just couldn’t pull completely free from him, and he kept finding her. It was really annoying, especially after she personally moved away from his company. I really went, ‘omg, leave her alone already’ multiple times.
On the other hand, it seemed like she cared about her own career so much that she didn’t even think about other people. I found her a bit naive in this, because if she’d just read a single article about the variety show, or even about who Geun Young was, she should have known that, as soon as a scandal around Hoo Joon happened, Geun Young would be blamed for it. She should’ve known that Geun Young would be used as a scapegoat, because she was ‘The Anti-Fan’ and she’d already received so much hate for the way the variety show portrayed her. So to just mindlessly leak that duet song with her guide track on it and then going, ‘Oh sorry Geun Young, I didn’t think they would blame it on you’ was just DUMB. Again, I get it, she was desperate, but contrarily to Geun Young, she didn’t think about the consequences of her actions, or what it would do to other people. I liked that Geun Young stood up for herself after hearing this ‘apology’ from In Hyung, like ‘what the heck, you should have thought about how this would hurt multiple people around you’. So on the one side, I liked that In Hyung wasn’t the type of second female lead/ML’s ex who would start sabotaging Hoo Joon’s new relationship, I liked that she saw Jae Joon for what he was and that what he was doing wasn’t right. She tried to become independent and fight for her own career, but I didn’t like how apathic she became in some situations. Like, when coming face-to-face with Hoo Joon, she just became this shaky little lamb, also in that first episode scene where Geun Young spots them together at that club. I also found it quite extreme that she actually tried to unalive herself twice, the second time with the actual purpose of making Jae Joon watch on and regret it. Especially since the direct cause of this final loss in opportunity wasn’t actually Jae Joon’s fault. I really believe that this was what made Jae Joon finally open his eyes to what he’d mentally done to her, so that was good in a sense, but it was really extreme. In Hyung was completely lost, she didn’t see any further opportunity to climb up and losing her ‘last’ chance (as far as she could see) was enough to blame it all on Jae Joon and decide to ‘leave this world’. She only survived because Jae Joon jumped in after her and received most of the collision – I also still don’t get why she would think that he would just watch her get hit by a car, by the way. But anyways, they end up happily ever after, after they reconnect in the aftermath and they even start living together.

I found the relationship between Geun Young and In Hyung one of the most awkward relationships I’ve seen between two female leads so far. They really didn’t have anything to say to each other. Geun Young got interested in who she was after seeing her around Hoo Joon a couple of times, where she always looked really upset, but despite some minor interactions, the first time they really talked was after In Hyung confessed that she was the one who leaked that song. Like, there wasn’t bad blood between them per se, but they also didn’t become close or anything. They just acknowledged each other’s existence and went on with their lives, which I appreciated in the sense that there was no additional drama created between the two of them. But it was still a bit awkward.

The variety show ‘So I Married an/my Anti-Fan’ was the idea of two producers, named Han Jae Won (played by Dong Hyun Bae) and Noh Do Yoon (played by Lim Do Yoon). Although they seem to be a friendly bunch at first, it becomes clear that they really only care about their show’s ratings. Honestly, I didn’t really find their characters all that sympathetic. They were portrayed as really friendly, and also there was some romantic tension between the two of them which even got its own a side storyline, but I just couldn’t agree with how they treated Geun Young throughout the variety show. Geun Young was so desperate and the fact that she was a people-pleaser didn’t help at all, but those people really should’ve considered her position more. On set they would be super friendly and supportive towards her, and then they would keep evil-editing her, causing her to get even more online hate comments, heck, she was literally assaulted by Hoo Joon’s fans in public several times and no one did anything. Everyone was just standing around like ‘why isn’t security doing anything?’ They were standing RIGHT THERE, even Hoo Joon, but no one stepped in to tell people to keep a distance. Geun Young was in more need of a security team than Hoo Joon. And then afterwards they would just crawl in to ask her if she was okay and act all sorry about what happened. Seriously, it was infuriating. Geun Young literally became the scapegoat of everything bad that happened to Hoo Joon and still it seemed like a fun idea of Producer Han to add in that scene of them accidentally kissing. It was all about the media spectacle, who cares if one person’s life is ruined as a result? I was so mad when they heard the show was getting cancelled and Producer Noh actually went, ‘Even after I went through so much trouble for this show’. Like, really? YOU went through trouble? Geun Young literally became Hated By The Nation because of their show, she got so much shit dropped onto her that she couldn’t even walk down the streets without being bothered, she had to secretly stay over at the penthouse they were filming at because she didn’t have a house, but no, you had it tough, Ms. Noh. After all, show ratings are more important than people’s personal lives, everyone knows that. Sorry, I get very sarcastic but I just couldn’t stand her being so senseless while they knew better than anyone what their editing would do to Geun Young’s reputation.

Hoo Joon’s CEO Bae Young Seok (played by Kim Min Kyo) also gave me mixed signals. I first thought he was nice, a kind of comic relief character even, and it was clear that Hoo Joon was very loyal to him. It’s even revealed that he chose to stay with him rather than go to Jae Joon’s agency because he knew about Young Seok’s money problems, he had kids and even some relative in the hospital at some point (Hoo Joon overheard him talking on the phone about pending hospital bills), so it was clear that he was in debt. Hoo Joon stayed with him because he wanted to help him out, as he had been his manager all that time and had always been such a nice man. But I guess at some point he became really desperate for money and he became a scrooge? Or something? Like all of a sudden his CEO was suddenly a bad guy and I even started thinking that maybe that hospital bill phonecall had been fake, that he’d manipulated Hoo Joon in coming to his agency, that the feud between Hoo Joon and Jae Joon had been based on lies and misunderstands all this time, or something. That didn’t seem to be the case, but the CEO definitely started acting badly at some point. I can’t remember all the details, but he issued a couple of articles putting Geun Young in a worse light after finding out (from a vengeful Jae Joon) that the two were seeing each other, and he also gave the order to cancel the variety show. It was kind of an anticlimax to see how everything was smoothened out so quickly after Hoo Joon paid his debts for him, all of a sudden the bad blood was gone and all was right with the world again.

Moving away from the characters that were active in the entertainment industry, I also have some things to say about Geun Young’s friends, starting with Mi Jung. She was a good enough friend to Geun Young, even offering her to stay at her house and Geun Young ends up lying to her about where she’s staying (since she’s actually not allowed to stay at the penthouse), to keep her from worrying about her. But what bothered me about Mi Jung was her relationship with her boyfriend Shin Hyuk (played by Baek Seung Heon). He was studying for the bar exam to become a lawyer, which she strongly encouraged, but he was also a big fan of Hoo Joon and he knew a lot about idols and stuff. As soon as he started talking about that, she started acting as if she was ashamed of him, trying to make him stop talking and all of that. Honestly, Geun Young included, they all kind of dismissed whatever Shin Hyuk was saying, and I thought that was kind of rude because he was genuinely a nice guy. He was only figuring out what he wanted to do and Mi Jung treated him really badly when he just expressed other ideas than the bar exam. Like, he wasn’t allowed to think out loud about other potential career options besides the bar exam because she had ‘invested’ all this time and effort in him? Or something? Like, what the heck was that, it didn’t seem like she loved him for who he was at all. I firmly stand by the fact that she was the one responsible for their break-up, he had all the right to walk away from her at that point. And then even when it was clear she was missing him, when he came back she still acted all tsundere and made him apologize to her, like she really went ‘you have a lot to be sorry for’ and I was like ??? She was the one who shamed him for thinking out loud about other career possibilities, she should’ve been the one to apologize. So yeah, I didn’t like Mi Jung in that aspect, and I thought Shin Hyuk was an absolute bean, she did him so dirty.

I can’t forget to talk a bit more about Soo Hwan, I think I’ve only mentioned him before once. Anyways, I thought he’d play a bigger role in the story, as he is the only side character featured in the opening sequence, and at first I was even scared that he might also fall in love with Geun Young or something, but he really was just a friend of Geun Young’s who appeared only a couple of times to show support. I guess they included him in the opening purely because it was Kim Min Gyu, lol, he deserves recognition no matter how small his role is. But yeah, he was a nice friend to Geun Young until the end, I liked how the three of them (Geun Young, Mi Jung and him) would meet up occasionally and just drink and gossip.

I just want to jot down two scenes that confused me in which Jae Joon and Geun Young realized something, and I wasn’t able to spot where this realization came from. The first scene is where Jae Joon happens to see some roman letters in the office of this lawyer, roman letters that were also on the ring that Hoo Joon was using to track down his father. Now please tell me, was I blind or was it just really unclear what Jae Joon was looking at when he asked that lawyer ‘what are those roman numbers?’ I watched the scene two times, but I couldn’t spot where he was looking, I couldn’t spot these letters anywhere.
Secondly, in the final episode, Geun Young is reading this article about Hoo Joon after he has confessed all the lies surrounding his celebrity persona, and without even being shown what the article actually said, she suddenly goes, ‘That person…’ and she’s suddenly reminded of this guy that Hoo Joon helped one time to nail his marriage proposal. Again, was I missing something here or did this idea really come from out of nowhere? These may not be very relevant details to the story but I still wanted to jot them down since they stuck with me, lol.

Now to get to a more general commentary on one of the main themes of this show, which is the entertainment industry as a whole, and in particular, the role of fans. If there’s one thing that this series confirmed for me, is how incredibly harming and toxic the entertainment industry can be, especially in combination with the press. The fans are just mindless beings who go along with any wave the press urges them towards – they can be the most loyal people one day, and the most vicious anti-fans the next. What contributed in me feeling gloomy throughout this show was the fact that the entertainment industry really doesn’t seem to care about people. It just uses the gullibility and naive dreams of people like In Hyung (seriously, when she said ‘I just wanted to be an entertainer, someone who was loved by everyone’, I went ‘oh, honey…’) and make promises to them and then just throw them away without a second thought when the situation gets messy. The only people that care are the idols themselves, they want to succeed, and the agencies are supposed to help them in that, but I get the feeling that for the agencies, it’s not even about the people they promise to help. For them, it’s only about money and reputation. If an artist does well, great, that helps the company, but if they slip up even once, they’re treated like malfunctioning machines.
More than before, this drama series confronted me with the fact that celebrities aren’t seen as normal people by society. They’re supposed to be perfect puppets who never do anything wrong (they even made up all those lies about Hoo Joon, how he studied abroad and how his birthday was on New Year’s Eve to make it more special, only to conceal that he was born outside of South-Korea and grew up without his father for example, because even that can be seen as a ‘minus’), and then when their humanity is revealed even a little bit, everyone turns on them. If they give in to any humane desire or do something bad, even though it’s accepted if any regular person would do it, it makes it an unforgivable sin. In the end, when Hoo Joon gave that press conference, all he wanted to do was the right thing, he wanted to clear himself of all the lies his agency had built around him, but all it did was turn his fans against him, make people call him ‘a liar’ even though he was actually revealing the truth just then. To see how all those fans would be so tenacious in their support for him, and then change overnight because of one article… It’s just stupid. I’ve already been thinking this a lot recently, because people just seem to form their opinions based on news articles while they have no idea what actually happened and this is what makes gossipping about stuff like this so pointless to me. You can keep updated about scandals, sure, but don’t go following things mindlessly and form your opinions about stuff when you weren’t personally there to witness it. It’s such a waste of time. Anyways, I just wanted to mention that I found it interesting that the way Hoo Joon’s fans and the industry + press were portrayed was pretty realistic in its negative extremity. It didn’t sugarcoat anything or made it look like rose petals. While a show like Her Private Life portrays the devotion of the fans in a positive light, So I Married an Anti-Fan takes the interesting choice to put the main character in opposition to those fans. Geun Young seems to be completely alone in her case, at least in having the guts to appear outside Hoo Joon’s agency with cardboard signs to demonstrate her disdain towards him, even though she knows she’ll have to face his fangirls who are waiting on him at the exact same spot. It is relatable to see Geun Young’s will to prove her point, to show Hoo Joon’s mean side to the world, while no one is willing to even listen to her. Unwillingly, she turns an entire fandom against herself and this unleashes the nasty side of fans. I was appalled to see those teenage girls throw eggs at her, like, who raised them so disrespectfully?! It definitely exposes some kind of behavior that appears, especially among very extreme fans, and I prefer that to glorifying fandoms, so for that it gets a bonus point. But it definitely also made the series in its entirety very uncomfortable to watch at times, because you just knew the fans were going to remain an issue until the end and you never knew what they’d do to Geun Young next.
I finally want to give one final mention to Cha Yoo Ri (played by Song Chae Yeon), one of the teenage girls who’s a major Hoo Joon fan. I was annoyed by her from the start because of her constant scoffing laugh, it just made me want to grab her by the shoulders and shake her around saying, ‘you’re just a teenage girl with an infatuation, don’t act like you’re on top of the world’. She also treated Geun Young with a lot of disrespect, but in her case, everything was eventually forgiven because she was just a kid. Sometimes this mindset bothers me, because kids can get away with stuff that’s really not okay. Anyways, then of course she’s given this backstory about her having it tough at home and all that, and she ends up helping Geun Young out one time, but after that she never appears anymore. I kind of expected her to appear more at the end, especially when the whole truth reveal from Hoo Joon happened, I would’ve liked to see her response to that, maybe it would’ve helped her grow up a little.

I think I’ve now covered most of my analysis for each character and the main themes of the show, so I’d like to move on to the cast comments now.
I’ve seen Choi Soo Young before in Run On and Move to Heaven, and her appearances here made me like her a lot. This drama appeared in-between the two I mentioned, and I can only say that I definitely prefer her in stronger female roles. Seeing her in this show reminded me of seeing Lee Sung Kyung in About Time. An actress that’s so powerful in roles of strong-willed woman suddenly put into the role of a passive female character that’s basically dragged around by everyone around her – honestly I didn’t think it suited her very well. Not that her acting was bad or anything, but it was just so weird for me to see Soo Young in such an obedient, people-pleasing role as ‘Geunyang Geun Young’. Type-wise, I just think she’s better suited for more confident and strong-willed female characters. This was confirmed in the few scenes where she did stand up for herself and told people off, because those were the only times I finally felt like Geun Young was growing. I would’ve like to see some more consistency in that, but I guess that wasn’t in the script. I like her as an actress, but I think she can do better than this, they could’ve given Geun Young a bit more fire, rather than making her a passive doormat.

I found it an interesting choice to cast Choi Tae Joon as an idol. I don’t think I’ve actually seen him in a lead role before, now that I think about it. This is also my first review about a series with him, but I’ve seen him before in The Girl Who Sees Smells, Missing 9 and Suspicious Partner. Also, belated congratulations to him for marrying Park Shin Hye and their first child that was born last year (it has the same birthday as me, I found out). The last thing I saw him in was Missing 9 and there he killed several people, so that was definitely an image to come back from, lol. I’m not sure what I thought about him as an idol, his acting wasn’t bad but I guess I just really trouble liking his character. The way he just did everything on his terms, even start his relationship with Geun Young just felt a little icky to me and even though he became nicer in the end, I still didn’t really feel their chemistry throughout it all. So that was a shame. I did like him in other stuff I’ve seen of him (Suspicious Partner is still one of my ultimate favorites), so I hope I will see more of him in the future that will enable to write more positively about his character.
Oh, one thing that I did like was that Choi Tae Joon acted out his idol performances and songs himself, despite not even being an actual singer in real life. I wanted to mention this in contrast to the idol character in my last watch The Big Boss, who was an actual idol trainee and didn’t even get a real chance to show his performance skills – they just dubbed some random soundtrack over it while he was lipsynching to something completely different. Choi Tae Joon isn’t even an idol or a singer, but he still did those performance scenes himself and I respect that.

I only knew Hwang Chan Sung from What’s Wrong with Secretary Kim? where he had a kind of comical side role, so I hadn’t really expected to see him as a second male lead character, to be honest. Hold on, I just discovered that he was also in Suspicious Partner and he played the FL’s crappy ex-boyfriend who gets murdered!! Okay, so maybe I had a bit of a bias against him from the start, haha. Anyways, he made Jae Joon so insufferable for me that I couldn’t even watch his face anymore at some point because I was so annoyed with him. I didn’t really get how they would write him like such a jerk and then suddenly try to gain some sympathy for him halfway through, it certainly didn’t work for me. But I guess he put on a very sincere performance, again, it’s not that his acting was bad, but his character was just really petty. I see that he’s in a couple more series that I still want to watch, so I guess I’ll get to see more of his acting, I hope he can do more than aggravate me, haha.

For some reason Han Ji An doesn’t have her own DramaWiki page so I had to consult a different one. She hasn’t done that much acting work apparently, Anti-Fan has been her latest drama acting job to date (according to AsianWiki). I didn’t know her from anything even though she seems familiar, or maybe she just reminds me of someone, I don’t know. In any case, I think she was a good cast for a (former) idol, she seemed like she could be an idol based on looks, and it sounded like she also sang well. It was a pity that she was depicted as such an angsty character, because at times she seemed to be really mentally strong, also when she was confronting Jae Joon about the way he was treating her. I would’ve liked to see her show that resilience a bit more, I guess, not just standing shakily in a corner. I wonder what other sides there are to her acting, but none of her other shows are currently on my watchlist. I hope she gets more acting chances in the future because again, there was no problem with the acting itself.

Nowadays it’s a bit weird for me to see Kim Min Gyu in a supportive character role since he’s built himself up to lead role material and I’m also really curious to see him in his latest release The Heavenly Idol in which he himself gets to play an idol. I’ve seen him so far in Who Are You – School 2015, Because This is My First Life, Just Between Lovers, Drunk in Good Taste, Backstreet Rookie and A Business Proposal. There’s still several of his shows on watchlist, as well, so no lack of Kim Min Gyu! Even as a side character, he’s always a very friendly and welcome presence on the screen, I liked his character in how loyal he was to Geun Young.

Dong Hyun Bae also doesn’t have a DramaWiki page, but I guess I’ve seen him before in Shut Up Flower Boy Band, he seemed familiar to me. Lim Do Yoon appeared in Heartstrings, Pinocchio and My Secret Romance but I have no recollection whatsoever of her characters there, all I know is that she too seemed familiar. Although I liked their characters as individuals, and it was cute that they rebuilt their romance, I still think they weren’t as nice as they seemed to be to Geun Young. They were still mostly occupied with their careers over the feelings of the people they were working with. In a way you could say it was interesting to include so many self-absorbed people into one show, lol. Anyways, again, and I’ll keep repeating this, it didn’t have anything to do with the acting, I just disliked a lot of the characters and they still made the most of portraying them.

I’ll just keep it at this for the cast comments. I guess my main criticism was just that: it wasn’t that the acting was bad, but I simply didn’t like the majority of the characters, as in, I found it hard to truly sympathize with anyone. Even if I felt bad for some people at times, they would always do something later that would just make me shake my head in disbelief. I still feel like Geun Young and In Hyung were victims in their respective situations and they did all they could to get out of that, but they didn’t really grow as people, Geun Young remained to be consistently patient with people, even falling for the idol she initially hated, and In Hyung also chose to stick with Jae Joon, who had oppressed her for so long. I guess I was just a bit disappointed with how the story unfolded and how self-centered people remained to be. They also made a point of redeeming people that had been jerks throughout the entire show, from Jae Joon to Geun Young’s ex-boss and Hoo Joon’s CEO. As I said, apart from Manager Seo, no one actually made me go ‘YES THAT’S IT’.
The setup of the story is promising, but also very predictable, of course: an anti-fan and an idol eventually falling for each other, a classic enemies to lovers trope. But the relations between all the characters continued to be problematic in some way, and I found it kind of weird that the first confirmation of the romance between Hoo Joon and Geun Young happened at a really wrong moment. I don’t know, I just couldn’t get into their relationship and I even felt like the actors weren’t that well-suited. That’s my personal opinion.
Speaking of personal opinions, I’ve seen interesting discussions in comment sections of the episodes on Dramacool. People tend to be quite harsh on there, and I’ve seen several reactions criticizing these negative comments. I think I made this point about this before in a previous review, but I feel like it’s dangerous to base your decision to (not) watch a series completely on the reviews of other people. There were several people in the comment section saying that the hateful comments almost made them skip this drama, and that they were glad they didn’t because they ended up finishing it and loving it. All I want to say with this is that, while something might not be your cup of tea, don’t go blatantly bashing it online and ruin it for other people. Other people might still like it and miss out on the chance to watch it based on someone else’s personal opinion. One of the main reasons I started writing reviews is to do just that, create a platform where I express my own opinion without forcing it on others. You may agree or disagree with my review, that’s both fine. But that’s the reason that at the top of my reviews it always says ‘Do not read if you still plan on watching this series or haven’t finished it yet’. Just saying, you might keep someone from their new favorite drama, even if you didn’t like it as much.

I think I will keep it at that. I hope that, despite my less positive criticism, it was still a worthwhile review to read. Let me end it on a positive note nonetheless: it’s an interesting story and the acting is good, I believe it does teach a lesson and there are definitely some good scenes in there, I can’t deny.

So now I will move on to the next batch of my 2023 watchlist, I will try to mix in some variety again and you will see my next review appear soon enough.

Until then, bye-bee!

The Big Boss S1 & S2

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

The Big Boss
( 班长大人 / Ban Zhang Da Ren)
MyDramaList rating (for both seasons): 6.0/10

Hiya! It’s time for a new review! Having more free time has really enabled me to focus on some things I love to do, like drama watching! After such a long and emotional rollercoaster as my last watch, I was looking forward to blowing off some steam with a light comedy and well, this one definitely did that. A bit too much, even. I remember putting it on my list after seeing a clip/trailer of it somewhere and thought it looked cute. The overall reviews on MyDramaList are also quite positive, so I was very curious. In the end, unfortunately, I have to say it wasn’t really my cup of tea. I can understand why people like it, and it’s not that I hated it, but it just didn’t do much for me and rather than enjoying the silliness for 36 episodes straight, I found myself becoming increasingly impatient to finish it so I could move on with my list. I don’t expect this to become a really lengthy review, but anyways, let’s just get on with it, shall we?

The Big Boss is a Chinese drama series which consists of 2 seasons of each 18 episodes, with a duration of about 35 minutes each. Actually, I only discovered it was divided into two seasons when I started it, but in the series itself the episodes count on from 1 to 36, so I don’t really see the point of dividing it into two seasons as it was one continuing story and there also wasn’t a change in opening/ending sequences. I did rank the two seasons separately on MyDramaList.
Anyways, the story is about two childhood friends, or at least, two classmates who grew up together in the same neighborhood, but they’re not really on good terms with each other. Ever since they were little, Liao Dan Yi (played by Huang Jun Jie) has been ‘monitoring’ Ye Mu Xi (played by Eleanor Lee/Li Kai Xin). Mu Xi is very innocent and child-like for her age, and for some reason Dan Yi is bent on teaching her how to become more mature. When the time comes for their middle school to start, Mu Xi is excited to finally be free from Dan Yi’s ever-watching eyes. After all, their classes are ranked from 1 to 10 based on exam performance and since Dan Yi is much better at studying than Mu Xi is, there’s no way they’d end up in the same class. However, SHOCKER, she still finds him in her Class 10 when she enters the classroom. Turns out he missed one exam, which was enough to put him in the lowest class, even though he got top grades in the other exams (it’s a true mystery). Not only that, he also volunteers to become Class 10’s class monitor, and Mu Xi can’t let that happen – she won’t have him monitor her at school too! So she very impulsively decides to also run for class monitor, just to beat him. She wins, much to Dan Yi’s (and everyone’s) surprise, and Mu Xi couldn’t be happier, but then she becomes aware of the responsibilities that now fall on her shoulders. As someone who likes skipping through life without a care in the world, she doesn’t really feel like taking on all that by herself, so she calls in the help of her wide and wild imagination to help her navigate through her school life. She calls on her two imaginary friends (a dinosaur and a horse – personified by two actual men in dino & horse costumes), and manages to gather a group of eccentric classmates to join her in the class committee. As the ‘big boss’, Mu Xi will learn a lot about life and taking responsbility by going through many adventures with her classmates, while still competing with Dan Yi in the background.

I liked the original start of the show, in which it was announced that this series included almost every single genre you could think of, fantasy, action, comedy, costume drama, singing and dancing, etc. It is introduced as something that has a little bit of everything, any kind of genre the viewer might like, but that it’s also fitting as a light show to watch while eating some noodles or something. Also, it’s announced from the start that the one thing that this show is NOT, is a love story. I just want to emphasize this because even at the end of the show, people were complaining in the comments about how there was no romance in it – I mean, we were warned from the very beginning! Anyways, the way it starts out is very unique and interesting, also because from the introduction sequence itself I really had no idea what to expect, there seemed to be so much in it and I was curious as to how they would structure the whole thing.
I know it’s typical for Chinese shows that their opening and ending sequences are filled with actual shots and scenes from the series (which I sort of dislike since it gives away so much of the events from the show and it can be quite spoiler-y). But I still found it a bit of a pity that this show really revealed basically everything in their introduction sequence. In hindsight, I don’t think I was surprised by any event that happened in the show, because everything made me go, ‘oh, I’ve seen this shot in the introduction/opening/ending sequence’. So even though it contained a whole load of Mu Xi’s imagination, it didn’t leave too much for mine, as everything felt like I’d already seen it coming. I guess this also is a part of what I’ll later come back to as ‘lazy editing’, but it felt like they didn’t really make an effort to include any additional scenes/story parts that weren’t already ‘spoilered’ in the intro sequence. If they’d done less of that, I might have been a little more surprised and excited for what was going to happen, but they really already revealed most of it from the start, so that was a bit of a bummer.

In summary, the story is about friendship, and it’s also about both main leads’ development in becoming more mature. Dan Yi and Mu Xi aren’t the typical type of childhood friends we’re familiar with – in stories like this, there’s always a hint of budding romance or something, but I actually found it kind of refreshing that that wasn’t the case in The Big Boss. It’s about their friendship and coming to terms with their honest feelings for each other as friends. I guess what disappointed many viewers the most is that there may have been a tiny hint of romantic interest at the very end of season two. Admittedly, it was like being given a crumb, and then having it taken away because then suddenly the show was over before anything ‘real’ happened.
Admittedly, the promotion of Season 2 is quite misleading. As you can see from the picture I added above for S2, it shows Mu Xi as a kind of Cupid, with Dan Yi and Xiao Dong beneath her, suggesting a potential love triangle. The summary on DramaCool for S2 also mentions a story about both Dan Yi and Xiao Dong confessing their love to Mu Xi on her 18th birthday. I don’t know where this summary came from, because it never happens (Mu Xi’s 18th birthday doesn’t even happen), but I guess that’s why people are still hopefully waiting for a season three in which this will come to pass. I don’t know man, it’s been 6 years now. I don’t see it happen. And even if it did, it’d be kind of random to suddenly turn it into a love story after emphasizing so strongly from the start that this wouldn’t be a love story. So I don’t know, I’m not waiting for it.

Apart from the bond between Dan Yi and Mu Xi, there’s the group of friends that plays a big role, as everyone seems to just go along with Mu Xi’s fantasies and everyone seems to be more on her side than on Dan Yi’s, who wants to focus on studying most of all. Dan Yi often finds himself reluctantly being involved in Mu Xi’s antics, and I guess he secretly likes it, but he always keeps a stern attitude. At the end, he decides that it might be better if he transfers to Class 1 after all, that maybe that will help Mu Xi become more independent rather than him constantly watching over her. It ends with the two finally coming to terms with each other, and they make up and Dan Yi is revealed to transfer back to Class 10 because he somehow ‘again’ managed to miss an exam.

Let me give a quick introduction of the Class 10 committee members. In S1, each character gets a short introductory arc that ends in them becoming friends with Mu Xi and joining the committee. I really liked the sequence in the first episode when Mu Xi goes to her first day of school, and there’s a one-take of the school courtyard in which all the characters are briefly introduced with a sentence or two. I thought that was a really nice way to give a brief and powerful introduction to all the characters in school, and then to further introduce each of them one by one throughout the story. All in all, the character types that were introduced made the show seem very anime-like to me, everyone had a specific role and quirk to them that really defined their persona.
Mu Xi’s first assignment as class monitor is to bring two students to school that didn’t show up for registration on the first day. With the help of Dan Yi, who is now the committee member in charge of studies, they each go after one student.
Dan Yi goes after Xue Xiao Dong (played by Dai Jing Yao), a popular idol who didn’t get to register because he was followed by a group of fans. Mu Xi goes after Zhu Shan Qi (played by Lu Yan Qi). It takes her some time to win her trust, as Shan Qi genuinely doesn’t like the idea of going to school (although I don’t remember a solid reason for it). It turns out that Shan Qi is a big fan of Xiao Dong, so she agrees to register after hearing he’s in their class. Shan Qi’s infatuation with Xiao Dong becomes a running gag throughout the show, even though at times it seems like Xiao Dong is more interested in Mu Xi – although Mu Xi friendzones him time and time again. It turns out that Mu Xi knew Xiao Dong from when he was little, and that he used to be quite fat, and he really wants to let go of that past now that he’s managed to get into shape and gained such popularity as an idol.

Now here I’d like to present my first criticism. I read that Xiao Dong’s actor Dai Jing Yao participated in an idol surviving program AKA he has an actual idol training background, and that this was his drama acting debut. However. If you cast an actual aspiring idol as an idol in a drama series, wouldn’t you at least give him a chance to showcase his abilities a little bit? Seriously, what was up with those lipsynching sequences?? Whenever Xiao Dong had a scene in which he performed a song, they just put some random soundtrack over it. And like, putting on a soundtrack is one thing, but they could’ve at least made it LOOK like he was performing that song?! Every single time, he was lipsynching to something completely different than the soundtrack and it looked really lame. Why couldn’t they have just let him sing something for real, why hide it with such lame editing? And they did it later on as well, with that English song competition! I really didn’t understand why they’d come up with that idea and then just botch it like that. It just looked like lazy writing and editing to me. Also, in the scenes where he performed a dance with his crew, it just looked like a morning gymnastics routine to me, they didn’t even fully show him doing a real dance. They tried to create the vibe, the suggestion of him putting on this great performance, but the editing was really fragmented. Honestly, from what I saw in this show, it just looked like someone pretending to be an idol. I mean, come on, the guy was training to be an idol in real life, why not give him the chance to perform one song or dance live? I really don’t understand why they chose to do that. In the end Xiao Dong was more of an idol in words than in deeds to me.

Shan Qi becomes Mu Xi’s best friend, although she doesn’t really seem to be that empathic to others most of the time. She is often shown sneaking snaps of Xiao Dong sitting behind her in class, and her one trait is that she likes eating spicy strip snacks. Other than that, she didn’t really seem to have any special personality traits. As I mentioned before, her running gag was that she kept trying to stick to Xiao Dong in whatever event the group participated in, she was a typical fangirl, but I didn’t really see a lot of interesting aspects about her character other than that.

Moving on with the character introductions, there are the two brothers Huang Nan and Huang Yi (respectively played by Ge Qiu Gu and Gao Kai). They reminded me a little of Fred and George from the Harry Potter series, except they aren’t twins. They are constantly making trouble, pulling mischief, mainly angering the school director. They are mostly in charge of the comic relief, I guess, but it was a little too ‘in your face slapstick’ for my taste. Anyways, they are always first in line when Mu Xi announces a new activity, and after Mu Xi decides to ‘grow up’ and start studying after Dan Yi leaves Class 10, they are the first to speak up about the fact that they prefer the happy, fun-loving and carefree Mu Xi to the more ‘mature’ one.

Then there’s Shen Wei (played by Jin Di), the astrology lover. She is known for her predictions that usually come true, she loves everything that has to do with fortune-telling, horoscopes and such. Throughout the show it also seems like her predictions are always correct in one way or another. I liked her character, her quirk was a bit more solid than others and she also was a very loyal friend throughout everything that happened.

Yuan Ke Er (played by Zuo Yi Fan) is the artistic girl, she’s great at drawing and painting and continously feels the urge to spray graffiti art whenever she sees a white clean wall. To bring her into the committee, Mu Xi and the others have to face a gang that she’s briefly joined after Mu Xi unintentionally discourages her from drawing on the school bulletin board (or something). Anyways, she joins the committee as the person in charge of art after Mu Xi manages to persuade her to participate in the blackboard art competition, even though they lose. I thought that was a nice moment in which Mu Xi for once realized that winning wasn’t the most important thing, and she genuinely praised Ke Er for doing such a great job and encouraged her that she was still the winner to them. It was nice seeing Mu Xi mature subtly in her own way, through tiny little things.

Then there’s Xiong Tian Cheng (played by Guo Jia Ren), the poetry guy. In the beginning, he is a loner in the biggest sense of the word. He has literally blocked off his desk from the rest of the class with cardboard boxes, and he’s known for being very unhygienic. He is brilliant when it comes to writing, and he helps out students by reviewing their essays and rewriting them. He even has his own little reviewing business on the side, but his father is very strict with him and that’s caused him to seclude himself and neglect his physical hygiene. Mu Xi manages to get him cleaned up and he also becomes part of the committee.

And then there’s my favorite couple, haha. Honestly, I shipped these two more than I shipped Dan Yi and Mu Xi, they were just too adorable. First, Li Yao (played by Zhang Lin Yue), an intimidating-looking girl who everyone just assumed to be a bully, but who was actually very socially awkward because of her military upbringing. Basically, she didn’t even have to say anything and people would just give her stuff and then claim that she bullied them. Honestly, from the first moment on, I knew that wasn’t the truth, it was so obvious that she wasn’t even asking for those snacks and I was convinced people were just misunderstanding things. And that turned out to be the truth. There’s this character in Sayonara Zetsubou-sensei that I was reminded of, Mitama Mayo, her name a pun on ‘mita mama yo’ = ‘exactly as she looks’. It’s this intimidating-looking girl, except in SZ-S everyone assumes that she’s probably misunderstood for her appearance, and they give her the benefit of the doubt, even though it’s revealed she is, actually, ‘exactly as she looks’. In Li Yao’s case, this was the opposite. Everyone assumed that she was a bully because of her stern attitude and harsh way of talking, but they find out that she was raised by a military family and she doesn’t know how to act ‘cute’. I really liked her character, she was probably my favorite.
And then there is Cheng Ling (played by Wang Shu Yi), a bullying victim who was constantly running errands for the guys that were intimidating him. Through his arc, he realizes that he is actually a really good runner and athlete, and he ends up joining the tracking team, where he is respected for his speed and skills and they help him get rid of those bullies. For some reason I don’t fully remember, Cheng Ling is paired up with Li Yao when the committee is trying to help Li Yao make friends. They go with him because he’s a mild person, and funnily enough they make quite the pair. I really liked the tough girl versus soft boy dynamic between them, and it becomes more clear afterwards that Li Yao definitely warms up to Cheng Ling and becomes reluctantly affectionate towards him. I thought it was really cute.

Besides the Class 10 committee, there is also the important ‘second female lead’, and this is the class monitor for Class 1, Guan Xin Yi (played by Deng Yu Li), who develops a crush on Dan Yi and keeps trying to get him to transfer to Class 1. Despite her stoic appearance, she becomes a smitten, silly lovestruck girl whenever Dan Yi is near, and she has many fantasy sequences about him. In turn, Xin Yi is always followed by He Lu Xi (played by Fu Xiao), her sort of ‘bodyguard’. He follows her everywhere and always praises her into the heavens, but he also occasionally butts in when she’s trying to approach Dan Yi, which aggravates her. We learn that Lu Xi is in fact in love with Xin Yi, and in the end he manages to very sincerely confess to her, which undoubtedly makes an impression on her, despite her initial dislike of his constant presence. Honestly, I really liked Xin Yi, I thought she was really pure and I liked the actress’ acting a lot. It was just really painful because Dan Yi was clearly very uncomfortable with her advances and she kept approaching him even after he’d already rejected her feelings, so I also understand how awkward it must have been for Dan Yi that she kept watching him. Anyways, I did feel for Xin Yi in her one-sided crush.

I also want to make a mention of Class 10’s homeroom teacher, Wu Heng (played by Zhang Jia), nicknamed ‘Wu sir’ by almost all Class 10 students. He was a really cool guy, and the perfect teacher for Class 10 because he kept believing in every single one of them. He really saw the benefit in trying to help students with more difficulties in studying to get the best out of them, and he deserves all the praise! I really liked his character, he always stood up for his students and really acted as a friend towards them.

The thing is, I was really waiting for some seriousness in the story. It started out with a clear structure, Mu Xi becoming the class monitor, and I thought it would be structured as such, like every time she would get a new assignment, bring a new student into the group, and that’s how everyone would come together and they would develop all their bonds. While it started out like that, at some point, I lost sight of the structure and it became quite incoherent in my opinion.
One of the main things I was interested in, was the reason behind Dan Yi and Mu Xi’s respective behaviors. Especially since I’d seen a comment that revealed that Mu Xi had quite a sad backstory. That immediately piqued my interest because I thought that that meant that there would be some deeper layer behind the comic mask of the show. From Dan Yi’s side, it’s revealed pretty early on that the reason he keeps monitoring and guiding Mu Xi is because he feels guilty for neglecting her one time when they were kids. He told her to go hide (for hide and seek) just to get rid of her and then she actually went missing and it took five hours to find her. Ever since then, he’s pledged to himself to always keep watching over her, and this is also the reason he deliberately missed an exam so he could be in the same class as her in middle school.
In season 2, it’s ultimately revealed that Mu Xi grew up without her parents. She lost both her parents at a young age (her father disappeared and her mother then died of depression not long afterwards), and she’s been living with her older brother Ye Yi Han (played by Liu Jun Xiao) ever since. Her older brother has always babied her as his little sister, and this explains her immature behavior, because she’s never had to grow up for her brother. It’s also revealed (very casually, might I add) that Mu Xi created her whole Fantasy Kingdom in her mind after Dan Yi stopped playing with her, so you could say she created a fantasy world (including the imaginary friends) in her mind because she was left alone, which gives her character a pretty serious deeper layer. That was the part I was interested in the most, to get into the reality of her character, to go beyond her performed carefree attitude.

So let me now move on to my main criticism of the show, the reason why I say that it wasn’t my cup of tea and why I rated it relatively low on MyDramaList (I gave the first season a 5.5 and the second season a 6).
It becomes clear that the fantasy sequences from Mu Xi’s imagination were an important asset to her character, as she depended on her imagination and took inspiration from her fantasy world to cope with events that happened in real life. As her group of friends starts expanding, each new person she meets also gets a ‘role’ in her Fantasy Kingdom. Whenever something happens, even a trivial conflict or whatever, it gets translated into a fantasy world sequence, and this is basically how Mu Xi deals with things, she makes it into a dramatic fantasy story. This means that almost every single event, every single game, competition, conflict, activity that she encounters throughout the series, is converted into a fantasy story featuring her and her friends as their personas in her imagination. Don’t get me wrong, I get how people find it funny that they kept taking every single thing so seriously that they have to fight it out and face it off in a dramatic fantasy setting, but honestly… after 30+ episodes of the exact same concept, it started becoming incredibly tedious to me. At some point I found myself letting the episodes play out without really paying attention to them anymore, just so I could move on with the series and get it over with. To me, it just distracted from the part that I was most interested in, which was the meaning behind it all, if there was any.
To put it short, some sequences simply lasted way too long. Some points could’ve been made within a minute. Some sequences could’ve been finalized within two minutes. There were so many cases in which a single sequence – in which basically nothing happened – continued for at least three minutes straight and it just felt like they were filling screentime. For example, a scene of two people bickering back and forth about something without ever reaching a conclusion. Or a scene in which someone is daydreaming about someone else, and just sits by themselves acting all giddy, without the daydream actually leading somewhere.
To give some concrete examples, for both ‘real life’ and fantasy sequences:
There is a scene in which Mu Xi is playing loud music in her room just to bother Dan Yi who is trying to study downstairs. The sequence is really just going back and forth between Mu Xi dancing in her room and Dan Yi looking annoyed. There’s no development in the scene, it doesn’t end in any way, Dan Yi doesn’t even go upstairs to ask her to turn it down or something, it’s really just three full minutes of making the point that Mu Xi is doing that to annoy Dan Yi and it really didn’t need three whole minutes to play out.
There is another scene in which Huang Yi finds out he got 80 points in a test and he’s so excited about it that he has to go and show it to every single classmate and boast about it to them. It’s followed by sequences of each several minutes long in which he goes to bother several different people about the fact that the got 80 points on a test. I mean, if they could’ve at least made an interesting conversation about it, fine. But it was literally just him going on and on about it, while the other person wasn’t even paying attention. In the end, of course, it turns out his test got switched up with someone else’s and the joke’s on him. But again, it really didn’t deserve that much screentime. They just dragged out the joke for too long while you already saw the twist/punchline coming, and when it finally came, it just wasn’t funny anymore.
There was an entire episode about the committee playing a phone app game because they’d received a complaint of a classmate whose girlfriend had dumped him because he was so obsessed with that game. In my opinion, they could’ve skipped over the entire sequence. They could’ve shown them go ‘okay, let’s check this game out for ourselves’ and immediately skip to ‘xxx hours later’ and then them getting to the point of what they’d learned from it. Now they went through the entire game, only to come to conclusion, ‘oh yeah, it was pretty fun actually’. Like, what was the point? The point was only made when the classmate saw that Xin Yi had gotten as obsessed with it as he had, and that’s what made him realize how he’d treated his girlfriend. The whole story of what they did when they were in the game was not interesting to me at all. Same went for the episode in which they played the werewolf game, or the military-style laser game. It just took too long to make a point, and then ended up not making a point at all.
In cases where the fantasy world sequences were used to make a point, they went a long way around to actually make that point. For example, they showed this whole fantasy story which ended in Xin Yi obtaining some magic pen that gave her power over everyone until Mu Xi managed to break it, and it turned out to be a story that Mu Xi made up about how her pen got broken. The pen itself wasn’t even introduced until the latter half of the fantasy sequence, there was a whole part before it came to the actual pen, so it just became really far-fetched in my opinion.
In some cases, an episode would have one main story and it would get interrupted by several short in-between skits of classmates doing something. I guess it was to keep giving everyone equal screentime or something, to always show what everyone was up to in their free time, but some of these in-between skits really didn’t have a point either and also just felt like screentime fillers. I mean, what was up with Ke Er playing Red Light Green Light in the middle of the street with classmates who weren’t even participating in the game?
My point is that most events and sequences were dragged out way too long, to the point of just not even being funny anymore. The scenes that were funny were also predictable as heck, and that in turn took the fun out of it in many cases. Like, the hiccup scene was relatively funny in itself, but it wasn’t original. I’ve seen this exact scene in Azumanga Daioh, in which they try to get rid of someone’s hiccups, and in the end the hiccups just move on to someone else. Like, they created all these extensive sequences, but they didn’t make them original. I rarely laughed out loud, I found myself chuckling at most at some scenes, but everything was just so over the top ‘trying to be funny’ that it stopped being funny to me. As I mentioned before in the character introductions, the two brothers really weren’t that funny to me. At times I even got a bit annoyed with them, because they were also kind of perverted and the scene where they went and kissed a random girl on the street as a joke, call me sour, but I really didn’t think that was funny. It was just a bunch of teenagers acting like kids, the fantasy sequences were written and acted out as if a group of children had made up a play, and it was pretty bad in my opinion.
The overall structure was really incoherent, like there would be this whole fantasy sequence without context that had me like, ‘what the heck is going on this time’, and then afterwards, in the real world, it would be revealed that it was another story Mu Xi made up about something really trivial, like her pen breaking. That could’ve been done way better.

All in all, the show looked pretty low-budget and the editing and the writing seemed really lazy at times. The only thing I liked better about the second season was that it at least revealed a little bit more about the main characters and in the final three episodes, they finally added some serious acting. The final three episodes proved to me that there was still some promise in this show, because then it suddenly became all about Dan Yi and Mu Xi, no more fantasy worlds. Even though the scene where they get caught by those security guards at the amusement park started off as another lengthy bickering scene between the two men, I did like that they turned it into a scene where Dan Yi and Mu Xi indirectly expressed their feelings towards each other while giving advice to the two guards, and it was also nice that Mu Xi looked back at those men as they were walking away and briefly saw them as her imaginary dino and horse friends. That was the first time I really felt like those imaginary friends played a part in her maturing. Only in the final three episodes did I get the feeling that there had been some development in the relationship between Dan Yi and Mu Xi. Apart from that, there were some sparse good shots that made me go ‘wow, that’s actually kind of nice’. There’s this scene in which Xiao Dong puts on a whole performance for a girl just to turn down her confession, and then when it’s done and everyone around him starts breaking down the set, Xiao Dong is left standing still in the middle of it, his face dropping and you just feel his pressure of being an idol and succumbing to situations like this to fend people off, and that I actually found a pretty powerful shot. So there were little gems like that hidden in-between, but all in all the fantasy sequences just dragged out too long for me, it took too long to get to the point and then basically everything was wrapped up in the final three episodes. Despite the fact that I found it refreshing that this wasn’t a love story at first, at some point I did find myself starting to long for a romance aspect in the story, because then at least something exciting would be happening.
Even the scene in which Mu Xi reveals her backstory was kind of an anti-climax for me. She helps Xiao Dong out with some acting lessons (which she excels at and he doesn’t) and then suddenly she starts telling this story and at first it didn’t even occur to me that she was telling her own life story. I just thought it was another rehearsing script that they were practicing with. It happened in a sequence of ‘acting exercises’, so they really made it seem like it was another one of those. I’d expected her story to be revealed in a more serious context, but now I was just like, oh, okay, I guess this is it? It was just weird how they occasionally put in some deeper layers of the story in a real curt and casual way. It was the same with that bit about how Mu Xi started creating that fantasy world in her mind. That bit lasted like 5 seconds and then it was done and I was like, ‘wait, go back to that!! That’s what I’m interested in!!’ So yeah, in my opinion, they gave too much screentime to filler stuff, and too little screentime to more important stuff, or at least stuff that I was interested in. The final three episodes got me really interested, and I just wished the rest of it could’ve been as engaging as those last episodes.

There was also the thing with Dan Yi’s grandmother (played by Zheng Kai Nan). I actually thought she was a bit annoying in the beginning, but she ended up being kind of a parallel to Mu Xi, they were quite alike in their playfulness and mischief. It was sad that she passed away at the end of the series (I’m still not sure about her illness because apart from her dementia I didn’t really get how exactly she was ‘sick’ enough to die), but I do like to think that she played a part in Mu Xi’s awareness of life and death. The only thing I couldn’t help but frown at was the fact that they couldn’t even get the woman a proper wig, you literally saw her real hair coming out underneath, so that again was a bit sloppy.

I really liked Mu Xi’s older brother, by the way. I sympathized with his character because he was basically forced to become Mu Xi’s parent after their parents fell away and he probably also didn’t fully know how to go about that, so he just made sure she was happy, loved and fed properly. It was clear that he also struggled sometimes with the fact that Mu Xi refused to grow up, and in that Dan Yi was probably more strict to her than he was, but he still remained to be such a supportive loving brother to her, he never tried to actively change her. I liked when he came to talk to Mu Xi in her classroom about Dan Yi leaving Class 10, he was just a really nice guy. I wasn’t completely sure what kind of work he was doing though, so maybe I missed that, but I guess something with story writing? But then they could’ve also made that come across as a bit more professional, because he kept getting stuck at writing stories starting with ‘Once upon a time’… like, a little bit more inspiration from the writers here? Anyways, it was nice to see Mu Xi at least didn’t have any real sadness back at home, her brother was the most important person to her and she tried to do something back for him on several occasions, so that was nice.

I think I’m forgetting a lot of details about specific arcs, but I guess I have managed to put down my main thoughts on this show. So now I’m gonna go on the cast comments! The nice thing was that I knew almost no one in this cast. Sometimes it’s nice to have a clean slate of actors to give feedback on without referring to other stuff I’ve seen them in.

First of all, Eleanor Lee, or Li Kai Xin. I read that she’s actually Singaporean! I have to say that I did like her acting, she really surprised me at times. Even for a character like Mu Xi, who was very childish and immature, she didn’t get on my nerves per se. I think she acted out the layer behind it pretty well. You could see how sometimes stuff ate her up inside, and then she just masked it by acting like she always did. The few serious scenes she had were really good and those made me think that she is in fact a pretty good actress. I’d have to see more of her, but I did like her as the main lead in this show. Apparently this was one of her first drama acting roles, so maybe I’ll see her again in another more recent Chinese drama! I’d like to see her in a role that’s more serious, because I definitely saw that she had some good acting skills in her more serious scenes. But I have to admit that even in her ‘childish’ scenes as Mu Xi, she never took it too far and made it unbearably cringy or anything. I think she balanced it pretty well, and at some point it really did make me feel like it was okay for her to just stay as she was. It’s okay to remain a kid at heart, even as you grow up.

Huang Jun Jie’s performance made a really nice contrast to Eleanor Lee’s. I think they made a good team. I thought it was sweet that he felt like he needed to guide Mu Xi after he almost abandoned her as a kid, although sometimes I also found myself going ‘why do you even still bother with it, dude, just let her be a kid, it shouldn’t be your responsibility to change her’. I think he did a really good job in pretending to be the strict teacher to her while actually he was just really concerned about her becoming able to fend for herself as an adult. The scenes in which you could see how much he cared for her, and he’d just be smiling in the background while watching her, those were really sweet. When she prepared a birthday cake for him and the positive surprise just beamed off his face… You could tell that he never intended to hurt her in any way, and it was also development on his part to decide to step away, to realize that maybe his constant presence was what kept making her act like that, because she felt like she always had to compete with him. And then when they were arguing at the amusement park and he was like ‘nothing about you is trifle to me’ I was like 👁👄👁 and also when he called her ‘his boss’ and even leaned in… 👁👄👁 Like, even I was getting my hopes up a bit, haha! And then the final scene between them on the beach, when they asked each other if they were happy, and they both said ‘yes’. Like, it was scenes like these that kept me engaged in their relationship. Also, I thought it was a real funny twist to make him tone deaf, I definitely didn’t see that coming. I liked his performance. Also, his smile reminded me of Miura Haruma (T^T).

I guess Lu Yan Qi is the only cast member I’ve seen in a drama before, she was in Love O2O, (although I don’t remember her character🥲). Anyways, I recognized her. I had kind of hoped that there would be more to her character, with the whole introduction where Mu Xi had to persuade her to come to school at first. I’m not even sure why she didn’t want to come to school other than that she just didn’t feel like it, and even as a classmate she didn’t seem to have many exceptional personality traits. She actually seemed a bit one-dimensional to me, as her sole purpose seemed to be being Xiao Dong’s fan. I did like her in the part where she had a small fight with Mu Xi and immediately felt like she had to go apologize, but otherwise she didn’t really seem like someone who’d put a lot of emotional effort in friendships. But I guess that also made her a typical teenager, haha.

I really feel like they did Dai Jing Yao a little dirty as an idol in this show. I would’ve liked to see him do some singing and dancing, to see his actual skills rather than that it was dubbed over by some random track that just busted the show’s lazy editing. Now it was just him continuously saying that he’s an idol and making it look like he played every instrument there was, but there wasn’t any ‘real evidence’, while I feel like it would’ve cost them less if they’d just let him sing a song. If there was anything that this show needed, it was authenticity, and he could’ve brought more of that. Luckily for him I see that he’s gotten more acting roles in dramas after this, so who knows when I might spot him again, I’m curious to see how he’s grown since this show.

I really liked Deng Yu Li’s performance because she showed, in my opinion, the most versatility out of everyone. Her character in ‘real life’ was kind of rigid, but her sweet side came out when she fell for Dan Yi. In her own fantasies and in Mu Xi’s, she also showed sides that we didn’t get to see from her ‘real’ character, so that was nice. Her fantasy sequences with Dan Yi were the only ones that made me laugh because she really went for it! As I’ve mentioned in other reviews before, it works best when the character isn’t trying to be funny, and that’s exactly what she did. She was really in the moment, and when she then suddenly acted really out of character (for example when they all played that phone app game and she became obsessed with it), it was extra funny because it was so unexpected. I think she gave a really genuine performance, I liked her versatility and she’s so pretty, too! I’d love to see more from her.

Ge Qiu Gu reminded me a little of Nam Da Reum, appearance-wise. I see he’s in about 5 new upcoming dramas! He’s doing well for himself! Despite being the older brother of the two, there really wasn’t that much difference between him and his younger brother, haha. They were quite the troublemaking bunch! I thought the idea of having a comic duo like that was nice, and I definitely saw some good acting from him in serious scenes, but I still thought the brothers were a bit over the top in their slapstick acting. It was just really clear that they were trying to be funny, and that’s what made it less effective on me.
Same went for Gao Kai, I totally got the whole concept of their characters, but I found myself occasionally annoyed by their pranks because I just didn’t find them funny 🥲. But anyways, they were a loyal duo and it was nice to see that they really respected Mu Xi for who she was and didn’t want her to change.

Jin Di is so cute and bubbly! Shen Wei was one of the most anime-like characters, with her astrology quirk. I liked that at least she had something that she could always fall back on, not just talking about being an astrology geek, but always having new ways in which she could use that in scenes. I liked that she was that kind of friend who’d always be smiling at everyone, but she definitely knew what was up more than she let on. I thought it was cute that the Huang brothers had a little crush on her, haha. She was one of the more established characters, that was nice to see.

I can’t help but feel like they also did Ke Er a bit dirty. I really liked Zuo Yi Fan in the beginning, I thought she’d be a really cool character, but they put her in a lot of scenes where her character didn’t really come out well. I see that she’s also one of the few actors from this series who hasn’t done that much since this one, which is a shame. I thought her character had a lot of potential, but they only showed off her artistic skills that one time with the blackboard art competition, and after that she suddenly turned into a rock and roll fanatic (?) but again only in words and gestures. It was like they were trying to come up with something new for her character, and then just left it at her occasionally saying ‘I like rock and roll!🤘’ and only proving that by having her sing ‘We Will Rock You’ one time at the singing competition. It just felt a bit lame and I would’ve liked to see her get more action when it came to her artistic qualities. Ke Er deserved better!

I thought Guo Jia Ren was so handsome in this! Like even when he was that loner in class, I couldn’t help but notice that jawline?! Haha, sorry, but I liked that they added him in, even if it was a bit later. I’d almost forgotten about him, I remember he was shown in that introductory one-take in the first episode as he was reciting a poem. Anyways, I liked that at least he got a bit of backstory with his dad, and that they made amends after his dad found out about his good grades and stopped criticizing him so much. I was actually a little interested in his character, I would’ve liked to get a bit more info on him. Anyways.

My favorite girl Zhang Lin Yue! Honestly, Li Yao was my fave. I really liked what she did with the character, she fit the image so perfectly. It was cute to see how she was trying to be cute towards Cheng Ling but it just kept coming out so harshly. I like a layer (if that wasn’t already obvious, lol) and she was one of the few characters that really interested me. I really liked her.

Wang Shu Yi really made an adorable Cheng Ling. I felt so bad for him in the beginning, as he was introduced as that typical timid kid who couldn’t stand up for himself, but after joining the tracking team he became so easygoing! I would’ve loved for him and Li Yao to become an actual couple, I think they were so cute together. Him being one of the few people who could see through her tough mask and catching her off guard really gave them OTP vibes. I liked him.

So yeah, I get where this show was coming from and I get what was probably the idea of it, but I think the way they went about constructing it was pretty sloppy. There were some instances that made it clear what they were going for, and you could definitely see Mu Xi learn from her experiences and become more mature in her own way throughout everything that happened, and not always necessarily because of Dan Yi’s influence. But the way they filled it in was just too tedious. I honestly didn’t feel like they needed two seasons of 18 episodes to construct the message of this story. It could’ve all been so much more to the point. The lengthy fantasy sequences often made me lose sight of what the whole story was about. I had kind of hoped that there would be less of it in the second season, and though it did start out that way, they came back in full power in the middle and that’s when I started paying less attention to it. I didn’t skip anything, I didn’t fastforward through anything, but I did hover over the procession bar many times to check how long a scene would last because I was getting impatient.
I usually like it when a drama series is a bit like an anime, and this is the case with many Chinese dramas in particular. In terms of characters and in terms of skits, I think that if this had been an anime, it would’ve probably been more fun to watch, but now that it was people trying to act like anime-like characters, it became a bit too slapstick for me. Sometimes people were just trying too hard and it took away the fun element for me.
Despite my criticisms, I do wish to end this review on a positive note. I thought the concept of the story was nice, about a girl with a wild imagination navigating through school life, supported by a childhood friend who wants to make sure she turns out alright. Mu Xi is a very admirable character, because she doesn’t care about what other people think of her behavior. Sure, she acts like a spoiled brat sometimes, but it’s not that she’s not aware of what happens around her. She just has a different learning pace, and that should be okay. It was nice seeing a character sticking to her own pace, not succumbing to the expectations of other people. The whole idea of this girl growing in her own way while gathering a group of friends and deepening their bonds was really nice. Honestly, if the fantasy sequences had been less tedious and a bit more coherent, I would’ve enjoyed watching them frolic around in that Fantasy Kingdom, as long as it led somewhere and added to the meaning of the story. The characters were all interesting in their own way, and all had the potential of gaining their own respective stories. I would’ve liked it if they’d given more backstories to all the characters rather than creating far-fetched fantasy stories that didn’t mean anything in the end, they could’ve used the screentime, those 36 episodes, for much more to-the-point narrative building. But anyways, I don’t want to be too sour, it was still a light and comic watch and I understand why some people love the simplicity and pureness of it. It definitely held some lessons.

But I can’t deny that I’m very excited to now move on with my list, haha. I want to keep switching it up more between Korean, Japanese and Chinese dramas, so look forward to some more variety in area and language! I will be back with my next review soon, I think. Until then!

Bye-bee!

Our Blues

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Our Blues
(우리들의 블루스 / Urideurui Beulluseu)
MyDramaList rating: 9.0/10

Hello everyone! I’m back with a new review! I want to give a little context to my personal situation this time since it really affected my view on this drama. I started out this year super stressed and anxious because of work and just when I’d decided I wanted to quit, my work actually dismissed me a couple of weeks ago, so I’ve found myself unexpectedly unemployed. Not that I really mind that in itself, but it was very abrupt and weird and I didn’t really get to have any closure on anything, including finishing pending tasks and saying goodbye to people I’d worked with for two years. It happened a week after I finished my last review, so I had just started this series and I can’t express enough how much this show healed me in that period of confusion and mixed feelings. I just wanted to state that before I even started this review, because my circumstances really created a frame of mind in which I was able to appreciate this drama even more than when I would’ve watched it without all this happening in the background. I would’ve still loved it, no doubt, but now the healing came at just the right time for my heart, and that’s why this drama is ranked so high (I rarely give ratings this high). Besides my personal mindframe, this series really is an absolute gem and it was definitely worth spending almost an entire month to finish it. I’m going to construct my review a little bit differently this time, as going through my analysis based on the story would take way too long. As there are so many characters and so many intertwining storylines playing out at the same time, I decided to go through my summary and analysis based on the characters. I hope this will allow my arguments to pan out in a constructed and coherent way. There’s just so much to say about everything and everyone, I can’t bring myself to skip certain things. So let’s get to it!

Our Blues is a 20-episode Netflix K-Drama with each episode lasting about an hour and a half. It’s quite lengthy, both in number of episodes and length of each episode, and that’s why I also took considerable time in-between, I never watched more than two episodes in a row because it would be simply too much. Not in a bad way, but there’s just so much going on with every single person, I just liked taking breaks in-between and get back into it after clearing my own head, haha.
Our Blues focusses on a community that lives in a village called Pureung in the city Seogwipo on Jeju Island. It’s located by the seashore and the sea is a very big theme in the villagers’ lives, both in good and bad ways. Many elderly people living on the island have lost family members to the sea, either to drowning or ‘harvesting’, an activity executed by a group of female divers (haenyo) in which they go diving for abalones. One rule to this ‘harvesting’ is that the group of divers has to be ‘one’, they can’t go too far from the group, they can’t get too greedy and swim farther down for more, it’s simply too dangerous. The community consists of people from each generation, in which the elderly are respected the most. The middle-aged generation commonly all have some sort of business and an associated stand on the local marketplace. The teenagers all go to school together, etcetera. In Pureung, everyone knows each other, it’s one big family. Even when you have beef with someone, they’ll still come running when you’re in trouble, everyone helps each other out. That’s the main vibe I got from this community. There’s people that never left, who raised and lost their families, people whose children may have moved to the mainland but would never leave themselves. There’s people that went to school together and never moved away. All in all, everyone is really tight and connected throughout the generations. It would be a bit hard for outsiders/mainlanders/people not born on Jeju to fit in at first, but with the right communication, they’d always be welcomed. The scenery shots taken from the island and the sea are absolutely stunning, the surroundings are beautiful and there’s also a mountain called Hallasan nearby.

Within this village, we are introduced to several members of the community one by one. The episodes are structured by character, and there are different ‘chapters’ or ‘arcs’ per character. Each chapter typically features the relationship between two people, either romantic, friendly or familial. There are chapters between childhood friends, neighbors, lovers and also estranged family members.
Let’s just go from there.

One of the first characters we are introduced to is Jung Eun Hee (played by Lee Jung Eun). Eun Hee is a middle-aged lady, born and raised in Seogwipo, and despite the fact that she’s never had an academic education after high school, she has managed to build a franchise through her fishing business, causing her to have acquired a lot of money. She’s one of the most financially accomplished women in the village, and she’s always out and about driving her truck back and forth to tend to her establishments. She’s often found buying fish and selling it on the local market, but as she also owns a bunch of restaurants and cafés in the vicinity, she’s constantly busy. She’s always been single, she never married and doesn’t have kids. The only time she’s had feelings for someone was in high school. Despite her success she’s never felt very confident about her looks or female appeal, she’s just content being where she is, surrounded by her loyal high school friends. However, there are inevitably times when she’s confronted with the fact that she never got much luck in the romance department.
In the first chapter, her first love from high school, Choi Han Soo (played by Cha Seung Won) returns to Seogwipo for a reunion with his high school friends. He’s one of the few people from Eun Hee’s friend group that moved to the mainland after studying in Seoul. His life’s journey has been quite the opposite from Eun Hee’s. Despite his high education and being able to secure a stable job in finance, he is struggling with money problems. He’s sent his wife and daughter to the United States since his daughter is pursuing a professional career in golfing there, and he has taken it on himself to provide for that, but it’s not going so well and he ends up loaning a lot of money which he then isn’t able to pay back. His wife is begging him to let her and daughter come back to South Korea, as they’re being targeted by hate crime there and they don’t feel safe. Also, his daughter is now saying she doesn’t want to golf anymore. Han Soo keeps ignoring them, keeps saying he’ll take care of the money. When he goes to Seogwipo and meets his high school friends there, he finds out that Eun Hee has a lot of money. Even though he feels terrible about taking advantage of Eun Hee’s lingering attraction to him, he is determined to ask her for money, but it plays out quite painfully as Eun Hee finds out his motives from her friends after he’s taken her on a ‘trip down memory lane’ in Mokpo, recreating the memory of a meaningful high school field trip. While Eun Hee is initially very angry with him (and with herself for starting to believe there was still hope for her first love to play out successfully after all this time), she still wires him money, but he decides to return it and get his wife and daughter back from the States. He quits his job and is able to start a new life with the pension money from there (if I remember correctly).
Eun Hee’s other chapter focusses on her friendship with Go Mi Ran (played by Eom Jung Hwa). The two women have been best friends since high school. As Eun Hee was seen as a bit of a weirdo in high school, she was saved by Mi Ran a bunch of times. Mi Ran’s family was quite rich, so she would offer Eun Hee lifts to school and brought lunch for her. It feels like they never really talked about the things that were a little toxic about their friendship, the fact that Eun Hee knowingly made use of Mi Ran’s generosity, or the fact that Mi Ran never said anything about this despite occasionally feeling like Eun Hee was leeching off of her. On the other hand, even as adults, Mi Ran is basically worshipped by every single person in Eun Hee’s life. She’s tall, beautiful and always surrounded by men – she’s just divorced her third husband. Mi Ran runs a massage salon in Seoul, but when her daughter rejects her coming along on a trip to Europe with her, she goes back to Seogwipo instead. Eun Hee, in her turn, has opened her eyes to the fact that Mi Ran has always used her as a doormat. All her other friends are saying this too, that Mi Ran is the princess and Eun Hee is her servant. She’s started resenting Mi Ran for it, and writes her rancorous thoughts about her in her diary. When Mi Ran stays over at Eun Hee’s house, she finds this diary and there’s a conflict between the two. They are able to resolve it quickly, though, when Eun Hee goes over to Mi Ran’s massage salon to make amends.

Further part of Eun Hee’s friend group are Bang Ho Shik (played by Choi Young Joon) and Jung In Gwon (played by Park Ji Hwan). These two guys are both single dads (both their wives left them) and now they’re stuck with their respective kids. Ho Shik lives with his teenage daughter Bang Yeong Joo (played by Noh Yoon Seo) and In Gwon has a son of the same age called Hyeon (played by Bae Hyeon Seong). Their kids go to school together and are secretly in love with each other.
Ho Shik and In Gwon are the typical guys that are considered to be best friends, but they also cuss each other out daily. Especially In Gwon, who used to be a thug before he decided to become a soondae sausage seller to provide for his son’s college fees, has a hand in being very foul-mouthed. Ho Shik is a little bit milder, but the two are still both very hot-headed, especially towards each other. Something happened in their past that made Ho Shik resentful towards In Gwon and he’s never forgiven him for that, even though they’ve made up pretty much for the rest and are still, despite their constant bickering, on relatively good terms with each other. That is, until their kids’ storyline is introduced.
Yeong Joo discovers that she’s pregnant, and that it’s already been six months. The father is Hyeon, without a doubt, and her first instinct is to get an abortion. Giving birth will go against all her plans, all her father’s plans, and she just knows she and Hyeon won’t be able to deal with this right now, they’re still in high school, they’re both supposed to go study in Seoul after graduation. Yeong Joo is one of the few people who actually can’t wait to get out of Jeju, she really wants to go to Seoul so this really gets in her way. However, Hyeon, kind-hearted and gentle as can be, manages to persuade her to keep the baby. After they’ve established their own plan, the next step is to tell their dads, which they’re both very much NOT looking forward to. They already expect their dads to respond badly and are not disappointed in that aspect. But the whole situation eventually leads to Ho Shik and In Gwon coming face to face about their own issues, besides their kids’. In the end, they finally agree to Yeong Joo keeping the baby and in the last episode, she gives birth to a healthy girl.

Then there’s Yeong Ok and Jeong Joon. Lee Yeong Ok (played by Han Ji Min) is a thirtysomething woman who came from the mainland. She’s the only person in the village who wasn’t born on Jeju Island and despite her integration in the community, she’s still viewed as an outsider mainly by her fellow haenyos. Yeong Ok loves Jeju Island, she loves the sea and she loves harvesting, but she’s the type of person who tends to drift off from the group in her greed to bring in as many abalones as possible. She brings a lot of anxiety to the haenyos as she goes against their ‘code’ multiple times and they even start threatening to throw her out. Another thing working against her is that no one really knows anything about her, she keeps her family and background very vague, so rumors start spreading about her having a husband and child back on the mainland for whom she’s saving up money. Yeong Ok works in a café and besides harvesting she also helps Eun Hee out at her fish market stand.
Park Jeong Joon (played by Kim Woo Bin) is a few years younger than Yeong Ok, but he’s a born and raised Jeju Island guy. He and his younger brother captain the boat that the haenyos dive from and he also helps out at Eun Hee’s fish market stand. He’s a kind of handyman in the village, he’s tall and strong and always happy to help out wherever he can. From the beginning we can see that he has a crush on Yeong Ok, even though he initially tries to hide it while Yeong Ok occasionally flirts with him. But it becomes clearer and clearer that he is interested in her. Despite his easygoing nature he can’t help but find himself interested in Yeong Ok’s background as well, and wonders if she might really be lying about things. In any case, the two get together and have a nice time until Jeong Joon starts bringing up things like living together and even marriage. Yeong Ok seems to value her freedom above everything. She doesn’t lie in her feelings for Jeong Joon, but warns him that it can’t get too serious between them. There’s something mysterious about her in general, as she also continuously gets calls and messages from an unknown number. It even seems like she’s being stalked at some point, as the messages get quite persistent and someone is clearly bothering her to ‘come back’. It is later revealed that Yeong Ok has a twin sister back on the mainland. Lee Yeong Hee (played by Jung Eun Hye) has Down Syndrome and ever since the sisters’ parents died when they were 12, Yeong Hee has been a big liability for Yeong Ok. Her past few boyfriends have consistently dumped her because they couldn’t deal with Yeong Hee being ‘part of the package’. Yeong Ok has been trying to move away from her sister as much as possible, hoping that she’d forget about her at some point, she’s never felt free from her. When Yeong Hee unexpectedly comes to Jeju Island to visit Yeong Ok, she’s forced to introduce everyone and this is when Jeong Joon also finally finds out why Yeong Ok has so little faith in his devotion to her – she expects him to be just like her exes, someone who promises to stay with her and support her in taking care of Yeong Hee but eventually will give up. Jeong Joon proves to be different, and Yeong Ok and Yeong Hee manage to make amends as well.

Hyeon Choon Hee (played by Go Doo Shim) is one of the village’s elders. She’s a well-respected elderly lady who can be seen as the OG Jeju Island villager. She grew up there, build a life and a family there, lost half of that family there. Her only living son is living in Seoul with his wife and daughter, Choon Hee’s 6-year old granddaughter Son Eun Gi (played by Ki So Yoo). Choon Hee may be elderly, but she’s still a very active member of the community. She sells vegetables at the local market and she still goes out harvesting as the head of the group. Her life on Jeju Island has hardened her visibly, but she keeps herself together formidably, never letting anyone see her weakness. One day her daughter-in-law announces that she’s bringing granddaughter Eun Gi over to stay with Choon Hee for two weeks before mother and father will join them. What Choon Hee doesn’t know, what’s kept a secret from her, is that her son, Eun Gi’s father, actually got into a major accident with his truck and has already been comatose for a month. Eun Gi is sent to Seogwipo while her mom stays with her dad in the hospital, and works some extra jobs until he (hopefully) wakes up. After finding out the truth, Choon Hee finds it impossible to keep lying to Eun Gi, especially since the child has such trust in that her dad will wake up soon. Miraculously, he does wake up in the end.

Finally, there’s the storyline of Lee Dong Seok (played by Lee Byung Hoon). Dong Seok was born and raised in Seogwipo, but suffered a harsh childhood. After his own father passed and his older sister died during harvesting, his mother married another guy with two sons of his own. His former wife, the sons’ mother, was very sick and Dong Seok’s mom ended up taking care of the ex-wife of her new husband while Dong Seok himself was being beaten by his new brothers every day. The only person he found solace in was a girl from his neighborhood, Min Seon Ah (played by Shin Min Ah as an adult). Family-wise, his mother was the only person he had left, but she didn’t even seem to care for him anymore and even slapped him and told him not to call her his mother anymore, to refer to her as an aunt from now on. Dong Seok has grown up as a guy with a very bad temper. He has a truck in which he sells all kinds of stuff, from clothes to handywares and utensils. Like Eun Hee, he’s always on the road, driving from the mainland to Jeju Island and back to buy new stuff to sell to the elderly in Seogwipo. He also regularly parks his truck outside the local market to sell there, and there he sometimes runs into his mother, Kang Ok Dong (played by Kim Hye Ja), who sells vegetables together with Choon Hee. She’s also a respected elder in the village, but Dong Seok treats her coldly, as she’s treated him all his life. Ok Dong is a very frail old lady, she’s illiterate and seems very stoic when it comes to Dong Seok, but she’s very warm and kind towards younger people, children and stray animals. She even feeds some stray dogs and cats in her own garden. At some point it’s revealed that she has terminal stomach cancer, and she refuses any chemo treatment. Her condition deteriorates throughout the story. When she eventually asks Dong Seok to drive her to Mokpo to attend his late stepfather’s memorial, he initially declares her crazy for expecting him to get involved in that, but he ends up doing it and this evolves into a final trip for the estranged mother and son, in which they ultimately make amends. Just when they’ve made up and Dong Seok starts wanting to involve his mother in his life again, she passes away. Ok Dong is the only village character who passes away in the story.
Dong Seok ends up meeting Seon Ah again by coincidence and while he’s immediately back to square one in his feelings for her, Seon Ah has had to deal with her own mess. As a child, she too was comforted by Dong Seok while her own family was a mess, and her father ended up driving his truck into the sea, leaving her alone with her mother. She eventually moved to Seoul where she met her future husband, but was diagnosed with depression along the way. She ended up marrying the guy and they had a son called Yeol. Her husband eventually divorced her because he couldn’t deal with her depression and it started causing her to neglect Yeol when they were alone. Seon Ah is desperate in wanting custody over Yeol, claiming her son to be her only necessity to live. She met Dong Seok a couple of times in-between, when the custody case was still pending, and he took her back to Jeju Island for a while after her custody claim was denied. Even though she consistently rejected Dong Seok’s advantages, after going back to Seoul and figuring out how to deal with her depression, she eventually comes to appreciate his presence in her life again and Dong Seok even builds her a house in Seogwipo.

In the last episode, all the characters featured in each episode arc meet up together for this annual Athletic Meet in which Pureung competes against another village, and it’s one big reunion party, a very warm and welcome event after all the dramatic things that have happened. It truly ends in one big healing reunion, the perfect way to wrap up the series.

I’ve tried to go through all the characters and their respective chapters as briefly as possible! I will now shine some light on the stories in more depth and give my own views on them in more detail. I will highlight some arcs that had a big impact on me, but in principle all stories and events were equally meaningful in my opinion.

To start with Eun Hee, I just thought she was such a typical countryside fisherman’s lady. I really liked how much of a character she really was, her slightly boorish nature, setting up a big mouth even though she had a heart of gold and how she was actually touched pretty easily. Her genuinely kind nature really came out whenever something bad happened to anyone, she was always there to offer support and food. Her quirks only came out when she was with friends and people she felt genuinely comfortable with – her love for dancing and singing, and her talent for it!. Especially when she took that trip to Mokpo with Han Soo in the beginning, she really went back to her high school self with him and that was really nice to see. She’s just such a humane character, you could tell how she busied herself and focussed on the money so she wouldn’t have to think too much about the fact that she never really felt beautiful, or that she wouldn’t have any kids. I believe Ho Shik was still a bit interested in her though, and she’d also been with him for a short period of time in the past, but I guess she just never felt anything real for anyone after Han Soo.
I felt so bad for her throughout the whole Han Soo arc, because you could see that she was getting her hopes up while we as viewers already knew what he was going to ask her, that it was all about her money. It was so painful when she had to find out about it via her friends, who’d all been asked for money by Han Soo apparently, and to have him admit it face-to-face to her. And STILL she found it in herself to forgive him, because he was STILL a friend who needed help. Looking at both this arc and the one around Mi Ran, I actually can’t help feeling like Eun Hee is indeed a bit of a doormat, but more in the sense that her loyalty towards her friends is just so strong that she can’t help being there for them when she can. I could relate to her feeling useful when her seemingly better-off friends would ask for her help, too. It gave her a feeling of purpose. She mostly held her head high and threw herself into her business as much as possible, but when it came to the people around her, she was always very lenient. A bit too much, at times.
Han Soo only appears that first episode and then again during the Athletic Meet in the end. While I sympathized with him in his situation, I still felt pissed at him for knowingly taking advantage of Eun Hee’s lingering feelings for him. I really didn’t agree with the way in which he was going to ask her, how he recreated this fondly shared memory and treated Eun Hee nicely, made her feel special, only to betray her trust like that. I’m just glad he reflected on his actions and found a way to solve his problems by himself in the end. He really didn’t seem to be a bad guy, and it was interesting to immediately be introduced to a couple of characters with a double side to them and intentions of which they were aware weren’t pure.
I couldn’t help but feel like Eun Hee’s friendship with Mi Ran was quite toxic in the beginning. The event in which Mi Ran had Eun Hee come all the way to Seoul only to prove to her friends that ‘See? She comes at my beck and call!’ was really nasty. Especially because she’d lured her with a message indicating possible self-harm and all replies stopped after that, causing Eun Hee to get really, super worried and scared about her wellbeing. I didn’t blame Eun Hee for being genuinely pissed at her for that. And then when Mi Ran discovered her diary and confronted Eun Hee, I also felt like Mi Ran (and everyone else for that matter) was putting everything on Eun Hee. Eun Hee was the one who needed to be more considerate towards Mi Ran, Eun Hee had taken advantage of Mi Ran’s generosity. That just felt wrong. Even if Mi Ran wasn’t aware of what her behavior had instilled in Eun Hee, she still did some really hurtful things herself as well. I don’t know, it just felt weird between them. I’m glad they made up, though, and I really felt like they truly cherished each other’s friendship in the end, but what happened between them was definitely not all sunshine and rainbows. I also found it very clear that Mi Ran reminded Eun Hee of everything she didn’t have in terms of popularity and appeal based on her looks. Mi Ran was basically jumped on by every guy in the vicinity, even In Gwon and Eun Hee’s other guy friends all became puppies when Mi Ran entered their field of vision. In that sense, I did appreciate Ho Shik’s objectivity as he was the only person on Eun Hee’s side throughout the whole thing. He had been on Eun Hee’s side ever since high school and he never truly liked Mi Ran for how she treated her.

For some reason, the arc featuring Ho Shik and In Gwon hit me really hard in comparison to other arcs. I guess it had to do with the fact that you had these two prideful alpha males who were basically stripped down layer by layer until they just couldn’t help getting emotional. The build-up in their respective self-destruction when it came to what was happening to their kids was incredibly raw and powerful, and I found myself actually crying asn both guys, as well as their children, came face-to-face with each other.
To start with Ho Shik, I mentioned before that I found him the milder of the two. He genuinely doted on his daughter, but also had his own plans of buying a boat and sailing off as soon as Yeong Joo went to college (he currently runs an ice cutting business to provide all the market stalls (like the fish one) with ice. In any case, his daughter’s unexpected pregancy comes at a very bad time for him personally as well. I had the feeling that he was against her keeping the baby out of genuine concern for her future, he’d seen how hard it had been for his own wife and he worried that the stigma would ruin his daughter’s life forever, that she wouldn’t even be able to study anymore.
The whole arc posed an interesting discussion because indeed, the kids were only teenagers, what could they possibly know about raising a child at that point? But they still managed to be so mature about it. Hyeon immediately took his responsibility, immediately gave up his own aspirations of studying in Seoul, he didn’t hesistate for a second. I think Yeong Joo really needed that affirmation from him, he immediately set out to prove how responsible he would be and that must have been a big factor in her agreeing to keep the baby. But Ho Shik and In Gwon were both very much set in their ways that it was too early, they wouldn’t be able to deal with it. It was really painful to watch how Ho Shik couldn’t even face Yeong Joo at some point.
In the meantime, we get insight in the history of the friendship between Ho Shik and In Gwon, and we see that, when Ho Shik’s wife left after he’d gambled their money away and he didn’t have any way to feed Yeong Joo by himself and went to In Gwon for some money, In Gwon basically shamed him for ‘using his kid to beg for money’ and this angered Ho Shik to no end, even after years and years later. It seems that Ho Shik is the type of person who generally holds grudges for a long time. We see it also in his resentment towards Mi Ran for something she said to Eun Hee back in high school. He just doesn’t forget these things. And he’s always resented In Gwon for saying that in front of his child. When he confronts In Gwon about this when they get jailed for getting into an intense fist fight at the market, In Gwon also seems generally ashamed. This is the first time the two men get so overwhelmed by everything that’s happening that tears of emotion come out.
I’m not entirely sure what In Gwon’s past of being ‘a thug’ entailed completely, but it seemed like he became a kind of loan shark or maffia-affiliated figure at some point. Later, he did something that made him a target, and this (indirectly) caused the death of his mother-in-law. After that, his wife left him. Hyeon has always claimed that she didn’t abandon him, he let her go, so he never blamed his mom for anything. In Gwon is very hard on his son, even for ‘tough love’ he’s pretty intense as a dad. He started the soondae sausage business in order to provide for Hyeon, so he initially sees it as a sort of betrayal when Hyeon tells him he’s going to be a father to Young Joo’s baby rather than resuming his plans to go study.

What’s also typical is that both dads’ first response is to point fingers at the other party – Ho Shik immediately supposes Hyeon must have done something to Yeong Joo against her will, while In Gwon immediately accuses Yeong Joo of seducing his son. They both plead that Yeong Joo should get an abortion, and In Gwon even goes as far as to drag her out of the motel she stays at after leaving home to force her to go to the hospital. The respective conflicts between In Gwon and Hyeon and Ho Shik and Yeong Joo, as well as the guys’ own ongoing feud just make the whole arc super intense. I guess this was because it happened to two people who would normally NEVER have a heart-to-heart, who always resorted to fist violence and cussing first before baring their honest feelings. It really broke me for a part. The scene where Hyeon and In Gwon had that confrontation in the sausage factory with the rain pouring outside, that shot of Hyeon hugging his dad from behind while they were both bawling their eyes out… My goodness.

Yeong Joo and Hyeon were such a lovely couple. Even though Hyeon seemed to care more about Yeong Joo than the other way around in the beginning, when we are introduced to Yeong Joo’s narrative, she immediately says that Hyeon is the only person who makes life on Jeju Island bearable for her. Of course, the pregnancy is not planned. The two argue about it, Yeong Joo a bit more fierce in her tone. She initially plans to get an abortion before anyone finds out, and visits an OB-GYN by herself.
This scene made me so angry, by the way. First of all, I would personally be kind of uncomfortable with having a male doctor as my OB-GYN, I think I’d just feel more comfortable with a woman who was at least able to relate a little bit. But this guy?! The way he openly judged her for getting pregnant?! I was like, excuse me sir? How unprofessional was that?! Not a shred of compassion. I really hope not all OB-GYNs are like that with unwanted/teenage pregnancies. And then, when she had already decided to have it removed and Hyeon went with her one time to an appointment before the procedure, the lady started literally guilt-tripping Yeong Joo while showing her the baby in her belly, knowing the girl would have it removed. She saw how much Yeong Joo was struggling and she just went, ‘Look, there’s your baby, it has a heartbeat you know, don’t you want to hear its beating heart?’ Like, what business of hers was it to get involved in that? It’s not their place to guilt-trip a young girl into keeping a baby if she doesn’t want it. Anyways, they do decide to keep the baby after that and they – ultimately- also manage to convince their dads and get married soon after.

Then we have the Yeong Ok, Jeong Joon and eventually Yeong Hee arc. I found it really refreshing that a character with Down Syndrome was introduced, and that they utilized her character so well. It went so much deeper than just making you feel bad for someone with a handicap, she really wasn’t used as a factor of pity at all. I think it was a very important factor in Yeong Ok’s character, because we actually get introduced to her mean side. I initially really liked Yeong Ok for her quirkiness, her mysterious aura of being ‘the outsider’ while not caring one bit about other people’s opinions. Yeong Ok really wanted to have fun in life, she wanted adventure and challenge, and she wasn’t keen on settling down any time soon. Even when she meets Jeong Joon and is attracted to him, she keeps telling herself as well as him that ‘this is just fun’. In a way you could say that she has always kind of victimized herself when it came to her sister. She just accepted that, when people would find out about Yeong Hee, they would just abandon her. She’d always seen Yeong Hee as a factor in her life that would chase people away, as it had with her several ex-boyfriends. Little did she know that Pureung would be that one place that would completely embrace Yeong Hee for who she was. Even despite the initial hesitation, because the villagers had never seen someone with Down Syndrome before, they were quick to accomodate Yeong Hee as one of their own.
I got a little annoyed with Yeong Ok when she was being so persistent in pushing Jeong Joon away. He was very clear in that he wanted to prove to her that he was different, but she just treated him kind of coldly, immediately putting him in the same box as her exes, who’d also promised the same thing. I mean, I can understand that she had lost trust in those words, but I found the way she treated Jeong Joon in that a little petty and childish. I’m glad it wasn’t how she truly felt and she just needed the confirmation that Jeong Joon really was all that he promised to be. I guess she was just a bit of a tsundere in the end, haha. Also when she refused to meet his parents when she was actually just super nervous.
At the end of their arc, in which Jeong Joon had exhibited all of Yeong Hee’s drawings through his bus and Yeong Ok had that heartwrenching scene where she went past them one by one, the final one showing Yeong Hee watching Yeong Ok enjoying her freedom was what she needed. I’m not entirely sure what exactly Yeong Ok’s closure was, to be honest. I guess it was having Yeong Hee reveal that she knew about Yeong Ok’s attempts to abandon her, and the fact that Yeong Hee acknowledged that Yeong Ok desired freedom so much? And as soon as Yeong Hee acknowledged that, it was suddenly much easier for Yeong Ok to keep in regular touch with her? Because in the episodes after their arc ended, Yeong Ok is regularly shown videocalling with her sister, and she is also present during the Athletic Meet. I guess it really was just about breaking the obligation to take care of her sister? To just have it out in the open what their respective feelings were, that those feelings were respected so that they could just keep more casual contact? In any case, it was good that they made up. I personally couldn’t find it in me to get annoyed with Yeong Hee at all, she seemed like such a precious lady. But I do get how Yeong Ok may have felt like she was tied to her for the rest of her life after their parents died. Watching their relationship, I couldn’t help but be reminded of It’s Okay to Not Be Okay, in which the younger brother has come to terms with giving up his own life in order to care for his brother, keeping his lingering resentments hidden forever. Yeong Ok is the opposite of that, she actively moves away, out of her sister’s life, in the hopes that Yeong Hee will get used to her absence and she’ll get to live her life free from her. It was just her nature, and I liked how they brought into that her love for being underwater, because that made her feel like she was finally all alone and could do whatever she wanted.
Jeong Joon’s feelings for Yeong Ok are pure from the start. Even though he may have doubted her at times, he was determined not to part from her side, and not to let her get rid of him either. He refused to break up with her, and he genuinely felt for her in her situation with her sister. He was the ultimate good guy in this show, he stood up for the right people, he was just always a loyal presence in everybody’s life. Whether it was driving the grannies somewhere, helping Dong Seok paint his house, helping Eun Hee at the market, etc. He was generally liked by everyone and didn’t have any major baggage himself, so it seemed. Maybe it was good that someone as uncomplicated and pure like him, ended up crossing paths with Yeong Ok. He was the best supporting pillar she could have asked for. I loved how mature their relationship was. It’s funny in a way, because even though we got a lot of insight in Jeong Joon’s life, for example how he spent his time at his bus on the shore, we generally see him taking part in other people’s stories. Like, he was one of the main featured characters, but he didn’t really seem to have anything dramatic going on in his own life. He really seemed to be there purely to support and assist other people in the village, because that in itself was his nature.

Moving on to the other arc that made me bawl my eyes out, the one about Grandma Choon Hee and Granddaughter Eun Gi. The whole concept of this pairing, two different generations that were still so very much alike, was so refreshing and heartwarming. I loved every moment of it. Choon Hee may have been a really warm person, and she never shied from showing her affection towards Eun Gi, but she was also still very strict and hardened in her ways. The way she lived her life so primitively but still enjoyably, she took pleasure in simple things, she ate what there was to be eaten, she didn’t have the luxury to be picky about food. This was such a big contrast to spoiled little Eun Gi, who refused to eat anything she didn’t know, who refused to walk long distances if Granny wouldn’t carry her, who just fell down crying at any given moment when she wouldn’t get her way. And still, I found that they were alike in their stubbornness. There was a very clear distinction of not only generation but also upbringing. Of course, Eun Gi had been spoiled by her parents, her dad especially doted on her and told her all these fantastical stories. Eun Gi definitely seemed to be a daddy’s girl, and she wouldn’t let anyone speak badly of him, or let anyone tell her that some of her dad’s stories weren’t true. This combination of young and old was so refreshing and original. I was incredibly impressed with the acting of the little girl, I wonder if she was able to cry on command or something, because the tears really came out so naturally, she was really a typical child. I actually didn’t think she’d be six years old by the way she was acting. Spoiled kids sometimes tend to be a little immature for their age because they are never expected to do anything by themselves and just expect their parents to pick them up and fix everything for them. I feel like this was also the case for Eun Gi. She didn’t seem to take any initiative to help her Grandma out if she wasn’t asked, and she acted really childishly in situations where she didn’t get her way, or when Grandma was a little strict on her.
The scene in which the two characters aligned the most was, of course, the scene where Choon Hee snapped after having visited her comatose son, the scene in which she lost her patience with Eun Gi, who was still claiming that her dad would pick her up the next day as promised. There they were, both bawling their eyes out, Choon Hee because she feared she would lose her last child, and Eun Gi because she refused to believe that her dad would lie to her.
The final scene of that arc, in which the villagers created Eun Gi’s imagined ‘100 moons’ on the water surface, was beautiful. I still don’t understand how they did that exactly with those boats, but it looked amazing. And then, miraculously, Eun Gi’s dad woke up from his coma. I didn’t expect that, per se. I had thought that maybe it would’ve also been a clear message if her dad really just passed away like that, I mean, they’d just gotten word from the hospital that morning that they should come to pay their final respects, that’s how bad it was looking for him. So the fact that he woke up was a little bit unrealistic to me. Of course I wanted him to wake up, so it was a relief as well, but also a little bit too idealistic.
What I found so touching about this arc was the dynamic between Choon Hee and Eun Gi, how they were such different species, two completely different generations, and yet they still meant so much to each other. It was definitely a learning experience for both of them.

Finishing off my character and story analyses with the story that is – I believe – considered to be the main one, let me talk about Dong Seok, Seon Ah and Ok Dong a bit more. So yeah, when Dong Seok was first introduced, I initially didn’t really like him. He just didn’t seem to be very sympathetic, he was grumpy and impatient and he lost his temper really quickly. We also initially see a scene of him and Seon Ah together on the beach, but when he kisses her and she pulls back, rejecting his further advances, the way he reacted to that also turned me off. He just didn’t seem to be very ‘nice’. On the other hand, I dare say that he got the most character development out of every single character in the series, and that build-up was really well done. I actually started liking him more throughout the story, especially when his relationships with the people in his story developed as well.
So we are introduced to Dong Seok as he’s returning from Mokpo to Jeju Island on the ferry. It seems like he basically lives in his truck, he sleeps there, it’s crammed with all kinds of stuff. He’s not a person who’s accustomed to luxury, in situations that involve sleeping over he usually takes the high road and offers to sleep on the floor, or just returns to his truck for the night. His truck itself is filled with the stuff he sells. He is constantly busy purchasing stuff in bulk, recording his own voice to promote the stuff he is selling, and he’s always on the road, always busy. From the beginning on, we learn that while Ok Dong is his birthmother, for some reason he seems to despise her. He doesn’t even refer to her as his mother, he ignores her messages and calls as well as those of other people telling him to contact his mother more. When she contacts him, he just gets angry at her for ‘suddenly acting like a mother’. He keeps saying that he’ll just regret his behavior toward her after he’s held her funeral. Other villagers definitely have their opinions about his behavior and the way he treats his mother, who is a respected elder in the village, but he never takes note of that. Through the flashbacks of him and how he got to know Seon Ah, we learn a bit about his childhood in which his mother seemed to have neglected him a lot. It seems like he felt abandoned by her after he lost his father and sister, as his mother just went on to another family right away.
Seon Ah, as I mentioned, suffers from depression. The way this was visualized was very clear and powerful. It literally showed all the lights going out one by one as soon as she was alone. She’d look out the window, and all the city lights just died, leaving her in complete darkness, phantom water dripping from her body. She describes it herself as feeling like a heavy, damp blanket is draped over her entire body. A hillbilly like Dong Seok would never truly understand a mental illness like that, so it’s hard to explain the intensity of this to him. Seon Ah claims that she wants to get better, but it seems like she can’t bring herself to actively fight it. This has resulted several times in cases where she unwillfully neglected her son as well. There were times when she’s not able to get out of bed while she was alone at home with her son. In the beginning there’s this really powerful scene in which we literally experience through her an entire day going by without her even noticing. It’s like, her husband takes her kid in the morning, she takes a shower, and suddenly it’s already evening and her husband is scolding her for again not taking care of any of the household chores he asked her to do in his absence. This is how Seon Ah has been living her life, trying to convince herself that she has it in her to get better.
She takes a trip back to Jeju after having her interview with the custody lady, feeling very gloomy about it since she’s seen her own child on screen admitting to being aware of her sickness. ‘Mom is very sick, so she can’t play with me’, in contrast to him referring to his dad as ‘his friend’. On Jeju, Dong Seok meets her coincidentally on the ferry and helps her fix her car, but takes care not to get too close to her as their previous meeting ended in that awkward rejection of a kiss. However, then an incident occurs in which Seon Ah either jumps or falls into the water. Luckily the haenyo, just sailing out, witness it and she’s rescued. She claims that she just fell, but honestly it wouldn’t be too far of a stretch to think that she may have jumped. In any case, after this Dong Seok kind of takes it upon himself to accommodate her, even takes her back to Seoul and then supports her after her custody claim is rejected. Seon Ah said to the custody lady that the reason she should get custody was because she couldn’t live without Yeol. After getting desperate in returning his son to her ex-husband, she even ends up hurting Yeol physically in an attempt to keep him in her arms, and then even her son doesn’t want to see her for a while. I honestly can’t remember exactly the timeline of when she came and went to Jeju Island, but in any case she decides to stay in Seoul while getting her life back together. In the meantime, Dong Seok works on the house he started building for her on Jeju. After some time has passed, Seon Ah realizes she now does have room for Dong Seok in her life, she misses him, so she ends up coming back to Seogwipo, even bringing Yeol with her.
While Seon Ah is in Seoul and the two are deciding on a time when she might come visit, Ok Dong suddenly asks Dong Seok for an outrageous favor. She wants to go to her stepson’s house in Mokpo to attend her ex-husband’s death memorial. Dong Seok eventually agrees to taking her there, and isn’t planning on joining her at first, but stuff happens and he’s confronted with his past as soon as he gets there. He witnesses his mom standing up for him against his stepbrother, something he’s never seen her do before, and this softens him a little bit. They end up taking quite the unexpected road trip together, all the way back to Jeju and even halfway up Mount Hallasan.
Let me just say that through this road trip I really got to understand Dong Seok’s point of view and the way he’d been acting all this time. In truth, I also thought he really just longed for his mother’s warmth, and always blamed her for neglecting him after he’d just lost his father and sister. I can also understand his frustration with the fact that Ok Dong never said anything about how she felt, or something that may have redeemed his memory of her. She never apologized and never said she loved him. I actually think that, just hearing those two things from her might have been the cure. Especially as Dong Seok later narrates himself, when he finds his mother has passed away, he realized he never actually resented her, he just wanted her to hug him. I think it was a very powerful way to conclude their story arc, because the way it still didn’t solve everything between them but they just decided to forgive each other was also very human and realistic. Dong Seok still didn’t get the closure he had wanted, Ok Dong still didn’t say anything to him from her perspective, but he got enough from her to see that she did feel bad about what had happened. And that may have been enough for him. He just wanted to know if she’d felt bad at all, and she definitely did.
I kind of saw it coming, as in, it was a bit typical to make amends between them so that at least Ok Dong wouldn’t die with a heavy heart, and that also reminded me a little bit of Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha, as the most respected elderly lady in that show also passed away after being reassured her ‘son’ was in good hands. It was just very serene that she got to take a whole trip to mend old wounds with Dong Seok, she even got to meet Seon Ah, she got to make her son’s favorite doenjang stew and feed her stray animals one last time, and then she went to lay down and didn’t wake again. It must have been very peaceful for her in her final moments, so at least that was a good thing.

Finally I want to give a shoutout to some important side characters, starting with the MoonStar sisters. Dal Yi and Byeol Yi (respectively played by Jo Hye Jung and Lee So Byeol) were two sisters who also grew up in Jeju, they were younger than Yeong Ok but older than Yeong Joo. I think they were in their early twenties, maybe. Dal Yi was one of the haenyo and she also helped out at Eun Hee’s fish market stall, besides helping her sister Byeol Yi with a coffee stand at the same market. Byeol Yi is deaf, or at least hearing-impaired. She can understand people well enough if she sees their mouths move and she can also talk well enough. Byeol Yi is a bit scared of the sea, so she’s always nervous when Dal Yi goes harvesting. The two sisters are also always helping out somewhere.
Then there’s Gi Joon (played by Baek Seung Do), Jeong Joon’s younger brother, who has a crush on Byeol Yi. It’s funny because it first seems like he is into Dal Yi, and everyone assumed that to be the case. But then suddenly he was like, nope, it’s the other sister, haha. Anyways, Byeol Yi isn’t really into him, it seems, but I guess there’s always hope. I saw some review referring to them as ‘my semi-sailed ship’, lol. In any case, I thought it was cute that Gi Joon was so head over heels for Byeol Yi, and it also made me feel like these people really weren’t judgmental at all when it came to people with disabilities, people who may be deemed ‘unfit’ by their future inlaws. It really didn’t matter to anyone at all.
Then, one of my -in hindsight- favorite side characters, haenyo Hye Ja (played by Park Ji Ah). She’s initially introduced as a very straightforward member of the harvesting team. She’s mainly getting on Yeong Ok’s bad side, constantly scolds her for coming to pick them up too late, and then for always being so greedy. She’s the first person suggesting they kick Yeong Ok out of the team, after she brings more people in danger when her flipper gets stuck in a net underwater. But then, after hearing Yeong Ok’s story about her sister, she immediately makes a turn for the better. She reveals that her own granddaughter (I believe) is autistic, that she knows how hard it can be having to take care of a mentally handicapped family member, she just immediately opened her mind to Yeong Ok’s good side, and that showed a really strong character, I think. I just really appreciated that someone who doesn’t seem to know anything outside life on Jeju, still turned out to be so open-minded welcoming to minorities, for example. For the rest she was always such a typical character, she fit right into that haenyo team, it was as if she really belonged there.

Something I overall enjoyed about this show was how human all the characters were, and that it was so realistic because they didn’t even try to make all the characters ‘nice’. There were different sides to everyone. As I mentioned, I initially really disliked Dong Seok, because he just seemed to be really bad-tempered, impatient, and kind of childish at times. The way he acted when some ladies started buying things from another truck, and then when Seon Ah rejected his kiss at the beach that one time. In the latter case, yes, he didn’t know about her circumstances, but it had been years since they last saw each other – he couldn’t just assume she still held the same feelings for him as he did for her. He just assumed now that hung out again for one night, everything was back to how it used to be between them, and when she pulled back from his kiss and immediately wanted to get away from him, he just got all grumpy and offended by himself.
I also liked seeing other sides to characters I did like from the start, like Yeong Ok. It made her all the more human and realistic that she felt burdened by her handicapped sister, and went to look for freedom. Same went for Han Soo when he went to ask Eun Hee for money. The duality in feelings, knowing that you’re doing something bad, and still going ahead with it because of your own ideals, taking time to reflect and realize you really did something bad, that’s a really human thing in my opinion.
We also saw how Ok Dong treated Dong Seok in the past, and he is able to forgive her even though she never apologizes to him. We can blame Ok Dong for her behavior towards her son, but I personally believe that she’s been living her life punishing herself for it. Maybe enduring the cancer in itself was also a kind of self-punishment for her.
There were always people that were acting mean or nasty, I mean, it was hard to like In Gwon as well since he was constantly cussing and speaking rudely to other people, getting violent for no reason. There were some members of the haenyo club who were being mean to Yeong Ok, like I also thought Hye Ja was really harsh a lot of times. But it all came down to going beyond the surface. As soon as they knew the full truth, the meaning behind what was happening, people were able to change their mindsets pretty easily. In the end, I came to actually like Hye Ja a lot, she turned out to be much more open-minded that you’d initially think. My point is that I learned to love all these characters despite their ‘bad’ characteristics, because it made them exactly the character that they were, it made them all so real and human and likeable in their own way, even if it took some time to get there.

The construction of the series was really nice. I liked how, even after an arc about a specific character had ended, their story still went on in the background of other stories, and we’d hear about it ‘through the grapevine’. For instance, the arc about Yeong Joo and Hyeon ends with their dads finally agreeing to Yeong Joo keeping the baby, and then in the next episode that focusses on someone else, we hear someone mention that the two have gotten married in the meantime and that Yeong Joo is doing very well. After we’ve seen Yeong Joo being carried to the hospital a month before her due date, we hear in a later episode that she gave birth safely to a little girl. Everything keeps happening, even though we don’t actually see it, and that also kept the feeling of community going, developments still travel through the village, people keep each other updated on events, and it really strengthens the feeling of everyone being connected to one another.

All in all, the arcs all feature a certain conflict between two (or three) specific characters and they all end well. Every storyline is wrapped up in a positive way, people make amends, people come to terms, people heal, etcetera. I have to say that I really liked the way this series was structured, also with the intros for each respective chapter being featured as a literal record of their own ‘blues’. Speaking of the title, apart from the ‘blues’ referring to a specific kind of soothing music, I think it also refers to the emotional load of the word ‘blues’, like a dip in someone’s daily life, a moment of gloom and melancholy.
On the topic of music, by the way, I can’t forget to mention that the OST was amazing and I downloaded the majority of it. Not me humming along with the ‘Tell me quando, quando, quando~’ every time it was played, lol.

What I also really appreciated was that, in the final ending credits, literally every single person who appeared, even as a guest or cameo appearance, was featured one last time, and they did the same in the crew appreciation pictures. It was the most extensive ending credit sequence I’ve seen so far. Usually they show a couple of backstage photos and then one group picture of cast and crew at the end, but in this case, I feel like every single person who participated in one way or another got credit and that was really nice to see. I also liked that the intro for the final episode wasn’t just ‘Dong Seok and Ok Dong Pt.3’, even though it was their final chapter, but it featured the whole cast and even gave a kind of recap of the whole show so far. I really appreciated that, certainly because I knew I was going to write a review as soon as I finished it and it was nice getting a little recap from some episodes that already felt like a long time ago. It just felt so wholesome having everyone featured again one last time in the end, at that Athletic Meet. It really was a great way to wrap up the show.

And now, coming to another extensive part that I’ll try to keep as brief as possible: the cast comments! The entire cast of this series was incredibly well picked, everyone fitted their role so well it was like every role was written for that specific actor. I enjoyed everyone’s performances, and it was nice to see both familiar faces and new ones. I’d seen several people act together in dramas before, so it was nice to see them in a completely new dynamic here.

This is by far my favorite performance of Lee Jung Eun so far. I’ve never seen her in such a quirky, youthful, energetic role before. I honestly think I’ve only seen her play moms and crazy cameos so far, so this was a very unexpected side of her, in a good way. I loved how natural the boorishness of Eun Hee came to her, and how she was still able to convey so much emotion, Eun Hee had such a good heart, and I feel like she was bluffing a lot of her toughness to her friends. She had really nice chemistry with the people around her, I loved how she just couldn’t stop herself from caring about others. Like how she immediately became concerned about Yeong Joo after meeting her outside the OB-GYN, and how nervous she was when the girl was taken to the hospital a month before she was due. It was nice to see her also display grudgeful feelings, we really got to see multiple sides of her personality.
I’ve seen Lee Jung Eun before in High Schooler King of Life, Who Are You – School 2015, Oh My Ghostess, Jealousy Incarnate, Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo, Tomorrow With You (where she played Shin Min Ah’s mom), Fight For My Way, Wife I Know (where she played Han Ji Min’s mom) The Light in Your Eyes (where she played Han Ji Min’s mom), and of course the movie Parasite. She’s always such a nice familiar face in dramas and I always love it when she appears. This definitely made me see her in yet another light, I saw another kind of versatility from her, and I think she did great. I feel like she is really the kind of actress who can be funny without even trying. Also, I want to know the stylist’s contact because she may not have been the most fashionable lady, but I loved every single pair of pants she wore throughout the show!
I also really liked Eun Hee’s high school younger version, played by Shim Dal Gi. I loved how quirky she was, in every scene. The one with the pig on the bus, the one where she brazenly kissed young Han Soo, the one where she passed out in the school gym… She really didn’t hold back in her expressions either, I loved it!

I hadn’t seen Cha Seung Won in anything before, but I thought he was an interesting casting choice for Han Soo. It was nice to see how much he changed in comparison to how depressed he looked in the first episode. You could see how little he thought of himself there, how badly he felt for asking this of his friend, but still couldn’t change his mind not to do it. It was good that they managed to redeem his character in the end, so that there were no lingering tensions during his final appearance at the Athletic Meet. He did very well! I was honestly intriguid by his character the moment he busted his toe on that chair the moment he was introduced, lol.

I also didn’t know Eom Jung Hwa from anything, but I really liked her performance here. She really had that duality to her as Mi Ran. You know when you have that friend that, when you hang out with them it’s all good and you get along so well, but then when they’re not there, you’re suddenly able to see clearly that they’re not 100% green flags? I guess it was a bit like that with Mi Ran as well, at least until Eun Hee opened her eyes to see her from a different perspective, as someone who’d always just taken her for granted. And still I couldn’t dislike Mi Ran either, because her heart was still in the right place. She also felt bad about the things she’d said and done to Eun Hee to make her feel like that, and even though I believe Eun Hee still had to make the most effort in making things right between them, it was clear she really didn’t want to fight with Eun Hee either, she truly cared about her. I liked her performance.

I didn’t think I knew Choi Young Joon from anything, but then I discovered he was one of the Daekan soldiers from Arthdal Chronicles! Not only that, he also played a police detective in The Sound of Magic, apparently. Anyways, he never really stood out to me until now. His performance as Ho Shik was really memorable. I liked that he wasn’t such a badass as In Gwon, and also wasn’t that impressive in physique, but he still used his voice and he didn’t stand down easily. He had his own kind of strength, even though he was milder in temperament than In Gwon. I really liked to see his dynamic with his daughter as well, especially in the way you could just see how conflicted he was. One scene that comes to mind is that one where Yeong Joo told him she was pregnant, and then the top of the fan kept toppling over – how he used his frustration towards the fan in his outburst to his daughter… It was such a subtle addition but I thought it was genius. It just added an extra tension to the scene because it was a funny element in a very serious situation, and I just felt like ‘I’m not supposed to laugh here but GOD THAT FAN’. Anyways, I was really impressed by him, I doubt I’ll overlook him next time I see him in a drama series! He got my attention, for sure!

Not me realizing that Park Ji Hwan was the shady-looking but poetry-loving guy from Touch Your Heart! I would have never recognized him. The role of In Gwon fitted him so well it was almost scary. He just WAS In Gwon, from top to bottom, he completely had the character down, the hunched back, the way he walked, his face that was set in a constant growl… Amazing. He may not have been the ‘nicest’ character in the bunch but I loved him mainly because of how well he was performed. You just knew that shit would go down when Hyeon would tell him about Yeong Joo’s pregnancy, and then to still devote an entire scene to it in which Hyeon really had to spell it out to him, building up the tension with each step…
I believe In Gwon’s heart was buried under way more layers than Ho Shik’s. It really took a lot for In Gwon to stop screaming and finally letting the tears flow. I guess that the moment where he broke, was the moment that I broke as well. It just seemed impossible for him to ever have a heart-to-heart, sharing emotional feelings, especially with another man, but they actually got him to that point. The build-up in his character going through that process was really well executed, I was really impressed by him. Another actor I won’t easily forget after this!

I hadn’t seen Noh Yoon Seo before, but I saw that she’s also now appearing in a new show called Crash Course in Romance that I also want to watch. She doesn’t have a DramaWiki page yet, but it seems like this was actually her drama debut and she hasn’t done anything else besides one movie. Considering that, I believe she’s a real upcoming talent. She portrayed very well the uneasiness with which Yeong Joo was living on Jeju, not feeling at home there. She was awkward in greeting people, she didn’t really have a lot of friends at school either. She was just the top of her class and it was her goal to graduate and get off the island as soon as possible. It was such relatable teenage behavior, wanting to get out of the countryside village, wanting to break away from all those people (including her dad) who were so set in their ways. Her struggle with the pregnancy and her conflictedness regarding the abortion was also very credible. I just found myself feeling for her, having ended up in this situation, knowing what other people will say and how your dad’s going to take it. She did really well!

Apart from that he apparently had a cameo in What’s Wrong With Secretary Kim?, I haven’t seen anything with Bae Hyeon Seong either. I thought Hyeon was such a sweetheart. He really was the opposite of his father, with the kindest heart that seemed to beat solely for Yeong Joo. As I mentioned (and captured with a picture), that scene of Hyeon and In Gwon hugging each other and crying really pulled at my heartstrings. I just love it when men finally dare to cry. There was definitely a lot to unravel in the relationship between Hyeon and his dad. He was always second in school (after Yeong Joo), but In Gwon was always telling everyone that his son was top of his class and boasted with the fact that he would study in Seoul after graduation. I really admired Hyeon for having the guts to even confront his dad about the pregnancy in the first place, like, he knew he was going to get beaten, but he never wavered. He always faced his dad, no matter the punishment he got, and that in itself, his unwavering determination, was what made him strong in his own way. His unwavering determination in wanting to take care of Yeong Joo and their baby. I really loved Hyeon, he really was the sweetest boy ever, and the best dad Yeong Joo could wish for her child. The way he was always there to hold her hand and the way they tackled the situation together, made the decision together that Yeong Joo would continue school and he would eventually take the GED. And it was nice to see how, when everything was settled with their dads, In Gwon also took pride in how hard his son was working for his wife (as they’d gotten married by that point). I really liked him.

Han Ji Min, I’ve mentioned it before in previous reviews, but she’s really working her way up to becoming a favorite actress of mine. There’s just something about her that makes me like her, in whatever she does. Even if she has a nasty side to her character, she always performs it in a way that still makes me sympathize with her. I thought she really fit in this story as the outsider mysterious girl from the mainland trying to fit into this village community and finding her place in the harvesting and fishing world. I think Yeong Ok’s deal was that she made herself into the bad guy too much. In regards to her sister, she kept emphasizing that she was trying to push her away by continuously moving further and further away from her, but at the moment she actually tried to abandon her when she was a teenager, she went back to fetch her because she couldn’t bring herself to do it. Even when Yeong Hee came to Jeju, she wasn’t trying to neglect her, she tried to make Yeong Hee feel comfortable. So I was a bit confused about what exactly her intentions were with her sister. I guess she just wanted to leave and not look back, but when the occasion rose that she needed to take care of her, she still turned up for her, despite her unwillingness. I initially thought something really bad had happened between them since she referred to Yeong Hee as ‘Disaster’, like, she must have really done something bad to earn that name. But then it seemed like Yeong Ok was shining a bad light on her sister while she was the one treating her badly. Anyways, her selfishness in that also made her very human, in a way. I still couldn’t bring myself to dislike her! I’ve seen Han Ji Min before in several shows, like Rooftop Prince, Hyde, Jekyll, Me, Wife I Know and The Light in Your Eyes (where she also acted alongside Lee Jung Eun and Kim Hye Ja).

I was so glad to finally see Kim Woo Bin again! I missed him so much! T^T And he looked so healthy, too! I was really wondering how he would be doing after finishing his chemo for his nasopharyngeal cancer. I loved him in this show. This is without a doubt the least problematic and most sympathetic, uncomplicated character I’ve seen him portray and it suited him so well. I’ve seen him in a bunch of shows, like Drama Special: White Christmas, To The Beautiful You, School 2013, The Heirs, and his most recent work (from 2016), Uncontrollably Fond. I really liked seeing him in a different kind of role than he got before, not the bad boy or the delinquent, but a really straight-up nice guy. Jeong Joon and Yeong Ok were really cute together, they had a really nice chemistry. I didn’t even mind that much that there wasn’t an actual kissing scene, because it was clear enough from the scenes they had how they felt about each other. It’s funny how I now realize that Jeong Joon didn’t really have a story of his own except for Yeong Ok’s, but that was okay in itself, it just showed how easygoing and uncomplicated he was. I’d love to see more roles like this from him, to highlight his sweet and kind side.

I can’t forget to give a shoutout to Jung Eun Hye, who played Yeong Hee! I loved seeing this kind of diversity, I’ve never seen a character with a handicap ever get such a highlighted role in a drama before. She did so well, even more so considering she’s not even an official actress. I saw that she appeared in a movie about her own life as a caricature portrait artist. The drawings that appear in the show are all drawn by her, as well, a really nice addition. I loved that they showed this little ‘behind the scenes’ at the end of the show in which Han Ji Min was prompting her lines in the scene where she was accusing Yeong Ok of abandoning her in the subway and she didn’t break character even once! Maybe it wasn’t easy for her to remember all her lines, but I still think she did a really good job. I thought she was adorable.

Choon Hee was one of my favorite characters in this show, and it was all thanks to Mrs. Go Doo Shim. I’ve seen her before in Gyeryong Fairytale, High Society and My Mister. This role fitted her beautifully. I loved her duality as well, the tough and hardened surface of being born and raised on this island, losing half her family, living with the dangers of the sea everyday, and all the while she was still so kind. She still had a really good bond with her son, she loved it when family and friends came over. I also really loved her friendship with Ok Dong, these two grannies really conquered the world together, haha. She really stuck by her friend throughout her deteriorating illness, and I just realized that time they said goodbye in Mokpo really was the last time she saw her. T^T I kind of had the feeling during that scene like, she’s acting like she’s never going to see her again, but then she actually didn’t. 🙁 She spoke to her on the phone, but she didn’t see her friend again before she passed away. 🙁 I also really loved how naturally it came to her to act as a strict but still doting grandma to Eun Gi, their happy scenes together were really adorable. This lady is 71 years old and she still plays the stars from the sky. Or should I say, the 100 moons? I loved her to bits.

Speaking of Eun Gi, what in the world of what. This child, Ki So Yoo, now six years old, was FIVE at the time this was filmed. I have never seen a five-year old act SO well before in my life. She wasn’t just adorable, she got all her cues down, the tears came naturally, it was like she wasn’t even acting. I was completely flabbergasted! I just found out that she’s the younger sister of the little boy from Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha, so hey, another link there, haha. But seriously, I was immensely impressed by this little lady. Just seeing her and Go Doo Shim together, the tiny human versus the veteran, it just healed my heart. Their chemistry was amazing. I’m sure it would’ve been very challenging for her, amongst all those veteran actors. She was really good, I’m impressed with Korean child actors! I really loved the scene where Choon Hee took her to the market and asked Dong Seok to lift her on his shoulders, and he ended up asking Ho Shik and as a result Eun Gi got hoisted around the market, first on Ho Shik’s shoulders, then on In Gwon’s, then on Jeong Joon’s. That was really cute, and again it captured that beautiful community feeling. Everyone considered Eun Gi to be part of the family, which she was, in a certain sense. I really was amazed by her performance. Well done, little lady!

To be honest, even though I know Lee Byung Hoon to be a very famous actor, I’ve never actually watched anything he appeared in. I once attempted to watch IRIS, but I couldn’t finish it. It was cool to finally see him in a drama! I thought he was really good, the character also fitted him very well. I actually liked the fact that I didn’t like him at first, haha. I found it refreshing to introduce a character as not being very sympathetic. But as I mentioned, I believe he really got the most character development out of everyone, or at least his development was spread out over the entire show rather than just in the chapters with his name on it. In the end I completely understood his behavior, and most importantly, he reflected on himself. What was funny was that, in one of the first scenes, I was randomly thinking that Kim Hye Ja could just as well play his mother, because somehow I could see some similarity in their expressions, and then she actually turned out to play his mom! I swear, I thought it before I knew about how their characters were connected. In any case, I just mean to say that I could really feel the dynamic between them. Despite trying to remain stoic, Dong Seok just couldn’t help lose his cool, he kept lashing out even when he’d decided he wasn’t going to. Everything about him just screamed ‘neglected childhood’. It was sad that he’d been through that, and also that his mother had seemingly turned her back on him, but it made perfect sense that he’d become the way he was because of it. Also in his connection with Seon Ah, I guess he really wanted to impress her, but he still was that teenage boy with a crush who was just waiting for her to finally say she liked him too. That boyish aspect of his character just confirmed to me in hindsight that that was really what it was: he just wanted someone to acknowledge him because of the familial warmth he lost as a child. He really wanted to have some of that warmth. I think he did a really great job, he’s a very good actor.

Seeing Shin Min Ah in this series just immediately pulled me back to Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha. Here as well, she was kind of a mysterious outsider even though Seon Ah actually did grow up on Jeju. I think the visualization of her depression was very well done, also because it seemed to happen automatically as soon as she was alone. Tiny events that improved her mood were just that, tiny things that didn’t weigh up against the complete feeling. I think she did really well in performing that heaviness, the forcing of a smile, the tiredness in her body. I have never seen Shin Min Ah in such a melancholic role before, but I think it really suited her. I’ve mentioned this before, but I think Shin Min Ah has a really mature appeal to her, and acting cute doesn’t suit her. I think the character of Seon Ah, the maturity of her even through her depression, fitted her really well.
I was wondering if she and Kim Woo Bin would have any scenes together, but I think maybe they appeared in the same scene just once, in the café, and they never even exchanged any pleasantries. It’s nice that they could be a part of this together, especially after Shin Min Ah allegedly took such care of Kim Woo Bin during his chemo. I hope they continue to be happy together. 🙂 I’ve seen Shin Min Ah before in My Girlfriend is a Nine-Tailed Fox, Oh My Venus, Tomorrow With You, and most recently in Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha. I liked her performance here.

I just know Kim Hye Ja from The Light in Your Eyes, which was also her latest project before this one. I guess she’s kind of a national treasure, and I can understand why. She’s 81 years old and still delivers such a heartfelt performance. She’s such a curious frail old lady. I did find it hard to gauge what she was thinking, also because she very rarely spoke, but it always feels like she knows exactly what she’s doing. She did show a lot of emotion, both as a result of her illness and her reunion trip with Dong Seok, but I would’ve liked to hear her talk a bit more about what her feelings were during that time in which Dong Seok felt so neglected. She referred to herself as a crazy woman, and that she didn’t want him to have a crazy woman as his mother, or something, but it was still a little vague. I still wonder why she never apologized for making her son feel like that, but on the other hand I guess she didn’t really feel the need to. She did what she did at the time without feeling sorry for it, so why would she apologize now? Or maybe it was something else. Actually it’s okay that not the entire truth came out, it was most important that they reconciled anyway. It was peculiar of her character, because I felt like she actually really wanted to get along with Dong Seok but kept being thrown off by his bad temper whenever she tried to extend a reconciling hand. I also wondered what she saw in all those stray animals. Like Dong Seok also inquired, ‘how can she look so lovingly at a dog but not at her son’? I guess now that she got old and didn’t have long to live anymore, she really just wanted to enjoy the things that made her happy, like seeing newborn babies, feeding stray puppies, and seeing beautiful landscapes. Her stubbornness also came through a lot, she never actively asked for help until someone else noticed she was struggling. She actively refused any treatment for her cancer, she always just wove it away like ‘it’s nothing’. In that way, I also recognized a part of Dong Seok’s stubbornness in her. I think she gave a really nice ‘own’ twist to her character, and kept her a little bit mysterious up until the every end.

It was nice to see Jo Hye Jung in a drama again! I haven’t seen her since Go Back Couple from 2017! I further know her from Cinderella and the Four Knights and Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo. She looked really good in this drama! It was nice to see her getting some action as well in the harvesting department, and how she and her sister were also a really integrated part of the Pureung family. Even though she wasn’t a main character with an arc of her own, I liked to see that she too got involved in the dynamics of the town. She got along really well with Yeong Ok, for example, but also felt the tensions rising within the haenyo team and also kept telling her to just apologize and not take such risks. It was funny how excited she got when Gi Joon told her he liked her sister, I bet she was probably relieved that it wasn’t her he was confessing to, haha. Anyways, it was really nice to see her in this.

I see this was Lee So Byeol’s drama debut as well! I thought it was nice to integrate a hearing-impaired character into the village community so smoothly. Everyone accepted her the way she was, there was never any kind of discrimination against her, and she even got a cute guy to like her! Living the life, girl! Haha, no but I really liked the normalization of her handicap in this series. This show seems to be a really good start of one’s acting career, so I hope she’ll get many more chances in the future. I don’t even know if she’s hearing-impaired for real, it doesn’t seem so, but in that case she also pulled that off really well, with the voice and everything!

Apparently, Baek Seung Do appeared in Andante, but I haven’t seen any other shows with him. I thought he was a nice side character, not just because of his semi-sailed ship with Byeol Yi, but because he got some nice brotherly scenes with Kim Woo Bin as well. He really suited the role, like basically everyone in this series suited their role. He didn’t have a lot of screentime, but I thought he added nicely to the community feeling of the village, as he was also everywhere, at the boat, helping out at the fish market, etc. I liked him.

I see there are still some series on my list in which Park Ji Ah appears, but she hasn’t done much drama acting yet! I really liked how well she fitted into the scenery of this show, she really looked like she could’ve been a local haenyo, haha. I love it when actors get so immersed in their characters they just come to life in such an authentic way, and I really liked that about haenyo Hye Ja. I’m curious to see her in further watchlist dramas!

There are so many characters to name so I’ve just stuck to the ones I’ve covered in my analysis, but honestly I thought every single person was casted so well, everyone looked like they belonged there, and I wouldn’t be surprised if there were some locals in there too. The whole vibe was just so authentic, I really, really enjoyed watching it. It gave me a kind of healing that no other show has given me before in the same way. All in all, vibe-wise and cast-wise it felt like a combination of Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha and The Light in Your Eyes, which I both watched last year. It was so nice seeing all these great actors in one show together, some of whom I’d seen perform together before as well. Lee Jung Eun played both Shin Min Ah’s and Han Ji Min’s mom in other series, just like Kim Hye Ja played Lee Jung Eun’s mother-in-law before. I really loved the whole vibe, the whole setup, the whole build-up. The fact that there can be such deeply rooted conflicts between people in a place where life is supposed to be so simple, where life is about harmonizing with nature and the ocean. Emotions come out more intensely in a place like this, and that sets such a great contrast to ‘normal’ city-based drama stories. Events of life and death taking place in a community where everyone knows each other, where there are normally no daily dramatic occurrances, it just gives it an even deeper strength.
I love how unpretentious this series was. In general romantic comedies you sometimes see actors really ‘try’ to be funny, they really ‘try’ to perform in a way that induces laughter from the audience. It may sound strange, but in this series I didn’t feel like the actors were performing for the audience. Everyone was so immersed in their character that I felt like I was a bystander looking in on these events, looking in on these conflicts between these people, while the characters weren’t even trying to involve me in their lives. It was just really authentic, nothing was ‘pasted on’, so to speak. The actors were funny without even trying to be, they were just acting out what their character would do. One thing I learned in acting class is that it’s the funniest when the character takes himself seriously, when he’s not even trying to make a joke. Here too, no one ‘tried’ to be anything, everything just came out so realistically. Even in emotional outlashes and dramatics, nothing was too much, everything was ‘just right’. No overacting, just pure, genuine immersion. I’ve not seen anything like this in a very long time. I also loved feeling like I became a part of the community at the end. During the Athletic Meet, I found myself cheering and laughing as if I was sitting in the audience myself. That’s not a feeling I usually get from dramas, and it’s definitely something that makes this one stand out even more.

It was definitely worth it to take my time finishing this, it deserved all the time, and I don’t feel like I wasted a single minute. This is a pure gem, truly one of a kind. I can’t even compare it to the two series I mentioned before, even though I was reminded of them in terms of cast and vibe. Our Blues exceeds both of them in my opinion. An incredible project, it really exceeded my expectations. I’m already sorry for what comes next, haha. Just kidding, I’m just going on with my list! Next up is a Chinese drama, as it’s been a while and I’m trying to switch it up a little more. I’ve spent an entire day on this review, but I think I managed to structure it as well as I could. I hope it will be relatable and enjoyable to read.

Okay then, until next time!

Bye-bee! x

He is Psychometric

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

He is Psychometric
(사이코메트리 그녀석 / Saikometeuri Geunyeoseok)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hi everyone! We have already reached the second month of 2023 and I’m back with a new review. This one has been on my list for a while for reasons I don’t even remember, except that the theme sounded interesting, I guess? Anyways, I feel like this isn’t a particularly known or hyped drama (I’ve never really seen or heard much about it), so it was nice exploring an underdog series in-between new and more hyped recent releases! I have some mixed things to say about it, both positive and slightly less so, but I can say all in all that I found it entertaining and this won’t be a predominantly negative review. I always try to see the good in things, even if they’re not really my cup of tea and I do think that there things to say about this drama, so I’ll do my best to construct my arguments properly.
So now, without much further ado, let’s get psychometric!

He is Psychometric is a 16-episode K-Drama that focusses on the special skills of Lee An (played by GOT7’s Park Jin Young), who at a young age lost both his parents in a horrible arson explosion at the apartment complex they used to live in. For unknown reasons, after this incident, he developed psychometric powers, which means that whenever he touches something (or someone) with his bare skin, he gets a vision of certain memories surrounding that object (or person). While it started out as a very overwhelming gift that freaked him out whenever he would touch anything, he’s somehow learned how to live with it, although he’s chosen to avoid it as much as possible. He keeps his hands in his pockets while he walks, he punches in buttons with his elbows rather than with his fingers, that sort of thing. In any case, he grows up into a very carefree and easygoing person who just can’t seem to stay out of trouble, for some reason. All in all I kept referring to him as ‘a young dog’ throughout the show, that’s just the vibe he gives off. Especially when he gets the opportunity to use his skills for important things like investigations.
At the night of the arson explosion, An was saved by a teenage boy who jumped out of the building with him, risking his own life to bring him to safety. Thereafter, this boy became an older brother-figure to An, and eventually they started living together. This is Kang Seong Mo (played by Kim Kwon), who as an adult becomes a prosecutor. He has taken care of An ever since the accident, brought him to an orphanage and came back for him when he’d established his own career so he could take care of him himself. The relationship between them is really brotherly, they seem to be very fond of each other. Seong Mo also knows about An’s psychometric powers, and he encourages him to hone those skills as well.
One of their mutual friends, police detective Eun Ji Soo (played by Kim Da Som), also knows about the psychometry and even occasionally sneaks An into the forensics lab to get him to use his powers on corpses so he might get a clue about what happened to them. This is of course illegal, as An is not authorized to be involved in cases at all, let alone in this way, and truthfully he doesn’t typically come out with very useful information; An’s skills are all over the place.
On the other hand, we have Yoon Jae In (played by Shin Ye Eun). Her father used to be a security guard at the apartment complex that An lived in as a child, and after the arson explosion he was pointed out as the culprit, even though there was only indirect evidence. The only ‘proof’ was that just prior to the incident, Jae In’s dad had some beef with the ladies in whose apartment the fire was instigated, and that his security jacket was found covered in blood. Being Jae In’s single parent, he was forced to leave his young daughter behind. Luckily, Jae In was taken in by her aunt -from her mother’s side, I believe-, Oh Sook Ja (played by Kim Hyo Jin). Jae In has grown up to become very ambitious, she’s very smart and she strives to become either a prosecutor, a lawyer or a police officer. On the other hand, she keeps her family history a secret as she knows how people will start treating her once they know she’s been labelled ‘a murderer’s daughter’. Apart from the fact that the arson explosion itself killed a considerable number of people in the apartment complex, they also found the bodies of three ladies in the apartment that the fire was set in, who’d been stabbed to death prior to the instigation.
Let’s just clarify from the start that An and Jae In have met each other as kids before at the apartment complex, which I will hereafter refer to as the Yeongseong case.

After the initial flashback of the Yeongseong case, we skip to about 11 years later (I believe) when there’s been another arson instigation case in a carehome, hereafter referred to as the Hanmin case. Just like with the Yeongseong case, again a couple of ladies in a ward were stabbed in the exact same spot in the abdomen, after which the ward was set on fire. This is when we first see Ji Soo sneak An into the forensics lab to have him use some psychometry on the victims.
An and Jae In, now teenagers, meet ‘for the first time’ when Jae In mistakes An for someone who’d been spying on her while she was getting dressed in a locker room. They also find out they’re in the same class in high school, as Jae In suddenly transfers schools in the middle of term. They end up getting to know each other better while solving a little case together regarding some stolen exam papers – which turns out to be the deed of a bitter teacher (thanks to Kim Won Hae for a great guest appearance there). When this malicious teacher comes after Jae In after she’s busted him, both An and Ji Soo get in more direct contact with Jae In, and they warm up to each other. In other news, it’s revealed that Seong Mo has actually been acting as a sort of Daddy Long Legs for Jae In, so the four of them are all generally on good terms with each other.
However, then the news is revealed at their school (again, by that same teacher) that Jae In is ‘a murderer’s daughter’ and she goes into hiding, leaving An one final message (that he’s able to receive through his psychometry) that she’ll find him again and that he should hone his skills in the meantime.

They meet again another 2 years later, at a police exam. An has become determined to hone his skills to become an official ‘psychometrist’ to the police, and Jae In has actually become an officer with the highest marks of her class. However, she’s still only a probationary officer and she even lives with her aunt inside her own police station / recreational center. The only other person who works there is Nam Dae Nam (played by Park Chul Min), and they are only responsible to solve local cases in the neighborhood.
While they meet again on good terms, An and Jae In still have ways to go in terms of mutual trust. Jae In already knows about An’s psychometry skills, and even though she’s asked him before to ‘read her’ in relation to the incident her father was accused of, they haven’t held hands before. It’s like they’re waiting for some special moment.
When An joins Jae In on a neighborhood patrol one day, they incidentally find a suitcase with a body in it, which is linked to another suitcase found previously. The more they investigate, the more it seems like everything, Yeongseong, Hanmin, the suitcases, are linked to each other.

Okay, I’ll keep it at that for the summary and I’ll go straight on with my analysis now. I have to say from the start that I thought the build-up in this series was pretty good. How it all seems to start with the Yeongseong case but later you find out that it’s only one part of a much bigger picture and it started way before that. Honestly, it was interesting to find out that it wasn’t even ‘about’ An or Jae In, their losses were just, as cruelly as it sounds, collateral damage. The way they gradually, slowly but surely started uncovering more and more information about what everything was truly about was pretty interesting, and it definitely kept me on my toes. I like it when you start out with separate pieces of seemingly unrelated info that are then suddenly linked together. However I also found that there were some inconsistencies with the way they revealed these pieces of information, to the main leads as well as to the viewers. I mean to say that there were some pieces of information that were already hinted at or even already revealed to the viewers before the main leads knew about them, and this had a somewhat anticlimactic effect on me.
For example when An found out that Jae In was the daughter of the security guard held responsible for Yeongseong, or the fact that Seong Mo was directly involved with the fires. Of course, it’s not uncommon to reveal things to the main leads after the viewers have already been shown the truth, because then the viewers just get to emphasize deeply with the main leads. But my issue with it in this show lay more in the fact that I assumed that An was also already aware of these facts, with the evidence he got through his psychometry. I mean, he remembered Jae In from quite early on, as the girl he’d met just after he’d collected his parents’ final belongings, he even recalled an entire conversation he had with her about how her father had been falsely accused, and he’d even seen memories of her tripping as she was running after her dad as he was being dragged away. He knew the security guard, he knew his face, and he also appeared in Jae In’s memories. He’d seen her panic at being called a ‘murderer’s daughter’… I mean, you know, I thought he’d already connected the dots. Same with Seong Mo’s involvement, he’d already heard the suspect say that it wasn’t him who was responsible for Yeongseong, and that he heavily suggested it was Seong Mo. An even already confronted Seong Mo with it, told him he didn’t even believe he was fully innocent anymore. And still, when he saw that final vision of what Seong Mo did that night, he seemed so shocked? Like, I guess he’d just been holding onto the hope that it wasn’t true and having it confirmed was just that shocking, but his reaction suggested that he really didn’t see this coming at all.
In any case, there were several occasions in which An realized stuff or found out things and responded really dramatically while I was like “uhm… yeah but didn’t you already know this? This was already hinted at/partially revealed three episodes ago”.

To just get to the bottom of the story, it all started with Seong Mo and his mom Kang Eun Joo (played by Jeon Mi Seon). You can compare their story to that of ‘Room’. For those who don’t know that book/movie, look it up, it’s really intriguing. Anyways, Kang Eun Joo was locked up by a man suffering from a condition called ‘alexithymia’ which means that he doesn’t have the ability to feel any kind of sensation or emotion. This man (played by Lee Seung Joon) had become obsessed with her, and ended up imprisoning her for nine years in a basement. In this time, he even impregnated her and she gave birth to her son, Seong Mo, inside that basement. For the first nine years of his life, Seong Mo didn’t know any better. What was worse, he seemed to have inherited his father’s alexithymia, and his mom did everything she could to ensure that he wouldn’t turn out the same way. She taught him about feelings, about emotions, because alexithymia, unlike psychopathy, actually offers room for improvement – with a lot of effort you can get over it. They managed to escape after nine years, always on the run for stalker guy because he never stopped coming after them. Stalker guy calls himself Kang Geun Taek as it’s a name Eun Joo gave him when they first met.
Turns out Kang Geun Taek doesn’t have an identity, he used to be a panhandling kid and Eun Joo was the first person who gave him an identity – which is possibly why he got so attached to her. Despite his emotionlessness, Eun Joo seems to be the only person he desires to show his affection to, but his affection translates into claiming her and locking her up to ‘protect her’ from the outside world. Seong Mo’s mom was reported to have passed away in the Yeongseong fire as well, as a burned corpse carrying her ID was found in the same room as the stabbed ladies.

From the start of the series onward, we see that someone is keeping tabs on Seong Mo. There’s a guy dressed anonymously that’s constantly checking on him from a distance, and although his face isn’t revealed at first, we just get creepy vibes. From the first flashback of Seong Mo and Eun Joo at Yeongseong, I suspected that it was Seong Mo’s dad, or at least his mom’s evil boyfriend turned stalker or something. In any case, major creep vibes, especially when he’s shown going around stabbing people, all in that signature abdomen spot. The main witness of the Hanmin fire is found stabbed in the middle of nowhere, An is stabbed by him when he goes after him for stalking Seong Mo, he kidnaps and almost kills Jae In, he actually fatally stabs Ji Soo… It seems to be Kang Geun Taek’s aim to kidnap or hurt someone that Seong Mo cares about in trade of information about Eun Joo’s whereabouts.

I mentioned I liked the build-up before, not just because of the well-paced revelations of all essential pieces of information, but also because it was very clearly constructed. The first half of the show really focusses on An and Jae In, about their stories, how they’ve lived after their losses, and it builds up to the point where they fall in love and start trusting each other wholly. Then, with the “shocking” revelation of Jae In’s dad being THAT security guard (even though I was more shocked about An’s response to that) and Jae In’s kidnapping, the second half of the story dives completely into the investigation of the case that envelopes all three beforementioned ones. Actually, besides Yeongseong, Hanmin and the suitcase bodies, it seems to be linked to even more: an illegally operating headhunting organization and the corruption of YSS, the construction company that used to own the Yeongseong apartment complex. Honestly, there were so many parties involved that I occasionally got a little overwhelmed whenever a new lead came into view. But it all came down to this: ever since escaping that basement, it has been Seong Mo’s sole purpose in life to make sure his mother was safe. With tools brought originally by Kang Geun Taek, he set the Yeongseong arson in motion, leaving an unidentified body behind with the hint of it being his mom’s, while in the meantime creating an opportunity for her to escape. He used the headhunting company to create fake identities for his mom, aware that in the meantime, the people those identities actually belonged to were murdered and gotten rid of in those suitcases. When Kang Geun Taek found Eun Joo again while she’s living under a different name and working at Hanmin care center, he recreates the Yeongseong fire there but Eun Joo manages to escape again. Seong Mo is aware that he’ll be punished just as much as Kang Geun Taek when the whole truth comes out, but that’s okay with him, he just wants to make sure his mom is brought to safety before that happens so she won’t have to live in fear again.

In all honesty, I was not really looking forward to writing this review because I had no idea how to start formulating stuff. There’s so much happening at the same time, I just hope what I write makes sense, lol. I just want to go into the main characters a bit more and how they acted, and then I’ll continue with some more criticisms before moving onto the cast comments and final conclusion. Please bear with me!

Okay, so let’s start with Lee An. When the entire picture of Seong Mo’s story is revealed, we realize that An really was just a victim of the whole situation. Him and his parents were never meant to get hurt, but they just happened to be at a scene where someone decided to set a big revenge plan in motion. If only they’d gotten on that elevator a little bit sooner, if only they’d decided to go out to get An a puppy 30 minutes earlier. Anyways. They got stuck inside the elevator on their way down, and while Jae In’s father was just in time to save An from the lift, the elevator cables snapped with his parents still inside and they couldn’t be reanimated anymore. An was left with literally nothing, except some trinkets that only reminded him of his loss (literally) whenever he touched them. It really must have been pure hell for him at such a young age. It’s only understandable how much he got attached to Seong Mo afterwards, he was the person who physically saved him from the apartment and risked his own life in doing so, the only person who seemed to care enough about An turning out well even though he had no personal connection to him whatsoever. Despite his traumatic backstory and the fact that he lived as a delinquent for a while, An grows up to be a very easygoing person, a little bit too much at times, you could say. He’s so carefree that he usually doesn’t stop to think twice about things that don’t really concern him, and even when he manages to ‘read’ something useful, he doesn’t even bother to remember everything he saw clearly enough. There were several instances where I got kind of frustrated with him because the viewers get to see his visions with him, and then he just doesn’t even mention half the things that were shown. Like when they were looking for a place and he got a vision of four different buildings, including a rooftop apartment and some crosses, when they went in search of it he didn’t even mention these things and then after hours he’s suddenly like, ‘wait… I actually think I saw more than this’ and I was like YES YOU DID INDEED THANK YOU. Like, he actually wasn’t really that reliable as a main character, if you look at it like that. I can imagine other people with this kind of power would want to focus on all the details of what they saw, especially when they were working with the police on a freaking serial arson / homicide case. So that’s what threw me off sometimes, the fact that we as viewers were all informed of things way before it really ‘dawned’ on An. He did mature, definitely, but kind in spite of himself? I’m not sure how to explain this. Of course the whole point of Jae In helping him hone his skills was to improve this, but I didn’t really get the feeling he actually improved that much. It’s just that, from the second half of the series on, he managed to see only specific and useful stuff, but I don’t actually believe his ‘training’ with Jae In caused that, if that makes sense.
One thing I will mention again here is the scene in which he finds out about Jae In’s connection to the security guard. As I mentioned before, I assumed he already knew about it. From all the psychometry reading info he got from Jae In, his memories of her as a kid, I just thought he remembered her. We’d also been given several flashbacks from before the Yeongseong case in which An met this security guard as a child, and I found it sometimes hard to distinguish if this was something that An also remembered, or if this was just purely meant to show the viewers how the characters had met before. So maybe I just got my facts wrong. In any case, I just thought An would have connected the dots by then. But the way he reacted when he saw Jae In’s truth, and how he suddenly became all spiteful and ‘omg it’s YOU’-ish, that really threw me off. Not only because it wasn’t a nice response, it just seemed really out of character for An to react like that. After all they’d been through together, how much he’d sworn to protect Jae In, like he already knew she was suffering because her father had been falsely accused. But now that it was connected to his own life it was suddenly different? Bit hypocritical, if you ask me. I would’ve thought he’d respond much more understandingly, but now out of the blue he was suddenly like, ‘I’ve always hated your father, I’ve always suspected him too’ and I was like??? Even Seong Mo had made it clear from the start that he ‘knew’ that Jae In’s dad was innocent, so I just assumed An was kept inside this loop as well, but now suddenly he had always suspected the security guard as well? Where did that come from? In any case, the whole scene just took a weird exaggerated turn for me. The whole thing was so melodramatic, the way he slapped her hand away, how she dramatically ‘fell’ while chasing after him… I don’t know, it just lost me there. I found this a really weird way for An to respond. I know that writing-wise, they just needed An away from Jae In for a while so that Kang Geun Taek could kidnap her, but still.
What I also found random was how in the last two episodes, An was suddenly able to feel the pain of the people that were murdered. Like, he’d ‘read’ a wall of a room in which a person was stabbed and suddenly it was like he was being stabbed himself and he even temporarily died (?!). What was that all about? Was that just him going way too deep into his psychometry? Up until then it seemed like a very detached way of gaining evidence, like he really just read the ‘memory’ of an object, but now he was suddenly able to absorb the physical pain of someone who had once been near that object? It went a little too deep for my understanding. Like, okay, when he touched this one corpse and found out this guy had died of a heart attack and he felt the repercussions of that guy’s pain while he was having the attack, it made sense because he was touching the actual body it happened to. But in that Yeongseong apartment he was actually able to feel like he was being stabbed by only touching the wall that the victims’ hands had brushed against while they fell down? I’d thought that would’ve created more physical distance from the pain. In any way, I just didn’t fully understand why he was suddenly able to feel that pain so deeply even to the point of his own heart stopping for a while. That was intense.

As for Jae In, I found it a bit hard to gauge her sometimes. I guess it was just part of her character to not open up to people so fast and to keep a distance, but even in her relationship to An, I couldn’t help but feel that she was a bit dry. Not just in their kissing scenes (in which An definitely took the initiative and she just kind of stood there), but also just in their chemistry in general, I didn’t really feel anything special. They were just a smile-at-each-other-while-holding-hands kind of couple. It did work out that the story had built up their relationship to that point when they were forced to really work together, because if they hadn’t completely trusted each other yet at that point, that would’ve created another problem and there was no place for that in the investigation. One thing that I liked about Jae In was how rational she remained. She was very humane in her desire to make her own way to a position of relative power in order to work against cases like the one that framed her father. I also thought it was very humane of her to be scared of her memories when giving them to An, because she actually wasn’t a 100% sure of her father’s innocence herself. For the major part she was of course, she knew her father would never do something like that, but the fact remained that she wasn’t with him at the time of the explosion, and she just didn’t trust her own memory. She even acknowledged the possibility that she’d created a protective memory of her father to get herself through the whole thing. So that was a very realistic aspect about her in my opinion. I also felt for her a lot when her father tried to commit suicide in jail, like he didn’t even want her to bother with reopening the case and clearing his name, and he was just sad that he’d caused his daughter to live like this, even though that wasn’t even his own fault. Her father was as much a collateral victim of the Yeongseong case as the people who’d passed away in the arson. All in all, I could understand Jae In’s excitement as well as her fear when she discovered An’s skills, because one part of her was very keen on figuring out the truth and uncover her own true memories about what had happened, but on the other side she was still scared of the truth, of the memories she may have buried and/or forgotten about.
Despite this realistic aspect of her character I did find that her personality fell a bit flat. She just acted a certain general way with the people she was close to, but I didn’t feel like I really got to know her all that much outside of becoming a police officer and that her dad was falsely accused of a crime. There were times when I really wished she could see An’s visions as well, because I feel like she would’ve managed to solve stuff and connect dots much faster than he would, haha.
Although I mentioned before that I didn’t really feel the chemistry between An and Jae In, I can’t deny they had some cute moments. I loved how much of a puppy An turned into whenever Jae In was near, and the way she gradually warmed up to him was nice as well.
There was this one scene when they were making music boxes for each other and they were trying to avoid touching each other’s hands but… it was so weird? Like, they were trying to make it look like they were just trying to grab a tool with one hand while being focussed on their work but their hands kind of kept hovering over the table without even reaching for something specific and I was just like, what the heck are they doing? xD The music boxes were cute though, I never knew about shops where you could make your own and now I want one too, lol.
Anyways, there was a lot of awkwardness, but they were cute, admittedly. It was also nice that they didn’t make a big fuss about their feelings for each other, neither of them went into denial and Jae In was immediately aware of the fact that An liked her, so there was no unnecessary misunderstanding there, that was very much appreciated as those kinds of misunderstandings can just really drag the build-up of a show in my experience.

Regarding Seong Mo. Honestly, I don’t know where to start with this guy. On the one hand it was like he wanted An and Jae In to solve the whole case, because he left them so many clues and he had all these things planned out about how he wanted An to ‘read’ Jae In, and how he asked Jae In to train An to hone his skills so that he could ‘read’ Seong Mo himself as well (for some reason in the beginning, Seong Mo is the only person An can’t ‘read’). In the beginning, it just seemed like he was most concerned for An’s development in his skills. But then in other ways he also didn’t want them to be involved too closely either, he didn’t like it when Ji Soo would sneak An into the forensic lab without his knowing, etcetera. But in the end he really did leave all the evidence for An to find and discover the truth by himself. He wanted An and Jae In to figure out the whole case without getting them directly involved, it seemed. When he confronted Kang Geun Taek by himself, he purposely led An and Jae In to another station to throw them off his trail, but then he ‘failed to consider’ the possibility that An would be able to see him at that other station. I don’t know, he just seemed to be really certain of himself and what he was trying to do, but then there were still holes in his plan, it seemed. There were moments where I really didn’t understand what he was trying to do, exactly.
The thing that I did start to think at some point, when it was first hinted by Kang Geun Taek that he personally hadn’t been responsible for Yeongseong, was that Seong Mo started that fire to help his mom escape and then took care of An and Jae In because he felt guilty for their losses. I mean, that was the most plausible explanation I had for his benevolent behavior towards the two of them, why else would he even take care of Jae In like that? It couldn’t possibly be just because he felt sorry for her and he knew her father but he didn’t actually have any personal connection to her besides that. So yeah, once that was established to be the truth, again, I wasn’t all that surprised. But I still didn’t understand why, even after turning himself in, he still didn’t tell the full truth about his own involvement in the fire cases. He had emphasized An honing his skills so much, only to appear before him stating that any piece of information acquired through psychometry wasn’t deemed official evidence. Okay, so then, what do you want them to do? I found him difficult to figure out even when he was being most honest to An and Jae In.
I think it was interesting how Seong Mo’s character was written the way it was. The fact that he grew up with the same condition as his father, alexithymia, but that he managed to get over it. The fact that he didn’t actually try to escape his lineage to his father. I couldn’t help but think about the father-son relationship in Come and Hug Me, in which the son did everything he could to prove that he wasn’t like his father. In this case, Seong Mo had already accepted that a part of him was like Kang Geun Taek, and that he couldn’t escape from that so he couldn’t help giving into it despite knowing that what he was doing was wrong. He even apologized to the lady before he stabbed her that night, like, how polite of him. You could say that what happened at Yeongseong was also what cured his alexithymia, since that was the first time he was able to feel fear and guilt, it was what made him decide to take care of An and Jae In.
Even after what he did, which wasn’t good at all, I kept feeling empathic towards Seong Mo. Considering what he’d been through and that he really did everything in order to protect his mother… He never did it out of a bad place, weirdly enough. He accepted his charges and the guilt for ruining the families, he lived with that sorrow and he was never planning on escaping from that. The fact that he did all that, fully prepared to face the consequences, is somehow something that I could respect? I don’t know, it feels double to say it because I can’t condone the way he did it, of course. But it came from a good and non-delusional place, unlike with Kang Geun Taek, who until the end kept repeating that he ‘had never killed anyone’. Tell that to Ji Soo, bro.

Ji Soo was, easily said, my favorite character in this show and her dying was the only thing in this series that got me in denial. I am still not okay with it and I still think it was a shock-value move and nothing more. What was the additional value of killing her off? I’m still not sure, other than that they would’ve reached a conclusion to the case much earlier. I was very curious to how Ji Soo would’ve reacted to Seong Mo admitting to his personal involvement. I also wanted to know more about how Ji Soo and Seong Mo met because I kind of shipped them. She was the typical choice to kill off, admittedly, as someone that Seong Mo also had developed a deeper connection with. Seeing him respond to her death really erased all traces of suspicion that he might not be entirely cured of his alexithymia.
Ji Soo is killed by Kang Geun Taek after confronting him and Seong Mo during their face-off, when An has basically sent her to ‘the other station’ that he read through his psychometry. Wrong place, wrong time, she was not meant to be there. And honestly, her death was also a bit lame in my opinion. She was well enough aware of how dangerous Kang Geun Taek was, that he was probably the culprit of Yeongseong and Hanmin, that he was the one who’d stabbed An before, etcetera. So then, when that smokescreen rose up and the alleged serial killer in front of her disappeared from sight, why the heck did she just keep standing there?! She was literally just waiting around for him to move through the smoke and surprise-attack her while Seong Mo was screaming at her to get out of there. I would’ve at least ran towards Seong Mo or moved to a spot without smoke to get a better image of the scene, some place from where I could’ve seen the psycho coming. So that was just super unrealistic to me. Also, even though she was stabbed in the same way as An, she literally died within minutes while An lived through the whole journey to the hospital. Why did she have to die? Can someone please answer me this? Because the only ‘good thing’ that came from her death was that her dad finally decided to come around and reveal his wrongdoings. Other than that, it had no other purpose but to instill just a little bit of extra anguish into every single character. I just really don’t agree with the decision to kill her off, even now. It was unnecessary. I really loved Ji Soo, she was so spunky and straightforward, the kind who didn’t need a man to defend her. She had so much in her, and I loved her dynamic with An, Seong Mo as well as with Dr. Hong, the forensic (played by Sa Gang) and her junior detective Lee (played by Jang Eui Soo). She was just the best person, and the best ally to have in the police force. Heck, she was even willing to reopen the Yeongseong case knowing it would discredit her own father, because she knew he’d been in the wrong. Her father, Eun Byung Ho (played by Eom Hyo Seob) was in charge of the Yeongseong case at the time and got involved in the YSS corruption case that caused him to cover up a lot and just point out Jae In’s dad as the culprit without any further investigation. She’d gone against his orders a couple of times already, but after losing her life her dad finally went, ‘Okay screw it, YSS can suck it now’ and that was the only good thing that came out of it, in my opinion. Honestly, justice for Ji Soo.

I liked that Dr. Hong, Detective Lee and Mr. Nam all ended up helping out with the investigation that An and Jae In were doing, especially Mr. Nam. He was kind of a dry humorous character before, and it was suggested that there was something blossoming between him and Jae In’s aunt, but I was kind of surprised when he fully committed to the investigation as well, that was a nice twist, especially since he’d also been demoted to probationary officer after the Yeongseong case (I believe he was working with Ji Soo’s dad at the time and also knew about some of the truth that was covered up). It was nice that they at least had all these allies that stood by them, especially since they all had connections to Ji Soo and they all wanted justice for her. T^T

One additional storyline I want to discuss briefly before moving onto my cast comments is the one about Lee Dae Bong and Kim So Hyun. Dae Bong (played by Noh Jong Hyun) has been An’s closest friend since high school, and he’s been asking him for psychometry favors mostly to find out if the girl he likes reciprocated those feelings. The girl he has liked ever since high school is So Hyun (played by Go Yoon Jung), who happened to be Jae In’s close friend until So Hyun’s father became a determining ‘witness’ into accusing Jae In’s father for the Yeongseong case. So Hyun and her dad also lived there at the time and her dad was basically coerced by YSS and other untrustworthy statements to point to him even though he didn’t actually think it was him. Anyways, throughout the story Dae Bong and So Hyun remain active as An and Jae In’s supporting figures, while they don’t actually get directly involved in the investigation. Dae Bong just continuously lends An his car, and So Hyun eventually manages to persuade her father (whom she’d cut ties with after his false statement) to revoke his initial accusation towards Jae In’s dad.
Dae Bong has been in love with So Hyun since high school, as I mentioned, even when the case An and Jae In solved involving those stolen exam papers led them to the truth of So Hyun’s teen pregnancy. So Hyun now has a young child and while she is initially a bit cautious of Dae Bong, the two grow towards each other and that was cute. Apart from that, they really didn’t have anything to do with the main story.

To be honest, before starting on this show I’d seen a review of someone mentioning something about a major plot twist at the end that made them really like this show so I was kind of hoping for an unexpected outcome, but in hindsight everything pretty much went as I expected. I think the psychometry theme was original and well-found and they did a good job in building up the story and revealing all the necessary information at the right moments. It was wrapped up nicely without too many openings or plot holes, I think. The way everything was executed left some things to be desired, and I still don’t agree with things like Ji Soo’s death and the way that An somehow managed to anticlimax a bunch of stuff that should’ve been climaxed. It’s definitely not the best or strongest show I’ve seen, and the main couple’s chemistry was a bit meh, but what kept me in it was definitely the investigation and the story’s build-up. I was interested to find out what truly happened, even when I already got the gist of it.

It’s time for some cast comments! It was funny to see some familiar as well as unfamiliar faces in this show.

I hadn’t seen anything with Park Jin Young before. I knew his face from the teasers of Yumi’s Cells (which I haven’t seen yet), so I kind of recognized his face and I learned that he’s a member of K-Pop group GOT7, but other than that I don’t have any reference of his earlier acting performances. Through DramaWiki I learned that he played Lee Min Ho’s younger version in Legend of the Blue Sea and that he had a cameo in Melting Me Softly, but I don’t remember what cameo that was. In any case, I felt like maybe he didn’t have that much acting experience yet? It could just be me though. I wasn’t particularly bothered by his performance, I didn’t think he did a bad job or anything like that, but in some occasions I felt like he was overacting a little bit, or maybe making things more dramatic than they needed to be. I thought that he fitted An very well, though, he really managed to get that puppy energy going and the way he just kind of latched onto Jae In and didn’t even consider anyone else as a romantic interest was really cute. I liked that romance wasn’t the main topic of this show, by the way. In the beginning it really seemed to be working towards that, but I liked how they used it purely as a tool to strengthen An and Jae In’s relationship before they had to combine their strengths in the field. I think he was definitely a good fit for the role!

I’m not sure why but I occasionally got major Gong Seung Yeon vibes from Shin Ye Eun. I also haven’t seen Shin Ye Eun in anything before, although I guess I will see more of her in the future. She’s only been active as a drama actress since 2018, apparently, so she hasn’t done that much yet. She reminds me of Snow White with her white skin and jetblack hair, she’s really pretty! As I mentioned before, I really like the humane aspects of Jae In’s character, the way in which she didn’t even trust herself to prove that her father was innocent but she kept holding onto that hope. The build-up in her character was nice, how she slowly but surely opened up to An and despite their contrasting personalities they made a cute couple. I just wished there had been a little bit more chemistry in their kissing scenes. Even though romance wasn’t the biggest issue in this drama, I still would’ve liked to get some more butterflies in their scenes together. On the other hand, it was nice to see a couple able to remain so professional during the entire of the investigation, I almost forgot that they were also a couple, they just seemed like work partners. They didn’t include romance where it wasn’t needed, they didn’t create any additionally unnecessary romantic situations during the serious bits, so that was also refreshing in a way. But during the time in the first half, where it still WAS about their romance, I just would’ve liked a bit more initiative from her side instead of the occasional side glances and anticipation of what An was going to do.
Other than that I thought she was okay, and I’m just curious to other performances of her now.

Seriously, if Lee Jong Seok and Yoo In Na had a baby… I swear it would probably look like Kim Kwon. I just couldn’t stop thinking that, for some reason. He just seemed so familiar, but I don’t think I’ve actually seen him act in anything before. After checking DramaWiki, I see he was in Me Too, Flower! and Manhole, but I don’t remember him from either of these, it’s been too long. I think he got a very intricate character to portray. Someone who definitely wasn’t who he seemed to be, someone who carried a very dark past with him. He went from the friendly brother-like figure to the angsty alexithymia guy with subtlety, I think he pulled off the duality well. I just couldn’t with the dramatic shots of him, though. Like, he just always seemed to be standing on some random desolate bridge in the middle of nowhere when he made a mysterious phone call, and they did a couple of dramatic close-ups on him that I couldn’t take very seriously, but his acting was very steady. I think he did a very good job considering he was supposed to play someone who was born with alexithymia, and the emotions that he showed throughout the show still didn’t come 100% natural to him. I really liked his ‘chemistry’, if you can call it that, with Ji Soo, I would’ve liked to know more about their friendship and ideally, I would’ve liked them to end up together but I guess you can’t wish for everything. All in all, I liked his performance.
I also want to give a shoutout to Jo Byung Gyu who played teenage Seong Mo. He’s the guy that reminds me of Suda Masaki, for some reason. I know him from Who Are You – School 2015, Age of Youth 2, Radio Romance, and he also had a tiny part in Arthdal Chronicles that I somehow still remember him from. He was really good. He played Seong Mo in the time they moved to Yeongseong, the time he was still very much suffering from his alexithymia but started recovering from that after meeting An, Jae In and their respective families who all seemed to be concerned about him.

I could’ve sworn I knew Kim Da Som from something else, too, but I initially mistook her for Jung Hye Sung, my bad. Anyways, turns out I really haven’t seen her in anything before. Apparently she’s a former member of SISTAR, so maybe that’s why she looks familiar. Anyway, as I mentioned, Ji Soo was my favorite character. I loved how she struggled with herself in her feelings for Seong Mo but then kicked total ass as a police detective and was just such a kind-hearted person. I was so looking forward to the moment when she’d learn about Seong Mo’s involvement, like I could even just picture her waiting for him to get out of jail, or at least meeting his mom (she didn’t even get to meet his mom whom she tried so hard to find T^T). But I guess it wasn’t to be. I will say it for the umpteenth time, but I still don’t agree with the decision to kill her off. I loved her.
Also, I was really confused for a second because when they showed that single scene of Ji Soo as a teen, I could’ve sworn it was just her, the same actress. I was wondering why she got to play her own teen version while everyone else just had a younger actor playing their younger version. Turns out it actually WAS someone else! I got completely fooled by the amazing casting of her younger self, lol. So also kudos to Choo Ye Jin for briefly confusing the heck out of me, haha.

I’ve seen Noh Jong Hyun before in Because This is My First Life, Short, and he also had a cameo in Romance is a Bonus Book. I found him a very sympathetic choice for Dae Bong, especially after seeing how he and An became friends. He may have been a bit weird and desperate in getting So Hyun’s attention, but he definitely had his heart in the right place. I would’ve liked him to get a bit more action instead of just being An’s car supplier, but I’m also glad he at least never got involved that much in the whole investigation, he really was just a supporting role and that was fine. I think it was important for An to have someone to rely on outside of all the police stuff, someone who was always there for him, who didn’t have any major issues going on besides winning the affection of the woman he’d always been in love with. So in that I really liked the uncomplicatedness of his character.

Go Yoon Jung is so pretty I can’t even. Apparently this was her first drama role, but I have seen that some of her more recent dramas are on my to watch list, so I’m looking forward to that. I liked that they didn’t give So Hyun too much involvement in the case but they did give her a chance to contribute in clearing Jae In’s father’s name, that was a nice development for her. She didn’t have that many appearances other than playing with the kids at the recreation center, so I can’t really say much more about her character, I think… I just liked that she stuck by Jae In after everything, even after her own father had done something like that to worsen Jae In’s situation. That was some solid friendship right there.

I really liked Jae In’s aunt, played by Kim Hyo Jin. She was such an eccentric lady but she never had a bad bone in her body. I loved the scene she had with Jae In in which she told her how she so naturally agreed on taking Jae In in after what happened to her father. She really cared about her, it wasn’t some opportunistic thing or whatever, I remember how panicky she was when Jae In got kidnapped, too. She fitted the role really nicely and I’m also glad she never got on Kang Geun Taek’s personal radar for being related to Jae In or something. He honestly just went after her because he found out Seong Mo had some attachment to Jae In, but anyone outside of that never got involved, and that’s a relief.

I also really liked Park Chul Min in this! I honestly believe this is the first time I’ve seen him as a sympathetic character, haha. I know him from a bunch of historical dramas such as Sungkyunkwan Scandal, Moonlight Drawn By Clouds and Ruler: Master of the Mask, and from Baby-faced Beauty, School 2017 and some cameos in Revolutionary Love, I’m Not a Robot and Backstreet Rookie. He’s a familiar face but I feel like he is usually cast as ill-intended people, haha. It was very nice to see him as such a nice character in this show, and I liked that they made his role bigger by including him in the final investigation as well. It was funny seeing a dry-humor side of him!

I can’t believe I haven’t seen anything with Sa Gang in it before, either. She also looks so familiar to me, but I can’t link her to anything I’ve seen before. Anyways, it was nice to have a character like Dr. Hong until the end. I loved her friendship with Ji Soo, and the genuine grief that came over her when her friend died. I’m glad she was able to still continue to contribute to the investigation in her own way, even busting those YSS people when they wanted to bribe her with a fake corpse. It was plain-out rude to expect her to agree to someone like that after all she’d been through, after even losing her best friend to the case. Those YSS people were really delusional to think she might take money to cover something like that up. She was a very just person, and even though she kept her professional distance and also didn’t fully trust An in the beginning, she was always on the right side. I really liked her.

I also don’t know Jang Eui Soo AKA Detective Lee Seung Yong from anything, but I really liked him in this show. He was originally Ji Soo’s junior who made a couple screw-ups as Ji Soo’s dad was also asking him to report stuff his daughter was doing back to him. But after Ji Soo died it became so clear how much he cared about her, how much of a dependable figure she’d been to him, he’d respected her so much he just threw himself into all the cases she’d been working on and ended up being a really strong asset to the investigation. He was a nice character to have, it was nice to see him mature as a police detective as well.

Eom Hyo Seob and Jung Seok Yong were two other familiar faces as Ji Soo and Jae In’s dads. Just like with Park Chul Min, I have seen Eom Hyo Seob in a lot of unlikable characters before. I’ve seen him in School 2013, You Who Came From The Stars, Doctors Shopping King Louie, I’m Not a Robot and Start-Up. I’ve seen Jung Seok Yong before in I Miss You, Lookout, Room No. 9, Arthdal Chronicles and Move to Heaven. I disliked Ji Soo’s dad at first but at least he changed after his daughter passed (as he ought to!). I just wished it wouldn’t have had to come to that for him to finally admit to the mistakes he made, but at least he did come around in the end. Regarding Jae In’s dad, I was actually really curious to what he had to say, because he was never shown even uttering a word about the Yeongseong case himself. He just admitted to being the culprit because he wanted Jae In to start living her life without holding on to him. I wondered why he didn’t fight harder to prove his own innocence when he was first accused and arrested, did he just give up after seeing all the parties that were voting against him? It was really sad when he even attempted suicide. I’m just glad they managed to finally clear his name in the end and he got to come home.

I’m aware that this is not a very nice segue, but speaking of suicide I want to acknowledge that actress Jeon Mi Seon, who played Seong Mo’s mom, actually took her own life only a few months after this show aired. She was only 48 years old and believed to be suffering from depression. She was such a familiar face in K-Dramas. If there’s any show in which she didn’t play a mother, it’s one of few. When I saw her appear here my first thought was also, huh? Didn’t she pass away? But He is Psychometric was actually the last series she appeared in before she took her own life. I still can’t believe we won’t get to see her kind and familiar face in anything new anymore.
The role she played in this show was very loaded. She was a woman living in constant fear, being constantly on the run, fully aware of the fact her son had the genetic tendency to commit a similar crime, even if it was out of his love for her. Everytime she appeared I just wanted her to be at ease, to live a carefree life. She was constantly on edge, jumping at her own shadows, and it was just so awful. I really felt for her character. I definitely didn’t see the whole Room situation coming, that she’d actually been locked up and raped by this guy and forced to give birth in that basement. She really was a victim, and now she had to live with all those additional lives being taken ‘for her sake’, which she never would’ve condoned if it had been up to her. It was a very dark and anxious role that I hadn’t seen of her before, but I applauded Eun Joo for being strong enough in the end to face Kang Geun Taek in trial, even though that meant being in the same room as him again.
I hope Mrs. Jeon can have some peace in her own way.

I had never imagined Lee Seung Joon to make such an intimidating criminal. And the interesting things is that even for a psychopath, there are still things to say for his character. I’ve seen this actor before in Hyde, Jekyll, Me, Descendants of the Sun, Thirty But Seventeen, and he had some cameos in The Package and Hotel Del Luna. I’m definitely going to see more shows with him as I continue with my watchlist, as well. I did recognize the actor at some point, when Kang Geun Taek’s face was finally revealed, but I still never fully recognized him because I’ve never seen him portray this kind of role before. You could say that on one hand, Kang Geun Taek was a victim himself, he grew up homeless without even a name, let alone a place he belonged, and he latched onto the first person to show him that he could also be someone worthy of a name. I still think it was creepy, because even though I didn’t really see an apparently big age difference between Kang Geun Taek and Eun Joo as adults, in that flashback of when they met for the first time Eun Joo definitely appeared to be MUCH younger than him. In his own twisted love story, he managed to tear apart so much, and there’s also something very sad and pitiable about him. With his uncured alexithymia, he just never learned to think in a different way and he just acts the way he has been treated himself, thinking that’s normal. His character was very intriguing, in a way. But he definitely deserve the sentence he was given at the end. Good performance!

I think that with this I have concluded my cast comments!

I decided not to elaborate too much on my summary and stick to some specific points of critisms in my analysis because I thought this series was pretty intricate. I am aware I left out several side characters and other events that were all related to the investigation but it would have just been too much to describe. My cast comments section might be longer than my actual review this time, but I think I’ve made my thoughts and feelings clear enough.
All in all, I would say that it was an entertaining watch. It wasn’t badly written, per se, I thought the way they gradually brought up the iceberg that was the core of everything was very well done. I guess my main issue just lay with the credibility of An in his journey to hone his psychometry skills. There was a lot of ambiguity about his skills, like why for example he was suddenly able to feel the victims’ pain while, to my idea, the psychometry was meant as a purely objective form of gaining intel. When you touch an object, you shouldn’t be able to feel the physical pain of another person who touched that object before. I just thought that went a bit too far. I thought it was nice to make use of psychometry to enable a ‘statement’ from a ‘silent witness’. I recently heard about a terrible case from the 80s in which a young woman was assaulted and murdered in her own room, and that there was a plush toy on her bed, exactly like a silent witness. If psychometry would have existed and if it could have been used the way An used it, then that plush toy would have undoubtedly provided an immensely important although horrifying story. I’m not saying that I believe psychometry exists, but I can definitely see how it could come in handy.
The concept of psychometry to aid in investigations was original enough, but at the end of the day I still can’t help but feel like An may not have been the right person to use his powers for that. We’ve seen how diving deeper into cases caused him physical harm, and I just kept thinking about how innocent he was, as a person. I just felt like he wasn’t ready to take on these aspects of his skills. While I agreed with Jae In when she announced at the end that he shouldn’t take on any more homicide cases, I did also like that she still encouraged him when he discovered a new case in the final episode (which was basically about busting a medical error at a hospital, I believe). It was nice to see she still supported him and didn’t tell him not to use psychometry ever again, but she did care enough about him that she didn’t want to expose him to any more really serious cases like Kang Geun Taek.
So yeah, I did like it enough to sit through it, it was definitely very thrilling and it built up the suspense nicely. It’s not the best I’ve seen, but I think they did a well enough job with the writing. Apart from, you know, the things that I’ve mentioned.

Okay, so now I’m going back to another more recent Netflix release which I’m very much looking forward to! Watching dramas is my most relaxing way of passing the time, especially since I’m in a very stressed position with work right now I enjoy spending my free hours and weekends not having to worry about all of that. I hope my next watch will be very soothing as well, I have my expectations. Until then!

Bye-bee!
xx

Somebody

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

Somebody
(썸바디 / Seombadi)
MyDramaList rating: 6.5/10

Hi y’all! The weather is so bad here right now, it’s been raining and snowing and it’s just cold and wet all the time. AKA the best weather to cuddle up with a blanket and a cup of hot tea and watch some K-Drama! Honestly I feel like even though this might not become a very lengthy review, I’ll still have a hard time constructing my arguments. All in all I have very mixed feelings about this and when I read other people’s reviews and comments online, I’m glad to say that at least I’m not the only one that got hella confused. It started out really good and interesting, but the more it progressed there were just more questions and less answers. I’ve debated a lot on how to rate this, because the acting and the cinematography were very impressive but, the story in itself left some things to be desired in my opinion. There were a lot of random events and I kept feeling like they weren’t really getting to the point. I hope I’ll be able to convey the way I felt about it clearly, so let’s just get on with it!

Somebody is an 8-episode Netflix K-Drama with episodes of about 55 minutes each. It’s about Kim Seom (played by Kang Hae Rim), a young woman with Asperger’s who is a genius at programming. We see her as a student in the beginning, helping out some game hall owner by rigging his arcade machines so it’ll be even harder to win any money with them. Seom makes it clear from the start that, as long as it won’t cause people to die, she doesn’t mind helping out even though it’s still considered to be illegal to do so. At a science fair she participates in, Seom’s self-made AI chatbot ‘SOME ONE’ is discovered by Samantha Jung (played by Choi Yoo Ha) who is impressed by the intricate detail in the observation and recording functions that Seom programmed in it. Skip to a while later, the two have started a popular social meeting/dating app called ‘Somebody’ together, with Samantha as the director and Seom as the co-director. However, the app has been suffering from some bad reputation, as it starts being associated with more rape and even murder crimes. When Seom, with her mad programming skills that allow the app to even recognize patterns in the way people chat with each other, is ordered to look into the account that’s suspected to be involved with one of these crimes, and she discovers that this same person has about 6 different accounts on Somebody. When she likes all of them in an attempt to get in touch with this mystery person, she immediately feels a connection with the way this man talks to her through one of these accounts. Seom, who has always felt very estranged from the people around her because of her Asperger’s, actually finds a kind of kindred spirit in this guy, especially after she meets him in real life.

I’m just already going to end my summary of the story here because I already can’t stop myself from inserting my own comments. Basically, what it comes down to, is that Seom is asked to look into a person that’s using Somebody, the app she developed, to meet young women, gets them to meet up with him in real life, and then murders them.
When Seom gets to talking with this person online, she immediately feels like he understands her like no one has ever understood her. He doesn’t blame her for killing an injured cat on the street because she took pity on it and couldn’t reach anyone to come save it. He even seems to encourage it, telling her he knows how she feels. They meet up already in the first episode, and that’s where we meet the guy, who is Sung Yoon Oh (played by Kim Young Kwang). Even though Seom is aware of the fact that he might be behind those murders, she can’t help but feel attracted to him, and he also seems to treat her differently, he’s kind to her and he doesn’t harm her in any way. After meeting him in real life for the first time, Seom slowly but surely gets pretty obsessed with him, even to the point of recording herself repeating what few conversations they had (both in-chat as in-person), and uses those recordings to masturbate to. She keeps wanting to talk to him more, but then he stops responding for a while and she’s left to think about their (imagined?) connection by herself.

In the meantime, Yoon Oh is not sitting still. We see that he is constantly busy, keeping in contact with several different women on the many phones he keeps from his victims, which he keeps almost everywhere, in his office, in saves in his house, in his car dashboard, etc. He uses a clever system in which he keeps deleting his own footsteps, so to say, by keeping his victims’ phones and creating new Somebody accounts with those using random pictures of sceneries or objects. Keeping himself mysterious but interesting, as there will always a curious person that’s drawn to one of these pictures that he can lure in. This also works for Seom’s closest human friend, Yeong Gi Eun (played by Kim Soo Yeon).

Seom still keeps the prototype version of SOME ONE, her self-made AI chatbot, in her home office and chats with it from time to time, referring to it as a friend. Through her conversations with SOME ONE, we learn that she used to have a close friend that came to her house a lot, but it’s mentioned that she ‘doesn’t come over anymore’. This friend is Gi Eun. She’s a police detective, but she has recently been in an undefined accident, and now she’s in a wheelchair. It’s never really explained what this accident was, and only later we learn that her friendship with Seom became strained after Seom spoke a bit insensitively to her after she got the accident (saying that it was her own fault or something). Anyways, the two aren’t that close anymore.
Gi Eun incidentally finds an account on Somebody that has a wheelchair as its profile picture and matches with it. Just like any other victim, she’s intrigued and immediately feels like it’s meant to be to find such a perfect match, a guy who also claims to be in a wheelchair.
They meet up one time in a forest where there’s an abandoned empty pool – Gi Eun has told him she misses swimming and would like to try it again, so he invites her there. It’s quite a long way away, and there’s zero people around. Yoon Oh reveals to Gi Eun that he’s not actually in a wheelchair and though she’s initially alarmed and startled, she still doesn’t see any red flags and they even end up having sex in the abandoned locker room of the pool.
After which he leaves her by herself and throws away her wheelchair.
Gi Eun manages to get back home, miraculously, crawling all the way back to her car and then managing to get back to a place where she can stop a taxi. Determined to find that bastard who threw away her wheelchair, she summons her other close friend Im Mok Won (played by Kim Yong Ji). Mok Won is a young woman who grew up at a temple and now works as a shaman, claiming she’s been possessed by a certain General. She can feel certain vibes and spirits from people. After having a dream in which a bunch of her friends appeared, she calls them all one by one to make sure they’re okay, but then gets super anxious when Gi Eun doesn’t pick up. Gi Eun goes to Mok Won’s house after the pool incident and asks her for her help. With this, they have no other choice to also contact Seom, as it involves a meeting that took place through Somebody.

I just couldn’t figure out what Seom’s deal was, to be honest. She knew about Yoon Oh’s truth, she knew he killed people, but she still felt a really deep connection to him and didn’t want to lose him because she feared she might never find someone like him again, someone so much like her. However, after hearing that her own close friend fell victim to him, no matter how much she probably didn’t want to believe it, it still felt like she didn’t want him to get caught. She kept telling Mok Won that the person who did that to Gi Eun wasn’t the person she was seeing, based purely on Gi Eun’s remark that he was ‘impotent’ during their intercourse and he wasn’t when he had sex with Seom. At one point I was really like, come on girl, are you that naïve or are you just really conflicted? Shouldn’t it be enough to stand up for your friend in this case? He literally came after both Gi Eun and Mok Won, and she still chose to follow her own feelings. I guess in this case her social handicap really came through – she just couldn’t relate to other people’s feelings, she couldn’t use her head and think of the right thing to do when her heart was telling her something different, even if it wasn’t the right thing. I get how desperately she wanted to hold on to him, because the connection she felt with him was that special to her, but still, priorities should be priorities here. She got in the way when Mok Won wanted to take a picture of her and Yoon Oh together to check with Gi Eun if he was indeed the same guy, and she just dragged some random colleague with her instead of Yoon Oh. I kept getting confused by Seom, I just couldn’t figure out what she was thinking.

Also, Gi Eun. Holy freaking moly. As a police detective, how could she be so incredibly reckless. When she got out of the woods the first time, I was kind of impressed, thinking ‘heck yes, she survived’. But then we see that he didn’t actually physically harm her, he just left her behind, so her being pissed at him didn’t come from fear or horror, but more from a place of genuine annoyance. She wanted to get back at him just for being a bastard that threw her wheelchair away. Honestly, how could she have underestimated him like that?
She did all that effort to sneakily get back in contact with him, even if it meant transferring some kind of bitcoin to an anonymous source who could get her info, only to just immediately give away who she was the second he responded to her message. It was basically like saying, ‘Hey there! Remember me, I’m still here!’ And then he just asked her to meet up again and she went, AGAIN, BY HERSELF. It seemed like she had some sort of plan to let someone know where she’d gone, but nothing really happened in the end.
He asked her to meet up at a neighborhood that was about to be demolished. The second she arrived at their meeting place, some construction workers came and repeatedly told her to go away, it was dangerous here, all the more because she was in a wheelchair and the alleys were really narrow. That should have already been the biggest red flag, the only she’d need. ‘He asked me to meet up here so I’d get caught in this demolition and wouldn’t be able to get out’. It was CLEAR AS DAY. BUT NO. She kept going back. She was literally told to leave by construction workers THE ENTIRE TIME. But no, she still thought, ‘Nah, but he’s gotta be around here somewhere’. In the meantime Yoon Oh just kept sending her vague messages about how long it was taking him to get coffee. Like, HOW MANY RED FLAGS DO YOU NEED. I seriously kept screaming to Gi Eun this whole part, I just couldn’t believe how stupid she was. She kept going further and further into that maze, the alleys got narrower, all around her buildings were being demolished and she still didn’t think it might be better if she went back. It would have been the most logical thing to do, even if she was that bend on meeting him. ‘Oh, I guess it’s dangerous here, I’ll just tell him I’ll meet him somewhere else in case he doesn’t know that our rendezvous place is getting demolished right this moment’. Like, he left her all by herself and threw away her wheelchair, but she still trusted him enough to just show up with coffee in a place like that? So yeah, at one point her wheelchair inevitably gets stuck and she is locked inside a closed-off neighborhood, she can’t even crawl her way out of there as it’s literally falling apart around her.
And then Yoon Oh suddenly appears in front of her, and she’s like ‘Oh, wow, he’s actually a psychopath.’ GIRL. She was miraculously lucky to have a psychic friend like Mok Won who just smelled that she was in trouble and they actually ended up finding her amongst the rubble. Gi Eun survived again, but still, it’s just like it couldn’t get through to her how dangerous this guy actually was. She kept talking about ‘catching this bastard’ while it seemed like she still didn’t fully recognize how genuinely dangerous he was. Just because he didn’t kill her, doesn’t mean he wouldn’t have done it eventually. I don’t know, it was from this point on that this series started to get really frustrating to me.

Mok Won is a very unique character in itself. She has very distinctive looks, she’s very androgynous, and she’s also revealed to be a lesbian (she’s shown meeting another woman at a bar and getting intimate with her). Despite her ‘cool’ appearance and attitude, the whole motorbike lady image, Mok Won is very calm-natured and she’s very concerned about the people she cares for. Seeing her wear her traditional shaman hanbok stood in really stark contrast with her everyday outfits. In any case, as we’re not given too much information about how she got possessed or how she became a shaman at all, it does seem that she’s one of the few people who could actually get the truth out of people. Without even having met Yoon Oh, she can already feel that he’s got a lot of evil spirits about him from an object that Seom got from him (a small razor blade). However, despite her probably having the most information about Yoon Oh’s true nature even when everyone around her is keeping the truth from her, there was also only so much that Mok Won could do about it. She sets out to help Gi Eun with her quest to ‘catch the bastard’, but she usually just ends up hopping on her motorcycle to drive people around and save her friends’ asses from the guy.
She has one inside guy, nicknamed 79NewMoney (played by Lee Ki Chan) who ends up getting her the final evidence she needs (all the mobile phones from Yoon Oh’s house), and with this both Spectrum, the company that houses Somebody, and the police could actually do something to lure Yoon Oh out. But before that, basically the entire show, it was just talking about how they wanted to catch him but not actually taking any real action.

I have to agree with the comments out there that I think there were a lot of random things going on in this story. Sometimes a piece of truth was revealed which had all the effects of being a dramatic plot twist but didn’t make any sense to me.
I’ve read comments saying that the writers completely misunderstood the notion of Asperger’s and that they could’ve just made Seom someone who struggled in social situations – the Asperger’s in itself wasn’t actually that crucial to her character, it was crucial that she felt like a social outcast and had trouble communicating with people. The only reference made to autism was in her flashbacks as a child where her mom was teaching her how to recognize facial expressions in association to certain emotions. Seom kind of reminded me of the female lead in Murata Sayaka’s ‘Convenience Store Woman’. This woman doesn’t mention anything about having some sort of autism, but she’s just an ‘alien’ because she just can’t be on the same wavelength as others and ends up adapting to the people around her so she won’t get found out. There’s also mention of her acting a bit sociopathic as a child, so I felt like this might have been the same for Seom as well. In any case, Seom’s whole deal was that she felt alone and misunderstood and Yoon Oh, in his craziness, made her feel like she wasn’t alone for the first time ever.
As for Gi Eun, the fact that a guy leaving her naked and vulnerable by herself in an abandoned pool in an abandoned forest and threw away her wheelchair wasn’t enough of a red flag to make her cautious enough of him when he then asks her to literally ride her wheelchair into an active construction site. Gi Eun being a police detective ended up having nothing to do with the story, as she didn’t even manage to track him down. She tracked Seom’s phone as it was being driven around in a taxi while Seom herself was going off to Yoon Oh by herself without even noticing that it might be a red herring.
Furthermore, and I also thought this during the scene between her and Yoon Oh in that demolished neighborhood, maybe I didn’t read her expression right, but it still seemed to me like Gi Eun was strangely attracted to Yoon Oh even after what he did to her. After all that went down, one time Gi Eun is seen lying in her bed, repeating the swimming movements with her arms that Yoon Oh made her experience at the abandoned pool. At the end, after Yoon Oh has been killed, it’s almost as if she’s reminiscing him, she even kept the two lollipops he left her, even though they were pretty much signs of a threat to her before. She was dressed all in black, as if she was mourning him. That was just really strange to me.

By the way, didn’t anyone have a lock on their door or something? How he did he just walk into Mok Won’s and Gi Eun’s houses? Honestly, again I couldn’t shake my head at Gi Eun. They’d literally talked about him probably knowing where Gi Eun lived by now, and then when she suddenly hears someone coming up to her door in the middle of the night and opens her door and throws a lollipop inside, her first reaction is to go, ‘MOM IS THAT YOU’. Seriously, what the heck was up with that?! She should’ve been calling the police the second she heard any kind of noise, knowing that a serial killer was after her.

Mok Won being a shaman was also quite random. I mean, it was definitely handy to have a psychic person there, and I personally liked Mok Won’s character a lot as it seemed like she had a lot of trumps up her sleeve where her powers were concerned. One part that was kind of unnecessarily intense for me was that exorcism ritual. At one point, Seom asks her to perform a ritual for her and Yoon Oh (?) and then Mok Won has to do this whole intense ritual which ends with her jumping up and down barefeet on two metal cutters, basically. Like, what was up with the intensity of that? It did result in Mok Won’s awareness of Gi Eun’s dangerous situation (it was happening simultaneously to the rendezvous at the soon-to-be demolished neighborhood) and it also seemed like she got possessed by the spirits of one of Yoon Oh’s previous victims for a moment. In any case, that’s where Mok Won somehow became aware of the fact that Gi Eun and Seom’s guys were the same person. But yeah, that scene really got me going like o_O I was scared she was going to slice her feet open!

I was waiting for there to be this really intense backstory about Yoon Oh, about how he became the way he became. And then, that was kind of an anti-climax in itself. All the more when it was revealed it all just started one year earlier. There were all these signs that it might have something to do with his mom, as he didn’t reveal anything about his past but his expression changed whenever it was mentioned. So yeah, basically his first experience with Somebody one year prior ended in accidentally murdering the women during sex and then also taking on the guy that she additionally called for a threesome. The woman had literally asked for Yoon Oh to strangle her, in a rough sex play kind of way, and then he ended up using too much force. And I guess after that he just got used to that feeling? He started doing it again and again? And that’s how it came to be? For an origin story, I found it kind of disappointing, although of course it’s still not a joke how he ended up killing all those women. Like the woman he cut up and left in that silo, I mean, damn.
In the end, the employees from Spectrum/Somebody manage to create some impressive footage of Yoon Oh’s previous victims (they manage to create a moving image made from remaining pictures of the people’s Somebody accounts or something?) and then Yoon Oh suddenly keeps getting video calls from his former victims, which is understandably upsetting to him. This is the first thing that actually manages to set him off into an unstable condition, one where he isn’t the one with all the power.

I kept being really confused about Yoon Oh’s true feelings for Seom. In the beginning it felt like he indeed felt a bit differently about her, as he didn’t hurt her and I don’t know, the way he looked at her was just different. But he did set up that whole rape role play which victimized Seom, even though it resulted in her killing one of her assailants herself. He still set up that incredibly triggering situation for her, so in that way he did treat her like he did his usual victims, he just didn’t do it himself. I honestly thought for most of the show that Seom was idealizing their relationship and that Yoon Oh wasn’t actually romantically attracted to her, but just thought she’d be of use to him as the developer of Somebody and all. But then at the end he built her that space and he kept saying how much he liked her even when he was bleeding to death? So I guess he did have real feelings for her? The build-up in their relationship was just very vague to me. At one point Seom was completely head over heels for him, but then started doubting him again after seeing how he smashed up SOME ONE when he found out it recorded messages he typed but deleted before sending them. She knew the bad things he’d done, but after experiencing a sort of euphoria herself after killing her assailant that one time, she felt like she understood him as well. It was like the both of them kept going on and off where their mutual feelings were concerned, and that’s what made the slowburn very slow. That’s why, when Seom killed him, I was still not sure what had driven her to that decision, as she’d just admitted to Gi Eun on the phone earlier that he was such a special person to her, someone she’d never find again if she chose to give him up.
From other people’s comments, I’ve understood that the way she murdered him had a connection to the way she murdered that injured cat in the beginning, to stop its suffering. However, in what way exactly did she feel like he was suffering? Also, it probably had to do with the fact that he used her precious app, Somebody, to kill people. Just like she confirmed with that game hall owner in the first episode that what he was trying to do wouldn’t end up killing people, I guess she did ultimately have enough justice in her left to feel that that was wrong? It didn’t seem to bother her in the beginning, I mean she knew from the start that he was the murderer using Somebody to meet his victims. But somehow, after he openly admitted to her that he’d been using her app to do so, suddenly it became intolerable? As I said, I have more questions than answers here. Even though killing him off seemed like the only way to solve everything (the way she did it though, slicing him through the eyes with the razor blade he gave her, yikes), it still didn’t solve a lot of questions I had. And I guess now I’ll never know, haha.

One final event I want to mention which just confused me even more was the whole deal with that Hong Gong Joo (played by Kang Ji Eun). She only appears briefly before as the owner of a restaurant that Yoon Oh delivers Gi Eun’s phone to after Mok Won manages to reach him on it and asks about the whereabouts of her friends. He claims Gi Eun left this phone behind in that restaurant and that she can pick it up there. Hong Gong Joo claims like she doesn’t know anything, and only reveals a little more after Mok Won pays her.
Her restaurant is also in that neighborhood that gets demolished, and when Gi Eun is confronted by Yoon Oh in that state, she discovers a body among the rubbish that’s left there, although it’s not immediately revealed who it is.
At the end of that episode, we suddenly get an entire flashback of Hong Gong Joo and how she met Yoon Oh. He was a regular at her restaurant and she treated him very warmly, and in return he taught her how to use Somebody. Through Somebody, she met the 79NewMoney guy and they ended up in a relationship together (?) even though they’d seemed completely unrelated when we saw them in a scene together before. When 79NewMoney started spying on him for Mok Won and he went after him, I guess Yoon Oh felt like Gong Joo was also in on something and then he just strangled her and it’s revealed that she is the body lying under the rubbish. The moment the flashback started I got really excited, thinking it would reveal a whole new plot twist, about how that woman was in cahoots with Yoon Oh or something, but when it ended I was just like, ‘Okay… so…. What?’ Like, I didn’t even see how it mattered what he did with this woman, how it had any additional value to the story. It wasn’t important what their relationship had been, and she could’ve just disappeared along with the restaurant without it being explicitly shown that Yoon Oh also killed her because that would’ve been anyone’s first guess. So I really didn’t understand that flashback, especially the part where she apparently met and started dating 79NewMoney through Somebody. It seemed really irrelevant.

Talking about ways this drama showed its controversy, I can’t leave out that I was pretty astonished by the amount of sex and nudity. It took on a pretty arthouse kind of style, which kept me engaged, but yeah, lots of sex and nudity. I did appreciate them normalizing a lesbian relationship for once, because that really doesn’t happen a lot in K-Drama, but the R-ratedness of it sometimes did make me a bit uncomfortable, especially when it just became repetitive. Yoon Oh is shown having sex with several different women in the show, each time equally intense. They definitely didn’t shy away from showing a lot of boobs and butts! I can only say that this is probably a certain taste that you need to have in movies or series. I personally didn’t care for it so much, it did give the series an additional sense of maturity and reality, and I’ve seen people actually being grateful for it in comparison to regular K-Dramas in which people get all fidgety about even holding hands or calling each other by their first name. This show deals more with people’s feral instincts than with pure feelings in relationships, and in a way I think it was good for them to put a dating app like Somebody in such a light, less romanticized and more of a tool to enable spontaneous booty calls. After all, that’s mainly what these apps are used for in real life.

I just kept wondering how these women, Yoon Oh’s victims, could be so gullible. How they just went out to meet up with someone they just talked to for 10 minutes on an app. This is personally the reason why I can’t do dating apps. People always ask to meet up within one day, or even a week of chatting. I’ve personally experienced being invited out by a guy to come visit him on the other side of the country after only talking for a week. I just instinctively don’t trust these situations, and the way Yoon Oh approached his victims was so full of red flags that I couldn’t understand how all these women were so gullible. Apart from Gi Eun, who took good faith to an entirely new level, I’m just talking about the women that Yoon Oh killed in-between. Okay, he was sneaky and maybe you wouldn’t expect someone to already have an ulterior motive when you ‘incidentally’ match with them on an app like that. But doesn’t anyone just have a basic sense of caution when they register on these apps in the first place? I thought that by now, everyone knows that everything that happens online has potential danger, that you always have to be careful with people you meet online because you can never know their true intentions for sure.

My rating of this drama actually dropped from a 7.5 to a 6.5 after the first couple of episodes. From the trailer, it had looked so promising and interesting, I thought initially Seom was a detective of some sorts herself who found herself attracted to a serial killer and that in itself was kind of refreshing? As in, it would make for a pretty conflicting but refreshing story, one of its kind. I also couldn’t wait to see Kim Young Kwang as a serial killer. I don’t like how this series kind of romanticized Yoon Oh, as in, who it tried to make you feel for him while he was being a first-degree creep and murderer. And yeah, a lot of the story was kind of messy and confusing and random. Apart from that, I couldn’t help admiring the arthouse style. I felt like I was watching a movie and this kept me watching. I kept hoping for some sort of all-explaining final plot twist, something that would finally explain everything, but it didn’t happen. The acting was good, the characters were intriguing despite being occasionally frustrating as heck, and I still think it had a lot of potential. The first couple of episodes were really interesting to me, but at some point it just felt like they were going in circles with how they were going to deal with Yoon Oh, or if they were going to deal with him. It didn’t work directly towards a concrete solution or ending point, and the build-up of that was a bit too slow and took a lot of (random) detours. I really find it a pity, I had pretty high expectations of it to be honest.

I’ll make some cast comments before concluding this short review. I feel like I went through it pretty fast for a change!

Kim Young Kwang was my main reason for wanting to watch this. I was initially kind of scared that this drama would change my perspective on him, as I’ve always found him and his smile adorable. While this drama definitely put him and his smile in a different light, I think he was a really good casting choice for Yoon Oh because he was able to portray the duality to his character so well. He’s extremely charming, but then you forget to notice how big/tall and strong he actually he is, and how he can just take you into an unescapable headlock within one second. It’s definitely one of the more impactful roles I’ve seen of him, in the sense that he’s showed me a side I hadn’t seen of him before. I know him from things like White Christmas, Pinocchio, Gogh The Starry Night, Lookout and Room No. 9 and the movie On Your Wedding Day in which he starred with Park Bo Young. I’ll definitely see more shows with him in the future, so I think I’ll just have to delete him as a psycho killer from my brain so I can at least see him smile without feeling anxious, haha. But yeah, despite my dislike for the romanticization of his character, I also felt myself hoping there was something inside him that could redeem him.

I hadn’t seen Kang Hae Rim in anything before, but I kept thinking I knew her from somewhere. She just fit in so well that I assumed she was an actress, but I found out she’s only done 2 dramas so far. Interesting to see her casted in such a peculiar role as Seom as one of her first acting jobs. I think she definitely succeeded in making Seom into the social alien that she was, she has a really fresh and innocent look but as soon as she’s released to her instincts, she’s definitely a wild one. It was interesting to see her character plunge into that wildness after meeting someone she connected with so much, how it immediately went to wanting physical intimacy rather than first exploring the boundaries and being healthily cautious, she just jumped right in. There were several things I couldn’t understand about her, as I’ve mentioned before, like how she kept choosing heart over head even when she knew her boyfriend serial killer was targeting her best friend, like you’d think she’d be a bit more conflicted to say the least. But I could also very well understand how much it meant to her to finally have found someone she could relate to so much, and who could relate to her like no one else could. I get that she wanted to hold on to that, but the fact that he was a serial killer didn’t change. All in all, I think she did a great acting job here, I kept trying to find out what was going through her head.

This is actually Kim Soo Yeon’s first ever drama role! Again, I hadn’t seen her in anything before, but I can’t believe that this was her first acting job. In the first couple of episodes, I really liked Gi Eun, I really admired her for crawling her way home from that abandoned people being all like ‘I’m gonna kill that bastard!’ but then how she acted after that just didn’t make sense to me, it was like she was continuously underestimating Yoon Oh while she should have known, or at least had her police instinct to tell her that the guy was a walking red flag/warning sign. I just didn’t find it credible to make her go through that while she should’ve known better, and how it seemed like she kept forgetting that she was in a wheelchair. I couldn’t really figure out what she was thinking in the end, and how she even thought of dealing with Yoon Oh even when she caught him. So in that case, making her a police officer didn’t really have any influence on her character and it only helped in the sense that she had some people from work that she could ask for favors from time to time.

Not me almost spitting out my tea when I realized Kim Yong Ji is Na Ri from The King: Eternal Monarch ?! Talk about an image change, hallelujah. I honestly didn’t even recognize her, although her distinctive features did made me feel like I’d seen her before. But Na Ri?! Nah, I wouldn’t have thought of that. It’s impressive how she turned into a completely different person. I mean, The King: Eternal Monarch is the only thing besides this I’ve seen her in so I can only refer to that one as an example, but I was really flabbergasted when I found out. I find it a very interesting choice to make her a shaman with such a wild night life on the side, and I also liked how much the writers normalized her attraction to other women, and the relationship with her eventual girlfriend. The shaman aspect, the fact that she was spiritually able to sense danger around her friends, was very convenient, almost unrealistically convenient in this case. I have a lot of questions about her character too, although I think her priorities were the clearest of all, as was her expression of concern for her friends. I want a friend like Mok Won, too, haha. Although her ‘help’ also didn’t really result in anything in the end, either.

I’m only now realizing how full of actors-I-don’t-know this series is! Even though everyone looked so familiar. I had the same with Choi Yoo Ha, aka Samantha. She was also quite a peculiar character. I couldn’t really put my finger on her relationship with Seom either. It seemed like she cared about her a lot, but on the other hand it also sounded like she just needed Seom to keep Somebody going, but that she didn’t really care that much about her personally. In the scene where she planned to corner Yoon Oh at her office and he just told her Seom already knew everything, I did feel like she wanted to keep Seom to herself because she kept seeing her as that socially awkward high school student from that science fair where they first met, someone who would always be a child and needed someone to protect her.

All in all, I guess I just really couldn’t figure out what the characters were thinking, in general, haha. Unlike regular K-Drama we don’t get to hear their thoughts out loud, no one is talking to themselves. Of course, that’s what makes it more unpredictable and realistic. In many a sense, this drama really does the reality of contemporary society justice, because if there’s one show that doesn’t romanticize anything, from life to work to relationships, it’s this one. It also didn’t romanticize the Somebody app, like for example what they did in Love Alarm. It shows a dark and feral side to people that seek comfort in casual meet-ups and one night stands, rather than basing a whole story on the build-up of one seemingly perfect relationship. Highlighting the imperfection of human beings using this kind of cinematographic arthouse style was something that still kept me curious, because I was expecting for there to be some sort of concrete wrap-up at the end. However, I couldn’t help but get disappointed and frustrated and confused. I ended up with more questions than answers, and even when the final threat was eliminated at the end, I still felt like he got away with everything that he did, that Seom gave him an easy way out. I would have liked to get a bit more backstory on all the characters that would’ve explained their responses to things, because now a lot of things they did seemed really out of character for me. I wish I could’ve rated it higher because I still think it had a lot of potential, but it just wasn’t executed in a way that pleased me, personally. I’m still glad I gave this show a chance as it’s completely not my usual genre. I like that Netflix is sharing more of these unconventional Korean shows, because I honestly had no idea they also made these kinds of K-Drama besides all the romanticized usual ones. I can totally understand how this show would come as a breath of fresh air for people who’ve always rolled their eyes at the sometimes unbearably pure and immature nature of regular series, and I do appreciate its depiction of harsh reality as well, as it can’t always be covered up. In any case, I’m going to go back to my list now, which undoubtedly is filled more with more ‘regular’ shows. I personally can’t deny that I’m more of a light, casual, romantic show lover, as that’s the kind of comfort I personally seek for in Asian drama series.

Thanks for reading all this way, and I’ll be back (probably next month) with my next review. I still have so much to watch, I can’t get more behind than I already am.

Until next time! Bye-bee! ^^

First Love: Hatsukoi

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

First Love: Hatsukoi
(First Love 初恋)
MyDramaList rating: 8.5/10

Hello everyone! I’m back with a new review and those who’ve watched it can probably agree with me that this was a very fitting watch for this season. At least where I live it’s been incredibly cold and I’ve been craving some genuine warmth in more than one way. I’m really glad I moved this series up on my list because it really gave me just that: warmth, in more than one way.
I just want to start out by saying that this really is one of the best Japanese dramas that I’ve seen in a very long time. I will give my comments and arguments in more detail below, of course, but I just wanted to put that out there before I start. This really was my kind of drama in terms of pace, story, build-up, character development and chemistry. It was like watching a movie in 9 parts, as the whole thing is visualized so beautifully and the cinematography was really impressive. The whole show was heartwarming and it made great use of some powerful tools like nostalgia and music. Let’s get on with it, shall we?

First Love: Hatsukoi is a 9-episode Netflix J-Drama that tells the love story of two people that spans over 20 years from when they first meet in high school to when they meet again as adults. Their story starts in Hokkaido, 2001, when the then 15-year old singer-songwriter Utada Hikaru brings out her debut album called ‘First Love’.
As a teen, Noguchi Yae (played by Yagi Rikako) is perceived as her school’s goddess in both beauty and academics. She receives love confessions from class- and schoolmates all the time, but she doesn’t really seem to be interested. In truth, she secretly has the hots for school troublemaker Namiki Harumichi (played by Kido Taisei), who is popular in his own way. His troublemaking tendencies also give him a certain charm that also attracts a lot of the female students’ attention. However, as it happens, these two are completely smitten with each other. When they end up confessing their feelings there really isn’t anything or anyone able to break them apart. It’s like they’re meant to be together, soulmates, whatever you wish to call it.
Yae lives with her mother Noguchi Kihako (played by Koizumi Kyoko). Her parents got divorced after Yae’s father chose to live with his second family. Kihako doesn’t have a high educational background, she always did factory work and worked herself to the bone to fend for her and her daughter. The fact that she has such an outstandingly smart and beautiful daughter is her big pride, and she really does everything she can to make sure Yae is happy. When her daughter starts dating Harumichi, she doesn’t forbid it, but she still is kind of cautious of his possible influence on her. Harumichi comes from a big and lively family, he grew up with his parents, grandfather and deaf younger sister Yuu. His best friend and classmate is Kawano Bonji (played by Wakabayashi Jiei), who’s almost always hanging out at his place as well.
For the two teens, their backgrounds of course don’t matter at all. They just relish in their affection for each other and enjoy their first love without regrets. Their portrayal of such a pure and genuine first love is the foremost heartwarming thing about this show. Against the backdrop of snowy and cold Hokkaido, they don’t seem cold at all when they’re together. And of course it’s not just about physical attraction or anything like that, they really trust each other like they trust no one else. Harumichi is the only person Yae entrusts her secret dream of becoming a stewardess with, and Harumichi is always Yae’s number one supporter whatever she does, whether it’s when she participates in an English public speaking contest or when she shares her dream with him. When they plan a trip together, Harumichi ends up taking Yae to visit her father instead, as he just notices that she wants to meet him, even though that endeavor causes him to be put in a bad light towards Yae’s mother, as they ended up spending the night together without informing her that they wouldn’t make it back home the same day. After graduation, Harumichi signs up to join the Self-Defense Forces’ aviation division – he ignored it when his family suggested he join the SDF but immediately signed up after seeing how much Yae admired the airplanes crossing over Hokkaido all the time. Yae manages to get into university in Tokyo and even gets the chance to study abroad.

The scenes depicting this wonderful love story are intertwined with scenes from adult Yae (now played by Mitsushima Hikari) and adult Harumichi (now played by Satou Takeru), about 15 years later. Although they both live in Sapporo, their lives are not connected anymore. Yae works as a taxi driver and Harumichi is part of the security team for an apartment building. As we switch between past and present, we can’t help but wonder what happened to them, what made them end up with these jobs and, more importantly, without each other?
We are shown that Yae has a teenage son but isn’t together with the father anymore. She still wires money to her ex-husband, and we see that when her son comes to visit her, she’s incredibly fond of him. When her son eventually becomes a link to reconnect her with Harumichi, we see her greet him without a single shocked expression – it’s like she doesn’t know him, even though Harumichi is seemingly taken aback. In fact, we’ve seen him try to chase her before after spotting her in a taxi, seemingly recognizing her on the spot. Yet he doesn’t even clarify to her who he is. What is going on here?

Let me just talk about the characters in chronological order, starting with teen Yae and Harumichi. I loved their relationship so freaking much. Especially when we find out at the end how far Harumichi actually came, that he’d fallen for Yae way before she even learned about his existence, and how he studied so hard to get into their local school in Hokkaido purely because he wanted to meet her again. He knew from the moment he saw her that destiny was at play, and although people may find this cringy, it just made me love Harumichi all the more for his pureness. In the end, it really made think, get yourself someone who feels for you the way Harumichi feels for Yae. And it was just so adorable how, even though he was head over heels for her, he didn’t even immediately get the hint when she started giving him signs back.
I loved that part where he got to witness several love confessions to Yae as he was smoking on the school roof during lunch break, how he told her that asking for someone’s favorite food meant that they liked you, but then didn’t get it when she asked for his favorite food and only went O___O when he got home and Bonji told him how dense he was. He legit went from ‘Napolitan 8D’ to ‘WAIT A DAMN MINUTE’, haha. It was just so cute to see them cuddle in their poofy padded coats in the snow, how just looking at each other’s face tangibly made their hearts swell up.
I just loved how sincere Harumichi was, but he never ceased to maintain his quirkiness. He really made me laugh out loud multiple times with his antics and his facial expressions. When his family was like ‘Join the Self-Defense Forces’ and he went ‘Nah man’ and then a plane flew over and Yae was like ‘So cool~’ and he was like ‘!!!’ He really was all-in for Yae, and it was adorable. I think that he managed to express his love for her the most, even though Yae’s feelings were equally strong.

Harumichi’s decision to join the SDF is the first thing that makes them start drifting away from each other. He isn’t allowed to use his phone during the day, so he can only call her during a specific time in the evening, and it starts to happen more frequently that she isn’t able to pick up as she starts participating in college activities and such.
However, it comes as a blessing for both of them when Harumichi secures a break and he will come to visit her in Tokyo. As Yae has just heard about her approved application to start studying abroad in Canada, she wants to wait until they meet so she can tell him personally rather than over the phone.
But when they meet, things have definitely changed a little. I must admit I found it a little bit inconsiderate of Yae to just invite her friends to join their dinner – Harumichi literally came all that way just for her and now he couldn’t even get a moment alone with her. Not only does he not get along with the people that join them, he ends up hearing the news of Yae’s study abroad from someone else and this angers him. He says some hurtful things to Yae, and this in turn hurts Yae even more as he was the first person she wanted to share her happy news with, because he was always the most supportive person to her.
He initially runs away from her then, but then he regrets his behavior and calls her back – and this is when tragedy strikes. Honestly, when it happened, I didn’t immediately grasp what was going on. The sound that came from the other side sounded more like someone screaming to me than someone being hit by a car. I thought at first Yae may have been attacked or something. Anyways, as Harumichi runs back he finds Yae lying on the ground with a head injury – she was hit by a car by being distracted by Harumichi’s phone call (supposedly). But that’s not the worst part, and here’s where a big part of the confusion from the adult scenes was lifted – Yae, indeed, doesn’t recognize Harumichi anymore. The major lingering side effect of her car accident has caused her to lose her memories of the past couple of years. Even though she still remembers her childhood, it’s really only the past couple of high school years that she doesn’t remember, which unfortunately includes her entire encounter with Harumichi.
When Yae is discharged, her mother also actively starts keeping Harumichi out of her life, she doesn’t want Yae’s memory to be triggered in a painful way. He writes her a bunch of letters, which her mom eventually returns to him unopened when he finally finishes his aviation training and comes back to see Yae a couple of years later.
In the meantime, Yae has fallen in love with her doctor in charge at the hospital, Kosaka Yukihito (played by Mukai Osamu), and she’s already gotten pregnant with his child.
Just seeing Harumichi take in this news, and taking into account that he went on with his training, all the while thinking that if he left Yae alone for now and went back to her when he got his life in order (as her mother told him to do), she would remember him again eventually and they’d get back together, was absolutely heartbreaking. To think he went on with his life without ever stopping to think of Yae, while she had completely left him behind (involuntarily, of course) was just so cruel. Yae herself is struggling with her memory loss just as much. She can’t even remember her best friend and just gets upset when she looks at past pictures of her high school time so she eventually decides to stop trying to remember and just go on with her life. Which is fair, of course, but it’s just so sad for Harumichi. He just had to watch as his destined love was ripped apart by a single car accident.
From Yae’s behavior when they meet again as adults, we can establish that she still isn’t able to remember him. However, as soon as they meet again, there is a spark in Yae that makes her unable to forget about him. It’s like she inexplicably becomes interested in him the second they meet, and when they start texting each other a bit and meet up more frequently, she can’t help but feel like this person, this ‘Namiki-san’, is unbelievably her type.

Yae got married to Yukihito and they had their son Tsuzuru (played as a child by Iwakawa Haru). However, as in love she was with her handsome doctor husband in the beginning, Yae starts feeling like she doesn’t belong in the kind of world that he lives in. She’s now part of a very rich family and gets to live in a big house, but her husband rarely has time to spend together anymore and always dismisses whatever she wants to talk about when he comes home because ‘it can’t possibly be more important than all the work he did at the hospital that day’. Furthermore, his mother keeps looking down on Yae’s background and even lies to her acquaintances that Yae is from a really wealthy and respectable family. When she openly looks down on Yae’s mother by stating that she won’t be invited to their next party, how Kihako is too eccentric and won’t fit in because of her low social status and the fact that she likes to drink, Yae finally stands up to her, applies for a divorce, and takes Tsuzuru back to Hokkaido with her, to live in her childhood house with her mom. Even though she loves having her child with her, she has to start working the way her mother used to in order to fend for her family and this causes her to be away for work all the time. She keeps rejecting Yukihito’s suggestions to take over the main care for Tsuzuru as he’s aware of her dire situation, but in the end she can’t help accepting it as she cares about her son’s upbringing more than anything. The scene in which Yukihito and his mom come to take Tsuzuru away from her, how the child is crying for his mom and she starts running after the car, broke my heart into a thousand little pieces. I actually cried at this part.
In the present time, Yae lives by herself in Sapporo while serving as a taxi driver for the local taxi service as the only woman in her team. She gets along well with her male colleagues and doesn’t suffer from any kind of gender-based discrimination, luckily. One of her colleagues, Urabe Otaro (played by Hamada Gaku) is seemingly interested in her, and even though she’s not exactly romantically interested in him, she still gives him a fair chance and they become a bit closer throughout the series. He’s the person who first took her under his lead when she started at the taxi service, and he’s overall very kind to her. They get along well despite their respective quirky demeanors. She meets Harumichi again ‘for the first time’ when her now teenage son Tsuzuru (more about him later) incidentally introduces the two of them.

After learning about Yae’s marriage and pregnancy, Harumichi returned to the Self-Defense Forces and finished his training to become an aviator himself. He even went to serve in Iraq for a couple of years. When he comes back, he’s obliged to take some mandatory therapy sessions in case of PTSD, and he’s assigned to psychological therapist Arikawa Tsunemi (played by Kaho). Despite his initial reluctance towards opening up, he and Tsunemi hit it off pretty well and they start seeing each other after Harumichi is discharged from her sessions. Despite their apparent feelings for each other, Harumichi still doesn’t want to commit to a real relationship, or actually put a label on it, even though Tsunemi does. After meeting his family and learning about the hardships he went through with his first love, Tsunemi is initially a bit worried, but relaxes when she learns that this ‘first love’ is already married to someone else.
In present time, Harumichi and Tsunemi are engaged to be married soon, but Harumichi keeps missing appointments to meet her parents. Especially after he meets Yae again, his will to marry Tsunemi just seems to fade more and more and even though Tsunemi becomes aware of this, she keeps wanting to keep up appearances and avoid bringing up the subject.
I will say a bit more about their relationship later as well, but first I want to talk about Tsuzuru.

In present time, Tsuzuru (now played by Araki Towa) is 14 years old. Even though he officially lives with his father, he occasionally visits his mother Yae in Sapporo. As a teen, he’s a bit secluded and doesn’t express himself. We can see him act a bit distant while his mom is overly excited to see him. As it turns out, Tsuzuru is really passionate about making music, as in, producing it himself. He spends his alone time in his room with music-making software even though his father wants him to concentrate on studying and even has him tutored by esteemed private teachers. As a teen with easy access to social media, Tsuzuru has come to admire a girl named Uta (played by Yamada Aoi). She streams videos of herself dancing in random public places and Tsuzuru is mesmerized by her, both in appearance as in dancing skills. He actually starts making songs inspired by her and keeps trying to track down her location so he can meet her.
One time, he manages to track her location but misses her, only to find that she left her hairpiece behind. The building she was dancing at just happens to be the building where Harumichi works as a security guard and he arranges for Tsuzuru to meet Uta to return her hairpiece to her. After meeting her in real life, Tsuzuru completely falls in love with her. She keeps fascinating him and as she also really appreciates his music and wants to hang out with him more, he can’t believe his own situation. Besides his mom, Uta is the first person that really makes him feel good and at ease with doing what he loves, making music. He goes through an experience of heartbreak after she starts dating someone else, though, and that’s when he also throws his music ambitions aside for a while. He starts living his life the way his father wants him to, focusing purely on his studies and making his family proud. But he can’t help himself, his feelings for Uta are too strong and he keeps thinking about her. The urge to make music, accelerated by thinking of her, becomes too strong too and he eventually succumbs to it, making one final song for her and chasing after her when she’s leaving to Tel Aviv to join a dance company tour. This scene gave me some real Love Actually vibes, how he went after her at the airport and then managed to confess his love and she actually reciprocated them and he went back to his mom with that face like, ‘who the man’, haha.
I think adding Tsuzuru’s story of first love story to be entwined with the main leads’ story of first love was really clever and meaningful. It just shows that first love can happen in any generation, regardless of the changing times. Tsuzuru had music to express his feelings and they eventually got through to Uta, who couldn’t ignore his sincerity. I really liked her character too, she was really genuine, free-spirited and open-minded. Personality-wise you’d say she was the complete opposite of Tsuzuru, but maybe that’s why he admired her all the more, she was so free in what she did, she really followed her heart and he was pretty limited in doing that himself, what with his father’s family’s expectations of him. In the ‘3 years later’ time jump, he’s even made it as a professional producer at 19 years old, so we can only be glad that he decided to follow his heart.

When Yae and Harumichi meet again as adults, the flashbacks of what happened between them as teens make it abundantly clear that this doesn’t automatically mean their happy ending. Yae still doesn’t remember Harumichi, and Harumichi is engaged to Tsunemi. However, the both of them can’t help their almost instinctive attraction to each other. As soon as Yae appears back into his life, it’s like Harumichi never even lost sight of her, it immediately puts a strain on his relationship with Tsunemi. He seemed to be doing fine without her, knowing she was moving on happily with her new family, but seeing her there and then, it just put him right back where he was as a teenager with no one but Yae on his mind. If he had been trying to let go of her, then this just put an end to that. He tries to talk with Tsunemi several times but she keeps avoiding the subject, although we see very clearly from her expression that she knows exactly what he’s going to say.

I honestly felt very bad for Tsunemi. She was a really cool person, she was very confident and mature. It’s just that she fell in love with the wrong guy, the guy that wasn’t right for her. The guy who would never be able to forget his first love, and she became a victim of that. She kept trying to hold onto him while he was trying to break free. I did admire how she decided to eventually accept the rejection but never let him diminish her pride. She did break down crying after he left, of course, but she was able to face him confidently until the very end, as she was telling him to leave because she was choosing this for herself. And admittedly, fair enough. I mean, if she’d insisted on getting married, she would’ve just remained miserable for the rest of her life, being confronted every single day with the fact that she wasn’t his number one person, that there was always someone else on his mind. No one should force themselves into a marriage like that.
I also found it a very powerful decision of Harumichi to not immediately run to Yae after breaking off his engagement with Tsunemi. Even though she’d asked him out, he ended up rejecting her as well even after she told him she was in love with him. He just couldn’t bring himself to be with Yae like this. I wonder if it really had to do with the fact their shared memories still meant the most to him, and that he wouldn’t be able to endure getting her back while she still didn’t remember him. For her, it would just be starting a new relationship, but for him it would be a completely new kind of start-over, and I can understand very well how that would’ve been too painful for him.
In the end, he accepts her back without hesitation once she comes to find him after remembering him again, so that was why I felt like their shared memories were so important to him. It was like he couldn’t be with Yae as long as she didn’t remember their past together, and as soon as she did, he welcomed her back with open arms.

Before moving on to my analysis, I want to devote one final paragraph to Harumichi’s younger sister Yuu (played as a teen by Nagasawa Itsuki and as an adult by Minami). Yuu has lost her hearing in an accident that Harumichi also blames himself for (seriously, this guy blames himself for everything that’s happened to the people he cares about). Anyways, she ends up marrying Bonji (as an adult played by Nakao Akiyoshi) and they have a cute little daughter together, Airu (played by Niitsu Chise). Harumichi is a very loving uncle to Airu, and she adores him back. The siblings are still close to him, and Harumichi often hangs out with her and Airu when they come to visit. Yuu used to be against her brother dating as a teen, but after meeting Yae she completely changed her mind about her. Yae even learned sign language because she wanted to be able to talk to Yuu, and they got along very well. She is also very nice to Tsunemi when Harumichi brings her home, and doesn’t even hesitate to tell her about the ‘first love’ issue. She only has her brother’s happiness in mind, she wants him to become happy, especially after seeing what happened to him after he lost Yae. So she’s genuinely rooting for Tsunemi and wants to help her in understanding her brother better. She never becomes spiteful, she never acts like she doesn’t want her brother to end up with anyone else besides Yae or something like that, she really just tries to support him the way he supports her and Airu.
After Harumichi ends up at the hospital for injuring his back while saving Yae from falling down the stairs at the apartment he works at, Yuu meets Yae there and immediately recognizes her, but also instantly sees something’s amiss as Yae doesn’t seem to know who she is and Harumichi is trying to make her stop talking to Yae as if they are acquainted.
This is where things start happening to Yae too, because she starts using sign language automatically even though she doesn’t remember ever learning to do that.
Yuu doesn’t really get involved too much in their relationship afterwards, but I did want to give her a special mention since I really liked her character and she was so important to Harumichi.

I think I’ve covered the story’s summary more than enough with this, so I would like to talk a bit about messages and references that I liked in this show.
One of the many great things about this story was how it so intricately weaved all the characters together and how it paid such great but subtle attention to detail. It really fills in all the gaps of the main leads’ respective storylines bit by bit until they meet again as adults and eventually everything falls back into place. It kept me curious until the end, I kept wanting to know everything that had happened and most of all, I just wanted the universe to pull some strings to ensure that Yae and Harumichi could finally be together without anything or anyone ever getting in their way ever again.
So first of all, the reference to the title. It’s mentioned in the opening credits of each episode that this series was inspired by Utada Hikaru’s two songs, ‘First Love’ and ‘Hatsukoi’. While the titles mean the same thing, the two songs were released exactly 20 years apart, and this is the first link that’s made between the two parallel stories introduced in the first episode. In the teen arc, Utada has just released ‘First Love’, in the adult arc, Utada has just released ‘Hatsukoi’. Both songs are featured in the soundtrack as much as they are actually listened to by the characters in the story. As a fan of Utada’s songs as a teen, Yae listened to ‘First Love’ a lot, especially after getting together with Harumichi. In the end, I found it only more than fitting that this song was the thing that finally triggered her memory and made her remember him. I honestly thought they’d make it more of a big deal, the moment that she’d remember, but it was kept quite small and intimate. As Harumichi had moved out, Tsuzuru had been allowed to take some of this stuff as he was going throw it out anyway, and Tsuzuru chose Harumichi’s old Walkman. As Yae joins him in listening to it, she realizes it has Utada’s ‘First Love’ CD in it, and everything comes back to her. She starts crying, but it’s also like she quietly accepts the truth that is suddenly being revealed to her, that this man she developed feelings for was her first love this entire time.
I don’t understand exactly how it happened, I guess Uta took a trip to Iceland? In any case, she comes back from a trip and shows Tsuzuru a picture she took there in which Harumichi is seen walking in the background. Yae manages to track him down somehow, traveling to Iceland which is kind of familiar to their snowy backdrop in Hokkaido, maybe the snow was just meant to be there for them as well. Anyways, Yae finds him at a small airport in Iceland and reveals she remembers him and then becomes a stewardess on his plane and it’s all just very satisfying and full-circle.

I really loved how the writers made use of these nostalgic themes to link the different time periods together. Besides the Utada Hikaru songs, they really managed to create a timeline, mentioning several important cultural and political events that happened on the news, to emphasize even more the passing of time. The war in Iraq for example, how the Japanese Self-Defense Forces were made to interfere even though they were meant to just be a defense force should anything happen to Japan. The protests of people wanting to stop the SDF to get involved in that. And then the big tsunami in 2011, on the exact day 10 years after Yae and Harumichi buried their time capsule together and promised to meet back there 10 years later. The earthquake and tsunami actually made Harumichi turn around from going back there, as he realized he didn’t want to leave Tsunemi in the dark by herself. And then, they even covered the outbreak of Covid in 2020, just when Yae managed to get a 40-day leave from work to travel and find Harumichi. They used several important and actual historical events to back this story, to give it credibility and support, and I really liked that.
I also loved how incredibly humane they made every single person in the story. Seriously, the way every character was written was so realistic. I always appreciate it when this happens, when there’s this story in which everyone responds in a different way.
For example, Yae’s mother. Although I definitely resented her a little bit for pushing Harumichi away from Yae after she had the accident, I think it’s important to understand that she was doing it purely out of concern for her daughter’s wellbeing. At that point, she probably wasn’t trying to think too much of the feelings between them, but her daughter’s happiness and recovery was more important to her than Harumichi’s broken heart. She might not have had a great impression of Harumichi from the start, but she never stopped the two of them from dating and she always smiled when she saw her daughter get all giddy by herself because of her crush. I did find it a bit double sometimes, because she kept agreeing that forcing back Yae’s memories would only be painful, but she still for example encouraged her best friend to come visit, even though Yae didn’t remember her either. Maybe she thought remembering her best friend would be okay, but remembering her boyfriend wouldn’t? It probably also had to do with the fact that Kihako may have partly blamed Harumichi for what happened, as they were supposed to be together in Tokyo and it might not have happened if he hadn’t ran away from her after their fight. But still, while in the beginning I didn’t like Kihako’s decision, after finishing the series I have no doubt in my mind that everything she did was for her daughter’s goodwill. She was really supportive when Yae started falling for Yukihito, and kind of pushed her into that direction. When Yae decided to move to Sapporo by herself, her mother also says something like, ‘I’ve always wondered whether I made the right choice for you’, and I think that’s just what it was. She felt like she needed to make a choice for Yae in her state of memory loss, which memories to keep and which to let go of. At the time, she thought it would be better if she just got a stable life with Yukihito, but of course she couldn’t have known it would turn out like that. She may have also regretted sending Harumichi away when he came for Yae after finishing his training. But that’s life; we don’t know where our choices will lead us. Something may seem like a good idea one moment, but it can always go either way. So in that, I found Kihako a very well-written character as well. She may have made a wrong decision, but she came to reflect on it in time, even when it was too late to change anything. She made an estimation when her daughter wasn’t able to make her own, she put her hopes for her daughter’s future first, and that’s just something a really devoted and caring parent would do. In the end I can forgive her because Yae and Harumichi still managed to find each other, the universe still brought them together.

Also, the issue of Yae’s father. We are introduced to him once in a flashback, when Harumichi takes Yae on a trip to meet him when they were supposed to only take a one-day trip together somewhere. While Yae’s father Akihiko (played by Iura Arata) is barely in her life, she knows him mostly because he always sent her letters from places he visited. He travelled a lot and always sent her souvenirs and this is also something inspired Yae’s love for travelling and seeing the world. He chose to leave Kihako and Yae to live with another woman he’d gotten pregnant and be a father to his daughter from that family. Kihako broke off all contact with him, but of course can’t forbid Yae from reaching out to him every once in a while. When we meet Akihiko, it’s clear that he does really care about Yae. I liked the scene where he gave her that pen and told her that the words that he always used to test if a pen works was her name. When he tells her to also pick a word like that, to write something when testing a pen, she writes Harumichi’s name. I liked how her love for him was even in reading/seeing/writing his name and it was really nice how it came back when she was an adult, that she somehow got butterflies when she’d read certain characters – the characters of Namiki’s name. It was a really nice part in which Harumichi officially got acknowledged by her dad, and I think it really meant the world to Yae. You could see how conflicted she was because part of her still resented her dad for leaving their family for that other one, she still thought he did a bad thing but she still couldn’t help missing him. It was a really important moment for her character development, and it was all the more important because Harumichi was there to support her. It definitely had a big impact on her, sharing that with him. She even initiated sleeping together for the first time that night after they missed their last flight, and that was a really big step for Yae to take and I’m 110% sure that Harumichi would’ve waited until eternity if that’s what it would’ve taken for her to decide she was ready for it.
I don’t know, I just always find it so heartwarming to see young people act like this in love, so mature for their age. They were still so young but their feelings for each other were so real and serious, it wasn’t just about physical intimacy, it’s just that they could share everything together, they really were each other’s soulmate and that’s what made it so painful to think of how Yae forgot about all of that after her accident, and how it must have messed Harumichi up. This is not the kind of relationship anyone should be allowed to forget, it was really cruel what happened and how they were torn apart. It could’ve only happened through something out of anyone’s control, and that’s exactly what did it. It wasn’t anything or anyone’s fault, it really was just an accident. A life-altering accident that took a merciless toll on two lives.

And then there’s Yukihito. I just found it so interesting that in his case too, while I didn’t particularly like his character for the way he treated Yae after they got married, I still didn’t think he was a bad person. His mother just had a very strong hold on his life and the people he mingled with, and he couldn’t really do anything about her disapproval of Yae. That is, he just never said anything about it, but also didn’t stand up for Yae. He just kind of left their feud to them while he focused on work. But what I did appreciate about him was how considerate he remained of Yae’s living situation after they got divorced. As much as I encouraged her will to take Tsuzuru’s care upon herself and prove that she could provide for her child by herself without needing his family’s money, he just wanted to lighten her situation without looking down on her. I think he could also see that she had gotten miserable in their marriage but just felt like there was nothing he could personally do about it anymore. He just offered to take Tsuzuru in to help her, and he even told her that she didn’t have to keep sending him money as a contribution to Tsuzuru’s care. He also immediately agrees to her request to see Tsuzuru more often, it’s not like he wants to keep the two from meeting or something, she’s still the mother of his child. So in this way, even though I couldn’t read a lot from his character in terms of thoughts/feelings/psyche, I didn’t think he was a bad person. He did what he could as Tsuzuru’s father, but when his son finally decides to go into music and become a producer, he also doesn’t stop him. In that final ‘3 year later’ time jump, it was funny to see how he suddenly got all these female colleagues flocking to him to ask for his son’s autograph, lol. He didn’t seem particularly bothered by it.

There are so many beautiful scenes and dialogues in this show, the way it’s filmed is really beautiful and cinematic, and it really feels like every single character and scene has a purpose and meaning. Nothing feels unnecessary and everything is very neatly wrapped up when the different timelines presented in the story start coming together. I thought it was a very simple solution to have Yae’s memory ultimately triggered through Utada Hikaru’s song, because I did hear about this before, that in cases of people with dementia music it did happen that they suddenly became lucid again after hearing a specific piece of music. It was only a tiny bit anti-climactic for me, because it was really like, the solution was there in that song all along! If only she’d listened to it earlier! As obvious and simple a solution it turned out to be, I was just happy that she finally remembered. I also thought it was good that she took her time after that to process everything before she instantly started looking for Harumichi again.
That’s another thing I want to praise about this series. Even though it deals with typical dramatic tropes like memory loss, the events are never ‘overdramatized’.
Adding a little anecdote from my personal experience with acting, I personally think that when a scene or mono/dialogue is already very heavy and dramatic in itself, using very dramatic acting to act out the scene will often diminish the effect rather than strengthen it. I once did an audition with a very heavy and emotional monologue, and I also acted it out as such, with very dramatic and heavy expressions. But then I was given the enlightening feedback that in many cases, adding even more drama to a scene that’s already dramatic in itself doesn’t necessarily make it better. My point is, the way that everyone dealt with the dramatic events in this show was all the more powerful because no one got overdramatic. People tried to tackle these things by themselves, in their own quiet ways, sometimes without even talking about it. Sure, occasionally someone bursts out crying or screaming, but it never became too exaggerated and that’s how for example the quietness in which Harumichi dealt with his pain hit me even harder. I would’ve had a different view of him if he’d constantly been crying and acting miserable about what had happened to him. So that’s what I wanted to compliment, the fact that the characters all maintained such integrity, even in the face of dire situations. It just made me aware of how unnecessary it would’ve been if they had been crying and screaming the whole time, that would’ve made for a very different review, haha.

It’s time for some cast comments! Honestly I really liked the cast, the casting choices were really refreshing and well-chosen. I couldn’t believe it when I looked up the young main leads and found out they hadn’t even done that much yet! I really hope this series brings them a lot of great future acting opportunities, because they really outdid themselves here.
My biggest compliments to every single cast member for making this such a memorable watching experience for me, I really felt like clapping for a movie at the cinema when I finished it.

I’ve only seen Mitsushima Hikari before in Quartet, and I remember her because she was my favorite character there. I didn’t really know what kind of actress she was, what her usual style was, but I really liked her sincere performance as adult Yae. I loved her integer she was, but at the same time so quirky. When she fell in love with ‘Namiki-san’, it was just like how she acted when she first fell for Harumichi as a teen, and how she was completely confused and zoned out after discovering he had a girlfriend. She was really kind to everyone, from her important people to her taxi clients, and that made her a really good fit for the job. Until the end she remained so genuine and pure, she didn’t poke her nose into anyone’s business, she really just followed her instincts when it led her somewhere. She just went and texted Namiki-san when she felt like it, unafraid to ask him out for dinner, and even though it took her some time and courage, she also just set out to travel to freaking Iceland to find him. I love how she still ended up becoming a stewardess on Harumichi’s plane. It was just so satisfying finally seeing them together in the end, fulfilling all the feelings that were left between their teenage selves when they were separated. I liked her timid yet impactful acting, the subtle details in her expressions. I couldn’t help but notice that she has such a tiny face but I really like her eyes, they have a sort of depth to them? I can’t really explain it well, but anyways, I really liked seeing her in this, it’s made me like her even more! I hope I’ll be able to see more of her acting in the future!

I recently saw Satou Takeru in Koi wa Tsuzuku yo Dokomademo, and it’s funny to think that this was actually the same person. His portrayal of Harumichi seemed to come much more natural to him, and it was nice to see this side of him. I haven’t even seen that much with him, so I like to get more than one perspective about an actor. In this show he manages to show quite a wide variety to his personality, and I think he did a really good job as he didn’t lose all of the bubbliness of teenage Harumichi, but became more of a quieter, subdued version of his young self, I thought that was very realistic. You could just see he was still the same person, but that he’d grown up and went through some hardships in the process as well. It was really nice to see him act all lovey-dovey with his niece Airu, he really just became all smiles with her, that was really cute. I think we learn a lot about Harumichi in particular throughout the series, from the way he behaves when he’s a teen to when he gives that speech on his sister and best friend’s wedding. He may have initially been kind of a delinquent, but there was never anyone more pure-hearted than this guy. I really loved Harumichi’s character and Sato Takeru’s performance was very good as someone who was trying to leave the past behind him and move on, but just kept being pulled back to that irreplaceable memory of his first love. I really felt for him, for all that he went through and no one ever really acknowledging how hard it must have been for him. It was really nice to see him act with Mitsushima Hikari, and their chemistry when they were finally reunited in the end was just all I’d been hoping for the entire show. I’m very curious to what kind of other projects he will take on in the future!

The following two youngsters deserve all the praise in the world because it was mainly because of them that I was so incredibly invested in the main leads’ relationship. The foundation that they build for their adult versions couldn’t have been established better.
Yagi Rikako is only 21 years old! She was actually born in 2001, so portraying this time period must have been very interesting for her, lol. I LOVED her. Not only is she gorgeous, but the way she portrayed teenage Yae left really little to be desired. I was just rooting for her character all the way from her first appearance. I distinctly remember her first shot was her walking along a pathway practicing a stewardess-speech towards the sky. I loved that they made her so internationally-oriented, she really wanted to study English and travel the world, which I guess is uncommon for most people growing up on an island like Japan. Anyways, she had such great energy in all her scenes and her chemistry with teenage Harumichi was TO DIE FOR. Seriously, she made me envious of not having a first love experience like that myself when I was a teenager, haha. She really faced a tough situation, I can’t even start imagining what it must feel like suddenly not remembering the past couple years of your life. I thought the way she acted out Yae’s frustration with it was very realistic, and also her decision to try not to think about it too much because it just upset her. Of course she wasn’t aware that just moving on without remembering would hurt her most important person, but she really stuck to what she believed was her best option in that situation, and that was very brave of her. Trying not to linger too much on feeling sorry for the people she may not remember and focusing on how she would go on from that point herself can’t have been an easy thing to do. I really liked her here, and I hope she’ll get many more opportunities after this, she was really amazing.

Moving on to my favorite boy, Kido Taisei! Honestly, this guy warmed my heart to the max. I didn’t think I recognized him from anything before but now I see he was in the movie LDK… which I watched not too long ago but wasn’t really that memorable so I probably deleted it from my memory ^^” Anyways, I want to give him all the praise in the world for his portrayal of teen Harumichi. He was so incredibly sweet and pure, despite his troublemaking demeanor, he was really such a good guy and he didn’t deserve something so horrible to have the girl he loved so uncontrollably with all his heart taken from him like that. The look on his face when Yae’s mom told him she’d already gotten pregnant with another man’s baby in the time he was finishing his aviation training thinking ONLY of getting back to her as soon as possible… He really moved me to tears of both joy and sorrow, and ugh that SMILE. I really loved his performance to bits and I hope that he gets to do more and more from now on. I think I saw this was actually his debut role as a main character in a drama! Good for him! I also saw that there’s actually a 5 year age difference between him and Yagi Rikako, I could’ve sworn they would’ve been the same age! To be so young and already capable of portraying such mature love for someone, he really pulled my heartstrings and was the main reason I got emotional throughout the show. He was amazing, I wish him all the best with his future acting endeavors.

It was nice seeing Kaho in a drama again after such a long time! I’ve seen multiple things with her, both dramas and movies. In Otomen, Nobunaga Concerto, Love Song, Sunadokei and Umimachi Diary. I liked seeing her again, and with such a powerful role as well. I liked that this series didn’t have any kind of ‘typical’ characters. Like, in a ‘typical’ drama, Tsunemi might have been a kind of bitchy character, the second female lead who would’ve been spiteful towards Yae for coming back and taking her fiancé away from her. But I liked that they kept her so humane as well. It didn’t even occur to her to become spiteful towards Yae, even though her appearance back into Harumichi’s life may have a direct cause of his request to break off the engagement. I think she must have been very mature to consider all the aspects of the situation, including the fact that she couldn’t do anything about Harumichi’s lingering feelings for his first love, and that she also couldn’t do anything to keep him at her side, no matter how much she wanted him to choose her. The fact that she didn’t become petty but just accepted the situation as it was and became determined to choose her own happiness over a marriage in which she’d always remain miserable despite her love for Harumichi was very powerful. I couldn’t help but feel sympathy for her, she also didn’t choose to end up in this situation and she still dealt with it the best she could. I thought Kaho did very well in this role, you could see her emotions very clearly on her face. I also liked that she had that mantra about her name and she applied it to several different situations. It didn’t just mean that she’d always be there for Harumichi to light his way back to her, but it also applied to her determination and perseverance to get through dire situations. It was pretty original to have them meet as therapist and client, initially, I didn’t see that coming. And the way they got attracted to each other also happened really naturally, if I hadn’t been so dead invested in Yae and Harumichi as end game I don’t think I would’ve minded Harumichi moving on with Tsunemi, they made a good pair in their own way. I was just happy that she really wasn’t just a rebound for Harumichi either, he really grew to like her a lot at some point, but she just didn’t stand a chance against Yae. Anyways, I liked Kaho, I hadn’t expected her to be in this so it was a nice surprise to see her again.

Apparently Minami was in the movie Sakuran and she was Mizuki’s foreign friend in the Special of HanaKimi?! It’s been too long but I definitely wouldn’t have recognized her from there. That’s such a throwback! Apparently, Minami Bages is part French! I was thinking something about her face looked European, she’s really pretty! I liked the addition of a deaf character, I can’t really say why but it just added to the deepness of the story as well. Yuu’s relationship with her brother had always been good and she never blamed him for the accident she got in, but her deafness always made Harumichi feel guilty. Because of that in itself, Yuu was a major character in terms of Harumichi’s personal story, and I think it was a big development in both of their lives that she and Bonji got married. The speech that he gave was really meaningful as well, it was a very heart-wrenching but beautiful scene. I liked how she really grew out of that younger sister role and started supporting her older brother as well, and also how friendly she was in general. She and her daughter Airu made a really cute pair, I loved their mother-daughter moments, that Airu was also able to use sign language even as a child, and that she’d pull her mom out of the way when a bike came towards her and she didn’t hear it coming. Just the way everyone in the story accepted her this way and never made her feel like she was a bother or that they were ashamed of her handicap or something (it happens, you know). Despite her handicap she really turned out great, and I loved her and Bonji together as well. She performed really well, I really wanted to hug her on several occasions.

The fact that teen Bonji was one of the students from 3-nen A-gumi! I feel like I now recognize so many young actors from there, haha. I thought Bonji was really well-casted and the young and old versions looked so much alike? The resemblance was uncanny!
I see that Nakao Akiyoshi was in Watashi ga Renai Dekinai Riyuu, and I also see he got casted in the Japanese version of Itaewon Class in Seung Kwon’s role! I haven’t seen anything else with him, though. Anyways, even though Bonji didn’t appear that much, I think teen Bonji mostly appeared in the flashbacks in the beginning, he also was a very important person to Harumichi. He was like a rock, the loyal best friend who’d never leave his side. He knew all there was to know about what Harumichi went through with Yae, and even though he was rooting for him to become happy and move on from his painful memories, he was just there to support his friend all the way. That scene when he and Yuu got married and he had that rooster head hairstyle, lol! They definitely remained true to themselves until the end, haha.

So I thought I didn’t know Araki Towa from anything, but apparently he was in Shinigami-kun?! Again, too long ago, but it’s just funny to me because that series is OLD, lol. Anyways, I liked his portrayal of Tsuzuru! His story really stood on its own legs and it wasn’t just that he was the female lead’s son, he really was his own person and I respected that. Growing up the way he did, with his parents separating and his dad mainly having such high expectations of him, I get that that couldn’t have been easy and that he never felt free to show his dad what kind of music he’d been working on. The fact that he had this passion for something but didn’t feel like he was able to express it or even talk about it with other people. He really needed some peers, and he found one in Uta. The way he fell in love with her was also so natural and logical, in a way, she was literally floating when she danced and she was so free-spirited and uncomplicated. I guess he really needed to be pulled out of his shell by someone like her to finally admit to music being his calling. I liked to see how his relationship with his mother also visibly improved, he seemed kind of awkward with her in the beginning but when she started supporting him in his music-making, it really didn’t take that long for him to open up to her more. I don’t know if he even knew about his mother’s amnesia, maybe she never told him. But it was nice to see that he also supported her in getting to know Namiki-san, he even gave her a cute cardigan telling her she should start dating again, haha.
In any case, Tsuzuru was such a relatable character, he went through something so familiar, I guess everyone has felt like at least at some point in their life. The thrill of having a crush on someone for the first time, but also the heartbreak when you realize the other person doesn’t see you that way. And then again the thrill when you put in real effort to pursue them and your efforts pay off and you’re able to express yourself through the one thing that you’re best at. His story was a really endearing addition, and again gave some really good opportunities to a couple of young and talented actors!

I’m not even surprised that Yamada Aoi is a professional dancer, but I didn’t expect this to be her one and only drama acting role to date! The acting seemed to come so natural to her! But yeah, she is definitely a dancer, the way she moved wasn’t just someone playing the role of a dancer. I’m glad she got to shine so much with her dancing skills in this series, her performances were really amazing. I can imagine why Tsuzuru would get mesmerized by her! I really liked Uta-chan (I saw in some cast list her full name is actually Komori Uta, which means ‘lullaby’, that’s so cute!). She was a breath of fresh air, a bright and dazzling addition to this show’s cast. I liked how she didn’t remain as just the object of Tsuzuru’s fascination, that she really was given a chance to respond to his heartfelt confession. As she was mostly running out enjoying her carefree life, it didn’t seem like she’d be the type to want to deal with emotional and serious situations, but I’m really glad she gave Tsuzuru an honest chance. She was so charming in her own quirky, bubbly way. I really liked how much her personality stood in contrast to Tsuzuru, but in that aspect they were matched really well. I hope she can do some more acting like this in the future, she is really talented!

Apparently I recognize Hamada Gaku from Nobunaga Concerto as well, but it’s been a long time since I watched that. In any case, can we just appreciate the performance of this guy as Yae’s colleague Urabe Otaro? I just loved what they did with this guy’s character. From the start he seemed to be kind of a comic relief character, and when Yae agreed to having dinner together I was initially kind of like, ‘no way, right?’, but he ended up being such a great supporting figure to Yae. Even if they didn’t date, he really had been supporting her from the start and he wanted her to follow her heart so badly as well. That final monologue he had when they said goodbye at the train station that one time, when he reminded her of her first taxi driver days and told her to hold her head up high, that was really touching. I just loved how he made Yae realize she’d had such a supportive person in him all along, I don’t think anyone ever spoke to her like that before, with such encouragement and admiration. And I really loved him for manipulating their boss into approving Yae’s 40 days’ leave of absence. I mean come on, she was their best employee and she hadn’t asked for a single day off before and now he was going to put punishment regulations on her leave of absence request? I loved how he just went, ‘Eh, I didn’t know this was that kind of company where they don’t even allow their best employee a well-deserved break…’, that was a really nice comeback of him. He just turned out to be a much better person that I thought, so mature how he dealt with his own rejection and how he didn’t become bitter but kept rooting for Yae. I liked him.

I was surprised to see Mukai Osamu in this as well, I’ve seen him in a bunch of stuff before like Mei-chan no Shitsuji, Hotaru no Hikari 2, Nobunaga Concerto (again!), and the movies Hanamizuki and Paradise Kiss. I think he was a good fit for the role of doctor and father-figure to Tsuzuru. What redeemed him for me was really his continued support for Yae, how he just wanted her to have an easy life even if he didn’t get involved with her anymore. He kept being considerate of her living situation, even if it was just because she was the mother of his child and he felt obliged to do so. I think it showed good manners. On the other hand, I thought he really should’ve said something about his mother’s treatment of his wife, because now he just made it seem like he agreed with whatever she said to Yae. He could’ve stuck up for her more, like he fell in love with her, got married to her and had a child with her even though he knew about her background, right? He must’ve done that because he accepted her the way she was, so hearing his mother talk to Yae like that should’ve gotten some sort of reaction out of him, in my opinion. In any case, even though he appeared pretty strict to Tsuzuru when it came to his studies, it did seem like in the end he let him choose his own path, which I appreciated. All in all I thought it was nice that Mukai Osamu got casted for the role, although I like to see him as more sympathetic characters, haha.

I’ve seen Iura Arata before in Rich Man, Poor Woman, Tantei no Tantei, Unnatural and in the movies Air Doll, Hanamizuki and Kimi ni Todoke. I was surprised to see his name appear in the opening credits and I was really curious to see what role he would play, and it turned out he was Yae’s father. He only appeared one time, in the flashback where Yae and Harumichi visit him, and I liked his fashion style, haha. I also liked the duality about his character, like he seemed like a good enough person even though he hadn’t been much of a father to Yae. Was he a bad person for choosing that other family? It’s all about perspective. His current family probably thinks of him as a good person for making that choice. Anyways, he made a nice guest appearance, I liked his performance, even though it was short.

I feel like I should know Koizumi Kyoko from something but I don’t! She looks so familiar, though… Anyways, I really liked her as Yae’s mother. She seemed like kind of an eccentric lady at first, but in a good and fun way. Not the kind of mother you’d expect from Yae, though, as she was such a model student and exemplary daughter, haha. But I liked that Yae developed that kind of quirkiness her mother possessed a bit more herself as well as she got older. As I mentioned before, I didn’t think that she made the right choice in pushing Harumichi away from her daughter under the excuse of ‘triggering her memory in a hurtful way’ but didn’t think to do the same with Yae’s other close friends who were close with Harumichi as well. Maybe she did kind of use the situation to get rid of Harumichi because she wanted her daughter to end up with someone with a bit more of a social status. But I can forgive her because she was purely thinking of Yae’s wellbeing. In this situation, when it all comes to your decision on what to do and you have to make a choice for your child that won’t hurt her any more than she’s already been hurt, what would a normal parent do? I have absolutely no idea. In any case, I think it’s safe to say that Kihako also had enough time to reflect on the choices she made, and it really doesn’t make her a bad person. I liked her personality, she was much so relaxed with Yae and while she’d only applaud her daughter when she came from with A’s from school, she never pressured her into overachieving or anything like that. She was just a really warm mom who’d always be there for her daughter. She welcomed Yae back with open arms when she moved back into her childhood home with her, taking Tsuzuru along after her divorce. She really did all she could to stand by her daughter. I liked how humane her character was, Koizumi Kyoko did a really good job portraying a mother being put into a dire situation like that.

One final shoutout to Harumichi’s parents, who were played by Watanabe Makiko and Okabe Takashi. They may not have appeared that many times, but they contributed so much to the scenes of teen Harumichi in his interactions with his family. I loved how they didn’t even scold their son even after he made a mess at school for hitting someone who talked ill of Yuu’s deafness. That scene where they were called into the teacher’s office and blatantly faking their apology and the teacher was like ‘Apparently the guy he hit made fun of your daughter’ and they went ‘Oh, well in that case’, haha. I just really liked their performances, even in the background. You could see where Harumichi got his easygoing nature from, and I love how they just accepted him and all his flaws and when they scolded him it was never really serious.

So I think I’ve said what I wanted to say about the story and the characters!
As I mentioned, this drama really was straight up my alley in terms of pace, story and character building. I love a good romance story, and this show really got me hooked from the start. I put my rating on an 8 quite early on, but I wanted to add a little extra to it because the cinematography and soundtrack were also so great and I just really loved the attention to detail in the references. Heck, it even made me nostalgic of listening to Utada Hikaru songs! Utada Hikaru was still everywhere when I first started watching Japanese dramas, so it was kind of throwback for me as well. I loved the build-up in the story, how they used historical and political events to build the timeline, and the chemistry between the leads, both young and old, was really satisfying. I really enjoyed watching this, it really made me feel like I was watching a movie, it was a different experience from the usual drama series I watch, even in quality. I’m really glad I moved it up on my list, because as soon as I saw the trailer I was just like, I can’t wait too long with this!! And then I heard some other people were watching it and that just set off my impatience with it, haha. So yeah, higher rating than usual for this one! I really hope they will continue to make gems like these, it really is one of the best Japanese dramas I’ve seen in a very long time. The balance in the themes, from light to heavy, the sincerity of everyone’s performances, I want to give medals to everyone who worked on this. Even though some parts may have been a bit predictable, it didn’t take away from how well-written it was. I don’t care for any negative comments on this one, I loved it.

Next up is something entirely different which I’ve also been hyped ever since I saw the trailer. It’s not the kind of series I’d normally watch in terms of genre, but I really want to give it a chance. Thanks for reading until the end again and I’ll be back with my next review soon! Just to let you know, I’m going to be switching it up a bit more between more recent released and older ones, so stay tuned!

Bye-bee! ^^

True Beauty

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Disclaimer: this is a review, and as such it contains spoilers of the whole series. Please proceed to read at your own risk if you still plan on watching this show or if you haven’t finished it yet. You have been warned.

True Beauty
(여신강림 /  Yeoshin Gangrim)
MyDramaList rating: 6.0/10

Hi everyone! First of all I want to wish everyone a very Happy New Year! I am very curious to see what kind of things 2023 will bring. For my first review of the new year I chose this series which had been on my list since the trailer came out, because I happened to be reading the webtoon and was really curious about the drama adaptation. I ended up putting it off until I finished the webtoon (right now it’s just the final spinoffs, but the main story has ended). I moved it up on my watchlist as soon as I finished the webtoon. In hindsight, I don’t think it was actually necessary to finish the webtoon first, because this drama proved itself to be really different from the original cartoon. There were a lot of changes in characters, situations and dynamics between people, so that was interesting to see. I will say from the start that unfortunately, I didn’t like it as much as I hoped I would. I think it focussed more on trivial (needlessly) dramatic situations and comic-purpose fillers that distracted from the powerful message that the webtoon conveyed. Of course, there’s only so much you can include in a 16-episode drama series when the webtoon is almost 200 episodes.

True Beauty is a 16-episode K-Drama that focusses on the personal journey of Im Joo Kyung (played by Moon Ga Young) as she discovers her own ‘true beauty’ after being relentlessly bullied at school for being ‘ugly’. From childhood on, neighbors have commented on the fact that she alone must take after her mother (who is apparently perceived as being not so attractive), while her two siblings take after their handsome father. Despite being a really sweet and good-hearted person, Joo Kyung is often not even given the chance to prove what a nice person she is because people instantly judge her based on her appearance. When she enters high school, she starts getting severely bullied and treated like a slave by her classmates. One day, she musters up the courage to confess her feelings to a guy she likes, but her bullies record it on camera when he harshly rejects her, and they make fun of her again, even making one of Joo Kyung’s ‘friends’ participate in the bullying. Joo Kyung’s spirit is crushed badly and she becomes very insecure. Fortunately for her, it’s around this time that her family is forced to move back to their old house and she gets to transfer schools. When asking for online advice about what to do about her appearance, Joo Kyung is introduced to the one thing that will bring her solace: the world of beauty and make-up. It’s like a new world opens up for her, as she now finally discovers a way to cover up her ‘ugly’ face. She starts watching tutorials and teaches herself the basics of make-up and by the time she arrives at her new school, she finds that her newly found make-up skills make an incredible difference. Not only is she not bullied, she becomes insanely popular from the first day on because people find her so pretty. She immediately makes two friends, Kang Soo Jin (played by Park Yoo Na) and Choi Soo Ah (played by Kang Min Ah), and it’s like a dream come true to her. For the first time ever she can actually hang out with friends after school, she’s invited to karaoke parties and she’s added to chat groups. Of course, she remains anxious as she doesn’t take it for a granted. The more people start complimenting her looks, the more she feels like she’s betraying everyone. She’s scared that when her newfound friends discover her real face, they will start bullying her as well. In order to avoid that from happening, she sees no other way but to keep her natural face a secret.
Meanwhile, there’s Lee Soo Ho (played by Cha Eun Woo), the son of a famous actor who dislikes being in the spotlight and therefore keeps his relation to him a secret. He’s considered to be really handsome but also quite anti-social in class. He doesn’t have a good relationship with his father in general. Soo Ho’s mother passed away when he was quite young and he repeatedly discovered his father moving on with other women. Apart from being a famous actor, Soo Ho’s father is also the CEO (I believe?) of Move Entertainment, an entertainment agency that manages many idol trainees as well. One of Soo Ho’s best friends, Yoon Se Yeon (SF9’s Kang Chan Hee) used to be an idol at this company, but he got caught in a bullying scandal shortly after debuting and committed suicide because he couldn’t deal with the cyberbullying. This happened on the same night that Soo Ho’s father got into a scandal himself for being spotted with a much younger actress. Too distracted by this news, Soo Ho didn’t pick up what turned out to be Se Yeon’s final phone call to him and he’s been feeling guilty about it all this time. This event also didn’t exactly improve his relationship with his father, as he never did anything to stop the scandal spiralling out of control.
On the other hand, there is Han Seo Joon (played by Hwang In Yeop), who also used to be friends with Soo Ho and Se Yeon and who also used to be an idol trainee at Move Entertainment. Because of a misunderstanding, Seo Joon has always blamed Soo Ho personally for Se Yeon’s death, as he believed that Soo Ho conveyed to Se Yeon that he didn’t believe him in terms of the scandal.
Soo Ho and Seo Joon grew apart after Se Yeon’s death and are now on bad terms with each other. Seo Joon quits being an idol trainee and goes back to school, but what people don’t know is that he has simultaneously been taking care of his sickly mother in the hospital. Seo Joon has quite the intimidating exterior, he acts like a delinquent and people tend to stay away from him because of his bad temper, but he’s actually a good person. He just really changed after Se Yeon died.
Soo Ho and Seo Joon separately meet Joo Kyung for the first time before they actually meet her in school – Soo Ho pulls her back from a rooftop edge one time and Seo Joon is able to escape some hoodlums with her help.
As it happens, Soo Ho and Joo Kyung have also met before as children. There’s a bookstore in their neighborhood that rents out comic books, and Joo Kyung went there frequently as she got into horror comics. One time, a young sad Soo Ho was there after he discovered his father with another woman again, and Joo Kyung managed to cheer him up.
All in all, Soo Ho becomes attracted to Joo Kyung before he ever sees her with make-up on, and he’s the first person to point out to her that she’s beautiful the way she is. Seo Joon also eventually falls for Joo Kyung, and even though he only knows her with make-up on, he falls for her personality more than her looks, so even when he finds out about her real face, it doesn’t matter to him at all.

In summary, the main story is about Joo Kyung and how she manages to overcome her insecurity as she learns that it’s really not the outside that matters and that she shouldn’t let her spirits get crushed by other people’s opinions about her. True beauty resides within, and the right people will come to see that in due time.
In this sense, I initially expected this series to be a bit similar to My ID is Gangnam Beauty. Both series are about a young woman who is bothered by other people’s opinions regarding the way she looks, and who both decide to overcome their insecurity by changing their appearance, even though they find that this still doesn’t solve their deep-rooted insecurity. In Joo Kyung’s case, her problem is solved pretty easily with make-up. Apart from that, they’re not that similar. I’m not just talking about the specific situations that the main characters are in, but also in terms of the way in which they eventually come to terms with themselves.
I think there’s something to be said about the relativity of the premise of this story. First of all, isn’t the main reason why people use make-up that they want to look prettier and cover up bad-looking skin? So what’s the big deal? Why would you bully someone for having bad skin and then using make-up to cover it? The whole premise just seems ridiculous to me. Even more so because that’s exactly what I thought about Joo Kyung. She wasn’t ugly. She just seemed to have a bad skin condition. Truthfully, I think they exaggerated her looks in the beginning a lot. Like, what was with the caterpillar eyebrows? It was like they were trying to make a caricature of her, also with linking her fascination with horror stories to the fact that she only listened to typical hardcore music.
The way she was treated by her bullies was extra frustrating because it was just so pointlessly cruel. They really had nothing better to do and just decided to crush the spirit of a girl who was only trying to make it through high school happily without bothering anyone else. I believe that if they hadn’t started pointing out her ‘ugliness’ to her, Joo Kyung would’ve managed to stay happy and unbothered, just as she was when doing her own thing. It’s because they started confronting her with it that she became so insecure and self-conscious. She gets really traumatized, so much that even in her new school, she occasionally gets nightmares of accidentally turning up at school without make-up and being immediately ostracized by her new friends.

I will make some references to the webtoon in order to point out some major differences that the drama series made. As I mentioned before, I was less impressed with the drama than with the webtoon. In hindsight, I actually think it wouldn’t even have mattered if I had finished the webtoon before watching this. I wonder if my opinion of the series would’ve been better if I hadn’t read the webtoon at all, because now I can’t really help comparing the two.
In general lines I would say that the webtoon really digs out Joo Kyung’s long journey to self-acceptance, and it uses the theme of make-up much more prominently than the drama does. One thing I liked about the webtoon was that it was quite educational when it came to beauty and make-up. Every time Joo Kyung puts on make-up it’s depicted like an actual tutorial in itself, and it really shows her growing expertise on certain products. Her dream to become a make-up artist is explored much further in the webtoon. From quite early on she already becomes a pretty popular beauty influencer on social media and is asked to sponsor beauty products and stuff. She also gets a lot more experience in helping people out with her make-up skills. At the very end of the webtoon, she re-encounters one of her ex-bullies who also became a beauty influencer, and she’s the one that puts Joo Kyung’s old pictures online out of spite. In response to that, all Joo Kyung’s friends and all the people she’s helped before reach out to defend her, and this is what ultimately helps Joo Kyung overcome her trauma and finally gives her the courage to reveal her real face to the public.
In this shortened drama version, I found that the beauty and make-up themes remained relatively in the background compared to other (in my opinion less significant) dramatic events. I felt like the focus was much more on Joo Kyung’s anxiety of having to hide her face, her continuous confrontations with her past, and the slow buildup in her character development. It felt like it just got stuck at the point where it was one ‘comical’ situation after another in which she had to avoid having the truth about her face revealed. It kind of caused a delay in her character development in my opinion, it just felt like she wasn’t moving forward. Even in her relationship with Soo Ho, when they started misunderstanding each other, a lot of time went into a series of situations in which the misunderstanding only grew and Joo Kyung kept running away instead of talking about what was going on. This was a very annoying part of the series, especially because Joo Kyung was the one with issues and worries she didn’t communicate while Soo Ho wasn’t aware of anything that could be wrong. Whenever he wanted to talk to her to clear things up, she just went ‘I’m tired, I’m leaving’ and it was just dragged on tediously long.

One of the major changes that were made in the drama version was Soo Jin. In the webtoon, Soo Jin isn’t even a classmate or a friend of Joo Kyung’s. She’s another beauty influencer who uses Joo Kyung’s popularity to her own advantage and pretends to be her friend while she actually just wants to make her look bad. She comes back in the end with a whole backstory of an abusive relationship and after coming out with the truth about that, she finally becomes a supportive friend to Joo Kyung.
It seems that in the drama, they merged Soo Jin with Joo Kyung’s other classmate friend in the webtoon (I believe she’s called Chae Rin). Anyways, in the drama, Soo Jin is in Joo Kyung’s class and becomes close friends with her from the first day on, together with Soo Ah. She’s also childhood friends with Soo Ho, or at least she’s known him since childhood because of their rich parents’ connections. But Soo Jin is suffering from a lot of pressure. Her father hits her a lot and constantly pushes her to be the best of her class, but she’s almost always beaten by Soo Ho, and her grades actually start dropping the more stressed she gets.
Soo Jin is introduced as such a sympathetic character though, she’s the first one to discover Joo Kyung’s real face during a school trip and immediately proves that that doesn’t mean anything to her. She even starts helping Joo Kyung out in situations where she’ll be forced to reveal her face in public. From the get-go it is clear that Soo Jin is not a fake friend, she continuously stands up for Joo Kyung and we get a lot of empathy for her when her problematic home situation is revealed.
However, and I really feel like this was added purely for the sake of creating drama, a wedge is created between Soo Jin and Joo Kyung when Soo Jin suddenly starts developing a romantic interest in Soo Ho. Even when she already knows that Soo Ho and Joo Kyung are together, she uses the fact that Joo Kyung hasn’t told her yet to her advantage and confesses her feelings to her friend, causing the situation to become really awkward for Joo Kyung. Soo Jin puts Joo Kyung in a really bad position by acting like this, and her jealousy eventually reaches the point where she ‘teams up’ with Joo Kyung’s old bullies to post Joo Kyung’s old pictures online, and also the video that was taken when she was so harshly rejected by that one guy.
Honestly, I didn’t quite get this part. On the one hand, it was really predictable that Soo Jin would be made into the standard petty bitchy character at some point, but at the same time it was also unexpected because they started out establishing her as a really cool and relatable character. I just kept hoping she wouldn’t become petty because it wouldn’t fit the character she was made out to be. When they still went ahead with making her petty, it just felt unnatural to me. I didn’t believe Soo Jin had any evil intent, she even confessed to Soo Ho herself that she really liked Joo Kyung. So then why did she still let herself get swept away in her own jealousy like that? Even in the final part, after two years passed, she immediately came to Joo Kyung to apologize for her past behavior, making up for it by saying she just ‘wasn’t in her right mind’. Like, I understood where she was coming from and I mostly blame her dad for putting her in that position where she just felt like she had to be the best at something, but it still didn’t make sense that it would suffice to steal Soo Ho away from Joo Kyung. I don’t know, I found it weird. I’m glad she did turn out to be a good person in the end, but it really felt like they made her temporarily petty just to add some additional drama to Joo Kyung’s love life. Knowing her friend’s feelings only caused Joo Kyung to start acting so annoyingly evasive towards Soo Ho, who wasn’t aware of anything. Honestly, there were so many things that could’ve been resolved so easily if it weren’t for Joo Kyung making a huge deal out of everything.
On a side note, Soo Jin’s father really was a bastard. There was this one scene where she literally just walked into the room and he just hit her for no reason. Like, the poor girl really needed a break. I also hated him when they were meeting with Soo Ho’s father and he just kept talking shit about Soo Jin, his own daughter, how she was so disappointing and all that, while she was sitting right there. I’m glad Soo Ho found a way to get her away from that situation. It’s not surprising that Soo Jin felt a stronger connection to Soo Ho, as he was the only one who knew about her home situation, he was the only person who could comfort her in that respect. But it still never really felt as if she was really in love with him, and I also thought they were much better off as friends. In any case, Soo Jin’s father really sucked and I felt really bad for Soo Jin, because even her own mother didn’t actively try to stop him.

As we’re on the topic of changes that the drama made, I can’t leave out the stories of Joo Kyung’s siblings and their respective love interests. Im Hee Kyung (played by Im Se Mi), Joo Kyung’s older sister who works at Move Entertainment, may have been blessed with her father’s good looks, but she has a whole story of her own. She’s a very independent strong woman, so dependable even that she doesn’t let men take care of her. She’s the type of woman that just carries a toolbox around with her in case something needs fixing on the way. She’s quite outgoing and confident, and for some reason she falls at first sight for Joo Kyung’s homeroom teacher Han Joon Woo (played by Oh Ui Shik), even though he is the complete opposite of her, very emotional and sensitive. The relationship between them is something that doesn’t even exist in the webtoon. It’s only in one of the final spinoffs that Hee Kyung meets some random guy from her work who shares her love for camping and that’s it. They created Han Joon Woo from scratch and although their scenes did make for a lot of comical situations – they were a cute couple, undeniably – I still felt like it was one of the things that distracted from the main story’s development, especially when they got a lot of attention as a couple, and progressed even more passionately than the main couple.
I really liked Hee Kyung and Joon Woo’s characters, though. Hee Kyung was so badass when she found out how the scandal regarding Se Yeon came to be and she just went and confronted Soo Ho’s father with it without even caring about her own reputation. As she’s in charge of taking care of new groups that are about to debut, she discovers at some point that one of Se Yeon’s unpublished songs is distributed to a new debuting group without even crediting Se Yeon as the original artist, and she doesn’t stand for it. It was really cool how she stood up for Se Yeon like that and how she ends up taking care of Seo Joon as well when he agrees to resume his singing activities at Move Entertainment.
On the other hand, I really liked Joon Woo for the way he addressed his class after Joo Kyung’s old pictures got posted and everyone started ousting her. It was so great that there was at least one person who told everyone, ‘What the heck are you guys doing? You just saw how your friend and classmate has been treated in the past and you’re not even worried about her when she skips school for an entire week? What a bunch of great classmates you are.’ It was kind of sad that they needed this reprimandation to come to their senses, though, I’d hoped from certain people that they wouldn’t have hesitated to support Joo Kyung.
In the webtoon, when Joo Kyung finally decides to show Soo Ah and Chae Rin her bare face, they don’t make a big deal about it at all, they’re only like ‘why did you hide this for so long’ but never actually get angry with her. So I really hoped that at least Soo Ah would be the first one to stick with Joo Kyung as soon as it was revealed, but she initially responded just like everyone else. Admittedly, she was the first person to go back to her side, especially after discovering Soo Jin’s involvement, but I would’ve liked her to just show her loyalty from the get-go.
Talking about Soo Ah, in the drama she is part of a very lovey-dovey couple with fellow classmate Yoo Tae Hoon (played by Lee Il Joon). In the webtoon, she only gets together with her childhood friend Tae Hoon in one of the final spinoffs, and he doesn’t even appear in the main story. More than that, he’s a very timid introverted gamer, so his character is also nothing like the drama adaptation. Anyways, they were a fun couple, be it on the in-your-face-aegyo-cringy side.

Another change when it came to a character was Selena. Selena (played by Go Woo Ri) is the beauty specialist that Joo Kyung becomes a fan of. Because of her tutorials Joo Kyung learns about make-up and she eventually even starts working at Selena’s own beauty agency that manages the make-up for celebrities. Even when meeting her in real life, Selena is really strict towards Joo Kyung, she’s not favorable towards at all, and she’s basically just her mentor and someone Joo Kyung strives to be like.
In the webtoon, Selena is actually Soo Ho’s older sister, who is closely involved with everything concerning his father. She goes with Soo Ho when he has to go to the States and everything. She’s much more involved in Joo Kyung and Soo Ho’s relationship and becomes an actual sister-figure to Joo Kyung. So that was also an interesting change, how they actually kept her character seperate from the main story.

Let me just go back to Joo Kyung’s siblings. Besides Hee Kyung, there’s also her younger brother Im Joo Young (played by Kim Min Ki). He wasn’t that different from the webtoon in that he was the annoying little brother, but he definitely gets a bigger role, especially when he falls for Seo Joon’s younger sister Han Go Woon (played by Yeo Joo Ha). The funny thing is that Go Woon isn’t that different from Joo Kyung when it comes to natural looks, she’s even in a similar position where she gets bullied for her looks by her classmates. Joo Kyung sees this happen one time and immediately reaches out to Go Woon. Go Woon, just like her brother, has great singing skills, so when she gets the solo part of her choir recital, she asks Joo Kyung for help with her make-up and Joo Young falls for her on the spot when he sees/hears her perform. He keeps following her around, even when she makes it repeatedly clear that she’s not into him. It was kind of funny that, even after teasing his own sister for her looks so much, he ends up falling for a very similar looking girl, haha. I thought that was kind of a nice twist. The little brother was pretty funny.

Let me talk a bit about Joo Kyung’s parents now that I’m on the topic of her family.
Joo Kyung’s mother Hong Hyun Sook (played by Jang Hye Jin) is quite the aggressive type. She is very hard-skinned, having to deal with comments regarding her handsome husband, but she never seemed to have acknowledged the fact that people made a deal about her being not as attractive. She is the typical ‘tough love’ kind of mom who doesn’t cut her children any slack until she realizes they’re really struggling with something. She’s really hard on Joo Kyung as her grades aren’t that good and she feels like her daughter is just ‘wasting her time on that make-up stuff’. She even throws away Joo Kyung’s make-up products several times in order to punish her. The only time she changes is when she finds out how much Joo Kyung has been bullied, and then she’s suddenly the most caring mother ever. One thing that I did think was weird though, was that, the day after she found out about her daughter’s bullying, even after comforting her so warmly, the first thing she did was to bring Joo Kyung to a plastic surgery councellation. That really made me go, excuse me? Like, is that the way you want to deal with her issues? Instead of making her see that other people’s opinions of her don’t matter, instead of properly comforting her, now you’re just basically confirming her insecurites and have her get plastic surgery, as if that’s going to make her problems go away? That was kind of an unexpected decision, like, you really want her to stop using make-up that badly? But I’m glad they ended up walking out of there after realizing that Joo Kyung might as well just keep using make-up, because that’s more than enough to make her look better. After that she finally approves of Joo Kyung’s dream to become a make-up artist as well.
The father was something else. Im Jae Pil (played by Park Ho San) was popular in the neighborhood for being such a handsome and generous man, but in the meantime he was unemployed because he got scammed out of all his money. He’s trying to track down the guy who scammed him, but in the meantime he tries to find something to sell to earn some money, although it never really works out. I found the father’ character’s storyline another example of something that mainly distracted needlessly from the main story. He was a funny character, admittedly, but I honestly wasn’t that interested in what he was up to.
In general, Joo Kyung’s parents and family as a whole got a lot more individual attention in the drama then they did in the webtoon, and I didn’t necessarily find that it contributed that much to the story. I would’ve preferred seeing more development in Joo Kyung’s personal journey rather than seeing a whole scene in which her father chases some guy down the street and consequently getting into trouble for spending too much money on a cab.

I feel like I’m having a bit of a hard time constructing my arguments, because I have to admit I didn’t expect the drama to be so different from the webtoon. I just hope I’m getting my points across properly. What I mean to say is that if it had been up to me, out of all the events that happen in the webtoon, the drama could have made a better selection on which scenes/chapters to add to to the series. They could’ve chosen to give Joo Kyung a couple more opportunities to improve her make-up skills and use those skills to help others. Scenes that would’ve made a bigger contribution to Joo Kyung’s character development and the reason she ultimately felt confident enough to come out to her friends about her natural face rather than being forced out by a leaked video. Instead they brought way too many minor storylines into play and made them bigger and more important than they needed to be.
There was too much focus on the fact that Joo Kyung couldn’t escape her past of being bullied, because the bullies kept coming back. Hye Min, the girl who used to be Joo Kyung’s ‘friend’ but who was used by the bullies to take advantage of her, also transfers to Joo Kyung’s school (I believe) in the webtoon, but after becoming her friend there she starts becoming obsessed with Joo Kyung and starts copying her in everything, resulting in her becoming Soo Ho’s stalker, she actually starts believing she is Joo Kyung, like it turns into a pretty disturbing thing. To not keep something like that in but create completely new scenarios of characters that aren’t even in the webtoon for example, turning it more into a filler arc than an actual meaningful one that tests Joo Kyung’s confidence and ability to stand up for herself, that’s basically what bothered me the most.
The whole car accident that Soo Ho and Seo Joon get involved in after finding out about Soo Ho’s father’s presumed involvement in Se Yeon’s scandal, doesn’t happen in the webtoon either, and I really felt like they only put them in the same hospital room together to create an occasion in which they could finally make up. I wasn’t interested in how the comic book store owner was preparing for a blind date, or how Joo Kyung’s father was trying to sell scented candles to old ladies in the neighborhood, or how one of the other teachers suddenly started poking her nose into Joon Woo’s relationship with Hee Kyung. A lot of events were really dragged out while they didn’t need to be, and they exaggerated some situations to the extent that they became really unrealistic. Honestly, when they both smashed into that car window and Seo Joon just fell to the ground while Soo Ho kept dramatically flying through the air with a single tear seaping from the corner of his eye, like I just couldn’t take it seriously.
Situations that in the webtoon only took up a short time because they were only supporting tools to help Joo Kyung get over her insecurity, took up most of the space in the drama, rather than focussing on how Joo Kyung developed herself along with her make-up skills. It just felt like in the end she didn’t undergo a really big character development. It seemed like she just decided one day that she wouldn’t put up with people talking behind her back anymore, and that’s when she started talking back to them. I did think it was really brave of her to just show up at school again with no make-up, that was a bold move and I was glad that everyone respected that move.
But all in all, the buildup was just unclear to me, especially when they still went ahead with Soo Ho going to the States and then having to wrap up everything in just the final two episodes. Soo Ho going to the States is only the end of the first part in the webtoon, because in the webtoon he actually doesn’t come back for a very long time and Joo Kyung actually ends up dating Seo Joon for a pretty long time. She is the one that inspires him to pick up music as a career again, and then they are painfully forced to break up when he becomes a trainee again and is discouraged to date because it will distract him from his career prospects. It isn’t until after they break up and both have to get over their heartache that Soo Ho comes back and finds his way back into Joo Kyung’s heart. She actually gets over Soo Ho initially, when he doesn’t come back. I get that they couldn’t fit all that into the series, but that’s why I was surprised that they still added in the part where Soo Ho left. It was so close to the end of the series and I didn’t know how things were going to be wrapped up within the two remaining episodes. I didn’t expect they would’ve included it at all since originally it’s the bridge to the second main part of the story – Joo Kyung and Seo Joon – and it was clear that they weren’t going to include that relationship in the drama.

I just felt very bad about Seo Joon because in the drama, they really just made him the typical second male lead that didn’t stand a chance from the start. Joo Kyung never once develops feelings for him, and he’s just left by himself. This hit especially hard since he was my favorite character in the webtoon, and his relationship with Joo Kyung in the webtoon goes so much deeper than in the drama – the drama doesn’t even scratch the surface of the significance that Seo Joon holds in Joo Kyung’s life in the webtoon. So that was a bit of a bummer. I actually shipped Joo Kyung with Seo Joon the most in the webtoon, and I was really curious what he would be like in the drama. I actually expected there to be a little bit of chemistry between Joo Kyung and Seo Joon, like, that she would be swayed by him at least temporarily to indicate a tiny bit of the bond they develop in the webtoon, but there was none of that. It was just really painful to watch Seo Joon make that final attempt of asking her for three dates when he just knew his chance was gone forever when Soo Ho came back. I felt for him a lot.

I think I’m just going to get on with my cast comments, having mentioned most of my remarks about the series itself. I will definitely go over it again later to make sure the construction makes sense, but for now I kind of just jotted down my thoughts.

The thing I like most about Moon Ga Young is her duality when it comes to portraying different types of people. She can really go two different ways, timid and insecure like in EXO Next Door, or the typical pretty but snooty princess-type like in Jealousy Incarnate and The Great Seducer. Honestly, the difference between her character in TGS and True Beauty is hilarious because she’s a completely different person. So I like her versatility. I was really curious to see her portrayal of Joo Kyung, and I have to say she reminded me a lot of Switch Girl, a Japanese drama with basically the same kind of concept. I do feel like she added some elements which she could’ve done without, such as the animated high voice, like she could’ve portrayed Joo Kyung with a bit more sincerity rather than making a caricature out of her. I was really curious to see how they would create the transformation of Joo Kyung on Moon Ga Young, who seems to just be naturally gorgeous, so I felt kind of an anticlimax when they went as far as to give her those caterpillar eyebrows in an attempt to make her look ‘ugly’. Like, it just made it a bit less realistic or something.
So yeah, this is definitely not my favorite drama of hers, but I think she can do much better, I’ve seen her do better, so I will not give up on her.

One reason why I couldn’t help but expect something similar to My ID is Gangnam Beauty, was because Cha Eun Woo played the male lead. His character here just seemed so similar to his character in My ID, the only guy that sees through the FL’s ‘mask’ and sees her ‘true beauty’ from the start. I do like that he wasn’t the exact same person, though. Soo Ho definitely had more emotion and expressed his feelings way better. I liked how straightforward he was, and when Joo Kyung started acting evasive, he just kept following her around until she finally talked to him, because he didn’t want there to be any misunderstandings between them. I’ve seen him more recently in Rookie Historian Goo Hae Ryung, and I have to admit that, again, I saw a different side of his acting in True Beauty. He was really cute when he got drunk, lol. The way he started singing that aegyo love song to her while half-asleep was adorable. He really acted out Soo Ho’s love for Joo Kyung very well.

I’ve only seen Hwang In Yeop before recently in The Sound of Magic, but I remember him becoming a big new hype because of his role as Seo Joon, so I was really curious to his performance. I really liked him. I may have been a little biased by my love for Seo Joon in the webtoon, but I definitely saw Hwang In Yeop’s charm in his performance of him. I just felt really bad for him, lol. I would’ve liked to see him get at least one chance with Joo Kyung, or at least an indication that they became as close as they get in the webtoon, but even at the end of the drama, it still felt like Joo Kyung didn’t feel a 100% comfortable around him, knowing that he had feelings for her, and that was too bad. Seo Joon is such a sweetheart, he really loved Joo Kyung so much but never got the chance to express it. I also didn’t like the fact that he was confronted with Joo Kyung’s natural face so indirectly, by being shown the video by a friend. He actually already found out before that, when Joo Kyung came to visit Soo Ho in the hospital without wearing make-up and they tried to hide it from him. In the webtoon, she finally ends up showing him when they’re dating and it just makes sense because it’s such a personal thing for her to reveal to him as a sign that she really trusts him. So in the drama he doesn’t even get a chance to personally address the issue, and that was kind of a pity. I really liked him here, he was possibly still my favorite character, even though the whole adaptation in itself didn’t really sit right with me.

I only remember Park Yoo Na from My ID is Gangnam Beauty, and I really liked her character there. I just can’t really picture her as a bad person because she just comes across as so cool and mature. I initially liked what they did with Soo Jin’s character, because I really thought she was going to be the classic bitch character, but then she was so cool. Until they still made her petty. I don’t know, I can’t help but feel that it wasn’t natural to have her make that decision, even when she was bitter about not being able to meet her father’s expectations, it just felt wrong to go about it that way. I liked how she kept standing up for Joo Kyung, even after everything that happened. I hope to see a new side of her acting one day, because I generally like her whenever she appears in a drama. She was also in Sassy Go Go, The Package and Hotel Del Luna, but I would like to see her in more!

I really liked seeing Jang Hye Jin in this. I immediately recognized her as the eccentric North Korean mother from Crash Landing on You and it was funny seeing her as another eccentric mother character, be it in a different way. Because of her initial lack of compassion I found it a bit hard to warm up to her, because she always found something to nag about. I initially didn’t know that she wasn’t even slightly aware of her daughter’s bullying, I thought she knew about it but maybe didn’t know it was that severe? But anyways, the one moment where I really saw her as a mother was when she saw that video of Joo Kyung being humiliated. Right then, she really was a mother witnessing her child going through something horrible and I’m glad she changed her mindset after that. I guess I will see more of her acting in the future, I’m really curious to see more sides of her acting.

I’ve only seen Park Ho San before in My Mister, but it’s been a while so I don’t remember a lot from his performance there. Anyways, as I’ve mentioned I think he was one of the characters that occasionally got more screentime than necessary. In my opinion, no matter how interesting and funny his character was, he could’ve remained more in the background. Not to say anything bad about the actor per se, but I just didn’t think the character was that significant in terms of Joo Kyung’s story, besides being her dad. I don’t really know what to say about him other than he was occasionally funny, although I sometimes also couldn’t quite make out what his thoughts were. The scene where he was stuck in Soo Ho’s house and interrupted him as soon as he saw him kissing Joo Kyung reminded me of that scene in Parasite where they’re hiding under the couch while the lord and lady of the house start getting it on, lol. I did like that he was such a sensitive dad when it came to his daughters spreading their wings, like how emotional he got when Hee Kyung got married.

I’ve seen Im Se Mi in several things before, like Heartstrings, Shopping King Louie and About Time. I really liked her character here, I think Hee Kyung may have been one of my favorite characters because she was so badass. She was so different from the typical female drama character, and I loved her dynamic with the homeroom teacher. It was a really refreshing relationship the two of them had, so I didn’t mind that change in the adaptation. I actually liked that she got a bit more screentime, the only thing was that at some point, there was more romantic progress between her and Joon Woo than there was between Joo Kyung and Soo Ho, so their relationship kind of seemed to take over from the leads’ in a way, haha. I actually found myself thinking multiple times how much more interesting the Hee Kyung X Joon Woo couple was compared to the main couple. They may have given it a bit too much attention in that sense. But yeah, I really liked Im Se Mi as Hee Kyung, she was one of the few characters that remained mostly the same to her webtoon counterpart. I’m curious to see more from her!

I thought Kim Min Ki might also be an idol or something, I thought I recognized him from somewhere, but I don’t see anything I’ve seen him in. Same as with Hee Kyung, I liked that they gave Joo Young a bit more story, but at some point his love story with Go Woon also started living a life of its own that I didn’t really find necessary to explore too much. I mean, it was cute enough, I’ll admit that, but yeah, there were too many side storylines that were distracting from the main story, and his was one of them, unfortunately. I did like his performance though, he initially seemed to be so much ‘cooler’ than Joo Kyung but he definitely was her little brother alright. He became a real troll at some point. I couldn’t help but laugh out loud when someone randomly mentioned ‘a piece of trash’ and he would just pop up, ‘did someone call me? :D’ haha, he was really weird and funny.

I realize I haven’t mentioned much about Soo Ho’s father in person yet, but I think it’s important to mention that he really was a good person after all. It turns out that he never knew anything about what happened with Se Yeon, as it wasn’t his job to keep a close eye on the rookies. It turns out that someone else from the company published Se Yeon’s bullying scandalin order to cover up Soo Ho’s father’s scandal of dating that younger actress, but he was never aware of that, just like he wasn’t aware that they were planning on giving that debut song to a different group without even crediting Se Yeon for it. He really wanted to become closer with Soo Ho again, and I did feel bad for him when he got that heart attack. He was really looking forward to spending time with his son, he’d already searched for good places to eat together and stuff. He was a good person, so I’m glad Soo Ho made up with him again in the end. As for the actor that played him, Jung Joon Ho, I haven’t seen him in anything before, but I probably will. He looks familiar though, maybe I’ve seen him somewhere but not in a major role, anyway. It was a nice twist that he wasn’t a typical jerk dad, but that he actually had no control over what had happened. In that sense, Soo Ho also had to change his prejudice about him, just like Seo Joon had to change his prejudice about Soo Ho.

I really liked what they did with Go Woon’s character. She also didn’t change much from the webtoon version, except the fact that Joo Young fell for her and she actually got an admirer of her own. Apparently Yeo Joo Ha also appeared in Itaewon Class and Love Alarm S2, but I don’t recognize her from there. I really hope that was her own singing during that recital, because she has an incredible voice! I liked how strong she was, she had less difficulty standing up to her bullies than Joo Kyung, and I really liked how she just had this natural confidence about her, despite her looks. I liked her performance!

Oh, how I love Oh Ui Shik. He always makes me smile and he is always such a welcome addition to any cast. Even though his character was created anew for the drama adaptation, I’m glad it was performed by him. As I mentioned also in Im Se Mi’s bit, even though I loved his character, sometimes I felt like he stole the spotlight just a little too much, haha. For example when the whole drama happened with Joo Kyung’s pictures and video being leaked and he was just worrying that Joo Kyung was skipping school because she wasn’t okay about him dating her sister… that was a moment where I really felt like, why are they using this to distract us from the issue at hand? That was a major event for Joo Kyung’s character development, and adding something funny to it kind of diminished the effect for me. But I have nothing bad to say about his performance. I really liked his chemistry with Im Se Mi, they got more passionate kissing scenes than the main couple, haha.

I guess I recognize Kang Min Ah from Sassy Go Go, but I don’t remember a lot of people from there. In any case, she looked familiar. I think she was also kept mainly the same as her webtoon counterpart, also in terms of looks. It was a funny addition to make her a couple with Tae Hoon, at least it gave her more to do in class than only hang around Joo Kyung. I just mean to say, it just gave her the chance to be her own person with her own life, without purely existing as Joo Kyung’s supporting friend. It can’t have been easy for her either, because she is kept out of Joo Kyung’s secret most of all, even after Soo Jin, Soo Ho and Seo Joon have all found out about Joo Kyung’s real face. So I get that she may have been a little indignant about that, but I was glad that it didn’t last long. She still remained a loyal friend to Joo Kyung. She had a nice energy about her, she was a nice presence to have in the drama, and very positive. She also immediately accepted Hye Min as a friend when she transferred to their school.

I really wished I would’ve already seen Extraordinary You, because there was a reference/cameo appearance of two characters from that series at some point and I wasn’t able to understand it. I just saw a lot of enthusiastic comments under the episode about it, haha. But it’s coming up on my to watch list, so it won’t be too long before I’ll be able to understand the reference (hopefully).
(Edit 280823: I finished watching Extraordinary You and revisited the cameos in True Beauty to gain a new understanding of them. You can find my updated reference to the cameos in my EOY review here.)

So yeah, it may not have been a very lengthy or detailed review, but that’s kind of how I felt about this series. It is what it is. I’d hoped more of it, as I was really curious how they would adapt the webtoon into 16 episodes. I didn’t expect them to leave out so many important parts and replace them with a lot of irrelevant side stories. I just didn’t really feel it, unfortunately. Even though there wasn’t a problem with the acting per se, I just didn’t get why they chose to change certain things, or why they chose to add certain things that weren’t in the webtoon. I assure you that there is A LOT happening in the webtoon, about 200 episodes worth of stuff, and in the webtoon nothing felt irrelevant because it was all really meaningful to Joo Kyung’s growth and it all came back to help her in the end as well. Like the part where she helps a woman with burn scars on her face with her make-up so she can still make a grand appearance at her daughter’s wedding. There are so many situations in the webtoon that push Joo Kyung to learn things the hard way and become better at standing up for herself, even with Soo Ho and Seo Joon loyally at her side. I feel like this series let a lot of good opportunities slip to have the same effect. Now the story was as much about Joo Kyung as it was about Hee Kyung and several other people, there was a distribution of storylines instead of focussing on just Joo Kyung’s story, which was the most important one. I wish there could’ve been a more gradual change, in which you could really see her grow and develop.
Again, I understand that an adaptation is always risky because you can never put in everything, but still, I was hoping for more.
I felt like there was too much distraction from the powerful message that Joo Kyung needed to learn, the message about her own true beauty, and that it lay in her kindness, her good heart and her ability to see the good in people even after they’d hurt her. It was so typical of her to forgive Soo Jin just like that, and even Hye Min. The progress she makes in recognizing her own worth was much more clear in the webtoon, while in the drama I didn’t feel that much difference throughout the story.
Still, I’m glad I gave it a chance, but I’m also glad I can now move on to some other (more recent) things that I’ve really been looking forward to, and of which I also have some expectations. All in all, I think it’s actually better to watch True Beauty before or without reading the webtoon altogether. It may have been a bad decision of me to first read the webtoon, because that way I already formed certain opinions and expectations in my head, which weren’t met by the drama adaptation. I really don’t want to say that the drama adaptation is bad, so I’ll just keep it at that I like the webtoon better.

[Edit 170723: I just learned that there will actually be a second season of True Beauty, which will hopefully give more development into the story of Joo Kyung’s growth, and when it’s released and I’ve written my review, you can find it here.]

I will be back soon with a new review, and I’ll also keep adding some more Japanese and Chinese dramas to the mix, so stay tuned!

Bye-bee!

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